I hate to see you
When you're falling apart
Can't you start over, again?
Elizabeth crumbles
Alone in her chair
Keeps her windows shut
To keep out the air
Elizabeth crumbles
Alone in her bed
Spends all her pastime
Mulled in her dread
What keeps her living
Is her fear of being
Anywhere other than here
So they’ll feed her too much
Or it’s never enough,
Then it's fuck you
“Get the hell out of here!"
Elizabeth stumbles
Over everything I've said
Pining words are useless
Pushed round in her head
The mystery was my bravery
I never knew what I'd get
Will it be her fear or regret?
Her confusion my denial?
Walked her shoes a while
Now she can’t turn back
So she said then she’ll stay
And I will walk away
Elizabeth mumbles
Over and over my name
Forgetting tomorrow
Will never be the same
She’s repeating her beating
Did you bring her a drink?
Why are you leaving?
What the hell do you think?
That she’ll fuck you
To get the hell out of here
Elizabeth tumbles
Out onto the floor
With an abandon of reason
It is herself abhorred
She sat alone in her room
Pouring over her gloom
Never got out of her chair
And they don't even care
Now that they’ve all receded
Into the ground or fleeted
To the wormholes
And woodwork back there
You'll find repair
Where that memory
Becomes illusory
Look, again?
p.s. in the end it is what you think you will get.
When you're falling apart
Can't you start over, again?
Elizabeth crumbles
Alone in her chair
Keeps her windows shut
To keep out the air
Elizabeth crumbles
Alone in her bed
Spends all her pastime
Mulled in her dread
What keeps her living
Is her fear of being
Anywhere other than here
So they’ll feed her too much
Or it’s never enough,
Then it's fuck you
“Get the hell out of here!"
Elizabeth stumbles
Over everything I've said
Pining words are useless
Pushed round in her head
The mystery was my bravery
I never knew what I'd get
Will it be her fear or regret?
Her confusion my denial?
Walked her shoes a while
Now she can’t turn back
So she said then she’ll stay
And I will walk away
Elizabeth mumbles
Over and over my name
Forgetting tomorrow
Will never be the same
She’s repeating her beating
Did you bring her a drink?
Why are you leaving?
What the hell do you think?
That she’ll fuck you
To get the hell out of here
Elizabeth tumbles
Out onto the floor
With an abandon of reason
It is herself abhorred
She sat alone in her room
Pouring over her gloom
Never got out of her chair
And they don't even care
Now that they’ve all receded
Into the ground or fleeted
To the wormholes
And woodwork back there
You'll find repair
Where that memory
Becomes illusory
Look, again?
p.s. in the end it is what you think you will get.
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Hiya Amy, Ergo, hope you're well.
Hi there L, how are you doing? *big squeezy hugs* it's so good to see you :)
Hey, Ergo, BC. I'm doing good, how are you?
Because, Ergo, as Eddie Izzard says, they have a "turning button", and you can't trust them!
hi L it's one of those mysteries I think
hi BC
I have a question that maybe you guys can answer. I was watching an interview with a band the other night and they were talking about how they will go into the studio and have "naked days" where they just strip off and record. I've also heard similar interviews with other bands.
My question is,
Why?
What's the deal with them stripping buck neked in the studio? And don't the insturments (the musical ones LOL) chaffe? I can see the singer and the drummer not having too "hard" a time, but what about the bass and other guitars? Since they hang right at that level, and most musicians get really into playing, isn't there a chance of some pretty painful injuries?
How do you explain THAT at the E.R.? :)
Maybe they like to look at each others dicks. Must be a male thing.
oh my just had a vision of a guy with appendage tangled in guitar strings presenting to the ER naked
HAHAHAHAHAHA
it's a dick thing L, like how guys feel the need to run about naked in front of each other when they get drunk
never understood the reason, it's nothing pretty to look at
maybe they hope women will take their lead?
The band I saw the interview with was Barenaked Ladies, and Ed said that they did it to begin with because they thought it was funny, like "whoo-hoo, look at us, we're in the studio and we're naked!"
I suppose they see it as being freeing and getting back to the reality of just being one with the music.....
or it's as 10:43 said!!
lets just hope it's not chilly in there
L I am having a hard enough time keeping a straight face imagining it, so I bet it was very "woo hoo" funny!!
Ergo, can you imagine Ray showing up in the ER after a shredding session?
It's true, the first thing guys do is strip. We had a story in the paper a few years ago here about the "Nacho Cheese Guy". He and his buddies went out to celebrate his birthday, got drunk and the guy decided the best way to celebrate was to strip off naked, break into a ball park, get into the snack bar area and dump a huge tub of nacho cheese on himself. The police caught him in that state trying to climb the fence out of the park.
It was part of the evolution of the male brain. In stone age times, they must have sat around the camp fire, comparing their sizes to each other when they had nothing to talk about, which is most of the time, so...
And it's like males with grills and barbeques, the burning of meat is so primal to them. So it must be that, a primal urge.
You may be right, anon. Not a good idea to mix the two, though.
I am trying hard NOT to try imagining it L!!
at my brother in laws wedding, while the reception guests were still inside, he and some mates went out, stripped off and ran about
perhaps it's because they feel inhibited by societies expectations, so being drunk or whatever is a convenient "excuse" if they are questioned about it later, though the nacho cheese is hard to explain
women see so many partially or fully naked women all the time in the media but men rarely really see other naked men
LOL Ergo, I was about to ask if I had traumatized you about Ray!
True, there has been full frontal nudity of women in movies for a long time, but it's only been recently that some full frontal shots of men have been included.
I'm sure your brother in law's guests were surprised!
it's even on the wedding video! lol
LOL! Can you imagine years from now on the Golden Anniversary and the bride and groom relive their wedding day?
Are you feeling better? Stomach flu can be rough!
