or, my life…spent.
That last revolution left me dazed. The same scenery flashed and repeated in an orbital rhythm. My environment moved too quickly for me to identify solid form and everything around me slurred into a meander. Each day turned from brief respite into swift departure. I felt my gut at my feet and my head in a fog.
Towards the end, I heeled my words into the ground in a desperate attempt to persuade the fucking thing to stop. I hung on. My knees were raw from fighting the spin and the tops of my shoes were caked with the filth that surrounded my craft. Finally, I let go.
I was spun out, stopped; a playground massacre.
What a sight, covered in dust and dirt, sweat and blood. But, I was not alone. I managed to attract quite a malignant clutch. And while I lay there, words were unwound and lifted from their purpose by nasty little hands and then, repeatedly passed along, shoved into pockets, and spent on cheap ice cream concessions.
Now, after a few months in circulation, it is impossible to determine that they are counterfeit. They all spend the same, right?
I wrote that a while ago. It feels different to me now. Different, but still...relevant. Well, I am off.
p.s. I am at a distance; you are in proximity…but here, we maintain satellite and If you sspirit through here, “Thank you.”
Thursday, March 27, 2008
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«Oldest ‹Older 401 – 600 of 4189 Newer› Newest»Oh, damn.
damnit
I'm still a loser and I was trying so hard.
You'll never be a loser!
I am.
I will never be first. Never.
*sigh*
You're my number one loser though. ;)
Hey dudes on the new page!
SIS! Aww, I wish you could hang out!
I'm gonna pop your hand, Mustard. Come here! Stick your hand out.
I told you not to touch anything. Didn't I? Didn't I say that?
As if. Mayo, how do you put up with this?
O_O
Mayo,
What ya doing?
The first thing anyone does when you tell them not to do it is do it.
I thought you knew. ;)
I'm the worlds worst to reach out and touch something.
I have to handle it and put my fingers all over it.
Niiiiiiiiiiice!
Got burned like that a whole bunch of times.
SOlly's last post = Times for K to not say "MY ASS."
X_x
Do you think Mayo would let us have AssFest?
'Cause that'd be pretty funny.
Mayo would post this really cool piece of intellectual craziness on asses, but (stealing your idea, Kapunua) at the end of the sentence, he'd have to leave it open for us to insert "my ass." (LOL, dirty, but not.)
And then Mayo could title it Asses for Asses. ;)
Oh, man. I'm so glad tomorrow is fucking Friday.
Muahahah
Fucking Friday? I hope it's just a normal friday.
I knew someone would do that!
WTF? You guys are dirty tonight.
i just ate a skid of Frig Newtons.
Mustard,
Layer upon layer of filth. I don't deny.
Food Anon who is not PPU!
It's been a while!
i'm still hungry, i might go make some buttermilk Bitchcuits.
OMG! ^_^
Wow.
Hey Food Anon who is not PPU?
Do you sit around and think this stuff up on your own, 'cause I gotta give you credit. It is pretty funny.
I can't even tell you why this is as funny to me as it is. But it is.
Dudes, must just be one of those nights.
When not-so-funny shit becomes the funniest shit you've ever heard.
Stupid o clock!
*insert funny joke*
Hahahahah!
No, seriously. I told the only joke I knew to SS, and it was half-assed 'cause I couldn't remember the shit leading up tot he punchline.
And again, I fail.
You would know.
"up tot he"
New phrase for the Mayo dictionary, along side a space bar that isn't smart enough to know when to do its job? ;)
Up tot he sounds like an incantation. What would it invoke though? O_o
A small diapered child with super powers. Like Jack Jack in The Incredibles!
Hey RW, Hey Anon(s), Hey Mustard, Hey Jules, Hey Smoke!
I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaack and still hungry.
Who is supposed to know what?
Hullo, Solly! :D
Hey, RW!
You, you, you oughta know...brings to mind that Alanis song.
Hiya, Mustard! :D
Where'd she teeter off to? Seems like she just kinda disappeared all of a sudden.
OMG! I hate The Apprentice. >_<
I missed all the fun. Damn.
Balls? Sausage balls?
Boo, Salt & Vinegar!! :D
OOO! Hullo, Anima! :D
Hey Smoke!
