You startled me
In not so much your words,
But your approach.
It was fast
And filled my head
With nonsense words
And warmth
When you weren’t there.
So, I went under
And swallowed
The surge. And above
My head is swirling water.
My hand slapping at the surface,
Desperate for structure
Steep stone. Then
My fingers finding rooted edge
Holding ground,
Finally. Almost out of breath
When I pulled myself up.
Entwined in mine, fingers
Not rooted mass, but flesh.
That took the shape
Of mysteries ability
To suddenly deliver me
Upon the edge was all
That I was meant to be.
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even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
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I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
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«Oldest ‹Older 2401 – 2600 of 4847 Newer› Newest»I'm not wanting to start shit but I hope, when all is well with L and you get some rest, that you will reread mayo's contributions. as he said, he does not give a fuck.
Okay seriously are you on drugs? He never said that. What the fuck are you reading?
No wait, I shouldn't ever bother to dignify this shitty ass comment so nevermind...
God damn it I just wanna pull my hair out at this point.
8:58 you really don't know how to read sarcasm, do you?
MAYO-CHAAAAN!
It does my eyes good to read you all up in this bitch. I hope you've been doing well.
Me, I've been all et up with: school, family (my beloved Gran has been ill, and things are just all hectic,) with working out (I've been trying to step it up,) and, well I'll be honest with you, I've been doing the goddamn geekiest project I've ever done to date. I don't even need to tell you. It's just geeky. But it's kept me real busy and made me happy.
Also, dude I am just--again--sorry for this all, and especially for the way you're being treated. And Mayo, if I've ever contributed to the idiocy by taking the bait--and who am I trying to kid, because I have--then I'm sorry for that, too. I admit, sometimes people get to me, and they seem to know just the right spots to pick. My family, saying certain things to me, poking me about my dogs, my crow, or whatever. The constant bitching about poetry, games etc. (I seriously don't see that ending, though. Clearly.) It was simpler in the days when they just stuck with "You're so ugly." ;D
Well anyway, I'm sorry that your little spot on the 'net is such a huge mess so much of the time.
I miss all the fun, too. I totally do miss the poetry. Yes, for sure I do; what can I say? I love it. It made me smile. It made me think. It created an atmosphere of art and mystery, especially when the anons would play along.
Well, Mayo you have made clear again and again that you like it, so I'm in the mood to post some!
I know I'm no S(S)S when it comes to riddling, but maybe I can think of a riddle for you, Mayo!
Let me get some ice cream, and I'll try to think of one. :)
Hi, E. Don't pull your hair!
Oh, hold up! Mayo, I've just thought of one.
As always, anyone else can play along, as I doubt that Mayo is still even around.
But anyway, here's my riddle:
Children partake of me in any self respecting cult
yet I've also brought pleasure to many an adult
I wreck your home and I don't even seem to care!
And my lesser known use is to color your hair.
Who am I?
Hi K
I'm trying very hard to leave my hair on my head. LOL
Hope your Gran is doing better. I've been keeping her in my prayers.
Good to see you around. Did you hear that OP L has been very ill?
Oh, it was sarcasm...
i agree it was said in sarcastic manner but that does not take away from the fact that there is truth in it.
some will agree and others won't. but it really is not worth pulling hair out. that is just scary and, well, weird.
Nice, Elena. ^_____^
Please put a stop to this nonsense. I will be willing to bet she can't answer you or WON'T and she will NOT come back.
Let's see what she does "on the spot".
Someone has to put her there.
Others tried it with Mayo and he proved what a selfish and uncaring loser he is.
Watch Kap follow right along in his footsteps.
She won't say it.
*applause for Elena*
Others tried it with Mayo and he proved what a selfish and uncaring loser he is.
Oh yeah, he even said it himself.
9:42
Apparently that was sarcasm or so i've just been told!
" elena said...
Hi K
I'm trying very hard to leave my hair on my head. LOL
Hope your Gran is doing better. I've been keeping her in my prayers.
Good to see you around. Did you hear that OP L has been very ill?
March 25, 2009 9:33 PM
STILL WAITING FOR YOUR ANSWER, KAPU.
WHERE DID YOU GO?
I THINK ELENA ASKED YOU A QUESTION.
kap doesn't do "fake nice" anons. she can't do that anymore than she can admit she's wrong.
Mayo,
You are a very mean, horrible bad, bad, bad, man!
No matter what she says, you got her.
^____^
give elena a fucking standing ovation
Elena, thank you.
I know you'll probably say that you didn't mean it like that, but you DID put her on the spot.
It's a spot where she needs to be though.
What do YOU think she is going to say?
I think she will say nothing.
She will leave again.
Which saves us all from having to hear more shit poetry and "riddles"...
look at how smart she is mayo. she's the only one who ever posted quotes, poetry and riddles. aren't you happy she came back to save your blog and give you what you long for.
It was good to see both Mayo AND Kapu get put on the block tonight.
And both of them proved exactly what they are made of.
