Drill Bit
Tuesday I hear it’s going around;
I’m off...again, knuckled white.
Wednesday I will talk myself into
Round about routes to denial.
If I say it, then it won’t come true.
And, I find comfortable restraint; bound to
Repeating it over and over and over. And again,
It feels better that way, medicated meditation.
Then Thursday everything is white. I eat
From a bland full service spectrum buffet,
Plated and nothing touches.
I won’t even sip from her cup.
By Friday I am unable to tolerate human contact.
And, I count back to the last
In order to find spared time. I’ll be free-
On Saturday what is in the air will kill me.
So, I hold my breath between rooms. Suffocated,
Sunday I become completely restricted.
I will not accept from anyone, anything
That has been anywhere other than here.
Those days, they wear me hard
And to the end, so I have become
Exhausted from the fight. I finally sleep.
Then Monday brings me back, slightly.
With a negligent handshake,
So that again Tuesday I am found,
Wringing dry, anticeptic hands.
I will not allow myself to open a door
I stay; refusal and restraint, withholding.
p.s. its got quite a grip.
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I haven't had red meat since I turned 20!!!
Your welcome TJ :)
Congrats on being first sugarplum
*grabs wendy's hands and twirls her around*
Ohhhhh... one of my favorite Lillian Axe songs!
DEEPFREEZE!!!
Time and time again
I need reminding of where I've been
Helplessly scared, left so alone,
This time I'll make a journey on my own
Don't stop me now, as this begins
I fell a brave and new awakening
Yet life goes on
But I'll be gone
A brand new life awaits me
The setting sun time as begun
I've settled down, so take my
[Chorus:]
Mind, slipping in a deepfreeze
Blind, Living with an uneased mind,
Doing what I dawn please time and again
Sin, Looking at the shit that I'm in,
Smiling with a Cheshire cat grin.
Floating in a Deepfreeze
Upon your lap I rest my head,
I thank my lucky stars that I'm not dead yet,
The fields of green, the mountainsides,
I fly beyond them and there's a sea of sorrow,
Guide me to my rest
And in my deepfreeze I am possessed,
But life goes on
Embrace the dawn
A brand new song awaits you
Control your fear but keep it near
I'm melting down so take
[Chorus:]
Mind, slipping in a deepfreeze
Blind, Living with an uneased mind,
Doing what I dawn please time and again
Sin, Looking at the shit that I'm in,
Smiling with a Cheshire cat grin.
Ashamed of the places I've seen and I've been
Mind, Slipping in a Deepfreeze
Blind, Living in a deepfreeze
Time to go away
Escape confusion and disarray,
I found a peace, tranquility
My newborn love, my secret mystery,
My soul lives on, beyond the skies,
My questions answered I say good-bye
[Chorus]
3. Moonlight In Your Blood
I've been watching from across the room
As you free your mind
They all tell me that you're far away,
I believe I'll stay awhile,
I'd like to help you find your golden mile
[Bridge:]
Dreaming, Crying, Hoping, Trying,
Praying, Dying,
Gets you through another day
Running, Flying, Escape, Denying
No one's trying to explain
[Chorus:]
What do you want?
What do you need?
Do you enjoy watching me plead?
What do you see?
What do you love?
The moonlight in your blood.
What do you feel?
Who do you love?
There's moonlight in your blood.
Spend your nights inside a silk cocoon,
Butterfly,
Your soul could never die
I see you leave us as you stare at the moon
And you'll live again,
I only wish that I could share your pain,
[Bridge]
[Chorus x2]
Dang!!! That is just an amazing song, isn't it?!
Those are some great lyrics Wendy :)
TJ, how is your job so far?
Well, that's it. I have convinced myself that I need to go out.
One Eyed Jacks? The Famous Door to see Ross and crew? The Dungeon? That place where Dereck's "other" band plays when he's not touring?
Hmmm....
Oh well, I'll figure something out.
Goodnight Sweetcheeks, Amy, Ergo, Tj, Mayo, SS, anon(s) and lurkers!
Would someone please tell Martha and Seven goodnight for me! I'm having trouble getting "home" tonight!
Sweet dreams to one and all!!!!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ!!!
good night wendy, have fun. :)
bc, the job is great -- sometimes it's a little tiring when the cleaning is going slow, but the people i work with are an absolute blast. it's like getting paid to hang out sometimes!
i should probably get going, too. i'm getting sleepy.
good to see you, bc!
goodnight wendy sweet dreams
hi TJ!
I just put dinner on and managed to cut my left thumb while chopping onion and slightly burn my right first fingeron a hot casserole (which I went to pick up forgetting it would be hot) :[
neither are very bad, I don't even have a band-aid but it's just annoying, and it hurt a bit.
anyone kiss a boo-boos?
