Clutter. Even a precious possession can be set aside, misplaced or forgotten. Another less important object carelessly placed upon it, and another, and another, until it is buried. It is easy to become overrun and all that surrounds us consumes our sanity, our energy. Soon, you are unable to find what you had only a few weeks ago considered relevant. What a fucking mess.
It is usually in haste that I will begin to rummage through the piles. The need for immediate clearance prompts the overhaul. But rationale overrides rage and I trade trash bags for storage boxes. All that has been sorted out is neatly preserved. I am certain six months from now I will be digging through the boxes.
But for now, space has been cleared and I found my jacket.
The Burden of Elevation
I can no longer stand in front
and throw my fist at you, intent
on hearing every word, captured
in the moment spinning out of control.
But, I miss this like second nature
and then again, I was always more
comfortable slightly out of focus.
p.s. what the hell another won't hurt.
Friday, April 11, 2008
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«Oldest ‹Older 1801 – 2000 of 2359 Newer› Newest»GRrrrrr.....YOU SUCK!
Mayo is going to be so mad at you.
You left me all alone on the last page.
First you treat me like dirt, then you leave me all by my lonesome at the bottom of the blasted page.
Just kiddin'!
Mayo's not going to book you a flight.
You best start apologizing for your misdeeds.
Mayo knows he can't beat my speedy typin' skillz....
Mayo will book me a flight he'll smile while doing it....
Won't you, Mayo? Eff yes, you will.
^_^
I ♥ you, Mayo.
OOoooh, Smoke and I need us a good travel agent.
Ain't that right, Smoke? We have so much planning to do to go clear across the country to Alabama from Georgia is going to be so crazy.
Every time we go to a new page, I have the sensation of falling through the ceiling and into a chair, like "Whee! Here I am!"
I'm scared of airplanes and flying.
...just sayin
Can't we go by train or something?
Fo'real! Mayo needs to hook us up.
The best hotel.
The best ride.
The best fried chicken places.
BWAHAHAHA!
That makes me think of that movie:
Planes, Trains and Automobiles
^_^
Mayo should book us a cruise, and we could all sail around together. Then he could be our Cruise Director, like Julie from Love Boat.
The best fried chicken places??? I suppose you are right. We are in the south. How bout the best barbecue places???
How about good car rental???
Bye, RW! Eat one for me!
0_0
I've never been on a cruise....Hell, I just realized that I have never ever really left solid land. Unless you count fishing in a boat..
I am thinking I might get sea sick.
Fiddledicker!
^ ^
0_0
Can I pick out Mayo's Hawaiian shirt?
Bwuwhahahah!
Boats and planes scare me.
Like really scare me.
I have never been on a cruise either, Solly. I know that looking out and not seeing land would freak me out exponentially. I hate wide open empty space. I don't think I'd be able to do that drive from Las Vegas to California either. Space makes me nervous.
Travel agent, eh?
Where ya going, Mayo?
I said:Bye, RW! Eat one for me!
RW said: 0_0
I really should just not speak ever.
Me, too, Star. But then again, after watching Deliverance, the mountains can be some scary ass shit, too.
O_O
Mustard,
You is funny. ^_^
Yeah, Star, it's like the opposite of claustrophobia or something...did I spell that all wrong?
RW,
We have decided that Mayo is booking my travels to Canada to see you and eat pizza.
Mayo was worried that I was going to try and get all the way to Canada with my two dogs pulling my sled.
Smoke,
What were you eating? Did you ever say? Did I miss it? I bet you were eating pickles and salt, right?
That's good to know, Mayo. Right? But with what? Everything is all right?
Oh shit, I forgot. I got sidetracked which doesn't take too much but anyhoo....
Baby carrots. That's what I was eating. And get this, out of the blue, LHM starts talking about Canada.
O_O
I'm starting to think he is a mind-reader.
Can I show you guys the idea that I have? It's an outline-ish thing.
Solly,
I can see you standing up in the sled, all bundled up, Dr. Zhivago style, yelling "Onward to the North, my trusty dogs! MUSH!"
We were eating carrots at the same time and LHM was talking about Canada.
We are a freaky family.
...just saying.
I hope we use our powers for good and not evil.
Oh Mayo, el oh el, you are a card. ^_^ We love ya baby.
RW,
We have decided that Mayo is booking my travels to Canada to see you and eat pizza.
We'd better hurry up with that, pizza's getting cold!
Star,
Totally! I would freeze to death first, ya know. I would totally be a Sollycicle before I make it there.
Jules,
Right on...show us.
