There is a fantastic amount of complacency in and around me. I find more harmony here, in these amenable arms, than anywhere else. Then, when I close my eyes and breathe deep, I feel peace. I can keep the burden of persuasion at arms length.
p.s. completed by convention.
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1 – 200 of 214 Newer› Newest»I just want to say that I think Mr. Mayo is in distructive mode as well. But that is just my opinion. I am not talking about drugs or drinking, I am talking about the rushed marriage etc. I am not here to judge though, and even though it was pure heartache hearing Mr. Mayo got married like that, I can't go on feeling the heartache over it, after all he is untouchable to most...he likes to keep it that way. Either he is living in a fantasy world and will wake up one day with a huge lesson to learn from this, or he is truly feeling in love. I really hope it is the latter even though we are heartbroken over it.
Mr. Mayo,
I truly hope that you are happy and that this isn't a fantasy world you are living in. And I do sincerely wish you the best. If you are doing drugs and drinking again, please realize that you need to stop. I/We love you. If we cannot reach your heart than hopefully we can reach your senses.
-Dreams
PS. I would have liked to known you but all current events make it so much clearer that it would never happen. That is fine though, I have accepted that, and now I must move on. You would think at 32 I would have learned fairy tales never existed, have you learned that? I hope so. I love you with all my heart, and now I say goodbye to you.
Mayo, you got this shit don't you? This shit is easy peezy lemon squeezy. Nobody needs to be worried about you, do they?
You better wake the fuck up, man.
I wish you love,
I wish you hope,
I wish you harmony
I wish you peace.
If in those arms that is what you find,
I wish that they will hold you close for all time.
Beware complacency,
It's a long road ahead,
It requires constant work.
And arms length isn't that far.
Close your eyes, precious one.
I wish I believed
Yeah, I know a lot of people who settled. Some of them can convince themselves for their entire lives that it's all they wanted, too. Sadly, some of them were extraordinary at some point.
Please, please don't ever let me get that complacent.
Has anyone considered the fact that Gerard's last couple of relationships are women affiliated with tours. In other words, unless someone is smack dab in front of his face, (and gets past Worm on a regular basis) they don't have a chance. In reality, there are so many real, intelligent, thoughtful, caring, women, (yes, women not teenagers) who would be willing to get to know and love him who never even get the chance to be near him, meet him, much less get to know him. It is absurd. As I said somewhere else, I feel like that little creature in the Dr. Seuss book "Horton hears a Who"...."I am here, I am here, I am here!" Fine ME! I have tried, I have written, I have a real job and can't stand in lines for "signings" or call radio stations non stop trying to win a pass. I am (yep, honest) a physician with critically ill patients to attend to...I don't have the luxury of trying to track someone down who I would not be able to interact with for more than 60 seconds. I am open to any realistic suggestions because I am very worried about the man, regardless of how silly and unlike me it is to feel this way. I have no explanation for it. I share it with no one for fear my very sanity or compentence to handle the pressures of my day would be questioned. It IS odd for someone my age to feel (or believe they feel) so stongly about a man they have never met. Yeah, I know all this. Any suggestions? I welcome them. Mayo? Bleeding Chaos? Anyone else? Peace.
p.s. to smoke and venom...the correct quote is "easy peasy pumpkin peasey", Pumpkin pie motherfucker" Yeah, it is very sad that I know that.
So Mr. Mayo, it appears to me that you are now living more in a pretend fantasy than ever before.
I think you are far beyond being disillusioned and paranoid now. I simply believe that maybe your consciousness, your mind, soul, and heart is convincing you to "think" you are at peace. Does it boost your ego that you are causing pain for Shitsoubu Sita?
Does it make you feel good that you are bringing suffering to those that care about you? Does it make you feel content that a woman is coming between a friendship and shitting all over it? Does it? Because it that were to happen to me, I would be disappointed. I always believed that it is never a good thing when you allow or have someone come between friendships and destroy them. It's completely wrong. Do not even bother lying. I cannot even say whether or not you are in a state of denial now. It seems to me that you are in a much worse state of mind. Is the alcohol finally getting to you? You poor little innocent, sooner or later when you are *really* alone, who are you going to cry to when there is no one there to catch your fall? You know what I do not like the most? People who constantly lie and pretend that they are "okay" and happy." Body language, facial expressions can reveal alot of the truth where words cannot. I noticed the way you hide yourself behind those black shades of yours. I noticed that you tend to wear them, to hide your feelings from the world because you fear someone will discover how you really feel.
You might want to take some advice of the one known as Nikki Sixx:
Are women the kiss of death for a band?
"Musicians tend to pick the type of women who can be bad for them. And if you're in a band and she's bad for you, then she's bad for your family, your extended family, your fans, friends and band. If you're in a poisonous relationship, it poisons the well in general, and everyone is drinking from the same well. You really need to think hard and fast before you let a person poison that well. You have to be very careful. When you're younger you're not careful. All you think of is, 'Oh my God, she's so fucking hot! She's perfect! I'll take it.' I bought a Ferrari once just like that. I went in and saw a red Ferrari and said, 'I'll take it!' But the fucking cost of the upkeep on a car that cost $250,000 is $2,500 per tune-up! A flat tire is $500 just to get the rim fixed. Sometimes in life you have to say, 'I don't want anymore Ferraris. I just want a nice, dependable car.' I just can't stand the drama anymore."
freddycharles,
Believe me, I have heard that quote 10,000 times. I just like to put my own spin on things and bring a little Smoke&Venom20 flava!
Freddy, what kind of suggestions are you asking for? Mayonaise here keeps pretending that everything is okay. My little Mayonaise, when are you going to realize that many of us are not stupid?
more like...completed by convenience.
more like...completed by convenience
Exactly.
freddycharles -
I totally understand what you are saying about being so concerned for someone you don't know. I am not a teenybopper. My mother introduced me to rock music and took me to my first concert when I was 8 years old. I have loved it and many bands over the last 20 years. But there is just something about this band. I can't explain it either. Maybe because these guys are my age and not twenty years older than me. Maybe I'm just finally old enough to understand and be concerned about people in general instead of myself all the time.
Sorry, I thought maybe I could help but I can't. I can totally relate though.
...suggetions for how to put this whole thing, and the person OUT OF MY HEAD! It is so frustrating, heartbreaking, and scary!
...suggetions for how to put this whole thing, and the person OUT OF MY HEAD! It is so frustrating, heartbreaking, and scary!
I understand how you feel Freddy because I feel the same way sometimes. Well, for starters, if you decide to, take a break from all of this by involving yourself in a hobby of some sort until all of this dwindles down. I think Mayonaise's purpose is to try to drag people down with him so they won't have to fight him so much. Is that why you "married" her? Because she turns the blind eye to your internal suffering? Your one mistake in all of this is that if you believe no one will argue against you or fight you concerning your depression, your mind will then convince itself that no one will seriously give a damn about you and by then you will start feeling as if no one in the world really cares and by then you will start bitching and complaining that "no one loves you." And then what are you going to do? You are going to try to beg to your close ones to care about you again. I believe a similiar situation has occured to our poor beloved Frank. Not all of us are blind to your actions, my sweet little Mayonaise. You can try to outsmart all of us, but I guarantee someone will outsmart you in the long run. You can run, but you cannot hide.
freddycharles,
That is exactly how I feel. I can't get it out of my head or heart, although I realize that there is nothing we can do about it. We have to accept it and move on. It is hard, trust me I know. And the strange thing is that this is not like me either, its hard to explain. Instead of trying to explain or feel silly, just accept it, and try your best to move on, its all we can really do.
-Dreams
Dear Freddy, ( and I mean that as affection, not as a start to a letter) the short anwser is - you can't, not completely
I've tried , and I like you have been very surprised to find myself caring this much. I think he put so much of himself out to us all, in music, DVD, interviews that we feel closer than with another band who are not so open.
he struck a cord with many, and appaers so vulnerable. I think it is our instinct to care.
But try, as I do to be realistic, it needs to be in the background of our real lives.
I can't really help, but you aren't alone.
Either this post is a matter of self-realization or it's more fodder for the masses.
I can't decide yet.
^^Yep, that's exactly right.
Although we have to stop worrying about this, I will not stop visiting these blogs and comment. You can't stop me Mayonaise, no matter how hard you try. You are not the only adult here who is both blessed and cursed with stubborness.
