It is down right impossible to kill the mood around here this fine evening. So, my intended post has been shelved for the time being. I am grateful for the distraction; my mood had drifted toward the foul. I am not my usual pretty princess self. You laugh...would you prefer The Queen? Quite honestly, I am like an unruly child.
Foolishly, I lost my temper. In an attempt to do far too many things at once, I allowed myself to snap under the pressure. The target of my destructive behavior, ever so graciously, allowed my rant without a challenge. And yes...as I know you will ask, I have apologized. I am truly sorry.
p.s. those dark moments back there cause me to pause and thank you.
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That is so Gerard. I'm sure that's a lot of people, too.
Life is made up of choices that we ourselves can only make.
I guess we'll just leave it at that. -_-
RW; Damn claim ticket. I'll have to stop answering the door when my luggage arrives!
Hold on, my doorbell just rang....
so are we saying fave songs from each album?
Bullets: Our Lady of Sorrows
Revenge: Ghost of You/You Know What they do to guys like us in Prison
TBP: Famous Last Words/The Sharpest Loves
I didn't think getting a tat was all that painful but then one of my babies was just under 11 pounds and I had her natural childbirth. Now that was pain.
Oh, that's cool elena.
I didn't know there was a site for his artwork.
Hey ergo!
Midnite,
I agree with you about the shivers part. I can't explain it either but I feel him when he sings. Like vibrations through right down to my soul.
........what was I talking about again?
*hugz* LOVE YA, Midnite!
anon- choose as wisely as you can at the time.
You're right no one can choose for you, and only you face the consequences good or otherwise
Elena
WHAT?! Cripes, that's like giving birth to a toddler. I guess a tattoo would be easier!
Bullets: Headfirst For Halos
Revenge: Give 'Em Hell Kid, Thank You For The Venom
TBP: Sleep, Cancer, House of Wolves
Jennicula said...
Elena
WHAT?! Cripes, that's like giving birth to a toddler. I guess a tattoo would be easier!
Yep, that's the truth.
WHAT?! Cripes, that's like giving birth to a toddler. I guess a tattoo would be easier!
Speaking of which...
My biggest fear: childbirth
Elena-Ouch.
yeah, it's a different pain to other pain. It's wierdly addictive.
I'm tossing up getting, on the inside of each foot.
"i don't want the world"
"i just want your half"
but I keep changing my mind.
fave songs?
Bullets - Give em Hell Kid and Cubicles
3Cheers- I'm Not OK and To The End
BP - House of Wolves and The End/Dead
favorite songs hmm
Bullets- Demolition Lovers, Vampires will never hurt you
Three Cheers- IKWYDFAL, Venom
TBP- Sleep and Disappear, or Mama
sorry Not Give em hell, add that to 3 Cheers and replace with Headfirst for Halos
ergoproxy said...
yeah, it's a different pain to other pain. It's wierdly addictive.
Please tell me you're talking about tattoos.
But i am currently having an obsession with My Way Home is Through You
actually it would be easier to list the songs I don't like
RW,
I've tried again. I didn't have the _ in last time so hopefully it's gone through, no failed message this time.
yes Jennicula Tattoos, not childbirth
My favs change daily/weekly. Next week it could be something else.
Dude.
When I am pissed off at the world, I totally put on "My Way Home Is Through You." It's so ugh. Like, I wanna chop your head off ugh. Those guitar assaults (courtesy of...hmmhmm) are a-MAZ-ing.
Maybe choices and options cannot alter the perspective.
Choices of the past may have had devastating consequences.
These circumstances can never change. We merely live with the guilt.
The guilt prevents the closure. It propels us to make future mistakes, in order to avoid this feeling.
Ergo, WHEW! I though you meant childbirth. I only did it once, and it was quite enough for me.
Ditto, thats my pissed off song. Just blasting it when im all fucked up helps.
There is nothing greater than Rays guitar riffs. He is just,... goodness
Speaking of...
Does anyone know who the "You" is in "My Way Home Is Through You." Who's you? I've never figured that out.
RW,
I've tried again. I didn't have the _ in last time so hopefully it's gone through, no failed message this time.
It got through this time - success! :) I just replied to your email with my London contact details.
Anonymous said...
The guilt prevents the closure. It propels us to make future mistakes, in order to avoid this feeling.
Guilt, fear, self-hatred, the list goes on and on. The best thing is to acknowledge the emotion that is holding you back and learn from your mistakes. You hope for the best and try not to repeat them.
Isnt it "her arms" not "your arms"
anon.
Guilt is unfortunately I think the hardest emotion to bear. It does color all your thinking.
Closure can only come if you are truly sorry,admit what you've done and ask for forgivness from those wronged. Then admit it to yourself and allow yourself that forgiveness.
But if it was easy there wouldn't me millions of therapists in business would there?
No, I mean in the title of the song. My Way Home Is Through You.
