Saturday, May 9, 2009

At the Home

I hate to see you
When you're falling apart
Can't you start over, again?

Elizabeth crumbles
Alone in her chair
Keeps her windows shut
To keep out the air

Elizabeth crumbles
Alone in her bed
Spends all her pastime
Mulled in her dread

What keeps her living
Is her fear of being
Anywhere other than here
So they’ll feed her too much
Or it’s never enough,
Then it's fuck you
“Get the hell out of here!"

Elizabeth stumbles
Over everything I've said
Pining words are useless
Pushed round in her head

The mystery was my bravery
I never knew what I'd get
Will it be her fear or regret?
Her confusion my denial?
Walked her shoes a while
Now she can’t turn back
So she said then she’ll stay
And I will walk away

Elizabeth mumbles
Over and over my name
Forgetting tomorrow
Will never be the same

She’s repeating her beating
Did you bring her a drink?
Why are you leaving?
What the hell do you think?
That she’ll fuck you
To get the hell out of here

Elizabeth tumbles
Out onto the floor
With an abandon of reason
It is herself abhorred

She sat alone in her room
Pouring over her gloom
Never got out of her chair
And they don't even care
Now that they’ve all receded
Into the ground or fleeted
To the wormholes
And woodwork back there

You'll find repair
Where that memory
Becomes illusory

Look, again?



p.s. in the end it is what you think you will get.

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miranth said...

HI ERGO!

MissT - Truer words were never spoken, unfortunately...

L - Great to see you pop by! Keep well. *hugs*

AMY! - Good Luck tonight! Though I warn you, I am going out to watch the game and when I do the Wings usu. win! And I hope those aren't famous last words!

Anons - No one likes to hear the same shit brought up over and over again. Seriously!

:)

Wendy - Car is messed up still and I have excruciating back problems from twisting to look where there is no side view mirror.

Only one guy friend of mine might help. Maybe. My friend Jeanette will call up her boys to fix it, though, and they all scramble to serve her every need, so I have no doubt it will be fixed shortly!

:D And none too soon! How are you?

TAKE CARE!

:)

*hugs for all*

ergoproxy said...

HI MIRANTH!!

hope your car gets fixed up quickly
nice to see you

elena said...

Hello

Just woke up and I swear I wasn't sure what day it was. This is so not good. I've got to stop with the naps.

Hope everyone is doing well. My back seems a bit better. It still hurts like hell but I can now turn my head without pain.

ergoproxy said...

hey elena

it's friday. (lol) well here it is

I'm off to exercise, catch you when I get back?

elena said...

OK Ergo

I will be here...maybe. If the sofa doesn't suck me in again.

Have fun

Anonymous said...

For those that ever wondered..."What the fuck did he say"



Don't cut out my paper heart
I ain't dyin' anyway
Take a look at eye full towers
Never trust them dirty liars
Sippin' lemon yellow booze
Ol' leadbelly sings the blues
All dressed up on wedding day
Keep on trippin' anyway

I am I am I said I'm not myself
I'm not dead and I'm not for sale
So keep your bankroll lottery
eat your salad day deathbed motorcade

Fake the heat and scratch the itch
Skinned up knees and salty lips
I'll breathe your life vicks vapor life
and when you binge I purge alike

Let go it's harder holding on
One more trip and I'll be gone
So keep your head up Keep it on,
just a whisper I'll be gone

Take a breath and make it big
It's the last you'll ever get
Break you neck with diamond noose
It's the last you'll ever choose

I am I am I said I'm not myself
I'm not dead and I'm not for sale
Hold me closer, closer let me go
Let me be just let me be

I am I am I said I'm not myself
I'm not dead and I'm not for sale
So keep your bankroll lottery
eat your salad day deathbed motorcade

I am I am I said I'm not myself
I'm not dead and I'm not for sale
Hold me closer, closer let me go
Let me be just let me be
I am I am I said I'm not myself
I'm not dead and I'm not for sale
So keep your bankroll lottery
eat your salad day deathbed motorcade

Those lyrics - "keep your bankroll lottery, eat your salad day deathbed motorcade" always crack me up : )

Hope that helps!

miranth said...

Elena - I hope your back feels better soon!

Very painful. :(

PS _ Wendy - Holes need to be drilled in the plastic, so we actually need someone's tools - or I'd do it myself.


Bye again!

elena said...

Thanks Miranth

Nice to see you by the way.

Anonymous said...

I guess the question has been raised, "is this blog worth it," by lots of people, for their own different reasons. Some questions of "is this blog worth it" have been used to attack others e.g. "It is worth it for me to tell you to GTFO for the sake of the blog" etc. And reading back I see that some "anon" pulled out the old "Mayo must not be worth it to them" junk.

I would never say that Mayo himself--the Man, the Myth, the Legend ;D --was not "worth it" to me.

But the blog itself? Speaking only for myself, it has become not only "not worth it" but full-on toxic. Looking back, I can see that a lot of what I thought was positive on this blog (a lot of the support) was not for the benefit of other people, but really for Mayo and SS. "Look at how supportive / kind / generous / forgiving I am." I especially have to laugh at the "look at how forgiving I am" thing because the truth is, what's the rudest thing you can do to someone who hasn't even harmed you? Grant them your forgiveness. LMAO! Seriously, for what?

The people on this blog have harmed me, and they haven't always been anons; or when they were, they were still regs. It just took me a ridiculous amount of time to tally up the harm and to say "WTF?!" because, I, like a lot of people, can hang onto situations that I thought were great. I have friendships to this day that I know are pretty bad for me, and I hang on to them just because they are such a huge part of my past. I'm a packrat in that way.