Sounds as if he is happy back at home!
It's not peace that you are feeling, sweetie, it's all in your head. Denial is not just a river in Egypt, my darling.
~complacency~
Hmm, interesting word choice there.
Complacent - adj. Self-satisfied and unaware of possible dangers.
Even though one is unaware of the danger that does not keep them safe from it.
You should know that while she has temporarily distracted you from the real problems and demons you are facing, they are still there. Hiding there just under the surface like your eyes hiding behind the shades. They will resurface again, most likely during the following month when she won't be available to be your shield from dangerous reality of your situation. What will you use then? Or who?
More chemical indulgences?
May I make a plea as someone who has not and will not stop loving you even during times like these when you make it damn hard? Please talk to someone. Ask for help. Not her, call up the friends you haven't talked to in weeks. Call your family.
Take a step back and reevaluate your life.
Are you sure this union is what you need? (Notice I said need, not want. Those are two completely different things. For example; you need water, but you want something stronger with a kick.)
Are you a person you would be proud to call son/brother/friend/husband?
Are you happy you have pushed away the people who love you?
When the magical bubble of tour life fades away, what do see you life being like?
Just think.
And as always, remember, I will be here, offering you support and love.
I wish that I could believe you.
I really do.
I want to believe you more than anything.
But I would just be kidding myself like you are kidding yourself.
Please, please, please...
WAKE UP!
I agree with the last anonymous post and the word complacent is a very interesting choice of word indeed. It may sound like something our Gerard might be in his situation. "Content and unaware of the unknown dangers that lies ahead" or "Content that he does not make himself aware of those dangers because he does not desire to be aware of them." Pick your poison sweet little Mayonaise. You do not have a choice to default here. Either one of those situations will come knocking on your door whether you want to acknowledge them or not. It is inevitable.
I know someone who has a habit of making new friends and then ignoring them without any explanation.
Maybe he only uses people, calls them "friends" during times of need, when he's lonely, when he needs advice, when he's bored and has nothing better to do. When he's in Europe and missing his girlfriend. When he's in Russia and loses his phone. When he's drunk in a hotel room alone and feels like shouting out some song lyrics. When he's been betrayed by one of his best friends.
But perhaps when he's feeling content and complacent, he has no need for those "friends" anymore. Perhaps he only needs foul weather friends who will offer a shoulder to cry on when the going gets rough, but whose existence can be conveniently forgetten when the sun shines.
Or maybe he's just trying to avoid what he perceives as impending judgement and ridicule. About a particular person perhaps?
Yes, I worry dearly about a certain girl you and I both know. But my worry for her has nothing to do with you anymore. My friendship with her is now separate from my friendship with you.
I will not pass judgement. I might call you on your bullshit if you happen to be flipping it, but I will never think less of you for any choices you've made. In the end, I just want to know you're okay.
If and when you want to talk, you know how to reach me. Don't stay away forever.
To Mayo and Shitsubou,
It's not too late.
Don't let it become too late.
For either of you.
We have watched the events unfold this summer with emotions ranging from sadness, anger, confusion, hope, disappointment and everything in between.
We never intended to care so much. We're neither teenies, groupies, or stalkers. We just found people who touched our hearts.
You met us once, in Charlotte, N.C. at the meet and greet. We had spoke to Maddie (apologies if we spell the name wrong) the day before and explained we only wanted to see if you had gotten the gifts we left in Columbus, where everyone was recovering from the "Chicken of Doom". Do you know that we had not intended to get an autograph, it was only at the last minute that we produced notepad and sunblock because we thought it would look odd if we had nothing to sign.
Autographs mean nothing. Fame means nothing. It's who you are inside that means everything. We know nothing about you truly, as you know nothing truly about us.
But let us give it a shot and see how close we get...
Mayo,
You thrive on chaos, even as you fight against it. You spent years of feeling like a nobody, shunned, guilty for every bad thought or thing you did, until you convinced yourself that was all you were worth. Drugs, drink, whatever made it a little bearable, even as you knew it was killing you. THEN you were adored by millions! Some false, some real, but adored. But you still never felt worthy. Never enough. Everything felt fake. So you sabotaged yourself. At the same time you declare yourself unworthy, you beg for attention, crave the confirmation that you ARE worthy and loved, even if you loath yourself.
Get down off the cross. You don't have to be a martyr. If you continue as you are, there will be about six months of crying fans visting a cold, deep grave, but time will pass and they will stop. Only the handful who truly loved you will show year after year to lay roses and cross themselves in front of the headstone.
Don't waste a beautiful fucking soul to become an epitaph. You are stronger than this. Be who you NEED to be. Not who you are EXPECTED to be. We spent 40 years being the people everyone else wanted us to be. You learn after awhile, or you die.
You ARE loved. Now convince yourself. REALLY and TRULY convince yourself.
Shitsubou,
You are a kind man. A good man. One who has a brave heart and pure intentions. You choose happiness for others over happiness for yourself. You are selfless, though, to the point of losing your identity for the one others want you to have. Loving someone doesn't mean being who they want you to be; it means being who you are and accepting the love they give you. You say you are not comfortable in your own skin, but has anyone let you try it on?
Yes, you have your faults, but who doesn't. We all have secrets, tales that don't need to be told. That's o.k. I know you're tired, both physically and emotionally. You deserve some rest. However, don't fall asleep at your post while your friend is falling prey to his demons. He needs your strength now more than ever.
Where is the man I used to see smiling at every turn, bad or good? You were always quick with a joke and a laugh. Now the smile is buried, under a weight of responsibility and worry, of heartbreak. I want to see your beautiful smile again, Shitsubou. My heart aches for your sadness.
John Wesley once said:
"Do all the good that you can,
By any means that you can,
As long as ever you can."
Both of you, please hear these words. Take them and live them if you can. Live them for yourselves, and for each other. IT'S NOT TOO LATE. It's never too late to reach out to each other.
We know who you are, and by now you should have a good idea of who we are. We're offering a safe haven to talk, an e-mail address for both of us. Rest assured, we will neither judge nor betray you. We won't sugercoat, but we WILL be kind.
The addess is:
becauseyouneverknow@earthlink.net
In order for us to know it's you, were asking you to answer these questions:
Mayo: One of us gave you a giftbag in Columbus, OH. What was in it BESIDES the necklaces and dream catcher?
Shitsubou: The other of us gave you a letter in Indiana. What's my name and what's one thing I wrote in that letter?
You ask us to challenge you-but do you wish to challenge us?
"Got to keep your wits about you...
Nighty-night."
Watch this and tell me that Lynz is not eating this shit up...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1GzH3LBz_8M&mode=related&search=
That smirk on her face tells me that she rather enjoys her new found fame.
Andrea, this might sound a bit frightening but I surely do miss hearing from you. Where have you been? Ha! And to the last anonymous post: Thank you for posting such an incredible and senseful comment. Someone here needs to listen to some great advice such as yours and we all know who that is ;)
That smirk on her face tells me that she rather enjoys her new found fame.
Well, if she is I'll say this: She is another Eliza Cuts in the making and we all know what happened to her months ago. My guess is that maybe she is indeed using Gerard just for the fame. If she is, I will not be surprised. In this world you can barely trust anyone anymore without questioning their true motives and obviously, Gerard has not learn a thing about that.
when I close my eyes and breath deep, I too find peace. Then when I get up I hit up the medicine chest again for the latest my doctor prescribed.
I have a real good one this time, would you love some Mayo?
You're probably gonna need it once the honeymoon phase wears thin, love.
Mayo, there are so many here willing to help. Just reach out your hand.
Freddycharles, I feel the same way you do. Like Smoke&Venom20, I've been seeing bands for 19 years. I'd loved a lot of their music, and become friends with some. Yet somehow, My Chem is different. I've never met them - hell, I've never even seen them live yet, because my life got in the way. I thought I was too old to be this concerned about a band, too jaded to give two shits about people I've never even met.
If you're in your later 20's or your 30's, you probably know what I'm talking about: the feeling that you've seen & done it all. You've experienced most of what life has to offer, and you've taken the parts that didn't suck right along with the parts that blew big time, and learned from them all. You've had your heart broken a couple of times, you've lost people close to you to death or despair, and you've had enough high & lows to build a new roller coaster in Vegas. You've learned to take care of the heart that beats inside you, even if it means putting it on ice & locking it away so that no one can touch it.
