I have righted myself before you.
Pulled the knife out of my wound,
And shoved it back in yours.
Like you knew I would.
Like you knew I could.
Before I ever had a name
You knew it was there,
Everything for you
And you know it, and I
Know it still, the same.
p.s. who is driving who or...what?
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Any thing to add now MJ, you fuck?
I'm sure MJ will come here and add her own special brand of class and say something to the effect that she will use you for toilet paper.
cut it out..no one has said anything about anybody here...no sense baiting people, that's wrong.Its already very sad she has suffered two major losses in such a short span of time... don't compound it.This is not the time and she doesn't need to come here and read that.
Nothing to do with Kapu, but in general MJ is a very shitty person. I don't know how anyone is able to tolerate her attitude.
I agree it's wrong to bait MJ or Wendy though. They will take any excuse they can get and they WILL take the bait as an excuse to treat her like shit. Don't ask them to start.
shakes head
Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night
Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
And you, my father, there on that sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
by
- Dylan Thomas
Please, I implore you, show compassion. Think long and hard before you type. I don't want to read any shitty comments here. Not this time.
That's good advice for everyone. All anons and regs. Visitors from Verita's and lj included. There's no excuse to come here and try to start or stir shit. Not if they have any respect for the person or the family they claim to care about.
Everybody do what Carrie does and call your father if you are lucky enough to still have him, and say you love him.
Kapu, Carrie, Anima and Miss Tot all recently lost theirs and we who still have ours can only imagine their pain.
Miss Tot didn't lose her father recently but the wound does not heal.
Paperheartxx did lose her brother recently.
To Brighten The Mood
Oh yeah. PH's brother too. It's all so awful. He was very young.
Hi guys, I'm not staying long as computer is on a go slow but I wanted to say hi to everyone.
OK fun comments. LOL OPJ and Wendy, you interest in my ladybits are so kind. PP LOL it had better be an orchid after this. GS (great to see you again) I cringe everytime I have to look at it.
Sad comments. I was so sad to hear about K's dad. I can totally sympathise. K, if you are reading this, though I'm sure it's the last thing on your mind right now, I understand what you are going through. But even though I've been there, I know nothing I can say right now will ease the pain for you. I'm here should you need to talk sweetie.
Miss Tot didn't lose her father recently but the wound does not heal.
Paperheartxx did lose her brother recently.
Anon you are right. I lost my father in 2002 and the wound doesn't heal. My father just collapsed at home, I tried to rescusitate him and managed to get him breathing three times but we just couldn't hold him. The paramedics couldn't hold him either once they arrived. I'm so glad I tried. I know in my heart I couldn't have done any more but I'm glad I got the chance to try. I wouldn't give up those last few minutes for all the money in the world. I know that when the end came, we were so close that his last breath was really mine. No one can take that away from me.
What has happened to K sounds errily familiar and it breaks my heart that someone else has had to go through a similar ordeal.
K sweetie, I feel awful talking about my dad as I feel that I'm trying to bring it round to me when it should be about you, but I just don't know any other way to let you know that I DO totally understand where you are right now and if you need to talk, I'm here for you.
Goodnight guys, take care everyone.
xxxxx
*runs in
hugs mayo
hugs misst
hugs ss
runs out*
*hugs kapunua*
MissTottenham said...
I know that when the end came, we were so close that his last breath was really mine.
No one can take that away from me.
:)
For all those who know the pain of losing a loved one.
Your Loved One lives In Your Heart
Many tender memories soften your grief,
May fond recollection bring you relief,
And may you find comfort and peace in the thought
Of the joy that knowing your loved one brought...
For time and space can never divide
Or keep your loved one from your side
When memory paints in colors true
The happy hours that belonged to you.
~Helen Steiner Rice
You know, I don't know if anyone's remembered Dei Gratia, and how she lost her father in '07, very very suddenly and unexpectedly. *hugs*
Or Elena, who lost her father three years ago and still hurts as much as she did when it first happened.
Wendy lost her father nine years ago. That was after losing her brother.
Miss T's dad is gone.
TJ's father passed several years ago; I'm not sure when, sorry, TJ.
Anima lost her father this year. d
I'm sorry to say I don't know anything about BC's, Lewis' or MJ's fathers, but I hope they're alive and well.
Amy still has her father. So do Ergo and L. They're lucky. :)
And yes, PH lost her brother this year too. I know that's been hard on her.
I don't know about anyone else, but if I've missed someone, I apologize.
My point here is, there are many, many of us who HAVE lost our dads. What an unfortunate event in a woman's life it is to lose her father. There's the "Daddy's little girl" idea, no matter how old you are when it happens. The hole that loss rips out of your life can't be filled with anyone else (although stepfathers do try).
I will offer my condolences, although I expect them to be thrown back in my face.
Carrie Anon, before you start cursing us blindly, not too long ago the love, healing energies, and prayers sent by this bunch of "sick bitches" helped save the life of my best friend, L. The drs in the ICU had given her zero chance to live through the night. Once the "prayer circle" started--here, I might add--her condition turned around by half, in three hours.
That's no curse.
Oh, and don't let me forget: my own father's been gone 21 years. I was 22 when he passed. He was 65. Not an old man by any means.