B.C., are you still around?
interesting conversation here lol!
actually, there's a whole subject of study there -- a naked man is still "taboo" because a naked man is naked, but a naked woman is an idea (allegorical statues, etc.), an object to be looked at.
there are books on it, art historians have written dissertations on it! it goes waaay beyond just porn.
yep.
and, hi. :)
Hi TJ! How ya doing?
Yeah, the conversation came about after hearing another band talking about stripping down while recording.
Women have been seen as works of art more so than men. There are the exceptions, like "David", but overall it has been the female body that is more accepted.
I'm still here L, lurking at some sites. Hi there tj, how are you doing? *hugs*
hi l.! so good to see you here! :)
i'm doing good -- little frustrated because of computer difficulties, but otherwise, fine.
i had never heard that about bands recording skyclad (as we say in paganism, lol), that's an eyeopener! ;)
it's true, if you need a generic image to represent an idea, it'll often be a female figure more often than a male (liberty, the muses, etc.), and that's been carried over into our modern media too, although it's used as that whole "sex sells" thing. we're trained to see the female figure as desirable, even as other women. we're trained to look at ourselves in a different way than we do the male figure.
it's interesting when you start seeing how pervasive that attitude is, it's almost subliminal.
hi there bc! *hughug*
how is the summer going for you so far?
hi TJ it is a really interesting area, and it is true in art from the beginning the female form is considered an ideal, due probably to the whole ability to give birth and nurture.
I think the male shape appears more vulnerable, which in society as a whole is not the way men wish to be perceived
plus dangly bits do look a bit silly
TJ, the band was Barnaked Ladies, and I've also read that U2 recorded part of Unforgettable Fire that way.
We do look at ourselves different, then men look at each other. I think. We need a male perspective here. Any lurkers out there with a Y chromosome?
How did it go in the shop today?
plus dangly bits do look a bit silly
And these dangly bits get them into loads of trouble!
TJ, it's been unusually cool this summer. I can't say I'm happy about it, because I'm not. We're finally able to warm up a bit this week. Today I am just trying to relax because my arms are sore from swimming and boxing, and so are my legs. I've been having problems with my right leg for a while :S
How's your weekend so far?
Hello Mayo, SS, L (and J), Ergo, Sweetcheeks, Amy, TJ, anon(s)... everyone!
Figures I would walk in right in the middle of naked men!
:P
How are you all? Well, good, happy and clothed (or not), I hope!
Figures I would walk in right in the middle of naked men! I was just looking at naked, sweaty feet photos!
Check it out:
~That would be Nicko's foot, as photographed by my friend Mooooon!~
What she was doing "down there" at ground level... I do not know. And, IF I did know, I would not tell!
:P
~Not naked; but more than just the foot~
Miranth: How's your mom and how are you? I hope you're doing much, much better tonight. You've had such a rough time lately.
:(
*huge hug*
Amy: Thank you!!! You are awesome too!!!!
Mya: You must send your former boss a "thank you" card! One that requires extra postage!!!! You simply must!
And, you really should get your throat checked out! You know how I worry!
J and L: EXCELLENT music choices!!!! I just love me some Apocalyptica. If they come back to the states, ya'll really have to see them live. They are phenomenal (and, they're so funny!!!). Rancid is pretty damn good too!!!!
4:29 ~ *hugs*
Lewis: DEATH to evil tape dispensers!
Okay... I'm all over the place tonight. Sorry!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ!
it went great in the shop today, l., although i was worn pretty thin. very busy, i hardly had time to eat my lunch! but the end-of-day was a little over average, so that's the best part. :)
hi ergo! i read you're feeling all better? good!
personally, i always drew the female figure, even as a kid i was drawing sketches of little bikini-clad ladies. too many archie comics and barbies, i guess!
then about, gosh, 5 or 6 years ago, i got all interested in the male figure. i was making my husband pose all the time, just so i could draw his collerbone, or the line of his back! it was amazing to see how different the male figure really is, and i totally fell in love with it, the way the muscles are flatter, the lines of the limbs. even a muscled woman is made of curves rather than lines, but a man is all planes. it's fascinating. i still draw women, of course -- i like drawing the human figure more than anything actually, it's the most interesting subject to me -- but i prefer the male figure now.
um, that doesn't have too much to do with the topic at hand, except to say that i think the male figure is under-rated, dangly bits and all! the fact that it is can be seen as a side-effect of the hyperfocus on the female figure, actually.
bc, swimming and boxing are great workouts, good for you! hope you haven't injured yourself, though?
i'm envying you the cool weather -- we're at our normal apparently: hot and muggy. i don't mind it though, oddly enough. and i've got 100+ sunscreen, so i'm set! lol
my weekend just started, but i had an iced mocha on the way home form work, so it started out very very well. :)
and hi wendy, cool pics! he has hs name on his anklebands? that's pretty cute. lol
I agree TJ the male form is quite beautiful and different, so much more strength and definition, and quite underrated
I think there is far too much focus on the female form, and even then only certain variations on it.
glad your shop day went well, busy is hard but the time goes so fast
BC make sure you rest up!
hi wendy :]
Not to much tj, but I am sore, so I'm taking it easy the next couple of days. I can be pretty reckless.
It sounds like you're having a lovely weekend so far :)
Hi sugarplum, how are you doing? *smothers with super ultra sloppy kisses*
Ooops.... please forgive me for repeating myself! Naked men do that to me! And, I didn't even post the picture of Adam yet!
Okay, he's not naked. But, we can imagine, can't we?
~Yes, I think we can imagine!~
It can't hurt!
Hey Wendy!
So, walking into a room full of naked men is pretty common for you, huh? :)
Who is the guy in the picture? Was it one of the bands you saw at the last concert?
J. and I just finished listening to the full Apocalyptica CD tonight. It is really, really good. Thanks for the recommending them! And I love Rancid! You have to check out the video to "Last To Die" on YouTube. It's off the new CD.
TJ, believe it or not, I never got into drawing the human body much. I did portraits, and a lot of objects and abstract, but just never focused on the figure. That may be something to try.
