Shovel it out, cheaply priced and easily discarded. Pulling open box after box, nothing. Procrastination has dealt an awful hand, because now others have handed it off and it is gone. And you can’t remember when or where you saw it last.
It takes a knowing heart to properly decipher absolute meaning from the rubbish. The base, unfortunately, remain drawn into the vastness of the pit. I rather prefer the poignant to the insipid. I am beholden to the benevolent.
p.s. beautiful place amongst the cement and shoulders.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
256 comments:
1 – 200 of 256 Newer› Newest»Why not just donate to you local thrift shop?
I have to admit that I do agree with a lot of this...
Can someone please give me the link to Shitsubou Shitas blog?
^The blog has been deleted. There was only one and I think someone quoted it somewhere.
And Mayo, I enjoyed this one very much. Especially "beholden" of the "benovolent." Interesting. But what are you really trying to tell us? Maybe I'm just too tired to analyze. I'll be back later.
Mayo,
If you have nothing to say today, couldn't you just say "I have nothing to say today"?
Would you know the difference between a knowing heart and a misguided soul? Both are here with good intentions and a pure heart. We do our best to offer support, help, criticism, and advice with what we are given. And most of the time, you give us shit to work with. We take what we can from it and TRY to give you back something nice and pretty.
The pit? My friend that is the hole you are digging for yourself and I will not be drawn down into that hole with you. I will toss you a shovel though and you can dig yourself deeper or you can dig yourself out. Your choice. I'm a little busy trying to keep my own hole from caving in on top of me. I'll be more careful of where I sling my dirt I promise. God knows I wouldn't want to make you feel any dirtier.
This blog is just like the real world. There's a lot of tasteless, nasty shit, some unnecessary shit, but guess what??? Rarely is honesty nice and pretty.
Love to you (throw it away if you like)!
Shitsubou Shitas blog no longer exists, however, you may find the one and only entry in the cached files. Or the one that was copied and pasted a few days ago.
How ya doin', Mayo?
Shitsubou Shita blog:
"Abandon hope, all who enter here...
What the fuck happened? Why didn't I see this coming?
I made a point to keep out of it this time, but at what cost? It sucks to be trapped between a rock and a hard place, it's a lose/lose situation.
I've always been honest with you, shouldn't that work both ways? What's with the double standards? People are starting to notice. I'm not talking about kids, I'm talking about people in their mid 20's and 30's. People with life experience who can see the cracks starting to show.
What am I supposed to say? I just dont have the answers. How can I reassure them when I need reassurance myself?"
Posted by Shitsubou Shita at 18:10 0 comments
Thanks for posting the blog anon30!
Its a shame it was deleted, I like hearing what SS has to say. I wonder why SS never commented using their blue logged in blog name though.
Well, Mr. "M"ay,
You have shoveled out your own share of rubbish on stage this past summer!
Playing your cheap carnival tricks has shown us the disrespect you have for yourself, your band mates, your music, and your fans.
Remind me, if you will, for I have forgotten - What was that "message" you once had?
We haven't seen it since you drug it with you in that gutte.
*gutter* - between the concrete and the shoulder
Insipid? Honestly, I didn’t know what that word meant. So, I looked it up. Do you know what I saw when I looked it up? A picture of Gerard Way. And under the picture, it said ‘See also – LynZ’. Then it made perfect sense.
Muwahahah!
Pot? Hello, this is Kettle calling.
Is this INSIPID enough for ya?
Anyway, I’m ready for the next kickball game. Whatever, man.
p.s. Loveman's winning.
Shovel it out, cheaply priced and easily discarded.
In other words, "sticks & stones, nyaa nyaa NYA nyaa nyaa!" If it can't find 'it', I'd be happy to offer a suggestion on where you may look.
Since you're able to distinguish between the poignant and the insipid, you're obviously taking the time to read the comments. Interesting that you have the capability to be both, O God of Mayo. Of course you're beholden to the benevolent -- they're simply telling you more of what you WANT to hear. Must be crowded, what with all those faces sucking at your ass.
Phrased bluntly or delicately, all comments (insipid or otherwise) point in the same direction -- concern for one's well-being.
Oh, and one correction, dearest. It taking a knowing heart to be CAPABLE of carrying on both poignant and insipid conversation. You would do well to recognize this.
Am I the only one noticing a resemblence between CJ and Shitsubou Shita?
xxx
^I dont think so, CJ was kinda cryptic and wrote a series of words to paint a picture, not full sentences (if that makes sense)eg. 'cocktails, sunsets, hotel rooms, early nights, long distance phone calls' (I know that was a stupid example but its all I could think of!)
I dont know why but I imagine Shitsubou Shita writes the way they probably talk, v straightforward and honest, none of this cryptic crap.
Touche' mayonaise
I carry a heavy heart today full of good beginnings.
Touche'
`sc
Is helping your mother move bringing back memories of somewhat of a real life you once lead? Do you miss it? Make up your mind!
P.S. she misses you!
I miss him too!
I miss Gerard Way, too. He was a good guy, it seemed like. I had a lot of respect for him.
Maybe he'll move back in someday?
P.S. I got bitten really hard by a cormorant today. Sucks to be me.
Look in the mirror and tell me just what you see. What have the years of your life taught you to be? Innocence dying in so many ways. Things that you dream of are lost, lost in the haze. Hold on!
Kansas for Jersey
Kapunua, I'm sorry you got bit. What the hell is a cormorant?
This one is moving unusually slow. I think we are bored. Or maybe it's just me?
Mayo, if you need to go, then go; but you need to do better than this. The post where you talked about your average day was the best in my opinion. I loved the feistiness in your tone. Chipper up my friend. Share the good stuff. There has to be a lot of good things; or ponderings about what you think about all of us (but not in a cryptic way of course). Laugh a little. Laugh at us. Have a good laugh at yourself. Join in on the kickball game.
Someone care to tell me what the hell this blog is saying?
I don't understand it one bit.
Aww, thanks Smoke&Venom! A cormorant is a big, fish-eating shore-bird with a hooked beak for spearing. And he speared the everloving CHRIST out of my hand, seriously, broke three veins and hit a nerve that goes all the way up my arm and down my fingers.
They're so cute though!
Guys, House is on tonight. And I'm sorry, but HOUSE beats the hell out of Fake Gerard Way's blog any day.
I do *heart* you guys, though. ^_^
Someone care to tell me what the hell this blog is saying?
I don't understand it one bit.
Haha me either:P
Anywayys, I LOVE the song "You're Not Alone" by Saosin, and I think that some of you might like it. It kind of reminds me of someone...
It's just like him
To wander off in the evergreen park
Slowly searching for any sign
Of the ones he used to love..
He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left...)
And this time I think you'll know..
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
She's just like him
Spoiled rotten
Confused by the lies she's been fed
And she's searching for no one..
(But herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy
That she is here
And this time I think you'll know...
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
(There is more to know)
We're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell..
(So tell me)
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
(Make it out)
You will live to tell
(Live to tell)
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
(And I know)
You can make it out
You will live to tell..
You are not alone.
You're not, you're not alone.
Mayo, I hope you get the message of this song =]
P.S. I got bitten really hard by a cormorant today. Sucks to be me.
That is probably the *last* thing I expected to see anyone say in a blog today!
Fake fucking Gerard is the best. I wish we knew, but that will never happen. In the meantime, this Mayo, has been fun. :)
Hell House beats real Gerard.
To Mayo, (and later Shitsubou Shita)
I'm glad to know these words are getting through, even if we don't know what you are doing with them.
I'm sure you are scared, tired and confused. You have been accused of preaching a message you didn't believe in, only for the fame and money; been accused of being a fraud. I believe the person who started out with the best intentions and hope in his heart is the real one; it's the persona you've become who is the fraud.
Look deep inside yourself, find that loving, gentle soul and have mercy on it. Don't be afraid to let go, to face your fears and doubts. If you fall, you will have arms to catch you, hands to hold you and fall with you. Let those that love you wrap wings disguised as arms around you and let you cry, scream, whatever you need to do.
You are loved. I love you. I may not know you personally, but I love the person who is inside you. I hate the way you are acting, the poison that has taken over, but what I saw in your eyes before is what makes you worth loving.
Fight for that person. Face your fears. When I was a young girl (around 5) I began having terrifying dreams of a wolf or a werewolf chasing me in a dark wood. These dreams were always the same. I would wake up just before it reached me, sitting up in bed and screaming. I wouldn't sleep for the rest of the night after these dreams. And I had about 2-3 per year until I was in my mid-twenties.
A friend of mine found in a book how wolves manifest themselves often in dreams of people with Native American blood (I am part Cherokee) and represented pure evil. (I spoke with other family members and found a lot had similiar dreams) The next time the dream occurred, I found myself running to the edge of a cliff, trapped with the wolf behind. I turned in my dream and said, "I am not afraid of you. I know who you are now, and I am not afraid." I woke up, finally with peace. I have not had that dream since, and I am now 39.
It's ok to be a scared little boy who wants to know it will be alright; it's ok to be lost. Just find that inner voice and ask for help and direction. It will be there. We will be there. We won't judge you, we will hold you and never let go.
