Saturday, May 9, 2009

At the Home

I hate to see you
When you're falling apart
Can't you start over, again?

Elizabeth crumbles
Alone in her chair
Keeps her windows shut
To keep out the air

Elizabeth crumbles
Alone in her bed
Spends all her pastime
Mulled in her dread

What keeps her living
Is her fear of being
Anywhere other than here
So they’ll feed her too much
Or it’s never enough,
Then it's fuck you
“Get the hell out of here!"

Elizabeth stumbles
Over everything I've said
Pining words are useless
Pushed round in her head

The mystery was my bravery
I never knew what I'd get
Will it be her fear or regret?
Her confusion my denial?
Walked her shoes a while
Now she can’t turn back
So she said then she’ll stay
And I will walk away

Elizabeth mumbles
Over and over my name
Forgetting tomorrow
Will never be the same

She’s repeating her beating
Did you bring her a drink?
Why are you leaving?
What the hell do you think?
That she’ll fuck you
To get the hell out of here

Elizabeth tumbles
Out onto the floor
With an abandon of reason
It is herself abhorred

She sat alone in her room
Pouring over her gloom
Never got out of her chair
And they don't even care
Now that they’ve all receded
Into the ground or fleeted
To the wormholes
And woodwork back there

You'll find repair
Where that memory
Becomes illusory

Look, again?



p.s. in the end it is what you think you will get.

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Anon616 said...

*sticks tongue out at Ergo*

I won!!!! YAY! You shouldn't have eaten all that pasta right before a race!
;)

Okay, I think that uphill race wore me out.

Goodnight, Ergo! Sweet dreams!

*blows kisses to blog believe*

ergoproxy said...

oh poo

I was watching tv

lol

ergoproxy said...

*happy dance with Wendy*

:]

no hard feelings, ;]
I will ahve to remember not to stock up on carbs before a race!

Anon616 said...

I was wrong, Ergo. That uphill race did NOT wear me out. Well, it didn't wear me out enough!

Perhaps the happy dancing will!!!

I have the perfect happy dance song!

~RJA ~ Pen and Paper ~ Live on Jimmy Kimmel~

Okay, going try this sleep thing again! Wish me luck!

*blows final round of kisses for now*

ergoproxy said...

LOL wendy- you have longer lasting batteries than me!!

Mayo
guess what!! It's raining!! And I actually am not annoyed as it's bedtime and I do love a cool night with the sound of rain. have you heard rain on a tin roof/ Nothing quite like t. I always think people in apartments or the hermetically sealed modern homes miss out on something so simple and so lovely.
hope you get to hear the rain sometimes
much love EP xx

SS
Do you like the rain? I do, unless it is for days on end and ends up flooding (like a lot of this first quarter of the year has done here!) But sometimes, the timing is right, the temp is right and it's just ....right!
Hope you feel the pleasures of the simple things too
lotsa love EP xx


goodnight blogbelieve, see you in my morning
♥xx♥

and HI ANIMA!! from earlier, lovely to see you

ergoproxy said...

what the???

my ? was usurped by it's downstairs counterpart, and my i went missing!!


definitely time for bed.

KOL anon said...

Well shucks, I guess it's too late for me to post those hypnotizing green eyes for you, Wendy? I suppose I could go ahead and post them anyway, just in case you need them again sometime. ^_~

Here's an old pic of Caleb, circa late 2004 or early 2005, during his out of control rock star period. He probably wasn't terribly healthy then, but still gorgeous. The lighting is a little harsh in this one, but I like it because you can see his freckles.

I posted this one of Caleb and Jared a few days ago, but I'll post it again because it does show off Caleb's lovely green eyes and Jared's blue-green ones. Also, I love how you can see the family resemblance here. And then there is this one, which doesn't really emphasize Caleb's eyes, but it does a rather good job of highlighting his other *ahem* assets. ^_^

Of course, when you're talking KOL and green eyes, you have to post a pic of Nathan. Or, maybe even one of mountain man Nathan, who, try as he might to cover up his good looks, he never succeeded.

But, if you're having trouble sleeping and are going for a hynotic effect, I suggest this gif, which hypnotizes me every time I look at it. ^_^

Hope you got some sleep.

And for KOL 2, a pic of Jared actually smiling, which is a little scary, because it could possibly be a sign of the apocolypse. ;P

My show is tonight and I have about 4 hours of driving ahead of me, so I'd better get going. Have a great day, everyone.

Kol 2 said...

Thanks Kol anon. I'm so excited! :D :D

I'm posting links to a couple of great articles, one about the show in Tampa and one about the concert in Cincinnati tonight for anyone who is going to try and say the Kings are all about looks and not music.

Newsflash: the rest of the world disagrees with you.

Also Kol are not Kasabian. Get your facts straight before you send idiotic emails.

Gotta go. The Kings are coming! :D

Amyranth said...

*dances down the stairs*

*bops around the kitchen*

*sets the oven timer*

*finishes her glass of milk*

*leaves a note*

Be back later guys! Supper's in the oven, don't start the party without me!

*shakes her tailfeathers out the back door and locks it*

Jennicula said...

Elena & Ergo: Yes, it is difficult watching someone spin out of control and then reign it in. They maintain within the bounds of normalcy for a while and then something triggers them. You get that brief taste of hope and then the madness rushes back in. I don’t ever see her getting truly well. I just hope she finds that magic cocktail of meds that keep her on an even keel. She does have a good sense of humor about herself though, which I find interesting.

sister midnite said...

*grin*
What Mayo's blog is like, if the interwebz' version of Jerry Springer. A few people mean well, and carry on a conversation, leave poems (g'nite), or post eye candy (Wendy, KOL anon & KOL2). Nice anons join the convo, and contribute. Then the other 123,456 nasty anons crap up the blog with who they like and who they hate, based on happenings from, like, a year ago. Then somebody throws a chair, and chaos ensues.

Mayo, dude, you need to hire some bouncers. For realz. ^_^

(Hi everybuddeh!)

Anonymous said...

Can someone effing just say what the hell frank did?

Anonymous said...

JERRY! JERRY! JERRY!

















MAYO! MAYO! MAYO!

Anonymous said...

If someone is truly ill as you say, they would display no sense of humor. I don't think you understand them at all. And, I also think you have no understanding of what constitutes mental illness.

Anonymous said...

You are even denser than I originally thought.

sister midnite said...