That's one "of course" from La Principesa. What more do I need to proceed?
Thanks Princess. It's really really crappy right now so I dunno what I'm gonna do with it yet. I wrote it last night after I said goodnight and then couldn't quit thinking about it. O_O I'll put it up in a sec.
And get this, out of the blue, LHM starts talking about Canada.
O_O
O_O indeed!
Oh crap, that's longer than I thought. And it's really crappy! I kind of hate it. O_O It's so rushed and it's utter nonsense.
What the hell was I thinking?
I'll be back in a few.
Gonna go put HAARP back in.
Get my head back in the game.
I'll be back. :)
(Jules, go for it. I wanna see.)
You're my angel
Come and save me tonight
you're my angel
Do you remember this? Who is replying to you?
I'm gonna go hide. O_O
Jules,
That was really great. Thanks for putting it up.
Jules,
Hush that nonsense, you know you have an incredible gift.
"
Yep, Ergo....Our vampyre has flown away. He's still at the other place though ;)"
---------
What other place is that Wendy
Anonymous said...
You're my angel
Come and save me tonight
you're my angel
Stephen Tyler?
I'm sorry, I'm sorry!
I'll fix it and put it back another time. It's just too dumb and rambly and weird.
^_^
Did you just delete your post, K?
But... I didn't have a chance to read it yet!
I did, I'm sorry RW. I will see if I can fix it then put it back up another time. It's too crazy. I mean it's such a crazy idea to begin with.
JULES!!!
GRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! It was beautiful.
Jules,
"In the other, cold snow and still-hot blood: a handful of fear and a will to proceed."
YES. I loved it. It made me hot and cold at the same time.
More later when I get back from my parents. My dad made me escarole and beans!
Why'd you delete it?!?!?! GRRR!!
Mayo was on at the same time as an anon who was making fun of K for asking Mayo too many questions. isn't it obvious to anyone else???
GAHHH! I'm sorry! I'll put it back up after I correct a few things and pare it down and make it not so much with the suck if possible.
Yummy, Star!
Have a good visit with your parents :)
Knock it off, 5:15. You're just being petty.
Not petty, honest.
Anon, stick a piece of pizza in your mouth, why don't you?
But it was obviously Mayo himself. He wants her to stop being a pest. It's so obvious. I hate it when women don't get the hint!
Hold up! WAIT!
That's my pizza you are giving away!
What can I do I'm sleeping in this bed alone
are you?
Is this anon you too Mayo? Are you sending a message to someone??
Bla bla bla I'm feeling left out so I'm going online to be mean to someone.
Bla bla bla random hate.
Bla bla bla I think it so therefore it must be right.
It's so obvious.
Bla bla bla.
Obviously K posted something and then deleted it because she thought Mayo was lurking and he would tell her not to delete it. She just DOESN'T get it.
Hold up! WAIT!
That's my pizza you are giving away!
Sorry, Solly, I thought it was for a good cause. But Obvious Anon doesn't want it. I'm hurt :(
what time do you think mayo was the anon being mean to Kap? I don't see it.
I don't think it's mean to say that I think this is true!! If it is true then it was MAYO who was mean to K. But that's his right too!
Oh, go eat pizza, anon.
doesn't matter
I think Mayo posted at 4:06 and 4:10. Because K was asking Mayo all these ridiculous questions and trying to get him to talk to her again. I just feel that with the time he was lurking and when this anonymous post was posted, it was probably him telling her to back off.
Anonymous said...
Obviously K posted something and then deleted it because she thought Mayo was lurking and he would tell her not to delete it. She just DOESN'T get it.
If you must know, I deleted it because it occurred to me that Mayo might read it and I knew it wasn't that good. My hope is that he didn't read that crap. I think Mayo is a good writer. I think a bunch of people who are on at the moment are good writers and good judges of writing. So when I saw the mistakes I had made and how ridiculous that outline was, I deleted it because I know it's not good enough for the folks here. I can do better.
Happy now?
Anons like that are never, happy, K. That's why they keep coming back here to behave badly.
Misery loves company, and all that.
Hello everyone
K
That was just so random. Streatham cemetary is within easy walking distance of where I live.
I have never been in there because I don't know anyone buried in there but maybe I should visit now. Will probably get alot more sense out of those there than you would from people in some places!
I must prepare for work tomorrow. I hope we both have a better week than last week otherwise there will be some serious trouble.
I must do some research into that cemetary-it looks very old.
Goodnight all.
x
Mayo was on EXACTLY when that anonymous post came that was obviously telling her to get off his case.
