Drill Bit
Tuesday I hear it’s going around;
I’m off...again, knuckled white.
Wednesday I will talk myself into
Round about routes to denial.
If I say it, then it won’t come true.
And, I find comfortable restraint; bound to
Repeating it over and over and over. And again,
It feels better that way, medicated meditation.
Then Thursday everything is white. I eat
From a bland full service spectrum buffet,
Plated and nothing touches.
I won’t even sip from her cup.
By Friday I am unable to tolerate human contact.
And, I count back to the last
In order to find spared time. I’ll be free-
On Saturday what is in the air will kill me.
So, I hold my breath between rooms. Suffocated,
Sunday I become completely restricted.
I will not accept from anyone, anything
That has been anywhere other than here.
Those days, they wear me hard
And to the end, so I have become
Exhausted from the fight. I finally sleep.
Then Monday brings me back, slightly.
With a negligent handshake,
So that again Tuesday I am found,
Wringing dry, anticeptic hands.
I will not allow myself to open a door
I stay; refusal and restraint, withholding.
p.s. its got quite a grip.
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Just say no!
Bwah!
Bwahah! I was trying! Yay for Ergo!
Thanks all.
No one really knows what's going on inside our bodies/brains and what's waiting to rear its ugly head.
So in the meantime, be happy and have fun!
*happy dance*
now back to serious
what happened to Flighty?
8:12, that's the damn truth.
Too right, 8:12.
*wrinkles her nose*
Petticoats, Wendy?
Anon, that's shitty. My aunt was misdiagnosed with MS, which is how easy it is to get an incorrect diagnosis too. Get a second opinion, always.
8:12 ~ I'm joining you and Elena in the "hoping" and Ergo in sending you good wishes!
Sorry to run, guys, but I'm so sleepy and I have tons to still get done. I'm feeling a little hectic and overworked!
So I'll catch ya's all later.
8:12,
Too right. They way I continue to play ignorant with mine will probably come back to bite me in the ass one day.
I wish you all the best.
Smoke
She is okay but the drama level was pretty high last night. She had her friend take her to the ER and we met her there. She was sick but not really "ER" sick. Pretty sure it the combo of raw oysters and smoking hookah that got her. So we took her home with us. Now during all that Sunshine called and lets just say "Why the hell when someone has been drinking don’t they think you’re gonna get it?" Oh and then add to that Stormy called at the same time with Major boyfriend trouble. I was ready to tear my hair out.
Night, Jules!
YAY Ergo!!!!!
*happy dance*
I would post the lyrics to Lillian Axe "She Likes It On Top"; but, I think I posted enough lyrics last night/this morning. Maybe later!
;)
Amy: Yes, petticoats! I'm going as Little Bo Peep!!!! You should see my bonnet. It's so adorable!
a guy my brother went to school with had been feeling a bit off a cou[le of weeks ago, he went to the doctor and it seemed like a virus so he went for blood tests, 2 days later he collapsed in the car, was rushed to hospital and admitted, turns out he had a brain haemorrhage and as they put him into an induced coma for that the test came back and he had a very aggressive acute leukaemia. he never recovered.
he was 37 and his funeral is tomorrow
you really just never ever know. So much reason to appreciate every single day
Elena,
I swear to goodness, do you ever have a drama free day? I don't know how you do it.
Yep 8:12
You're right. Enjoy each day.
But I'm still giving you my hope.
Later K! Have a good night!
Elena,
I bet you were! I'm glad she's okay though. :)
Well, I gotta go for a bit, too. Got to shower and watch Ghost Adventures with the hubby. ^_^
Have a great night all!
Thank you all again for all the advice and the concern. ♥
Props again, Mayo! Hope Sunday is awesome for you and only good distractions! ^_^
♥
goodnigth K sweet dreams
8:12 always always get second opinions but remember even if it is MS there are very good therapies and treatments and diet changes etc that can make a huge difference
Pretty sure it the combo of raw oysters and smoking hookah that got her.
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That could do it, Elena! Thank goodness it wasn't anything more serious. Still, she had to feeling pretty bad to go to the ER.
I hope today was a little calmer for you!
You're welcome 8:12.
Well, I'm going work on that petticoat situation now. I'll see some of you later!!!!
Have fun, everyone!
sdock I can't remember the last drama free day I've had.
It's like I have this little black rain cloud over my head and I'm getting fuckin' soaked.
see you smoke, enjoy!
Elena,
I know. Sometimes I just wish for you to have a moment to exhale, ya know? I just feel for ya.
she is ok now elena?
Ergo she's still feeling a bit sick but not like last night.
well she can put that down in her mental "do not mix again" list
Thanks sdock.
So I gotta ask. Have you given any more thought to writing? I really think you should.
oh and so glad the parcel got there.
I told my daughter and she is all smiley
Elena,
Oh goodness, you're too kind. I think I still have a lot of stuff to work on and work out before I could even think about something like that.
Ergo
That is brutal! My brother had pneumonia before Christmas and was diagnosed with lung cancer. We are praying it was caught early enough but is still waiting to start treatment.
