It was written from another’s perspective. A recollection of a conversation turned first person. Expensive, anti-climactic words ringing in my ears with an unrelenting need to, once again, find voice. In reverse, they became a bit of guilt unfurled to reveal how my selfish needs superseded best interest. Recall that I held on too long, to that room, to that moment.
“Just say it, say it already”
“I don’t.”
As painful as it may have been to hear it rephrased in that manner, I never meant to be cruel. And now, when the melody of the moment presents itself, I am reminded to never again make that mistake. Although ironically, it was only after repeated cost that it became my lesson. I hope it has become yours, as well.
p.s. volumes like breadcrumbs lead back.
Friday, September 12, 2008
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«Oldest ‹Older 3201 – 3400 of 5657 Newer› Newest»hi MJ!!!
how are you?
haven't seen you for ages
In Memphis, Tennessee, it is illegal for a woman to drive a car unless there is a man either running or walking in front of it waving a red flag to warn approaching motorists and pedestrians.
lol. it reminds me of a south park episode
Hello EP I saw you here and decided to come talk to you. About what I don't know.
But I am doing alright how about yourself.
Looks like I killed the blog.
Whoa, Mayo. I don't even know what to say here man..
Interesting, interesting and More interesting.
I hope Ergo, you have a an awesome trip! And please take lots of pictures -and BE CAREFUL! Alrighty!? No 'Scothch' o.k.! ;p Too many hills and crocs Yo! And just have fun loves!
Hiya MJ! I missed you! I hope the headache therapy is going good?? One day at a time! (I probably shouldn't be shouting yea??) hope you are well mj... ;)
Just wanted to say howdy, too much to do today.
And hey 5:50, was that an offer? ;) No one should be so grand as to pass up such charity...
Bye guys! loves! -l/d
I'm not too bad, woke up with a bit of an upset tummy this morning, hopefully it's just nerves.
I'm getting some washing done then heading to town to buy some last minute stuff and pick up a box from our friends parents to take up to him.
Then it's get the house sorted and pack for Monday
gah - I'm excited and nervous at the same time!
Hiya Lewis!
I shall be careful I promise, actually have just found beer with lime, it's pretty nice
how are you?
Hello lewis the headaches are doing better.
ep you are going away on a trip right?
sure am MJ
on monday afternoon (2 days) we are away for a week up north to a town called Darwin, a friend lives there, it's in the least populated state of Oz. lots of national parks and stuff
And lots of poisonous insects as well i bet.
Oh sorry guys! I have to turn off the computer! :(
But glad to hear you are doing better Mj! I hope the new plan works to rid you of them completely! (I am so glad to see ya name!)
And Ergo -PLEASE be careful o.k.!? And again -lots of pictures! I hope you don't forget anything! (I end up takin random shit I don't need -ever, but for some reason feel the world might end if I don't have my flaming blue or lime green eye shadow -that I never wear....EVER. So yea, good luck with the packing! And just have fun!
I hope you lovelies are well! Is it raining where you are MJ!? It is over here! I am oddly excited about that! Whoo! (Cheap thrill!) OH! Mj -do like The Decemberist?? I think I am going on the 25th of Nov (warfield) -would be awesome to catch you loves!!
Anyway -shit I am in trouble! So be safe, be happy, hope to chat again soon! Can't wait to hear about you're trip Ergo!
-love to you ladies!! kiss -bye!
Goddamit! That would be Plural --- DECEMBERIST'S. How annoying!
Alrighty -loves! ;p
bye lewis I shall be careful, really I will
MJ actually the worst insects up there are the mosquitoes and such,there are snakes though and the big thing is the crocodiles, salt water crocs, like Steve Irwin dealt with. You can't swim in the rivers and even some beaches.
There are freshwater crocs too but they are much smaller and not nearly as dangerous.
