It was written from another’s perspective. A recollection of a conversation turned first person. Expensive, anti-climactic words ringing in my ears with an unrelenting need to, once again, find voice. In reverse, they became a bit of guilt unfurled to reveal how my selfish needs superseded best interest. Recall that I held on too long, to that room, to that moment.
“Just say it, say it already”
“I don’t.”
As painful as it may have been to hear it rephrased in that manner, I never meant to be cruel. And now, when the melody of the moment presents itself, I am reminded to never again make that mistake. Although ironically, it was only after repeated cost that it became my lesson. I hope it has become yours, as well.
p.s. volumes like breadcrumbs lead back.
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«Oldest ‹Older 1801 – 2000 of 5657 Newer› Newest»I didn't like that either, Anon. I thought that was totally uncalled for and hateful.
Ew.
Carrie,
If it was directed at your daughter, I am so sorry. That shit was just plain wrong.
Okay, I promise I am gone for good now. ^_^
Bye!
James rules harder than Queen Victoria ever did.
Hi Ergo! *waves*
Hi anon
*waves back*
how are you?
*waves to semaj*
Oh Ergo, that anon was me! Doh!
I have drunk waaaay too much wine this evening.
hahaha lucy you're identity is becoming drunk too!
so you've had a good night obviously then?
Yes, my night has been better than my day, hence the wine drinking in the first place! What is Tuesday like?
Qoute from a Reggie/LM review that was posted on Buzznet.
"A little birdie told me that after the show, Mr. Toro and Mr. Dewees discussed laying down some tracks in the studio as soon as next week. And that frontman Gerard Way would be there soon to start on the vocals. Could MCR already be back in the studio to work on their follow-up to The Black Parade? I wouldnt be surprised."
*waves to Semaj*
Hi Ergo!!! I'm still here!
*smoooooooch*
I was doing some speed reading, trying to catch up a bit. How are you, honeybunch?
Hi Lucy!!! It's good to 'see' you again! How's life treating you these days?
Wassup, Lucy Bean, Ergo, anons, Mayo, SS, James, Poppy, Jack White and anyone else who might be or not be here?
Smoke, Get back to work! I drove your car and readjusted everything!
*blows kisses at Wendy*
Fimble Star,
Get your arse in class, Missy!
Hi, also, to fimble effin' star (whose hands are busy *waving to Semaj*)!
*waves to fimble effin' star*
well Lucy glad the evening has been better
Tuesday is looking pretty nice, sunny light birdsong (or screeching lorikeets - like parrots- to be more accurate)
Hi fim!
wendy! *smoooooch*
glad to see you around
interesting little birdie
Hey Wendy! Good to read you.
Ergo, I think someone took a pic of me and put it on the porch. Go see! Was that you Solly?
Lucy Bean,
Twas not me, that was Smok!
Sdock!!! Thank you! Have I ever told you how yummy your (blown) kisses are? They are, you know!
*blows (hopefully equally yummy) kisses back*
Okay, I have to run for now. I'll check back later!
Have fun, everyone!
*catches Wendy kisses on tongue*
Yummy, Wendy! You made my Monday taste good after all. Thank you!
I wish I was going to O town!
Mickeh and the Meffers. Rulage.
That wasn't the name of your un-named band was it Solly?
isn't it the cutest kitteh!
I showed smoke and sdock etc yesterday, it looks very cute at DM
That didn't even make any sense!
I'm gonna hit the scratchy hay!
Sweer dreams errbody!
Lucy Bean!
Mickah and the Meffers!
Hmmmm, I dunno, if that sounds like a band name or a pimp and his ho's!
Bwah!
I wish I was going to O town
O_O
that really means something different to me, not at all Micky Mouse-like
Or alternatively you could have sweet dreams. Whatever works for you!
Night, Lucy.
Sweet dreams and don't forget to say Goodnight to James!
I'm off to blackmail my nephew! This rules! I hold all the power and I love it!
Muahabwuahah!
