Upon arrival, there isn’t nearly enough air to fill my lungs, so in desperation, I scream. Pulling in all that I can because suddenly I feel empty. The comfortable heavy warmth in my chest has been displaced by vacuum. I have no control over where I am. My arms and legs, unbound, find freedom a challenge. And, although I feel hands pulling and fingers pressing, I have no idea why. It is cold. So, I reach for warmth and I find it in purity. I know where I came from; I did not want to leave and with grief comes depth and in the deep I find surrender. It was warm and I swam in it before I knew you. I would go back, but that was before I saw your eyes, before I was pulled into this world and onto your lap a sloppy mess. I need you and without you I am sure I would not thrive.
p.s. i can only imagine.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
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«Oldest ‹Older 3001 – 3200 of 3954 Newer› Newest»I just didn't want to repeat myself, anon. Too lazy right now :)
Also - I thought I was alone, but that looks like an anon I know a couple comments above^^
People's distinctive use of grammar is pretty cool!
Right, but there is youtube videos of the show of her there.
pop em up anon we'll take a look. maybe the videos are from another gig?
second thoughts don't pop em up i don't think i can face it!
Oh sorry Anon, I am so used to people making shit up that I disbelieve everything I read! :)
Video is different, however!
Thanks for clearing that up ^^ other anon! I might not have slept for days...jk :)
You are not as smart and all knowing as you think you are, Miranth. Your arrogance is too big for this blog.
Posting this now in case I fall asleep...
elena – I am glad your daughters are doing well. And it is true that time passes quickly, so we should enjoy every moment with them!
Wendy – Thank you :) That’s sweet of you! I also have a lot of brothers and sisters, so that would be the reason for the high number. I can’t tell you how many siblings here because I think that would be a very distinguishing personal fact, just to give an idea of how many! How is your pet doing? I can’t remember the name, sorry!
P.S. Wendy – I think the right side of oblivion sounds like someone got some sleep!
MustardIsBetter – BC is fine! I keep in touch. She’s been very busy. :) *waves* to BC I hope Jade is ok?
Kapunua – I am glad you are pursuing your options. They are very pernicious!
Siobhan – Roarrrrrr! :) I hope you are well!
Amy – We can add something about ass-size to our miranth and A-myranth T-shits, as I have one to be proud of, also :D
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Ignore this section, Mean Anons!
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For anyone interested in my niece, they released her as she has shown improvement and they wanted to get her back to school as quickly as possible. They just doubled what she was already taking, which pisses me off because it’s just more of the same. It is cool, however, that they try to allow kids to live as normal a life as possible. They said they’re trying to postpone new treatment till June. Anyway, if I hear any more wheezing, I am taking her right back!
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Mayo – Fantastic… sounds sarcastic? Sorry, if that’s how you feel. :) Also, sorry for all of the deleted comments! I didn’t refresh and wasn’t sure where I was on the page - it takes me so long to catch up! *laughing* Yeah, and I also get lost walking to the corner! I hope you got my positive messages from last night. I didn’t like the meanness, especially when mean anons don’t appreciate that we are guests at your place! And the tearing down and building up… *shakes head*
Mmmmmm pralines….
anon @ 5.02am you are just plain rude!
Thanks anon, 5:02!
All info as to your opinion is greatly appreciated!
I will continue to wallow in my arrogance as I anxiously await further response!
Thanks again... :)
Anon, 5:04,
You are a nice anon, but I appreciate talking to you, too :) And thanks!
Martha - I thought I saw you up there? :) Perhaps my eyes deceive me!
Kass - I forgot to say, you're funny!
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*Munches pralines, while amused that someone arrogant enough to profess they know what's good for the blog brands me as arrogant*
*wonders if I actually got under someone's skin" Hmmm....
*All while not taking any of this too seriously* :)
hey Mayo so how are you? well I hope, I had a very nice chicken and gnocci alfredo, sound nice? Oh yes it was. I just deleted about 3 lines I wrote, and I just deleted 3 more, lol and 3 more. I think I'll stop now, think about it a bit more, maybe tomorrow. Don't worry though , nothing about me, it's a friend. So wishing you peace faith hope and love much love EP xx
SS how are you? I hope you're well, it'd be nice to see you about again but I know you're bizzy a lot, so just know my thoughts do stray to you during the day, sending love, prayers, wishes and flowers to you and those you love
lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve take care , see you tomorrow xx
...So she WAS in two places at once?
...
...What the heck?!
good morning mayo man!
and you are still fantastic!
well thats a little boastful aint it?! kidding mayo! i still think you are being sarcastic!
have a lovely day mayonaise.
good morning SS! how are you? we miss you ya know! really! take care and have a fabulous day ok.
good morning family!!!!
hello kass, miranth, ergo and any nice anons around!!
anon @ 4.42am thanks for the info on those crazy guys in MSI! i love it how it is perfectly normal to refer to jimmy as jimmy piss! funny!
Because Lyn-Z can teleport. She is "amaaayyzing" after all!
kass you are a welcomed read any time!
so i am in and out big time today. no hanging around, gotta fly out the door and crack on with that wonderful thing called LIFE! what fun! no it isn't actually. it isn't fun at all. it is infact very very repetitive! i need to go check my lottery numbers! i need money to pay off my debts and escape this mundane existence i am living!!
not gonna happen!
love to you all!