Elena the only thing I need to ask you is to NOT make excuses for Mayo.
I know you won't make one for Kap, but please treat Mayo the same way you treat her. They are one in the same. Selfish and uncaring.
Watch her just ignore you Elena.
Because honestly what CAN she say? Nothing!
Bravo Elena.
♥ to Lisa and Jen
♥ to Elena
♥ to Elena
♥ to Kapunua
♥ to Mayo
"Elena the only thing I need to ask you is to NOT make excuses for Mayo."
THANK YOU.
Kap is going to run away and not answer Elena's question about OPL. (and seriously why would she even bring it up unless it was to put her on the spot)??
But Mayo ran away and didn't answer either.
So basically you have to feel the same about both.
I think she will say nothing.
She will leave again.
Which saves us all from having to hear more shit poetry and "riddles"...
March 25, 2009 9:47 PM
Yes the poems are very "hurtful" But your attitude is lovely to read. Dumbass.
You see Elena has toe COURTESY to send prayers out to Kapu's grandmother.
Does Kapu return that courtesy to OPL?
I highly DOUBT it.
"
Yes the poems are very "hurtful" But your attitude is lovely to read. Dumbass.
March 25, 2009 9:52 PM"
MY attitude?
Elena asked Kapu a question. IMO it was one that needed to be asked. Yes I am very curious how Kapu feels about OPL being sick!
And if she doesn't answer, which she obviously won't because she CAN'T, that means obviously we don't have to read all of this "look at how smart I am Mayo".
what an egocentric bitch
THANK YOU ELENA.
Anons
I know K's Gran has been ill so I told her that I'm keeping her in my prayers.
I asked her if she knew about OP L because K has been gone for a while.
Why read more into this?
I loves Elena.
Nobody asked me, but my respect for Elena just went down a notch because of the exact same reasons you all love her so much.
She came back here to talk to Mayo and have a good time.
Seriously Elena, what did you expect? I really want to know what your motive was for doing that. You knew it was going to cause wank.
And it seems like you used your friend's sickness to put another person on the spot and it was unnecessary.
She hasn't been gone Elena. She's been around and you know it.
You said it right. Elena asked Kapunua a question. She didn't ask your opinion on it.
"I asked her if she knew about OP L because K has been gone for a while."
That's bullshit. She obviously read it, just like Mayo read it. Because in case you didn't notice, she answered Mayo, so she must have read it.
That was really low.
And it seems like you used your friend's sickness to put another person on the spot and it was unnecessary.
Kapu would never do such a thing. We all know that. Bitch please.
"I asked her if she knew about OP L because K has been gone for a while."
You could have asked her anything. You asked that for exactly that reason.
I personally don't care how Kapu feels but to use your friend like that to cause wank in a blog that already has enough wank is really low.
Seriously Elena, what did you expect? I really want to know what your motive was for doing that. You knew it was going to cause wank.
Hell no one can say anything around here anymore without getting things taken the bad way.
Elena, if you wanted Kapunua to know, then why didn't you shoot her one of those email updates on L that apparently everyone has been getting? I mean if you really wanted her to know and all.
"Kapu would never do such a thing. We all know that. Bitch please."
When was this? Quotes please.
Elena, if you wanted Kapunua to know, then why didn't you shoot her one of those email updates on L that apparently everyone has been getting? I mean if you really wanted her to know and all.
March 25, 2009 9:59 PM
QFT.
Elena had an agenda and I'm sorry, but it was an ugly one.
Thank you Lewis. I don't think anyone has to say anything they don't want to say.
Elena and the punks are friends 9.58
Maybe you should just shut the fuck up and stop twisting Elena's words. She wasn't using anyone or anything. Unlike you.
And it's funny cuz, yesterday in my angry comment I was actually TRYING TO DEFEND Mayo, Kapu, etc. for their silence in regards to what the Op's are going through.
What do you want them to do? Why do you want them to say anything? How about we force it out of them.
I liked the games, lyrics, all that too, but seriously, what the fuck does that have to do with anything today? Just, confused here.
Cause it's a power struggle between one group that thinks they're right, and another group that thinks they're right.
Yours is much uglier 9.59.
You people sure are trying to lay a guilt trip on other's. Shame on you.
lewishasfallensloppydead said...
Wow. I am amazed right now. And yea, kinda feelin like if vomit comes, it would be welcome.
I'm still trying to figure out what games, poems, etc have to do with Lisa nearly dying.
Huh.
And it's funny cuz, yesterday in my angry comment I was actually TRYING TO DEFEND Mayo, Kapu, etc. for their silence in regards to what the Op's are going through.
I actually felt that despite the ugly that has lamely gone down here between people, that everyone has a general well wish for each other.
Boy, I feel kinda stupid.
I liked the games, lyrics, all that too, but seriously, what the fuck does that have to do with anything today? Just, confused here.
Hope everyone is well.
