You startled me
In not so much your words,
But your approach.
It was fast
And filled my head
With nonsense words
And warmth
When you weren’t there.
So, I went under
And swallowed
The surge. And above
My head is swirling water.
My hand slapping at the surface,
Desperate for structure
Steep stone. Then
My fingers finding rooted edge
Holding ground,
Finally. Almost out of breath
When I pulled myself up.
Entwined in mine, fingers
Not rooted mass, but flesh.
That took the shape
Of mysteries ability
To suddenly deliver me
Upon the edge was all
That I was meant to be.
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No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
4,847 comments:
«Oldest ‹Older 2601 – 2800 of 4847 Newer› Newest»thanks anon, I am in purple at the moment too
perhaps I should seek treatment for my compulsion ;]
you won't be wasting my time if you're willing to explain what the yawn was for.
I have rethunk my position. Pretty purple clothes and teaching are not acceptable excuses. You no longer exist in my world. I'm cutting out pieces of black construction paper and pasting it over the name ergoproxy. I no longer see you. I am done with you. You are gone. That is it. I have spoken. Amen.
LOL
I have rerethunk my position. I am lonely. Ergoproxy does exist.
*removes black construction paper from monitor*
Hey, I just wanted to apologize for my outburst today. I'm not very good with communication when I am emotional and scared about someone. I just wanted to say I'm sorry if I offened anyone. I don't feel anyone needs to say anything about each other and I certainly wouldn't want it forced. I still believe everyone here, whether they say it or not, does care for and want the best for each other. I'm sorry for forgetting that for a while today.
Also Anima, I cannot get a link to your blog (I don't like saying private things here), but I did hear about your loss and I apologize for not sending you my condolences. I did only get my net back up this week, but I am not very good at comforting, obviously and I do avoid it sometimes. But I am thinking of you Anima and I hope you are doing alright. Please know that.
If anyone else has people they care about in trouble, I hope everything will come out alright for them.
-night
hey anon I am so glad that black paper is gone, I couldn't see a thing!
hi Lewis, nice to see you
do you ahve anima's email? If you don't email me and I'll pass it on
BlogBelieve,
Hope everyone is doing better than they were yesterday and the day before that and will be doing even better tomorrow.
Hope L's condition continues to improve.
Hope everyone's 2009 will start looking up. So far, 2009 just seems like a year that should be fucking ass-kicked and bitch slapped right into 2010.
2010? That just doesn't even look right.
Anyway...
Happy Thursday to all!
Mayo,
Hey, how are ya? Hope you are doing just fanfuckingtastic this rainy Thursday morning! It was nice to read you around yesterday. Me? Well, like I told the folks at DM, I've been feeling a little, no, wait...I've been feeling a fucking lot like I'm bound and gagged and tongue tied and liplocked but not in kinky way. In one of those ways where you ain't got or can't find shit to say to anyone. So, I just sat back and hummed to myself. Came up with some pretty good shit that of course I couldn't write down because, helloooooo, my hands were tied and even if I could have managed to find a pencil, I wouldn't have been able to spit the gag out and I've never really been good at writing with my mouth and I couldn't get my shoes off because the morning before, I tied my shoelace in double knots (just like my Mama always did when I was a kid, so my shoes wouldn't keep coming untied). I know I could have written with my feet, I just know it. And so, my lovely melodies and catchy lyrics are destined (were destined? not sure which) to be lost forever.
Unless...no, that won't work because that almost never happens.
Anyways, I freed myself and how or why or who or what is not important. MacGyver anyone?
And here I am. Will I be here tomorrow? I don't know. I'm kind of thinking about going on a trip. You know? Down that road. Yeah, that one. The one that's well worn and well traveled. The one I've been down 101347 times before, but fuck me, I just know my way around. And I know that surely, most certainly, most definitely, I won't fall in that same hole.....
Fuck! (That kind of hurt a little and what I want to know is who moved that damn hole!?)
Anyone got some rope?
No?
Damn.
A pen and paper perhaps?
I've got a song just dying to be written and I got nothing but time.
Love to YOU Always,
S
sdock I loved reading that, you really have a way of writing that I can imagine you standing there saying it
hope your thursday is a good one
What's up with people posting all of these Kings of Leotards links here? I thought this was an MCR fansite.
How rude to post about another band on Gerard Way's blog!
Mayo
have you heard this song? it is a really unusual one, by a performance artist named Lauri Anderson called O Superman
O SupermanO Superman. O judge. O Mom and Dad. Mom and Dad.
O Superman. O judge. O Mom and Dad. Mom and Dad.
Hi. I'm not home right now. But if you want to leave a
message, just start talking at the sound of the tone.