...So she WAS in two places at once?
...
...What the heck?!
anon maybe she has a clone!
was gonnna crack a nasty joke but i'll leave it for kass to do!
I don't know many grown men that find being called "boy" by a grown woman enduring
I heard some like being called "daddy"
----
Someone's a bit excited, hmm?
If anyone ever called my father "daddy," he'd flip. Actually, I can't think of any self-respecting boys, men, or guys (since they're all apparently different :P) I know that like being called "daddy."
Hi and bye ergo!
FASC - Yeah, I have to go live life too... But I wish you luck on your lottery drawing! *fingers crossed for luck*
Mean anons didn't bite again... :)
Have a good day, everybody!
Also - I thought I was alone, but that looks like an anon I know a couple comments above^^
People's distinctive use of grammar is pretty cool!
Miranth, Sorry, you are so wrong on this occasion, and obviously you are not as familiar with me, as you like to think you are. I was none of those anons. And I find it incredible that you even made that assumption.
And I would bet my last dollar you thought I was 5:02. I think you need to pay more attention to my syntax next time.
...in relation to the other thing, I, and others, don't give a damn.
Anon - 6:18
Sorry, but no, it was Martha I thought I saw up there and I was teasing her. But I was mistaken because she would have responded! I think :)
Oops - I should take the sorry back, as you are pretty rude when I read your whole comment :)
I don't care that you (and others) don't give a damn. About what I don't know, but I will guess... I am merely trying to get anons to speak, thusly revealing something about themselves or not to speak and leave me alone! Either way I am happy :) See! That's called looking st the glass half-full! Silly I know, but it works.
PS - I didn't mean nice anons - I like nice anons!
Angel - come back! I miss you :)
You know what? You can forever maintain your creative endeavors well into bliss.
I will never again enunciate feelings here. I will not squander precious words for the undeserving. They will be reserved for another.
Bonjou/Bonswa Mayo, SS, Kass, FASC, Miranth, Ergo, Possum, RW, anons, watchers, lurkers; all gaiennes, boug-podnas, bon riens (just kidding) of blogbelieve!
Konmen lé-z'affè? C'est bon! I hope you all are as well!
(pssst....C'est bon = I'm good)
Miranth: I'm happy to hear your niece was released from the hospital. I'm sure she was probably ready to get back to school to see her friends! I hope her wheezing does not return :/
Tinker Belle is still seizure free. It's been almost a week Thank you for asking about her!
(psst...The Nightside of Eden is located on HIM's Darklight cd *wink*)
To ponder/encourage/inspire or ignore today:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
“Follow your heart, but be quiet for a while first. Ask questions, then feel the answer. Learn to trust your heart.”
Unknown
“Ordinary riches can be stolen, real riches cannot. In your soul are infinitely precious things that cannot be taken from you.”
Oscar Wilde
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I hope you all have a TRULY fantastic day filled with the greatest riches of all - riches of heart and soul!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
PS: The words "come here boy" are used 'round these parts, by lazy and/or forgetful, folks to call a male dog.
"Come here girl" would, of course, be used to call a female dog.
:p
Mayo,
Hey, how are you? I hope you are doing well. Me? Dude, I am so rushed this morning. I am having one of thos mornings. No, I didn't sling the hairbrush but I came really close. 3 outfits, some halfway curled hair, a waffle, an excedrin migraine later and I guess I am presentable enough to go and face or fake the world away. Not sure which one will work with my current costume. Hmmmm......
I'll get back to you on that one.
Tick, tock goes the clock, yeah motherfucker, I hear ya!
Mayo, hope today is too nice for words to even describe.
Are you dressed accordingly?
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Red is supposed to be an empowering color, right?
Goodmorning everyone!
Miranth - I hear you about the medication being more of the same and not helping much, but I bet your niece is super pleased to get home. She's in good hands in the mean time =)
Caaaatttchhh uuuuppp!!
Sounds like a sauce ^_^
Anon @8:47am 12May
What dreadful manners I have!! I forgot to say thank you for finding the Fresh Prince rap. FI has a clear warm voice that would work very well on radio or tv. He could have his own music show, like Jools Holland in England has, and have his friends and up-and-comers drop by and play and talk.
Yes, I am totally planning FI's career post MCR ^_^
Anon @4:51pm 12May
Cover of IDLY - that was an excellent cover. She is a very talented young woman.
Anon @11:14pm May 12
"My friend went to a concert recently and over heard a girl talking with Frankie backstage..."
Hi Anon! Do you know if this journal you found the quote from was a recent journal or one dating back to PR, just to put 'concert recently' into context?
Amy, glad you had a great birthday!
FASC, Loving the extra bed space!! But the foetal postion inducing weather is doing it's best to thwart the rarely obtainable and highly prized starfish position >_<
Mustard,
What an excellent album review you wrote! I have no idea who Gavin Degraw is but you've sold me on going to go and have a listen =)
Ask Mayo. He'll tell you. Hell, ask SS.
They both know I am innocent and proper.
0_0
bit of an MCR tribute as i am missing them!
and you get to see bob as a kid in it! wow! i have never seen him as a kid before. anyway enjoy, blogbelieve!
