Shovel it out, cheaply priced and easily discarded. Pulling open box after box, nothing. Procrastination has dealt an awful hand, because now others have handed it off and it is gone. And you can’t remember when or where you saw it last.
It takes a knowing heart to properly decipher absolute meaning from the rubbish. The base, unfortunately, remain drawn into the vastness of the pit. I rather prefer the poignant to the insipid. I am beholden to the benevolent.
p.s. beautiful place amongst the cement and shoulders.
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That's great; now you can pick your nose with it! If that doesn't appeal, I'm sure you know where else you can shove it.
If you don't like the comments & opinions, DON'T READ THEM.
Thank you sister midnite
Good job, Sister Caterpillar.
now where is the sweet little jar of Mayonaise? We need to go kick his ass
Alright girls, I'm out of here. Don't let anything good happen.
I'll be here for kickball tomorrow.
Special game treats for all!
have a good day sdock10!
Hey all !
I have 2 brand new cheers....now i just need to find Mayo to teach him before the game !
Heaard about the vids and Mikey yesterday,Mikey was always coming back, I never doubted that and but as has been said just becuase there's 2 more vids doesn't mean there's no problems.
Many bands continue regardless of personal angst.
It's called contractual obligation.
At least it'll give him something constructive to do!
oo so ergoproxy, are you going to tell us your cheers? Or do we have to wait until tomorrow? :)
I believe love man is on aim right about now..
My day sucked ass. Actually I enjoy being busy, but holy-fuck it was nuts. And nut busting.
So I guess I missed a lot of conversations today.
Umm, is anyone talking to Loveman on AIM?
P.S. I do not think I'm going to make it to kickball tomorrow. :(
I just talked to love man minuted ago. it appears we may see another blog posted tonight
anon30, would it make you feel better if we baked you alot more delicious cupcakes for you to attend tomorrow's game? I will add more sprinkles:)
Bleeding Chaos, I think that is the just the sweetest comment. Who wouldn't want more sprinkles?!
I'm actually going out for an inlaw's birthday. Actually it will be fun. I love my family. They crack me up. Therefore, I will not be at the computer, but maybe I can slip away and use my phone to check in everyonce in a while.
Good luck everyone! (so is it just a scrimmage against each other? I forgot to ask.)
Aww thank you anon30. It was something to help your day a bit better. But yes, let's hope we'll win tomorrow. I feel pity for Mayo because no one is paying any attention to him. *shrugs* oh well. I hope you have your pom poms ready Mister.
I have a feeling that Shitsubou Shita (or SS as you so affectionately referred to him) had his reasons for deleting his blogs. I'm certain he would have read all the comments posted and been genuinely moved by the concern, support and love conveyed in your words - they would not have fallen on deaf ears.
While he may appear to have disappeared without a trace, take comfort from the knowledge that he is probably never too far away.
He understands your frustration and confusion, especially as you only have limited insight into the current situation, but rest assured he will have appreciated some of the very grounded and objective advice offered.
He may have deleted his blogs, but please dont interpret that as an act of cowardice, petulance or capitulation. Im sure things are very complicated for him. Please believe he is doing everything he can. Im sure your continued support means a lot to him. He will not let you down. In his own words, Pactum Serva. Its all about the love.
"dont"
Where are your dashes, "anonymous?"
ILY bb, you know that right?
How careless of me veritavenom - it won't happen again!!!
SS, you are either who I think you are (and I'm not saying who that is, by the way,) or you are as clever as I am. And that's saying a lot. ^_~
"There's always someone cleverer than yourself," to quote one of my favorite movies.
Ten points to whoever knows which one.
Cheers will be kept until tomorrow
but I'll give the pompoms a shake for you all.
Still looking for Mayo.
This is getting interesting again.
Good catch, Verita. I knew I wasn't the only one thinking that.
Actually, Shitsubou Shita, you are very observant.
I also caught the missing apostrophe, the dashes, and the extra exclamation points. I know where I've seen them before, too. The only thing I'm not clear on is whether you have a definitive writing style or you are merely, well, observant.
