It is down right impossible to kill the mood around here this fine evening. So, my intended post has been shelved for the time being. I am grateful for the distraction; my mood had drifted toward the foul. I am not my usual pretty princess self. You laugh...would you prefer The Queen? Quite honestly, I am like an unruly child.
Foolishly, I lost my temper. In an attempt to do far too many things at once, I allowed myself to snap under the pressure. The target of my destructive behavior, ever so graciously, allowed my rant without a challenge. And yes...as I know you will ask, I have apologized. I am truly sorry.
p.s. those dark moments back there cause me to pause and thank you.
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«Oldest ‹Older 3001 – 3146 of 3146Just because someone is an asshole it doesn't mean you shouldn't try to treat them like a human being. As for support no one wants to see someone fall to rock bottom. Believe me its not a nice think to watch so you try to do what you can to help. Even if it doesn;t get through to the person.
ve bene lurking and I have to say. Why do you all care? If he's such an asshole which people think to see he is now adays, who cares if he's so messed up? you all keep coming back and offering support. If he's an asshole let him screw up all he wants!!
there's no stopping this
I'm gutting you Does this make you feel safe
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable..
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable..Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable..Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable..
arawaysoclose said...
love what you are doing with that mouse kapunua!! and i'm not being pervy!
October 28, 2007 9:46 P^_^LL
wow i'm here for it!!
and ergoproxy that tshirt gets on my fuckin tits.
gotta go now hunnies. catch you tomorrow, have loads of fun!!
bye.
wow was I 3000!
woo hooo!!!!
*pulls clones out for strange jumpy fiesta dance*
Thanks, you sure are a friendly bunch aren't you?
As far as the Gerard/Bert friendship falling apart, I heard about that and I agree it is sad and such a shame that they no longer speak, but it doesn't completely surprise me.
Gerard is passionate, incredibly headstrong and one of the most stubborn people I have ever known. If he is mad at you, you know about it!
He can literally go for days on end without speaking to you. Having Gerard ignore you is 1000 times worse than having him yell at you, and he knows it!
As pathetic as it seems, I would give anything to go back in time and have him mad at me again, just one more time, so I could remember what it felt like when the things I did or said mattered to him.
Now I'm bringing myself down so I think I will say my goodbyes.
Do not be deluded by appearances.
This female is not internally strong. Craves attention and acceptance.
See ya faraway. Thanks for cheering me up.
hello everyone!
this is probably my last post until a new blog (fingers crossed) -- took me ages just to get to the comment screen. :(
however, let me just return the jacket, and say: be good! i'm in enforced lurker mode, but that doesn't mean i won't climb back in here and go all deity on you lot again if i have to!
lol
*toujours, returning to the shadows*
Oh MAYO.....
Hello are you out there????
Okay about the unicorn shirt. It's kinda like they are in high school and she's wearing his letterman's jacket and he's wearing her....
OH I don't know. Whatever.
Hey all.
Wow,3000 comments,do we really need to throw that big party and trash the place again for you to post soemthing?
I think there was something between Bert and Gerard too.
I mean Lies for the Liars speaks for itself.
Haha,Kapunua,you make me want to go listen to TBS alot more.
bye bye fasc
bye bye andy. it was nice to meet you and i do hope to see you around more.
*waves goodbye to everyone going*
Hey Andy,just wanted to welcome you to this crazy place.
Bye Andy S
I know what you mean, most times being ignored is far worse.
And I agree he comes across as very stubborn and I'd say very arrogant and controlling ( and that's from interviews, not secret knowledge- for the anons ).Regardless of how nerdy he likes to say he is
Hiya Roger!
Can't I tempt you out of hiding for a little wiggle *nudge nudge wink wink*
bye tj. i hope you wont lurk for long. i will miss you.
right we need to find a temp replacement cleaner of mayos house cos tj is gone lurking. who wants the job lol
And the shirt wearing.
I agree with RW on that one.
Bye Andy,
You know where you'll find us.
Think happy thoughts :)
elena
he's wearing her....bra?
(sorry just popped into my head)
miss t who is roger?
ergoproxy lol that would be a sight he he he
I'll trash the place but I won't clean it. Not very good at cleaning you see. Why not just use are clones to clean the place. We have enough of them.