Bobo
http://www.buzznet.com/tags/
mychemicalromance/
photos/?id=47222531
funny!
you posted the wrong pic anon. this is the one! very funny!
Anon @11:14pm May 12
"My friend went to a concert recently and over heard a girl talking with Frankie backstage..."
Hi Anon! Do you know if this journal you found the quote from was a recent journal or one dating back to PR, just to put 'concert recently' into context?
I'm suspicious of that alleged Frank comment. Not that I'm accusing the anon that told us about it here of lying, but that discussing something privately band-related like this in a public place just seems to me to go against character. I've never seen him show anything but solidarity with his MCR bandmates in interviews, meet & greets, etc.
Not to say that he's entirely happy with everything that's been going on. He may very well not be. But I don't think he'd air that kind of dirty laundry in public. I think he's got more team loyalty that that. I think they all do.
Bob looks like a member of Twisted Sister in that pic!
I'm sailing away, set an open course for the virgin sea
I've got to be free, free to face the life that's ahead of me
On board, I'm the captain, so climb aboard
We'll search for tomorrow on every shore
And I'll try, oh Lord, I'll try to carry on
I look to the sea, reflections in the waves spark my memory
Some happy, some sad
I think of childhood friends and the dreams we had
We live happily forever, so the story goes
But somehow we missed out on that pot of gold
But we'll try best that we can to carry on
A gathering of angels appeared above my head
They sang to me this song of hope, and this is what they said
They said come sail away, come sail away
Come sail away with me
Come sail away, come sail away
Come sail away with me
I thought that they were angels, but to my surprise
They climbed aboard their starship and headed for the skies
Singing come sail away, come sail away
Come sail away with me
Come sail away, come sail away
Come sail away with me
[repeat and fade...]
From the black pajama party myspace:
About the black pajama party
WE ARE THE BLACK PAJAMA PARTY AND WE ARE HXC. IF U STALK OUR LEAD SINGER, HE WILL FALL IN LOVE WITH U.
I had to giggle.
The other guitarist:
But we need to try to appeal to some straight people! They have money to buy records.
Still giggling! i know i shouldn't!
Thanks for posting Anon/s(?)!
There are some very creative fans out there.
Bob looks like a member of Twisted Sister in that pic!
Or the little mermaid! XD
Hi RW!
I think he's got more team loyalty that that.
Mmm, yes, it is wise to take everything you read on the net with a grain of salt. He does seem to speak with his body language, rather than his mouth, if he is unhappy in public.
It could also have been a close aquaintance of his he felt he could let loose with as he was extra ruffled that day.
*shrugs shoulders*
*knows nothing about anything but always asking =)*
So pleased to read that work is much better with the Wine Choice Woman now in charge ^_^
Hiya Mayo!!
How are you doing?!
Fantastic
Sooo...is that sarcastic, a response, or for real? It's a little difficult to get intent from a single word around here. Heck, sometimes it's hard to sort intent out with a whole wall of words in BB!!
Hi, PP :)
Bob looks like a member of Twisted Sister in that pic!
Or the little mermaid! XD
0_0
Oh good lord, you're right! Never seen a mermaid with a beard before!
Bright light almost blinding, black night still there shining,
I can't stop, keep on climbing, looking for what I knew.
Had a friend, she once told me, "You got love, you ain't lonely,"
Now she's gone and left me only looking for what I knew.
Mmm, I'm telling you now, The greatest thing you ever can do now,
Is trade a smile with someone who's blue now, It's very easy just...
Met a man on the roadside crying, without a friend, there's no denying,
You're incomplete, they'll be no finding looking for what you knew.
So anytime somebody needs you, don't let them down, although it grieves you,
Some day you'll need someone like they do, looking for what you knew.
Mmm, I'm telling you now, The greatest thing you ever can do now,
Is trade a smile with someone who's blue now, It's very easy just...
Led Zeppelin
RW, XD
It goes with his hairy, shell covered, chest!
0_0
Bob is all MerMAN ladies.
Morning World
Rise and Shine
Okay that is total fake happiness. I need coffee and I need it now!
Step away from the coffee pot and no one will get hurt!
*does dance of jappiness seeing RW's O_O face*
^_^
Led Zepp rocks, anon, and so do friends past, present and yet to be discovered!
Bob
Why are there so many pics of him looking like a deer caught in the headlights?
Hi, Elena :)
Hey RW
How are you?
9:04 I've got a solution to your problem.
Just find yourself a wife, preferably one that plays the bass, and everything will be just peachy.
Poorly :( I have a migraine.
How are you today?
lol anon!
Bob doesn't actually need a long haired wig these days O_o
Hi Elena!
*pushes coffee over*
It's all yours.
I find I prefer a lovely cup of tea for my morning pick me up.
*said in a laardy faarddy voice with a little finger delicately crooked at an angle*
Err, loling at 9:17 anon.
Erk. I'm a slow ass typist >_<
I think I need to get a coffee maker at home. Or a little bodum.
I'm not really sure how I am today RW. Time will tell I guess.
Thank you Possum. I needed that. I have decided Starbucks should offer a patch. One that will release coffee into my system a bit at a time so I don't suffer withdraw.