Hello? This is your Mother. Are you there? Are you
coming home?
Hello? Is anybody home? Well, you don't know me,
but I know you.
And I've got a message to give to you.
Here come the planes.
So you better get ready. Ready to go. You can come
as you are, but pay as you go. Pay as you go.
And I said: OK. Who is this really? And the voice said:
This is the hand, the hand that takes. This is the
hand, the hand that takes.
This is the hand, the hand that takes.
Here come the planes.
They're American planes. Made in America.
Smoking or non-smoking?
And the voice said: Neither snow nor rain nor gloom
of night shall stay these couriers from the swift
completion of their appointed rounds.
'Cause when love is gone, there's always justice.
And when justive is gone, there's always force.
And when force is gone, there's always Mom. Hi Mom!
So hold me, Mom, in your long arms. So hold me,
Mom, in your long arms.
In your automatic arms. Your electronic arms.
In your arms.
So hold me, Mom, in your long arms.
Your petrochemical arms. Your military arms.
In your electronic arms.
listen along
much love EP xx
SS
for you another interesting piece, A band I really enjoy and admire for their originality (and Max Headroom was pretty awesome)
Art of Noise
Paranoimia
Relax
You're quite safe here
Am I dreaming, no
Where am I, in bed
Well, what am I doing
Oh, t-t-t-t-talking to myself
Look, I must have
A star on my door
Or better still
A door-a doo-a door
Ah, swing doors up
O-o-o-okay doors, swing
Paranoimia
Swing
Paranoimia
Swing
Now I know I'm dreaming
Dreaming, dreaming
Dreaming, dreaming, dreaming
Hmmm, how do I get to sleeep
I know, I'll count
Those bars on the window
One, two, three, sleep
Paranoimia, paranoimia
Paranoimia, paranoimia.....
How do I get
How do I get to sleep
Please let me sleep
Po-po-poetry, that'll work
Come sweet slumber
Enshroud me in thy purple cloak
Hmmm, doesn't even rhyme
Is that my teas made
Paranoimia paranoi
I cant stand tea
Tea, tea, tea, tea....
Paranoimia, paranoimia.....
Ahhh, Happy Harry's High Club
How do I, how am I
Gonna get to sleep
Trust me, trust me....
listen and watch along
(btw - great album)
lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve see you in my morning
♥xx♥
hi fasc if you call in
take care all who pass through
What's up with people posting all of these Kings of Leotards links here? I thought this was an MCR fansite.
How rude to post about another band on Gerard Way's blog!
Very funny, Siobhan.
If this is an MCR fansite, then what are you doing here?
Morning All
Sdock you have no idea how happy it made me to see you here. I've missed your words so damn much. Take care and please get a pen and write that song. It needs to be written.
Hmm, one anon guessed the first one last night. HURRAY! Anon, I give you a cookie. How about oatmeal raison, or maybe double chocolate chip?
This all probably got lost in the madness and "zzzOMGzzz DIEEE!" junk so I am going to repost them.
Mayo, I doubt if you're around, but hey, you never know; maybe you'll catch these and they will make you smile. Or at least half a smirk. I'm no S(S)S when it comes to riddling, but it's still fun.
Children partake of me in any self respecting cult
yet I've also brought pleasure to many an adult
I wreck your home and I don't even seem to care!
And my lesser known use is to color your hair.
Who am I?
That one's already been guessed, but maybe you missed it. :)
I'm well admired for my structure and form,
I start off in April and end in a storm.
I've inspired desolation, I've inspired a King,
"I see crowds of people, walking round in a ring..."
What am I?
I guess you can google it if you want and it wouldn't be cheating. I know I would. ;)
'Till recently I have been Japanese
where winter months protect me as I freeze,
In summer months I flow where water wends,
the heron and the hawk are not my friends!
Who am I?
That one's pretty lame; sorry!
I come in like a ninja and deflect an attack,
I have a blue suit, but prefer wearing black.
I won't tell you my name even if you beg
and I'm pretty damn tasty on a hard-boiled egg.
WHO AM I?
:D
Well, today I have so much shopping, housecleaning and studying. Tomorrow is shot because it's Haku's post-surgery check-up and then my friend is coming to visit.
Be well and stay warm!
(It's superfly cold here. Winter needs to GTFO.)
The Wasteland, and koi? Still stuck on last one. Thanks for cookie.
Good morning everyone, how are you all today?
Good news from the ICU: the dr told Lisa's parents that they're going to take the ventilator out in "a couple of days"! Her vitals are still stable, she's been opening her eyes off and on, and will sometimes make faces that relate properly to a speaker's words. Like frowning when she heard her brother kidding her about having to pull the garden tiller for her dad cause his is broken *all a joke*. haha
Since she's doing so well, I'm taking a day off to rest, do some things around here, try to relax. Every muscle in my body is tense.