My life is one huge tragedy right now and am probably closest I have ever been to anxiety difficulties but sam doing the best I can to avoid medication.
But I still try to do things to cheer myself up and I must say, as much as I moan about it, work has been a blessing its so busy.
Anyway, have a great day/evening everyone. I must be off.
LOL Wendy!!
WHERE are you going as Bo Peep?
Don't put it off sdock. Use that talent of yours.
Write whenever you get a free moment.
Writing helps keep me sane.
Goodnight 8:12, be well.
8:12 oh your poor brother!!
I really hope it is early enough, it does have a good prognosis
and do your best, but always try and find someone to lean on, even if it's only anonymously here
I'm sure you have real people too but if we can help please let us know
and I hope all the best for you as well
life isn't a really fair thing, but if we all pull together we can try and do the best we can
I'll be thinking of you *hug*
♥
Stay strong 8:12
I'll keep you and your brother in my prayers.
sdock you should, get a little book ad keep it by the chair or bed and just jot stuff down, I'm sure you'll have so much enjoyment out of it
8:12,
Wishing you and your family all the best.
Elena,
I am figuring that out, slowly, that writing is a great outlet. I still have days where I try to keep it all jumbled inside. The notebook(s) that I bought when I started this blogging/writing/rambling thing go with me just about everywhere I go. And now, I've started just writing down ideas. I used to think that I could only write something if I was going to finish it or if it was going to make complete and total sense, but lately, I think it's more about letting go and just getting it out.
That's excellent sdock.
I'm glad you're doing that. I do the same thing.
I'm still paranoid as hell about anyone reading it though, which seems crazy because I put most of the stuff up on my blog for the anyone to read.
There's just something about someone finding it and actually knowing that I wrote and knowing that's how I was feeling at the time.
Does that make sense?
I understand sdock. I really do. But try not to worry. Keep it somewhere safe. It's important to get all your ideas out there.
damn my comment got eaten!
sdock you could get one of those cool Ben10 or Hannah Montana etc digital combination locked diaries! lol
Thanks so much, Elena, Ergo and all you guys. This place started it all and I'm forever grateful. Just wish I had started trying to do this about 15 years earlier.
Oh well, what the hell would I have written about then anyways?
I'm hella more interesting now.
(not really)
I think I'm gonna go now and try to find something worth watching on tv or maybe I'll pull that pen and paper out and write something. Who the hell knows?
Have a great night, Guys!
Have a great Sunday, Ergo!
Ergo,
For sure! One of those where you have to have retinal scan to get in or something. How cool would that be?
Haha! Like my shit is so topsecret!
I'm such a crazy person.
Night sdock. Nice talkin' to ya.
*whispers* Go write something
goodnight sdock and thanks! :]
Mayo,
You know I'm still pondering the whole yarn situation, right? I know, I know, we've just established how weird I am, but all day long I was calling out things before they happened. Like the phone was about to ring, and it rang. Like how I wanted to get out of the store before we ran into someone we knew and 15 seconds later, BAM! So this yarn thing must have deeper meaning, like maybe the yarn is a kind of metaphor, right?
Like you, Mayo, not the cat, Mayo, but you, you are the yarn, Mayo. Yeah, you are the yarn and we're the knitting needles and stuff and we're using this place to create some pretty cool shit. Sometimes, we, me mostly, can make a ragged hot mess, but ahh well, part of the fun is in the untangling, right? Wrapping ourselves up in all of it.
How cool is that? Pretty fucking right?
How scary is it that I took it to some weird, creepy metaphorical blog level? Pretty fucking, right?
How distracting am I right now? (Don't answer that!)
Have a great weekend, Mayo!
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. I can't get this fucking knot undone!!
they're heeeeere
gotta go!
♥xx♥
I think it is GREAT that Kapunua finally admitted RIGHT THERE IN FRONT OF MAYO that she didn't feel a special bond to this blog. I think that says it ALL.
We all know how hard Amy has worked on keeping this blog as a good place for people. We all know how much energy she puts into this place and how much it means to her. She is NOT afraid to call out the scums (YES, scums)! who need to be called out. She risked being not liked and she told the TRUTH, she said what needed to be said. If it hurts people's feelings, too bad.
And finally the people who Kapunua tried to drive away from Amyranth are starting to go back to her. I was smiling on the inside when I saw Smoke and Sdock finally talking to Amyranth today. Finally willing to LISTEN to her.
I always thought that time would show everyone here what was what.... who was who.... who cared about this place and who didn't... and it looked like I was right.
I think we all were.
Don't you?
And by the way. If Amyranth wants to GRIN about the work she did here, more power to her.
It was so nice in here until now....
Sometimes the truth is uncomfortable.
mayo! elena texted me with what you'd done, and i logged on as soon as i could to see for myself. what a great surprise! i'm glad you liked what i wrote.
thank you. :)
this blog sucks donkey dick. VV's blog is where all the fun is.