Morning, Mayo! Morning, SS! Morning, Everybody!
I have nothing this morning. I'm all tapped out of words, or it's probably more like being tapped out of the same shit I've been spewing. I guess everybody gets tired once in awhile.
RW:
I'm sorry you're not feeling so well. I completely sympathize. :)
Mayo:
Go make it a great day. Do what you gotta do. And maybe come back and tell us all about it. :)
SS:
Have a Popsicle! Or a Popsockle, whichever. ;) Why am I giving you a Popsicle? That, my good sir, I do not know! Have a great day!
See everyone around a little later on!
9.24
No problem here. Just honouring friends and friendship.
I Will Be Your Friend
Amy Grant
When every moment gets too hard
And though the road can feel so far
No matter how much time we're apart
I'm always near you
I'll be the shelter in your rain
Help you to find your smile again
I'll make you laugh at a broken heart
Wherever you are
'Cause I'm never gonna walk away
If the walls come down someday
All alone and you feel afraid
I'll be there when you call my name
You can always depend on me
I believe
Until forever ends
I will be your friend
So many people come and go
Nothing can change the "you" I know
You'll never be just a face in the crowd
And time will show
Through the seasons and the years
I will always hold you dear
Never you fear
CHORUS
I'll be around when every candle burns down low
And I want you, I want you to know...
I will be your friend
I will be your friend
Hi, Mustard :) Have a good day!
Can you imagine a world without coffee?
Well, going to pop some pills & head back to bed.
Enjoy your day, everyone :)
Blasphemy, Anon @ 9:33am! 0_0
Better yet, can imagine a world without Fivebucks?
Coffee = life
*Can YOU
Missing words isn't a good sign of the day to come. Eeek!
Coffee wakes up the world everyday. Yay for coffee!
Have more coffee, Mustard ;)
A world without coffee?
Hell. I'm sure there is no coffee in hell.
Well, off to face the world. I've been up for two hours and still not a drop of coffee. I must go have some or I will not be held accountable for my actions.
Catch you all later.
Hi and bye Mustard!
RW, hope you shake it off soon =(
Anon, If the world were to run out of coffee there would just be me and MissT's knickers left, I fear.
We are NOT friends
See you, Elena.
>_<
Damn it's so cold here I'm all trussed up and impersonating a Polar fleece bear!!
*shivers off to find woolly stuff*
*wonders and eyes up Shaunette speculatively*
Bye guys, have a good day :)
But you could be friendly 9:47 if you try =)
Geez, I better go too.
Nice to see you all!
And one more thing..
Hiya SS!
What are you doing reading this?!?!
*throws the more informative morning newspaper at SS instead*
*and some fruit*
*and some juice*
*and some cereal*
*and some toast*
*and some strawberry cream wafers*
Food Fight!!!
Have a great day =)
'Night all.
9.47
I think you missed the purpose of the comment. It was to honour all friends and all friendships.
You know, BBers.
"but that discussing something privately band-related like this in a public place just seems to me to go against character."
There has been at least two other occasions of Frank talking about band business in front of the fans backstage. In one of them he was saying something about Gerard and asked fans to keep it quiet. One did and one didn't. Frank is actually KNOWN for letting band business get out when he is frustrated or mad!!
Hi Anon!
So you're saying he really IS done with Gerard then?! And they seemed to be getting on so well...
Kass xx
I keep hearing that LYn-Z was drunk at the MSG show and made fun of MCR fans, where can I find otu if this is true? You know you can't ask at BN about it.
Well she'd have to do something to entertain herself during the gig because, remember, real musicians bore her!
Oh. Thanks 10:21 anon O_o
*steps back to square one wondering on journal concert date again*
Speaking of FI...
FI's going to have to save some space on his arms for any future children.
Lovely tributes to his grandmothers =)
'Night for real this time!
Or maybe not for real
Sorry #^_^#
Anon 10:28,
Star made a comment about seeing LynZ doing so. It will be waaaay back somewhere in this post, I think.
Hi Kass!
If that is so, about being done, FI's done a good job of keeping it together until the last show.
>_<
Must go to bed!
'Night. Again!
*hauls blogging butt away*
Wow, those are some awesome tattoos. He's a really good dude, you know it?
Well, I have to drive out towards the ends of the earth (literally) to go pick up one of my birds that my friend kept over the winter. Actually it's a grackle that we have been sharing. So I'll catch you guys later. :)
Sometimes When This Place Gets Kind of Empty
The Sound of the Breath Fills With the Light
I Think About the Loveless Fascination
Under the Milky Way Tonight
Sometimes When This Place Gets Kind of Empty
The Sound of the Breath Fills With the Light
I Think About the skanky ho-bag
Under the Gerard Way Tonight
Gerard Way = Loveless Fascination
0_0
I Hold On So Hard
And Pray That I Won't Say Something Wrong
I Look At The Stars
And Dream That The Universe Was Ours
I Won't Ever Stop
My Crazy Angel
*whispers, wearily*
good morning, blogbelieve.
good morning, mayo-sama.
so.
you know all that travelling and sleeping on a variety of surfaces and standing out in the driving rain in order to get barrier at msg i've been doing lately?
it caught up with me.
i'm sick.
