Upon arrival, there isn’t nearly enough air to fill my lungs, so in desperation, I scream. Pulling in all that I can because suddenly I feel empty. The comfortable heavy warmth in my chest has been displaced by vacuum. I have no control over where I am. My arms and legs, unbound, find freedom a challenge. And, although I feel hands pulling and fingers pressing, I have no idea why. It is cold. So, I reach for warmth and I find it in purity. I know where I came from; I did not want to leave and with grief comes depth and in the deep I find surrender. It was warm and I swam in it before I knew you. I would go back, but that was before I saw your eyes, before I was pulled into this world and onto your lap a sloppy mess. I need you and without you I am sure I would not thrive.
p.s. i can only imagine.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
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right lovelies!
i am gone for the night.
house and heroes to watch.
have a fun evening!
mayo and SS hope you are both good? *hugs* to you both!
love to you all!
Bye Fasc! Take care! *hugs*
Bye FASC.
Later, FASC!
I got me some bamboo in a pot, you guys. It's suppose to mean "Happiness." I also got me another little plant thing that's like a miniature tree. They're pretty sweet.
And they said you can't buy "happiness."
Another question I wanted to ask here.
I saw an awful pic of Mikey Way somewhere. Could it be that he's balding?
The 'lie' that he maintained soberity is my guess.
Hi everyone!
Just running through. I am so stressed right now. Totally freaking out about this audit. I hope to swing by tonight.
♥ to all of you.
"Another question I wanted to ask here.
I saw an awful pic of Mikey Way somewhere. Could it be that he's balding?"
I think it's his crown.
I think he's going to have a receeding hairline eventually.
"audit"
The word of DOOM! You have my sympathies, Anima.
Hi and bye, Anima!❤
It's odd, isn't it? He's younger than Gerard but he looks older and he's balding earlier. Poor thing.
The 'lie' that he maintained soberity is my guess.
No.
Maybe Gerard's better at hiding it.
"The 'lie' that he maintained soberity is my guess.
No."
What then?
Was the lie as fantastic and outlandish as you'd imagined?
I hate guessing. I end up looking like the ass end of a donkey.
His inner Monchichi?
Anon, they won't guess it, some people here are homophobic and don't dare to see the truth.
Hi guys!
Posting and bolting! Stuff to do...
Anon 7:08 -
If you are angel? I understand. Believe me I do... take care :) I am sure the one who deserves your words appreciates them!
PP and Wendy - Thank you so much. I appreciate your kindness!
Wendy - I am glad Tinker Belle is still doing well!
FASC - I thought you and mr bloke were doing well?
mustard - I answered your question earlier.... I don't think BC's coming back though...
====================
The mom was indicted over the cruel myspace messages that (arguably) caused a 13 year old to commit suicide...
Anon, they won't guess it, some people here are homophobic and don't dare to see the truth.
I take great offense to that, just so you know.
I'm not homophobic and if Bert and Gerard got it on, then good for them.
Thanks Safe for they sympathies, it is the word of doom!
Hi Siobhan, Mustard, and FASC!
Anon, guess, I'm not a good guesser. :(
Thank you for clarifying.
Why isn't BC coming back? I saw that you said she was taking a break and figuring stuff out, but is everything okay?
I do too, mustard!
Why has BC left?
I think she is doing well mustard. But, busy living life.
I'll tell her you asked about her!
"some people here are homophobic"
No way anon. You are wrong there. No one here is that way, I'm almost 100% positive.
Okay, gotta run. :(
What?
Hi Miranth! Roarr! :-D
What do you mean with BC is not coming back?
They reported about that girl's suicide here. Awful! The mother of that girl who claimed to be a boy and started harrassing her later on was also involved. Sick scum!
Anon,nobody here is homophobic. In fact,it's quite the opposite.
Hello Mayo,SS and Lovelies!
What??
Ugh, they are always having this Ed Hardy on the show. His rags are so damn hideous.
Hello Bella!
How are you?
Hello, Bella!