March 25, 2009 9:57 PM
QFT, this is what a sane person thinks. When you see someones in the hospital and only can think about poetry and riddles then you are a sick sick person.
I liked the games, lyrics, all that too, but seriously, what the fuck does that have to do with anything today? Just, confused here
Yes, don't open your mouth Lewis you are confused
I can explain this very easily to those anons who do not understand...
OP L is my friend. K is my friend. I talk to them both here on this blog. I asked one friend if they knew what was going on with one of my other friends...
If people are not adult enough to understand this then I'm sorry.
Elena you know very well that K comes here every day to lurk and you know very well that she knows of L and J. Do you really believe she cares?
Mayo, two more for tonight and then I'm going to go eat my ice cream which is melting. But, I like it better that way.
I hope you get a chance to read these and if so, that you don't think they're too lame. Well, they kinda are though. ;)
Here you go!
I'm well admired for my structure and form,
I start off in April and end in a storm.
I've inspired desolation, I've inspired a King,
"I see crowds of people, walking round in a ring..."
What am I?
Maybe that one is a little facile? I don't know.
Here's another one:
'Till recently I have been Japanese
where winter months protect me as I freeze,
In summer months I flow where water wends,
the heron and the hawk are not my friends!
Who am I?
Well, that one is superfly lame. O_o
And how about this!
I come in like a ninja and deflect an attack,
I have a blue suit, but prefer wearing black.
I won't tell you my name even if you beg
and I'm pretty damn tasty on a hard-boiled egg.
WHO AM I?
:D
Hahaha! Sorry, Mayo-chan, but I had to.
Well, my ice cream awakes. Good night!
Anonymous said...
♥ to Kapunua
♥ to Mayo
March 25, 2009 9:51 PM
That hurt to see. Seriously. Those two names so close. That does make me want to vomit.
Knock it off 10:04.
Elena, and yet, emails about L were sent to just about everyone else right?
"My ice cream awakes?" WTF.
Awaits, clearly.
OMG, my ice cream awakes. Soon it will consume me.
Hiya Lewis!
Okay, time for me to get up on outta here and eat.
Good night all.
"OP L is my friend. K is my friend. I talk to them both here on this blog. I asked one friend if they knew what was going on with one of my other friends...
"
Who you know don't talk to each other.
Why do you want to force people?
bitch
LOL look at the bitch run away.
Thank you Lewis and thank you Elena.
Mayo and Kapu can go DIAF, seriously.
Nice guilt trip there guys. Elena, Lewis, anons, very classy.
Did you expect any less 10.09?
"Yesterday, it was fine for people not to say anything. "
No one HAS to say anything.
And using your "friend" as a tool to shame other people is sick.
10:12 you are very cold. its a little thing called COMMON DECENCY.
I've noticed Kapu being on here with her own problems and I never once noticed most of you trying to "help" her. The OPS mostly just ignore her, when they aren't giving out her private info.
"10:12 you are very cold. its a little thing called COMMON DECENCY.
March 25, 2009 10:13 PM"
COMMON DECENCY is not using a sick person to make others feel guilty.
Lewis maybe you weren't here when Kap came on to say that HER friend was sick and tried to kill herself, and she got called an attention whore and a whole BLOG got started about it, and all these people here flocked to it.
You don't have any real close friends do you 10.12?
What you view as using some of us see as caring
in its truest most primative form.
The you fuck with mine, i'll fuck with you, bitch form.
Do you blame them 10.14? Kapu called them worthless, lazy psychos. Even then, they have always been supportive of her when problems arise in her life.
You can just fuck off right about now.
Yep. I'm fucking pissed off.
"Even then, they have always been supportive of her when problems arise in her life. "
HAHAHAHAA WHEN?
Oh and Lewis how KIND of you to express concern over her grandmother.
Folks, I'm just not playing the game. :D That goes for everyone.
Good night, catch ya's later!
Do you blame them 10.14? Kapu called them worthless, lazy psychos.
Proof or it didn't happen.
Ooops, you're right Kap. It's not worth it.
You know this is really sad. Here we have supposedly a group of adults that are flipping shit because I asked someone who hasn't been around lately if they heard what had happened to someone else.
Okay here is the thing. I have never let others choose my friends.
I can only say this so many times. I am a friend to Lisa and I am a friend to K. I would hope that both of them would understand that I am free to talk to the other and I am free to mention anyone’s name I choose. I will not ever let anyone dictate who I can like or speak about.
If these women do not like each other that is their business. But to think that I'm not allowed to ask one of them if they had heard the news about the other is simply childish.
Now I'm tired of this and so I will wander off.
Well, hello everyone! Hi Mayo, SS, Lewis, Elena, J, Amy, original watchers, not so original watchers, lurkers, everyone!!!!
How are you all tonight? Good, I hope!
Jen: Thank you and THANK GOD! You and Lisa know how much I love ya'll!!!! Tell Lisa to stop trying to pull all those tubes and IVs out! I wouldn't want to have to come up to Tennessee and give her a good "talking to". You know how fiesty I can get!