Hey Anima!
And Assfest?
I'm so behind. ^_^
RW! I will make a face at you. X_X
Hey Anima!
Nope, you aren't behind. ;)
Just a stupid thought. :)
Assfest. Sounds like Ozzfest. Kind of. Not really. O_o
Kinda like AzzFest.
Hey! Yeah!
Jesus. The Backstreet Boys are on here. Dear God.
Hullo RW!
Apprentice sucks balls.
*screams like a fangirl*
Why?
But does it eat balls? Because that seems to be the theme.
Hey all, RW, Smoke, Mustard, SDock, Kapunua, anon, lurkers, etc!
Hope your Thursday was good.
Anonymous said...
SS WHY DON'T YOU JUST FUCK OFF AND DON'T BOTHER COMING BACK
So who was this? And what the fuck was their deal? They've never met the man, have they?
You came to the wrong place to insult SS, dude. We're the people who care about him, not want him strung up on a pole.
Anons make me weary.
J
S&V: >.<
The Backdoor Boys
Hullo there, OP J! :D
How's things?
Not bad, RW, have to take my mom to the doctor in the AM, so have to go to bed early. How's the opera going?
J
Well, J, one of the dresses for the leads is giving us trouble. There's always one in every show. Other than that, things are fine. Sorry to hear about your mother. I hope she'll be well again soon.
Hello errbody!
The Backdoor Boys. ^_^
My mom makes the best sausage balls. From what I remember, they were amazing.
K, what else can we talk about that involves balls?
its Britney, betch
Oh, I missed Anima. Hey, Anima, sorry, must've scrolled over you. How are you?
J
That last album flopped like a dead fish. Srsly.
They had their reign, no doubt about that.
RW,
O_O
and
O_o
and
the classic....
X_x
Hullo, K! :D
I almost missed you there! How I did that over your balls comment I really have no idea 0_0
S&V: :S
*grabs banana in fist* NOM NOM NOM
Balls.
That's just a funny word. Balls.
Say it. Balls.
Hi, RW! ^_^ You wearing makeup to cover your marks of love?
anima said...
K, what else can we talk about that involves balls?
Sports! ;D
Or not.
Um, what 'bout?
The Used
Seems to be a running connection with, you know.
J, no worries. I hope your mom is okay.
Wait, Mustard you talking about the 'Backdoor Boys'? ;)
My face is going au natural this evening, K. I am proudly displaying my marks of love!
Or cat scratches, or whatever they are.
Yes, Vagina, there is a Santa Claus.
Oh, no!
No, I was talking about the Backstreet Boys. But, from what I hear, they know each other or something. Same label or some shit.
*Disco dances to Knights of Cydonia*
Who said anything about your face, RW? ;)
Splash, are you saying that The Used are associated with balls? Because this is news to me. O_O
RW, this is like a second-opinion visit. Mom's GI guy, I think, is kind of beyond her attitude, so he's referred her to a colo-rectal cancer specialist. There wasn't any indication of cancer from the colonoscopy, but, well, I don't know. Guess we'll find out.
J
You said balls..huh huh huh huh huh huh.
Bert likes to smell dirty rock clubs cuz they smell like sweaty balls.
Just sayin'....
Balls. ^_^
Who said anything about your face, RW? ;)
0_0
I'll keep my fingers crossed for your mom, J :)
Oh my god, I remember that. Funniest part was when he said, "That smell reminds me of... Who's that stupid bitch?"
I LOLled really hard.
Bert says...
"MMM...sweaty balls..."
J
have you heard the new Backdoor Boys record called
Ass Assassins
Oh balls, is that the time?? Must head to bed. One more day til the weekend - huz-freakin'-zah!
Later, guys :) Have a good night!
Hey
Nice to see you all tonight.
Thanks, RW, that's kind of you. You too, Anima.
J
Sorry about not saying hello, so Hello! to everyone. :)
Hullo, Elena! :D
& goodnight, Elena, I must head to bed now!
Hey Elena! How was your *cough*day? Eat any donuts?
J
Balls.
Speaking of balls and such. Where the hell has Bikey been with his banana...
seat?
p.s. because that will never get old. ;) No seriously Bikey, I kinda miss you. Just sayin'.
