I love watching her delicate hands as they fumble to open my belt buckle. You can bet I never go without one when I am with her. During those few moments just before she opens my pants, I can hardly breathe. It is like that every time. She looks up towards me, her eyes are warm and giving. They tell me everything that I need to know. I feel love in her eyes. Yet, in this moment she seems so fragile, as if she needs my approval before she begins her rapture on me. It is that way this night, and each night I have the privilege of her attention.
p.s. conversation prompted the fire I'm out on a limb; x-rated in an alternate universe.
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«Oldest ‹Older 601 – 800 of 1956 Newer› Newest»Yep DG, it's necessary that you keep trying. I almost completely gave up on a 12 year friendship. I knew that I would have to start all over again, but it wouldn't ever be the same. You have to keep working at it. Finally, they will see how much they mean to you and how much that you mean to them. It make take a whole lot longer than you intend, but one day, it will happen. It did for me, and I thank the heavens everyday that my friend is still in my life.
miss t,
aren't we all ?
in one way or another,
by friends,family,colleagues and lovers,
some more than others,
welcome to life.
m.
I'm doing good. Miss T was having a conversation with herself. I am still reeling with laughter from it :)
Who is the anon at 4.10? He/she sounds pretty angry
miss t,
P.S Talk to yourself everyday - at least you know someone sane is listening.
m.
well m I shall say "never a truer word spoken".
So it is true, we have to make the best with what we have.
That's good BC.
Haha,MissT.
And mia, I'm really sorry for your loss. *hugz*
Thanks m.
And funnily enough,I'm the only one who can get any sense out of me.
Thanks Mustard!
It's not a friend, it's my dad!
So yeah, I will fight it right to the end.... but I fear we are at the point where that is not too far away!
Anyway......let's pull it....what have you guys been uo to?
m.: Sanity is highly over-rated, didn't you know?
DG:
That's definitely much worse.
Anyway, change of subject.
Been up to giving advice I'm probably not in postition to give. And doing some extensive research on Coldplay. Anyone want to help me out with something?
I can help mustard,or try.
So m, are you feeling deceived by others.
Do you converse with yourself to find the answers?
Do you find the responses acceptable or do they leave you with more questions?
BC
I aim to stay as long as I am welcome,
or until......
love
m.
m, you are welcome to stay as long as you like. If you noticed, a few of us enjoys having you around.
Mia, keep well.
DG, hang in there.
As for me, it is the school hols , I have a week of work and my daughter is away all week so I can PLAY!!
I've got a painting I need to do and a day booked at a spa but other than that...
You are always welcome here m.
I mean a week OFF work.
Sorry, don't know anything about Coldplay, can't stand them.
Yes,BC is right m.
Entropy:
Thanks. It isn't hard. Do you have any Coldplay cd cases with the liner notes in them, ya know, the little booklet thingy?
If you do, will you look to see who the Publisher on it is? I need whatever comes before this: (BMI). It'll be some name with the letters BMI in parentheses.
I'll be back later to see. If you don't have any, don't worry about it. No biggy. But thanks for offering either way. :)
I like having you here too, m.
Life is one big deception, don't ya think!
Thanks anyway GS!
BC,
Flattery gets you everywhere
Miss t,
we should look to ourselves for answers - because that is where they truly lie.
love
m.
Mustard,I don't have any CDs from them,I'm sorry.
Are you finding the answers you seek m? Or are you still looking?
I suppose we never really stop looking do we?
Yes, we should look to ourselves for the answers but then you wouldn't have the pleasure of all this company, would you m :)
m, I'm loving how you send your messages with love.
Take it as granted that mine come back to you the same way.
What if you look and find you don't have the answers?
m, do *you* happen to enjoy flattery? I did mean what I said about you being welcomed here :)
Hello everyone
so sorry for your loss Mia
alas that is how life goes, take each day as precious
hello m. nice to see you're back
Hi there ergoproxy. Good to see you again :)
Hey you guys, what happened to the kickball game?
My computer is playing silly buggers tonight, I appear to have the gremlins in.
Hey ergo,how are you?
Well, if we're playing kickball, I will be the watergirl. I am not athletically inclined AT ALL.
I believe that answers lying within ourselves is too simple,the answers may lie elsewhere, but the wisdom to decipher them is what lies within.
And if you don't truly recognise your own voice you can never really listen.
That is why people repeat the same poor decisions,they cannot hear their own true voice amidst the myriad of sounds within themselves
Kickball game called on account of no players. :(
I guess I'll go, too.
