The saddest girl
In the whole world
Sits in thirty day
Thinks she owns it.
Models herself a pro
With every word just so
Crack answers for everything
And a lie to keep you guessing
Is she real or just made-up.
She says she's lost her life
And can't tell where to find it.
So she sold her soul for the high
Of the sweet synthetic lullaby.
Where's the bottom when you need it?
The saddest girl
In the whole world
Just told the doctor she's fine
The problem isn't mine
"It's them." and they've ruined me
And all that I could ever be.
So now she has a new disguise
and half-way covers her eyes
with a crystal crooked crown
Slipping just missing her frown.
She says she's lost her life
And can't tell where to find it.
So she sold her soul for the high
Of the sweet synthetic lullaby.
Where's the bottom when you need it?
She used to be a little girl
The sweetest you've ever seen.
Now she's just a tracing
Of a near broke beauty queen.
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«Oldest ‹Older 3001 – 3200 of 4856 Newer› Newest»I thought the gravy was lovely, maybe could ahve used a bit of vegemite stirred in though...
Ergo no vegemite !!!!!
Actually it might have been okay because I used Kitchen Bouquet and that's about the same taste.
Thank you TJ, it was just fine he just likes to find something to complain about.
if he was complaining about the gravy it means the roast was perfect. :)
Very true TJ
So what's new with you?
you can use it like a stock, it's yeast based
Yes Ergo I can imagine it that way
not much, elena. just gearing up for having the shop all to myself all next week -- boss is going away to a quilt show. i'm kinda looking forward to it.
you know, i'm up for finishing the blog gothic if you are. i still have all our outlines...
:)
I've been doing okay ergo, thanks. And you? You're welcome for the blog comments. I kinda have a fondness for tigers, jaguars and such, hee.
Hey elena and tj. Please continue to finish writing the gothic story. I miss reading it
oh we are going to pick up a bit of a muscle car this afternoon, it's a holden HX V8 all chevy motor and gearbox, 1 tonne ute, it is one a guy sort of started doing up and didn't finish, sounds cool and will be hubby's hobby.
it's good as it all goes and everything just needs tidying up
long time since we've had a good V8
Sure TJ sounds like fun. Let me know when you want to start
apparently they are making a vegemite for the US, mixing it with cream cheese as they said you guys put it on too thick, so it'll be weaker
you see we put like a scrape on toast or bread with butter, not a layer like peanut paste, that'd be gross
Oh Ergo
Gonna be walkin' on the wild side in a Big V8 How cool
We have a 64 Thunderbird that's waiting to be restored. It doesn't need that much work and I can't wait.
thanks, bc. :)
ergo, pics, yes?
elena, i'll email you about it sometime this weekend, so put on your writing cap!
Hello BC
Sorry I didn't see you there!
My writing cap is always on. LOL
I will take a pic when we get it home to show you
we used to have a Holden Torana 308, even drag races it (did 13.8 on the 1/4 mile on street tyres, not boasting or anything lol)
man that thing could fly, and if you tromped it at the lights it would twist and the front would go up, that throbbing engine...
sorry getting distracted...
throbbing engine...
I understand the distraction. LOL
that's really cool, ergo!
must get to bed, though -- it's been good talking to you guys. :)
sweet dreams.
Goodnight tj, sweet dreams.
I love that vibrating gut deep sound, and the way the car would sort of jerk slightly as it idled
*sigh*
it was a very cool car
Night TJ
I'll be looking for that e-mail. We must take care of Lord Mayo.
goodnight Tj sweet dreams
mayo,
you're always here, you know, even when you aren't posting. remember how kapunua described you lurking up in your tower room? *grin*
but it was so good to see you, of course -- it sounds like your life is busy in the best way, and that's good, as well. i used to read your posts back in the first months and be worried at the tone i read there, but your words are solid now, and more grounded. maybe i'm silly, but that change makes me feel proud of you.
take care of yourself, and sweet dreams.
Ergo do you need to be alone a minute? LOL
it's ok elena, I'm recovered now
Are you sure Ergo?
You look a bit flushed.
*fans self*
that's just the cold wind...honest
Sure Ergo, sure
now BG stole my crackers :[
Mayo
You know if someone asked me to describe my life right now I think I’d say “Spiraling out of control”. So much shit is going on I’m finding it hard to breathe at times. My biggest worries center around my girls. Two of them are having some health issues. (when it rains it pours, right?) And I’m scared. There I said it. See I can say it here but I can’t in front of them because I’m the mom and moms are supposed to handle things. You know what? I’m tired of handling things. Sometimes I just wanna crawl into a hole and hide. But that’s not possible, I have to keep going. So I pretend things are fine. But sometimes….I just don’t know. And I guess because of the stress I’m letting stupid, small shit really bother me. I seriously yelled at my car today. The check engine light came on (it’s been on for about a month now and it’s nothing wrong I had it checked) but every time I start the car the light comes on and it dings. Well today was one ding too many. I spent a good five minutes yelling at the car. Actually cursing at the car. Then I felt like an idiot. Yeah, stress is my close companion right now. But you know what really worries me is that I’ll screw up and crack. I don’t want to let people down. And yeah, there is much more going on then just my girls. Shit I can’t talk about. I feel like I have this huge weight on my shoulders and I’m starting to bend. But I won’t because I can’t. See I just told you this because it helps to get it out. For some reason it helps to write this down, maybe just to acknowledge to myself how I feel. Does that make sense? I can say here what I can’t say out loud. Thank you for that.
So now it’s back to the comics I’ve been working on all night. I need to get them done. Take care and once again, thanks.