B.C., did you injure your leg while boxing?
and TJ I am feeling better, almost back to normal, it just stopped, which was odd but great :]
I'm even enjoying a honey wheat beer with hubby while his mate gurnies his dogs hunting collars clean (turns out they are almost white, I thought they were browny yellow) years of dirt powered away by the mighty gurnie
(however you spell it - high pressure water cleaner)
my dad's art always featured people, more often than not naked, so I grew up with the view it was quite normal, though of course seeing it for real differs to paintings LOL
Hi, OPL, Ergo, TJ, Wendy, BC!
Yes, I found you girls talking about nekkid men! That figures!
Hi Sweetcheeks, Ergo and TJ!!!!
TJ: Cute? Nicko? Maiden's drummer? Cute?
Hell, he is pretty darn cute, ain't he? He golfs. Nuff said!
:P
Ergo: I'm with you. I think the male form is a pretty darn beautiful thing!
L, actually nope. When I go swimming, I do a few sets of laps, and I tend to use my legs a lot because I don't use them as much as I use my arms, although my knee problem is something I've had long before I started swimming, and I think there's also a problem with it turning the wrong way because it tends to run in the family.
l., the best thing to do, if you want to start drawing the figure, is to do small sketches of yourslef: draw the hand that isn't holding the pencil, stick your feet out in front of you and draw them, and then draw j. when she isn't posing, just sketches of the human form in its everyday stances.
you almost need to train your eye to look at the human body as a shape to draw, just like any other still life subject.
and that's my advice, which is actually the advice my drawing instructor gave me! he'd say in a thick hungarian accent, "this is what you ought to do to be a good draughtsman, you need to look at the body in front of you, you need to draw what is really there."
and then he'd poke at the waist bulges of the soccer player who had come in to sit for us.
poor guy. lol
Mya: Heck, we're red blooded southern women. What did L expect?
;)
Yep, I must admit, I appreciate a nice nekkid male body too!
Hey, Mya. How are you? Did you find a TV?
Ergo, I agree seeing the male figure in person is a little different than in paintings. I did date one guy for that could have qualified as a work of art! He always fretted when he put on an extra 10 or 15 pounds. I thought he looked a whole lot better with the added weight.
hi mya!
oh yes, real life naked is always a little shock, ergo! we had a weekly life drawing class, and the first five minutes of warm-up sketching was as much to get over the fact that you and about 15 other people are sitting around a naked model!
the funny thing for me was that even though my ex and i went to the same school (a few years apart) i could never ever show him my studies from life drawing, because the year i was there his sister was the model! lol i used to tease him...
are you sure you don't want to borrow my studies for that piece you're working on???
*hehehehe*
I didn't go shopping for the TV. I got side-tracked...
But, do you guys think I should maybe see if my old one can be fixed?
Ouch, BC. Have you checked with an orthapedic doctor to see if there is anything they can do? I swim more with my arms than my legs, but I'm trying to work on using them more. I hope you feel better.
TJ, thanks for the advice. I think I will break out the sketch pad when I get a chance.
I think the male form is a pretty darn beautiful thing!
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It is, as long as they don't look like sticks. I like my men with meat and not feminine looking ;)
I have to go for now.
My daughter is packing her things to go off to a church camp tomorrow. She will be gone until Friday and then she will be going to the beach the following Sunday!
Wah!!!!!!
What am I going to do without her for all that time?!
Thanks L. I just noticed the problem today, but I do have relatives who've had that since they were little. I guess it's genetic. Funny thing is, when I stretch my legs, my knees make this squishy sound that sounds like loose cartilage.
I'll definitely go check that out.
Take care everybody!
TJ, yeah, that would be good. Gives me something to check out to make sure I have an idea of where to begin...yeah, that's what it would be. :)
Mya, depends, how old is your tv now?
i'm sure she'll have a great time, mya. see you later. :)
well that's what you want when you volunteer to pose for a life drawing class, bet he was hoping for a more "sensitive" depiction of his body lol
hey Mya sorry I missed you there
I was told by a tv repair guy, pick it up, if it's heavy it may be worth it, if it's light it's probably not worth it, my Mitsubishi was fixed after it got zapped by a power surge
can you get a quote?
Goodnight, Mya. Safe trip to your daughter!
I agree BC, I like a guy with a little extra weight. I don't mind about the feminine facial features though. I like a pretty boy! I have a sticker on the back of my car that says "I'm A Sucker For Guys In Eyeliner".
You would not believe how many times I have been asked about THAT one!
Who is the guy in the picture? Was it one of the bands you saw at the last concert?
Hehe! That is Nicko McBrain, drummer (extraodinaire) for IRON MAIDEN (as photographed by my friend Moon)!
Didn't any of you watch "Flight 666"?
*huge wink*
And, you are so welcome about the APO recommendation. They really are amazing, aren't they?
Sweetcheek: *huge hug and sloppy kisses back*
Mya: We have lots of nekkid men in the Quarter! They'll even let you cover them in powdered sugar... if ya want!
;)
Um, Wendy, I, uh, missed the show...
PLEASE DON'T SMACK ME! :)
L, lol, cool sticker ^_^
Thanks, BC. When J. and I were in Memphis we asked directions from this guy at Starbucks and he walked over to the car and saw the sticker. He leaned in and said, "Hey, I don't have any eyeliner with me, but..."
L, feminine is okay, but if a guy spends too much time trying to look good by adding way too much hair gel or whatever else, I find it to be a turn off because then I wonder if he's too much into himself.
BC,
BleedingC?
Bleeding Chaos said...
It is, as long as they don't look like sticks. I like my men with meat and not feminine looking ;)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Them's fighting words, sweetcheeks!
There is nothing wrong with a pretty man on the slim side. N~o~t~h~i~n~g at all!!!!
Although, meat is good. Meat is very good! As long as it's not red meat!
