I am expended. I have given my soul to you and, without question, you deserve it. I am rewarded by my investment and I know I get more out of it than you. Regardless, at the end of the day, I know its worth.
I am reminded that not so long ago I was so afraid of death that I taunted it, begged it to take me on. For a little while, I allowed its insidious grip to hold my soul. I was seduced by chance and by choice.
Temptation will always tug at my better judgment. I have been successful at averting my attention from ruinous behaviors toward the seemingly benign. Still, I question whether I have just shifted gears rather than changed lanes.
Perhaps I will again fall prey to deaths seductive whisper and allow myself to be captured by the romance of self destruction. It is wise to consider that I tempt fate. The alternative is blind supposition.
For now I am anchored to the rocky bottom. I will drift, but I will not be carried out to sea.
p.s. it takes hours to come down and the fall may lead to my imperfection.
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No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
2,127 comments:
«Oldest ‹Older 801 – 1000 of 2127 Newer› Newest»Thank you for clearing that up, She Wolf Anon. And thank you for your kind words as always. ^_^
well thank you tj, jules, jen, 616 and ergo. i am glad you laughed.
ergo, my friend, you did it. you made a clicky link. at last. i'm so proud. i..
i can't go on. *teary*
*dabs at eyes with brightly colored silk handkerchief*
Fimble,
I'm guessing you've spent just a liiiiiiiiiiiiiittle too much time in the company of the 2-year-old! Although the giant piece of cheese was quite an image.
J
Love to you to L (and J, who may or may not be on in a bit)!!!
I can't see your photobucket pictures though.
*pouts again and requires another garlic-y smooch from TJ - or anyone else willing to give me a smooch - garlic-y or not*
Ergo: I did see a few clips of that concert and I LOVED the ones I saw!!
and, that's one BIG fish!
Hello hello fimble. Hello OP J!!
Hello Jen
fimble, i actually think you're a comic genuius. you've always made me laugh!
:D
♥
cheers j. i do try and i am shocked that i didnt get too many spelling errors in there hahaha.
anons - do you want to slate me cos i didnt put anyone in there except me myself and i cos i was totally showing favourtism towards myself on that one ;)
aawww.
six you shouldn't pout (though it's cute!)
*swoops in and grabs six, dips her, and plants a solid kiss on her, very soldier-returning-from-the-war style*
anons - do you want to slate me cos i didnt put anyone in there except me myself and i cos i was totally showing favourtism towards myself on that one ;)
rofl!
TJ!!!!!
*runs forward, arms open for hug*
WHOA!
*runs past, ricocheting off wall due to sinus meds*
*looks around dazedly*
TJ? Did I miss you? Oops, sorry, just a little off kilter there.
Great to see you! I heard you got...GOOSED...earlier. (courtesy of L)
Hey Ergo! Yeah, it was great. :P
J
Kapunua, I told you I would join you in AIM tonight, but currently I am neck deep in excel spreadsheets. I was hoping to be done early, but I still have a few more things to do.
If I do not come by tonight, just know it is not on purpose. :)
I hope everyone is doing awesome tonight/today/this morning.
Hope to hang out soon, if not definitely tomorrow.
Love you guys!
Fim, you are wonderfully hilarious. ^_^ Witty and bright and you brought the LOLs to me.
And you're a hell of a lot smarter than you say you are, too.
So suck it. ;D
Fim, I can be a mean anon for you. Want me to?
Take care Anima. I miss seeing you here.
Sounds fair, Anima! Although, HOUSE is new tomorrow night, so it will be after nine for me. ^_^
Hey guys, check it out:
BUSH'S LAST STATE OF THE UNION.
LAST.
LAST ONE.
LAST.
^_______^
WOO-HOO for ERGO on the link thingie!!! I'm as proud of you as I was of myself when I finally got it!;-)
I still can't do the bold or italics though :(
*singing along to Ergo's KISS video*
"I know a thing or two about her...
I know she'll only make you cry-iiy
she'll let you walk the street beside her
but when she wants, she'll pass you bye-iiy......
Everybody says she's looking good
and the lady knows it's understood
STRUTTER"!!!!
Okay, now I must go listen to more KISS and dance with broom and mop.
I hope you ladies all have a wonderful night/morning!
Love and Hugs to all!
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
no jules its ok, your just mean under your own name ;) and you know i like that shit
so i will suck it.
ohhhhh did i really say that
hey Wendy!