Kapu do everyone a favor and leave the poor guy alone for a while.
If you can't see that he wants some space from you then you're blind and you're not getting the hint!
Hullo & good-bye, Eliza :)
R.W. I am TRYING to be nice. K doesn't want to get the hint. Mayo has tried to be nice too. I'm not being mean or "petty".. I am just saying what I see.
Mayo was on EXACTLY when that anonymous post came that was obviously telling her to get off his case.
Because other anons don't lurk at the same time Mayo's on.
It's so obvious.
Jesus Christ, Anons.
Just stop.
R.W. I am TRYING to be nice. K doesn't want to get the hint. Mayo has tried to be nice too. I'm not being mean or "petty".. I am just saying what I see.
Who are you?
R.W. I am TRYING to be nice.
No, you're not. You're being a dickhead.
Or maybe I should say, Anon. Not sure if there is one or ten anymore.
Mean Anon, just stop.
There.
Eliza, if you go there you have to take some pics to post. how intriguing, right?
I hope you have a good work week, too. ^_^
Anon, after a whole bunch of you said similar things for about two days in a row, I asked Mayo if we were all right. He said we were and until he tells me differently, I don't believe you, all right?
Thanks RW. Knew I'd married you for a reason or two. ;)
Hello also La Principesa. :)
Well, I'm off for a shizzower. Back later. ^_^
It's because of my mad drawer-dropping skillz, isn't it? ;)
Have fun with ze soap and ze water, K!
Even when he smacked you down under his blue name that time Kapu, and made you look stupid, you STILL didn't get it. The question is when will you? How much farther does he have to go to get you to back off? I'm not saying he hates you and wants you to leave but you keep bothering him and it has to stop.
RW,
Was the pizza scrumpticlicious?
Thank you for being so "nice", anon @ 5:39pm.
Solly, the pizza rocked my world!
Don't you people think Mayo can speak for Mayo????
For fuck's sake...
Pizza in general rocks my world!
I'm so hungry. Now, what can I eat to feed my starving soul???
"Don't you people think Mayo can speak for Mayo????"
I think he ALREADY IS!! But no one wants to admit this!!
mayo is turd taster
OH my GOD I can't STAND to READ shit LIKE this OVER and OVER and OVER but oh WELL, oh WELL.
DAMN!!!!!!!
I'm so hungry. Now, what can I eat to feed my starving soul???
How about BBQ anon burgers?
mayo likes sausage wrapped in men's briefs.
I dunno...they seem a little dry to me, RW.
It's awfully civic-minded of you to come in here to point fingers and speak on someone else's belalf, anon @ 5:43pm. All this noble action must be making you hungry.
Here, have some pizza.
And kinda chewy, Solly. Like deep-fried rubber.
Okay, I'm back.
And "Feeling Good."
"belalf" = "behalf"
O_o
I'm listening to music in my house right now. My house is all mine again and music is flowing right on through.
I'm sorry Smoke I won't do it again. But the pint I'm making is still true. I think Mayo is trying in a polite way to get K to back off and not jump on him every single time he lurks!! And she doesn't get the hint and pretty soon he won't even comment anymore. You notice that he only posts lately when he knows she is not around! ANd if he posts when she is around he never stays to talk to whoever is on. I think it's because he feels he HAS to talk to her.
But the pint I'm making is still true.
A pint would go really well with pizza.
Anonymous said...
"
Yep, Ergo....Our vampyre has flown away. He's still at the other place though ;)"
---------
What other place is that Wendy?
April 13, 2008 2:05 PM
Myspace
his band has a myspace and he's a friend of wendy and I , no big secret, sorry anon
Sometimes only one thing is necessary to put it all in perspective.
It's good. It's great. Now only if it was a piece of cake.
Well, you know what? Why don't you just let Mayo worry about who he wants to talk to. This is his house, not yours and not mine. It's not really any concern of yours.
So just let it go.
i'm hungry, i might go to Pizza Slut for a Shitlovers pizza.
Pizza
Shitlovers?
Oh, jeez. I'll never look at it the same way again. :(
Ah, Food Anon Who Is Not PPU!
Lovely, as usual. :) Or Shitlover's Lasagna. They have that as well, right?
It's good. It's great. Now only if it was a piece of cake.
Or pizza.
That totally screwed up my sad face so I'll do it again.
:(
Shitlovers! Niiiiiice!
Anonymous said...
