I Think I'll Call Him Walter.
I conjure up images in my head
for no reason at all. I think
they arrive to scare off the vagrants,
or perhaps to offer welcome. All they do is sleep,
and take up space ("the images or the vagrants?").
There are far more legitimate opponents
to overcome than those fucking demons. But they continue
to pick, pick, pick at every thought. And I am bored.
Lately they have been searching around
in the attic, pushing through the pink
fibrous fluff insulating the electric tangle.
It isn’t too dangerous to let them rummage, last I heard
most of that material is useless anyway.
Rarely do they find anything of value
(but that doesn’t stop them from trying to sell that shit on ebay).
Sometimes they trick me into joining them
in the mutilation (discount, decay, delete).
What the villains don’t realize is that
pilfering my reflections fuels my anger
and encourages my breath. They have been
diligent fuckers (pick, pick, pick).
So tonight, I should maintain
my creative endeavor well into bliss. (A bad habit?),
perhaps…It does keep me warm though and tells me when to eat.
So back to the images of vagrants, last night
I pushed a few of them out into the room,
in hopes that they would accompany me, at least
for a little while. There is one stubborn fucker
…that refuses to relent. It pokes me
and pushes my fingers to tap a line. Advice
is meaningless but the words sure are pretty.
p.s. what a shame another party dress ruined at the outing.
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Tuesday, May 6, 2008
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A make-believe moat. You know, it ought to be a moat, but isn't, therefore it's a "mought"
Rw I am well. I got a nice present from GS. But my arm hurts.
OOOO! A present, MJ?
What happened to your arm?
I have no idea what happened. It could be from work.
Hey Martha, how's your are? :D
Anima, I confess I haven't watched your video, mostly cause we were there. :) But I'll try to do that tomorrow, I promise. I just can't watch any of the video clips today. Too bittersweet, to quote our SS.
RW, I feel your "fussing" pain. I see my mom every weekend, so I know of what you speak.
J
The present an autographed picture of Jack from Tourchwood
Every weekend?? I wouldn't be able to stand it!
Most fools think they are only ignorant.
Hello everyone, how are we today/tonight?
That's so cool, MJ!!
Hi, Cupcake :) How's things?
i wish my mom was still around to fuss over me. you don't miss it until you don't have it anymore.
I'm sure you're right, anon.
Hi RW, things are ok, how are you hun?
RW, my mom lives down the hill from us, in the same complex.
It can be...intriguing...at times.
Perhaps I need a mought to gain some distance...:D
Hi Cupcake, honey, how's life?
Anon, I wish you had your mom, too. I wish I had my dad. You can borrow MY mom for a while, if you like. She's not really the most pleasant of people, but she's ok.
J
I visited my grandmother's grave while out in Saskatchewan. I hadn't been to it before. And I also saw the grave of my mother's twin sister, who died in infancy. There's a family plot there that my mother wants to be buried in. My dad, on the other hand, wants to be cremated and have his ashes scattered over a lake where he used to boat.
I'm good, Cupcake :) Though tired. I've been traveling since 9am >.<
Hello CC how are you?
YEs RW it is great and I love it.
Thank you GS
Hello J, how are you?
RW, poor you!I'm a bit tired too, I had the night from hell.
Hiya MJ, I'm fine. How are you feeling hun?
thank you, j. it's funny how when you have them around you complain about the fussing and nagging and you think i won't miss this. she would even tell me, 'you're going to miss me when i'm not here.' i always thought to myself 'yeah right, you're going to be here nagging me forever.' i was so wrong, i'd give anything in the world to have her nag at me again.
sorry about that, mother's day always makes me miserable these days. i'll stop now.
Happy Mother's Day!
It's a bit early for the US, but for all my oversees mommies, I want to wish you well. Mother's Day is the most important.
Call your moms! I can't wait to hang with my mom tomorrow. Love her.
*hugs for Anon*
I'm so sorry to hear that. I'm afraid all I have is hugs. Lots of them, have as many as you'd like.
So they ended with Helena? Haven't they been ending with Cancer? I was talking to Mummy K about this last week and had told her that Gerard had once said that Helena would be the last song they ever played live together. I said that I thought if they switched it up and played Helena last at the Garden, that they were maybe considering NOT getting back together?
This is what I've been expecting. But it would totally suck if the last MCR show I ever go to was the one where Frank and Bob weren't there :/
*hugs cupcake* thank you for the hugs cupcake, that's very sweet of you.
You're very welcome anon, any time. :)
And you shouldn't feel bad for talking about it.
*more hugs*
The hardest part for me, Anon, is knowing that my mom isn't like she used to be. Over the past, we'll say decade, she's gone through some personality changes that make her nearly unbearable some days. She's not normally a happy person, but never is anymore, and tends to take any joy there is out of every happy situation. She frustrates and saddens and angers me so much. It's a hard row to go, as we say in the South.
