The click of the door brought comfort to my well worn ears and my heart sick chest. My throat, raw from futile attempts at making myself heard, was bleeding. Alone in the center of the room I am suddenly cold and tired. The heat having been drained from the room at your departure and every ounce of energy I had was expended to keep myself from begging you to stay. You had to go.
Then, relief washes over me in its sickening way. I am suddenly aware of the emptiness of my stomach and my sudden urge to vomit. To dry heave the words I did not say. “I am sorry, don’t go.” Instead, I sit. Right there, I sit right in the middle of the room that heard my pleas for you to leave, my pleading for you to stop believing and start listening to the truth. “Why don’t you hear me?...I have done such terrible things.”
Sitting there, alone with my shame, I realized I had let this drag out far too long.
p.s. make sure it is so loud that they have no choice but to listen.
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Fimbel Star I have a problem with her story. She thinks she is such a great writer but two here are better, nicer and pretty much every one will agree.
Toujour and Elena PLEASE continue. don't let her think she is so great.
I am sorry, I had to say it. please DON"T stop your story. But you know people feel the same way I do. I won't say it any more. But it had to be said!!! She does think she is so great. YOU are so much greater. Please keep going. PLEASE for many reasons. Like she's the only one who can write a blog story!!!! You know its not true. Please don't stop your story. It had to be said.
anon, that is your opinion but why do you have to lower yourself into making it into being a mean comment.
i agree that tj and elena did a fine job but kapunua did a fine job to. it is not about who did it better its about that they did it in the first place. i know for one that i couldnt do it.
I'm great, Fimble, how're you?
I, in fact, am better than great.
I...am...JAPPY.
Actually, I'm thinking about Mayo because of his post tonight. He sounds like he's had a rough time of it. I'm gonna write to him before I leave for the night, something from both L and myself. He sounds like he needs some good words to help heal his heart.
Things are getting back to normal at PunkCentral, though. L's getting better slowly but surely. All the kind thoughts and prayers from the Family have been helping, obviously.
J
i am happy that L is on the mend, no i am Jappy lol.
i am ok just plodding around, nothing new to report. bit boring actually
I will keep my comments to her own blog when she posts her story. I didn't mean to make you stop. It really is good aside from the fact of it showing her that she is not so great. You know most people here agree she is not so GREAT and they just can't say it. You are writing a GREAT story and yes it is better then hers. You know every one thinks the same thing so why don't you say it, why pretend to be nice about it. I get what is going on. And I am happy, that's all I wanted to say.
PLEASE CONTINUE.
in fact anon, nice of you to show up but i think there are BETTER anons out there. i think there are so many nice anons that have a better point to say.
do you like that anon. its pretty pointless isnt it. a tad rude and basically down right a waste of a comment. so lets try this again
how are you anon, what have you been up to today?
Thank you FimbleStar I have had a good day,and you?
Any ways I said what needed to be said, needed very much. i am sorry if my words caused troubel to Elena and Tourjour and all the good people. Please continue your story because I am enjoying it and liking it NOT ONLY because of it making Kapu look not as great as she thinks. It is a great story that is why I like it. PLEASE continue it.
Anons - Toujours and I are on the same page about this. No more rude comments. I am not going to be used as something to knock Kaupuna. She is talented. Let it go!
Toujours just let me know when and if you are ready to write more.
Elena, are you still here? It's pretty quiet from your corner...
BTW, have you given all your extra calendars away? I actually bought one for L for Christmas, and one for myself at the same time! HAH! (Yeah, HAH, they were full price, HAH on me. :P)
I'm really liking the June picture. NIIIIIICE.
L's mum, who is 79, looked over the calendar, and she still has a thing for Mikey. But, she said she likes Frank better with the shorter hair. Go figure.
J
anon, you started off so well with that comment. to answer you i am well thank you for asking.
ok well this is my view on it. everybody has different qualities in different areas. tj and elenas story is great but kapunuas story is great as well. they each are portrayed in different ways and has a different plot to it. i for one enjoy both of the stories and i do not think putting someone elses story down is very nice. it is your opinion but you could just simply say
'elena and tj i liked your story. please carry on.'
that sounds much nicer unless you wanted to start trouble. if that was the case then meh, we have enought trouble and it does get people down.
please i am asking you nicely to not slate other people but praise the people you in yor opinion think deserve it. everyone has different opinions on it so please do not put downers on people pieces of work.
Dear Anons,
That story isn't being written for you, it's written for the residents of Blog Believe. I don't think you have a place here in Mayo's house, and you're certainly not welcome in mine.
Sorry to sound snotty, but really. Who asked you?
-A
i definitely will elena, and if i'm all ecto when i get back, i'll just post my portions over at the ecto blog, and maybe you could carry them over here?
it'll be fun to see how long we can keep the story going! :D
okay, must dash.
ciao my blogsibs! :D
bye bye tj, if i dont see you goodnight and sweet dreams
See you later, TJ--that is, unless you're transparent. :)
Should I then say, "Sense you later"?
J
Sounds good TJ. Like I said just let me know when you get your part of the "epic" done.
J I still have 4 calendars left. Any takers? They are free to a good home.
ok guys i am in for the night. i need sleep due to the lack of it.
goodnight j
goodnight elena
goodnight anyone else
mayo thanks for the post, goodnight
ss, i hope you are having the time of your life, goodnight
L said she'll check with her mum. *grins*
How freaked out do you think Mikey would be to know one of his "admirers" is a great-grandmother? :D
And L thanks you for noticing the "Futurama" reference in her comment from the other day. She read it over again today, and said, "Did I really write that???"
Ah, the wonders of Vicodin.
J
Night Fimble, get some sleep if you can.
J
Night Fimble sorry we didn't get a chance to talk.
Well, kiddies, I think I'll call it a night as well. I'm gonna write the usual comments, then hit the bedding.
Take care, and have a great day tomorrow!
Elena, again, good on ya. :)
love, hope, faith, peace, happiness
J
Mayonaise-
Don't begrudge yourself in this situation.
There will still be many nights, and days with sorrow. Allow yourself small happiness where possible.
Sleep tight darling, you know where I am if you need me.
-A
Night J
Give L a hug for me.
Mayo, can I adopt you?
Um, hello everyone
(BC has new blog and name and realized she couldn't stay away from this blog for long)
BC I saw the new name and went WTF? Who's that?
Welcome back, Hun.
Hey Pantera! Hey aren't you a good restaurant with soup and bread that we don't have where I live? Just kidding, I *think* it's a band?
Elena, I can't say how much I missed you and the rest of the bloggers, because I did. I missed you! And thank you!
Anonymous said...
A Lie you are not wanted. When will you learn. LEAVE THIS PLACE. No one wants you here. Ever. Not now, not ever. NO ONE. You are useless and unwanted at this place.
January 24, 2008 7:33 PM
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*Rolls eyes* Motherfucker, please. This place is open for everyone, regardless of your dislike for some of the bloggers here. This blog does not belong to you; you can't control who visits here and who doesn't. If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all.
Carrie! Yes, it is a band! Thank you for the email. I'm sorry if I sounded a bit rude with the one I sent to you last night. I missed you too
Dear Mayo,
This post is a joint effort, like old times, when L and I would post together. We read your new post, and then we talked about it. We discussed it for quite a while, actually. And we came to this conclusion:
Let this person go.
Every relationship goes through phases. Usually the beginning is nothing but shiny; the "new" is there for both persons to enjoy, to revel in, to brag about even. As time goes on, you learn more about the other, and hopefully you like what you learn about them and want to continue the relationship.
Sometimes, though, the shiny wears off, and the rougher, duller surface of reality shows through, and it's not what we want to see.
Usually, it's not just one person's fault. The problem lies somewhere in the middle. Not knowing the circumstances or the person, we can only go by your words, which clearly hold a great deal of pain. But, they also hold a great deal of resolve.
There are so many emotions involved in any relationship. And ending any relationship DOES bring a certain amount of relief. The weight is lifted from your shoulders once you've made a decision.