Hello and Goodbye, Anima!
siobhan- Roarrrr! :)
Yes, I am surprised that they are pressing charges. I think they are hoping to set precedent and let people know what is acceptable behavior here (internet) and what isn't...
I do miss BC here very much :(
Maybe she will come back some day...
And I would say that the majority of us are not homophobic! Gerard actually reminds me of someone I love who happens to be gay.
Bye guys! *waves*
Good night everyone.
Gut nacht, Fisch.
*gute
Hello siobhan and mustard!
I'm fine,sipping my coffee and listening to some Queen.I'm definitely fine! ;)
And you guys?
I do not even feel addressed when some 'Depp-Anon' claims that because it's not true.
Bye miranth and safe!
*HUGS*
Bye Miranth!
Bye, meine Elfe!
Gute Nacht und süße Träume.
I'm doing fine too, Bella. Thanks for asking.
OMG, Gerard's got a fucking Mullet.
whoever cut his hair should be serving 25 to life in the fucking clink.
Exactly, anon! ahahahah
I agree anon...
that's not a mullet.
But it looks like one. It's hilarious.
Sue that hairdresser, Gerard. Go, do it! You'll win!
Whatever. He has bangs and layers, big deal. Can't you guys find something more constructive to discuss?
that haircut was Eliza getting back at Gerard through Chris, for sure.
I don't know why after nine years of wildlife rehabbing, I always forget every spring that when people say "robins" they mean "starlings." Every. Single. Time. To the point where when I finally do get robins I'm like, "Oh! You're right!"
Anyway I'll be getting the little darlings tomorrow. Most people hate starlings but I love the little beasties.
Hello all. How are you?
Now on to the business of making anons weep and their heads hurt.
First of all if GW is what right is it of yours to come out and tell the whole world. I maybe hard on the guy for his behavior that has offended me but if I did know something about him that personal I wouldn't put it out there.
Also I don't think he is gay. He could be bi but who the hell cares. As long as he isn't using his relationship as the a side show for his band he can fuck a panda for all I care.
Whatever. He has bangs and layers, big deal. Can't you guys find something more constructive to discuss?
NOPE!
Hi there, MJ!
I'm doing pretty good.
How are you doing?
Hi kapu and martha!
Yep, I'm sobbing already.
On on the subject of his (GW) hair. I saw a picture where he looked Like Dee Dee Ramone.
Bwahahaha, MJ!
OMFG!
who fucking cut Gerard's hair, Stevie Wonder
for all we know, LynZ could have cut it!
Hello Bella, Kapu, Siobhan and random anons. I am well for those who care.
It's the Eliza curse, anon.
She cursed his hair.
You will always look like a frodoic Ramone-Monchichi from now on
*poof*
Anon who is sobbing you don't know how much joy that brings me. I am smiling from ear to ear right now. It just warms my heart to know I can ruin your day. :)
Eliza's probably like "hahaha, you fucked him up good Chris".
Hello MJ, Bella!
I'm so bad at answering emails lately; I apologize.
for all we know, LynZ could have cut it!
She really wants to make sure that no one finds him sexy anymore, right?
haha
You have to wonder what the hell he was thinking when he let a friend of his ex cut his hair.
It thinks?
maybe his brother suggested Chris to him.
he seems down to earth, I mean he married a women who seems to resist the idea of washing.
or his olfactory senses no longer work.
Where did that come from?
*looks around*
Yes, and by looking at Mikey's ehm, hair, he knew that Chris would be a good choice.
Sorry...I was on the phone to my mother.
"She really wants to make sure that no one finds him sexy anymore, right?"
Siobhan,that was bad...but that's why I love you!
you've been mentioning me for two days now Martha, so I knew it meant a lot to you.
Hey, everyone! How are you?
Martha, already your power is kicking in. You must be getting stronger!
And...*whispers* I kinda like Gerard's hair. But then again, I do think it looks Ramonesish, and I was, and am, a huge Ramones fan!
Anon that stated some here were homophobic, you can cross me and J. off that list. And I can see there are several here who agree! The sexual orintation of anyone is the LEAST of problems in this world. Great news from the courts in California!