J
RW, they've ended every show on this tour with "Helena", except for Memphis. They had to cut that one short due to the MASSIVE HURRICANE-LIKE MONSOON STORM that came through. They ended with "Famous Last Words" that night. No encores.
J
RW, they've ended every show on this tour with "Helena", except for Memphis.
Okay, I feel a bit better. Thank you for that, J :)
Still, I've been having a sense of foreboding throughout this tour. They did say there would be another album, but... I don't know. Something about this tour feels so final.
Anon I am sorry to hear about your mom. The anniversary of my mom dying just passed.
I believe they ended the US shows with Helena many times. I could be wrong.
They all need time. Time for themselves, time to be on their own, time to ground...I wish them all the best.
I hope they will record another album...and many more. I will give them time to do as they need; waiting...hoping...supporting all along the way.
j, i'm sorry about your frustrations with your mom. when my grammy got alzheimer's (not suggesting your mom has that if she doesn't but the personality change reminded me) she went from a very sweet person to a very angry, bitter and downright mean and violent person in 5 years. and stayed that way for 10 more before she passed away. for my family it was like a long drawn out grieving process. and it was so draining and frustrating.
Anon, I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your mother. Enjoy and embrace the memories...
I do not want to comprehend the loss of mine. She will be with me forever.
*hugs for MJ*
Thank you CC and here is a hug for you.
MJ, my condolences to you for your mother. How long ago was it?
Anima, absolutely, everything that you said and then some. We'll be right here, guys. Don't worry. We won't forget you. How could we?
Anon, my mom had a stroke seven years ago and it's worn down whatever happiness she ever had. Plus, as she ages, she misses my dad more and more. I think she's kind of gearing herself up to, uh, join him, you know?
RW, glad I could alleviate some of your fears. I think the guys don't even know what they're going to do yet. Probably the most pressing decision they're making right now is, pizza or Chinese? :D
J
She died May 5, 2001
ressurected wreck, i know what you mean about this tour feeling so final. when the tickets went on sale for my city i felt this sense of urgency to see them one last time. and as i've watched this tour draw to a close i keep having this feeling of sadness. then gerard had to say that and i just really hope that i am wrong.
martha, thank you, i'm sorry about your mom too. my mom's second anniversary just passed last month.
Thank you anon. I hope it wasn't to hard for you when the day came.
Anon @ 12:25am:
If I'd know this was going to be their goodbye tour - I'm not saying it is, just if - I would have made an effort to catch at least one of the shows. I would have loved to see them in a smaller venue.
Martha, I'm so sorry. Losing loved ones is the worst. I do not know how to handle it...other than to just accept it.
I can't imagine what you have gone through. I don't want to imagine it...my heart breaks.
My mother has a macabre habit of looking through the daily obituaries to see which of th epeople she grew up with have passed away. A lot of them are right around her age. She doesn't appear to be alarmed by this, but it makes me feel a bit queasy.
Martha, Anon, I'm so sorry. I think losing a parent is probably one of the worst losses a person can go through. Also losing a child would be devastating.
As far as losing pets, I've only ever lost fish that were my own. L's lost several pets, and I've grieved with her as "aunt". I don't know what I'll do when my guys have to leave me.
J
Thank you anima.
Hey guys;
Sorry for my disappearance on the last page. Same old fucking friend drama pulled me away for a bit. Someone has to sort this shit out, right?
anima, thank you. give your mom an extra hug for me and treasure every single moment you get to spend with her.
j, aw that's sad *hug*
and I think the guys don't even know what they're going to do yet. Probably the most pressing decision they're making right now is, pizza or Chinese? :D ha ha, you're probably right.
Thank you J and L.
My mother has a macabre habit of looking through the daily obituaries to see which of th epeople she grew up with have passed away.
This seems to be a "normal" activity when one grows to be a certain age. my mom's done this for years, and now my older sister, who's 60, does it too.
Very odd, this need to find your dead contemporaries.
J
I feel the need to acknowledge all those who have passed...
*Martha, mom, May 5, 2001
*Anima, brother, Sept 10, 2006
(can't include grandparents or other relatives beyond my immediate family, the list is too long)
I am sorry about your mom, Mj, and your brother, anima. Death is always hard.
Anima, I didn't know you'd lost your brother! What happened?
(J, dad, Feb. 12, 1988)
J
Anon, no need to thank me. I appreciate you sharing all of this with us. I will give my mom an extra snuggly hug from you. I promise.