*smooch*
*smooch*
there! all better. :)
That's great to hear TJ, I'm glad. And thanks. Goodnight and sweet dreams to you *hugs*
Goodnight sugarplum *blows kisses*
Ergo, ouch, I'm sorry :(
thank you TJ *grin*
yes it was ouch at the time BC, but they aren't bad. I just love a bit of sympathy, lol
the dinner had better be nice now
i can't imagine your dinner being anything but scrumptious, ergo, and that's a fact.
and now, i'm going to bed. really.
good night!
good to hear you're enjoying teh job TJ
good people to work with make a huge difference
I ma hot and sweaty, you so need to know that! lol
I think we are walking to the creek soon.I think I'll just sit with my legs in the water and have a nice cold beer...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
thanks TJ! really hope maybe one day you'll have one with me!
sweet dreams, and hope your weekend is a lovely one
Aaaaw. Kissa boo-boo.
That's good Ergo. I can't imagine your dinner to be anything but nice and delicious. You should be a chef :)
yes ergo, you could be the next nigella.
tell me, have you ever made a baked alaska?
Hey Amy, is the guys still light-sabering?
Hi there anon.
ooh thank you Amy! :D
hi anon, and thank you that's a great compliment
I haven't made baked alaska, but it looks very nice. I would love to try it one day
I am making a pork pie, you brown the pork with herbs and onion, add some stock then bake at 150C (slow) for 1 1/2 hrs. Then put it in a pie dish, thicken the juices to go in too and top with mashed potato
I saw it on tv this morning
thanks too BC :]
Update on my plans to go out tonight: They have been cancelled due to Aku being at Seven's now (and it already being midnight and all). I would never find a place to park in the French Quarter!
Amy: SOS! SOS! My niece requires costume making advice.
*end of update on going out (or not) tonight*
Thank you all for your attention!
after reading you for so long i am now determined to learn to cook really well. i have some friends coming over for dinner and i wanted to make something special for them. i also am looking at a recipe for a dacquoise.
oh that's fantastic anon!
I adore cooking, and I think it is a great way to share your love with friends and family
I had to google dacquoise. but I know what it is, I've had it in a restaurant and was delicious.
Mine was like this one
it seems fairly simple, just make sure you dissolve all the sugar in the meringue mix, it seems to take ages but it is totally worth the time, otherwise it'll weep as it cooks
should say "but now I know what it is"
what sort of thing do you want to make for dinner?
VERY IMPORTANT FRIEND UPDATE:
*gasps*
I was in the mail room and just recieved this:
Happy Mardi Gras people!
We knew this was a possibility, but a last-minute verification today made it a reality: Contraflow will ride and perform in Saturday night's Endymion Parade on a float with REO Speedwagon (they're Co-Grand Marshalls). They ride, we play. If you're going to the parade, look for us near the beginning on one of the Grand Marshall floats.
And don't forget, we'll be playing Lundi Gras night at Hurricane's in Metairie after the Zeus Parade.
It's Joey's band!!!!! My buddies from "Contraflow". YAY for them! HIP HIP HOORAY!!! Playing with the "Speedwagon". I am so proud of them!
For anyone who would like to see them, just click on my name. They are "blogged" at my New Orleans events blog!
hey that's really cool wendy!
Thanks Ergo! I know Joey must be so excited. I think the only bands that influenced him more that REO were KISS and Queensryche!!!!
I'm just so happy for them!!!!!
Okay... I better go answer that mail now. I'm excited! I can't help it! YAY!!!!!!!
i'm not sure ergo. i thought if i make a dacquoise i might do something with a french influence, if i go for the baked alaska i might try something italiansque. once i get that sorted i can go work out the best part; the wine list :)
lol wine selection is vital!
I have to put in an order with the winery we found on holiday, joy of joy they mailorder! :D
A good idea is to do something that can be mostly prepared beforehand. Like a casserole, coq au vin for example, or a baked pasta.
That way you aren't away from your guests
but if you want rich and quick italian (don't we all!) you can't go past pasta carbonara with some lovely garlic bread
mayo,
this afternoon, heading back to the shop from the job site, i became a bit of a seven-day wonder when conversation revealed i have never learned to drive. apparently, in this part of kentucky, most people learn to drive by simply being allowed to get behind the wheel when they're ten years old.
my explanation for this astonishing quirk of mine wasn't a satisfactory one for my co-workers, either -- driver's ed was an elective at my high school, and the semester it was offered, my favorite teacher was teaching a creative writing class in the same period. no contest, right?
well, it made sense to me, anyway.
i didn't come here expecting to find any soulmates. i came here because i needed to keep going forward, and in seattle i was stymied. i knew once here i was going to be "the weird one" again.
but i've got a job that is truly fun, and there are a couple of people there who get a good portion of my jokes.
it's a start, mayo. i have felt that ever since i came in off the road i've been floundering, not really sure where or what i wanted to do next. that trip changed everything -- which is what i wanted to happen! -- but i wasn't prepared to feel so ungrounded.
then i got moving again, i felt such a strong urge to just jump off the cliff and get back to seattle -- and this time i landed with a splat, but i guess i just kept going, even though i wasn't sure i was doing the right thing anymore, and now here i am, and i'm enjoying myself, i'm exploring again, and now life isn't frightening, it's interesting.
and i don't know what's going to happen, but i'm back to being open to my gods and the fates, just like i was out on the road, except this time i'm trying to follow myself.
so i don't belong here, i'm wholly alien to this culture, but it's okay. for awhile, i can be the weird one again, the one who occasionally says things that get a blank stare.
i'm not a mouse anymore, like i was when i was a housewife. even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
good night, mayo. may tomorrow be a day in which you get to freak the mundanes, even just a little. *grin*
mMMM... Baked Alaskas..