;)
*hides behind L*
me too
L, yep, but I'm still changing the name around :p
Sugarplum, fighting words? I wouldn't want to compete with some dude over makeup. Not unless he lets me apply some on him to make him look like a clown :D
You go, Ergo!
Guys, I'm going to head out. It was great to talk to you! Have a goodnight and sweet dreams!
SS, goodnight to you, and have a lazy, laid back Sunday. Take care.
Goodnight, BlogBelieve.
Love,
L.
Goodnight L, sweet dreams to you and J
*smacks L upside the head with a drumstick*
:P
Your presence is requested next door, at Seven's!
So is BC's, Ergo's, TJ's, Mya's and anyone else who would like to drop by and say HI!
In the meantime, here's some(more) Maiden:
~Give me the sense to wonder
To wonder if Im free
Give me a sense of wonder
To know I can be me
Give me the strength to hold my head up
Spit back in their face
Dont need no key to unlock this door~
All are welcomed!
good night, l. -- great to chat with you! :)
Anybody still here?
i am, mya -- i keep hopping back and forth between here and some files i'm messing with.
Ergo, my TV is extremely heavy. I would have to see if my brother and nephew could come haul to the TV repair place.
Goodnight L and sweet dreams to you!
Mya: Check the mail room, please!
Wendy, I don't see anything new.
It would be great if I could get the old TV fixed and save that money for something else.
Wendy, are you talking about the email you sent earlier? I got that one and replied.
sorry had a date with a beer and conversation outside
apparently Mya the better made tv's are heavier so may be worth repairing
goodnight L sweet dreams
How much did it cost you to get your TV fixed?
I can't remember it was a fair while ago, it wasn't as much as I thought and not nearly as much as a new one, though with all the "going to digital" happening, if mine dies I would probably buy a digital ready one, going to have to one day, and I don't need another box and associated cables everywhere
Ooops, sorry Mya! I'm distracted. I see you did find the new mail, though!
:D
I think I shall say goodnight (here) for now.
Goodnight Mayo, SS, Ergo, Sweetcheeks, Mya, TJ, Elena, Amy, L (and J), various anons and flight crew!
Sweet dreams to one and all!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Goodnight PJ, Possum, FASC and MissT!
good night wendy. :)
i'm going to head to bed, too. it was a long day, i don't know how it is that i'm still awake!
good ngiht ergo, and bc, and mya - good to talk with you guys! and good night elena, i'm sorry we didn't get a chance to talk today!
sweet dreams everyone. :)
goodnight TJ sweet dreams
mayo,
you have people in your life who support you through whatever mood you might be in, don't you? i was wondering about that today.
i've been watching an anime series called stellvia (it's really good), and at one point the main character is in a very dark place. her friends are all trying to show her that they are there for her, each in a way that is particular to their personality, and eventually, she is able to look beyond her fears and see that she isn't alone.
for me, from the people around me, my sister is good at supportive listening (sometimes, sometimes she gets fed up), but my mom literally freezes up, like she's afraid of my strong moods. she doesn't know how to reach out, i guess.
and i don't write here as freely as i used to, a fact which saddens me.
it can make working through a mood, and balancing it, a little more difficult, without that support.
i really hope that the people around you in your life are very good at letting you know they are there for you, whether you're feeling happy or sad, outgoing or introverted.
i understand that somehow we used to help you in that, as well, and i'm glad for it. i'm glad that we were some strange, unexpected little part of your support circle.
take care, mayo, and have a good night.
Mayo
Miss ya more and more each passing day. Oh, and watch out because I may be small but I don't hit like a girl. Just thought I should warn you.
Night Mayo
Elena (but my hugs are pretty nice)
e..l..e...n..a..a.aaaaaaaaaa
I missed you!
take care sweet dreams
After so long here, For You, They deserve better despite all that has happened. If you leave it like this, THAT Is All I Will Remember.
Of YOU.
Don't make me hate you, please. Be decent. I've seen it in you. We have all caught more than that. Please don't keep making it difficult to think good things of you. You make it feel like a war just to try sometimes. I want you to deserve better than that, them as well. I know that is possible. Please don't destroy what faith I have in you.
I won't believe you aren't aware of how wrong this would be. You are the one who has forgotten, you aren't alone in that. For so long now. That is why things got so bad here, people forgot the Meaning. The chance. To work for it, together.
I never thought you would do such a thing as this. I thought so much better of you. I've always wanted too. If you do this to them, I truly hope for your sake they won't haunt you as your callous disregard will haunt me. And I promise you, it Will haunt me.
And you will never have deserved them in the first place. No matter what has happened.
I have no idea what to say to you more. But with this I feel that I, among others, have more care for you, than you will have shown now you are capable of caring for anyone else in your life, so I Will say goodbye to you here. As every person deserves.
It's been interesting. Best of luck and love to you, goodbye Mayo.
OH HAI LEWIS!
The 'Porchies' just wanted to enjoy Mayo's company, and that of their friends, without being accused of 'derailing' other people.
If you want to hate Mayo, go ahead. It would only confirm to him that he was right. I really don't see what he has done that is so bad. This way, everyone gets what they wanted. But then, I guess some people are never happy.
And what about the people left here. Don't they deserve a special place too?
What about the ones who left before? Who felt they were pushed out by 'the porchies'. What about them? Didn't their feelings matter? How will they feel when they visit and see this?
I guess that doesn't matter to selfish people. As long as they get what they want right? As long as they can be the centers of attention with the spotlight shining down on them.
Insult to injury to insult.
Secrets destroy. Greed kills.
*shakes head*
This way, everyone gets what they wanted.
No anon. The people that wanted Mayo all to themself from beginning get what they wanted. The ones who never liked sharing get what they wanted.
The ones still here, the ones who have left
they got fucked.
I wouldn't expect you to understand or to care.
think 5:18 wants m to say goodbye if hes done with the blog
you anons are intense for this time of the morning. Have a nice day
I don't understand any of you. You are not children. None of you "own" him or should compete for his attention. He is hardly ever here.
