The click of the door brought comfort to my well worn ears and my heart sick chest. My throat, raw from futile attempts at making myself heard, was bleeding. Alone in the center of the room I am suddenly cold and tired. The heat having been drained from the room at your departure and every ounce of energy I had was expended to keep myself from begging you to stay. You had to go.
Then, relief washes over me in its sickening way. I am suddenly aware of the emptiness of my stomach and my sudden urge to vomit. To dry heave the words I did not say. “I am sorry, don’t go.” Instead, I sit. Right there, I sit right in the middle of the room that heard my pleas for you to leave, my pleading for you to stop believing and start listening to the truth. “Why don’t you hear me?...I have done such terrible things.”
Sitting there, alone with my shame, I realized I had let this drag out far too long.
p.s. make sure it is so loud that they have no choice but to listen.
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«Oldest ‹Older 1001 – 1200 of 1654 Newer› Newest»Anon? Where are you now? Surely THIS isn't boring to you, is it?!
Yeah, Pantera, I agree.
I like having Kool Aid, and Random DJ;s and stuff, but it's easy to make a sign-in name and still have fun.
Like I've said before, it's the anons that start to freak people out that bother me. A lot of us, Mayo and SS included come here for relaxation and comic relief. When you're always being harassed and denigrated, it's hard to let loose and have a ball.
-A
Anon, you fucking shit-ass!
Amyranth said...
Anon616 -OM NOM NOM NOM.
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Hi Amy! Is that a secret code or are we meditating again.....searching for inner peace and tranquility ;-)
Do ya'll want me to light the incense now? I also have peppermint! :D
We may need a couple of strands of garlic for this one!
BC
I think some of these anons need a reality check big time!
Anon 616
OM NOM NOM NOM
I'm signing off and going to bed...
Good Night, BC, Amy, and KD. And TJ, if you're still around...
Wendy, I'll talk to you tomorrow!
Anon there is a difference between saying you feel ignored and say you want a person to stop doing special things for a friends.
People are going to feel ignored for what ever reason. But to make SS feel guilty because he did something nice for another person is low. I don't see how you can't see that.
And it was Miss t who put up the post you are referring to. Which is why your comments and some of the others piss me off even more.
miss t has a very big heart and was worry about a friend and now her comment is being use to upset the people in here. But most importantly it is being used to upset a person who did something very nice for her.
Mya said...
We may need a couple of strands of garlic for this one!
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But we wouldn't want to keep the vampires with souls out, Mya!!!
Some of them have fought half the demons in hell to regain their souls. There must be a better way.
Hmmm.......
Goodnight Mya!
Anon616, if they want in here, they'll have to fight the other half too them.
-A
Goodnight Mya. Sweet dreams. Hi MJ.
Amy, exactly. As soon as an anon arrives, you begin to tense up. I hate feeling that way. By the way, are you eating something? :D
KD, definitely!
P.S. How come we don't invent anon repellent?
Hello BC
Goodnight Mya! Talking tomorrow sounds good to me :)
Amy: those 'nom nom noms' are adorable!!!
Hello Martha Jones! How are you and the doctor tonight?
BC: EVIL anon repellent, right? I can't help it. I have a thing for nameless strays.......
Pantera, LOL!
Yeah, I was. *sheepish*
I had Swiss Steak and baked potatoes.
Actually, I have a question for you ladies.
I found out today that one of the employees who works under me is buying drugs off of another employee.
I wouldn't care if it wasn't during company time, but it is.
I DO plan to tell upper management about it, but how would you word it?
And by drugs I mean marijuana. And lots of it. The guy who bought it was stupid enough to brag to me about the giant bag of pot in his locker.
-A
The Dr is running around like a crazy mat now but he sends you a kiss.
I'm still tired but other wise I'm alright.
Anon616, that is OM NOM NOM.
Anytime I say it, it is cute animals nibbling things.
-A
Amy I think I would just flat out tell them.
Just say you have reason to believe that two employees our engaged in illegal actives during work hours.
Wendy, of course evil repellent. We must invent that! Amy, I knew it! To answer your question, I would probably tell management that one of your fellow coworkers is selling narcotics during company time. I know that is what you just said, but eh, that's my answer.
But I think it's best if you approach management and inform them in a professional manner of course. Otherwise, I think that's the best advice I can give you.
Amyranth said...
Anon616, that is OM NOM NOM.
Anytime I say it, it is cute animals nibbling things.
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It WAS a secret code! Got it NOW, thanks Amy!
I need to start taking notes ;-)
Thank the doctor for my kiss, MJ!
I really, really needed one tonight!
Pantera said...
Wendy, of course evil repellent. We must invent that! Amy, I knew it! To answer your question, I would probably tell management that one of your fellow coworkers is selling narcotics during company time.
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I agree with BC, Amy. If your supervisors find out YOU KNEW and said nothing....
Well, you could probably kiss your job goodbye too!
What the heck are your co-workers thinking? Selling and buying drugs on company time/property.
They aren't the brightest bulbs in the chandelier, are they??? SHEESH
Selling and buying drugs on company time/property.
They aren't the brightest bulbs in the chandelier, are they??? SHEESH
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Wendy, this actually made me laugh! Ha ha I suppose they are not the brightest bulbs.
I just read about what happened with Elena and her daughters today.
That's horrible!
Elena: I'm glad your children are all okay and sorry ya'll had to go through that.
I also just read about Fimble's nana. I'm so sorry for your loss Fimble.....
*big hugs for the both of you*
Pantera said...
Selling and buying drugs on company time/property.
