I love watching her delicate hands as they fumble to open my belt buckle. You can bet I never go without one when I am with her. During those few moments just before she opens my pants, I can hardly breathe. It is like that every time. She looks up towards me, her eyes are warm and giving. They tell me everything that I need to know. I feel love in her eyes. Yet, in this moment she seems so fragile, as if she needs my approval before she begins her rapture on me. It is that way this night, and each night I have the privilege of her attention.
p.s. conversation prompted the fire I'm out on a limb; x-rated in an alternate universe.
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«Oldest ‹Older 401 – 600 of 1956 Newer› Newest»Are we sure it was the boobs that got him all hot and bothered or all the talk of how sexy HE is?
As shallow as it sounds, I kind of enjoy being told just how lovely I am.
The boobs may not have interested him at all.
HE is still pretty hot. Even as fucked up and twisted as he is. I'm starting to think who isn't these days.
Though, just like J. said, I like a tattoo here and there.
Especially scorpions.
written about another, a cherished memory.
yeh smoke and venom may be he got turned on by us saying how hot he is, thats fair enough though.
i'm definitely having a i love mayo day today, don't really know why.
the future is the past....who do you think had that control over him before?
and anon 6.19am he can't divide us that easily, the mood got a bit dark for a while but then we picked ourselves back up again. not that i was there but thats the feeling i got when i read through all the comments earlier.
Hello lovelies! How is everyone this fabulous rainy Friday morning? (well rainy morning where I live).
Well, that's all very nice for you, Mayo, having this happen everytime she's with you, but isn't it time you took the initiative and gave your partner some back.
Where's the love for your significant other? Where's the depth in the relationship that makes you want to give as much as you receive?
Helluva weird onesidedness for newlyweds.
former anon
well pickled possum, Mayo didn't tell us about the entire act. Perhaps this is just the way it starts everytime. She starts, he finishes.
Am I then only one that thinks we didn't "get split down the middle" last night? I never saw us as arguing. We were just expressing our opinions, none of them probably correct. The vibe's still good on my end. I don't know what everyone thinks, but all's good here.
Morning Mayo!
Morning everyone!
I agree, Mustard. I didn't see anyone split down.
Nice to hear from you Magic Pie. Everything going okay?
But, yeah. I don't see where some people were saying that Mayo intentionally did this to split our unity we've had, just so he could get the attention. He normally "gets the attention" for the first 500 comments of his newly posted blogs, then it's free reign.
Anyway...
To the anon who claims he created tension within this group YOUR WRONG!
What do you expect, sunny days and fake smiles every day.
We are highly intelligent people with our own opinions here. And we will argue and not agree because that is REAL LIFE.
Everyone here still respects each other, despite our varied opinions.
If Mayo thinks he can up the ante by introducing some fictionalized erotica, or whether he chooses to write about a previous memory, thats fine.
Because sex is part of life.
Maybe this piece can be interpreted as offensive, it appears that the "partner" in question is in some form of submission.
Or maybe we can interpret this as some form of impotency on his part as it cannot be reciprocated.
Either way he is teasing us.
hello everyone!
hello mayo!
hope all is well with you all.
no i don't think we were split down the middle either. i think there was a bit of a melancholic feel after the initial "wow" of the new post but that was all.
not that i was there but never mind!
have a good day guys, speak later.
mayo what romance novel did you take that from.
By the way Mayo,
Was this experience with an escort?
Mayo,
Good morning, I trust you had a fabulous night. You sure did help remind me of some things that I might have misplaced in my current relationship. Sometimes I get so caught up in trying to be his best friend that I lose a little of that raw sexual energy. Thanks for making me remember what that's like.
May you always find love, passion, and friendship with each other.
Have a wonderful day.
Love to you,
S
Are you sure you want to trust S., Mayo? You know what S. stands for don't you?
You know I love you Dr. Nut.
Any footballs today?
Mayo, are you going to play or cheer today?
It's raining and hot. There is very little natural light to work by and I'm becomming more depressed by the minute.
Thank you for the distraction. Some good theories were shared.
Kickball Friday...How could I forget...woohoo!
Mayo, don't listen S&V20..she talks to herself in the mirror. You know how those princesses are.