FS, just leave it . If Mayo won't blog we won't clean.
* lays on floor with feet propped on the wall *
FS, toujours wanted a nickname so I call her Roger.
Damn Ep you beat me to the underwear joke. I personally think its her panties he is wearing.
Ergo you could be right about the bra. Not sure really.
Oh just had a visual of him showing up on stage at the next concert wearing her little plaid skirt.
arhhhh i get ya miss t. i thought you was just saying it like they do on say walkie talkies.
well if everyone is messin up then i am going to draw on the walls to join in
He can literally go for days on end without speaking to you. Having Gerard ignore you is 1000 times worse than having him yell at you, and he knows it!
I believe it. My mother can be the same way, so I know firsthand what it's like to be on the receiving end of something like that. I'd rather be yelled at than shut out.
Hey FS,
Roger, over and out.
Hello by the way to all those I haven't said hello to.
Well he was wearing her bands panties.
The pink ones.
FS, if my feet get in the way just let me know.
Some of you were speculating that the concert was cancelled so that Gerard could to to England early because he cannot be alone for long. Did anyone notice the different time stamp on this blog.
Well the MSI/MCR tour is gonna happen. I knew it was official and it would happen but still. It's so close now. I feel so sad. I know that's stupid. But I want to mourn a little the first day they share a stage together by Gerard's choice. I don't care if she's his wife, i just care that everything they worked for, to say to teenagers, means nothing the day they give the stage to MSI. I know it's stupid but what MCR stood for meant so much for me and the first day of the concert..... I feel like it will be a death. I know you're gonna make fun of me. but I geel like I'm watching something truely beautiful, die. I almost wanna hold an online funeral LOL! for MCR's message and words. Awww.
Anonymous,
We don't make fun of people here. You feel what you feel, thats how it is. Never feel worried about saying anything.
ANON I will not make fun of you. There is a lot of truth in what you say.
Hey guys=]
Andy I know you left already but, welcome to the blog!
*hug*
Yes, we welcome new comers here with open arms, unless their motives are to just upset everyone ^_^
Following on from what I said ...
We do sometimes disagree but we don't mock.
first day they share a stage together by Gerard's choice. I use the inconsistencies
To undress the machine,
You're the poster boy, their selling point, the focus for their new campaign.
(Something has to be done)
Anon at 10:16,
It is sad really isn't it?
Mindless Self Indulge and My Chemical Romance contradict each other don't they?
Hey Andy,just wanted to welcome you to this crazy place.
All our secrets they are tailored trouble
Draped loose now around your hips
Your spotless instincts are valid
We coexist
Andy's not new, just a previous anonymous.
Remember before, a few blogs ago , an anonymous said he was male.
Probably Andy.
hey gs. luckely i am drawing a picture of feet so you can keep them there all you want. everyone else put your feet to the wall and i will draw round them. maybe once i have done everyones i will start on hands
Hey Paperheart!
Don't tickle them will you FS!
Because you seriously don't want to do that!
I have been known to kick people across rooms that tickle my feet.
I'm serious, no touchy!!
dnt worry i wont touch them. i kinda do not like feet scared of them so i wont be touching or tickling anyones feet lol.
Hey Entropy!
Sorry if it takes a while to reply, my computer is rather slow!
Haha,I'm certain this blog will break my computer,it takes so much out of it to load this page and so much time.
hey 007 how are you today?
Hurray for my best friend who gave me a gift certificate to Best Buy for my birthday which I just used to buy a nice new Kensington keyboard.
So hurray!
Thanks for putting up with my lyrical sign language, guys. Adam really does have words for everything. ^_^
Hey FS!
I am doing good, how about you?
Congratulations on the new keyboard Kapunua!! lol. You must be happy!
I am going to do this anonymous and maybe i can come back with out being flamed.
Being gay or bi is very personal, and is a decision a person has to make on his/her own, not from pressure from friends, family or fans.
Being in the spotlight, adds more pressure, everyone is watching your every move, is he or isn't he, looking at the way he walks, the way he talks, how he moves his hands, or interacts with other men or women.
If you where in the spotlight, and knew in your heart, you where bi or gay, how could you come out.
Maybe your not sure of anything yet, and do not want to hurt anyone by coming out.
