I Think I'll Call Him Walter.
I conjure up images in my head
for no reason at all. I think
they arrive to scare off the vagrants,
or perhaps to offer welcome. All they do is sleep,
and take up space ("the images or the vagrants?").
There are far more legitimate opponents
to overcome than those fucking demons. But they continue
to pick, pick, pick at every thought. And I am bored.
Lately they have been searching around
in the attic, pushing through the pink
fibrous fluff insulating the electric tangle.
It isn’t too dangerous to let them rummage, last I heard
most of that material is useless anyway.
Rarely do they find anything of value
(but that doesn’t stop them from trying to sell that shit on ebay).
Sometimes they trick me into joining them
in the mutilation (discount, decay, delete).
What the villains don’t realize is that
pilfering my reflections fuels my anger
and encourages my breath. They have been
diligent fuckers (pick, pick, pick).
So tonight, I should maintain
my creative endeavor well into bliss. (A bad habit?),
perhaps…It does keep me warm though and tells me when to eat.
So back to the images of vagrants, last night
I pushed a few of them out into the room,
in hopes that they would accompany me, at least
for a little while. There is one stubborn fucker
…that refuses to relent. It pokes me
and pushes my fingers to tap a line. Advice
is meaningless but the words sure are pretty.
p.s. what a shame another party dress ruined at the outing.
("Brought to you today by the letters: TINC and the number 0.")
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
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Ph I am sorry to hear that everyone blamed what went wrong on you.
MJ, it's not the first time, so basically I'm used to it by now.
Oh god. I can just hear my niece crying from upstairs. I hate it when she cries, I get frusterated when I can't figure out what's wrong. =[
Wait... I know what's wrong.
I made her sick. =[
oh I wish I could have called in , the aknowledging the dear missed departed was lovely.
congrats to PH too on first, and lovely comment
Elena I love you hey, you're special to me, I know a person thousands of miles away who you've never met isn't much but I'm here *waves*
MJ hope your arm feels better tomorrow
hello too anon
I'm off outside, I had some emergency tutoring to do before.
I'll be about more tomorrow
Hello Ergo and goodbye. *hug*
I think I'm off now.
Goodnight everyone.
I've already written my goodnight.
xoxox;
-007<3
Ph that doesn't make it right
Goodnight Ph and ep
2:54
God almighty, Contact this person yourself!
This is not meant to deride you in any way, but if you love this person so much (lover?) stop beating around the bush.
This is a blog. Real love deserves to be felt in real life.
Do this for yourself.
2:54
du bist transparent
h mayo how are you? I'm better still but not great, lol wonder if you care.
Anyhoo I actually have very little to say, had a nice day,and you can cook lasagne on a BBQ, if your oven decides to die - permenantly :[
So wishing you pleasant dreams, sweet days, glorious sunsets and cool evenings in any order you wish much love EP xx
SS how are you? Hope you're well, like I said to Mayo not much to say,lot's has happened, not to me but it really makes you think. Have I neglected my reality? perhaps a bit, I must try to remember not to do that, virtual friends are fantastic but not really a replacement, have to focus on the real as well, maybe I need a slightly better balance. We'll see.
It's easier to cling to people with like minds than deal with those you need to work harder with.But that can just make them harder to deal with the next time, doesn't it?
Anyhoo sending you chocolate, flowers, rainbows and sparkles lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve . take care and I'll see you in my tomorrow
good morning mayo!
how are you today?
thought you might have had somethiung new for us to read? no worries though, have a good one!
SS hello to you. hope you have a lovely day too. was thinking of this song when i was looking at your blog. thought you might like it.
Maybe it's just what I needed to take that huge step and do something that I really, really want to do.
Kapunua i am so fucking repulsed at what has happened to you!! the only thing i can say is that maybe this will be the thing that spurs you on to make that huge step!!
good luck!
hi family! we all good? i do hope so! i'm still in a little bit of a weird numb kinda mood. hard to explain but i think you are all maybe feeling similar also. i don't know?!
today is the last day of the english premiership football season! its a biggy! it has gone right to the last day! today we find out whether chelsea of manchester united are the champions!! god i am nervous and excited!! fingers crossed for man utd guys!! sorry kass!
have wonderful sundays everyone!
love to you all!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMYRANTH
(hope i am right?)
EDIT
something
obviously!!
oh shit sorry amyranth!!!
its your birthday tomorrow not today!! what a twat i am!! silly me. i will shut up now!!
2:54 Mayo's cyber partner?
Is Mayo in love?
MCR @ MSG - headfirst for halos. listen to him speaking at the end. funny!
MCR @ MSG - sleep
MCR @ MSG - prison
gerard saying they are going to come back with a new album!!!!
MCR @ MSG - i'm not ok crowd singing. sounds amaaaaazing!
MCR @ MSG - this how i disappear
gerard and mika the make a wish foundation kid
MCR @ MSG - cancer
MCR @ MSG - i don't love you
MCR @ MSG - the sharpest lives
ok these might have been posted before, i haven't really caught up!! hope some one enjoys them!!! fuck how long does this PCD by proxy last????!!!! its killing me!!
gotta go and resume my real life now!!
EDIT
lasts
seriosly i'm fucking up all over today!! please don't let this be a sign that man utd are going to lose or something???
Anonymous said...
That girl is all i want
that girl thats always there
that girl thats so beautiful
that i cant help but stare
the one you tell all your secrets too
the one who whispers in your ear
even if you tell her nothings wrong
she will never disappear
that girl that breaks your heart
whenever she starts to cry
they one who lights up the hall
whenever she walks by
i want to tell her i love her
but i just don't know how
god hear my prayer
shes what i need right now
Anonymous said...
If words offer the means to meaning,
and the enunciation of truth.
Then the truth is I love you more than words,
and I am a passionate student of poetry.
Only for the means to express more glibly
my adoration of you.
For you are never far from my wistful mind,
By my own volition, I feel it is time,
To put forth a votive of the heart,
To amend myself at your side,
And forever do my part.
For it is all I've ever longed to do.
To dedicate, in life, the love I have for you.
My love, my heart, you wrote these for me not so very long ago.
I miss you so very much.