Aaaand I'm back! How is everyone this evening?
apart from waxing philosophical , I am very well thank you !
shame there is no kickball, but the weather here isn'tgood for outdoor games
gnothi seauton said...
I've got a painting I need to do and a day booked at a spa but other than that...
October 19, 2007 6:01 PM
Story of my life. Paintings to be done, days at the spa to have... too bad the paintings are always there and the spa isn't :(
BC and SM, Sorry, I hear cupcakes and get a wee bit... well.
I'm completely surprised to find someone else from AB on here, planet isn't as big as you'd think!
-Amyranth
Hi, magicpie! I'm groovy. How about you?
Hi ergoproxy, sometimes the voice within needs to shout a little louder to be heard.
I'm doing well. Glad to be finished work for the week :)
Sis M, I have been thinking on your suggestion.
I may have a description for you soon, the words are coming to me
(from my blog)
Amyranth,
Not as posh as it sounds. My sister won two places at her work raffle, we weren't even sure if we wanted to go because we're both rock girlies but we thought what the hey.
So what are you painting at the moment?
Ergoproxy, I think you may be right!
"Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; the courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference"
apparently this is frank with lin-z....
http://buzznet-38.vo.llnwd.net/assets/users16/jillanne84/default/gerardway--large-msg-119283362484.jpg
That looks shopped.
That looks totally photoshopped. Plus, the name across it, I never trust anyone who combines her first name with a band member's last name.
Although
Starway sounds cool!
Hi there magic pie. So the kickball game is canceled? :( That sucks. Amyranth, that's okay. Usually myself and someone else takes care of the cupcakes :)
That looks very photoshopped.
It doesn't even look like frank.
It's cancelled? But why??? :(
If you ever need medical assistance for the kickball games I'm a qualified first aider.
thank you,
ive enjoyed you're company,
see you again,
maybe ?
love
m.
P.S. The only thing worse in the world than being talked about is not being talked about.
Have a good night, m!
dei gratia -exactly
it is shopped, and not even well!
bye m
Bye for now m.
I hope we do see you again. I think you know that you are talked about. I hope that is to your approval, i'm guessing it is.
love
OMG this isn't even porn. This is just really bad Barbra Cartland writing.
This is porn.
"Gerard grinned, and Bert pulled him to him, crushing Gerard’s lips with his own, stealing his breath and igniting a fire inside of him. Gerard gripped Bert’s hips in his hands, pushing him back against the row of washing machines, leaning his own hips into him.
Even though Gerard could feel Bert hardening against the inside of his thigh, he also felt him tense up a little.
“ Gerard, we’re friends...” Bert tried to say, breaking the kiss for a moment. Gerard kissed the inside of Bert’s naked neck.
“ This doesn’t change things Bert....It‘s just sex....and besides...” Gerard slipped his hands down, cupping Bert through the thin material of the sweatshirt round his waist, the only barrier between them. Bert was already aroused, half hard through the material of the sweatshirt. “....Just look, at the things I can do to you...” Gerard whispered hotly in Bert’s ear, nipping at it gently. Bert let out a groan, moving his hips against Gerard’s, an open invitation. Gerard’s hands went behind Bert’s back to undo the tied arms of the sweatshirt as it easily dropped to the floor, leaving Bert exposed and naked in front of him.
Gerard stripped off his T-shirt, Bert pulling at it frantically, trying to get it over Gerard’s head. It fell to the floor as Bert ran his hands over Gerard’s chest, letting them rest on the hips of his pants, slipping around to the front to unzip them, forcing them down, along with his boxers. Gerard pushed Bert back against the line of washing machines, his hands wandering over his hips, and down his side. Bert shivered a little, half due to being naked, the other part of it being that it was mid-winter.
Gerard reached down, gripping Bert’s shaft lightly in his hand.
“ Please...” Bert’s breath came out in a pant, his head leaned back slightly.
“ Please what?” Gerard cocked a brow, strengthening the grip he had on Bert’s cock. Bert moaned.
“ Please, don’t stop touching me” Bert said heatedly.
“ Couldn’t stop me if you tried” Gerard answered. He moved his hand back and forth slowly, fisting Bert as his lips covered his, tongue at the corners of his mouth. Bert got the idea and granted him entry into his mouth, Gerard's tongue pushing past the barrier of Bert’s lips and into the wet recess of his mouth. Gerard tangled his tongue in his, loving his taste as he continued his torture on Bert’s cock.