And then along comes this band, these guys who make the most amazing music. More than that, you can *relate* to them -- they're normal guys who care about the same stuff you do. At first, you feel a little silly trying to find out more about them; it appears that most of their fanbase is made up of teenage girls. But you keep listening to the music, and it keeps drawing you in. Then it's too late: you're hooked. You care about the band as much as the music, and although you keep telling yourself it's crazy, nothing changes the way you feel.
O.o;; Wow... sorry for the novel, I really need to learn how to explain my POV in 50 words or less!!!
Sister Midnite, you summed up how I felt about MCR! Yeah, I've been into bands since I was a little kid and have seen this all before, sometimes first hand. You think you know better, that they're all alike. Then one comes along and changes your perception of bands! And you fall in love with a band just like you did when you were 14, and it's so much fun.
But then that band sells out its core values of anti-sexism/racism/violence/child porn in music lyrics in order to take the singer's wife on tour, and then you realize, hey, bands really are all the same after all. The magic is gone with the message, because the message never meant anything to begin with, it was all a gimmick.
But the music still sounds good and the rhythm guitarist is still cute. ^_~
complacence:
a feeling of quiet pleasure or security, often while unaware of some potential danger, defect, or the like; self-satisfaction or smug satisfaction with an existing situation, condition, etc.
This, my friend,
fits you to a "T".
Listen.
-s00
Oh, shit.
I just realized that others have already critiqued your word choice.
A question,
if you go missing, do they say you've been kidnapped,
or abducted?
I love that movie.
Truth is, you've escaped.
Oh, oh, my dearest Mayo !
You never fail to entertain.
-s00
Sister midnite, you summed up everything perfectly. Many people can relate to what you have just said, including myself Bravo! =)
Gerard, how have the signings been going?
-Anon30
P.S. Hi everyone! I've been gone forever.
This is all so very wrong. But it feels so right reading it anyway. :)
Hi Bleeding Chaos! It's not freightening, I've missed you too. ^_^
I've been lurking, but haven't had time to write much this week. Work has been extra crazy and today was particularly rough, so I finally decided to let off some steam here in Mayo's blog.
Even when I haven't had time to write, I've still followed the discussions closely.
Bleeding Chaos, Sister Midnite, and Kapunua -- I appreciate everything you've said this week.
[Regarding the YouTube video posted earlier...]
Ok, all speculation about LynZ's facial expression aside...
How much would it suck to get ushered out of a building and be surrounded by hundreds of screaming, drooling teenagers? And have them holding cell phone cameras up to the window after you get in your vehicle?
I don't know about you all, but that video gave me the creeps. I would hate to be thrust into that situation. It makes me feel sorry for Gerard. He can't go anywhere in public without a mob scene. I would miss my privacy and my freedom to go places without being rushed by fans.
To Andrea: Hi there and you are very welcome! :) With all of this wackiness going on, I got something I wanted to say: Let's get ready to rumble!!
LOL. That made me giggle. ^_^
Hi Kapunua !
hope you're well.
I am feeling good thank you.
just for you :
"your mother was a hamster and your father smelt of elderberries"
Breathing deep is good. It keeps your roots strong and then no storm can topple you.
As usual, your words renew one's confidence. Thank you.
Sister Midnite you talk of being in your late 20's or 30's. Try being in your 40's and realizing that this group has touched something inside you that you thought was long dead. I was walking through life, not living just surviving. Depression had become my life. Then one night while watching the video for Helena I was shocked to find myself crying. A frightening event for sure. My first thought - Oh Lord I'm finally having the nervous breakdown I had always feared. But as I listened to the music I suddenly realized I had given up on life, more importantly I realized that wasn't what I wanted. I wanted to live, I wanted to listen to music, watch all the DVD's I had purchased but never opened, hell I just wanted to live. And then think how hard it is to explain to friends my age that the music of a group of people so much younger than me had caused this awakening. They would shake their heads. They wouldn't listen. It didn't matter. I was alive. I was truly happy. MCR will always mean so much to me. No I have no illusions of meeting them. Honestly, I don't think I would want to. But what I do want for them is what they gave to me. Happiness, freedom to be myself, power to dream. Life without dreams is just an existence. That's what I had. It sucked. Lord I've written a novel and for that I'm sorry. I just wanted to voice all of this to people I hope will understand. I pray for Gerards happiness and happiness for all the members. I will never get the chance to thank them but the thank you will always be in my heart.
To Elena, despite your age please don't think you are strange. Words are powerful and can resonate in the mind no matter what age. Thank you for sharing your experience. It's so good to see their word imagery has enabled you to express emotions you could not articulate. Anon 10
On another note, in relation to my above post, this is exactly why we should not be complacent about MSI lyrics. Anon 10
I will say that in that video of Gee and LynZ walking out of that comic signing, I got the chills.
Gerard DID look like a different person. He didn't wave or smile at anyone. It was like watching Liam Gallagher strolling down the street. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE Liam Gallagher and I love that he's a swaggering arrogant bastard but that's the way Liam's always been. Gerard is a completely different story. He's always been such a sweet guy who didn't swagger. I wasn't too worried before but this video does give me the heebies.
Complacency hmmm...isn't that just another way to say you are comfortable right where you are? You really aren't looking to get out of this hole that you dug for yourself are you? Is this the so happy place that you talked about days before? I sure as hell hope not. Because this is not real happiness. When you get complacent, you get cocky and you mistake it for confidence. Just when you are feeling untouchable and indestructible, your "world goes to shit" fast. You can't fool us here Mayo. You may be complacent, you may be comfortable, you may be feeling peace and harmony, you may even be able to breathe deep.....but tell me and be honest with me....have you opened your eyes and exhaled yet?
I'd rather you be an addict than an ass. I'd rather you be depressed than be a dick. I'd rather you get your heart broken a dozen times and find real love than settle for the comfortable, conveniet kind. I'd rather you be boring and honest than be a sensational fantastic lie. I'd rather you find real security in yourself and your friends than the artificial kind in pills, drugs, and booze. I'd rather you draw and sing for yourself than sell yourself and your friends out.
We're here Mayo.....we are all still here.
To all my friends here: You have already said everything so well. I hope maybe that I just added a little bit to it.
p.s. still waiting to be completed
I fully agree sdock10. This whole situation reminds me of an anorexic,in a split mindset. Slowly and methodically on the path to the end, wanting to be tortured and ill, yet a small suppressed part of themselves craves for someone to help them. The impostor self has taken over and will do anything to stay in this condition, while the authentic self is in a secret compartment. He has interpreted what his identity should be through the eyes of the world. Hence all the different facades. His true self is battered, bruised and feeling unworthy. The liar self cares about nothing, but will try to ensure it's survival to the end. Pleading, imploring does nothing. It's almost as if someone has to step in and take over, because he hasn't the strength or will, and the conflict will be huge. He is sadly, fractured from within and somehow the fake has to be discarded. But this fake self makes promises to himself,is very seductive, and gives lots of pleasure. anon 10
Maybe Mr. Mayo really is infatuated. Someone who refuses to let in people who don't challenge thoughts and feelings can't truly, selflessly love someone.
The infatuation phase only lasts for so long, though. Then you either love or leave. Hmmm... Makes me wonder.
I don't think he's that infatuated. He's starting to look exactly the way he did with Eliza
would anyone care to elaborate. Loveman talks about linZ 's "inconsistent pupils" What does this suggest to you? A partaker of interesting substances? Hmmm.
I don't think he's that infatuated. He's starting to look exactly the way he did with Eliza
I agree. Maybe he isn't infatuated.
The idea of someone being so openly manipulative is just insane to me. I guess it's a win-win situation, right? Two people using each other, for various reasons.
Oh well... Whatever tickles their pickles.
so Mayo when you close your eyes and breathe deep your feel peace?
So is that the only way? So many are reaching out to you. Let that sensitive boy out. The one you cannot stand any longer.
"Scream through dreams that cut your voice off.
Wide awake will nothing soothe?
With one word I'd take this pain from you
but I fall mute" (Courtesy D havok)
In exchange for whose wisdom? I'm still confused over this blog.
And Shitsubou, you should post more. We would love to hear from you again; and as you said on the last blog that it feels good to let all this out. This is what these blogs are for.