Everything DOES happen for a reason. Look at this as a beginning, not just as an ending. Learn from everything. You don't know what's around that next corner; life can take you by surprise. We only can hope that the surprises are good ones.
But, we know right now, you hurt. And we're sorry. Please take care of yourself, sweetheart. Look to your friends for comfort and understanding, and know that we love you dearly.
This is from L:
"I cannot sit beside you,
Or hold you very tight,
But I would dance with you,
Your gentle soul,
Until the morning light.
Brush back your hair from your hopeful face,
And sway softly through the dawn,
Close your eyes, a kiss to dry
The tears before they fall."
Goodnight, sweetheart.
L and J
Hey, I didn't think you sounded rude, I was just checking for signs of life since you kind of disappeared abruptly. Plus, bonus, I had something to say when people asked where you were.
And I cannot believe how much better I love my laptop. I'm kicking it old school style on my old computer and I feel like I'm punching a T-Rex to do my bidding.
Mayonaise, my sweet, my adoption offer still stands. Your post is obviously a heartbreaking one; I think you need a lot of snuggling, in my opinion.
Carrie, thank you for taking the time to write me an email. No matter if I'm here or not, I will always be here to listen whenever you need someone to talk to. OP J and L, thank you for all of the support and encouragement and thank you for the wonderful comment you left at my old house. I hope L is recovering well. Goodnight guys.
Is it wrong that I feel a bit happy while Mayonaise's post sounds so sad?
Carrie, I know exactly how you feel. A long time ago we used to have a PC, and of course it was new at the time, but then we had it for a few years and during the time, it started to act up and it was getting so slow that it didn't perform some of the tasks properly.
Ever since I movely a year ago, we now rely solely on laptops; they're more convenient and we can use it anywhere in the house. It's way easier.
Nah, we run the gamut of emotions on this blog and I'm sure that Mayo gets that. Glad you're back BC, but I must stop pummeling this dinosaur and go to bed. I've got to get up in the morning and take Annie to school. She has a field trip to the Park tomorrow, they are learning about bats and building bat boxes and walking on snowshoes and yeah, I wanna be in the fourth grade again!!!
I'm glad to be back too Carrie. Thanks. And I missed you, although it's too bad almost everyone is gone right when I made my introduction. Ha Ha. Is Annie your daughter? She's lucky. That field trip sounds like a lot of fun.
Goodnight and pleasant dreams Carrie. Take care.
Mayo,
This is J, on my own this time.
You will probably think I'm insane, if you don't already. I woke up out of a sound sleep this morning around 8 with a song in my brain, my ears. It was so clear that it sounded like a CD was playing--or eerier still, the person herself singing it out loud. And something behind that voice, overlapping it almost, told me to post the lyrics of this song to you. I cannot, for the life of me, figure out why. But I've learned to listen to that voice over the years, because it is never wrong.
So, because I know not to ignore my voice, I'm giving you the lyrics to this song by Janis Joplin.
"Mercedes Benz"
Oh Lord, won't you buy me a Mercedes Benz
My friends all drive Porsches, I must make amends
Worked hard all my lifetime, no help from my friends
So Lord, won't you buy me a Mercedes Benz
Oh Lord, won't you buy me a color TV
"Dialing for Dollars" is trying to find me
I'll wait for delivery each day until 3
So Lord, won't you buy me a color TV
Oh Lord, won't you buy me a night on the town
I'm counting on you, Lord, please don't bring me down
Prove that you love me and buy the next round
Oh Lord won't you buy me a night on the town
Oh Lord won't you buy me a Mercedes Benz
My friends all drive Porsches, I must make amends
Worked hard all my lifetime, no help from my friends
Oh Lord, won't you buy me a Mercedes Benz
So there you go, my brother. Maybe it'll make sense to you. If it doesn't, well, at least you got to read some cool words by a cool lady.
Take care, honey. Love to you tonight, as always.
J
Mayonaise, it is only past midnight here and it seems almost everyone is gone except for myself. Knowing me, I usually do not turn to bed until at least three or four in the morning, so I have about three or four more hours to go. I am about to go into a venting mode. Beware.
This is not to anyone in particular, just need to vent.
As soon as I decided to create a new blog and a name, I was in one of those "Fuck the world" sorta moods, but in a good way. The wonderful friends who had left me some very cool comments at my former home encouraged me to not let the dick heads put me down. Yes, them. The mean anons.
I am sad to say this, but I am convinced that some of those assholes are some of the regulars here; no shit about it, but guess what? Despite the ridiculous bullshit attempt to put me down the other day, I believe that I had done nothing wrong when it came to giving you my support and my love.
I think it is possible some of them may feel threatened by that, but it is mostly obvious when they were saying all of that despicable crap under anonymous, but I am not sure. Whatever stupid game they concoct in their twisted little mind, guess what? I don't fucking care anymore about what they think. Who the fuck cares, right? They have nothing but my deepest pity if they have to stoop so low as to attack me, OP J and L, and whoever they choose as their next victim.
Yes, I heard about the heartless attack on her, and you can guess I was pissed off about it. Somehow I knew that the same people who had attacked her were possibly the same cowards who tried to put me down.
But you know what? Sticks and stones. You try to make me a victim, all you will get in return is a pair of claws who will fight back, regardless if this is only a blog.
No one has the right to attack anyone under those circumstances. This bullying needs to stop, but honestly, if some of those idiots think I am going to cower and shut up, they picked the wrong chick.
End of rant.
Dearest SS,
How are you, my baby? Just been thinking about you today and wondering if you're well. Not just physically, but emotionally and psychologically too. Too many things coming at you at one time can make a person kind of hinky. So, please make sure your down time allows you to recharge not only your body, but also your heart and your mind.
When you feel lonely, imagine we're sitting in a dimly-lit corner, talking about everything and nothing, spending the hours being, by turns, serious, silly, insightful, dumb as a box of hair, in total agreement, at complete odds.
In short, being ourselves.
And in so doing, we know that neither of us is perfect, or above reproach, or devoid of human emotions or interests. Neither of us has the need, or the desire, to put the other on a pedestal. We know better than that.
We also know better than to take each other for granted.
I need to go now, but remember this: no matter how far away you are, you're always right here, with me, in my heart.
I love you, babydoll. Goodnight, and swwet dreams.
J
My throat, raw from futile attempts at making myself heard, was bleeding.
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Mayonaise, my sweet, I hear you loud and clear, but even sometimes I have to focus on issues of my own. But, to be honest, I care and worry more about you than I do about myself. I absolutely do. OP J and L had it right.
If you believe no one cares, you are absolutely wrong.
I remember in your previous post where you mention that you felt some kind of disconnection from the real world. Well, expressing your feelings to us, that right there shows that you ARE a part of humanity after all.
You are not considered a part of humanity if you do not feel anything at all. When you do not feel anything, then you are considered to be the true outcast, and that is when you will feel the true disconnection; when you are not part of the entire human race.
“Why don’t you hear me?...I have done such terrible things.”
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Mayonaise, even if you believe you have done such awful things, does that always necessarily mean that you do not deserve the good? We all have done things that we may not be proud of. The more and more you convince your psyche that you do not deserve happiness, the more you will begin to believe that.
We all know in the beginning that you were a cold and distant asshole, but even so, I never once believed that you were a heartless monster. I firmly believe that. I just believe that it takes a while to melt away that shield of ice you seem to have wrapped around your heart.
You are a good man, and I do believe that you have a good heart. I have to believe in that, and so do you, otherwise, if we do not believe the good we have deep inside ourselves, if we do not allow it to grow, we will only allow the darkness in us to succumb and take over.
If I had never believed in you, I would have given up on you many months ago, but alas, I am still here.
Do not shrug and push off whatever situation you are going through. Use it as a course in which you will learn from your mistake. Learning from them will teach you to become wiser, and to grow as a person.
If you do not believe that you deserve happiness, then you are being quite selfish, are you not? You do not consider the happiness you have put in others, most noticeably, our Family, do you?
You should consider it. And well, to be honest, you make me happy.
Why? Because you allow us to speak our minds and roam freely in your lovely and humble home of course.