Gerard trailed kisses down Bert’s jaw line, nipping and biting gently, knowing from the little sounds that he was making that it drove him crazy. He kissed the divot of his neck and shoulder, biting down roughly. Bert cried out when he broke the skin, and Gerard licked away the small drops of blood, the irony taste strong in his mouth.
Gerard kissed his way down Bert’s chest, flicking his tongue over Bert’s nipples, sucking lightly. Bert arched into him, as Gerard kissed lower, dropping onto his knees in front of him.
“ You don’t know...” Bert whispered, threading his fingers through Gerard’s hair roughly.
Gerard looked up at him. “ Know what?” He asked, kissing the inside of Bert’s thigh.
“ You don’t know, what the sight of you on your knees for me does to me” He answered......."
I'm heading off to bed. My computer is being very strange and it's in danger of becoming airborne.
TTFN
Goodnight M!
Goodnight, gnothi!
OOH m, quoting Oscar Wilde. You dandy ,you.
TTFN (maybe)
gnothi seauton said...
Amyranth,
Not as posh as it sounds. My sister won two places at her work raffle, we weren't even sure if we wanted to go because we're both rock girlies but we thought what the hey.
So what are you painting at the moment?
Spas aren't so bad. I think people get the impression that it's all primping and perming, but the one I went to here was fantastic. I did get my toenails painted though.
Currently working on a set for my best friend called The Ivy Queen and the Holly King. A very late wedding present, but turning out beautifully.
What about you?
-Amyranth
Good night GS. Aww, m are you leaving us?
Goodnight GS!
Bye m,hope to see you around here soon.
[[Anonymous said...
OMG this isn't even porn. This is just really bad Barbra Cartland writing.
This is porn.]]
[[Gerard kissed his way down Bert’s chest, flicking his tongue over Bert’s nipples, sucking lightly. Bert arched into him, as Gerard kissed lower, dropping onto his knees in front of him.
“ You don’t know...” Bert whispered, threading his fingers through Gerard’s hair roughly.
Gerard looked up at him. “ Know what?” He asked, kissing the inside of Bert’s thigh.
“ You don’t know, what the sight of you on your knees for me does to me” He answered......."]]
*fans self* Um, wow, anonymous. Thanks for that imagery.
Anonymous,
Yes, you are quite right, that is porn.
*gulp*
Too true m, bye!
So much for me going!
Anonymous, I forgot the :)
Amyranth, I've been asked to do a canvas for a friend's parent's wedding anniversary, anything to do with music. The weird thing is though, the person who asked me is an art student herself and I'm just an amateur. Go figure?
Your painting sounds very reminiscent of old English folk tales like the Green Man. I bet it's lovely.
Oh god!
I think all that ice-cream might make a re-appearance.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o_ba31ujOkQ
Gerard IS with MSI.
'Cos of the "porn" not the painting!
That looks rude, sorry!
Dei Gratia,
We could always put your ' resurgence ' in the Tate, it would qualify as modern art. We could title it something pretentious like ' The Recurrence '.
Ha Ha!
What a fantastic idea!
Could start a whole new era in the art world.
Oh believe me DG, things like that HAVE been done before.
I shall bid you all adieu.
Goodnight Mayo.
TTFN
Goodnight again GS.
on that youtube video you can hear lyn-z telling gerard to hurry up and she sounded all pissed off.
Goodnight GS,
Gonna go to bed too! goodnight everyone!
[Anonymous said...
on that youtube video you can hear lyn-z telling gerard to hurry up and she sounded all pissed off.
October 19, 2007 7:34 PM]
I noticed that too.
Goodnight Dei!
NEVER FEAR, PAPERHEART IS HERE!
=]
Haha, Hey guys!
*bleh*
I wish I hadn't looked at that YouTube vid. I didn't need to know he's really over there. :\
Hey paperheart!
How are you doing?
I know how you feel, random anon.
Even though you and I were pretty certain he really was over there. It just feels different when you actually see a video.
poor gerard, you know he's doing everything she tells him to do. she looks like she could kick his ass in two seconds.
Yeah, Capture, that's it. It's like, before, I could just pretend, and anyway, what does it matter? I mean, it's none of my business, right? Dude's got his own life, why ~wouldn't~ he be with his wife?
But still, it just bummed me out.
Hi everybody. Got a little squirrely in here last night huh?
It makes me kinda sad that he probably won't be in NY for Leathermouth's first show. That's not really showing your support for your friend.
Hey Jen!
How are you?
Hey Entropy! I'm doing well, just a little bored.
How are you?