Pretty sensitive accusation, 5:08.
Are you trying to say that mental illness is exactly the same for everyone?

ergoproxy said...

gooood morning!!


hello sisM hope you're well
I think 5:08 is just trying to provoke, anyone with personal experience knows the variability

Jen , I hope they do to

KOK
lovely pics
and hope you have a brilliant time

KOL2 those articles remind me of what they say about a NZ band Evermore, they are brothers too, and lovely guys, I was lucky enough to have a chat to them in 2007 after a convert they were supporting at

ergoproxy said...

a convert?
a conCert

though they may have converted some people to liking them

ergoproxy said...

KOK????

KOL *sheesh*

lucky I have coffee

sister midnite said...

Coffee is one of the major food groups, Ergo. :)

I'm off, ttyl!

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday, Amy!

Hope you have a fantastic year.

to amy said...

From morning till night
May your birthday be bright
And nicer than ever before……
And as years come and go
May your happiness grow
And your dreams be fulfilled
Even more

Happy Birthday to you!

ergoproxy said...

see you sisM

I'm off titoring for the morning

*picks up some fallen tailfeathers*

*sticks them in belt and shakes*

:]

back for the party later!!

Anonymous said...

4:51,

Frank and SS both spelled weird wrong.

Not exactly a huge deal.

Anonymous said...

Naming of Parts

"Vixi duellis nuper idoneus
Et militavi non sine glori"

Today we have naming of parts. Yesterday,
We had daily cleaning. And tomorrow morning,
We shall have what to do after firing. But today,
Today we have naming of parts. Japonica
Glistens like coral in all of the neighboring gardens,
And today we have naming of parts.

This is the lower sling swivel. And this
Is the upper sling swivel, whose use you will see
When you are given your slings. And this is the piling swivel,
Which in your case you have not got. The branches
Hold in the gardens their silent, eloquent gestures,
Which in our case we have not got.

This is the safety-catch, which is always released
With an easy flick of the thumb. And please do not let me
See anyone using his finger. You can do it quite easily
If you have any strength in your thumb. The blossoms
Are fragile and motionless, never letting anyone see
Any of them using their finger.

And this you can see is the bolt. The purpose of this
Is to open the breech, as you see. We can slide it
Rapidly backwards and forwards: we call this
Easing the spring. And rapidly backwards and forwards
The early bees are assaulting and fumbling the flowers:
They call it easing the Spring.

They call it easing the Spring: it is perfectly easy
If you have any strength in your thumb: like the bolt,
And the breech, and the cocking-piece, and the point of balance,
Which in our case we have not got; and the almond-blossom
Silent in all of the gardens and the bees going backwards and forwards,
For today we have naming of parts.



-- Henry Reed

Anon616 said...

*comes in singing*

"There was a time
when I was so broken hearted
Love wasn't much of a friend of mine..."

*chants: ADAM ADAM ADAM!!!!*

Hell yeah!!!! If that man does not win AI this year, there is something seriously wrong with the ears and eyes of the typical AI voting viewer, me thinks!

Ooops, in my Ad~citement, I almost forgot to say:

Hello Mayo, SS, Ergo, KOL, Sis Midnite, KOL 2, Jenn, various anons!

Where is everyone? Am I the first to arrive for Amy's party? That is highly unusual. Everyone knows that I'm always late!!!! Well, there's a first time for everything, right?

*picks a few feathers off the floor*

Amy: Did you borrow my whip again???

KOL: I hope you're having a fantastic time at the show tonight!!! I can't wait to hear the details.

Thank you, thank you, thank you (and KOL 2 too) for all the delicious links!

Caleb certainly has great genes (and jeans) doesn't he?!
;)

And Jared smiling!!!! That smile probably could destroy a world or two/three/four (hundred).

Regarding Nathan: Mountain man, lumberjack, lion tamer, beard, no beard, gum, no gum, blowing bubbles, not blowing bubbles.... it matters not. He's NATHAN!!!!
:D

Well, I'm going throw some clothes in the washer. I'll check back a bit later.

Until then, have fun everone!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY!!!!!!!!!!

Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy

Hi PJ and Sweetcheeks!!!!

Anon616 said...

*cranks up the music while she's doing the laundry*


~You've been coolin, baby, I've been droolin,
All the good times Ive been misusin,
Way, way down inside, Im gonna give you my love,
Im gonna give you every inch of my love,
Gonna give you my love.
Yeah! all right! lets go!

Wanna whole lotta love?
~

Again, HELL YEAH and ADAM, ADAM, ADAM!!!!!

Amyranth said...

Aaaaaaand BACK!

Hallo everyone!

Anons from earlier, thank you for the wishes and the poem, alternately.

Wendy? You still here?

Anon616 said...

Amy!!!!

*jumps out of laundry basket and yells:
SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!!!*

*pounce tackle hug smoooooooch*

Let's dance!

~Slow down, go down...
I gotta get loving one more time
~

"Slow ride, take it easy...."

Amyranth said...

*is covered with flying laundry*

Wendy, when was the last time you washed these socks? >_<

Anonymous said...

Happy birthday Amy. How's it going so far?

Hey sugarplum.

Anon616 said...

*blushes*

Ummm... the socks? Well, that's not my fault! Not really!

:P

Can I have my whip back now, Amy? Please???
;)

How was birthday? GREAT, I hope! What did you get? *wink wink wink*

Ohhh... I found the studio version of Adam and Allison's "Slow Ride":

~I'm in the mood
The rhythm is right
Move to the music
We can roll all night
~

I have some 18 year aged Glen Livet! Ross brought it over, today, as a thank you for cheering him up last night. You want some, birthday girl?

It's so smooooooth!

Anon616 said...

Hi sweetcheeks!!!!

*huge hug and sloppy kisses*

How was your day? You want some GlenLivet???

ergoproxy said...

hi BC Wendy

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY!!!!

Anonymous said...

*blows kisses* Hey sugarplum, how are you doing?

My day was okay, thanks. How good is the GlenLivet?

Anon616 said...

Ergo!!!! *smooooooch*

I know I don't have to ask you?

*hands Ergo a glass of GlenLivet ~ on the rocks*

;)

Sweetcheeks: It's the best single malt scothch whisky blend, if you ask me!

The "aged 12 years" is good; but, the "aged 18 years".... there simply are no words !

Anonymous said...

Sounds delicious Wendy.

Hi ergo.

ergoproxy said...

oooh thank you!

*passes around plate of indian pastry things*

(I didn't make them , out of a box)

Anon616 said...

*hands her sweetcheeks a glass of GlenLivet on the rocks*

Now remember sweetcheeks, just drink a glass of water for every glass of GlenLivet you drink... you shall never have a hangover that way!

Advice my brother gave me long ago.
:)

*takes an Indian pastry thing*

Ohhh... spicy!!! I like it! Thank you, Ergo!

Anon616 said...