Even though it's true that losing my job was the best thing that could have happened to me, still, damn. And even though I am not ashamed of where I live, I like my home town and all of that, still, damn. And even though anyone can google anyone's name, and everything you write on the internet is public, and any time you put your name out there it is obviously public, and even though no one has shown up at my door, still. Damn. That is all some crazy, real-life, offblog invasive junk. And as far as the google "anon," wow, it goes so much farther than most people know. Although I suspect that many people do know, and are like, "Meh, whatever, it's still cool." Which is somehow even worse. (By the way, you--yeah, YOU--can google me all you want and send out as many emails as you want. Knock yourself out, if that's what floats your boat. You got nuthin'.)

I knew all of that at the time, but for some reason was still thinking, "Yeah, worth it." I don't know why; I wish I did. I don't understand those things that happened, but I also don't understand my own willingness to believe that it wasn't all that ugly, either. I guess that's just how I see things.

What it took to drive this whole thing home was that stuff with my Grandma. Because, damn.

That was pretty bad and rotten, but to me, just as bad is the falseness that went along with it. Apart from the "Oh, that was great, I support someone talking crap about you because of how you feel about a death in your immediate family!" there was also this "Well, I don't agree with it, but whatever" from others, and the most annoying of all, "Let's just pretend that never really happened."

Like I used to say as Fox Mulder: "If something bad happened, I didn't see it."

It's just so fake. I hate that false sweetness, I hate the saccharine, I hate the passive aggression that goes on, too. That stuff that masks itself as, "Oh, but I was just making conversation! *giggle!*" kind of junk.

Anonymous said...

(What the hell with the character limit? Gone are the days of epic Waste Lands quotes, anyway!)

Any of the others who I like, love, admire, laugh with, etc. are people I can and often do hang out with off the blog. (In fact, Solly, Princess and I are thinking of getting together again in Autumn, only this time with our whole families. That'll be awesome!)

Oh, to address this one other ridiculous thing: OMG yes, I created another secret blog, and Mayo is there and he told us all his real name and address. Turns out he lives with SS on this Choctaw NDN reservation and we are all going to go and visit the both of them there and have our own party, and no one else is invited! Me and all of my "little friends!"

Seriously? I never made any other blog, "seeekrut" or otherwise; in fact I deleted my own. Do I still talk to my friends that I met here? *Gasp!* Yes! I do! I see you all whining because you can't read our conversations about how our days went and you can't get on our case over them. Awww. Believe me, I'm playing the violin for you right now. *sob sob*

Mayo and S(S)S are really the only two folks who I can't really access outside of this blog, who have always been lovely to me. That's a huge shame, but there's nothing I can do about it and I had to weigh that against everything else. Do I consider them my friends? Sure I do! I love them! I love coming here and writing poems, playing those stupid games with S(S)S, sending photographs, telling jokes, and writing science poems with Mayo, blogging about science news, making clever references to light and all of that stuff. That is what I call a true geek friendship. It's so grand. ^_^

In fact over the week I wanted to send you guys this effing hilarious literal video of Total Eclipse of The Heart which I have watched about a thousand and one times already! (What the effing crap? That angel guy just felt me up!) (OMG, seriously, watch it. I think it's possible to die laughing.)

But, would I drink a bottle of other people's poison just so that I can hang in the same room as Mayo and S(S)S and read poetry together? I'm not that much of a Romantic. ;D (That's with a capital "R" before anyone gets any ideas.)

Weighing it out, this blog really isn't worth it. Do I still come by to see if Mayo has posted something new, or if Real Calaf has been around, or S(S)S or any nice anons that I don't see off blog? Well, yeah, once in a while I do. Every three, four, five days anymore. Although usually it's either a bunch of "anons" (as per usual,) or some stuff that makes me go "meh." But to come here to read and post like I used to? Why? None of my friends are here. Only people who have either gone ten miles out of their way to hurt me and my friends, or those people around them who think that it is just fine that they went ten miles out of their way to hurt me and my friends.

No, not worth it, shame that it is.

Well, and that's that! ^_^

Anon616 said...

Hello L, MissT and Miranth!!! Hello (again) Elena and Ergo!

Miranth: I have drills!!! You want to borrow one of mine? I have cordless drills and electric drills. I have light weight, medium weight and a big, bad, super powerful, heavy duty one! That one scares me (but not nearly as much as my big, bad, super powerful, super fast, super heavy circular saw scares me ~ which is why I no longer use that thing. I just ask someone to come do that heavy duty sawing for me)!
:P

I hope they can get it all fixed for you!!!
*hugs*

L: Have a safe trip!!! Enjoy your visit with you parents!!!

Elena: I'm glad you're feeling better!!

Ergo: Anytime!!!! Enjoy your exercise!!

6:31 ~ Thanks for the STP lyrics clarification!

I do have some good news! I finally flipped my calendar to the current month (of June) and realized I have a show to attend Sunday night!

THE NEW YORK DOLLS!!!!!! YAY!!!

I can't believe I forgot that one was coming up. Luckily, for me, I didn't wait until next week to turn that calendar page!

~Looking For A Kiss LIVE~


~Personality Crisis LIVE on The Midnite Special~

*sings along*

"All about that personality crisis you got it while it was hot
But now frustration and heartache is what you got
break

And your a prima ballerina on a spring afternoon
Change on into the wolfman howlin at the moon hooowwwlll

All about that personality crisis you got it while it was hot
But now frustration and heartache is what you got"

Uh~oh.... Sunday night's the full moon, isn't it? Ohhhhh....

Ergo: I'll behave. I promise!

Have fun ladies! I'll be back later ~ maybe!

Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy

Hi PJ!!!

elena said...

Well K I guess I know exactly how you feel now.

Now as to how I feel..surprised and yeah, hurt. I really believed you to be a friend. I did exactly as you wanted reguarding the anons at the time of you Gran's death. I finally stopped defending you (even though I hated it) because that is what you said you wanted.
I told you how sorry I was off the blog.

I really don't know what more I could have done. I control only my own actions. I don't try to control others because I know that is impossible.

I know you have been hurt by words on this blog as have many others. But coming here and saying the things you just did about those of us still here hurts too. Maybe somehow that makes you feel better. I really hope not.

Anonymous said...

unfuckinbelievable

Anonymous said...

I agree 7:41

How many times per post is this shit going to be brought up?

Unfuckinbelievable!

Anonymous said...

just fucking unbelievable

Anonymous said...

clueless

fucking clueless and fucking unbelievable

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Whoa that hurt.I feel like I'm puking up my blood again. But everytime I have tried to say something nice, something I mean, help some situation that (for no sane reason) has turned awful with people I have all held as my friends -my words and meaning get all molested twisted around and suddenly anything I say or mean is part of the ugly. And i never meant it that way, ever. I lose my temper, but I've never hated someone or wanted them to feel like that. But Im going to stop trying now. Kapu, I just hope you are doing well. I hope school is really coming along for you and you and your family are doing better. Love to you. Love to Lovely's, Mayo, SS, anon's. later guys<3

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Please leave it alone anons, you do nothing to help.

Bye guys<3

ergoproxy said...

nice to know K
and I posted that video a day and a half ago, glad you found it, the others are good too
you go enjoy your life
obviously, given how you feel, I won't miss you either

~ fin ~

ergoproxy said...

hi Lewis

hi Elena

back from my exercising, and I was listening to a podcast by a guy called Dr Karl, who does a science show, he's so brilliant and speaks in a way that is entertaining while he explains things

did you know you can lift 100kg with your index finger (though he said it'd hurt) and the record is over 200kg!
he was explaining that finger lift trick where a few people try to lift a person with their index fingers, can't, do a chant or whatever, then can

Anonymous said...

I think you should've addressed that comment to her and not to any anons LHFSD.

What she did doesn't help.
It has been expected. She did not disappoint. It would have been too much to ask of her to walk away without mentioning her tremendous pain again. Her hurt. How wronged she has been.

Fuck everybody else.

It would have been too much to expect her to walk away gracefully without insulting and mocking the bloggers who remain.

Anonymous said...

There was never an intention to walk away.

Anonymous said...

Funny thing is, I've never seen any of the people here defend K against anyone other than anons. They wouldn't go against the other blues to defend her.

I don't blame her for how she feels.

Anonymous said...

Mayo and SS

She did address both of you. How do you feel about what she said? About her insulting the other bloggers. About her bringing up ancient history again. Enquiring minds want to know.

Anonymous said...

The best thing everyone here can do, including anons, is to never mention her again. She wants attention. Don't give it to her. She has said her part and no, it wasn't expected, but she is expecting it to be the topic of conversation for days.

There is no reason to ever darken this place with anything about her ever again.

Anonymous said...

8:14
I'm afraid you're right.

mya said...

Wow! What a time for me to pop in!

This comment:

"But to come here to read and post like I used to? Why? None of my friends are here. Only people who have either gone ten miles out of their way to hurt me and my friends, or those people around them who think that it is just fine that they went ten miles out of their way to hurt me and my friends."

That's exactly how I have felt for the past 2 and half years!

ergoproxy said...

hello Mya

mya said...

Hiya, Ergo! Nice to see ya!

Anonymous said...

Your pain doesn't count Mya. Only her pain and her friend's pain count. Only their feelings count. You already know this.

mya said...

Why does Elena's back hurt? Did something happen to her? I hope not!

Anonymous said...

And I have never heard her defend others who she knows are being falsely accused and bullied by her nice anons. In fact she gives them a personal thank you.

Lets have some consistency here for a change.

elena said...

Hi Ergo and Maya

Anonymous said...

See, that's the thing. It's perfectly fine with everyone here that Mya got K fired. Yet somehow Mya is the victim.

Sense. The people here make none.

ergoproxy said...

elena is around I think mya, but she lifted a cement mushroom gardening and pulled it

mya said...

"Your pain doesn't count Mya. Only her pain and her friend's pain count. Only their feelings count. You already know this."

Should I have just said, "Now you know how I feel"?

mya said...

I didn't get K fired. K got K fired.

elena said...

Stupid, stupid mushrooms

elena said...

Stupid, stupid mushrooms

mya said...

Hi, Elena! I've been trying to say hello to you for the past 5 minutes! I kept getting Blogger Errors!

Anonymous said...

Sense. The people here make none..

Who are you referring to?

elena said...

Yep there are two mushrooms LOL

ergoproxy said...

so true you had to say it twice

mya said...

"Sense. The people here make none.."

I'll have to agree with that somewhat! 2 + 2 = duh...

elena said...

Yep Blogger is having some issues.

Anonymous said...

Hey guys, did you miss this:

"Mayo and S(S)S are really the only two folks who I can't really access outside of this blog, who have always been lovely to me."

What, you guys have never emailed me? We've never spoken outside of this blog?

Well, take it any way you want. Whatever.

mya said...

You and I? Not really

Anonymous said...

" mya said...

I didn't get K fired. K got K fired.

June 4, 2009 8:24 PM"


Yet you admitted it and apologized alot and talked of "karma" when you lost your job.

Walk away K.

These people? Are insane.

mya said...

Elena, what are you doing for your back? Have you soaked in a tub of salts?

mya said...