But generally it's tourists that get in strife, Australians grow up cautious of wildlife I think
hope you lovelies are well! Is it raining where you are MJ!? It is over here! I am oddly excited about that! Whoo! (Cheap thrill!) OH! Mj -do like The Decemberist?? I think I am going on the 25th of Nov (warfield) -would be awesome to catch you loves!!
No rain over here right now. I wish it would.
The Decemberist I have heard of them but I don't know any of their songs.
I know the name but I cannot place any songs, hope you have fun though Lewis!
I hope you enjoy the show
oh before I forget
mayo!
you were in my dream last night! After a tonne of other stuff I found myself sitting on the top step of a 3 steps up into a house, back to the door adding to a map which was on the next step down and I was adding things to show you something I have no idea what, and then the step was covered in sand and I was writing to you in it, I wrote "Mayo, look for the old house" but then wiped it over with my hand and wrote it again but this time the Mayo was in big fancy letters,
so there ya go!
bum fluff beautifulicious.
crunk that junk in da trunk with da funk.
whatya up to nadda nadda nadda.
it's a quiet day on the blog today!
O_o
answer: yes
:)
Ahoy me matey, Ergo! Ahoy all me mateys!!!
I am:
Your pirate name is:
Dread Pirate Bonney
Like the famous Dread Pirate Roberts, you have a keen head for how to make a profit. You can be a little bit unpredictable, but a pirate's life is far from full of certainties, so that fits in pretty well. Arr!
And, shiver me timbers some more ~ please!
An old man by a seashore
At the end of day
Gazes the horizon with
Seawinds in his face
Tempest-tossed island
Seasons all the same
Anchorage unpainted and
A ship without a name
*big smile*
How are you, honeybunch? Are you all packed yet?
Hi Martha! Good to 'see' you!
Hi Mickey!
*has been granted internet time while the nephew watches his favorite Pokemon movie ~ Pokemon 8*
Who knew there were that many Pokemon movies?
O_o
Hello 6
Ooops, hi yes anon!
Martha!!!! I'm glad you're still here. I was beginning to think I would have to have a conversation with myself (again).
How are you? What have you been doing?
I am alright. Nothing much is going on. I saw that it was quiet in her so I decided to have a look around.
It's Me
So, who is here...anon16 and martha?
I know, I am too lazy tonight to go back pages and pages.
Please forgive me....
Hello it's me how are you?
Hi wendy!
*smooooooooooch*
I'm just getting ready to hoist the mainsail and sail to plunder the town of mackay!
It's a little spooky, huh Martha.
That's okay. I like spooky. And, you can hold my hand if I get too scared.
Umm....you would hold my hand, wouldn't you?
;)
How's work? Are you supervisors still human slinky material?
hi It's me how are you?
Ergo!!!!
*smoooooooooch*
I am ready for some plundering! Where's my helmet? Martha needs one too!
It's me!!!! Where have you been? How have you been? It's good to 'see' you!
It's Me
Hey, let me tell you...a car can be your ruins.
My check engine light came on on the way to work and so I took it to the mechanics after work....
are you ready.......???????
$1,000.00 to replace the part. Of course they take good care of me and were able to find a used part for $100.00.
Bless their souls....the care is a 1997, so was not looking at putting 1 grand into it.
Seems I need to start thinking about a new car :(
It's Me
Ergo...didn't see you!!!
Helloooooooo!!!!
"$1,000.00 to replace the part. Of course they take good care of me and were able to find a used part for $100.00."
Was it the 710 knob, It's Me? I hear those are expensive. Especially for us blondes!
710 knob
;)
That's horrible though! What the heck costs $1000 on a car? Besides the engine, that is. That goodness your mechanics look out for you!
6 I will hold you hand. Work has gotten better.
*hugz * for wendy and it's me
ugh cars are scary like that, you never know what is minor and what is major
$1000. Well at least it wasn't $10,0000
Hey, beautifuk doods!
What's Going On?
710 - ahahahahahahahaa
Hey you guys! Fimble just had to go home. WAHHH. That sucks. So pink bubble Fimmy for her way back home.