Hi Entropy. Doing well this evening. Doing lots of laundry because my bulimic cat hosed down my bed while I was at work today. Yuck!
Hey Jen!
=]
Entropy and PH - how are you?
Sorry, I forgot my manners :)
I'm good thanks paperheart.
Aw,poor kitty.
I think it's his way of showing me the love
Entropy said...
It makes me kinda sad that he probably won't be in NY for Leathermouth's first show.
Yeah, that too. Man, I wish I could go to that show.
Hey! Maybe it's not Gerard in that video. I bet it's really...
~a clone~
That's good Entropy!
I'm doing well Jen! I just got back from shopping with my sister, we bought some stuff for the baby she's expecting=]
Yeah,I guess purring was just not enough.
Haha I'm sure it is Random Anon;)
But, Gerard sounded soo excited to talk to that person, and happy when he said Bye, then Lindsey, just sounded rude.
Hmm, ok, looks something hit a nerve? Curiouser and curiouser...
Ah, well, I guess he chose his wife of 2 months over his friend of 6 years.
You can always go on tour with your wife. Heck, in a week or so you're going to be touring with her for 12 shows. However, you'll never get to witness Leathermouth's first live show again. That only happens once.
"on that youtube video you can hear lyn-z telling gerard to hurry up and she sounded all pissed off"
Even though relationships should be equal, one person usually falls into the more submissive role and the other becomes the leader. It could be like that with them.
Hi there jennicula and paperheart. How are you guys doing?
did anyone notice that two anonymous posts were there one second and then gone the next? anonymous' can't delete their own comments...
Hi BC. I'm doing well, and you?
ps - Thank God it's Friday!
she was rude, she was like yeah whatever lets go. i think their famous enough to get back into where ever they were going. well at least gerard is.
I don't want to believe that he'd do that, I really don't. But hey, I wonder when that YouTube was shot? I didn't look. But maybe it was a while ago, and he's back? I'm probably just grasping at straws...
And I don't even know why it matters, you know?
Anonymous said...
miss t,
P.S Talk to yourself everyday - at least you know someone sane is listening.
m.
October 19, 2007 5:50 PM
m. I talk to myself quite a bit, actually, I tell myself to shut up when I talk too much. Does that mean I am sane? =]
P.S. Let no man deceive you with vain words.
P.S. The only thing worse in the world than being talked about is not being talked about.
These two P.S's seem to go hand in hand m.
Hey Bleeding Chaos!
I am just fine today! Looking forward to staying up all night=]
How are you doing?
Anonymous said...
on that youtube video you can hear lyn-z telling gerard to hurry up and she sounded all pissed off.
I must be deaf as well as (legally) blind, because I didn't hear it. I just heard a woman say that they "gotta get going" and then he says "BYE!".
-Amyranth is confused.
He scares easily
It makes him so... angry
At me
And his head it spins around
Just like the exorcist and I
Find it ever so
Hard to resist his cries
But there's nothing more sadistic than an infant
Waving his pistol in my face
He wants me right down on my knees
Crumbling in disgrace
But he underestimates my mind
I know he's messing with my head
My only weakness is
I can't believe the guy could be entirely dead
You can't talk to a psycho like a normal
human being
Can't talk to a psycho like a normal human being
Trigger Happy Jack you're gonna blow
But I'm gonna get off before you go
My Trigger Happy Jack is just a drive by
A Go-Go
And after a while he calms down
And he looks at me like a prince
But I know I better bite the bullet
'Cause it's just another one of his
Jedi mind tricks
Well this ain't no head trip honey
This is a collision on the road
And you've got me feeling oh just like a roadkill
But you know deep down I know
You can't talk to a psycho like a normal human
being
Can't talk to a psycho like a normal human being
Trigger Happy Jack you're gonna blow
But I'm gonna get off before you go
My Trigger Happy Jack is just a drive by
A Go-Go
Why do you make me feel like this?
Why do you gotta be such a dick?
(I feel like shit)
Go-Go
And I hate myself
Just enough to want him
And I hate him just enough to get off
But I understand him
Maybe I'm just crazy enough
To love him
Why not?
Why not
You can't talk to a psycho like a normal human
being
You can't talk to a psycho like a normal human
being
You can't talk to a psycho like a normal human
being
You can't talk to a psycho like a normal human
being
You can't talk to a psycho like a normal human
being
Uhhhhhh
Pimpstar!
amyranth it's right after gerard said "yeah we have to get back in".
^^Poe Trigger Happy Jack?