...just sayin'
Wow, I just spent 2 hours catching up. I can't believe I missed it. I always miss the good stuff.
I went back to read the last of the other comments on the other blog. Everyone here has so much to tell. I love it.
And Mustard, I had a feeling that someone think of "enema" when they read my name. I laughed when I saw your comment. I knew it was only a matter of time.
Well, goodmorning everyone. Hi Mayo. How is everyone? It's Friday! Hell yes!
I have a question:
Why is this entry - or this entire blog, affecting people's views on Gerard?
There is NO proof that this is really him and to be perfectly honest, there never will be.
These blogs have never changed my thoughts about Gerard. Even his actions at PR didn't change my what I thought about him. However and understandably it did change for some.
I believe all of us here understand that this may not be him. Therefore, I do not think these blogs will affect how people feel about him. If anything I think that if this Mayo person is not Gerard, then he/she is actually doing Gerard a favor.
-Anon30
That's just it. It doesn't matter if it is or isn't. Everyone has different views about him and they change from time to time. It is fun to read this as if it were him. If it isn't, so what? I won't lose any sleep over it. All these people keep coming back because we all share a love for this man, the band and their music. The posts are just icing on the cake.
Very well said, Smoke&Venom20.
well Mayo, can't quite describe how disappointed I am in the latest blog.
If you read our comments on your last blog page, before all the daft fun with the boobs, we were in some part discussing what could be termed ghost stories.
Some of those stories were deeply personal and heartfelt. Thay made us pause for thought and we all felt like we'd made a connection with each other.
So, I ask you, is this your version of a heartfelt story. If so, I find that quite sad.
Sorry if that is not what you wanted to hear. I won't be doing no ass kissing here.
I feel the same way, Sdock. I need to get that raw energy back into my relationship. Time to bring out the leather and ball gag out again!
It is fun to think that it might actually be him.
Hi Smoke, hi AIP! I thought I was alone.
-Anon30
Oh, two more. Hi Miss T and Magic!
Miss T, maybe this WAS his ghost story. He knows there are a lot of people who don't like his recent marriage so this may frighten them!
Hi anima!!!
Ha! maybe magic pie. If that's the case, it's the scariest story so far.
Miss T, thank you for pointing that out, it was kind of rude of Mayo to interupt with this particular blog. It would have been nice to read a ghost story. I bet he has a lot to tell. I am still waiting to hear more about Paramour.
However, I did enjoy this blog very much.
-Anon30
anon at the 1st 10:09, i actually never had an issue with sexual on-stage sexual behaviour. I loved it.
I just feel this blog kind of belittles how we were all opening up to each other on heartfelt matters. And this .......
really deep Mayo.
I never had a problem either Magic. I did freak out a little when he started doing the "bases" thing. It kind of grossed me out - especially with the younger audience. But not to the point of changing my mind about him because he has been doing crazy shit on stage since forever.
I'm sorry but this blog doesn't make me fell all warm and snuggly.
I know, I sound miserable today. I'm not really.
I only popped in for a little while. I'm off for some food. If it's friday, it must be pizza. Believe me, I'll be a lot more cheery after that.
Bye for now.
It's okay Miss T that you feel that way. All of these blogs affect everyone differently.
Go enjoy your pizza. I need to go too. I am at work and need to get back to it.
Be back later.
-Anon30
Hi kickball team! Hi cupcake team! Hi everyone! (It's Friday, I'm allowed to be perky on Friday.)
Kari (my fantastic twin sister), you said it, babe. If Mayo's intention is to get us arguing, it's not going to work. We may have had a few fangirling moments yesterday, but we all know we're not stupid.
And Mayo, don't let your big head swell any larger. Not all of our comments were meant for you -- it was a general discussion. Sure, it got all fangirly for a bit, but it's not like you don't know you're pretty.
Um, fair warning, everyone -- shock mo' to follow. If anybody finds the subject offensive, you won't want to read the rest of this comment.
Re: the whole 68/69 discussion - personally, I find it a *lot* more fun to give than to receive. Let's just say that Babe ain't going there unless I'm convinced that he knows what he's doin'. ^_~
Then again, I've never been convinced that sex has to equate to love, either, so what do I know? ^_^
Game on??