*cranks up the CRADLE for Amy*

~Tonight In Flames~

:D

Did someone remember to rent "Cradle Of Fear"???

Amyranth said...

Thank You BC!

(The phone was ringing off the hook, family and well-wishers)

*snags a samosa from Ergo*

Wendy, I own Cradle of Fear. Mister thinks it's hilarious.

Amyranth said...

Now remember sweetcheeks, just drink a glass of water for every glass of GlenLivet you drink... you shall never have a hangover that way!

Or, you could just have a hangover, for the hell of it.

ergoproxy said...

you've had a nice birthday so far Amy?

Amyranth said...

Yes Ergo, it's been good. I had a good walk today, did some window shopping, and had sushi for supper.

Just kicking back now for the night, with a potential trip to Vancouver over the weekend.

So it's been good.

How's everyone else doing?

Anon616 said...

Amy: Put it in whilst I pop the popcorn!!!!

LOL!!!! Ummm.... nevermind!
:P

Carrie said...

hey Amy, just popping in to wish you a happy birthday. Hope you had (and maybe having cuz it's not THAT late) a good one. You're one of my fave Canadians!

ergoproxy said...

I'm good thanks, it's showery rain here. had my student this morning, then grabbed a few groceries

now I'm having a relax

ergoproxy said...

Hi carrie, how are you?

Anon616 said...

Hi Carrie! It's good to see you! How are you, love?

Do you have a favorite CoF song? I'm playing DJ (or is it VJ?) again!

Ohhh.... Amy!!!! Did you ever see any of the RAGE Voodoo Fest videos????

*passes Amy other glass of GlenLivet on the rocks*

Carrie said...

Sleepy! And off to bed. Just wanted to wish Amy a Happy Birfday!

Original Punk J said...

HEY AMY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOMAN!!

Your gifty is going out in tomorrow's mail, so keep an eye open!

*birthday hugs and kissies*

ergoproxy said...

sweet dreams carrie!!


hello J
how are you?

Anon616 said...

TESTIFY!!!! Live at VOODOO!:D

toujours said...

*stops at the door*

*tapes up a sign*



COCONUT-FREE ZONE



happy birthday, amyranth!

i gotcha somethin'.

if your costume doesn't work out, you can wear that instead! :D

Original Punk J said...

Not bad, Ergo, how about yourself?

Anonymous said...

Hey there tj *sqooshy hug* ^_^

Hey J

toujours said...

hi bc!
*is squooshed* :D

Anon616 said...

J!!!!! How are you tonight? How's Lisa? Is she home?

Anon616 said...

Hi TJ!!! How's you tonight?

Original Punk J said...

Hi BC, Wendy, and TJ!

"Coconut-Free Zone", I like it. Mm-hmm, very good.

Original Punk J said...

Yep Wendy, Lisa came back yesterday for 18,000 dr appts, and another today. Doing well, they said. She has to be careful about changing anything that could be absorbed through her skin/blood vessels, like detergents, soaps, lotions, etc. Other than that she's good to go!

Amyranth said...

Carrie! Thanks for the birthday wishes! I'll keep that Fave Canadian thing in my safe-keeping box.

Teej, I love the hat! I should have had that for the Expo, as there was some girl dressed as Sailor Jupiter that butted in front of me in the line for the ATM. With that hat, I totally could have pulled rank!

Wendy, the only song I can think of is Mannequin! Please?

J, the only thing better than a birthday gift in the mail is knowing that Lisa's home and that you're both alright.

Anon616 said...

For KOL, KOL 2, Em, BC and me:

~SOFT Voodoo Fest 2007!!!~

another *big smile*

Anon616 said...

*runs off to search for Amy's song*

toujours said...

hi wendy, hi j.!

so what you're saying, j., is that l. has a doctor's note excusing her from doing the dishes, the laundry, in fact, all the household chores?

toujours said...

you totally should have pulled rank anyway, amyranth! i mean, the nerve.

sounds like you've had a good birthday so far, hope the rest of it follows suit. :)

ergoproxy said...

hi TJ!!!

I'm good thanks J it's a bit cold but I am going to ahve a cup of tea to warm up, waiting for Aust's Next Top Model to start

Anon616 said...

As I have said before, ask and ye shall shall receive!!!

For Amy:

~MANNEQUIN~

I so need to have a shot of LIVE CoF!!!

toujours said...

hiya ergo!

Amyranth said...

Teej, it was bad enough that she butted in line. It was worse that I WASN'T in costume, because I could tell she was a pretty big Sailor Moon fan, and I bet you if I HAD pulled rank, it would have been hilarious.

Also, I felt really out of place NOT being in costume, like the poncho at the nudist beach.

Can you photocopy that doctor's note for me J? Just white-out L's name, and I'll put mine on there.

Original Punk J said...

Amy, aww, that's so sweet! Thank you. *hugs some more* Lisa left you something at your blog.

TJ, I guess she MIGHT look at it that way...but they said NO CHANGES. Not NO CONTACT. She ain't off the hook!

ergoproxy said...

J good to hear L is still improving :]

ergoproxy said...

lol J
make sure she doesn't read this and take the note to be altered next appointment!

Original Punk J said...

Can you photocopy that doctor's note for me J? Just white-out L's name, and I'll put mine on there.
*******
I'll slip it into your gift package, A.

ERGO! I am shocked. Watching reality TV? And here I thought you said you were Frank. Sure you're not Gerard? Perhaps both, as the result of some mad scientist's experiment gone wrong?

elena said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY

the dancers should be here any minute!

Anon616 said...

Should I get all excited about being comment number 1269???

I do have extra reason to be excited about that. The 69 Eyes did open for CoF in NOLA and I do love them both!

Nah... I'll save my excitement for the next time I see them both, LIVE, again!
;)

Hey, everyone here has heard of a little place called THE DUNGEON, right?!
*wink again*

Anon616 said...

Hi Elena!!!! Sandy Ann said to tell Jake to meet her at The Dungeon the next time mommy goes there. Which will probably be next week!
;)

Original Punk J said...

Hey Elena! Those dancers aren't *whispers* clown strippers, are they? Remember the last time they were here...not pretty!

So are Mayo and SS coming to this party or what?

Oh, wait. I get it. THEY'RE the dancers!

*goes to find more tailfeathers*

ergoproxy said...

Hi elena!!!!

guess what I got in the mail!!!!

:D thank you for everything!!! tornado is AWESOME!!



J I think I vary between a few of them, more like a haywire remote lol

- plus I like watching the photography, the drama is a bit "meh"

toujours said...

i'm glad you're covering all the loopholes there, j.!

toujours said...

damn, i'm so far behind. :/

hi elena!

ergoproxy said...

oh dear... I am watching the View and a woman (I don't know who she is) says her son's teachers "tweet" them during the day to say what the kids are doing, I HOPE it's like an on set tutor thing not something else parents are going to expect teachers to do!!!!