Being gay or bi, is hard enough in today's world.
Even with people who think they are not homophobic, can be a little uncomfortable around a openly gay person.
The world has evolved very little when it comes to gay or bi, in some countries you can be put to death for coming out.
Even in America, gays are targeted for being who they are.
If Gerard is gay or bi, so what!
What will his fans do if he came out and said I'm gay or I'm bi, this must cross his mind.
If he is gay, good for him, no more hiding who he really is, some will be in shock, some will cry, and some will raise there hands in praise in response of his courage to come out.
If he is bi, men and women all over the world would stand up and cheer, because now both sides have a equal chance at him.
And if he is straight, i urge him to set the record straight, once and for all, because getting married did not stop the rumors.
It is hard to believe but most gay/bi people are afraid to come out, it happens when one decides that one wants to be happy, with out trying to pretend to be someone, that someone else thinks he/she should be.
The famous try to hold on to who they really are, but fame and all that comes along with it, can break them down into someone they are not, till one day they snap and say no more! And say!
This is who i am, take it or leave it.
Only then will that person be happy.
After that, its easy, people except you, love you, respect you, the hard part is over, because now you love yourself.
So lets pretend he is gay, start rumors, draw pictures of a dick in his mouth, put it all over the Internet and magazines.
Let's put all the pressure we can on him and break him down.
Now how would you feel if it where you in that spot light.
Hello Kapunua!
It's a miracle, she can talk!!
Loved the lyrics though :)
That's so cool Kapunua!
I'm so happy for you. But I will miss the lyric sign language,it was fun.
Anon, you shouldn't be anonymous for saying that. You're totally right.
The world has evolved very little when it comes to gay or bi, in some countries you can be put to death for coming out.
Even in America, gays are targeted for being who they are.
It's incredibly sad, but so true.
i am good ph. just doing nothing today which is boring snore snore.
what have you done?
I miss the lyrical replies too, it was a fun challenge to have to look for the perfect thing to write. ^_^ A good thing is knowing the TBS song catalog like backwards and forwards. ;D
I'll probably use Adamspeak or Bertspeak again sometimes to make a point. They say it better than I do. ^_^
Anonymous,
THANK YOU for saying that! So what if he's gay? So what if he's bi? So what if he is straight?
It is HIS decision.
Whether he is gay or straight or bi, good for him! If he is happy with Lyn-Z, good for him! As long as he is happy, then that is all that matter's in the situation right? I just hope that Gerard truly is 100% happy!
&& I agree with Kapunua, you shouldn't be anonymous because what you said, is the 100% truth of the matter!
FS, I have watched LOTMS, cleaned, and gone for a walk with my friend. I can't believe it is already 6 pm!
ANON - What you said is all very true. I have trouble understanding why it's that way but I know that it is. To me Gerard is just Gerard. Who he sleeps with doesn't change that.
Oh my god, Kapunua, you're back! :D
Are you effing kidding me?! Now THIS keyboard is randomly screwing up! Missing letters, slowing down etc. WTF? And I already threw the old one away thinkingthat was the problm. WHAT THE HELL?
Hi, Resurrected Wreck! Hi to the rest of you, too. I felt almost totally incommunicado without the keyboard. Now something is up with this one. I hope it doesn't screw up. >_>
Anonymous,
Apologies to Gerard for any unnecessary pressure. People here speculate because to be honest we are a bunch of busybodies, at least I am.
But it is hot air surrounding real and honest concern because we truly want him to be happy and I just see sadness in his eyes.
For anyone to reveal their true self is hard , for someone in the spotlight even harder.
I can't begin to imagine what life is like for him constantly under the spotlight.
That's why I said the other day that it would be good to go back underground and have some breathing space, but with their level of success now that could be nigh on impossible.
I have no answers, just an honest heart and a tendency to say what's on my mind.
Peace.
Bad keyboard karma sucks :(
A big amen to everything you just said, GS.
^^I agree!
If Gerard EVER reads this,
If you ever felt pressure from fans or anything about your sexuality, I am sooo fucking sorry! I admit, I can be quite nosy at times too, for that I am sorry if I ever pried into your personal life. I love you for the music and for what you believe in, nothing else matters.