For the briefest moment in time, I held you in my arms. Nothing touched us that night.
I long to be with you again. Come to me soon, lover. I want you, I need you.
May 11, 2008 2:54 AM
Mayo's love?
It's crazy, if they can post on a blog, they can email their lover.
It's stupid doing this in public.
For the Lovers
Strangers in the night exchanging glances
Wond'ring in the night
What were the chances we'd be sharing love
Before the night was through.
Something in your eyes was so inviting,
Something in your smile was so exciting,
Something in my heart,
Told me I must have you.
Strangers in the night, two lonely people
We were strangers in the night
Up to the moment
When we said our first hello.
Little did we know
Love was just a glance away,
A warm embracing dance away and -
Ever since that night we've been together.
Lovers at first sight, in love forever.
It turned out so right,
For strangers in the night.
Love was just a glance away,
A warm embracing dance away -
Ever since that night we've been together.
Lovers at first sight, in love forever.
It turned out so right,
For strangers in the night.
*dragged in by the cat*
I'm home!!!
Good morning/afternoon/night Mayo, SS, FASC, Ergo, PJ, the usual crew for this time: Kass, Possum, RW, anons, watchers lurkers,
all moms and those missing their moms and APOCALYPTICA fans of blog believe!!
How are you today? GREAT, I hope!
I am exhausted, I lost my brand new camera and I was pawed all night by an aquaintance; but....
APOCALYPTICA was PHENOMENAL!!!!!!!
Brilliant -- absolutely BRILLIANT!
I'm just sorry no one will ever be able to see the beautiful pictures I took. And they were beautiful!
*pouts*
Enough pouting....
*huge smile despite the camera tragedy and wanting to sream GET THE HELL OFF OF ME half the night*
*getting peeved again*
Removing said paws from my body was only effective for about a minute at a time. Too bad I didn't have enough room to turn around and smack him! SHEESH!
*apologies for ranting*
*thinks of APO and is happy again*
Cupcake: We shall have the reception another night. I promise! Ohhh.....perhaps we can have a Birthday Party (Amy's) and reception combo! :)
PIXIE: Make room for me! I'm moving in with you! ;)
Ergo: HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to you, honeybunch!
Happy mothers day to ALL the moms in blogbelieve!
To ponder today (In honor of mothers' day):
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`
My Mother Taught Me About...
1. My Mother taught me about ANTICIPATION...
"Just wait until your father gets home."
2. My Mother taught me about RECEIVING....
"You are going to get it when we get home!"
3. My Mother taught me to MEET A CHALLENGE...
"What were you thinking? Answer me when I talk to you! Don't talk back to me!"
4. My Mother taught me LOGIC...
"If you fall out off that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me."
5. My Mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE...
"If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they are going to freeze that way."
6. My Mother taught me to THINK AHEAD...
"If you don't pass your spelling test, you'll never get a good job."
7. My Mother taught me HUMOR...
"When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."
What Mom Taught Me
8. My Mother taught me how to BECOME AN ADULT...
"If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."
9. My Mother taught me about GENETICS...
"You're just like your father."
10. My Mother taught me about my ROOTS...
"Do you think you were born in a barn?"
11. My Mother taught me about WISDOM OF AGE...
"When you get to be my age, you will understand."
And last but not least...
12. My Mother taught me about JUSTICE...
"One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you....Then you'll see what it's like!"
;p
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Just kidding MOMS! Being a parent is the most difficult job in the world! APPLAUSE for each and every one of the moms out there.
Much love to all moms on their special day!
For those of you NOT spending time with mom today, don't forget to give her a call and let her know she is loved and appreciated!
Have a great day, everyone!
I'm going to bed now, so....
sweet dreams to one and all!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Cupid: That was lovely! :)
Goodnight to you!
Children really brighten up a household - they never turn the lights off
For Mayo and anonymous
My breath is coming fast
And as I make a start
You turn to go, oh oh
I'll do what you want me to
I cry at the thought of the loss of a heart
Love is reason
Love is reason
Love is reason
Love is reason enough
My morals are changing fast
I told you it wouldn't last
You turn and go, oh oh
I'll be what you want me to be
I die at the though of the loss of your heart
Oh, love is reason
Love is reason
Love is reason
Love is reason
Love is reason enough
My mother tried to kill me when I was a baby. She denied it. She said she thought the plastic bag would keep me fresh
ZOMG is Mayo in love???? ROTFL
So many lovers on one blog. Wow!!
You can fool all of the people some of the time, and some of the people all of the time, but you Can't Fool Mom
Ohhh!! Does mommy have secret lovers too?
True love comes quietly, without banners or flashing lights. If you hear bells, get your ears checked.
Love lasteth as long as the money endureth
Hey, I'm not the one putting it out there, mom.
I long to be with you again. Come to me soon, lover. I want you, I need you.
Ahhh!!!! So romantic, true love :D
anon at 8:26, im not writing the love poems,just so you know...im not into sharpies either!
hmmm...then who?
Happy mothers day everyone!Even if your not a mom or lost a mom i hope every woman here has a great day.....because woman rock!! Happy womans day!! Nice anon
Love lasteth as long as the money endureth
or
love lasteth as long as the fantasy endureth
How about...love lasteth until the sharpie dryeth!! LOL
Nice 8:47
But true love will always endure, dry sharpies or not! It's secretly written in your heart for eternity :)
for Mr M. Naise & Co
I can hear her heart beat for a thousand miles
And the heavens open every time she smiles
And when I come to her that's where I belong
Yet I'm running to her like a river's song
Chorus:
She give me love, love, love, love, crazy love
She give me love, love, love, love, crazy love
She's got a fine sense of humor when I'm feeling low down
And when I come to her when the sun goes down
Take away my trouble, take away my grief
Take away my heartache, in the night like a thief
Chorus:
Yes I need her in the daytime
Yes I need her in the night
Yes I want to throw my arms around her
Kiss her hug her kiss her hug her tight
And when I'm returning from so far away
She gives me some sweet lovin' brighten up my day
Yes it makes me righteous, yes it makes me feel whole
Yes it makes me mellow down in to my soul
happy mothers day
i hope everyone has a lovely day.