Amyranth said...

WAIT.

ONE SECOND.

ERGO IS FRANK?

elena said...

Hello right back to everyone!

Ergo that package got to you so quickly. I'm shocked. Now read "A Small Dark Place" so we can discuss.

Wendy I'm not sure Jake can make it. He's too young to get in.

J the dancers will be so worth the wait.

Anon616 said...

~~~Oh, wait. I get it. THEY'RE the dancers! ~~~~~~~~~


O_O

Ummm.... but Amy, BC and I were hoping for Dani Filth! Or at least a Dani look alike. Shucks!

Anonymous said...

A dani filth look alike? Ha, not for me!

Amyranth said...

Well, he is going bald... I think I like the long hair when it's not tied up in dreds or braids.

ergoproxy said...

ok I'm reading TUA right now but it'll be my next

Anon616 said...

You're right, sweetcheeks! A copy can never come close to the original!
;)

~no way, no how!~

*wink again*

Anon616 said...

I like him any way, Amy!!!! Hell, he could shave his head and I would still love him!

Original Punk J said...

Really, though, Amy should pick who the dancers are b/c it's her birthday.

Amy? Anyone you like. You can then cover them in Reese's PB Cups and, um, go from there...

And ask Ergo about the Frank thing. She has all the info. Ergo, how did DangerHand react to that news?

Anon616 said...

J: I think we should should get Mr. Amy to dance for us!!!

His brother too!!!!!!!

Anonymous said...

Maybe for Amy's b'day Mayo will actually give her the blog. She's worked so hard for it getting rid of all the bad people.

Original Punk J said...

Ooooh Wendy, I think that would be treading on thin ice there! Now maybe Mister would dance for Amy privately. That would work.

Anonymous said...

Sugarplum, lol, I am not attracted to Dani Filth.

ergoproxy said...

J he was a little miffed

Anon616 said...

J: I think perhaps you are right!

I'm still hoping Mr. Amy's brother will dance for us, though!


Amy: Don't tell him I typed that for the world to see!
;)

Amyranth said...

Mister gave me a private viewing earlier in the evening. So don't you worry about that! XD

As for the dancers, they can be just about anyone at this point. As long as they're oiled.

And not clowns. Or anything of the clown persuasion. I'm tired of having penises waved at me than honk a merry little tune.

Oh, and if the dancers can take debit, that would be great.

Anon616 said...

Bleeding Chaos said...
Sugarplum, lol, I am not attracted to Dani Filth.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


WHAT????? First, you tell me you don't like really HIM and now THIS!!!! It's too much, sweetcheeks. It's all just too much!

*faints*

ergoproxy said...

"I'm tired of having penises waved at me than honk a merry little tune."



a common occurrence Amy?

Anonymous said...

Hahaha, sugarplum, CoF is one of my favorite bands, but I'm not attracted to their front man. Not at all ^__^

As for HIM, I happen to like them, I just think that they should improve their live performance.

Anon616 said...

Amyranth said...
Mister gave me a private viewing earlier in the evening.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Was it a nice, long, leisurely slow ride, Amy?
;)

Ooops, sorry... I'm passed out!

Amyranth said...

Anytime the clown strippers show up, it gets to be a bit of an issue.

The glitter isn't so bad, but it's just the honking. >_<

Amyranth said...

;)

I figured that would make you "come to" Wendy!

Original Punk J said...

Honking penises.

DO NOT WANT.

Oiled penises decorated with glitter.

COULD DEAL WITH VERY WELL.

Anon616 said...

"I'm tired of having penises waved at me than honk a merry little tune."~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Okay, THAT revived me!!! Waving and Honking penises and HIM LOVE! Nothing can revive me faster than that!

Amyranth said...

Oiled penises decorated with glitter.

COULD DEAL WITH VERY WELL.


Oh. Dear.

Edward is stripping at my party? O_o

Anon616 said...

One of my ex boyfriends did the neatest little thing with his... ummm... yeah. He called it "windmills"!

He could just feel that blowing coming....

;)

Original Punk J said...

Who's Edward? Is he in that Twilight fiasco? Then, NO. Def. DO NOT WANT.

Wendy, you know the most interesting people. O_o

Anonymous said...

Edward is stripping at my party? O_o
-------------------------------------

See, now that's just pure disgusting.

*barfs*

Amyranth said...

*dies*

Well Wendy, at least he knew how to swing a bat!

BC and J, don't worry, the light is too bright in here anyway. It would look like we were waving dollar bills at a disco ball.

KOL anon said...

Hello everyone. Sorry to interrupt. I'd like to wish Amy a happy birthday (I hope it's still your birthday in your time zone; it's after midnight here).

I just got back to my hotel from the KOL show. Oh my God, it was amazing. PNC only has assigned seats in the pit and I was on the FIRST ROW, right at the barrier with no pushing or shoving! Not only that, I was directly in front of Caleb's mic! *dies and is dead*

I came away with one of Nathan's drumsticks and one of Jared's picks. I wanted one of Caleb's picks, but no such luck. Still, I'm not complaining. ^_^

The show was amazing. My fifth one and these guys just seem to get better and better. Oh, and if someone tells you that Caleb is amazingly, ubelievably and almost frighteningly gorgeous up close and personal, believe it. And Nathan is...well, God. He's Nathan. 'Nuff said. Jared and Matthew are pretty sweet on the eyes as well.

Anyhoo, I still have a few emails and other places to comment and then I'm going to go to bed and pass out.

Hopefully I'll speak to you tomorrow.

Anon616 said...

Amy: You just have no idea how well he could swing that bat!


Damn! I wonder where he is now?
;)

ergoproxy said...

wooooo KOL!!!

sounds like you had a fantastic time, and great souvenirs!!
So glad it was a good concert

Anonymous said...

Goodnight KOL anon. It looks like you had an awesome time. That's cool. Sweet dreams.

I think KOL is going to be at Lalapalooza this year here in Chicago, but I have to check.

Amyranth said...

Hey KOL! Thanks for the wishes!

I'm glad to hear you had such a great time, and that after-show rush is the best, isn't it? It's always enough to get you home, but you FEEL like you could run to the tops of mountains, screaming about how great the band was.

Well, that's if you still have a voice. And legs that work. I never do.

Have a good sleep and see you around tomorrow@!

Original Punk J said...

Hi and goodnight KOL! Glad you had such a great time at your show. And souvenirs to boot! Be careful driving home tomorrow.

Anon616 said...

KOL anon: Thank you for the show review! I'm so happy to hear you had such a great time! I never doubted, for one second, that your KOL experience would be anything less than fantastic!!!!

Get some sleep, love! Have wonderful KOL dreams!

Anon616 said...