Okay, scratch the movie line trivia: Can anyone here tell me where else we have seen those aspects in writing? Anyone? Beuller? Beuller? Beuller?
I know some of you are thinking of it. I just want to see if anyone will say it.
I like you, though, because of two reasons: One, no matter who you are I suspect your motives are good, and two, if you are not definitive, you are at least clever.
But so am I, sweetheart. ^_^
222 comments. wow.
Like someone said above but I don't remember who, I just wish it would go back to being about the music. However, this seems to be a one way road, so I don't see that happening anymore.
Yeah, that was me who said that. It just so disappointing when you have nothing that makes you happier than listening to the band, be it interviews or song, or just music in general, and things like this occur. When all of the meaning and the lyrics and the truth that surrounded this band becomes lies, slander, and blogs, it completely effects everything (at least for me). I'm just glad that we have a spot where we can all voice our concerns and not be ridiculed.
And to anon51: Thanks for letting me know how to do the name change. I'm trying that.
When all of the meaning and the lyrics and the truth that surrounded this band becomes lies, slander, and blogs, it completely effects everything (at least for me).
Sadly, I feel the same way and if the stupid, childish antics continue, I am afraid the band may lose myself as a fan, although I do not put the blame on Bob, Mikey, Ray, Matt, or Frank. Honestly, I am not going to see the new videos and hear the new singles when they are going to be released. Gerard is slowly starting to lose my respect
It's so hard to actually write that down, to maybe not become a fan anymore. I will never tire of their music. The musicianship five of them TOGETHER show astounds me. I like nothing better than to sit in my room and pick apart guitar parts, the bass line, the drums, just to see how it all fits. That's what makes me tick. I will never stop doing that. It's everything that is surrounding the music now that is, for lack of a better word, bullshit. It shouldn't be this way. It wasn't meant to be this way.
It's everything that is surrounding the music now that is, for lack of a better word, bullshit. It shouldn't be this way. It wasn't meant to be this way.
I feel the same way. The whole thing feels surreal to me. I still find it hard to believe how much crap has happened since I saw MCR in August, though it's probably been going on behind the scenes for some time now.
Anonymous said...
paper heartxx I saved the blogs. Do you still want to see them?
September 26, 2007 7:08 PM
Yes I would! I'd like to know what everyone is talking about..=]
reply and I'll give you my email adress=]
resurrected wreck:
I know. I saw them this past April, and thinking back on it, I wonder exactly what was happening within the band or if anything was. I got jaded when I got on the internet, becoming involved with all of it. That was never my intention, and if I had to do it all over again, I wouldn't have touched the computer. I wish I didn't know what I know. I want to go back.
You know the funny thing is, each day, I look forward to coming home and trying to figure out this whole "Mayo", "SS" thing. I know I don't comment much, but that's because what everyone else says, is exactly what I'm thinking!=) I don't know what to think anymore.. I'm actually getting a little worried and scared.=[
^I don't know that I know anything. A lot of this is rumour, a lot is suspected but still unproven. What I do know, or think I know, is that something serious is up with Gerard. He attacks Frank onstage, then marries someone he's known only a few weeks. He's getting out of control, and not himself at all right now. I only hope that this can all be resolved (he's bounced back before, I believe he has it in him to do it again). Or he may crash and burn completely. Right now, I think the chances are 50/50. And I don't like those odds
BleedingChaos, your blog hit home. Thank you for not pretending you know everything there is to know, for being just like the rest of us, but with good putting-it-all-together skills. Thank you for that.
As for the certainty that Gerard is once again drinking, I can only hope that he seeks and gains the help he's looking for. He's failed before, but he's also dusted himself off and got back on his feet. I hope he does it again. I know he'll do it again. I haven't lost faith in the person he is and the good that remains in him. I haven't lost faith in this band, and the people they've yet to reach. It's just we have to cross hurdles and this happens to be one of them. We're all in this together. He said himself we're like family and families work it out and pull together. That's what I intend to do.