I appreciate the fact that I can be myself here. There are traits that I feel sure that some others may not appreciate of, but you know what? I appreciate both the "good" and the not so good ones; they make me who I am.
Yes, I can be quite quirky, and "disturbing" as my lovely Pancake-Zilla had pointed out earlier in the day. (Don't think I didn't notice that! Ha!) But I take those traits with pride dammit!
No one on these blogs can take away anything that is me. I am who I am.
And Mayonaise, I wouldn't have you any other way. I like you just the way you are; both the sweet and caring man, and the jerk one as well.
I am not sure why, but your blogs tends to bring out my quirky traits. I still have not figured that out yet O_o
If you convinced yourself that you are some sort of monster, then I will still love you. Why? Because I don't see you in that regard. I see you as just being...you. Deep inside you have the good in you.
I meant every word that I have just said.
And if those unmarked graves decides to pick my words apart, then let them. My evil side happens to enjoy pissing them off, especially with my "craziness." There is nothing like it. Muhahaha.
P.S. You know I will hold your hand, whenever you need it, my little buttercup *pretends to bat lashes lol*
P.P.S. I was only kidding about the buttercup thing. I will offer some snuggles though.
Xoxo
BC
The "crazy" motherfucker.
It is only 1:33 a.m. and yet, I think I will sign off for the night. Goodnight and sweet dreams my little jar of Mayonaise. Don't worry. Things will get better eventually. *squeezes hand*
I know it will. Love to you and SS.
Goodnight BlogBelieve Family, goodnight lurkers, goodnight everyone else.
xoxo
bat kisses
Mayo,
Many words have been written in response to your post. Words that were written out of love by wonderful people who truly care about you. Each person shares a slightly different interpretation of your words. Well, of course I too feel the need to express my opinion. I am probably totally wrong and I think I already accept that as fact but still I feel the need to share with you my words.
My first thought when I read your post is the same thought still in my head. You drove someone away. Not out of hatred but out of love. You did what you believed to be the right thing, the best thing for this person. This wasn’t what you wanted for you. It was what you wanted for them. So you lied as you pushed them away. It tore at your heart. You don’t want to be alone.
Of course I have no idea why you had to push this person away. Was it a flaw in you? A flaw in them? Something unchangeable? Something that could never be overcome?
Love does not conquer all. Sometimes love is not enough. And sometimes it just fucking hurts.
You made your choice. A choice I believe was the one you know in your heart to be the right one. It wasn’t what you wanted. It wasn’t the happily ever after ending.
As I said at the start this is just an interpretation, my interpretation. The only real thing I can say is I’m sorry if you are hurt. I am sorry if you are in pain. That is not a guess on my part. That is the truth.
hello I am here! we had a sheduled power interruption I'd forgotten about and so I went to a friends and i missed it here!!
hope everyone is ok I just got home and haven't read up!
anyone about?
hey Mayo,
I hope this missive finds you well.
I worry if you seem down and desperate but I hope you have real people you can turn to, there is always someone who can understand, or if you don't wish to talk who can just listen, or just be near.
Like you said last post, the presence may be inept and clumsy but the fact they are with you is what is important.
I had a really nice day, though I wasn't able to spend time with friends here I spent the day with a very good friend who always makes me smile and with who I can discuss many things, I know she appreciates what I bring to our relationship as I appereciate what she brings. We really complement each other, which is rare to find.
If your search must now continue I pray you can be open and willing to find someone who complements you as you complement them. It may be a friend or it may be a lover and if you are truly blessed it may be both.
I wish you happiness in your life, whatever things you may have done you have the chance to change things now and look to the future, learning from the past.
All of life is learnig and adjusting, people come into our lives for us to learn from, be it fleetingly or lastingly.
Appreciate yourself and how you have grown and open yourself to new experiences, even if it is something as small as allowing part of your vulnerability to show and receiving the care of others.
Wishing you health happiness clarity and love
to you and yours
Much love
EP xx
*looks around*
*thinks it is a bit too quiet*
*strips off and runs hell of a fast around Mayo's blog*
*zig-zags past startled elena, BC/Pantera and ergoproxy*
*zig*
*zag*
Elena
*zig*
*zag*
BC/Pantera
*zig*
*zag*
Ergo
*...assorted jiggly bits greatly enjoying the outing*
Wooooohooooo!
*leaves Mayo's 'til later tonight, whence upon may return (possibly)fully clothed**
*dependent upon feeling cold/ bored/ naughty/ music playing...or none of the above.
*reaches arm into Mayo's, leaving eyedrops for those with sensitive eyes*
Morning Mayonaise,
Fabulous - some emo-whining to ice the doughnut of my Friday morning. Thank you though, the schaudenfreude has kicked in nicely and I feel so much better about my mediocre existence!
I suppose it's only polite to give some friendly advice so in the spirit of the Wise Woman of Blackadder II, Bells I offer you this:
"Wise Woman: Three cunning
plans to cure thy ailment.
Edmund Blackadder: Oh good.
W: The first is simple. Kill [Insert name here]!
E: Never.
W: Then try the second. Kill your self!
E: Neu. And the third?
W: Kill everybody in the whole world. Ah, ha, ha ..."
Let us know how it works out.
Love,
Kass xx
*plumps self down on the couch*
hi, mayo.
i'm back. my ex came over to buy some things i was getting rid of, and chauffeur me on some errands, and we ended up talking for a really long time. i actually ended up telling him a lot about this place, running through some things i think about it, getting an outsider's perspective.
it seems i really might not be delusional! yay!
admittedly, it feels odd to be re-entering a friendship with him, but it's also a little bit of a gift, too, to be able to recover a small item from those wasted years.
and thank goodness i don't find him attractive anymore, or i'd be getting nervous!
that was my evening. my day, however, was spent being worried about you. actually, no -- worried isn't quite the word. i just hurt, mayo. the emotion you poured into your words hit me straight and square, and i reeled with it most of the day.
and even though i don't really know what's going on in your life, i tried to respond as best i could, pain to pain. maybe i said the wrong things, maybe i took the wrong approach -- i don't know -- but at the bottom of it, i'm glad that you have this place in which to give your pain words. it helps to be able to do that, and to know that someone will read it. everyone's pain needs to be expressed, regardless it be big or small, or else it will fester, and poison.
so, thank you for trusting us.
and, as i spent a great portion of this evening going back over old posts to show to the ex, i feel a fresh sense of gratitude to the powers that be for shuffling us all together here. i understand that you can only share a fraction of yourself with us, but i do so enjoy even that. there are things i read in your words that make me think you must be a remarkable man.
so that was my day. you. cautiously recovering an old friend. and tomorrow -- the last day of my employment at the library. i jumped off the cliff, and i'm still falling -- no new job yet -- but strangely, i'm not all that worried. letting go of the old thing is more important, and a relief. the new thing will come along when it must.
i wonder what your day has been like, mayo. will you tally it up when you go to sleep tonight? will you be generous with yourself? will you remember to balance out the day, counting all your gains, not just your losses?
you'll be fine, i think. your feet are on a new path, and like all new paths, it has rough spots.
i'm walking one, too.
enjoy the rest of your day, mayo, and sweet restful restorative dreams to you when you sleep.
good night, my friend.
Good morning/afternoon/evening Mayo, SS, Ergo, PANTERA (hooray), Elena, Possum, everyone else around and at least semi conscious!
How are we all today?
Well, I hope Mayo is much better than this post indicates.......
"Sitting there, alone with my shame,"
That's just so sad :(
I have no words.....
thankfully, the other wonderful ladies around here have done a great job offering comfort and support for Mayo today/yesterday. Ohhh, and a story too! I loved it Elena and TJ!!! You ladies have me enthralled! I can't wait to read more.
BC: Welcome back! It's great to see you 'round these parts again and I adore the new name!!
Martha Jones said...
"No way i can't be first."
Martha: I'll just keep my mouth shut regarding that! ;-)
Possum said....
*leaves Mayo's 'til later tonight, whence upon may return (possibly)fully clothed**
Darn it Possum, I was in the mood to join you in some nudity! Shucks, maybe next time.......