They aren't the brightest bulbs in the chandelier, are they??? SHEESH
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Wendy, this actually made me laugh! Ha ha I suppose they are not the brightest bulbs.
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BC: They could be those bulbs that flicker off and on for awhile before eventually going out completely ;-)
Martha Jones said...
Amy I think I would just flat out tell them.
Just say you have reason to believe that two employees our engaged in illegal actives during work hours.
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Also very good advice!
Martha: What bands do you like besides MCR? Maybe we should pull out the old Kareoke (?) machine tonight....
I'm sure we could find a Pantera song or two for BC!
Wendy, ha ha I bet.
Wendy, that would be really nice. Thanks :D
BC, did you ever get to check out DOWN? Did you see the video for
On March The Saints
Wendy, I actually didn't *smiles sheepishly*
Pantera said...
Wendy, I actually didn't *smiles sheepishly*
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I love that sheepish smile BC ;-)
Click the linkie and tell me what you think. My opinion: I LOVE IT!!!
Oh, and aren't ya'll proud of me.
I can do link thing now!
:D
Wendy, yay! Maybe we should throw a party and celebrate in your honor lol
I have to admit, Phil sounds pretty good in the video, although I think he should growl more, like he used to. Also, I prefer to see him with long hair.
And, I just gave myself a deep scratch(I was scratching an itch) How lame.
Pantera said...
I have to admit, Phil sounds pretty good in the video, although I think he should growl more, like he used to. Also, I prefer to see him with long hair.
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*takes bow* Thank you BC, I knew you would be proud of me ;-)
One can never have to many Phil growls, LOL!!! I like the longer hair too. At least he is letting it grow out again *big smile*
I'm having serious issues with blogger tonight. I think I'll have to sign off for now; but I'll talk to you later, love!
Goodnight to anyone else still lurking and good morning to those arriving!
Love and hugs to all,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Goodnight Wendy. In case you come back here later on, I'll be sleeping, so hopefully I will see you here tomorrow.
I shall be lurking at some sites for now.
Yeah, I think it's bed for me.
Too much of this Internet V.S Scientology stuff for me. It's way too interesting to see what these guys thought!
Goodnight everyone.
Mayo, I'll be here in the morning. Every morning.
-A
Oh, and by the way:
United as 1. Divided by 0.
-A
Goodnight Amy. Sweet dreams. It's time for bed as well. Goodnight Mayonaise, sweet dreams to you. Goodnight SS, please don't let those dumb fuckers drive you away. You are too much of a dear and caring friend to allow their ridiculous words to drag you down. You are better than that.
Goodnight BlogBelieve Family, lurkers.
morning all. i can't say i've totally caught up but i know whats going on i think anyway??!!
anyway hello mayo you ok?
hello SS you ok?
please don't give up on us we will sort it out as best we can.
family love to you all!
saturday hurray!
will pop in later and say hello.
Gah, what a day, huh?
Elena, I'm glad your girls are both alright. Let us know what happened (when you know), okay? And please, don't blame yourself for trying to show them a life with no fear. Panic in groups is contagious, and it;s very easy to get caught up in it. *hugz*
Fimmy, I'm so sorry to hear about your Nana. I was very close to mine, and I still feel her loss almost four years later. I'm there for you if you need me.
BC, good to have you back! ^_^
And Entropy, my wifey. ::smooch:: Are we still married?
MJ, how are you feeling?
I'm not even going to bother addressing the Anon-My-Asses, since you guys have all said what needed to be said. But nobody said that I couldn't dedicate a song to these creepy, pathetic, soulless little meffers. ^_~
Godsmack 'Whatever'
WE MISS Miss T!!!
I'm off to bed now. G'nite!
*hugz & ♥ to everybody*
Good morning, people!
I'm sorry I fell asleep last night.
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Wow, it's so quiet here. Everyone's fallen asleep.
Ssshhh
Counting on nothing,the numbers get higher
Blinded by reason, you're asleep at the wheel
Confused understanding, with a slip for the hold
Squeeze past the pressure, you're asleep at the wheel
A magical moment
Is it too much of a good thing
Recycled in memory was
It too much of a good thing
Why can't you remember
Is it too much of a good thing
Preserved in it's danger
You're asleep at the wheel
Blank stare and a whisper, but who are you judging
I thought you were different
You're asleep at the wheel
A special assignment
Is it too much of a good thing
Unlocked underpressure
Was it too much of a good thing
Confined unforgiveness
Is it too much of a good thing
A new kind of danger, you're asleep at the wheel
Hope in revision, slight miscalculation
It all goes in stages, you're asleep at the wheel
A blank stare and a whisper
I thought you were different
But who are you judging
I thought you were different
You're asleep at the wheel
Asleep at the wheel - Suicidal Tendencies
Good morning Mayo, SS, SisMidnite, FASC, BC and Amy (who are probably snoozing by now), friends, family, brave and kind souls of blog believe......
How is everyone today? As always, I hope everyone is well, happy and feeling loved!
I returned not only to say that, but also to tackle SIOBHAN!!!!!
MWAH, MWAH, MWAH ;-)
To ponder on this serene (I hope) Saturday:
"People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
Bonnie Jean Wasmund
Love & Hugs to all!
