Thursday, October 18, 2007

And what follows will undeniably be written sharply...in haste.

I love watching her delicate hands as they fumble to open my belt buckle. You can bet I never go without one when I am with her. During those few moments just before she opens my pants, I can hardly breathe. It is like that every time. She looks up towards me, her eyes are warm and giving. They tell me everything that I need to know. I feel love in her eyes. Yet, in this moment she seems so fragile, as if she needs my approval before she begins her rapture on me. It is that way this night, and each night I have the privilege of her attention.

p.s. conversation prompted the fire I'm out on a limb; x-rated in an alternate universe.

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Fimble Star said...

no it wasnt i missed that one

toujours said...

i wonder if that means he's currently engaged in contradiction, or if that's just a general hobby of his.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Could have to do with the last thing he had posted there. about only in homes and no place Else

Fimble Star said...

maybe it was towards that interview in rolling stones?

Entropy said...

I would throw my opinion out there but I honestly don't know.

Fimble Star said...

yeh entrop i feel the same i just dont know. but i dont know there having brownies at bc's house lol. do you fancy one

elena said...

Occupation is contradiction.

That's an understatement.

Entropy said...

Oooh,a brownie?
I'd love one. Thank you.
Should I go get it myself?

Fimble Star said...

if you want entropy. you should go say hi to everyone, there having a mini party there. i will get it you if you like i dont mind any excuse for a party lol

Entropy said...

Yes, I should go say hi, I do miss BC:)

Fimble Star said...

i do to but its all good. we can visit here at her house anytime we want. she said so he he he

Entropy said...

I didn't feel comfortable just popping in to say hi 'cause it looked like everyone was in deep conversation and I've never made an appearence over there before.
So maybe you can say hi for me,haha.It's up to you.

Fimble Star said...

hey go over there now and i will push you in the conversation. they will love to here from you trust me

Fimble Star said...

hey entropy. i broke you in. go say hi. lol trust me. party central

elena said...

Well I'm off to bed. Night everyone.

Mayo, glad to hear how fucking amazing marriage it. Just remember it won't always be. Marriage is a job, something you have to work at to make it last. All fun and games at first then that nasty old reality comes marching in. I truly hope if you're happy then it does work out for you. I've been married 23 years and some days I can't stand to look at him, but I always love him. If the love is there then you have a damn good chance of making it.

Fimble Star said...

good night elena. sweet dreams

Fimble Star said...

hey entropy r u in here

Entropy said...

Goodnight elena.

Fimble Star said...

oh ur there. are you joining us entropy?

Martha Smith-Jones said...

night elena

Fimble Star said...

hey tj. you are in the living room now lol

toujours said...

oh fimble, you beat me here!
i had to make a detour -- my cat informed me she required some nuzzles.

*wipes cat hair off face*
lol

JocelynHolly said...

BOO!

I thought that I'd come and scare you guys!

Fimble Star said...

lol sorry bout that tj. just wanted you to have a hello for when you arrived he he he. and 007 aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh
you scared me.

i am off to sleep now so good night one and all
good night mayo

Smoke said...

Okay, just let me say this, be very careful when making comments about fans of anything. I, for one, am a very devoted NASCAR fan. I am female. I live in the South. Believe me when I say that people stereotype NASCAR fans as being ignorant, racist rednecks. Nothing is further from the truth. This sport has changed alot over the years and these are some of the most patriotic and down to earth people on the planet. Didn't ya'll ever wonder why my name has a 20 on the end of it?

Just please be kind when you start discussing fans of anything.

Ok, I am off my little soapbox now.

And just so ya'll know, and you may not care but KID ROCK is fucking awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just saw him in Atlanta tonight and that man knows how to put on a damn show!

JocelynHolly said...

Haha I try FS!

Sweet dreams!

toujours said...

*comes down off the ceiling*

you gave me quite a start there, paperheartxx!
i think i left my last cupcake smushed up on the ceiling, though. :(

i hope mayo doesn't notice that...

JocelynHolly said...

Hey S&V20! Sounds like you had fun!

JocelynHolly said...

I'm sorry Entropy! I'm getting in the Halloween spirit! There are many more cupcakes to go around! Don't be shy to take some more!

I'm sure Mayo won't mind! =]
We can clean that up before he comes back!

toujours said...

good night fimble star!

zig-a-zig-ah!!!!!!