It was very odd to see the gravestone on my grandparents' plot. My grandfather died in 1959, but my grandmother was still alive when it was carved & erected. Whoever did it etched in "19--" in anticipation of the date of my grandmother's passing. They had to completely scratch that line out and carve a new one underneath - my grandmother passed away in 2000.
I'm very sorry for those of you who've lost someone. =[
I couldn't imagine life without my mother. I find that whenever I even think a little thought about my mom dying, I get extremely depressed. Yeah, I'm a bitch to my mom sometimes, but she brought me into this world, and I love her to the moon and back.
Hullo, PH :D
martha, i wasn't as bad as last year, but it was still a very bad day. the worst days are the holidays though, especially christmas.
resurrected wreck, i hope this wasn't a good bye tour, but if it was, i am glad that i went. Seeing them at the smaller venue was a memory i will never forget.
*OP-J, dad, Feb. 12, 1988
Bless.
J, I'm not sure what happened to my brother. I could guess a million things. He was 42, a lovely man with a lot on his back. He was my hero. I sat there with my father and my other brother as we cried...touching his cold body...my brother was gone - we knew it. It's so bizzare. Surreal.
Hey RW! *hug*
How's Saskatchewan? =] Were you converted into a Roughriders fan while there? :D
resurrected wreck, i hope this wasn't a good bye tour, but if it was, i am glad that i went. Seeing them at the smaller venue was a memory i will never forget.
That's so cool :) I'm glad you got to experience that.
And I shouldn't complain. Even though the London show I went to had only half the band present, the two other MCR shows I saw last year (one Black Parade show, one PR) totally kicked ass. And I got to meet Gerard and Frank, so I was pretty lucky in that respect.
How's Saskatchewan? =] Were you converted into a Roughriders fan while there? :D
Absolutely not! I can't stand football!
But I did have a good time on my trip :) Wow, the prairies sure are dusty this spring!
paperheartxx said...
Hey RW! *hug*
How's Saskatchewan? =] Were you converted into a Roughriders fan while there? :D
LET'S GO RIDERS!!!
-A
PH, I suffered from major 'angst' with my mom. I'm so happy I could past all of it, to finally understand her, to realize what an amazing journey she has faced, and to acknowledge her as her own...it took quite a long time. I only wish I realized it sooner.
Hi, A! :D
LET'S GO RIDERS!!!
0_0
Absolutely not! I can't stand football!
Good girl! ;) lol. My dad absolutely hates the Roughriders, so my sister jokingly said that she was going to get my niece a little Roughriders jersey. The prairies are dusty! That could be contributing to my never-ending cold!
I'm glad you enjoyed your trip RW, you deserved a break from work and TO. =]
I snapped at my mother four times this week, twice within the first two hours of being there. In retrospect I feel bad about it, but she can get on my very last nerve like no one else I know.
Thank you, PH :)
How was your week? How's your niece?
Thank you Carrie. anima I am sorry to hear about your brother.
Anon I am glad it wasn't as hard this year.
Well if we are going to acknowledged.
My grandfather May 9,1998 and my great grandmother I think it was in Aug. 24, 2004 I don't know why I can't remember I was just thinking about her not to long ago.
*feeling like a major downer*
I ♥ all of you, just in case you forgot. :)
*finding some uplifting music...Yay!*
Hallo RW!
How did you like Saskatchewan?
-A
j, i agree, losing a parent is devastating and so is losing a child, a friend of mine lost her mother, brother, son and father all in the same year and she said of all of them, nothing can compare to the pain of losing her son.
As for pets, i've lost quite a few over the years, the one that really hurts right now is that my mom's cat has cancer and i may have to make that dreaded decision soon. it hurts so bad because he his like the last link to her and i don't know if i can take it.
paperheart, i know exactly how you feel. my mom and i would fight too, but as she put it 'we love each other, it may be at the top of our lungs sometimes, but we love each other.'
Amy, 0_0 Shame on you. Really.
Anima, I don't think that many people appreciate what other's have done in their lives until they are truly gone. And I love you too sweetie. <3
RW, my week was great. My niece, sadly, is sick. I passed my cold along to her, and I don't think she is very happy with her Auntie Pooh right now. =[ I promised I make it up to her one day. I got my beginner's last weekend, so tomorrow I'm going driving with my dad. ^_^ How are you RW? =]
my sister jokingly said that she was going to get my niece a little Roughriders jersey
That's how my boyfriend is going to find out when I get pregnant.
-A
Actually, A, I really enjoyed myself this time out. I credit that to the two days my mother and I spent with my uncle on the family farm. My uncle is truly one of my favourite people, and spending the night on the wide open plains & listening to the birds and frogs in the morning instead of traffic was such an uplifting experience.
Aaaw PH!