6/Wendy
Sing a lullaby to me Siobhan. I can't sleep - AGAIN *sigh*
friday night.
mayo,
it was an uneasy day for me. my last at work, and though i'm glad to leave it behind, i was sad to say good-bye to my co-workers, and that surprised me. i hadn't expected to feel so solemn. once i was home, i ended up reading my journal from the last year of my marriage. it was a good balance to the optimism of the night before, a good reminder to stay a tiny bit wary around my ex, but obviously, not really a good read. hard memories in that volume. and then tonight's noise and ire and anons. i couldn't even linger as ecto-tj.
mayo, i don't know where you are in your head right now. i don't know if the pain of this entry is still lingering with you, or if the act of writing it was enough of a release. maybe your surroundings are enough of a distraction to enable you to regain some balance. i hope so, because this blog of your's, before all else, should be a place of refuge for you. it is for so many of us, but it's your blog, and if we allow the anons to goad us into chaotic behavior that disrupts the benefits of this place, then we have failed you.
that's how i felt tonight.
i'm sorry, mayo. this place is important to me, and i know it is important to you. i don't want that to change. this blog should end only because you decide it is finished, not because it has cracked apart from internal and external stresses.
it's late for me, i'm tired, and worn out. i haven't fully realized that i don't have to go back to work next week. i haven't fully understood that today i crossed the threshold into the unknown, again. i'm unsettled and unbalanced, and found no security in your home tonight.
our fault.
tomorrow will be better. it must.
today i was given daffodils as a going away gift. they're my favorite spring flower, and always speak to me of beginnings. are there any flowers yet where you are, mayo? just beginning to bloom, or perhaps displayed in bright bundles? look for them. flowers always have a smile for you.
good night, mayo
I didn't forget you TJ even though it's 10pm and I just got back from fishing, I couldn't see if it had been posted for you
EP xx
This is for you Wendy!
Have sweet dreams.
Dream A Little Dream
Hello Ecto TJ and ERGO!!
Well, if Siobhan is not available so sing a lullaby, perhaps you can tell me a FISH TALE Ergo. Bedtime stories are always good!
:D
SisMidnite: I concur, we do miss MISS T!
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
I'm here, Wendy!
*waves desperately with a red handkerchief*
Ella and Louie!!!
Thank you so much Siobhan!
I think I shall sleep now.....
I'll 'dream a little dream' for you too :)
Siobhan said...
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
I'm here, Wendy!
*waves desperately with a red handkerchief*
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Umm.....okay, that red hankerchief flying through the air woke me up AGAIN!
Make up your mind woman. Do you want to sleep or not? LOL
Aww, I'm sorry! Go back to sleep, dear!
*puts handkerchief back in pocket so it won't distract Wendy from falling asleep*
Okay, I'm going listen/watch Ella again and I will repeat to myself (over and over and over)..... I am getting sleepy, very sleepy.....
For Siobhan and Egro and anyone else who wants to a 'taste' of Mardi Gras in New Orleans:
Barkus Mardi Gras Doggie Style
and
Mardi Gras HUMAN (sort of) style
I am off to dreamland (I hope) now.
Have a great day everyone!
Thanks for the links Wendy.
Next Thursday starts the Cologne Carnival.
People celebrate it until Wednesday 6th.
Actually, it already started on November 11th at 11:11 am.
We call it the 5th season.
Carnival in Cologne
hehe
What the heck happened here?
*pulls out of a very handy bucket assorted toilet cleaners, disinfectants, air fresheners, thick cloths and scrubbing brushes*
*snaps on a pair of industrial thickness rubber gloves*
It looks like a fair bit of sh*t has been thrown around Mayo's today.
*gets down to bizzyness and starts freshening the place up*
Morning all.
I was just on a trip to the
future. I found these very nice
creatures called the ood. So PP
you don't have to clean up the
shit. Cause now we have a cleaning crew.
*hums ever so badly to self while scrubbing, but enthusiastically none the less*
Fimble, so sorry to hear about your nana passing away. Especially with you so far away in the States, it must be very hard to hear family news like that.
*hugs*
Mustard,
nicely put. Everything.
Ergo,
Happy Australia Day!, for the 26th.
Hope you caught a big one and knew what to do with it.
(catch and release of course!)
*even with clarification still makes fishing sound dirty*
Lewis, I hope things are better for you today. Thanks for pointing out about the messages. I've fixed that.
Farawaysoclose,
"forgot to do the guys.
Mayo's done. SS's turn next."
PP that comment is just too good!!
Does this officially make me an attention whore in light of todays events O_o
Anima, FS, S&V20, I felt my heart pumping as fast as yours when I read your entreaties. Thank you for your efforts. Glad princess didn't faint, though I'm sure it would have been very dignified and elegant.
Anon, I find it hard to be believe you are family. You know we don't air our laundry in public. This is Mayo's and we try to keep it good here. There are other places like DM to do that in, or by e-mail if you have real worries. If it is my mistake and you are we a reg we are mostly all contactable if you have something bothering you. Feel free to use mine if you want.
Now at the risk of being an attention whore...
Mayo,
I guess jelly fighting would have been preferable to sh*tty words being flung around.
Maybe you could leave some packets handy in the kitchen pantry for next time.
Hi Martha.
Thank goodness for cleaners. Some of it is sticking and won't budge.
*wipes face and puts down scrubbing brush*
*ewww, didn't take gloves off first*
*wipes face with disinfectant*
*now smelling of lemons and Mayo's floor*
Are you in a spaceship?
Or just a little spaced out?
*attention whoring number two effort coming up...*
A little bit of both PP.
Morning all. Here's to the start of a wonderful new day.
A girl can dream can't she?
Yes she can Hello Elena. I hope all is well with your family.
I will return in about 4 minutes .
Later
Okay fine Martha. I'm watching the clock.
SS,
Your reaction was not unexpected from what we have come to know of you these last few months.
We know you would never intentionally do something to alienate or hurt someone.
Your blogs and comments are all about inclusiveness, giving, humour, truth, believing and sharing.