Lemme go reread the lyrics. I can never think them in my head when I actually need to.
Guilt until accepted prevents closure.
We can't move foreward if it's holding you in it's grip.
It's easier to live with guilt then to accept that what we've done can't be changed.
That thought makes everything too final.
Bold Anonymous,
But then you're going round and round in circles, as you said , making further mistakes.
I've always thought "MWHITY" was directed to the fans. But, I'm lousy at interpretation. Guesses anyone?
oh the title title, i always thought it was directed at fans as well.
I guess its open to interpretation
I'm not good at interpretation either.
Haha,so much interpretation!
I thought the "you" was a generic "you" so whoever is listening can supply their own "you"
surely a song doesn't need to be written about a specific person, perhaps it was just a general idea of a feeling
Heading for home now. Hope to talk to you all later.
someone suggested that it was about Mikey.
How when he was going through depression, he wouldnt seek help so the song is suggesting that through help, you can find your way home, which is inner peace and health
Talk to you later elena!
Ergo, that is what I always thought.
A generic "You" sounds good to me!
Next topic I guess :)
I'm off to bed, it's 2am.
Goodnight all, sweet dreams Mayo.
Good night Gnothi.
Bye Elena!
How about: Apart from MCR, what is your favourite band/bands?
Oh, sorry, sweet dreams Elena.
Bye GS and Elena :)
Goodbye GS! Peaceful dreams.
Talk about musical contradictions, I'm a Dead Head.
Or, alternately: What is your all-time favourite song (by any band)?
Guys,
I'm gonna go now...take a break from the computer for awhile. Might even go watch some LOTMS. Now that I feel the need to listen to some My Chem.
Love to all!
Nite Nite
Goodnight GS!
Sleep well.
G'night sdock10. Have wonderful dreams.
Goodnight sdock!
One song !!!!
night all who left.:)
I can't pick one song. It really depends on the mood I'm in.
ta-dah!!
hi everyone! :)
*goes and sits in the back of the room*
Goodnight Sdock!
Totally unfair RW.
That's crazy/impossible! All-time favorite song?! I just can't!
Hi Toujours! Got any fears, favorite MCR song, band, or fav all-time song?
Alphaville. They're tie with MCR as my favourite band. And they're responsible for my all-time favourite song, "The Garage".
Hey Guys!
=]
Hey, it's Paperheart!
Totally unfair RW.
That's crazy/impossible! All-time favorite song?! I just can't!
Heheheh... The only reason why I asked that one is because I can name my fave. I'm evil that way ;)
Hi paperheartxx :)
Do you know that yours was the 666th comment in this post?
O_O
hmm, my second favorite band changes constantly, practically every week. Right now im going through a foreign band phase.
Either Billy Talent or Muse
Bands Hmmmm
Muse
Pink Floyd
Abba
Alice Cooper
Kiss
Mest
FOB
TMBG
The Who
AFI
Split Enz
Supertramp
Mike Oldfield
Cheap Trick
Meatloaf
Spinal Tap
The Damned
The Ramones
Bay City Rollers
and I do have a soft spot for the Beastie Boys
not in any particular order, and I could go on, i haven't even touched the 60's !!
Hi Paperheart! Join in with us!
Hey guys!
I saw that after I posted it RW, and I got chills!=]
Rotten to the core you are, RW! :)
Bay City Rollers
^my guilty pleasure... *looks around furtively*
Rotten to the core you are, RW! :)
:P
Jennicula said...
Hi Toujours! Got any fears, favorite MCR song, band, or fav all-time song?
oh gosh...
well, generally, i'm afraid of doing new things. always get nervous. but i know i'll have enjoyed myself at the end, so i've learned to grit my teeth and ignore the monster butterflies.
specifically -- the garbage disposal. i always have to clench my hand to keep myself from putting my fingers down there when it's running. because i might.
i don't trust myself. :)
favorite mcr song...well, all of them. seriously. i can never pick one. :/
and my next favorite band is the lashes. i saw them live this summer and they were great! :D
and i can't think of just one song -- each one i've ever liked has been because it means something special to me at that particular time...
hm.
did i pass?
Hi Paperheart! Join in with us!
Okay!
So what am I joining you guys in ? =]
Good job Toujours, now you've caught up with the rest of us. :)
Hey, I have to go for a bit.
Talk to you all later.
Paperheart:
Favorite MCR song, or all-time favorite song ever.
favourite song at the moment is
"The Mesopotamians" by They Might Be Giants.
It's just so damn catchy, (plus "Birdhouse in your Soul" from a few years back.)
"Invincible" and "Starlight" by Muse
and "Jessamine" by I can't remember from the 60's and "Beach Baby", and "In the Flesh" by Pink Floyd.
ooh and the song at the end of ErgoProxy,I think it's by Radiohead? I must look that up.
see why it's bad to get me started !