Smok - i hope everything is ok, i will be thinking of you and da rake. ring me if you wanna talk ok. good wihes and thoughts hun.
anon at 1.46am
kapunua (and fimble star), you may not believe it but i am truly sorry for the shit that has been thrown at you lately - you didn't deserve that. and i apologize for being snippy earlier but you snapped first and i just reacted.
if i snapped at you and you wasnt mean, then do apologise, but please understand many things have been said in anon and it is hard to distinguish one person from another when they have the same name. i didnt know which one you were, so apologies.
fasc, paint your face hun, we are gonna win.
kass, goodluck today, i hope you draw :)
anima, phone died last night, i sent an email.
ss - one tip for the day, dont pick your nose, you may pick your brain. hahaha have a top day, smile
have a great day everyone, see you around.
xxx
Mayo's is Love Shack, baby Love Shack!
Love Shack, baby Love Shack!
Love baby, that's where it's at
Love Shack, baby Love Shack!
Love baby, that's where it's at
Huggin' and a kissin',
dancin' and a lovin' at the love shack ...
...because I'm really in a good mood
"The Power Of Love"
I'll protect you from the hooded claw
Keep the vampires from your door
Feels like fire
I'm so in love with you
Dreams are like angels
They keep bad at bay-bad at bay
Love is the light
Scaring darkness away-yeah
I'm so in love with you
Purge the soul
Make love your goal
[1]-The power of love
A force from above
Cleaning my soul
Flame on burn desire
Love with tongues of fire
Purge the soul
Make love your goal
I'll protect you from the hooded claw
Keep the vampires from your door
When the chips are down I'll be around
With my undying, death-defying
Love for you
Envy will hurt itself
Let yourself be beautiful
Sparkling love, flowers
And pearls and pretty girls
Love is like an energy
Rushin' rushin' inside of me
[Repeat 1]
This time we go sublime
Lovers entwine-divine divine
Love is danger, love is pleasure
Love is pure-the only treasure
I'm so in love with you
Purge the soul
Make love your goal
The power of love
A force from above
Cleaning my soul
The power of love
A force from above
A sky-scraping dove
Flame on burn desire
Love with tongues of fire
Purge the soul
Make love your goal
I'll protect you from the hooded claw
Keep the vampires from your door
Good morning!
Happy Mother's Day to all of your moms, Mayo and SS included!
I'm running low on words, so I will leave it at that. Have a great day, everyone, and I'll see you around later. :)
And!
Happy Mother's Day to all of the mothers here at BlogBelieve!
*takes LHM by the ear*
You be good to your mom today! ;)
Love FGTH. Love that song. Thanks.
Nobody deserves to find happiness more than you. To find true love you first need to be true to yourself. Accept and embrace who you are. You deserve so much more. You deserve the real thing.
The world may be ugly but love is beautiful.
You'll always be beautiful to me.
For My Tomorrows, My Love, My Always
This one is ours.
A Love Song
by William Carlos Williams
What have I to say to you
When we shall meet?
Yet—
I lie here thinking of you.
The stain of love
Is upon the world.
Yellow, yellow, yellow,
It eats into the leaves,
Smears with saffron
The horned branches that lean
Heavily
Against a smooth purple sky.
There is no light—
Only a honey-thick stain
That drips from leaf to leaf
And limb to limb
Spoiling the colours
Of the whole world.
I am alone.
The weight of love
Has buoyed me up
Till my head
Knocks against the sky.
See me!
My hair is dripping with nectar—
Starlings carry it
On their black wings.
See, at last
My arms and my hands
Are lying idle.
How can I tell
If I shall ever love you again
As I do now?
Today, I felt like going back to the beginning. I wanted to remember what it felt like, what it tasted like, what it smelled like, what it looked like.
hold me
see me
touch me
feel me
like you did that day
Like you do every day and every night, even when we are apart.
I love you.
To All the Mom's in BlogBelieve:
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
Mother's Love
Her love is like
an island in life's ocean,
vast and wide
A peaceful, quiet shelter
From the wind, the rain, the tide.
'Tis bound on the north by Hope,
By Patience on the West,
By tender Counsel on the South
And on the East by Rest.
Above it like a beacon light
Shine Faith, and Truth, and Prayer;
And thro' the changing scenes of life
I find a haven there.
Author Unknown
*waves to Mummy K*
or Moms even
Damn, I should really wake up first.
Anyways.
Mayo,
How are you today? I hope this Sunday finds you warm, full, satisfied, content, happy, loved, and smiling. Me? I'm feeling pretty grateful to be celebrating this special day with my mother. She really is the best. How lucky am I? Pretty damn. I have the best mom, the best sister, and the best nephew in the whole world.
Make it a good one, Mayo. We'll talk more later.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Say it, then say it again, and then say it once more, but more importantly, show it.
Goodmorning everyone!
Hiya FASC, 616, Mustard, Fimmy, Cupid, little gaggle of giggle and love anons, and everyone being treated to breakfast in bed =)
Yay 616, Apocalyptica came and conquered! What were the best songs they played? Could they not have fired a cello bow at your pawing guy?
Princess,
You didn't come back on again =( I hope your hubby is alright.
FASC,
Bittersweet Symphony!! Did you see the Verve have reformed?!?
PJ, Eliza Bennett, and all those who no longer have their Mum's with them,
*hugs* I'm so sorry today brings sadness to you. Some hollows can never be filled.
Elena,
Tomorrow is another day. It may not be a better day, but it least it is a fresh one that can come filled with possibilities.
*hugs*
MissT,
Adding to your observation from the other day that dusting makes the inner nose contents grey, I can report that mowing the lawn and cutting ivy creates black inner nose contents =)
Morning Socky!
*blows a cosmically connected kiss*
Cutesy Love Spreading and Friendly Anons present please ignore the following bad mood of mine and skip over >_<
Kapunua said
Oh, and so you know: My boss actually did throw me under the bus. And honestly? It feels a little bit like something that has been sick for a long time just died. I'm sad (amazed that the anons went that far as well,) but relieved, too.
WHAT.THE.BLOODY.HELL???!!
You lost your job over those little...
*close your eyes now Mayo, SS and those with tender sensibilities*
...bitterly tormented evil sick little bastard shitheads!!!