JocelynHolly said...
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Martha Smith-Jones said...

night Fs

Smoke said...

That had to be one of the very best concerts I have ever been to. He left me speechless. Well, almost. That is one sexy man.

Damn!

What is so sexy about him? Besides the fact that he is smokin' hot? He is real. He doesn't pretend to be anything that he isn't. If he wants to fire one up or chop one out, so be it. He's not gonna lie about it. He loves his women. No shocker there. There is no mystery surrounding him and that is so refreshing this day and time.

Oh well, mysteries can be pretty fun. Right Mayo?

JocelynHolly said...

Mayo, I am off to bed. I'm sorry for my absence today. This place just got very negative. Don't worry, you are still in my thoughts (as creepy as that sounds).

Goodnight <3

=]

toujours said...

good night paperheartxx!
thanks for all the delish cupcakes!
(nom nom nom) lol

JocelynHolly said...

Anytime toujours! Sweet dreams to all!
<3

toujours said...

hmm, kinda quiet here in the living room now...

i'd best clean that cupcake off the ceiling...that looks like a handmade trompe l'oeil up there...wouldn't want there to be a stain...

toujours said...

oh my, it's quite messy in here...well, i'll just tidy up a bit...


...lotsa cupcake wrappers...


...one shoe? how do you lose just one shoes?



*tcha*
an anon is passed out behind the couch. really.


...ooh, pity about that lamp...


that should do it.
good night, mayo. ^.^

Anonymous said...

ah the morning after the night before.
Morning Mayo.

anyone want something tasty for breakfast?
How about some Leathermouth pics?

go to http://www.myspace.com/nycforest
and look in their pictures.

elena said...

Good morning everyone. Well at least for me it's morning. Good whatever it is for you. Okay this is totally out of left field but I just thought of something. If Gee and the wife have a baby, think they're really gonna call it Dracula? Just saying, Gerard said he'd name his kid Dracula.

Anonymous said...

"
Nah, your jealousy over not getting to "bang" them yourself."

LOL at "your" and even more at the typical fangirl "JUSS JELLUSSS!!!!11" follow-up that comes after any kind of criticism. Thank you for proving my point tenfold.

Anonymous said...

Hi everyone!
Sorry I've been a way, Catch me up!
So much going on, i could not read all the post.
Anything good going on, besides Mayos wet dream.
PJ

Entropy said...

Good morning Mayo.
Morning to everyone else.

Pale student,thanks so much for that link. That was the best breakfast.Best thing to wake up to.
Man, that looked like such an amazing show.

Entropy said...

Hey PJ, I don't think anything has happened,you know, except for mayo's wet dream.
Just us chatting away,you didn't miss much.

elena said...

Anon - If you can't play nice with others perhaps you should just go play with yourself.

Anonymous said...

I wouldn't exactly call a woman with tattoos completely up her arm, "delicate."

elena said...

last comment was directed to Anon at 9:34

elena said...

For the record Tattoo's can be very delicate.

Anonymous said...

This girl just made my week...

http://www.myspace.com/13354554

awesome videos & great pics from last night's show.

They sound AMAZING

Anonymous said...

^ check in the blog

Anonymous said...

What's with all these jealous anons coming in making nasty judgemental comments? I have lurked from the very beginning and okay, at first I thought this was going to be another place full of crazy obsessed fans. On the contrary, it was so refreshing to read something where every comment is actually spelt correctly and every other post isn't "ZOMG isn't Gerard Way HOT!!!"
I have enjoyed watching the friendships develop and have laughed heartily at the wit displayed here. What wonderful, kind souls there are here! Why are they continually being put down as crazy? I would rather be here than in a room of so called "sane" people-every one of them pretending to be something they are not, smiling in each others faces, then stabbing each other in the back. If you ask me, this is a place where it gets real.
That Putrid Purple Thing recently said that everyone here only pretends that they don't think this is really Gerard's blog because everyone would think they are crazy. Why is that? Do you or any of these nasty anons really believe that the life of a rock star is so damn glamorous and fun filled that he really wouldn't have the time? Now who's being unrealistic? It's the same as any other job, there are times when you haven't got a minute to scratch your ass and others where there are hours of tedious boredom to fill. Do you really think that Gerard doesn't go on the internet like everyone else or do you think that lurking or blogging is beneath his God-like self? Give me a break! Just who is deluded here?