*sad puppy dog face*
gonna go power down some orange juice and find out if i have a fever or not.
feel sorry for me, people.
mayo, stay dry today, okay? you don't want to get sick too.
Ring a bell?
"Hi
I felt I had to write to you guys to allay some of your fears regarding the rumours and speculation surrounding Gerard and Eliza and the future of the band.
This is the only time I will ever post. I will not be able to respond to your comments or enter into discussion or debate on what I'm about to say.
We are aware that this is one of the most popular message boards for MCR fans and we know you guys are the most dedicated and loyal fans in the world. It saddens me to see such division amongst the fans over one woman. If it's any consolation, you guys are not the only ones affected. She is merely tolerated by both band and crew. Believe me, nothing anyone can say will change his mind. She's been the cause of numerous conflicts and while we dont have to like it, we have to accept it, at least for the forseeable future.
From day one this woman has had a hidden agenda - her manipulation knows no bounds. Some of you may find this difficult to believe but I assure you I have personally witnessed the two sides of this woman. Her so-called 'good deeds' are nothing more than PR exercises for his benefit. But he does not see what goes on behind closed doors.
We have tried to draw his attention to her blatant self-promotion and diva demands. This is a prime example of love being blind. His feelings for her do run very deep. Her feelings for him, however, are questionable at best. Many people believe, including myself, that he is being used as nothing more than a stepping stone. It's disheartening to see someone you care about and have worked with for a very long time change as a person, becoming more detached and causing the group dynamic to change as a result.
There have been conflicts and differences of opinions and compromises have had to be made She does not accompany the band on the European legs of the tour. Since being on this current European leg, he seems much happier which suggest she doesnt make him as happy as he thinks.
Despite being asked more than once to remain discreet, she blatantly disregards his wish to keep his personal life private by continually fuelling the internet hype. The band has always been about the music and the fans. This will not change. MCR have never endorsed any type of clique as it encourages and promotes the kind of high school mentality that MCR have always fought against.
Your continued support is appreciated and rest assured this woman will have no adverse affect on the band and the music. For obvious reasons I am remaining anonymous.
Eliza, we know you trawl these message boards and you probably know who I am - but I'd like to see you try and prove it!!!"
Not to be immature about it and say LynZ Smells but I was at one of their gigs and well..... she smells. She was nice and smily and drunk off her ass wobbly she seemed really shy too... But she stinks to high heaven. Sorry LynZ!!!
The term "skank" differs from that of "slut" in that whereas the latter implies only sexual promiscuity; the former also implies poor taste, personally degrading behaviour and low socio-economic class. Also used as slang for lower class female that is dirty or not presenting herself well.
I'm surprised she doesn't like the term because she lives it so well.
"She does not accompany the band on the European legs of the tour. Since being on this current European leg, he seems much happier which suggest she doesnt make him as happy as he thinks."
I know this letter refers to Eliza but I thought it was a bit odd that he looked miserable in interviews during the MCR/MSI tour yet very up-beat as soon as they reached Australia!
Life is too short to wake up with regrets.
Love the people who treat you right.
Forget about the ones who don't.
Believe everything happens for a reason.
If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands
If it changes your life, let it.
Nobody said life would be easy.
They just promised it would be worth it.
Life's too short
by Michael Charles Messineo
Life's too short to dwell on things
that pull and tear on your heart strings
so park those thoughts that make you worry
and create new goals to which you'll hurry.
Make your list of things to do
that always seemed not part of you
make yourself explore unknowns
write down your thoughts dig up those bones
Take a step toward things that scare you
Show who's boss while mind prepares to
overcome what seems unrealistic
before you lose it and go ballistic
Do something different every day
and watch as life shows new path ways
Life's too short to dwell on things
that pull and tear on your heart strings.
Anonymous said...
Life is too short to wake up with regrets.
Love the people who treat you right.
Forget about the ones who don't.
Believe everything happens for a reason.
If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands
If it changes your life, let it.
Nobody said life would be easy.
They just promised it would be worth it.
May 15, 2008 11:47 AM
And hang on for dear life.
L.
Thank you to the Anons @ 11:47 and 11:53.
Nobody said life would be easy.
They just promised it would be worth it.
That needs to be put on something.
Write it on your heart, Mustard. You don't need it on a coffee mug.
It would be wonderful if life were simple, always happy, always smiling. Only problem is, sometimes life gets in the way of living.
The times that you sit with your head in your hands, crying to the heavens, to any angel to come to you, to tell you what to do, how to make sense of everything.
Those are the times that seem to last forever, that tear at you from the inside out, that makes you take a long, hard look at yourself in the mirror, with mascara running down your face. And you think it will never be right again.
Those are the times you reach out, to those who love you, to those who need you and you need them. When you can't do it alone, when you finally throw up your hands and let it go because you are tired of fighting a one-way battle.
Those are the times you may be surprised at who comes to your rescue, who takes up battlegear beside you, and fights along with you.
If there is hope, it is always worth the fight. If there is one spark of love, one tiny ember, it is worth it. Nothing is impossible. Those that seem lost to us are still there, covered by doubt and insecurity, behind that brick wall they built to keep themselves FROM themselves.
"You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight
Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone
And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own"
-Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own, U2
Pactum Serva.