L.
Anon @ 5:11 did you forget Paul has a pungent smell himself. So Maybe his smell covers up hers.
And GW did say in an interview once that he had not showered in a week. And Frank in another interview said that the Way brothers have a strong underarm oder that gets on everything
Lyn-z is like the female version of Pete Doherty, just grimy and dirty looking.
Pickled Possum said...
Hi and bye Mustard!
RW, hope you shake it off soon =(
Anon, If the world were to run out of coffee there would just be me and MissT's knickers left, I fear.
You betcha!
Hi everyone, how are you?
Hi mayo, hi ss, how are you guys?
I've just been catching up on what I have missed these past couple of days. Took me two bloody hours, you people need to stop talking so much. Don't you know silence is golden ha ha ha ha!
Always at your service, Bella! ;-D
Hello J and L.
Really anon I have for two days. Your head must really be hurting right now than.
Hi, Miss T.!
I just read your e-mail, thank you. Good to see you and your yellow knickers back on here! :)
L.
then they are perfect for each other - they both like to smell
Miss t is that you. Hey how are you?
And how are J&L
Anon @ 5:11 did you forget Paul has a pungent smell himself. So Maybe his smell covers up hers.
Hysterical, MJ!! LMAO!
Skunk and Skunk-Z are the perfect match!
And hello to Martha, Siobhan, Bella, Miranth (if you are still on), Kapunua, Mustard, nice anons, and anyone I missed.
Goodnight Safe, FASC. See you later, Anima.
Come back, BC, DG, Jade, AIP, Andibomb, CTV, and several missing friends!
Elena, from before, thank you.
Love,
L.
Hi MissT and L!
Lol Siobhan I like those names
Miss Teeeeeeeee!!!
How are you, doll?
Hi there, OP (L)!
How is it hanging?
Hiya OP's, MJ, Bella and Siobhan.
I'm great thanks (the yellow knickers says hi).
How are all you guys?
Doing ok, Martha. How are you today?
L.
Hello Miranth if you are still here how are you?
L I have talked to CTV she seems fine next time I talk to her I will let her know that you asked about her.
i know why you don't see Worm around anymore.
Gerard + LynZ = Double the Stink
no one could tolerate that
Skunktastic, Miss T.!
there is a rumor she had Mrs Gerard Way tattooed just under her ass.
Doing well, Bella, Siobhan. How are you doing?
Tell the yellow knickers I said "Hi!" back, Miss T.!
L.
L and Miss t I am well. I was burning some things to dvd but I ran into a problem. Some of the video formates aren't supported. So I have to get another DVD burning program
I'm okay MissT,thanks for asking.
"there is a rumor she had Mrs Gerard Way tattooed just under her ass"
O_o
Thank you, Martha. We miss her around here. We got an e-mail back from her, but I got the feeling she wasn't coming back on the blog. I hope she changes her mind.
L.
Anonymous Anonymous said...
there is a rumor she had Mrs Gerard Way tattooed just under her ass.
May 15, 2008 5:27 PM
Ewwww. You know it is said that you shouldn't get a tattoo with the name of the person you are dating. It is one of the signs that there is trouble in the relationship.
There has been at least two other occasions of Frank talking about band business in front of the fans backstage. In one of them he was saying something about Gerard and asked fans to keep it quiet. One did and one didn't. Frank is actually KNOWN for letting band business get out when he is frustrated or mad!!
He is? This is news to me. I'd need to see some recorded proof of that to believe it, I'm afraid.
(yellow knickers feel loved).
Skunktastic, Miss T.!
Couldn't have said it better myself.
MJ, have you got a converter to change all video formats to AVI? I use video piggy. It cost $20 odd but everytime they upgrade you get the new version for free.
I couldn't live without it.
did Lyn-Z get a tattoo on her ass because Gerard smells like shit
Hello, RW. How are you doing?
I take everything anons (most anyway) say with a grain of salt.
How is your migraine? Are you feeling better?
L.
L she sometimes shows up at an other place so check over there and you might catch her one day.