*apologises silently to all Mothers on this Mothers' Day*
To the shitstirrers that had nothing better on their minds and hands to do than to expose an individuals private details and nark on them just because they didn't like them - did you ever stop to think about the real consequences?
You cost a person their job!
The Animal Charity fundraisers that were connected to her employment will now lack her input.
Kapunua's own charity shelter for birds, that was funded by her own money, will suffer.
And what of her own pets that need feeding and caring for.
Let alone being able to support herself.
You were trying to be so damn smart that you let your dislike reach pathological levels. You stalked.
Get help for yourself now! This is just a blog. It is not a personal bloody war!
Kapunua, I'm so sorry this has happened to you. I really do hope this clears the way for better and brighter things.
'Night everyone.
Sorry for messing up the start of your day =(
*leaves Mayo's, in a shitty mood, still swearing at the utter pettiness and stupidity of people*
*will regret use of bad language in about 30 minutes*
Don't regret it, PP. Say it louder next time. ^_~
Hey guys!
Thanks for all the concern last night. He scared the shit out of me and I still don't really know what was wrong. I'm sure you all remember that he was in a terrible accident last year and suffered from a major brain trauma. Well, he was acting weird yesterday for no apparent reason. Kind of like he did right after the accident. So....it freaked me out.
I'm gonna keep an eye on him today. He seems to be better but we'll see.
And before I forget....
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
Kapunua publicly posted horrible things about those people. The things she said could hurt their careers as well. She publicly posted their website.
And one more thing....
MUSTARD!!!!!!!!!!!
You totally made LHM smile this morning when I showed him his little message from you.
^_^
Kapunua came to her friends here asking for help after her friend got sexually assaulted and was scared to say it!! And instead of lending a hand this is what people did, sick sick sick is what I say!! Who would have known that people would go this far?
--a friendly, FRIENDLY lurker
Exactly, Friendly Lurker.
It is sick.
Anonymous said...
Kapunua publicly posted horrible things about those people.
Yes, sexual assault IS a horrible thing.
Lurkinator,
Are you around doing your thing this morning?
Just wondering....
i was walking around last night, feeling exhausted in that very particular way one does after being too long in a museum -- my head stuffed full, crammed with beauty and artifacts and paintings and statues and...
walking back and forth along the blocks in front of the met, circling around to park avenue, ignoring the bored curious looks of the doormen, trying to get some word from elena, and asking myself questions that can only be asked in the dark, alone.
who am i now?
did this trip change me or was it just a delightful folderol?
what the hell am i supposed to do now?
who am i without that barrier spot?
who am i without the band defining me?
who am i without him defining me?
going back to seattle, which my mother expects me to do, is no answer. the same difficulties await me there: no job, no home, no money.
i could go stay with my folks a little while, i suppose i could even impose on friends again -- but haven't i just spent five weeks mooching off them already?
what the hell?
here's he thing: while i was on the road, every concert meant i was seen. not at first, maybe, but it certainly became something i looked forward to -- the bright grin during drive by, the looks during billy talent and mcr. they were all beginning to recognize me, and it was so much fun.
it made me real.
i've made so many connections on this trip, some ephemeral, some solid (i hope), but now the trip is over, and i am left alone with myself.
not seen.
not needed by anyone.
and so now i have to build a life??
last night after i finally left the met, i went over to broadway and found a neat little sandwich shop. i used some of my last dollars to buy my first meal of the day, and then splurged further and bought some fresh fruit at a shop across the street. the grapes were so delicious. i ate them walking around my friend's neighborhood with her, the obligatory nightly dog walk, and we talked architecture while i munched grapes like i was a moviegoer eating popcorn.
it was so simple. just deciding to have a sandwich because i was hungry, though it was 10 at night, and giving in to the colors of the fruit stand.
it's a little bit of who i want to be.
but it was only a treat.
it was only an adventure.
today i have to call my mom and make a deal with her -- on mother's day no less, which is just awful -- and see what i have to agree to in order to receive aid from her.
and i'm writing all this here even though i'm pretty sure it's nothing anyone wants to read, but it's been stuck in my head, jammed in with the medieval enamels and the holbeins and the cycladic figurines, and i had to lance it.
i apologize for pouring it out here.
there was no where else.
i don't know how much i'll be commenting in the future...i'll still be here of course. i always hang on too long, always the one you have to kick out the door.
but i don't belong here, do i?
i have no purpose here, do i?
no one needs me.
i am not seen anymore.
i'm sure leah will let me use her computer again tonight, so i'll be back to see what drama blogbelieve has engaged in today. i don't know if i'll make a night time comment, though. i didn't last night, though i was lurking.
i'm sorry, mayo. i'm too good at pretending, and i don't know what's real, and maybe it's just better to shut up altogether.
sorry, my friends.
no one really cares that much i am sure but hey i'm gonna share!!
man utd fucking won!!! we are the champions!! fucking brilliant!
sorry kass!
so sorry i forgot to say happy mothers day in the usa to all who are mothers, who have mothers and who don't have mothers anymore but are thinking of them.
TJ!!
but i don't belong here, do i?
i have no purpose here, do i?
no one needs me.
i am not seen anymore.
bullshit! you are part of this whether you like it or not. you are one of us even though you differ from some of us! you are a family member! don't ever forget that!!
gotta fly guys! making kids tea and finishing the beer in my hand!! what a scabby mother i am??!! no worries, its not exactly an everyday occurrance!!
fimmy if you pop in!!..
RYAN FUCKING GIGGS!!
be back later!
i'm sorry, mayo. i'm too good at pretending, and i don't know what's real, and maybe it's just better to shut up altogether.
FUCK THAT.
*cups her hands around her mouth*
HEY BIRTHDAY FAIRY! I'M MAKING MY FIRST WISH!
I wish Elena and Teej, and everyone else would see just how much they are needed and wanted here!
I wish they'd understand that if it wasn't for them, my little coffeeshop story wouldn't make sense!
I wish they'd see that the house has windows. Tons of windows. All those windows lead to places in here. Bedrooms that belong to them, and only to them.