SDock, I have to say, your posts this morning were so great. You sounded so much like you used to in the beginning. This part was spot on:
"Hope everyone's 2009 will start looking up. So far, 2009 just seems like a year that should be fucking ass-kicked and bitch slapped right into 2010."
Gotta say, I'm with you 1000% on that.
I'll be updating some more later, when I know anything else. Hope everyone has a great day, and I'll see y'all later.
Jules,
OMG.
You shoulda seen my face when I figured out the last one.
Yeah, I slapped myself on the forehead like GAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
^_^
Hee-hee.
What's up with people posting all of these Kings of Leotards links here? I thought this was an MCR fansite
-----------------------------------
Unless you're joking or something, if the anons want to post Kings of Leon links, let them. Mayo doesn't seem to have a problem with that. Not everything revolves around MCR when there's so many more bands out there.
you told me to live as if you were to die tomorrow; feel as if you were to be reborn now; breathe as if you were to live forever.
What else can I do besides avenge you?
I don't care what you are doing, so much as the idiotic way that you are doing it.
You are quite welcome for the cookies, anon! Thank you for solving my silly riddles. :)
And Princess, I think I owe you a cookie, too. ^_^
oh man, what a crappy day. Let's just say that things could be better and I'm just going to leave it at that.
And Haku hurt himself again. He's my hard-luck puppy.
Well, I still haven't studied at all, so I'm off to do that now.
Incidentally, I just found out that there's a character named "Haku" in the show Naruto.
I've never seen Naruto in my life. My Haku's real name is Nigihayami Kohakunushi and is named after this Haku, because he looks just like that character. :)
Also, Kohaku is a kind of koi fish, which I think is pretty funny. :)
"I still believe everyone here, whether they say it or not, does care for and want the best for each other. I'm sorry for forgetting that for a while today.
"
That's what people mean when they say "God will burn you to a crisp" and "I hope you and your family rot in hell for eternity".
Why is L in the ICU? What happened?
She is very very sick anon.
good morning
5:22, she had what turned out to be a respiratory arrest due to formerly undiagnosed double pneumonia but may also have suffered a minor heart attack in the last few days (from enzyme levels) she is sedated, being treated and the cardiologist is coming to check her
But after almost dying her vital signs are stable and she is responding
I'm so sorry, I had no idea. I hope she continues to improve and makes a full and speedy recovery. How is J coping?
she is posting updates if you want to look back
the latest is at 11:46
she plans to take today and rest herself, it's been incredibly stressful as you can imagine
Hi Ergo
Hi Anon
hi ergo, elena, anon and anyone else!!
i have 8 fucking minutes!
mayo, nice to see you. don't stress, i'm sure you won't.
elena, can i???? or not?
hi elena!!
how are you?
mayo that was not meant to come across as snarky, i honestly meant, don't stress, cos you are damned if you do and you are damned if you don't. such is life here at times.
hi fasc!!!!!!!
OPJ thanks for the updates on Lisa.
Kings of Leon anon(s) thanks for the pics!
hi solly, proncess, K, BC, Vincent Valentine (myself yeh??!), anons and anyone else who's been here today.
Ladies, I don't have much time so I'm gonna have to love you and leave you.
Be there for each other, my friends.
hiya ergo!!! is it friday for you?? methinks it is.
just thinking back, hi anima, i know i saw you, i am thinking of you, i'm sorry i've not been in touch for a bit. hope you are doing OK? ♥
You are sweet Anon. Take Care
FASC I don't care
bye anon.
oh look i have 1 fucking minute! might be in luck, he's not noticed!!
elena in that case
HAPPY JAPPY BIRTHDAY ELENA!!!!
sorry but you deserve a Happy birthday!
love ya loads!
thanks anon, you too
take care
fasc it is YAY!!!!
and hubby & I are going to teh movies tonight, for the first time in ..oh years..to not see a disney animated movie
lol
Thank you FASC
Thank you FASC
my fucking pleasure elena!!
ergo what are you going to see??
♥HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELENA!!!!!!!!!♥
Thanks Ergo
we are thinking Watchmen, it sounds good, and I like a movie you ahve to think about and pay attention to, and everyone who's seen it here says it's really good, and all the other movies are teen things, gooshy romances, or someone-or other Mall Cop
we don't get a huge selection
You will love Watchmen. I've seen it twice and I'm taking the hubby to see it this weekend.