*grabs her while still reeling from TJ's smooch*
*SMOOOOOOOCH*
and YAY for me!!!!!
*accepts award for "finally clicky linking"
I'd like to thank all those people who have tried over the last few months.
It's your pesistence and dedication that has gotten me here today*
*holds aloft award*
*tears running down cheeks*
*wonders if she'll stuff it up next try*
Heya Six! Heya BC!
Six, try going in through our profile page, the photobucket link is there, too. Let me know if you can't get there. We are shit at making links and other cool computer-y stuff.
Fimble, L's niece had a time with her older son throwing all her hairdryers in the toilet one day. He'd throw one in, she'd retrieve it, then go buy another. Second one, he threw in too; she went and got another one. Third time seemed to be the charm; he didn't sacrifice any more to the porcelain god. I think he was about 2 at the time.
Now do you SEE why I don't want any?!
J
I have to go for a bit, just rememebered I have to return DVD's to shop today (oops)
back in a while
Hi Anima -I honestly thought that said bedsheets and I wondered why you weer tangled in them!
*sitting on the floor, bowled over by j.'s enthusiastic attempt*
hi and bye anima!
bye six! *blows kiss*
*stays sitting*
Later is totally cool with me, Kapunua. I'm heading out of town this weekend, so I have a shitload of laundry/other crap to do while you are watching House. It will be perfect timing.
.
.
.
BC, I miss seeing you too. :)
Mayo:
It was quite nice of you to drop in today and let us know we should shut the fuck up worrying about you so much ;)
Only joking, Mayo. Thank you, really. I hope it all works out for you. I hope you remain strong, and only think about past weaknesses.
And whatever it is that is to come? Let it when it wants to. Don't force it. We'll be here waiting.
Stay strong. Stay true. All of that good stuff.
Goodnight, Mayo. Sleep well.
SS:
Dude? I feel like we're playing Where's Waldo here. ;)
You doing okay? Hopefully you've answered with a resounding, "Yes!" Didn't want to leave tonight without saying Hello. And Goodbye.
Hello Goodbye.
The Beatles, yes!
Anyway. See you around, buddy. And, uh, personally. I think you look funny as a goose wearing underwear on the outside.
That's just me though ;)
Goodnight!
well all i can say j to that is that i aint using the phone no more
i am not even looking at it
*waves microphone at Ergo, reporter-style*
Miss Proxy, Miss Proxy, over here! What's it feel like to join the exclusive "Clicky Link Club" at last? Was it a lifelong dream of yours? Did you ever do it professionally?
J
Hey TJ!
Ergo, I honestly thought that said bedsheets and I wondered why you weer tangled in them!
I WISH! That would be so much more fun.
Okay, I'm really going now.
Hello and goodbye to all of you and to everyone I missed.
P.S. Thank goodness this is Bush's last State of the Union Address. His speeches make my ears bleed.
have fun with your bedsheets, anima!
*stands up at last*
*dusts off behind*
*looks to make sure that wasn't knipp, knapp, or knopp*
*whew*
In light of tonight--well, every night I guess--I have sent an ecard to all of BlogBelieve.
From me to you.
^_______^
P.S. Thank goodness this is Bush's last State of the Union Address. His speeches make my ears bleed.
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Ain't that the truth, Anima? I was pissed because he interrupted my local news. What an imbecile.
guys, i am off to bed.
nighty night and thank you for your nice comments. sweet dreams everyone
repeated again
SS - i hope that you have a look at the present you left for us all. we HONKED on there and i hope you see all the kind and caring words. you know how we feel.
cool, kapunua! thank you!
although, "doormat" was always my favorite endearment....
;D
Goodnight and sweet dreams Fimble. Ha ha, cool e-card K. BRB. Must get some water.
good night fimble! sweet dreams -- hope they aren't of cheese!
Well! On that note you guys, I'm off for the evening. Gonna read a bit then "hit the scratchy hay," to steal a phrase from Splash.
I'll catch you all tomorrow on the flip side! (DM, with my Crackberry.)
Mayo, thank you again for popping in. Hang in there and quit with this "romantic self destruction" crap, okay? That's not cool, homeslice.
S(S)S, I hope you will have a restful and awesome rest of the week. Migration's almost over, but enjoy the updraft for a bit, yeah? ^_^
BlogBelieve: Goodnight to all of you, and pleasant HOUSE DAY tomorrow. :D
Fimble,
Yeah, I'm with you on that one! :P Just let the machine get it...
