Saturday, May 9, 2009

At the Home

I hate to see you
When you're falling apart
Can't you start over, again?

Elizabeth crumbles
Alone in her chair
Keeps her windows shut
To keep out the air

Elizabeth crumbles
Alone in her bed
Spends all her pastime
Mulled in her dread

What keeps her living
Is her fear of being
Anywhere other than here
So they’ll feed her too much
Or it’s never enough,
Then it's fuck you
“Get the hell out of here!"

Elizabeth stumbles
Over everything I've said
Pining words are useless
Pushed round in her head

The mystery was my bravery
I never knew what I'd get
Will it be her fear or regret?
Her confusion my denial?
Walked her shoes a while
Now she can’t turn back
So she said then she’ll stay
And I will walk away

Elizabeth mumbles
Over and over my name
Forgetting tomorrow
Will never be the same

She’s repeating her beating
Did you bring her a drink?
Why are you leaving?
What the hell do you think?
That she’ll fuck you
To get the hell out of here

Elizabeth tumbles
Out onto the floor
With an abandon of reason
It is herself abhorred

She sat alone in her room
Pouring over her gloom
Never got out of her chair
And they don't even care
Now that they’ve all receded
Into the ground or fleeted
To the wormholes
And woodwork back there

You'll find repair
Where that memory
Becomes illusory

Look, again?



p.s. in the end it is what you think you will get.

6,531 comments:

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Anonymous said...

There is no drama here...none

Its Officially.....BORING!!!

Nobody wants to admit it..but a little bit of drama...( Just a little bit mind you) Is interesting to read.

Who the hell wants to read about everybodys merry lil days at walmart. eating,feeding the dog, yelling at the kids...common...we all have that its the reg same ole same ole.
everyone talks about that "Drama free existence"
When there is none, life becomes monotonous.

Anonymous said...

Just an opinion

Anonymous said...

Mayo and SS didn't post much even WHEN the porchies were here.

And in case you missed it, SS frequently comes on to talk to OPJ and he did come and wish a beautiful happy birthday to his friend OPL.

Keep telling yourself that they "sided with one group" or whatever ..... if that get's you through the day!!!

If they (especially SS) sided with anyone at all, it would be with the people who are here now.

SS and the OPS have always had something special together and they always will.

Anonymous said...

4:07

lol! I think we can recognize the build up to some porchie lovin' (and a kickin' for everyone else) a mile off now.

I think the westlife reference is so fuckin' funny. Great taste in music anon-not.

Anonymous said...

sign in opj

Anonymous said...

opj thinks any anon that talks to her is ss.

Anonymous said...

Mayo and SS didn't post much even WHEN the porchies were here.

And in case you missed it, SS frequently comes on to talk to OPJ
.

contradict yourself much?

Anonymous said...

Maybe he is addicted to twitter...for some it is compulsive.

Anonymous said...

Some can't take a shit without giving it a twit first.

Anonymous said...

"
lol! I think we can recognize the build up to some porchie lovin' (and a kickin' for everyone else) a mile off now."


You WISH.

Anonymous said...

I think a reason that Mayo is not about so much is because the same shit is repeated numerous times per post over the last 6 months-see above for an example!

It really is a dull as the people do write it. And now we have Westlife!

My opinion anyway.

Anonymous said...

If they (especially SS) sided with anyone at all, it would be with the people who are here now.

Why do you think that? SS clearly likes the porchies. He was always a good sport when Smoke used to hit him and shouted in his ear, he even gave a tribute to Kapu's grandma in his last blog post as well as stood up the people bullying her. What has he ever done for Amyranth and the night crew to make you think he would take their side? I'd genuinely be interested to know.

Anonymous said...

SS was definitely around more when the porchies were here, and he would often have FUN with them. I don't even think that was him who left OPL that birthday message.

Anonymous said...

What has he ever done for Amyranth and the night crew to make you think he would take their side?

Actually, he answered a question she opened up to everyone on the blog about what picture do you think best portrays you and your personality. So don't try and make it sound like he only talked to the porchies. You just make yourself sound stupid.

Anonymous said...

stupid and dull.

Anonymous said...

4:33
Are you one of those very unobservant watchers?

They suck at their job of watching. They better not quit their day jobs.

Anonymous said...

any anon can post anything and make you believe they are whomever you want them to be...quit letting you imaginations run away with you.

Anonymous said...

Anons in an uproar about the westlife video at 3:55


that video being posted couldn't possibly have anything to do with this comment

Daylight came and him a wannated go home?

Why do you think he doesn't post as often anon?

May 30, 2009 3:51 PM


could it? no. it couldn't. it must be about your friends or the people you view as the enemy.

they're too much. they really are.

Anonymous said...

uproar-where's the uproar?

melodramatic or what?

Anonymous said...

Mayo and SS
if you're around
run.

The pissing war is starting up again. Just when that urine smell was coming out.

Anonymous said...

kunspiracy

Anonymous said...

not nearly as melodramatic

lol! I think we can recognize the build up to some porchie lovin' (and a kickin' for everyone else) a mile off now.

I think the westlife reference is so fuckin' funny. Great taste in music anon-not.

May 30, 2009 4:14 PM



not as wishful as that one either

Anonymous said...

...and the devil eases back in his chair...lights a cigar...takes a sip of his wine....and giggles his ass off, as he looks for another fun video to post.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous Anonymous said...

What has he ever done for Amyranth and the night crew to make you think he would take their side?