Hey guys, I've returned.
That picture? Give me the biggest effin' break you can find, because whoever tried to pull that off (if there was anything to pull off) seriously loses. On every level imaginable.
The video? I don't care what anyone else says, he sounded very happy. Who knows he may make take a red-eye out of Europe to see Frank play. We can't know for certain until probably Sunday. Let's just hope Frank receives the support he needs to get this project off the ground. I'm rooting him on.
How's everyone hanging?
Hey Paperheartxx, Jennicula, Entropy, anybody I missed. How are you all?
I hear her say"I just want to get back in."
Doesn't sound nice to me.
Hi Mustard & Star.
Hey Mustard and star!
I'm good how are you two doing?
=]
I'm not necessarily sticking up for LynZ, but I know my husband lags all the time. I'm sure I sound like a bitch on wheels sometimes trying to get him to move it.
Hey mustard,how are you?
I'm really rooting for Frank too.
I'm sure he will be very successful with Leathermouth.
Hey star,I'm doing fine,and yourself?
I'm good, paperheartxx. You?
Hi mustard!
Hey Jenicula! Hey Paperheart! Hey Star!
I'm doing well, thanks.
Looks like things are kinda quiet on the homefront. I actually like it like that. Not so much chaos.
You wanna know the reason we haven't gotten an SS story?
*shifty eyes*
Good, Entropy. I should really be packing up glasses in my kitchen since I'm moving on Monday, but I'm here instead!
Haha! The idea of Gerard as a dawdling husband is actually pretty funny.
DO tell, Mustard, do tell!
Mustard, I want to know.
Haha I'm good Star.
&& regarding the whole Lyn-Z thing.. I have nothing against her. I've just heard some really bad things about her, that are probably all rumors, that have made me skeptical about everything.
I agree Jennicula. I think some are looking into that video for things that aren't even there, that they wish were there. Who doesn't want to get back inside at a venue when there's music to be heard. I don't think anything of it. I'm especially surprised there are people who are disappointed that he's over there to begin with. If he wants to be with her, he's has every right to do so. I do hope he makes it back for the show tomorrow night though.
Team Frank/Leathermouth!
Yeah Mustard. Don't get all crusty around the cap now. Spill it!
-Amyranth
amyranth said:
Come on Mustard, don't get all crusty around the cap.
Rahahahaha!
I'm no inside source or anything *shifty eyes, again*, but I'd say he's practicing for a concert. No time for nonsense ;)
No, seriously I have no idea why SS hasn't given us another one of those clues. It's a shame 'cause that's about the most fun I've had all week, or month, maybe year.
What's SS's blog adress? I'm a newbie, I don't know it.
That could be so Mustard;)
Definitely year for me.
But I think so too,he's got business to atend to.
But it would be nice to hear something from him,not even a story.Just to check in real quick.
Entropy:
I know! You were so excited. So was Meese. You all were so funny just to watch.
By the by, Did you happen to check that Coldplay stuff? If not, don't worry about it. :)
I don't have any of their CDs,I'm sorry.
Hi! mustard, I'm on late tonight.
Have you watched it. If you don't you'll never know ha!
Bert’s mouth moved expertly along Gerard’s neck as the other man panted heavily. Gerard looked between Bert and the light with mild annoyance.
“Can we turn that off?” He asked - his vision blurred as it was.
He figured if it was completely dark, he wouldn’t see the world spinning in his drunken state. The only thing he wanted to feel was Bert.
Bert laughed and responded teasingly, “Why? I love watching you like this.”
“I enjoy feeling you more than watching you.” Gerard allowed a little sexiness coat his words hoping Bert would take him more seriously.
He was rewarded with the flick of the light, the last thing he saw was Bert smirking at him. Two hands pinned him down. Taking advantage of the darkness, the only contact Bert had with Gerard was his arms. Teasingly, Bert would flick his tongue along Gerard chest at random, drawing out a moan every time. Gerard never knew where Bert would go next, but each surprise made him more and more aroused.
“You know what I haven’t done in a while?” Bert asked, finally pressing his sweaty body against Gerard.
“What?” Gerard cleared his throat to make actual words instead of noises.
“Sucked you off.” His voice was devilish.
Rofl, what's with the Bert/Gerard fanfics on here?
Afternoon entertainment on account of kickball being cancelled?
Miss Tottenham.
I have read your blog and commented. =]
I will comment again if you'd like me to!
Hi pepole! I have just blogged for the first time. I wonder if you would care to read it. It was inspired by the conversations with m earlier.