Now, Smoke, Solly and I are going to go out for ice cream and then why, who knows what's next? But we will be on later. :D Whoop whoop!
Oh and, our eyes did kinda rain a few times so far. Yeah, we LOled. These girls are hilariously funny. :)
Oh, and Solly keeps singing about "apple bottom jeans." O_o
hi mustard!
hey guess what?
I have Ray sitting on my computer!
Hey Pash! Everyone says HIIIIII!
omg the mothereffin nutella
O_O
It's Me
Anon16...if it was the 710 knob I could have take care of that myself :)
These cars now have computers in them and when the "Check Engine" light comes on...it is something.
I bought the care brand new for 8,900.00...what part could cost 1,000.00!!!! Anyway...the used part goes in and I start my quest for a new car.
I know it might be a while until you answer, but is Fim okay, Jules?
BOOTS WIT DA SPURSSSSSS!!!!
I have Ray sitting on my computer!
PARDON?! Why's Raymond on your computer?
Jules wins.
The Nutella is awesome.
SS, just eat your way out. You'll be fine.
Hi everyone!
An in the tank fuel pump replacement....1050.00 The part alone can run 500.00.
Fimmy has a headache. It was so damn hot today. Grrr.
Ahhhh man. If you guys talk to her, tell I'm sorry. That sucks so bad.
*waves to Sweaty Betty Lobster Botch*
Hey everyone
Thank you, Martha! I knew I could depend on you. I'm happy to hear work's a little better. How are the headaches?
Ergo, I knew you would like the 710 knob! ;)
Umm...What's Ray doing?
It's me: I suppose I could find my 710 knob, if I looked for it!
Hi Mustard! Hi Smoke! Hi everyone who arrived!
Well, my reprieve ~ I mean Pokemon 8 ~ is over. I must be off for a good game of Dinopoly. Wish me luck! I'll need it!
*blows smoooooooches to Ergo*
*blows kisses to everyone else*
Have fun, everyone!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
*runs back in to say:
HI SWEETCHEEKS!!!!!!!!*
Your new, bigger, better, brighter, more brilliantly encrusted tiara has arrived and will be waiting for you in the a.m.!
*huge hug and kiss*
poor FIm! hope you feel better
and so glad you guys are having a ball
mustard he is sitting on a shark facing me.
He's multi skilled bet you didn't know he had aquatic animal taming skillz
he says "Hi"
It's Me
Ergo...what is mustard wearing?
Oh my God, Ergo, DON'T LET HIM GET EATEN!!!
Hey, BC!
*answers for Ergo*
A bodehsuit.
Hello everyone and later I am running off to the store.
bye wendy! *smoooooch* take care
Hi sugarplum. Thank you! I bet the tiara looks awesome *blows kisses and hugs*
I'll be lurking for a bit. Gonna finish my ice cream and watch viva la bam.
Later guys
Hiya mustard, it's me, ergo. Hi and bye mj
it's me that's what SHE says!
bodysuit....hmmmmm
don't worry mustard he has charmed the ferocious beast and it is putty in his massively skilled fingerz
It's Me
Imagination is running wild...what is mustard wearing......
he has charmed the ferocious beast and it is putty in his massively skilled fingerz
Damn straight.
;)
Bye, BC and MJ and 616!
It's Me
Refresh is running slow tonight.
Bodysuit....does it show all the curves and, and, and bulges????
We could just put him in a speedo...
hi BC bye MJ
I'm off to town I will be back later though
take care anyone I miss leaving
♥
oh it's medid you mean Ray?
he's in the revenge gear, though speedo bears pondering.....
It's Me
Ergo...No, I was really wondering what mustard was wearing.
But, a speedo has to be with the one that you love :) Might as well go comado and skip the speedo:)
Well, guys, I gotta go, too!
Have a great night!
Night, Mayo! Night, SS!
It's Me
Mustard...good night...