;)
Mayo: Nice to see you! I suppose a new post/room/painting would have been too much to ask for, huh? That's okay. With today's economy it's perfectly forgivable!
(Did I spell that correctly? I hope I did. I don't have time check right now!)
Amy!!!!! I'm hungry. I hope either you or Ergo are cooking up some good grub!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
I remember OPJ actually got MAD at Kapu and bitched her out for trying to give OPL accupuncture advice on her blog once. I don't blame Kap for steering clear.
Well poop! If everyone is leaving maybe I should just go check into airfare to the UK. I hear Metallica is playing Sunday and a friend of mine might need some help! I think she just wants to borrow my new red boots to be honest!
:P
"But to think that I'm not allowed to ask one of them if they had heard the news about the other is simply childish. "
You are ALLOWED.
It is just obvious what you meant to do.
10:39 ~ If you know what's good for you, you might just want to shut up for now. I don't think any of us are in the mood for your shit tonight.
Thank you and you have a lovely night, okay!
Anyone else raised by the rule: "If you don't have something nice to say, don't say anything at all?"
It fits here.
"I don't think any of us are in the mood for your shit tonight."
But you are always in the mood for shit when you're flinging it at Kapu, aren't you?
Well, now that that is out of the way: Did you all hear that Mr. Big is back together???!!!! Tokyo in June sounds heavenly, don't ya'll think?
I never really feel quite right
I don't know why, all I know is there's something wrong
Every time I look at you, you seem so alive
Tell me how do you do it, walk me through it
I'm following every footstep
Baby on your own you take a cautious step
Do you wanna give it up?
But all I want is for you to SHINE
Shine down on me
Shine on this life that's burning out
I say a lot of things sometimes that don't come out right
And I act like I don't know why
I guess a reaction is all I was looking for
You looked through me, you really knew me like no one has EVER looked before
Baby on your own you take a cautious step
Do you wanna give it up?
But all I want is for you to SHINE
Shine down on me
Shine on this life that's burning out
I know, I know, girl you got something
SHINE (shine it on to me)
Shine down on me (I wanna feel it)
Shine on this life that's burning out
Baby on your own you take a cautious step
Do you wanna give it up?
But all I want is for you to SHINE
Shine down on me (just show me something)
Shine on this life that's burning out (you give me something that I never
know)
Shine (it gonna kill me if you give something away)
Shine yeaaah (I wanna know what's going in on your mind)
Shine on this life that's burning out
^Mr. Big "Shine"^
"If you know what's good for you, you might just want to shut up for now."
Or what? You'll come "GET ME" like you were going to get Karen?
10:49 ~ I can assure you that I, too, am sending many postive thoughts and prayers Granny K's way!
Our elders should be treasured. They should be cherished and protected.
I still think Mya needs to get her grandmother on video. My God. The things that woman has seen, has lived through...
It blows my mind!
10:51 ~ I believe I said I would deal with Karen later. So, are you Karen? Are you here to be dealt with? If so....
*pounce tackle hug and smoooooooch*
How's that? I can do better. I can do much, much better!
I am not Karen but I jsut think it's funny when people make empty threats over the internet.
hey everyone.
So I still some more bullshit is still going on. Thank goodness I don't come that much over here anymore.
But you're here almost every day.
"So stop trying to make Mayo feel guilty. And remember that it's between Mayo, Lisa, and myself. Nobody else.
Please stop acting like y'all are concerned about us, the OPs. No real friend would act the way you've been acting."
I wonder if the same goes for what Elena did tonight.
Hi sweetcheeks!!!!! How are you, tonight?
10:58 ~ What you view as a threat, I see as a promise. And, I just delivered! I usually do deliver on my promises. Can you say the same?
Here's some more for you and Karen:
*smoooooooooooch*
Sweetcheeks: Don't worry about it! Let's talk LUST BUNNIES!!!!! How's yours? Mine is fine!
;)
11:01,
Only about a couple of hours, and then I go to Seven's or at VV's. If not, I check out some music sites or something.
Hi sugarplum *blows kisses*
Did I tell you that there is a cashier at my grocery store that reminds me of you? She's new there, but she's a sweetheart to talk to whenever I pay for my stuff :)
Which lust bunny are you talking about wendy? You haven't mentioned him to me yet ;D
Mines is doing fine, but a part of me wishes to 'jump his bones' if you catch my drift. Meow.
0_0
Oh shit. Did I say my 'lust bunny'? No! No, no, no... I meant yours. Yeah, that's it. I meant yours, Sweetcheeks!
;)
Lol, sure you will sugarplum. Sure you were ;D
I iz innocent! Innocent I tell you!
*points to halo and bats long eyelashes*
;P
The only answer I got was Kool-Aid, Ade? will have to think about the others.
*sings*
"Hot blooded angel..."
Voodoo Kiss. In case anyone missed it a few days ago
*big innocent smile*
All lies wendy, all lies, lol. How was your day today?