I admitted to sending an email.

What got K fired were her own words.

Like I said before:

2 + 2 = Duh!

elena said...

But to come here to read and post like I used to? Why? None of my friends are here. Only people who have either gone ten miles out of their way to hurt me and my friends, or those people around them who think that it is just fine that they went ten miles out of their way to hurt me and my friends.

So you didn't really mean these words?

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

8:12 Everyone is entittled to feel how they feel, especially if they Have been wronged.

8:14, you have selective fucking reading. And just so you know, just because it wasn't posted here for you to read, twist and fling, that doesn't mean that support wasn't given. Some people, myself in that, prefer to talk of such things more privately.

8:17, everyone needs someone to care about or even acknowledge them. YOU are here, posting comments, are you not the same as the rest of us?

I care about Kapu, whether she believes that or not. I care about alot of people I have encountered. Angry words are not going to change that. So you guys all go ahead and keep talking shit. It only proves that You Too need someone to validate, hear, and acknowledge You -HERE.

And I am sure Kapu does or will miss people here. It is hard for some people to see any good when all they tend to recieve or feel is very negative. Some of you anons, seem to be just the same in that.

And 8:23, fucking sure.

I'm out of here guys. I see no point in trying to talk here right now. I am sorry that Kapu feels the way she does. I am sorry, there are others that feel wronged too. I believe all of us that have posted here at one time or another have been hurt. Whether it was by a friend "reg" or not, doesn't make any hurts less wrong. And I'm sorry that so many don't seem to want to work out these problems. I think that is crap. But I do wish everyone who is struggling, anyone who needs someone or not, for them all to find what they need to be truly happy. I can't believe this life. Alright guys, love to ya, later<3

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...
The best thing everyone here can do, including anons, is to never mention her again. She wants attention. Don't give it to her. She has said her part and no, it wasn't expected, but she is expecting it to be the topic of conversation for days.

There is no reason to ever darken this place with anything about her ever again.

June 4, 2009 8:17 PM

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Sorry I'm a slow typer. I missed the last few comments. I'm sure I make little sense. Anyway bye.

Anonymous said...

K: These people hate you. Elena and Ergo too I believe never liked you. They were waiting for you to give the slightest ammo for them to get rabid. You knew that most everyone comes on here feeling like this some time or another, talk about it and people move on. You knew that they were waiting for you to give them one paragraph so they'd let loose. You gave it to them.

Why did you give it to them?

Anonymous said...

Mya's out of her fucking mind. I seem to remember her apologizing profusely for getting you fired. Now..... all of a sudden.... she didn't.

Well good luck anyways and I hope you treat lots of people.

ergoproxy said...

lewsis you always make sense
take care, hope you're well and can talk again soon

mya said...

A friend of mine had their eyelashes tinted the other day. They look so good! My lashes are blonde, so I'm thinking of having it done too. Anybody ever had it?

elena said...

Mya I messed up my back while out gardening. Moving cement mushrooms. LOL

It's starting to hurt again but I don't want to take another pain pill.

mya said...

I apologized for sending the email

Anonymous said...

You've said what you wanted to say. You don't like the people here and neither do your followers. Leave them alone.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...
And I have never heard her defend others who she knows are being falsely accused and bullied by her nice anons. In fact she gives them a personal thank you.

Lets have some consistency here for a change.



The word consistency doesn't exist in her vocablulary. Any more than the phrases I was wrong, I made a mistake, I'm at fault of partially at fault, I'm sorry do.

It's always somebody else's fault with her. She never takes any responsibility for her words or actions.

Sad.

mya said...

What the hell is a cement mushroom? Oh! You mean like a garden decoration? Damn! I'm sure that was heavy!

mya said...

Elena, have you used any ice? Also, soaking in a tub with Epsom salts might help some. Have you tried that?

ergoproxy said...

I have a lot of times mya, just go to someone who does it a lot, most salons do, and let em do it, you ahve to keep your eyes shut while it processes, which is odd. And there is the risk of allergy so you can get them to patch test first
I have never had problems apart from slight redness and a bit burry for a couple of mins, just like if you were in salt water

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...
Anonymous said...
The best thing everyone here can do, including anons, is to never mention her again. She wants attention. Don't give it to her. She has said her part and no, it wasn't expected, but she is expecting it to be the topic of conversation for days.

There is no reason to ever darken this place with anything about her ever again.

June 4, 2009 8:17 PM

June 4, 2009 8:44 PM




If only she and her friends really would leave this place and the people here in peace. If only.

elena said...

I've tried everything and it is finally getting a bit better. But wow the first night it hurt to take a deep breath. Those mushrooms are never moving again.

mya said...

Ergo, I'm just afraid that it won't help my lashes that much because they are fine and thin. Now, if they come out with something that would give me those thick lush lashes, I'd be there in a heartbeat!

mya said...

Elena, it is probably going to take quite a while for those muscles to heal. Just keep doing what you're doing and TAKE IT EASY!

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

I forgot to say something to Mayo. I don't hold you accountable for any of the problems that have come up here. You can't blame a blog, or it's host for the way other people treat each other. I'm sorry this happened here, but it's human. I hope you are good. And I hope you can remember that there are good things in everyone,(even all that comment here -snark) as well. And hopefully we will all stop flinging shit at each other for our own issues and shortcomings soon. Please don't give up on us. O.k, bye.

Later guys<33

elena said...

Hard to take it easy in my business. I haul boxes of books everyday. Today I actually took just a few at a time out of my car and into the store. It took forever.

mya said...

You probably shouldn't be aggravating like that, Elena. Is there no one else that could help you with that?

ergoproxy said...

mya it will thicken them a bit, the dye layer adds to them, and they'll look thicker as they'll be darker

mya said...