Mayo, you should let it all out too. It would be good for you. All of us are here to support/help you.
So, let me get this straight. What you are trying to tell us is that when you are in those (amenable) willing arms you are (complacent) happily unaware of potential danger. You are more tranquil, serene, and able to keep yourself from reaching for the (“burden of persuasion”) drugs and alcohol.
Thanks for the insight. Now here is my wisdom. Stand on your own two feet, and don’t rely on a crutch.
I agree with anon30. This blog definitely makes me feel better. This is the best free therapy that I've ever gotten.....almost as good as a those little blue footballs. (Hey, I never claimed to be sober!)
So keep it up Mayo and Loveman and come back and visit us Shitsubou. We'll be here for you all. Take what you need and vent if you feel like it. We'll be glad to listen.
No fair, I want some blue footballs!! I have Effexor to trade...
Say what you want to say, everyone. I ain't been banned yet, so I can vouch for the safety of this blog.
I can't find my Sharpie, only a paintbrush. When you come in, look for somebody with "FREE THERAPY" painted on her chin. Then you know you're in de right place. :)
I missed it here while I was gone. I love reading all the comments. They crack me up.
Oh, I have Cymbalta to trade for those blue footballs. :)
... "because depression hurts"... Haha! I always laugh at that tag line.
Yay! Therapy for all.
Or look for Smoke&Venom20..she's the one who wears the tiara and holds a mirror...she's always looking for someone to play kickball with her!
Sister Midnite...I'm glad to hear from you today. Your comments make my day!! (Don't know if that's a safe thing or not...jury is still out on that one!) I'll share footballs with you anytime! (Long as you aren't one of those crazy xanax people. The ones who act like serial killers.)
To Anon at 10:49: Everyone relies on a crutch in some way shape or form.
I think I might need some of that medicine for restless leg syndrome. But it might give me the sudden urge to get drunk, go to Vegas and gamble away all my life savings, and sleep with the first person I see. WATCH OUT!!!!!
Kickball is fun. The walk home afterwards isn't... I tend to walk like I spent the night in bed - with someone other than my kitty. ;)
Glad to hear it, sdock10. No serial killers here, unless words can be counted as victims. V comes before X for a reason!
Sis Midnite, you can be co-captain on my kickball team.
Is this like a private club of some sort?
Mayo....anytime we reach 50+ comments it becomes a crapshoot in here. It may or may not be about you after that. I make no guarantees save one. That it will be entertaining.
Can I be the personal trainer for the kickball team? All the meds and therapy you need!!!
You're hired. Practice is at ....... and will be held at ..........SEE YOU THERE!
Ms Francine, it's a free for all in here. :)
We like to party in Gerard's Blog (pants). It makes us feel better. Join in.
Hells yeah!
Mayo, can we play kickball at the castle on the hill today? You can play too. No, wait. You can be a cheerleader.
XOXO
I'll bring the ice and ace bandages...playing on the side of that hill is sure going to be tough.
My oh my, I'm going to need my pills to keep reading this. haha
It would probably help. What kind ya got? You got footballs, too?
Smoke&Venom20, I'd be honored.
Wait 'till I tell me co-workers:
"You will now address me as Co-Captain Nut-buster". ^_~
Sdock10, do you have anything for a sore ass? Sooner or later, I'm gonna get kicked in mine for screwing around at work!
Meh, t'hell with it.
I'm having too much fun to quit!
I'm totally slacking at work today too. I can't help it; it's Friday. :)
Cubes/offices suck the life (and humor) out of people. It's a much happier place in Mayo's blog.
O'Captin My Captain!
Carpe Diem! Seize the Day!
To hell with work! DAMN THE MAN!
*heh* Every time I hear carpe diem, I think of fish.
But we won't talk about Lyn-Z that WAY.
ZIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIING!!!
Just kidding, peeps.
Friday mind & all, y'know.
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwww!
Stank-nasty.
I'm starving. I need to go grab some lunch. brb. :)
White and blue capsules.
Why are deadlines always on Friday at 7 pm?
Oooohhh, are the polka-dot? I like those. :-)
Just kidding.
Not really.
Not really kidding is what I meant. I do like polka-dot pills. They make you supa-dupa fly.
Sister Midnite...Thanks for taking it to a completely different level in here. I LOVE IT!! What kind of fish would that be? Catfish?
As for your sore rear, you could ask King Jiggy if you could sit on his throne. I bet it is nice and cushy. Smoke won't let you sit in hers. She says its bad luck for the team. Throne hog!
As far as work goes......FUCK AGENDAS!!
Anyone know what the red ones are?
but are you really, truly, breathing in that air? is it fresh or is it stale?
is it genuine or is it only a cover up of expiration date long passed?
you've changed, you've morphed into something else. someone else.
it's not you.
you don't have to keep lying to yourself. you don't have to wear a mask.
you have the power to do whatever you wish, don't get lost in it. don't take advantage of a beautiful thing.
it's not you, it's obvious. and we all know you are not oblivious to whats going on around you. your fans, the ones who stuck by you through everything. who loved you at your darkest, who continue to. but love does fade, it doesn't die..but fade it does. do not continue this arrogant triumph you seem to be on. you are more than that. you always have been. lets go back to the middle of the day that starts it all...let's go back to 04 and early 05. right in the heart of your success, take a look at that person. a person who was kind and caring. a person who had problems and wasn't afraid to show them to the world, thats what made you special, thats what made you real. i'd rather see your weak truths than your fake lies. what about a person who took time to aknowledge his fans. i won't give up on that person because i know he is still there somewhere. even if it's a place you must dig deep to find, it's not impossible. i remember a person with heart, a person with a beautiful, honest, broken smile. now all you are is a broken soul with a fake one.
there is still time, embrace it.
No, no, no. As Shitsubou Shita likes to say, if someone sat on my throne, "the world would go to shit".
dock-dock, why did you bring up catfish? kitty-kat, fish, stank
double eeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwww
KING JIGGY? That'll work wonders for his ego!!! ((I could keep gutter-sniping with a remark about not bowing to the King, but it's too obvious. ^_~ 'He is the Gizzard King... he'll fuck up anything...' Okay, not just anything. Only his life.))
No need of a throne, though - I'm quite happy with the rock I'm perched on. It's got a great view, and enough room for all the pretty-colored tablets & capsules. I don't feel a pressing need to share my rock, but there are enough rocks just like mine for everybody.
PS - I can't vouch for the Kool-aid, however. And stick with chicken; I hear that the fish is past its expiration date.
I don't think he's that infatuated. He's starting to look exactly the way he did with Eliza
Exactly and I have noticed that behavior before in the past. We are witnessing the same type of behavior once again, unfortunately. This is not infatuation, or even "love." This is only convenience. As much as you try to bait these lovely readers to "attack" you or drag them down to your own little hell my little Mayonaise, I know *exactly* what you are trying to do. Do not even think in your arrogant and frail mind that it is going to work. I know it will not. Great minds think alike. As least mine does.
'He is the Gizzard King... he'll fuck up anything...' Okay, not just anything. Only his life.))
Ha! I prefer to call him the Gizzard King. It has a nice ring to it don't ya think? ;)
*claps enthusiastically*
WOOOHOOO!
See you guys at practice later!
Mayo, don't forget your pom-poms!
I might be a little late for practice. You guys start without me. I got to stop by the pharmacy and get stocked up for tonight. This is going to be the best kickball team ever!
What would the penalty be if I kick balls instead of *the* ball?
Make sure Mayo doesn't spike the Gatorade!
This particular blog brings images of the film trainspotting in my head. Not for its drug uses, more for the way all the users encourage each to continue their destructive habits in a safe environment. Thats the image I have with his "wife", who may even join in. She's not exactly the brightest spark.
Oh goodness, it does all go to shit after 50 posts doesn't it !
That'll be the best kickball game ever with all the chemical assistance. I've never played before, so can I help cheerlead?
the Gizzard King is a great name. I think it should be permenant, far more visual than Uncle Jiggy.
I wonder if Mayo actually reads these posts. I don't think he does. I think he likes to toy around with us.
Our name for our kickball team is the "NutBusters". I am the Nut Doctor. (Team trainer, pharmacist, and psychotherapist)
Smoke? How bout you?
Sis Midnite? You?
Ergoproxy...you are more than welcome to help cheerlead. We need some good cheers. Get to work on that.