Six, where'd you go, girl? I keep missing you.
I'll warn you guys, I'm feeling pretty saucy tonight, so if anybody, y'know, feels hinky about that, well, um, sorry. Sometimes I gotta go with the flow. I'll try to hold it down to a dull roar if I can. :D
J
well, have a good night then, kapunua! *waves*
ok, j.
just what do you mean by "saucy"?
*squints*
Goodnight K. OP J, thank you for warning us in advance :D
SS if you come by please look at Fimble Stars stupid link so that she will shut the fuck up. I"m sick and tired of reading about it. So is every one else.
Oh TJ. I think you know...
*said in a sing-song kind of voice*
Yeah BC, thought it'd be for the best, y'know? All things considered.
J
Anonymous said...
SS if you come by please look at Fimble Stars stupid link so that she will shut the fuck up. I"m sick and tired of reading about it. So is every one else.
Scoose me?
SS, if you happen to come by, please ignore this anon that clearly has no more than 1 and 1/2 braincells in her head.
As I plan to do from now on. BYE CUNTFACE!
-A
Anon, that wasn't very nice.
Hey there Amy.
BC
Hey everyone!
So, um, remember that guy that was caught at work with drugs?
Yeah, he got fired.
-A
oh, i know, do i? *leers and waggles eyebrows*
hey! amyranth!
lookee! i'm a real girl tonight!
:D
wait. that sounded a bit...off.
Hey Amy--which guy was this?
J
oh, um.
the leering was toward j. quite naturally.
*heh*
Hey P,
'sgoinon?
-A
Good for him Amy. I'm okay, thanks for asking. Aww squeak squeak is still happy, aren't you? :D
Teej, what? You're a what?
P- Remember I told you the other night about some guy buying drugs at work from another employee's family? He got canned.
-A
Rawr. just stopping in before i go to bed. =]
You better believe you do, Miss TJ. In fact, I think you know more about it than you're letting on...
BC, I just like to play fair, you know that. *coughyeahrightcough*
J
Bubbles! I heard about your eye! Anything you want to know about eyes, I've probably had it done. I've had lots of procedures and surgeries over the years, so if I can help I'll be glad to do so.
J
Hey PH, how's it going?
-A
i am bc, i am!
amyranth, look. look closely at me.
*stares intensely at amyranth*
i'm here.
i'm corporeal.
not ectoplasmic.
solid.
physical.
not a wooden puppet hanging in the corner.
here!
real!
*rising background music*
*stands, expression goes all faraway and dreamy*
*hands clasp beneath chin*
*mouth opens, inward breath, preparing to...*
NO SINGING!
*ahem*
:)
Hey J! =]
lol. There's just some bump on the inside of my eye, and my mom is making me go get it checked out. I mostly hate doctors, so that's all that's really bugging me.=]
*hug*
hug fu master!
*tight embrace!*
i missed you! >.<
Hey Amy!
It's going pretty good. My stupid supervisor is making me work tomorrow, on my day off, when I was supposed to hang out with friends.
How are you today?
<3
Sorry, I don't usually respond to Anons, but layoff the Fim, or our pimp will have to get out the stick o' doom.
Hey TJ! I really missed you too! *hug*
There's been a lack of Hug Fu in the air.. =[
In fact, I think you know more about it than you're letting on...
*big doe-eyed innocent look*
*"who me?" gesture*
*feigned blush*
Hi there Carrie. How are you? Rawr my young grasshopper. How are you? *hugs*
Suuurrreee you were OP J. Lol
Teej, O_O.
Well, at least you're not bored!
Haha, like it now?
-A
There's been a lack of Hug Fu in the air..
there shouldn't be one now...i mean, i showered and everything...
*waves brightly at carrie*
hey BC =]
i'm alright how are you
i'm actuallly really tired and way too lazy to use punctuation lol=]
That's great, PH, I'm glad it's nothing more serious. Eye things, though, are pretty freaky so I thought I'd offer some, uh, advice.
*HUGS* anyway!