I think Mayo posted at 4:06 and 4:10. Because K was asking Mayo all these ridiculous questions and trying to get him to talk to her again. I just feel that with the time he was lurking and when this anonymous post was posted, it was probably him telling her to back off.
There are obviously a few anons here right now. I was the one who asked what time they thought Mayo had posted as an anon as I couldn't see it. The anon above replied 4:06 and 4:10, but that was ME and I assure you I am NOT Mayo. I also wasn't being mean to Kapunua, I was just having a bit of fun to see if SS was lurking. I just guessed that maybe he might have spilled his drink on someones sketch pad. Sorry if I confused everyone. I didn't intend for people to think I was Mayo.
It's a pretty sad face, S&V. :)
Awwww, you are so sweet, RW.
It's not as funny as your O_O face, though.
My O_O face will never be the RW O_O face.
You own the O_O face.
*smiles happily at S&V & saves her some pizza*
Well that clears that up but I still think Mayo would have posted instead of lurking if she hadn't been aroud.
Yes, or pizza.
Oh, the possibilities!
I just guessed that maybe he might have spilled his drink on someones sketch pad.
Why would you think that anon?
I agree anon, it is a shame he didn't stay and talk. Guess we will never know why. Maybe he just wasn't in the mood.
I'm pretty sure that Mayo did comment, anon @ 6:01pm. Just not at the times you suggested.
My CD collection rules.
...just sayin.
Why? Because the last question I asked at 4:06 was 'when was the last time you drew a picture' and it made me think of GW and his sketch pad. Then I thought it would be a cool question to ask SS as he is notoriously clumsy. I have nothing to prove if you don't believe me and you want to think that was written by Mayo, but it wasn't. It was written by me. I wouldn't have written it if I knew it would cause all this shit.
morning everyone else!
kapunua did you see I found where the story about Matt videoing Dom with the groupie was?
Kerrang # 8585
23 June 2001
during their tour of Denmark, a time they Matt and Dom became "drug and sex crazed hedonists"
"They regaled interviewer Paul Brannigan..
"I was off somewhere after a party one night, when I went back to our dressing room it was all dark. I heard some strange squelching noises in the corner, so I went out and got a video camer, which had a night shot on it,and then I went back in. I got the last 10 seconds!I got the money shot on tape! Can you believe that?"
Howard later said "we try to get as many women in the shower as possible" before the night ended Bellamy left with 2 blonde icelandic groupies, a danish girl giving the tourbus a peep show in the toilet and married bassist Chris, ignoring the debauchary to mix ever more potent cocktails."
the turning point came in 2003 when Matt said "I can't really remember who I was anymore. he said he no longer wanted the attention of groupies as "I can't think of anything more unattractive than wanting to have sex with you because of who you are onstage"
Peole feared he was losing his eccentricity when he admitted he would dress up in fancy dress in his home, but wouldn't speak further as "the things I dress up as aren't necessarily cool"
I need a larger collection.
My DVD collection rules, Solly.
But my pizza rules even more.
Mustard,
Join BMG!!
RW,
You win!! I can't compete with that.
Hi Ergo!
sorry should be a "people feared he was losing his eccentricity but then he..."
"I can't think of anything more unattractive than wanting to have sex with you because of who you are onstage"
With the possible exception of wanting to have sex with you because you're female, there, and willing.
Forgit to say: Hi, EP :D
well said
My shoe collection rules. ^_^
i heard that mayo has a gun rack full of dildo's.
Does it cost money to join BMG?
I don't think you answered me or saw the last time I asked.
Salt & Vinegar rules!!
Full stop.
Nope, not a thing, Mustard. It's da bomb diggity!!!
And they'll just send me offers and shit?
You mean I don't have to chop off an arm or a leg and give to them in return for selfless music offers?
Well, this could be better than I imagined!
Hi RW
It seems Muse had a very large following of groupies back then. Matt and Dom are certainly no longer proud of what they did.
Fame, money, freedom they took the low road for a while!
oh and "Gentlemen Prefer Blondes" please :)
The only thing, Mustard, is you have to make sure you respond once a month to the 'featured selection' or else they'll send it to you anyway.
I am bad about not responding. That's how I ended up with Ryan Cabrera. O_O
What is with the disrespectful anons?
*whispers to EP* Gentlemen Prefer Blondes would have been my choice too :)
^You didn't see that, Solly.
Yeah, I think you get something like 12 for 1 when you first sign up. Just go to the website and check it out.
bmgmusicservice.com
I have been a member for 16 years.
Okay, do either of you have the direct link?
I'm not gonna search the site over. I'll never find it.
disrecptful anons = not taking responsibility for the things that you say = cowardice
Thanks, Sdock!