*gasps*
Lies!!!! How dare you! I never lie. I just "fib" a little, when necessary! You know the old saying "the truth hurts". Well, I wouldn't want to hurt anyone... not too much,that is!
;)
I'm great, sweetcheeks! Thanks for asking. How are you?
Lol, sure sure ^_^
I'm doing pretty okay, I get to stay up a bit late because I don't have first hour class tomorrow, so my class won't start until 1pm, so I get to have an extra hour or so of sleep
I would like to add:
New Zealand accents rock my world!!!!!!!!
;)
YAY for an extra hour sleep!!! Can you have that extra hour for me, sweetcheeks? I could use it!
Okay, totally off topic; but a "Bang Bang" for a friend reminded me of this one:
Bang Bang, what's that sound... I gave you my love and you shot me down
^Danger Danger^
Wendy, sure! I'll spend some of that extra hour thinking about....oh wait, nevermind ^_~
Spend some of that extra hour thinking of mine too...
Wait, on second thought, DON'T! I'll think about that one enough for the both of us!
;)
Danger Danger led me to VIXEN!!! Anyone remember them?
I've been living on the edge of a broken heart...
Those ladies rocked!!!!
Let's play...
Ooops, for anyone who would like to sing along...
"Edge Of A Broken Heart"
I can't believe I could've been so blind, but love is strange
I thought about it for a long long time, but the truth remains
I don't need another lonely night to dry my tears
The answer's plain as black and white, and I can see the picture very clear
[Chorus:]
I been living on the edge of a broken heart
I don't wanna fall, I don't wanna crawl
I been living on the edge of a broken heart
Don't you wonder why I gotta say goodbye
It isn't like you never had the chance to change your tune
Did you think that I'm a dime a dance, well the dance is through
I been doing things your way too long, but baby that's over (baby that's over)
It won't be easy, but I gotta be strong
And if I wanna cry I don't need your shoulder
[chorus]
I'll find someone else who's nothing like you
And who can play the game as well
And you're gonna be sorry baby - when it's over
[Solo]
I been doing things your way too long, baby that's over (baby that's over)
It won't be easy, but I've got to be strong
And if I wanna cry I don't need your shoulder
[chorus]
I been living on the edge of a broken heart
I been living on the edge of a broken heart
Don't you wonder why I gotta say goodbye
I been living on the edge of a broken heart
Ohhh... what are we playing tonight, anon? I do love a good game (of something)!
That vixen video brings back some childhood memories, even though I was more into motley crue and def leppard at the time.
Sugarplum, you should try listening to "All We Are" by Doro. That is one kick ass song right there
shhhhhhh! *whispers* no loud voices...
Sweetcheeks: I love that song! I am very proud to say that I saw VIXEN play, LIVE, back in the day...
That was sometime around that PANTERA gig. You know, THAT GIG! LOL!!!!!
;)
if you're somebody, I think BigBad is asleep, and if you're BB, go to bed, you have work in the morning.
Oooops, sorry anon. I shall try to be more quiet in the future. But, you know, I can be a noisey one! I'll work on that!
Wendy, you saw them live? Were they any good?
hey anons
I'm somebody...not THAT somebody.
Not interested, or looking for BB.
I just want to play.
Okay, just wanted to clarify. :) Have a nice night!
Good Wendy, *winks*
I think you were looking for ^_~.
They now call themselves somebody.
0_0
Sorry everyone! I just have a serious case of the giggles right now!
I love you people! All of you... seriously!
Okay, where were we, sweetcheeks? I'm a bit confused now. Heck, that happens, right?
;)
Ohhh... that's right! VIXEN! They were great, sweetcheeks!
I think they were even better than Lita Ford (back in the day)!
Now Wendy, what's so funny? ^_^
Anons who keep jabbing at others to say something nice about Lisa:
JUST STOP IT. NOW.
If people want to say something, it's wonderful. If they don't, that's ok too. It's no secret that there's no love lost between us and K. But, by unspoken agreement, we don't talk to her, she doesn't talk to us. It's like your job, you don't talk to every single person you work with. Same principle applies here.
I'm appalled by those of you who keep using Lisa to lay guilt trips on ANYbody. This shit is completely unnecessary, and to be honest, it hurts me to read all this "Well if you were a decent person you'd pray for Lisa" (and keep in mind that was not an actual quote, but a hypothetical comment.
My best friend of 21 years is lying in the ICU, with what looks like 50,000 tubes stuck into her in various veins. She has to be on a ventilator because she can't breathe completely on her own yet. She's woken up a little, but mostly remains sedated so she can heal. Both her lungs are filled with fluid, better today than they were Monday, thank God. They still don't know if her heart was involved.
Do me a favor, please. LEAVE LISA OUT OF YOUR GAMES. You can say what you want about or to me, just don't bring my friend into all the spew. If you want to leave encouraging messages, that's great. Or you can email them. But stop with the other stuff, ok? She's not a ploy toy, she's an extremely ill human being.