And where's Wendy's niece?
*goes looking*
*looks left*
*looks right*
Huh. Okay.
Well, bedtime it is! Goodnight!
oh sorry amy
I found an online deli from down south and was perusing their catalogue
goodnight sweet dreams
I done lost my own niece, Amy!!! I iz a horrible "nanny"!
Ummm.... a good thing THAT doesn't happen when we go places together!
:P
I always get her home in the "real world".
Ohhh.... I said "the real world" which is very similar to "your own world"... which happen to be lyrics in THIS song:
Cradle Of Filth ~ Stay
I just LOVE opportunity!!!!
"You beter hope and pray that you wake one day back in your own world"
Goodnight (again and again) Amy, TJ, Ergo, Sweetcheeks, Mayo, SS and my (apparently) lost niece!!!
*blows more kisses*
TJ, I dig ya.
we are off to the creek for a paddle/sit and drink in the cool/relax
anon always feel free to ask if you need any cooking advice
wendy I'm sure you'll find her! lol
bye all see you next time
take care and sweet dreams to all off to sleepy bo-bos
i'm just looking at the ms and nigella website. there is an interesting recipe for penne alla vodka at nigella.
oh! ergo i also have been reading about the new wine varieties. i want to try the arneis and nebbiolo varieties.
anon I will have a look when I'm back
pasta with vodka! sounds intriguing
and I will investigate the wine too, always up to try something new!!
take care :]
Ergo, I so wanna be creekin with ya, those pics are boss.
you too ergo! pleasant dreams :)
woo glad I refresh once more, though the ute is running outside.
I'll toast you with cascade lager Carrie!!
take care
xx
And now I'm like all what the hell with the alyannie earlier? That was me, obviously, so now I'm all whut? I thought I was all typing the same.
Night, guys!
Hi Carrie/alannie and anon!
Ergo: I did find her! She's stressing over her Mardi Gras costume.
Yes, leave it to us to decide what we want to "be" the Friday before Mardi Gras day!
WE have a whole 3 days left to get our costumes done!!!! Should be tons of fun!
Damn, everyone's leaving.
Goodnight Carrie, Amy, anon, sugarplum, sweet dreams.
See you tomorrow Ergo.
More cowbell please, lol
Goodnight BlogBelieve ^_^
Lol. Goodnight anon sweet dreams
Sweetcheeks! My bonnet is drying. I must move on to my petticoats; and, I still have to figure out what to do about my sheep's nose!
In the meantime, where does the time go? Where have the years gone? Strange how time slips away...
Strange how you lose track of people... for years and years...
only to find them again and wonder...
Do you remember when our lives were so complete?
Long, cold Decembers, so bittersweet.
But if I could set aside one day,
That I could hold forever
I would save the day that I met you.
Is it still magic although we've grown worlds apart?
It seems so tragic, so frail the heart.
Chorus:
But if I was blessed with just one wish
To take me through my lonely life
I'd wish to go back to the day I met you
And when you feel you're on your own
Well just believe you're not alone
And you'll feel the warmth
That we shared years ago
Don't be blue
One painful morning, I stared straight into the sun
It overwhelmed me, I can undone
Chorus
So if you can find it in your heart
To be forgiving to a broken man,
We'll go back to the day that I met you
In conclusion, nostalgia can really suck!
Oh well, the glue gun await!
Vinnie and Bret!!!!
Okay, THAT made me happy again. Thank you, anon!
*blows kisses*
I shall now go back to happily glueing my costume together!
Good luck with the costume Sugarplum.
As for Vinnie and Bret, the only thing I can say is that I hope someday Vinnie and Phil can reconcile and move on. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
Anyways, I'm off to go finish watching Aliens, which is one of my favorite movies(I call it Alieums for fun) so goodnight and sweet dreams to everyone.
Goodnight sugarplum *blows kisses*
Dang! I just noticed I was ON TOP tonight!
Yeah, I'm a little slow these days. HA!
Or, you could say I am
A Day Late And A Dollar Short
Okay, so I've never really been that slow!
;)
Shame on you if you thought I was!
Opportunity knocks; I open!
I'm so far behind, I think I'm first
I love, love, LOVE that line!!!! It's just so perfectly applicable to "real life", isn't it?
Absolutely brilliant! Yeah, I think it is.
Goodnight sweetcheeks! I'll talk to you tomorrow/today!
So, where the f**k IS Santa?
??
Can I guess while I'm waiting for my glue to dry?
First letter "L".
Hint: It's what you would pay a stripper good money for - dance + land!
;)
6 if you are still here met me at 7's
I'm coming, Martha! I'm coming!
LOL!!! I told you it would be the best!
;)
Hang on just one minute while I try to get my fingers unstuck.
0_o
Mayo!!!
are you hot? I am!! And not in a lick-your-finger-touch-your-shoulder-and-go-tssssss way
Hope you're more comfortable
So Split Enz, yes there are more!