~~~~~~~~~Oh, and if someone tells you that Caleb is amazingly, ubelievably and almost frighteningly gorgeous up close and personal, believe it. And Nathan is...well, God. He's Nathan. 'Nuff said. Jared and Matthew are pretty sweet on the eyes as well.~~~~~~~~~~


Lies, KOL anon! ALL LIES!
*huge, long wink*

KOL anon said...

Thanks, guys. I'm definitely on an adrenaline high, Amy. It's a great feeling.

And yes, BC, I do think KOL are playing Lollapalooza. They love doing festivals. They do Reading and Leeds in the UK just about every year, only this time they're headlining. ^_^

Thanks again and goodnight.

Amyranth said...

And with that, my Ladies, I have to run. I need to be up early for work in the morning. Again.

If the strippers show up, have your fun girls, but be nice Wendy!

Have a good night, and thanks everyone again!

ergoproxy said...

goodnight KOL

Anonymous said...

Goodnight amy sweet dreams birthday girl

Original Punk J said...

Goodnight Amy, I'm so glad you had a good day and a good time here tonight! Happy Birthday one more time; dream sweet Sailor Moon dreams.

toujours said...

good night amyranth!

good night to you, too, kol anon.

i should probably be thinking about heading toward bed myself. it was fun reading along with all the silliness here tonight!

good night bc, j., wendy, ergo, and elena. sweet dreams all. :)

Anonymous said...

Goodnight tj sweet dreams

Original Punk J said...

Goodnight TJ, see you tomorrow!

Anon616 said...

Amyranth said...
And with that, my Ladies, I have to run. I need to be up early for work in the morning. Again.

If the strippers show up, have your fun girls, but be nice Wendy!

Hmmm... who? Me? I promise I'll remember to feed the ones I keep. If I forget, they could always ask Bikey for the escape plans.
;)


*wipes chocolate sauce and whipped cream off of her lips*

I'm always nice to the male strippers, Amy! Especially the one's with long hair!
;)

*can just hear the "ho, ho, ho's" coming*

Goodnight Amy!!!! Thanks for sharing your birthday with us!!!!!

ergoproxy said...

goodnight Amy sweet birthday dreams

goodnight TJ sweet dreams too

Anon616 said...

Goodnight TJ! Sweet dreams to you as well!

Original Punk J said...

I'm going on to bed too, girls, I have places to go and things to do tomorrow. Need my rest, you know; all us "old-timers" do!

Goodnight Ergo, Wendy, BC, hope you all have good days/nights! Sleep well.

xo

Anonymous said...

Goodnight J, sweet dreams to you and L

Anon616 said...

J: I know no one. I have no knowledge of the events which you speak of. I was not there. I did not see a thing. I was not involved. I know nothing!

That's my story and I'm sticking to it... forever!
:P

Goodnight J (and L)! Sweet dreams to the both of you!!!!

*blows night night kisses to everyone who has gone beddy bye*

ergoproxy said...

goodnight J sweet dreams

where did Elena get to?

Original Punk J said...

Dear SS,

Like I said, I've got errands to run tomorrow; as the song says, "ain't no rest for the wicked". ;)

I've got several packages to mail out, going all over the place. One's going to a good friend of mine who's got a lot of time on his hands. Got to keep this one busy, it could be dangerous if he's not! So I've sent him three books, a mix CD, a DVD, and--for some odd reason--a candle. ?? Who knows. He likes 'em.

Another package is for Amy, it's her birthday present so I won't tell you what's in it. Don't want to spoil the surprise! I hope she likes it; it's "customized" just for her!

Got one for L's sister, also a bday gift, and three or four others.

Yeah, I've got a Hefty bag full. Hope I can get it up the stairs to the car!

There's no package, but I'm sending you thoughts to make you happy, and shiny stars to light your way.

Goodnight, baby. I love you.

My heart to yours, always.

Anon616 said...

Ergo: I think Elena may have hit the jackpot tonight! At least, I hope she did!
;)

toujours said...

mayo,

i must have run out of steam or something -- normally i'd be chairdancing and joking around, but tonight i was content to sit on the couch and just read along, enjoying the company even though i had nothing to add to the conversation.

maybe it's just that i've been on fast forward for a few days now, things have been going well for me (knock on wood) and i've been enjoying everything. i was able to have my favorite dinner last night -- jasmine rice, miso soup, and steamed veg w/soy sauce -- and even a little thing like that made me happy.

i suppose this is the breath in between the songs. i feel suspended, aware of what's brought me here and catching glimpses of possible futures, all at once. when i look behind me, i really only see three years back, that's when everything changed and i really think of that as being the start of my life...

and so much has happened, so much that i never would have imagined i could have experienced.

i used to be so afraid. i used to put everything off for "someday", because "someday" i would be perfect and able to do anything i wanted. i missed out on so much. i cloistered myself.

now, i just go forward, i don't care if i fall splat on my face, i'd rather fail at something than never try. i'd rather be bruised than pristine.

still scared though.
still want to be perfect.

not going to let that stop me anymore, though, and haven't, not in this new life.



i don't have a single clue why i'm writing this, where did it come from? i swear i wasn't thinking about this stuff earlier, i was cringing at the thought of glitter! *grin*


good night mayo. take big steps, even if they lead you far afield. how else are you going to have adventures?

Anon616 said...

Well, since most of our friends have gone to bed, I think it's time for some lighter, acoustic music.
:)

~Don't let go of life, let go of love, let go of all we have....~

I love, love, love that one!

elena said...

Mayo

It was a fun night here at the castle. I was here but not really. Kinda hard to explain but part of me wanted to be here with my friends but another part of me just wanted to be alone. Alone with my thoughts which are very confused at the moment. So much is going on in my life right now that I feel like my brain is overloaded and when that happens it starts to shut down. Maybe it’s a defense mechanism, I’m really not sure. I like to think that it’s just my way of giving myself some time to gather my thoughts and plan a course of action. Then again it could just be that I’m really into avoidance. You know, just don’t think about things and they’ll go away. Yeah, I know that really doesn’t work. Little problems just keep growing into bigger ones if they aren’t dealt with. Still tonight I just can’t deal. I’ll put that off until tomorrow. Maybe a fresh new day with the promise of a fresh start will give me a better perspective. Shit, at this point I just whispered “And what color is the sky in your world?’ See? Too negative right now.