You're gonna be down on me for liking the Flames and the Oilers too aren't you?
-A
Are you a Roughriders fan, A?
Passes your beginner's, PH? Good for you! I drove my uncle's car this week, first time I've driven in 10 years! Okay, it was just down an empty dirt road, but still! ;)
paperheart, i know exactly how you feel. my mom and i would fight too, but as she put it 'we love each other, it may be at the top of our lungs sometimes, but we love each other.'
Exactly. I think that it just shows how much they care when they yell or get upset with you. lol. I love how I can trust my mom and tell her anything. I love how I can tell her I love her. I love how she hugs me and kisses me when I need it. I love how she's always going to be there for me, even if everyone else chooses to walk away.
OM NOM NOM.
Sry. Can't help myself :3
-A
Geezus, you can't even see Bob behind all that hair!!
Football, why are we talking about football? I hate football
Amy, as long as it's not the Maple Leafs, I'm good. ^_^
Passes your beginner's, PH? Good for you! I drove my uncle's car this week, first time I've driven in 10 years! Okay, it was just down an empty dirt road, but still! ;)
Oooh! How was that? I get to drive my dad's truck down a non-busy street, than we're going to move down a busier street. THEN, I plan on going through a Tim Horten's drive-thru. ^_^
RW, I'm getting into them. Football is puzzling, but I kinda like it.
-A
It's too stop-and-go for me, A. I prefer hockey, though I'm not really a fan of that either.
Football, why are we talking about football? I hate football
Because football is AMAAAAAAAZING. I love playing football too.
Oooh! How was that?
Kinda fun, actually. I was surprised how it all came back to me.
I get to drive my dad's truck down a non-busy street, than we're going to move down a busier street. THEN, I plan on going through a Tim Horten's drive-thru. ^_^
EXCELLENT!!
RW, I love watching hockey for one reason: Seeing the blood on the ice.
I know, it's weird. But whenever my dad takes me to Moose games, I basically only get into it when there are fights. =]
Geezus, you can't even see Bob behind all that hair!!
I didn't see Bob, but there is pictures of some hobo they brought in off the street to play harmonica or something.
-A
Sorry I disappeared there, sudden mothers day related mission.
RW, I love watching hockey for one reason: Seeing the blood on the ice.
0_0
Leave cousin It....I mean Bob alone.
I like his hair.
Hobo??
Lol, MJ!
CUPCAKE!
*flying bear hug*
Does anyone find Bob attractive?
blogger=ass
I think Bob is attractive.
Uh... can't really see him anymore behind all that hair though.
P<3!!!!!!!!!!! *huggles*
Minus that mop on his head I mean.
How're you Cuppy-Cake? =]
Hiya Cuppy!
Call me old fashioned, but I like guys with short hair. Hence, I like bob with short hair.
Also, nothing against Mikey, but he's looking more and more like his wife everyday.
Teehee!
-A
You mean does anyone find him attractive without the long hair?
I do Ph. He looks cute when he is mad. And he looks like a little boy with all that hair.
Does anyone find Bob attractive?
I do! usually I prefer guys with dark hair and dark eyes but there are a few exceptions.
Bob Bryar
Bert McCracken
Billy Idol
:)
Hmmm they all begin with B!
(blogger, why do you keep eating my comment? maybe the fourth times the charm?)
anima, i'm sorry about your brother *hug* My mother and i were angsty too for a while. when i was a teenager we fought like cats and dogs. after grandma got sick, we had a lot of time to sit and get to know each other more as adults and we grew closer. one of the coolest things she ever told me was that even if i wasn't her daughter she would still want to be my friend.
(grandpa - june 18, 1986, grandma - december 12, 2002, mom - april 3, 2006)
PH, I can't believe I haven't said "HELLO!" to you all night. I'm so sorry!
HELLO BUBBLES!
And hello Amyranth! How's it going?
Anima, I love you too, honey. *hugs and kisses* BTW, have you heard from Elena today? I think I'll sign off in a few and call her.
Anon, your friend--that's one of thet saddest things I've heard. I hope she's recovering from her losses, at least a little.
Girls, it's been fun (and thought-provoking too) talking with you all tonight. I think tomorrow will be a little happier, don't you? Instead of being sad about "our" guys, let's try and celebrate for them and with them! They're gonna enjoy themselves, I hope, and the least we can do is support them. So...
HAPPY HIATUS/VACATION/LAZY DAYS TO YOU ALL, FRANK, GERARD, MIKEY, BOB, AND RAY! We love you guys!
Goodnight BlogBelieve, keep it strong.
love to all
J
Mikey and his wife look like they could be brother and sister. I mean, the resemblance is uncanny. Mikey looks much more like Alicia than he does Gerard.