"If I could, through myself
Set your spirit free
I'd lead your heart away
See you break, break away
Into the light
And to the day."
"Bad"- U2
L.
Shitsubou, darlin', first I would like to apologize for the person who posted your blog in the last set of comments. I believe their intentions were good, but it was not their place to reveal thoughts that you obviously did not want broadcast. Even though I myself am not responsible, I ask your forgiveness. Please don't let that breach of trust scare you away from here. You have knowledge of the situation that we do not, and we all want to hear your thoughts. Mayonaise included.
I can hear you saying, 'Oh, I don't know anything. It's my fault that this happened in the first place.'
Wrong, wrong, wrong. DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF. You did what you thought was best at the time. That's all anyone can do. What you do now is pick up from here. Go to your friend. Tell him you love him. Hold him, let him feel your strength of spirit. Swallow your pride, baby, and make the first step. Something tells me he won't turn you away.
Be reassured, sweetheart, that you are not alone. You may not have support near at hand, but you do have it. It's here down South for sure, but it's all over the world, too. Anytime you need it, you know where to find it. You have the number.
It's hard to watch someone you love and respect make terrible decisions and act like they've lost their mind. You feel helpless, frustrated, sad, angry. And then you feel defeated. But I will tell you from 41 years of experience, FIGHT ON. This is the time to double your efforts. I don't think you have lost him. I think he's waiting for you to find him.
You ARE a good man, and a kind man. Otherwise, why would you care? Your depth of feeling is evident in all that you do. Be careful, though, that you don't give up so much of yourself that you get lost, too.
Remember the e-mail:
becauseyouneverknow@earthlink.net
I love you, Shitsubou.
J.
^I really enjoyed reading all that you wrote until the part about people here and/or there posting the SS blog.
SS posted a blog on this site, did not make it private, deleted it, yet used the same name in comments here. One could easily google it out of curiosity and find the cache of its former existance. No one broke any trust here. It's public.
P.S. We do not know who SS is anyway. It could be so many different people in "fake gerard's" life.
2nd P.S.: I think SS is Worm.
OK, I've forgotten - who is CJ?
Also, I was the first one to copy and paste SS deleted blog. Anon30 is right. Never, ever, think that anything you post on the internet is private!
Also, Anon30 - you think SS is Worm? Interesting... I have wondered if some of these blogs were Mikey, Frank, and who knows who else!
But it is fun to say the least!
Hey, I'm part Cherokee, too! And part CHoctaw. And part other stuff, hey, I am a total NDN mutt. ^_^ I never heard that stuff about wolves in dreams though, it sounds a little hokey. I know this isn't the place for it at all, but always remember that there is no such thing as "Indian Spirituality" because all Nations are different, and a lot of Cherokee myth has been filtered and romanticized by fascinated European minds.
/preach
/nitpick
paperheartxx, have to say, that is one of my current favorite songs. In fact I think that was one of my first comments when I started reading and posting on these fake blogs. :D
Resurrected Wreck, holy crap you should see my hand now. It's hugely swollen. Ridiculous. However it is not by any means my first bird injury. My first was from the talon of a raptor that went all the way into my palm about six years ago. Good stuff!
BTW, House rocked tonight. What would House make of Fake Gerard? Or of Real Gerard, for that matter?
"Everybody lies." ^_~
Resurrected Wreck, holy crap you should see my hand now. It's hugely swollen. Ridiculous. However it is not by any means my first bird injury. My first was from the talon of a raptor that went all the way into my palm about six years ago. Good stuff!
I've got a mosquito bite on my ankle. Not quite the same thing, I'll admit... ;)
Mama, we are all full of lies. Yes, I went there because it is so very true.
And thanks Anon51 for validating me. I'm a wimp. I'll admit, so it feels nice to have someone back me up. The ladies here are strong. I admire all of you.
Kapunua - sorry about your attack. That kind of sucks.
Original Punks and Kapunua - American Indians are so beautiful. I have dreams of not being able to walk. Aches and pains consume my knees and I cannot stand. Any thoughts, Original Punk? I know it isn't Wolves, but I'd love any insight you can offer. It is becoming more frequent.
Holla for Blog Therapy!!!
sdock10, I visited your blog, but since you are not allowing anon comments, I was unable to say hello... I am glad you have started your own blog. I've always enjoyed your comments! I have to admit, I thought you might be Gee in the beginning, the way you came back at Love Man all the time! Oh, well...
Looking forward to reading more of your blogs and comments!
Oh Kapunua I have been very nearcormorants and never want their beals to come my way !! Hope it heals ok....ah you often get hurt trying to help don't you..that goes for people too.
Mayo, we learn from the past but if you procrastinate too long sometimes you miss your chance.
Alas poignant or insipid, neither thrill me much, I wholly prefer real and tangible, true and wholehearted.
paperheartxx, have to say, that is one of my current favorite songs. In fact I think that was one of my first comments when I started reading and posting on these fake blogs. :D
that's my favourite song right now too!=]
Aspire to inspire before you expire.
Aspire to inspire before you expire.
Freaky. I just saw that on a church sign as I was driving home....
I'm getting ready to watch House right now. 2 minutes till it starts yeah. I think he would give Gee a whack on his head with his cane.
I completely missed House. I'm doing work at home tonight. Occationally checking Mayo's comments (What does that say about me? Well, I'm a nerd.) for some relief.
At least I do not have brain-challenged individuals to interupt my work during this time.
Aspire to inspire before you expire.
Very odd. THe gardening center I go to (yes, I am an avid gardener, SHUT UP I AM LIKE AERIS!) has had that sign up for the past two weeks. Hmm.
American Indians are so beautiful. I have dreams of not being able to walk. Aches and pains consume my knees and I cannot stand.
Heehee, not all of us, for instance I am not attractive at all. ANd sometimes not so nice. ^_^ Dreams can mean many different things, the most mundane interpretation that comes to mind is that perhaps your knees really do hurt while you're asleep; it could be positional. A more mental interpretation is that something is crippling your movement, your progress. You could be stuck in a situation or something, frustration could read as physical pain Always look at how you phrase your dreams when you re-tell them, I learned this from all of my friends who always tell me their dreams. Image is the language of dreams but language is often key to interpreting the images. Of course I'm pulling all of this out of my ass, but it sounds good, doesn't it? ^_~
Thank you, Ergoproxy! Yes, this is true, isn't it? Some people just can't help reaching out, sticking their hand into that cage and hoping they don't get it chomped.
Kapunua, thank you. Even if you feel like you pulled that out of your ass.... it was right on. And it did sound good!
You are beautiful my dear. I shall clear up my pain in my knees. It is were I harbor all that is unbalanced...just never thought it would come into my dreams. It sucks.
P.S. Be careful with those birds. Do tell us of your adventures. They sound very interesting.
Thank you, anon30! I have a hobby of interpreting dreams, sometimes just running at the mouth (or keyboard) will make something click. ^_^
That's weird you mention about feeling unbalanced and harboring those feelings in your knees and once again, that's very symbolic. Also very literal in the biological sense; I remember my college physiology professor saying how there were certain parts of the human body that could have done better in the evolutionary sense. The two he always mentioned were the knees--Homo sapiens made a quick decision to become upright and the knees didn't evolve quickly enough to support this decision; they were kind of a sacrifice to being bipedal--and the coronary artery. That crap should be like a frikking hose.
Sorry for the geek rant, but they way you phrased it made me go all tangential. Very interesting.
I'm sure that at least some of the wildlife that surrounds me thinks that I'm beautiful--beautiful here meaning the bearer of food and other good things--at least when they're not thinking "GAHH HUMAN GET AWAY FROM ME!" But trust me, I'm far from beautiful. ^_^ And I'm so okay with that. Far better to be smart and funny. ;D
Sorry, didn't mean to hijack comments. Gerard who?
One last P.S. before I retire for the evening:
Mayo, if you are who we think you are, then please take care of Mama Way. Mothers are the core of our being. Remind her that you love her (just in case you haven't said it in a while).
Kapunua - you got it. Your professor seems very wise. I have always felt knee pain during times of unbalance (Gee - what is up with the cane every once in a while?). But it is interesting that you re-pointed it out for me. I forgot about all of that. You shall now become my dream advisor.
And you did not hijack the comments... (haha, "Gerard who?").
Regardless, I sense your beauty. It not just the wildlife that realize it. :)
Goodnight loves.
^_^ You're very kind, anon30.
'Kay, one more thing, 'cause I can't keep my mouth shut when people mention things like this. If you're having balance / joint problems, you might want to see a network chiropractor. They're not like regular chiropractors who crack your back or that kind of thing, it's more holistic where it kind of retrains your body to align like it's supposed to. I try to go as often as possible because I've had this advanced early-onset arthritis (got it when I was 12,) had surgery etc. and nothing ever worked until I got into that. When I stop going for a while, everything gets creaky and achy and, well, unbalanced again. So, if it is bothersome to you, check that out, okay? And good luck.
