The click of the door brought comfort to my well worn ears and my heart sick chest. My throat, raw from futile attempts at making myself heard, was bleeding. Alone in the center of the room I am suddenly cold and tired. The heat having been drained from the room at your departure and every ounce of energy I had was expended to keep myself from begging you to stay. You had to go.
Then, relief washes over me in its sickening way. I am suddenly aware of the emptiness of my stomach and my sudden urge to vomit. To dry heave the words I did not say. “I am sorry, don’t go.” Instead, I sit. Right there, I sit right in the middle of the room that heard my pleas for you to leave, my pleading for you to stop believing and start listening to the truth. “Why don’t you hear me?...I have done such terrible things.”
Sitting there, alone with my shame, I realized I had let this drag out far too long.
p.s. make sure it is so loud that they have no choice but to listen.
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«Oldest ‹Older 601 – 800 of 1654 Newer› Newest»Siobhan-san, I couldn't agree with you more. I like the flowers. They do make the blog look very pretty indeed. At least you're well fed. That way, you don't have to go after SIM roast and eat her he he
I am a little needy...
I want Mayo and SS to please me...
I will whine and I will cry...
Until I get a personal hello and goodbye...
Why do they ignore me? Is it because I don't have good grammar?
Because I can't dance like MC Hammer?
I am too legit to quit, when will they realize this?
I just want their undivided attention and a kiss.
That's nice anon. No one cares.
Anonymous, how do you know that there will be a BIG end to all of this? =]
Just out of general curiosity.
I am off to head back to school
<3
Whine-y Anon, I don't think you will get their attention if you demand it from them. Besides, there's about 40 of us here, they can't divide their attention to us individually. That's impossible, and might I say, unfair.
As much as I don't want to say this, BC is not in the mood to show sympathy or pity towards those who are feeling sensitive today. You don't have to talk to me if you feel that way.
Actually, I have something for PPU!
PPU, are you here?
This is for you:
♘
Take care teddy bear. I hope to see you here later on *hugs*
Yes, BC. SIM is safe tonight, hehe.
Siobhan-san, can you tell me what that symbol is? I'm having trouble making it out.
Bye, Hug Fu Master!
Take care!
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
It's a horse, BC!
Meh!
♘
Thank you, Siobhan. You're a sweetheart.
That's a nice poem, whine-y!
Siobhan-saaaannnnn!!! I can't tell if it is a horse. It doesn't look like one!!!!!!
PPU!!!
You are here! How are you?
Gaaaaaaaah, BC!!!
It is a horse, indeed!
Meh!
BC doesn't understand sarcasm...
It flies over her head...
It doesn't give her much street cred...
My Hammer dance will wow them, just you wait and see.
If not, I will begin to endlessly recite songs by Creed.
Hello PPU. Siobhan-saaaaannnn, there has been another change since I had returned. I cut my hair again, despite the bitter cold weather here. It's really short now.
Am I the only one, who thinks that the last season of 'Gilmore Girls' sucks?
I am doing great, Siobhan.
Hello, BC.
My little Whine-y anon:
BC is not in the mood to understand anything at this point. Today is Evil BC day for me. And what is with the rhyming poems? Are you being silly?
NOOOOOOOOOOO!
No Creed songs, please!!!
BC, I'm sure it looks amazing. But it's not as short as Phil's on your avatar, is it? hehe
I haven't gotten any SS or Mayo personal attention, so now I must complete my mission...
And I said oooooooo, so I held my head up high....
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride...
And I said ooooooo, we're all held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one.
How are you PPU? Siobhan-san, I keep telling you, it does NOT look like a horse, but if you imply that it is, I have no other choice but to believe you ;p
PPU,
I did not say you could leave DM. Are you stirring up trouble? You always get into trouble over here.
Don't make me do it.
I'm in that kind of mood now anyway so it won't take much.
Good to hear that, PPU!
what the fuck have i walked in to??!!
drama drama and yet more fucking drama!
hi everyone!
i'm now feeling gutted that SS felt a need to take all those personalised little bits off his blog. SS i know you probably are no longer around but no one wanted you to do that!!! you did not need to do that. and that basically sums up what a sweet person he is!
so i feel shit for SS now. i love seeing the little personal touches that mayo and SS put up. its special. i was looking at mayos page and thought, look how its changed from him being a bit or an arse to having TJs pic and MIBs quote and it made it like it was really our place you know our input. and thats us as a family. all sisters and brother together and you feel proud of the members of your family if they get a nod you know. well i do anyway.
mainly i just feel sad for SS. he even took 'dominic' down. FFS!