Hello amy how are you?
I don't think I said anything to you yet.
Night, J :) Hi to L!
Basically RW. He looks good still, but just a bit too much like a little girl with longer hair. ^_^
MJ, I agree. He's a very cute angry dude.
I'm good P<3 :) How are you?
Hi Amy!!!
I personally think Mikey needs a fringe, he has a high forehead.
I love long hair on guys, PH. As long as it's well-kept. Bob's hair looks relatively well-kept.
I did not like his brush cut.
Goodnight J sweetheart. :)
lol. It's okay OPJ! I'm forgotten sometimes, I can deal with it:P lol
Sweet Dreams!<3 If you talk to Elena, tell her I'm thinking of her and sending her about... 2 zillion hugs!<3
Leave cousin It....I mean Bob alone. you took the words right out of my mouth martha
Goodnight J and L
Cupcake, I am just dandy! Same old friend crap going on right now, but it'll be fine I guess. =]
RW, I love guys with long hair as well! There is this one person I work with, who apparently might ask me out, and he has short hair, yet he is still attractive. =]
Let us know if he asks you out, PH!
paperheart, Does anyone find Bob attractive? i do, especially when his hair isn't in his face.
I can't believe there's no YouTube vid yet of Frank rapping Fresh Prince :/
I'm sure it will be fine P<3. *hugs*
RW, I will. But here's the thing, my friends are basically obsessed with him. They think he is extremely hot, and they have a HUGE crush on him. I told one of them, and she said we'd be a cute couple.
Buuut, I don't want to hurt them by saying yes IF (huge if here guys) he does ask me out.
Well, if he asks you out & you're interested in him I say go for it :)
resurrected wreck said...
I can't believe there's no YouTube vid yet of Frank rapping Fresh Prince :/
glad i'm not the only one who keeps checking. someone had to have gotten a video, i just wish they'd share it.
Time to shower. I shall return shortly...
Anon, I love his lip ring. It looks awesome on him!
Thanks Cupcake, I'm sure it will. But this involves the same friend who started lots of shit last month, got caught for it, denied it, and tried to blame three of my other best friends. I gave her a chance then, but I'm afraid to do it again now.
Quick P.S.:
Bob IS cute, I DO like his hair a little shorter but it's still infinitely better than that ghastly buzz cut.
Mikey looks more and more like John Taylor from Duran Duran to me every day.
Gerard's hair is hellatiously great nowadays. The bangs, though...um...well...
Ray...sorry Ergo, but Ray will never do it for me. Never. Not even the mad finger skillz.
And Frank?
*grins wickedly*
I think we all know my feelings on THAT particular sexy thang.
Donuts, anyone? ;D
J
Totally, anon! I don't believe that wasn't caught on vid!
Ray...sorry Ergo, but Ray will never do it for me. Never. Not even the mad finger skillz.
Not even with those thighs?
RW, I probably would. I like talking to him. ^_^ Enjoy your shower.
I can't believe there's no YouTube vid yet of Frank rapping Fresh Prince :/
glad i'm not the only one who keeps checking. someone had to have gotten a video, i just wish they'd share it.
0_0
Frank.. rapping? Oh wow.
Oh, hey, right... shower...
Be right back...
Anon I knew I couldn't be the only one who saw it. I couldn't pass that one up.
Blogger how do you eat so much. I mean you keep eating comment.
Best to be careful then P<3
Ray...sorry Ergo, but Ray will never do it for me. Never. Not even the mad finger skillz.
What about his arms? You have to admit, Ray does have fucking sexy arms. *drools*
I'll try Cuppy-Cake.
resurrected wreck, i know, they even got gerard doing that 'i'll make it rain' thing. i wanna see frank doing that so bad and then gerard saying how adorable frank is.
I think all the boys of MCR are good looking. Some more than others. There is this picture of Ray with a big ass grin on his face I just love.
Hallo J and MJ!
I'm bopping around, trying to cook supper, I'll be back in a few!
-A
Martha Jones said...
I think all the boys of MCR are good looking. Some more than others. There is this picture of Ray with a big ass grin on his face I just love.
They definitely have their shots. Of course, the same can be said for anyone of us.
I definitely have some BAD pictures of myself floating around.
-A
i agree martha, they are definitely 'five beautiful boys' but of course i have a couple favorites ;)
I agree MJ, I find them all attractive.
^^ I agree MJ.
And with Anon.
There's one of two I could take and lock myself in my room with. ;)
*one or two*
Mayo,
Today was a melancholy day around the Castle, as I'm sure you saw. Friday night was almost the end of an era, with My Chem playing Madison Square Garden as their final concert for who-knows-how-long.