Wait you guys were watching House? My eyes were glued to one of my favorite shows, Law and Order: SVU.
This might be somewhat humorous to admit, but that show has helped me develop the trait of being observant. I kid you not. I love that show.
Mayo, my love, do you have any intention within yourself to take the time to observe Shitsubou's blog? I feel nothing but sympathy because it seem that he is truly hurting here. He believes that what you have caused is his fault and that he is the one to blame. How do you feel that you are disappointing your loved ones and your fans? You disappointed me as soon as I witnessed your strange behavior September 1st. Ironically, I was standing in the pit. The one you discreetly mention in your current post. Please spare the retrospective, insignificant, pretending to be okay bullshit because I will not have none of it. You do not have to worry about hiding your feelings with most of us. Sometimes it is okay to fail. Sometimes it is okay to fall down because I believe we have to fall in order to learn the greatest lessons that life bestows upon us. Sometimes it is okay to admit your mistakes. Sometimes it is okay to cry. Sometimes it is okay to admit your wrongdoings. It is okay to speak your mind and be honest about your feelings. You should try it sometime. It can do you some good. I believe in my heart that you are worth fighting for, no matter if your actions disappoint myself, the fans, or Shita in general. No matter if you believe in your mind that you are not worth it.
Why are you deliberately trying to throw everything you have worked for away? Do you honestly believe in your fragile, innocent mind that you do not deserve to receive a real and true kind of love and affection that you feel deep down that you do not deserve? You have to learn to release that fear and let it go before it consumes you whole. It is okay to be alone sometimes. It is great not to have to carry the burden of another's emotional baggage. Believe me, I know.
If you feel that you are not truly happy, why are you trying to hide it from others? Is it because you are allowing the arrogant, masochistic trait to consume you?It is okay to admit your faults. It is okay to be human. That is what I admired you the most; the ability to open up your problems to the world in order for those to seek help for themselves as well and to show them that you have problems, just like we do.
What happened to all of that? Instead, now I see an entirely different person who has gotten hold of the Gerard we once knew and loved. I do not like the new Gerard at all. You can flaunt all you like, but I know deep down that you may be hurting and that you may be scared. People tend to hide their insecurities and problems by pretending to act and be someone their not. If the old Gerard and new Gerard were seperate entities, you bet your ass I'd like to bust the new Gerard's balls with my own hands like an orange if given the chance.
I miss the old, honest, sensitive, caring Gerard. I miss him alot. I miss your smile and the way your beautiful eyes lit up. What happened? All I see now is a shell of your former self and it breaks my heart. No matter what you believe, someone out there does give a damn about you. It could be me, the rest of the readers, all of the fans, etc. I am not sure if it's an Aries thing because I'm an Aries myself as you are, but I do understand your stubborness and your unwillingness to listen because I do have those traits myself and sometimes it is hard to take advice from others where your mind believes that they may try to destroy something good in your life. I think it may be why I can see through your facade and not be fooled.
My little jar of Mayonaise, please do not abandon those who care about you. Not your bandmates, your friends, your family. One day you will end up truly and utterly alone and who will you turn to then when no one will be there to care about you? Will you cry that no one cares about you by then? One day you may realize that I may not attend every MCR show to see you anymore as I have done so throughout the past year and a half. You know who I am. You seen the way I smile. I really do care about you.
Kapunua, sorry to hear about your birdbite! That's gotta hurt like hell!!! (PS - Ain't no ugly people here! ::scrawls 'BAD GIRL" on Kapunua with sharpie::)
Watched LA Ink (Frankie!!!) and House, thought I'd check in before bed. A lot of intelligent posts goin' on... hard to tell there was no kickball game scheduled tonight. ^_^
FWIW, Sister Caterpillar-Midnite's spidey-senses are tingling. The blog may be slow, yes, but I'll wager a portion of my footballs that it ain't over yet. Maybe good ol' Mayo hadn't consumed enough coffee to read the thesaurus clearly. :)
(Speaking of Mayo: whether it's the real deal or the low-cal, no-class spread, it's still entertaining.)
PS - Kinda sorta, but not totally & completely.
See how easy cryptic is? ;)
My dear beloved Mayonaise, I believe you may need to take a look at this. I discovered it from another blogger. Please, take a look:
A few thoughts on Gerard that sort of correlate with my second post and people who are empty, and who are easily led. Does it ever seem to anyone else like Gerard isn't really the leader he seems to be? (Well I mean aside from the obvious, the recent dumping of the "morals" and "responsibility" he always sermonized about onstage in order to take a shit-talking band on tour with them and expose them to their young fans... the same ones he used to try to protect. Aside from that.)
What I mean is how often he seems to change his mind based on what other people are saying or doing. First of all he seems to change his mond about huge life decisions at the drop of a hat. Leave his girlfriend of 6 years over the phone for no obvious reason while she was already ill, a few months later hook up with the next girl that was in the vicinity. (Seems like all you have to do to get engaged or married to Gerard Way is be around him a few times.) The rumors then were that she asked him to get married. But Gerard wanted to get married, he said so in a few interviews. He makes a big deal out of his age all the time. (Even when he was doing older interviews. Look at the one with Bert. "I'm 27 so I'm pretty old." And the "what turns you on" interview. "Well, I'm not that young anymore, so...." He's hung up on his age in the biggest way to begin with.) I can't even count how many times he's said that he was old, or too old, or felt like he should be doing some such thing by a certain age.
Then recently he said he wanted to drop "I'm Not Okay" from their setlist because he felt like he had outgrown it and he wanted "peace and quiet" these days. O-kayyy... They ended up not dropping it after all which is good, but I wonder what made him make that decision. Could be be that he started acting like he was 12 again? Could it be that he's still "not okay"?
Then an anonymous letter, or really a few of them, come along calling out Eliza for being a bitch and for using him. The next thing you know, his engagement is off. It looked like he actually took the ring off between songs during a concert. (By all accounts it was on for the first half of the concert and gone for the last half, leading to speculation that maybe it had somehow slipped off his finger during the show.) A very sudden decision, very quickly after someone "told" him that Eliza was wrong for him.
Next thing you know, Gerard is looking for a place to settle down and he decides on Portland because he says he loves it there. In the past he's made a big deal out of saying that he didn't want to be one of those people who died in the same place they were born, that's what "Kill All Your Friends" was about. He wanted, he needed to get out of New Jersey to truly begin his life. One definitely got the feeling that he did NOT want to stay there for many different reasons. He was out of that state, he said he felt no ties to it. He moved his stuff out of his parent's house and then his parents up and sold the house.
A month later, "SO IN LOVE" with the next girl in his vicinity. A few weeks after his announcement that he was "in love" they're married. And now? Now it's all great to just stay in New Jersey, because that's where she lives.
Does Gerard ever make any decisions based on what he feels? Of does he just make decisions based on what the people he's trying to impress feel?
It's sad to see people be led around like that, very lost and desperate. What's sadder is having nothing inside, being so empty that you fill your heart with what other people want. You live your life according to what other people think you should be doing at a certain time. This is weird because he also always talks so much about finding yourself, being your own person etc. As if he knows that he's not actually doing those things.
Yet even though he's so easily led by people he's currently into, he's probably stubborn to the last if people who have known him for years try to call him out on it once the decision has been made for him. I know a lot of people like this. They'll base their decisions on whoever means the most to them at the time (whoever they want to impress) and then everyone else takes a backseat. Everyone else's opinions stop mattering to them. People they used to value, they now think are out to get them or out to destroy the life they're trying to build up with their new fascination. They say things like "Why does it bother you that I'm happy?" and "Can't you let me live my life?" when they're really living someone else's. The people who have always been there for them, all of a sudden they are the bad guys. And the more those caring people push them, the more stubborn they get. They will stay in a relationship, a location, a job, a situation or what have you, even after they are sick of it and want out, JUST to prove a point. Just to prove that they were not wrong, to prove that they are living their own lives.
There was another successful rock star who was easily led and then stubbornly pushed people away until the ugly end, too. Someone who was a sponge for other people, someone who spoke of having empathy to a fault, so much so that it was maybe all he had. Do I need to name who it was?
The funny thing is, I recall reading a recent interview that hinted that Lindsey may have forced you to stay in Jersey when you had your mind set on moving to Portland, all because she did not want to move there. My love, where is your free will? Are you going to continue allowing these people to control your decisions? It seems to me that Lindsey may not care what *you* want. Do not be afraid to say "No" in a while. Where is your backbone? You claim to be your own person, but I do not see a set of balls on you to confirm that. You can listen to Lindsey, who is a complete stranger, but you do not listen to those closest to you who worries about your well being. That does not make any sense at all. You can listen to strangers, but you do not even listen to your own family and friends? Shame on you.
Someone posted the link to Shitsubous blog in bleeding chaos's blog comments.
www.iamthemodernprometheus.blogspot.com
Dont know how the fuck they found it, but Im sure glad they did! There is a latin heading on his page which means keep the faith, remind anyone of a certain tattoo a certain someone has?