Okay, I know I said I had no words regarding this post, but I can't help wondering how this other person in Mayo's post feels?
Why NOT say "I'm sorry, don't go"? Maybe it would have meant the world to them if Mayo had said those words and asked them to stay......
Are you trying to convince him/her that you have done such terrible things OR are you trying to convince yourself, Mayo?
"Is it all just wasted time
Can you look at yourself
When you think of what
You left behind"
I would hate to think that someday you will regret this decision. I hope you can look at yourself, Mayo. Look at yourself and forgive yourself.
Life is so, so short......
I am just a ray of sunshine these days, aren't I? LOL!!
Love and Hugs to all,
~Namaste~
Wendy
morning everyone!!!
hello mayo.
hello SS.
sorry i would've been here sooner but real life got in the way. how dare it!!
well i hope we are all ok.
i've had a quick catch up and just wanted to say:
kapunua i agree totally with your post to mayo. spot on!!
BC/pantera welcome back!
elena and toujours well you've got me hooked on your story!! update soon please!!!
hello to the people around at the mo:
PP (thanks for your streak!!),kass, wendy 616,ergo and anyone else!
and mayo man your post last night still has me all sad for you, hope you are ok.
Good morning TJ! Good "whatever" Kass!
Kass: you never fail to make me smile!!! Thank you!
You too TJ!
I hope you ladies are both doing well today.
I have to decided to post ALL the lyrics to "Wasted Time". Mayo's post did remind of this song you can't get a proper feel of a song with only the chorus and I KNOW there are some SKID ROW fans around here ;-)
"Wasted Time"
You and I together in our lives
Sacred ties would never fray
Then why can I let myself tell lies
And watch you die every day
I think back to the times
When dreams were what mattered
Tough talking youth naivete
You said you'd never let me down
But the horse stampedes and rages
In the name of desperation
Is it all just wasted time
Can you look at yourself
When you think of what
You left behind
Is it all just wasted time
Can you live with yourself
When you think of what
You've left behind
Paranoid delusions they haunt you
Where's my friend I used to know
He's all alone
He's buried deep within a
Carcass searching for a soul
Can you feel me inside your heart
As it's bleeding
Why can't you believe you
Can be loved
I hear you scream in agony
And the horse stampedes and rages
In the name of desperation
Is it all just wasted time
Can you look at yourself
When you think of what
You left behind
Is it all just wasted time
Can you live with yourself
When you think of what
You've left behind
You said you'd never let me down
But the horse stampedes and rages
In the name of desperation
Is it all just wasted time
Can you look at yourself
When you think of what
You left behind
Is it all just wasted time
Can you live with yourself
When you think of what
You've left behind
The sun will rise again
The earth will turn to sand
Creation's colors seem to fade to grey
And you'll see the sickly hands of time
Will write your final rhyme
And end a memory
I never thought you'd let it get this far, boy
I never thought, I never thought
You'd let it get this far boy o no
I never thought, I never thought
You'd let it get this far boy no
I never thought you'd let it get this far boy
SkidRowWastedTimeVideo
Ohhhh.....and does everyone know that Sebastian Bach has a new CD out now? "Angel Down" is the name.
check out the new song "(Love Is) A Bitchslap" That makes me smile too!!!
Sebastian Bach new music video
I hope the link thingie works!
Hot diggity dog! I DID IT!!!!!
Why did no one tell me it was the same code that we use on myspace?
LOL!
Hello FASC!!! How are you on this fantastic Friday?
I'm off to try to get some sleep now. Wish me luck ;-)
Love and Hugs to all (again)
6/Wendy
good luck wendy!!
Hello FASC & Goodbye Wendy,
And thank you for clearing up the "Pantera" thing, I was wondering who that was.
Since it was brought up again last night:
For the information of any random/regular anons - you can take this piss out of/attack me all you want; my working day gets very boring sometimes and I'd be happy for the distraction.
Have fun!
Kass xx
Bye 616.
Hi Kass and Faraway.
Hi PP!
Let me guess - you would be out painting the town red on a Friday night but you love us just so much?
Kass xx
PP regrets to advise she will not be at the DM starting line tonight.
PP's computer has not been talked nicely to enough...
and it is being a jackass kicking out error messages at DM's frontdoor.
Sweet Kass - you know it!
And also the fact I'd rather not smell like pot-pourri this weekend.
Ooh, you responsible parent, you!
This weekend I will be mostly chillaxing on Saturday and jumping around like a loon on Sunday at the Kerrang! Tour gig in Bristol. It's Coheed & Cambria, Madina Lake, Fightstar (Charlie from Busted!) and Circa Survive, who did the Down Under MCR support if memory serves.
Kass xx
Kass,
More like completely irresponsible.
*dreads to think how many concerts been to in the last 12 months*
*understands completely CSS's song 'Music is my hot, hot sex'*
Coheed and Cambria are getting a lot of Kerrang! pages lately. Now I know why.
Yes to Circa Survive at MCR. Forever thankful it wasn't MSI. An interesting performance by the lead singer o_O
*would very much like to see a clay figure representation of Kass, loon-like*
I prefer Alcohol. The CSS song, I mean!
I did once make a Plasto-me, which is on my blog, to ensure co-worker discipline in an "I'm watching you"-type way when I went off skiing for a week. I came back to find it had been decapitated and a short video clip had been made of it wandering around being chased by Valentino Rossi's head on a model car. Total lack of respect...
I shall try to post it.
Kass xx
So I have been having trouble with my internet so I will post this and run, I will try my dammedest to come back in and catch up later. Not to mention, I like it here and this comment might jeopardize that. But I feel the need to say it. I apologize now if I offend, that is not my intention, I am simply upset, and worried.
MAYO:
You break my heart more often than not- it is overbearing. But sometimes I don't think you want all that pity.
You imply that you have all but laid down and died for this person -to save or salvage this friendship or relationship. But have you really? In the back of your mind, in the dark bottom of your heart -with the kind of honesty that you would not dare to say out loud, that you can hardly even stomach to think on:
Did you really try to save it? Do they truely deserve that much anger, to be given up on? Let go?
You change your mind so quickly, so venomously -at every turn. I am just curious if the people near you that you write about -is it deserved? Are they really That much pain for you? The only thing that makes me feel better for you And Them is the idea I hold onto to -that you write this blog generally when you are emotional -to Vent. (instead of bottling it up and making more of something than it should be - to that persons Face.)
I truely hope for your sake and theirs that Neither of of you Honestly deserve the fire you've thrown at them -and the fire they seem to have thrown at You. You seem to have known and cared about this person for a very long time- can you truely let go of them? Can you truely say you want too -that they Deserve it -that -NONE of the pain, problems or mistakes you are feeling and dealing with have come from You?
You break my heart but then the idea that Yours is Not it -with your daily life, your supposed loved ones and Their lives intertwined with Yours keeps coming back and enrages me to no end. And then proceeds to grind my heart into the gutter. Having someone close, to know and love -is a fucking gift. Not something to be abandoned lightly.
Do you really want to feel better? Do you really care about this person? Have you really tried? I hope I just misinterpret you yet again tonight. I hope I am just typing because of a miserable day. I hope you are worthy of the faith so many of us here have and cannot shake -for you.
I am just so tired of people giving up -it is nothing more than Waste. I hope I will never be able to add you to that list Mayo.
All of my faith and hope -to Mayo, Ss, and the beautiful family here. Again, sorry if I offended. -l
P.s. -sorry that was so fucking long, I didn't mean to ramble. Night all. -l
Please give to Mayo:
Mayo,
Good Morning, my friend, how are you? Are you okay? I really hope you are better than okay. Me? I'm good, just a little bit hungry and still sleepy. It's so quiet in my house this morning. I haven't even bothered to eat breakfast because I'm trying so hard not wake him up. I did my best not to make him angry last night, but that didn't stop him from getting drunk. Why? Do I make him sick to his stomach? Can he not stand to look at me or talk to me anymore? Honestly, I don't know.
Damnit, I just unloaded on you right there first thing in the morning. Sorry.