Bye entropy :)
I've got to head'er for a bit too. Shower time. Hot water is calling.
Be back soon...
See ya Entropy!
Aw, crap. I have to go too. I didn't realize the time.
Mayo, be good to yourself. Smile upon the sunshine.
Goodnight everybody!
hey RW !
"give a little love
take a little love
be prepared to forsake a little love
and when the sun comes shining through
we'll know what to do ooooo"
Bye Jennicula :)
Bye Jennicula!
See ya in a bit RW.
oooh, ergoproxy.
they might be giants!
"istanbul, not constantinople", my all time #1 ear-worm.
^.^
"When we walk down the street
See the people stop and stare
They say Haven't I seen your face somewhere
A long time ago..."
*sings her way to the shower*
I have a fear that other MCR fans are going to beat the snot out of me when they hear me say that I've only ever heard TBP... and nothing else. And I LOVE IT!
Current Favorite Bands/Musicians are:
Rise Against
Anti Flag
Dropkick Murphys
Justin Timberlake (shaddup!)
And most favorite songs are:
Never Gonna Give You Up - Rick Astley
Ava Adore - SP
Brand New Day - Rymes with Orange
For the Princess
Sharpest Lives
Disenchanted
Dancing for Rain - Rise Against
Swing Life Away - Rise Against
Hey Ya! - OutKast
(For the Princess can be found on youtube, don't watch the video, just listen.)
-Amyranth has odd musical taste
I have a fear that other MCR fans are going to beat the snot out of me when they hear me say that I've only ever heard TBP... and nothing else. And I LOVE IT!
I didn't even know who MCR were until The Black Parade came out last year. However... you're really missing out if you don't take a listen to Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge.
Awww god not Rick Astley
*bad memories come back*
Oh. Wait. Shower.
Yeah. I knew I was heading somewhere...
Amyranth:
You haven't heard any songs from Bullets or Three Cheers? You must, must, must hear them. I know you've probably been told that, but you have to. You can see such a progression of talent from Bullets to TBP.
Go get those this weekend young lady! ;)
Hmm Favourite MCR song..
Bullets: Demolition Lovers
Three Cheers: The Ghost of You
TBP: I Don't Love You
All time favourite MCR song: All I Want For Christmas Is You (even if it is a cover)
All time favourite song EVER: I can't choose, probably a song by Queen or Guns n' Roses.
I love what they did with "All I Want For Christmas Is You"! It's so rock-y and good. I think it's an awesome cover.
I agree mustard!
I'm in the process of making a list of other bands I listen to=]
mustardisbetter said...
Amyranth:
You haven't heard any songs from Bullets or Three Cheers? You must, must, must hear them. I know you've probably been told that, but you have to. You can see such a progression of talent from Bullets to TBP.
Go get those this weekend young lady! ;)
*bows furiously* Yes! Yes! Yes masssterrrrr...
Well, next weekend actually. But still. I will! I promise!
-Amyranth is listening to Rick Astley! Bahahaa!
*cheesy grin*
-Amyranth is listening to Rick Astley! Bahahaa!
Oh! Evil! X_X
Amyranth,
I saw Rise Against at Taste of Chaos just two nights ago. Great band. Some of the melodies reminded me of old school AFI.
you know if you listen to Rick Astley fast or early Kylie Minogue slow they sound the same.
It is tres spookamundo
These are some bands I like:
AC/DC
Aerosmith
Aiden
Alexisonfire
All Time Low
Atreyu
Boys Like Girls
Cute Is What We Aim For
Dashboard Confessional
Fall Out Boy
From First To Last
Guns n' Roses
Jeremy Fisher
Leathermouth
Led Zeppelin
Marianas Trench
My Chemical Romance
Paramore
Plain White T's
Queen
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Rise Against
Saosin
Self Against City
Silverstein
Taking Back Sunday
The Academy Is...
The Almost
The Early November
The Hush Sound
The Spill Canvas
The Used
This Providence
Underoath
^^I had alot of time on my hands
Anon @7.05 and 7.45
I was going to say we can learn from the past, but you also have to learn to judge any any future relationships on its own individual merits and not against lack of closure from previous relationships.
But, then there was your post at 7.45 where the lack of true closure appeared to be due to guilt. Guilt can hang like a noose at times, more so when the guilty party has a high degree of empathy and sensitivity. The guilt is often justified, but also disproportionate to the offense. You become your own jailer. It becomes a matter of apologising and learning to live with it and hope it lessens a little.
Do you cry and laugh too much as well? Do you find it easier to talk to people with glasses on so they can't read you as well as you read them? Makes you an empath, dude.
Hi all!
Has anyone found they are swearing a lot today after FF2007? In a complete state of shock I found myself drop the F word out in public today having never, ever, ever, ever done that before! I'm such a dirty mouthed girl now. Still in shock for someone who normally says flaming heck.
*waves bye as runs off to buy mouthwash... extra strength*
Anonymous said...