I've gone back an album to True Colours, jut as I always liked this song,
Nobody Takes Me Seriously
Nobody listens to a word that I say
And at work I'm just a foremans tool
Sitting in the corner with my coffee & tray
All the secretaries think I'm a fool
I don't wanna suffer these conditions no more
Haven't I the right to say
I don't wanna suffer these conditions no more
Nobody takes me seriously anyway
Nobody takes me seriously anyway
Nobody takes me seriously anyway
Loves not a glimpse, it's a permanent rinse
And it keeps you on your toes all day
Every girl I met seemed to get apathetic
When I looked at her that special way
I can't get nobody else to take me for real
They like to keep me tucked away
Even if they listened to what I had to say
Nobody'd take me seriously anyway
Nobody takes me seriously anyway
Nobody takes me seriously anyway
If war broke out I'd be the last one to know
If there was a fire they'd just leave me to burn
I got just as much to say as any man
But I never seem to get my turn
I don't wanna suffer these conditions no more
Haven't I the right to say
I don't wanna suffer these conditions no more
Nobody takes me seriously anyway
Nobody takes me seriously anyway
Nobody takes me seriously anyway
(Nobody takes me seriously)
Nobody.. no, no, no-nobody...
this was never released as a single, so this is live last year
sing along
much love EP xx
SS
for you another song from True Colours
Hard Act To Follow
There's a lot of good acts around
Plenty of profound performers
But there's only one, who really gets through to me
Whenever you come on I light up
Everything you do goes down well
I can tell, after you it's all downhill
Proving you're a hard act to follow
You're a hard act to follow
You make it difficult (so) difficult
Hard act to follow, you're a hard act to follow
Keeping me at arms length, sapping my strength from a distance
Hard act to follow
Watch a lot of foreign movies
See a lot of late night TV
Looking for a girl to distract me from what you are
Try to lose my concentration
Acting out of sheer frustration
I go out at night, but after you it doesn't feel right
Proving you're a hard act to follow
You're a hard act to follow
You make it difficult, so difficult
Hard act to follow you're a hard act to follow
Keeping me at arms length, sapping my strength from a distance
Hard act to follow
There's a lot of good acts around
Plenty of profound performers
But there's only one, who really gets through to me
And I'm not looking for an actress
No, no, no, no saki hostess
All I want is you and you and you and you and you
Encore, encore, encore, encore
Proving you're a hard act to follow
You're a hard act to follow
You make it difficult to even think of taking in another play
Hard act to follow, you're a hard act to follow
Keeping me at arms length, sapping my strength from a distance
Lie like Ophelia
Proving you're a mean scene stealer
Proving you're a hard act to follow
Hard act to follow (repeat and vary til fade)
sing along
goodnight blogbelieve see you in my morning
♥xx♥
fasc sdock hope you have a great Saturday
and hope the weekend dawns with expectation for everyone else passing through
Ray, Gerard, Mikey
O_O
toujours said...
i'm not a mouse anymore, like i was when i was a housewife. even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
That is so awesome, TJ! And when I read that, I was all like, "Hell yeah! Go TJ!" ^_^
Morning Mayo! Morning SS!
I just woke up and it is freakin' wonderful! I haven't slept this late in a lonnnnnnngggg time!
I'm all giddy this morning and I don't know why! O_o
It's weird. I can finally breathe. I'm happy. I have energy. And all because I haven't taken my blood pressure medicine in about two weeks. So, in other words, I'm not too far away from stroking out if I don't start back taking it.
This sucks. I hope my doctor understands why I stopped it and can give me something else to take that won't make me feel like there's a cement block on my chest. Then I hope she realizes that I don't need anti-depressants because it's not all in MY FREAKIN' HEAD!
Grrr!!!
I'm rambling today, Mayo. Sorry! ^_^
Well, Mayo, I hope you are okay and you are having an awesome weekend! ^_^
SS,
Haven't yelled at you or picked at you in a while, have I? Hmmm, I'm going to have to do something about that.
SS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Miss ya. ^_~
Have a great day and a great weekend everyone!
Later!
Ninety fiv on
This test.
We got our alnost misterm a erade, mine is 99.3 so far but th
Mid etrm is going to be haaaaardf. We'll see
I hop I do okay, iy's next saturday. Gettibg nervous!
Hope you all ar habing a good sautday!
Yay on the awesome grades, K!!!!
And one more thing, Mayo:
When the gotters come to got me, I'm gonna get my Glock.
Muwahahaha.
Byeeeee!
Smoke
Be careful. I know you want to feel better but not taking your medicine for the blood pressure can be dangerous.
I wany
666
Thank prinvess! Hey can you tal to a differeny doctoe about yoiye medicine?
Amns try some more holisdtic kind of things
For helpiong you blod pressurew? I hate thay you are so youngh and on thode meds!
Oh well oiur mid tern got pushef bakc to two weekd. Whixh is petty cool.
Ah well tine to go!
Primcess please take care od yourseld!
Smoke, quit fucking around and take your meds.
Amyranth is telling you what to do Smoke.....
Yet again. Only this time it's because she knows what's best for you.
Amyranth knows what's best for everybody apparently.