He might think he's toying with us Anon but it's all an illusion. We are master magicians as well as expert kickball players.
Condiment, you're a busy boy aren't you? Signing and blogging your life away. Any other tricks up your sleeve? This is getting rather monotonous. Maybe Tank girl can start her own blog. She seems to love the attention.
Sister Midnite says: He is the Gizzard King... he'll fuck up anything...'
You win for making a Doors reference. ^_^
I'm quite happy with the rock I'm perched on. Hey! I'm under here, damnit! :D
sdock10 sez:: I'd rather you be an addict than an ass. I'd rather you be depressed than be a dick. I'd rather you get your heart broken a dozen times and find real love than settle for the comfortable, conveniet kind. I'd rather you be boring and honest than be a sensational fantastic lie. I'd rather you find real security in yourself and your friends than the artificial kind in pills, drugs, and booze. I'd rather you draw and sing for yourself than sell yourself and your friends out.
I'd rather you get married to me because ILU for saying all of that. I'm already engaged and Sharpie-ing with Sister Midnite and Smoke&Venom, but I think we can all share, don't you? I'm sure there has to be a preacher around here somewhere. Someone call the radio station, quick! My best friends and family are MIA, let's do this now! *Breaks out the sparkling cider*
In other words, I agree so hard.
p.s. still waiting to be completed You don't need another person for that, sdock10. ^_^ You're complete on your own, like, hmm, kinda like a nice, full-course meal. I'm thinking grilled veggies in a nice reduced balsamic on panini, maybe some spinach salad. Lovers are like dessert.*
*You devour them hungrily. Then sometimes you feel a little guilty about it later.
If there's something weird,
And it don't look good,
Whose he gonna call?
"Nutbusters"
NutBusters, Nutbusters,
Kick him in the balls !
oops sorry,
*pom poms ready Mayo?*
Nutbusters, nutbusters,
Kick that ball
Nutbusters nutbusters,
who you gonna call?
Nutbsters nutbusters
what's the fishy smell?
Nutbusters nutbusters
Give 'em Hell !!
N..u..t..b..u..s..t..e..r..s
Yaaaaaaaaaay NUTBUSTERS !!!!
*general leaping around and waving pom poms *
Kapunua !!!
I thought we were sharpieing ??
(haha that reminded me of Sharpei dogs )
*sob*
Ergoproxy-you are the official captian of the Nutbusters Cheerleading Squad!!!!
Can't you just hear Mayo now?
"You like that shit don't you?
Fuck yeah you do!"
"1st base, 2nd base, 3rd base....."
Agreed, sdock10. I've got my best kickball boots on, can't wait to get started.
You win for making a Doors reference. ^_^
Thank ya! ::bounce:: I was listening to Riders on the Storm at the time. :)
'There's no protective gear' in this kickball game, either. So Mayo, you may want to protect your boy-parts -- we may be over-medicated, but our aim is true.
Oh, Ergoproxy, I didn't mean to forget you! There are so many--I lose count! How about to make it up to you, I get my friend to send you mysterious messages? ^_~
Smoke&Venom20 said bases again...
X_o NOOOOOOO!!!!!
Oh, Sdock10! Do you have any of the yellow & greens handy???
*grumble*
"First base... second base... third base..."
GO HOME, DAMMIT!!!!
LITERALLY!!!!!!!
Okay, I'm not well. But I'm better. ^_~
WOOOHOOO!!
*runs to get little flippy skirts for self and Mayo*
that's ok Kapunua, it is hard to keep up, with all this love going around
*poms ready Mayo?, adjust your skirt, don't want the goods to show*
What do you do to a Nutbuster you meet?
You get down on your knees,
you can't pray on your feet
You ask a mighty Nutbuster for his mercy to give,
and maybe, just maybe (2 claps) he'll let you live!
Goooooooooo NUTBUSTERS
Yay Wooo *jump and shake pom poms *
*I said pompoms Mayo !!!*
Wonder how long it's gonna take the others to get mad and tell us we need take our kickball game elsewhere? Don't worry this game will be over when Mayo gets done cheering, and maybe showers, and posts another metaphorically riddled blog!!
Nutbusters! YOU GUYS RULE! I am willing to bet we will take home the championship this year!
Sis Midnite..I got you covered. Anything you need...pharmacy is now open!
Where is that damn team captain of ours anyway? Is she looking at herself in the mirror again?
I'm here damnit!!! Fuckin' traffic. Don't they know they are supposed to get out of the way when a Princess comes through?
Ergoproxy, you are the bestest cheerleader ever! Make sure Mayo does his job, damn him and make sure he is pretty enough.
Sis Midnite, he may need to borrow your go-go boots.
Where the hell is Bleeding Chaos? We need fuckin' cupcakes. Possibly brownies.
Verita Venom, I know you lurk. You are the secret strategist.
Nut Dr. - Everyone got their shit?
Let's go!
I do lurk. I lurk in lots of places actually. And I don't think that Gerard at least is gonna be leading any kickball cheers lately. He seems too busy
getting himself pepped up in bathrooms during signings. Anyone who has ever known a coke addict (or has been one) just felt that familiar tightening in their chest.
The text for anyone who doesn't want to click. it was weird...he took a bathroom break before he signed my comic
when he came back though he was all excited and extremely nice...
I'll bet.
Damn, V.V.
Way to damper the mood there.
P.S. - How do you think we lured Mayo to come and cheer? He does hold my mirrors for me, ya know, while I kick and stuff.
Come up with a super secret cool play yet?
Lindsey's not the only one with inconsistent pupils. Fuck, now I'm really angry. How could your waste your life like this? I know you can do anything you like blah blah, but you are seriously ill, man. And she totally fucks me off, cause I'm guessing she's a great influence in this relapse.
*holding pom poms looking around confused*
Where the hell did Mayo go ???
I jest but oh VV that's not a good thing. I suppose one can hope that person is just trying to provoke.
I suppose I've deep down hoped everyone has been wrong and this is just a big hoopla over nothing.
Mayo Mayo He's our man
If he can't face it
no one can
*little lonely pom pom shake*
*sigh*
OMG, I really question this girls motives. She can end up with everything.
Don't do it Mayo...Cap'n Smoke doesn't allow bathroom breaks during games and she is looking for her mirror. Come back!!
Damnit...this game has gone to shit quickly.
Where are those fucking cupcakes?
Does anyone have any information about the other signing? I'm so worried for him.
Ok mayonaise, you speak your truth for this moment, thx for the very small insight.
still... why do these words cloak this peaceful existence?
poisons
anger
love
betrayal
hurt
exclusion
secrecy
Not spoken from strangers but from ones apparently close to you.
and where is the celebratory show of affection from your brothers, remember the ones you would hurl yourself off the cliff with,if need be?
Silence is more than a word.
PS TO ALL
I went to see the tragic story, Gone with The Wind-all 4 hrs of it late last night on the big screen.
click on my blog if you want my take on it, concerning mayonaise.
`sc
Fuck. Game over. :(
Bleeding Chaos, you are officially on my shit list. I didn't have the first damn cupcake.
Now, on to the impending doom of Lyn-Z and Gerard's estate. (yes, I practice law at night)
Seems like as of right now, she is entitled to the following:
1 nights wages from Projekt Rev
1 autographed comic book of her choice
1/2 of the Sharpie collection
1 unicorn t-shirt
1 key to the east wing of the castle (hillside view)
1 red bandana (it was hers anyway)
Various remnants of cocaine-laced mirrors
and finally
Season tickets to The Nutbusters kickball games
Smoke and Venom, she's not even worth all that. But legally, the balls in HER court.
Ummmm, not sure if she even likes balls but she's got a grip on two right now and....well, ya know.
But no, she can't touch anything he had before he married her. It starts the day it is official. And the jury is still out on that one.
Only property acquired while they are married. She would receive some alimony for the whole 3 weeks they've been together but she is "self-employed" as well, not a housewife baking cookies and she's not pregnant. Ewwww. That just gave me the willies.
You dumb ass, people are genuinely scared and care for you. Your family, friends your inner circle. People you don't know. Why the fuck are you wasting everyone time with this crap? Get some fucking help. I don't want to read they found you on a floor in a hotel room.
Pregnant? People, that's next. Right around the corner, I'm sure. We may just well have our next Kurt and Courtney.