Actually, he answered a question she opened up to everyone on the blog about what picture do you think best portrays you and your personality. So don't try and make it sound like he only talked to the porchies. You just make yourself sound stupid.


I never saw him answer that question.

Anonymous said...

nonymous said...

...and the devil eases back in his chair...lights a cigar...takes a sip of his wine....and giggles his ass off, as he looks for another fun video to post.

I posted the vid but I don't smoke.

Anonymous said...

:) day a a oh (:



day light fade and me a going home. ;)

Anonymous said...

me too!

Anonymous said...

Didn't Amy invite the trolls here when she opened her big mouth on LJ and told everyone about this place and that Mayo was Gerard and Frank was SS?

Anonymous said...

No 5:03 and you're a stupid idiot. Amyranth said SHE was Mayo to try to get the trolls to LEAVE.

Idiot!!

Keep on pointing that finger at Amyranth!! See where it gets you!!

Anonymous said...

You know just keep it up, just keep on trying to frame Amy and her friends, and see what happens!!

I want to see you try!!

Amy has been honest from day one of this blog. I'm sorry that you never understood how much this blog and her friendships here mean to her!

I'm sorry you can't see how much she has been harrassed, how the porchies you love SO MUCH made fun of her, made fun to The Fix, made jokes out of all of her opinions.

So you just keep building this case against her! No one believes you.

You are a SACK OF SHIT.

Anonymous said...

But don't worry! Because anyone with half a brain can see who... and WHAT ... the porchies really are.

You think that Mayo took their side?

THINK AGAIN!!

Anonymous said...

And after all the "work" the porchies did to get the others to leave.....

Harassing Amy over The Fix, making fun of her words, "beyond poetic" etc...

Trying to run the OPS off the blog with the fake email (FIMBLE STAR)

Trying to get rid of the OPS by posting pictures of Frank with Jamia on their blog (YES, we know who you are, information has been shared!! LOL!!)

Trying to run MJ off theblog because she shared her OPINION on Kap's reaction to her grandmother's death....

And abusing countless others!

Yes, we know who you are!!

And after all of that "hard work" that they did, who was it that ended up running away from the blog with their tails between their legs??

Think about it!!

Anonymous said...

Jesus H Christ, Wendy is drunk again.

Anonymous said...

WRONG, guess again.

Anonymous said...

LMAO!!

Don't blame everything on Wendy....HA HA

But that was funny...hehe

Amyranth said...

Hey guys!

Just popping in long enough to say Hi! I hope everyone has a gorgeous day outside, my yard just got descended upon by bees, so I had to take shelter for a bit. :X

Anonymous said...

Hi Amy! Sorry about the bees!

Anonymous said...

I am not Wendy or Amy I just happen to agree with them and I am SICK of porchie defending bullshit!!

If you want evidence of all of their hate (one in particular, take a guess!!!) then all you have to do is look. It is everywhere!!

Anonymous said...

Jesus H Christ, Wendy is drunk again.

That is EXACTLY what I thought too!

Anonymous said...

Trying to get rid of the OPS by posting pictures of Frank with Jamia on their blog (YES, we know who you are, information has been shared!! LOL!!)

You have got to be fucking kidding me.

Anonymous said...

Please show some Bee Love here. They were here before us and will still be here after we are gone.

You don't need to apologize for the bees.

The bees live here too God Dammittt!!

Anonymous said...

You think I'm kidding? They had a stat tracker LONG before any one knew about it and there were pictures of Frank and Jamia being posted on their blog. There were references to Frank and Jamia "as a couple" being made to OPJ all the time.

Anonymous said...

Are the bees by any chance orange??

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...

Trying to get rid of the OPS by posting pictures of Frank with Jamia on their blog (YES, we know who you are, information has been shared!! LOL!!)

You have got to be fucking kidding me.

I don't understand why the OPS would think that was an attempt to run them off the blog. Everyone knows OPJ likes Frank, so surely it was thoughtful of that person to post a pic. Why would she find a pic of Frank and his wife offensive?

Anonymous said...

Oh Little orange bees....Busy little bees...what have you been up too?

And then do you know what uncle Claudius did.....

Anonymous said...

SHe didn't find it offensive but the mindset was that it was an attempt to offend her.

Anonymous said...

There were references to Frank and Jamia "as a couple" being made to OPJ all the time.

Oh, are they not a couple then?

Anonymous said...

But trust me, it didn't offend her. She has nothing against Jamia. She deleted it because of the mindset behind it.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...

SHe didn't find it offensive but the mindset was that it was an attempt to offend her.

You're missing the point. How could it possibly be construed as offensive by anyone?

Anonymous said...

She deleted it because of the mindset behind it.

What mindset?

Anonymous said...

THe mindset behind it was that they THOUGHT it would upset her. It didn't!

Anonymous said...

Reading all of this is actually............................................................................Kinda scary!!

Anonymous said...

How could anyone find this offensive?

Anonymous said...

WAKKORAMA!!!

Anonymous said...

Well, let's face it. He doesn't exactly look happy in that pic does he?

Anonymous said...

happy enough for you?

Anonymous said...

She has nothing against Jamia.

CAN'T. STOP. LAUGHING.

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

5:54/6:02

I'd appreciate it if you stopped posting pictures of my wife.

I DO find it offensive.





(Who loves ya baby? You Know it!) ;*

Later anons! Have a nice one, and be good to my honeybabe!<33

Anonymous said...

My personal fave

ergoproxy said...

good morning!

we are off fishing again to day, and crabbing so I have to get ready

Anonymous said...

Yes he is married, but that doesn't mean he can't have close friends and other special relationships.