It's pretty long but stick with it.
I guess it was a no no to ask about a blog address. I'm sorry, I didn't know.
MissT:
My dial-up cut me off about 3 minutes into it. I have it favorited, so when I get my high-speed back, I'll watch it. I will then proceed to belly chuckle for about 15 minutes if it's as good as you say it is. :)
Entropy;
It's okay. Don't worry about it. I don't either, so I figured I'd as you guys knowing that some of you are from the UK. It's all good.
I noticed I had been asked to elaborate earlier.
Of course I'm not feeling terribly linear this evening but I will try my darndest to make sense.
The entry in red is a metaphor while very well also being a description of actual events, perhaps. (Omg, do you see the syntax of that sentence? Eww!)
I presumed this from the fact that this x-rated blog is from an alternate universe.
It is a visceral, literal metaphor for the way how others treat him and how he feeds off it, if temporarily. It may also be a metaphor for behavior displayed from specific people here, also. Maybe.
Star:
It wasn't a "no-no." But the last time someone repeatedly posted SS's URL, SS became very upset. That Pretty Purple Unicorn did us in for a while. If SS ever shows back up, rest assured that you will find out what's going on. Just ask 'kay? :)
Paperheart, feel free to interpret as you wish.
Read it in parts, keep coming back to it. Take from what you will.
I love this story. It is really about a man who is despondent with life. His soul is telling him that if he goes through with death i.e suicide, it will abandon him as it wants no part in this. If your soul abandons you, you will not make the afterlife. The souls is trying to talk the man out of suicide.
Mustard, you will enjoy.
I plan on re-reading it over and over until I can make sense of all of the piles of thoughts in my mind. One moment I think something that makes sense, the next it just dissappears and is replaced with more confusion.
I'm going to go for a walk right now to the store. I plan on coming back and hopefully being able to explain my thoughts!
Byee everyone!<3
Ooh, Sparkle, that was good.
Sparkle Wrath:
I appreciate you explaining. But...I'm not too good with words. What do you mean? It's red (anger, blood, death) because we or someone else may have made Mayo mad. So, since he's not frequently feeling "red" and heated, this post came from an alternate universe of meaness and "I'll show YOU!!!"
Is that what you're saying, or did I not make any sense?
yeah paperheart, it can seem to mean one thing and then another.
Oh, Mustard, my beautiful, not quite! My fault!
No, I was just distinguishing the words in red from those in white.
And I believe the red indicates heated, passionate thought. Fantasy.
Whereas here the p.s. is a return back to reality.
I'll post more in a moment. I is special today!
What I find stands out every time I read it is the line "out on a limb."
It indicates someone taking a risk for something they feel is necessary to take a risk for.
I think Mayo is trying to convey something to someone specific, risking discovery? Simply risking pride, modesty by posting this? I find this post so fascinating...
"Close, but no cigar!" as they say.
Thanks for helping me out Sparkle. I just don't always see what others do, and I like to know what everyone thinks.
Talk to you later paperheart.
I think I get what you're saying sparkle.
And, if you will take note, there is no mention whatsoever of his feelings towards the lover in question. Only what he sees in her eyes and her actions.
It indicates a detachment from the situation.
Mayo
Whoever you are sweetie, if it's so good, why on earth do you waste so much time blogging, lurking, and commenting? Are we to presume you were on the sidekick during this little interlude?
And I must wonder why Mayo can only be x-rated in an alternate universe. Is there no physical intimacy available in the vicinity?
Which is another reason why Mayo is talking about either a feeling, or someone within this setting.
(I'm sorry I'm posting in segments. My brain no workee right tonight)
And to get all intimate and narcissistic, I have experienced both ends of this game, in and outside the bedroom. I understand what it is to give to someone who is only vaguely aware of what I'm really trying to give and often can't give back. And I have received attention from those trying so hard to please me while I simultaneously struggle to appreciate the effort (though this scenario is far rarer than the latter).
I agree with the "out on a limb" part. I think it took a lot for Mayo to post this. I think Mayo tends to "beat around the bush" with what he really means, and I think this was just an honest post.
However, I don't believe this post can be taken at face value, contradicting what I just said about Mayo saying what he wanted to say without being wordy and using alternate meanings. I don't think this post is about "Her" being the giver of oral sex and "Him" being the ungrateful receiver. Everyone is saying that "She" is the poor, poor, pitiful one in this, but I don't see it as that.