Solly! You know my car is possessed! She simply readjusted everything back the way it was when you got out.
I love my piece of shit car.
It's like worth a million bucks.
Seriously. An effin' Pontiac worth it's weight in gold.
Ah well, anyhoo!
MICKKKKAAHHH ANNDD THHEE MEFFFERRS!
Hee-hee.
I'm leaving this bitch in ten minutes. Hot damn!
Later taters!
Goodnight James *blows kiss*
Goodnight Lucy sweet dreams
Age gets us all:
I have become a little older and there have been a few changes. I have become a frivolous old woman and am seeing 7 men every day!
As soon as I wake up Mr Will Power helps me out of bed, then it's off to visit my foreign friend Mr Toi Lette, then it's time for Uncle Toby and that lovely strong black Mr T. They leave and Mr Arthur Ritis shows up and we stay together the rest of the day. He's not much for resting on his laurels so he takes me from joint to joint. After such a busy day I'm tired and glad to go to bed with Mr Johnny Walker.
What a life!
(Oh yes I'm also flirting with Mr Al Zymer)
Time to start the countdown clock on MTV's countdown era: "Total Request Live" will soon leave the air after 10 years.
Dave Sirulnick, executive producer of "TRL," said Monday that the music video countdown show will conclude in a two-hour special on a Saturday afternoon in November. He stressed that the show wasn't ending for good, but felt now was the right time to give it a break after an unprecedented run on the cable music channel.
"TRL" debuted in September 1998 and became the splashy center of the teen pop music scene with Britney Spears, the Backstreet Boys, N'Sync and other acts. From its heydey until 2008, it's been a destination for musicians, movie stars and celebrities promoting their new music, movies and other projects
No way!
"Give it a break" because there are too many music videos playing on MTV? That makes righteous sense.
Wonder what the real reason was, and I wonder what new form MTV will take?
Mustard,
Whatchoo doin?
hello
mustard I agree, MTV used to be about music, now it seems to be about crap reality programs
good on them getting rid of some more actual music shows.
Guess we can see where their ratings lie, which is a sad reflection on the viewing public
MTV needs to revamp the whole channel, not just TRL. they need to get rid of all the reality shows they have and get back to playing music. they have to realize it's not just TRL, the whole channel is in the shitter.
That's why I laughed so hard at the VMA's, I was like when has MTV even played this video or that video...um like never.
I totally agree.
Somewhere along the way, MTV became the go-to for popular culture, not music.
I stopped watching MTV a long, long time ago for the exact same reason I never listen to radio anymore.
They force-fed, and continue to force-feed, the viewers what's "hot" and "marketable," I understand that, but it's not helping me whatsoever.
I really have no opinion or stake in the matter other than just general curiosity about what MTV is going to do to attract these new, incoming swarms of fans to today's popular music.
Hey everyone.
7:53,
I second that. And MTV shouldn't even have the right to call itself a cable music channel anymore. Instead, let it be known as RTV(RealityTelevision) since all they ever play is shitty, overdramatic teen reality shows.
Busts into the parlor, throws self on the couch with sad face and upset. They are saying *sob* that Franks isn't coming back to *sniffs* to MCR.
I did hear that he may be signing with a record label with Leathermouth. If he does that means he will definately not be back with his old bandmates.
Sorry, didnt mean to interrupt. Hello, goodbye
Hangs head and walk out of the castle's double doors to... somewhere.
:(
Arrivederci TRL. One of the few good things that remained on MTV.
i heard that Leathermouth was going to sign with Epitaph Records.
**leaves box of kleenex for sad anon**
Wassup????
I have no idea what you guys are talking about cuz I haven't read back.
So really, wassup?
^_^
wassup
wassup
waaaaaaaaaaassup
Sometimes in life, we experience moments that stay with us for the rest of our lives. I'd like to share a couple of those moments with you.
Several years ago, my lifelong friend, Celia's, dad passed away. Celia called to give me the sad news and told me when her dad's funeral would be held. I was debating whether or not to make the 3 hour, each way, trip to attend the funeral and asked my other longstanding friend (and then-roommate), Ellen, her opinion on the matter.