Should have been dead
On a Sunday morning
Banging my head
No time for mourning
Ain't got no time!
EDIT
bit of an arse!!!!!
Stirring up trouble? Me? S&M, I am having an innocent conversation with Siobhan and BC.
Regarding the mention of Creed:
NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! That band sucks!!
Siobhan-san, yes, my hair is much shorter than Phil's. I may post a picture sometime.
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, BC!!!
What does it look like for you then?
It is a horse.
♩♪♫♬
A horse is a horse, of course, of course,
And no one can talk to a horse of course
That is, of course, unless the horse is the famous Mr. Ed.
Go right to the source and ask the horse
He'll give you the answer that you'll endorse.
He's always on a steady course.
Talk to Mr. Ed.
People yakkity yak a streak and waste your time of day
But Mister Ed will never speak unless he has something to say.
A horse is a horse, of course, of course,
And this one'll talk 'til his voice is hoarse.
You never heard of a talking horse?
Well listen to this. I am Mister Ed.
You? Innocent?
I'm not buying it.
You're about as innocent as I am meek and mild.
PPU is as innocent as can be, Princess! ♛
Far you still round!?? :D
I feel fucking gutted too,
I was gone I still dont' know what happened
I was gone because I just spent the last few hours trying to find my children. They evacutated their school. I got a text from my daughter saying she was still in the school because there wern't enough buses. Finally she got out but I still didn't know about my other daughter. I know now they are both fine. I still do not know what happened at the school to cause such painic.
Then I come here to tell my family and see this shit.
SS I am sorry. Sorry someone made you feel bad. Sorry people are asses. I'm just fucking sorry.
Hello hello Faraway. How are you? I know I didn't like PPU in the past, but somehow, I am developing some fondness of the purple unicorn. I wonder if that's wrong.
Whine-y, I think you need a hug.
BC
Siobhan....
I'll let you and Sollydock keep on believing that. ^_~
Do that, BC!
I would like to see your new hairdo.
Okay, Princess! ^_^
Siobhan-saaannnn, it looks like some sort of musical notes for me!!! But if it's a horse, then who am I to judge? Hello hello Lewis, Elena. how are you guys? Elena, are you okay?
BC
Sollydock thinks I am sweet and innocent? Well, that just makes my day.
Hello Fasc!
Hello Elena!
How are you doing girls?
What the hell happened here!? Why is there always chaos!? What the shit man!? Everything goes just fine and then booyah -absolute crap! I am staying out of this shitfield.
Ss, if you are still lurking -everyone here loves you and Mayo -and Gerenrally Each Other. This is just crap today. Please don't take down your personally touches on your blog. That, like Mayo's -really touched us all. Remember the geese. Somebody (even though possibly An Ass) has fallen out of line. Please just forgive (or IGNORE) and move them back into place! Along with your lovely blog comments! Thank you.
No problem my hyper Pancake-Zilla. I just need to find my camera and I'll take some snapshots. I might flip the bird in one of the pictures, but I haven't decided yet he he
What happened to your daughters, Elena?
Are they okay?
Lol, BC!
Elena, good lord -have you tried calling the school?? That is terrifying. But if you raised them to be like you I am sure they are going to be just fine though. Please let us know that everything is o.k. That is scary. I can't believe this is still happening.
Maybe, PPU.
You have yet to convince some, though.
I don't know, PPU seems sweet and innocent to me.
Bc? You changed again?? Hi to you, how are you doing?
What did SS write, anyway?
maybe we should have a vote
Show SS that there is just one person that is bothered and that person being an anon doesnt count right? haha funny coming from me huh? But if SS sees that no-one is actually bothered by the decorating of his house then maybe the stuff can be put back up?
hello everyone sorry just catching up!
lewis i'm still here.
Hello hello Lewis. Yep, I changed again, and I was away from the blogs for a while. I'm doing okay, just feeling a bit evil today. How are you?
Anon, I'm not sure if that is a good idea. Most of us like the decorations SS has put up on his blog, but I think there's a few that feels sensitive towards that issue, as we are well aware of.
..and if the anon really was a regular and they still protest to the shout outs from SS and Mayo then they should get some balls and have a name and state exactly why they feel this way, whether a shout out from SS or M would really make them feel any better etc
Hi Faraway!!!!