Your sadness hurts.
That someone here felt left out can be resolved by all. There are many avenues of help if someone asks for it. It is not your responsibility alone.
If you don't mind I've picked up 'Dominic' and his name is being said at my home until, or if, you would like to speak out again. I hope MissT won't mind.
Repeated for emphasis,
You have done nothing wrong.
I'm putting faith in the fact that although your location notes are missing, your blogs are still up, and that we will have read you again here at Mayo's.
We'll see you around when you are ready, okay.
(because all you need is...)
Love
(and time, and chocolate, and friends, and life)
PP
*burns incense to cleanse air*
Hi elena!
Saturday for you, thank goodness. You'll be pleased to have your girls at home after the events at school the other day.
MJ,
What the heck did you have on your cereal this morning/
Well, that would be ? not /
*starts packing up bucket and brushes*
*goes into Mayo's spacious bathroom and flushes remnants of sh*tty day down the loo*
Okay, out of here I guess.
Catch you all on the sunny side of Sunday.
PP
xoxox
Good Morning, Guys! I don't usually catch everyone so early, but, hey, first time for everything!
PP, I was inspired by what you said about adding "Dominic" at your home until SS came back with it, so I made a few changes to our blog page too. Including the sidebar.
Check it out if you get the chance.
Oh, and it's going to take some STRONG anti-vulture disinfectent to take care of the crap that was slung in here yesterday. Be careful!
Elena,
Honey, how are you? How are your girls?
Love,
L.
SS,
I hope you are taking advantage of the pool house. Remember, it is a really great place to go and relax and take calming breaths.
I know you will be back. I have faith in you. You taught us how to deal with the vultures. It's because of you that we can stand together and that we know we are better than them.
YOU brought that to us. And we are thankful more than you will ever know.
I can only imagine how hurt and sad you felt last night, it's like no matter how hard you try, someone will take a kind gesture and turn it into what ever they want.
No one is ever going to be 100 percent happy with everyone, no matter what they do. But it is the intentions, the love behind the gestures, the fact that it touches so many that means everyting.
There are towels in the back linen closet at the pool house, and we left some books and movies, ok?
Oh, don't touch the DVD's in the unmarked boxes, though. It would just be best if you didn't. :)
We'll all get together and have some pizza and a HUGE box of chocolate sent over later today. And if you need to order more, contact Ergo, cause she has the, uh, you know, resources, to order for you over the phone.
(Mayo is going to kill us when he gets that Visa bill...NAHH. He loves us too much, right, Mayo?)
We love you, SS.
Come home when you can.
Pactum Serva.
L.
*runs through mayo's house*
hey guys,
this is a flying hello. i have to watch my niece. thanks for all the kind words. means a lot.
i have to go but i will be back later on ok.
please take care and have fun
toodles
xx
*runs out of the house in shock seeing fimbles house wrecked by a 2 year old hyper from raiding the chocolate jar*
I like Vaseline!
sdock10 said...
"Please pass to Mayo:
Mayo,
How are you? I hope everything is going good with you. Me? I'm okay. I just woke up like only 45 mins ago and have already had my breakfast. Just waiting to see what the day will bring. It's cold and rainy here...
Mayo, I hope you have day where everything gets worked out and figured out. Just like a puzzle...you have all the pieces and they all fit.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Once you start, it's hard to stop"
Hello all I'm just pasting through. I have been drafted to go shopping with a family member. I hope to be back soon.
later
Good Morning guys.
Anyone out there?
:)
SS, precious,
The morning's light brings a hope that you are feeling calmer, less saddened, over what transpired here yesterday.
The "Anon" situation has grown completely out of hand. For myself, I don't mind being attacked, because I know they have nothing to back up what they accuse us of. But once they start attacking our friends, well, I'm going to come out not just swinging, but biting as well.
I know you were hurt by their words. I hurt for you, when L read me what you'd said and told me what you'd done. All I wanted to do at that point was wrap my arms around you and hold you. You don't deserve to be treated that way, because you've never done anything to hurt any of us.
See, that's what both saddens and angers me. You have always been kind, supportive, loyal, encouraging, and loving TO EVERYONE HERE. It seems as if some have forgotten that, or have chosen to ignore it, or just plain don't give a fuck. If the first is true, then they need to be reminded, which I will be more than happy to do. If the second is true, I pity them because they're missing out on a wonderful individual--you.
But if the third is true, they need to get the motherfucking fuck out now.
Darlin', I love you. Remember that whenever some vulture starts in on you. I love you, and I'm here for you, whenever, however, whyever. (Yeah, I know that last one isn't really a word, but I'm on truckloads of sinus meds, so please cut me some slack. :))
You take care of yourself, and know that I'm there with you, holding you close, giving you my strength.
Your true Family loves you. They are all thinking of you, too, and hoping you're feeling better. Feel all the love vibes coming your way? That's all of us. :)
I will talk with you later, alright? Try to smile today, even if it's just a small one.
Love and kisses to keep you warm and safe
J
SS!
We hear you!!=]
Really, I love you sweetie!
You are such an amazing person, and you can't let anyone tell you what to do.
Seriously dude, I love you!
*hug*
Oh dear, I must explain my outburst of happy.
SS, thank you for putting 'Dominic' back up. Really that means alot to everyone, especially Miss Tottenham. =]
<3
&& 'Because it really is all about the geese'
=]
That's cute. I really just want to squeeze you SS. Really. I've been feeling down like shit today, you helped lift my spirits up.
<3
Thank you for your honks of love and concern. Never doubt that I hear you, even if I'm not always around - I am honored to be part of such an amazing gaggle.