Makes for one happy donkey
Beautiful addition Mayo. :)
Oh and you are 'on vacation now'...?! Ummm, I'm not jealous, I swear. ^_^
TJ I left my phone at work...
I didn't see your message. :( But I will check later if I can get my ass back up there.
*snicker*
hey there elena. thanks for the text.
hello anima! don't worry about it, i just wanted to let you know i saw your news. *big hug*
Elena, I have a question for you...
So I'm thinking in a few months I want to take my mom to KC to see her sister - what do you think about us stopping by for a night? (not stay the night at your house of course, but hang out...a few cocktails...fill her in on her crazy daughter's life. LOL!) If not, I at least need to swing by for a hug. My mom loves to read as you know, so I'm thinking we could buy a few books too!
TJ, thank you. ♥
TJ, my memory sucks so if I missed this, I'm sorry...
did you get the job you were interviewing for?
Hey TJ and Anima
Yes that sounds great Anima!
You are very welcome TJ!
i did! last week was my first on the job, and i really enjoy it -- it's interesting, and the people are alot of fun. the crew i was with for most the week made it more like hanging out than working.
give anima and her mom lots of special salsa, elena. *hee*
Oh I don't know if Anima's mom could handle the "special salsa"
I know Anima could!!! LOL
I wish I was on vacation. I'd kill for a hot beach and a margarita right now.
*hehe*
it sounds like you guys will have a good time. :)
Oh that's great news TJ!
Elena, yay! I can't wait.
I promise Moma can handle that salsa!!!!
hi amyranth. my idea of a vacation would be england -- walking to the british museum in the rain, and then getting a curry for dinner.
*happy sigh*
Hi Amy
Go ahead and ask me...
I'll be honest.
Hi guys
Hey BC
How are you?
TJ, I know it will be fun! Yet you just never know with my mom. Sometimes she can let go, but for the most part she's pretty reserved. I know she'll love Elena. That's gonna be easy peasy. But of course after a few rum/cokes, special salsa, and good conversation...I think she will be enjoying it all!
Amy, I could so use a vacation...
*sings* "from this bullshit, three ring, circus...side show of freaks..."
but yes I could totally use some sun right about now. I'm so tired of this cold.
hey there bc. :)
anima, i think it's great that you can have fun times like that with your mom. i can't even imagine spending an evening drinking with my mom! her idea of a fun time is going out to a buffet restaurant. lol
The whole idea is sounding like so much fun, Anima.
I promise to be on my best behavior.
Oh if I know ahead of time I can get us rooms at the casino for free. That would be fun!
Elena, how are you doing? :D
Teej, I'm not normally a beachy person. Too much seaweed and jellyfish for my liking. But we keep getting fake "spring" around these parts, and I'm craving a day above 5 degrees so I can sit in the sun for just a bit.
Anima, sun and margaritas?
Hi there TJ :)
Anima *hugs*
Hi Elena! I'm stuffed and kinda content, getting ready to do some writing. I hope you're okay?
Hallo again Amy ^_^
Hallo again BC! We just keep bumping into each other!
I finally get to see the Dark Knight tonight.
Amy, drinking margs in the sun sounds amazing right now. Yet, they make me sleepy...it's all the sugar. But I do love them!
TJ, my mom's mom (my granny) loved buffets. I really hate buffets. But it was worth the visit. :)
Hi BC!
Elena, you better be on your best behavior...otherwise my mom won't let me hang out with you! ... hehe!
Amy
I'm not okay.
Margaritas make me sleepy too. But I love 'em!
Our cousins are busy mixing up bottles of mead, I just found out on FB. I gotta take a trip east again soon, I love their mead mix.
I have received confirmation.
I do not have to return to work this evening.
Yay!
Elena, ... what's going on?
*worried scrunchy face*
did I miss something?
:(
*squeezes Elena*
You promise?
Anima, Elena doesn't believe me that it's okay to be not okay.
Amy, you're telling me that you never saw the Dark Knight before?
Where have you been woman?!
Anima, that's awesome :D
I promise!
And thank you.
Yep, Anima it's true. Amy made me realize it's okay not to be okay. Lots of shit going on right now and I'm tired of saying "I'm okay".
I WILL be okay...just not right now.
BC, I wanted to see it!
And then Mister went without me.
:B
I WILL be okay...just not right now.
Truer words have not been spoken.
I understand Elena. I still worry about you and that's okay too. :)
Lol Amy.
Elena, and you *will* be okay *hugs*
Thanks for the hug BC
Anima I do owe you a phone call but let me just say that Sunshine has a problem that you and I both understand.
sorry, i vanished -- i was updating my lj.
elena, it's good that you be true to your feelings. you have a right to them.
amyranth, i know what you mean about the cold. i actually like it, but we just had snow today. this winter has been unusual, to say the least!
anima, buffets are kinda creepy, but there's a buffet for everything here! it's crazy. lol
bc, i haven't seen "dark knight" yet either, but i have it borrowed from my sister, and i'll be watching it soon. i'm catching up!
Okay, time for Dark Knight! Yay!