Guys, L had posted a link to our photobucket earlier, but some folks said they couldn't get to it. If anyone would like to see new pics of our "punk" betta, PFF, and a couple new ones of my cats, try this link instead:
http://s226.photobucket.com/albums/dd181/Original_Punks/
J
Hey BC, I'm just kinda doing a drive by tonight, I've been busy the last couple of days. Hope the eye thing goes well, Ph, hey Amy, ops, and tj, your solidness scared me! Night guys!
lol tj. =]
amyranth, i've been doing my best to behave as a model citizen of blogbelieve...
and failing utterly. :D
PH, not bad. Just got back from an inventory count.
I hate counting, I really do.
What happened to your eye?
-A
sorry carrie! i'll try be less frightening, i promise! :)
Teej, model citizen my ass. I've never been a model citizen here.
-A
opj, i'm trying not to worry too much. like yeah a part of me is worried and all because it's been there for like 2 weeks, but it could just be a cyst or whatever that thing is that my dad said it could be. lol. i don't really know. i'm mostly scared because i hate doctors with a passion. more like i'm scared!
hey carrie. =]
thanks sweetie!!
<3
Ah BC, you know me too well, my love.
TJ, you should know by now that none of us citizens are on the up-and-up all the time. Let it loose, girl, RAWR for us! Paperheart's been doing it for months, look how well she's managing. We could learn a thing or two from her, I think.
J
amy, inventory at my work sucks ass too. =]
well nothing really happened. i just woke up one day and it eye was like swollen just a little with a bump on it. i hid it from my mom for about a week before she noticed, so now just for safe measures, we're going to see my dr. tomorrow=]
Goodnight Carrie. Sweet dreams. Aww teddy bear, I'm sure the doctor's appointment will be okay. Try not to worry too much :)
Amy, I second that. My little grasshopper, I'm doing okay, just charging my Ipod at the moment. It's my love child ^_^
TJ, you should know by now that none of us citizens are on the up-and-up all the time. Let it loose, girl, RAWR for us! Paperheart's been doing it for months, look how well she's managing. We could learn a thing or two from her, I think.
oooh dear god. that made me laugh like a lion. =]
bc, lol.
my ipod is like broken! i have to wait till my next payday, and until my cellphone bill comes, to even think about buying a new one.
ok, just because i can:
here's my non sequitur for the night:
i am listening to placebo right now, and i think "without you i'm nothing" is my absolute favorite song on this cd. brian molko + david bowie is just sooooo good. their voices together...
oh man.
Squeak squeak, I agree with OP J. Every once in a while I allow my Amazon side to be free in order to kick some ass. You guys have seen it before ^__^
and now i'll try to be a little less model-citizeny and a little more paperheartxxy:
*ahem*
*straightens shirt*
RAWR!
:D
Teddy bear, that's terrible! No one should live without the amazingness that is the Ipod. I hope you get one soon. I swear, I love that thing like it was my own child ;p
Toujours,
RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWR
lol. It's like my mating call.
or not?
=]
BC, I know, it deeply saddened me. Buut oh well, thats just when I turn my stereo up totally loud or play my guitar.
*heh* bc -- i can do amazon
*spins in center of room*
*emerges fully garbed in wonder woman outfit*
:D
ooooh, paperheartxx. you're good at that.
*envious*
*rawr?*
Stay strong my teddy bear. Regarding the Ipod, I know you will get through your loss somehow. Lol.
Go Amazon squeak squeak!! :D
toujours.
lol. awwwh you're at stage 11 now on hug fu! The almighty rawr comes with your black belt ^_^
BC, *sniff sniff* i can try. =]
Geeze PH, not cool. Be careful. I went to the doctor and found out I'm blind.
Sorta.
I don't get a dog yet. :(
-A
Bubbles, I'm glad something made you laugh! Think of that when Dr Freezy-Hands has hold of your eyeball tomorrow. It'll at least keep him on his toes. :D
BC! YOU? Verbally bitch-slapping people? I never would've thought it of you! So quiet, so demure...our little buttercup.
Now you've shattered my illusion of you.
ALAS! WOE IS ME! and OH NO! even.
J
i will, bc! i was amazon before anyone knew xena could be a woman's name!
*crosses wrists and makes bracelets chime*
Awwh. Amy<3
TJ you are a laugh tonight!
Hi PH *hug*
Well returned the DVD's then realised I needed petrol and ended up buying a some floor mats - as you do!
lol
J, lol.
I'm off to bed everyone.
Sweet dreams<3
RAWR<3
:)
HEY ERGOPROXY!