Night Mayo
Elena
hey Ergo
Sorry about that. Tell BG I'm sending a box soon with all kinds of stuff for her and if she gives you the crackers back you'll let her have the stuff inside the box LOL
haha I'll tell her
"When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace." - Jimi Hendrix
mayo
nice to see you mate, hope your high spirits continue and you feel refreshed and re-energised. I just had a very nice butterflied lamb leg done on the bbq with gnocci carbonara bake and garlic spinach, now I feel so satisfied I just want to lie down and snoooooze. The house is warm and quiet, belly sated, family happy, bed comfy...what more could you want? Hope you're surrounded by love and warmth also,
much love EP xx
SS,
you know that feeling you think cats must feel when they curl up and tuck their noses around under their tails in some perfectly warm comfy spot? I have that feeling now, if I could I would purr :] Hope you get to have it too
lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve see you in my morning
♥xx♥
mmmmm nectar
Kalamazoo
Once, in the city of Kalamazoo,
The gods went walking, two and two,
With the friendly phoenix, the stars of Orion,
The speaking pony and singing lion.
For in Kalamazoo in a cottage apart
Lived the girl with the innocent heart.
Thenceforth the city of Kalamazoo
Was the envied, intimate chum of the sun.
He rose from a cave by the principal street.
The lions sang, the dawn-horns blew,
And the ponies danced on silver feet.
He hurled his clouds of love around;
Deathless colors of his old heart
Draped the houses and dyed the ground.
O shrine of the wide young Yankee land,
Incense city of Kalamazoo,
That held, in the midnight, the priceless sun
As a jeweller holds an opal in hand!
From the awkward city of Oshkosh came
Love the bully no whip shall tame,
Bringing his gang of sinners bold.
And I was the least of his Oshkosh men;
But none were reticent, none were old.
And we joined the singing phoenix then,
And shook the lilies of Kalamazoo
All for one hidden butterfly.
Bulls of glory, in cars of war
We charged the boulevards, proud to die
For her ribbon sailing there on high.
Our blood set gutters all aflame,
Where the sun slept without any heat—
Cold rock till he must rise again.
She made great poets of wolf-eyed men—
The dear queen-bee of Kalamazoo,
With her crystal wings, and her honey heart.
We fought for her favors a year and a day
(Oh, the bones of the dead, the Oshkosh dead,
That were scattered along her pathway red!)
And then, in her harum-scarum way,
She left with a passing traveller-man—
With a singing Irishman
Went to Japan.
Why do the lean hyenas glare
Where the glory of Artemis had begun—
Of Atalanta, Joan of Arc,
Cinderella, Becky Thatcher,
And Orphant Annie, all in one?
Who burned this city of Kalamazoo
Till nothing was left but a ribbon or two—
One scorched phoenix that mourned in the dew,
Acres of ashes, a junk-man's cart,
A torn-up letter, a dancing shoe,
(And the bones of the dead, the dead)?
Who burned this city of Kalamazoo—
Love-town, Troy-town Kalamazoo?
A harum-scarum innocent heart.
by Vachel Lindsay
Hello Mayo, SS, Ergo, Sweetcheeks, Amy, Elena, J and L, TJ, OTPB, Mya, KOL anon(s), everyone!
Ask and ye shall receive! I even updated it since I never knew SS was in room #2 and I didn't realize the greenhouse was occupied.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Mayo master suite #1
SS #2 (I never knew that until yesterday)
Elena #3 (can often be found in the library)
Mustard #4
Jenn #5
Dibs called by ?? #7
Sdock #10
Dibs called by ?? #13
Toujours #18
Smoke&Venom #20
OP J #26
SisMidnite #27
OP L #30
Ergo #54
Martha #60(6)
when she’s not in the guest house!
Anon616/Wendy(me) #61(6)
Mya #63(6)
BC/Pantera #66(6)
Anima and SisMidnite #69
LoliHaze #342
Kassanova #1408
K the greenhouse
Fimble the cellar
PJ the roof!
OFF LIMITS (YIKES) #32
The Kitchen ~ Amy and Ergo
The Wine Cellar ~ Mya, Ergo and Amy
The Dungeon ~ (My ~ 6/Wendy’s ~ playroom) Reserved for Bikey, Metal strippers and whoever else I want to chain up!
The pool house ~ has been occupied by J, L, Martha, me, Shaunette and party sheep.
Reserved for LIVE ENTERTAINMENT
~~ Room # 60 moved so Anima & SisMidnite
Could get some sleep!
Reserved for anonymous guest #70-80
Yoda, PPU, Shaunette, Party Sheep, Sable F.
(and wasn’t there a ferret or a badger too)
And a DUCK!
~~ The BARN
Sparkle -- moved back in with J
Oranges anon ~~ lives in a hollowed out tree in the grove (I think)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Mayo: It's good to see you! I'm happy to hear you are in good spirits!
I hope everyone else is in good spirits as well!!!!
Sweetcheeks: *huge hug* Hell yeah we do!
:D
Have a great day/night, everyone!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ, Miranth, Elune, DA, P anon, Oranges anon and Bikey!
Just to clarify, many wonderful people did not publicly claim rooms. They must have wanted privacy!
*blows kisses to blog believe as she exits while singing some "shit music" with BB King, Eric Clapton, Buddy Guy and Jim Vaughn*
;)
~Rock Me Baby (rock me all night long)~
:D
Looks like more bad news for the KOL fans. RPattz, SMeyer and the person doing the music for the New Twilight film are itching to get them on the soundtrack. If so they'll probably use the song Closer.
Twilight ruined Muse's Supermassive Black Hole for me forever. Now it's going to ruin Closer for KOL fans too.
Oh well. Too bad so sad.
From the comments.
I'm sorry but I LOL'd. KOL fans are going to shit bricks.
I'll try again.