"Conversation promted the fire":
Just now thought of this, but do you think that "He" and "She" had a heartfelt conversation that led to this sexual experience? But I still don't think that him having the privilige of her attention is good. I just feel that there's more to this that we're not seeing.
after reading this I am convinced this blog is fan-fiction.
And I guess this is what separates me from the rest here, why I've 'lurked' (sorry, Mayo, I had to) far more than I've responded.
Because posts like this don't make angry or indignant. I don't want to lash out or tell this person what's on my righteous mind.
I also don't extend an offering of sympathy in the hopes that Mayo will contact me back.
It just causes me bodily ache. I have the horrible curse of empathizing and I recognize I am in no way involved in this situation. To point out my insanity, I only wish I could hold you, Mayo. And not so I can have a situation where a self perception as caretaker is satisfied but only because I just fucking know where you are. And if I don't, I still wish I could just rock you until you're asleep.
Anyone's genuine hurt.... Words are failing me this evening. So aggravating.
Damn my policy of total honesty.
By the by, Did you happen to check that Coldplay stuff? If not, don't worry about it. :)
I've got a Coldplay CD. Do you need something off it?
Mustard,
I agree wholeheartedly. I believe that this person having the privilege of "her" attention is acting as a distraction to reality than simply an extension of love.
Ooh Ooh Ooh!
RW:
I could totally use something off that CD you've got.
I need the album title, year, and publisher. I really need the publisher. Do you think you could find it on the liner notes or back case cover?
The album I've got it A Rush of Blood to the Head. Will that work?
Let me know, and I'll have alook for it.
Mustard,
Thank you!
I think some "conversation prompted the fire I'm out on a limb" speaks of more desperation than I realized.
Someone either saying something in this blog or physically talking in real life that brought up some discrepancy that Mayo can no longer ignore?
Oh man RW. I already have the info. I need on that one. That's okay though. It's just not giving me much online. You'd think the WWW would have something!
Thank you so much anyway! :)
Fact or fiction, Mr. Rockstar or 14 year old Chinese girl.... you read it and commented. They ("whoever you are") got what they wanted. We are slaves of the comments, seems.
More ideas to consider? Sheesh, you people keep one busy.
No worries :)
Oh, Sparkle, I hadn't thought of that. I was thinking a conversation held between the two characters in the "story." I hadn't thought that maybe something said here cause Mayo to think about something. But how do you think that a conversation prompting the fire plays back into his vivid story? I wonder what we could have said if we are looking at it that way?
Because posts like this don't make angry or indignant. I don't want to lash out or tell this person what's on my righteous mind.
I also don't extend an offering of sympathy in the hopes that Mayo will contact me back.
It just causes me bodily ache. I have the horrible curse of empathizing and I recognize I am in no way involved in this situation. To point out my insanity, I only wish I could hold you, Mayo. And not so I can have a situation where a self perception as caretaker is satisfied but only because I just fucking know where you are. And if I don't, I still wish I could just rock you until you're asleep.
You're calling other people self righteous and judging how they reacted to this fic. But your opinion on it is OK? You presume to know a lot about how the writer feels, that's self righteous, too. And calling other people self righteous because of how it made them react.... THAT'S self righteous too. You make it sound like you're so above eveyrone else because your motives are better.
Too many assumed that it was because they were speaking about how large their breasts were, general bodily statistics.
I haven't scrutinized in detail all of the comments made last blog, but I would be curious to see if anyone left a particularly caring comment, something of that sort. Which, for a person such as this, would raise quite a bit of conflict.
Because, say what you like about Mayo, 'he' is terribly self aware of what he's doing and his role in it.
anon at 9:49 PM,
That is why I left the caveat at the ending that it is very possible I have no clue what this person is going through.
And I seemed to have touched on something that makes you personally feel defensive. I'm curious what about my comment put you on a war path? Other than perceived hypocrisy, of course. Because there's generally more to it than that when one reacts so passionately.
I feel like I've walked into the middle of a bad Anne Rice book :/
It's funny you mention that Resurrected Wreck, because I recently took a "What's your disorder?!" test and scored highest in schizotypal.
A trait of those schizotypal is the tendency to talk and muse in a laughably over-wordy fashion.
I sighed deeply when I read it. But it's the way my mind is now programmed. I can try and sound human if you like! Try being the operative word in that sentence.
I agree wholeheartedly, RW!
Mayo, I soooo did not need to hear that! Not from you or anyone! So the sex is great? good for you! Personally I don't give a tiny rats ass!