Teej, you are in one of the most amazing cities in the world. What if you stayed there? Remember, you need to do for yourself, because nobody else will. Hang what other people think! They aren't you, and they won't live your life, ever!
Elena, I don't know the full scope of your problems. I won't even pretend to. Maybe though, maybe you girls need each other more than you think?
It's only a suggestion.
(Huh? Hey, listen Fairy, it's MY frigging birthday, and I can make it one big wish if I want!)
-A
thank you.
and thank you to the anon with the slideshow. it's my favoite song by that band, and the pictures just reminded me that frank iero is possible the best hugger i've encountered.
i have to go. my friend is going out for the day and so i have to, as well.
you guys are making me cry.
see you later.
I am 2:54 Anon.
I am not Tomorrow's Love Always, or their anonymous love.
I am not writing to Mayo.
Are any of the anonymous comments this morning directed towards me?
Is your love for me real, or is it simply make-believe?
I need to know, I need so badly to know. Be honest with me. Please. What am I to you, really?
Is your love for me real, or is it simply make-believe?
I need to know, I need so badly to know. Be honest with me. Please. What am I to you, really?
I wish I could help you. But I'm as in the dark as you are. :/
-A
I wouldn't worry about it too much because, uh, I'm gonna stay with my girlfriend.
*bangs head against wall*
*slashes legs over 100 times with pink Lady Bic*
PAAAAUUUUUUULLLLLLLL!!!!!!!
TJ,
I need you here. I look forward to reading you everyday-- the days where you don't comment, I begin to worry. You do belong here.
I love you sweetie.<3
Amyranth, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUNNN! *HUG*
*pulls string and balloons fall from ceiling*
1:14, how do I know that is really you?
Sometimes I feel like my problems pale in comparison to those of others who "live" here. And it's frustrating not being able to help.
TJ:
I don't have any idea what to tell you. Some really good advice has already been given, and I hope you take it to heart. Above everything, you need to do what you feel is best. Only you can decide.
Smoke:
Still sending good wishes to you guys today. I hope everything turns out well and that he's okay.
There was some really bad weather to hit a lot of U.S. in the past couple of days. I hope that everyone in that area of the country are safe and sound today.
PH darling!
*giggles*
It's tomorrow!
Even my own boyfriend is doing that. Last night, I was watching the news and it said it was going to be really nice on saturday, so I let out a cheer.
From the basement: "Happy Birthday!"
Agh. Then, he did it again!
Me: "Wooo! The Lottery is 24 million dollars! Woo hoo!!"
Him: "Happy Birthday!!"
Me: "You OAF! It's still Saturday!"
Yeah. My life, a comedy of errors. Literally.
-A
Hello Mayo,
Mind if I hang here for a bit?
'till'
No longer a travel agent I see.
Hiya Mayo.
Hiya anyone who is here!
till?
Hmmm...
All I got was a love song and glacial sediments.
You, Mayo, are so difficult! ;)
Hey guys! How's it hanging?
Hey guys, just want to say Happy Mother's Day to all of you Moms out there! You guys are so special. I envy you. ^_^
Princess, I'm glad things are better, but let's hope they get better still, yeah?
Whoa, did Blogger just, like, die and start gasping for breath for anyone else?
Mustard,
Yes, blogger is being bitchier than usual for me today too.
Yeah, I didn't get much on till, cept something that holds money and stuff, a glacier, and like until.
Hey Jules!
Jules,
I hope Mummy K sees that I waved to her today.
*waves to Mummy K again*
Happy Mummy's Day!
'Till when? O_o
Hi Solly and Splash! I went out shopping with Mummy K today and I told her about your shout out. She will see it later probably. I'm going to my cousin's house for a barbecue; it is her first Mother's Day and she's all psyched and emo. :)
Hey, Jules! Tell Mummy K I said, "Good job!"
'till Mayo gets ready to tell us I reckon.
Yeah, I just left my Mama's house. I was there with Smoke and LHM. It was nice.
Awww, Splash. ^_^ You guys are gorgeous, all y'all.*
*That's my Southern accent for you Southerners. ;D
Jules,
Niiiiice. I think you did that very convincingly.
Why thank ye! (That's my Ye Olde Tyme speak. ;D )
OH CRAP! Today is my friend's birthday, I have to send her a card. Grrr, why must people inconvenience me with their birthdays. ;)
I know, right?
Damn them! ;)
Mayo, I'm going to be an ass right now. So...the images or the vagrants?
Couldn't resist!
Might as well, Splash. :)
Oh man, my crow just pecked a hole in my shoe.
So, it's like raining here today. Actually, it's been storming. Is it crazy to like the thunder and lightning so much? I love the cloudy dark skies. I love the smell of the rain. I love the wind blowing so hard that you can barely stand up. I like walking out and seeing the puddles of water. I love the sound of the rain on my roof. I love how it looks like nighttime in my house right now.
Am I weird?
Like I think it's going to wash it all away.
Awwh, bad Havoc! Doesn't Havoc know today is Mommy's day?
It's still funny though.
Ooooh, I just remembered I bought a new "old" cd....Candlebox. I am about to rock out now.
It's Me
Toujours,
What an adventure you had. But now it seems you are experiencing the low after the high and the tough task of pulling your life back together. Sometimes we do not allow ourselves to see what is at the end of an adventure. Learn from this adventure…look further down the path. Take the blinders off and see ALL around you. Live for the present AND the future. There are todays AND tomorrows.
Good Luck Toujours
For Fimble Venoms Sock Star:
Taste the rainbow
Princess, I'm glad things are better, but let's hope they get better still, yeah?
I hope so, Jules!
Oh, and you're Southern accent?
Very nice. ^_~
MAYO!!!!!!!!!!
Wait 'till' I kick your ass! Bwahahaha!
Haha, Solly, you guys are so icky. ^_^
I wouldn't mind a nice thunderstorm 'round these parts.
OH GUYS! I just remembered my fantastic and hilariopus dream I wanted to tell you. Gimme a few minutes to write this sucker down. It's a mad one.
Toujours
i'm sorry, mayo. i'm too good at pretending, and i don't know what's real, and maybe it's just better to shut up altogether.
Yeah I'm gonna call you later but I have to put this here now....