Anonymous said...

Put the pipe down...and step away.

elena said...

Hi Ergo and Lewis.

Just checking in a moment to see how everyone is.

Uh, yeah...Okay then. Guess I'll get back to work.

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Hey Saintly, I sent you a mail -hit me back when ya can. And don't throw things at the customers. I heard it makes them less inclined to purchase stuff. But, could be wrong. Maybe you should test it and see? Just to be sure?

Ergo, Good luck with the fishes! ..and Crabs (ahaha!) You don't actually like kill and then eat them yea? Had to listen to crabs (ha!) screaming and dying in effigy once -So could not eat them after that. I have been called "Too City." But eww, you can HEAR them. Kill it -away from me, far, fast and humane, then I have no problem eatin their guts. :)

I hope you guys are doin good! Mayo, Ss, Otha Lovely's and anon's. Later guys. Have a good weekend<33

And 6:21.

How DARE you imply that my wife smokes. She does nothing of the sort.

You bastard.

Bye! ;p

Anonymous said...

Sometimes I wonder why the fuck I even check in on this place.

QFTandE said...

for 4:14, 4:35, 4:38, the devil and all the anons between 5:02 pm and 6:20 pm


Anonymous said...
Put the pipe down...and step away.

May 30, 2009 6:21 PM

Anonymous said...

7:12
If you figure it out maybe you can let me know what I'm still doing here. Especially on days like today.

Anonymous said...

Cause 7:12 and 7:20 are so much more interesting and fun than anyone else that posts here. Sure. I see that. Woot.

elena said...

Hello again Lewis. I'll get back to you as soon as I have time. And I'm not throwing anything at anyone....yet.

Hello various anons.

Anonymous said...

sorry. i didn't mean all the anons between 5:02 and 6:20. ;)

we didn't say we were more interesting 7:25.

i think we're both tired of the shit that hits us everytime we walk through the door.

Anonymous said...

hey e!

Anonymous said...

7:31 which one were you, 7:12 or 7:20?

elena said...

Hey 7:34

How are you?

elena said...

Well gotta go. Take care everyone.

Anonymous said...

I hope you have these bees amy


and not these. dumbass, reckless scientists. thought they knew it all. thought they had things under control. yup.

Anonymous said...

I know that for me, I keep dropping by because this place cracks me up. So let me see if I understand this, not only are quotes, poetry and riddles 'offensive' and 'hurtful', but now pictures are too. LOL Maybe the easily 'hurt' and 'offended' ones should stop and think about how ridiculous that sounds. I mean I'm not a fan of KOL, but you don't see me screaming about how my eyes are hurt and offended by their pics being posted here. And speaking of poetry, quotes and lyrics, I've noticed a lot have been posted recently - I do hope Amy is ok and is able to deal with the pain of it.

Anonymous said...

wonder if those same dumbass scientists are trying to fix the problems they created. trying to find something to kill the killer bees before they destroy the rainforests. before there are no honey and native bees, butterflies, hummingbirds, etcetera left.

Anonymous said...

I've been here since the beginning 9:16. I've posted poetry, quotes and pictures since the beginning. I don't think my doing so offendedanybody.

If an in blue had asked me to stop
if they told me they were trying to have a conversation and that I was making it hard for them to see each others responses I would have stopped.

I didn't leave. I'm still here. I'm not still whining about something Amy posted at her blog last summer.

Post whatever the hell you want. Were you waiting for permission? There it is.

As we've been told over and over again since feb 2008
nobody can force anybody else to leave. It's their choice to leave. It's their choice to come back or stay away.

Stop blaming other people for the choices your favs made.

Anonymous said...

I do hope Amy is ok and is able to deal with the pain of it.


I do hope you're ok and are able to deal with pain of your favs choosing to leave. The pain and disappointment must be horrible for you. You should email them and let them know about the pain they've caused you with their abandonment. I'm sure they'll feel terrible about that.

Maybe they'll all come rushing back just to make you feel better.

Anonymous said...

will you two just shut up and stop feeding this insanity.

Anonymous said...

But without the insanity this place wouldn't be any fun at all.

Anonymous said...

That's what one of us is trying to do.

Maybe if more people suggested leaving the past in the past. Maybe if more people said this isn't a fucking popularity contest. Maybe if more people reminded other people that Mayo and SS never choose one side over the other

the insanity would end.

Anonymous said...

9:57
Stop feeding the insanity and do something. Say something.

Anonymous said...

i'm not mayo or ss if that's what you're implying 10:05.

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Word to your mother 10:03! Peace out! (But uh, where does it go, if it is going out? Shouldn't it be coming in or back? -To stay peaceful shouldn't 'peace' be present? Yea? huh. Confusing ya know.)

And wow 9:16 -I thought I was the one who took things too Seriously around here. Just to be very clear for you, I personally dig the pics shared here, like many do -and have said as much.

But sadly, no, Jamia Iero, nor that guy with her -are my wife.

I know, I'm sad about it too.
:(

*sigh*

Alrighty then, hope everyone is doing well! ;p Love to ya guyz, Nighty night<33

Anonymous said...

“What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now.”

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Well,

You're just going to have to die then 10:14.




(*Farty tongue noise!)

Totally just playin anon. ;p Sorry if I offend! A little hyper... You guys play nice, loves<33

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Ah, but 10:18, making choices leads to taking responsibility. And that dear, is not a popular theme here. So sadly.

But I am sure the thought is appreciated. Maybe, someday? Too hope. Have a good night<3

Amyranth said...