*sniffles*
Happy Friday Night
It's Me
Stuffyhead...if it is what I had...you should be good to go in about 4-5 days.
Here are some lotion kleenex for you :)
It's Me
OK...it is slow tonight...I have decided to have one more beer....
*sip*
It's Me
OK...it is slow tonight...I have decided to have one more beer....
*sip*
It's Me
Damn....double post....how did I manage that!!!
*gulp*
It's Me
*sip*
It's Me
*sip*
I hate to see someone drink alone...pour me a shot!
It's Me
Anon...what do you want....Jack, Rum...I am having Bud Light.
Lol, im sitting here having a budweiser to. Im a cheap date.
It's Me
Anon...so am I...
Toast or Broast (spelling) depending on where you are at....
Here to Friday!!!!
*sip*
This bar is empty tonight! Where did everyone go. It's a friday night for petes sake!
Here's to it's me..cheers!
It's Me
Well Anon...I guess it is just you and me...what shall we do?
Pour us another round, it has been a long week.
It's Me
Cheers to you anon...
*sip*
Burrrrp!Excuse me, i drank that one to fast.Beer makes me do that!
Thats not bad manner, thats just good beer!
It's Me
*lines up shots*
Anon...not your ordinary shots....how about some jello shots!
I will start....*takes the red rum shot* Yum! *takes another while no one is looking*
Might need another beer.... *sip*
I am liking the jello shots...
puts money into the jutebox, what do you want to hear?
It's Me
Green are gin...
I like the red ones....
It's Me
OH!!1 Anon, my song is Girls Just Want To Have Fun.....is that on the box?
i never had a jello shot, i messed up on that one..i ate it,i didnt shoot it!
It's Me
You swallow it...what else can you swallow???
*sip*
hello
all i've got is coffee, can i still join the party?
It's Me
*lines up jello shots*
Who wants one?
It's Me
Toujours....sure...what color....red or green?
*sip*
I MUST CALL IT A NIGHT OMG MY COPUTER IS ACTING UP BE BACK WHEN I GET IT FIXED WHATS UP WITH THE CAPITAL LETTERS
whichever is closest, it's me.
and bye to the anon with computer problems.
yoneh ym ih
(:
and hello new anon! :)
It's Me
So Toujours....if that is the same anon that I was partining with....that leaves us.
So, what has been happening with you...I must admit I sometimes do not have time to go back through the pages.....
sorry....
It's Me
*pushes the red one*
I think you would enjoy this one more than the green :)
psh-tosh don't worry about, it's me. here's my update: still trapped in kentucky.
yay.
what about you? anything good to report?
*scrolls back to see what the red ones are*
oh, yes. good call, it's me. :)
*takes the shot, with a coffee chaser*
>.<
that hits the spot.
It's Me
Toujours...people actually live in Kentucky?
*pushes another red jello shot*
Hiya TJ, it's me :)
It's Me
Hi bleeding chaos...jello shot?
i know, i was shocked too, it's me. and now i'm stranded. i am my own gilligan.
*takes shot*
>.<
hiya bc. how are you?
dont take it bc, i think that shot messed up my comuter!
and it messed up my spelling LOL!
It's Me
Anon...no shots mess up a computer...
Toujours....Hey!, it could be worse...*pushes another red shot*
;straeh&sezzif;straeh&
(:
It's Me
Toujours....red shot to red shot...salute....it could be worse
*swallows shot*
actually, i held my shift button down to long and then all i had was capital letters and i dont know what i am talking about!!
how could it be worse? i mean, i know worse things happen at sea, but did you have a specific scenario in mind, it's me?
*takes shot*
>.<
10:51, it sounds like you accidentally turned on your caps lock, maybe?
It's Me
Anonymous said...
;straeh&sezzif;straeh&
(:
You might have the wrong launguagh.
*pushes a green shot*
I wish i was stranded on an island sometimes but i dont like coconuts.