*runs back in upon hearing the title of one of her favorite KOL songs mentioned*
Nothing can ruin that song for me. I don't care if they agree to let the song be used in a triple X rated porn movie starring mini KISS! I would still love the song and KOL. I'm quite certain the KOL anons would agree!
:)
~Closer LIVE~
"Stranded in a spooky town
stoplights are swaying and the phone lines are down
Snow is cracklin' cold
She took my heart, I think she took my soul.
With the moon I run,
far from the carnage of the fiery sun..."
Okay, no time to finish the song. I really must run (without the moon, this time)!
Enjoy your afternoon, anon!
Victory is mine. I have reclaimed my flower garden from the grass and weed that had taken over. That’s what happens when you have several weeks of rain. The weeds and grass thrive. It was a brutal fight. LOL
The side
Other side
If feels good to get this accomplished. Now off to work. Take care everyone
Oh doin' a happy dance. I just pre-ordered Watchmen (Director's Cut) Two-Disc Special Edition from Amazon for $17.49.
Can't wait!
beautiful garden, elena! (but now i know where mayo got his flamingo!!)
done with work, see you all later tongiht. :)
ciao!
good morning!
hello everyone
elena , nice garden just don't let Amy or J near the flamingo
hi wendy
hi TJ
2:22 such a shame your feelings on the song were so superficial! I'm sure the KOL's have more depth than you.
we actually got to 0C at the house this morning (which is partway up a hill) frost right up the yard, you can see the damaged grass, I didn't see the frost though, hubby & I were far to comfy snuggled up in bed
ERGO
I was beginning to wonder where you were. No sleeping in, Missy.
Oh my, frost. That does sound nice. Maybe you had it because I'm doing my Halloween in July. You know, frost on the punpkin? LOL
hi elena!!
oh it was so nice to sleep in, it was nice and quiet and warm
BG had a sleep in too so no need to get up
I'm going to go have a look at the car soon, hubby got home after dark and it was too frigging cold to head to the shed, lol
how are you today?
Good but my back hurts from the garden fight. LOL
I'm at work right now but it's slow. Not sure where everyone is.
I'm just waiting to close. This is boring.
Oh and you must post pics of the car. I wanna see.
Hello Ergo and Elena.
I read the ONTD post about Closer possibly appearing in the next Twilight film earlier today, and although some fans are unhappy about it, I honestly could not care less.
Nope, I'm not a fan of Twilight, but the original soundtrack was very, very good. With songs like Flightless Bird by Iron & Wine and Supermassive Black Hole by Muse and others by Collective Soul and Linkin Park, how could it not be? Also, Radiohead's 15 Step was featured in the end credits (although it wasn't on the soundtrack) and, love them or hate them, you can't deny Radiohead's credibility. So...if they do use Closer or another KOL song for the next Twilight film, it will be in good company.
It's all good. ^_^
I shall :]
apparently I can't have a go yet as air cleaner is very dirty, I think hubby just wants to fiddle with it first
better be able to have a go soon
hello KOL
how are you?
I always think being in a soundtrack can expose a band to potential new fans who may not have ever heard them before, which is always a good thing
heck I'd strap people down and force them to listen to muse if I could!! lol
oh and they are tweeting lyrics to their first single, the teases!! Won't be long until the release
YAY!
Oh, and Elena, your comment about Watchmen prompted me to go to amazon myself and pre-order the Blu-ray edition.
I can't wait to see blue peen in Blu-ray.
Yeah, sorry. I couldn't help myself. I just had to go there. ^_~
Hey KOL anon
I agree. I'm not really a Twilight fan but the soundtrack was cool. Good to see you. How have you been?
Blue Peen
LOL oh KOL you just made me laugh so loud a customer is staring at me.
I'm good. I'm really looking forward to Muse's upcoming CD and to seeing them with U2 in October! Oh, and I'm seeing KOL just 3 days after that -- on my birthday no less!
I am very very jealous KOL
you must tell me how they were after the concert
can't wait for the new CD
and KOL on your birthday! what a thrill
blue ray blue peen LOL!!!!!
I will definitely fill you in on the details, Ergo. Oddly, the last time I saw U2, Kings of Leon were opening for them. That was back in 05 and I went all the way to Chicago to see them. It was my first time seeing KOL, but certainly not the last.
It was good to talk to you both. Hope you have a good evening, Elena and a good...is it morning there, Ergo? Oh well, I'll just say have a good day. ^_^
Nice talking to you guys but it's time for me to close now.
Take care, talk to you later.
thanks KOL and it is morning here, just 10am
you have a good night and tomorrow
catch you when you're back on elena
just called to say
Hey, everyone, how are you?
I'm doing good, besides an URI with fluid on my ears. Feeling a little better.
Wendy, thank you for finding that list of room numbers and places around the castle. The looking back comments from yesterday were really nice to read.
Also, welcome back, Mayo. It's been a long time. Good to see you here and the party does sound good. Hope you can find a space on your calendar! Glad you are in good spirits, and get some rest. Take care of yourself.
Elena, the garden looks great. I like the gazing ball in the bigger picture. Oh, and any leftover roast? I'll take the gravy too!
Ergo, I've got to go over and check out all the vacation pics.
KOL Anons, I wanted to let you know that there is absolutely NO problem with me or J. with you being here. You all seem very nice, and are welcome here anytime, I'm sure. They may not be my favorite band, but I don't dislike them either. Hey, their from Tennessee! Gotta like that.
I read an article not long ago in RS about them that was really interesting. The brothers seem to have a love/hate relationship. Sort of one will bust a bottle over the other's head and then hug them in the ER telling them they love them, man. Reminded me of the Oasis brothers. KOL had a lot of really good stories and outlooks on life. So I can definitly understand the fanbase.