Watchmen is great ergo. makes you think for days after and i like that in a movie.
that blue man with the penis is still on my mind. can't remember his superhero name other than John. and elena when he appeared in the cafeteria ater he had died, and he was just this freaky thing? do you think his girlfriend (was it Janey?) recognised him just from his penis?? she said "John????" she damn well knew!
sorry but that made me giggle, cos i am a fucking kid still!
OPJ SS WAS JUST HERE
I knew he would. I knew that you mean so much to him and he would never leave you out in the cold.
Oh LOL
FASC you are so damn funny. Yep I really like Dr Manhattan. Watching him walk around was a pleasure.
haha cool fasc and elena
I am looking forward to just going so A good movie will top it of nicely
we will probably grab dinner somewhere too, there is an 8"30 screening, I'm thinking a wood fired pizza at an italian place not far from the cinema
(our daughter has a birthday sleepover to go to)
I ahve to nick tot he school then town, I'll be abck for a bit then before work but fasc will be gone
so take care fasc, have a good night
(and wasn't there some movie where women had to pick guys that way? liek a "beauty (hahahahaha) pagent?)
shit, someone spell check that last one for me and correct it all
lol
typing too fast isn't a good thing
bye!
Dr Manhatten, of course! i totally admit to never having read Watchmen ever before.
yes well John, with the penis, was a pleasure to view!
i am quite nasty aren't i?!
gotta go, mr bloke has now noticed the time. how convenient of him!!
enjoy you birthday elena!
take care everyone.
love to you all.
(and wasn't there some movie where women had to pick guys that way? liek a "beauty (hahahahaha) pagent?)
oh fuck no!! did anyone fucking win?
seeya ergo, have fun!!
Bye guys
Talk to you later.
There was just a knock on my study door and when I opened it this is what I found.
my birthday cake
I'm kinda teary right now. I didn't think she remembered.
Kings of Leon anon(s):
Thank you so much for the pics!
*right clicks, saves...smiles*
I'm kinda teary right now. I didn't think she remembered.
March 26, 2009 6:39 PM
The older they get the more they will remember what a great mother they have.
Thank you 6:56 Anon
Now you've made me teary!
Hi anons, Elena, ergo and FASC!
Stopping by. Been crazy busy!
Haven't caught up, BUT...
HAPPY B-DAY ELENA!!! :)
MissT - Happy Very, Very Belated B-Day! *hugs*
Jen - Thank you so much for updates. I sent you another email - and please know that many care about you and Lisa and you're in my thoughts and prayers, whether I am here or not. *hugs*
Sorry I don't really know much of what has transpired here, as sometimes I can't bring myself to read thoroughly - and I have little time, but I do have to say...
Lewis - Your passion and honesty are never wrong, but your apology was a testament to your kindness. I felt the same way that someone would use others' pain and suffering to perpetrate cruelties.
Enough said.
Mayo - I hope you are well. I think you visit here less often yourself? If so, I hope you are busy with positive endeavors. :)
Much love to you all!
♥
hi miranth
elena! awesome cake!!!
6:56 they sure will!!
i owed you one.
Miranth thanks
Hi again Ergo
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELENA!!
Can we have a party? Can we, can we huh???
hey!
I'm rushing about getting ready for work
Hi Amy
Sure I'm just sitting here looking up books. I spent the day at a killer book sale.
Hi everyone, how are you?
Thank Miranth for the belated birthday wishes. How are you sweetie?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELENA SWEETIE!
Your cake is fantastic. I hope you have an amazing day.
A birthday present for St Elena!
When fandoms collide!!
Note: that says FAN-DOM not CON-DOM.
>_<
Oh great...
I can't party :[
:O
No for party?
:(
hi missT
I am off soon
Amy they are sooooo cool
LOL Thanks Amy
I love My Little Pony Edward Scissorhands
Hi MissT thanks for the B-day wishes
Hiya Ergo, Hiya Elena, Hiya Amy.
Hiya anyone else still around.
I hope you get loads of nice pressies Elena.
Well I got a Wii from the hubby and a cake from Stormy. My mom gave me money because she said she had no idea what to get me.
Well that sounds like good pressies so far.
What do you think you might get with the money? Anything you've been wanting lately?
I bought a pair of jeans. Now I just have to hide them so my girls don't "borrow" them. LOL
Ooooooo Elena, you must be a trendy mum if your daughters wanna borrow your clothes.
Good for you, yummy mummy.
I think the only thing I ever borrowed from my mom to wear was her sweatshirts. My dad would eventually hand down his old t-shirts so I could have new pajamas.
So, I once boasted a M*A*S*H 4077 shirt, a Playboy Bunny shirt, and a couple of old football jersey style shirts at sleepovers.