Amyranth,
I saw Rise Against at Taste of Chaos just two nights ago. Great band. Some of the melodies reminded me of old school AFI.
I've seen them twice in concert, and I just love how they give it at every show they've done.
The melody is incredible, Tim's voice is so strong whether he's singing or screaming.
-Amyranth
Oh I forgot Def Leppard !!!
gotta go help at a swimming class.
catch you later if your still here
:)
'Night, ergoproxy :)
I too must dash. Bedtime. I didn't get nearly enough sleep last night what with FF2007 in full swing into the wee hours.
Have a good one, everyone!
Night Ergo and RW<3
*hugs*
And Mayo: once again, I thank you for your hospitality. I hope we weren't too loud or broke too many dishes.
Ta-ta!
Bye paperheartxx :)
Bye guys!
Oh! One of my absolute all time favorites is "Dick in a Box"
- Amyranth is evil tonight
If we apologize to the aggrieved party/parties, maybe that is not
enough.
Maybe forgiveness is in order. We must forgive ourselves, for being imperfect, for being cruel, for feeling pain, for not pleasing others.
Being an empath does not circumvent these things.
Amyranth, I've never heard that before.
Other faves! TBS, to be sure, (Hey Resurrected Wreck,what did you think of those songs?) 30 Seconds to Mars (seen thema bunch of times, love thoseguys!) I really like The Used (gotta love honesty as well as musicianship.) Outside of that kind of thing, my favorites are definitely LeonardCohen, Nick Cave, Talking Heads (shoot me fordating myself but I will always LOVEthem,) Makaha Sons, Keali'i Reichel and Mark Keali'i Ho'omalu. MarkKeali'i Ho'omalu,by the way, is one effing HOT SOB and his musicislike the hardcoreofHawaiian traditional. I mean, the dude is itwhen itcomestohardcore traditional.
EFFING SPACEBAR.
I'm sure an apology is enough anon. =]
Actually, yes: Mayo, whoever you may be, thank you for this blog. For all* of them.
*Most ;D
hehe It's actually the middle of the day, literally 12 noon
bit early for bed !
KAPUNUA!!!
30 Seconds to Mars is amazing!
(Hey Resurrected Wreck,what did you think of those songs?)
Hey Kapunua :) I really like My Blue Heaven (listened to that one a few times). I'm going to have to give the others a few more listens before I can really say. It takes a bit of time before a song gets under my skin, so to speak, but I've quite liked what I've heard so far.
Thanks again for uploading those songs :)
I'm off to bed, have a good night!
Hi everybody! How is everyone?
I have musical favorites and lyrical favorites
Lyrical
Bullets: Vampires Will Never Hurt You (And if they...)
Three Cheers: The Jetset Life Is Gonna Kill You (And for the last night I lie- Can I lie with you?Awww, Sugar!)
TBP: Sleep/Disappear (It just screams Paramour/Freaky Things Are Afoot!) to me
Musical
Bullets: Early Sunsets (Hello, Frank's beautiful guitar playing)
Three Cheers; Hang Em High (Hello, Frank's amazing guitar playing)
TBP: House Of Wolves (Hello, Frank's amazing riff writing and guitar playing)
I'm Not Okay and Heaven Help Us are ones I can listen to infinitely.
paperheartxx said...
Amyranth, I've never heard that before.
*INHALES*
...what?
http://youtube.com/watch?v=0_F8CcdF304
-Amyranth
True story amyranth!
I shall listen to it after my sister leaves the basement, she is quite the annoying creature.
Good plan. NSFS.
(Not Safe For Sisters.)
-Amyranth
Maybe forgiveness is in order. We must forgive ourselves, for being imperfect, for being cruel, for feeling pain, for not pleasing others.
Being an empath does not circumvent these things.
as an empath, forgiveness is even more crucial. we're human, we will always hurt others, whether we mean to or not. but as an empath, hurting others is then hurting yourself, is it not?
so forgive yourself for the inadvertent hurts, and avoid the deliberate ones. for your own sake, if no one else's.
Haha, NSFS I like that=]
as an empath, forgiveness is even more crucial.
Not to mention the fact that it can be physically and emotionally crippling.
Step on an ant, and there goes the rest of the week.
-Amyranth.
Hey Kapunua :) I really like My Blue Heaven (listened to that one a few times). I'm going to have to give the others a few more listens before I can really say. It takes a bit of time before a song gets under my skin, so to speak, but I've quite liked what I've heard so far.
I'm the same way. Rarely does a song grab me by the throat immediately and not let go. Only a few have done in the last two years: The Kill by 30STM, I'm Not Okay, Helena and Heaven Help Us by MCR obviously, The Bird And The Worm by The Used, and, oddly, (or maybe not so oddly,) Spin by TBS. My Blue Heaven took about a week before it started giving methe all overs.