BC
hi BC, siobhan,elena,PPu,lewis, S&V and anyone else. oh yeh anon if you are nice.
elena glad your daughters are safe. what a fucking nightmare!
Thank you friends who have shown your concern. I can't find out anything yet.
God, I'm still upset. Her text where she said they were getting all the kids out but there wern't enough buses shook me. Then a few mintues later when she text saying she was still in the school and couldn't get out of the doors broke my heart. I didn't breath again until she sent the text that she was out of the school. This whole small town is in a panic at the moment. Parents can't find their kids, it's insane. Fuck, I just don't know what to say.
I shall return later. Got some stuff to do. Take care guys. Elena, I hope your daughters are okay. Be back soon. Much love
I sometimes ask myself what Mayonaise thinks about all those posts and professions of sympathy to SS on his blog.
i don't think SS will put them back up. he's pissed off at us. i bet he doesn't show himself for a while, which is sad cos he's a breath of fresh air!
Far! My love! I caught ya! Muwah!! How are ya?? You know I would scary comment your blog if ya had one....hint. hint. hint. hint...
O.k. then BC! I think you a camelion? Did I spell that right?? I think there are a few people feeling evil today.
What the hells happened here? Why did someone yell at Ss!? That's just stupid. Like anyone have any reason? Other than -insanity?? I'm curious.
yeh siobhan i've addressed that too a few times. i don't think mayo can mind SS coming here or he would say and he never gets at us for loving SS. i think he misses his ghost though. SS used to talk only to him in the beginning. he doesn't anymore.
lewis i do have one now but its nothing special. i didn't mention it cos well its nothing special!! ha ha! you good though babe??
Whoa Elena -I am SO glad your girls got out. Please keep us posted. That is not remotely o.k.
Bye Bc!
Siobhan - I wonder that too sometimes, but I think he would do something if it truely bothered him. I like to think he finds Ss's presence here just as comforting and insightful as we do. I hope so anyway.
oh sorry in my comment frenzy forgot to say bye BC!
I'm doin alright Far! How bout you my love? I'm feeling better this afternoon. Cooled my angsty jets a bit! Glad I missed the anony shitstorm. Yuk. Apparently it was a doozy if Ss took his personalized stuff down. (I haven't checked yet, don't really want to see that.)
I don't know. Mayo doesn't seem to mind anything, or better said, doesn't subject his blog to any restrictions.
But that doesn't mean he doesn't bother.
Oh I'm gonna go check your Blog! Like oh magic! It finally happened! I'm so excited! -I know, I'ma dork. But you shouldn't be surprised by my random enthusiasm Far! <3
Bye, my BC!
I hope to see you later and if not, tomorrow.
hello everyone.
elena - i am really really glad your girls are ok. have you spoken to the school yet?
That's true Siobhan-he doesn't seem to restrict anything. Still on the fence if that is a good thing or a not so good thing. I sometimes half expect him to come out yelling. Well, type yelling. -With what is said here on occasion.
Hello Fimble!
How are you?
Hello again Mayo & Mayonettes,
Just being reading back and...WTF?!
I take it the Anon @ 12.07pm was not a "family member" after all, but a random trying to stir up [expletive deleted], given that we'd already been through this issue and a "blue" would have dropped it already.
SS - I rarely address you directly but I figure four minutes of the World's greatest living rock band might make you feel a little better so here goes. Enjoy!
Love,
Kass xx
yeh true siobhan he doesn't restrict anything at all does he so i guess we don't know???
lewis i am fine i got your message thank you, glad your internet is working again!! its 8.50pm in the UK and i'm just chilling really just sad that lately there is some shit storm or other going on here!!
Yes, Lewis, I think that too.
He must have a 'dickes Fell' as we say in Germany. (thick skin)
Hi there, Kass!
Long time, no read!
How are ya?
hey there siobhan, i am shit but other than that i am loving my blog theme. thank you so much for that. everytime i look at it it makes my day that little bit better and i wil also think of you. just please DO NOT give kass one. we do not want any dirt in the blogs. hahahaha
kass - go check out my blog. i think you will like my background. its just for you hunny
Thanks Kass, for the Stonehenge clip! Spinal Tap ROX!
hey carrie how are you today.
Hey Fim, my old lady back is all locked up so I've been sitting on a heating pad all day. Fun times. How are you doing?
hey kass what you doing here?? i have not watched spinal tap for soo long!!!
hi carrie!
fimble you are man u obsessed!! lets hope miss T is back before sunday and that we fuckin win!!!