Thanks.
Wendy, don't tell anyone, but
>_>
<_<
I have never, ever listened to Lita Ford before!
Aw heck, me loves ya too :D
Jen, no matter what you say, they will persist with this behavior.
It's best to ignore them.
I'm sending all my positive thoughts and well wishes to Lisa.
Now relax, and make yourself a cup of coffee or something to wind down.
J!!!!! How are you, my love? Hang out awhile and giggle with me and sweetcheeks!
Heck anon. I'm not sure what I'm giggling about. I think it's spring fever!
*gasps*
*holds throat*
*faints at hearing the news of her sweetcheeks never having heard LITA!!!*
Would someone please revive me so I can fix this LITA situation? PLEASE!!!!
Oh 12.49, I know all that. I know whatever I ask will be ignored or whatever. Sometimes, though, I have to let all that out. And they provide quite the convenient "targets".
Just asking for a little respect, that's all.
(And, you know I don't like coffee. ;) I DO have my Tab.
Sugarplum, have you heard of a song from SaraLee called "Dance?" It's pretty amazing. I just downloaded it from Itunes the other day, and fell in love with it. You should give it a listen :D
Wendy: LOL. I've never heard about Lita, although I think I hear one of her songs on the radio sometimes, but not sure.
Hiya J *hugs*
Heya Wendy, BC, and 12.49!
Wendy, I'm tired but overall ok. Lisa's hanging in there still.
How are you all doing?
I'm doing alright J, thanks. I'm so glad L is doing much better. Hang in there *hugs*
*passes a tab to Jen*
Thanks to whoever revived me! I think I just came around on my own. So, thanks for nothing people!
Yeah, I'm going to remember this. Don't any of you doubt it!
:P
Sweetcheeks: I LOVE SaraLee!!!! And, since you actually know who they are; I'll forgive you never having heard LITA!
;)
Here's some "KISS ME DEADLY" for you!
I went to party last Saturday night
I didn't get laid
I got in a fight
Ah~huh, it aint no big thing...
Kiss me once, kiss me twice
Come on pretty baby
KISS ME DEADLY...
I'm passing out some DEADLY kisses, Juicey! You want one?
;)
hey everyone.
hi there, j. good to see you! thanks for sending out the updates everyday. it's good to know what's going on with l.
Hahaha, thanks wendy. Now, you must accompany me in search of a wedding gown at once, lol ;D
hey there tj :)
Peaches, sure, lay one on me.
*prepares by applying lip gloss*
Hey TJ, I figure if all these people want to know how Lisa's doing, I can update more easily on emails and on here. And thank you for your emails back.
BC: *hugs back* Thank you, honey. Makes me feel better.
hey bc. congrats on not having a morning class -- those were horrible!
I'll help you pick out yours if you help me pick out mine, sweetcheeks!!!!
;)
Hi TJ!
J (Juicey): Please tell my L (Lucious) that I'm thining of her. Every minute of every day! We have great plans for next Mardi Gras and I'm holding her to them!
*plants a big, wet, non deadly kiss on J (uicey)*
I love ya too much to give you a full on deadly one!
;)
you're welcome, j., but i'm just glad to see you in my inbox. :)
No problem wendy! And what's this about plans on having me go down to New Orleans and getting me drunk? ^_^
Thanks tj! They sure are, especially when I really don't like waking up early to get ready for them. At least I'll have a couple of extra hours of sleep.
you're welcome J :)
hey there, wendy, o queen of the exclamation marks! lol
Actually sugarplum, I have a picture of a wedding dress saved on my photobucket. For future reference. It will be a Victorian dress, and definitely NOT white, hehe.
Yeah TJ! FASC just THINKS she's the queen. I have news for her!!!!
*wicked laugh*
;)
Sweetcheeks: That was all Lisa's idea! She has grande plans of all of us getting totally trashed and BRE having to drag all of our arses through the streets of the French Quarter!
Not that Bre has ever had to drag her nanny through the streets of the quarter. No, that has never happened. There is NO video proof of this... NO, there isn't. Don't bother searching YOUTUBE. It does not exist!!!!
It doesn't!!!! REALLY!!!!!!
;P
toujours said...
you're welcome, j., but i'm just glad to see you in my inbox. :)
March 26, 2009 1:16 AM
I was unaware that I would FIT in your inbox, TJ...but hey, if you see me there, then I'm there. ;D
Wendy, I'll tell her tomorrow, promise. I keep telling her we haven't even been to Italy yet, so she can't leave here right now.