People were most impressed with the rabbit, and it took me a very long time to figure out why.
I ave all that to look forward to elena, I have already had my clothes and stuff coveted , they just don't fit yet!
I'm off to work
catch anyone later
take care all!!
xx
LOL Amy. I still have one of dad's huge T-shirts as a night shirt. Gotta be done hasn't it?
I stayed clear of playboy nightwear though.
YOU HAD A M*A*S*H SHIRT!!!!!!!!!?????
I am totally jealous!!!!!!
Hi ERGO!
Hi MissT :) I am fine. Gotta go meet my friend. He returned from a European tour just now and I was missing him.
:)
Have a good night!
See you later Ergo, have a great day.
See ya Miranth.
Have a great time with your friend.
xxx
Actually they do like a lot of my clothes. I like to shop at the Buckle.
I have no idea what the buckle is but it sounds cool.
Bye Ergo
Bye Miranth
They are neat stores MissT
I love their stuff.
I wish I had the money for clothes shopping right now. Maybe if I win the lottery saturday. That would be nice.
If I won the lottery I'd have to go clothes shopping cos I'd need some new stuff to wear on that round the world cruise hahaha!
Bye Ergo!
And I did! It was a M*A*S*H shirt that said something along the lines of "Property of the 4077th" underneath the logo. I loved it.
It has since disintegrated, like all good shirts do.
*hangs head and mourns for Amy's T-shirt*
MissT if you win the lottery aren't you gonna come and visit? I could show you my bookstore. Oh and cows and wheat. That's what we have the most of. LOL
oh holy crap. I'm going through the books I got today and one of them is a paperback from the old TV series The A-Team. I bought it because I thought it was funny. It lists for over $30.00
That would be great Elena. I will pencil you in for a stop off. It would be great to see your bookstore. I will need reading matter for the journey hee hee!
Well, almost 1am here so nighty night everyone.
Happy Birthday Elena xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Bye now.
Wish me luck, as he sounds pretty depressed.
After the night I had yesterday at the pub, I prob. shouldn't go out, but I care about him.
On a positive note:
Good luck on the lottery MissT!!!
Hello Mayo, SS, Ergo, Amy, Elena, MissT, Miranth, FASC, various anons and everyone else!!!!
How are you all tonight? Well and good, I hope!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELENA!!!!
No birthday is complete without extra chocolate cake!!!
^please notice the age on that one^
I knew I would here to celebrate with when you finally became legal!
;)
Ergo: Have a good day at work!
*smoooooch*
Amy: I would love to join the party; but, I must cook(and lust over Adam Lambert while cooking).
Yeah, I know! But, WHO CARES??!! Look at him! Listen to him! Who needs more than that to lust over?
MissT: You're very welcome for your birthday presents! What was that about my "test driving" it first?
*gasps*
I'm shocked you would think such a thing! I would never give you used merchandise... well, nothing with over 5000 miles on it!
;)
Miranth: Sorry I missed you earlier. See, I told you he would be back!
;)
I hope you manage to cheer him up. I have no doubt you will be able to do just that. I shall catch up with you later!
Sweetcheeks: Did you take those pictures yet?
My love to J and L!!!!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ, Martha, RW, GS, Magic Pie and Careful!
hey guys. Hi and bye miranth. Goodnight miss t, sweet dreams.
Happy birthday elena *hugs*
Thanks Wendy
Wow that is a lot of chocolate. Looks good!
Thanks for the birthday hug, BC
Goodnight MissT, thank you for the moment over my shirt.
*wipes away a silent tear*
Hallo Wendy and BC!
No problem elena. Hallo amy, what's up with you?
Itunes is being a fucking bitch >_<
Sugarplum: I'm working on those pictures as we speak, but for now I'll only send one. My computer is going slow.
where is everyone?
AUGH!
Hi BC.
I was trying to find the ending to Battle Royale, but apparently, I suck at doing that.
Oh well.
Happy Birthday Elena, my dear friend. I hope it was a really great day for you. *birthday squeezy hugs and multiple venti cups of Starbucks coffee*
Did you get my phone message?
Hey Amy, BC, how are you two ladies?
I'll be here for a little while, then off for a little while to, yes, clean the catbox. But then I'll be back.
That sucks amy :/
Hiya J, how are you doing? *hugs*
I was trying to find my cord to hook my camera to the computer to upload pics, but I can't seem to remember where I last put it. And itunes is giving me a hard time. The fucker.