Ellen looked at me with a quizzical look on her face and said, "Of course you should go, Chip. Sometimes in life, you don't get a do-over."
Those simple words have echoed through my mind many, many times since Ellen said them to me. Why? Because they are so very true!
Often in life, we are left with regret, remorse and/or guilt because of things that we did or didn't do. We wish, with all our heart, that we could turn back time and have the chance to rectify or remedy certain situations that happened in the past.
That's why I try to live my life in the moment. I don't want to be saddled with "shoulda, woulda, coulda's" when I reflect back on days-gone-by.
I never neglect to say "I love you" when I feel it and mean it. I always try to find the right words to express what I am thinking or feeling. I am grateful for each day that I live and each blessing that I receive.
I've known Celia since first grade ... and I've known Ellen since we were both 10 years old. Although sometimes months pass when we aren't in touch with each other, we always pick up right where we left off when we do reconnect. The affection that we feel for each other is real and it will never end.
Ellen was with me 10 years ago when my mother died. I was lucky enough to be with her recently, in Buffalo, NY, for the tenth anniversary of my mother's passing. We both needed that time together ... and as I was preparing to leave, we hugged each other tightly, tears streaming down both our faces.
"You are the one constant thing in my life," Ellen said to me.
And I said something that I've said to her many times in the past: "I love you in a place where there's no space or time." (Quoting from an old song by The Carpenters called "A Song for You.")
The words we spoke came from our hearts. The way they always should.
I try to make good choices and live my life wisely, because I never forget that "Sometimes in life, you don't get a do-over."
Hee-hee.
Hey-hey-hey muthafucka! *Steve Carell voice*
^_^
Sorry. I iz silly.
Mayo,
The moon is up tonight and it's full. What does it taste like?
Because, I don't think you could squeeze the moon like you could the sun...so the moon must be like ice cream or cream cheese or something, right?
If that's true, Anon, that's great! Didn't Frank mention in the newest LM interview that they were shopping for some labels or somesuch?
Don't be sad, sad anon.
It'll be okay. *hugs*
And honestly,with the way things are going, who's even gonna want to be back in mcr?
the moon probably tastes like a Moon Pie.
Cream cheese! Definitely!
Yum.
And yeah, I think they've been working on the label thing for a bit, right? YAY for them!
Moon Pie Anon,
Just the filling, surely. Right?
An RC cola and a moon pie!
I never liked moon pies. Bleh.
well if Frank wants to pursue that then it's his choice, sometimes you have to make tough decisions if you want to forge a career.
I hope he succeeds if he does, & I'm sure the bandmates will too
Thank you 8:06
So is the moon something you eat with a spoon or do you carve it with a knife?
And I love the saying "sometimes you don't get a do over." I have to remind myself of that a lot.
Race Stabilizes With McCain Up by Two
September 15, 2008
Voter preferences in the race for president are unchanged from where they stood over the weekend. John McCain still edges out Barack Obama, 47% to 45%, according to Gallup Poll Daily tracking from Sept. 12-14.
After hearing the lastest poll results, Sarah Palin spoke to reporters and said "We've come a long way, baby".
;-)
**she didn't really say that - I did**
Didn't Frank mention in the newest LM interview that they were shopping for some labels or somesuch?
I believe he did, yes. He said something about how he wasn't very good at promoting himself, which I thought was quite charming.
8:09,
That's great. It's so hard to do it right the first time, though. But, as long as we try.
Moon pies are good, anon. I like eating the banana one, especially the crust. Yum.
Hi solly, smoke, ergo, various anons.
I know. Frank will succeed in whatever he does.
Hi BC!
Moon pies are yummy, especially when they are fresh!
Now I really want to go and eat the moon.
Your welcome...and something I should learn myself.
Hi BC!
Am I the only one that does not like moon pies? Jeez!
He said something about how he wasn't very good at promoting himself, which I thought was quite charming.