By now I'm sure you've read all the comments and opinions and well wishes left here by the Lovelies. You're quite aware of how much those five men mean to us. It's true, they hold a special place in all our hearts because THEY are special. MCR, at least for me, renewed a spirit, a passion, not only for music but for life itself.
Corny? Cliched? Sorry, but true. They brought me back to punk, a place I hadn't been for many, many, MANY years. Not just punk: the music, but also punk: the attitude. And I so love and thank them for that.
Don't mean to go on like a gibbering idiot here, but it's been an introspective kind of day, Mayo. Thanks for listening to me.
My wish for you for the coming days: do what makes YOU jappy. Whatever that may be. Do it, and do it well.
If L were here, she'd say the same thing, along with "I love you, sweetheart."
I won't say THAT, exactly, but I WILL say, love to you, my brother. Enjoy yourself.
J
Back :D
J, you basically summed up alot of what I had to say. Goodnight to you and Opal.<3
Welcome back RW. :D
Amy i can say that I have any good picture I think they all look like crap.
Why the hell is Tila Tequila in two of my magazines? And why are the girls from the Hills on the cover of Rolling Stone. Has the world lost it mind?
Martha I'm sure that's not true! We all are our own worst critics, so it's only natural for everyone to say that.
Well I think I'm going to go, sadly I just don't seem up to banter tonight.
Tell Wendy I'm sorry I couldn't make the reception. She'll know what I mean. :)
I love you all very much, I worry for you, I care for you.
I'm not good at putting it into words for some reason.
But I feel it.
Mayo, I often wish I could write to you as beautifully as the others, but I can't. So I'll leave it at this.
Take care hun.
xoxo cupcake
You know, I think I'm going to head to bed. I just realized how late it is 0_0
Take care, everyone :) Have a great night!
well, i should go try and get some sleep but i want to thank everyone of you for your kindness tonight. and for letting me be debbie downer and spill my guts. it is appreciated more than you will ever know. thanks for listening.
kapunua (and fimble star), you may not believe it but i am truly sorry for the shit that has been thrown at you lately - you didn't deserve that. and i apologize for being snippy earlier but you snapped first and i just reacted. i do understand that you probably despise and distrust all anonymous posters now and i am sorry if i pushed your buttons with my curiosity.
mayo, i think that it has been a very long time since i posted here before tonight and even longer since I addressed you personally. but i just want to thank you for this space that you have created here. and i just want you to know that it just may have helped someone who was needing help tonight. so thank you for that.
goodnight every one of you 'lovlies' and thank you again.
Have a good night Cupcake. I love you too sweetie. If I see Wendy, I'll pass the message along! *hug*
Goodnight to you as well Resurrected Wreck! Sleep tight sweetie! xoxoxo *hug*
Well that is true Ph. But I really don't think I take good pictures.
Goodnight CC and RW.
Dear SS,
You are the brightest star that shines in my midnight sky.
My heart to yours, always.
I love you.
J
Goodnight Anon.
I enjoyed your company. Please come back soon. =]
<3
*hug*
Ohh MJ, me either! Don't worry! :P
I apologize for dropping off, I found myself in a cleaning frenzy.
I need to retire...maybe pay some bills, sync quicken, all that good shit.
Goodnight to all of you.
And thank you for being here. What would I do without you? I wonder sometimes, and well it's not cool..knowing you all are here makes my my heart complete. I am so lucky.
Night night everyone in blogbelieve. Sweet and happy dreams. ♥
How did Pencey Prep come up with their lyrics?
Fat and alone
You're out on your own
King of blubber sitting on your throne
Things aren't getting any better
and you stretched out all your sweaters
?
lol.
Wow. I don't think I'll ever buy a bag of Catelli pasta again. This shit is crap!
-A
Goodnight anon
Goodnight Anima!
I feel the same way about all of you.
Goodnight hun, sleep well<3
Goodnight Anima.
Ph I saw one of their CDs at the used CD store the other day. It was with the MCR stuff.
Amy shitty pasta sucks
MJ, I was just listening to their stuff, and was laughing during that whole song.
I think I'm going to take off myself. My boyfriend went to read some comics, so I think I'll go harass him for the fun of it.
Goodnight Lovelies!
Mayo,
Did you get nervous when you turned 25? I always assume everyone is older than I am.
I'm not as nervous turning 25 as I was turning 20. I had an identity crisis when that happened.
Goodnight Mayo. Keep another crumpled napkin in your pocket until next time.
SS,
This song reminds me of you. Go ahead. Laugh.
I did when I thought of it. Then, I thought of you, dancing to it in your gold hat.
Goodnight SS.
-A
Sweet Dreams Amyranth!
Have fun, uhh... harrassing your boyfriend. Hands to yourself missy! ;)
<3
*harasses*
Nyah!