I still can hear him laughing.
xo jen
*hugs j*
If you can't say something nice...
My point, 8.12, was that many of us know the pain of losing our fathers. That we can relate.
*hugs 8.10*
I don't know about MJ's father. Her mother died of stomach cancer several years ago.
Carrie Anon, before you start cursing us blindly, not too long ago the love, healing energies, and prayers sent by this bunch of "sick bitches" helped save the life of my best friend, L. The drs in the ICU had given her zero chance to live through the night. Once the "prayer circle" started--here, I might add--her condition turned around by half, in three hours.
A bunch of sick bitches can help make miracles happen. How's L feeling?
Carrie,
Even if the current compassion may be false, it is more decent (and less offensive) to offer than your earlier comment. Do you not see what followed? You may have wanted to stand up for your friend here but This Time, there was no need. You just turned the tide ugly, once again.
Any cruelty begets more cruelty. Despite if the first intentions are "good."
It would be so incredible if either side could simply Let It Go.
My condolences to Kapunua. May you and you're family find strength in each other through this difficult time.
"
I will offer my condolences, although I expect them to be thrown back in my face.
"
Which is exaclty why they SHOULD be. Because you can't say anything nice without implying that she's a bitch too.
I disagree. No compassion is worse than false compassion.
"You act like that bitch is the only one who ever lost her Dad. Oh well, my condolences, even though the bitch doesn't deserve them."
Yup. Any excuse to take a stab at her.
Ah, twisting my words again, I see.
L is doing wonderfully, 8.31, thank you for asking. We were talking about that night this morning, as a matter of fact, and how amazing her turnaround was. It really was miraculous.
Now, let me say this. My compassion for anyone losing a loved one is true. My examples were to enforce the idea that K is not alone in her grief. Many of us have been through it too. My reference to her refusing condolences should remind you of another instance where that very thing happened. I simply wanted to say that I know where I stand.
I'm sorry to hear that her father passed. It IS painful, and traumatic. I hope she and her family can get through it alright.
Hello J,
How are you?
Hello Martha, I'm good, how are you?
I am alright.What have you been up to.
How is L an hello to he as well
hello j., hello martha.
it was november 2006, j., and that's okay.
i've got some searches to do; i'll be back in a little while.
hello TJ,
how are you?
J were did you go? Did a black hole come and take you away.
Not a black hole, Martha, the phone! Sorry about that. L says hey, by the way. How are all your kitties doing?
Hey TJ, see you in a bit!
I don't know where two of them are. Well I don't know where any of them right now.
How are your fur kids.
Furry as ever. Rain's asleep; Dumplin's wandering around waiting for his supper; and Pinkle's asleep too. I do need to feed them, would you mind waiting while I do that? Won't take long.
If you know she doesn't want condolences then why would you give them? Either to show off to Mayo and your beloved SS or to hurt her.
And yeah the jist of that was "remember when she was a bitch when her grandmother died"?
No one had to do any twisting.
sure
Ok, I'm back, Martha. Hey, I was gonna ask you, is Dr Who still on, and who plays him now?
Ok The last episode they showed was a special. There are 3 more. The next one is DT's last I think than Matt smith.
New DR
The next episodes run some thing in November. Than I think it takes a break for about a year
Have you seen Torchwood Children of Earth yet I haven't. I have it on my computer.
Hmm. DT's much better suited for the role, I think. This new guy looks kind of...waxy-pale. Almost vampiric. What else has he done?
I've never watched Torchwood. *ducks head to avoid thrown pillow* I know, I'm pitiful. What's it about?
Our big TV in the living room's broken and we haven't gotten the new one brought down here yet. Haven't seen much of any TV since, um, Feb? I think.
IT is a DR who spin off. Starting Captain Jack.
As far as Matt smith goes no idea what he has been in. I will let him as the DR be my first impression.
There is a video from comic con of captain jack kissing the dr. Well the actors are kissing.
*fans self*
Really?
>.<
Wow. That sounds...interesting.
O_o
It was a short fast kiss from what I saw.
*sigh*
Oh well.
We saw Harry Potter 6 when it came out, have you seen that yet?
OK for me it comes down to this. If OPJ or Amyranth wanted to send "condolences" to Kapu for her HUGE losses in her life, they should email her instead of doing it on the blog. If they think that Kapu wouldn't want to hear from them in email, then why even bother doing it in public on the blog.
Unfortunately I think the answer to that is painfully clear.
Not yet. the last movie I saw as up. Did you enjoy HP6
I really don't think they were doing it "on the blog" as it were, to try and curry favor with anyone. I think, since she said a long time ago she was blocking their emails, it was the only avenue they had.
It was the best one so far. The effects were great, but the acting is the focus this time. All the "kids" have grown to be really good actors. There's more humor in this one, too. Michael Gambon (Dumbledore) was excellent. He was such a good choice after Richard Harris died.
How was Up?
If she was blocking their emails, what would make them think that she would want to hear from them, period? Believe me, they know she doesn't want condolences from them, she made it clear the last time she suffered a loss. Why do something to her she doesn't want?
Simple. For Mayo and SS.
I liked it. Not as good as Wallie. To me but still a good movie .