6:32 if you are so wound up over a mysterious blogger, I feel sorry for you.
Mayo
I got this emailed to me and I thought it was worth sharing:
Count your blessings,
Not your Problems
I arrived at the address where someone had requested a taxi. I honked but no one came out. I honked again, nothing. So I walked to the door and knocked. 'Just a minute', answered a frail, elderly voice. I could hear something being dragged across the floor.
After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 90's stood before me She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like somebody out of a 1940s movie.
By her side was a small nylon suitcase. The apartment looked as if no one had lived in it for years. All the furniture was covered with sheets..
There were no clocks on the walls, no knickknacks or utensils on the counters. In the corner was a cardboard box filled with photos and glassware.
'Would you carry my bag out to the car?' she said I took the suitcase to the cab, and then returned to assist the woman.
She took my arm and we walked slowly toward the curb.
She kept thanking me for my kindness. 'It's nothing', I told her. 'I just try to treat my passengers the way I would want my mother treated'..
'Oh, you're such a good boy', she said. When we got in the cab, she gave me an address, and then asked, 'Could you drive through downtown?
'It's not the shortest way,' I answered quickly.
'Oh, I don't mind,' she said. 'I'm in no hurry. I'm on my way to a hospice'.
I looked in the rear-view mirror. Her eyes were glistening. 'I don't have any family left,' she continued. 'The doctor says I don't have very long.' I quietly reached over and shut off the meter.
'What route would you like me to take?' I asked.
For the next two hours, we drove through the city. She showed me the building where she had once worked as an elevator operator.
We drove through the neighborhood where she and her husband had lived when they were newlyweds. She had me pull up in front of a furniture warehouse that had once been a ballroom where she had gone dancing as a girl.
Sometimes she'd ask me to slow in front of a particular building or corner and would sit staring into the darkness, saying nothing.
As the first hint of sun was creasing the horizon, she suddenly said, 'I'm tired. Let's go now'
We drove in silence to the address she had given me. It was a low building, like a small convalescent home, with a driveway that passed under a portico.
Two orderlies came out to the cab as soon as we pulled up. They were solicitous and intent, watching her every move. They must have been expecting her.
I opened the trunk and took the small suitcase to the door. The woman was already seated in a wheelchair.
'How much do I owe you?' she asked, reaching into her purse.
'Nothing,' I said
'You have to make a living,' she answered.
'There are other passengers,' I responded.
Almost without thinking, I bent and gave her a hug. She held onto me tightly.
'You gave an old woman a little moment of joy,' she said.
'Thank you.'
I squeezed her hand, and then walked into the dim morning light. Behind me, a door shut. It was the sound of the closing of a life
I didn't pick up any more passengers that shift. I drove aimlessly lost in thought. For the rest of that day, I could hardly talk. What if that woman had gotten an angry driver, or one who was impatient to end his shift?
What if I had refused to take the run, or had honked once, then driven away?
On a quick review, I don't think that I have done anything more important in my life.
....
...cont
We're conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments.
But great moments often catch us unaware-beautifully wrapped in what others may consider a small one.
People may not remember exactly what you did, or what you said, But they will always remember how you made them feel.
You won't get any big surprise in 10 days if you show this to ten people. But, you might help make the world a little kinder and more compassionate by sending it on.
Thank you, my friend...
Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance.
take my hand?
much love EP xx
SS
you having a good weekend? Hope the world has been smiling on you. Sometimes it's just worth remembering all the good things you do have, rather than focussing on what you don't. Like the email I got that I put up there for Mayo, what we may see as little, simple or inconsequential things, may be far more important to someone than we can imagine. It's the ripples that really make our imprint on the world.
Lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve, see you in my morning
♥xx♥
Anonymous said...
And what about the people left here. Don't they deserve a special place too?
They have this place. They got exactly what they wanted; this place without the Porchies. I think you are forgetting how they 'fought' for this place and cared for it. This is their special place.
Isn't it?
What about the ones who left before? Who felt they were pushed out by 'the porchies'. What about them? Didn't their feelings matter? How will they feel when they visit and see this?
as the porchies are always being told...nobody can make you leave. you leave by choice.
This way, everyone gets what they wanted.
No anon. The people that wanted Mayo all to themself from beginning get what they wanted. The ones who never liked sharing get what they wanted.
The ones still here, the ones who have left
they got fucked.
Your reasoning is flawed. All of the Lovelies used to post here. Individuals can not be blamed or held in contempt because Mayo responded to some of their comments.
who are the porchies?
The ones still here, the ones who have left
they got fucked.
ORLY? Since the Porchies haven't been around, I've read comment after comment where you are all patting yourselves on the back about how wonderful this place is without the Porchies.
You wanted this blog to yourselves. You wanted to be able to talk without being 'derailed' by poetry. You wanted them gone.
You got what you wanted.
No anon. The people that wanted Mayo all to themself from beginning get what they wanted. The ones who never liked sharing get what they wanted.
The ones still here, the ones who have left
they got fucked.
What exactly do you want from Mayo? How, exactly, did they get fucked? It sounds to me as if the ones still here are the ones who don't like sharing. Just sayin.
Anonymous said...
And what about the people left here. Don't they deserve a special place too?
FUCKING UNBELIEVABLE.
Anonymous said...
And what about the people left here. Don't they deserve a special place too?
FUCKING UNBELIEVABLE.
What exactly do you want from Mayo?
Good question anon.
The ones still here, the ones who have left
they got fucked.
How so? They have this wonderful blog that they fought so hard to protect, that they all care about so much, that means something to them. They no longer have to suffer the hurt that the poetry caused them, or the quotes that brought so much pain and derailed conversations. They no longer have to 'compete' for Mayo's attention.
they got what they wanted and they are still bitching about it.
again, who are these porchies?
Can anyone tell me who these people are, please?
Anonymous said...
And what about the people left here. Don't they deserve a special place too?