I'm sorry you are still being bothered by anons. Are you still getting e-mails? Can you block them or is it from different addresses? Don't worry about the crappy anons, you come in and talk whenever you want.
I really envy you getting to go see U2! The last time I saw them was on the ZOO TV tour. They are such a fantastic band.
Hey to Amy, Mya, B.C., TJ, Lewis, S.S., nice anons, lurkers, anyone I missed, etc. :)
Lov ya,
L.
"Hi" back, 9:25. How cute.
Just checked out your pics, Ergo. The tiger show looked really great! And you got to pet one too. Nice!
Yeah Patrick looks pretty happy in that one pic...SpongeBob must have been jealous.
I still say that Tower of Terror looks insane. The Flyaway ride, I can handle that. No problem. But the shooting straight up a big stick at 1000 miles an hour...not so much. :)
Oh, Miss T. Thank you so much for the kind e-card. It made me cry. You are so sweet. I hope your operation goes well, and that you recover quickly.
Love ya!
hello L!!
hope you recover from the ear thing soon
I tell you that ride was insane, you just don't think it'll stop speeding up! But go on it once and you'd be hooked. I want to do it again!!
Hey L. I just saw the U2 commercial for blackberry. It's rockin. Makes me want to go to a U2 concert.
They musta got a nice chunk of change for doing that commercial.
Take care of that ear and infection.
Thanks, anon. I will. How are you doing? U2 put on one of the best shows of anyone. They are well paid, that's for sure, but they really rock!
Ergo, hopefully I'll feel better soon. I've rode Space Mountain and the rafter ride thing at DisneyWorld, and a bunch of others. I like a lot of them.
The dinosaur ride at DisneyWorld is one of those that goes along do-dee-do, in the dark, until "Oh, look it's a raptor!" right next to you. I rode it with one of my charges, who was about 9 at the time, and at the end of the ride you are thrown around on the track in the car, speeding along in the dark, until the car comes to a dead stop and you see you are under a VERY realistic life sized T-Rex who is lunging toward you and roaring. It stops about 3 inches from your head.
My charge grabbed me and buried his head in my chest and screamed like a little girl.
I nearly wet my pants.
It was fun!
Twilight ruined Muse's Supermassive Black Hole for me forever.
VAMPIRE BASEBALL.
I do not care how physically attractive I find RPattz, HE IS NOT A VAMPIRE WITHOUT FANGS.
L, an EARACHE? God, you two are just battin a thousand today!
Hey, Amy!
Vampire Baseball?
Hopefully this ear thing won't turn into anything worse. I got meds, and I'm resting. LOTS of water. It'll be fine, I'm sure. Just nasty right now.
J. wanted me to say "HI!" to everyone and to ask Amy if she has made Anon'09's ring yet?
I think fangs are essential for vampires, otherwise they are just people who like biting necks, and they are dime a dozen
hiya Amy
hearing muse was the only thing that made that movie bearable. ugh.
True, Ergo. A vampire without fangs is like a werewolf without hair.
Which reminds me, the new Harry Potter movie is FANTASTIC! We are going back to see it again. Be warned, it will make you cry at the end.
Hey, TJ. How are you? I never read the books, so I didn't see the movie. That bad, huh?
supermassive dancing robots trounce twilight anyday! lol
hi TJ!!
I must try to get to HP on the big screen, but I want to see Transformers 2 first, hopefully this week coming
Vampire Baseball.
I need to see Transformers too. Linkin Park's song for it is amazing.
hi ergo, hi l. -- l., i didn't read the books either., but a co-worker at my previous job forced me to watch the movie.
you didn't miss anything.
I just watched the clip. Oh, my word. I think I did a good thing by missing that movie.
um anon..... thanks? lol
that just looked really funny, trying to be all supernatural and brooding, in baseball caps, just cannot be done.
I think I'll quite happily not see the movie
it was weird -- a teenage angsty relationship movie for the first half, and then that game scene was chucked into the middle. after that it was a chase movie. "uneven" doesn't even describe it.
And I like baseball...
The music was good though. At least. But what's with the bright red lipstick and uniforms? Just didn't scream VAMPIRE to me.
these are sparkley vampires, l. -- a whole different breed.
See, you gotta have fangs...
Vampire Frank
I suppose teenaged vampires have to amuse themselves somehow, but really
'vampire' and 'sports-loving' never popped into my head together
I suppose at least she was being a bit original, and the fans love it so they can be happy and I'll avoid it
Edward sparkles (about 1 minute into the clip).
I think I'm going to go to bed, guys. Maybe visting my parents tomorrow if I feel better.
Good night and sweet dreams!
S.S.,
Keep garlic, Holy water, and catchers gear handy. Todays vampires bring a whole different "bat" with them.
Good night to you too. As always, Pactum Serva.
Mayo,
Again, nice to see you. I missed you.
Good night and sweet dreams.
Love,
L.
good night, l. -- hope you feel lots better very soon! and a good night to j., too. :)
*giggle*
I prefer the smoking, screaming and disintegrating into a pile of ash myself
goodnight L, have a nice day tomorrow and sweet dreams to you and J
The best video of all: Buffy vs. Edward.
Buffy beats Edward hands down anon. Edward's a little sissy who doesn't have fangs. And no, I don't find Robert Pattison attractive at all, muhaha.
Goodnight L, sweet dreams to you and J, and thank you so much for the e-card. Love to you!
GO BUFFY!!!!!
gosh that Edward character comes off creepy in those clips, is he like that the whole movie?
I did like the "I'm a slayer....slay..er...look it up"
hi BC
Blogger Original Punk L said...
I just watched the clip. Oh, my word. I think I did a good thing by missing that movie.
July 17, 2009 10:41 PM
Good GOD.
I borrowed it from a friend to see what all the hype was about.