Sdock says:
"honking from the rear"
We hear you, my friend.
She's locked out on the porch, and wanted me to send you this message. =[
Hey Bubbles, I'm here on a quick "love-by". How're things?
Elena, I hope you and your girls are ok today. There are some shitty people out in the world, and we got to encounter them both in real life and in BlogBelieve.
I love all you guys.
Mayo, hope you're doing better too, my brother. Like my momma says, If it ain't one thing, it's two. Which is sort of weird, but it sums it up. BTW, did Janis' lyrics help you in any way? I'm curious now to see how they may have related to your life.
I/we will be back later. Take care, everyone!
love, hope, faith
J
Blogger sdock10 said...
ph,
Awwwh, no he keeps changing it. Just go over there and tell him we're honking with him and sending him hugs and much faith, hope, and love. Also, tell him the Princess can be revived now. It was touch and go there for a moment.
11:35 AM, January 26, 2008
Okay, another message from the porch. =]
I'm so glad you brought the loving back Shitsubou Shita, just before I left for my guitar lessons too.^_^
You make me giggle.
<3
OPJ, *sigh*
I'm alright, how are you? I had a little melt-down yesterday night. I just sat in my room and cried, and listened to music, and practiced my guitar. Only god knows why it happened. Maybe stress, and pent up emotions?
I hope you have a great day today, I'll see you around tonight?
Send my love to Opal! Love you both
<3
Precious,
It is an honor to have you in our gaggle. We will cut out of formation for you anytime. We will never leave you behind.
You know I love you, right?
J
"Honking from the rear.."
Uhhh, do you have gas, my dear?
We're all honking with you. I think I'm babbling now with overjoy and happiness.
RAWR.
=]
Hello Blogpeeps!
I was going to do something today that required changing out of my pyjamas but whatever...
Everyone OK?
Kass xx
Hey Kass. =]
I'm alright, how are you? Lucky you, sitting in your pj's! I must go to guitar lessons, then work, then out bowling with my friends!
Sista Midnite, as far as I know, we are. Unless you want to marry that hot chick you may or may not be having an affair with. Let me know, chicka.
I must go and put my mask.. err.. I mean.. make-up on right now. ;)
Everyone, have a wonderful and joyous day. ^_^
Mayo,
I hope that you are alright. I'm still concerned about you. Lots of kerfuffle going on lately, and through it all, I'm still very worried. Remember, no regrets. Everything happens for a reason. At work, I'll keep you in mind everytime someone orders mayonnaise on the side. =]
<3
SS, I think I've said enough today. Pactum Serva. <3
Lots of love;
[HUGS&KISSES]
- 007
<3
Bubbles, it's ok, honey, crying is sometimes the best thing you can do. I've done a bit of it in my time. ;) We love you, you know. *hugs and kisses*
"Do you have gas?" Opal and I laughed so hard at that! Only you, Bubbles. She's doing a lot better, thanks for asking.
SS, I'm tellin' you, you ARE one mighty fine goose. Maybe I should start calling you my "little gosling" instead of "Precious".
Wait, baby, don't start gagging...here, have a bucket...aw, maaaaaaaaan...
I kid.
Hey Kass! I'm in my jammies too!
J
Bubbles, it's ok, honey, crying is sometimes the best thing you can do. I've done a bit of it in my time. ;) We love you, you know. *hugs and kisses*
That's one thing that I've learned throughout my life. Crying is one of the best medicines. =]
"Do you have gas?" Opal and I laughed so hard at that! Only you, Bubbles. She's doing a lot better, thanks for asking.
I'm glad Opal's doing better! Tell her I miss you dearly! lol. That's what I thought when I read that on SS's page. =]
I'm off, really. =]
<3
I forgot to smooch you!
*smooches Wifey*
HI PH,
Good to see that 'Dominic' is back up again, and that my damn computer actually managed to load SS's blog at all!
I'm currently watching the FA Cup football with a latte and carrot cake when I was planning on going to the gym - exactly the opposite of actual exercise.
I really should have some more guitar lessons too, because I'm still a little way off Eruption...
Have a nice day!
Love,
Kass xx
Hey OPJ,
I love these days when you just do nothing and lie about in your own filth watching bad TV and eating junk. Apparently it's healthy on occasion because it stops your body going into 'starvation mode' - which constantly dieting would do - and allows your 'good' skin bacteria to regroup against the next onslaught of anti-bacterial shower gel.
My excuse anyway...
Yoda sometimes calls me her "Preciousss", but in a slightly disturbing Gollum-type way!
Kass xx
Kass,
I'm with you. We'll go with that explanation. It sounds so much more plausible than "I felt like a lazy fuck today and don't want to get dressed." Oh, and junk food IS good for you. I mean, why else would it taste so good?
So, are you hanging out in your room at Mayo's, or are you in one of the common areas? Wasn't it nice of Mayo to install TVs in all the rooms? With satellite, no less! And DVD players. He's such a bunny.
Wendy, when you're around, can you update the list of rooms and occupants? I've lost track. I know that L has 30, I have 26, Elena's in 3, Sis M is in 27, Smoke's in 20, SDock's in 10, but I've forgotten the rest. Thanks!
J
Thank you for putting Dominic back up.
Hello all. I'm sitting here waiting for my family member to get ready and I decide to take a peck at the blog.
Well I hope that the rest of the day is like this.
I'm off for a while, guys. L and/or I will be back later tonight for more fun and games!
Bubbles, I know you're gone, but I hope your day is better than yesterday. *hugs and kisses*
Kass, enjoy your jammy day! Talk to you later, ok?