Goodnight!
-A
Goodnight Amy
BRB i AM GOING TO TAKE A SHOWER
Mayo
Today has sucked. Nice way to start off, isn’t it? Hey, I’m honest to a fault. Actually that just about sums up me in a nutshell. Honest to a fault. So it’s all my fault cause I’m honest. Think about that for a while. That is messed up. Maybe I should lie. Maybe if I did I’d be happier? No, probably not but people around me would be happier cause they wouldn’t have to listen to my shit. Oh, hey here is an idea Elena why not just shut up? Then you won’t have to lie. Yeah, I’m totally talking to myself now. Crazy I am. I am crazy. Either way I say that statement it rings true. Hell, my brain is totally in a bad place today. Hence, the day sucked. So did I really need to go through the whole spiel? NO.
Mayo, sorry to write all this. Perhaps writing tonight is just a bad idea. Oh, this is like looking at a train wreck. Watch poor Elena try to come up with something that’s not gonna sound messed up. Can it be done? NOPE. Good word you got there, Mayo. NOPE is the answer of the day. And tomorrow and so on and so on. Now I’m sitting here waiting for the part of me that always kicks in about now. The part of me that’s gonna say “oh tomorrow will be better, just hold on.” That little voice has saved my ass more times than I can count. So I’m waiting and listening really hard. I’ve been waiting all day for it. Stupid voice seems to have taken a break. That’s the reason I slept for hours when I got home from work today. Just like I used to do. Can’t deal so sleep. Oh isn’t depression a wondrous thing? No need to deal in sleep. No need to try to figure out the mess your life has become when you close your eyes. Holy shit, I let it win. I am ashamed of myself for doing it but I just couldn’t think what else to do. Okay that’s not true. There were other things that came to mind but I’m not stupid enough to write about them. So all in all I guess giving into sleep was the lesser of the evils. Sometimes you just gotta chose.
So now I’m sorry I started this whole note to you. Maybe my thought was it would make me feel better if I admitted I’d had a bad day? Wait let me think…am I feeling better? NOPE. Not at all. Just feeling stupid, weak and idiotic. Maybe tomorrow it will be better. The little voice still isn’t back so I’ll just pretend it is and speak for it. It’s always right. Okay not always but usually. Tomorrow probably will be better. Don’t know if that’s true or not but gotta have something to hold on to. False hope is better than no hope at all.
Night Mayo
Elena (sorry about this shit, I really am)
I am determined to get first comment.
Goodnight Elena!
I love you sweetie<3
*hug*
Anyone gonna help me make it to 3400? I really really want to be first this time. :D
Okay, easier for me then. =]
Fly me to the moon
Let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On a-Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby, kiss me
Fill my heart with song
And let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you
Fill my heart with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, in other words
I love ... you
Goodnight Elena.
Where is everyone
Ooo. you make me live
whatever this world can give to me
It's you, you're all I see
Ooo, you make me live now honey
Ooo, you make me live
You're the best friend
that I ever had
I've been with you such a long time
You're my sunshine
And I want you to know
That my feelings are true
I really love you
You're my best friend
Ooo, you make me live
I've been wandering round
But I still come back to you
In rain or shine
You've stood by me girl
I'm happy, happy at home
You're my best friend.
You're the first one
When things turn out bad
You know I'll never be lonely
You're my only one
And I love
The things that you do
You're my best friend
Ooo, you make me live.
I'm happy, happy at home
You're my best friend
You're my best friend
Ooo, you make me live
Martha, I think Blogger ate them!
You can do it Paperheart......
Thanks Anon. :D
I was going to post different song lyrics until someone came, and Martha turned up just before I was going to post some Megadeth.
Ph I love that song
Random after thought...
Mayo, goodnight. I hope to see you soon. Must go to bed...or not? Silly, it doesn't matter.
Sleep well my friend.
I know I will rest my head - and sleep in way too late. Love it. Tomorrow is a new day. Feeling optimistic. Wishing you the same.
Post some Queen
That's always good
Fly me to the moon that is.
Anonymous said...
That girl is all i want
that girl thats always there
that girl thats so beautiful
that i cant help but stare
the one you tell all your secrets too
the one who whispers in your ear
even if you tell her nothings wrong
she will never disappear
that girl that breaks your heart
whenever she starts to cry
they one who lights up the hall
whenever she walks by
i want to tell her i love her
but i just don't know how
god hear my prayer
shes what i need right now
Anonymous said...
If words offer the means to meaning,
and the enunciation of truth.
Then the truth is I love you more than words,
and I am a passionate student of poetry.
Only for the means to express more glibly
my adoration of you.