20 minutes into it, I paused it and thought to myself, "I wonder what's happening on the computer?"
Repeat pattern for whole movie.
he gives a whole new dimension to angst
*sheesh!*
and if ANY guy gave me a look like that and was saying "I like watching you sleep" I'd be getting that restraining order!
lol ergo.
hey there bc. :)
amyranth, i managed to sit through it, but my mind certainly did wander.
Lol, hi ergo. Not only in the movie, but he's like that in the books too, only if you're not glued into the hype, you would think he was controlling. He tells Bella that he watches her while she's sleeping.
Absolutely creepy and stalkerish, and he pays his siblings to keep a close eye on her. After reading Breaking Dawn, I was like 'that's it, I'm not giving Stephanie Meyer any more of my money."
Hallo Amy. Hi tj :)
heehee hubby has the car going :]
heh, go have fun ergo. :)
time for me to be saying good night -- good to chat with everyone.
sweet dreams, all.
sweet dreams TJ!!
the toy
the engine
needs some work done but drives , and sounds, pretty good
BC, AFTER Breaking Dawn?
Hell, I waited for the shit to hit the fan. Now, I just laugh and laugh whenever I hear about anyone I know getting into it.
It confused the fuck out of my co-worker when she kept gushing about the books, and I'd shake my head and say "Renesmee".
Then, she read Breaking Dawn and all that praise went right out the window.
(Still bumming around, getting ready to decorate the GI Joe/Cobra cake)
And that's the way it is
RIP Walter Cronkite.
Goodnight tj, sweet dreams.
Amy, yeah, right after Breaking Dawn. Before that, I was a major fan so admittedly I didn't see that crappy parts that came with Edward and Bella's so-called relationship until after, but after finishing BD, my mind was thinking 'what the fuck is this shit? Edward eating uterus' now?'
And that was when I decided to toss all the books into the garbage.
mayo,
to be honest, this week hasn't been the greatest -- work has been moderately crappy and i've been mired in that "am i getting anywhere or am i stuck?" feeling. i can fake it during the day for the most part (though i do find myself gritting my teeth behind the smile every time a new customer comes in), but in the evenings the grey discontent is difficult to ignore.
i know it will pass, i know i will find my optimism again. this has happened before, it will undoubtably happen again -- it really isn't anything much to write about.
it's just -- sometimes i am so damn far from the person i want to be, and i wonder if i will ever complete this transformation of mine or if the ghost of that stupid woman i was will forever drag at my heels, my own version of marley's chains.
and when i am feeling like i am right now, i have no defenses against the certainty that i will not, that ultimately, every purpose for which i was born will be rotted and wasted, the victim of my weak will.
so i'm giving up for the day, going to hand myself over to dreams and hope i don't oversleep in the morning so i can start the whole damn thing over again.
take care, and good night.
CRACKS ME UP how you're all running to defend yourselves and seem to nice after you got accused of not liking the KOL anons. "LOOK SS AND MAYO! WE'RE SO AWESOME AND ACCEPTING! WE WOULD NEVER EVER EVER EVER DO SUCH A THING AS NOT LIKE SOMEONE HERE"!!!!
But you're overdoing it so you look even worse.
shhhh anon. lower your voice. no need to shout.
I can't imagine a person becoming a success who doesn't give this game of life everything he's got.
- Walter Cronkite
12:44 You just gave yourself away.
hi 2nd 12:58. isn't the news of walter cronkite's death sad? :(
another legend gone.
12:44 should follow betsy cronkite's example and not take things that don't need to be taken seriously
so seriously.
Walter, about Betsy's sense of humor: "Probably the most important single element that I found in my own marriage was a sense of humor. My wife had a delicious sense of humor, and I think I have an adequate one. The funny things Betsy did to me on an almost daily basis could fill up one of those old Sears, Roebuck catalogs. She just wouldn't take things seriously that didn't need to be taken seriously. It was tough for us to get together and try to solve a serious problem because humor would begin to creep in-which would save the day most of the time."
It is sad.
Voiceover artist Dallas McKennon, whose voice is well-known in the Disney theme parks at various attractions, including the American Adventure, the Country Bear Jamboree, and the Big Thunder Mountain Railroad roller coaster, has died at age 89.
Well, the Cobra cake didn't turn out as well as I'd hoped. The boys are impressed, but they're also hammered.
Onward and upward I suppose.
that's a shame about the cake amy, but heck, as long as they like it and they'll eat it
and if they are hammered you can tell just them how great it was as they may not even remember
Goodnight.
he was also a legend. his death was sad as well. :(
sorry about your cake amy. good nite.
goodnight anons
I don't know the other guy, but many millions must have heard his voice
Goodnight Anon.
It's a shame about Walter Cronkite. I didn't see him much, I think he was a bit out of my generation, but he was lucky enough to go peacefully and in his own bed, God Bless 'Em.
have to go heading out to dinner
have to shower and change, just at someone's house so nothing special, but I shall take wine and it'll be fine, lol
sweet dreams all
Have a good night Ergo.
I'm going to go watch Amazing Screw-On Head with the boys.
Have a good night everyone! There's a funny looking cake in the kitchen, points to whomever can guess what I was TRYING to make it look like.
Goodnight anon, goodnight ergo, goodnight amy, sweet dreams.
Mayo
Fred came over tonight to help me get some of my Internet work done and well, we ended up watching movies when we were done. So in keeping with the spirit of Halloween in July we watched two horror movies. Okay, well not really horror movies but let’s just say that is what they were supposed to be. First off was Creepshow III. Holy crap this was so bad it made me want to hurt the Blockbuster employee who sold it to me. What a turdburger. I loved Creepshow (meteor shit, Jordy) and Creepshow II was okay but this one? I want those 104 minutes of my life back.