Sister Midnight said,
Re: the whole 68/69 discussion - personally, I find it a *lot* more fun to give than to receive
I have to agree on the above!
If Mayo is who we would all like to think he is...he certainly does like his "blowjes" as he has called them...
Are we supposed to be shocked or surprised that might be part of the reptetoire?
If Mayo is who we would all like to think he is...he certainly does like his "blowjes" as he has called them...
Are we supposed to be shocked or surprised that might be part of the reptetoire?
"Then again, I've never been convinced that sex has to equate to love, either, so what do I know? ^_^"
I agree with you sister midnight! It is a nice ideal, but in my 3o some years I have had some of both. There is a time and a place for each.
Hi everyone!
Co-Captain - you make me double over with laughter everytime I read your comments. So much that my tiara almost fell off!
Thanks, AIP!
Ok, since everyone is referencing the whole 68/69 thing (which is too funny to me because it is actually my extension at work), I guess you know how princesses are. We don't like to work too hard, instead we like to have people cater to us. :-)
Mornin' everyone.
I'm thinking he rather expected everyone to be incensed about this post. Being "out on a limb" he figured nobody would take it lightly, right?
X-rated in an Alternate Universe makes me wonder if he doesn't mean a word of what he just wrote.
Italian Deli Friday! What's everyone else doing for lunch?
-Amyranth/woke up with an empty stomach.
Kapunua where are you. Why aren't you ripping this to shit. Or is this post beneath your dignity???
Good afternoon/evening everyone. How are you doing today?
I'm sure Kapunua is at work or busy with her life.
Princess Co-Cap'n, I'm glad I made you laugh. Everybody's been so damn serious about this post!
Bold & freddycharles, it's good to see that others feel the same way. I usually get:
::blink blink:: You're worse than a man!
Anon @ 11:52, what are you waiting for? If you're looking for someone to rip this post up, it probably ain't gonna happen. Really, a bj is only a big deal to the giver or receiver of said bj, no?
Hi BC! Hi Amyranth! (fellow AB'an!)
Did you bring cupcakes, huh?
Didja didja didja????
Hi there sister midnite how are you? Damn, I forgot today was Friday. I suppose I need to make those cupcakes then ^_^
hello everyone!
its 18.18 in england at the mo.
i wonder if gerard is going back home for leathermouths gig tomorrow?? you'd think he would wouldn't you??
oh also i just wanted to agree with sister midnite, bold and freddycharles re the bj stuff, i'm in your camp on that one too. i like the power!....giggles!
hallo and a nice afternoon/evening :)
I can only say, what all the others said before: I also wasn´t expecting a post like that... way to go ^^ *ironic*
Hello there pixie. How are you? ^_^
So when does the kickball game start?
hi there bc :)
yeah I´m okay ^^ still headache... and you?
Doin' well, BC... doin' well. How is you? Still in the mood to kick some ass? ^_~
(Hi Pixie & Far!)
Kickball can start as soon as Princess Co-Captain S&V20 and Dr. Nut get back. It's all about the footballs, baby!
Sister Midnite, you bet I'm in the mood to get some ass ^_^
Pixie, I am doing well. Is your flu getting any better?
I brought the brownies!
hi sister m and magic pie :)
mh well bc, not really.... I was sleeping before I came online...it´s only headache like yesterday... but I´m okay...
Magic pie, you brought brownies? Yummy! I'm glad to hear you're doing okay pixie :)
magic pie, brownies sound good. I have some chocolatcookies here if anyone want some :)
I make some super rich brownies! They are crazy delicious!!!
Hey guys; Once again, I'm here reading things and catching up.. =]
hi paperheartxx :)
Hello Lonely One (now Pixie) =]
How are you today?
I´m okay, still fighting with a flu... yeah the pixie was miss t´s and bc´s idea *laugh* :) and how are you?
Hi there paperheart. How are you?
Magic pie, those brownies sound delicious already. I can't wait to make some myself for Halloween ^_^
Hey Bleeding Chaos!
Awwh I like it!=] Pixie.. Yes I see that working=]
I am alright today, woke up an hour late, got in a little fight with my mom, had to get 4 needles to freeze my mouth at the dentist, missed my bus, late for class...