Thank you for your blogs and insight.
Anon2007, words cannot express how I feel about your comment because I tend to use the same words over and over, but seriously, I cannot thank you and the rest of my lovely and fucking fantastic readers. I thank all of you for your encouragement, your support, your concern, your love, your everything. I do hope that my new blog will hopefully inspire those who care about this band to group together and continue to support them, especially Gerard and his recent troubles. Although, a part of me desires to bash his head in with a shovel, dear Mayonaise, if you are him or anyone else, although you frustrate me and many others from time to time, never forget that myself and all of us will never stop caring about you. Please keep that in your mind and do not forget that you are never alone. You will see me again when you do come back to Chicago. You know who I am. If you are who I think you are, we met last year, around Christmas as a matter of fact. As for all of you, I like to send my eternal gratitude, hugs, love, and kisses. Thank you. As for you my little Mayonaise, you have my love and eternal support. You helped me fight my own loneliness, although I am not seeing anyone at the moment ;P he he. Love to all of you
XOXO,
BC
Kapunua said...
SS, you are either who I think you are (and I'm not saying who that is, by the way,) or you are as clever as I am. And that's saying a lot. ^_~
"There's always someone cleverer than yourself," to quote one of my favorite movies.
Ten points to whoever knows which one.
Answer:
Excalibur - Merlin. 10 points for me?
Paperheartxx
After what Kapanua said, I only just noticed the dashes are used quite a bit in the blogs. But what does that mean, but anyway glad I saved the blogs now.
I am the Modern Prometheus
Pactum Serva
Monday, September 24, 2007
Fortius quo fidelius
It's always the same with you isn't it? All or nothing. Do or die. Everything is either black or white, nothing in between.
You say compromising is the beginning of the end, but we all need to compromise sometimes. If I had not made compromises in my life, I would not be as blessed as I am today - demonstrating a willingness to meet someone half way can only serve to strengthen bonds. Compromise can be a good thing. I'm not talking about compromising your dreams, your values or your integrity, I'm talking about slowing down, reflecting and taking time to heal. Why must you move at breakneck speed? You need to strike a balance. Use this time wisely.
You are stronger than you realize. Look at what you have achieved in the short time you have been on this planet. You have made a difference. You have touched lives. You are an extraordinary human being. Your passion, determination and courage has been an inspiration to many, including myself. Dont ever lose sight of your original vision, stay true to yourself.
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Is the pen really mightier than the sword?
And so you continue to blog, as do I. The difference is, I am not hurting anyone. I'm just trying to gain some perspective while you are publicly making a fool of yourself. Your words are hungrily devoured and dissected by the masses, you seem to revel in the chaos and controversy.
At the moment your identity is pure speculation, but have you thought about the consequences if anyone was able to prove your identity? Not just for you, but for all of us? Have you lost your mind? How can you be so selfish? You have become a self obsessed megalomaniac. I know what I get out of writing my blogs - but what do you get out of writing yours? Do you even bother to read the comments? Some of those comments break my heart.
These aren't just nameless, faceless strangers, these are real people with real lives and real feelings. These are the people that allowed us to bring our music into their lives. These are the people that we see on tour, the people that wait outside for hours in the cold and rain just to meet us, the people that write us letters and make us scrapbooks, the people who care enough to bake us cookies and brownies, the people that send us birthday cards and bizarre, crazy ass gifts, the people that have given us their love and support, the people that cheer us on, the people that made us.
Why are you so hellbent on destroying not only yourself, but everyone who loves you?
You wanna see how far down I can sink?
Your mom called last night - and I lied to her. After everything she has done for us, I lied to her. How do you think that made me feel? Do you even care?
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me. Bullshit.
I've always been a smart ass, even as a child, although my mom would prefer to use the term precocious. I've always had trouble keeping my mouth shut, I'm an open book, completely ingenuous - secrecy and circumvention are not my style. But then I've never experienced extreme paranoia.