The second movie was much better. Well I mean in the bad/good horror movie way. It was titled “Dead Above Ground.” This was so bad it was fun to watch. The bad guy had some great lines…
“You know the cause of grief is lost desire.”
“How could you possibly know how I feel when you exist two astral planes beneath me?”
and my fave line was “Malevolent entities don’t ask for photo ID”
This actually had some well-known actors in it (not sure what they were thinking). So if you’re ever in the mood for a terrible horror movie give it a shot.
Other than that my day was rather quiet. That is not of course counting the fact that one of my daughter’s phones butt called me. Yeah, for about 8 minutes I got to listen to her at a party. And yeah, that’s not where she said she was going to be. Nothing like busting a kid using her own phone call.
Well hope your day was a good one. Hope tomorrow finds you in great spirits and smiling a lot. Take care.
Night Mayo
Elena (Mayo, you are such a Baldwin*)
*Movie reference. LOL
Dearest Mayo
Whats up?! i MISS you, to be completely honest. Haha. How have you been? It's my summer holidays and I am druuuuuuuuunk. I know it's not the waay to deal with life buut, dude, it's great. I have courage. Courgae to say what I want, and not care what any person sayss/ It's like. 3 am,and i needc to be at work in 5 hours... I'm totallt trashed which is expeacted from any other 16 year old.
My boyfriend has been acting weird latrely, and I've been kinda thinking alot lately about my brother. Its never ever going to get better... when you lose a sibling, you'll always want them bck and always wonder what they said. As embarrassing as this is, It feeels faaaaaaaaaantastic to get rid of.
Everytime I have even a minute to myself, nothing ever crosses my mind but my brother. I want him back, and just knowing that i will never ever see him kinda hurts.. no one I know gets what it feels like to lose a brother. He was so protective of me and was always there for me. no one can replace him, and since he died, it has felt like every male figure has left my life... my boyfriend has evenm beem backing off lately..
to be honest, i think just just needed somewhere to let some shit off before i explode/. you all used to be great friends isnce i nedglected you. Im going for walk. this si embarrassiung but i'm going for a walk.
i sincerely miss you all and i really want to talk to you all soon.
xoxo;
007
ps disregard my spelling/grammar mistakes. i have had a lot to drink.
PPS;
that was very embarrassing to read even in my drunken state. sorry and dont hold it against me. =]
You can't carry it all on your shoulder's little one. Everyone needs a place to be honest. Pain is a part of us all, just like our memories, wishes, fears. We need all of it. It makes us human. It makes us real. It's hard right now, but he will always be with you. Look inside yourself paperdoll, he's there with you baby. You know he is. Hang in there. It just takes time. I missed seeing your name here. You know lots of people here care and are thinking of you, always. Nighty night<3
Anon,
Its hard to thinks anyone cares these days..
Paperheart
Honey you know we are here for you if you want to talk. And now for my mother voice "Stop drinking. It may help you to forget for a short time but you are a beaufiful, strong young woman and you don't need that shit."
Take care of yourself. Do it for you and for your brother. You know he would want you to.
Well thats just nutz paper. ;p I know we are all busy and we all have shit that hurts us going on in our lives, and most of the time, we hold back from saying the stuff inside that really matters -cuz some of that important shit is scary. And it makes it even harder to live with it, when something fucked up happens, after you've admitted things. But kiddo, you know you have people here, at home -that love you. More than you will ever, ever be aware of. It's crap not being close enough to let the people you love in on that very fact every chance you get, especially if you have lost one of them. But deep down doll, people know. We know you care. And you must know we care.
Just as your brother knows you think of him. He thinks of you too J. People don't ever really leave us. They are with us. We just have to do our best to let go of the pain, so we can feel them still loving us. Still standing beside us. Ya know?
What are you up to tonight? You set anything on fire baby? ;p
Hey Saintly, if ya still around. Hope you are good? (I type really fuckin slow. Sorry.)
Hey Lewis
Just getting ready to go to bed. It's almost 3:30 am here. But I wanted to make sure Paperheart was okay.
Take care
Paperheart please e-mail me if you ever just wanna talk. I promise not to use my mama voice. Love ya honey.
Oh and Lewis - call me soon, okay?
Ah, I'm passing out myself. But promise to call as soon as I can. (Broken record there.) Have my cousins again now. No time at all and dogass tired (and I'm not sure what that means, but it sounds impressive yea?) when we don't have 'em! But I haven't forgot ya Saintly. ;p (And I'm sure I'm not the only one terribly fond of ya mama voice.) Love to ya.
Paper, you gone to bed too now? Sweet dreams doll. You know. Love ya.
Hope everyone is doing good. (Feel better L! Quick recovery Miss T!) Enjoy your weekend guys<33
If tears could build a stairway
and memories a lane
I'd walk right up to heaven
and bring you back again.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I wish I could walk right up to heaven and bring him back to you, Paper. I really wish I could...
*huge hug*
Elena, Lewis and the anon are correct. He's still with you. He'll always be with you. I know you know that.
I also know believing/knowing that is not comfort enough on nights like tonight. When all you really want to do is see him in the flesh again; give him a big hug and tell him how much you miss him and how good it is to see him again...
to look into his eyes and see his excitement as you fill him in on all that's happening in your life. To share that understanding and loving gaze, to feel that understanding and protectiveness only a big brother can provide with one glance...
Just close your eyes, little one. You'll see him and you'll feel him.
Goodnight Paper, Mayo, SS, Elena, Lewis, anons and lurkers.
Sweet dreams to one and all.
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ, Amy, L and BI!
ergoproxy said...
2:22 such a shame your feelings on the song were so superficial! I'm sure the KOL's have more depth than you.
Who the fuck asked you, Ergo? Get over yourself. You don't have as much depth as you think. A little self-righteous maybe but you definitely aren't that deep.