Anonymous said...

hey people.
take a look at this and share what you think of our lovely mayo

http://www.photoshelter.com/usr-show/U0000HkzChcDfe1A?I_DSC=gerard+way&I_DSC_AND=t&I_USER_ID=U0000HkzChcDfe1A&U_ID=U0000HkzChcDfe1A&_ACT=usrSearch

JocelynHolly said...

Good morning people.

Long Time Dead, you make a lot of sense in your comment.

JocelynHolly said...

Anonymous, thank you for the link to the pictures of Gerard. =]

Fimble Star said...

hello all. hey anonswers i had a look at that link you gave us. when were they taken?

Fimble Star said...

hey 007 and george. how are you both this morning?

JocelynHolly said...

FS they were taken Monday September 24th. I'd say that Gerard looks rather cute in that vest and tie, although I don't think that look suits him.

JocelynHolly said...

Hello FS!

I am just fine today! George on the other hand is quite the loud mouth at night. He didn't shut his beak until 4 am last night!

Fimble Star said...

tuh tuh tuh ph. its cos you took him to the pics isnt it. he just got to excited. anyhoot how are you

JocelynHolly said...

You are probably right Pixie!

I am just fine, I'm still looking at those pictures of Gerard though.. something about him just doesn't look right, I'm trying to figure it out.

Fimble Star said...

me niether ph. but the background is very nice

farawaysoclose said...

hi guys!!
i've been away for the weekend and just got back. kinda caught up on everything.
god i'm tired, went to an 80's themed party last night. such a laugh!! but i'm horribly hungover and can't stop eating chocolate!!
anyway hope you are good. i'll try and look in later.
sorry mayo...hello to you too.

JocelynHolly said...

The background is nice. It says it is near his home somewhere in NJ.

Hello Far Away!
I love chocolate!=]

JocelynHolly said...

I was just on buzznet, and this was posted in one of the threads

"They got married when he was out of his tiny mind on booze n drugs (hey it happens in the industry) he's cleaned up now. All the ring wearing and not ring wearing just ignore. I would suggest he's ashamed of the marriage and chooses not to wear the ring in certain company, he's in the crap cus there was no pre nup. She wants to stay with, he is working on finishing it before she empties his wallet. So what. It's his problem. As everyone keeps saying, if your a fan, just enjoy the music. You cant protect him or ingratiate yourself by sympathising here either. Look at it this way, if she skins his cash it means he has to keep working and fans get more MCR...... god thats harsh but true!

You know, regardless of the foolish immature and reckless nature of it all, I wouldnt want to be in the middle of all that. What a terrible shame.
"

Magic Pie said...

Thank you so much for that link! Those pics of Gerard are goregous.

...but is anyone else like me and has a serious issue with the way he puts his hands on his hips?

JocelynHolly said...

I don't have an issue with that magic pie!

=]

farawaysoclose said...

ha ha! hands on hips! yeh i agree with you magic pie!!
lovely pics though.

Magic Pie said...

hehe, it's always bothered me. It just looks so awkward. I think it's because it's an ultra feminine stance and he makes it look weirder with the way he spaces his fingers. I dunno, I'm really anal about ridiculous things.

farawaysoclose said...

oh and hi paperheartxx
i read that on buzznet also.

farawaysoclose said...

it is an ultra feminine stance isn't it!! but hey he's like that sometimes!!

JocelynHolly said...

Hello Far Away=]

Yeah, that caught my eye, but I'm sure its just some one trying to start a rumour! =]

farawaysoclose said...

yeh anyone can sey anything no one knows for sure.
hey just checked out that leathermouth link! wow!

farawaysoclose said...

gotta go and make tea. hangover hunger still on going!! catch you later.

Anonymous said...

Ummmm we can't "Check out that leathermouth link" because the myspace is set to private.

JocelynHolly said...

Uggh!! I need one of those codes to win the Bob Bryar Contest! *bangs head against wall*

Pixie said...

hi everybody :)

elena said...

I want the code for the Bob contest too. It says you can get one online from participating stores but I can't find one.

veritavenom said...

Hi guys. I have addressed two things in my blog today, "slow ticket sales" for the MCR/MSI shows and Gerard's desperate comment about "married life". Would love your input if you want to stop by my blog and look at it.

JocelynHolly said...

I can't find one either Elena!!

I am trying to learn how to play the drums right now too!

Wow this is making me mad!:[

JocelynHolly said...

I'll go check it out now Verita Venom!