Bullets: Early Sunsets (Hello, Frank's beautiful guitar playing)
Three Cheers; Hang Em High (Hello, Frank's amazing guitar playing)
TBP: House Of Wolves (Hello, Frank's amazing riff writing and guitar playing)
Agree so hard about Frank, and would like to add that I think he's underrated as a guitarist. Everyone knowshe's a great guy and is so sweet and sincere, hellaciously fun and joyful onstage, and obviously it's like five pounds of sex in a three pound bag, but I think his actual talent occasionally gets overlooked sometimes. The dude has it where it counts.
You know what? I obviously don't care who the hell Mayo is or isn't. (Wouldn't we feel stupid if we were chattin' up with an alien?) But I think an actual post of thanks is in order for Mayo from me.
Dude. You're so nice for letting us kick back and talk out our asses here. You could have shut this place down a long time ago, but you didn't (I hope your next post doesn't have anything to do with that). You didn't have to listen to us. You didn't have to let us talk your head off and drone on and on about things that were uber important to us and some things that were completely out of the ordinary, but gave so much life to this place. You didn't have to do any of it, but you did.
So my sincere thanks go out to you. Thank you.
Agree so hard about Frank, and would like to add that I think he's underrated as a guitarist.
What about Ray?
-Amyranth
Dude. You're so nice for letting us kick back and talk out our asses here. You could have shut this place down a long time ago, but you didn't (I hope your next post doesn't have anything to do with that). You didn't have to listen to us. You didn't have to let us talk your head off and drone on and on about things that were uber important to us and some things that were completely out of the ordinary, but gave so much life to this place. You didn't have to do any of it, but you did.
BOLDED FOR EMPHASIS
Maybe forgiveness is in order. We must forgive ourselves, for being imperfect, for being cruel, for feeling pain, for not pleasing others.
Being an empath does not circumvent these things.
Of course we must forgive ourselves. To truly love another you must love youself. Be comfortable in your own skin. And what is life without love?
Mustard; I agree with every word.
Thanks Mayo. You are a very lovely host. You listened to us bitch and rant. I'm sure you laughed with us, maybe even cried. =]
Thanks a whole bunch mayo!
*hug*
Am in complete agreement about Frank. Dude's an amazing guitarist. I've watched the Fuse program of where they're kinda introducing the fans to the new TBP music and playing some oldies on there so many times just to watch him and Ray just perform. Frank's truly, truly amazing.
My love is equally shared by all members of the band. Watching Bob perform WTTBP by himself with no music = me in front of my computer with my jaw on the floor. I think Bob gets overlook a lot. Mikey as well. Bassists never get any of the benefit, but they are the backbone of the melody. They are the glue that keeps it together. And Ray? Well...we all know about Ray. ;)
Okay people.
I am off for bed. I'll talk to you all tomorrow!=]
Hugs for all *hug*
<3
-007
Maybe he let us talk because he/she saw us as a distraction, or maybe because he/she became so far removed from the real world it helped gain some perspective.
(Even though the internet is as unreal a world as you can get)
Mayo, you will always have a special place in my heart. A little corner which hold my secret thoughts and dreams. A place where I am just me. Not a wife, mom or daughter. Just me. That's something I don't get to be anymore in the "real" world.
G'Night Paperheartxx!
I hope this IS a small dose of realism, and not a social experiment!
What about Ray? I don't get it!
I also must add that my thank you to Mayo was prompted by Kapunua's thank you to Mayo. So thank you for saying thank you Kapunua. :)
Hi MIB!
Agree about Mikey too!
The basslines in Bullets are crazy. I can totally hear the Iron Maiden/Anthrax influence.
What do you mean, "What about Ray?" What don't you get Amyranth?
Oh, you don't know about Ray...do you?
You mean you haven't heard...you know...about Ray?
MIB, with The Lemonheads reference!
Am I right?
Anonymous said...
Maybe he let us talk because he/she saw us as a distraction, or maybe because he/she became so far removed from the real world it helped gain some perspective.
well, it's a two-way street. how many of us aren't here, if only in some small way, to find distraction? why should the writer of this blog be any different?
it's all good! ;)
It starting to sound like everyone is saying their goodbyes.
Hello there Star!
I know! They're so evident and so amazing on Bullets. It gets harder to hear as the albums progress, but you can definitely tell he's there. It frustrates me to no end when I hear people say that Mikey doesn't do anything, that he's just a bassist ("It's just bass...it's just bass!" I felt so bad for Matt there). He just stands on stage and doesn't move around or anything. But, the dude is always spot-on! I can't ask for any more than that. He's great at what he does.
*end of Mikey love for the night*
mustardisbetter
Don't make me cry.
WHAT ABOUT RAY!?!
Not good-byes, just thank-yous.
Hi RW!
I hope it's not goodbye but if it is I didn't want to walk away without saying what's in my heart.
Hi Star :) How's things?