Well here we are again. Another day, another blog? Perhaps? Probably not. Oh well, we have plenty of good shit to discuss I'm sure. Mayo, Loveman, Shitsubou, all the players.
And if we run out of stuff to discuss about them...there's always last night's LA Ink or House to talk about. Oh yeah and Friday kickball!!
Isn't Frank the greatest person? He is so genuine and sweet.
To Anon51...sorry about they anon comments thing on my blog. I will try and fix that because I want to read what everyone thinks.
To Mayo...I'm almost missing the blogs about little Mayo. He at least seemed to be a lot busier than you are these days. Bring back LITTLE MAYO!! Sorry, now I'm being a smartass. You know I'll be here for you no matter what you talk about.
P.S. Are you settled in or settling?
Alright, Peeps. Some new developments after last night:
· Dr. Gregory House is the official ‘Honorary’ Captain of the Nutbusters Kickball team.
· Frank is the sweetest, most down to earth, and forgiving man on the planet. Kat Von Duh, you better be glad it was Frank and not Mr. Diva. Oh, I forgot that Mr. Diva is afraid of needles. As if.
· I have to agree with Sdock10. As bad as I hate to admit when I’m wrong, Mayo, this was indeed more fun when it was about your crotch. I know, I know. I made jokes. Bring back “Little Mayo”!!!!!
· Kickball game starts Friday @6:30. Or something like that. Even Princess’s get certain websites blocked while they are at work. (Whoever you are that blocked my Blogger, you suck, just so you know)
· Shitsubou Shita, I hope we haven’t run you off, please come back!!!!!!
· Tink, I’m still wondering, ‘Wow, what?’
Hugs and Kisses to you all – Sister Midnite, Dr. Nut, Kapunua, Ergoproxy, Verita Venom, Shitsubou Shita, Bleeding Chaos, Anon30, Anon10, Anon, Anon, Anon, Anon, etc, etc, etc.
Your Very Unfriendly but Pretty Neighborhood Blogger Princess
XOXO
As much as I truly enjoy reading all of your lovely comments please try to keep them to a minimum. Long narratives lose my interest and are only skimmed through by these bleary eyes.
Ouch.
have y'all heard that there are people talking about these blogs?
Check bleeding chaos, its all on there.
Yeah we are all gonna be famous!
Nutbusters FAMOUS!
There are 2 major clues to Shitsubous identity. Firstly, has anyone else noticed it says Pactum Serva at the top of the page? It means Keep The Faith in Latin.
I also googled 'The Modern Prometheus'
Most enlightening. However, I get the distinct impression this blog is supposed to be private, so how on earth was this blog even found? I have seen comments by Shitsubou and he never mention he had a blog of his own or commented using his logged on blogger account name of shitsubou Shita.
I always wanted to be Nutbuster Famous! YES!!!
I also know that people are making fun of us because we "think" we are talking to G-way and friends. But I have also heard that they enjoy the comments, so that's cool.
*goes to look at Bleeding Chaos' blog*
To Anon @ 8:32 AM:
COFFEE GOOD. DRINK LOTS.
Minimalistic enough for ya? :)
(No malice, babe. Only a wicked sense of humor.)
OMG!!!!!!!! Is this REALLY Gerard Way?????!!!!!! OMG! You SAVED my LIFE!!!!! This is just too fucking amazing!!!!! I LOVE YOU like you dont even know!!!!!!!!!! I even got suspended from school for you but I don't care cuz it was so totally worth it!
You have really opened my eyes in so many ways and I will stand by you and fight all these bitches to the end! Don't listen to all these fukahs!!!!
You are my HERO, my GOD!!!!!
I agree Anonymous. I have been thinking about this. Here is my theory (CSI eat your heart out)
He did not want anyone to see his blogs, and that is why he never commented using his 'logged in' blog account name. He didnt want anyone to even suspect he had a blog. But then someone found a blog that he had written under the url of shitsubou shita and had then deleted.
Now it all makes sense. He probably started to write his blog, then realised it probably wasnt the smartest blogspot url to write it under, so he cancelled/deleted it and changed it to the current 'i am the modern prometheus' url. He probably figured noone would ever find it - obviously he underestimated the stalking abilities of this fandom!
I have to admit, I searched for his blog under 'shitsubou shita' and got 'page not found'. Im not technically minded enough to know you can still pull up stuff after its been deleted. Some of you guys are sooo clever.
The fact that his blogs seem so heartfelt without any need of being cryptic, its obvious they arent meant to be seen by us (or anyone for that matter). He even says that his blogs arent hurting anyone (meaning that they are private) unlike some peoples. I hope now that they have been made public they dont hurt anyone.
I felt a bit guilty reading them but couldnt help myself. He's pouring his heart out and now we know his innermost feelings and thoughts - Im freaked out tbh. As Im sure he will be when he realises his private thoughts arent private anymore!
There are 2 major clues to Shitsubous identity. Firstly, has anyone else noticed it says Pactum Serva at the top of the page? It means Keep The Faith in Latin.
Last night I was planning on searching what Pactum Serva means because I once studied a bit of Latin, but I was too tired to think straight. So Pactum Serva means "Keep the Faith?" Hmm, Frank's tattoo anyone?
Of course some of us have been discussing about these blogs because they are quite interesting. Actually, I have been on this site for about three weeks now and apparently, I and some others are becoming famous in the state of New Jersey. I kid you not, I am absolutely serious.
As much as I truly enjoy reading all of your lovely comments please try to keep them to a minimum. Long narratives lose my interest and are only skimmed through by these bleary eyes.
Is that you little Mayonaise? Sounds like it. You are the one who decided to create the blogs, if you do not like skimming through those narrative comments, no one told you to create a blog in the first place. Learn to accept your e-fame like some of us and learn that you receive numerous comments. I receive alot of those as well but I love reading what the lovely readers have to say. Maybe some of their honest truth is finally getting to you because you cannot hold on to the facade much longer, perhaps?
Anonymous 11:26 am. This is not Gerard. It is Mayo and he doesn't like to play kickball with us.
I do hate to say this but I believe SS may have lost his privacy as soon as he started posting those blogs, although it does not change the fact that the poor man is davastated and putting the blame on himself. The blog about lying to *his* mother is deeply disturbing in a sad way.
P.S. if Mayo does not want to play kickball, he is just a big meanie.
Oh yeah, I give my love and hugs to Smoke&Venom20, kapunua, ergoproxy, sister midnite, soulconnector, freddycharles, resurrectedwreck, marthajones, and the rest of you awesome and most intelligent readers :)
I believe some of us might become ghostbuster famous
how crazy is that?
Running off to have NutBusters patented now. :)
Anybody need anything while I'm waiting in line?
I'm good Sister Midnite. Thanks for asking. I'm going out to grab a bite to eat. I'm starving!
Running off to have NutBusters patented now. :)
That sounds like a great idea!
The thing I will only ask is if someone can please bring back some fairy dust of sanity and common sense? Mayo seems to be lacking both of those traits nowadays ;D
If your going to buying some fairy dust and sanity make sure to bring enough for the "fans" they are in great need of it.
^^Ha ha. Excellent point Martha.
Bleeding Chaos, I am so sad that you didn't mention me by name. You better bring double the cupcakes to kickball on Friday :)
Sister Midnite, How's it coming at the patent office? Did you get a shitload of papers to fill out? Are there any patent or copyright lawyers in the blog? Pick me up a pair of asskicking boots while you are out....mine are little worn out.
Smoke, If Mayo is neither here nor there, then where is he? Just wondering....
P.S. With extra sprinkles
Bleeding Chaos - Are you ready to bake those cupcakes for Friday? Don’t forget extra sprinkles for Dr. Nut!!! And be careful what you offer Mayo, he might mistake ‘fairy dust’ for something else.
Ergoproxy - Do what you do best. Come up with some kick ass new cheers!
Sister Midnite - I’m ready to stomp a mud hole in somebody’s ass, are you? Of course you are, that’s why you are co-captain.
Dr. Nut - Better bring some extra game treats this time around.
Mayo - You’re such a pretty little cheerleader. Don’t forget what I told you. You can only cheer if you behave this time. No more outbursts or temper tantrums from you, mister. That skirt better be pressed and those pom-poms fluffed!!!
I need something to make me feel better. I’m sick of stupid ass people, but oh well. Life goes on. OOOH, that made me think of Bret Michaels.
I'm behind the times, I know, but what is the kickball game you guys talk about?
If Mayo is neither here nor there, then where is he?
Uhhhhh, I don't know but I'm starting to think I might want to join him and Brit-Brit in never-never-land.
Oh my goodness, you said Bret Michaels. I think Mayo needs "Somethin to Believe In"!
Captain Smoke, would you care to explain our kickball game to the newbie?
Bleeding Chaos, I am so sad that you didn't mention me by name. You better bring double the cupcakes to kickball on Friday :)
Aw I am really sorry I left you out sdock10. I didn't mean to. Promise I will bring some delicious kick ass cupcakes on Friday just for you. I hope it will make you feel better :)
Bleeding Chaos - Are you ready to bake those cupcakes for Friday? Don’t forget extra sprinkles for Dr. Nut!!! And be careful what you offer Mayo, he might mistake ‘fairy dust’ for something else.