Yeah, you're probably maybe right, but I still like to think the best of people.
I wanted to see Burn After Reading in the theatre, but missed it. It's out on On Demand, but we don't get that anymore with our new cable company.
I saw part of Mamma Mia last week and sang ABBA songs for like 5 days.
I like to try to see the best too. But after experiencing this blog, I really can't. Sigh.
I want to go see Panyo by the sea and HP 6. I am waiting for my friends to be available to see those movies.
Who is your new cable provider?
Say you had a neighbor who was shitty and shouted insults at you and posted yoru private info all over your street and you had told them to leave you alone. Then you lose a family member. You don't want a private sympathy card from them in your mail do you? No. So would you want them standing int he middle of the street shouting their condolences to you?
Especially if they think it will impress the mayor of the block?
you have mayors of your blocks where you live? how odd.
It's a company that serves the Southeast only; they provide cable, phone, and Internet in bundle packs.
Just sent you an email, btw. :)
Hello again TJ. :)
hey there j., i love your kitty names. :)
sorry i wasn't around to chat tonight. i got my searches done, and then i found a whole bunch of filters in the photo editor on this computer -- i've been monkeying around with them. *heh*
have a good night, ok?
sweet dreams, you guys.
Got it and replied. Email them and tell them that you are unhappy with the lack of products.
hello tj
goodnight tj
I suppose not, anon. But I probably wouldn't leave flaming dog poop on their porch, or crucify their pets or anything either. I would just ignore what I didn't want, and move on.
As always, TJ shows just where she stands.
Nobody is getting crucified. Just pointing out that it's the wrong thing to do to force "condolences" on someone who has already stated that she doesn't want to hear from you. And then the added tackiness of doing it just to impress other people.
Goodnight TJ, see you later.
Martha, it was the apt complex's decision to change providers. We can't go back to the old one. The whole place gets wired for one company and you have to use it whether you like it or not.
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to imply that anyone was getting crucified, I actually kind of agree with you, but I am conflicted.
It's OK I didn't mean to snap. I just put myself in her place. If I had lost someone I loved and someone did that to me. And the previous implication that she was a bitch for not wanting to hear from them (even if you're going to force "condolences" on someone who said they didn't want ot hear from you, and even if you were going to use that to impress someone. Do you really need to tack on what a bitch you think she is and that she's not the only person who lost her dad)?
I would hit the ceiling. I sincerely hope she never comes here again. Not because I hate her but because I like her.
After reading Carrie's rant I said Uh oh, this will give them an excuse to attack Kapunua again. Then I thought maybe they'd not do it because hello, someone has died.
I wouldn't call this an "attack" but the passive aggressive "bitch don't want my condolences but she's getting them anyway, see Mayo and SS"? might be just as bad.
I do think this place is probably last on her list of things she will look at for a long, long time, so I doubt she will even see the arguing that went on. Or at least I hope so. Good night to all, and thanks for the food for thought, other anon.
I hope she doesn't check either. i'd go ballistic if it was me and I saw some people who hate me saying things like that at such a traumatic time.
Have good night anon.
mayo,
but sometimes this ant still wants to be the grasshopper. *sigh*
today was one of those stay-at-home productive kind of days, a lovely bright hot day, a late summer day in which i had the fleeting wish i was tiny enough to fit into the bird bath and play under the fountain.
tonight's a murkier sort of night, for a whole little pile of reasons, but why list them? i don't want to give you such a tangle.
so it's the sun, and sparkle of falling water, and the scent of droplets and green grass and hot pavement. that was the part of my day that i share with you, mayo. if you had been there i would've splashed you, to be sure.
*heh*
hope you're well, my friend, and having an easy night and sweet dreams.
I'm with you 12:21. Passive aggressive is exactly what it is.
That sucks. But i still think you can call and let them know both the people who run the place and the company that you are not satisfied.
TJ, I'm sorry, but you seem like a snake tonight. I seem to remember Kapu was very nice to you when you had your health scare. Making jokes over how your friends treat her when her father has died seems very "laughing at her with the popular kids in the locker room" to me.
^THIS, but not so surprising. TJ has always been up front about who she likes. Maybe not upfront about who she DISlikes but she has made it clear where she stands.
Well, I may do that, Martha. At least their services are less expensive than the other companies' were. Instead of three bills, we now only have the one. But honestly, as much TV as we normally watch, it may not be worth it.
I guess that's true. But I'm still surprised. I never thought she was like that, to laugh about something like that or joke about it. LOLies with her friends the popular crew.
goodnight tj
Most of my stuff is in reruns or not on at all. So I am not watching much tv either.
Jif i run to take a shower will you be here when I get back?
Sure, I'll hang out.
ok brb
back
Still here. Getting sleeeeeeeeeeeeeepy, though.
Sorry it took me so long. The water took longer than normal to get hot.
Oh that's ok. Not your fault. What's doing tomorrow for you?
I am helping out a friend.
I have to run errands: post office, used book store, PetSmart, CVS, Wal-Mart. Saving that one til last b/c I'll be beat by then and won't want to go anywhere else!
what are you up to in the morning
was at Walmart today.