*hug*<3
Bye everyone<3
awwwh you're at stage 11 now on hug fu! The almighty rawr comes with your black belt
O_O
no.
not possible.
why, i just started training such a little while ago!
and i haven't learned the trick to hug fu special attack #54!
and my cartwheel is still really shoddy when i do hug fu special attack #826!
i...
i...
*bows deeply to the master*
oh and hello Amyranth , goodnight Carrie Kapunua
I always wanted to be
"SHAZAM!"
"Form of a panther"
grrrrrrrrrrrr
goodnight PH!!!
Don't worry teddy bear. You are strong. You will get through the loss somehow. After all, you are the Hug Fu master and instructor *hugs* ^_^
TJ, that is simply amazing :D
BC! YOU? Verbally bitch-slapping people? I never would've thought it of you! So quiet, so demure...our little buttercup.
Now you've shattered my illusion of you.
ALAS! WOE IS ME! and OH NO! even.
------------------------------------
You just made me laugh and giggle like crazy OP J! Ha! I can be a quiet person in real life, but if someone messes with me, you know what happens next hehe.
Since when did I become the buttercup of this blog? XD
hey ergo! :D
TJ you are a laugh tonight!
it's weird, innit? i must have eaten some of fimble's cheese.
*practices twirling golden lasso*
Goodnight and sweet dreams teddy bear. Good luck with the eye appointment! Hi Ergo!
*ducks*
"FORM OF ....A SMALL BULL!!"
here I'll run about and you can lasso me!!
*bucks*
*runs around sofa*
I've always wanted to be a potato.
-A
Laughter is good for the soul, BC. And hey, your initials COULD stand for "Buttercup", y'know. If we wanted to be really sickly sweet. Which we don't.
So...
GOODNIGHT BUBBLES! Good luck tomorrow! I'm sorry you have to work, too. :P Just gross everybody out with your eye bump. THEN they'll be sorry they made you work!
Hey Ergo again! WOO, new floor mats, baby, you know how to LIVE!
just kidding, you know that. :)
J
you're on!
*twirls lasso overhead*
*tosses out a loop and snags ergi around the horns*
now you have to answer my question truthfully, ergo. the power of hestia in the lasso compels you.
*magical golden lasso music*
you're wearing mis-matched socks today, aren't you?
It definitely is OP J. And me being slow tonight, I just realized that my initials could mean buttercup, but fuck that. I ain't no damn buttercup ;p
Amy, why would you want to be a potato? ^_^
Alright, I can barely.. .anything right now.
Good night OPJ, BC, Ergo, Teej and anyone else who is lurking. Like MAYO and SS!!
Would SS have to call his boat the S.S SS?
I wonder.
-Amyranth
Pantera, I'll answer that.
Because I would be small, rounded and delicious in a variety of manners of cooking.
And, I wouldn't have to count inventory.
-A
Goodnight and sweet dreams Amy, aka, The Potato lol
good night amyranth! have lovely tatery dreams!
Ah well, thank you for answering my question Amy. I have to admit, sometimes you sure know how to make me laugh. In a good way of course
If I had a choice, I would be the cherry bomb, so I can flush down the toilet and blow up its' pipes. I read some story about some dude in a band who did that in high school and they had to shut off school for a week.
I was kidding about me being the cherry bomb ;p
goodnight Amyranth
and TJ *MOO*
I actually have no socks on!
P-
Like in that, polite pat on the head sort of way?
I get that once in awhile.
-A
When L was dating her ex, who's an Air Force something-something sergeant, he told her one reason he fell for her was because she reminded him of Wonder Woman. Said he could totally see her in the costume.
Of course, he turned out to be a total shit, but hey.
J
Amy, yep. Also in a "I can't stop laughing" sort of way as well
bc, you crack me up. :)
*releases ergo from lasso*
my goodness, this golden lasso really does work!
hmmmm....
now, where's mayo....?
;D
OP J, that was really lame of him.
Night, Amy, our little tater tot! Sweet (potato) dreams!
(sorry, couldn't resist)
J
actually, the costume ain't so bad once you get used to it.
*wiggles a little*
*looks for next target*
Ok, I think it's time for...
PILLOW FIGHT IN THE COMMON ROOM!
*whaps BC with large foam-filled pillow*
HA! GOTCHA!