I would think so. Sdock10 suggests
that I bring some cupcakes because I left him out from my circle of love and hugs. Aw. I'll bring lots of sprinkles. I must stop by the store and pick up a box of Betty Crocker chocolate cake mix at once! :D Oh yeah, I did not realize about the "fairy dust" until now. Thank you for pointing that out to me Smoke&venom.
Ergoproxy, I hope you can come up with some great cheers by Friday. I'd love to hear 'em!
As for you my beloved jar of Mayo, you better have your pom poms ready by gametime or else!
No prob.
Anon51, it's the just the coolest game like ever. We are the Nutbusters. We are the most bad ass kickball team in the universe. Sister Midnite and myself are Captains. Ergoproxy and Mayo(when he behaves) are our awesome cheerleaders. Bleeding Chaos is in charge of cupcakes. Sdock10, well sdock10 is our game therapist/md, Dr. Nut. Dr. Nut always brings after game treats.:)
Personally, I've been down with kickball since the like the 3rd grade.
Anon51, you are more than welcome to join us.
Awwh Bleeding Chaos, I know I get accused of being a lot of things (dark, depressing, evil, the devil, suicidal, homicidal, crazy etc.) and people even thought I was Gerard at one point early on in this game, but I am all GIRL!
The only nuts I have are the ones I'm gonna bust on Friday nite at kickball.
Shameless self promotion: (taking a page out of Smoke&Venom20's book) I even have a blog now...not as GREAT as YOURS of course but check it out.
Nuthin but love, Smoke. Nuthin but LOVE!
There's nothing wrong with a little self promotion. I love me. Most of the time. Especially my hair. It's long and shiny....wait, what were we talking about?
Awwh Bleeding Chaos, I know I get accused of being a lot of things (dark, depressing, evil, the devil, suicidal, homicidal, crazy etc.) and people even thought I was Gerard at one point early on in this game, but I am all GIRL!
People accused you of being the devil? Where was I when this unfolded? ;) So you are a girl? I always figured you were a male. How odd. But I hope you forgive me for not mentioning you earlier on. There'll be extra cupcakes, love, and hugs for you this Friday :)
Coolness!! My hair is long & shiny, too!! No wonder everyone wants in on the kickball game. *muwahahaha!*
Sdock10, will you bust Mayo's nuts if he doesn't behave?
We could always add the 'fairy dust' the the after-game treats. Sorry, Mayo, only head cheerleaders are allowed to indulge. And no, you can't bring your own, either.
Hugs, kisses & Sharpies to those who want them! ^_~
(Especially for Smoke&Venom20, Sdock10, Kapunua, BleedingChaos, Ergoproxy, and Anon30, who have supported the NutBusters since the very beginning.)
Anonymous said...
As much as I truly enjoy reading all of your lovely comments please try to keep them to a minimum. Long narratives lose my interest and are only skimmed through by these bleary eyes.
September 26, 2007 8:32 AM
Man, shut the hell up. I don't care who you are, this blog isn't about you. Often it isn't about Mr. Mayo. In fact a lot of the time it isn't even about Gerard Way. It's pretty much about a group of fans who see some crap going down that concerns us, and we all managed to find each other here and we kind of enjoy talking to each other. Time for a fangirl cry: DON'T LIKE, DON'T READ. Seriously, how the hell hard is it to skim down if you don't want to read it. That little button on your keyboard, with the arrow facing down? Use that crap, it's your friend.
For the record? I don't think that this blog is Gerard Way, (and even if I did I would still say everything I've always said,) and I don't think the SS one is Frank Iero. I do kind of have reason to think he lurks, though. I sort of hope someone does because, well, I guess a few of us do have a sense that something is not right here, and we like the band and we want to see good things happen, in the simplest terms. Maybe concern is enough. Maybe not, but it's something.
Also, if you are lurking here Frank, I met you recently and you were super nice, nicer and more obliging than you had to be. I'm the chick you signed that paper for, giving us permission about doing a movie to "Three Cheers..." and using all the music. I don't expect you to remember every fan with their nutty ideas, but you were awesome to my young cousin and I, so thank you for that. Neither of us will ever forget how special you are. You are truly a gracious man.
Oh sweet, I have long and shiny hair, too! And wavy and a little crazed. It's a feature that I actually like about myself. (Got a nice bod, too, but does the term "butterface" mean anything to ya? ^_~ )
Sdock10, will you bust Mayo's nuts if he doesn't behave?
I'd love to see sdock10 bust Mayo's nuts. As for me, I prefer to twist them until he is lying on the floor in agony and misery, crying like a little bitch. *Insert evil thought here*
Oops. Did I just say that?
We could always add the 'fairy dust' the the after-game treats. Sorry, Mayo, only head cheerleaders are allowed to indulge. And no, you can't bring your own, either.
You tell 'em Sister Midnite!
I actually wish I could go back in time to when I saw PR and Sharpie "STFU" on my neck or something.
See, Bleeding Chaos, I knew you had that in ya!
Awww, not only are we the most bad ass kickball team, we are also the hottest kickball team with all of our lucious locks.
Bleeding Chaos, don't let sdock10 lie to you. Lucifer is good at that you know. I call her Luci for short.
I thought this was the blog of the great and powerful and closer than you may think, Mayonaise. I apologize for the mistake, Kapunta, my dear.
That was about as far as I got in your tirade, I'm sorry to say.
^^ Ha ha thanks! I bet my twisting the balls comment are making some of you proud ;) So smoke&venom, are you telling me that sdock10 is the devil in disguise? Ha!
Man, shut the hell up. I don't care who you are, this blog isn't about you. Often it isn't about Mr. Mayo. In fact a lot of the time it isn't even about Gerard Way
Just for expressing that Kapunua, I think I may be falling in love ha ha :)
The morning of my PR show I was planning on writing "Get bent" or "you're doomed" written in black sharpie across my neck. The message was intended for Gerard to see because I had a pit ticket and I wanted to let him know how I felt. Nevertheless, I ended up writing the message across my arm, although I was dressed in all black at the time but a friend did manage to give him the finger, so to speak.
*pompoms ready and.....*
1 2 3 4
We got the spirit
Yes we do
we got the spirit
how about YOU !!!!
Yay NUTBUSTERS !!!!
*leap,jump,shake,shake*
thanks for all the love, hugs and kisses right back at you all
(Kapunua how's the hand ?)
I was really skeptical at first but this last blog is really spooky. This could only be the person everyone suspects it is or someone very close indeed.
In that case, Mayo,Loveman,Shitsubou and anyone else here who is in the know,I have a bit of advice. A wise man once said "Discretion is the better part of valour".
Thank you for that glorious cheer ergoproxy. Maybe that will help the kickball team cheer on into flawless victory. Go Nutbusters!
A wise man once said "Discretion is the better part of valour".
I am not sure if I am trying to be funny or not, but I believe Giles from "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" hadmade a remark similiar to that.
(That also happens to be one of my other favorite tv shows)
A wise man once said "Discretion is the better part of valour".
Maybe discretion isn't having the desired effect, whatever that may be. And it's not as much fun as outright craziness. :)
I am not sure if I am trying to be funny or not, but I believe Giles from "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" hadmade a remark similiar to that.
LMAO!! Buffy references FTW!!!
((Kapunua, enough with the potshots at your looks! You're here, you're fabulous. We all are. ^_^
Except Mayo. Mayo may be fabulous, but he has issues. Which is why he's not allowed and game-day treats.))
Devil in disguise? Oh, I don't think she is disguising it at all. It was very obvious to me who she is. Muwahahah! Better stay on her good side.
Mayo, have you been practicing your cheers??? Hmmmm? Princess Smoke&Venom20 will be watching you like a hawk. If you don't jump high enough or if you don't shake your ass in rhythm...oooh, it will be on and poppin'. And I don't mean your lip gloss.
BTW - What the hell is up with Love Man? Is he asleep? Did Mafia Mayo make him 'disappear'?
Shitsubou Shita is MIA.
Pretty sure that those blogs weren't intended for anyone to see, as this has already been discussed, but they are now gone.
So now we can confirm that sdock10 is the Devil herself? ;)
Mayo has alot of issues plaguing his fragile, innocent, kid-like mind but yet I suspect maybe he did have Love Man disappear, perhaps "sleeping with the fishes" by the Jersey shore?
So now Mayo has caused SS to disappear as well? Where is your dignity and self respect? Oh, that is right, you have none.
Guys I will be more than happy to bust or twist or squash Mayo's nuts, but here's the tricky part. I have to find them first. I've been looking and I haven't been able to find them anywhere. I think I should check with his wife. I am pretty damn sure I saw her holding them last.
If you guys see them before I see them, could you hold onto 'em for me? Thanks!
I am not the devil, however I am an employee of his from time to time. That is all I will say about that.