So here is hoping that today was the kind of day for you that let you hang with your friends. I hope you smiled often and that the smiles were real. Take care.

Night Mayo

Elena (tired, confused, and yet still hopeful)

Anon616 said...

~~~~~ i really only see three years back, that's when everything changed and i really think of that as being the start of my life...~~~~~

*hugs TJ*

I suppose I was born lucky in that respect. Or, lucky that I was born alive ~ if you will. You see, I wasn't supposed to be!

Not only was I a SURPISE; but also a "WOW, the baby is alive" one.

My mom weighed 115 pounds when she got pregnant with me (later in life). She weighed under 100 pounds when she delivered me!

A complete blood tranfusion at 2 hours old and I was good to go! Until 7 years old; but, that was taken care of at that time and I was good until around 19. Once again, all taken care of and I'm still here and I'm still going! YAY me (and you too)!

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL!!! It really is ashame so many don't realize that until they are faced with their own mortality.

That's what I meant when I said I was born lucky/lucky to be born (alive). Some of us faced that mortality at a very young age; and, in doing so realized just how precious and beautiful life truly is.

Every breath, every heartbeat, every joy, every triumph, every pain, every smile, every tear and every sorrow...
:)
all of it is beautiful!

ergoproxy said...

TJ and wendy, it's always worth remembering how much we are blessed just to experience

elena
*hug*
I'll start reading tonight
right after I cook squirrel and vinegar pie
(and I have your keyring on my keys)
and baby girl loves her tornado and wierd ball thing

Anonymous said...

Goodnight elena

Anon616 said...

Well poop! I think I have killed Mayo's blog with my story of life... not my life's story. Oh no! That's going to take much more than just one mystery blog!

Sorry for putting your blog on life support, Mayo!

On that note, I shall bid you all a goodnight.

Thank you Amy, Sweetcheeks, Ergo, J, KOL, Elena, TJ, Carrie! It was fun!!!

Goodnight to everyone and sweet dreams to one and all!

Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy

ergoproxy said...

goodnight wendy sweet dreams

Anonymous said...

Goodnight sugarplum.

I'm gonna sign off for the night as well. Goodnight ergo sweet dreams.

ergoproxy said...

goodnight BC sweet dreams to you to

g'nite bloggers said...

THE CRESCENT MOON

"THE RECALL

THE night was dark when she went away, and they slept.

The night is dark now, and I call for her, "Come back, my darling; the world is asleep; and no one would know, if you came for a moment while stars are gazing at stars."

She went away when the trees were in bud and the spring was young.

Now the flowers are in high bloom and I call, "Come back, my darling. The children gather and scatter flowers in reckless sport. And if you come and take one little blossom no one will miss it."

Those that used to play are playing still, so spendthrift is life.

I listen to their chatter and call, "Come back, my darling, for mother's heart is full to the brim with love, and if you come to snatch only one little kiss from her no one will grudge it."


THE FIRST JASMINES

AH, these jasmines, these white jasmines!

I seem to remember the first day when I filled my hands with these jasmines, these white jasmines.

I have loved the sunlight, the sky and the green earth;

I have heard the liquid murmur of the river through the darkness of midnight;

Autumn sunsets have come to me at the bend of a road in the lonely waste, like a bride raising her veil to accept her lover.

Yet my memory is still sweet with the first white jasmines that I held in my hand when I was a child.

Many a glad day has come in my life, and I have laughed with merrymakers on festival nights.

On grey mornings of rain I have crooned many an idle song.

I have worn round my neck the evening wreath of bakulas woven by the hand of love.

Yet my heart is sweet with the memory of the first fresh jasmines that filled my hands when I was a child.

MY SONG

THIS song of mine will wind its music around you, my child, like the fond arms of love.

This song of mine will touch your forehead like a kiss of blessing.

When you are alone it will sit by your side and whisper in your ear, when you are in the crowd it will fence you about with aloofness.

My song will be like a pair of wings to your dreams, it will transport your heart to the verge of the unknown.

It will be like the faithful star overhead when dark night is over your road.

My song will sit inthe pupils of your eyes, and will carry your sight into the heart of things.

And when my voice is silent in death, my song will speak in your living heart.
"



by
Rabindranath Tagore

Anonymous said...

Met a girl, thought she was grand
Fell in love found out first hand
Went well for a week or two
Then it all came unglued

In a trap, trip I can't grip
Never thought I'd be the one who'd slip
Then I started to realize
I was living one big lie

Chorus:

She fuckin' hates me
Trust
She fuckin' hates me
La la la love
I tried too hard
And she tore my feelings like I had none
And ripped them away

She was queen for about an hour
After that, shegot sour
She took all I ever had
No sign of guilt
No feelin' of bad
No

In a trap, trip I can't grip
Never thought I'd be the one who'd slip
Then I started to realize
I was living one big lie

Chorus

That's my story
As you see
Learned my lesson
And so did she
Now it's over
And I'm glad
Cause I'm a fool
For all I've said

Chorus

La la la la la la la la la love
Trust
La la la la la la la la la la
Just
La la la la la(and she tore my feelings like i had none, just)
La la la la
She fuckin' hates me

ergoproxy said...

goodnight g'mite

3:52 that's a fun song

Anon616 said...

Wait. WHAT??????

DJ Ashba is the new guitarist for Guns N' Roses?!!!!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
On the 21st of March 2009 Ashba was appointed the new Guns N' Roses guitarist, replacing Robin Finck.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Chinese Democracy" is looking a hell of a lot better today!

Not that Robin Finck isn't great. He is. It's just he belongs with NIN more than GnR!

And, DJ Ashba is brilliant!!!!! Whether he's with SIXX:AM, Beautiful Creatures, Motley Crue, on his own...

I wuv him!!!!
:D

*grabs Ergo and does a happy dance*

*blows goodnight kisses to blog believe*

Anon616 said...

*note to self: find that dang password for trig*

Anon616 said...

One more thing, for those of you who don't know who DJ Ashba is (you should)!

~he is~

~so damn talented!!!~

~~~~DJ Ashba was born in Monticello, Indiana on the early Friday morning of November 10th. At age 1, The Ashba family moved to Fairbury, Illinois, a small country farm town, raised by his mother, a classical pianist, who taught DJ about music at a young age. He was instantly obsessed with it.


DJ started playing piano at age 3 and played his first recital at 5, performing Beethoven's classic "Ode to Joy." By age 6, he was studying drums, banging on garbage cans, pots, pans, buckets and anything he could get his hands on. Finally, getting a real set, he studied rhythm.