I can imagine the difficulty! Some are good at that and can do it on their own, and some either lack that skill or think they lack that skill and need assistance.
Whatever's good for the band is good for me!
I tried a moon pie, the OP's sent them to me, they are very sweet, and they taste nicer split and spread with nutella :)
Yay for Leathermouth! I wish them nothing but the best and I hope it all works out.
Damn, I wanna go see them and Reggie again!
Not NUTELLA! Nooooooooo!!!!!!
^_~
OMG, I am eating pina colada yogurt and it is da bomb.
If Jules were here, she would say the moon tastes like Nutella.
It's clear the moon tastes like cheeze.
Clearly it tastes like cheeze.
Cream cheese or cheddar cheese?
Wallace and Grommit proved it's cheese
sdock10 said...
So is the moon something you eat with a spoon or do you carve it with a knife?
I think you should use a desert spoon and fork, Sdock. If you believe the moon tastes like a moon pie.
If you believe the moon is made of cheese, you should use a fondue fork.
We should always try to remember proper dining etiquette.
Ummm, blue cheese.
Moldy, old, fungus-infested blue cheese.
I'm from the South, we just use our fingers most of the time, Anon.
Is the moon finger licking good?
If you are not concerned with proper dining etiquette, you may use your fingers.
;-)
Cheese is awesome. I love cheese.
Cheese rules.
Being from the south, myself
I, too, use my fingers frequently.
Sometimes, I don't even bother with a plate.
Whatever happens with Frank and the rest of Leathermouth, I wish them all the best of luck and success.
Dining Etiquette,
Now, we're talking!
chees would be awesome, perhaps it's souffle
I'm going to make souffle tonight
Bwah! Who needs a plate?
^_^
Ergo, you rock the kitchen!
I need a plate!
Mayo doesn't need a plate. He's platophobic.
PLATOPHOBIC! OMG!
Well, Mayo, my son said he'd make you eat off the plastic plates and he'd make you like it. And he said it with love, Mayo. I swear. ^_^
Or, maybe plate-o-phobic, because I doubt he has an irrational phobia of Plato.
Just a guess. I have no idea.
Ergo, yep, they are delicious :)
Hi dining etiquette anon.
I'm gonna pretend the moon is made out of soft-serve vanilla ice cream, shaped like a cookie.
Oh, yum.
I say the moon is made out of...
CHEESECAKE!
BOO-YOW!
End of story. I win.
Cheesecake rules.
don't say PLATO!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH!!!
;)
Guys,
It's just the plastic ones, right, oh wait....fuck, yeah he broke the other ones.
Guess he does have plate issues.
Mayo needs plate management therarpy.
Yeah, yeah!
He was like, "FUCK you, Plates! *smash*"
Therarpy.
For sure.
;)
I fucking hate styrofoam plates. Those plates annoy the hell out of me.
You have to weigh them down with food or they fucking fly out of your hand. Then, if you aren't careful you'll cut smooth through it with your little plastic knife.
And don't even get me started about trying to microwave one of those suckers. Who knew it would just melt into your food?
I effing hate when that happens.
If they don't serve on Chinette, count me the hell out.
I never liked this pattern. What the fuck is it supposed to be?
*SMASH*
The plastic plates are equally as annoying. Number one, they're huge. Like super saucer sized. And they are made with those dividers already prefabbed in there and you have to like really be a super sure of your ability to pick the right foods going into the right holes. Of course then you can't mix your peas with your potatoes. ARRRRRRRGH!
My mother-in-law has some plastic tupperware plates, Mayo.
I HATE THOSE MEFFERS WITH A PASSION.
So, yeah, I can relate. I hate the way my fork scrapes across them.
>.<
And then you have the people who will tell you, "Please don't throw those away! We want to save those and reuse those next year!"
WTF? Like you can ever get the grease off those bastards. All the Dawn in the world won't break that grease.
And there is just something about the plastic that makes me just want to chew it. Just bite the hell out of it.
I'm weird.