So I'm writing this blog. I know you will never read it, I wouldn't want you to. Not everything is about you. This blog is for ME, a perverse catharsis, I need this right now to preserve the small amount of sanity I have left.
A blog fuelled by disappointment, frustration, confusion and dejection. I am not laying the blame at your door. The burden of blame is mine. I didn't speak up soon enough. I didn't want to rock the boat, I've been there before. I didn't want to fight or endure days of being given the silent treatment. Its not fair on the others. Why do you always make everyone feel like they have to take sides?
If I had been a better friend, I would have stepped in regardless of the consequences. I acted selfishly because I didn't want to lose you, but ironically, I may have lost you anyway.
I meant every word I said at the diner and although I didnt show it, your smirk and glib response hurt me more than you will ever know. I don't know who you are anymore. I cant seem to find the right words. Nothing I say seems to reach you. You are wrong. I DO care. I love you. I refuse to give up on you and I refuse to let you push me away. I am going to fight for our friendship, you aren't the only one with a stubborn streak. We are in this together, for the long haul, I promise.
I want my friend back.
I miss him.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Abandon hope, all who enter here...
What the fuck happened? Why didn't I see this coming?
I made a point to keep out of it this time, but at what cost? I'm trapped between a rock and a hard place, it's a lose/lose situation.
I've always been honest with you, shouldn't that work both ways? What's with the double standards? People are starting to notice. I'm not talking about kids, I'm talking about people in their mid 20's and 30's. People with life experience who can see the cracks starting to show.
What am I supposed to say? I just dont have the answers. How can I reassure them when I need reassurance myself?
10 points, anon. And another ten for getting that it was Merlin.
Another ten for noticing the dashes in the blog and the way thoughts run there, but that's not even exactly what I'm talking about. I'm pretty sure Verita gets it. I THINK, anyway. Verita? Care to share with the class where we're seen that style of writing before? The dashes, the lack of apostrophes, the extra exclamations points to closing thoughts?
Either our SS is very clever, or he is the same person who has written something to the fans before. (Or both, of course. There is that possibility.)
My Momma didn't raise no dummy. SHe did, however, raise an English major who was obsessed with stylistic differences and similarities.
Yes, Verita. Do share with us where this writing style comes from because I'm drawing a blank. SS just seems very well versed, but then again, I tend to overlook a lot of meaningful aspects.
To Kapunua:
His Camalot is crumbling around him! To bad it is (or was) only a fairy tale.
P
Are we trying to hint at Ignotus being SS? That's what I'm gathering, or I could be wrong.
I feel a bit stupid saying this but I can't see what you are getting at. How does missing apostrophes help us figure out who he is? I enjoy his comments and I agree with anon2007 that SS is well versed. Maybe he is well versed but has a short attention span or is absentminded or something so he forgets his apostrophes. I am so lost right now.
I think its cos ignotus used a dash in his comment and SS used dashes in his blogs.
Okay, I'll say it plain then. I didn't mean to be mysterious; to me it's obvious. But I'm nitpicky about things like this.
Just read the first "anonymous" letter (about Eliza) posted on INO that is pretty much known to have come from someone "inside." And most of you already know who most people think that is. Read it closely.
Now it's either the same person, or it's someone who is as nitpicky as I am about stylistic similarities who has decided to exploit their observation in order to pretend to be the same person. It's not that you'd be hard-pressed to find someone observant or anything, I mean I noticed it after all, and it does sometimes seem a little too similar--but then the way you write is the way you write, right? So it could be either, is all I'm saying.
/babble
To Kapunua
"Care to share with the class where we're seen that style of writing before? The dashes, the lack of apostrophes, the extra exclamations points to closing thoughts?"
This writing is similar to IRVINE WELSH the author of "Ecstasy, Three Tales of a Chemical Romance."
P
ingnotus said;
I have a feeling that Shitsubou Shita (or SS as you so affectionately referred to him) had his reasons for deleting his blogs. I'm certain he would have read all the comments posted and been genuinely moved by the concern, support and love conveyed in your words - they would not have fallen on deaf ears.