5:33, I can't begrudge the bees too much, a bunch of my flowers have bloomed, and they had a really good lunch. Which is just as well, there's been a few less than impressed Queens buzzing around looking for flowers.

MIRA! ARE YOU WATCHING THE GAME?

Anonymous said...

10:14
I didn't think you were. I'm not either.

Mayo has already spoken. Damn shame more people didn't hear him.

Goodnite anon and LHFSD.

Original Punk J said...

Hey Amy, Hockey Night I see. Who's winning?

Hey Lewis, sorry I missed you!

What...inspiring conversation they had this evening. O_o

Anonymous said...

J, i prefer reading your sex blog to this.

at least that is entertaining.

Anonymous said...

lewishasfallensloppydead said...
Ah, but 10:18, making choices leads to taking responsibility. And that dear, is not a popular theme here. So sadly.




I'm afraid you're right LHFSD. That's becoming more and more obvious every day.

Goodnite all.

Amyranth said...

Hey J!

Yeah, HNIC, the Penguins and the Red Wings for the final. Game 1, and the Red Wings are in the lead.

How was your day? I planted some of the seeds you mailed me, I plan to do the rest tomorrow.

Amyranth said...

Goodnite 10:29!

Original Punk J said...

10.29, I'm gonna take that as a compliment. Uh, yeah. *raises eyebrow*

Oh cool Amy, which ones have you planted so far? I'm glad you finally got your present!

Anonymous said...

does anyone know someone with a cloning machine that gives good results?

Anonymous said...

We are made wise not by the recollection of our past, but by the responsibility for our future. ~George Bernard Shaw

Amyranth said...

I HAD a cloning machine, but it only pumps out sheep.

So if you need a sheep version of something, then I can do that.

J, I planted the Shasta Daisies and the Petunias. I think I'm going to put the forget-me-nots in the actual garden, as the daisies and the petunias are in these big stone pots I have in back.

I still have lavender, sunflowers and sweet peas to plant too.

Anonymous said...

damn amy!

no sheep, only men...i need a perfect set of adult triplets ^_~

Amyranth said...

:*

Can't help you man. I've tweaked and twicked and twarked this machine, and I get sheep after sheep.

However, if you need warm woolen undergarments for any of them, just let me know.

Original Punk J said...

SHEEP?! Oh my. *hides Sparkle's and Twinkle's eyes, AND ears* LALALALALA, WE CAN'T HEAR YOU!

10.58, I hesitate to ask, but I will anyway: why do you need a set of adult triplets?

10.45, I wish everyone would believe that. We can only learn from past events; they shouldn't be thrown back in someone's face.

toujours said...

*sits down on couch*

hello.


*waves*

Anonymous said...

why j, i'm surprised you even ask that question!

just guess :)

or maybe it could get your creative juices going.

use your imagination; you clone your hot man twice, so technically you're not cheating, and voilà, one very hot day/night ^_~

Original Punk J said...

Hey TJ! *waves*

10.58, say no more! *Monty Python reference* Nudge nudge wink wink! I'm with ya on that one!

Amy, check your email, if you're still around.

toujours said...

hi j. :)

how are things going? when do you guys finish the move?

Original Punk J said...

We haven't actually *started* moving yet. The new apt won't be ready until at least the middle of June, and the manager said we could take our time packing and stuff. They're going to have to demolish this unit, so there's no big rush to get us out.

toujours said...

thta's good that you don't have to rush! packing is tolerable if you can do it at a safe speed.

are you going to do the old folk tradition of taking bread, salt, and wine into your new place before anything else?

Original Punk J said...

Um...old folk tradition? Probably not, since neither of us has heard of it! Where did that come from?

Original Punk J said...

BTW, has anyone heard from BC lately? Haven't seen her in a while.

BC! Are you out there?

toujours said...

where's it from? oh gosh, it's just something that i've always heard about, and something i do every time i move. the bread and salt symbolize health and prosperity, the wine fellowship (i think, i don't usually have wine on hand for that part!). it's like a blessing on the new home.

heck, it was even in "it's a wonderful life"! lol

Original Punk J said...

Aah. I see. It's something to think about, we can always use more good health and prosperity. We've even got wine for the fellowship part!

So do you just bring them in the new place or do you eat them once you're there, or whatever? This is a new one for me.

toujours said...

you bring them in, and state what they're for, like you're actually giving them as housewarming gifts, except to the house itself rather than the people who will be living there.

i always do a little pagany thing to invite hestia in (you know, candle, etc.) the day before i plan to move my stuff over, and then i like to leave the items on a counter or in the middle of the main room, until it's time for the real moving day. i always figure it's like you leave a little space for the blessing to "take", and then i try to use the bread and a little of the salt in my first meals in the new place.

toujours said...

lol i'm googling the tradition to see if i can find a link for you, j., and i'm seeing pages saying it's a jewish custom, a polish tradition, and old russian tradition...

bread and salt have been special items for a very long time. :)

ergoproxy said...

woo 20 sand crabs! now tide is coming in so time 4 fishing again! lewis they die silently v quick after put on ice. hope all u good.

Original Punk J said...

I thought it sounded vaguely religious, with the elements involved. Thanks for the info, we'll look into it. :)

Boy, Saturday night at the Castle sure is different from what it used to be, isn't it?

Original Punk J said...

Ergo, I love when you post from your phone! All your codes, it's so cool. Are you having a good time?

toujours said...

good job ergo!

j., i think it's more like something people do regardless what culture or religion they belong to. it's just a neat way to mark the beginning of a new home. :)

Original Punk J said...