Well, that sucks, BC. Sorry you can't find your cord. I've got one, wanna borrow it? ;)
Thanks J. And how is L doing this evening? More better I hope
BC, the cord goblins got you too huh? They snagged my camera cord about 3 months back ,and my poor camera is full to bursting. I gotta take it in and have a CD made to get the pictures off :P
I'm assuming she's ok. I say "assuming" because her family didn't call this afternoon or evening to update me. I wasn't awake to catch them at the ICU waiting room. And I've just now tried to talk to Lisa's night nurse, but she won't tell me anything b/c I'm not family.
Oh, and I don't have the number to the hotel her parents/brother are staying at, and they're probably asleep by now anyway.
I am not pleased, and I'm feeling pretty weepy tonight anyway, so I'm trying not to cry.
"To weep is to make less the depth of grief." - William Shakespeare
*small teary laugh*
I guess that means its ok to cry then, Anon?
Damn, that sucks Amy. Yeah, I guess the cord goblins got me too. I know it's somewhere in my room, but at the moment it's a fucking mess. Magazines, shoes, clothes are all over the place, lol.
Aw J, try to hang in there. She'll pull through. Have faith :)
I do, BC. I really do. This, I believe, is some delayed grief. I've only cried once since this happened Monday; the ol' heart's saying, You need to do it some more. Stop being so tough for a few minutes.
But I don't like to cry. It's so messy and you can't breathe too well. :P
"Invisible tears are the hardest to wipe away. Just let it out, my friend." - Adabella Radici
Take care of your friends and loved ones.
And, don't forget to take care of yourselves, as well.
11.17--thank you. You always know exactly what to say. *hugs*
"I like the snot to run a little, the tears to accumulate a bit before reaching for the handkerchief. Then I know I'm really crying. Crying just isn't crying unless it's messy." - D.H. Mondfleur
My pleasure, as always.
Well, that's one way to look at it. Messy means you're doing it right.
Sounds like what I always told my feeding patients when I was a speech therapist: If you don't get it all over you, it's not good.
Same principle applies, apparently...
Now YOU'RE going to make me cry, too. You're so kind to me, and I love you for it.
I don't like crying either J. For me, it's more harder to express my emotions because I'm good at holding them all in and not showing it to barely anyone.
I don't like being vulnerable.
11:19,
You take care of yourself and your loved ones as well. Those that are in our lives are ones to be treasured and cared for.
Same here, BC. I've always been seen as so strong, nothing bothers me, whatever. I DO keep a lot inside--until I'm by myself and the crisis part has passed. Then I sob like a baby. But usually nobody sees it.
Me too J. We're a lot alike O_o
*half a grin*
Does that thought scare you as much as it does me? ;D
Tell me: did I miss your birthday?
it's horrifying, lol. Nah, I admire your strongness :D
You're in luck! Birthday is not until sunday. What sucks though is that I got a paper and test to study for this weekend, so it's a bit of a downer :/
I am powerful with a sensitive surface
An organ without keys.
I am muscular and soft to touch
I'm used to tempt and tease.
I move up, down and all around
Tasting everything I please.
I bring you the bitter and the sweet
The things I do can bring you to your knees.
What am I ?
Simple enough. Start your schoolwork on Thursday night, work on it through Saturday, and take Sunday off. Sometimes it helps to let it "soak in", so to speak.
And, the question everyone hates: how old are you gonna be? Wait, let me think. 25?
More riddles, oh my gosh.
Hmm...I'll say: your tongue.
How close did I get?
A stripper?
J, I'm too lazy to start that work today, but I know I'll do it before Sunday. As for how old I'm gonna be: yeah you got it right. 25. It's been mentioned a few times that my age is slowly starting to show.
OP J wins the prize. A lifetime supply of hot fudge sundaes from Lickety Split Ice Cream Haven. :)
wow. now that's a riddle!
*whew*
hello j., bc, anon.
and happy birthday elena!!
BC, that's why they make hair color and Oil of Olay. ;) Hell, they've gotten ME this far! It's really once you hit 30 that your body says, Oh look, your warranty's run out, time for everything to break down and/or sag.
Bette Midler has a hilarious routine about your body after 30. I recommend it, highly.
OOOH ice cream! Thank you Anon, this month it will go towards BC's birthday party!
Hi TJ, how're you tonight?
Thank you TJ. That's not even close to being one of my better ones. ;)
Hi Bc.
I'd like to read a better one :)
Hi there lickety split. I was kidding about the stripper thing ;D
hi there tj :)
Ohh ice cream. Thank you J!
Better one of WHAT, though? heeheehee
Ladies, I'm going to take a few minutes out to clean the catbox, but I'll be back in about 15 or so.
Hello.
I'ts 9, right? All I ask is that you don't fuck with either them, or me.
Understood?
The riddle was nice, and it's good to have you around.