We have to tear him away from the tiled floors and mirrors first.
He needs some clarity
VV if she's a lesbian as rumored, it will be with the turkey baster.
Getting pregnant for the estate? That would be low.
Katie Scarlett O'Hara, I mean Gerard, Mayo, whoever the fuck you are today!
Get your shit together, bitch!
Tara won't last forever!
Damn Carpetbaggers, oh you are from the north aren't you? Sorry.
*thanks, sc, for giving him a new nickname.
smoke&venom20;
(laughs)
my condolences to this blog
`sc
How much would it suck to get ushered out of a building and be surrounded by hundreds of screaming, drooling teenagers? And have them holding cell phone cameras up to the window after you get in your vehicle?
I do not believe that Gerard has the personality or mental stability to be able to deal with this degree of fame. No wonder he's been going slightly mad.
Sister Midnite you talk of being in your late 20's or 30's. Try being in your 40's and realizing that this group has touched something inside you that you thought was long dead.
*waves* Same!
Fuck, I leave work and - to quote Shitsubou Shita - the whole world has gone to shit.
So now we have one excellent cheerleader (ergoproxy) who's no longer in a cheering mood, one coked-up IDIOT of a cheerleader, a princess/captain who's ready to bust a mirror in said cheerleader's ass, NO fucking cupcakes, and a trainer who's hidden the game-treats. Game over, indeed.
VV, thanks for the post -- I think.
Getting serious for a minute. I really don't give a shit who this gets back to, either.
Gerard, if I catch up with you before you stop this shit, I'll have your fucking balls for lunch. Better that they're consumed by somebody who actually DOES give two shits than that c*nt you married.
Blog THAT, muthafucker.
sister midnight and resurrected wreck - I'll add my name to your list of the aged, decrepid and "old enough to know better"
lol
I'll cheer for Truth, Honesty and Sobriety
*Yaaaaaaaay team !!*
I don't need another cheerleader, he can come back when he's ready to play clean.
*waves pom poms for the good blog commenters*
Rah Rah Rah -
1 2 3 4
you know who we're cheering for
5 6 7 8
please don't let it get too late
God Bless You, Sister Midnite.
Love Luci(fer) aka Nut Dr.
P.S. Lovie has updated his comments if you're interested.
I still have leftovers from the game...are you in?
Ergoproxy, that was really good.
I'd say that earns you the title of an honorary Nutbuster.
Smoke&Venom20? Sdock10?
Is cool with you??
Well, at least VV has helped clarify the 'complacency'.
Maybe Dr. Nut can dump all the goodies in a bowl, and pass it around.
I come bearing cupcakes*. Also the irrelevant news that every time one of you writes "pom pom" I read it as "porn porn." And I don't eve know why.
*Dessert. Like lovers, in a way. ;D
I still have leftovers from the game...are you in?
Fuck yeah, I am!
((Smoke&Venom20 is influencing me...)
I have to agree with VV. See that latest pic of Gerard in the comic book store? Sunglasses indoors, why? Didn't he once say that it was a total DICK thing to wear sunglasses inside and yet he's wearing them now. Why? What are you hiding Mr. Way?
This whole thing makes me sad and sick. I'm glad I can come here and say it without a bunch of teenies jumping down my throat.
I'm up for the passing of intoxicants! Fucked up game pissed me off. Oh, well. We'll do better next time, won't we. Fuck yeah, we will.
Mayo, you better have your little bitch ass out there with pom-poms ready, got that? No more holding MY mirrors! And no more bathroom breaks for you. Geez. Give a guy a little bit of breathing room and what happens? He gets all complacent and shit.
Thank you, Kapunua, thank you. Finally, I get some fuckin' cupcakes. Bleeding Chaos, I will deal with you later.
Ergoproxy-
You are MVP. You bring out the best in all of us with your clever rhymes. Keep it up.
Dr. Nut....pass the bowl my WAY.
Oh, and Loveman, yeah, I know you read this too. Who wouldn't? Update your damn comments a little quicker please???!!!!?!??!?!??!?!
uhhhh....Princess is tired. Need a little eye opener. Yellow and Green? HMMMM...or Blue and White Polka-dot? Just give me one of everything.
Just saw comic signing pics,
TAKE OFF THE DAMN GLASSES YOU LOOK LIKE A JERK
no one wears glasses inside,unless you are a complete tosser.(or blind or an albino)
Either he's hiding his eyes or he's a DICKHEAD
Plus I reckon he looks skinny, but hey, nice to see him smiling, it's been a while
ps. the word ill fitting sprang to mind , not that I'm being picky, I liked the vest)
Back in a bit, team... I hafta go find my ass-kicking boots.
Where is Frank when you need him? WE NEED YOU FRANK. Please, open your eyes, open your mouth, open your hands. You are the only thing that makes sense in this ridiculous band fandom sometimes.
Just saw the pictures. He appears to have an anxiety rash on his face. (I know runs in my family) and I remember reading some fangirls account of how he looked like he had spots and his head was larger in real life.
Dude, what is with the argyle sweater and tie? Is LynZ dressing you like a school boy now?
Oh, and the smile you have to see his eyes to see if it's sincere. Anyone can act happiness.
Andrea thats exactly what I was thinking. Aren't you supposed to wear proper shoes with that outfit, not converse. Sorta mismatched, poor guy looked slightly dishevelled.
Exactly anon above. A true smile is easy to see if you can see the eys.....
I think he looks a bit like a kid wearing his big brother's clothes.
plus he'd done a "something about Mary" on his hair.
(still think he's cute but)
What always made Gerard cute to me was his sincerity and his humility.
Those are gone. :(
too true, Kapunua too true
more's the pity.
I was feeling whistful
Bleeding Chaos, you are officially on my shit list. I didn't have the first damn cupcake.
*In a sardonic mocking voice*, What the fuck did I do Smoke&Venom? You know I love you too! As for Sister Midnite, thanks for taking the chance to be willing to break Mayo's balls. I'd have done the same ;)
Ergoproxy, Andrea, Kapunua, freddycharles, blackheart13 and of course Smoke&venom, I love you guys ;) And of course I love the rest of you readers too!
NutBusters, Nutbusters,
Kick him in the balls !
oops sorry,
*pom poms ready Mayo?*
Nutbusters, nutbusters,
Kick that ball
Nutbusters nutbusters,
who you gonna call?
Nutbsters nutbusters
what's the fishy smell?
Nutbusters nutbusters
Give 'em Hell !!
N..u..t..b..u..s..t..e..r..s
Yaaaaaaaaaay NUTBUSTERS !!!!
*general leaping around and waving pom poms *
Ergorproxy, you are a genuis!!!!!
I just loved reading that. Couldn't help but throw a fit of giggles to be exact ;D
Awww, Bleeding Chaos. I'm feeling the love. <3
^^We must spread the love around! All work and no play makes all the readers dull people
:D
I remember reading some fangirls account of how he looked like he had spots and his head was larger in real life.
Probably because he's so frickin' thin now. Makes his head look abnormally large.
I just want to say that maybe, just maybe, he thinks this is love, real love.
I know love at first sight happens, it happened to me, it lasted five years, i knew he drink, did drugs, but i guess i did not care at the time, all i saw was i loved him, but over time, you start to see the flaws, and little things you did not pay attention to in the beginning of the relationship, you notice habits that annoy the shit out of you.
Fast love is a learn as you go, there is no hand book, you go day by day, week by week leaning who you are together and it is fun at first, but it can go only two ways, you learn all the others dirty little secrets and accept it, or you freak out that this is the person you choose to spend your life with, there is not middle ground here.
And when one is really in love with the other and it goes bad, it gets ugly real fast, i believe she will be the first to realize this, and then his true self will emerge, i feel for both of them, cause the road there on is full of pot holes.
sorry about the spelling and grammar, but I'm late for work, so forgive please!
I hope we havent seen the last of Shitsubou Shita. There is something about the way Shitsubou writes that makes me want to hug him/her. Words that are written with humility and tinged with sorrow and despair. If you read this Shitsubou, stop blaming yourself, you cant be responsible for other peoples actions. My heart goes out to you. Please try to smile, sadness doesnt suit you.
When you are the fat loner kid who no one pays attention to in school, you secretly aspire to be loved. Often you set your sights on the least attainable girl in school. Obsessing over her, but never letting anyone know for fear of absolute ridicule.