The world will be a much brighter place now. :)
16 years? Good golly marbles! You'd think they'd make you an honorary gold club member of some sort. Give you some extra stuff or something!
I've been 'in and out' of BMG for years. ^_^
Better than pizza.
I've been 'in and out' of BMG for years. ^_^
0_0
Do you only get offers for the artists that are on their label and labels associated with Sony/BMG, or do you get free reign of all music ever made?
I knew that sentence was worthy of an RW face. I knew it!
Hee-hee.
Yeah can we just stop being nasty to Mayo and each other.
RW
"We're just 2 little girls from Littlerock..."
when I got married I did a bit of "Diamonds are a girls best friend" with my gloves on! heehee
I love that movie!
and Some Like It Hot
Did you set a trap for my shocky face, S&V??
0_0
Some Like It Hot also kicks ass, EP :)
Uhhh, Mustard I dunno that now.
Did you set a trap for my shocky face, S&V??
0_0
And you walked right into it. Muwahahaha!
I'm trying to find out right now.
And you walked right into it. Muwahahaha!
0_0
Oh hell, there I go again!
hahahaha
BRB!
Bye, S&V! Don't be gone long!
Oooo! My last comment was #1968. That's the year I was born! :)
oh lucky you RW! I always try to get my birth year!
We need Todd, hmm?
Ergo, all I can say to that is, O_O And I'm glad they, uhh, got over that phase.
It's kind of funny though, the night vision camera.
With the possible exception of wanting to have sex with you because you're female, there, and willing.
Brava. That is some serious blame-shifting right there that they pulled.
Anonymous said...
i heard that mayo has a gun rack full of dildo's.
I think that plural nouns do not require apostrophes, but hey.
I'll be lurking guys, gonna try to, I dunno, do stuff.
i heard that mayo has a gun rack full of dildo's.
I think that plural nouns do not require apostrophes, but hey.
Unless the gun rack was full of something that belonged to the dildo, & anon just failed to complete the sentence.
Oh man. That was funnier than it should have been! >.<
What do you think a dildo would own?
The mind boggles!
Right, maybe it is a gun rack full of dildo's The One Ring?
Oh, wait.
hey check it out, I was comment 1972! That's my birth year! O_O
WTF.
Or the mind completely explodes!
*BWOOOSH*
I just received an invitation to a Badass Backyard BBQ.
batteries
If my mind exploded it would sound like one of those Chinese paper "fireworks" things. Bits of paper would probably come out, too. Not confetti, but shredded paper. Also some dust and pieces of string.
Anon @ 7:05pm: WIN!
Sdock and Smoke were totally discussing BBQ today.
We're in some intergalactic space/time continuum that knows shit.
Or something like that.
So you're saying that Dildo owns a gunrack full of batteries?
But surely dildos don't require batteries. You're thinking of vibrators.
I was too slow to post for my birth year.
I'm sorry if I nabbed it from you.
Aw, Anon.
There's always the next blog! Chin up!
Kapunua said...
So you're saying that Dildo owns a gunrack full of batteries?
But surely dildos don't require batteries. You're thinking of vibrators.
I have just highlighted my ignorance in these areas. I feel pretty dumb right now.
well just saying gun racks are pretty huge if you're talking about rifles...
so is it a rifle gunrack or a handgun gun rack?
and does he have one for the back of his truck as well? For travel?
Never mind, anon @ 7:11pm. Your comment was funny nonetheless.
Kapunua said...
So you're saying that Dildo owns a gunrack full of batteries?
so does Dildo own a gunnrack full of mayo?
I leave for ten minutes and it turns to dildos and vibrators? O_O
Se what we get up to when you're gone, S&V??
smoke&venom20 said...
I leave for ten minutes and it turns to dildos and vibrators? O_O
it'll be back to boobs soon.
It always comes back to the boobs.
I have just highlighted my ignorance in these areas. I feel pretty dumb right now.
Man, I have just highlighted my knowledge of these things. How do you think I feel? ;D
I find it amusing how it all goes very quiet in here when we're approaching a new page ;)
so does Dildo own a gunnrack full of mayo?
Wouldn't it turn if it wasn't refrigerated? So maybe more like a refrigerated wine rack then.
Dildo owns a refigerated wine rack of mayo.
love...
Adam?
Oh, come on!
I
love
Adam????
Yoshitaka Amano!
DAMN IT!!!!!!!
I fail miserably at first-taker of the the first comment.
*wipes brow*
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