Thanks RW :)
Anyways, I best be off. My sister needs the computer. I hope to return later on!
Mayo, please make an appearance soon, you are getting people worried and worked up! I hope that you are alright. Even though I don't know you, I care about you. Just like I care about everyone else here. =]
Hugs for all!
Goodbye for now!
<3
Hear hear, Paperheartxx :)
GS, that was greatly said and I agree.
Bye Paperheart,hope talk to you later.
Hi Entropy and thankyou.
Bye PH.
Anon @ 10:50
If you are referring to that recent picture posted on that Perez site, this much I know.
Perez would never intimate someone's sexual preference unless he has a VALID source, it's not just innuendo.
He may be trashy, but it is unfortunately, honest trash.
And yes, it is difficult to out oneself, and it can only be a personal decision.
Agree wholeheartedly GS, thank you!
why is gerard always the one people assume is gay or bi. what about frank he deos tons of gay shit to gerard onstage. why is it that no one questions his sexuality.
Perez would never intimate someone's sexual preference unless he has a VALID source, it's not just innuendo.
Yeah? Tell that to Jared Leto.
Thankyou DG.
Anonymous,
What ? Are you serious ?! That is low. We may be intefering mares but at least we have some standards!
And yes, ultimately , it has to be their decision.
i like perez hilton, but he thinks everybody is gay.
I personally don't care about his sexuality. I don't however like the Lynz situation.
I don't know the guy but honestly, I worry about anyone who marries after dating for a few weeks only.
It's like many people here have said, as much as he does his sharpie messages to her, trying to convince the world it is true love, he just doesn't look happy.
If he's not happy then it can't be a happy atmosphere inside the band right now. I love this band and would hate it to end anytime soon.
Anonymous @ 11.29pm,
Because he has always been open about it. He has said he is bi.
Wasn't that article wrong.
I never believed it,it seemed so sketchy.
anon @ 11:31
Sorry, disagree
Perez is gay and proud of being gay, as he has let everyone know.
However, he will put pressure on people he knows are living dishonestly.
This is his way of educating and promoting tolerance.
He simply loathes people who lie about themselves.
This has been bugging me. I'm beginning to think we were visited recently by an anon who knew their shit.
anonymous said...
It's not Bob. It's Gerard.
This anon seemed quite sure of this, which is odd when the whole fandom seemed to have heard it was Bob that was sick/injured. If Mayo is Gerard it would explain why Mayo hasn't posted a new blog.
I'm not sure but it may have been the same anon that made these comments.
Anonymous said...
It would be unwise to jump to conclusions about the Maine show.
Not everything is as it seems.
These comments are scrutinized. I hope you will understand.
Anonymous said...
The term 'medical issue' is perhaps slightly misleading but I guess it is fair to say that, to a certain extent, it is not completely untrue.
Anonymous said...
My identity is of little importance. There is no cause for concern.
Anonymous said...
I'm sorry.
This suggests that perhaps the term 'medical issue' is being used loosely. I think someone was trying to say that it isn't the guys themselves that are sick. Someone could see we were getting worried and was trying to give us answers as best they could. I have a feeling I know who this helpful anon was. (Disclaimer, this is just my opinion, not fact, I have no proof of any of this)
Perez Hilton is a moron. It's not his business to out homosexuals. If someone is gay they have the right to keep it to themselves. Who is he to talk crap about who's sleeping with whom? He disgusts me.
Good point, anon @ 11:39. I do hope everything's all right.
Anon @11:39
That actually makes sense. SS was here that night cos he edited his profile. I presume you meant SS was the helpful anon? We all know he has trouble keeping his mouth shut! (I mean that in a nice way!) I thought it was weird how he didn't change his Latin. Maybe he didn't was us to know he was around. Hmmm but then why did he edit his profile?
^
If it was SS he would have matched up the time stamp with his location in his profile to let us know it was him.
I always highly suspect that quite a few of these anons are the keepers (or perhaps keeper) of these blogs. Not just the helpful ones, but the ones that point out the helpful ones. And the ones who agree with the "helpful" ones or who agree with the ones pointing out the "helpful" ones.
And if we're all getting played here, then probably a few of the crap-stirring ones are the blog-keepers, too. But I sincerely hope not.
Was it Entropy ?