No one asked you your feelings about ergo, anon.
Having a bad day?
“Peace is not something you wish for; It's something you make, Something you do, Something you are, And something you give away.”
Robert Fulghum
“Peace cannot be kept by force; it can only be achieved by understanding.”
Albert Einstein
“Don't hold to anger, hurt or pain. They steal your energy and keep you from love.”
What moves through us is a silence, a quiet sadness, a longing for one more day, one more word, one more touch, we may not understand why you left this earth so soon, or why you left before we were ready to say good-bye, but little by little, we begin to remember not just that you died, but that you lived. And that your life gave us memories too beautiful to forget.
He knows you love him still, PH. he will always be with you. Don't feel bad about what you wrote or how you dealt with his death last night. You are so young, and have been through so much. In time, it will get easier. It just doesn't feel that way right now. Let it out, talk about it, and know that people love you.
9:30 mind your own business. If 9:20 wanted to express their feelings they can. Ergo did.
Hello Mayo, SS, Paper, Ergo, Amy, Sweetcheeks, L (and J), Lewis, Elena, TJ, everyone!
Are you all feeling better today and enjoying a wonderful weekend? I hope you are!
Guess what I have? Go ahead. Guess!
That's right! Another music link! Please feel free to click (or not) at will.
Sweetcheeks: You'll appreciate this one. It's The 69 Eyes' new video!!!
It goes quite well with all the vampire talk last night!
~Dead Girls Are Easy~
*Warning: If you are offended by scantily clad vamps/playboy bunnies (or videos directed by Bam Margera) please do not click the link above. Thank you.*
L: Regarding that picture of vampire Frank, all I can say is O_O
and... there has to be an explanation!
I know! He's been practicing playing guitar with his mouth/fangs. That or he's developed a taste for realistic looking candy guitar picks!
Elena: You did a wonderful job with those flower beds! You can come tackle my weeds if you want! I have plenty to keep you and Jake occupied.
Amy: How's your dad? Is he still a "house guest"?
Ergo: I like the new blue toy! What an engine!!!
That is all for now. Have a great whatever it is, wherever you are, everyone!!!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ, BlackJacket, SC, Magic Pie, Loli and Professor Anon!
Wendy,
Dad is good, except that he fell of the deck at 5am on Monday morning. We had removed all the boards on the railing to stain them, and his chair was just a bit too close to the edge. He only bruised his ego, and he's going to be fine.
Bumming around until October, possibly later. Getting more houseguests all through August, so this should be exciting.
Hello, everyone.
I wanted to say thanks to Toujours for your kind words of a few days ago. They were very much appreciated.
And Lewis! You're a new fan! Yay! I'm going to be really annoying and tell you to go back and listen to some of their older records. Might I recommend Black Thumbnail or Charmer from Because of the Times or The Bucket and Four Kicks from Aha Shake Heartbreak? Good stuff. ^_^
Also, to OPL, thank you. Yes, the Followills do have a complicated relationship. I think deep down they love one another very much. It has been pointed out more than once by journalists that they always stand very close together onstage. When asked about that, Jared (who is usually a bit of a smart ass) remarked that they draw strength and comfort from one another because they're family. I think that's pretty cool.
I don't think Katie (KOL 2) has been getting any nasty emails lately, but she hasn't posted here in a while. I will tell her you asked about her.
Oh! And I'm from Tennessee too. ^_^
Now, for Wendy, something I'm sure you'll enjoy. I'm not sure this shirt should be legal. ^_^ Oh, and you get a really good look at Caleb's old Gibson in this video. May it Rest in Peace. :(
Hope you all have a good rest of the weekend.
Oh, and damn. I forgot something.
OPL, I hope you feel better today.
O_o
0_0
O_O
Oh my...
Ohhhh my...
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
Ohhhhh... ummm... yeah!
I shall return when I collect my thoughts and regain my composure. This could take a few minutes. A cold shower may be required!
Ohhhhhhhhh....
KOL anon: Okay! I.. ah...ummm...oh boy...
No, don't think I'm quite ready to comment on that video just yet. Give me a few more minutes, please!
good morning!!!
paperheart,
please know that if you need any help or just someone to listen to your thoughts and fears you can email me any time. It's a journey that no one ever wants to have to take or would ever wish upon anyone, and anything I or anyone else can do to help you, we'd freely do.
oh Hi wendy and KOL
I am never sure what time it'll be when I post
*takes a few deep breaths and fans self*
I'm fine now. Really, I am! See:
:)
KOL anon: A gazillion thank yous for that one! I'm not sure that shirt should be legal either.
I'm not sure that video should be legal. It should at least come with a warning!
How about:
WARNING: Content may lead to over heating and/or spontaneous combustion, heart failure or the need for a long ~ cold ~ shower or ice bath (which may lead to hypothermia). View at your own risk.
Something like that!
He's looking extra sassy in that one. Looks like he learned some new dance moves! I love that shoulder shake and that hip twist!!! That adorable hand crawl too!!!!!
You (and KOL, of course) have just helped me reach my happy quota for the month (perhaps for the remainder of summer)!!!!
After watching the video ~ for the fourth time ~ I did learn that it helps to concentrate on the gorgeous, classic (late) Gibson.
Well, boys will be boys and he did apologize for his inability to control his temper that night!
It happens!
You're going see them on birthday in October? YAY for you and can I come?
;)
*sets fan to cool wendy*
Hello Ergo!!!!
*smooooch*
How are you today? I'll be back later. Going soak in that ice bath now!
;)
*runs back in*
Thank you, Ergo!!!! That helps; but, not nearly enough!
I'll see you later. If you watch the video KOL anon posted, please read the warning FIRST and have your scothch on rocks nearby!