What is he doing and what is his role? I must be seeing this post from an entirely different perspective than most here. I'm not sure what everyone else is getting at with Mayo being the mastermind behind the world self-destructing (figure of speech).
1) I can see how this, "...as they fumble to open my belt buckle. You can bet I never go without one when I'm with her," can be construed as a pretentious male pig. BUT, as I see it, it's followed closely behind with, "During those few moments just before [...], I can hardly breathe." That completed his thought about the belt thing. He wants those few moments, the amount of time it takes her to undo the buckle, to relish in the fact that he's breathless, presumedly feeling something, anything.
2. "She looks up towards me, her eyes are warm and giving. [...] I feel love in her eyes." Seeing as how this is written from his perspective, we aren't going to know how she's feeling. It's his feelings and his thoughts.
3. "[...]she seems so fragile, as if she needs my approval[...]." She doesn't need his approval. He isn't controlling. The meekness and fragile-ness she's exhibiting makes him think it looks like she needs his approval. I don't see him in the dominant role here. I see neither one of them as dominant. I see them here as equals.
4. "It's that way this night, and each night I have the privilige of her attention." You can just look at what I said last night. I still believe that.
5. "x-rated in an alternate universe" also gives me the feeling that he may not have even experienced what he's writing about. It's only been in another dimension, maybe his subconscious. But, I'm not sure.
That's just what I THINK. I don't know. I've never been good at reading people, especially trying to decipher meaning from their words.
AIP, I read Mr. Rockstar as Mr. Rochester. I thought wait, Jane Eyre, what?! what!?
it's 5 seconds of video out of someones life !
I don't think you can read much into it.
Plus, just like to point out I said 3 days ago he was in the UK, other's aren't the only ones with sources
I sighed deeply when I read it. But it's the way my mind is now programmed. I can try and sound human if you like! Try being the operative word in that sentence.
Lol. It's not just you, sparkle wrath. It's the general tone & style of most of the blogger posts. I'm beginning to really believe that all of these mystery blogs - Mayo, ss, kyeotr, etc - are written by the same person.
*smirk*
mustardisbetter-
Now you made me go rethink the whole thing all over again like you did. Thanks a ton. *tosses an eraser*
Such is why I "Monty Python" (make fun of) the entries. It's so much easier than being serious.
If they were written by the same person, that would be hilarious. I would totally save up enough money to gather the mainstay of those who come here to join me for a party at some banquet hall.
And if the one blogger refused to come, I would personally find a way to kidnap them.
Sorry I missed out on kickball :(
Had to take a trip. (Literally, a for real trip. Not related to footballs.)
m. - Maybe we will actually cross paths in here one day. I seem to miss you every single time.
Sis Midnite - Where'd you go??? Come back!!!
Hello to everyone else!
Is that a good or bad thing AIP?
I don't want anyone's head to explode here, but I just have a hard time saying what I really want to say. The words just don't form like they need to.
Mustard,
Let me take a moment and re-read your entry repeatedly.
Hey S&V20! Long time, no see!
Everything good?
"And if the one blogger refused to come, I would personally find a way to kidnap them."
I have connections I'm willing to share. They work for food, the more unhealthy, the better their results for you.
Hey Guys.
After re-reading repeatedly...
I agree. :)
an interested party,
I am liking you more and more.
Now don't find blow that off! Yes, I do love everyone, but liking is an entirely different beast.
He's all fuzzy and always the perfect temperature to cuddle with, independent of the weather.
An Interested Party said...
"And if the one blogger refused to come, I would personally find a way to kidnap them."
I have connections I'm willing to share. They work for food, the more unhealthy, the better their results for you.
What would a bag of freshly fried, Sugar rolled Mini-Doughnuts get me?
-Amyranth
hello, venom, paper heart! You are both absolutely ravishing this evening.
Mustard, you are quite the thinker aren't ya? ;)
"And I seemed to have touched on something that makes you personally feel defensive. I'm curious what about my comment put you on a war path? Other than perceived hypocrisy, of course. Because there's generally more to it than that when one reacts so passionately."
Warpath? Please. I just had to point out that you were being self righteous. It came across as "every one is being so mean to this poor person! But I want to help him, and my motives are pure!!!" That's not being on the war path that's just pointing out how I felt about your post. You got to talk about you you felt about every one else's post (does that mean you're on the war path too??) so why can't I??
Hey Paperheart!
Paperheart:
I try not to be and I feel very hypocritical complaining about Mayo being wordy and not getting to the point when I can't even do that myself.
My apologies to all for that being so long. I'll refrain from doing that again.
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