This day started off pretty bad, but it's all better now=]
A big fluffy hello to everyone here tonight.
I brought pizza for the kickball session but it's all in my belly.
Hey Miss T!
awww paperheartxx *hugs* your day sounds like my wednesday... those days are horrible... hope you´re better now :) and hey: it´s weekend :)
or it is where I live because it´s already 9.34pm :)
miss t.!!! my european chum arrived *hugs* :) how are you hun?
Hi Paperheart.
I want to say soz everybody for not goodnighting last night but the server went down.
Haha, I still have to go back for one more class Pixie, it is only 1:37 pm here=]
Ohh well, I'm doing a test which should be easy=]
Speaking of which, I'm off to study a little!
Byee everyone!<3
Hello my lovely pixie chum.
Hello to everybody.
bye paperheart :)
Hi there Miss T. How are you today? ^_^
Paperheart, once I had to get needles to freeze my mouth as well at the dentist. It hurts like a bitch I tell you.
Have a nice day paperheart ^_^
Take care
Hello BC, my little lovely.
Bye paperheart, I only said Hi paperheart a couple of comments ago ha!
Hello Miss T, my English lovely :)
Hello everybody!
Back for another night of discussion and some...wait for it...wait...
KICKBALL!!!
Are you guys playing tonight? I'm very much excited for it to commence. I'll be, per usual, on the sidelines freezing my ass off on the cold metal bleachers. I'm okay with that though, 'cause I
s-u-c-k at kickball. :)
Mustard hi!
You asked me a couple of time what I was on about.
Check it out and enjoy ha!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kgTnXZ0spTw
I hope it works.
Hi there Mustard, my favorite yellow condiment, how are you? We are preparing for tonight's game, but some of the players are missing ^_^
Magic pie is baking some brownies.
Hello everyone, How is it going today?
Hi there Elena how are you?
Hello everybody, how are we all?
Hello MissT.
Hello BC.
MissT:
I'm waiting for that to load right now.
BC:
I'm doing well, thank you. Brownies sound swell. Maybe with a scoop of ice cream...vanilla of course ;)
You
Hey, what do I get to do at the kickball.
As I'm a brit do I get to sit there tutting saying "it's not as good as football" ha!
I'm pretty good today. Just got back from a casino and I'm not totally broke. That's always good
Hey elena and DG. How are you two?
Hi there DG. How are you? I'm doing pretty good, just a bit cold. Brrrr.
Mustard, I'm doing well, thank you for asking. Glad to hear you're doing okay. A scoop of vanilla ice cream sounds delicious.
Miss T, basically with kickball, you have to kick a red ball.
hi to everyone who arrived :)
I don't like red, they are man utd's colour. Can I kick a blue and white one?
Hello to all newcomers.
Enjoy mustard.
Hey lonely one!
Name change I see.
Which do you prefer?
I'm good, thanks!
Have somewhat over-indulged on ice-cream already; oh well! it is "Fat Friday" after all!
Thanks MissT. I'm still waiting on to load up. It's taking forever!
By the way, I've seen kickballs of different colors, so you just pretend it to be whatever color you want. That way, we're all happy in our little minds ;)
Did you like it mustard?
hi guys!
hey miss T can i tutt with you being a fellow brit?? i know i support man utd but we'll ignore that fact if you like!!
Sorry, asked if you liked it before I read about it taking time to load.
fresh hot brownies with ice cream!!!! I never thought of that!
Yes farawy, we'll tutt together.
I've already said I forgive you the man U thing. Will you forgive me my spurs?
"Hey lonely one!
Name change I see.
Which do you prefer?"
it was miss t´s and bc´s idea, because they thought lonely_one sounds to sad... so choose what you want :)
What the topic tonight, oh glorious ones!
Perhaps our gracious host should decide?
If we're playing kickball I regret I must stay in the stands, too stuffed and besides i'm a kickball "virgin".
course i will miss T!
Ah dei gratia, you have had a pigout Friday too.
Yeah I love my fat fridays!
A lovely Ruby and Ben and Jerry's cookie dough....Mmmmmmm!