Woman, you are I are so alike it's scary. That's why we bonded. We understand each other's thoughts. We understand each other's feelings. We just need to NOT have our meltdowns at the same time so one of us will be able to pull the other up. Lucky for us we have all these wonderful people on this blog to help us when we need it most. You know the answers, my sister. You've known all along. This adventure taught you so much. You achieved fearless. Now you just have to take that and go from there. You know where I am. You know you're always welcome. You are family. Now stop with all the doubts cause I won't let you give into them. No more than you will let me give into mine. We are sisters till the end.
Awww, It's Me Anon.
That's so nice. ^_^
I've got three little lovely cream puffs sitting in front of me.
Anyone want one?
Mayo?
Too bad, I'm not sharing.
Any of you know what a caged, brown, bunny rabbit in a dream signifies?
'Cause I had one in mine.
Hello, Elena! Hello, It's Me!
As I cry for you
Yes I'll die for you
Pain in my heart it is real
And I'll take everything
As it comes my way
Feel in my heart it's for you
And I'll lie for you as I die for you
Pain in my heart it is real
And I'll tell you now
How I feel inside
Fuck you
It's for you
Niiiiiiice.
Am I the only one who acts like a total maniac when they listen to music? I am sure to someone watching me on the outside I can look quite scary. Evil even. Possessed maybe? Muahhahah..
After I eat lunch, I mean. A blow of cereal. :)
I've got three little lovely cream puffs sitting in front of me.
I've got a lovely bunch of coconuts, deedle deedle, and they're standing all in a row.
/childish antics
Hi Elena, Hi Smoke, Hi It's Me Anon!
Mustard, a caged bunny? Hmmm...nope, I have no clue.
What did I dream about? Oh, I remember a scary place. A haunted fucking house. Yes. And people in my dream I didn't know. Kinda like watching a movie.
Hullo Elena, you're you doing?
Am I the only one who acts like a total maniac when they listen to music?
NOPE!
Rainin' Bran?
Or some kind of organic shit with acai?
Hmmmm, I like my cream puffs better.
HELLO ELENA!
Sdock, you can't look any crazier than I do driving 85mph and taking my hands off the wheel so I can do the air guitar thingy and flail around like Frank.
^_^
Shoulda been a NASCAR driver.
Mustard,
Was you bunny like an evil vampire bunny? Did it have rabies? Was it a mutant bunny? It's all in the details, ya know?
*sigh*
I just realized that I have to go to work tomorrw.
Hullo Elena, you're you doing?
Say huh? O_o
Mustard,
I mean I want to believe you when you say NOPE, but I look like I am having a seizure or convulsions or something.
Oooh, you guys should have seen me on the way home. Guess what I was singing?
Guess...
Oh fuck it, you will never guess it anyways.
"The Rose" Bette Midler version and oh my, I was so lovely. I felt like I was on Broadway or something. Or maybe doing a Vegas show...or maybe
Ummm someone's wedding.
I ♥ that song.
No, this bunny was a normal little bunny. Not rabid, not vicious like SS Phantom Kitty. Just a cute widdle bunny wabbit.
He was brown, and he was in a cage, and I saw two hands reach in and try to pick him up. The hands couldn't get him out, so he stayed in the cage.
I dreamed some crazy shit last night, too.
Too bad I can't remember it.
MAYO!!!
I know you're looking at my cream puffs. Stop it!
Go get your own. >_<
Smoke,
See, I was going to let that one go. Muahahah. You're you doing? That's a classic.
Mayo, oh Mayo, oh Mayo!!
Did you see how we proclaimed you to be Tony Stark yesterday? If you haven't seen Iron Man yet, you should.
hi guys!!
so what exactly does till mean mayo????
i am so stupid that as soon as the word changes i can't remember the one before??!!! i was sat there just then thinking WTF was it before!!! kind of panicked me!! then i remembered!!
silly me!
LMAO! I meant to write "How're you doing," but "YOU'RE you doing" has a certain ring to it.
Dude, I do the same thing, especially the part in "Up Against" where he says "close our eyes and let go of the wheel." Umm, dangerous part of the song for me.
Reread this completely out of context:
MAYO!!!
I know you're looking at my cream puffs. Stop it!
Go get your own. >_<
BWUAHAHAHAH!
Mustard,
You are the bunny. Why do you not want to escape from your cage? Is your cage comfortable? Are you afraid of being let loose in the wilderness? Are you a tame bunny? Have you forgotten your survival instincts? or
Were you afraid that you were about to be put into a big ol pot of boiling water??
Maybe SS Phantom Kitty sensed something about you and thought you were truly EEEEEVVVVVVILLLL!
Mwahaha.
Or maybe SS Phantom Kitty is really evil.
Nah, named after SS and all it can't be true.
blogger is being a bit of a meffer i see!!
hello solly, princess, K, mustard and elena and anyone else!
hi mayo!! you lurking?
or not as the case may be!!
Buwwhwhahahahh! Mayo is eyeballing Smoke's cream puffs.
That is so funny. Thanks Mustard for putting that spin on it.
I bet they are good cream puffs too.
Once you get the ice off of em and they get thawed out.
Buwahhahahahhahauwhamamuaahah.
Hello FASC!
Gotta say, I'm not a fan of cream puffs. Pomegranate chocolate chip ice cream however, now that I'd fight for.
Okay guys, I have to tell you my fabulous dream.
See, I knew it was you that was evil, Mustard.
There I was talking about fo'real cream puffs.
As if.
Mayo,
Smack her.
^_~
HEY THERE FASC!!!!!!!!!!!!
FASC,
Did you have a great day?
*waves to Mr. Bloke*
Blogger is being a bigger hungrier asswhore than usual.
Hey, FASC! Yes, Blogger is being a turd and one half. >.< How are ya?
So in my dream, I was carrying around a bunch of boxes of cassette tapes to all these different hotels, and I was wishing for my iPod so I could lighten the load. I wondered why I was going to all of these hotels in the first place, then I realized that I was following TBS around the country--no doubt inspired by Toujours' adventure!
So I go outside of one of the hotels and there is this little swimming pool and Adam Lazzara is standing beside it. He says to me, "Did you know I'm really a competitive swimmer and no one has ever beat me?"