I plan to get up, shower, eat, and go. Usually I don't get started til about 2 or 3 pm, and then don't get back until 6 or 7. I'd kinda like to get it all over with before 5 if I can.
My sister wants me to look for a ceramic tea set for her daycare. Seems the little girls want to have a tea party. :I
When I was little. My father got me one. I wanted Optimus Prime but the tea set was $10 and he was $20.
Prime would have been a better investment
HAHAHAHAHA, that's the truth!
My mom had this beautiful miniature china tea set that she gave me a few years ago. I used to play with it when I was little. She said since I had loved it so well then that I should have it now. That was really sweet of her.
Believe it or not, I never broke any of the little pieces.
I don't know what happened to that tea set. It was a waste as well. I had brothers at the time no sisters. They both got transformers so they were off playing with them and i had my tea set. To play with alone.
Yeah, I had tea parties for me and my stuffed animals. Not many, though, b/c it bored me after a while. Not enough stuff to do. Even then I would rather have read. :)
Bookworm from the start, bookworm to the end.
I think I'm gonna head for bed now, Martha, my eyes are starting to hurt. I'll try to be back on tomorrow night, ok? Hope you have a good day tomorrow--take care.
Goodnight Mayo, be well, be safe.
xo jen
Goodnight J and L
sweet dreams
Dear SS,
Well, I got nothin'. I didn't do anything worth talking about today. I didn't go anywhere. I mostly read, cleaned some, and tended to the fur babies. Hope you were more productive than I was.
Missing you lots.
Goodnight, baby. I love you.
My heart to yours, always.
xo jen
Mayo
Sweet dreams tonight and a beautiful day tomorrow. That is my wish for you. And remember....
The worst regret you can have in life is not for the wrong things you did, but for the things that you did not do.
Take care and know I'm keeping you in my thoughts.
Night Mayo
Elena
SS
I know I do not speak to you all that much but believe me that does not mean you are not in my thoughts. You always are. Stay safe and true to yourself. Miss ya.
Elena
Good very early morning (or very late night) Mayo, SS, J (and L), Martha, Ergo, Elena, TJ, MissT, Amy, KOL anon, Sweetcheeks, Lewis, Possum, FASC, Anima, GS, everyone!
How are you all tonight?
I see it was an "interesting" night. "Interesting", that is, if you enjoy watching piranha feed.
Those piranha certainly did go at their "food", didn't they? Razor sharp bite after razor sharp bite. For one purpose only. To feed their own vicious appetites.
Gnawing at old wounds, ripping through scar tissue, making new wounds, creating more pain, tearing flesh from bone, doing their best to make sure there is no healing... ever. Bloodying the waters more and hoping more of their kind will join the feeding frenzy.
Well, that is what those little piranha do. They think of only one thing. Themselves, what they want: their own furious appetites. They'll use their own injured for bait. They'll eat their own as long as they feel they're getting what they want. The sick satisfaction of an overfilled belly.
Perhaps it's time to clear the waters and bring in some maggots? Maggots that can eat away the infection so real healing can begin.
Moving away from the piranha, now...
Martha: You will be very proud to know that I have been catching up on my Dr. Who!!!! What the hell is wrong with that man? He better grab you while he can!
;)
J: It's so good to see you back!!! I was worried about you!
*huge hugs for you and L*
Sweetcheeks: I'm heading to the mailroom right now. I'm so sorry it's taking me so long. It's been a crazy summer!!!
KOL anon: Hell yeah "let's do it"! Just imagine the damage the two of us, with all our blonde blondiness (and our long, dark eyelashes) could do! Oh, and don't bother looking for a club at the mall. I already have one from the HSUS!
Of course, now I must ~ also ~ plan to see Green Day! I'm so happy to hear you had such a great time and I hope you made it home safely!
That is all for now, I think.
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ, Mya, SC, DW, No one, DA and Miranth!
PS: I've never liked piranah. I don't found their feeding frenzies interesting at all. Just brutal and cruel.
Ooops! Please excuse that grammatical error. That PS should have read as follows:
PS: I've never liked piranah. I don't FIND their feeding frenzies interesting at all. Just brutal and cruel.
*blows kisses to blog believe*
Shucks! I was so busy fighting off the piranah that I almost forgot to sing... ALMOST!
Due to the fact that I will be seeing these guys in 15 days:
~I'll be Two Steps Behind~
Def Leppard!!!!
and:
~The DREAM POLICE they live inside of my head...~
Hell yeah! Cheap Trick!!!!
But wait, that's not all. I'll also be seeing these guys:
~Hit it CC! You know I never, I never seen you look so good; You never act the way you should, but I like it...~
POISON!!!!
*exits while finishing the song*
~~And I know you like it too
The way that I want you
I gotta have you
Oh yes, I do
You know I never
I never ever stay out late
You know that I can hardly wait
Just to see you
And I know you cannot wait
Wait to see me too
I gotta touch you
Chorus:
Cause baby well be
At the drive-in
In the old mans ford
Behind the bushes
Till Im screamin for more
Down the basement
Lock the cellar door
And baby
Talk dirty to me
You know I call you
I call you on the telephone
Im only hoping that youre home
So I can hear you
When you say those words to me
And whisper so softly
I gotta hear you
Chorus
C.c. pick up that guitar and talk to me
Solo, chorus out~~
I did like that!!!!