See you all tomorrow!
bye amyranth. :)
i've gotta go, too. it's almost computer curfew. *sigh*
good night everyone, good chatting with you!
night Amy and TJ
It was great talking with you guys.
TJ it is great to see you here again!
Elena, yes we need to talk soon. ♥
TJ, I totally vanished too! I got on youtube and zoned for a few. Happy you got a job and are back in the 'middle' demographic areas with us!
Amy, enjoy the Dark Knight. I thought it was a bit drawn out...but amazing nonetheless.
Lovely to see all of you. I'm gonna go zone out some more...I need it! I crave it! ^_~
♥ you guys.
Mayo, ♥ to you to and yours.
Night BC ♥. Keep up and on those books...I know you will!
Obviously I'm '♥' crazy...
Night everyone. Take care of yourselves.
Love ya Anima.
Take care
Mayo
So since I’ve decided that it’s okay to admit I’m not okay to everyone else (not you cause I already told you…Okay I just realized how funny that is. Like me really thinking that I’ve told you and no one else has read what I’ve said to you) That possibly was the longest thing I’ve written in ( ) (whatever the hell those things are called) Oh I just did it again. I’m sure if I searched my brain I know what they are called but that just seems like too much work at the time. Now where was I? Oh yeah, I think I was getting ready to say that it’s nice not having to pretend I’m just okey fuckin’ dokey when I’m not. I don’t mean this to sound bad because really it’s not. I will be okay. I will get through this shit. I’ve got a positive attitude and I’m moving ahead. It’s just nice that I don’t have to spend time trying to act like things are just fine. I pretty much flat out told my family that I’m totally stressed to the max and seriously they just stared at me. Shit, I must be a good actress if they couldn’t see it. Well, that or perhaps they just don’t pay attention. Yeah, it’s probably that. Oh well, I got their attention, I told them the truth and I feel better now. Yes I do.
Anyway, how the hell are you? I hope if you say your okay you really mean it. If not, damn it, just admit you’re not then work to make things better. Life is way too fuckin’ short to pretend. That just takes up too much energy that could be better used.
So since I spent the day with mom. (She asked about you by the way) I have tons of work I need to catch up on. Including about 300 more comics to deal with. Oh but happily I have come across some “Unexpected” and “The Witching Hour” issues. I loved reading these when I was young. Good time, good times. Also I’ve found some titles I’ve never read that look really good like “The Time of Circles”, “Criminal Macabre” and “The Darkness”. I’ll report back on those. One more cool thing. I found an issue of Star Wars 3-D but damn no 3-D glasses. I must find some.
Have a great Sunday. Take care
Elena (I really will be okay)
mayo,
it's kinda funny that you quoted my good night, because today i was thinking that i needed to brush up on my letter-writing skill. i've been feeling rusty these last few nights.
it snowed today, which isn't usual for the area, but i was happy to have a chance to get out in the cold air once more this season. i went walking down the long driveway, listening to the snow hitting the hood of my windbreaker, thinking about how to describe to you what i was seeing, wondering about what to write tonight so my good night to you wouldn't be so lame.
i realized that over the winter i had fallen out of the habit of going through my day with you in the back of my mind. there were times, to be sure, when i wanted to share something, but it was more of a wistful thought, knowing that i couldn't, not really.
i'm glad to be a part of the blog again. i don't care if it's ridiculous, i like being toujours. i like seeing something during the day and making a note to tell you about it. i like how a new post or comment from you is always a lovely surprise. it's always like christmas morning when you make an apearance here, and that is a happy thing to have in one's life.
good night, mayo. thank you.
Oh damn everyone's signing off again, lol(From a person who doesn't go to sleep normally until 3 or 4 a.m.)
Goodnight Anima, Amy, Elena, TJ, sweet dreams guys.
Anima: Thank you!
Elena: You're welcome!
TJ: It's a pretty good movie. Maybe you will like it when you get the chance to see it.
Elena, I'm jeluz of your "Unexpected" comics!! Those were my abolute fave back in the day.
hey all
I survived and it was a good afternoon
we did get to the creek and built a dam, I'll post a pic tomorrow
♥xx♥
Goodnight Mayo, SS, Ergo, TJ, Carrie, Sweetcheeks, various anons, various watchers and various lurkers!
Sweet dreams to one and all!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ, Martha, CTV, Entropy, Pixie, Siobhan, Jade and MissT!
VOICES ON THE EDGE OF THE WORLD (in honour of my fellow poets)
It is how we are and who we are
that we live out here on the edge
the ragged rim of the world
It’s the nature of our vice
This dark self imposed isolation
Yet the paradox in it shines bright
As the isolation bears heavy
upon our pale and brittle skin
for unless we share our souls
there is but dust in what we do
Each staking a separate claim
along the river of the golden muse
and each naked in hand and heart
bares the working of a soul
tasting the ice in the edges isolation
yet from each site along the rim
the voices of comfort and support
and a song becomes an anthem
so into each isolation a warm voice
‘We know, we understand we’re here’
Bill Mitton
Mayo
ok I'm on a variety kicj
tonight
They Might Be Giants
Withered Hope
Very Sad Sack is a sad bag
Very, very sad
Very Sad Sack
Withered Hope says she is his friend to the end,
But she doesn't like Very Sad Sack
Today Withered Hope saw the Very Sad Sack
And she tried not to meet his eyes
And he cut out a paper heart, pinned it to his arm
Gave her everything he was holding in his head
This is what he said:
Withered Hope, I'm in love with you
Want to live with you, Withered Hope
Are you going to say to me this can never be?