Well, it's been grand, but I'm getting tired. Think I'll go to bed.

Goodnight TJ and Ergo, talk to you later.

Goodnight to the rest of my friends in absentia, hope to catch up with you all soon.

Goodnight Mayo, hope you're having a good weekend. Do something fun tomorrow.

xo

Anonymous said...

"
Boy, Saturday night at the Castle sure is different from what it used to be, isn't it?"


Thank GOD.

Original Punk J said...

Dear SS,

Another goodnight, another late night. I think I'll curl up in my armchair, next to the window, and read my current novel.

When I'm tired of reading, I can turn and look out on the night sky, the beautiful darkness with its shimmering twinkle-lights.

We haven't looked at the stars together in a while. I miss that.

Every time I see the stars, I think of you.

Goodnight, baby. I love you.

My heart to yours, always.

toujours said...

good night j., it's always good to have a little chat. sweet dreams. :)

elena said...

Mayo

Sorry I can't talk to you tonight but right now I'm watching "Shoot em' Up". Man, I love this movie. But I did want to say hello and let you know that my quest for Hens and Chicks turned out good. I found them and shall be planting tomorrow. Didn't want you to loose sleep over that. LOL

Take care.

Night Mayo

Elena

toujours said...

mayo,

i've been wandering, trying to figure out what to say to you tonight. wanted to find a piece of magic from the day to share with you.

and there were a few, little vignettes that i could spin into a pretty little good night, but it isn't what's really on my mind.

maybe it's just that i've been feeling low for a few days now, so i'm a little more susceptible, but i have to admit i wonder about the things the anons were talking about today, too. i'm fully aware that most social groups have a limited shelf-life (there's an axiom in the pagan community that most covens will implode and/or dissolve within five years), and i remember what you said about yourself, as well: I am very loyal, but I have been known to wander off towards a novel stimulus like a moth to a flame.

(that still makes me grin, btw.)

so, yeah, life goes on. we come together for awhile, and then go our separate ways. the blog has been and always will be an unexpected addition to my life, something that will stand out as a chapter all on its own. i can be philosophical about the end of this serendipitous online home.

but i'm sad thinking of it, even so.

even though i know it can't go on forever, even though it isn't anything like it used to be, i'm clingy, i never want anything to end, and i'm usually the last one out the door.

maybe it actually is done. those of us who feel the draw to be here regularly are fewer all the time, our own lives are filled full and whatever we found here isn't much present, anymore.

maybe whatever this blog was meant to achieve on a deeper level has been accomplished. so many of us found transformations here, after all, including yourself.





but i will miss you when this place is gone.


and i miss the friends who are already gone, and the friends who are going.


that's what's on my mind tonight, mayo. i wanted to stay positive in my comments, i want to accept that as all things change, so too has blogbelieve, and it's alright.

but i just don't have that kind of inner strength. i always mourn endings.


good night mayo. i hope that everything is bright for you, and that each morning is one you anticipate, happily.

Anonymous said...

We haven't looked at the stars together in a while. I miss that.You are delusional.
And you know it.

Why are you doing this?

Anonymous said...

Knock it off 3:26, she's not harming anyone.

3:26 said...

Herself. She is harming herself.

As for everyone else, this is on a public blog. Her statement is obviously grandiose...and therefore quite disturbing.

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Fucking come on.

Why is one person's affection for another, always the scapegoat for any issues's someone else may have with that person?

Now that is just one lameass excuse to attack a person.

I don't care how you sugarcoat it, or proclaim the best intensions with it, it's just plain mean and pathetic to go after a person for their feelings for another. I hope I never understand the reasoning behind that.

And I personally prefer the nicer comments here, no matter that their deeper meaning isn't my business or of my understanding, to the fuckin ugly shit that gets posted right along side it sometimes. To read something beautiful from a person's heart, weither I understand it to be honest, returned, or not, is a fucking privilege. Thank you OPJ.

I wonder if people will ever manage to be decent, to themselves or each other, even just for longer than a moment. Goddamn goodnight guys.
Love to ya<33

Anonymous said...

To read something beautiful from a person's heart, weither I understand it to be honest, returned, or not, is a fucking privilege.

I know what you mean Lewis. OPJ is not some 'crazy' she's well educated and smart. Her devotion to SS and the way she always dedicates a goodnight note to him is so sweet to read. I admit I don't fully get it, but that just tells me I'm probably not meant to. But obviously there must be something there between those two. I respect her for not blabbing about it or gloating like a lot of people would if they had a special connection with Mayo or SS. Think about it. It's been a couple of years now, she wouldn't still be this devoted and carry on writing to him if she didn't know he was understanding her. Whatever the reason, she is definitely confident and comfortable talking to him, even sharing inside jokes with him. Perhaps they have met outside the blog?

Anonymous said...

Lewis, you have been appointed blog security.

Know any karate per chance?

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Exactly 6:09, just because we don't understand something, or understand it better, it doesn't make that something wrong. I think a lot of foolish misunderstandings, hell even wars, can/could have been avoided if people just took a moment to Try and understand one another. I don't think it is really that difficult if the effort is truly meant. And I'm sorry I can't tell you if they've met in person (I do hope so though.). It is hard for me to even just catch up on comments, let alone email or chat much. I always feel like I am being very rude with that. But I just wanted to say thank you for what you said here. Thank you for trying to understand and not saying anything ugly because you didn't completely. In my opinion, that's a privilege to read too.