I'm happy that I could make you happy, Fimble.
The template looks awesome!
Without wanting to sound bigheaded, but I think my new template is quite nice too.
Well crapall! I have been kicked offline twice now- It's really starting to rain here Far! So very quickly -as I am typing this for the third time: gah.
Hello Fimbel Star, Hello Kass. Siobhan -dickes fell sounds dirty! But I completely agree with you! I am SURE he has a thick skin. And again -not so sure if that is necessarily a good thing!
Far! You shit! I can't believe you've had that blog up for that long and I didn't know! What sneak you are! I hope I can come back on to read it (if I don't float away!) later! I am glad (and amazed ya got my letter!) didn't think it had gone through -I sent one out two days ago! But I got kicked off just after I clicked send... clearly that's a no! And I don't know started the picking on Ss (how insane!) today? Last night? But it's so uncalled for! It breaks my heart too! You guys please don't stop trying to convince him to put that all back up! That is just awful!
Far -I'll talk with ya otherways later?? (Will ya keep me posted? Please tell Elena I hope it was nothing but a false scare.) Hope your enjoying your computer time (without an accusatory glare from a hubby nearby..and ya still get to have fun later! muwah!) XD Love to you! kiss! ;P
And bye everybody else! loves -l
hey hun, i am ok just one thing after another. feeling shit in the first place then felt shit for ss feeling bad (i hope he is ok) and like 10 minutes after that all kicked off found out me nana died, so basically a shit day all round but hey thats life.
if your old lady back is out again tell terry to give it a rub, then he can be your servant. was it today you went on a school trip with annie?
Goodnight Lewis!
Fimble... The blog...My eyes...It burns, it burns!!!
Kass xx
hello and bye lewis, i hope you are ok.
fasc you better believe it. we are going to win but i have to tone it down because of miss t. she loves her spurs and all
siobhan i will go and check your theme out.
You make me laugh, Lewis!
Dickes Fell.
Dickes Fell.
Dickes Fell.
Dickes Fell.
Dickes Fell.
*giggles*
Oh Fim, I'm sorry about your nana!! I didn't go on the field trip with Annie, it's too damn cold to be tromping around in the snow poking at bathouses. She had fun though, and got me a crystal in the giftshop, she is such a little sweetie, I don't know how she came from me. :) I hope that your day gets better, Fim, my sympathies to you and your family. And hey Far!
kass, just because they are the best. does your eyes burn because you know you should be converted.
siobhan i have to say i like your theme. it looks like they are gonna spark someone out. they look like they mean business
Awww - Fimble, I'm so sorry to hear about your nan.
I hope you'll accept a
*filthy blue hug*
Kass xx
Oh. Fimble!
My sincerest condolescence!
I'm so sorry!
*biggest bear hugs*
cheers carrie, hardest thing is that i dont really know how to act and now i know we cant go back to go to the funeral. just sucks but hey another day is tomorrow.
did annie take pictures?
Bye Lewis!
cheers siobhan and kass.
and i will accept a dity blue hug but once you touch me you will be a red for life. muwhahahahahahaha
Gerard looked so good with his long hair and he looked so 'mature'. Does that sound odd?
Hi Carrie!
How is it hanging?
Does anyone know the tv series 'Men in Trees'? It's hysterical!
Will I get a foursie tonight?
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!
no it doesnt sound odd but i was just looking at it again
mikey looks like a cowboy
bob looks like he is either praying or begging for more food
gerard looks like he is going through a divorce becuase it is his wedding finger
ray looks like he is waiting for something
frank looks like he mean business and he is going to pounce on you.
just my opinion but i love the pic
Where is everybody?
Nah, Annie didn't take any pics, hopefully the teacher did. I'm a bad mom for bailing on field trips all the time! Oh well, I'm off to nurse my back some more. Annie has to cheer at a basketball game tonight and I'm hoping with enough painkillers in me I can stand the torture of bleacher butt. Again Fim, I'll be thinking of you and sorry about Nana. Heck, I'll be thinking of all of you! Have a good night!
Oh, one more thing, hi and bye siobhan, didn't want you to think I didn't see you there! :) (See, that's where I would have put one of those cute little symbols you're always using if html didn't scare me)
by carrie and take care of your back. give a hug to annie from me
siobhan i am here
bob looks like he is either praying or begging for more food
Hahhahahahahahahaahha!!!
I think we would be the perfect match then.
I love Gerard's eye make-up.