J
Ha ha thanks squeak squeak :D
OP J, how could you?! *Goes to get a pillow of her own. Sneaks up behind J and whacks her with TWO pillows*
WHACK! >:D
Just wanted to let you guys know that my power might be going out, due to the weather. So in case if I don't respond to any comments, it's because of the weather.
You better watch out, BC, L's got a decorative pillow...and she knows how to use it!
Watch, either Mayo or SS will show up just as one of us swings, and BAM! We'll knock 'em out.
What do we do then? Should we run away? Blame it on the Vultures? Try to revive them?
...I volunteer to revive SS. After all, I DO know mouth-to-mouth...:D
HEY WONDER TJ! *whap*
J
a pillow fight?
ok wait wait! let me change out of the wonder woman costume!
*quickly spins in the middle of the room*
because pillow fighting in that costume was just too stereotypical male fantasy to be allowed.
*grabs cushion off couch*
*slings it at j.*
*ducks just in time*
Oooh, good shot, TJ, almost got me!
*crashbangtinkle*
Aw maaaaan, what did you hit?
*peers down at shards on floor*
Uh...Ergo...do you still have the edit-cray ard-cay? We, uh, might need to replace something...
J
wait.
*looks down at clothing*
*embarrassed to see she's wearing a wwii-era navy uniform, with a badge that reads "d. prince"*
oops. guess i wasn't paying attention when i changed just now.
*sheepish grin*
*re-spins*
*emerges wearing usual togs*
*phew* that's better,
now, who's next?
what did i break?
it wasn't...that one thing was it?
because...
um...
i can't afford to replace that.
Just make me a list and I'll haed to the shops tomorrow
*grabs dustpan*
*smacks BC in the head with floral cushion on the way past*
http://ravenblackhardt.
buzznet.com/user/photos/
mcr/?id=28446681#usersubnav
Who is she??
It seems to be just us, I think, TJ. We need more victims--uh, I mean, participants--for our pillow fight.
Where'd everybody go?
J
lol anon, that's a dj or vj from norway, i think? it was a kiss or charity thing, if i recall.
*smacks J upside the head and runs behind armchair *
ok! back to the pillow fight!
en garde, j.!
*brandishes pillow, tassels dangling threateningly*
yeah anon I remember that, it was a charity thing
*pretends to gasp* Ergo, how could you?! *Grabs a few more pillows, and then chases both Ergo and J throughout the kitchen*
hehe
whoa, ergo! sneak attack!
you're dangerous! :D
*Grabs extra pillows, then throws them directly in TJ's direction*
hee hee
YOW! Ergo, you are gonna PAY for that one!
*picks up smallish, behind-the-neck pillow and throws it at Ergo*
And TJ, no, it wasn't the ONE THING, it was the OTHER ONE. Besides, we've got the *whispers* credit card so that we can get a new one. Heehee!
J
cute pic, though.
*stands against doorjamb, pillows in both hands*
*runs from BC*
*ducks beneath chair back *
*commando crawls with cushion min mouth to end closest to TJ*
BANZAIIII!!!!!!
*flicks pillow into her belly while rolling behind other sofa*
*drops pillows in order to grab the ones bc tossed*
oh, the other thing? then i don't feel so bad. that was just butt ugly.
*shakes head at the male taste in decor*
*jumps toward bc with a high-pitched xena yell*
yiyiyiyiyiyiyiyi!
*smacks her across the back with both pillows*
wha-ha! take that bc!
you're next ergo!
you're going dooowwwwwwn!
*employs hug fu techniques to dosge flying pillows and cross the room back to ergo's side*
pillow to the face!!!
*pooomp!*
*Turns to the nearest closet and discovers a whole pile of pillows. Picks at least three or four of them up quietly, then sneaks up behind TJ, smacking behind her head with the largest pillow BC has*
*Then, follows Ergo and hits her with at least two pillows, but quickly leaves before Ergo notices*
he he
*grabs duvet of bed in closest bedroom*
*jumps and wraps up J and pushes her onto floor*
*stands a la lion hunter with kill*
HA HAAAAAAAAAA !!
oooof!
*pillow to face*
ooof ooof!
*looks around*
BC I know that was you!!
what the...?
oh bc, you're in for it now! :D
*grabs a pillow off the floor and lobs it straight across the room*
direct hit!
*raise hands, makes crowd noise*
*L jumps out from behind the pantry door, whacks BC with her "Angel" pillow*
Man, L got some "whack" on that one!