Any luck yet mustard?
That sounds delicious DG ^_^
Mmmmmmmmmm cookie dough, drool.
Yummy! ^_^
It was good, i'd offer to share but Billy (next door's cat!) now has his face shoved firmly in the tub!
so today we talk about... sweets and food? :)
Unless our horny host decides to make an appearance & change the subject, I guess we talk about anything we want. :)
Anybody have anything fun planned for the weekend?
hello everybody. how is everybody tday.
i have finally caught up and omg miss t, am suyre you just didnt go down the red road again. tuh tuh tuh. farawaysoclose, come on the reds lol
ok i will stop that now but could i possibly join my fellow brits on the side lines please. i feel all alone
Pixie:
I think that was a good idea. I like Pixie better :)
MissT:
This kid's working off of dial-up at the moment. I'll have to let you know tonight ;)
Hey Star!
SisterMidnite:
Plans for the weekend, eh? Pretty much homework, exercise, and talking to you fine people.
I suck at having an actual life. I'm a homebody.
Ok mustard, but if it doesn't make you smile, well, *shakes head*.
haha okay, so pixie it is ;)
Back later!
I'll let you know when it loads MissT. I could use a little bit of laughter!
hey fimble star from now on its us 3 brits on the side lines tutting!!
hey 2 man u supporters! he he!
actually guys tonight i'm sadly gonna have to take a rain check. sorry...........i don't want to but i've been in the dog house with my other half about how long i spent on the computer last night! damn! lets just say he's been cold today! so i've promised him i'm gonna watch a film with him. sorry guys i so hope i don't miss any of the fun! if you get a puzzle from SS i will be gutted! ah well gotta go. have fun all of you.
Hi there fimble. How are you? ^_^
My plans for the weekend?...................
How about freezing my ass off? Lol
actually just checking are you a red devil fimble star?? hope i've not offended. some one said they were a liverpool fan? can't quite remember. please forgive if i've fucked up!
OMG far .
red devil all the ways. theatre of dreams and all. he he he
bye bye and have fun watching a movie. when you come back tell me wat you watched and if it was good lol
is it that cold bc???
hey bc i am good thank you how are you. i am just gettin ready i am going out tonight i so can wait to et a glass of wine. i usually have stell at the bar i go to which is rare cos i dont go out much cos i have no friends but they got rid of stella. i was so upset so now i have to have wine which is not that bad he he he.
It's about 58 right now, not to mention cloudy and windy.
Fimble, I'm doing pretty good, thanks for asking. I have some choirs I need to do right now I'm afraid. Have a great time
Sister Midnite said...
Hi BC! Hi Amyranth! (fellow AB'an!)
Did you bring cupcakes, huh?
Didja didja didja????
WHO SAID CUPCAKES?
-Amyranth
haha bc it´s 11.48pm here, dark, windy and we have ca 35,6 ;)
Aaaagggggghhhhhhh! Man U everywhere I turn. I'm seeing red.
all good tho miss t all good he he he
Gerard, if this is really you, you need to grow the fuck up. I'm sick of you pulling this shit, it's so typical of you. Do you have any idea how much stress these blogs are causing? Of course you do, and you know damn well who will always defend you and it's not fair Gerard. You have ruined these past few weeks for me. Not a day has passed that we haven't discussed you. I don't care any more. I don't want to discuss you any more, I'm sick of hearing about it, I'm sick of walking on eggshells whenever your name comes up, I'm sick of dealing with the frustration and disappointment your empty words and broken promises cause, I'm sick of pretending to be concerned, I'm sick of watching you push everyone away while they make excuses for you, I'm sick of seeing them put on a brave face to try and hide just how hurt they really are. I don't think you realize how lucky you are to have friends and family that will stand by you and love you as much as they do. You don't deserve them. If you're not careful you may find yourself alone one day. You have brought this all on yourself. You didn't listen, but then you never do because you always know best. You need to learn to be a man and deal with your own shit. Why should other people always clear up your mess? You made your bed, now go and lie in it. I suggest you focus more on your own relationship and stop interfering with mine.
Yes, I guess so. Bummer about the Russia game. I'm still pissed.
I can't bear to read this entry more than once.