Night RW sorry I didn't get to chat with you,
No J
No donuts today *sigh*
Aw man, I hate when that happens, Elena. There should never be a day without donuts. All that tasty creamy white filling...can't ever get enough, myself.
J
So true J, so true
Hey Mustard, how was your day? What did you think of SS's link for us? I'm not a Muse fan in general, but I liked that song.
J
This is me and my best friend, drunkenly playing rock band. Our band name was Vagina Christ, or alternately Drizzle Ringer.
That's as drunk as I've ever been, and I probably never will again.
It's pretty funny though. ^_^
Well, I love Muse, as do lots of others around here, though I just kinda found out (?!?!?). So, it's cool. Plus the lyrical content stands on its own. It's an amazing song.
Well, I've got a busy/stressful day ahead tomorrow, so I'm shuttin' her down for the night. Hope everyone gets a good night's sleep, enjoy your Friday!
J
Mayo,
Thanks for the new post, even if it was an oldie. Nice P.S., though. ;) And yeah, you ARE a bit off, but that's pretty much a given. Hell, hanging around here will do that to you.
Hope your Friday's a good one, too. Try not to get into too much trouble. Or like L and I say, "Be good, or be good at it!"
Catch ya later, man.
love, J
Sweet dreams, Mayo!
Sweet dreams, SS! You sneak. ^_~
Sweet dreams, BlogBelieve!
XOXO,
S&V20
Night J talk to ya later
Jules that was fucking funny. I love Rock Band but I've never tried it drunk. Uh, don't think I will!!
Are your lips numb? LOL
for an ugly ass bitch you love watchng and staring at yourself but we dont so stop sharing
heeee, glad you got a giggle. ^_^ I'm not sure I'd do that again, but it was a night to remember. And to video tape. ;)
That chick there is my best friend of many years. You can't tell from the video but she is a genius. She's from Germany, and she speaks both languages fluently, along with French and Arabic. She can read and write in arabic and she is a glass-worker. She does jewelry, stained glass that she cuts and pieces together by hand, mosaics that she does by hand, and all that kind of thing. If you saw that mini-movie I made, she's the one who made the necklace that was featured in it. She's pretty effing brilliant.
Err, you can't tell from that video though. ;D
Ugh. First Sdock, then Fimble, now Kapu?
Jesus, unless you're gonna show us your pizza-faced ous dripping cuntface, then don't pass judgement on anyone else, capice?
Also, cooking for one is less exciting than cooking for two. But it also equals less work.
-A
SS, baby, I don't really have a lot to say tonight. Thinking about my mom's dr appt tomorrow, mostly. Part of me thinks it'll be ok, but another part of me is getting some bad vibes about it.
Time to try to get some sleep, I suppose. Take care, talk to you tomorrow, no doubt.
love you
J
*comes in singing*
"Bleed well the soul you’re about to sell for passion deranged
Kiss and tell, baby we’re bleeding well
Bleed well the heart you’re about to fail for reasons insane
Kill and tell, baby we’re bleeding well…
…In hell"
(Bet ya'll can't guess what I'm listening to right now)
Hello Mayo, SS, Amy, Elena, OP J (no, wait...you can't leave yet!), Mustard, Smoke, K, lurkers...everyone!!!
How are you all tonight?
J: I hope everything goes well with your mom tomorrow! Please let us know what the doctor says.
I hope she doesn't have to have another colonoscopy. I really HATE those things!!!!
Amy: My golden god is looking a little pale these days. (yeah, I'm a little late answering your question from last night) :p
Elena: A day without donuts is like a night without the moon and stars! TRAGIC! It should never happen!!
;)
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Wendy!
He's pale because I won't let him have Lear.
No Lear. No Touchy.
What's up in your neck of the ewoods?
-A
Wendy I have to take off for a bit but I'll be back later.
hope to talk to you then
Amyranth said...
Wendy!
He's pale because I won't let him have Lear.
No Lear. No Touchy.
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Yeah, I told him to stop glaring at Lear like that! I'm becoming quite concerned, myself. Hmmm.....
LOL, what's UP in the WOODs eh?