I missed you...here.
i'm good, j. -- and it's good to see you here hanging out! i'd offer you chocolate, but i see you already won a ton of it. *heh*
anon, it was plenty good. oh my. :)
In due time 12:05.
Good luck with the kitty J ^_^
Great minds think alike J, don't they?
hi bc. :)
have fun j.!
hey anons
Huh 12:08? I think this is another case of mistaken identity.
That is unfortunate, for me.
Perhaps in my eager mind, I saw an illusion.
Please, accept my apology.
Certainly 12:20. I'm not here to fuck with you or them. I'm here to entertain you and make you think. :)
but sometimes it's more fun to be fucked with.
;)
I'm not mayo, ss or any of the presumed usual suspects. Sorry to disappoint any of you.
toujours!!!
I'm shocked! But, sometimes it is.
LS, make us think some more please.
it's all good, lickety split. you may continue to amuse and educate, if you like. :)
12:32, i actually have a very, very, very dirty mind.
very.
;)
bad tj :D
That depends Tj. Depends upon the payoff. Bitter or sweet? Flavorful or bland? Will it taste great or not?
I'm working on that 12:35. Is your thinking cap charged?
you mean if it's all good, lickety split? how about bitter and sweet, flavorful and bland, etc. etc. etc.
i usually suscribe to the theory of both.
hey, lickety split, you have a long nickname there. can we call you lickety riddle?
*slides surreptitiously off the couch to the floor*
*slips a little packet of homemade choc chip cookie crumbs underneath*
*wonders if the dustkin have colonized the kitchen yet*
Excellent subscription to have delivered home. You can call me that. Or just lickety
or ls.
toujours said...
but sometimes it's more fun to be fucked with
*******
Or, just plain ol' fucked. ;)
TJ is one of only a proud few who're lewd, crude, AND socially acceptable!
Obviously, I'm back. PunkCatbox is all clean.
Thinking cap ready and charged :)
AND, I scored comment 2769!
69!
See how my mind works? ;D
Lickety, could we call you Lick?
Lol, congrats J!
j.! (did you mean to leave that litter in your hair?)
i was just thinking of the name "lickspittle".
not that i would call you that, lickety riddle! oh no. certainly not.
but it just popped into my head.
j., i just re-read your comment. are you saying that i'm socially acceptable?!
them's fightin' words, gal!
*shadowboxes*
I did, TJ, but at least it's some of the clean stuff! >.<
"Lickspittle" sounds so familiar. Is it the name of a town? Or am I thinking of a restaurant, the Lickspittle Diner or something like that?
Mayo
Here we go again. The first time I wrote this goodnight I got halfway through and deleted. That was the point I realized what I was writing was boring as hell and mostly made up of lies. Here let me give you a little sample “Oh I spent my birthday doing what I love best, looking for books.” Blah, blah, blah. Yep that’s what it was. So in true “fuck it” tradition I’m writing this again.
My birthday started out with my mother NOT calling and singing Happy Birthday to me. That probably sounds stupid to you but every year of my life I can remember she’s sang to me first thing in the morning. When I lived in South Carolina I knew when the phone rang on this day that it would be her. Well not this morning. So I rushed around trying not to worry and got to her house earlier than normal. She was just getting home from church. No, I didn’t ask why she hadn’t called. Pretty sure she had been praying for my damned tattooed soul.
Fred went with me to a book sale. One of her gifts to me was a Magic 8 Ball. While I love it, I haven’t taken it out of the box. I’m afraid to ask it a question. I don’t want to know what’s coming.
Around noon the first child must have remembered what day it was and sent me a text. Soon after the other one in school sent me a text. Her sister must have spotted her and given her a heads up on what day it was. Flighty called me yesterday and today. That was nice. Earlier this evening Stormy showed up with a cake. Yep, made me cry.
And then there is this place and these people. They remembered. Stupidly I cried again. See I escape here, I tell secrets here. I find inspiration. I find what I need and I give what I can.
Tonight I almost broke my own rule. I almost went back and read my goodnight to you from last year. I wondered if I was happier then. But I didn’t because once again I really was afraid of the answer. And I know in the morning the first thing I will think is oh shit why did I write that last night? I’ll try to remember all I said and no doubt cringe at my brutal honestly. But I won’t ever read this again. These goodnights are a moment captured in time. For just a moment I drop the mask and either beauty of ugliness is shown.
I shall now make myself go to bed. The day is over. Tomorrow looms.
Night Mayo
Elena (I give what I can)
Well, TJ, you don't have to be if you don't want. I just figured that since most people don't run screaming at the sight of all of us 'nassy ho's' that we were, in fact, socially acceptable. Along with lewd and crude.