=D

Magic Pie said...

remember that The Used video yesterday?

Well I found the link of the SAME guy saying he HATES the Used and loves Gerard.

This is guys is super cracked.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ftle1vZ8siU

Anonymous said...

Hey guys!


To the anon who left that wonderful post, my thanks go out to you. That comment is very true.


How do I access the Leathermouth video and pictures on that Myspace?

Anything else going on?

resurrected wreck said...

hehe, it's always bothered me. It just looks so awkward. I think it's because it's an ultra feminine stance and he makes it look weirder with the way he spaces his fingers. I dunno, I'm really anal about ridiculous things.

I think that might have to do with him being uncomfortable around people he doesn't know, so he feels self-conscious and doesn't know what to do with his hands. I'm the same way.

Anonymous said...

Ummmm we can't "Check out that leathermouth link" because the myspace is set to private.



crap. she must have just done that.
what a bitch!

Anonymous said...

ah well, videos here..
http://youtube.com/
profile_videos?user=xmandaax

Anonymous said...

Long Time Dead, you make a lot of sense in your comment.

Thank you for that paperheartxx and thank you all for restoring my faith in humanity.

Anonymous said...

Hey ergo:

I found something just for you! I was hunting for tees for christmas and stumbled on this:



http://www.teeshirtsrock.com/index.asp?PageAction=VIEWCATS&Category=1161


p.

toujours said...

hello? hello?

well, the place seems empty again.
i'll just volunteer my opinion on those rob bennett pics, shall i?

i saw them last night, and i thought they were great! clearly the work of a very good photographer with a very good subject. (er...not to be all eddie haskell or anything...)

i love that tua-style outfit he wore for the signings (i'm especially fond of the vest), but i did think he looked a bit tired in a couple of them. hopefully, he's more well-rested now.

and that's all i have to say about that.

sdock10 said...

Mayo,

Good afternoon to you. How are you doing today? I didn't get to sleep unitl 4am this morning so I really feel like shit. Body and mind dragging. Feels like I'm in quicksand. Oh well, oh well...I hope things are rolling right along for you today. Just the way you want them to. Maybe you are just having a nice, chill Sunday afternoon in the company of someone you hold dear. Nothing like Sunday afternoons to remind you of what's important in life....love, family, friends, health, and simplicity.

Love to you always,
S

p.s. also good for taking naps...curled up next to the one you love

Entropy said...

Hey toujours.
I thought the pics were great too.
I loved the photographer,I thought he was really talented. Loving photography and all, i noticed that right away.
I love the look. But he also didnt look right, maybe it was 'cause he was tired.I don't know, he just seemed differnt.
I talked to my friend, and she thought the same thing,but she thought he looked just sad.

Anonymous said...

Dear all,


this will be my last communication for some time so i just want to say

Be good,

look after yourselves and each other,

m.


P.S. Confessed faults are half mended.

elena said...
This comment has been removed by the author.
MissTottenham said...

Sorry to hear that m.

Please take care of yourself, we'll be thinking of you.

P.S Our last conversation inspired my first blog. Feel free to peruse if you have the time.

love
misst

Entropy said...

That is really sad to hear m.
Take care.
We'll miss you.

JocelynHolly said...

m.
I'm sad to see you go! Take one of my cupcakes on your way out!
I'll miss you!

We will look after eachother, and we will look after you!

Bye m!

<3

elena said...

M - we will look out for each other. Please look out for yourself.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Hello everyone how are you doing.
m sad to see you, you take care goodbye.

JocelynHolly said...

One question m.
Where are you running off to?
=[

sdock10 said...

m.

I'm also sad to see you go.

Take care.

Love,
S

p.s. hope...faith...strength

JocelynHolly said...

Hello Martha!
I am fine today, my jaw is just in pain
How are you?

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Sdock10 when I read your comment for a second there I thought you were m. I think I need to go back to sleep.

Entropy said...

Hey there Martha.
How are you doing?

Martha Smith-Jones said...

I'm okay a lot of family shit going on right now. Stupid family shit. Why does your jaw hurt.

Anonymous said...

Dear Paperheart


somewhere nice,

maybe i wont come back

mm, Cupcakes eh ?

maybe i will.


m.

P.S. Love to BC

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Hello entropy I'm ok the rest I told to ph already. What about you how are you doing?