Well, not much tonight! ;)
How are you? Besides worried about Lear?
Hey everyone. Goodnight J, sweet dreams.
Elena!!! Okay, love. I shall probably still be here.
:D
Darn it! I guess J had to go nighty night....
*pouts*
But, BC has arrived!!!!!
Hi sweetcheeks! How are you tonight? Did ya'll get the new stove today?
Mayo,
How are you? I hope you are well. Me? I am struggling with it all tonight. Can't hear myself. Can't find the words. Can't speak. Fucking lost, deaf, and tongue-tied. Stomach turning and churning. Holding my breath. Afraid the tears will come with the exhale. Choking on the knot in my throat, I almost gag. I pass it off as a cough. And my face turns red and my eyes water. I don't think he knows. Check that...I fucking know he doesn't.
Haven't we watched this episode before? No cliffhanger here. Always the same ending. Week after week. I'm wondering when the network will pull the fucking plug. Maybe the ratings will be stong enough and I will get picked up for one more season. I know what I need. New characters...new storyline...change of scenery. Must convince my writers to shake things up a bit for my viewers.
Rewind, replay, pause, slow motion....my favorite, fast forward.
Feel me?
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Syndication
Hi and Goodnight Solly!
I hope you can hear and see with clarity in the morning!
You're the network, Solly. I know, easier said than done. You know I wish I could fix it or even make it better, but the whole world is in your hands. That's a huge burden, isn't it? But also a huge gift, Solly?
You have to burn the path yourself.
No matter which one you burn you know I'll love you for it. ^_^
*wonders where Ergo is and Martha has been for the past few nights*
Wendy, Not bad. Only two more days left, then I start back at the Pet Store.
Ugh. I love Spring, but I hate the dry skin.
-A
Ergo was here last night, she just wasn't signed in. Martha's been taking it easy. Her test results came back good though, so she's probably just resting.
-A
Can't speak. Fucking lost, deaf, and tongue-tied. Stomach turning and churning. Holding my breath. Afraid the tears will come with the exhale. Choking on the knot in my throat, I almost gag. I pass it off as a cough.
That's that feeling. That's the one.
I have faith in you that you will make the decision that is right for you. I realize that it might take you a while to get there, but I know you can do it.
You have so much to offer someone, and there's somebody somewhere out there waiting for you to share that with them. Someone who wants it, someone who loves you for exactly who you are.
And before you go questioning:
You're are a very special human being. To not have shit figured out, you still have shit figured out. You know what you need, but you need to know you know what you need.
I hope you're okay.
Thanks for the news about Martha, Amy.
MARTHA: e-mail me PLEASE!!!
That's right! You're going back to the pet store. YAH for you!!!
Is it a store where people can bring their pets shopping, like Pet Smart? You must have missed all the adorable little critters.
*wipes eyes*
I KNOW I saw BC here.
Hmmm........
Goodnight Sd10. Hiya Amy, everyone else about. Hi Wendy, how are you sugarplum? *smothers with kisses and hugs*
I'm alright, sadly no new stove yet. I think we have to wait until Sunday to get it. Right now i'm on a hunt for a Wii on Ebay :)
Mayo: I’m over saying “sorry” for what’s gone on in your blog. I just hope it gets better. I wish so much that you could feel comfy here with us again. Let’s just ignore them together, yeah? Let’s. Thank you for the post. Next time Mayo, we won’t be stuck the misery-go-round on the playground, huh?
Say, that’d make a good poem, wouldn’t it? ^_^ I think I’m gonna write that.
Mayo, I hope you dream pleasantly of ummm... Crickets and waterfalls.
S(S)S, thank you, again, thank you. Muse, man. Oh my god. It’s to the point of looking forward to having an excuse to listen again. And thank you for your sweet words to us as always.
Hey you AIM sluts, thank you for allowing me to rant about work. I know I took up a lot of time just bitching about that dude who gives me such grief at work, so thanks for just letting me vent and not telling me to STFU and stuff. You guys really do rock. ^___^ Good night to you and pleasant dreams. Tomorrow is, after all, Friday, and it has to end eventually, right?
BlogBelieve, sweet dreams or bananas, Bert, Adam, Muse, I don’t know, whatever blows your hair back. ^_^
Is that the Nintendo thing you mentioned earlier, BC?