For you are never far from my wistful mind,
By my own volition, I feel it is time,
To put forth a votive of the heart,
To amend myself at your side,
And forever do my part.
For it is all I've ever longed to do.
To dedicate, in life, the love I have for you.
My love, my heart, you wrote these for me not so very long ago.
I miss you so very much.
For the briefest moment in time, I held you in my arms. Nothing touched us that night.
I long to be with you again. Come to me soon, lover. I want you, I need you.
Rest well Anima
Dream of the things that make you happy. Wake then strive to accomplish them.
Queen is always good. Hello anon
Goodnight Anima. Love you<3
Goodnight Anima
I love Queen.
I grew up listening to them. My favorite song is "You're My Best Friend". When my dog died when I was ten, I listened to that song over and over. It helped me feel better.
I think I liked Queen so much because my dad listens to them.
In the year of '39 assembled here the Volunteers
In the days when lands were few
Here the ship sailed out into the blue and sunny morn
The sweetest sight ever seen.
And the night followed day
And the story tellers say
That the score brave souls inside
For many a lonely day sailed across the milky seas
Ne'er looked back, never feared, never cried.
Don't you hear my call though you're many years away
Don't you hear me calling you
Write your letters in the sand
For the day I take your hand
In the land that our grandchildren knew.
In the year of '39 came a ship in from the blue
The volunteers came home that day
And they bring good news of a world so newly born
Though their hearts so heavily weigh
For the earth is old and grey,
Little darling we'll away
But my love this cannot be
Oh, so many years have gone though I'm older but a year
Your mother's eyes in your eyes cry to me.
Don't you hear my call though you're many years away
Don't you hear me calling you
All the letters in the sand cannot heal me like your hand
For my life
Still ahead
Pity Me.
Ph that queen song was the one i was thinking of.
Almost there Ph
Mayonaise, SS; I know you must've had one of those days where everything just seemed to be going well, then at the end of the night, it all just turned to shit. I honestly hate those days! I just wanted to lock myself in my room, turn on my stereo really loud, and play my guitar. All I really wanted was to be alone. Scratch that. I wanted someone to talk to, someone who would listen. People like that are impossible to find now-a-days. I know there are many here I can talk to, but today, I needed someone to talk to face-to-face.
Want to hear what really sucked about my day? How virtually everything that went wrong with my two friends today, was blamed on me, and no one else. It really seems like it at least. Ohh well, life goes on. If there is one thing I've learnt from everyone on these blogs, it's that I'm really not alone in this.
That really is a comforting thought, especially when you feel like you are in the dark. I really really fucking hope that you know how much each and every single person on here cares about you guys. Yes, there are a few who don't really feel any connection to you whatsoever, but they still care. I think the only reason I don't feel any significant connection to you, is the fact that I've never directly got to talk to either of you. I haven't had the privilege to basically bask in your presence.
Maybe, one day, we will have some sort of connection. Some sort of bond. Please don't get me wrong, I have learned many things from you two, and I appreciate every single fucking word you put on these blogs, it's your words that build and shape these blogs! For that I am truly grateful. I always say this, but the main reason I come back is for my friends. The lovelies. I care too much to just walk away from this. It's hard to believe that anyday, this could all end. One day, these blogs will just be a distant memory. One day, I can look back and think to myself how happy I am to have shared this with everyone who is on the blogs. Throughout everything, the anonslaughts, the fights, the laughter, Blogbelieve really isn't that bad of a place to chill.
Do you know how many comments I have written, yet ended up deleting before I could click that bright orange button? I hate doing that, I end up regretting it in the end. I don't know, it just seems like I say things that I don't really mean sometimes, so I want to take them back, but in the end I can't.
On May 31st, I'm going to see City and Colour. It's basically just Dallas Green singing and playing guitar (from Alexisonfire). I look up to him. His style, his sound. It's his own. City and Colour is his side project from AOF, they are two COMPLETELY different genres of music. For some reason, I admire him for what he does. I really think that everyone would enjoy this song.
Well, sorry for my ramble of nothing Mayo and SS. Thank you, if you took the time to read it.
BlogBelieve, I love you all. Sleep well, and remember, never give up.
xoxoxo;
- 007
<3
That was the comment I wanted first. =] It's a long one, not expected to be read though.
Congrats on being first Paperheart. You are a wonderful young woman who has a bight future ahead. Never let go of your dreams.
Thanks Anon. I really appreciate that. =]
I need to go to sleep, but I can't. It's just one of those nights where I'm drowning myself with thoughts.
Goodnight PH and I think you are right blogger ate our friends
Martha, blogger is selfish that way.
I think I might stick around for a couple more minutes. I'm trying to write a new blog entry. My blog feels neglected and I feel bad for being the neglecter. =]
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