It's a fine line, but I think those few of us pull it off.
good night elena! have happy birthday dreams! (you know, hunky men bringing you your favorite cakes...what they do with them is up to your subconscious. *heh*)
It's a fine line, but I think those few of us pull it off.
well, when you put it that way, j., i find that i quite agree with you. it truly is a fine line to know when to extend your pinky and when to flip somebody the bird!
and lickspittle...hmmm. it just showed up in my brain from the attic somewhere...
must google. i know it's something.
Oh Elena...I'm so very sorry that your day wasn't what you expected, or maybe even wanted. If you'd been here, or I'd been there, we would've done whatever you wanted to do.
Be like your dragon, spread your wings in joyous flight and aim for the moon.
I love you, honey. Goodnight.
ew! it's not really a nice name. it means a fawning flatterer, a toady, etc. the visual is not really pleasant.
i much prefer "goldfish turd" to describe a mindless follower. though it's cooler in the original japanese, of course.
if i could only remember what that was.
Goodnight elena
Basically, a lemming. Or what I call a "Debbie".
There was this great cartoon on some years ago called "The Oblongs", about a true nuclear family and their "up on the hill" neighbors. The Valley people were all deformed in some way, but the Hill people were all intact, snobbish, rich, etc.
Anyway, there was this group of girls at the school who all looked exactly alike, talked alike, agreed with the Head Debbie, and so on.
So I now call mindless followers "Debbies". Seems to fit.
oh, like the heathers, j.! except i actually know a heather now, and she's nothing like the girls in that particular movie. ah well.
or, as they very strangely say here: "oh, me."
odd.
Yeah, they say that here, too. It's a Southern expression, or seems to be. Some say "Oh my." Some say "Weeeeeell...how 'bout that." It's just something to say after somebody tells you something you either don't know anything about, or don't care about.
Widely used by older Southern folk.
unfortunately, i have to go, as i did promise my mom i'd try to get off the computer at midnight each night and it is now most decidedly after that. oops.
but it was so good to chat with you for a teeny bit j. and to see you bc, and to name and rename you lickety riddle! i know i've been all over the place tonight, but i was texting with a friend most of the evening and she got me all riled up lol
i hope you'll all have a lovely night and a good tomorrow (give l. a smile for me, j.!), and so,
i bid you all a bonne nuit. :)
I flow over you and into you
You need me to survive.
I can run cold
I can run hot
I keep you all alive.
You’ve poisoned me
And dammed me too
Still I keep you clean.
I’m the source of life
A wet paradise
I’m best when I’m pristine.
What am I?
Goodnight tj sweet dreams
Lickety,
is it water?
j., i should have refreshed before writing my good night!
i figured it was one of those southern things -- it seems like there is always some other little thing that stands out to me. i feel like i'm exploring a new country sometimes! some of the stuff is weird -- strangers waving at you as they drive by? wha...? -- but some of the stuff is just different, like that saying. plus, i've met some great people here already.
oh, me.
*hee*
Lickety, you're going to have to do better than that.
Water.
Goodnight TJ, it was good to spend some time with you, too. Hope all is going well for you. I'll give Lisa a hand squeeze from you if she's still knocked out. Have a good day tomorrow, too. See you then!
i like that first line, lickety riddle. yum. :)
good night! not refreshing!
You certainly can call me Lick OP J. I think it's time for me to use my wet tongue
to and say goodnite.
goodnight lickety
Goodnight Lick! Thanks for the riddles. Bring us some more difficult ones next time, ok? :D
Bc wins the second prize of the night. Your prize is a lifetime supply of the new, edible Wet and Wild line of swimwear. Be careful when wearing that spicy thong. It burns.
Lol, a spicy thong huh? I know who to give that to ^_~
Thank you lickety :D
Seems we've been deserted, BC. Do you think we smell? Is that why? :(
hellooooooo
We probably smell J. That's it. It's the smell, lol!
Hiya ergo
damn I didn't smell anything when I walked in,......but now you mention it......
;]
Hey Ergo! How was the movie?
sniffs armpit
Congrats J :D
me!
hahahahahahaha
wow really off that time, damn FB!!!
yay J!!!
*happy dance*
haven't gone yet J it's only 4pm and I just got home from work, movie is at 8:30, dinner before
Nope, it's ME this time, Ergo!
HAPPY DANCE WITH ME GIRLS!
*does happy dance*
*hopes smell doesn't spread even more quickly with movement*
Well fuck, fucking time zones. You'll have to forgive me, I'm still addled. :D
But feeling better than I was when I first came on. Thanks, everybody, talking really helped.
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