10:51, it sounds like you accidentally turned on your caps lock, maybe?
probably, i shouldn't of took that last jello shot!
depends on what island you get stranded on. for instance: england.
you probably wouldn't have to live on coconuts there.
Hi there anon. Sucks about the computer troubles. Don't worry I'm not on the computer. I had jello shots before ^_^
*takes shot from it's me*
*gulp*
Thanks it's me.
I'm okay TJ, but feeling a bit hot. What are you up to?
I would like to get stranded where there is lots of chocalate.
It's Me
Toujours....any where you do not want to be is bad.
I have been in places I wish I had never been before.
*pushes another red shot*
not much bc. practicing my avoidance skills, i suppose you could say.
and you know what, it's me, i still don't know where i really want to be, just not here.
bleh.
*takes shot*
>.<
It's Me
Bleeding Chaos...
another? *pushes a green one*
seriously, why would dogs have to have their hind legs tied?
i see that one every time i refresh the page.
It's Me
Toujours..I think it has to be your decision...you need to decide what is going to happen to you...the rest is just icing...
*pushes another red shot*
*picks up a red shot and downs it*
*sips beer*
easier said than done, it's me.
anyway!
*raises shot*
here's to...
our host! cheers, mayo!
*downs shot*
>.<
maybe april is dog mating season in massachusetts. i can see no other practical purpose for tying a dogs hind legs.
^_~
Thanks it's me.
*takes green shot*
*burp*
It's Me
Toujours...do you feel like you are in a corner....no where to go?
I hate that feeling...but you have to be strong....you can do it..
*offers another red shot*
i'll take that reason, 11:12, because i don't have a better one. thanks!
pretty much yes, it's me. that's how i feel.
*takes shot*
>.<
Mayo
I had a pretty nice relaxing day. Went for a long bike ride and I highly suggest it for clearing the cobwebs out of your mind. Really Mayo, you need to get a Harley. The feeling of the wind whipping through your hair as you travel down the highway is fucking amazing. It was a beautiful day and the temperature was perfect. I did a lot of thinking. The world can be a beautiful place. Just depends on your point of view. What I realized was is this – you can either roll with the punches of let the punches knock you out. I’ll roll. Yep, on and on. I’ll roll.
So I hope your day was good. I hope you smiled and laughed. I hope you felt loved. Hey, no task for tomorrow. Take the weekend off. Just enjoy life. I’ll be back to annoy you with tasks for Monday. Why? Well because….I don’t have to answer that one. You know why.
Night Mayo
Elena (rolling, rolling, rolling….)
hello elena, and good night. glad you had a good day. :)
It's Me
Toujours...I am sorry...have anyone you might be able to turn to?...get you out of Kentucky.
Sometimes you find the inner strenghth when all else fails...look within...you did it before...
*offers red shot*
*takes red shot*
Yum!
*sip*
i haven't been able to think of anyone, it's me.
*takes shot*
oh, crap! i'm out of coffee! brb, save my shot.
It's Me
Toujours....you are the key.
Plain and simple.....
You b the driver...
It's Me
*passes saved shot*
takes one for me
*sip*
i like coconuts.
Mayo: midnight reverie.
I like bananas
i like coffee.
Mayo: and the sisters will share.
Not me though.
All mine.
i don't like midnight reverie. the darkest of the darks. too bitter.
i like banana splits with coconut shavings.
greedy, kapunua.
(i don't know what you're talking about but still.)
Goodnight elena.
I like apples.
Where the hell is oranges anon?
It's Me
I like rum and Bud Light and knowing where I am today took alot of guts.
*sip*
i like oranges and oranges anon.
I like the flesh of a juicy orange. Sweetness on the tip on your tongue.
Nice work, anon. Mad skillz. But - like it. The darker the better.
. H
:)
Okay, mayo, I'll share my midnight reverie.
But just one bite.