And nah 6:26, but I do have a big mouth (duh!) and I can bite and flail like a MOFO! Does that count? ;p

Thank you for this guys. Really awesome to come back and read this before bed. I hope you guys are well. Thank you. I hope everyone is doing good, Mayo(?), SS, Lovely's, Anon's. (Sorry for my cussfest earlier, but ya know.) Nighty night
<33

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

I forgot to say thank you to 3:39 too. I'm sure she'll appreciate that as well, anon.
Night<3

Anonymous said...

I agree with Toujours. It's sad to see what has become of a once vibrant and special place. You have all let nameless voices and in-fighting tear you apart. If you want to be here, be. Don't let an anon tell you that you are crazy, a bitch, delusional, etc. There have always been those who wanted to see this place fold, from the beginning. I believe the majority of the anons now are people who are pitting one against another. I don't believe either "group" wants to bring up past issues. You are letting the nameless fuel anger toward each other.

Come back. All of you. You don't have to talk to everyone, just be respectful, kind. Ignore the anons who try to bring you into their game. Try to remember how you felt before, together as part of something that will never be again. Try to remember why you all came here in the first place. I am not Mayo, but I would like to think he would appreciate being part of the conversation again. At one time, you all helped him, as he has told you.

Be adults, work through your problems. Talk to each other and stop listening to the negative words. You're all better than that. There are many still out there, afraid to come back for fear of being attacked, ridiculed and hurt.

Help each other. If you want this place to be anything like it once was, you will have to work together. If that's not what you want, so be it. But think about it before you walk away. It can be again.

Anonymous said...

Help me out here, Mayo. Do you still want and need this place? Do you miss all the Lovelies who are gone, and appreciate the ones who are left?

If you do, tell them, Mayo, please. They need to hear it now. They're still here for you. You just have to ask.

elena said...

8:59 anon, thank you for sharing your thoughts. I agree with what you said. There is still so much beauty here just under the surface but it’s being covered with a layer of dust. We can all work together; stick together to make it shine again. It is no secret how much I love this place. I believe I’m not alone. Ignoring the hurtful words of some is never easy but it’s the only way to take away their power to hurt. The people who are here, and those who have fallen silent are a wonderful group. I have faith things will get better. I hope others do too.

Anon at 9:47 while it would be nice for Mayo to say something on the issue I hate for that kind of pressure to be put on him. We don’t know what is going on in his life at the moment. I know for myself there are times I just can’t speak. Perhaps it is this way for him at this time. I’m sure Mayo will visit and speak when he can. He’s just one person, just one part of this place. All of us together make up this blog. Now is where some will roll their eyes at me but that’s okay. I believe Mayo cares about each of us, he has and he still does. That’s just a feeling I have, that’s just my belief.

As I sit here I look outside and it’s a beautiful morning. The sun is bright, the flowers are in full bloom and it just feels like it’s a wonderful start to a new day. I hope everyone feels this too. Take care, everyone.

Anonymous said...

I agree with you Elena. Like SS told us, together we are greater than the sum of our parts. That always stuck with me as being so very true about this place.

Anonymous said...

8:59, I do believe that some anons enjoy stirring up trouble, but you would be wrong to think that blues aren't involved or haven't contributed to the demise of this place. There has been a lot of nasty things said to each other off this blog that you probably aren't aware of.

Anonymous said...

3553

elena said...

Yep, 11:09 that is so true SS is pretty darn smart.


Well I'm off to plant now before it gets too hot.

See ya all later.

elena said...

One more thing.

11:12 an anon is anyone who posts without a name. They can be blue, pink or purple. You see if they have a blue name or not isn't the point. The point is they are saying something while hiding who they are. Not a bad thing unless they are doing it to hide because they are pouring out ugliness. Do I believe some of the nasty comments have been by some with blue names? Hell yes. It's been that way from the start. I don't understand it, I don't want to. To me it also shows such a lack of guts. If you really want to say something then damn it say it and let people know who you are. And if you do and then regret what you've said have the guts to say you were wrong. Take responsibility for your words. Okay I'm getting off my soapbox now. This is just one thing that has always pissed me off. Sorry.

Okay I really gotta go.

Anonymous said...

"The point is they are saying something while hiding who they are. Not a bad thing unless they are doing it to hide because they are pouring out ugliness."


Except for MJ that time.

Anonymous said...

The willingness to accept responsibility for one's own life is the source from which self-respect springs. Joan Didion

Anonymous said...

Here we go again-Dull is back aka Ms Repetition.

This is too tedious.

*sigh*

Anonymous said...

Elena you are missing my point. I agree with you, I don't doubt for a second that some anons are blues. The point I was making is that some regulars have no problem being nasty to other blues, owning their nastiness and even being proud of it, but they make a point of doing it away from the blog where Mayo and SS can't see it.

Anonymous said...

The man who complains about the way the ball bounces is likely to be the one who dropped it.
— Lou Holtz

Anonymous said...

Like Wendy? She comes across all sweetness and light here but is a complete psycho off the blog. Actually, wait, no she's been a raving bitch publicly here too!

Anonymous said...

What's new with you 12:12? New stuff is where it's at.

Anonymous said...

12:13

If it happen away from here then why are you bringing it here-deal with it where it happens.

Why bring it here? I just don't get it. This blog is only one of a number that people use, along with their own personal ones.

Anonymous said...

The same is true of OPJ she flies into a rage for no reason as well. And MJ never has a nice word to say about anyone, she's very bitter about something. And Amy's just like a petulant child who sulks when she doesn't get her own way. They all have issues.