I miss the eye shadow-y days.
FS, I am so sorry to hear about your nana. So very sorry.
Here is another hug for you - *HUG*.
i think gerard looks really healthy there for some reason.
anima cheers, with this hug i dont think i will let go ofyou. seems you and i have been huggin all around blog land today ;)
I'm still here Carrie!
But those symbols are really easy.
For example:
This & #10047; is a flower ✿
Without the gap between the & and #.
siobhan, do you realise most of those symbols you do, to me they are just a small outline of a box. i see like your music symbol but i didnt see a horse or anything else.
Gerard looks confident in that pic.
Like a leader.
wanna mess with my gang
my gang
my gang
wanna mess with my gang
oh sorry i was off again exploring!!
bye lewis, bye carrie!!
siobhan i have visited and he did look healthy there but not my fav look.
fimble so sorry about your nana.
hugs to you!!
Really? Huh!
Maybe, it's the browser?
I think Ergo can't see it either.
"All the classics - Mozart, Beethoven, Enya..."
Just checking out the blogs. Loving it S - Men should not be allowed to be prettier than us. No fair!
We haven't got Men in Trees in the UK I think. I've only heard of it because Anne Heche copped off with her co-star and had some frankly, bizarre allegations flying around in her divorce proceedings...
Kass xx
wanna mess with my gang
my gang
my gang
wanna mess with my gang
Lol. Exactly!
What is your favorite Gerard look, Fasc?
Totally, Kass!
I look like a raccoon when I use the khol pencil.
Yeah, Anne Heche is odd, but the show is funny and I really like her German dubbing voice.
i liked his look int he elena video. i saw the making of the video and where they were saying frank was to short to carry the coffin.
edit - i liked the look in the helena video
Evil BC has returned. Hello again everyone. Fimble, you have my condolences.
i have made a comment on your blog siobhan but i really liked him when he was chubby ish and long haired and a little fucked.(not the majorly fucked summer 2004 but pre that) not that i want him to be fucked but that guy really appealed to me and he himself said he was a happy drunk. that is my favourite look just loved it. *sighs* light years gone.
Yes, that was funny. Gerard said that at the beginning it was like nothing and all of a sudden he had the feeling as if he was holding a coffee table all by himself.
This still makes me laugh.
I think he looked best in Helena.
Thanks for the comment, Fasc!
Glad to see you back, BC!
hey bc, i like the name you you had me craving a coffee and a bagel.
siobhan so totally true
Siobhan-san, glad to be back as well. Hey fimble. Ha ha thank you
SS,
Please don't be upset, love. You're not to blame. Neither is Mayo. We know that you would never intentionally leave anyone out. You have a beautiful heart. You have no idea how grateful I am to have even met you.
It hurts knowing you're upset.
Please tell us you're okay. Know that this is not your fault. Please?
hey ctv
so bc where did you disappear to
hi BC hi CTV!!
gotta go now ok. catch you all tomorrow!
love to all.
Hey CTV. I'm still here fimble.
Hi CTV & BC,
Your new name confused me a little at the beginning!
I love the Helena vid too - Gerard has his best-ever hair and it was the beginning of the whole red tie/stripey tie outfits which I adore.
I'm sure SS will understand where most of us are coming from, CTV - I'm just wondering how irritated all of this is going to make Mayo?! Have they ever spoken to each other in the Real World...
Kass xx
Hello CTV!
What's up?
Goodnight and sweet dreams Faraway
Well,
It's time to go, peeps. I won't get to come back inside the house until Mayo posts again.
SS,
Again, please listen to what we said to you. You are an unbelievable person and you did not deserve that at all.
Just let us know you're okay.
Love ya peeps!
XOXO,
S&V20
Bye Fasc!
Take care!
Glad to see you guys are up and feeling chipper. I need some of that right now.
Hello FS, FASC, Siobhan, Kassanova, and BC.
BC, you're back! We've missed you, sweetie. Really. Thank you for returning.
Bye, Princess! ♛
Hey there Kass. No biggies. My new name is just the name of the band ^_^
bc i meant on your break.
fasc catch ya later
princess bye and i may see you on the porch later. bye bye
Take care Smoke. CTV, thank you for the kind words. I missed you guys too. More than you know.
And now BC must go shower. I'll be back in a bit. Siobhan-san, I'm gonna try and see if I can post a picture of my new hairdo sometime later on.
good morning everyone!
I am really glad I missed the argument but it's a shame SS took his stuff off because of it.