If love were liquid it would drown me in a placeless place refine me,
in a heart shape come around me and then melt me slowly down
if love were human it would know me in a lost space come and show me,
hold me and control me and then melt me slowly down, like chocolate
In keeping with the chocolate theme :)
Me too 11:43, especially the juice.
Bitter and dark, just how I like it!
The sisters are sweeter though.
I am so jealous.
cherries are sweeter than the flesh of the sweetest orange.
chocolate coated cherries?
whoa, 11:50. nicely done.
mmmmmmmmmmm cherries and chocolate...exquisite
:)
better, i think, is a perfectly ripe plum.
it can't be eaten without the juices running down your chin.
:)
:)
:)?
Oh but toujours that's the best part, you can have someone special lick it all off, or vice versa :)
It's Me
I must say good night...
As always, it has been good to be able to talk with you.
Take care of yourself!
Night!!!
good night it's me. thanks for the jello shots.
oh, but did i say i didn't like that, 12:02? ;)
Honey is nice too :)
Goodnight it's me, thanks for the shots.
Hi various anons.
i think i like honey best of all. :)
Hey BC :)
Yum...so sweet and sticky.
:)
and honey is very good for you, too. very healthy, very good for your skin. it's all around a good thing. :)
Yes toujours, it most certainly is.
It also has many other uses.
...and honey combined with chocolate is superb.
well, there's no denying it has many, many, many uses...
it's a very good thing to have some honey in your life. :)
Hi smiley anon. I could just pinch your cheeks ^_^
Honey is great, but you can't compare it to chocolate. They're two seperate, yet wonderful things.
The sky puts on the darkening blue coat
held for it by a row of ancient trees;
you watch: and the lands grow distant in your sight,
one journeying to heaven, one that falls;
and leave you, not at home in either one,
not quite so still and dark as the darkened houses,
not calling to eternity with the passion of what becomes
a star each night, and rises;
and leave you (inexpressibly to unravel)
your life, with its immensity and fear,
so that, now bounded, now immeasurable,
it is alternately stone in you and star.
Evening
by Rainer Maria Rilke
wtf? Where the hell is errbody?
O_o
Mayo!!! Wassssuppp???
i don't know, i've never tried honey and chocolate together, it might be very yum.
and thank you g'nite, that was lovely. it truly was.
Believe me toujours, it's divine .
Try it with melted chocolate :)
Goodnight g'nite.
Am I invisdiibllee???? WTF?
12:34, i just might do that sometime. :)
hello smoke! :)
Well there all that shit is.
Banana splits are nommmy!!!
Jules & Solly almost puked on the bus. O_o
MAYO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hi TJ!!!
Can I put Mickey Mouse ears on Mayo's portrait? Peez? Just for today? ^_^
Eff that. Nevermind. I'll put them on SS. Gah! He will looooove it.
He won't come out with you yelling at him smoke.
Hi smokie
how much sugar did you have today, anyway, smoke? i swear you're on fast forward! :)
I'm not sure if i want him to "come out", Anon. That is up to Mayo. Seriously.
Hiya BC!
Nope. It's just who I am, TJ. ^_^
I am sugar anyway. I don't need anymore. I'm full of it.
Sweet, sweet, sweet.
Funny smoke.
The dudes are bizzy with life n'all. And it's wayyyy past their bedtime.
smoke&sugar20? :)
Dudes???
Wha?
Is there more than one Mayo? Can I have my own?
Smoke&Sugar? I don't know. Doesn't have the same ring to it, does it?
Now don't you get all complacent, people.
Mayo, did you enjoy your bite of Midnight Reverie? Let me tell you, don't get on a bus riding sideways after that!
Anon with the chocolate poem, that was very cool.
It's just Smoke and I right now because Solly is in the shower. I have to tell you these two ladies are more awesome in person than on the internet. ^_^
Jeni too. I miss her. She made me sad today when she went away.
Now Solly is here and Princess went into the shower.
Mayo, are you in the bathroom? Where you at, homes?
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