*is game/gamer lingo deficient*
*smothers BC with sloppy kisses and hugs back*
And, for everyone else:
*pounce tackle hugs and smooches*
Is it a store where people can bring their pets shopping, like Pet Smart? You must have missed all the adorable little critters.
Actually, Wendy that's precisely where I'm going. I worked the for two years, left for three, now i'm going back as management.
I'm excited.
-A
Amy: Name this tune (please) ;)
"You've got to make me an offer
That cannot be ignored
So let's head for home now
Everything I'll have is yours
Step by step and day by day
Every second counts I can't break away"
Wendy, yep, and what annoys me a bit is how some of the ebay sellers managed to get the Wii from retail stores like Target.
Some sellers are including the receipt from there saying that they bought the system two weeks ago, etc etc and I'm like "What the fuck?"
I can't even find a Wii at MY local Target locations because they are still sold out. Odd.
Pet Smart! Really?
And a management position too!!!
That's great, Amy!
I hope the people working 'under' you there are much better employees than what you've been stuck with lately.
...
I know it's not Kew Kids on The Block..
Oh MAN! I give up. Unless you want me to google it.
-A
Bleeding Chaos said...
I can't even find a Wii at MY local Target locations because they are still sold out. Odd.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
BC: Did you try Target on-line?
Or what about Wally World? They might have it!
Hint for Amy:
Think FILTHy
;)
Here's hoping Wendy.
I don't hate the kids that work with me, but it's just that.Most of them are young, and some of them act even younger.
We just had a guy start in the warehouse, and he's good looking. One of the staff came to me and warned me that Such'n'So told her she hung out in the warehouse because of this guy. She said she was gonna leave her husband for him.
So I mentioned it to the Store Manager, well now the rumors are flying about who likes whom, who wants to leave whoever's husband/wife for this person.... Christ almighty.
The poor guy is so confuckled.
-A
Wendy, no way! Is that the new stuff? I haven't heard anything since Damnation and a Day.
-A
Amyranth said...
We just had a guy start in the warehouse, and he's good looking. One of the staff came to me and warned me that Such'n'So told her she hung out in the warehouse because of this guy. She said she was gonna leave her husband for him.
So I mentioned it to the Store Manager, well now the rumors are flying about who likes whom, who wants to leave whoever's husband/wife for this person.... Christ almighty.
The poor guy is so confuckled.
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Oh my!!! I take it your current place of employment does not have a no hanky panky policy ;)
This new guy must be pretty darn gorgeous. Perhaps you can snap a picture of him on your last day there, so we can see HE WHO HATH CAUSED the breakup of a marriage!
Wendy, I'm still trying Ebay because some of them are going for 99 cents. I just placed a bid for one, but I'm gonna try Target online.
I never head of Wally World though. Is that a local store?
LOL Wendy!
He's not bad looking. I wouldn't hit it or anything, but he's got a few of the ladies set on Drool.
He's Spanish too, so it complicates things.
-A
Wendy, I tried target online and they don't have the system there either. Ha ha. It's Ebay for me, although I did find a Xbox 360 for $20 brand new.
Hehe, That's "Temptation", a Heaven 17 cover, me thinks. It is on Thornography!!!! (GREAT cd btw)
Temptation video
I love that song/video!!!!
Amyranth said...
LOL Wendy!
He's not bad looking. I wouldn't hit it or anything, but he's got a few of the ladies set on Drool.
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LOL!!! Set on DROOL, eh?
I really must see a picture of this guy ;)
BC: Wally World = southern for Wal-Mart! It's not just a store, it's an ADVENTURE!
Wendy, that sounds even better than Wal-mart. I hate Wal-mart. It sucks my energy every time I go there ^_^
I'll assume Temptation is sung by Cradle of Filth, right?
I keep meaning to pick up Thornography.
Wow, Dani's getting oolllld...
-A
I didn't even know he was married or had a kid either O_O
How old is he?
I've lost any actual... anything I've had for Wal-mart since hearing about them fleecing a former employee for money after her serious car accident.
-A
Amyranth said...
I keep meaning to pick up Thornography.