I have a question for you J&L. What do you know about Wendy O Williams?
Sending ♥ to my wifey CTV. I miss you.
I miss BC too.
I miss DG too but I am off to her new flat tomorrow.
Hiya RW. Air kiss.
Hello RW how are you?
Miss t I will look into this piggy thing. DVD Santa usually works well. I have had very little problems with it.
Wendy O Williams...I know she was around in the punk scene early 80's, late 70's, and had a thing for see through plastic dresses and tops...I'm not sure if she's still alive now, even. She was one of the more hardcore women in that scene.
I would have to Google more! :)
L.
Miss t please tell DG she is missed and that I hope she is well.
Miss T, please tell DG "Hi!" and that J. and I miss her and hope she is doing alright. Give her our love, hugs and kisses.
L.
good morning I just finished catching up 2 things:
why did Frank look sad during the MCR/MSI tour then happy when he got to australia?
because australia is awesome! (nothing to do with MSI)
and was it mustard asked about the Killers b side? The album Sawdust is great, some b isdes, some alterbate versions and a great cover of Romeo and Juliet
L she killed her self in 98. I was wondering if you guys had been fans and might now more than what you get when you Google her.
MJ and J&L of course I will.
Hey RW!
I read you are considering the possibility to come to Venice!
Has anyone here seen that video of Bill O'RLY? freaking out? OMG, I hate that dude with the passion of a thousand burning suns.
Hello Ep how are you?
Hiya Ergo, how are you?
Check it out.
Oh man, what a nut!
Hiya K, how are you today?
oh missT could you say hi to DG for me too?
Hi ergo!
Hey MissT,could you please say "hi" to DG for me too ?
Hi guys :)
I do fell better, thank you. I azm, however, very much looking forward to the long weekend.
Kapu what is he freaking out over. I actually find him very laugh able. I mean the guy use to host a tabloid TV show. Hard copy I can't take him serious knowing that.
Hey, Ergo, how are you?
Martha, I just checked some websites and saw where she died from a self-inflicted gunshot wound. I didn't listen to the Plasmatics much, so I didn't know too much about her, unfortunatly.
Were you a fan?
L.
Lovelies,I have to go.
Take care everyone.See you tomorrow.
'Night Mayo,SS and Family!
Love you all!
*HUGS & KISSES*
Of course I will Bella and Ergo.
I can say I was a fan but I have had an interest in her off and on.
Goodnight Bella, sweet dreams.
PS:Fimble,check your email please!
Right,bye!
Goodnight Bella. RW do what I do when I have a headache give it to someone else.
Goodnight, Bella. Sweet dreams.
Bill needs to cut down on the caffeine...
L.
I'm good thanks everyone, getting ready for the day.
oh I got a message from BC too, she's good and is looking for work/apartment etc etc, she said to say hello but she may not be back for a while.
RW do what I do when I have a headache give it to someone else.
Would you like it, MJ? ;)
BTW, I put the video I made for Ergo on our Bollocks blog if anyone wanted to check it out.
It's photos from the South taken by me and my Mum, set to "Southern Accents", sung by Johnny Cash. (The orginal is by Tom Petty.)
L.
Hell no but there is an anon lurking around who might like it.
Oh look, I was talking about you again. The head of yours must really be hurting right now. Or are you still sobbing?
heychris cut Gee's hair this time, he mentioned it in his livejournal.
Can't he get a proper hairdresser to do it? It's not like he can't afford it.
Hiya MissT, I'm good! How are you?
MJ, I know, but so many people do take him seriously and listen to every word he says. He's such a knob.
RW he's a guy...
..nuf said
It's a wonder he didn't just take to it with scissors himself
Do you guys get the feeling that if we showed up to a MCR show with Scissor and said we cut hair Gw would let us cut his.
I'm good thanks K.
He's such a knob.
You sounded so English then K. ^_^
It's not you talking about me that makes my head hurt, it's the utter... oh, nevermind...
It's a wonder he didn't just take to it with scissors himself
I was just thinking the same thing myself.