I keep meaning to head to bed, but then I lurk & see a comment I want to respond to. That's why I end up exhausted at work :S
Anonymous said...
It starting to sound like everyone is saying their goodbyes.
yes.
but that's because we care about each other now. you don't not say good-bye to your friends. right?
Oh, I hear you, RW!
I was supposed to take a shower an hour ago!
Hi! I know I'm late but I have to make a grand entrance as always.
My faves at the moment.......
Anything on Bullets
Anything on Revenge
Anything on TBP
Does that about sum it up?
Aside from My Chem, I love me some Taking Back Sunday and at the moment I am a KID ROCK freak! I just love him. Okay, anyways. It's also hard to beat some Eagles, CCR or Queen. I'm a sucker for 80's hair metal (come on Gee, you know you love Poison) and I have a soft spot for T.I. (hardcore ATL gangsta). Johnny Cash will forever be a legend and Elvis singing "Love Me Tender" makes me melt. Did I leave anybody out? I'm sure I did. As far as Carrie Underwood goes....I wouldn't care less if I never heard "Jesus Take the Wheel" ever again! Her voice is like nails on a chalkboard but she did win American Idol. Go figure.
Sorry, I forgot Rob Thomas. That man is smokin' hot.
No goodbyes here. I just don't ever get the chance to thank Mayo outright, so I took the opportunity to do so.
And as a matter of fact, I've never gotten the chance to thank the members of the band outright either. So:
Thank you's are divied among the five of you, each carrying equal weight and equal appreciation. Your music touches souls and hearts and makes things okay, even if it's just for the length of a song. Thank you for your patience, your gratitude, and your willingness to keep going when shit got tough. I'm not sure how I could ever repay you.
Thank you, in alphabetical order by last name (no favorites, see?), Bob, Frank, Ray, Gerard, and Mikey. Thank you from the deepest, darkest part of my heart.
Amyranth:
RAY TORO HAS THE MOST AMAZING FINGER SKILLZ (with a 'z'), THAT'S WHAT!!!
Caps-lock was indeed necessary.
I have been away too long.
First, Happy Birthday Kapunua!
Second, Happy Birthday to my daughter (she is 4).
Third, Happy Birthday Black Parade!
This is something I wrote 10/24/06:
My heart beat quickened as I tore through the cardboard box. My three year old daughters hands prying between mine because she believes it is another of her birthday presents (ironically, her birthday is today). Once I pulled away the shrink wrap, my hands roamed freely over the velvet box, my fingers traced over the words “The Black Parade”. I open the box and exposed a sepia toned image and my daughter says “Mama, it is Gerard and Bob for my birthday.”
I pull the black satin ribbon up lifting the images and book and frantically pull out the CD. I can’t get it in the player fast enough. I listened to its’ entirety twice, then I turned it off. I wanted to read the book and I decided that if I was going to read their words I wanted to give them my undivided attention. Have you read it yet?
All I will offer is my emotional reaction. I will not attempt to summarize what you will discover. I can say that it was intimate. I smiled, laughed, and yes, I did shed a tear. I am so proud of Gerard, Ray, Bob, Mikey, and Frank.
I have listened to The Black Parade now most of the morning and each time it plays through I hear something new. I hope you do also. God, it is amazing and I hope your experience was every bit as breathtaking as mine. I am not the same person I was before my hands tore through the cardboard.
WOW! I can't believe that was one year, 7 MCR shows, and 2 M&G's ago. Time flies
-VM
P.S. I can't believe that mother fucker referenced my post and I missed it!
-VM
P.P.S. Just yesterday I got my first tattoo. a peacock that covers my arm from my shoulder to my elbow. 3 hours of outline. the color will take another 3-4 hours. NOPE didn't hurt a bit. was one of the most relaxing ( I am serious) feelings ever.
I am hooked and will probably be covered in ink by this time next year.
-VM
I think the social connections that developed were totally unexpected for Mayo.
He/she created this blog initially to counter Loveman's accusations. He/she was probably expecting the usual abusive comments. I think the displays of caring may have been unsettling.
My belief is that he/she has formed some form of attachment through the interaction.
After all, we did invite him/her to join us and post. And that's exactly what their doing.
VM, that was a beautiful recollection. I think that album as touched so many people in so many different ways. It really is a masterpiece.
anon, i think the internet is a place where fate and chance get free rein to rearrange our lives. i'm glad or it. and i hope that all the people i have made a connection with here with remain in touch. i wouldn't want to lose any of them.
I still get such a wonderful feeling when I think back to the first time I heard TBP. Hot Topic played it a few days before it was released in their store. I remember standing among the merchandise, my ears tuned just to the music, ignoring every other sound. People came and went, purchased items, browsed but I stood in that one spot. While the rest of the world continued as if nothing unusual was happening I was having an epiphany. This sounds so ridiculous I'm sure but that is truly how it was for me. The music touched my life. Made me look at myself and see that I was just passing through my life but not living it. This is my cherished memory of The Black Parade.