The blog... Everybody on it... She orders people around because she CARES.
You can tell how much she cares by her toothy grin.
Good thing she cares so much, otherwise she might have said disgusting, insulting and invasive things to others.
Oh..... Wait....
Fakeness makes me uncomfortable. Fake caring is worse then not caring at all.
(Waits for "just because I fought with someone and accused them of ruining the blog and bitched at them when they wouldn't listen to meeeeee... Doesn't mean I don't care"!!!)
Amyranth is telling you what to do Smoke....
Amy is telling smoke to take her meds because even though they don't always get along, Amy still cares about the people on here. I think she said it because she is worried about smoke's health.
It's called tough love. She cares about her.
I apologise, I shouldn't of said anything. Its not my business. But I have lurked a lot and commented sometimes and I couldn't get over... The nerve shown in ordering her around like an old friend after all of the bullying she did and still does.
Carrie anon
YIU GUYs!b I just has a FREE massage ay the cvlinic done by a reeeewally prettyr guy! Omg was so self
Consciusd!!
Suren
Anywat, ome more longh ckass, then home whoip whoop!
If Smoke and her friends can forgive Amy or amy already apologised then that's great. Seems like the whole Day Crew does a lot of forgiving here.
K got a massage.... That's all I understood. Lol
I apologise, I shouldn't of said anything. Its not my business. But I have lurked a lot and commented sometimes and I couldn't get over... The nerve shown in ordering her around like an old friend after all of the bullying she did and still does.
Carrie anon
You don't have to apologise. People look at things differently. I have also lurked and alot of these ladies where where here from the beginning. They might get in arguments and have their fights, but i also think they share a bond with one another. They share alot of memories, some good and some bad.
Well, I also hope Smoke is OK but it is not my place to order her around. Even if I hadn't spent so much time being nasty to her I wouldn't feel like I had the right. I get what you are saying.
wake up wake up on a saturday nightttttttt
could be new york maybe hollywood and vine
london paris maybe tokyoooooo
What memories does K have from her? Cunt, scum etc etc etc..... Is that a bond too?
theres somethin going around everywhere i go tonighttttttt tonightttttt yea tonightttttt
everyone join in, dont you love that song?!?! :)
What memories does K have from her? Cunt, scum etc etc etc..... Is that a bond too?
February 21, 2009 2:41 PM
Yes, it is a memory. Hopefully it will be one that people can laugh about in time.
give me a dancefloor give me a dj
anon i'm lip syncing because i don't think i know this song. Standing here moving my lips..
You keep singing and i will dance. Tell me if i look like a idiot. Dances around and snaps my fingers.
Embarrassed because you stopped singing and im still moving my lips and dancing. Why didn't you tell me? Now my face is all red. O_O
Shit! Everybody left! That always happens when i dance. Could it be me? Maybe the hustle is not for everyone.
How about i whip my break dancing skills out? Would ya like that?
No? You want to Mosh?
Headbang?
Pole dance?
I guess i can't unleash my inner "dancing queen"
Mayo,
Smoke and I were standing in line at the Mart of Wal and the lady checking out ahead of us had like 3 things (don't know what you call em) of yarn. Guess she was gonna go knit a sweater or afghan of something. It looked to be quite a big yarny project.
But, anyways, Smoke says something like, "I know would like to have all that yarn! Mayo!"
I was like, "um yeah, I guess, he does have a thing about pulling threads and stuff."
And then it hit me, "OH! You mean Mayo, the cat."
Smoke says, "Yeah, Mayo the cat, not Mayo the blogger."
Kind of funny, right?
Still, something tells me you could have done something pretty neat with all that yarn, Mayo.
The question is, "What?"
Have a great Saturday!
^who would
Bwahahaha! It was funny, Mayo. Guess you had to be there though cuz the look on Solly's face was like, "Why would Mayo like all that yarn? I don't get it."
And I'd like to say thank you to K, Elena, Amy and anyone that is worried about me. I didn't mean to make anyone worry. That wasn't my intention at all and I'm sorry. I was just thinking out loud and I know all the dangers of high blood pressure. My mother had a stroke when she was just a few years older than me so yeah. I do go back to the doctor on Tuesday so hopefully we can get all this straightened out. And if she doesn't see things my way, I will just find someone who doesn't think it's all in my head. It just sucks because I really feel my best when I'm not taking those meds and that can mess with your head!
Thank you all again. Really.
Hope you guys have a great afternoon! I'm scrubbing my stove! Yayness! O_O
They are called skeins, skeins of yarn.
And I'm afraid I'd spin it into a tangle.
Oh, cool! Hahaha! I know I would, Anon. :)
So, how are you at scrubbing, Anon? Any good at scrubbing? You can come help me scrub the ickyness off my stove! ^_~
Damnit, yes! Skeins of yarn, I was going to call them something else totally. Yeah, totally had the wrong word that's why I just called them those things.
Spin them into a tangle, huh? I can spin some shit into a hot mess, that's for sure.
Well, me too. I think I macrame'd a pocketbook once when I was really little, but needles and thread and yarn and little knots, just seems so frustrating!!
I'm glad other people are so great at it.
How's your Saturday going?