Mayo, my wish for you today is that you are able to see all the people here and how much we really care about you. May you feel the love, the hope, and the faith because for some reason, I think you need that today. I hope it brings you some much needed comfort and clarity and you are able to move forward.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Every little bit helps.
I prefer Alcohol. The CSS song, I mean!
Yes, I believe you.
*shaking head, no*
Lack of respect?
Too right, Rossi's head should be on a Yamaha and a Yamaha only.
Good morning Lewis, that wasn't long. Good to see you back. Sorry you're having one of those days. Do you want to talk?
Socky on the porch.
I can't play again =(
My computer hates it's new software apparently and doesn't always want to mix it up with DM.
Who should get the claps for the DM race tonight?
hey PP!
you still here?
i won over at DM!!
mind you not much competition with you out of it, i don't think kass could be arsed!! i only had the princess to compete with!!
hello lewis, you still here??
good to read you and no worries i don't think anyone would be offended by your thoughts at all.
*wonders where everyone went*
*realises PP is still wearing nothing but a smile from earlier boredom*
*leaves hastily*
*returns in Projekt Revolution bridal attire*
FASC,
Well done!
Kass will probably come up with some excuse, like she was looking for her lost head or something.
Did princess shout much about coming second?
Did princess shout much about coming second?
Smoke doesn't like being second. >_<
Smoke likes winning and nothing else. >_<
FASC will feel the wrath of Smoke by being slammed in the wall. >_<
Ha! Just playin'!
Well, not really....
Stupid DM - I checked a dozen times this morning, then I go to MCI just when they finally pull their finger out!
Hi Lewis,
Despite my own personal, rather cynical view that Mayo's posts have sweet FA to do with his real life, I would at least hope that if I'm wrong he's using this blog to vent his frustrations rather than taking it out on a genuine human being. He does come across like an utter b*st*rd sometimes.
Stupid blogger won't let me post the vid. Grrrr...
Kass xx
Hey Mayo.
I don't know exactly what to say this morning. I just hope you're okay and I just wanted to say hi.
Hugs and kisses, Mayo.
SS,
I hope you're okay as well and I hope you're smiling today. Why?
Just because.
Love you to pieces!
XOXO,
S&V20
Hi there Princess.
Hey, no cheating queries* tonight though!
*flat out worthy accusations
Morning all
Snow. Woke up to snow.
No even gonna whine. Why bother?
Mayo I truly hope you are okay.
But you should already know that.
Yeah, I'm sure you know that.
SS hope you are okay, too.
But you should know that!
Crap am I uninspired this morning or what?
I will blame it on the snow.
FASC,
Well done!
Kass will probably come up with some excuse, like she was looking for her lost head or something.
exactly PP!!!
Stupid DM - I checked a dozen times this morning, then I go to MCI just when they finally pull their finger out!
see!
FASC will feel the wrath of Smoke by being slammed in the wall. >_<
oh erm ok??!!
Hi Elena.
Make a snow angel.
There's nothing better than lying on snow like a child, and flapping your arms and legs in and out, as adults walk by.
How's that story coming along?
hi elena!
oh we so rarely get snow!!
i have said but i'll say again i am loving yours and TJs story!! more please!! i know its TJs turn but just so you know i want more!!
WTF? DM won't refresh so I can't see the new post even now!
Excuses, excuses...
Kass xx
O_o
Guess you might be on the sideline with me for a while, Kass.
We can be the pit girls.
Ah, pit girls - where feminism still dare not tread.
Hi Elena,
"Snow. Woke up to snow.
No even gonna whine. Why bother?"
Two reasons:
One, Mayo is whining enough for a small country as it is, and
Two, I love the white fluffy stuff and we never get any down here on the coast, so I'd get all jealous and grumpy and then I'd have to whine back. And I can out-whine anybody...
Kass xx
Ah, pit girls - where feminism still dare not tread.
So shall we make a stand amongst the DM fumes?
Though my standing is more like teetering precariously in anything other than horizontal soles.
Hey PP, Kass, FASC
Kass I'd be happy to send you some of the white shit. Really I would.
PP no snow angels for me. Maybe a snow devil. *ponders how to make one of those*
Mayo, I read your post again this morning, and while I feel for your pain, I can't help but wonder what the other person in going through. What motivated you to force a person, who believes in you, to walk away? It seems like you are trying to prove you've done "such terrible things", by doing something terrible to them. Did they really deserve this or are you being noble by forcing them away from you? I am quite sure you are not the monster you believe yourself to be. You are human and you need to be loved, just like everybody else does.*
*shameless Smiths reference
How can you guys be so sure that Mayo is sincere? How can you be sure these things actually are happening to him? I want to understand like you all do.
Hi Anon(s),
I can't speak for anyone else here but I've been pretty outspoken about my general cynicism of Mayo's mental torments!
Kass xx
good morning wide eyed and bushy tailed friends
how are you all this glorious morning?
Hi Fimble,
You're keeping well I hope. Are you up to anything wonderfully exciting this weekend?
Kass xx
Beautiful with facial hair, Frank is.
*sorry princess.
Hi Yoda,
Beautiful with or without facial hair, Frank is!
Is the pic recent?
Kass xx
hello kass and yoda
kass, i am doing nowt this fine weekend as per usual. looking afterniece no doubt. if it would be my perfect weekend i would be hitting the town friday night, sleeping in saturday, chillaxing with friends saturday afternoon. hit the own once again saturday night and then sunday i would be watching the mighty reds (best team in the world) beat the sorry losers team that they were playing.
my ideal weekend but it wont be happening anytime soon. blah blah blah
how about you.
yoda nice picture. can i ask how you get all your pictures
The pic is from this past weekend.
Mostly get them off of INO, I do.
The "sorry losers team" for this weekend is going to be Spurs in the 4th round of the FA Cup. We've got Wigan away.
Yoda has a mighty stash of pictures to cover all eventualities borrowed from, I think, INO or similar. I asked once before...
Kass xx
See Yoda, I do pay attention!
ohhhhhhh we have spurs. well i hope miss t gets back in time so i can danve around her with my victory dance.
COME ON WIGAN. WIGAN TO WIN.
hehehehe oh well
i have just actually read you in idiots. good to see you there.
My precccciousssss remembers.
It seems the Mayonettes are taking over MCI, FS!
I sent the one girl (bustamove) who asked about 'the blogs' a private message. I thought it would have seemed like there was something to hide if I didn't tell her, but I didn't want to post the Mayo link in open cyberspace just in case we got an influx of anons, who would no doubt start asking the same old questions and annoy some of the other regs. I personally don't mind answering them but you know!
Kass xx
iye i know, dont need more hassle then there is.
i just actually read that part how crazy. i dont ost often but i like it. i dont get it over there tho as in how to work the damn thing. madness. but i have to say sister rocks my socks over there. with her killer boots ha.
wat are you up to kass, are you sat in work again
is there anyone here?
Good morning Mayo,
I still have trouble understanding the whole exposing yourself via blogspot for the world to see, in what is often something very private and painful in someones life.
Sometimes it just doesn't feel appropriate to comment.
Sometimes you just can't help it.
Right there, I sit right in the middle of the room that heard my pleas for you to leave, my pleading for you to stop believing and start listening to the truth. “Why don’t you hear me?...I have done such terrible things.”
People are prepared to believe the worst of you if they see that you yourself believe it of your self.
There is no stronger argument than the conviction in your own eyes of your own worth.
Try to think better of yourself.
"It's not the mountain we conquer, but ourselves."
- Sir Edmund Hillary
First climber of Everest, explorer, philanthropist, ordinary, humble, great hearted, human.
hey pp, how are you. you are in blue i usually see you in your black dress
Hi Fimble!
I forgot to do the guys.
Mayo's done. SS's turn next.
Back in a moment.
*PP sounding like a call girl*
hahaha, well a call girl sounds good haha. catch you in a min.
Oh gosh, I couldn't resist this....
Headline on Yahoo this morning:
Farmer hides castle from building inspectors.
Mayo, this ain't you is it?
And on the same exact page:
Panty thief nabbed by police.
I swear to God it wasn't me or Mya.