This makes no sense. None of it. Okay, not really. It does in a way all fit together, but at the same time, this is all just completely rediculous. I hate having absolutely no control over the demise of this man or band. That is to say, only if these virtual blogs are really what we think they are. I'd like to think they're all just playing us for every dime we're worth, but I've seen exactly what you all have. It's hard to believe none of this is happening.
What happen to SS? That kind of freaks me out. I'm sad too.
Mayo, I really wish you would try to clear up the rumors if they are not true. Tell us that you are madly in love; and if you are not okay that you are in therapy and working through things.
Are you okay? We are worried.
My estimate guess is that SS did not intend to have those blogs be read by us mere readers, as some of you have stated before. This is all too confusing, but yet, I think some of the pieces to the puzzle are starting to take form.
All is not well in the world of My Chemical Romance.
sdock10, I will be happy to find Mayo's nuts for you, and then maybe we could find a kitchen knife and cut them off :) I believe his "wife" may not who where they are, considering she doesn't seem to show much concern for him.
As far as we know it could be hiding in a toilet, the closet, under the bed, inside his pants, wherever :p
Could just be my lack of trust speaking, but...
What if SS's blog was created as a trap to see how many of us visited?
Just a thought...
Sister midnite, as far as we know, anything is possible, but I highly doubt it.
Either this is the real thing or this is one well planned out joke. Disappearing blogs and people. I wish SS hadn't deleted his/her blog. It was beautiful and very heart felt.
I am not the devil, however I am an employee of his from time to time. That is all I will say about that.
I was once an employee of Wal-Mart, long ago. Wal-Mart, the devil... kinda the same thing, really.
I really questioned those SS blogs myself. I'm second-guessing every bit of this. I'm not second-guessing the wierd antics that I've actually seen via video, but all of this blog nonsense? It's becoming very overrated.
Woah! Im guessing SS logged in and freaked the hell out!
Sdock10, stop it. Stop being so modest. Take credit for what you do, okay? It will do you some good and make you feel better. I don't like for people to take credit for something I did. As a matter of fact, it makes me mad as hell...whoops, you already know all about that. Anyhooo....
Anony - As far as control issues, well, I have control over my hair and my kickball team. The rest of my life runs amuck. It's one big old hot mess. But, even so, I am still FABULOUS*. All Nutbusters are FABULOUS. La Tee Da!
See, I knew you chopped people up in little bitty pieces, Bleeding Chaos. I knew it:)
Sister Midnite, now you are making me paranoid. Whaa, who is that....oh, sorry. That was me in the mirror. I get what you are saying though. We are all trapped now, huh?
*that still does not include you, Mayo. Not yet. You haven't passed the Nutbusters test yet. All in time.
Verrry interesting...
In the meantime, who wants to play "Find Little Mayo"? After all, you can't kick what's no longer there!
(This is how I disappear.
As if I would. :Þ )
Little Mayo? Little Mayo......where the fuck are you, you little shit. Stop playing in that deep dark, eeeewwww.
Nevermind, you can stay.
Im normally as cynical as they come, but there was something about shitsubous blogs that moved me and I sensed genuine despair and pain from his blogs. It didnt seem like they were written to be part of this circus. To the anon above, you are probably right. I would have freaked out too if I was him. Imho, this may have been the real deal.
Hmm I didn't get to see the blogs, but I'd like to=]
Copy&Paste anyone?
<3
"The Modern Prometheus" is the subtitle of the novel "Frankenstein". Who do we know with a Frankenstein tatoo??? Someone named Frank perhaps? Hmm...
^SS's blogs did seem so real and so heartfelt. I completely agree. That's why I'm having such a hard time deciding if what's going on is REALLY what's going on. As you all know, if anyone wanted to play cat and mouse with us, they could. It, I'm sure, would be possible to take on a character and play it for all it's worth. I'm still unsure of all of this, so don't listen to me.
^ I agree, but if it was someone kidding around, I feel sure they would milk it for all its worth and lap up all the attention. I reckon he must have just logged in today and saw we had found his blog and just deleted it. He said in one of his entries 'my blogs arent harming anyone'so I think he meant for them to stay private. I have no idea how anyone found his blogs in the first place.
^^ I think your concern is absolutely warranted. I've had the same thought.
Another thing to think about(that is, if you haven't already)is if this Shitsubou Shita WAS actually who we believe him to be, why would he make it so obvious on a private blog (due to the sudden disappearance, I'm assuming he didn't want them seen)all of these Frank related things: Keep the Faith in Latin, as the poster above said, the chapter in the novel Frankenstein, and assuming the role of a distressed friend. SS made it obvious in his blogs that they were in fact close, that they were in a band (never stated which band), and considering everything going on in the fandom, it's impossible not to associate those things with Gerard. It all added up. But it could have been highly calculated.
In essence, why would Frank blatantly call attention to himself with a private blog?
If he didn't want it seen why put it on blogspot at this time. When we are all here dissecting every word written by Mayo. I think maybe we were used to get this blog to Mayo.
Perhaps he thought a private blog might actually stay private.
Isn't everyone a character of some sort? Let me help you catch up -
Princess Smoke - Captain of Nutbusters Kickball team, tends to be sarcastic, but always pretty
Sister Midnite - Princess Smoke's partner in crime and Co-Captain of the Glorious Nutbusters Kickball team. Her nights double as Sister Caterpillar - Blog Bouncer/Bodyguard
Sdock10 aka Luci - Dr. Nut, Satan -heh-heh, just kidding.
Bleeding Chaos - Official Baker for Kickball games/motivational speaker
Ergoproxy - KICK ASS Captain of the Nutbuster Cheerleading Squad
Kapunua - Cheerleader/kickball player/designated hitter, she's always there when we need her
Mayo - "Arrogant Asshole Blogger", Nutbuster cheerleader in training (he takes to many bathroom breaks and he tried to take Princess Smoke's mirror, as if.)
Now, who do you want to be?
^ I'll just reiterate the fact that anything put on the internet will never be private, and if it is at first, it won't remain that way.
I just don't see how, if SS were really the person we think him to be, why would he draw attention to himself in that way? Why wouldn't he pick an obscure URL and obscure Latin phrases that no fan could associate with him or the band? Any of you see what I'm saying? Maybe you can put it in better words. It's making sense in my head.
^ But thats the thing. He DIDNT call attention to himself. When he commented he commented his name was in black text, not the blue log in text which would have led ppl straight to his blog or at least let thenm know he had a blog account. Then from what I can gather, it appears he started to blog using the URL shitsubou shita, then deleted it cos he probably realised that wasnt a smart move. He changed it to I am the modern prometheus url which he thought would be secure. The bottom line is, he actually appears to have taken preventative measures to keep his blogs private. The only reason his first blog on the SS url came to light was cos someone looked in the cache history and retrieved a file he had deleted. I didnt even know you could do that, so Im guessing SS probably didnt realise either. I noticed from the comments that I think it was smoke and mirrors20 who said they found his blog, maybe she can tell us how, cos I honestly dont believe he 'put his blog address out there' for all to see. I kind of feel sorry for him, he must be shitting himself right now!
If he didn't want it seen why put it on blogspot at this time. When we are all here dissecting every word written by Mayo. I think maybe we were used to get this blog to Mayo.
^That's a very good thought. I hadn't thought of that. That could be the case if this is all true.
I would have NEVER guessed that URL. I had to look it up - it was the original title of Mary Shelleys novel Frankenstein. *feels smart*
paper heartxx I saved the blogs. Do you still want to see them?
I wouldn't have guessed it either. BUT, it leads back to the novel Frankenstein, which then (given the situation)leads directly back to Frank. Why would Frank, on a personal blog of his own which he had intended for no one to see, feel the need to validate himself with using a Frankenstein related title? Again, given the situation, everyone will immediately THINK of Frank, no one else. That's why I think this could all be a highly calculated mind boggler.
What the hell
The only explanation I could come up for all this...
Harvest Moon
`sc
Hmm..I dont think he did it for validation, I just think he has a Frankenstein obsession ;)
He had to think of a URL so that popped into his head, maybe Jamia calls him her modern prometheus...haha I just made myself lol with that image...sorry
BLARG!
And the plot thickens...
I'm not sure if you all noticed but even though SS's blogs are deleted, it's still up and he changed the small print under the blog name. It now reads "let injury by words be absent" in Latin.
Thanks magic pie. Oh, I feel so bad for him! I dont know why but that just makes me feel so so sad.
Now, who do you want to be?
Can I be Sister R Wreck? I'm not much of a kickball player (I keep falling over), but I bake a mean cupcake.
Yup, let injury by words be absent, I am at fault/I am to blame depending on the translation.
Its a v interesting choice of words. He must be kicking himself that such private things were made public and is now probably worried that his words may damage fans or have a negative impact on the band which is something he would never ever want to be responsible for.
Let injury by words be absent (so he deleted the harmful words)
I am at fault/I am to blame (he has made a mistake and shouldnt have written the blogs)
Its kinda nice that he left us with an explanation though dont you think?
I agree. At least he left it up for us to kind of have an idea as to why he left.
I just hope that he read all of our comments before deleting everything.
Now, who do you want to be?