Smoke,
I don't get why you're scrubbing a stove that you never ever use.
O_O
Trying to make your kitchen look purdy? Is our mother's DNA coming out finally?
Gotta lotta excess energy or something? I'm thinking of tossing LHM's lego blocks and organzing my CD collection.
EASY OFF BAM!
Hell, I don't know why I'm cleaning it! I bought those new little metal thingys for it and I couldn't put them on there without cleaning it so, yeah. And I loaded the dishwasher. WTF is wrong with me today? This is so not like me!
I'm skeered! @_@
What type of ickyness are we dealing with?
Is it the "you're gonna need a blow-torch that shit's burnt on for good" ickyness or is it the "who the fuck tried to make rubber" ickyness?
Either way, I don't scrub.
Anon,
This is 13 years worth of ickyness she's dealing with! That's why I was all like, WTF?
Nah, I'm just kiddng my sister is not totally filthy, she's just cluttery.
Yeah, that's it.
Is it the "you're gonna need a blow-torch that shit's burnt on for good" ickyness or is it the "who the fuck tried to make rubber" ickyness?
Bwah! I think it's more of the first one. It's okay, I'm not much of a scrubber either, Anon. I thought I could get some help though. Hahaha. Misery loves company and all. ^_~
Fight Club on A&E! They cut out all the profanity and shit, and of course there are commercials that make it last like 3 fucking hours, but, it's still Fight Club!!!
I told you that was an awesome movie, Solly. I told you the same thing about American Psycho. I told you to listen to The Killers, Ludo and Muse.
When are you ever gonna figure out that I'm pretty damn smart? Huh?
So, how's your Saturday going so far, Anon? You having a good weekend? Chilling out? Relaxing?
And Phantom is in my house! O_O
Wait, I don't think you knit an afghan, you crochet that, right?
I remember watching this creepy movie one time, I think it was on the IFC about this boy who had this creepy fascination with knitthng needles. He was going blind and there was a serial killer on the loose.
Damn, what was it called?
My Saturday has been filled with distraction.
Work a little, work a little...fuck around.
I almost bought a Craftsman "nutdriver set in a zippered case" and I have not a single use for it.
I simply would like to make this purchase just for the bragging rights.
How's it with you guys?
Afraid of the Dark! That's what it was called.
A Craftsman nutdriver set, huh? Well, you know, everyone needs one, right? And you'd be so cool to like pull it out when something needs fixin', "Oh, guys, hold on. I have just the thing to fix this. BAM!"
And all your friends would be in awe at your handyman skills, right? Of course!
My husband has a whole craftsman tool drawer set thingy and I bet he has no clue as to where half of his tools are.
*shakes head*
Shameful.
I'm having a great day, so far! :)
Ha!
You should have totally bought it because of course you have no use for it, until, you fucking need it and then you don't have it.
I always get distracted with those things they put out at the checkout aisle. It's all that "as seen on TV" shit and I'm so tempted to buy it. They place it there on purpose. You're standing there waiting and it's like, "oh fuck yeah, I need a Ped Egg and some knives that never need sharpening.
Well, aside from shopping and cleaning and pondering. I'm not doing too much at the moment. Just kind of hanging out.
And honestly, I have no clue what the hell a nutdriver set is. Bwah! Could you tell?
Like I told TJ, I'm all about the demolition and the destroying rather than fixing! I was the child that took all the toys apart and then had to throw them away because I couldn't put them back together.
Yep...those things are called "end-caps" and that is their intent...to lure you into buying shit you really don't need.
Gotta admit, I've been had myself.
Everyone needs some powertools that come in a plastic case and that need recharging and stuff. Just for the feeling they give you when you hold them in your hands. Toss someone a nail gun and they think they're fucking Bob Villa, they can build a house.
I want one of those Snuggy things. Those blankets with the arm holes. And then there is the vacumm sealed plastic bags for storage. I need like fifty of those.
The first rule of fight club is........
OH! But what I really want is those airbrush markers. That looks fun as hell.
*sigh*
Now I wanna go back and find something crafty to do.
Billy Mays can pimp out anything! That dude is like the ageless infomercial wonder.
And the second rule of Fight Club?
Yeah.
:)
What would Tyler Durden do? Hmmm....
Ha! They just showed Carpet Slides on tv. Look that shit up. Just a broken leg waiting to happen! HAHAHA!
Excuse me, it's Fun Slides Carpet Skates. Laugh out freakin' loud.
Smoke,
We should have bought some yarn! See how things all come back around like that.
Anon,
A little distraction on a Saturday isn't so bad, right?
Fuck, I still want Roller Blades! I had the afternoon all planned out! I was going to learn to not bust my ass. Wal Mart had to go and ruin it by not having any!!
LHM just got Ravishing Rick Rude.
Niiiice. :)
Hahaha.
Well, Anon and Solly, I'm out for a bit! See you guys later!
Well, I'm gonna go for a walk now. See what I can trip into.
See ya in just a bit, Smoke!
Anon,
I hope all your distractions today are nice distractions and not the pissy irritating kind. If they are the pissy and irritating kind, I say go back and buy that nutdriver set and nutdrive them away.
Yeah, or something like that.