O_O
What is MCI?
Smoke, that's so damned funny!
ha princess, that would be to funny. but how can you seriously hide a castle from police? i am baffled
mya - mci is a group in bn that basically are like here. have own opinions and you do not get slate for wat you say.
I know I read it and I was like that is tooooo weird. Did SS file a report against us?
O_o
Alright, gotta go work for a bit.
See you peeps later!
XOXO,
S&V20
hmmm... So what does MCI stand for?
have fun at work princess, i will think of you when i am drving past all the racing dudes at the track.
my chemical idiots = mci
Good morning SS,
Sorry for the combo and fries comment the other day.
Well, actually I'm not.
I am plumbing the depths of inanity these days. And it is rather fun.
That inner child always tries to escape.
The secret to happiness is not always money, but instead to keep looking at the world with fresh and unjudgemental eyes and find something good in every day or the people around you.
Sometimes I think people need to hit me on the head to keep me down on the ground.
I guess that must make me the original whack a mole.
See you around sometime.
Love
PP
hey guys, i have to run. need to visit the post office.
i will be back later. take care
xx
I miss Miss T. so much.
Hi mya!
Sorry FS, that took so long. I type like a one fingered typist. Oh!
S&V20,
That's a crack up!
I'll have to go and check out the hidden castle.
Okay, I'm getting evil eyes behind me now, so I better go.
*blows at being busted at 5.10am*
Catch you later.
Night/ Morning all.
kapunua at work said...
Can. Somebody post this at Mayo's for me?
It is about the anons last night re: my stupid story and TJ's and Elena's one.
I cannot believe you are taking it seriously. I can't believe that ANYone is taking it--or anything in it--seriously. If you are upset by any aspect of it, then you are ridiculous. It's a joke. Not only a joke, but a harmless, inoffensive one. Nothing daring, edgy or challenging is going on in it. I am writing it as a lark.
, For enjoyment, to make my friends here smile--if that includes my seldom-seen friends such as Mayo and /or SSS, then tant mieux, so much the better.
As far as TJ's and Elene
'S story goes, I like it, too. And if you think they are doing it to take a shot at me, you're a fool. I lIke both those ladies and they like me. If you are one of the folks trying to drive a wedge between some of us, walk away.
If you are trying to poke me with a stick over their story, a,nd are using it in your comments to take a shot at me, again: walk away.
It's blog believe. We are not writing great literature here, at least I am not. We're just having fun. Way to be petty about it.
I might not know exactly who you are. But you do, and that's enough to put a smile on my face. :D
Okay, I am curently hiding in the isolation ward. Better get back to work. Bleach fumes aree getting to me. :D
11:17 AM, January 25, 2008
Hi Mayo,
Been thinking about you, whoever you are; just hope you’re okay. I don’t know what else to say; can’t find the words like the others can.
I hate that you seem be hurting. If I could do anything, you know!
You mentioned telling stories to take someone's mind of the pain. So here goes:
A work colleague of mine was sitting in his living room the other night when he became aware of a noise that seemed to be coming from the fireplace; a kind of 'cheeping' that he thought sounded like a bird. He checked out the fire and looked up the chimney; nothing.
Next night the noise was still there. His wife was away leaving him in charge of their five year old daughter. He told her he thought it was a bird and she became very upset by this and begged him to rescue the poor bird. Again he looked up but there was nothing, but still ‘cheep’. Having obtained a hammer and chisel he started to knock out bricks from the chimney breast until he had a hole large enough to stick his head, arm and torch through. Nothing; except of course the pile of rubble, a very dusty living room and the ‘cheep’.
Next day he called the local fire station who obliged by sending round three burly firemen and heat-seeking equipment. They scanned the whole fireplace, removed more of the chimney breast so they could actually climb in, but still no sign of the bird.
So they all stood surveying the devastation, scratching their heads, while the bird kept 'cheeping'.
That is until one of the said burly firemen, while wandering around deep in contemplation, happened to come to rest below the smoke alarm.
The smoke alarm that was beeping because it had a low battery!!!!!
So, how many men does it take to change the battery in a smoke alarm?
Much Love.
Take care, sweetie!
And on the same exact page:
Panty thief nabbed by police.
I swear to God it wasn't me or Mya.
I swear to god that I did not turn anyone in.
Promise! ;)
hello everyone!
hi K, hiding in the isolation ward!!
mya MCI stands for my chemical idiots a forum on buzznet.
forgot to do the guys.
Mayo's done. SS's turn next.
PP that comment is just too good!!
smoke&venom20 said...
Oh gosh, I couldn't resist this....
Headline on Yahoo this morning:
Farmer hides castle from building inspectors.
Mayo, this ain't you is it?
And on the same exact page:
Panty thief nabbed by police.
I swear to God it wasn't me or Mya.
O_O
January 25, 2008 10:53 AM
that is so fucking funny!
kass, i am doing nowt this fine weekend as per usual. looking afterniece no doubt. if it would be my perfect weekend i would be hitting the town friday night, sleeping in saturday, chillaxing with friends saturday afternoon. hit the own once again saturday night and then sunday i would be watching the mighty reds (best team in the world) beat the sorry losers team that they were playing.
fimble i have had uncountable weekends doing exactly that. absofuckinglutely exactly!! and they were all bloody great!!
obviously pre kids though cos i rarely go out and all my friends now have kids too!!!
Hi folks!
hi DG! great story, how embarrassing!
hi MIB i thought of you today whilst in the supermarket. i was scanning the shelves and looking for some pickle/relish and i saw a mustard pickle?? and only because of you i bought it!! there - you influenced my decision!
and i must say that the only true mustard is colemans english mustard. do you get it in the USA?? its the dogs bollocks (thats good btw)!!
Mayo:
Because I read it on the back of a cereal box( not really, but I can't remember who told it to me), and you gave me full and proper go-ahead. Maybe it'll make you laugh feverishly until you just have to stop everything and go to the bathroom, or maybe it'll make you drop your head in shame because you've got someone telling you the stupidest joke ever.
Either way, I hope it brightens your mood.
Okay, so here goes.
One day this dude was at the gas station and this flying saucer came down and "parked" next to him at the pump.
Dude gets out of his car and starts to fill his tank with gas. The alien steps out of his vehicle and does the same.
To make small talk, said dude asks said alien, "What's that UFO stand for on the side of your flying thingy? Unidentified flying object?"
Alien looks at the dude and says, "No, dumbass. Unleaded fuel only."
LOL! I win! ;)
Hope you have an okay day, Mayo. Did it look better this morning than it did last night? Sometimes sleep helps a lot of things.
See you around :)
SS:
Wishing you a wonderful day as well. There's probably a copyright on that joke, so don't try to be all cool and pass it off as your own ;)
Maybe we'll see you later, and if not, maybe the next time.
Be good, and don't get into any trouble.
See ya later, buddy :)
You all suck up to Mayo and SS in the hope they will talk to you or put you on their blog pages.
How about giving a thought to how the rest of us feel when we try to talk to Mayo and SS are ignored?
Yes, I'm a family member and it makes me feel bad. I know I shouldn't feel like this but I do. Some people's attention seeking disgusts me. It hurts to be ignored by them.
Hi Anon,
Barring a very sweet "thank you" from SS on his Christmas letter and one word - "sculpture" - on Mayo's I haven't been mentioned by them but that's really not why I come here. I like to fill the work-voids in my day by chatting with a few friendly "faces" and discussing conspiratorial BS, but if I wanted attention I'd have to go elsewhere.
I do understand your frustrations, but I don't think it's going to change anytime soon - we've all been here differing amounts of time, we've all got different personalities - on the blog, as in life, some of those will gravitate to the forefront more than others.
It's one of those situations where just accepting your natural position in the scheme of things will lead to greater serenity. Ohm...
Life sucks, eh?
Kass xx
Aw, anon sweetie.
I know where you're coming from, I'm never spoken too...even when I speak directly.
I just try not to take it personally, I'm sure it's not meant that way.
When lots of people are shouting it's hard not to only hear the loudest.
I do kinda resent the sucking up bit though!