I say, "I had no idea. But I can swim really fast. Would you like to race?"
So we both go into the pool which is now an Olympic sized one, with lanes and everything. Now there are about twenty people racing.So we begin the race and I start swimming like mad and I keep glancing over to Adam Lazzara to see if he's beating me, and it's really, really close. So I'm thinking, Oh man, I'd better put all I have into this, because he definitely knows a lot about swimming, and I'll bet his arms are longer than mine! (Of note: I was reading an article before bed last night about having longer arms cuts down your risk of Alzheimer's. O_o )
We finish the race and it ends up being a tie. Now the pool is small again and it's just him and me leaning up on the edge of the pool waiting to get our prizes for coming in first and first. The prize ends up being a birthday candle. So I take mine and I say, "Watch what I can do with this." I turn to Adam Lazzara and now he's not Adam anymore, but rather Beautiful Boy from Kung Fu. To impress him, I start to melt the candle with my mind. (O_o) Now the candle is melting all over my fingers and I say to him, "It looks kind of rude, right?"
The dream shifts and I'm out of the pool looking up at a balcony, and there is Adam Lazzara again, and he's just standing there. Fred goes up behind him and he's pushing a shopping cart. I start thinking, "I wonder what he's going to do with that?" Then the shopping cart goes flying out of his hands and hits Adam Lazzara, knocking him off the balcony and into the pool, I'm like, "Well, it's a good thing he's such a good swimmer." Then, to my surprise, he starts to drown. But before I can get to do anything, Eddie Reyes comes leaping off the balcony into the pool, and saves him.
I woke up after that, and it was one of those dreams that as soon as I woke up, I started laughing really hard. Now, everytime I think of the shopping cart part during the day, it cracks me up all over again.
I guess you had to be there. Which is ridiculous, since none of you could have. ^_^
Oh, and, Eddie Reyes comes leaping off the balcony into the pool, and saves him.
Which, by the way, was hot. O_o Go Eddie.
Hello everyone
Thank you all for the concern you've shown me. I will never be able to express how much it means to me. I'm okay today.
Jules, I haven't said anything before now but I just want you to know how sorry I am about what's happened to you. It boggles my mind how evil people can be.
I am not evil. You speak false truths, Smoke&Venom 20. False truths are what you speak. ;)
Jules,
That was probably the funniest shit I have read all day. I want dreams like that.
Thank you, Elena; I'm sorry for your troubles, too. Thank you, and thanks to everyone who has had something nice to say.
OMG, Beautiful Boy and Adam? And Eddie and Fred?
In the same dream?
That's one hell of a dream!
Hee-hee!
Aw, Eddie Reyes attempts to save the day!
That's an awesome dream!
K that is a fucking amaaaaazing dream!! i love ridiculous dreams like that!!
hi guys i am good thank you very much!
Isn't that great,Solly? I wish I could record my dreams, like in that movie with Christopher Walken.
Mustard,
You totally ignored my dream analysis. I am hurt. I think I nailed it.
Elena,
You know you have lots of people here who care about you. We are here to talk or to just listen. I'm sorry for what you're going through.
In our own way, I guess we're all sorta going through the same things. Just trying to figure out this fucker called life.
elena hope you are OK. i know i haven't seen you around much but then i haven't caught up much!! sorry! *hugs*
In our own way, I guess we're all sorta going through the same things. Just trying to figure out this fucker called life.
indeed solly!
That's true, but life is still delicious.
I am not evil. You speak false truths, Smoke&Venom 20.
You called me by my whole full entire freakin' name. Hmmmm.....
Mustardisbetter,
You are evil and you must be destroyed.
Prick up and taste the rainbow, Mustard. ^_~
I've been chasing you around the blogs, FASC, but you didn't see me!
As a matter of fact that should have been my blog name...
Trying to Figure out this FUCKER Called Life
(which can be pretty sometimes)
Pretty
Pretty ugly
Pretty fucked up
Pretty twisted
Pretty upside down
Pretty mean
Pretty sweet
Did not ignore it!
I don't want to acknowledge the fact that my bunny, or me subconciously, might have been put into a boiling pot of water!
I don't know what it meant. The cage wasn't comfy. I remember thinking that the rabbit's feet were going to start bleeding because of the wire, so it wasn't a comfy cage. Maybe I'm stuck or some shit. I don't know.
Hi RW,
The porch is loving Leebert, btw.
It's Me
Any of you know what a caged, brown, bunny rabbit in a dream signifies?
OK, I will take a stab
Caged -- You feel trapped?
Brown -- Not sure -- you feel dirty, unclean or possibly put upon by others (shit on)?
Bunny Rabbit -- You continue to be soft, not bitter?
I don't think I have ever had a bunny in my dreams. Usually blood and gore...wonder if that means I am really angry :)
K this is some one doing a brief TBS review from MSG on buzznet. very brief but well i thought of you:
I was such a doof. I wanted My Chem to come out so bad that I stood up and cheered for the wrong band. LMAO It was TBS. *shakes head* But they killed it! ;)
I dunno the singers name but he said a few things that were funny.
TBS singer- Today is a spectacular day. And not just because Drive By is here.
Crowd- Woo!
TBS singer- Not just because My Chemical Romance is here.
Crowd- WooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooo!
TBS singer- But because it's my dad's birthday. Everyone one the count of 3 say HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHIL! 1,2,3!
Crowd- HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHIL!
---------
TBS singer- We got a call from My Chemical Romance asking us if we wanted to play at Madison Square Garden. And we said, "That's not funny, man. That's a mean joke."
LOL's
TBS did a little cover of Beyonce's song.
TBS singer- You must not know about me. You must not know bout me. I can have another you in a minute. Matter fact he'll be here in a minute. *repeats once or twice*
Mustard,
You are the BUNNY! See. You must escape the cage. You must trust the hands that are going to get you out.
How are you going to hop with bloody hurt feet?
It's Me Anon, thanks for helping me analyze.
That's true, but life is still delicious.
Only sometimes. The rest of the time, I just want to kick the thing in its ass!