:P
Good Morning
told someone who teased her about her dead dog, to stick her head in a bucket of ticks.
Actually, that had nothing to do with any dead dog.
She was losing a political debate and that was her response. I'm sure both Mayo and SS remember the facts of the debating anon being told to stick their head in a bucket of ticks.
Keep trying Carrie and Elisabeth and anyone else who wants to lie, twist words, make fools of themselves and show their true colors.
How do those bluebirds taste? Enough blood for you? Want more?
You're such a fool 8:06.
Orly? What part of that comment was inaccurate and me a fool, anon?
They do not lie.
They do not twist people's words.
They did not get their facts wrong.
What part of that comment makes me a fool anon?
I think fools are people who can not think for themselves. Who only believe what they are told. Lies and half truths. People who are too lazy to find the facts for themselves. Those people are true fools.
Good day to you.
Mayo,
very full on day, very busy but also not helped when an hour after school began a 16 yo boy was sent to me, followed soon after by yelling as another male student came after him, ready to do real physical harm. Fortunately headed off before he got in to the room, who then proceeded to punch the wall beside (narrowly missing) my co-teacher. He was removed to calm down and the other to sort out what precipitated it. Never a dull moment :/
glad tomorrow is just tutoring!
take care Mayo
EP xx
SS
After an eventful first hour to the day, the rest was fairly calm, thank goodness! I am really grateful I work with male teachers who will jump in to help with incidents like that. Shame it has to happen at all though, hopefully it won't again. So are you well? I hope so. Hope also that your week is shaping up to be a satisfying one
lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve, see you in my morning
♥xx♥
You don't get it, do you 8:06/8:29/8:37?
It doesn't matter anymore.
oh my gosh, that good morning pic is like a fairy tale! what a beautiful thing to see today. thank you. :)
so, i don't normally address the anons anymore, but i'd like to say this to 12:29, 12:32, et al. -- what you saw was me making a single comment about something i found amusing in what 11:58 wrote. that's all.
you don't know what i'm feeling about what kapunua is going through. it is actually none of your business. i appreciate that you feel protective of her in this difficult time, though. please do keep her in your thoughts.
anyway, i'm at the shop, it's my monday, and i can think of a bajillion places i'd rather be right now.
talk to you all later tonight.
ciao.
And then is heard no more: it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.
9:04,
It may not matter to you anymore. It may not matter to me. It does still matter to a few people here.
*shakes head*
There is not much worse than feeling as though you have been abandoned in a time of need. So many here have felt that way. So many have felt used, betrayed, unprotected, discarded. It's heartbreaking.
It's not even Mayo/SS's fault. Too many expections were placed upon them. Too many cries and screams for attention from some. They were used as pawns as much as other people here. For what?
It's been one big tug-o-war and struggle for blog stardom for some from day 1. Some are still pulling and tugging that rope. Trying to make the other side fall face first in the slop. Humilate them. Kick them. Mock them and make excuses.
It's never going to end. They'll always come up with some reason to bring up the past. Some will try to protect and defend the ones they care about.
One side will do it by calling the side sick and evil bitches and the other side will basically say fuck you.
There will be too many insults and not enough apologies.
What else is new?
*joins 9:36*
It's all so sad.
For what?
Why was any of this done?
How did it get this far? This out of control?
You're right about the feeding frenzy and the piranha Wendy. Too bad you're the biggest, most well fed one here.
TJ, yes the entire situation calls for "amusement" doesn't it.
I pray you, in your letters,
When you shall these unlucky deeds relate,
Speak of me as I am; nothing extenuate,
Nor set down aught in malice. Then must you speak
Of one that lov'd not wisely but too well;
Of one not easily jealous, but being wrought,
Perplex'd in the extreme. . . .
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers
Do Mayo and SS even read here any more? I wouldn't blame them if they didn't.
Who knows? Mayo lost control of this place back in Nov/Dec 2007. That's when the insults started being hurled. Name calling started before that.
Not his fault. I'm sure he and ss were too bizzy to pay attention.
I do think they still read.
I think they still read here too. I can't explain it, I 'feel' when they are around. The feeling I get is different for each of them. Often when I've felt them here, they have posted soon after.
it all came down to, the Porchies were getting too much attention with their poems and quotes and games. Maybe they were wrong to over populate the board. Maybe they had a right to. But it upset a lot of people and those people spoke out.
I wonder if Mayo and sS like you feeling them. I wonder if they like any of us doing that.
In the early days of the blog there was a lot of "oh, i feel you mayo. you feel me", "i hear you mayo", i know exactly what you're sayin' mayo.
The same with ss. To a lesser extent.
I wonder if they felt anyone really heard and saw them. If they felt any of us really felt and understood them.
I wonder.
I wonder how many of us have felt that we were heard, felt and understood. How many have felt unheard and misunderstood.
Holy shit. Did Wendy and OPJ seriously just talk to Kapunua about her father's passing, even though they knew she didn't want them to? And then seriously imply what a bitch she was for not wanting to hear from them?
Holy fuck. You people are vicious.
This blog is a sewer. I've never seen a group of crueller people.