Anon @12:07
I don't normally comment on family squabbles, but please don't sweat it.
I mean, for all any of us knows Mayo and SS could be serial killers or something. What exactly is so great about getting attention from them?
Concentrate on the things you know are good about you and stop trying to measure yourself against the others. I think you'll find you don't need any one else's approval but your own.
Be happy.
Hi DG,
We can make our points for Anonymous, but since Mayo's postscript is "make sure it is so loud that they have no choice but to listen", I'm gonna throw up my hands and give up...
Bad Mayo!
Kass xx
Hi Bikey,
See - eventually you'll all come round to my Mayo-is-Jeffrey-Dahmer-in-training-sizing-up-the-tastiest-ass theory...
Eat the Marks of Love & Twuntburger Anons first, dammit Mayo!
Kass xx
Well said Bikey!
If we were all the same the world would be kinda boring.
Kass:
Haha! I don't do loud....can't be arsed, you see!
Forget what I said about the story. What I really mean is that I don't want Toujour and Elena to write there's because they stole my idea and attention. I want them to stop.
I suck up and so do my friends who thinks that just because, Mayo quotes them and SS pays attention to them they are smart and special. They disgust me.
Serial killers?
O_O
So just what exactly is in your DIVERSIONAL photobucket account?
Nevermind, I don't wanna know.
Hey Bikey, Kass, DG and whoever else is here!
Anon pretending to be Kapunua...
Why? Why are you doing that?
kapunua at work was me being stupid. i am sorry, i am high and i just fell out of a tree. please ignore me
And one more thing and I'll shut up...
Ha! Gotcha. O_o You thought I was gonna say something didn't you?
But they obviously have favorites and it is unfair and it hurts. I can't help how I feel.
Anyway, Adios Amigos!!
Kass xx
Hi Princess!
Anon,
Climbing trees whilst high is mighty foolish, if you don't mind me saying.
Anon @ 12.49
I hear ya!
But as Bikey said try not to sweat it, sweetie.
It's really not worth it in the grand scheme of things, you know.
Byeeee Kass!
Anon, I don't think they have favorites. As far as Mayo goes, I have no idea what that dude relates to or whatever. I just try to do the best I can to help him out. Whether it does or not, I don't know.
SS, now he's a sweetheart. He would never intentionally hurt or ignore anyone.
I'm sorry you feel this way.
Listen, I'm one of the loudest mouths here. That's just me. But even I am looked over from time to time. When you think about thousands of comments it's nearly impossible for them to see all of them.
Problem solved.
Huh?
Anon, I'm a friend of Kapunuas and I've never been acknowledged by Mayo or SS. Some of my friends have. I'm not jealous of those who have been noticed. I'm happy for them.
I'm not here to get noticed. That's what MY blog is for. It's all about me. This is Mayo's blog and it's all about him. Just as it should be. We are lucky that he allows us to gather here and do our thing.
I enjoy trying to figure out what Mayo has posted and I giggle when SS comes to visit.
I've met the most creative, funny, smart, and thoughtful people here. That's why I'm here. To chat with them and hang out, for just a little bit and try to glean something off of these wonderful people.
Try and go with the flow. It's easier than fighting it and you might even have fun. :)
Anon, what do you mean?
Speak young lady, you're worrying me!
What the hell?
Why did you do that?
Damn!!!!!!!
My friend,
If you are still reading, please don't let this stuff bother you.
Please?
Are you okay?
Anon,
My e-mails on my profile...okay!
I ain't talking to the anon that's feeling left out right now.
You know who you are.
Are you okay?
Seriously. Just let me know you are okay. I don't want this shit to bother you.
What the heck is going on in here?
This makes me sad.
SS, are you okay?
Not as sad as it makes me.
Goodnight.
Here is a huge *HUG* for you sweetie.
As Princess said, don't let it bother you. But I totally understand where you are coming from...we still love you buddy.
And thank you for all you do. For all of us.
Dude, seriously, don't let this stuff bother you, okay?
You haven't done anything wrong.
I don't want you to be sad.
SS: Sweetie, it's not your fault, you don't have to do that!
Are you alright?
I swear to God people. What the fuck is wrong here?
Now, the one person who has been nothing but good to us and shown us love from the beginning is hurt.
That makes me fucking mad.
He has never done anything to hurt anyone here and he does not deserve this.
i am flying out the door but just to let you know that just because they say they are a family member doesnt actually mean they are.
ss you know who you are and you know what you do. you do not need for people to say you are a nice guy when you should know it already but we tell you because thats what we feel.
you are a top bloke and there is no kidding in that.
you should never change things just because someone else is bothered. you know the truth and your friends (i like to think we are all friends)know the truth and thats what counts.
i hope you are ok and chin up.
i am off to walmart to buy 2 pillows and a banana in a min
SS,
Fimble is right. We know you would never want to hurt anyone. You don't deserve to be treated like this. I am sorry you are sad now. It really pisses me off but you know that. I don't like to see people hurt when they don't deserve it. It makes me sad, too.
Just remember this for me, I appreciate everything you do and have done for everyone here. You truly are one of a kind and I do love you to pieces.
Please come back and talk to us when you can, okay?
XOXO,
S&V20
Not as sad as it makes me.
This breaks my heart. I can't even type right now.
SS: you could never cause hurt to anyone or make anyone sad, please don't think that!
It seems there are people hurting in BlogBelieve though.....something to think about,eh.
Must go, have a work's dinner to attend. Need to put some slap on so I don't put other's off their food, scare small children etc....
Well, not that I've ever had a problem before getting loud but now I'm gonna use Mayo's words:
MAKE SURE IT IS SO LOUD THAT THEY HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO LISTEN.
SS,
I know you're still here. Somewhere. Please just hear what Anima, FS and I are saying right now.
Please.
ss
you put a fucking great big smile on miss t, elena and pp faces when you did your selfless, kind and baically amazing acts of what kind of person you are.
you made MY friends happy and that makes me happy.
i hope you know that you are still the king of ff2007 and that there is always a seat at the table for you. i dont know what else to say because i am lost for words.
just remember that you have 40 friends here anytime you need us. to talk serious or just to have a random chat about geese.
Bikey, thank you for your post btw. It was awesome.
I meant for us to think about, SS, NOT you!
Bye!
Dude, you know I'm gonna get fired or something, right?
I'm already light-headed and dizzy. I might just faint.
If I faint, I'm gonna fall out of my chair and hit my head on my desk and then they'll see Blogger pulled up on my computer and they'll know I'm not working.
All this is going to happen, unless you let me know that you're okay and you're not upset.
Then I'll shut up.
Ask my husband. I can get pretty damn annoying if I try hard enough.
SS
i have to go now, i want to stay but i need to go
please for the love of geese i hope you are ok and that you will know what the true you is. that is a kind person who helps others out.
yes you may have flaws but who doesnt. my flaw is that i bite my nails. your flaw could be that you pick your nose. who knows but please come back and tell us you are ok.
princess, dg, anima, bikey i hope you are all ok and i will catch you later
ss - please have faith in us, i know you do but please for the love of geese let us know you are ok
fim
xx
Well, I guess he's gone now.
SS,
I hope you heard us. I feel pretty sure you did. Maybe you can let me know eventually, okay?
Faith, Hope and Love.
Always.
Keep believing in me. Keep believing in us.
We will never stop believing in you.
Never.
Hello, I just wanted to drop a note to Pickled Possum -she has no where on her blog to comment!
Could someone please let her (PP) know I greatly appreciated her offer to chat last night? I really did post and run, and I'm sorry I missed her! Talking to people here always makes me feel better -So I hope I catch her again some other time. Thanks so much!
-Although, now I cannot fully say I'm That sad to have cut and run; anons wig me out. What's in a name yo!? Even just a little one is better than nothing! I hope nobody got pissed on, I'm not going to bother reading that. I hope everyone is well today. Love to Far (and the family, Mayo, Ss -of course!). -l
Oh, well. I hope to hell this gets through because this computer is a piece of crap.
SS:
You do not feel bad for ANYTHING. Not a fucking thing. You've given more to us than we could ever have asked for.