Love,
L.
Anonymous said...
Write it on your heart, Mustard. You don't need it on a coffee mug.
That is the sweetest thing I have read all day.
Hi all!
I was totally pissed off cuz I had this whole big long ol'comment typed out this morning and lost it. >_<
Oh well. It wasn't meant to be, I guess.
Oh, man. Thank you for making me cry. :)
I will.
Hey Mustard! ^_^
Hey gang.
What's shakin?
Not much. I gotta go back to work now. BOOOO!!!!
Oh, and can I just say that Frank makes me want to get a tattoo? ^_^
Ok, see you guys later!
XOXO
Smok - have a great afternoon.
Gah! Sorry I missed you, Smoke! I hope your day is moving by swiftly!
Hey, Jen!
Beautiful comment L
Hey Mustard. Did you get rid of the headache?
SS
i fancied going reading your story you made for the princess and it made me happy again just to read it. thank you again for being kind of lame hehehe
i was going to read all of your little stories and clippets and i saw that you put your words back up again. yet again i may be slow with this but thank you for putting those 13 simple words back that makes a big impact. to me, those words were missing and i noticed their lose but they are back in the right place again.
thank you SS
i hope you have a lovely and hilaripus day
xx
I had to take some time to digest it, because I have been exactly where you described.
Those that seem lost to us are still there, covered by doubt and insecurity, behind that brick wall they built to keep themselves FROM themselves.
It's only because it's the safest place we're able to find, honestly. It seems a bit cliche and a little over the top, but it's the truth, I think.
Jen:
It did finally go away after about two days. They're so frustrating, and I think the frustration of having them just makes the headache itself worse.
How are you? Whatcha been up to?
Hello to my #1 Sweaty Better Lobster Botch!
Here's some water. ;)
Hell, you can be Sweaty Better Lobster Botch, too!
I ♥ you, Fimble.
Mustard, you know me, I'm usually up to no good.
I hear ya on headaches. I battle migraines all the time. No fun at all.
I'm so glad you are feeling better.
hahahaha, you messed that up royally didnt ya slash.
go primp your hair and play with your guitar. slash is in the building muhahaha.
so, i have drank some water, had some honey cheerios and i took to tablets. i think i iwll be better, just waiting for it ha.
jen told me to have a banana, i think she has some weird visions, that child.
how are you slashy
Haha! I did mess that up royally, my royal pain in the ass friend! ;)
Jen's right. A banana would also help. It's loaded with vetavitavegimins, mainly potassium. It will help to stop body aches and stuff.
coolio and watch your mouth missy. just remember who i am :)
so, anything to report, what ya listening to right now?
Thanks, Jen! :)
11:30, you're so right. The guy throws his business around alot.
Not listening to anything new aside from Gavin DeGraw. Why do you ask? I'm compiling a list of shit to pick up from the record store, so if you have anything, you better start spilling!
ohhhh, you always listening to music slash :)
i am listening to jimmy eat world and the killers. lay in a dark room, you know the drill.
can you pick me up a cd of your choice for me. be interesting to see what you bring me back whoop whoop
There's so many things I want to get. Like, I just want to pick up one of everything. O_O
I just saw JEW on something on Fuse or MTV one. Can't remember. They were describing the technique they used to make their records. It was pretty interesting.
The last time I really remember them was with "The Middle" and the video they had for it. They kind of disappeared off the radar for a bit, but this new album's pretty good. I like what I've heard.
RE: The Killer's
I ♥ Hot Fuss way more than I ♥ Sam's Town. How did that B-Sides album turn out? Are those good?
shame on me, i dont have the albums. i do love love mr brightside, and since solly, ii also like tranquilze. i think he sounds like johnny cash on that song. and with the kids singing along as well, just thing is gels together like jello.
i dont know which album it is on but they have a little track and its called enterlude. i love that, just love it :)
JEW, i love driving along to 'in the middle' blaring out my speakers. i also have muse, illscarlet, the used, oasis and so much more in my ickle car
I gotta run, PEEPS!
Have a great afternoon!
Thanks again to the Anon(s).
bye slash, have fun ar the record store
i am gonna see if the pool will do any good.
see you all later on, have fun if anyone is about.
bye people
bye ss
xxxx
I know I'm really late on this but I just have to say...
Anon at 11:31
If this is true, which I have no idea if it is or not, why say it?
That's just mean and rude.
I've returned with my grackle! Apparently her name is Car. ^_^ She's very sweet and is flying around the aviary trying to get used to it.
How's tricks?
Awww! Car is calling to the other birds outside. It's so nice to hear a bird in the aviary again. :)
Hi Everyone.
Are we expecting Mayo to give up another blog tonight?
While on shuffle, I have been reminded once again, of you, of this place, and of what will inevitably become...
The Ghost at Number One
Ugly apparition,
God’s gift to oxygen
The puffed up immortal son
How they love him
cause he'll become
The ghose at number one
How does it feel
to be the only one
How does it feel
to be the only one
Who knows that you're right?