Raise your hand if you've ever eaten a styrofoam cup!
Don't those types have little bumpies in them?
It kind of looks like they contracted plastic Chicken Pox.
O_O
No way. Ice cream rules, smoke ^_^
But other planets have lots of moons, such as Jupiter for example, so who knows what those are made of. They could be made out of anything.
Solly, oh yeah, styrofoam plates just suck. I prefer those Dixie(I think that's the name?) or Chinette plates where they are thick enough to hold the heaviest food.
Liars!
I break the styrofoam cups around the rim then work down to the base
Raise your hand if you have ever taken your fingernail and carved your initials or a very intricate design in your styrofoam cup!
I always end up drawing on my styrofoam cup. Like with a fine-tip Sharpie? OMG, it will have flowers and little googly eyes and creepy alien men.
O_o
I like to do this in meetings.
My boss wuvs me.
*raises hand*
*raises hand in shame*
Mustard: 0_o
Smoke,
You should start signing your stryo cup art and selling them on Ebay! You could have an art gallery showing of your work and be super duper efamous.
Uh huh, we are all styro eating freaks and geeks at heart! I knew it!
Ya think? I am quite the doodler if I do say so myself.
*sticks nose in the air*
I told Mayo once that I was gonna doodle something for him but I never did.
Hmmm......
I love melamine plates our whole camping set is melamine, I mean you have to wash it up and all but they are cheap and sturdy and pretty much unbreakable
If I'm buying plastic or paper plates I intend to throw them away, I'm not reusing them
(and those woven plate holders are handy)
Ergo,
I think melamine would withstand a nuclear attack! It's the best stuff evah!
WTF is melamine? Do I know what that is?
Is that the chicken pox stuff?
How do you define "selling out"?
Smoke,
Melamine is the stuff out plates were made out of, ya know? The ones that Mama has had for 40 years.
Well, hello there TODD. Haven't seen you in awhile!
Lemme think for a sec...
I tend to chew away at the styrofoam cups like a piece of candy. It's a bad habit.
I also accidentally swallowed a piece of paper towel once.
*wonders if Todd has plate issues*
it's like a hard plastic, they make a lot of kids sets out of it (like disney sets etc), it's usually white but they can make it colours
it's indestructible
It's got to be tough as hell for an artist. You create something and you want to be able to share it with the world and to do that you have to have the money and means with which to make that possible. But the minute you put yourself and your creation out there for the public, it's almost like it's no longer yours.
Throwing away everything you once stood for or believed in. Doesn't really matter what the reason is.
I don't think anyway. Just because it was easy, because some new 'cool' thing comes along and wants you to, to make a shitload of money, it doesn't matter.
I know that's very vague and doesn't really explain it but there ya go.
Hi TODD.
Selling out? Well, one part of it, for me, is when someone is not being true to themself; pretending to be someone they're not. But I don't know. I think the term extends beyond that.
These days it's almost like if you have one fucking fan you're an immediate sellout. You must have sold your soul to the fucking devil or something to get where you are.
It's a curse to be famous.
That's true. And you're never going to please everyone. You can't.
I think a lot of people tend to lose their identities as part of marketing and packaging and shit like that, and it's a damn shame, but the record company has to sell the product.
hi Todd
I don't know how I'd define it really, often selling out is in the eyes of those seeing it, rather than those doing it.
I suppose it's really only used when someone disapproves of the actions of another in relation to gaining money or popularity at the expense of an ideal.
however it would be very rare for the person accused of it to feel the same way.
They would have valid reasons for their decision, seeing as they probably aren't really concerned with the opinions of those doing the accusing.
I think people often accuse people of selling out when they don't live up to he expectation they've created (whether that was deliberately contrived or developed on it's own) which may or may not be a fair assessment given that the accuser may not be aware of all the factors involved.
People make decisions they feel are right for them at the time, regardless of how it may appear to others
Jesus bloody hell!
How do you define "selling out"?