What,what?No goodbyes here,we all have abandomnentissues and Mayo has to know that. Jesus.How many delicate psycheswould be on his conscience if he pulled the plug on us? ^_~ WHoever s/he is,s/he has got to enjoy this blog as much as wedo. Surely!
tbp has meant the world to me this past year. so much so, that i wrote it up in my livejournal (oh dear, that sounded like a plug...*eep* but...go read it! *grin*). it's too much to put in a little comment box, but that cd is part of me, forever.
In fact, hey. Would anyone really mind if I made asuggestion regarding these blogs?
Well I'm gonna anyway.
Okay, so I'm waiting to hear something about Random Seed, Death In The Park, Question Everything, something, anything along those lines, I mean, in terms of having an "OMG okay, I believe you" moment. If that moment should come alongfor any of us, in any way,shape or form--what I mean is if something incontrovertible comesalong and one of us noticesit--please donot post it obviously. Here,or anywhere.
Instead,maybe just do a link that says something like, "Hey Mayo Clinic folks, check it out!" or something.Then anyone who sees it can just be like, "Yeah. ^____^ " The reason is because I know a lot of people lurk here and will just come out of the woodworks if something like that happened, and that would just be suck. It would addadimension of asskissing that would ruin this place.
Soifsomething like that comesalong,maybe we could all keep it on the DL.Most of the lurkers, I doubt they'd take notice if something really lowkey was posted. THey're waiting for something morealogn the lines of "OMGOMGOMG IT'S TRUE AND HERE'S PROOF!!!111" Let's not give them that?
I dunno, it's just a thought. I'd hate for this little palaver to get broken up.
Anon @9.03
Is the apology to the aggrieved party/ parties not enough for them, or not enough for the the offender? If there's more than one in the past it sounds like it's been stored up for a while.
Humans aren't perfect, that's what makes us so interesting, arrogant, fun and frustrating. We're not shades of gray. We're built to make mistakes.
No, being an empath doesn't circumvent these things. It just makes you more aware of how big a mess you've made because you also see it from the offended parties perspective.
If you can't forgive yourself learn to give in another way to adjust the internal scale of conflict. An empath is usually kickbutt creative, humanistic, a little shy amongst new people, but fine in familiar company. Fight the dichotomies and the empath can find a little peace.You will be fine if you cut youself a little slack.
*should listerine burn this much?*
House of Wolves rules the world, closely followed by Give'em Hell Kid. Bullets scared me at first as it became available here after TBP and Revenge. I was like what o_O?
I like it now.
On that note, me=going to bed. Guys, thank you all for the all-day birthday wishes. ^_^ Hope you all have a great night /day / whatever you are having, wherever you are.
I'm kinda nervous to readreviews oftonight's show! Hopefully it will be something along the lines of, "Frank and Gerard totally made out onstage, everything is status quo! And MSI will not be opening for MCR in Europe, thus proving that your bestband has not sold out the values they've preached about for years." ^_~
My greatest concerns, really.
My memory of 10/24/2006 was such a mixed bag of emotions. I had classes starting early in the morning that day, and they didn't end until nearly 5:00. I was so worried that they'd be sold out at my local record shop. So, as soon as class was done, I did a full sprint to my car and drove as fast as I could, legally, there.
I walked in the doors greeted by "Can I help you find anything today?" And I returned a quiet reply of, "No, I know what I'm looking for." I know my eyes were glazed over because I felt like I had waited so long for the day to arrive. I got to the rack and then I was forced to make a decision. "Black or white. Shit, I have to choose a color?" I settled on black. It was only fitting afterall.
I hurried back to the front, paid for it, and booked it back out to my car. I sat in my seat, looking at the packaging, knowing that what I was getting ready to open was going to be nothing like what my ears had ever heard before. I ripped through the cellophane, slid off the paper cardboard, and cracked open the case. I slid the CD into my player and let it begin.
I started to drive off, windows down, freezing, head bobbing the whole way. Got to "I Don't Love You" and then tears began streaming. And worried I might cause an accident, I had to shut off the waterworks. The emotion and raw power that had built up to that plateau completely overwhelmed me. I was shaking trying to hold the steering wheel. My teeth were chattering, completely in awe of the music I was hearing. Everything was good until "Cancer" because one of my very good friends had just been diagnosed and was in Stage 4. So, it hit me right in the gut.
The album resolved itself sitting in my driveway, "Famous Last Words" ripping through my emotions. I was in an uncontrollable state of sadness and triumph. Sadness, because I saw how shitty I had it and how horrible I felt, and triumph because I knew I could overcome it because they said I could. I could do this. And I was going to do it.
It's all of the emotion I've ever wanted to feel, and I haven't felt any of that with any other piece of artistic talent yet.
Good night, Kapunua!