Are you going to say to me, Withered Hope?
Sad Sack
Sad Sack
Withered Hope says she has a soul mate
Living in a city in another state
But the soul mate thinks about a picture in a book of a beautiful crook
And the picture of the crook in the book is in love with the brand new motorbike
But the motorbike doesn't like crooks,
It's obsessed with the Very Sad Sack
Sad Sack, I'm in love with you
Want to live with you, Sad Sack
Are you going to say to me this can never be?
Are you going to say to me, Sad Sack?
Sad Sack
Sad Sack
sing along
much love EP xx
SS
for you one of my absolute all time fave songs by a brilliant band, with a lead singer with one of the best voices in music (and distracting white pants)2:46 eybrow raise is just....*sigh*
The Damned
Eloise
Every night I'm there
I'm always there
She knows I'm there and heaven knows
I hope she goes (Eloise)
I find it hard to realise
That love was in her eyes
It's dying now
She knows I'm crying now
And every night I'm there
I break my heart to please
Eloise
Eloise
You know I'm on my knees yeah
I said please
You're all I want so hear my prayer
My prayer
My Eloise is like the stars that please the night
The sun that makes the day
That lights the way (Eloise)
And when that star goes by
I'll hold it in my hands and cry
Her love was mine
You know my sun will shine
Repeat chorus
You're all I want you've got to hear my prayer
My prayer
My Eloise I'd love to please her
I'd like to care but she's not there
And when I find you
I'd be so kind you'd want to stay
I know you'd stay
And as the days grow old
The nights grow cold
I wanna hold her near to me
You know she's dear to me
And only time will tell
And take away this lonely hell
I'm on my knees to my Eloise
Repeat chorus
You are my life so hear my prayer
You are the prize I know you're there
I know you're there
You're all I want you gotta hear my prayer
Yeah yeah yeah
You're all I need but you're not there
Oh no you're not there
No no no no
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
My Eloise
Oh I'd love to please her
Oh my Eloise
Oh my Eloise oh my Eloise
Don't lie to me
I said no no no no
My Eloise
simg along
goodnight blogbelieve see you in my morning
♥xx♥
hey sdock ad fasc enjoy your sunday
and all others whio pass though
AND!!
if anyone has never heard the Damned do Eloise just watch it, please, it's the best, honestly
Wow.
Some things never change.
*smirk*
Morning Mayo! Morning SS!
Have a lovely Sunday!
Hi Smoke can't stay!
:)
Still trying to rest up - somewhat unsuccessfully! :(
Mayo Deconstructing illusory landscapes into a formidable reality. (Don't ape the masses.
All day, Every Day!
No one else can follow. Its either brilliant or scary. Have not yet decided which. I'll tell you if I ever decide.
I hope you are ok. I have an undergrad in psych, but it takes a master's to counsel people. Just saying. At a quick read - you either have ocd as others have stated or fine-tuned neuroses - it happens to the best of us!
Take care of yourself and now I KNOW you care ;)
TJ - Good luck and giant *hugs*
:)
Take care everyone! - as I will try (unsuccessfully)!
:)
Much love!
PS - Why do some harp on the same old shit?
I know I have a predilection for it myself, but damn, even my worst critics wouldn't have seen this so pronounced in me!
Just pointing out the obvious, as usual.
Don't mind me.
And no one knows to what I refer.
:D
Morning All
If you ever get a chance to check out the book "Weird and Wonderful Austrailian Place Names" I highly recommend it.
Ergo sent me a copy and it's a very fun read!
Can't decide my favoite name but I do like Devils Playground. How cool would it be to live there?
Or you could live in Tumble Down Dick.
Oh and I thought Buttermilk Kansas was funny.
Morning, Everyone!
So, I've told you guys many times that I'll wake up or all of a sudden have someone or something totally random pop into my head. It won't have anything to do with me. Last night, Kim Zmeskal the American gymnast from the 92 Barcelona Olympics pops into my head. I start remembering how she had all this pressure on her shoulders, she was on the cover of all these magazines, she was supposed to win, except, she didn't. She fell off the balance beam and stepped out of bounds on her floor routine. Those mistakes must have been shown hundreds of times with everyone asking, "what went wrong?", "did she choke?"...blah, blah, blah. It was so harsh, and I guess it just always stuck with me because I felt so bad for her. She had probably rehearsed those routines a million times in her head and on the floor, she knew what she had to do, what she was capable of, but it just didn't happen. We would all later find out that she had a stress fracture in one of her ankles, but it didn't matter. Because for all intents and purposes and despite many comeback attempts later, her career was over right there, at 16 years old.