Wow, Dani's getting oolllld...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Hush you mouth, child!!! :))
BC: Yes indeed! Have you checked out any of the songs from "Thornography"
I really, really recommend "Temptaton", "Tonight In Flames", "Libertina Grimm", "Under Huntress Moon" and
"The Byronic Man" with special guest vocals by Ville Valo :D
Ah heck, just download/buy the entire cd, LOL!
BC, I don't know.
Old enough to be going seriously bald.
-A
Yeah, Wal-Mart is not very employee sensitive, are they?
I feel sorry for the people who work there, with no benefits and such.....
You know THE EMPIRE has enough money to give those poor people health benefits!
Amyranth said...
BC, I don't know.
Old enough to be going seriously bald.
-A
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YIKES!!! He's not going BALD. His hairline in just a little farther back than in once was ;)
Wendy, I'm more partial to the older stuff.
Bathory Aria, Lord Abortion, Cthulhu Dawn, Of Dark Blood and Fucking, Babalon AD, Mannequin, Her Ghost in the Fog, A Gothic Romance, For Those Who Died, Born in a Burial Gown...
That's all the stuff I have on my MP3player now.
-A
Amy, they actually did that? The bastards. Wendy, it's terrible isn't it? Barely no benefits for the employees, you might as well be employed as a personal slave.
Wendy, only CoF song I have on my Ipod is Nymphetamine. That one is a great song. It's also on one of the Resident Evil movie soundtracks.
But I shall check out your recommendations when I can. Thanks sugarplum :)
Did either of ya'll happen to catch the movie "Cradle Of Fear"
I loved it!!!
Cradle of Fear is 2001 a horror film directed by Alex Chandon. Taking inspiration from the portmanteau films produced by Amicus in the 1970s it features three separate half-hour segments, linked by a fourth story. The main narrative involves imprisoned serial-killer Kemper wreaking vengeance on those responsible for his capture. This he does through his son; Dani Filth playing a character named simply "The Man". Shot on video and on a very low budget, the film received a lukewarm reception in the horror press, and is chiefly of interest to Cradle of Filth fans, as it features the entire lineup (principally Dani Filth but the rest crop up in cameo roles) from the band's Midian era. Chandon's association with Cradle of Filth began with the promo video for From the Cradle to Enslave, and he went on to direct the clips for "No Time to Cry" and "Her Ghost in the Fog". The latter also features David McEwen (who plays Kemper here, and who died in March 2005) miming Doug Bradley's vocals.
The soundtrack for the film was produced by The Dark Poets.
You know THE EMPIRE has enough money to give those poor people health benefits!
What they need is a band of Rebel Forces.
-A
I actually never heard of that movie Wendy. I'm still a newbie when it comes to CoF.
I love those songs too, Amy!
And "Nymphetamine", BC!
Okay, now I must play my Thornography cd.
:D
Wendy, I have a copy of it here. I know it was meant to be serious, but my boyfriend really couldn't stop laughing. Especially at the opening where they.. uh... you know.
I don't wanna ruin it for anyone who might actually see it.
-A
We can start planning a Rebel attack right now!
*evil laugh*
I know, we'll charge into our local Wal-Marts blaring COF music.
They won't like that AT ALL!!!
I know, Amy!!!!
I had a serious case of the giggles myself (throughout the movie)
;P
Check this one out BC.
-A
Wendy, we'll be the only TWO weirdos doing it.
And then we promptly get arrested.
-A
BC: You really need to rent it!
LOL!!!!
You know. It is REALLY freaking quiet in here tonight.
More quiet than usual.
-A is looking around, clutching Lear.
Yeah BC, it really is something else.
Check YouTube, you might be able to see it there. If you can get past the first victim, well, you're a better woman than I.
"Was that a penis with a doll's head on it?"
"Uh, I think... yeah. What the hell are we watching?"
-A
Amyranth said...
Wendy, we'll be the only TWO weirdos doing it.
And then we promptly get arrested.
-A
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Well, we'll have good company in jail - each other! ;)
You know what 'they' say, Amy.
A good friend will bail you out of jail; but
A REALLY GOOD FRIEND will be sitting in jail, right next to you, saying "Damn, that was fun"!