Anonymous said...

Albert Schweitzer

Man must cease attributing his problems to his environment, and learn again to exercise his will - his personal responsibility.

Anonymous said...

12:13

If it happen away from here then why are you bringing it here-deal with it where it happens.

Why bring it here? I just don't get it. This blog is only one of a number that people use, along with their own personal ones.


Why shouldn't I bring it here? Or do they think it's ok to behave one way off the blog and then pretend to be something they're not here at Mayo's? Are they ashamed of their two faced hypocrisy? They should be. BTW I didn't hear anyone complaining when an 'anon' brought Amy's fix over here over and over and over again.

Anonymous said...

Judge a man by his questions rather than by his answers
Voltaire

Anonymous said...

12:20

But that has been addressed on each post at least twice per post for last 6 months or more.

Why raise it again? Perhaps you have selective reading?

Anonymous said...

Change is the law of life. And those who look only to the past are certain to miss the future. John F. Kennedy

Anonymous said...

One problem with gazing too frequently into the past is that we may turn around to find the future has run out on us. Michael Cibenko





"Old times" never come back and I suppose it's just as well. What comes back is a new morning every day in the year, and that's better. George E. Woodberry

Anonymous said...

Let's all name who we miss and what we miss around here.

Anonymous said...

I miss all the orgies and wild sex....wait I'm sorry, I'm at the wrong blog.

Anonymous said...

Don't do it bloggers.

Unless you're answer is "I miss everyone who has ever been here and what each one of them brought to this place"

don't do it!

Anonymous said...

A comical answer like 1st 12:51 is another good way to go. ;)

KOL anon said...

Hello all. I haven't been here in a while, but I would like to say thank you to everyone who said nice things about me and KOL 2. I appreciate it very much, especially since in the beginning there were some folks who seemed less than thrilled about us coming around.

To the anon who posted about Sex on Fire winning a Grammy, I don't think anyone was more surprised by that than the band, not that they don't think their music is Grammy-worthy, it's just that they don't really consider Sex on Fire to be their best song. Here is a really great clip of Caleb and Nathan on Last Call the night before the Grammys, talking about how they never expected it to be the "Grammy song," and another clip from Backstage at the Grammys, where Caleb talks about how he considered not even putting it on the record.

Also, from People Magazine, when Caleb was asked about his Most Memorable Grammy Encounter, this is what he said:

"Neil Diamond asked what we'd won for. I was embarrassed to say, 'Sex On Fire.' He looked at me and I was like, 'Yeah, I don't know what it's about either!'"

Like most long-time KOL fans, SOF is not my favorite song. It's catchy as hell; it got a ton of radio airplay and for some bizarre reason it's one of those songs that just seems to have resonated with a lot of people. I'm happy that the band is finally getting some recognition over here in America (unlike a lot of other KOL fans who wanted to keep them in their pocket), and if Sex on Fire was the song that did it for them, then I'm totally down with that.

Incidentally, Kings of Leon will be performing on the MTV Movie Awards tonight. They'll probably be performing Use Somebody, which is a good song, but I'd like to see them do something else since they've performed that on Leno, Saturday Night Live and the Brit Awards (which was amazing, btw). Their new single is going to be Notion (which is one of the better tracks from OBTN) and it would be great if they would do that instead.

It's a gorgeous Sunday afternoon here (much too nice to spend indoors arguing over a blog) and I'm off to enjoy it. Hope you all do the same.

Bye!

Anonymous said...

Why shouldn't I bring it here? Or do they think it's ok to behave one way off the blog and then pretend to be something they're not here at Mayo's? Are they ashamed of their two faced hypocrisy? They should be. BTW I didn't hear anyone complaining when an 'anon' brought Amy's fix over here over and over and over again.


What blogs are you talking about so we can all go read them? Perhaps you would like to give us the URL to YOUR new "seekret" blog while you're at it. Talk about hypocrite!

Someone DID complain about the "Fix" being posted over and over. Amyranth. In case you missed that.

Anonymous said...

"Notion"

I got a notion that says it doesn't feel right
Got the answer in your story today
You gave me a sign that didn't feel right

So don't knock it, don't knock it, you been here before
So don't knock it, don't knock it, you been here before

I just wanted to know if i could go home
Been rambling day after day
Everyone says they don't know

So don't knock it, don't knock it, you been there before
So don't knock it, don't knock it, you been there before

I got a notion that says it doesn't feel right
I just wanted to know if i could go home

So don't knock it, don't knock it, you been there before
So don't knock it, don't knock it, you been there before



Hi KOL Anon! Thank you for the news. :)

Anonymous said...

Come on, make a list of everything and everyone you miss.

Anonymous said...

1:15

I would like to miss you...

Anonymous said...

And we'd be so free
Happy alone
Sharing a smile
So far from home
And we would laugh
Laugh till we cry
Making up songs
Making me lie
Happy alone

Anonymous said...

anon, do you make lists often?

12:59 said...

I'm waiting.

12:51 said...

12:46-1:15

Like 1:17, I would like to be given the opportunity to miss you and your loaded, shit stirring questions.

Since it doesn't appear that you will go away today...
I will.

Bye 1:17 and KOL Anons.

elena said...

Hey all

Here they are.....



Hens and ChicksAnt lurking them

Anonymous said...

I guess they're not gonna answer. Surprise. If you want to know where most everyone has gone, ask Kapunua. Hypocrite indeed.

Mayo, you're on your own.

elena said...

Wow, it's two, two, two links in one.

Whatever.