How many stood silently in the back corner just waiting for one word of encouragement or acknowledgement?
Content being in that corner
in the background
but still always hoping to be noticed. Hoping for a word.
How many were so unaccostumed to Mayo or SS acknowleding them that they were shocked into silence the first time they thought it could be Mayo or SS speaking to them?
How fair was any of this to those who were quiet, shy, reserved, never given a chance?
How fair is any of this to Mayo or SS?
Me either 12:26. Scurry off with your other rat friend and take your shit with you would ya? Leave the people here alone.
The only person who implied she was a bitch was you 12:25. Have some respect and honor her wishes to not be a part of this blog anymore.
Stop using your so called friend's tragic loss to further your own agenda against people you hate. It's tactless.
Holy crap, arrived at the store this morning to find on of the huge book shelves collapsed overnight. Books everywhere.
No, I like Kapu a lot. I hate the way the OPs used her. She asked them repeatedly to leave her alone. She already said when her grandma passed that she didn't want to hear from them, Wendy or any of those people.
yet they continue to badger her and OPJ has to make a comment like "she's only going to throw it back in my face, I expect it."
yes, that implies that she is a bitch.
But OPJ is a disgusting person anyway so what else can you expect.
Stop using your so called friend's tragic loss to further your own agenda against people you hate. It's tactless.
No, that is precisely what OPJ did. She used Kapu's loss to further her agenda. She kept at Kapu even when she knew that Kapu did NOT want her words, and then blamed Kapu for not wanting them.
That is worse than tactless. It's cruel.
still wondering said...
How many stood silently in the back corner just waiting for one word of encouragement or acknowledgement?
Content being in that corner
in the background
but still always hoping to be noticed. Hoping for a word.
If you remember it was SS who first interacted and chatted with everyone here. He heard Elena when she felt lost and unheard. It was SS who first acknowledged he read the words of people here by putting their quotes etc on his sidebar. I think interacting with everyone came easier to SS than it did to Mayo.
Mayo followed SS's lead. Before SS came Mayo seemed cold and distant. For all we know, if SS hadn't taken that first step and joined in and got to know us, none of us might have had the opportunity to get to know Mayo the way we have. I will always be thankful for that.
1:24, very true words. I also remember that back in the day Mayo never used to communicate with any of us directly. That changed when SS started to. Mayo may still be an enigma, but I think SS drew him out of his shell and we have seen more of Mayo's personality than we otherwise would have.
There is a lot of finger pointing going on here but I'd just like to remind everyone that it was an anon who brought K's tragedy here. I knew before it was posted and I contacted her off this blog. That is really how this should have been handled but as I said an anon brought it here.
This needs to stop. No one keeps talking about it but anons. Please stop talking about it and leave her alone.
If you remember it was SS who first interacted and chatted with everyone here. He heard Elena when she felt lost and unheard.
Yep he did and he helped me find my voice. I will always be grateful for that.
There's a squirrel in my rectum.
There are a lot of people who feel ignored and unheard here. People who tried to come here and make friends but were rejected by you so called Lovelies who didn't want to let anyone else in to share the spotlight. All of you do it. Unless somebody kisses somebody's ass like KOL anon kisses Wendy's and whoever else she can suck up to, then they get ignored.
Kapunua deserved what happened to her and the rest of you deserve for this blog to be the ghost town it has become. You are all selfish bitches who only want Mayo' s attention for yourselves.
Way to take my words out of context. I did say I couldn't really explain it, but I will try even though I know this will make me sound crazy. When Mayo 'walks in' it's like a door swinging open and letting a cold gust of air in. I think of the blog as the Main Hall in the Castle. Our voices seem to echo when Mayo is lurking, even when the Main Hall is full of people chattering. And I feel as if he stands in the Main Hall for the longest time, knowing he's invisible, just observing the crowd of lovelies that are gathered there, as if trying to capture and imprint that moment of time in his memory.
SS is very different. The candles flicker and get brighter when he is around, and I don't know how he gets in the Castle, but he never uses the front door! Unlike Mayo who will stand completely still and watch for long periods of time, SS scurries around the castle. He will pop in and then pop out several times as if he has been distracted by something before returning a little while later to stay a bit longer. It sometimes seems as if he feels more at home here than Mayo as he helps himself to the contents of the cookie jar and puts his feet up on the table as he reads the comments.
They both have a scent too. Aniseed and a kind of cherry cough drop smell when SS is around and Mayo's scent is much more subtle, like a mixture of violets and rain, the way the air smells after a storm.
We named him Binky.
11:32, you sound like a psycho.
2:27 you sound like an ass.
Another thing, why has no one even bothered to mention MCR's new songs? This place started out to be about them and now you talk about evrybody elses music but theirs. Who cares if Muse has a new record or what unknown band is opening for Green Day when MCR has new music out there?
Better an ass than a candidate for a strait jacket.
Go back to VVs if you don't like it.
Who is from VV's? Certainly not me. I hate that place.
VV is where people go to hate on MCR, not the people from here.
Wrote a little song about him
Wanna hear it...here it go
Binky Binky my friends wont pet you cause your stinky!!
Okay shelf fixed and books replaced.