I beg everyones pardon, I appear to be mistaken.
Anonymous at 11.39pm - very good point.
My thoughts on the Maine cancellation is that I don't think any of the guys are ill or injured,I think it was cancelled for personal reasons.
I don't even know where the rumor about it being Bob came from but
I didn't think it was true for a minute.
I mentioned it before that I think they just let Bob take the blame like the Bullets songs.
Which is sad 'cause they let us think something is really wrong with him.
Which leads me to the anon who wanted to assure us that no one was ill or injured.
I don't mean to stir up shit, I was just trying to get my point across. I really don't mean to cause any trouble. Sorry. Oh and I am not Mayo or SS, I don't even have a blog. I know anon's have a bad name, but we aren't all like that.
I don't mean to stir up shit, I was just trying to get my point across. I really don't mean to cause any trouble. Sorry. Oh and I am not Mayo or SS, I don't even have a blog. I know anon's have a bad name, but we aren't all like that.
Kapunua - well we'll probably never know for certain , I can't remember who but someone said this could be a mad social experiment for all we know :)
right i am off to watch happy gilmore so i will be back in a bit seeyou all later
x
#8
hello to all!! *waves*
no sexy clone invasion/party today?
I hate that I missed my Frank clone!
I think that the value of a person doesn't decreases because of its sexuality; couldn't care less if Gee is gay or not; I thing we really care about his well being and the band's serenity.
Here in Mexico we say that everyone has the right to do chewing gum with their ass or ass with their chewing gum.....hmmmm I swear it sounds better in spanish....
Hey Kapunua! I've never got the chance to salute you! I hope your keyboard is behaving by now!
I think so GS, I think it was more of a tabloid magazine and not true.
Anonymous,
No worries, it just gets everyone thinking again :)
Got to keep the little grey cells ticking over!
SS might not have left his time stamp on his location if he was worried he was being watched. He may have just deleted his location to let us know he was around, hoping we would know it was him, but leaving Big Brother without any proof it was him. That made perfect sense in my head.
Bye FS,hello Andie.
And sorry about the double post^.
Thanks Entropy.
Andiebomb - nobody here has a problem with his sexuality, whether straight or gay.
Bye FS.
It would make sense that it was SS 'cause he does alot to assure us and not have us worry.
But I honestly have no idea and we probably won't find out.
Hello everyone. Anon at 11:39 I thought the same think i email Bc about. Kapunua I've been thinking the same think about the anons too.
The 'not everything is as it seems' comment and the 'medical issues being slightly misleading' comment makes me think that the anon was trying to tell us that none of the band were sick, which is what was being reported on the University of Maine official page.
Anon @t 12:01:
I understand what you're saying, and it does make sense. But in order to keep my sanity in these cryptic, mysterious, confusing blogs I've chosen to only believe that an anon comment was made by SS or Mayo if they left the time of the comment in their profile info.
Well, i see someone mentioned Gerards quickie marriage.
Funny because, just today i found out my cousin is getting married when 2 weeks ago he was single.
So it turns out, that my other cousin did the same quickie marriage. Im guessing its a popular thing to do in the 21st century now. *shrugs*
Gay, straight, bi, trisexual, multisexual, it all doesnt matter. Were all humans right?
haha, i still cant believe my cousin pulled a GWay
Hi Entropy,GS and everybody! How are you all?
I wish Mayo would post anything new, my computer is totally hating this blog by now.
Hey Martha!
Yes I know what you mean resurrected wreck. It just seemed like the sort of thing he would do to stop us worrying uneccesarily that one of them was suddenly really sick.
SS if you are lurking I have two words for you...TIME STAMPS.
I don't know which blog it is in but I believe SS dis say something about leaving comment but in a way that they would get lose in the crowed of other anon comments.
Sometimes it is alright for us to know it is him because he isn't giving anything important away while other times it maybe better to let it get lost.
Well everyone, my dinner's ready so I'm off. Going to eat & finally watch that Michael Palin DVD. Be back on later...
Maybe there will be no more posts.
Most of his previous relationships were severed by no further communication.
Hi entropy
I totally see what you are saying Martha Jones, so I will shut my cakehole now!
Bye RW, I'll probably be gone by the time you get back so goodnight :)
Bye RW.