:))
Mayo:
You know how adults, when speaking about their childhood, always say "When I was a kid...?" I tend to pay attention, because good things, educational things usually follow.
Somehow, I didn't get that gene or something. I was an adult when that stuff started happening to me. I don't really know why. Maybe I just avoided it as a kid. Like I said earlier, I stayed on the swing set most of the time.
I never got involved with that stuff. I never had the need to prove to someone that I was tougher than them, or that I owned every square inch of the "school yard." It wasn't a necessity, because I didn't care. I spent time trying to see above that damn roof, thinking about what I was going to do when I left school, how hot the bus ride would be because half of the windows wouldn't go down.
It wasn't and isn't that easy anymore. I get catapulted into shit I want no part of. Seems like you understand, I think. I just let the bullies, the school yard heroes, think what they wish.
I know who I am now. And in some ways, I'm still that kid on the swing set, it's just that some days I'm so overwhelmed by thought, I can't get high enough.
I don't have to defend my beliefs, my values, or my morals. I don't have to defend what I stand for. I don't have to pretend to be something I'm not, because I know exactly who I am.
I'm just waiting for all of the other stuff to fall into place.
This really has nowhere to fit, but as an aside: What a sight, covered in dust and dirt, sweat and blood. But, I was not alone.
No, you're not. You know how I asked about your "cement and shoulders" line? That's how I felt. I felt bloody and battered. Emotionally, I felt (feel) scarred. It was me with my head pressed against the asphalt, and I felt like he didn't even see.
You aren't alone.
They all spend the same, right? No, sometimes it pops up with "Funds Denied."
I need you to know that you don't have to do this anymore. I found what I needed here, and I will be eternally grateful.
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SS:
I can't thank you enough for the support you've shown for us. Thank you for the words, the video, and, most importantly, the friendship.
I think we take a lot of the things we're given for granted, friendship being one of them. Dude, try your best not to give up on people. Try to make it work as much as you can, and try to appreciate everything you shared with them. I'm rocking back and forth in that boat now, and it's hard as hell, but I realized I can't make it work. But, never once did I take it for granted.
So, thank you again. Thank you for showing us meaning.
Goodnight, buddy. Sleep well.
Ha ha, the wal-mart plan sounds hilarious, and make sure that you guys blast CoF with the parentory advisory label attached to it. You know how Wal-mart feels about profanity and suggestive themes :D
Ha ha. Thanks for the link Amy.
-A is looking around, clutching Lear.
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No fair, Amy! I need something to clutch!
*pouts*
I'm not touching that doll's head though!
It IS very quiet here tonight.
S-P-O-O-K-Y
I'm scared!
Goodnight Mustard, sweet dreams.
My love, I am afraid I do not have anything original for you tonight. These two poems, however, are quite beautiful, and so I will share them with you. I hope, sincerely, that you will enjoy them.
Alchemy
Author: Francis Carlin
Because of the light of the moon,
Silver is found on the moor;
And because of the light of the sun,
There is gold on the walls of the poor.
Because of the light of the stars,
Planets are found in the stream;
And because of the light of your eyes
There is love in the depths of my dream.
BACK TO YOUR HEART
Author: Vishal Ramanuj
My heart is but a mere vessel,
tossing about helplessly
in this sea of loneliness.
I long for the winds of your love
to guide me back to the shore,
back to your heart.
How do like that? Mustard was here all that time and being as quiet as a mouse.
I'm gonna guess Mustard doesn't care for COF ;)
BC: Of course we'll be blasting the 'non clean' versions!
Hello Angel, good to see you again. I hope you're well.
BC: Of course we'll be blasting the 'non clean' versions!
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Yes!! That would be hilarious to see >:)
Because of the light of the moon,
Silver is found on the moor;
And because of the light of the sun,
There is gold on the walls of the poor.
Not to knock your original stuff Angel, but I like that line.
How are you tonight?
-A
Angel!!! It's great to see you.
Those are both very lovely poems.
I'm sure your love will appreciate them immensely!
How are you tonight?
Goodnight Mustard!
A pleasant good morning, I suppose it is now, Bleeding Chaos. Greetings also to you, Anon616, Amyranth. Your house is very still tonight.