Of course this morning, I had to wiki her just to see how her life had turned out, because I know and you know that it didn't turn out like she expected. And goodness gracious if she's human, I'm pretty sure she still goes back to that night and thinks, "what if?"
But, you guys know that sometimes the best things that happen to you are sometimes things that you think are the worst things that could ever happen to anyone. Ahh, and that's true, we have to go through a lot of shit and hardship and tragedy and loss just to remember how good the good stuff really is, and then we think back and say well, damn, that bad stuff wasn't as bad as I thought, it could always be a hell of a lot worse.
So, Kim is now 33, married, coaching, and has 2 kids. Sounds like a pretty sweet life, I'm hoping it is anyway.
And I'll leave you guys with a quote from her because that's how I roll...
I've learned that you don't have to win first place to win.
-- Kim Zmeskal
And thanks for letting me share a little bit of what it's like in my head...
Good grief, sometimes I go back and read myself and I'm like WTF is wrong with that girl, did she really feel the need to explain all that?
I'm pretty sure the Gettysburg Address was shorter than that. I do apologize for preaching what appears to be a sermon on this Sunday morning.
Hi Elena!
O_O. Been a long time man.
Sdock thanks for sharing that story. I like the way your brain works!
Smoke, pay attention. You're in church. LOL
PPS - When I said harp on the same old shit, I realize I must clarify - I referred to people (anon) hounding OPJ.
That is uncalled for.
I, for one, welcome with open arms anyone who wishes to return, as I am sure many do.
Solly - thank you for the story of Kim Zemeskal (sp) I always feel bad that so much of a nations 'glory' rests on people who are so very young, but they are resilient.
I must remember that.
elena - I will look into it. :)
Take care everyone.
I will be back after I have caught up.
(May take a while.)
"PPS - When I said harp on the same old shit, I realize I must clarify - I referred to people (anon) hounding OPJ.
"
Because no one else gets hounded. Not Sdock, not Smoke, definitely not Kapu and not Fimble Star.
not Mayo either.
or ss.
No, those two never get hounded. Just OPJ.
And OPJ never hounded anyone either.
Ever.
Miranth.... No one said anything about OPJ until you brought her up. So who is harping on the same old thing?
As usual Miranth makes no sense whatsoever....
Anon, I am reading back.
Sorry to bring up old news, but it made me angry to read it.
Sometimes I don't read back to avoid commenting about something that happened a while ago.
PS - I make sense to myself, but realize I must clarify occasionally and I proceed to do so.
PPS - And I realize others get hounded too, and I try to comment at the time or I make a point to say that I am ignoring something unpleasant, rather than have my words twisted.
And you are right its not fair when it happens to anyone.
If I get angry and write something foolish, I clarify or apologize, as the case demands, so I don't hold anyone to any standards I don't also set for myself.
My cousin is a bishop and is saying mass on TV.
My Mom and other family members are very happy.
:)
Good grief, sometimes I go back and read myself and I'm like WTF is wrong with that girl, did she really feel the need to explain all that?
haha i love you solly dick!! so like me!
hi guys! i've had a heavily laden kidfest kinda week and i am worn fucking down!!
my kids are so proud of their classy mother!!!!!
fuckit i'm knackered!
large glass of wine in hand well on the table as we speak! and i swear i need that fucker! but they are back to school tomorrow and i am left with just my beautiful 3 yr old, he can't row with himself thank God!!
i missed you guys!
mayo!! how's it going? hope you're doing alright?!
SS you too!
miranth, hope you are feeling better?
elena, it's good to admit, like really admit that you are not o fucking kay!!
i've done it a few times and the fucking shock on their faces is priceless! it's like "where has that bright, smiley, fun person gone?!"
it was a fucking act!! duh!
anyway you take care elena, i owe you an email and i'm sorry i've just been bizzy!
TJ, so good to see you around! and good on you for being you. i smile when i read you, cos i totally get where you are coming from!
anima, always sending happy thoughts your way.
i've not properly caught up but hello everyone!
oh and ergo "Elouise" by The Damned! my brother had it. i loved it.
good morning!!
goodness fasc, bet you are very glad to have a little break with school back!
Elena I thought you'd get a giggle.
My fave name would be Humpty Doo, went there when we were up in the territory (and have the stubby cooler and shirt to prove it! ) lol
also used to go to Dickey Beach
there are a LOT of odd names out here, sometimes just hearing people try to pronounce them is amusing enough
try Eungella
morning ergo!!
monday for you again!
hope the weather is better?
and fasc how can you not love that song!
hope glass of wine is going down well
and sdock what a good story, it is nice to know how her life went too, so often you only ever remember the incident that "spoilt" it
ah the weather...
in a word....no
lol
we had over an inch of rain overnight (to go with the 2 inches yesterday)
and it looks pretty set in, but at least we've had a few days of sunshine in between :]
hey ergo!!
the glass of wine has nearly gone and it was lovely!!
i missed being here with you guys!
it's already 21.34 here! poo! i don't have so long!
ergo is it your daughter's birthday soon? in my head it is, or have i missed it? or am i infact going crazy?
you haven't missed it fasc, and wow that you remembered!!