I'm sorry. I don't find this blog humourous or romantic in any way. I didn't need to know this.
Such low behavior revolts me. This kind of behavior from any male, not only 'Mayo', makes me want to puke. And a woman who will let herself be flaunted like that isn't much better.
What upsets me is how much you have changed from a private, modest person to this screaming child in a matter of weeks. It makes me sad as hell.
It's embarrassing to watch you act like this.
Hi everyone! I have to miss the game again tonight. I'm bummed.
Anon at 4:10, what do you mean about these blogs stressing people out? It is just a blog. And who knows if it is really him.
Or do you know something we don't?
Good evening Mayo, good evening all,
Oh Mayo my lamb, you sure know how to stir the pot.
AIP, I have never laughed so hard as I have tonight, you are on a par with Kapunua.
Anonymous, no, I for one have never forgotten that one soul and am glad that I am not alone.
My friends it is Friday, I am on school holidays for the week, rugger is on tomorrow and you are making me laugh. Life is good.
My my, interesting to see how everyone is twisting your little joke around.
But really, this is schoolboy stuff.
I know you secretly enjoy the derogatory remarks.
What's the joke? Pray tell.
Location: Only in my own homes : Never anyone elses.
I go away for a few days and come back here to find this. You are an interesting one, Mayo. (And also very sneaky *wink*)
hello all!
getting ready for your kickball game, i see. hmm. weellllll...
i'm not much one for sports (unless it involves sexy fast sportsbikes, of course!), so i'll just find myself a little spot...
waaaaaaay over here. :)
Capture this void, I agree with you!
Last night my initial reaction was to laugh (my comments were sarcastic, by the way, Mayo!), but in the cold light of day, yeah pretty sad!
Mayo,
It seems this anon may know him/you personally and obviously cares, it seems a lot people do,as do the amazing people here!
I wish you all the best, I really do! Listen to them, please!
"This kind of behavior from any male, not only 'Mayo', makes me want to puke. And a woman who will let herself be flaunted like that isn't much better.
What upsets me is how much you have changed from a private, modest person to this screaming child in a matter of weeks. It makes me sad as hell.
It's embarrassing to watch you act like this."
I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels this exact same way.
Mayo, when did you show up and what does your location thing mean.
I gotta run. Goodbye everyone. Goodbye Mayo. Happy Friday!
So tell me. What's this I"m hearing abotu TWO MCR European shows having to be moved to smaller venues all of a sudden? One because of admittedly "slow ticket sales" and one because of "technical problems...."
HI THERE MSI BAD IDEA!
So tell me. What's this I"m hearing abotu TWO MCR European shows having to be moved to smaller venues all of a sudden? One because of admittedly "slow ticket sales" and one because of "technical problems...."
HI THERE MSI BAD IDEA!
I heard this too.
Maybe after hearing this, something will finally get through to him.
anon @4:10
Thank you for posting here. I think I know who you are, don't worry I won't share my thoughts. I am sorry you are being put through this, it is always painful to see our loved ones hurting. Much love xoxo
Are the two of you serious about having to move the concerts to smaller venues? I bet the promotions people are very happy about this. I can't imagine the label is either. Do either of you have any written confirmation, or is all of this just hearsay?
*"aren't"
As in the promotions people and the label probably "aren't" very happy about this.
I found it on 'chemicalromance' on LJ.
"this is in the comments a couple of posts down, but not everyone will see it, so here you go:
Due to very slow ticket sales for this particular gig, den Atelier has decided to move the MCR show scheduled on 7th November to the Atelier club in Luxembourg city.
Due to the different capacity, the show is now 95% sold out - thanks to all the fans who bought their tickets early! The tickets sold for the show at Rockhal obviously stay valid for the Atelier show."
The comments are saying that the capacity is only 800 people.
Thanks for that CTV. I hadn't had a chance to look there today. I'm reading the comments now.
mm,
in answer to your question
why not?
m.
P.S. Let no man deceive you with vain words.
Glad to see you've joined us yet again, m.
How sad it is that you confuse earth-shattering sex with true love... It won't last... It is all you have in common. I know, I've been there...
In other news...