Mayo, hang in there, honey. We're here when you need us. *hugs and kisses for you too*
SS, baby, just got one thing to say to you right now:
"HONK!"
See y'all later! Love you!
J
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Elena said...
I can't get there. Could someone please post for me?
SS
The mouse says thank you!
11:59 AM, January 26, 2008
mustardisbetter said...
Same here, Elena!
Can someone tell him I said thank you?
12:05 PM, January 26, 2008
smoke&venom20 said...
Damn it man!
It sucks not being able to get to Mayo's.
Whoever can post over there, tell him I hear him and I'm glad he's okay.
PLEASE???!!?!?!?!?
12:07 PM, January 26, 2008
mustardisbetter said...
The Giggly Gaggle:
This is an excellent time right now! Dominic's name is back up and SS is honking that little heart out. We have support. We are our own support, but sometimes we waver. We always need a 55th leg.
Let's step back and think. What we have here is so far beyond amazing, people will never be able to comprehend. We have a love for each other that runs deep. When one of us is down, the rest of us are down, too. But, we will pick each other back up.
Let this serve as a reminder as to how it feels to almost lose one of our own. That was a rough patch. We don't ever want to see that happen again.
We stick together. We do as the OPs said and if an Anonymous comes in here with hurtful words to say to us, we remain the bigger person. We don't let them have the satisfaction, because we are SO much better than that.
We have people who believe in us, and we believe in each other.
Let's start this shit new. "Let's go back to the middle of the day that's starts it all."
NOW! ;)
12:22 PM, January 26, 2008
I'm off. Later you guys
the tornado child is asleep for not long bt i had a quick peek, and yes i know i am addicted
ss
i am beaming and proud to call you my friend. that one act you have done means the world to a lot of people here. i am speachless.
thank you, just think you.
my first smile of the day and i think i will wear it with a sparkle.omg i am speachless.
ok here we go
HONK
i am glad to see you flying back in formation.
the present you left for us at christmas, please please the link and see it. For the love of geese i hope you hear the honks there as well ;)
thank you
fim
xx
entropy are you here hun?
is anyone here?
What you want, ho bag?
How's the kid? She tiring you out?
SS,
Thank you for hearing US.
-Amyranth
hey there amy, got any tasty food today
entropy, well she is tiring me out bless her. we made some hand print painting and she decided to eat it. then she decided to smack me in the face with painted hands. have paint everywhere but like i said, her nickname is the tornado
how is your saturday going on the west side
Hey Fim. I've decided I'm not cooking today, we're going out for dinner!
Actually, just popping in. Nobody's seen Kapu yet have they?
-A
Speak of the devil. Hey Kapu.
Yeah, really fucking random.
Not a profile anyone else would know about?
-A
Dude, that sounds like total fun. Lucky kids.
My Saturday is starting out alright, thanks.
jules is above you amy^^^ and can you bring me a doggie bag please.
jules that is random but fimble is slow today so you may have to spell it out for me. how was hula
That was me deleting my post. I weird thing just happened but it freaked me out so much that I quoted a message someone sent to me on a different website. I shouldn't have quoted it; it was something sweet and sincere that someone wrote to me.
But this person spoke very much like a certain Calaf / Spooky anon, they quoted Shakespeare, said they hoped I was "intrigued" and then signed off "Gentleman Ghost."
I guess I have BlogBelieve in the brain. It's probably just some nice dude. ^_^
Right?
what have you got planned entropy, are you going out and painting the town red?
Hey Kapu, have you checked your email today?
I sent you something hilarious!
-A
Hey Jules. Hey Amy.
Fim, there is things planned but don't know if they will fallow through. You? Anything other than babysitting?
hey Fim, Amy and E!
Well, I have pics on there. But the web site is really obscure. It's probably just me overreacting to a coincidence. Still, very nice though, and I answered him. I couldn't help but ask if I knew him from a different website. How weird would that be?
SSS: Thank you for coming back this morning. "Honking from the rear" made me LOL in ways that it perhaps should not have. ;D
I have something cute for you, S(S)S so I hope you come around later. I think you'll like it. ^_^
I'll say signed in what no one else seems to be able to: Yesterday things got so out of control because of bad timing. That anon didn't say anything that some others haven't said themselves many times. It just happened that it was just in time to totally guilt trip and bum out the person in question. I've always been pretty "aww, get over it" when people say that they don't get singled out enough or whatever, but I don't think that everyone needed to freak out so badly. Like I said, regulars have said the same thing many times--wrongly, I think, because it puts two particular people on a pedestal and puts pressure on them to measure up. That hardly seems fair.
But yet I do understand people wanting acknowledgment because those two same people are so elusive, it does tend to put a smile on one's face when they shout you out.
Having been shouted down myself for forgetting to say hello or ask after people, I understand the frustration of that side, too.
There needn't have been such drama over it. This was nothing ground breaking.
Well, I said it. I'm glad that nonsense is over.
Now Calaf, where are you?
well entropy, i am babysitting then i will get my work together and study for like 5 hours, wat a life for me hahaha. now if i was doing my ideal saturday i would be watching football, proper footbal that is. not the pansy american football hahahaha oh and entropy i have a better team.
;p
Oh, Amy, I saw that. I'll get on answering once I get Havoc back in his cage and my laundry started.
I LOLled, I really did. The funny thing is that I've never really been the one saying that, you know? But that particular, uhh, compass, always kind of points towards me regardless. It's a little freaky, you know?
But funny, and it does sort of add up. I suck at math, and even I can add those up. ^_^ Thanks for the heads up.