THey're waiting for something morealogn the lines of "OMGOMGOMG IT'S TRUE AND HERE'S PROOF!!!111" Let's not give them that?
At the same time, if it isn't, would it matter? I don't know that I'd abandon this, even though I'm not always the most frequent poster.
Regardless of who we all really are behind the screens, life will go on. Even if we never find out who Mayo REALLY is.
Goodnight Kapunua and I hope you had a great B-day.
I agree with you regarding the Frank & Gerard issue. I am hoping for some love from and between those boys.
-VM
Mustard (can I call you that?)that was truly a beautiful moment from you, thanks for sharing.
-VM
mustardisbetter --
that's really beautiful, just how much it hit you. it gave me shivers to read. <3
Kapunua Goodnight. Hope your birthday was a happy one.
You may refer to me as whatever you like VM. And your story as well. Truly amazing. I wish I had thought to write down what I was feeling the day of. It would have made it more memorable than it is.
Kapunua:
Goodnight to you and a final Birthday wish is sent your way!
Mustard, thanks!
I journal the hell out of everything. If it happens to me, I write about it.
-VM
Even this place turns up these days. In particular I have written about how amazing it is that by some strange chance all of the wonderful people came together and share this amazing moment. I think that it is just grand that everyone is so tolerant of each others opinions. And that at the end of the day, everyone still cares.
-VM
Man am I a sap tonight or what...can you say PMS? Not to mention, I am rambling on and on and on...
-VM
If it is who we think, it doesn't really matter.
He is an ordinary person just like us , only living in extraordinary circumstances and having different opportunities.
But that's just the way his life worked out to be.
We are all equals in the end, regardless of our social or monetary levels. It's only through society's crazy rules that makes you believe that's not true.
No -vm, you're not a sap. I agree with your points about this place being filled with tolerant and friendly people. It's hard to find somewhere to chat about MCR without seeing "OMG FRANK IS SO HOT" Not that there's anything wrong with it, but I'm 36 years old.
This blog reinforces the reason I like MCR so much. I feel as if I connect with them on a human level, and they make me feel like I belong, as do the people I've encountered here.
Nope, VM. You aren't a sap. It's very true. That's why I gave my big thank you to Mayo for allowing this.
I find it so strange, almost otherworldly, that things such as this can happen. We've all been brought here, together, for a reason. And in between all of that, we've shared some of our most personal thoughts, ideas and opinions, and given to each other a small part of our heart. I'm so happy to have found this place and you all, my heart sometimes wants to burst. I've never felt like I could share some of the stuff I've shared on here with anyone I know in my real life. It's so much easier to let go of it here and not have to worry about being judged, moched, or laughed at. I've felt so much better about being able to be myself because you all have given me a little bit of self-confidence. You all haven't given it all to me because I've got to find some of that on my own, but I'm working my way towards that because of you all.
I love it here, and I love the atmosphere we keep. I sincerely appreciate all of you and your opinions. I care about every single last one of you. You all are my official e-buddies.
mustard --
i don't know what to say...i feel like i've been posting too much tonight and all my words are dull and flat...
but will you accept a hug from this e-buddy?
Hi again, this is deep and meaningful
I only hope that Mayo (whoever that may be, and really who cares) will keep posting. I enjoy how provocative some of the entries are. The posts always get the ball rolling or just get everyones attention in order to bring people together.
I think Mayo gets alot out of it too. There has been alot of blood, sweat, and tears poured into this place. He has to have taken something away from it all.
-VM
Entropy:
Of course I will accept a hug. Graciously I will accept it. And no ones words are ever dull and flat. Ever. They all mean something.
Hello again Ergoproxy.
Hi ergo, toujours, mib.
I keep checking LJ to see if there's any reviews from tonight.
*HUG*
-VM
oh has the show finished?
mustardisbetter said...
Of course I will accept a hug. Graciously I will accept it. And no ones words are ever dull and flat. Ever. They all mean something.
well, then...
hug!! ^.^
and thanks for the kind words. i get insecure sometimes...
Hello Star!
Let us all know when you find something! I'm excited to know how it went.
Ergo,
I'm guessing it has since it's 12:13 here, but I'm not sure. Maxwell's is a tiny tiny place that doesn't have the same rules as a regular theater type place.
hi star! hi ergoproxy!
*waves*
Hello *waves back*
wow it is so wierd as it's 2.15 pm and I've just been swiming
you know, with us from literally all over the world, we should have our own time zone here.
"mayo time"
Hey everyone, just got back.
"mayo time" sounds neat.
haha for some reason I pictured something like the Mikey Mouse Club... we could me
MAYOsketeers
Goodnight to everyone still around! I'm hitting the sack. Thank you all for sharing your stories today, the scary ones included. It was very enlightening. Talk to you all tomorrow sometime!
So it appears that it's my "mayo time" so I am off to bed. goodnight everyone, enjoy!
-VM
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