Say, uh, Mayo? Do you look at all the charges on the Visa bill each month, or do you just pay the amount due and go on? Cause, well, there was this massive sale on at the Mall...and, uh, we all kinda got carried away...jeans, shirts, shoes, makeup, you know...
Hope you don't mind...
J
Ergo, hee hee.
Squeak squeak, you are SO gonna get it now!
*Grabs two pillows from the nearest couch and throws them in the air, while using her legs to kick them towards squeak squeak.*
Direct hit! I got you now ! >:)
Was that the woman at Maxwell's anon?
Oh that's it! Now it's on!
*Rapidly throws extra pillows at L. Then surprises her by sneaking up on her and whooping her head with the biggest pillow*
WHACK! >:D
*knocked over by the mach 10 pillows*
*sits up, hair all in disarray, face obscured*
wha happened?
Anons, why do you care anyways? That was last year
*spins in center of room tossing small throw cushions at everyone*
OOPS!
*grabs really valuable looking vase and carefully moves it to another room*
*finds 5 foot long body pillow*
*christens it Ray*
"RAY ATTAAAACK !!!"
*swings pillow around head and smacks BC*
hey, 1:21 anon. that pic was of a dj.
in.
norway.
and are you aware that you entered in the middle of a pillow fight?
*picks up big soft floor cushion and slings it across the room at the anon*
wha-ha!!
oh yeah, baby! i got you, but good!
*hehehehehe*
*mmph mm mmf uf mmer!*
*wriggles around on floor, trying to dislodge duvet from head*
*MM! MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!*
(translation:
"Get me out of here!"
"L! HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLP!")
J
Well squeak squeak, we threw a lot of pillows at you ^_^
*Throws another one at OP J and Ergo*
*In complete desperation, BC discovers more pillows strewn across the floor, and also notices a neck pillow. She picks them up, and rapidly tosses them against TJ, Ergo, and OP J*
*Then grabs a comforter and wraps it around TJ* muhaha
Hey girls
Can't stay. Just want to say goodnight then leave my message for Mayo.
Love ya all.
yeah, you did, bc -- but i survived!
i am a survivor!!!
*rocky dance*
Hey ya Mayo
Just wanted to say thanks again for stopping by and letting us know you’re okay. We do worry our pretty little heads over you!
So Toujours and I have started to post our “creative endeavor” on your blog. Just remember you said it was okay. Rethinking that one are you? Come on you know you’ve always secretly wanted to be in a gothic novel. The Dark Lord Mayo!!
Stay in your strong place. You know the Lovelies are pulling for you!
Elena
hey elena! watch out for
*ducks*
flying pillows!
hey bc, d'you like how i squirmed out of your blanket attack?
iamsogreat! iamsogreat! iamsogreat!
:D
*boofs anon with Ray pillow*
*releases J*
*runs*
Hey Elena! Wish you could stay for the pillow fight!
*gets pillow to booty, not so gently*
Ok, who did that? WHO? Come on, 'fess up, it can only be one of the three of you!
*holds duvet in front of self like a shield, glad that L ran by and unrolled her*
J
*hits elena with ray pillow*
sorry!
ddin't see you there until I was in mid swing
*looks sheepish*
have a good night
*ducks BC's pillows*
OP J, that was SO NOT me!!! Take care Elena
*BC runs to get another comforter and duvet to wrap around TJ, so she can look like a burrito lol*
*But also find some more blankets for Ergo and J*
hee hee
ow!
*stops dancing and clutches at leg*
ow ow ow!
time out! time out everybody!
*hobbles over to the couch*
i got a leg cramp!
ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow
Yeah, Ergo, you BETTER run! I've got a couch cushion with your name on it!
*chases Ergo through the common room*
J
*hits TJ to stop her dance*
mwahahahahaha
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
*running around room being chased by J*
*holds up cloth to sheild herself*
*realises it's underwear left from panty raid*
Waitaminute, guys, did you hear something?
*creaky floorboard overhead*
Do you think we woke Mayo up? Is he gonna be mad that we've, uh, wrecked the den?
*starts picking up pillows hastily and drops them onto couches, chairs, kitchen counter, in fireplace*
Uh-oh, better not put that there...
J
Underwear? Neat! I wonder who it belongs to?