^ This, right here, is comedy gold.
If it wasn't so tragic.
8:19 if you don't know then i wouldn't even bother. it's the blog equivalent of missing an episode of lost or 24.
Oh well, looks like he's left the building. But that really doesn't matter cause you're all here for your friendships, aren't you?
They no longer have to 'compete' for Mayo's attention.
June 14, 2009 8:17 AM
Yeah, but Mayo is not around to give them attention. LOL!
Honesty's the best policy. Tell them the truth. It'll be ok.
Nope.
As long as they get what they want right? As long as they can be the centers of attention with the spotlight shining down on them.
There is no spotlight. On the contrary, they are tucked away in a quiet corner where poetry is appreciated, movies are quoted, and conversations take place without upsetting or derailing anyone.
This blog has had it's time. Just like the dinosaurs it's now extinct.
there's more anons here than blues.
That's what's so great about second chances.
It appears to me that these porchies love coming here to talk about themselves.
Personally, I find it dull but
I hope they are happy where ever they are but I doubt it really when I read what they write here.
Just sayin!
And what has second chances have to do with this blog?
why do you think the anons are the porchies? that's quite a reach considering you claim to have no idea who they are.
9:11 you make a lot of assumptions. In reality they could be anyone.
Just sayin.
And it's people like you that perpetuate this us and them bullshit.
Agreed other 9:15. I'm not a porchie and I wrote some of the comments above. I never preferred one group over the other until Amy tried to dictate what could and couldn't be posted here. NGL I miss the Porchies.
And it's people like you that perpetuate this us and them bullshit.
that's hilarious coming from an anon. yeah, yeah, irony, i get it.
There is no spotlight. On the contrary, they are tucked away in a quiet corner where poetry is appreciated, movies are quoted, and conversations take place without upsetting or derailing anyone.!
If the porchies are not here then who would know what they are doing?
I would still like to know who is included in the band of porchies though.
Go on, laugh away anon. Doesn't bother me.
It wasn't meant to. Not everything is always about you.
If the porchies are not here then who would know what they are doing?
I would say, Mayo and people who are friends with the porchies.
chicken shit!
You're also making assumptions that the anons are the blues left here. I have not seen ONE blue complain, bad mouth anyone who left, or gloat that they "won" anything. To ASSume it is them is as bad as to ASSume anons are the ones who left. You may speculate all you want, but the truth is that ONLY Mayo would know who is or is not commenting. I get the impression that the blues here would just like for the fighting to stop. Do you believe they ENJOY being brought up over and over? Do you believe thet ones who have left enjoy it? As you said, Mayo is rarely here, there is no reason to "fight" for any attention. There never was any reason to fight for attention.
There is no spotlight. On the contrary, they are tucked away in a quiet corner where poetry is appreciated, movies are quoted, and conversations take place without upsetting or derailing anyone.!
If the porchies are not here then who would know what they are doing?
I'm not a porchie. I've never been a blue, but I've always liked the porchies. I think it's obvious that they are still somewhere in BlogBelieve having random convo's the way they used to here. You don't have to be a porchie to figure that out, otherwise they would have said goodbye to Mayo.
Right, we'll leave 9:24 & 9:27 to it.
First 9:15, I never preferred one group either.
I have not seen ONE blue complain, bad mouth anyone who left, or gloat that they "won" anything.
of course not. that would make them look bad in front of mayo and ss.
IAWTC. they do all their bitching as anons.
Only the blog owner would know that 9:35, you can only speculate.
I'm with you other 9:15. I'm so hungry I could eat my own arm.
I always love a good Freudian slip.
Thanks, it made my morning.
Have a great day everyone.
It's like talking to a brick wall. Or maybe someone who WANTS the wall to come crumbling down. You keep pouring salt into wounds and making accusations that you have no right to make. If spending your Sunday this way means that much to you, go ahead. If tearing down people you don't know excites you, who am I to stop you? Everyone has their fetishes, I guess. I'll leave you to it. Good Day.
9:37 needs to eat. 9:41 needs to chill.
You keep pouring salt into wounds and making accusations that you have no right to make.
Who is you ?
"In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."
- Martin Luther King
And no. This quote is not directed at Mayo.
Although...that quote could very well be applied to Mayo as well.
As I said earlier, there has been a lot of assumptions made about everyone here, including anons.
mayo and ss are the 9:15s
10:03 you got your wires crossed. I'm the second 9:15, and I'm definitely not Mayo or SS.
That's what I mean about assumptions.
I'm the first 9:15 and I'm not Mayo or SS. I just agreed with the other 9:15 that it was probably best to leave the other anons to their fighting as it's easy to get sucked into an online fight and waste the day on the internet. I really need to go about my day now. I enjoyed talking with you other 9:15. Glad to see there are still some sane anons out there.
So much for honesty. Have a nice Sunday everybody.
Hello everyone
Hope you are all having a wonderful day. Have to admit mine started out a little teary because I read the story Ergo left for Mayo last night. That was so touching and it made me think. How often do we not realize how much our actions can mean to others? We don't realize that just a simple hello to someone can mean so much. Maybe that hello is just what they need at the moment to let them know they are not forgotten.
Okay, back to work for me. My goal is to clean off my desk, which has begun to resemble a mountain.
Take care everyone.
For the record:
I come here for the friendships I have with Wendy, Ergo, Elena, Amyranth, BC, the OPs, Martha, and sweet Miss T.
I hope I didn't forget anyone.
Lists do nothing but get you into trouble.
Hey!!
No TJ?
2:37 I remember that song but I had never seen the video. Thanks for the link.
TJ is not a Christian.
Remember this one??
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j21ULe2hrY4
Sorry I can't link it.
I DO remember that one....um...like yesterday!! ;)
Here ya go Elena http://stampingmathilda.blogspot.com/2007/07/link-in-your-comment-on-blogger-blogs.html
Weeeeehooooooo!!!!!