Ooh! That's good to know, Ergo! I definitely be giving it a try!

mya said...

I keep leaving out words...
Oh, well...

elena said...

Lewis call me when you can, Okay?

mya said...

Oh, and my friend said that it helps to curl your lashes and to use the clear mascara on them afterward.

elena said...

Nope, no employees at the store today, only me. I just hate being slowed down.

mya said...

Well, if you don't slow down some, Elena, you might be laid-up for longer. You gotta take care of it.

Anonymous said...

Is this it for the Porchies? LET HOPE IT IS! Then all the people they collectively HURT can come back.

mya said...

I had thought about getting the eyelash extensions until a girl at work got them last year. That looked great for about 2 days, then they slowly started coming loose and falling off.

mya said...

And I would be afraid that they would pull some of my real lashes with them!

Anonymous said...

Let that whole group of HACKERS never darken this blog again.

mya said...

It was nice chatting you guys, but I'm going to sign off now.

Elena, take care of yourself!

ergoproxy said...

elena just be really careful lifting, painkillers mean you might not feel damage, when I busted my disc I was on xanax and my physio had me come off it so I would know if I was doing more damage (after the initial pain and inflammation was gone)


you can mya , plus it looks nicer without any mascara, frames your eyes, and in saying that I am reminded I really need mine done again!

Anonymous said...

*still wants to know who framed or betrayed the google anon*

ergoproxy said...

extensions?? I haven't heard of that
a friend of mine got tattooed eyeliner, swore she'd tell everyone not to do it, she regretted it so much
(I can't imagine letting someone near my eye with tattoo gear)

Anonymous said...

I think that "Kapunua / WITCH" thing isn't about religion as much as it is about her attitude. She is a real WITCH. If you know what I mean.

Anonymous said...

But don't worry..... GOD takes care of "real" witches (as if there was any such thing) anyhow.

elena said...

Bye Mya

nice talking to you

Anonymous said...

Whoa that hurt.I feel like I'm puking up my blood again.





Because someone got upset on a blog?

HOLY SHIT.

You people are fucked.

Anonymous said...

c

is that you at 9:17? ^_~

ergoproxy said...

see you mya

you have any more tim tams left elena? Or do I need to send more?

wish I had some

and I want to see Star Trek again

elena said...

Okay here is an idea Ergo

Lets go see Star Trek together and sneak in a package of Tim Tams

Anonymous said...

In order for people to be afraid of little girls pretending to be witches, you would have to believe that God would allow witchcraft to even exist. He doesn't. When witches like to pretend to be "victims" and say that the Bible says "Thou shalt not suffer a witch to live" they are just playign the victim, as usual.

What it really means is that GOD is an awesome God and He does not give other people the power of witchcraft... HE does not allow them to live because there is no such thing in the first place!

ergoproxy said...

haha boldly go where no tim tams have gone before....

I took 2 mandarines into the movie, it was around lunch time and I wasn't going to pay their ridiculous prices for stuff

Anonymous said...

Stop trolling yourself and go away.

elena said...

Oh I agree the price is crazy. We went to see it on a Tue and the tickets were just 5 dollars each. Three of us went so it was 15. Then hubby had to have snacks. That was 15. How crazy is that?

Anonymous said...

I don't know who you're talking to but I am allowed to have an opinion. If she is allowed to spew hers then I am allowed to speak mine. THis is a two way street.


Isn't it??

Maybe not according to you and your friends but to the rest of us is it.

Anonymous said...

You just confirmed my guess. If you were not her or her friends you would have ignored that comment. Now please leave these people alone.

ergoproxy said...

the food is ludicrous, and it isn't even very nice and in tiny packets, you can buy the same candy in stores for so much less

we got tickets cheaper too, and the mandarin is free off our tree :]

can you take in food or do they check bags?

repeated for emphasis said...

Anonymous said...
The best thing everyone here can do, including anons, is to never mention her again. She wants attention. Don't give it to her. She has said her part and no, it wasn't expected, but she is expecting it to be the topic of conversation for days.

There is no reason to ever darken this place with anything about her ever again.

June 4, 2009 8:17 PM

elena said...

Hey Ergo I gotta go for a bit. Hope to see you when I get back.

Take care, everyone.

Anonymous said...

Ummm why don't you stop accusing me and YOU go away.

She gives her opinion.

I give mine.

If you can't handle other people's opinion (which you and your friends can't) then don't give YOURS.

I never tried to MAKE anyone agree with me.

if people want to play stupid games and pretend that they have some "witch karma" that is their own sad choice. It shows their ignorance.

ergoproxy said...

ok elena
it's time for me to have lunch and watch forensic shows too, mmmm nothing like murder and yoghurt
back in a bit!

Anonymous said...

Foot and Ass

Anonymous said...

I'm not sure if you understood what I meant. When I said you were trolling yourself it meant you were one of Kap's friends or her being rude to herself for attention.

She is no friend of mine.

Don't give her attention if you don't like her. It is the one thing she craves the most.

Anonymous said...

Ding dong the porch is dead.

FINALLY.

Let it rest. She says there isn't another blog.

Whether there is or isn't, as long as they are not going to be HERE does it matter?

Do you all really think Mayo would go somewhere else?

I doubt that very much.

Just be happy that we are all still here and the place is ours now.

BORN FREE!!!!

Anonymous said...

Believe me.... she is no friend of mine. I do not take to pretenders very well and I do NOT take to people who think it's funny to insult my religion.

Anonymous said...

There is no reason to ever darken this place with anything about her ever again.