[...]
He may have deleted his blogs, but please dont interpret that as an act of cowardice, petulance or capitulation. Im sure things are very complicated for him. Please believe he is doing everything he can. Im sure your continued support means a lot to him. He will not let you down. In his own words, Pactum Serva. Its all about the love.
Posted on 9/27 at 7:00pm
Sorry to bring this back up again, but I seriously think that this may be SS speaking in third person. Is that a valid statement?
^ Yes.
Anon@9:04
Wow, okay, never having read that, what an eye-opener. Very interesting, will have to check that out.
But my main point--and I suspect Verita's?--was that it was entirely similar to that of the first anon, the one on INO. And that's very telling. Of what, though, I am not certain. ^_~
Kupunua:
So many similarities and too much over analysis. It is all so confusing and yet intriguing.
I am still trying to understand the rabbbit/misssing glove.
Check out my last message about the mad hatter reference. This guy likes to remain comfortably numb in his fair tale existence.
P
Kapanua, I have just re-read the original anonymous letter on INO and my jaw is still on the floor! I can't say how I know and I know you have no reason to believe me but I promise I am telling the truth when I say that the original anonymous letter is from an inside source. Just to clear up any confusion I'm not an insider or anything I just KNOW that letter was authentic. The similarities in style between that letter and SS and even Ignotus all point to them being the same person. I love how Ignotus is Latin for 'unknown' and another word for unknown is anonymous, that was a nice touch. It shows the cheeky side of his personality. It all makes sense to me now. It could be someone copying the writing style of the original anonymous letter but I have trouble believing someone would go to THAT much trouble or level of detail to copy writing style. And even if they did then they must be a genius because not only did they capture it perfectly down to the smallest detail (missing apostrophes on certain words) but they have even managed to capture the same..feeling... personality...I am struggling to express what I mean. Like you said, everyone just writes the way they write, he probably isn't even aware of these traits. I don't think we will see him again tbh. I have had my own theories all along about the author of the anonymous letter on INO and it seems to me that this person is not an attention whore, they stay out of internet drama and only intervene if they are at the point of total desperation and frustration, if there is a crisis.
^ Amen. In my opinion, SS, Ignotus and the original Anonymous who posted on INO are all the same person.
I can't believe it is someone just imitating his writing style to fool us into believing they are the 'Original INO Anonymous.' Why bother? Why would anyone go to such extreme lengths of copying writing style to do that? The majority of fans believe the anon letter on INO was just a hoax by a disgruntled fan that was pissed Gee was going to marry Eliza and not them. I always suspected who it might have been and I'm still not entirely convinced it was a solo effort.
If it was someone just pretending to be the original Anonymous, there are easier ways of getting us to make that connection. He could have just mentioned or hinted about it. 'Blah blah blah the last time I wrote a letter to the fans I was able to fix things blah blah' etc.
See what I mean?
If we were dealing with a faker, why the sudden disappearance when we found the blogs. Surely they would have stuck around and written more blogs, they would have loved the idea of us hanging on their every word, and enjoying their new found e-fame.
I don't think SS ever intended anyone to realise he was the one who wrote the anonymous letter to the fans on INO. I wouldn't want to be in his shoes if a certain person finds out about it. Poor SS, he has such a good heart and is useless at being sneaky but that is why I love him so much.
I'm also fairly certain who the original "anon" was. Never one hundred percent, but pretty sure.
My only doubt about SS is that it's very easy to copy a style if you're anywhere approaching something like clever. SS (and ignotus also) could have just looked over that letter, found the quirks, and copied them.
Or maybe it's the same person and just a natural way of writing. That's the thing I'm not sure of.
Neat, though! ^_^
It doesn't take genius to copy a style so well, all it takes is a little observation. I could have done it myself because those were all things I noticed the first time around. If you're the kind of person who listens to the way people talk and "feels" the way people write, you can copy any style. From little quirks down to the "feel" of the style.