I want to be the eager bench warmer. I don't play in every game, but I chat from the sidelines and come out swinging (or kicking) when the time is right.
(((It now reads "let injury by words be absent" in Latin.)))
well ss, I hope you keep in touch and thx for the light.
thx magic pie for the translation
`sc
Resurrected Wreck & Andrea, you are more than welcome to join in.
The more the merrier!:D
Shitsubou Shita - What's going on? I hope all is well with you, although something tells me it may not be. Just know that we are all here.
smoke and venom20, hi, how are you? Can you please clear up how you found SS's blog as I get the feeling some ppl feel SS deliberately leaked his URL and from the content of his blogs and his reaction at being found I dont think thats the case. Like I said in an earlier comment from what I can see, he actually appears to have taken preventative measures to keep his blog private.
I just want to find out the truth (dont we all)
So ss felt the need to voice his frustration. Its not like the people reading his blog don't already think something is wrong. He shouldn't blame himself for anything. Love man was the first than Mayo and some other who seem to have inside knowledge. Maybe his was way more personal but there is no harm in venting when people already believe there is something wrong.
It was fairly easy, but I never posted a link to it to anyone. I just searched his name under Google Blog search and it was just a few clicks away. I feel sad now.
Maybe its not just us he is worried about having seen the blogs. Although I do think that is largely the reason cos he did talk about how his blogs werent hurting anyone, and something about 'I know you wont ever read this and I wouldnt want you to' so he probably thought now his blogs were public knowledge that they might now be hurting people and the person he didnt want to read them might now know how he feels and it could open a real can of worms. I think SS would have preferred to outwardly be showing complete solidarity and no signs of worry or concern as he wouldnt want to worry the fans. Hope that made sense.
I understand that it's selfish, but I want nothing more than for all of this to end. I want everything back the way it was when the music was all that mattered and the message was all we had to discuss. I want the whole band and those surrounding them to be happy and healthy. That's all I care about and that's all that I want to happen. If the ending of this band, as much as it will hurt, is what must happen for all of these rumors, false accusations, and the seperation of fans to end, that's what I want, too. It's such a shame when you believe in the good of something, in the good of a human being, and have to watch it all slowly crumble apart. I'm not sure what's going on in the real world with these guys, but I pray to God that they soon see that the one issue the fans stand united on is their well-being. We all hope the best for them and their families.
Smoke and venom20 pls dont feel sad. I was just trying to get to the bottom of it as ppl were saying he wanted his blogs found and I truly dont think he did. You did nothing wrong, Im glad I got the opportunity to catch a glimpse into the heart and mind of SS. In these days were so many people are fake, he seems as genuine as I ever imagined him to be. I have the utmost respect for SS.
I was thinking that someone saw it and called him up about it. But the thing is it causes more harm to delete them than to just leave them up. We talked about it while they were up but now that they are gone look at us.
anon at 8:04, it's not selfish to wish things were the way they used to be. I think we all feel that way.
Well, gosh guys. Now I feel bad for having questioned the legitimacy of the SS blogs. I was just getting my thoughts out there and trying to sort the situation out "with a little help from my friends." I never stated that Shitsubou Shita "leaked" his URL address. It just came across as odd to me that, if it were in fact Frank, why he would use so many things associated with himself ("Keep The Faith" and Frankenstein references) when, if it were him, he would automatically "Red X" himself. And I also think, that if that was actually Frank's blog, he would know that there are crazy fans out there (probably the ones lurking Mayo's blog right now) who have the capabilities of hacking a blog site (i.e. nothing is private on the internet). So, it doesn't make sense to post a blog with so many references that point directly to yourself when the possiblity lingers that someone may find you out. That's all I was trying to get across.
By the way, just wanted to say that all of you are really awesome people. You all have so much strength and courage, it amazes me.
SS struck me as a very intelligent individual. I'm sure they realised the blogs would be found, changing user name would've lead to complete anonymity, but remaining as SS meant discovery was inevitable
I hope he read the comments before deleting, as they were all very supportive.
Just a though, perhaps being found by "us" wasn't the problem, but being found by someone else.
The new heading is interesting
Wow, I missed a posting orgy while I was out training. Go, me!
Okay, I will be cheerleader, but ONLY if I can be one of those hardcore, punk cheerleaders like in the video for Smells Like Teen Spirit. You know that one that MCR ripped off? ;D No, no, not Heart Shaped Box, that's the other one that MCR ripped off. Heehee.
Bleeding Chaos, you made a Buffy reference which means ILY. BUFFY REFERENCES FTW. That was simply one of the best shows ever. "It eats you starting with your bottom!" Damn, that would be a good name for another mystery blog. Let's say Ray's, how about that? It Eats You Starting With Your Bottom.
My hand is better, thanks so much for asking, although I did manage to crush the same hand--the same place--between two rocks tonight, only please don't bother to ask how. Then I wrenched my back doing a contortionist trick I've been able to do for years, so no cheerleading for me, at least tonight.
So yes, anyway, back to your regularly scheduled Dark Days For MyChem. >_>
Holy Shit! What has happened in the last few hours??!!
SS is gone now??!! What the fuck????
My head hurts...
I now wish I had not left a comment on SS's blog ...wish he would come back...wish Gee would come back...wish wish wish...futile.
They left as quickly as they came. Odd, no?
Where did everybody go?
I remember one of the last comments on SS blogs for the most recent post was made by an anon and said "your fired". When I went to reread the blog an hour later it was deleted. The plot thickens.
I'm still here, but I can't say the same for our fellow Loveman and his followers.
Maybe we're over-analyzing the whole Shitsubou Shita thing... I agree that it was created and posted by someone in *a* band. My spidey senses tell me that we're on the right track, but maybe not for the reasons we think.
Look at what's happened to Verita's blog. Death threats, for crissake. SS could have pulled it because he didn't want a certain someone to see it, or maybe he didn't want the BN & INO'ers to catch wind of it. Or maybe he didn't want management or the label to find it. Has anyone else noticed that all the posters claiming or appearing to be insiders keep disappearing, or at least hiding out for x number of days?
Gotta love the internet, babes. Even those of us who have identities here (non-anon's, if you will) could be anybody. None of us know who's reading what, although I'm fairly certain that the band is aware of this whole shebang. Whether or not they're participants, we can only speculate.
I could be wrong, but I'm also fairly certain that as the 'brainchild' of My Chem, Gerard *would* Google his own band just to see what the fans are saying. ^_^ He can pretend he doesn't give a shit, but don't we all?
GWay may be 'the shit' (meant in a 'he's hella-famous' sense), but somehow I can't see him taking the time to fight with Google over blogs and posters' accounts. Fighting with Google would be like trying to resurrect game-day footballs -- you could try your ass off for years and still get no results. :)
Sister midnight, he may not fight with google over the blogs, but he sure could make it difficult for the people who posts these blogs if they are employed by him.
Sister Midnite, I agree. These people - Mayonaise, Shitsubou Shita, Love Man, and everyone else - could be anybody. They may or may not be affiliated with the band. We'll probably never know for sure.
I was once an employee of Wal-Mart, long ago. Wal-Mart, the devil... kinda the same thing, really.
The frightening thing is, I have to subject myself to apply to such an absurd retail company. My cousin believes Wal-Mart is evil :)
See, I knew you chopped people up in little bitty pieces, Bleeding Chaos. I knew it :)
It is what happens when someone attempts to shove me over the edge ;D And it's great to know that I am the official motivational speaker. Wait, why am I? :)
Bleeding Chaos, you made a Buffy reference which means ILY. BUFFY REFERENCES FTW. That was simply one of the best shows ever.
Yep, I did and at the time I realized I heard that quote from one of the earlier episodes from season one or two I believe. I do miss that show so much. I cannot believe it's been 10 years since it premiered. I remember the day when it first premiered on the WB.
There is always the Season 8 comics and I have to say, Joss Whedon is doing an excellent job on them. I have all of the issues so far.
I'm still here, but I can't say the same for our fellow Loveman and his followers.
So will you care to tell us your true identity? I will assume that the "you're fired" comment was directed at Love Man am I right?
I love Joss Whedon like WHOA (super awesome feminist) but I haven't gotten the comics. Don't know why, 'cause I was the hugest Buffy fan. Season two rocked. Buffy was a part of the reason I took up martial arts.
Wasn't wild about Firefly, though! I only watch one show these days and it's House. ^__^
No, but I love how you validated my points about not knowing who's who on the internet :). I'm just a fan. No creepy blogger. I was trying to be somewhat funny when she asked where everyone went, so I told her-it wasn't a stab at Loveman though :)
^^I meant to quote you but I forgot. This was in regards to bleedingchaos' last one:
I'm still here, but I can't say the same for our fellow Loveman and his followers.
So will you care to tell us your true identity? I will assume that the "you're fired" comment was directed at Love Man am I right?
Sorry about that. Just wanted you to know who I was directing that to. We really need to start naming these Anons around here. It gets confusing.
^^Either way, thank you for addressing my question.