I think that "selling out" is defined as getting approximately 52 billion plays on a Top 40 radio station, and having ad spots for iPod (LOL, hello Coldplay!), and be, like, a gazillionaire.
Buwhahaha, just kidding.
I think "selling out" is really just not being true to yourself.
I'll take it down the music road. I think for some artists, there's this misconception that if you're not classified as "underground," you've automatically "sold out."
I, personally, don't think that's true. It just means people want to hear your music, and that should make your insides burst.
But, if you're an advocate for, I don't know, anything you firmly believe in, and you make a deal to have your song put in an ad or have your song represent something entirely different from what you believe in just to make a quick buck, you've "sold out" your values, and probably lost a good amount of respect.
You put that music, poem, artwork, story out there and you can't pick and choose who is going to like it and you can't pick and choose what they are going to take away from it.
Oh man, we all basically have the same opinion!
hi Amy. What's wrong?
I like how you explained that, Ergo.
I can't imagine what it must feel like to want to do this your whole life, have this hunger in your soul, this need to create.
And then to be able to get your creation out there, you sort of have to sign your life away in blood and guts, put your creation in the hands of someone else, a team of people who had no idea what you were feeling when you wrote it or drew it.
^I can't either. It's probably an uphill battle trying to decide, too.
That would be crazy. I don't know if I could. I have trust issues anyway so I'd be like, "Nuh-uh!"
I don't know if I could let it go.
Hi Amy!
I think sell out is a term bandied about too much, it's really just a blanket term for "I don't like what you did"
It's all well and good to expect artists to be true to an ideal but sooner or later thay have to feed themselves etc, and we never really know why they decide to do an ad whatever.
It's a very difficult life in the public eye.
I don't think I'd like it much.
it seems if you scratch and scrape a meagre existence you are good, but as soon as you have some success you're a sellout. Happens to so many people in al fields
That's true, Ergo. And it's not fair to them, ya know?
*all
and thanks mustard :)
BC, it's fucking HOT outside.
Like, not normal for September hot.
Hallo Ergo!
Hallo everyone!
I do think there are times it appears more pronounced, but it's so easy to say when you aren't the one doing it
and no matter how hard an artist tries, someone will just be waiting for a chance to say it
Be right back, food.
ergo, i think you always see things so clearly, and express your opinion so eloquently. i agree with what you wrote about "selling out" -- it isn't actually something someone can do, it's always a judgment call placed on one by others. (but you said it better!)
also, chip coffey (anon at 8:09), thank you. that was an excellent reminder. it's always good to hear again, and again.
and hello!
Damn, that sucks Amy. It's pretty cold tonight where I'm from.
I hope you have lots of ice cream.
see you soon amy
hi and thanks TJ :)
Who is Todd?
Hi there squeak squeak *hugs*
hi and it's just the truth, ergo. :)
hello bc!
unless i'm mistaken, anon, todd stands for "topics of deep discussion".
Thank you Toujours
As always, thanks for the discussion, guys! Have a great evening and a great Tuesday!
*puts self in fridge for BC ;)*
Mayo,
I've never really conciously thought about it, but values play an intricate part in pretty much everything we do, you know?
How do you know when yours are going to bite you in the ass? How do you know when you should give a little more than you take?
It's frustrating. To be pulled in so many different directions and not even know which way you're headed.
I think the thing I'm most afraid of is not being a "sell out" to other people, but more of a "sell out" to myself. That would be the hardest thing I think I'd ever face.
Anyhoot, just thinking out loud. I hope you have a great Tuesday! Night!
SS,
Don't be surprised if you get a few...thousand loaves of bread for Christmas or something, dude. And maybe an industrial-sized toaster.
Wouldn't that be the shit? Everyone needs an industrial-sized toaster with, like, a 10-slice capacity with a bagel toaster on the side and a coffee brewer underneath.
Night!
you're welcome, 9:36. :)
good night mustard!
I did hear that he may be signing with a record label with Leathermouth. If he does that means he will definately not be back with his old bandmates
A person can't be signed to two different labels?