Either way, I hope you have a great afternoon!
morning!
I't's raing :[
a LOT
:[ :[
hi sdock
anons
smoke you taking beta blockers?
just my mum started them and had similar, but a lot of BP meds can have nasty side effects. see your doctor, there would be other meds for sure.
Mum got changed and is tonnes better
Do you have a home BP monitor? They are useful and can help the doctors with their decisions as taking it at home is more accurate
coffee time
Anonymous Anonymous said...
What memories does K have from her? Cunt, scum etc etc etc..... Is that a bond too?
February 21, 2009 2:41 PM
Yes, it is a memory. Hopefully it will be one that people can laugh about in time.
February 21, 2009 2:44 PM
Honey, the people who said those things have been laughing about calling me that stuff from the start.
Fortunately, I laughed it off too.
Hiya Princess, hiya Solly! I'm beat and about to take a shower before dinner. How're you guys doing?
DIdn't see you there Ergo, hi.
Mayo,
Great addition to the main page. I echo both you and Smoke. TJ's words were lovely.
Hi Jules!
Mayo! Nice choice!
just don't make yourself the butt of a joke...they'll never let you forget it.
Deconstructing illusory landscapes into a formidable reality. (Don't ape the masses.
Permanent vacation, huh?
Will you take up knitting in your spare time?
Just kidding...
Oh, I wanna clear up a few things, sinc I've backread a little.
One, about the whole "we all share a bond" thingie thing.
Well, I'll be totally honest, I kinda don't. There are people here who I feel like I do have like a triple covalent bond with, but that doesn't mean it applies to everyone, nor should it. I've said this before: it's just a blog. I've made some life-friends here and I'm thankful for that. But I don't feel like there's some huge bonding force here among all of us. If there is, I am definitely not a part of that bond! ;)
I think there is some pressure to say that you feel "a bond" with everyone here, and with BlogBelieve or whatever, and that it'll be all "SHUN THE NONBELIEVER" after I post this, but hey. I'm pagan so I'm kinda used to that. ;D
Anyway, then there's one other thing I want to clear up. La principesa, are you still about?
Shuuunnnnnnnnnuuhhhuuuuuuunn
Princess, I'm not worried about you as such, and in no way did I mean to imply that you had upset or worried me. What I mean is, you are a big girl (well, age-wise ;D ) and not only fully capable of making your own decisions, but absolutely to be trusted with your own decisions regarding what you put into your system.
This probably doesn't come as a huge surprise to anyone, but I am a huge supporter of being one's own medical health advocate. No one knows your body the way you do; I don't care how many degrees doctors have, or in what. Any adult with fully functioning mental facilities knows when something is or is not working out for them. And even if that adult were to make the wrong choice--smoking for example--in the end that is their choice and they have weighed the consequences and made their decision.
(In a case like smoking I find that there are often effects and consequences that the person didn't know about, and I'm more than willing to tell them all about them!--Such as all different kinds of unexpected cancers and other illnesses as well as premature aging--but in the end it is still their decision.)
If the drug you are taking is working out, you know it is. If it's not working out and the other negative effects* outweigh the positive, then you obviously know that better than your doctor.
And I know you know enough to not happyass around and say "ladeeda, think I'll up and kill myself!" You strike me as a responsible sort-- whatwith the whole "being a mom" thing and because I know you--and you will do what you need to do. Of that there is never any question.
:D
*Expect a long rant about "side effects" and why I think that is such nonsense!
OMG Solly shunned me. ;D
Jules,
Cute funny story for you. Last night, Smoke, Da Rake, LHM, and I were talking about vacation destinations and whatnot, and going to the mountains came up. I told LHM that we could go looking for jewels. Now in my head, I knew what he was thinking, but he never said anything else about it.
So, fast forward to this morning, he says, "umm where does Fimble live?"
England, why?
"Because I was thinking we could go look for Fimmy and Jules."
I was like, "no, no, I meant jewels, like emeralds and rubies and panning for gold and stuff."
LHM says, "that sounds dumb."
How cute is that?
The "side" effect rant!
Oh my god, how I hate the term "side effects" and the sheer amount of nerve the medical industry has in calling them that.
First let me say that in some ways I love and hold in awe medicine as much as I hate it. It's brilliant, and no mistake. But it is also insane.
There's no such thing as a "side" effect. There is cause and effect. Then there is cause and effect and effect and different effect. By saying "side effect" they are marginalizing all the awful things that can and sometimes do come along with these drugs, and they're doing it on purpose. As if those incredibly bad things could be marginalized!
"Take this diet pill! You'll lose so damn much weight! Side effects include crapping your pants in public but at least you'll be really skinny when you do!
Take this pill! It will get rid of your zits. A side effect is that it will also destroy your liver, but who needs a liver when you've got clear skin?"
I can't believe some of the other effects that some of these causes put into motion. Heart failure, kidney failure, stroke, leukemia, death.
Now of course, a lot of people rely on those drugs, especially if they've suffered and a pill offers them a chance at relieving that suffering. For them, the risks are worth it because what they want is some quality time, some relief; even if the cost is long-term health. I get that.