June 4, 2009 8:17 PM




Can that be the blogs new mantra? Never mention her name or anything about her again. I'll sign in blood.

Anonymous said...

Mayo's a douche and smells like foot and ass.

Anonymous said...

It's a shame any of them had to darken this blog in the first place.

Can we forget ALL of them? Because to me they are all alike.

Did you ever see ANY of her friends defend any of YOU?

Nope. Not a single time. All I saw was more harassment towards the OPS from people like Smoke and Fimble Star.

Anonymous said...

Blumpkin Pie

Anonymous said...

They're all pretty much alike. A HIVE mind. Bees are all pretty much the same.....

Anonymous said...

They never really gave or earned any trust.

Anonymous said...

If you really hate Kapunua and her friends why do you keep bringing them up?

If you don't care why do continue on and on and on about all of this? Them?

You seem very bitter. Let it go. Even if you feel they won't. Rise up. Step away.


Blumpkin pie? In your eye? In the sky? On a boat or train?

Anonymous said...

Actually she brought herself up AND she brought her friends up.

I don't think it's right if she gets her say and other's don't get their say.

Do you?

Anonymous said...

That bee analogy is really stupid. Just so you know.

Anonymous said...

10PM Only asking why you bother if you don't like them so much? If you wanted them gone why do you keep bringing them up? You should have you're say but you've said it now. Just wondering why you keep on.

Anonymous said...

Actually THEY were the ones who made up "orange little bees".

See THIS is why these things have to be said.

You (anons defending the Porchies, please SIGN IN) are just revisionists.

The "bee analogy is stupid"?

Tell that to those who said it in the first place. The Porchies themselves.

Anonymous said...

The Bee Analogy is stupid, Porchies.

Better?

Anonymous said...

I do not take to pretenders very well and I do NOT take to people who think it's funny to insult my religion.

June 4, 2009 9:50 PM



:) Standing up for what you believe in. I've taken to you 9:50.

Anonymous said...

Yes, but I doubt they will get it.

Anonymous said...

The crust of the matter is that she has still not learned her lesson.

After getting fired, she has not learned to stop talking shit.

Read other people's blogs and it is all pretty nice. hope, friendship, happiness, LOVE.

Read hers and it is all about who bothers her at her school. Who is annoying. Who "asks stupid questions."

Make up all the nicknames you want..... you're still going to get found out.

How's it going to be to get kicked out of school?

Or get kicked out of karate school for posting videos of people?

Most adults learn a lesson from making a mistake. But Kapu would have to ADMIT that she made a mistake in order to do that.

Mya tried to teach her. But Kapu will never learn.

Anonymous said...

Yes. Let's drop the bee analogy. Bees are great little pollinators.

Anonymous said...

And STILL talking about the lost job and the "ex boss" and STILL talking shit about him. And STILL talking shit about religion and trying to anger Christians.

9:59,etc. said...

That would be my point 10:08.

Then that is Kapunua's problem 10:12. But you seem to think like her. Why do you care? Just let it go?

Wasn't defending or revising on purpose. Just thinking outloud. Goodnight.

Anonymous said...

She's going to end up with no friends in real life. NO ONE.

Like most of them will because they are followers. Sheep. Following her down the same path.

Anonymous said...

10:12
I agree with what you said but did you have to mention her name. That's just giving her more of the attention she desperately wants.

9:59,etc. said...

Second 10:12, yay for innocent bee's. :)

That is all.

Anonymous said...

Believe me. I do NOT think like her. I would never insult anyone's TRUE religion.

And I would not use an entire journal just to complain about people in my life. Or to still show anger over something that happened the year before.

Or to show anger over the bad things that happened to me that I DESERVED.

Anonymous said...

Some like to say that karma will get her.

But.... in the words of a wise man.... "what if WE are karma"?

Anonymous said...

Nope. You're just obsessing Here, over her. How is that so much better?

Anonymous said...

9:59,etc

:) You like bees? I'm taken to people who like those great little pollinators as well as those who stand up for what they believe in.

Goodnite :)

Anonymous said...

No, trust me, it is not obsession.

Use your logic.

But I do believe that people should be put in their place. If they are too stubborn to learn a lesson the first time (shut your mouth or we will make sure you pay.... as in getting fired)... Then how many lessons will it take for you to finally learn?

Sometimes Karma needs a little push.

All Mya ever did was that little push of karma.

But Kapu did not learn to keep her mouth shut, obviously.

Anonymous said...

Uh, OK 10:22.

Anonymous said...

But.... in the words of a wise man.... "what if WE are karma"?



Then somebody or something else can get her. I don't want her.

Can we stop talking about her. It's getting me nauseated.

Anonymous said...

She wants attention. Don't give it to her. She has said her part and no, it wasn't expected, but she is expecting it to be the topic of conversation for days.

Anonymous said...

You might not have expected it but I did. I knew it was coming. It always comes from her. Those comments were def not a surprise.

I agree shes gotten more than enough attention tonight. Don't feed the monster ego any more of what it craves.

Anonymous said...

This has got to be the most selfish shit I have ever read in my life.


All of it.

Anonymous said...

Religion?

What religion preaches any of this crap...not My God.

Anonymous said...

Christ! To think I used to be the most evil thing around.

toujours said...

hello everyone, hello anons.

hey elena, are you still around (and awake? *heh*)

ergo, you back yet?







*stands in the middle of the room for a moment*


*looks at the portrait*



*looks up at the chandelier*





*wanders into the kitchen to rummage through Mayo's fridge*

Anonymous said...

You either havent been here long or never bothered to read all the comments from the beginning. Go back and read. You'll see alot of selfish shit. You'll see alot of people being treated like shit.