JocelynHolly said...

m,

Don't have too much fun! We'll definitely miss you, and take all the time you need, but promise to come back okay? It isn't the same without you! When you're back, I promise we'll have a party! =]

Love;
-007
<3

Martha Smith-Jones said...

So m if we get you some cupcakes you will return?

sdock10 said...

marthajones,

I'm right there with ya in the half asleep department. My whole body aches from lack of sleep.

Anonymous said...

Hello there, m.

JocelynHolly said...

I'm okay a lot of family shit going on right now. Stupid family shit. Why does your jaw hurt.

My jaw hurts because on Thursday, I went to the dentist and the guy had to give me 2 needles, then those didn't freeze my mouth, so he had to give me 2 more. So in total 4 needles. I was near tears; I hate needles.

&&There's a bit of family drama in my house right now too, I try and not think about it though=]

MissTottenham said...

m

I sure hope you do come back.

Take care and remember to have fun wherever you are.

Take our love with you.

misst

Entropy said...

Martha,I'm sorry that's happening.
I'm doing pretty good, just tired.

C'mon m, you know you can't resist cupcakes, you have to come back.

Anonymous said...

Hello Dear BC

honoured that you would come to say hi after your long absence



m.

toujours said...

aww, i missed m. again!
i always miss m.
so not fair. :(
i hope he comes back. he always seems like such a sweetie.

*sigh*

Martha Smith-Jones said...

I'm usually have a sleep but today it is affecting me more than usual. Maybe its because I feel a little sad today. I don't know why. Maybe with all the excitement over the last week in here I wore myself out. And I can't find my cat.

JocelynHolly said...

C'mon m, you know you can't resist cupcakes

Especially my cupcakes, with dinosaur sprinkles, or piglet sprinkles, or whale or duck sprinkles!

Anonymous said...

OK so i've noticed this m character has spelt a few words the English way eg. favourite and honoured. Someone is dicking you around if you think this is Mayo/Gerard!

Anonymous said...

Yes. I wanted to stay away from Mayo's blog for a while and so, until you leave, I will remain here. How are you m?
I am sad to see you go.

JocelynHolly said...

Awwh martha, I think you need a hug! *hug*

I hope you find your cat! I have 2, and ones really cuddly, you can borrow him if you'd like!

Anonymous said...

I just noticed that anonymous. Thank you.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

The last time I had to get the needle at the dentist he hit the nerve dead on. I nearly jumped out of the chair. The pain went through my whole mouth.

Anonymous said...

Any time BC

JocelynHolly said...

OK so i've noticed this m character has spelt a few words the English way eg. favourite and honoured. Someone is dicking you around if you think this is Mayo/Gerard!

We don't care if this person is Mayo or Gerard. We just care about them.. it doesn't matter who they are. Maybe their Canadian? I know that here we spell alot of word like honoured with a 'u'

elena said...

But M does play favorites. So sad really.

But then I always the last girl picked for the kick ball team. Some things never change.

Anonymous said...

dear anonymous at 2.10


ive never claimed to be anything other than myself.

i do not come here for validation.


do you ??

m.

sdock10 said...

martha,

I hope you find your cat.


m.

You don't have to stay away. Come back and check on us every now and then.

Anonymous said...

How long are you going to stay here m?

MissTottenham said...

Hey m,

Whenever you appear can you too sense how everyone sits up a little straighter in their chairs.

You certainly do grab the attention.

Anonymous said...

Get going already m.

I was just making an observation, no need to get crabby! ;)

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Thank you ph. But my other cat would have a fit. I hope the one I can't find is just catting around.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Thank you for the hugs and the kind words as well. My computer seems to be running slow today.

Anonymous said...

I agree Miss T XD

JocelynHolly said...

Haha, I understand Martha!

Anytime you need any hugs or anything, I am the one to see!=]

Anonymous said...

"But M does play favorites. So sad really"

Which made me think this person was just trying to get attention on herself by pretending to be someone important and then mentioning herself when pretending to be that somone.

Anonymous said...

an observation indeed,

and how eloquent you were in your statement too.


m.

P.S. Do not answer a fool according to his folly, or you will be like him yourself.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous, how do you know if m is a female?

JocelynHolly said...

m
whats a folly?
=]

MissTottenham said...

Are you calling yourself a fool m?

You don't read like one.

Anonymous said...

m

I'm not going to argue with you. I make a point to never argue with idiots, they will drag you down to their level and beat you with experience!

Anonymous said...