Honest question, too.
goodnight mustard sweet dreams
Mayo,
Hope your day was nice. Me? Well, I got up early and caught the moon on one side and the rising sun on the other. It was fantastic.
My heart hurts tonight, dude. Fuck, ya know? I didn't want it to, but the reality is what it is and it is that love hurts like hell. I know it wasn't great, but it wasn't all bad either. Oh well, oh well, oh well...hurt, heal, head in new direction.
That's really all I can try to do.
Hope you have a great night.
Full moon tonight! Will you carve it with knife and spread it on a cracker or will you eat with a spoon?
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Finished unfinished business.
anon I think they probably can as long as their isn't an exclusivity clause of some kind.
The band is the one that is signed and they would have to work out how it would be worded, but I'd say it would be possible.
And it could be the same label, or a subsidiary of the label?
I'm sure the same thing happens with other artsts
i don't see where being signed to one label with one band and a different label with a second band is anything wrong. probably happens all the time. however, i'm not an expert in the legalities of contracts, etc.!
i'll be back in a bit, gotta go do some work on my lj.
see ya! :)
BlogBelievers,
Have an awesome night! Dream of moon pies and styrofoam!
Mwah! Mwah!
*leaves SS a styro cup of his very own for his chewing or drawing or drinking pleasure*
Since Frank mentioned working on both LM and MCR in his recent interview, I doubt there is much to worry about.
Yay, I love cold mustard ^_^
Goodnight mustard, sweet dreams!
9:49,
I don't think they can, unless they complete their contract with the other label. I'm not sure.
Later TJ. Goodnight solly, sweet dreams. Hello any anons lurking about.
goodnight sdock sweet dreams
(and good luck with your new direction)
Bandmembers are frequently signed with 2 different labels.
OM NOM NOM
-A
What choo eating, Amy?
hi again amy what you got?
I just made impossible pie again, it's in the oven, you have to try it
I haz fries and gravies.
Iz nom.
-A
oh I love chips and gravy!
Iz very nom
Iz very verrie nom.
Iz bad for heartz tho.
Hey, anyone seen Wendy lately?
Yummy ^_^
*runs in and leaves SS all kinds of pretty markers to draw on his cup*
I expect this art project to be finished in the morning, dude! Make it awesome!
Bwah.
Night Mayo! Night SS! Night BlogBelieve!
XOXO
Amy, yup. Wendy wuz here earlier. Seems to be doing okayz
Goodnight smokie.
goodnight smoke sweet dreams
Good to hear.
Wendy, I hazn't haz no emailzez from you. :(
Anima, and Cuppy, I hope you're both well as well.
God, not being around as much sure makes it hard to catch up. Can we start a newsletter?
-A
vry bad 4 heartz nom
oh gosh amy a blog newsletter that would be so cool, but a lot of work for someone to do!
Can you imagine!
lol
how was the weekend?
last I saw you , you were frantically cleaning house
Honeys, Im home!
Not really! Just on my laptop in O Town.
A quick scan of today reveals:
1) The death of a member of one of my all time favorite bands. GUys, that REALLY blows. It was harder for me to lose Syd Barret but Wright was also such a huge part of Pink Floyd, and I dote on Pink Floyd.
(David Gilmour keeps MY soul in a jar.)
An anon @ 4:23 making a ton of sense. I was worried and shocked when someone reported that Frank had used that one word to a little girl, and this chick insisted he had said it. "I wouldn't lie!" she said. But then this new thing came out and it just sounded not right. I know t dude can screw up and snap at people when he gets upset, and clearly the "ILU FRANKIE BABY" stuff upsets him and I don't blame him. But this is starting to seem like people are either hearing him wrong or making junk up. In short, I agree so hard.
and 3) Ray Toro and James on stage doing all kinda things! Guys, Ray is the bomb, diggity.
Well, it is hot as fried ass down here although my room is so cold my nips are gonna hit the screen.