Anon at 2:34
You gotta know I'll chat about the new songs. Problem is I'm not really sure how I feel about them yet. It is truly a different sound for MCR. I'm anxious to hear the studio versions of them. Death Before Disco did get stuck in my head. In a good way.
I knew before it was posted and I contacted her off this blog.
See, Mayo, see, SS? Elena sent her condolences too. OFF the blog. NOT to impress you two. Just wanted you to know that. Once again. Elena contacted Kapunua. Privately. Off the blog. Like a good person. NOT in front of you. NOT to impress you. In case you missed it, Elena DID contact Kapunua. NOT on the blog. She did it for Kapunua. NOT for you two.
You got that, right? Just wanted to make sure that everyone here knows that.
You are so cute anon. My point was I'm so fuckin' tired of the anons who come here and make it seem we all hate K. That's not the truth.
That was my point but of course you could turn it into something else. My, my you must spend a lot of time hating on people.
Elena, no one even MENTIONED you.
And even if that was the case, all you had to do was say "stop making it seem like we all hate her".
There was no need to "MAYO, SS, LOOK! I CONTACTED HER OFF THE BLOG! I'M SUCH A GOOD PERSON!
Anon I really don't know why you have such a problem with me but whatever.
And if the Lovely's remaining had said Nothing at all to K for her loss?
Would that have gone over just as well as them giving her their condolences?
Makes me think of the way GW is seen at VV's.
There is no appeasing any of you anons.
Wow, so I just read on VV's about what was going on here.
Guess what? You're damn right I'm throwing your false sympathy back in your insincere faces. I have asked you--especially Wendy and OPJ--repeatedly, repeatedly, to leave me alone. I have made it clear that I don't want to hear from you.
I've made it clear that your words are painful to me. Over and over again, I've made that clear.
Yet you insist on screaming your "condolences" from the rooftops, in hopes that "the important people" will hear them.
Honestly, why would you try to do that to me after I had asked you so many timesto quit with me, and after I made it perfectly clear when my Grandma passed that I didn't want any of that nonsense from you?
I can come up with two reasons. 1) For the benefit of Mayo and SS and 2) maybe as much fun for you: to hurt me.
Which, like MJ, you succeeded. Good on you! Using my Dad--my champion, who never wanted anything negative to touch me--in order to make yourselves feel better.
Here's a newsflash for you: My Dad hated you. My Mom used to read this blog (she obviously hasn't been on the computer since Daddy's gone, and I've asked her to never look at it again, finding out what you all were up to on here.) And my Dad would always ask her, "What're ya reading?" and she would tell him all about this blog. (And he knew a lot, because he also met Solly, Smoke and Fim. He bought them dinner and passes to Epcot Center. He liked them a lot.) More and more my Mom would get upset and say, "That stupid blog again. They're all picking on her again, she's not even there!"
And my Dad would get so upset, my Mom stopped telling him. Oh, he had such choice things to say about you lot. She showed him pictures of you too and he was aghast. "THEY are the ones picking it out on my daughter? Please. They're jealous."
So you can take your "condolences" and you can write them on a big banner and hang them off the front of this blog and SS's. I seriously hope you all get to marry Mayo and SS, or have their babies or whatever it is that you want. Maybe they'll see how wonderful you are and finally hook up with you.
But while you're over there using me, and my beloved Dad, to try to get yourselves some kind of higher rank on some stupidass random blog, just remember: My Dad was my champion, and he knew exactly what you were.
♫Found lil Binky jus a playin in the grass..now he spends most his nights jammed up in my...♫...Oh...Hello my lil vipers..
*applause Kapu*
I am sincerely sorry. I don't need a name, I don't have anyone to impress. No one knows who I am and I dont' need them to.
Sounds like you and your Dad had a very nice relationship and I'm so sorry for your loss. Also sorry for the way people treat you in a time of mourning. You are not a pawn.
Kapu, I distinctly remember you posting a song your Dad sang, and SS getting wind of it and quoting it. If you ever feel up to sharing any of his music (because I didn't get to hear the song) it might be a fitting tribute to your Dad as a musician.
I didn't go to college...but I'm thinking this mess can't be fixed..
Kapu, no matter what, these people cannot take away your memories. Don't let them add to your stress, make you sadder.
Anonymous said...
Kapu, I distinctly remember you posting a song your Dad sang, and SS getting wind of it and quoting it. If you ever feel up to sharing any of his music (because I didn't get to hear the song) it might be a fitting tribute to your Dad as a musician.
I remember that too. SS put it on his profile. I agree it would be a fitting tribute, if you felt it would be appropriate.
Why should she share her Dad with these people? I distinctly remember when SS put the song up too. Her Dad's song, and OPJ quoted the words to it as an attack on Kapunua.
Probably, her Dad would not want his songs used against his daughter again.
Yes, that's right. The lyric was, "I don't look for trouble, but I never ran."
"Trouble," that was my and my Dad's theme song in life. Actually he was pleased when SS quoted him because he was pleased when anyone, no matter who, liked his music. His songs were his gifts to everyone. His 45's are still sold on eBay in fact, and in rare record stores.
It is a privilege to hear my Dad sing, and one that not everyone is entitled to.