Anon is the fact that I think I know a lot but I actually no nothing in your opinion. Or is it because I am arrogant and full of myself.
MJ - yes
I tried to cut my own hair once, just to trim up the bangs and the top, and I wound up getting fussed at by my hairstylist. She actually yelled at me to "never do that again!"
So I haven't!
I did give my life-sized Barbie a haircut when I was 5 (it was life-sized to me then.)
I snuck my Mum's scissors out of her sewing basket and kept trying to "even out" the cut. Mind you, this doll had waist length hair.
She had a buzzcut when I got done.
My Mum was not amused.
L.
I used to give my Barbie a mohawk, L.
sorry MJ that came up in a bad spot I mean if we turned up with scissors , yes I think he would let us cut his hair
Hey, RW, you had a punk Barbie! I should have tried that with mine. Mum was more worried that I had got the scissors, but after it was clear that I hadn't cut myself or stabbed anyone, she was a bit upset about the doll.
She still has it, though, as a keepsake from my childhood!
L.
my nephew decided my niece needed a haircut, but only on one side (he was 4, she was 2) and a friends boy in prep decided the girl in front only needed one pigtail.
it's very funny if it's not your kid
Guys who hasn't cut their dolls hair off.
I have always had long hair. And I've never been to a hairdressers.
I cut my own fringe and mum trims the ends when they want neatening up.
Must save myself a fortune.
I know Ep. No worries. It funny that anon seems to think that it is the only person who has every done this to me. You see once I know that by doing something I can bother you I keep on doing it.
Oh, Ergo, I can imagine what those looked like! What is the fascination with cutting hair off of our dolls? I don't think I know any woman who hasn't done that.
Miss T, that's pretty cool. I wish I could do that.
L.
Do you guys remember those big dolls heads that used to be out when we were young? You were supposed to practise make up and hair on them.
They freaked me out. Bloody scary decapitated heads. Yuck.
Yeah, Miss T. I do remember those. My cousin had one, and it freaked me out too! Now they have one that also has hands with it. Just head and hands! So you can do makeup and nails. It looks bizzare!
L.
I cut my own fringe and mum trims the ends when they want neatening up.
Must save myself a fortune.
That's so true, Miss T!
I splurge on my hair. My co-worker once commented to me on that, but then realized that what she spent per month on cigarettes is more than what I spend every 2-3 months on my hair. I don't smoke, so I guess it all evens out.
i can't stop looking at pics of Gerard's hair on INO.
it's too fucking funny
Do you guys remember those big dolls heads that used to be out when we were young? You were supposed to practise make up and hair on them.
My sister had one of those! We brutalized her. Chopped off her hair, painted on her face with markers (early Sharpie art?) and carved away some of her plastic flesh with knives.
Now they have one that also has hands with it. Just head and hands! So you can do makeup and nails. It looks bizzare!
Hands too. I am gonna have nightmares tonight.
resurrected wreck said...
Do you guys remember those big dolls heads that used to be out when we were young? You were supposed to practise make up and hair on them.
My sister had one of those! We brutalized her. Chopped off her hair, painted on her face with markers (early Sharpie art?) and carved away some of her plastic flesh with knives.
Uh...RW, is there anything we need to know? Should we start sending the vultures your way and wait for the screams?!
Love you, (Really, no lie, don't hurt me)
L.
I never had the big doll head.
But my step dad did have one of those heads you used when you learn how to cut hair.
and carved away some of her plastic flesh with knives.
*edges away from RW*
Isn't that how serial killers start?
ok gotta go I'll be back in a while
See you, Ergo. Talk to you later!
L.
Uh...RW, is there anything we need to know?
It's probably safer if you don't know, L.
*looks away, whistling*
oh blogger is being an arse!
we have 2 of those heads ! I think they're creepy but my daughter loves them
Serial killers only wish they had our kind of dedication, Miss T!
Bye, EP :)
Later ep. RW I had a friend who cut the tits off her doll. I think the two of you would get along.
Of course, RW! I'm sure there is nothing to tell or be worried about, not at all!