*blows kisses*
I'll keep the warning in mind wendy!!
and I'm great thanks! I should go get dressed but I feel lazy, lol
have to have a shower as my hair smells of woodsmoke from last night and I hate that!
Man, today would be a great day to be a snake. I could just lay on the hot pavement and enjoy it.
amy I feel the same way!
and look! ∑:3
A cat with ears!!!!
I discovered the character map thingy on my computer
Hi everyone
Ergo could you please check your e-mail?
goodness elena, what an awful thing, I hope they are both ok
Yes, both are doing well. I just can't imagine something so vile.
thank goodness for that
how are you today?
I'm good, thanks
Spent the day gardening (veg garden) then running my mom around so I'm tired.
I ma a bit tired too but due to late night, plus we've been invited out for a fish fry up at another friends tonight!
My oh my you are such a party girl, Ergo.
*shines knuckles on shirt*
I try ...I try...
lol
hello everyone, how's it going?
hello TJ!!
I'm great thanks how are you?
Mmmmmm, fish fry....
all yummy reef fish too, he wants to clear space in his freezer for the next trip
how are you amy?
I like a good fish fry, if it's perch or snapper...but tilapia must be baked.
But shrimp...they can be fixed any old way you can think of.
I likes shrimps.
Hello!
i'm not too bad, ergo. :)
oh! i looked at your car pics today at work, ergo -- very nice, snazzy! are you guys going to paint flames on the sides, ot anything like that?
hi there amyranth, hi j.!
Wow Ergo, that car! That's some hardware there. I looked at the engine pic and told L, "It looks like there's a wok, some crab legs, and a transistor radio in there!" Meaning, of course, it's ginormous. Good color choice, too.
Hey TJ! What's going on with you?
i keep getting stuck on other sites, j. -- the connection is s-l-o-w tonight. :(
you know what i've been researching lately? alternative fashion blogs. there's a lot of cool stuff out there, it's giving me lots of ideas. *heh*
hello J!!! these will all be battered I think, they are all really good reef fish, you probably wouldn't know the names but sweet lip, red emperor, and various others. No shrimp though, we have to take our net next time to drag for some along the bank
no flames TJ lol
it'll be repainted though it wasn't a good finish the last guy did
it needs some electrical work and all done, just to get it all going standard, then as time passes we'll see :]
how is L today J?
To KOL Anon, BC, and Wendy, from L: she said to tell you all 'thank you' for the get-well wishes. She's feeling kind of nassy tonight, but wanted to let you all know she appreciates the thoughts.
She said 'thank you' to everyone who's sent good thoughts, by the way. :)
aawww. :(
no flames.
*perks up*
racing stripes?
Ergo: kinda nassy. ;) She's not horribly bad, but she's nowhere near good.
'Bout the same, really.
What kinds of things have you found, TJ?
maybe racing stripes, I'll see what I can do.
Our last one was royal metallic blue with a black bonnet roof and trunk, like a big black stripe
hang on I'll see if I can find a pic of it
J, tell L that's she very welcome. I hope she feels better soon :)
*hugs*
Hi everyone
Hallo Ergo, J, Teej, BC and Elena if she's still lurking.
I've finally remembered! Here's the painting my niece did for me several years ago. I promised to show you this about a century ago.
cat's eye view
Hello again, everyone
hope she feels better soon
hello BC
That's a nice painting J! How long ago was it done?
hi amy
hello elena
our old torana 308
ooops only black bonnet, we haven't had it for a long time, memory fades lol
Hey BC, Elena, Amy, wow, it's great to see all of you! *hugs for all*
Hmm, let me think, Amy. It's been at least 8 years, I know, but how much longer than that I can't remember. She was still in high school, I know that. It's very cool.
me!
Thanks for the hug J and thank you and L for the card I received in the mail today.
hi bc, hi elena. :)
j., i was disappointed to find out steampunk is mostly victorian. i think my personal steampunk might be more edwardian...and i found this fun blog from the u.k. -- mooky, mooky-something? i don't remember right now, but it's this whole riot grrrl, gothy/punk/lolita vibe, plus a section on paganism which made me grin.too cute. :)
one of my seattle friends is on a mini-book tour right now -- her web column of etiquette advice for goths has been turned into a book (yay, her!) and so she's posting tons of pics on her lj and twitter. it's got me all fired up to reinvestigate my own personal style. i've become pretty lazy over the years...housewifery for one, and now i seem to rely on my chuck taylors a little too much for flair. hmmm.
lol
I was distracted but the car
*happy dance with J*
and that is a cool pic she did for you
oh man, that is a sweet car, ergo! i can't wait to see what you do with the new one now!
oh how cool for your friend TJ!!
(plus etiquette for goths sounds intriguing!)
I'M ON TOP! Oh, it's been so long...
*happy dance with Ergo*
Wheeeeeeee!
Elena, you're welcome! I hope it helped?
TJ, your friend's book and webpage sound interesting! Do you have links for her page?
Ho boy. Here comes the first 20 minutes of Saving Private Ryan.
*sighs*
At least it isn't Shaving Ryan's Privates.
BRB, gotta get earplugs.
j., that painting is so neat, what a cool idea, and she carried it out well. :)
it's a really neat site, ergo -- i could post the lnk, if you like?
man, i'm so slow tonight! j. answered my question to ergo. lol
brb with the link. :)
It did help J, very much
Nice pics, Ergo. Very cool.
We used to own a 1973 Porsche 914 convertible (pre-children) LOL
Wish we still had that car.
TJ the link would be great
"At least it isn't Shaving Ryan's Privates."
That'd probably be even louder.
O_o
We're so glad to hear it, Elena. Read it every time you get to feeling down, cause the sentiment is good for a lifetime! *more hugs*
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