So anyways how is everyone today?
Siobhan fimble BC fasc kass anima ctv carrie and anyone else about!
(TJ too if you're ecto again)
Fimble, on my break? The truth is, I wanted to distanced myself and be left alone for a while, so I took off. That post that I made Monday, I was a bit angry when I wrote it, so I wanted to take time for myself.
Yay!
its ok bc, i was gone for 2 days for a break. just lots of random shit, but thats life. it is good to see yu back anyways.
hey ergo
Hi Ergo
Hi there, Ergo!
I'm doing fine. Thanks for asking.
I hope you're fine too.
Thanks Fimble. And I will say this in advance: Don't be surprised if I abruptly leave for a few days. I think it will happen more often in the future. There'll be times where I won't feel like talking to anyone.
Hello Ergo. Glad to see you're here!
well bc just as long as you are ok then that is fine. everyne needs space every now and again. just me sure you are well and look after number 1 ok
Thanks fimble. CTV, how are you?
Guys, I'll be back later. Must shower. Take care
my power went off yesterday! it was sheduled but I forgot and was halfway through a comment when *poof*
and this afternoon I'm going fishing! YAY!!! in an attempt to land my first barramundi (big aussie fish, fights a lot, grow huge, it's catch and release in a dam. I really want to catch one, they jump out of the water and all!)
Just popping back in to say goodbye. I won't be around tonight.
Everyone, hang in there. Please let's not allow the anons or regulars who are chickenshit to upset us or our friends.
SS, the idea of you being sad, is the worst feeling ever. I will be thinking about you and wishing you lots of smiles and funny times when you wake up.
Mayo, I will be thinking about you too. Please understand that what one Anon says is not a reflection of the group. Just because they say they are a 'family' member does not mean that they are.
Thank you for being here. And thank you for all you do for us.
Everyone, have an awesome weekend and I will see you all around really soon.
Love and peace to all of you.
First of all, Elena, are you here? Are your daughters alright?
Love you,
L.
Fimble,
I am so sorry to here about your nana, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Please take care of yourself.
Elena, when you get back please e-mail me.
Love,
L.
hey and bye anima, take care
hello op L how are you feeling, better i hope
ergo your going fishing. wow last time i went fishing i was so younger and my brother was stood behinf my father. my father threw back his rope and the hook was in my brothers hand. it was horrid but funny at the same time.
do you have a boat?
Take care Anima, and thank you for leaving me a cool comment on my blog.
We'll see you around.
Hey there OP L. How are you feeling?
BC
oh ouch fimble!!
We are going with a mate who has a boat, he caught 40 (yes 40!!) last weekend and some yesterday so I hope I will get one - it's kinda like a fishing milestone.
(sorry too, I don't know what happened to your nana and what happened to elena's daughters?)
BC, I'm well, thanks.
Hey, L. How's everything, love? Feeling better?
cheers ergo, my nana passed today.
thank you opL thank you for your thoughts and prayers
so ergo once you caught the fish do you eat them or are you going to throw them back?
CTV, cool beans(That pretty much means "cool")
And to the rest of the Family, for once, I really don't have anything to say. I read through what happened, saw SS's blogpage, and just sat here and cried.
I can't believe this is what has become of us. I don't give a shit what any anon has to say right now. This is not about attention, this is about the fact that one of our FUCKING FRIENDS was hurt and sad felt they had to go away to keep a bunch of children from fighting.
It shouldn't matter who ANY of us are. I am so tired. So fed up with this. So damn mad that there are people who drive everyone away.
Maybe that's their goal. I don't know. All I know is there is a mother out there trying to find out what happened to her kids, a granddaughter who just lost their nana, someone who found the courage to come back here despite a vicious attack on their heart, a bunch of sad, hurt, depressed friends who are trying their best to make it through this life the best way they can and with the help of those they found here, and so, many, many more.
SS,
I am so sorry you felt this way. Please don't give up on your friends because of a few bad apples. We may all be a little wormy, but we're still pretty good.
And to the anon at 12:07, I agree with the Princess. You got your wish.
HAPPY NOW????!!!
L.
Fimble, CTV, BC, Ergo,
I was doing a little better, until I got on here.
The soreness is going away, even though the bruising is turning pretty colors. I go back on Monday to get the stitches out and then I can drive.
I know exactly which of the four cuts they took the gallbladder out, it is really sore and colorful.
BC, So good to have you back, luv.
Love,
L.