At age 8, DJ worked de-tasseling corn in the fields for one year until he was able to buy his first electric guitar out of the Sears catalog. The Harmony white Flying V was priced at $89.00. As he rode on the bus to the corn fields each day, he sat with a friend he made, an older guitar player from a local band. DJ would take his pocket knife and carve a fret board on the seat in front of them. His buddy would take the knife, poke 3 holes, and say "That's an A chord," go home and practice that tonight. Everyday DJ looked forward to going to work so he could learn a new chord.


DJ grew up in an eight-bedroom house with no TV, due to his religious mother. He would sit in his room and practice his new guitar 17 hours a day. At 16, he was taken to his first concert by his dad—the Mˆtley Cr¸e "Girls, Girls, Girls" tour. It was the night that changed his life forever. By 19, he packed his possessions in a van and drove to Hollywood, joining a band called Barracuda. As a solo artist, he released his first instrumental album, ASHBA: Addiction to the Friction, and earned six Best Guitar Player awards.


DJ Ashba co-founded the band Beautiful Creatures, landing a major label deal with Warner Bros. Writing all the music, his song, "Ride" ended up in the major motion picture Rollerball, while "Wasted" appeared in Valentine and "1 a.m." was used in the TV show Smallville and on Howard Stern.


Beautiful Creatures opened for KISS on their farewell concert jaunt, then went on to perform on Ozzfest 2001, played with Marilyn Manson and toured Japan. The video for "Wasted" was featured on MTV and the band performed a full concert for HBO's Reverb. The band also made appearances on The Late Late Show with Craig Kilborn with Knock-Turn-Al as well as memorable performances at Sundance Film Festival and Denver's Mile High Stadium.