We just scored free tickets to Warped Tour this year!
*dancey-dance*
Thank anon. Maybe it's just me but sometimes it works and I can make a link but other times it just won't work no matter how much I curse it. LOL
Congrats Amy. How cool is that?
Okay so I really love this song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bHoPYLQvnQM
LOL you guys (elena Mya and EP) ripped Kapu a new one when she said she only talked to a few people. She invited them to email her off thge blog or at her LJ (which I as an anon frequently do.... do the ones of you who ripped her a new one do the same?)
God, you lot.
Anon I'm a bit confused. I never ripped K a new one and I e-mailed her off her LJ. We had some very nice chats back and forth. So I'm not sure where you got your information but it's wrong.
GOing back to when she said she wasn't comfortable posting here and she kept in contact with others outside of the blog, I saw you rip her a new one. Its still there. Don't pretend like you didn't just cause SS has been about.
I keep in contact with her through LJ. No I am not "Becki" or a stalker. I am not a porchie or a watcher.
I am however appauled by how she and her friends got treated. And pretending like you didn't rip her a new one after she said she was leaving cause this blog wasn't what it used to be or whatever is low.
However you ripping her a new one wasn't as funny over overtly dramatic as Lewis sayign that Kap's post saying how she felt about posting here, made her vomit blood.
Please, you lot.
ah, its the appauled anon! its too fuckin funny and gets me every time.
you are often appauled here but i guess you like it that way. and of course you get thanked for your efforts, don't you?
what a way to waste your time...
Well excuse me about the spelling. Yes Kaps has thanked me for being nice to her..... how evil. She has thanked me for popping into her lj too. Oh a spanking maybe in order.
In short to quote Spike from Buffy I LIKE the lady, she is always with a kind word to me and she doesn't put on airs!
She's never fake. When she says what's on her mind its as if she's thrown chum into the waters and all you sharks come out, blue and anoned!
But someone else says much the same thing and its hidey ho.
Well other people saying that they only want to talk to their friends doesn't make others vomit up blood the way Kap does. LOL!!!!
Oh no, I quoted. I hope I'm still well within the guidelines!!
but you have said it all before. why involve yourself in relationships that you are not part of?
its a bit sad if the reason you continue to abuse people here is to get scraps of attention from Kapunua.
grow some self worth and form your own relationships-don't live off those of others.
How is THAT abuse? Saying that I like her? Saying that I saw what the others said when she left, and no one ever bothers anyone else when they say the same thing?
Your idea of abuse is .... funny.
I just might vomit blood after all!!
5:28
you are just dull and boring now. i won't waste any more time.
*snigger*
Now that is what I all abuse, is you lot calling me names cause you disagree.
Last thing I'm gonna say about this...
K came on and said what she did about "those of us who were still here." I was honest and let her know I was hurt by the comment and shocked she felt that way because I had always considered her a friend. Perhaps you should go back and read.
If you think you will make me say something bad about her, you are wrong. I still like her, I think she's a very talented woman. She said how she felt and I said how I feel. Not sure why you think this is any of your business. Let it go.
Well I am so pleased anon(S), that you so greatly find my attempt to convey how much Officially losing a friend that day -amuses you.
You're real sweet, aren't you anon(s). Jeez.
I could try to explain it to you better, but I see no reason. I don't say things here for other people to disect. I have no problem conversing with others, I enjoy talking with people I don't know. But I do not appreciate ANY people trying to humilate or belittle the words, with meaning, I have said to people I care about. So if you anon(s) feel like continuing in that, please do. I will not respond to you again.
Elena, if you are still about I hope you're day is going well! We are actually heading back into the school today. We're watching my cousin's during the week (8 to 4! I want to sleep in! SHIT! But they are awesome, so, does tend to make up for it! ;p) and it is making it pretty hard to pack shit up! And we HAVE to get that part done. And it's only me doing the packing, my ma is running the office, trying to help our situation. So basically, it's been fun! ;p Anyway I hope and hub are both feeling better? I've not caught up proper yet, as I am runnin out the door! Drop me a note when you can. Am thinkin of ya!
Ergo- chunks? Ewww. I've been sliced a few good times. But it is more like L said -getting fingers wrapped around in tape on one hand and flailing paniced while holding (and trying to pull off the fuckin tape!) the dispenser in the other! It would be funny, I guess, if it wasn't so irritating and time consuming... and a tiny bit embarrassing! ;p (and I'll have to find another way into the country then... I am developing a great fear of ya Soysouce-esq, I think the word is Glop? Ewwww, again!) So glad you are feeling better!
Amyranth -I would prefer a hammer, thank you. But I think I would be more tempted to take it to my head -and well, I am pretty sure I need both to complete the packing job? Of course, I might be wrong. So I'll keep that option open! ;p
And OPL -nakie boy bands??
WHOA. That was the worst possible way to word that. Talk about puke. Visions of necksweaters being (attempted) seductively pulled off.... RALPH! Ok, I think I'll just stop there, I've illed myself out with that one. ugh. Sorry for those I missed, hope to catch you soon! -You ladies behave, enjoy ya day! Hope all is well! Love to ya<3 (avoid the neck sweatered. EWW.)
I hope and hub??
Uh, No. 'I hope YOU and hub.' Lordy. Alrighty! Love to ya guys, later!<33
all ya need is love!
Shit!
i'm appauled!
lol!
good morning
well I will address anons this time, once
"rip a new one"?? please! You do love to exaggerate, if someone speaks of me that way, which I found very disappointing and very insulting, and it's obvious they have no interest in me, then I have no interest in them anymore, either, simple.
and I have not been any anon who has said anything about anyone anytime
I am not in any competition, don't want any prize and would like you all to stop
but it looks like it's going to be a lovely day, and seeing as I no longer feel sick I am going to go for my walk this morning
Amy fantastic win!!!!
Elena it is a lovely story, and I think the little things are often far more important than grand gestures
Off to get ready :]
Miss you bunches Lewis.