Now fast forward 10 years. You are still the fat boy. He still lives in you and is a deep rooted part of your personality. Insecure, shy and reserved...Now the coolest chick on tour is after your ass. Who cares what she is like, you are gonna fall head over heals...why, because she is the unattainable girl from high school, of course.
bought a Ferrari once just like that. I went in and saw a red Ferrari and said, 'I'll take it!' But the fucking cost of the upkeep on a car that cost $250,000 is $2,500 per tune-up! A flat tire is $500 just to get the rim fixed. Sometimes in life you have to say, 'I don't want anymore Ferraris. I just want a nice, dependable car.' I just can't stand the drama anymore."
The best part about this is that Gerard has a Ferrari. Oh, the "it's so cool, I'll take it!" mentality, it speaks volumes.
Marry in haste, repent at leisure
Gerard has a Ferrari? Why does that seem so uncharacteristic?
That statement wasn't made by Gerard. It was made by Nikki Sixx. It's on bleedingchaos' blog, dated September 17th. The quote wasn't even really talking about Farrari's. It was comparing Farrari's to high-maintence women. Nikki just want a dependable "car". The anonymous poster must have been mistaken.
whoah. That was some game last night. Anyway, I just looked at the pictures from the comic book signing at Forbidden Planet and I have never been so shocked. I honestly did not know Gerard had cheekbones like that. I knew Mikey did, that whole chiseled GQ male model face. It is so scary. He does not look healthy at all. I know I joke alot and I can be sarcastic but damn. I just don't know what to say.
I know Gerard didn't say that, I was just saying it was the Ferrari mentality. Yes he does have a Ferrari by the way.
Now fast forward 10 years. You are still the fat boy. He still lives in you and is a deep rooted part of your personality. Insecure, shy and reserved...Now the coolest chick on tour is after your ass. Who cares what she is like, you are gonna fall head over heals...why, because she is the unattainable girl from high school, of course.
Interesting analogy. I hadn't thought about it that way, but it makes sense.
Yes he does have a Ferrari by the way.
Are you talking about the actual car, or the wife? Because she may look like a Ferrari on the outside, with the motor of a Chevette underneath.
Don't know her, don't care to. I don't have anything against her, really... I just don't like who he's been since he's been with her. And the smirk on her face coming out of the signing really bothered me.
Yes, he's been touring for a long time, and yes, he's probably tired. But he's starting to look really unhealthy. Both the Blender clip and the Forbidden Planet clip gave me the shivers, like magic pie mentioned earlier. And the so-called wedding pic? He looks happy, yes, but his eyes look like he's cooked out of his skull.
I know I'm always goofing around here, but after last night's ruined kickball game, I haven't felt much like laughing. Something is really wrong with him -- it's not just just smoke & mirrors anymore, but a fact. Anyone who isn't seeing it just doesn't want to open their eyes. :\
::siiiigh::
Fuck - there's more.
Look what I found (another teenie comment):
this may be stupid, but in tht picture on the first page of this thread, doesnt anyone else think his nose looks, idk, swelled up? not wanting to cause waves or anything, but it does look all red and swelled up ...
Does the name Pavlov ring any bells???
Exactly, Sister Midnite.
After seeing that picture of him today, it's like a reality check all over again. It was fairly easy to keep a check on what he's doing while Projekt Rev was still going on, but now there aren't pictures being downloaded everyday and you kind of don't know what's going on. I knew he had lost some weight while they were touring, even from April to August. It was a pretty dramatic transformation. He didn't even look the same. And now? Who the hell is that man?
I don't know why everyone is thinking she was the cool chick in the tour. Probably one of the only single chicks there. I don't know, she was 28 year old, alone maybe, her band plays in shitty venues she meets shitty guys (if she's not gay as rumored). She then meets a basically shy not very worldly around women guy(he may uses them but doesn't understand them) with money and power . It's like High school, everyone one trying to suck up or be in favor with the cool guy. Sex may have been offered straight away. This was so intense it was mistaken for love. Game,set, match. You know the saying "keep a man well fed and well fucked and he'll never leave."
I know Gerard didn't say that, I was just saying it was the Ferrari mentality. Yes he does have a Ferrari by the way.
My mistake. Your post made it sound like Gerard said it. It may have been less confusing had you explained what you meant by having a Farrari-the car, or a "Farrari"- the wife. But, as I said, my mistake.
You said it, Anon!
The way he sweats, you'd have to have a metabolism of zero not to lose weight. But he's starting to look like one of those kids on the World Vision commercials that are geared to make you feel like shit. :(
Maybe she could concentrate a little more on feeding him and a little less on the backbends...
Just sayin'.
^^And by "Farrari", I really meant "Ferrari". Sorry about my car name stupidity. I don't see many of those.
I haven’t watched the IDLY video in a while, so I decided to pull it up. First of all, that is a beautiful and absolutely stunning video. I believe, and correct me if I am wrong, it was filmed late February/early March. Well, there it was…that shiny ring on his finger.
This all makes me put myself in the new Mrs. Gerard Way’s shoes. If I was in her position and I was dating a man who within the last year had broken off what he considered to be a marriage, then to become engaged to another woman what 6 months later, and then ending that start dating this man only to have the suggestion of marriage brought up I don’t know within a few weeks of “dating”. I would have to seriously consider myself fucked in the head to marry him. She really is fucking crazy. And if she is in this for love, I feel very sorry for her. We study history so that we don’t make the same mistakes, so that we may learn. Considering the timeline of our Gerard’s love life there is much to learn.
03/06 recorded TBP, broke up with long term girlfriend ("like a marriage")
10/06 release TBP
*sighting with EC
11/06 start touring
*sightings/speculations with EC
02/07 first sighting of the ring
05/07? announces that he is engaged (never verbally confirms w/who)
06/07 or 07/07 announces engagement off
07/25/07 PR tour starts
09/03/07 married
Does this seem like the relationship style of a mentally sound individual?
-VM
You make me laugh, Sister Midnite.
Maybe she could feed him while doing a backbend? No? Maybe not.
LOL I did mean Ferrari the car, Gerard has a Ferrari. He is compensating for something.
Yes, he is TOTALLY fucked in the head when it comes to women and when it comes to himself. The patience it takes to be around someone like him!
He did look "totally cooked" in that wedding picture.
Yes, they are totally using each other. Believe me, she is no "Ferrari", just listen to the stuff her own bandmate the illustrious Jimmy Urine has to say about her. "Oh yeah I had her too." Bet that makes Gerard feel great. If she is a Ferrari believe me, she is a used one who needs body work and all is not right under the hood, if you know what I mean.
The thing is, she will get what she needs out of this, which is a high profile husband who will get fame for her band and a nice tour to start it off with. And at the end of the day Gerard will still be lonely Gerard, even though he may have a few good months, or years if he is stubborn enough to stretch it out that long, of pretending that he is fulfilled.
And he will be stubborn enough to try to stretch it out for as long as possible. Do you know how stupid and pathetic he would look if he got a divorce anytime soon? Yeah, so does he.
You make me laugh, Sister Midnite.
Smoke&Venom20, it's what I'm here for. I do take some shit seriously, but it's more fun to laugh about things than bitch about them.
Maybe she could feed him while doing a backbend? No? Maybe not.
As long as I don't have to think about WHAT she'd be feeding him. ::gags::
She dresses like she's twelve.
If her culinary skills are as good as her fashion sense, he'll be a skeleton by the end of the month!
So why is it that just because he went on a bathroom break and came out happy it implied he did bad things? Maybe the dude took a shit. :) Heck, after all that coffee, I bet it was a relief.
*goes back to catching up*
Her outfit is for the stage. And I think she looks really cute. I do agree that she should look for something different, just because it's time for a change.
Also, I think Gerard looked cute in the tie/sweater. Why is everyone picking on all the little things? It's starting to sound like highschool in here.
(sorry, I get fiesty after a couple whiskeys :)... not meaning to make anyone mad; I think I'm just pissed because I missed the kickball game.)
Anon30, I don't really care about what she wears; lots of people dress like that. I'm just sayin' that she doesn't seem like she's all that mature.
Nobody said nuthin' about how he's dressed - he's just so skinny!!!
eeeeeeekkkkkkk! I did not care to picture that Anon30.