I came home from work last night to be told that there was some bad news in the newspaper... There was an obituary of one of my best friends from high school, college, and beyond...
I had not seen her for a few years... I was told it was a heart-attack brought on by the COPD she had recently been diagnosed with. She was a very heavy smoker and I always believed she was an alcoholic, but a functioning alcoholic - never missed a day of work, etc. Whenever I would get the nerve to say something to her about the drinking and the several DUIs she had gotten, she would just say, "I know..." Then I would leave it alone...
She really had a rough life... When she was around 23 or 24, she became pregnant by a married man that she was having an affair with. She was around 6 months along when the baby died. She was put into labor only to give birth to the dead fetus.
Around the age of 27, she had a car wreck. The car rolled about 20 times... She was in a VW with a sunroof... The doctors didn't think she would make it at first, then they said, she'll make it but she'll be a vegetable - then they said, she won't be a vegetable but she'll never be able to walk again... and so on and so on...
She defied them... She was in the hospital for about 5 or 6 months. She wore a halo for about 9 months or longer... She had to re-learn how to walk and talk... Lots of physical therapy... She lost a lot of her long-term memory and her sense of smell... But she got through it...
She never quit smoking... or drinking... She hadn't had her license for probably 10 years... Took a taxi to work... A bottle of liquor was found under her bed yesterday...
The memorial service is tomorrow... She was only 51...
My friend is gone... I'll never see her again... I'll never talk to her again...
It's funny. Know why? All the posters there think that MCR just decided to up and change venues for the sake of having a more "intimate crowd." They have no idea. It takes months upon months to set up a tour itinerary and a sudden change such as this has nothing to do with wanting to be in a closer-to-the-crowd setting. Their booking agent(s) probably saw that they wouldn't be able to sell out, or almost sell out the original venue and had to do a quick skidaddle to get the smaller one. If they had kept the original venue, the amount of money they were going to lose was probably astronomical. No one would have gotten paid much, if any. They'd be in the hole.
I agree with the person who said this was a memory. (Lyn Z doesn't have "delicate" hands, anything but delicate).
Gerard if this is you, you are still in love with "Kat" aren't you. You know you made a mistake, you ran away because you were afraid of what was happening. You regret it and it KILLS you that she moved on. Hence your "engagement" to Eliza. When the shit hit the fan on that one, you rushed to the next thing to prove that you had moved on too. You couldn't have "Kat" have someone permanent and you didn't.
I feel sorry for you. But you were the one who let her go. MADE her go.
So m, if you are not deceiving us are you deceiving yourself?
Mia, my condolences. I am sorry for your loss.
I have to look more into this "slow ticket sales / smaller venues" thing because this might be blogworthy. In the meantime I say, that's right, fans who don't want to pay money towards a band who writes songs about five year olds in porn, boycott. Hit them (and by them I mean MCR, NOT MSI) where it hurts them the most, the wallet. Take back what they want the most, YOUR money.
Hi! BC, MissT, m, everybody!
How is everyone this evening?
Oh Mia. I am so terribly sorry for your loss. It sounds, with the painful life she's led, that she will be in a much more peaceful state. It's a shame for something such as that to happen to someone who has the rest of their life to live. I'm really at a loss for words. I know it's cliche, but if you need to talk, you know we're all here for you.
Bless you, her, and your families.
I'm so sorry mia, if this is recent, send your good thoughts to her as she will still be near enough to hear them.
Mia,
My thoughts are with you.
Hi star, I'm fine how are you.
So...
if this is Gerard... and if any of his close friends are really here and reading any of this...and if he really does have a problem...
Nag, preach, bitch, moan, and complain...Pester the shit out of him... Don't just let it go...
Or you'll end up feeling like I do right now...
'Gerard if this is you, you are still in love with "Kat" aren't you. You know you made a mistake, you ran away because you were afraid of what was happening.'
'P.S When we cannot get what we love, we must love what is within our reach.'
mm = makes sense
Silence, if you are out there as well, I still think of you. Hope you are holding up.
Yes, listen to mia. Otherwise you might one day be in a position where you wish you had.
mia,
i'm so sorry to hear your news. your friend sounds like she was a very determined person to accomplish what she did.