Bleeding Chaos really does NOT understand sarcasm. I didn't really notice it until today.
The way you all are sucking up to SS is disgusting. I've been around long enough to see you all say worse things to each other and I don't see a bunch of you sucking up to the person who got pounced on then. It's different when it's one of the two of them though isn't it. You can all lie and say that you don't care if they hear your words or not but its obvious that you do, and you DO feel left out of they dont' acknowledge you. It is a popularity contest and now the big thing is to defend SS and Mayo. The way you NEVER defend each other. You let others pounce on your friends and you hardly even speak up. But one person says one thing about SS and its like the end of the world with you.
Oh fimble I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with your family. It's a sad thing and I hope you all remember her life fondly.
we throw them back, you can eat them but in the dams they can have a muddy taste.
They live in salt water too, in rivers and they are generally nicer, and though it's a very talked up fish in restaurants and things I think there are nicer eating fish about.
But they are one of the best fighting fish when they are hooked. You use lures too not bait.(and I am not really good with lures but I can learn fast!)
We fish like late afternoon into night ( 4pm ->)
anon I think we get your point.
how about you go back now you've succeeded. And people do defend friends and sometimes the discussion moves to email so it doesn't play out on the blog -in public, so to speak.
So you may not see it.
Disagreements occur and things are resolved, life is too short!
and as Mayo and SS are the ones who own the blogs they deserve a little more respect.
oh and sarcasm is the lowest form of wit.
Anonymous:
kiss my ass
OK Anon @ 5.55pm,
I see you took Mayo's advice to make sure it is so loud that they have no choice but to listen but what's your f***ing point now?
SS clearly paid attention to you - are you happy now? Because you still sound like a very bitter individual even though you've got what you clearly wanted!
BTW, saying you're a "family member" doesn't really cut it when if you were you'd know that this blog isn't about SS, it's not even about Mayo - It's all about the love...
Kass xx
anon.
i understand that you want to say your opinion but what gives yout he right t come in here and spout such crap like that. yes we were all concerned with our friend. thats what friends do. we stick up for anyone that we class as riends. against anons that come in here and are basically rude.
how can you say we were sucking up. we were there for our friend. the reason shit hit the fan today was because an anon came in here and PRETENDED to be a reg and complain about mayo and ss. yes i dont know if it was a reg or an anon but i am 95% it was anon who wanted to cause trouble. can you answer me why there are people who want to do that. why is there people who want to cause hurt and pain to people that they do not know.
all i have to say is that what happened today not only upset our friend but it upset us all. and yes you upset me big fucking whoopy do. good night anon, i hope you have nice dreams
OP L, it is great to be back here as well. Thanks. I'm glad you're feeling better.
Anon, as Ergo pointed out, you have already made your point, so stop recycling the same shit. Now please leave. I am not in the best of moods right now.
Well, since you feel that way anon, let me be the first to stand up for my Family that you just insulted.
Go find somewhere really icy and find a nice large power pole that has a downed line, then stick your tongue to the pole. Now, don't worry if it gets stuck, because just make sure you are holding that line, and put it right on the end of your tongue. Solve the problem right for you.
Have a nice day!
L.
Anonymous @ 5:55:
I see jealously rearing in that ugly head of yours.
Anon at 5:55 shut the fuck up.
I don't know who you are and I really don't care. But enough is enough.
SS I don't talk to you much. It seems that when I try you miss my comments altogether. Whatever the reason for this I don't care.
What I do care about is the fact that you e done some nice things for people that I call my friends. And I am upset that you would let an anon make you feel so bad that you felt the need to take them down.
So I'm asking you to put them back up.
You really shouldn't let this anon get to you. Need I remind you that just a few weeks ago we had an anon in hear saying that you and Mayo were upset with Kapu. before that we had anons pretending to be you and Mayo.
I for one don't believe that that anon was a regular. I have a very good reason to believe this.
There are a lot of assholes out there who don't like what we have here. And they would do anything in there power to ruin it.
They have attacked some of the people here and now they are trying to use you and Mayo in an attempt to destroy this place.
Don't let them.
Hey there MJ. And regarding your comment, I support what you said.
BC
i think everyone sumed it up nicely basically.
martha are you feeling any better today? have you found those pj's
*waves at mummy K*
Good evening Mayo.
Good evening all.
So I see that we are back to the drama. We have people on here, really hurting, and then we get this nonsense. It's beyond belief.
SS - * sigh *
Fim - sorry to hear about your Nanna.