Please,
elena

let me address the issue of 'favorites'

my comments are for all to read, my communication to anyone who listens.


m.

sdock10 said...

Connections....that's what it's all about in here. Not identities...known or secret or make believe. We came here to make a connection and that's what has happened. And that is what we all strive for every day...to connect on a personal level to someone. To know that someone out there understands you and that you are not alone.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Elena a big hug goes out to you. We can be picked last together. If that is possible. And another hug to ph thank you.
Sdock10 thank you too

Anonymous said...

I suppose I should be leaving. Once again, this place is becoming too tense. I will return to my own blog. Apologies to everyone.

Anonymous said...

dear anon


no hostlity from me i assure you,

not my style.



m.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Bc don't leave just ignore what you don't like. There is no reason to leave.

toujours said...

oh! m. is still here!
hi m.! *waves shyly*

(of course, by the time i get this comment posted and everything loaded again, m. will be zip! gone. *sigh* i am such the slow kid in class today.)

Anonymous said...

You are a female right Bleeding Chaos?

Anonymous said...

Thanks Martha. Either way, I have another blog I need to make ^_^ and it appears we may have another party. I cannot miss that :D

MissTottenham said...

Yeah, what's with the bickering people.

If m is leaving us shortly, let's have the decency to listen to what they say without constant critisism.

Anonymous said...

Yes, I am anonymous. All woman here.

sdock10 said...

Love to all of you.

We all share a bond and they're are going to have to better than this to destroy us.

Anonymous said...

'P.S. Do not answer a fool according to his folly, or you will be like him yourself.'


means


dont argue with foolish people - they will drag you down to their level.

JocelynHolly said...

Bleeding Chaos is definitely a female.

elena said...

Which made me think this person was just trying to get attention on herself by pretending to be someone important and then mentioning herself when pretending to be that somone.

Trying to sound like someone important? Is that what it sounds like to you, really? Let me tell you something. I'm not important to anyone other than my family. All 5 members. That's it. That's all. I have never fit in, always the odd person out. I came here wanting to fit in. To be a part of something but I should have known how that would go. Small voice, never heard. Try to shout but what's the point.

JocelynHolly said...

Ahh thanks for the translation m.
I am not the smartest cookie in the jar=]

Martha Smith-Jones said...

I guess someone missed boob night int the other blog. Oh well.

Hi to everyone who has just joined us.

sdock10 said...

m.

Considering all the tension in here, I could understand why you might want to leave.

JocelynHolly said...

Trying to sound like someone important? Is that what it sounds like to you, really? Let me tell you something. I'm not important to anyone other than my family. All 5 members. That's it. That's all. I have never fit in, always the odd person out. I came here wanting to fit in. To be a part of something but I should have known how that would go. Small voice, never heard. Try to shout but what's the point.

Awwh Elena! I am the youngest out of my family. I've been competing to be heard in my family, but my brother or one of my two sisters always wins. You have us here, no matter what Elena!*hugs*

MissTottenham said...

Don't put yourself down paperheart.

JocelynHolly said...

*laughs*
I try not to, but sometimes I just set myself up for a personal let down. *blushes*

Anonymous said...

No elena, I wasn't talking about you.
Wow people,still dense.
I was talking about the 'woman' that is always mentioned my 'm'.

toujours said...

oh elena!
*bear hug*
i know how you feel, i do. but you have a voice here.

*biggerbear hug*

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Elena I don't know what to say. but we are you friends really we care about you. Thing sometimes move so fast that its hard to remember who said what. Here is a hug for you

JocelynHolly said...

Anonymous, could you please stop saying such rude things? It puts everyone in a pissed off mood, and I'd rather if my bubble wasn't bursted today thanks=]

MissTottenham said...

You are quiet m.

Have you left us yet?

JocelynHolly said...

P.S. I'm sorry if that came off as rude anonymous.

Anonymous said...

Im here,


Until next time....

m.



P.S.
Fear less, hope more,
eat less, chew more,
whine less, breathe more,
talk less, say more,
hate less, love more,
and all good things will be yours.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Alright lets try to think happy thoughts.

JocelynHolly said...

I love your P.S. m.

MissTottenham said...

m,

thank you for the parting message. Please take care.

Drop in from time to time. We'll miss you.

Lots of love
misst

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Don't be a stranger m

Anonymous said...

What is going on? m, are you leaving?
Elena, big hugs to you! We all love you ^_^

Entropy said...