How does it feel to be a loaded gun
How does it feel inside a chamber
Packed with piss and spite
Sure life's no cherry
But a cupcake for the meek
So he shoots up his poison
Until the frosting tastes so sweet
(like a valentine)
He's giving it all he's got
The king of rebels hit the jackpot
But his finish line was
an artistic flop
Yeah even the critics can't outrun
The ghost at number one
How does it feel
to be the only one
How does it feel
to be the only one
Who knows that you're right?
How does it feel to be
a chalkline dollar sign
How does it feel up at the address
All the widows write
Mrs Lynn the fruit of your labour
Gives us a saviour, nappy superstar
To you we've bid congratulations
To him adulation
A blessed life begun, for the
Ghost at number one
How does it feel
to be the only one
How does it feel
to be the only one
Who knows the you're right?
How does it feel
to be a visionary poet
How does it feel
to pack a pen with
Vinegar and insight
There's a party at the pearly gates
Of gold and platinum
(and) for you an invitation to the
Holy rock'n'rollers
How does it feel
to be the only one
How does it feel
to be the only one
Who knows that you're right?
Standing on the bandstand
You'll see the legends
Who'll tell you how it feels
To be the only one who knows
How does it feel
to be so deep down underground?
How does it feel
to be the only one
Who knows you've been buried alive?
Mrs Lynn the fruit of your labour
Gives us a saviour
-Jellyfish
But, we can always hope for a happy ending, right?
To the anons earlier wondering how Lynz was in two places at once - she wasn't. On the MSI official Myspace a fan left this comment on May 10,:
May 10 2008 10:01 AM
Damn you guys ROCKED yesterday in Orlando!!!! But I missed LynZ!!! Wah!!! Where is she?
So that clears that up.
hello blogbelieve!!
how's it all going??
Very slow. I think it's only you, me and a couple of anon's.
its a shitty old time of the day i guess safe?? well a good time in the UK but shit for everyone else!!
But, we can always hope for a happy ending, right?
Yes, we can, and I will.
Hello everybody!
How are you all?
Oh my gosh, I'm watching Germany's Next Topmodel with Heidi Klum and they have Dita von Teese on the show, showing the girls some pin-up poses!
Dita looks so fantastic!!!
Hello, FASC, Safe, and Siobhan. :)
Hi Fisch and MIB. Looks like things are going to pick up.
Hello there, Mustard!✿
Hello Fasc!❀
Hello Elfe!❁
How are you doing, ladies?
I'm mot okay on Kerrang!
*not
I haven't heard a MCR song or seen a video of them for months.
hi mustard and siobhan!!
I know, I thought they'd burnt all their MCR videos or something. It used to be that they played nothing BUT MCR.
I'm doing well, thanks!
I'm trying to figure out why iTunes keeps asking me if I want to download a new version. No, I don't. So, please leave me the fuck alone.
Muwhahaha.
Yeah, ITunes can be quite annoying, Mustard. haha
this is cool it's a mix of MCR vampires and legion of doom something or other. sorry i haven't heard of legion of doom. either i have been hiding under a rock or they aren't known in the UK (much anyway??!!) worth a watch!!
Thoses bastards, MIB!! =)
mustard i tunes always does that to me also!!
wow, that was awesome
glad you liked it anon!
Who cuts Gerard's hair now? He looks like a Monchichi.
FACS, that song was cool.
siobhan i'm not sure what one of those is?? but yeh he has had a fringe cut in and i must admit i prefer it all one length and long!!
He looks weird with a wedding ring on his finger.
I get 'Torschlusspanik' y'all. :-D
yeh i thought so too safe. i love vampires so much anyway!!
I don't know Fisch, but they need letting go. His hair looks awful now. I like the length but the shaping is crap.
WTTBP on MTV2.
I'm having unintentional MCR fest!
It was a pic from MSG. I don't know. Maybe, it was just a weird angle. But he had it quite long before. I prefered that too.
I love long haired guys. My boys always had long hair. :-D
not sure i know what that word means either siobhan??!!
i am used to the wedding ring on finger now. i mean aside from about 8-9 weeks he has been wearing a band on that finger since march 2007 hasn't he?!
must admit the first time i saw the i don't love you video i was like "wtf is that??!!"
"Torschlusspanik" < What?
I like the length but the shaping is crap.
i agree safe!!
fringes are shitty unless the hair is dead short in my opinion!! what do they call them in the states?? bangs??
funny old word!!
I'm used to the ring too. But I'd like to know why he wears it so far up his finger.
I love the "I Don't Love You" video. It is by far my favorite video from TBP. It's beautifully shot.
heychris cut Gee's hair this time, he mentioned it in his livejournal.
Someone needs to give GW the heads up that bangs are not his thing.
In my opinion, this most recent hairstyle is very "Bay City Rollers."
"what do they call them in the states?? bangs??
funny old word!!"
Yep. Awww. No offence Americans. I love y'all.
Hahaha, I looked it up. Does eleventh hour panic say something to you?
I just thought that he's two years younger than me and already married. For a second I thought that I have to get married too. Immediately!!! hahaha
Hey Chris. That surprises me actually, I always thought that he would begrudge Gerard for hurting Eliza.......maybe that's why he did his hair so bad. Hmmmm.