Have a nice dinner Rw.
Anon I have thought the same thing that Mayo may not post again or maybe mad at us for some reason. It could also be that something is wrong or it may not be wise for him to post right now.
Anonymous @ 12.16am,
Quite possibly.
If that is the case I wonder how long it will take before we all wander off to another blog?
Or do a Greyfriars Bobby and sit patiently and wait for our ' masters ' return :)
Actually I'm off for a bit too.
Talk to you guys later.
I'm sure my computer will much appreciate this,haha.
Michael Palin is god. Just saying.
Anyway, so we're down to a few scenarios here.
1) Mayo is Gerard Way, and something has happened that was severe enough to call him away from both his band and this blog (which I'm sure is nowhere near being a top priority, nor should it be.)
2) Mayo is Gerard Way and he has just effed off for no good reason.
3) Mayo isn't Gerard Way but s/he still wants us to believe that s/he is, so therefore has effed off in accordance of what might be going on with the real Gerard Way.
Amirite?
Well if mayo was some bored fangirl - she's probably on vacation or too busy to dwindle peoples minds.
if mayo is someone else- maybe their just too busy...
Thats about right , plus gel's contribution .
So we're pretty much no further along :)
Oh and Kapunua,
Michael Palin is not God, he's a very naughty boy!
Shit my computer is acting up now. To the anon at I don't know what time you don't have to shut your cake whole. If this place is being watch they most likely know what we now and are thinking the same thing
Haha, i think its the third one for some reason.
If so than this person is clever to keep it matching with Gerards life, except when they fucked up that one time and posted during the Mexico concert.
Tricky, tricky
I'm off to bed, goodnight all.
Goodnight Mayo.
I think three, too. But I'll be honest with you, that post came an hour before the concert, and he said something that Gerard said on stage that night. I'll admit, it did kind of jar me there.
G'night, GS!
Sorry I forgot my sign out.
TTFN
Anonymous said...
Some of you were speculating that the concert was cancelled so that Gerard could to to England early because he cannot be alone for long. Did anyone notice the different time stamp on this blog.
Well the MSI/MCR tour is gonna happen. I knew it was official and it would happen but still. It's so close now. I feel so sad. I know that's stupid. But I want to mourn a little the first day they share a stage together by Gerard's choice. I don't care if she's his wife, i just care that everything they worked for, to say to teenagers, means nothing the day they give the stage to MSI. I know it's stupid but what MCR stood for meant so much for me and the first day of the concert..... I feel like it will be a death. I know you're gonna make fun of me. but I geel like I'm watching something truely beautiful, die. I almost wanna hold an online funeral LOL! for MCR's message and words. Awww.
October 28, 2007 10:16 PM
I know exactly what you feel, doll. I'm going through precisely the same thing. I don't want to face the reality, but it's going to happen. I'm purposely planning to do multiple things on that day just to get my mind off of it.
That first day will be hell for me. The second too, because I know i'm going to see 73482934769 pictures on Buzznet of Gerard pulling some shit yet again. I know i'm going to be let down.
I'm sooo glad i'm not alone thinking how awful and sucky its going to be when they are sharing a stage BY CHOICE. And i also do NOT want to see the pictures of whatever stupid shit Gerard does to plug that band, because I know he's gonna. And I'm gonna look anyway because, well because I know I will be curious! Ad then I'm just gonna feel mad and let down. I'm so upset this beautiful band is dying. Is dead.
thank you guys for not making fun of me or thinking I'm stupid or caling me a fangirl. I don't care who Gerard married. I actually found this place off INO and I thought maybe I would find intelligent life here because those people at INO are just plain.... UGH. So blind. And so rude, you can't say ANYTHING there. I'm relieved I'm not the only one who feels this way! Thank you!!
Aw anon no worries.
I am glad they are not my support band.
Thank God for Circa Survive
I don't want to seem naive, because I obviously realize gerard is LynZ's husband, but what's MSI's record company? Maybe they had to take them out with them.
nah. Not the way that Gerard was plugging them all summer. Amaaaayzing, amaaaaayzing! :/ About as amazing as those bands he used to complain about.
Hmm, I figured that Kapunua, but wishful thinking and all.