K, her father's daughter said...
Yes, that's right. The lyric was, "I don't look for trouble, but I never ran."
Yes. I remember SS put it in his 'about me' section on his blog. I bet he would love to know your Dad was pleased. Your Dad was obviously a great man.
I forgot to say that I agree with everything you said Kapu. I'm amazed you kept silent as long as you did.
You know what?
All of this started because some people did not like the friendship K developed with Mayo and SS.
K's personality may not appeal to everyone, but it obviously appealed to Mayo and SS. That is not her fault. Clearly they both enjoyed conversing with her and reading her comments. She was genuinely interested in them. She would make them feel connected by involving them in blog conversations by asking them questions, sometimes random, sometimes deep and thought provoking. Her comments were engaging, often funny and self depracating. She spoke to them in a familair way that put them at ease, even teasing them the way you would affectionately tease an old friend or a younger brother.
Most importantly, she placed no burden or expectation on either of them. I think they both respected and appreciated that.
I was always personally fond of her. And I thought she had a nice family.
Sincerely.
And I wish I would've heard her Dad sing.
Can't wait to see Wendy lose her shit over this an dthen pretend she didn't by blowing kisses. :/
I actually CAN wait to see that. Glad Kapu said what she said but dreading Wendy's psychosis to follow. I hate when Wendy shows her true colors.
reading all this is enough to make me cry. kapunua should never have been subjected to any of it.
i truly believe everyone's condolences are sincere, because something like this goes beyond the differences one might have with another, it's universal. we all feel grief when someone we know loses someone dear to them.
i also truly believe the anons were writing what they wrote because they felt protective of kapunua in this difficult time.
whatever the case actually is, this is what i believe. what i feel is something else. i don't want to write about it because it isn't about how i'm feeling, this is just a time for us to keep kapunua in our thoughts. she's a complex woman, and strong, but this is beyond what anyone should have to endure. losing your father is very hard.
this is all i'm going to say on the subject.
leaving the shop now. i'll be on later tonight.
Hear hear. I don't like cruelty and Wendy is just no holds barred. Her angry posts upset me because they are so intensely hateful.
Yes TJ, "Here are my condolences even though she asked me not to talk to her, that bitch" is totally sincere.
You're a fool and I hope she knows it and cuts you out. May she never try to help you or cheer you up again.
So you can take your "condolences" and you can write them on a big banner and hang them off the front of this blog and SS's. I seriously hope you all get to marry Mayo and SS, or have their babies or whatever it is that you want. Maybe they'll see how wonderful you are and finally hook up with you.
LOL! That is the truest thing ever said on this blog!
iawtc. nobody is that naive or stupid. even toujours.
The only people Toujours seems to give a damn about are Mayo and Gerard.
Anyone home?
I just spent the last 20 minutes landscaping an online farm. Whee.
U must be in Farmtown!!
Farmville!! :D
Other people I know run Farmtown. I tried it, but I find Farmville runs quite a bit faster.
I wish my animals moved though, that's one of the things F'Town has on F'Ville.
Whoever the hell you are, Mayo, you are the worst kind of attention whore and what's more, you are a coward. Why else would you allow the type of behavior that has gone on at this blog go unchecked? All you had to do was to tell these people here that you weren't going to tolerate this type of bullshit. One word from you and it would have stopped.
I think you've enjoyed watching these silly women fight over you. Did it make you feel important? What really bugs me is that you know people think you're someone special,
someone important, yet you've chosen to remain just as anonymous as any anon who ever anoned on this blog.
Well, I don't think you are special. I think you are a sad, small little person who created a little make believe world for yourself where you could feel important. And look at all you've done. Look at all the hurt you've caused.
You are the one who is beyond pathetic. I feel sorry for you.
Somebody starts a blog to scribble down their innermost thoughts,and they are supposed to police the things the assholes that come to read them say in their comments....let me put this as nicely as I can...Go Fuck Yourself!
Pretty sure Mayo actually did step up for the Porchies a few times and ask the fox hunt to stop. It's just that the people who hate them didn't want to hear it.
Oh give me a break. If you really think Mayo didn't encourage all of this you're a fool.
"i truly believe everyone's condolences are sincere, because something like this goes beyond the differences one might have with another,"
So Kapu is wrong or lying is what you're saying.
Kapunua's words today.... I wanted to stand up and cheer. She's ignored their jabs so long and the latest ones were so painful. When she came out saying what she wanted to say I wanted to stand up and clap my hands.
Sincere condolences Kapunua and Kapunua's mother and if you have any brothers or sisters. I am sorry for your loss.
An observation:
Since Kapunua and her friends left Mayo's, the regulars have NOT spoken of them. At all. How can she justify saying they attack her at every turn? The only ones who talk about her are the so called anons.
They show up every once in a while to make sure she remains the focus of attention. Everywhere.
Uhhh except for OPJ and Wendy and TJ and Elena today bothering her when she asked them not to.
Ooooo and the blackmail "anon" (OPJ) who came and told their version of the story about Kapu's job. Without anyone asking them to.
The news of her father's death was brought here by an anon. The regulars who offered sympathies did so out of respect for the man.
Your "blackmail anon" was no one you know.
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