Angel, yeah it is.
Angel,
More quiet than usual.. I hope there isn't a zombie invasion going on that I don't know about.
-A
angel said...
"I long for the winds of your love
to guide me back to the shore,
back to your heart."
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I'm sure you never left your love's heart, Angel.
I'm doing okay. I think we scared everyone off tonight with our Cradle of Filth talk!
I am faring well enough, my lovely friends. Amyranth, I am glad you like "Alchemy". Its sinple grace touched my heart, as did "Back To Your Heart". The themes of the ocean and the sky are two of my favorites.
Bleeding Chaos said...
BC: Of course we'll be blasting the 'non clean' versions!
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Yes!! That would be hilarious to see >:)
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BC: You DO know you're joining us, right???
:D
Oceans and sky, moon and stars....
leaves me with a very tranquil feeling.
*sigh*
Zombies! Perhaps they would be lively entertainment for you all! Would they not produce a rather overpowering odor, though?
The themes of the ocean and the sky are two of my favorites.
I'm from the East Coast of Canada myself, so I find anything that mentions the ocean, or water really piques my interest.
-A
Amyranth said...
Angel,
More quiet than usual.. I hope there isn't a zombie invasion going on that I don't know about.
-A
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Hey, You just gave me a great idea for the next "Cradle" movie!
Cradle of Fear II: Wood Of Zombies
:))
angel said...
Zombies! Perhaps they would be lively entertainment for you all! Would they not produce a rather overpowering odor, though?
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We have incense for those odors, Angel!
And vanilla! We have vanilla too!
Angel, it's not the odor that worries me.
It's the teeth.
-A
Angel, not unless you have a lot of ammunition and a rocket launcher in your hand ^_^
Wendy, what what what?! I have to join you?! :D
Amyranth, I love the ocean, although I am not able to visit it as often as I would like. Anon616, yes, the ocean especially is soothing to me. The sound of the waves rolling brings such peace. The night sky, especially over the ocean, gives my soul the same feeling, that of freedom.
*grins*
Teeth don't bother me, Amy!
BC: Of course you're joining us!
You're not going to leave me and Amy sitting in a jail cell without you ;)
Perhaps Angel will be gracious enough to bail all three of us out (when the time comes)!
angel said....
The sound of the waves rolling brings such peace. The night sky, especially over the ocean, gives my soul the same feeling, that of freedom.
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That's a beautiful feeling, isn't it, Angel!
Peace, freedom, love, contentment......
Ha ha Wendy, of course not. Maybe we can sing Jailhouse Rock while in the slammer ;p
Wendy, show me a toothless zombie, and I'll show you an outbreak at an old folks home.
Angel, now that I live in the Praries, I don't get to anymore ever. The closest ocean to me is 12 hours away now. Kinda sad.
-A
I would be honored, Anon616! First I must procure enough funds, because I fear the fines would be over my financial holdings! Perhaps some of our other friends would be willing to help? Amyranth, yes, teeth would be a bigger concern. Bleeding Chaos, I am not allowed to carry ammunition of the sort you are implying. It is against my angelic code of honor. *smiles*
Bleeding Chaos said...
Ha ha Wendy, of course not. Maybe we can sing Jailhouse Rock while in the slammer ;p
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Sounds good to me, BC!
We'll sing "Tonight In Flames" as well. Only, we'll change the words to 'tonight in chains'
;)
Wendy, lol, can't wait! Angel, I don't mind carrying the ammunition then. I shall blast those zombies into oblivion >:)
*is wondering exactly WHAT type of AMMUNITION angels are allowed to carry*
Hmmm.....
*gets visual of image of age 85+ zombies searching for their dentures*
LOL, thanks for that Amy!!!
Only 5 comments away from a new page?
Whom shall it be tonight????
Anon616, the only ammunition I carry is love. It can be extremely effective when used properly!
*bounces her knee a bit*
I don't wanna go to bed.
Well, I do. But I don't.
-A
Love? Aww
I will beat you to the first page!
Fuck
*is wondering exactly WHAT type of AMMUNITION angels are allowed to carry*
Heavenly swords? Bow and Arrows?
Bible and a pointy cross?
-A
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