BC, I've heard about the getting you drunk thing. As a matter of fact, I was the one who asked Lisa, "Don't you think BC would be the funniest drunk?" So now we've decided, you have to be drunk at least once. heeheehee
Mayo
It was nice to see you here today but your words have made me sad. I am sorry that coming here does not always make you as happy as it once did. Like I said earlier I too feel this way but you know what? Just when I think that it’s all gone to hell and I question why I stay something will happen that reminds me why I’m here. I guess that this blog is more like “real life” than I realize. It has its ups and downs, it is beautiful and it is ugly. In saying that I suppose I need to admit that my nature makes me see the beauty over the ugliness. It is my enduring belief in friendship that makes me stay through the bad times because I know good times will come around again. Pollyanna much? Yeah, I am. That is how I am and that is how I have to be.
Now back to your visit. I understand that you must feel very hurt that everything you say gets twisted. Well dude, I do truly get that. Tonight was a prime example for me. Sorry but I must have missed the memo stating that when talking to someone there were certain things I couldn’t discuss. I am not blaming K in any way. The anons totally ran with this one. I suppose I should have realized they would. Just as you should realize they will run with anything you say and distort it until they make it fit their agenda. Kinda makes you not want to say anything sometimes. But really if you don’t say anything then in a warped sense they take that and make it their own. Truly this is a damned if you do, damned if you don’t situation. So at this point I am going to assume that some of the comments past 4:40 were you. You have a certain sound, Mayo. I could be wrong but hey, I’ve been wrong before so no big deal. Anyway, to me (and yes this is just my opinion) the longer you were here the more frustrated you became. I can totally understand that. And yep I’m gonna say something that has a good chance to cause me some shit but truthfully, I DON”T GIVE A FUCK. I’m tired of trying to watch every fucking word I say. You know what? Fuck that. I want to speak my mind and if someone doesn’t like it that’s okay. I’m entitled to my opinion. Hell, I’ve earned the right to my opinion. Wow, was that an into or what? Thing is this, I know you were getting upset and while I understand it, seriously dude when you get riled up it’s hot. (Go ahead anons make something out of that cause truthfully I don’t give a fuck) Or in the words of Ignignokt “ I hope you can see this. I’m doing it as hard as I can.” (if you don’t get the refrence too bad). I guess I’m really fed up with people thinking Elena is so nice and doesn’t have a temper. Oh I have a temper I’ve just learned to controll it. Just like I’ve learned to play nice with others. It’s called being an adult. Not always easy but necessary. And my point was? Oh yeah, I understand what you said. I understand your anger and frustration. I just hope that you don’t let those feelings blind you to some of the beauty that is still here. Because it is here, Mayo. And it is fucking special.
And with that I’m gonna take my cranky ass outta here. Take care. No, I don’t know your true identity (makes you sound like a Super Hero doesn’t it?) But like I said before that doesn’t mean I don’t know you. You are my friend.
Night Mayo
Elena (I’m probably more Err)
Don't listen to her, BC, you know there's video out there. If we search long enough, we'll find it eventually. :D
hello
but hey, if you see me there, then I'm there. ;D
it's my inbox, and i say you're there!
so i just looked at the clock and i am waaaaay over my alloted computer time for the night. oops. better get going.
good to have a chance to chat with you all! good night j., and bc, and wendy. sweet dreams. :)
Hey ergo. goodnight tj, sweet dreams.
BC, I've heard about the getting you drunk thing. As a matter of fact, I was the one who asked Lisa, "Don't you think BC would be the funniest drunk?" So now we've decided, you have to be drunk at least once. heeheehee
----------------------------------
*mimicking RW's famous expression*
O_O
Lol tj, I do have the tendency to get a bit giggly when I'm drinking
*refreshes page*
and good night elena, and hello/good night ergo!
Heck J (uicey), I'll send you the link!!!! I think you could use the laugh! I'm thinking that was the night of the Good Charlotte concert last year. HI NICOLE!!!
;)
Ergo!!!!!! *smooooooooch*
Goodnight elena. J, of course I wouldn't believe her! I bet there is a video out there somewhere :D
Goodnight Elena! Sweet dreams!
Oh shit, I just saw that J made the comment about me being the funniest drunk, not tj.
LOL and I'm not even drinking
Shucks! I am so busted! I'll send the link to you, Sweetcheeks, and you J(uicey). It's hilarious and humiliating!
Heck, if your own niece can't humiliate you via youtube, who can?
:P
Hahaha, sugarplum, you better send it, or J and I will be coming after you >:)
I'm sore, I got a flu injection today and my arm still hurts
Goodnight Elena, goodnight TJ, talk with you tomorrow!
Hello Ergo!
BC, I know you wouldn't listen to her. She's delusional, you know. ;D
*OOH, BURN!*
I'm gonna have to go in a minute, get some more sleep.
oh goodnight TJ!!
sweet dreams
LOL!!!! Check your inboxes, sweetcheeks and J!
That niece of mine is going to have one hell of a job "chaporone~ing" all of us! It took three of them just to handle me that night!
;)
In the meantime, you can all watch this, from that night:
The memory, it fails...