Anonymous said...

Helpful Not Helpful
1 Timothy 6:3-5 ESV / 3 helpful votes

If anyone teaches a different doctrine and does not agree with the sound words of our Lord Jesus Christ and the teaching that accords with godliness, he is puffed up with conceit and understands nothing. He has an unhealthy craving for controversy and for quarrels about words, which produce envy, dissension, slander, evil suspicions, and constant friction among people who are depraved in mind and deprived of the truth, imagining that godliness is a means of gain.

Anonymous said...

You talking about the comments @ 7:06 anon?

My God don't teach that self absorbed, me me me and mine, fuck everybody else, their pain, their opinions and their feelings shit either.

He does teach you reap what you sow. Tru fax.

Anonymous said...

Here's one that's going to be popular!!





Romans 1:26-27 ESV / 1 helpful vote

For this reason God gave them up to dishonorable passions. For their women exchanged natural relations for those that are contrary to nature; and the men likewise gave up natural relations with women and were consumed with passion for one another, men committing shameless acts with men and receiving in themselves the due penalty for their error.
;)

Anonymous said...

You have all gone insane! Over a stupid blog! LOL!

Anonymous said...

Your God obviously teaches foul language, too.

Anonymous said...

What brings you to this insane asylum 11:12? Did you come voluntarily or was it court ordered?

ergoproxy said...

Hi TJ
you find anything in the fridge?

I have some nice mandarins off our tree

*puts down bowl*

Anonymous said...

My God don't teach that self absorbed, me me me and mine, fuck everybody else, their pain, their opinions and their feelings shit either.


My God doesn't teach me to act like a bunch of foaming at the mouth pack of wild dogs either. Take a look at yourself before you judge others!

Anonymous said...

He does. Damn's all over the bible. Foul language is all over this blog too. Go back. Read. From the beginning.

Anonymous said...

I will if you will 11:17.

Anonymous said...

bullet

"Only 68 of 200 Anglican priests polled could name all Ten Commandments, but half said they believed in space aliens." 1
bullet

"Concerning the Ten Commandments in courthouses and legislatures: You cannot post 'Thou Shalt Not Steal,' 'Thou Shalt Not Commit Adultery,' and 'Thou Shall Not Lie' in a building full of lawyers, judges and politicians...It creates a hostile work environment." 2

Anonymous said...

Forgive a mere watcher (not an official one) for butting in, but can I ask a question?

I may be stupid, but if everybody is all nice for Mayo's benefit, how can a reg anon when he has a stat counter? Everyone knows things like hide my ass don't work, so wouldn't Mayo have a fair idea of who was being nasty to whom? By the same token, how could anyone troll themselves without Mayo knowing?

Anonymous said...

I'll say it again. We're not a pack of wild dogs. We're a frothing horde and we're mean, nasty, creepy, insane, illiterate, saintly, idiots who are always wrong and should have never been born.

ergoproxy said...

on my Star Trek theme, you US guys wouldn't have seen Eric Bana before he did film acting, here he is in the 90's from a comedy sketch show
Peter (or Poida)
so glad he's made it in film now

Anonymous said...

I'll say it again. We're not a pack of wild dogs


I have never seen grown women act this way. Kapunua said her piece and the foam started flying! LOL!

Anonymous said...

11:22

He would know who the real mean and nasty ones were. Which is why false accusations, lies and finger pointing won't convince him of anything.

He would know who trolled themself or got people they knew to do it.

If he's paying attention. I hope he is. I hope he has paid attention from day 30.

Anonymous said...

I'm amazed she stuck it out this long.

I get the feeling that people like Elena and Ergo were just waiting for her to get angry, after all the picking poking prodding etc etc etc so that they could jump up her ass.

I think they're pretty happy that they finally have an excuse to call her "bitch". They're dancing in their shoes over it.

Anonymous said...

I hope he knows who 11:27 is and where they come from.

Anonymous said...

I hope he knows who 11:31 is. Are you hiding your ass 11:31? There are ways around that you know.

toujours said...

*returns from the kitchen, a little mussed*

ergo, did i hear your voice? or was it just psychic emanations?

i got a bit lost in Mayo's pantry. have you see it? it's huge!








i hear snickering.

i said pantry, people. you know, where he keeps his nonperishables!

ergoproxy said...

O_O you were rummaging in mayo's pantry!

you never know what you'll find!!

how are you?

Anonymous said...

BELIEVE ME, Mayo knows who is who and who is saying what.

That's why I laugh every time people say he is taking the side of the Porchies.

LMAO!!!

toujours said...

i'm good, ergo. :)

i've been trying to iron out the details of a trip i'm taking at the end of the month -- my college friend and i are going back to the alma mater for the reunion this year.

how's things for you?

ergoproxy said...

oh how fun! I hope you have a good time, I'm really good thanks, it's sunny today and we have a long weekend this weekend (Queen's Birthday)


hey try this, they did it on a music quiz show here called Spicks adn Specks
you get a bit of a song, use babel fish to translate it into japanese, then take it from that back to english
some work better than others
see if you can guess what this song is

"This love I exactly can't it’s called;
That I of the steering wheel of it must reach to that,
this I ain't is called the love;
It called love that the insanity which can do preparation is small"

toujours said...

oh man, that's got me stumped! what is it?

ergoproxy said...

"This thing called love I just can't handle it
this thing called love I must get round to it
I ain't ready
Crazy little thing called love"


they come out so differently!!

toujours said...

i love the last line in the funky translation, especially when compared to the original! lol

that's pretty cool. :)

elena said...