Good to see you KOL Anon.

Back to the garden for me.

Anonymous said...

Someone DID complain about the "Fix" being posted over and over. Amyranth. In case you missed that.

I didn't miss it. But it was so damn obvious that she was the 'anon' who posted it here, then to look good in front of Mayo and SS she acted all embarrassed it was posted here and asked the 'anon' to stop. Beyond pathetic.

Anonymous said...

12:59 said...

I'm waiting.

May 31, 2009 1:23 PM


Patience, 12:59, I was away doing other things for a while. When did I say those things were said on another blog?

Anonymous said...

Someone DID complain about the "Fix" being posted over and over. Amyranth.

Of course she did. I would have been mortified too if I knew Mayo and SS had seen such a pathetic attempt to dictate what could and couldn't be said on a blog that belongs to someone else.

Anonymous said...

*toothy grin*

Anonymous said...

I remember Amyranth's *toothy grin* too, when she "wasn't afraid to call a cunt a cunt".

Nice girl.

Anonymous said...

I didn't miss it. But it was so damn obvious that she was the 'anon' who posted it here.


Are you Mayo and have a stat tracker? If so, it was NOT obvious. I think it was more obvious that someone was posting over and over to hurt her.


You didn't answer this

Perhaps you would like to give us the URL to YOUR new "seekret" blog while you're at it. Talk about hypocrite!

Anonymous said...

Whats wrong with having a secret blog?

Anonymous said...

While you're at it, why don't you tell me why you felt the need to come in here and attack a group of people who are not here right now, and no one was talking about anyone else. There were attempts to try to help and asking everyone to play nice. What do you gain? Everyone here has heard all this before. You aren't going to change anyone's mind. So why?

Anonymous said...

Why not have something personal for just you and your closest friends.

Anonymous said...

Why do you want to know where they hide? Let them alone and enjoy the peace.

Anonymous said...

I don't even have a blog, secret or otherwise. Do YOU have a stat tracker? Are YOU Mayo? You seem to have mistaken me for someone else.

Anonymous said...

No one is missed because they are still around. They go to other blogs to talk to their friends and avoid the drama here.

Anonymous said...

First 2:10, you just told me all I needed to know about you. Bye.

Anonymous said...

Are you Mayo and have a stat tracker? If so, it was NOT obvious. I think it was more obvious that someone was posting over and over to hurt her.

Fuck, that girl is easily hurt. Hurt by poetry, hurt by riddles, hurt by games, hurt by quotes and now....hurt by her own fucking words. Mother, please.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...

Are you Mayo and have a stat tracker? If so, it was NOT obvious. I think it was more obvious that someone was posting over and over to hurt her.


Fuck, that girl is easily hurt. Hurt by poetry, hurt by riddles, hurt by games, hurt by quotes and now....hurt by her own fucking words. Mother, please.

LOL I think that's the funniest comeback ever.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...
No one is missed because they are still around. They go to other blogs to talk to their friends and avoid the drama here.

May 31, 2009 2:12 PM

So it's fine for you to come here and bring drama to the people who are left.

Anonymous said...

Hi Carrie

Anonymous said...

"Fuck, that girl is easily hurt. Hurt by poetry, hurt by riddles, hurt by games, hurt by quotes and now....hurt by her own fucking words. Mother, please."



QFFT.

How does she even leave the house? Someone might "hurt" her or "derail" her t any moment.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...
While you're at it, why don't you tell me why you felt the need to come in here and attack a group of people who are not here right now, and no one was talking about anyone else. There were attempts to try to help and asking everyone to play nice. What do you gain? Everyone here has heard all this before. You aren't going to change anyone's mind. So why?

May 31, 2009 2:10 PM

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...

Are you Mayo and have a stat tracker? If so, it was NOT obvious.

^LOL that doesn't even make any sense.

Anonymous said...

Are you Mayo and have a stat tracker? If not, it was NOT obvious.

Is that better? Did it appease you?

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...
Whats wrong with having a secret blog?

May 31, 2009 2:10 PM

You have got to be kidding me. You ripped Mayo a new one for it, tore into others for doing it, and now have the gall to write this? So, has Mayo showed up there yet? You left enough clues.

Anonymous said...

I've left you at least six questions anon. Start talking.

Anonymous said...

Man, she's gonna be pissed when she finds out you confirmed the seekret blog. Better get ready to do some ass kissing.

Anonymous said...

Are you waiting until you think I'm not here? You are so quick to dish it out, but you can't take it. I'm so tired of all this and I imagine the others who are LEFT here are too. Why don't you just leave the people here alone if you want to be at some other place with whoever is there. If you are so fucking happy there, why try to run off people here?

I don't understand that. You've already effectively told the people here to fuck off, why don't you do the same.

Anonymous said...

There you go Mayo. There's your "favorites". You must be so proud.

Fuck this.

Anonymous said...

OPJ, STFU for once.

Anonymous said...

Uhhh ok I do like to "watch" and I rarely get involved in this.

But I missed the "call a c*** a c***" thing. Who did Amyranth say that about?

Anyway here's one thing I always wanted to say but I could never feel like butting in.

With Amyranth and the whole "Fix" and "guidelines" and her general attitude (which can sometimes come across as "fluffy but mean") am I the only Harry Potter here?

Because Amyranth reminded me somewhat of Delores Umbridge during that time.

Sorry!

bowing out.....

Anonymous said...

I'm not OPJ. I love how you ASSume every anon is her, or one of the others. You just can't stand the fact that maybe someone else sees you for who you are, can you.

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