*Hides in the bedroom while clutching some pillows, preparing to pounce on either Ergo, TJ, or J*
*is wearing an evil smile*
*sitting on the couch, massaging calf muscle*
do you guys realize we've been having this pillow fight for an entire hour?
that's awesome. :D
Wrecking the den? I hope not. I'm having too much fun right now ^_^
Yeah yeah, an hour, TJ, that's fab.
WILL SOMEBODY HELP ME CLEAN UP THIS MOTHERFUCKING MESS?!
Shit, I think he's coming down the stairs! HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
J
*stands still listening*
*stuffs leopard print mens undies in pocket*
*suddenly realises she has men's leopard print undies in her pocket!*
lol, okay okay, calm down j. like mayo's really going come down here...
*another creak from overhead*
well, then again!
*jumps up and grabs comforter off the floor*
*starts picking up cushions and takes duvets back to bedrooms*
SJIT!!
*nearly trips over BC*
Goodness you gave me a heart attack!
*Helps OP J clean up the mess as fast as BC could*
Sorry Ergo!
*goes to replace seat cushion on the couch*
*pauses, and pulls out a green flannel shirt, smelling aintly o cigarette smoke*
you don't think...?
*glances upstairs*
*tries to imagine lord mayo in flannel*
naaaaaah.
*replaces cushion and tosses shirt in closet*
SJIT = SHIT said while falling over
*stands photo frames back up*
*plumps cushions*
*tells knipp knapp and knopp it's safe to come out from makeshift barricade of lint beneath sofa*
Hi everyone
Wow! trying to see thru the maze of feathers.
(runs to room and gets big body pillow)
swings at the lot of you, while you are bending over cleaning up.(evil laugh)
Looks like you all had a good time, it is nice to see.
`sc
Uhhhhhhhhh, Mayo? L wanted me to leave this for you:
"I have been in my room all night, reading, and I know nothing about the damage from the, um, uh, um, rabid ducks that got in when we weren't looking--I mean when THEY weren't looking, sorry. So, uh...how ya doin'? Thank you so much for coming down earlier and letting us all know how you're feeling. You know we worry about your ass. And the rest of you, too. :) So, I'm gonna...shut the door to my room and go off to Sleepytown. Hope you have a sweet and peaceful night. I love you.
"SS, hope you are well tonight and taking care of yourself. Have sweet dreams, the kind where you smile in your sleep. Love you too.
"To the rest of the Family, I'm so tired. So, I am going upstairs to bed and will talk with you all tomorrow. Have a good night. Love you all.
"Pactum Serva.
"L."
Aaaaand...she's done. :)
J
SC, how could you?! You're so evil lol
*Smacks SC with nearby pillow, only to see feathers floating* he he
BC
hey soulconnector, you sneak! :)
*sits on arm of chair trying to look nonchalant while breathing heavily*
*has Ray pillow stashed in her bedroom*
*hopes it's a false alarm*
Goodnight L. Sweet dreams!
Yeah BC
I couldnt resist the opportunity, but you got me, good.
*fails miserably as she cops SC's pillow across the back*
Oh you are asking for it!
*pegs throw cushion in SC"s headal viscinity*
aawww, rabid ducks. yeah, that's what happened!
*quack*
Ha ha! I knew I would SC >:)
goodnight L!!
woah! wait a minute
You are all attacking me, uses big body pillow as a shield.
feel alittle dizzy from the headshot, EP
tj
quack!
Is there some kind of transformations going on here?
turnabout is fair play, soulconnector! ;)
*plumps down on the couch*
man, that was fun.
and the dustkin's lint barrier was sooo cute! >.<
Thanks, you guys, sorry I got a little hinky.
*hears that one creaky step on the staircase creaking*
I think we got done just in time, luckily for us. :)
Think I'll go to bed, too. Thanks BC, Ergo, TJ for a ton o' fun! Next time: STRIP POKER! With special invitations to Mayo and SS, of course. ;)
Love/Hope/Faith
J
nope, ergo! i'm not a shape-shifter!
that's your department! *heh*
you gonna call for some pizza now?
sorry SC!
but if you walk into a pillow fight..
*sits on arm of chair again*
*looks nonchalant*
*wipes feathers from corner of mouth*
*and out of hair*
*gives up on nonchalantness*
*flops into chair*
So SC how are you?
Do you have a body pillow too in reality?
I do, I LOVE it
(and it is not called Ray lol)
good night, j. this was a blast! :D
have some sweet dreams! ♥
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