I do halfway agree with the anon who said "why would someone bother"--to a point. But this is the internet and lots of people bother doing senseless things. We're all on Fake Gerard Way's blog, after all. ^_~
Why would an insider spend all this time writing on Fake Gerard's blog? Call the dude up, tell him what's on your mind. You know? It seems a little weird.
I see your point but from what you said you seem to also believe the original anon letter on INO was genuine. If that IS the case, why didn't he just call the dude up that time and tell him what was on his mind? Because he had tried and tried and got nowhere with him. The original anon letter mentions that Gerard would not listen. I see a pattern forming, sometimes when the good old fashioned approach of talking to someone does not work it is time to try something more radical to get his attention. It worked with the anon letter and I hope it works this time. Gerard needs a wake up call.
Hi guys! I'm a long time lurker and have to say I am totally addicted to this blog although I think the comments are better than the blog!
I think Shitsubu Shita only commented like twice on Mayo's blog and the rest of the stuff he wrote was his own personal thoughts in his own blogs so I don't think he would phone him up or discuss it with him.
He wrote that he wouldn't want his friend to read his blogs. I'm guessing because he wouldn't want his friend to know his true feelings, he probably has his 100% supportive hat on whenever he is around his friend. He goes from feelings of respect and calling him inspirational and extraordinary to feelings of resentment like when he felt he had to lie to his friends mother about something (I would love to know what he lied about)to feelings of hope and determination of never giving up on him to feelings of guilt that he could have somehow done something differently or been a better friend, to feelings of disgust at the way he does not appreciate the fans that made the band what they are today and also anger at the way he is risking destroying everything for the rest of the band. No wonder he deleted his blogs.
Sorry it was such a long comment.
If that IS the case, why didn't he just call the dude up that time and tell him what was on his mind?
Well, that is a good point.
I guess I'm reluctant to believe that this is actually Frank Iero. There, I said what everyone was thinking. And that's only because it would be a good thing if it were him--good to believe that someone in the MCR camp had such a good head on his shoulders and was willing to reach out to the fans, and was also still willing to try to fix things that have gotten screwed up--and overall, things that are both that positive and unlikely, in my experience, end up not being true. I'm just trying not to be naive about it.
Kapunua said...
'things that are both that positive and unlikely, in my experience, end up not being true.'
Normally I would agree, life has made me cynical. But this is Frank Iero we are talking about and he is one in a million. I agree, most famous people would not spend time writing blogs. But he is not most people. I don't even know if Mayo is Gerard. Frank may not even know for sure if Mayo is Gerard, he probably heard about this blog and checked it out, he has down time at the moment after all. Out of all the mysterious blogs, the only one I really believe is the one that sadly we no longer have and that is SS's. It's just the sort of thing I can imagine Frank doing. He is an exceptional man and I know I don't know him personally but I have met him twice and both times he was gracious, charming, sweet, funny and humble. I'm not kidding that guy has an aura about him that makes you feel good. The best part was that he remembered me from the first time we met and asked how my operation went! I'm in my twenties and I'm not ashamed to say I later sobbed my heart out that he had remembered me and my situation out of all the hundreds of fans he must meet. He epitomises all that is good and just and kind. He is a sensitive soul who genuinely seems to connect with and care about the fans. I had reservations to begin with, I realise the odds are against it being him, but deep down I really believe it is him. I'm following my heart on this one.
Well, first off, I hope everything is well with you in your life. I would have probably done the same thing had someone remembered me, and my situation, out of a million fans.
And I'm split between both of you (kapanua included). I'm still riding the fence on whether Shitsubou Shita's blogs were the real deal and if they were actually Frank. I don't know, but oh, how I wish I did. Don't we all? He seems like the type to lay it all out on the line whether you want to hear it or not, but I have reservations in believing he'd do it by using blogs. But, I don't know. Nothing would surprise me with this band anymore. I wish I could be as sure about it as you.
A beautiful place, amongst the cement and shoulders.
Mayonaise, just when I think I have you figured out, you throw me for a loop.
-A
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