Such great things to say before you leave m.
Bye,take care.

JocelynHolly said...

Goodbye m.

Have a wonderful time. If you ever lose your way, remember you can always return here!
*hug*

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Is it just me or does it seem that something or someone always comes around to try to upset us. I don't now if it is intentional or just coincidence.

sdock10 said...

m.

Thanks for always giving us such good advice. I love advice that makes me reflect on my own life. I love to question myself every day.
So...

Thank you

Martha Smith-Jones said...

elena are you still there.

JocelynHolly said...

Martha, I think it's intentional. It's official, my bubble has been bursted. These anon's sure know how to save the day *sarcasm*.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

They're not anons they're unicorns or as ralph would say unitards.

elena said...

Thanks to all of you for the kind words. I'm sorry for my outburst. It's just sometimes I hate myself so much. I'm 45 and own a successful business, married with children, yet, inside the girl who was truly always picked last for everything remains. Why can't I just get over that? Why am I always an outsider?

JocelynHolly said...

Haha, you make me giggle Martha=]

JocelynHolly said...

Elena, it's hard to let things go. It's hard to get over being the little girl whose voice never got heard. I know=]

We just have to stick together okay?
=]

Anonymous said...

Martha, I'm afraid I have a unitard right in my own blog. These idiots still think that I am Mayo. How ridiculous.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Hey we were all outsiders once. You outburst is no big deal you needed to get it out, its out. You can say what you need to say here to make yourself feel better.

sdock10 said...

elena,

If you ever find the answer to that question, will you let me know? Because I'm still searching.....maybe this is the beginning.

maybe...

Anonymous said...

methinks you doth protest too much BC

MissTottenham said...

Add this to my last comment.

Otherwise they should keep their comments to themselves cos we don't want em.

Anonymous said...

Aww elena, you are not an outsider. We all are. We are all family here :)

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Thats it I'm sending my fan girls out on a mission. First they will stop by all your house and delivery treats and a hug, than they will take out the unicorns.

Alright girls you have your orders.

Anonymous said...

I do not think so, anonymous. I am not the one who started this pretending to be Mayo crap.
But either way, I am going to let that go and focus on other things.

toujours said...

elena, that wasn't an "outburst" -- it was something you needed to say, and it's good that you did. :)

MissTottenham said...

ooops. The page changed at the last minute and my last comment is on the wrong page. Ignore it.

Anonymous said...

Elena,

I know what you're feeling. Always the last one to hit the ball, always the last one to get picked. I know exactly what you're saying. But if I may, I would like to use your post to express a point of mine about Gerard.

You're 45, you say? A beautiful age by the way :) "Yet, inside the girl who was truly always picked last for everything remains." I feel that the quote posted yesterday about Gerard never feeling like he was in a relationship stems from feeling somewhat the way you do. That little boy that was always picked last for the team, that no one really wanted, the boy who sat by himself at the lunch table, who walked the streets at night kicking an old tin can. That naive, lonely little boy still resides in this 30 year old man. I think he's still feeling like what he had (that long marriage-like relationship) was just a fairy tale and he'll never get that back. I think he still feels like he's never had anyone there for him because that's the little boy talking. Even though it was probably the exact oppisite.

I just wanted to say that. Continue on.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Hello mib and what you said was right on.

Anonymous said...

Hey there Martha Jones and anyone else who comes in before the page reloads.

It seems Mayo's blog got a little chaotic there for awhile.

elena said...

So now I'm sitting here still feeling like an idiot for blurting out my feelings. However what's worse or perhaps better is that I feel like crying cause you all are being so nice and understanding. Mustard what you said about Gerard rings true. I think why I was first attracted to MCR's music was the fact they said they were always outsiders. I could relate. I still can relate. "I just wanna ...." That me. I'm not okay. (but I wanna be)

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Yes it did.

resurrected wreck said...

I totally agree with you about Gerard still feeling like a lonely little boy, Mustard. I don't know that that's something anyone would completely outgrow.

JocelynHolly said...

Elena, you can cry. I know I've shed a few tears because of the nice things people have said to me on here=] I was also attracted to My Chem because they were "the outsiders" of the music industry.

You know what song I think you should listen to? "It's Okay To Cry" I forget who its by, maybe Amanda Wilkinson. But it is a great country song=]

Entropy said...

Mustard,I love your thoughts on everything.
What you said couldn't be more truthfull from the way I see it.

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