Dude, you have never had to do the things you've done. No one has ever expected you to. Everything you've written, be it something directed to one person or to all of us, I've never, not once, looked at it being strictly to piss someone off. I looked at it as you watching over us, being our friend, trying to join in when you could.
Do not let this keep you away from here. We are your friends, we respect the things you have to say, and we love seeing you around.
I'm so sorry.
SS, please never forget how much you mean to all of us.
Do not ever change, EVER! You are an amazing person - and you inspire me to be a better person everyday.
I know you care about all of us - everything you do regardless of who it is for, makes me smile. You have a huge heart; Thank you so much for being our friend, for being my friend. It means the world to me. More than I could ever explain.
Goodnight, have sweet and happy dreams.
You know what, fuck it.
You guys can pissed at me if you want. Just know that I respect all of you and I respect your thoughts, ideas, and opinions.
SS:
I'm not sorry for the things you said to me and actually, I'm pretty damn grateful. There's one thing you said to me that is near and dear to my heart, and no one else can have that but me. I will appreciate it forever. So, if this is the end, which I hope to hell it isn't, thank you for that. Personally. I just want to thank you.
God, I wish he could hear me yelling.
This is so not right people. Now ya'll know I get fighting mad about shit like this.
Ok, so where is the feeling left out Anon? Do you feel left out now? I'm not trying to be mean, well maybe I am, but there you go.
He heard you that time.
SS,
I'm sorry. I try to be more forgiving like you. I try to be more willing to see things from other's perspective. Right now. I can't. I am mad. Like Mustard said, we are your friends.
Please believe that.
Mustard,
No, I'm not pissed at all. I am with you 100 percent. My birthday present, which was a present to everyone, was priceless. I'm not sorry at all and I'll kick the shit out of anyone that tries to make me or him feel bad about it.
Cuz right now, I don't give a fuck.
Okay, I'll shut up now. For a little while anyway.
Right slaps on and I've got a few minutes.
I'm gonna do this in blue, as for the record I have never anon'd since having a name.
There are people who feel hurt and left out, that they don't matter and don't measure up.
This IS NOT the fault of SS or Mayo, they are only trying to be nice.
It does feel like it's become a competition for attention and those who can't or don't want to compete are feeling hurt and left out. At times myself included.
You just feel railroaded and insignificant.
I know there are some strong and talented people here and that's cool, we all are in our own way. But just because someone is quieter, doesn't have the same talents or are unable for whatever reason to put themselves forward doesn't mean they should feel like that.
Maybe we should all think about it, ALL of us!
Well, there I said it. Hate if you will....*shrugs and goes back to the corner*
Pasta and wine awaits!
Hey everyone. What's going on?
BC
Mayo you are so full of shit, your times coming tick tock
I'm glad SS took that stuff down.
You make me sick mayo
Good for you, Anon.
Glad it made you feel better.
Okay, well, clearly, something is wrong.
SS, you are such an amazing dude. Honestly, it hurts me to see you feeling down. Don't let any anonymous person do that to you. It's your blogs, your space. You can put whatever you want there.
Same with you Mayonaise. Guys, don't listen to those anonymous posters.
HUGE *hug* for everyone. =]
<3
Can someone tell me what the hell is going on?
BC
Hello everyone!
How is it going?
*Siobhan ate too much. AGAIN!*
BC,
I just got here, and I think a regular posted as an anonymous, saying that they felt left out and hurt that SS or Mayo hadn't acknowledged them or posted anything about them/for them. SS then took the things off of his page about him being a super hero or what not.
That's what I think happened. Correct me if I'm wrong, please.
Hey Siobhan!
You're so right, PH.
That is their space.
They can say whatever they want to say to whomever they feel like saying it to.
Why SS is a great friend....
SS is great friend because he would sacrifice his own personal thoughts for the sake of the family.
SS is a great friend because he would rather see it back to normal than to possibly contribute to the mayhem.
SS is a great friend because he's unselfish, giving, and a welcomed part of this family.
In conclusion, SS is pretty fucking awesome.
Give that to your teacher.
BC!!!
You are back!!!
I read your new blog entry.
A new level of confidence and power!
Hey, PH!
How are you?
This blog is really starting to blow.
You all argue about petty things. Oh Look at me!! Look at me!!! and then god forbid that anyone shouldnt notice you cause then why not just spread your "disease" and make everyone feel like shit. Including SS.
So fucking what you didnt get a mention. Do you really need your name in a Mayo Post or somwehere on SS's blog to feel that happy? If this is the case i suggest you switch off your computer and call a psychiatric doctor.
They are anonymous people, they dont owe you anything.
Least SS has some class unlike Mayo, can you say BULLSHIT mayo? Has a ring to it dont you think?
There are people on this blog that are suffering with real problems, that need their "friends" but you are all too pre-occupied with childish bullshit and it nearly makes me as sick as Mayo makes me feel.
Amongst this fucking fairytale are exceptional people, and an exceptional network of love, dont let Mayo or this petty favouritism claim tear any of that apart.
My adorable Pancake-Zilla, guess who's back?
Paperheart, sorry if I didn't say hi to you just now. Hi! and thank you for letting me know about the situation. How are you grasshopper?
If someone is bothered about the stuff SS posted, then why do you have to hide behind an anonymous in order to address the issue?
What is it with some of us these days? Now you have to voice your concerns under anonymous because some of us are scared? It's bullshit.
Anon who's trashing Mayo and SS:
If they make you so sick, then why do you keep coming back?
SS, please don't go.
Just because we have a few people who view these blogs as a popularity contest, doesn't mean you should stop being your sweet self.
God, can we not have ONE FUCKING DAY in Blog-Believe where anons DON'T stir the shit??? ONE... DAY... that's all I ask.
Hello & ♥ to everybody else!
PS - Siobhan - How do you make the sixteenth note? ( ♬ )
Anonymous @ 2:37:
Exactly. And I feel bad that SS feels bad. This blog is getting ridiculous. And these arguments about yearning to get attention from Mayo or SS needs to stop already. It's completely childish and stupid.
Mustard, great essay. =]
I feel horrible that someone could actually make SS feel that way. He should be able to post whatever he wants to post without getting attacked!
BC, that's okay. =]
I'm alright, how about you?
Hello there Sister M. How are you? Paperheart, how is Hug Fu going? Has Squeak Squeak received a black belt yet?
Hello BC!
Your new name ROCKS!!!!
PANTERA RULEZ!!!
My young grasshopper, glad to hear you're okay. I'm okay, a little bit cold, but otherwise, I am getting fed up with the popularity thing.
Hello Mustard!
Hello SisM!
How are you guys?
Wait, let me see, SisM.
Sister Midnite i am not trashing SS, i am not that other anon and if you read my post about the SS thing then you would have come to this very basic conclusion as to what i was writing.
Agreed SM AND BC.
I'm sorry to those who are hurt, and think that this is all a popularity contest. But, just because Mayo or SS doesn't mention you, doesn't mean they don't care or they don't know who you are. You aren't invisible, we all can hear you and read your name. You don't need to be acknowledged by Mayonaise of Shitsubou Shita to feel accepted.
Aww Siobhan-san, thank you. They kick ass don't they? I missed you. How are you my Pancake-Zilla? *big hugs*
BC, I know what you mean.
Anonymous, it's hard to tell you anons apart, so we can't very much tell who is who.
& #9835; = ♫
Without the gap.
Damn, that was the wrong note.
& #9836; = ♬
Paperheart, exactly. Siobhan-san, are you getting addicted to posting those musical notes? First it was flowers, and you're still posting those symbols? ;p
I missed you too, my BC!
I'm doing pretty good. I'm well fed and that's what counts in Pancake-Zilla's life, hehe.
Pantera kick ass!!!
*big bear hug*
Well, I like them. They look funny and they beautify the blog!
♡
And as to why i stay when i dont like mayo, well thats easy.
The finale will be spectacular, dont you think Mayo? I may get popcorn haha the fireworks will echo throughout this blog.
I suggest wearing hard hats, there will be a lot of shit coming from Mayo when he blows up.
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