Ergo hold up. I want to walk with you. Give me a minute to find my shoes. LOL
Lewis hiya, yep "chunks" hit them on the metal toothy bit while trying to get stupid tape to rip off, one off the knuckle of my thumb, one off my first finger.
Tape dispenser that is not only evil but bloodthirsty!
oh you'd love it elena, up a quiet country dirt road,and looks like it'll still be foggy too.
I'll wait for you :]
SLADE RULES!!!!
...and so does that song...excellent taste!!!!!
anything with pipers in it ROCKS!!!!
I would still like to know who is included in the band of porchies though.
June 14, 2009 9:20 AM
Anyone who liked Kapunua was considered a porchie. Fimble, Solly and Smoke and there was a few others that joined in the stories and poems and games. The funny thing is, i have never heard them say anything bad to anyone.
Any anon that believes they will be taking up for the ones who are left by addressing 6:33, please, don't take the bait. It will only make things worse.
ergoproxy said...
Mayo
I got this emailed to me and I thought it was worth sharing:
Count your blessings,
Not your Problems
I arrived at the address where someone had requested a taxi. I honked but no one came out. I honked again, nothing. So I walked to the door and knocked. 'Just a minute', answered a frail, elderly voice. I could hear something being dragged across the floor.
After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 90's stood before me She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like somebody out of a 1940s movie.
By her side was a small nylon suitcase. The apartment looked as if no one had lived in it for years. All the furniture was covered with sheets..
There were no clocks on the walls, no knickknacks or utensils on the counters. In the corner was a cardboard box filled with photos and glassware.
'Would you carry my bag out to the car?' she said I took the suitcase to the cab, and then returned to assist the woman.
She took my arm and we walked slowly toward the curb.
She kept thanking me for my kindness. 'It's nothing', I told her. 'I just try to treat my passengers the way I would want my mother treated'..
'Oh, you're such a good boy', she said. When we got in the cab, she gave me an address, and then asked, 'Could you drive through downtown?
'It's not the shortest way,' I answered quickly.
'Oh, I don't mind,' she said. 'I'm in no hurry. I'm on my way to a hospice'.
I looked in the rear-view mirror. Her eyes were glistening. 'I don't have any family left,' she continued. 'The doctor says I don't have very long.' I quietly reached over and shut off the meter.
'What route would you like me to take?' I asked.
For the next two hours, we drove through the city. She showed me the building where she had once worked as an elevator operator.
We drove through the neighborhood where she and her husband had lived when they were newlyweds. She had me pull up in front of a furniture warehouse that had once been a ballroom where she had gone dancing as a girl.
Sometimes she'd ask me to slow in front of a particular building or corner and would sit staring into the darkness, saying nothing.
As the first hint of sun was creasing the horizon, she suddenly said, 'I'm tired. Let's go now'
We drove in silence to the address she had given me. It was a low building, like a small convalescent home, with a driveway that passed under a portico.
Two orderlies came out to the cab as soon as we pulled up. They were solicitous and intent, watching her every move. They must have been expecting her.
I opened the trunk and took the small suitcase to the door. The woman was already seated in a wheelchair.
'How much do I owe you?' she asked, reaching into her purse.
'Nothing,' I said
'You have to make a living,' she answered.
'There are other passengers,' I responded.
Almost without thinking, I bent and gave her a hug. She held onto me tightly.
'You gave an old woman a little moment of joy,' she said.
'Thank you.'
I squeezed her hand, and then walked into the dim morning light. Behind me, a door shut. It was the sound of the closing of a life
I didn't pick up any more passengers that shift. I drove aimlessly lost in thought. For the rest of that day, I could hardly talk. What if that woman had gotten an angry driver, or one who was impatient to end his shift?
What if I had refused to take the run, or had honked once, then driven away?
On a quick review, I don't think that I have done anything more important in my life.
....
June 14, 2009 6:43 AM
Any anon that believes they will be taking up for the ones who are left by addressing 6:33, please, don't take the bait. It will only make things worse.
June 14, 2009 6:40 PM
You have got to be fucking kidding.That is what's wrong with this blog. You say that the porchies ran everyone off this blog. What are you trying to do? You can have this blog and stick it up your ass. There is enough "ignoring" things around here as it is. I can say what i want. I'm in no way trying to insult the blues that continue to blog here. I like them too.
By the way, i was answering another anon's question. Is that not allowed here?
I don't see how any of you think that Kapu insulted you when she said anyone could contact her off the blog.
Looks to me like some of you were just waiting for the opportunity to bitch her out. BOTH of you or all three.
I still talk to her off the blog, and look, I'm still here too.
You people are so dramatic, yes, it IS a joke. She said that she was leaving.... you took it as an excuse to drum up drama and bitching towards her.
I talk to her once in a while myself. Because she didn't feel right blogging here didn't make me "vomit blood" I can't believe someone actually said that??
Slade does indeed rule, anon.
Think I'll just go listen some more. Wanna join me?
I talk to her once in a while myself. Because she didn't feel right blogging here didn't make me "vomit blood" I can't believe someone actually said that??
Believe it. When that vomit blood was mentioned i have to admit, i threw up in my mouth a little.(Not blood just vomit) LOL!
LOL nothing on this blog makes me that upset, sorry. If i had maybe lost my job because of it then I could see vomiting over it. Not blood though, LOL!! But someone saying "this isn't working out for me, anyoen who cares about me can contact me, bye!!!!!'
does not really get me upset at them? I don't know call me crazy! But I wouldn't feel like it was the end of the world!
if you get stabbed in the heart wouldnt you vomit blood? lewis said that to someone else a long time ago. I got what she meant. just becuase you dont doesnt mean its so dramatic or funny. You just dont get it
if you get stabbed in the heart wouldnt you vomit blood?
I did vomit blood one time after i had a really bad nose bleed.
gross. and scary? I hope that doesnt happen to you again. have a nice day other anon :)
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