DJ Ashba is endorsed by over 15 major music companies. He has toured the world, blowing away audiences with his out-of-control stage performances. DJ has appeared in Rolling Stone and numerous other worldwide ads and videos.
~~~~

You can read the rest here:

~DJ Ashba forum~

:D

ergoproxy said...

Mayo
well I can't think of anything to tell you, which I suppose is a good thing in a way. I didn't do much today, as I didn't have to. Which was nice for a change. 2 days left of work, hope they are uneventful, that's always best
hope your days are calm and pleasant too
much love EP xx

SS
been up to anything fun lately? I hope you have, a few laughs here and there make life so much nicer don't you think. So have a giggle, there are enough absurdities I'm sure something would tickle your fancy
lotsa love EP xx

goodnight blogbelieve see you in my morning
♥xx♥

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...
4:51,

Frank and SS both spelled weird wrong
.

When was this? I must have missed it.

Anonymous said...

Silent sleeper, I've been inside your bedroom.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...
4:51,

Frank and SS both spelled weird wrong.


Anonymous said...
When was this? I must have missed it.



You didn't miss much, except that Frank and SS don't know how to spell the word weird. SS spelt it as wierd on his last blog post and then Frank spelled it the same way on twitter yesterday. It's realy not a big deal.

Jennicula said...

If someone is truly ill as you say, they would display no sense of humor. I don't think you understand them at all. And, I also think you have no understanding of what constitutes mental illness.

I’m not going to attempt to explain my friend’s reasoning for what she does or does not do that may or may not fit into the box of conformity you say is for mental illness. Mental illness takes on many different forms, varying degrees, and coping techniques. To say that there’s only one type in this world is to say that all humans are built exactly the same. It just isn’t true. Not everybody has the same issues or responds the same way when medicated or not medicated. I believe your experience with mental illness is quite different than what I have experienced.

You are even denser than I originally thought.

That could very well be true. You never know. I was surprised you held me in such high regard before all this. Thank you for reminding me why I stopped sharing over here in the first place. I hope you have a lovely day.

elena said...

Jen

Please DO NOT let comments like that keep you from sharing here. Believe me there are so many more people here that care how you think and feel then those who do not. Please don't let their insensitive words hurt you.

Once more I want to thank you for sharing the story about your friend. You have a beautiful way with words, very honest. Take care.

Anonymous said...

But Kapunua can't share her words about her grandmother though.

sister midnite said...

Hi evveybuddeh! ^_^

O_o Did I see Wendy talking about DJ Ashba!? He's one of the nicest guys around. Looks like a dirty rocker dude, but he's a sweetie!

KOL, thanks for sharing your show! I'm glad you had a great time. :)

I'm off & on, I think I should get rid of some of these tail-feathers stuck to my boots. Laterz!

sister midnite said...

Hi Jenn, Hi Elena!

Jenn, don't let some nasty little troll stop you from sharing - please. So many people here (including me) love reading your words; they're always heartfelt, and your phrasing is amaaaazing.

This place was in my dream last night, and I was literally walking around stomping on nasty anon's feets. ^_^ They're so quick to judge (other people's looks, life experiences, etc.), when they're either not old enough or miserable enough to believe that anyone CARES what they think.

Fuck' em -- they're not worth it.

Anonymous said...

I've been lurking, sometimes commenting long enough to know that most anon's are YOU guys. I thought so for a long time. Then MJ came out and said she was the anon who kicked Kapu when she was down after her granma died. I hardly saw anyone complain about "anons" then, but I saw alot of you supporting her decision to act like a total bitch to Kap.

This is why I never got an account. I don't want any of you to know my name. Most of you are so crazy, constantly hurting one or two people left and right. The others either support the ugliness or stand there pretending it's not happening. It's wrong.

Anonymous said...

I too was shocked. But I was less shocked at MJ then I was shocked at how everyone else seemed to think it was ok for her to act like that. That kind of thing, is never ok.

Anonymous said...

I always knew when MJ was anoning. Her writing style is very distinctive.

Anonymous said...

That's a polite way of describing it anon.

Anonymous said...

But I was less shocked at MJ then I was shocked at how everyone else seemed to think it was ok for her to act like that.

And not only did they think it was okay, they thought that she was so brave for doing it.

Anonymous said...

Also? "Calaff" freaks me out.

Anonymous said...

There were the ones who thought it was ok - then there were the ones who pretended it didn't happen. I don't know which one's I think were worse!

Anonymous said...

IKR? If she didn't think there was anything wrong with what she was saying, she would have said it signed in. Kicking someone when they are down is bad enough, doing it as an anon is cowardly.

Anonymous said...

I wish I could see the email that Kap sent to her. I would love to be a fly on the wall for that conversation.

OK, I have to get back to work but I had to air that out. I hate it when someone (like just happened) comes acting like they are a hero for sticking up for someone, when in reality they didn't stick up for someone else just because it was a "regular" who they found out was anoning.

Hypocrites.

Anonymous said...

I agree. Calaf IS creepy.

Anon1 out.

Anonymous said...

Also.... remember Mustardisbetter? I miss him/her.

Anonymous said...

Yeah, they were nice.

Nice talking to you anons. Any ex watchers??

Anonymous said...

I like the KOL anons too. They are nice.

Anonymous said...

I miss Meese.

Anonymous said...

Not an official "watcher" from any group, just a watcher.

KOL anons are nice. I like the pic's better than the music tbh.

safe said...

Does MJ still come here? I'd like to try and contact her if I can. I miss her and I want to know how she's getting on.

Anonymous said...

Who knows. She disgraced herself and left. There's another blog that they all hang out at but I don't know where it is and I don't want to know. She acted like an animal.

Anonymous said...

But I think she still does read here because there are "anons" sometimes who can't spell in the exact same way she can't spell.

sister midnite said...

Anonymous said...

I wish I could see the email that Kap sent to her. I would love to be a fly on the wall for that conversation.

OK, I have to get back to work but I had to air that out. I hate it when someone (like just happened) comes acting like they are a hero for sticking up for someone, when in reality they didn't stick up for someone else just because it was a "regular" who they found out was anoning.

Hypocrites.

May 13, 2009 2:38 PM

Anon, were you referring to me?

Anonymous said...

Of course MJ lurks here.

Anonymous said...

MJ is perfectly entitled to be here, as we all are obviously.

Anonymous said...

No SM, I don't even know if you ever said anything towards the MJ thing or not.

sister midnite said...

Just checking, 3:26. :)

No, I never said anything about the MJ thing, because I wasn't here at the time. (I'm only online sporadically, when things aren't too busy at work.) But Kapunua knows that I consider her a friend.

However you all feel about MJ, I'm pretty sure that she has her email addy on her profile.

It's hard to know if anons are regs or not. But I do wish that there wasn't so much hatred here, I really do. :\

Guess I'll have to put it on my Gift Faerie list. *smirk*

safe said...

Hey Regulars and Anons,

How are you all? I hope you are well.

Nice poem, Mayo. Although, for the most part, poetry is lost on me.

MJ, if you do still visit here, can you email me if you still have my addy - I know that was ages ago! I think I still have yours (somewhere!) but I didn't want to email you without your permission incase you got pissed.

ergoproxy said...

good morning!!! I have my last yr 8 maths lesson today!!!
YAY!!!!

gotta get worksheets sorted, hope everyone is well

xx

Anonymous said...

COME BACK MJ..We aint mad atcha!!!!!

Anonymous said...

Who knows. She disgraced herself and left. There's another blog that they all hang out at but I don't know where it is and I don't want to know. She acted like an animal.
--------------------------------------


Everyone acts like animals sometime........Come Back MJ>>>Its OK...Take your little keyboard and type....W.A.Z.Z U.P
and then "Just push Play"

ADAM SANDLER SAYS..."YUUU CAN DU IETTT!!!!

Anonymous said...

Forgiveness

Anonymous said...

Or Maybe This One

Anonymous said...

Elizabeth Bishop’s Questions of travel

There are too many waterfalls here; the crowded streams
hurry too rapidly down to the sea,
and the pressure of so many clouds on the mountaintops
makes them spill over the sides in soft slow-motion,
turning to waterfalls under our very eyes.
- For if those streaks, those mile-long, shiny, tearstains
aren’t waterfalls yet,
in a quick age or so, as ages go here,
they probably will be.
But if the streams and clouds keep travelling, travelling,
the mountains look like the hulls of capsized ships,
slime-hung and barnacled

Think of the long trip home.
Should we have stayed at home and thought of here?
Where should we be today?
Is it right to be watching strangers in a play
in this strangest of theaters?
what childishness is it that while there’s a breath of life
in our bodies, we are determined to rush
to see the sun the other way around?
The tiniest green hummingbird in the world?
To stare at some inexplicable old stonework,
inexplicable and impenetrable,
at any view,
instantly seen and always, always delightful?

Oh must we dream our dreams
and have them too?
And have we room
for one more folded sunset, still quite warm?

But surely, it would have been a pity
not to have seen the trees along this road,
really exaggerated in their beauty,
not to have seen them gesturing
like noble pantomimists, robed in pink.
- Not to have had to stop for gas and heard
the sad, two-noted wooden tune
of disparate wooden clogs
carelessly clacking over
a grease-stained filling-station floor.
(In another country, the clogs would all be tested.
Each pair there would have an identical pitch.)
- A pity not to have heard
the other, less primitive music of the fat brown bird
who sings above the broken gasoline pump
in a bamboo church of Jesuit baroque:
three towers, five silver crosses.
- Yes a pity not to have pondered,
blurr’dly and inconclusively,
on what connection can exist for centuries
between the crudest wooden footwear
and, careful, finicky,
the whittled fantasies of wooden cages.
- Never to have studied history in
the weak calligraphy of songbirds’ cages
and never to have had to listen to rain
so much like politician’s speeches:
two hours of unrelenting oratory
and then a sudden golden silence
in which the traveller takes a notebook, writes:

“Is it lack of imagination that makes us come
to imagined places, not just stay at home?
Or could Pascal have been not entirely right
about just sitting quietly in one’s room?

Continent, city, country, society:
the choice is never wide and never free.
And here, or there...No. Should we have stayed at home,
wherever that may be?

Anonymous said...

Forgiveness


AT dusk the window panes grew grey;
The wet world vanished in the gloom;
The dim and silver end of day
Scarce glimmered through the little room.

And all my sins were told; I said
Such things to her who knew not sin—
The sharp ache throbbing in my head,
The fever running high within.

I touched with pain her purity;
Sin’s darker sense I could not bring:
My soul was black as night to me;
To her I was a wounded thing.

I needed love no words could say;
She drew me softly nigh her chair,
My head upon her knees to lay,
With cool hands that caressed my hair.

She sat with hands as if to bless,
And looked with grave, ethereal eyes;
Ensouled by ancient Quietness,
A gentle priestess of the Wise.



by George William Russell

Anonymous said...

6:29

Don Henley FTW.

Amyranth said...

Elena, sometimes you just need to observe.

Is anyone around?

Anonymous said...

Happy Late Birthday, Amyranth

Anonymous said...

What, no one gave Amyranth the blog for her birthday?

Unless it's already hers. Of course....

hug and run said...

*runs in



hugs mayo

hugs ss

hugs amy



runs out*

Anonymous said...

Give it a rest, 10:03. This shit's getting old. No, actually it was old months ago. Now it's just sad. Find a hobby. Besides bothering people here. Because it DOES bother the people who want to just come in and talk to each other and have a nice time. It bothers people no matter who they like, think is right or just want to get along with everyone. For the sake of the people caught in the middle, just leave it.

Anonymous said...

all you need is

Anonymous said...

love

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