(I am hopeless with dates)
It's Thursday, she'll be 7. She's having a sleepover with 3 friends, weather is too unpredictable for a party
(we used to always have a big water games/fight/get wet games party but it would be just mud (which kids would probably live, us not so much)
live = love
weirdly i am pretty good with dates, even in my strange addled (total fuckin sp). i just knew that she was Feb sometime cos she is 6 months ish older than my Pixie. but school years are odd cos Pixie is in year 2. do you guys go on to year 13?? or do you call it something else?
and i know you start your school year in Jan and we start in Sept?? but anyway, hope your lovely daughter has a fabulous time ergo!!
we have from prep to yr 12, our kids finish the year they turn 17 basically
hey Hugh Jackman was just voted "Most Chivalrous" in a survey thing over here
good on him!!
everyone I've heard interview him has said he is the loveliest man, and when my brother worked with him on "Boy From Oz" he said he was so much fun, professional and just downright friendly to everyone!
another reason Deborah-Lee is such a lucky lady!
plus chivalry (from men and women) just makes the world a more pleasant place.
ergo, we finish the year everyone turns 18. weird?! how did we get that extra year and what the muthafuck did we do with it??!
Hugh Jackman is hot as fuck!!
gotta fuckin fly bunnies!
love to you all!
question??
do i swear to much??
NB
i fuckin love Hurley!!
over and out.
I don't know where the other year goes! Unless you start later maybe?
and Hurley the clothing? the Lost character? the stick? the place? all of the above
lol
have a good night and a great Monday when it comes
xx
I'm off to town to grab a couple of things
back soon
beep beep
I love Wile E Coyote!
and Chuck Jones is the best!!
thanks anon
Wile E Coyote was always one of my favorites. And Woody Woodpecker. The smartass one. Not the goofy looking one.
*sigh*
I'm bored!
Hey Ergo! Hey anyone else that might be around! I'm waiting on Hugh Jackman! :)
Mayo,
You okay? Did you get that set like you wanted? Did ya? ^_~
SS,
How about you? You okay? You waiting on Hugh Jackman too? Nah? LHM just heard him talk with his Australian accent and was kind of traumatized. He was like, "What, what, what's wrong with Wolverine?!!??!?!" Muwahaha! Miss ya, dude! Hope you are doing okay!
Detective Mittens: The Crime Solving Cat
Muwahahaha.
oh poor LHM!
well probably better he knows that's how he sounds normally
(Plus he has a lovely voice whatever the accent!)
anyone else find it weird that frank and bob weren't at the watchmen premier?
Oh has it premiered?
gee thanks alot ralph
nope. they could have had prior engagements. they could have been sick. something else could have come up. i don't think its weird.
Oh anon!! those sheep must be the cutest in animation, their look of surprise when he crawls under the grass is classic!
they are the best sheep. this is my favorite sam and ralph cartoon.
sheep in the deep
all in day's work. ;)
oh yes!
the a balloons!! LOL
and the ear drop at about 2;24
in the movie Looney Tunes back in Action there is a scene in the studio cafeteria and in the background Sam and Ralph walk in, sit down with their lunchboxes and Ralph pulls out a sheep, so Sam grabs him and punches him. Cracks me up.
One of the best things about that movie was all the little bits cartoon addicts would recognise in the background of scenes
that cracked me up too. it felt like being "in" on the joke. knowing cartoon history can be rewarding.
yes! that is what it was like!!
and Scooby and Shaggy hassling the actor guy
we have it on DVD and though it didn't do brilliantly in the cinema I really enjoy it.
My daughter (and hubby) are also huge Looney Tunes fans
oh I'll scan a pic- hang on
me with Pepe
le puff le pant le puff le pant
that's amore! mwah!
Hi Everyone!
I ♥ Hugh Jackman!
Just had to say that...
Oh boy! Sam and Ralph! I love those guys.
Hallo everyone!
haha
and that pic was taken 20 years ago!
lol
gosh time flies!!
hi sdock,... I think should turn the tv on and see Mr Jackman
hi amy!
Hallo Ergo!
I saw that Penelope Cruz won for Best Supporting Actress, which was a surprise for me.
I hope Heath gets his.
I just turned it on and they did Screenplay
Oh YUM.
Daniel Craig looked great in his tux. I love those eyes of his.
So Ergo, you survived the day in with the relatives?
yeah it wasn't too bad, just the 3 kids are a bit of a pain, esp my niece, she's going to be a difficult child, But we had sausages and bread, chips and candy and choc cupcakes for lunch at home (which was all going to be taken to the creek)
and the rain eased so we went to the creek for a couple of hours, had a swim though it was cold, then the guys decided to "build a dam!!!!!" so that kept the kids occupied lugging rocks for a fair while, then we came back for coffee and went home. It was all relatively painless! lol
Oh the japanese guy who won best animated short!!