Mia,
It's so true what you've said. Friends are so important to have. And you have to fight to keep them. I almost lost my best friend recently because of really bad communication, but it hurt no less. When you lose someone close to you, you lose a piece of your self, a piece of your soul. They know you as well, if not more, than you do. It's very important to keep them as close as you can.
Mayo:
Listen to me. Do not under any circumstances lose your friendships. Do no push them away because you think they aren't able to help. They can, and the will if they know what's good for them. They care about you unconditionally. Only your friends will be able to offer that, as well as your family. Don't let either of those two units go. They may be the only things you have in the end.
Has anyone brought up the fact that this is a metaphor?
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Hi there Star how are you? I am currently freezing my ass off at the moment. ;D
Thanks to everyone for your kind thoughts...
I am also at a loss for words right now... I don't think it has entirely hit me yet... I have a feeling that I will be in the middle of a crying jag later this evening...
Just a random, I've just tried to pull up the blog for Already Gone and it has disappeared. Is that new or am I terribly slow?
Sad story with the drink in her life mia.
Drink is a catch 22. You think your life will be better if you can numb out the bad. But while you are numb, you can't let in the good stuff so your life can't get better.
Hello there m. How are you? It has been a while since we last heard from you. Missed you. Thank you so much for the message you posted on my blog. I appreciate it. Are you are still here?
mia, i'm sorry!
No words are enough, but we are here!
Sparkle Wrath,
Yes, the subject has been brought up.
Sparkle Wrath said...
Has anyone brought up the fact that this is a metaphor?
>_>
<_<
shhhhhhhh.
what will everyone discuss if this isn't really about mayo??
;)
Mia,I am really sorry to hear about your friend. My thought are with you and her family.If you do need anyone to talk to, we're here.
Sending thoughts to you as well Silence, sending them to the both of you.
Let us know how you're doing. Haven't heard from you in a while.
Mia:
Whatever makes if feel better for the moment, you should do. If being on here isn't what you need, don't feel obligated to stay. But, if being here is helpful, then you can stick around as long as you like. It'll obviously take time, but you just have to go at it day by day. Some will be worse than others, and some will be better than you imagined. But don't try to override your emotions. You need to feel them, and you need to remember the best times you two shared. That's how she'd want it to be.
Hey everyone.
How are you all this Friday?
Hey m.
(hey I remembered to keep it lower case)
BC
I am here,
you are more than welcome.
m.
P.S. Love tells us many things that are not so.
Sparkle Wrath:
What do you believe the metaphor may be, if you feel like sharing?
once again m, are you being deceived?
I saw the post on the LJ chem-site, too. It seems that the smaller venue will only hold about 1000 people, which is a pretty small show (compared to the shows they've already played this year).
I also see that another anon has asked him to leave him/her the fuck alone. It's gotten to the point where I don't even want to know what he's done this time.
Hi VV, good to see you!
Amyranth, the cupcakes thing was for BC. She'll know what I mean. I was just saying hi to my fellow AB'an - I'm in Deadmonton. :)
In the past week or so, I had been thinking about her - thinking back on some of the silly shit we used to do, remembering things she said... remembering how we used to finish each other's sentences...
That was something she and I shared - a strange connection with each other even when we hadn't seen each other in a long time.
I called her the day after she had that terrible accident because I had been thinking about her...
I should've called her last week...
OK, sorry guys, but I gotta go...
Thanks everybody
I'm good Miss T, and BC!
BC- I am sweating.
It's 70 in October in NJ. Bad, bad, bad. I want Fall!
I wholeheartedly agree with Mia.
Someone very close to me has a serious problem. I have tried everything I can think of to no avail. But I can't give up, I won't give up!
It' not easy, but you have to keep trying, right?
Amyranth, do not worry, I will bring lots of delicious cupcakes for everyone :)
Bye Mia, our thought go with you.
Star, its 70 in Jersey? That is too hot! It's about 57 overhere.
Take care Mia. My condolences and heart are with you.
My thoughts are with you Mia. Go do what you have to do and take care of yourself.
:)
Entropy hey there how are you? :)
m, are you going to be here for a while?
Bye mia,take care.
Hey BC,I'm good,you?
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