;)
mayo,
good thing i read elena's good night to you, i was in danger of saying almost exactly the same thing...it was good to see you, and yes, your comment left me feeling sad. i feel like we should apologize to you for what has become of this place.
i miss things too, of course. one of my favorite nights here was when we had a big pillow fight, almost trashing the place completely. the night ended with ergo and i listening to tbp together on the couch. i think i even slept there that night. *grin*
and the parties, all the silliness we used to get up to. i liked the puzzles and games, too, but i'm usually shite at that stuff, so i mostly just read along.
and the poetry, well...this place reawakened my love for it, through your poems and all the ones we shared with each other. revitalized my love of writing, really.
i'm sorry that it's become such a weedy and neglected place, but mayo, the people here are still important to me, yourself included.
good night, mayo. no matter what happens here, i for one am wholly changed by being a part of this blog, and i will never regret that.
Hi J so glad to hear L is still feisty, but best if they keep that at bay while she needs to heal.
But it's great her vitals are stable now
I'm sorry to hear that ergo :(
She's delusional alright J. Lol!
Thanks sugarplum. I shall check my inbox right now!
well BC it was only about 2 hrs ago then I had to teach and drive home, so resting it wasn't an option
it'll be ok
yahoo is being such a bastard right now.
that's good ergo
my internet is going in and out
Ooops! Sorry everyone! I was lost in the youtube land of fond and funny memories!!! I sort of got stuck back in Finland... New Year's Eve! Damn. That was so frickin good!
HANOI ROCKS!!!!
Hell yeah, they do!
Hey,
Anyone who is still here I am at 7's.
I was gonna ask you if you were drunk in that good charlotte video footage sugarplum, lol
hey mj
Martha!!!! I shall be home in a minute. I have been lost. You know that happens to me from time to time.
;)
Goodnight Mayo, SS, Sweetcheeks, J, Elena, TJ, anons who made me giggle (and those who didn't), everyone!
Sweet dreams to one and all!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ!!!!!
have to go titoring
Pssst... I was NOT drunk while taking that footage, sweetcheeks. The "drunk" part came later that night!
;)
Here's some "hugs and SWEAT" from that night. Pre drunkedness (and Bre, friend and sister having to drag me back to the van)!
Get each others sweat. Hell yeah! LIFESTYLES
*blows kisses to blog believe*
Well, I need to get to bed, ladies. Shall be talking with you again tomorrow.
*Ergo--thanks. You know for what.*
Mayo, I'm sorry you feel the way you do about your own blog. I understand how you feel regarding words being twisted. BOY do I know. The people who do the twisting are the ones who like to pick at what others say until they can make it sound like that person is either lying or crazy. They're very good at manipulation. Maybe you'd like to come in sometime and just talk to whoever's here. Might do you some good.
love, faith, hope, peace, happiness
Goodnight J, sweet dreams. Love to you and L
See you later ergo. Goodnight sugarplum *blows kisses*
Goodnight Jen
I'm off for the night as well. Goodnight everyone. Goodnight anon.
Amy, You have nothing on me when it comes to killing blogs. I just killed two. At the same time
6 i sent you an email.
Dear SS,
Since it's after midnight here, this makes Lisa's fourth day in the hospital. This entire--what should I call it?--event? episode? nuclear bomb?, seems so unreal. I thought it would be another typical ER visit Monday, we'd be there 4 hours or so, then we'd come back. Lisa would have some medicine from the ER dr, she'd get some rest, and that would be that.
How wrong THAT was.
She's been dubbed The Miracle Patient in the ICU. Monday night her nurse was calling everybody and telling them L was in respiratory arrest and wasn't responding. Now her vitals have stabilized, she's got color in her face again, and she knows exactly what's going on (that is, when she comes to every so often!).
Miracles DO happen, Precious, never doubt that. Lisa still has a pretty long way to go regarding recovery, but at least she survived in order to be able to recover.
Hope you're doing alright, not working too hard. Would be nice to talk with you if you had the time.
Goodnight, baby. I love you.
My heart to yours, always.
Do you hear? Do you recognize the voices? The words, as they gently whisper, ring true. They are here you know. Holding their breath they listen and they wait. They are here for you. Nothing will ever change that. Listen closely and you will hear the voices of those who truly know you. Your ears and eyes are not needed, simply open your heart. It is for you they linger. It is for you they stay.
congrats. you did it. you wanted it. you got it. you had to feed that monster didn't you. you couldn't leave it alone. fuck you.
*yawn*
Can't you come up with something more original, more emotive than a yawn anon? No. I guess you can't.
Excuse me? What would you know, about my emotions 3:34?
I know what I see. I saw an uncaring, dismissive, "I don't care who's hurting" *yawn*. Should I have seen more there?
for
me!
jen and lisa ♥
ha haha!
The Purple Pasternickle triumphs again!!!!!
*happy dance*
Ep! You fucked that up for me. I'll never talk to you again. It's over.
I do like purple. Maybe I will talk to you again. ;)
I'm sorry 3:45. I won't waste anymore of your time.
oh I'm sorry anon
forgive me?
I only jumped on after titoring and saw the number
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