Joss Whedon is some sort of comic and television god I must say. And for some of my fellow Buffy fans who do follow the comics, it appears they may be a Season 9. I cannot wait for that. When Buffy first premiered, I fell in love with Angel (Well, who hasn't?)
Buffy and Angel are still one of my favorite couples to be exact.
You're welcome bleedingchaos. It gets tough trying to understand what people are saying when they type. Much easier in person.
I was a huge Buffy fan in early 2000s. I watched it from beginning to ending on FX when they would show reruns. I got so caught up in the story and I finally got my mom of all people hooked on it. My favorite episode still stands as "Prom". When Buffy and Giles were standing there in the midst of all the couples dancing discussing the creatures (can't remember what they were referred to)she just faught off outside and Giles looked over her shoulder and Angel was standing there in the doorway... it makes my heart burst everytime.
Bleedingchaos:
I just read your blog, but I can't post over there because I don't have an account.
There is also a comment posted on Mayonaise's blog that hints that we may have seen the last of Love Man but it also hints that either Shita or Mayonaise's presence is still here.
I want you to know that I didn't mean that comment the way you took it. I have no idea who Shitsubou Shita is or was,nor do I have any clue as to who Love Man or Mayo are. I'm the one whose been posting all of the questions about the questionable validity of the SS blog being Frank. I'm still not convinced. So, just know that I was saying that in response to Anon51's question of "Where did everybody go?" I was still here, but it seems that Love Man, Mayo, and Shitsubou Shita had disappeared off the face of the planet. Maybe that cleared things up a little...maybe?
So anonymous, that was you who mde that comment? Thanks for letting us know. i'll go edit my blog now, but thank you
As for Buffy, there are too many favorite episodes to name but Prom was definitely one of the top ones. I do love Becoming Part I and II but the last part of the second episode made me cry when I first saw it :(
bleedingchaos:
For my further usage on this Mayo blog, since I can't post on any of the others without an account, how do I change the "anonymous" to something different? Kind of like anon30, anon51,and Shitsubou Shita did (this isn't inferring anything, just providing an example)? Is it possible or am I stuck with just "anonymous". I seriously hate the confusion this brings. It wasn't my intent to accidentally put across the wrong message with what I said.
And I agree with you on the Buffy episodes. It's hard to choose favorites.
I think the way you can change your name is to register for an account here. When you do you can edit your name anytime you like. I've only been here for a few weeks actually, but I know for sure that you can change your name by registering.
So nothing new this morning...I'm hoping that SOMEONE posts a blog today. Not that any blog will help us understand the situation any more than we already do but it's always nice to get more insights.
When you post a comment, you choose an identity as "Other" and type in whatever you want it to be. That is, if that option has been enabled on the blog.
The "you're fired" anon comment on SS's blog was so misplaced and odd. I wonder if there was some other comment later on that really set him off.
I was also wondering, if all this is true b/w SS and Mayo, then isn't it going to be awkward when they go on tour. I just have a weird feeling about all this. I wish I could explain myself better.
Maybe the "You're Fired" is what scared SS away? But I thought this was an equal partnership band, is it not?
I wish Love Man would post a new blog!
Hey Anon51,
I wish something, anything would happen. Maybe Loveman is busy chatting on AIM with is friends.
Well I guess there is always Friday kickball to look forward to.
Better head to the pharmacy for supplies....
Mayonaise,
If you dare to lead as freely as before. Smash the Hell out of the useless chatter
Let them see you live and bleed the TRUTH.
· in all doubt and in all faith
· in all failure and in all success
. in all right and in all wrong
· in all tears and in all laughter
Many want to believe
`sc
Oh wow. I woke up today and Shitsubou Shita is gone! I feel really bad - I did comment one of his posts. I hope nothing bad happened.
Like someone said above but I don't remember who, I just wish it would go back to being about the music. However, this seems to be a one way road, so I don't see that happening anymore.
SC,
I still believe.
sdock10,
im glad and i join you in your belief.
`sc
I really dont think the 'You're fired' comment scared SS away. That was just someone taking the piss. After all, if it was written by anyone with the power or ability to fire the person we suspect SS to be, they would have had to give some other words or say something that only SS would know was from him. An anon 'youre fired' wouldnt be taken seriously by SS. Its not as if SS lapped up all the attention and kept blogging away. He probably logged on, realised that we had found him and deleted. Simple as that. Although I do believe he would have read the comments cos he got shitty about it in one of his blogs where he said 'Do you even bother to read the comments people leave? Some of the comments break my heart' or something like that. So yeah...
Well I still hope SS will come and visit us. He doesn't have to leave a comment. He can lurk all he wants as long as he knows that even though we joke around in here we care a lot about what happens.
SC, I still believe. My ass is still here afterall :)
So how about that kickball game?
We'll have to wait for our Captain Smoke&Venom20 to confirm but it's supposed to on like Donkey Kong tomorrow afternoon. We can kick around all the balls we want.
Bleeding Chaos, anything new today?
Good morning, this is your Co-captain speaking... To the best of my knowledge, the game tomorrow is definitely ON. Unless Captain Princess Smoke&Venom 20 is away stocking sodas...
Still believin', and still here.
Sister Caterpillar-Midnite is in for the long haul, whatever that may bring.
Sometimes I find it really hard to believe that this all only started in August; unless they shortened the length of forever and neglected to tell me, it feels like a lot longer. It's damn hard finding memos in all this patent paperwork, let me tell you!
How's everybody doing today?
Anybody need a hug? Boots??
A swift kick in the ass???
Hey Sister Midnite,
I'm glad you're in til the end with us. It does seem like the longest 2 months ever, doesn't it? I miss the days when Loveman used to give us 2 or 3 blogs a day. Now he's left us hung out with nothing except kickball.
I hear patent paperwork is a bitch to fill out...good luck with that. I'll send you some footballs to get you through. I think we need a good logo. Someone should get on that immediately!! We need new kickball uni's.
I need some motivation today. Anyone got any spare?
Let's see, anything new? Well, not exactly. It has been pretty slow today I'm afraid. I think many of us know that we need an ass kicking, but not for us, for someone who is known as little Mayo ;)
I'll put on my best ass kicking boots and give one to Loveman as well. Damn throw us a bone!
I said BONE Mayo, not boner. Don't get excited.
I agree! We need to hear from Love Man! Soon!
Whoa, I didn’t realize how exhilarating ‘stocking sodas’ can be. That was fun as hell. Now I know what all the fuss was about.
Sorry, Sdock10, I have nothing new today either :) I think Love Man is pissed off because he wasn’t invited to the kickball game. Awww, tear.
It’s okay Love Bunny, you can come and help hand out cupcakes with Bleeding Chaos and keep and eye on Mayo.
Speaking of, where the hell are you at mister? It’s about time for you to drop another brain teaser. Don’t you wait until the kickball game starts and steal the Nutbuster thunder!!!
Well, I think someone needs more help ‘stocking sodas’.
I shall return……….
My Chemical Romance has two singles on the way
My Chemical Romance are not finished with The Black Parade yet. Singer/creator Gerard Way has revealed that the group plans to release two more singles from their groundbreaking album. A video will be shot for each song, both directed by Gerard. Although this news is less exciting than if there had been an announcement that a new MCR album is recorded and ready to go, fans should be happy to learn that Mikey Way will rejoin the band for fall touring.
HAHA! fuck all of you who thought differently.. basically you can all take your rumors & shove them. thanks. ;)
Stephanie,
This doesn't mean that Gerard is not having problems or that the band isn't in trouble. True, no one has proof of anything but we shouldn't be blindsided by this either.
Stephenie, just because Gerard is directing two videos that does not mean that he does not have problems. He does not expose them to the world, although it is a two edged sword considering he exploited his "relationship" throughout Projekt Revolution.
I'll be honest: I am not going to watch the new videos when they are released. I am not sure why but everytime they release a single I always forget to watch the video or hear the song on the radio and it's becoming a habit of not wanting to see it anymore. Frankly, I do not want to see how terrible Gerard will look in the video. He already looks like shit now.
I said BONE Mayo, not boner. Don't get excited.
@_@ Damn Projekt Rev flashbacks are gonna kill me. Thanks for the offer of footballs, Sdock10 - I'll take you up on that. I just need a few to tide me over until tomorrow game...
Damn, are Love Man & Mayo running scared? Or is something going on we don't know about?
To Stephanie: Thanks ever so much for your oh-so-brilliant comments. I'm sure we appreciate your love.
You might want to Watch out for stray kickballs, they can be a real bitch when they 'touch' you in the head.
No inspiration here today, either; too tired. Nothing as exciting as Smoke&Venom20's soda-stocking, I'm afraid: just good old-fashioned general malaise. Maybe a nap will get the marbles rolling again.
I think I may have something you readers might want to figure out. Have you seen Verita Venom's current blog? If so, go check out the comment section and read the very last anonymous post. It seems we may have a lurker here...
my middle finger appears to be stiff. xo.
Maybe if you stopped playing with yourself that wouldn't happen.
And you're telling us that because?.... Please keep your immaturity to yourself. People are free to discuss whatever they like unless you forgot Freedom of Speech
Post a Comment