The last photo I saw of Gerard wasn't even a photo. It was with the interview he and Mikey did with Steven, and he looked very much like Revenge era Gerard.
mustard i love that video too!!
love little frankie doing that sexy head swish showing his neck tattoo!! like WOW!! and GW does a great tortured soul thing as well!! actually they all look fucking hot as fuck in that video in my opinion if i may be so bold as to have a small fangirl moment!!!
yes anon i remember reading that about heychris cutting GWs hair!! should have left it how it was!!
i cut my best mate's fringe whilst very drunk one night!! we thought it looked fucking amaaaaaazing at the time! the following morning not so good!! was very funny!
Oh, I get it Fisch. Haha!
Fasc!!!!!!! ??????? !!!!!!! ?????? !!!!!! ????!!!!?!?!?!?!?!
Mustard, that photo was from an interview before this last small venue tour. They filmed that while on a short break.
I think he looked smashing in that interview.
Someone needs to give GW the heads up that bangs are not his thing.
Hysterical!!!
When he dyed his hair black again in his BP phase he also had bangs and it looked like someone (Eliza?) had put a pot on his head and just cut along the rim.
I think I liked it so much because it was done in black and white, and I'm a black and white video/photograph freak. It makes everything look so classy and nostalgic. It was just a really, really beautiful video.
Sorry, *that video*, not photo.
Is Chris a professional hairdresser?
there ya go mustard GW with a fringe/bangs/whatever at MSG!!
he looks really pretty in this one but there is the fringe there!!
ok last one mustard. you get the idea!! methinks some one has cut it since heychris cos in that MSG interview with mikey it was lovely!! maybe they recorded that interview a little while ago?! hey i love making these clickable links really fucking long!!
I think so. Don't know to much about him.
In a monumental victory for the gay rights movement, the California Supreme Court overturned a voter-approved ban on gay marriage Thursday in a ruling that would allow same-sex couples in the nation's biggest state to tie the knot.
That really brightens an already bright day!
This is why I love people who claim it was the drugs that made them enemies. they were friends long after he got sober.
Nope, he's a professional arrogant asshole though!
Kidding! I ♥ Chris' writing.
Yay for gay rights!!!
Fuck yes, Jules! That's amazingly awesome!
Fingers crossed we can get the rest of the country to follow suit.
FASC,
Yes, that video interview from MSG (and the one with Steven) was filmed before the MSG show.
I'm currently watching The Used so that was a little freaky, Anon.
Fasc!!!!!!! ??????? !!!!!!! ?????? !!!!!! ????!!!!?!?!?!?!?!
i know anon i am addicted to certain punctuation!!
Mustard, that photo was from an interview before this last small venue tour. They filmed that while on a short break.
I think he looked smashing in that interview.
thanks anon and me too!
Someone needs to give GW the heads up that bangs are not his thing.
Hysterical!!!
When he dyed his hair black again in his BP phase he also had bangs and it looked like someone (Eliza?) had put a pot on his head and just cut along the rim.
oh i know siobhan!! that awful growing out of hair phase!!
He looks so shitty with that hair cut.
If I was him I would sue the hairdresser. He would certainly win the trial. hahahaha
In the second one he looks like Frodo, Fasc.
Isn't it fantastic, you guys? I feel so happy about it. People were crying with joy.
On an unrelated topic, guys, my grackle (Car) is so sweet and engaging!
Also I was out gardening most of the entire day so far. It's nice and warm out there today, I wasn't wearing a sweater and I put my tropicals out. You wanna hear something crazy? I'm pretty sure my canna lilies survived the winter. O_o That's cool for me, but part of me is sure that it speaks to very real environmental changes and it makes me worried.
It's going to rain for the next four days. HURRAY! I love rainy days, and I don't have to water anything I planted. :)
Re: Bertles: Shoots, I never thought it was about Bert still being some kind of druggie. Bertles got hurt, nothing is more obvious. It's a sucky feeling.
Lol siobhan!
Re: Bertles: Shoots, I never thought it was about Bert still being some kind of druggie. Bertles got hurt, nothing is more obvious. It's a sucky feeling.
indeed!
great news re gay marriage. we are all legal over here with that!
thanks anon @ 3.43pm.
In the second one he looks like Frodo, Fasc
haha! siobhan! i kinda like frodo though!!
It was the lie.
I am feeling rather bold today.
Dita is in the jury!
I love you, Dita!
GAah
Hello
It's going to rain for the next four days. HURRAY! I love rainy days, and I don't have to water anything I planted. :)
ooh K you and mr bloke have something in common!!
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSS!!!
Leck mich am Arsch!!!
Dita brought me luck!!!
BOW DOWN, BC!!!
WHERE ARE YOU, BC????
I MISS YOU, BC!!! ❤
THIS FIRST PLACE IS DEDICATED TO BC!!!
shit i am so glad i wasn't first comment!! i don't want mr bloke appearing in a first comment ever it would be beyond wrong on every level!!
i actually held my breath while publishing that fucker!!
thanks siobhan!
To bad she was married to MM. Oh, well he has a Dita wannabe now....
What was "the lie," Anonymous?
Yes, Frodo is cute.
"Leck mich am Arsch!!!"
NEIN!!!!
I have some baby robins coming in! YESSSSS! Hopefully I'll get them tonight or tomorrow. :D
She has a smoking body! She is so damn sexy!
She just showed those morons again how to look sexy.
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