Anon @ 9:41
There's a lot to be said for never judging a book by its cover.
Despite Mr McCrackens frequent use of expletives and hobo appearance he certainly gives off a vibe of deep hurt that only a wronged,loyal, close friend would exhibit.
Bert's always been upfront that there was a problem between him and Gerard, but despite the frustration and repeated questions, he's stayed loyal and never said what it as he thinks it is for Gerard to say.
Honesty, loyal, hmm not too sure on the pure lol.
All I can say is that that friendship ending must have been brutal to B McC.
Evenin' All and Mayo
I wonder if this is a test to see if we really will stick around? We all say that regardless of who Mayo is we'll still be here, so I wonder if Mayo's trying to see if that will happen?
-Amyranth is toasting pumpkin seeds.
I feel awful about the MSI/MCR shared stage also even though I won't have access to those venues nor would I subject myself to them. If the trend continues when they come back to the states...I guess that will be the end of MCR for me too. Sad Sad Sad. I feel like my recent headaches have something to do with this which is ridiculous. What is wrong with me? I honestly was hoping he was seeing the light or that he would see the light with a separation. However, him wearing that ridiculous rainbow Lynz shirt at the Prudential Center seems to suggest he has not changed his mind. I feel powerless. I am powerless.
Then we shall all be powerless together, and at least we'll have each other. ^_^ Pals in reason, yeah?
Kapunua,
Re: your comment on the last blog...yes, Powerless together. Together is good and we have no choice on the powerless part.
Just sticking my head in here for a minute, to say hi to y'all, and to open my big mouth yet again. ^_~
On Gerard being hetero/gay/bi/blowing goats/etc.: Sorry, don't really care. He can sleep with whoever he wants -- as long as it makes him happy, it's all good.
Secret time: I've had two girlfriends, and I do mean girlfriends in the romantic sense. It was a period of my life where I wasn't sure what or who I wanted to be with -- I've already posted my commitment-issue secret, so I tried a relationship with another woman, thinking maybe I was gay and just hadn't figured it out yet.
What I learned is that I prefer guys, but I do have bi tendencies. And even though I'm 90% in favor of males, I would never rule out falling in love with another woman. We find love where we find it, and fuck what society thinks.
Everyone will have an opinion on whether that makes me gay/"straight" (how I hate that word)/bi/whatever. At the end of the day, they're just labels. Why they matter so much just goes to show you how archaic our so-called 'societal norms' really are. (I was one course away from a degree in Sociology, so I could go on all night. But I'll spare you for the time being. ^_^)
On Gerard's personal life: Yes, we discuss him here, but I doubt anyone has any ill intentions toward him. However, we won't just accept everything he says & does blindly, either -- if we think something is off, we're going to discuss it. If you don't like what we have to say, don't read it. Last I checked, it's still a free country.
*hands back soapbox*
TTYL, I'm off to finish my movie!
Oh yeah, re-reading those comments did the trick.
Red eyes all the way.
Perfect for Halloween and scaring the doorknocking littlies.
*goes off to hide spiders in tarnished silver dish holding trick-or-treat goodies*
Mayo,
I know this seems strange, because it's actually Oct. 28,2008. Kinda like time travel in a way, almost a year to the day.
I wish it was this simple. I wish I could wave a wand and we could come back to this point, with the info we have now. I want to reach out to all the people here and beg and plead for all of us to not let everything fall apart. I read through 4 or 5 posts and just wound up crying. I guess hindsight really is 20/20, isn't it?
I wish we could have seen it coming. I wish so many things. I really miss these days here. I know there are things I would have done different, things I wouldn't have said, things I should have said. Things we all should have and shouldn't have said.
We can't go back in time, we can only go forward. Just like you, Mayo. Are there things you wish you could have done differently if you knew the outcome? Things in your life, things here?
I guess I just wanted to visit a better time. To see what made this place so special. I was reminded over and over by the comments.
Do you remember that an anon called us all "Earth Angels"? I had forgotten that. It made me smile and my heart ache all at the same time.
I miss this place. I miss this time. All we can do is move forward.
And in the off chance that a time portal opens up to October 2007, guys, don't let it crumble.
Please.
Love, Hope, Faith and Tears,
L.
Awww, Lisa :(
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