Elena - I'm glad the girls are okay, do you know any more details?
BC - nice to see you again.
Thank you to Elena, Kapunua and TJ for their wonderful stories and illustrations.
TJ - the blanketed Mayo was quite charming, I can just see his eyes peeking out :)
Amy - you're drooling over me on Google? 0_o Easy tiger.
Bikey - nice to see you back.
To all others - hello and how are you?
Anons - I'm not even going to go there.
Hello BC and FS.
FS I'm sorry about you loss.
I haven't found the PJ and I'm feeling ok. I'm still tired
cheers martha and gs.
gs, how are you and how wa work.
martha tired again, is it cold and snowing in your neck of the woods?
Hi MJ well put, hi OP's and GS
What happened to Elena ? Could someone give me a quick summary?
Raining
Hello GS.
Hi FS - I'm okay and work was meh! How are you though, you okay?
Martha!!!! You are SO going to love Torchwood. I left a comment for you at the beginning of the week just to say it's great. I'm relly excited for you :D
I've watched it 3 times now, twice on the BBC website. I'm such a geek :)
I have something to look forward to.
One more day and I get to see captain john.
Anon, you are probably the same anon that pretended to be a family member. You are nothing more than a vulture. You took advantage of SS's sweet nature knowing full well he would be horrified at the thought of upsetting any one of us. You know why? Because he thinks of us as friends and everything he does for us is with good intentions and affection. Using his unselfish acts of kindness against him and against us is really low. But you know what? You have just made yourself look pathetic and highlighted just how amazing SS is. He would rather delete parts of his own blog than offend or hurt someone who he thought was a family member. He is our friend. He joins in and hangs out with us, shares his wisdom and makes us laugh and he has given so much to us, for no other reason except that he wanted to, and expects nothing in return. He is a good person with a beautiful heart, he is an example to all of us and the fact that people could even think to attack the thoughtful gestures of friendship he has given us makes me feel physically sick.
SS, those were the words of a vulture not a family member. Please decorate your home again, it looks so sparse and empty. We miss you, your presence is like a light that illuminates even the darkest corner of BlogBelieve. Please don't leave us in the dark.
Hi Ergo,
Elena received a text from one of her girls to say their school was being evacuated. Lots of confusion, she couldn't get through to the school at first, took ages to locate the girls, ( they were separated from each other ) and generally a lot of heart stopping moments. I don't know much more than that.
ergo - elena made a comment at 3.20pm explaaining what happend.
gs, i am ok. i just feel shit for the way i felt and that i wont be going home but other than that it is just life isnt it.
so did te little kiddies run you ragged?
i used to sing to the kiddies i looked after and i seriously nearly broke every bloody window in the place
lucy, amen to that. seriously, took the words out of my mouth
Broken windows? I thought it was wolves howling!
Shit to much shit going down in here today.
Hello LL and Elena I hope all is well with your family.
Hi Martha Jones *waves*
I need to take a nap. I'll be back later.
One more day and I get to see captain john.
How can you wait that long?
FS - yes, they did run me ragged today :) I might go for a new job. I love mine , the pay is pants though. There's a vacancy for an art technician at the local college. £4000 a year more to work in an art department, sounds good to me!! I'm going to apply, probably won't get it, but worth a try.
What's new with you?
SS
My friend I have calmed down enough from my terrible day to speak to you.
First let me say I do not believe the ANON was a regular. Regulars are family. These were not the words of a family member. These were the words of a sad individual who hoped and succeed in causing trouble. SS you let them win.
I understand how the words hurt. You have been here for us as much as you can. You give of yourself and we love you for it. That is why I do not believe this was a family member.
When I saw that you had taken the personalized things off your blog my heart broke. Not for myself but for something much more important “DOMINIC”
You know how much this simple word means. You understand.
SS, I am asking you PLEASE PUT IT BACK
The other things, while nice, were not important. This one simple word, well you know that it is important.
I thank you for calling me the mouse that roared. Well, SS the mouse is roaring. She is roaring at you to put “DOMINIC” back. Please, do this because in doing so it will show it really is still all about the love.
Elena
Rest easy Martha.
Oh elena !!
what happened?
(especially after that threat a while ago)
how scary so everything is ok?
GS try, you have nothing to lose, and you never know you might get it!!
Elena,
Your words are as much a comfort as those of SS, did you know that? Always so heartfelt and pure in your requests :)
So, how are you? Any more news from today? How are the girls?
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