Oh! The Boychild was such a good boy on the plane and all day. He ran around the airport charming everyone he saw, he liked the take off, and then he slept for the whole flight. We didn't visit any theme parks today but looked around in shops and had dinner at a restaurant with Cinderella and the ugly stepsisters. The child is on such sensory overload. He's been giggling all day.
Me? I've been coming here since forever and it's good to be here with new people (although I went here with my cousin Chrissie, Boychild's Mom, when we were both twelve! And this is her first time back since then.)
Back of my heart, though? "You're 35 and are still here in the capacity of an au pair for someone else's kid. Hell, someone else's experience." I guess I've always wanted a kid. I don't know, sometimes it makes me feel lonely, being here and I start to think how nothing has changed since the last time, and the time before that, and the time before that, and not really in the last nine years.
I keep having to remind myself that things have changed. I'm out of a dead end job and am going back to school to study medicine.
Somehow that ties in with being here for some reason, like a break in the pattern, you know?
Oh well. I will hang on to that.
And I CAN'T WAIT FOR MEFFING FRIDAY!
Bad for Treez NOM.
Um, frantically cleaning, went to work, went to the Against Me! show, and spent yesterday cooking. I made pumpkin cheesecake. Iz nom.
Mister'z Mom likes the invitations I've picked out, and we discussed a bunch of wedding stuff. It was nice. And she's genuinely happy to let me do what I want when it comes to the wedding.
-A
HI K sounds like fun
have a great time
oooh I will one day make pumpkin pie, I'm curious.
And that's good she's happy with the invites etc, makes it much easier
Ergo, I can't believe you never had pumpkin pie :(
It's pretty good. You can also top it with whip cream :)
And a blog newsletter would definitely be pretty neat.
Pumpkin Cheesecake is great, I've only had pumpkin pie once though. I do prefer apple pie overall.
-A
BC it's not something we have over here at all.
Only time I've heard of it is by americans
The only thing really wack was that, it's a buffet and you go up for your own food and all, and I had sort of noticed that Gran was taking a really long time. Well, she ended up going to the wrong table way the hell across the room. She had all her food there, the waitress had brought her a drink and everything. she just forgot where o go and I don't know, thought that she had gone alone or something? Because it was a table for two. It weirded me out a little.
poor gran she was probably confused by it all, too many people and stuff.
Keep and eye on her next time
I admit, I didn't like pumpkin pie at the beginning. It took me a long while to try and taste it again. As I got older, that was when I begin to like it.
O_o Everyone tries to keep an eye on her but sometimes things just happen. Too many people got up at one, others were trying to mind the baby and costumed people were blocking the view across the room.
Also, nobody really expected her to get that confused that quickly. It's the first time it's happened.
Ergo.
YAY!!!!!
*happy dance*
K it's like that, and it's so easy to get disoriented in a place like that, it's probably just a once off but it'd pay to take extra care, especially as there'd be a lot of crowds about
(I assume)
Ergo, yeah, I'm aware of that. It was a one time thing; it's not as if she's out there on her own.
"I guess I've always wanted a kid. I don't know, sometimes it makes me feel lonely, being here and I start to think how nothing has changed since the last time, and the time before that, and the time before that, and not really in the last nine years".
then do something about it. prehaps you need to change a little in order for it to have an affect on the outside world around you. a different outlook? maybe you would start to see a change in the people around you if you were to make small changes in yourself.
you mentioned boychild charmed everyone around him. you can try that and I guarentee you will have positive feedback
not being a nasty anon. I think we all forget to smile, be nice and compliment people or not say anything at all if you don't have something nice to say. its the little things that have an impact and mean alot to people.
but by the same token watch for other signs, it's not uncommon for problems as we age and it's better to get them as early as possible
I'm down to the school for mt daughters class presentation, I'll be back in a while
Have a nice night Ergo! I'll probably be gone when you get back.
-A
i have returned.
*crickets*
ah geez, people. it wasn't like i was asking for applause!
anyway, my lj is all shiny shiny with a new entry and i am content. :)
Hallo Teej!
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