Prick up and taste the rainbow, Mustard. ^_~
Ew, no, I will not! Fimble threatened me with bodily injury if I didn't tell Mayo to "Taste The Rainbow." Threatened me! ;)
HELLO, RW!
This might help you, anon.
Blood and gore?
Nice. ^_~
I usually have some sort of drama in my dreams. Someone's killed or I kill someone.
Violence.
Wonder what that means?
O_O
Do I need anger management or something? Surely not.
hi there RW!!!!
Hi, Mustard :D
Hi, Solly :D I just left a piccie of Leebert at the porch, did you see it?
Ah, okay. So maybe I am the bunny.
Thank's It's Me!
Hi there, FASC :D
Hi S&V, K, anon :D
Violence
To see violence in your dream, indicates unexpressed anger or rage. You need more discipline in your life. The dream may also reflect repressed memories of child abuse.
More discipline? HELL NO!
X_x
Hiya RW! How's you?
sdock10 said...
Trying to Figure out this FUCKER Called Life
Solly I think we'll all figure it out together.
I's good, S&V :) But I'm hungry! I don't have much food in the house, must go get groceries!
Oh, you won't listen to me, but you will take it from someone else. Don't you trust my dream analysizzz, mustard??
RW,
I am waiting for my dial up to load the pic.
*sigh*
Elena,
I think we've already started to figure it out. Right?
How cool is that?
Cooler than my slow ass dial up internet, I'll tell ya that much.
Hi, Elena :D
Ooops! It's a big pic, Solly. Sorry :/
It's Me
Dream dictionary....very interesting. Here is what it had to say about rabbits (sorry no bunnies)...
To see a rabbit in your dream, foretells of luck, magic and of a favorable turn of events and a positive outlook in your future endeavors. Alternatively, rabbits symbolize your sexual activity.
Thanks resurrected wreck
RW,
Leebert is so cute. I bet he won't eat much or take up much space.
*wonders how unicorns and buffalos get along*
this is sweet.
MCR @ MSG famous last words. at 1.52mins gerard picks mikey up and carries him!!
No prob, anon :)
So dreaming of rabbits is lucky! And sexy.
Hey RW
How are you today?
FASC
I owe you an e-mail. Promise to get to that soon.
I hope he didn't put out his back, FASC! Mikey's not a little boy anymore!
FASC! How wonderful! Adam was doing that "You must not know 'bout me" thing when I saw them, too. It was cool.
So what does Adam Lazzara as a swimming champion portend? ;D And me melting candles with my mind?
hi elena!!
no worries, whenever you get chance!
thanks though!
It's Me
Yes, but you must remember the bunny in the dream was in a cage....
I'm pretty good, Elena :) Though for some reason my muscles seem a little sore today. Maybe that's because of the day of traveling yesterday.
How are you today?
resurrected wreck said...
I's good, S&V :) But I'm hungry! I don't have much food in the house, must go get groceries!
Well, don't expect Mr. Mayo to help you bring in the grocery sacks.
>_<
Ohhh, get me sumfin' good to eat at the store. Like some salt & vinegar chips.
Yum.
In dream interpretation, I much prefer mental and psychological interpretations rather than metaphysical ones about what they portend.
But still, those are cool, too.
Splash, I would ask you how you felt bout the bunny. Pity, pathos, indifference? You mentioned concern, but like mild concern, or worry? Did you sympathize with it or empathize? Things like that.
But didn't it say that to dream of a wild animal in a cage meant that you were going to be successful in overcoming your fears and rivals?
So what does Adam Lazzara as a swimming champion portend? ;D And me melting candles with my mind?
the mind boggles K!!
RW he only carried him across the stage a bit. its a real brother thing to do isn't it. my brother gets weird urges to pick me up??!! strange boy!
OOOO!! Salt & Vinegar chips!!
You know, I never did pick up any Old Dutch chips while I was put west. They don't sell them in boxes anymore, just bags.
It's not the same :(
*slaps Sdock*
GET YOURSELF TOGETHER, WOMAN! ;)
You know I ♥ you and It's Me both for your analysisisiss.
we call them crisps.
chips are fries.
but i bet you all know that.
some one said about crackers?? crackers are biscuits i think? do you guys have biscuits as a word at all?
*rubs cheek*
See if I try and help you out of that cage tonight.
Muhahahaha!!!
What does dreaming about scary, haunted, evil houses mean?
I felt bad for the bunny. :(
Because I knew its feet were going to start being cut by the wire if they didn't put something down to line the bottom of the cage.
GET IN MY HEAD, U GAIS! GET IN THERE! ;)
Yeah like biscuits and gravy.
Like a gravy train with biscuit wheels. Niiiice.
I don't want to get in Mustard's head.
I may never find my way back out again.
Splash, the other night we were talking about putting chicken wire down and how certain types of it could damage chicken feet. That was here, right? Maybe you read it quickly and it stuck with you?
But you didn't want the bunny to be lifted out of the cage? You just wanted something nice and soft for the bunny to step on?
Hmmm...I think you know what that means.
That sounds like an anxiety dream, Mustard. You were probably the bunny.
Oh, Smoke, I can guarantee you that once you enter, you will be past the point of return.
Muwhahahah!
Like a gravy train with biscuit wheels. Niiiice.
YUM!
Well, time for me to go get groceries.
Solly, new page coming up!!
Have a great afternoon, all :)
Anonymous said...
1:14, how do I know that is really you?
A bone for a book. If you're who I'm speaking to, you'll know what that means.
How do I know that is really you?
See, Jules, that's what I thought, too. The chicken coop. Maybe it did stay.
Hmmm...I think you know what that means.
Give me a hint.
That sounds like an anxiety dream, Mustard.
That doesn't surprise me at all.
You're a bunny, Splash.
*pets your bunny ears*
Oh man, I win! And with that comment, no less. O_O
Bunnies 4 Ever!
*needs a carrot*
I am da bunny!
fuck i missed the new page!!
seeya RW!
Have fun shopping, RW!
Damnit, I was reading my How Psychic Are You book and I missed the chance for being firstest.
Mustard, it means you are having anxiety issues about change or a new environment and as shitty as your world is right now you are more comfortable in it and than trying something new.
That first comment RULES!
Bwahaha.
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