I'm back.

ergoproxy said...

how about this,
I am trying heaps and some are good
you should try one

"As for that every night I me feel
with my dream and meet me
how you know the thing which continues crossing the interval which is directly,

and the space between us continue showing thing it came to be close as for a certain place being wherever,

as for distant me the door which the center opens once more with you
it believes that it goes and on
my center there is here
and my center goes steadily"


I'll give you a hint a VERY annoying, overplayed song from a movie

toujours said...

hello!

how are you doing, elena?

ergoproxy said...

hi elena!

toujours said...

i'm going to try one, ergo -- but i love this one for the very romantic, very non-committal, very vague lyrics, somewhere sometime hahaha

i'm just guessing, but it isn't something by celine dion is it?

elena said...

I'm okay. Right now I'm looking through this really cool book I got the other day titled "Celestial Images Antiquarian Astronomical Charts and Maps From the Mendillo Collection." I love the color plates in this book. I'm gonna try to show you a few in a minute.

ergoproxy said...

it very may well be TJ!!

you're getting warm, which song?

it's even funnier if you try and sing it to the tune, it is very non committal isn't it "t came to be close as for a certain place being wherever"

elena said...

Jean Fortin, Le Capicorne, et Le Veresau from Atlas Celeste of John Flamsteed (1649-1719)

Link

ergoproxy said...

oh elena I love those sort of plates, the older drawings of constellations are so beautifully detailed

elena said...

Johannes Hevelius, Virgo from Firmamentum Sobiescianum 1687-1690


link

toujours said...

oh wow, elena. i love books like that. what does gemini look like, if you don't mind me asking?

ergo, i can't quite remember the title, but is it that one from "titanic"? i'm afraid i've mostly blocked it from my mind in an effort to avoid the trauma! lol

elena said...

Hold on TJ I'll try to get a pic for you

ergoproxy said...

me!

ergoproxy said...

yay!

*happy dance*

elena that is lovely, yay virgo!!

and TJ it is My Heart Will Go On (and on and on and on...)
good spotting!!

elena said...

Well damn no Gemini TJ, sorry. This book is just full of beautiful plates.

elena said...

Ergo for the top spot again!!!!!!

Well done

toujours said...

cool!

well, i've been trying to do a translation of my own, but this stupid laptop is mucking things up. i can't play along. :(

toujours said...

that's okay, elena, thanks for looking though!

elena said...

You really would love this book TJ

I can send it to you if you like

ergoproxy said...

oh that's a shame, I did find you ahve to get rid of apostrophes, like change you're to you are

want me to do another one?

toujours said...

*jaw drops*

really, elena? you would?

oh my gosh.

yes, i'd love to see it! ♥



ergo, i was trying to do the last two verses of "blood", i was thinking they'd be fun to see!

g'nite bloggers said...

The Heart's Archaeology


On some fundless expedition,
you discover it beneath
a pyracantha bush
carved from the hip bone
of a long-extinct herbivore
that walked the plains on legs
a story tall. An ocarina of bone
drilled and shaped laboriously
with tools too soft to be efficient
by one primitive musician
spending night after night
squatting by the fire.
No instrument of percussion:
place this against your lips,
fill it from your lungs to sound
a note winding double helix, solo
and thready calling to the pack.





by Maudelle Driskell

elena said...

TJ I'm so lazy just drop me an e-mail with your address so I don't have to look it up and I'll pop it in the mail tomorrow.

Anonymous said...

A Diamond

A Translation for Robert Jones


A diamond
Is there
At the heart of the moon or the branches or my nakedness
And there is nothing in the universe like diamond
Nothing in the whole mind.


The poem is a seagull resting on a pier at the end of the ocean.


A dog howls at the moon
A dog howls at the branches
A dog howls at the nakedness
A dog howling with pure mind.


I ask for the poem to be as pure as a seagull’s belly.


The universe falls apart and discloses a diamond
Two words called seagull are peacefully floating out where the
waves are.
The dog is dead there with the moon, with the branches, with
my nakedness
And there is nothing in the universe like diamond
Nothing in the whole mind.





by Jack Spicer

ergoproxy said...

They encourage your complete cooperation well,
when the necessity which smiles thinking because send the rose
I do not know me how,
it cannot control by my and as for them me for that I' It loves honestly;

As for I'll for a while there is here, therefore the blood,
the blood and the raw materials do to give in those drinking gallon, that never goes sufficiently, because is not,
does the blood,
the blood and the blood
to give those entirely the fact that it is
the flood is done in those which therefore are given but the glass

the clamp do human those where the inside of the portable bed celebrates the bit of luck and so worship the doctor and nurse me who are possible to repair appropriate me, that really considerably cause I' of alarm;
So it is;
When the necessity where they encourage your complete cooperation well and smile thinking
(thank you why m very terrible sexual intercourse!)

As for me the blood, the blood and the raw materials am given as for me who you could drink gallon, that never me gave the blood so far, sufficiently, was not the blood and the blood and I who am given entirely am the wreckage of a kind of human whom you love!

toujours said...

g'nite! i'm never here when you post, this is a treat! :)

and a lovely little poem it is too, simple but elegant. i like that bit about putting the ocarina to one's lips, the breath makes the sound live. wonderful. thank you, and good night. :)


ergo, i'm even lazier: i'll text it to you, ok? lol

ergoproxy said...

oops I missed an I'm in the Thank you

I had to do it in bits

toujours said...

the second poem reminds me of the moon card in the tarot, what will the dogs howling and all. poetry about poetry is like a mirror, in that scrying sort of way.


ergo, that's great! it's probably hell to actually sing along with the music though. lol

elena said...

(thank you why m very terrible sexual intercourse!)


Good thing I'm alone because I really laughed out loud

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