You give great heads-up, Amy. ;D
I've always been pretty "aww, get over it" when people say that they don't get singled out enough or whatever, but I don't think that everyone needed to freak out so badly. Like I said, regulars have said the same thing many times--wrongly, I think, because it puts two particular people on a pedestal and puts pressure on them to measure up. That hardly seems fair.
My point exactly.
Anyone wants to reply to that, feel free to email ME on it because I don't want anymore BS in this carpet. The cleaning company is going to stop coming soon.
-A
Kapu, you're welcome. My spidey senses were tingling out of control last night!
Well, it was either that or the ice cream.
I'll be around all day, so I'll chat and you guys later!
-A
well i think the cleaning company may stop coming cos isnt the sheep still roaming free?
Sucky Saturday, man, sorry. Your ideal sounds better. And dude, no, my team rocks your team's faces off, son! I don't recall your jersey being on a kitten. Nope.
Hi everybody *waves*
BEAN hey hun
pimp excuse me but dont talk about something you know nothing about ;)
i team FTW thank you very much
well everyone tornado has just woke up so wish me luck trying to defend myself from her. i we see you all later
SS
cheers mate
bye my fellow geese
xx
This page is taking ages to load! Grrr
Fumble bb, I saw SS's page! You called him a mighty fine goose, that is so effing brilliant. I love it! Don't know how much longer I can stay on this page, but I will be at DM when I get locked out or I'm on AIM at the mo.
Oh, hello Bean! I haven't even started my laundry yet but I wanted to say hi to you, too. ^_^
S(S)S, Fimble-Fumble nailed it, huh? Oh! Damn, the gift I have for you. Hang on, lemme go find it.
It is taking so long to load the page I keep missing everybody!
Hi K! I am ignoring my laundry until tomorrow. I am also ignoring the pile of ironing that is almost as big as me!
SSS, I took this for you yesterday.
Weird story, this dude came to us yesterday afternoon with a broken wing. How weird is that? The Dr. and I wrapped his wing. He bitchslapped me with his good wing a few times and he was all hissy, but then as soon as we started wrapping his wing he chilled out.
The good news is that it's a really minor break, so there's a chance he could be released back into the wild eventually. ^_^
Isn't he cute though?
Hi everyone
Hello everyone!
How's it going?
SS,
So glad to see that! I don't ever want to see you question yourself again. You hear me, dude?
You're the rock around here. The glue that holds things together. The calm voice of reason.
You make this a better place. And you make us better people.
Hello, my BC!
How are you?
Hey BC, how's Saturday treating you?
Hi Mya!
Hi Carrie!
Hello Mya, my lovely Pancake-Zilla. How are you guys?
SS, it is good to see you putting everything back on your blogs. Don't ever let that asshole put you down and make you feel ashamed for doing such sweet things for our Family.
P.S. I have many lovely geese who lurk in a pond near my house. Maybe I should name one after you ^_^
i feel so sad, i wish i could join in but i just feel so sad. I dont know what to do
Hi, everybody! How is everyone doing today?
I liked it better when SS took all the stuff down it made it even. Oh well nothing I can do anyways. SS has never talked to me, well what ever.
Siobhan, you made me have to have pancakes for breakfast this morning, since you're always talking about them!
Anon, tell us what is wrong and we will try to help.
Hi Carrie. Guys, I am feeling pretty good right now, just contemplating on making something to eat but alas I am listening to Megadeth at the moment.
How is Saturday going for you guys?
Just talk, anon.
No matter what.
Anon, don't feel bad. If you come here with good intentions, you are welcome to join us, but you have to be aware that they is too many of us and that not everyone is going to be greeted with a "hello" either from Mayo or SS.
You have to understand that.
Well, did you have some, Carrie?
Were they good? I bet they were!
*is hungry again*
Anon, he has never talked to me either. Mayo hasn't either. At times, I seriously doubt if they even know I exist. But, that is not why I am here - to be noticed and acknowledged. Maybe you should re-evaluate why you're here.
So far, Saturday is pretty good and lazy, BC.
Anon, why is it so important for you to be acknowledged by SS?
yes I did Siobhan, blueberry ones, and they were scrummy!
I dont know whats wrong, i dont feel that i can talk to anyone, i feel so stupid doing this anonymously.
I just feel so sad. I cant stop crying. If anyone asked me what was wrong i couldnt answer them. Im so stupid im sorry
I don't like how things go around here how certain, people treated. I don't want to suck up to the big people around here. Every one here seems hypocritical. Except a few, the one's who are on now for instance. Its like a seperate group. I can't explain it.
im not the ss anon by the way
What's scrummy?
I'm not that other anon. I'm talking about the 'family" you say you hve but most people here are mean and stupid and suck ups. Not you guys though.
Hey Bc, at the risk of sounding shallow, where are those prom pics you mentioned last night?
Same here Pancake-Zilla. Have you eaten any pancakes yet? Hehe
Forget it. The ones who are on now are the good ones. The rest are a click with SS and Mayo. I can't stand it. I hate it. Forget it.
Carrie, last night I was bored so I went to the LJ mcr rumor control page, and someone posted the link to Frank's prom pictures. I got curious so I clicked a link to the picture and saw it.
OK, Anon... Has there not been anyone here that you have felt a connection with? You don't have to suck up to anybody here. Give us a chance to be your friend.
I think of scrummy as a combo of scrumptious and yummy, Siobhan.
Anon, you are not forced to like anyone here and you are also not forced to kiss anyone's asses.
Who are supposed to be the 'big people' you are referring to?
I don't see any!
Just talk to the people you like and ignore the ones you can't stand.