I thought about that as well, not taking a shit but maybe he just went to take a piss. It's possible. The whole bathroom break isn't even the issue. Did you really look at his picture??? SKELETOR! For Real. Not even being funny. I think everyone here is worried about HIM, not about what kind of shirt he had on or how cute he is/was.
P.S.- Don't even think about missing another fuckin' game, got that? Princess Smoke&Venom20 will be very upset. I will send Sister Midnite after you with her ass-kicking boots.
Well-put, Smoke&Venom20.
If he gets any thinner, Lyn-Z will be shaking the sheets to find him!
Next kickball game will commence as soon as Dr. Nut returns with a new batch of game-day treats!!
Also, I think Gerard looked cute in the tie/sweater.
Actually, I have to agree with you there. Though his choice of footwear kind of ruined the outfit.
Does anyone have any links to photos where he looks skinnier? I just saw some from the chest up.
*And apparently Sister Midnite, I also get stupid after a couple whiskeys. ;) I must have read that somewhere else in blogland.*
So here is my next point. Maybe he is back on anti-depressants. I lost some weight after getting back on them. Thoughts?
Btw, "Nutbusters" cracked me up. The songs and everything!
What shoes was he wearing? I remember the VMA's or something years ago, when they were all dressed up. I believe some were wearing shoes that really didn't formally agree. Dress shoes can look kind of lame. But Toro, he was cute as all hell, even with the dressier shoes.
I wonder if his boots finally died.
Anon30, you're not stupid, just over-medicated. (Check Buzznet for new pics.)
Just been informed that Tandoori is on the menu, better go pretty up in case I have to put out! ^_~
I'll show off the new & improved NutBuster Slide® when I get back. :D
Have fun tonight Sister Midnite! And don't think of it as "putting out." Make him give you something and then tell him you need to go home. Haha!
I checked out the photos. So converse shoes and wide-angle shots. Wide-angle can make anyone look like a bobblehead.
What shoes was he wearing?
Sneakers:
http://www.buzznet.com/tags/mychemicalromance/photos/?id=23098251&p=8
Not very dapper.
There are pictures up wear he isn't wearing the shades.
sorry you missed the game Anon30
so:...
ready and...*waving pompoms*
Anon30, anon30
s/he's our man,
if s/he can't do it,
no one can !!
YaaaaaaaaY Anon30
WooHooo *leaping up and down with pompoms*
btw I think Gerard looked quirky and cute,
but it did look a bit ill fitting
and I thought his face looked thinner
but maybe he's on Atkins ( or whatever trendy diet is doing the rounds)
I like the analogy with the popular girl - I would probably feel exactly the same.
But the timing still doesn't bode well.
Eroproxy - I'm in love with the cheer. And how cute, you even gave the option for he/she. You are awesome. And as you assumed, yes I am a lady. But I belch really loud, so ... it is questionable at times :).
I do agree as well with the anon post about the "popular girl." Interesting perspective. Yes, the timing is a little weird, but I do think they make quite a match. I can dig it.
Thank you RW for the link. Very sweet of you.
Martha Jones - I saw a couple w/o the shades too.
Back to CHEERING!
http://www.imnotokay.net/board/topic/36710/230/
page of recent photos
without glasses.
still think he looks thinner.
I can't seem to get the pictures on INO. I'll check later. Thanks for posting the link.
In my opinion, it's silly to say just because so and so did it, that's why he did what he did; that just because he is a certain age, he HAD to get married. I think it is absurd, just judging from experience.
Does anyone know what it is like to be on tour? You are away from all of your family and all that is familiar. The people on the road become family. And time stands still. You have long days. You have long nights. Them being together for just a short period is a lifetime on tour.
Ummm, now I'm babbling. Someone save me :).
WHen Gerard broke his engagement to Eliza he did an interview where he said that he felt he had to be married because he was the older brother and everyone was wondering why he dind't get married first. Hmmm sound like it coul dbe on his mind the whole time.....
^I have never heard of that interview. Please reference.
Marriage is on everyone's mind. You are a liar if you say it isn't. Relationships are the spice of life. Some are short and bitter, some are short and sweet, others are long and questionable, and others are long and wonderful. Timing is strange when it comes to the people you meet. Yet timing is everything. I still think this relationship is good, but others with disagree and that's okay.
I have yet to see any recent photos without the sunglasses on...then again, I don't have much time to look. As for anti depressants, the only one that should cause weight loss would be Wellbutrin (that could arguably help him stop smoking too) but the rest tend to cause weight GAIN. That is, in the SSRI category anyway. (Wellbutrin is not an SSRI) Ok, I am getting boring and technical now....sorry. This lack of information regarding "
Mr.Mayo" is driving me nuts.
Marriage is on everyone's mind. You are a liar if you say it isn't.
So I'm a liar? Sorry, but generalizations can go to hell. The only time marriage is on my mind is when people are telling me that it is or that it should be, and then I'm telling them that they can go to hell with their generalizations and that's pretty much the end of it.
I agree, Marriage is NOT always on everyone's mind....it was on mine only shortly before I got married...and I still at times think I'd be better off single. Nevertheless, marriage does not define me or change ME in any way. I am and always will be MY OWN PERSON. In contrast, I think that is exactly what Gerard is looking for...
http://www.news.com.au/couriermail/story/0,23739,22055675-5003421,00.html
"Being very unattached right now, I still don't care about that stuff."
In contrast to Way's all-too brief engagement, the singer's little brother, My Chem's bassist Mikey, was married in March.
Since then, My Chem have been touring without Mikey, allowing him to settle into married life with his wife Alicia. (Way assures that his brother will be back on deck by the time the band reaches Australia in late November).
At 30, Way is three years older than Mikey, and admits that watching his younger brother get hitched provoked some strange feelings.
"It's an interesting perspective because, being the oldest, people assume you're getting married first, you're going to have kids first.
"So, it was definitely a sign that I was getting older, even before my birthday," he laughs."
There's your source. Gerard himself.
I'm sorry Kapanuna. I think it didn't come across all that well. I do believe that everyone has thoughts of marriage on their mind. Not technical marriage in all cases, but a certain something that is solid in one's life. It can be a lot of things. Everyone is different. I know a lot of people that are single. Doesn't phaze me either way. But I'm sure they gave life/marriage/career some thought before they decided, which in my mind equals all of us thinking about unions or lack there of. Being single is absolutely fine. And I'm sure people get a lot of crap for it; but I would never give them trouble for something that fit them. It's not my business.
And Freddycharles, I appreciate your insight. Drug effects in any form have some type of effect that should be recognized. Whether prescribed or illegal. It's important.
However, I can say more times than not, anti-depressants attribute to weight loss. Usually weight gain is in the 'possible side effects' pamphlet. Weight gain can happen, just not in a lot of cases. I've seen more weight loss than weight gain - on a variety of people on a variety of anti-depressants.
Thanks Anon. Interesting.
I find it more factual rather than emotional. Just my initial thought. It does not speak of Gerard wanting to catch up. He was just stating what was going on at that point. Seems pretty normal to me.
I think Alicia and Mikey got married way too young. Does it mean that my opinion is valid? Yes. But should I make a judgement? No.
That made sense when I first thought of it, right now I can't figure it out. Haha!
Well, we live in a society that tells us we have to be paired up in order to be "normal" and that if we're not paired up by a certain age, we must be lacking in some way. Even people who don't mean to say it are saying it. TV says it. Movies say it, music, magazines, ALL media. Romance is a product. It is mass produced and sold, and most everyone is lining up to buy. Most everyone.
Some of us choose not to be your typical consumer, is all. So yes, I'd have to agree that at some point we've all thought about marriage, much in the same way that at some point we've all thought about cars and trees and houses and why the sky is blue and what happens when we die and what if we get sick etc. But that doesn't mean that we're all considering getting married or even all wanting to get married.
Personally, I can't even imagine how unhappy I would be if I were roped into something like that, but I don't judge people who want to be paired up--even if those same people are judging me because I'm not.
I am able, however, to spot desperation across a crowded continent. ^_~
Being Normal.
What a debate.
That's why psychology sucks. Statitics can only tell you so much. Yet even with stats, you have to refer to some many other factors. Most of the stats we casually read about are not accurate. Fact. Usually most stats are bs. Just like most things in life.
Otherwise, I think we are all okay. There is truly a reason for our contribution in the world. Whether you realize it or not; all is important.
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