*secretly finds hiding place just in case*
L.
Martha Jones said...
Later ep. RW I had a friend who cut the tits off her doll. I think the two of you would get along.
Ouch!
L.
It's fucking hot where I am. I don't like it.
I had a friend who cut the tits off her doll.
Now that is spooky.
see you later Ergo.
What's the temp out that way, Martha?
L.
11:29 I have already told you, stop wasting your time
90 something
Martha, no wonder you're hot! It's 67 here with a light rain. But the truly hot weather comes in late July or August here. That's when we run around 100 somedays with 100% humidity.
You walk out the door, and everything you have on sticks to you instantly!
L.
Later ep. RW I had a friend who cut the tits off her doll. I think the two of you would get along.
I used to cut their feet off. If we'd made them into pies, we could have been adolescent Mrs Lovetts!!
I wish it were hot here, EP :/ I still have to have my heat on. This time last year it was like summer.
RW,
You know I'm your friend, right? And you would never take a carving knife to friends, right?!
L.
Gerard looks like Natalie from The Facts of Life with that haircut
You walk out the door, and everything you have on sticks to you instantly!
That reminds me of the first time I went to New Orleans, L. My friend and I walked outside out B&B room about 8am to get some breakfast, and had to run back inside to change! Over here it's always cool and crisp in the mornings, even in the summer, so it totally threw me for a loop!
L I am going to hate it when I have to go back to work. Some of the people I work with don't believe in showering.
Anon & 6:40pm: 0_0
s gettin hot in here (so hot)
So take off all your clothes
I am gettin so hot, I wanna take my clothes off
Haha anon.
I thought you would get a laugh out of it Martha :)
Yeah, RW, the South has a HIGH rate of humidity in the summer. And the further down you go, the stickier it gets! You should have seen us at PR last year in August. It was mind-numbing hot and humid in Atlanta and Charlotte.
Martha, maybe you can give them a hint, take them bottles of bath wash and leave on their desks as an anon gift!
L.
Chris should have done a Hulk Hogan Skullet on Gerard
I couldn't figure out what was making this strange noise here...turns out one of the cats is snoring!
L.
I absolutely love heat and humidity. For me, the more humid it is the better I like it. We go outside in Kung Fu on days like that, and we all have to wear these heavy, thick black cotton pants. Once we were out there when it was 107, and the humidity was about 80% (this was about two years ago,) and some of the boys started getting sick.
But I thrive in heat like that. :D
Gerard is a pretty boring topic. There are a lot more interesting vocalists out there.
I'd rather it were humid and the sweat was rolling off me than to be cold. I hate the cold.
I'm game, anon. Who would you like to talk about?
I'm the opposite, Miss T. I can't handle heat.
I couldn't figure out what was making this strange noise here...turns out one of the cats is snoring!
LOL!
Well thank you anon.
Kapu you are not a normal woman. I would have died.
L one of my male coworkers got mad about the smell people and started screaming, "man you stink that, just isn't right. You know you are wrong for walking around here like that."
He also told the supervisor that something needed to be done.
I use to a lot nice. But after work at that place I have learned to let my inner bitch out. People there don't understand nice.
Fuck you seems to work.
So anon what other singers do you want to talk about.
Best vocalist: James Dean Bradfield of The Manic Street preachers
Right now I am listening to Queen. The show must go on. That is such a great song but so sad.
I love that song MJ. I love Queen.
I'd like to nominate Jim Cuddy for the Best Vocalist category.
Blue Rodeo aren't really my kind of music, but that man's got one sweet set of pipes.
Martha;
Queen = ♥
And Mika I like his voice he sounded a little like Freddie Mercury when I first heard him.
i had a weiner for dinner
Hello Ph How are you.
Miss t I also love Those were the days and I want to break free.
I have a version of the show must go on that is sung by Elton John. He does a good job but Freddie just had more power to his voice. You can really hear the feeling behind that song.
Martha, I'm great. Just got home from driver's ed, and about to walk out the door to go for a walk. The weather is BEAUTIFUL!
How are you? =]
♥
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