You can be polite to them, but nobody forces you to become biggest friends with them.
And thanks for considering me as one of "the good ones"
Thanks, BC, might do some internet wandering later.
Lol! That's a good combo, Carrie!!!
Yum!!!
No pancakes today, BC!
But maybe some SIM roast later?
I will surely have pancakes tomorrow.
No problem Carrie. Siobhan-san,eating no pancakes today? Unbelievable. Hehe
I have heartburn now. It started yesterday.
I think I drank too much pink grapefruit juice.
Mya said...
And thanks for considering me as one of "the good ones"
January 26, 2008 3:03 PM
Mya, does this mean you think that there are "the bad ones" also?
I overindulged, BC.
I think that's what killed my bff Godzilla.
I have to be careful.
You all know who people like us think are 'bad ones'.
New Anon,
It means that I appreciate the fact that they considered me as someone they liked.
Don't try to put words in my mouth to start something, OK?
But it is obvious. Thw whole thing.
Pancake-Zilla, what happened to Godzilla? I never did hear about that.
Anon, I consider myself neutral.
But, since you asked... Yes, I think there are "bad ones" here. The ones that continue to post as anons to hurt others.
i feel stupid for trying to talk it doesnt matter im sorry to have bothered you all
I watched L. A. Ink the other day. You know, the episode with Frank. I googled Kat von D. then and couldn't believe my eyes. She's only 25! When I saw her in that episode I thought she was in her late 30's.
Gaaaaaaaaah!
arguing with the other anon must be more interesting
Anonymous said...
i feel stupid for trying to talk it doesnt matter im sorry to have bothered you all
January 26, 2008 3:16 PM
Good, bye.
Godzilla died of a pancake overdose.
Pancakes with human beings on top!
Anon, you didn't bother us. Well, at least that's what I think. It's good that you are talking about this.
Siobhan-san, it is a surprise isn't it? I thought Kat would be older, but to my surprise, she's just 25. I love her tattoos though.
Well, I have offered... You have chosen not to try...
Good Luck
Siobhan, I didn't realize Kat Von D was that young either!
Sad anon, would you care to pick a name? Gaylord, for example?
It would be easier to distinguish you from the others.
Just a suggestion!
The other anons are also free to pick a name.
Pancake-Zilla, Godzilla died of a pancake overdose?!
You have no idea how much that is making me laugh right now :D
Hi Anon @ 3:18
I saw some pics of her. She looks as if she had a nose job and the shape of her eyes looks weird.
It looks like a face lift to me, or botox. That's why I thought she would be much older.
Well everybody is so youth conscious in LA I wouldn't be surprised. They start on that crap early!
Fuck you other anon, who are you anyway?
Siobhan was that a dig at me, the gaylord thing??
im just gonna go guys maybe ill come back as someone you recognise when i feel better. I dont know.
They are showing the episode with Frank on the 6th. I'm looking forward to it. I don't know if it is subtitled or dubbed.
I wonder what kind of voice they would choose to dub Frank, hehe.
I just wanted to make you smile, anon. That's why I chose the Gaylord name.
Well, it didn't work, did it?
Stay and talk. What's the use in sitting at home all sad without somebody to talk to?
Hello International House of Mayonaise!
Anonymous said...
"I liked it better when SS took all the stuff down it made it even. Oh well nothing I can do anyways. SS has never talked to me, well what ever."
Hello again Anon,
It would be a bit hard for SS to acknowledge you seeing as you haven't actually got a name!
And I thought we'd already discussed this issue with you yesterday when you posted this:
Anonymous said...
Pissed sad what ever. Its crazy how so many of you whined that you weren't getting enough attention and now that SS got upset about it your all saying Ooooh toooo bad deal with it. Haha think about it it's a good point. The OPS were one of the ones who did that the other day. What would SS say if he read that post that they made that said the SAME THING that anon said huh?? You better go delete that OPS.
January 25, 2008 8:11 PM
I mean, what more can we say to you that hasn't been said before?
Kass xx
Then I wouldn't want to go to L.A. I imagine half of the population there appear fake, with fake blond hair and boobs, but at the same time, it would be wonderful to cause some trouble over there. ^___^
Anon, that's a good idea. Come back when you feel better.
I read that this weirdo Ashlee Simpson is already doing botox. That girl is only 23!
sorry siobhan think im just a bit touchy i took it the wrong way :/
Siobhan-san, I think that may be true. She had some work done on her nose.
Hello Kass
It must be a nightmare to live in L. A.!
All those bleached teeth and such.
They look like clones.
And I'm pretty sure they can bust your ass there for daring to eat pancakes in public.
Not a good place for Pancake-Zilla, I assume.
I gotta say though, props to Ashlee's surgeon, it definitely improved her looks.
It's okay, anon! I can understand you!
Yeah, she doesn't look bad, but she also didn't look bad before.
She wasn't the typical beauty, but she was a 'type'.
She was different and that made her interesting. Now, she looks like everyone else.
True, Siobhan, good point. She was pretty before too.
And I'm pretty sure they can bust your ass there for daring to eat pancakes in public.
-------------------------------------
Fuck that shit! When I went to Las Vegas the first time, we were making plans to go to L.A. because it's only a five hour drive from there, but at the time we were there my brother was getting married, so we had to kill our plans to visit L.A. and go back home.
But if I ever do get the chance to visit there, wait until I go into a restaurant and stuff my fucking face with lots of pancakes.
Eating just a salad and a cup of water, without actually eating any real food, is blasphemy on my part.
Wait until I go there, and then I will stuff my face with food. That's a promise I am willing to make. >:)
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