LOL
he gave his speech in very heavily accented english then without a pause said "Domo arigato Mr Roboto"
awesome!
Not bad!
There's difficult kids on both sides of our families. One cousin's child came to our house and at first asked for a drink of juice. So we started making juice and then he starts demanding to have his water gun filled "now!", and then he wants to go outside and turn on the hose, and then...
*shakes her head*
unfortunately their daughter when asked to do, or not do, something, just gives you this look.
she stares you in the face as if saying "and you sctually think I'm listening to you?"
or puts her head down and ignores
she is only 4
She can be nice but when she isn't you just dread her as a teen.
why does iTunes have things listed when it then says "oh no sorry you can't actually buy this"
Wow, it's so quiet and calm in here right now...I like it.
Hey Ergo and Amy, how are you?
Benjamin Button wins for visual effects, art direction and makeup.
Heath Ledger wins for best supporting actor.
oh heath won! fantastic, not that I've seen the movie but I have read reviews and seen clips and he looks like he does a brilliant job
Benjamin Button looks very clever too
hello J I'm good thanks
Anon, do you know what Benjamin Button is about? I've seen a couple TV ads for it but nothing beyond that.
It's such a shame that Heath won't be around to portray more excellent roles. He was good.
Ergo, I see you made it through...
*big booming voice*
The Visit.
No trauma? No accidents? No snarky comments?
Hey guys.
I heard Heath just won the Oscar. That's really awesome. He did a great job portraying the joker, even more so than Jack Nicholson did.
I did!
and it was a quite nice afternoon esp as we made it to the creek, so that stops the kids trashing the house! lol
Hey BC!
That's good news, Ergo. Yay creek! Did you get any more nature pics?
not really, weather wasn't too good,I have a couple and I'll do them soon,
I'm clearing one of my my emails out at the moment, it has a limited inbox so you have to delete stuff gosh you end up with so much stuff!
Oh my gosh, I know what you mean. My private email account gets so much garbage, I can rack up over a thousand emails in about 2 weeks. And then I have to go delete everything. I try to keep my "blog" email straightened up as much as I can. It gets pretty full too.
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button was inspired by the 1921 short story of the same name written by F. Scott Fitzgerald.
Plot summary
The elderly Daisy (Cate Blanchett) is on her deathbed with her daughter Caroline (Julia Ormond) in a New Orleans hospital as Hurricane Katrina approaches in August 2005. Daisy tells the story of a blind clockmaker named Gateau (Elias Koteas), who was commissioned to create a clock to hang in the New Orleans train station. After receiving news of his son's death in World War I, he continued work on his clock, but intentionally designed it to run backward, in the hope that it would bring back those who died in the war. After her cryptic story, Daisy asks Caroline to read aloud from a diary containing photographs and postcards written by Benjamin Button (Brad Pitt). Caroline begins to read as the story transitions to Benjamin's narration.
On November 11, 1918, just as the people of New Orleans are celebrating the end of World War I, a baby boy is born with the appearance and physical maladies of an elderly man. The mother of the baby dies shortly after giving birth, and the father, Thomas Button, takes the baby and abandons him on the porch of a nursing home. Queenie (Taraji P. Henson) and Tizzy (Mahershalalhashbaz Ali), a couple who work at the nursing home, find the baby. Queenie, who is unable to conceive, decides to take the baby in as her own, against Tizzy's wishes. She names the baby Benjamin.
source wiki
Hey J, anon
" Original Punk J said...
Wow, it's so quiet and calm in here right now...I like it. "
Certain you know who's haven't been around much.
I like it too.
i didn't know that movie was based on an f. scott fitzgerald story. makes me want to see it even more, actually. thanks for the info, anon.
hello everyone. :)
oh it does.
people forward stuff, then if you forward it, it keeps the copy you got and a copy of it that you sent
so you have to keep remembering to delete both copies.
I actually had to tell that to my sis in law yesterday she said she can send emails but not get any, and she said she had gotten a warning message about being full so she deleted the inbox stuff, and I asked if she emptied the trash (ummmm I don't know) and looked in her "sent" folder (ummmmm no) so hopefully that is the problem, she was blaming firefox, her friend who helped her download firefox, her provider....when it is actually probably her, lol
11.12, thanks for the info! Sounds interesting.
11.14, I really wasn't referring to the presence or absence of anyone. The feeling I got when I came on was one of peacefulness, restive quiet, a tranquil Sunday night in the Castle. Those moments are a treasure.
hello TJ!!
hello ergo! it sounded like your day was a good one. i thought the dam-building idea was cool.
Hey TJ
Hey everybody
hey there bc. :)
how was your weekend?
Hey TJ, nice thing that Mayo did for you. :)
Good grief, Ergo, she didn't know to empty her trash folder and sent file? Oh my cow.
hi elena. :)
Hey Elena, what's up?
hi j.! yes, it was. :)
J,
You have new "blog" email.
Tootles
Same old shit, different day.
But other than that I'm good. How are you all doing?
creek without dam
with dam
hi elena!
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