It's the medical industry that earns my ire because they dare to marginalize these huge effects and try to make it seem like they are indirectly caused by the drugs. "They are 'side' effects. They happen somewhere over there to the side, through a series of events so far removed from our drug that, haha, you don't even have to think about them!"
Grrr, indeed.
And this in turn reminds me of why I'm not in Western medical school, for as much as I love it, I also hold the entire industry in dread.
LMFAO! That is so damn cute, Solly! :D
I hear you on the medicine thing, Jules. It's really bad when you do have to sit there and weigh the good and the bad of medicine versus how it does or doesn't make you feel versus doctors telling you what you should and shouldn't do.
That's why I avoid the whole show.
Except when I have such a bad tonsil infection, that one is on the verge of rupturing and I absolutely have to go get some antibiotics.
And Tylenol PM, ibuprofen and some Excedrin Migraine.
Yes, you have to be your own health advocate.
Solly, I know I say it too much, but I hate those drugs; Tylenol (especially PM) is one of those ones that destroys your liver.
But you are a big girl and as long as you have all the facts, there's nothing I can do accept offer you possible alternatives. ;D
hi K
hi sdock
we have visitors coming so I've been cleaning up, they should be here soon.
Hopefully we can still get to the creek for a swim, if it isn't pelting rain, it's kinda just showery now
Mayo!
it is nice to have her back isn't it, and such a true sentiment
Mayo! How cool! I thought that was just an awesome thing that TJ said and I'm so happy for her! ^_^
Jules,
I know what you mean. Thank you for saying all that. I've been dealing with this for a while now and I definitely have no problem telling her what's going on. It's gonna be all straightened out this week, for sure.
We're watching Bigfootville! Creepy!
Shit! Solly forgot to sign out on my computer!
Ummm, that's better! Jeez!
Mayo,
Again, cool thing for you to do. :)
Hahahha, Smoke stop trying to be me!
LEONARD COHEN, RADIO CITY MUSIC HALL, MAY 16TH
NOTE TO SELF
That was weird! I was like, "NOOOOO!!!!! I'M NOT SOLLY!!"
Oh, yayness, Jules! I hope you get to go this time!
Sorry, I got a little zexcited just then!
I hop[e I get to go too, Solly. I'll be back from China. It is on a Thursday and I will be working Thursday nights starting in May but maybe they can give me one day off? I wonder.
Zexcited? O_O
Zechs Merquise, obviously.
Oh, and that was me up there as Sdock10, Jules! Hahaha! She was still signed in on my computer.
I could have used that to my advantage. Hmmmmm....
Oh! Now it makes sense. I was a little O_O when I read that.
Bwahahaha! I bet!
hi smoke
make a list of everything you want to say
people always forget things when they are actually at the doctor
Hey Ergo!
That is a good idea, Ergo.
I always do now,as I save up a number of things and otherwise you always walk out and go "oh damn I meant to ask about...."
even give her dates if you can remember, and if you write down a good detailed description of how you felt, you can read it back and adjust it, think of the best words etc rather than try and waffle through your memory of it in the doctors room
You can work out exactly how to describe it all
You know, just speaking in defense of doctors here, they have a really hard job in this day and age of everyone wanting a pill for everything.
I swear Carrie Underwood gargles with milk before she sings. Bless her and I'm always afraid she is going to pop a major blood vessel in her head.
Hi everyone
Solly,
I agree. You hate to even go in there and ask for something sometimes. I remember when my arm was hurting all the way from my neck to my fingers and she was like, "Well, I hate to give you something strong like Lortab or something."
And I'm sitting there thinking to myself, "Sweetie, I could take 3 Lortabs and it wouldn't bother me." But I just shook my head and said, "Oh, God no! I don't need anything like that!"
Needless to say, my arm continued to hurt for awhile after that. O_o
Solly, I agree, and so many doctors cave to that. People want that quick fix. They want the pill. Pills are easy.
That's why so many doctors will just hand out antibiotics for illnesses that don't even need antibiotics! Which I think is so wrong! They shouldn't do it, but I can see how they are totally on the spot.
People should educate themselves about their bodies. OTOH, a lot of doctors become resentful when you do educate yourself, and when you try to take your health into your own hands.
I had a doctor once tell me "A little knowledge is a dangerous thing!"
I disagreed devoutly, because any knowledge is a good thing. Also, I put forth that all doctors have is "a little knowledge." They aren't the ones living inside your body, after all.
Hey, Elena!
Hi, E.
Princess, did you ever find out why your arm was hurting?
Hi elena how are you?
oh sdock I agree and people expect them to just "fix" things. Which makes it so much harder.
There are good and bad doctors but even the good ones are only humans.
That's why I think people should write stuff out, to give the doctor the most totally information they possibly can as well as ask questions and make sure they are as informed as possible.
That goes for any type of treatment too. Even taking certain herbal supplements together or with certain foods can be dangerous.
Hi Elena!
I think it has alot to do with staying on a computer all damn day. At the time, we were really trying to review some old accounts. Sitting there for 8 and a half hours staring at a screen with your hand on a mouse will do it! LOL! Plus, I don't always have the best posture when I'm sitting at my desk. I tend to slouch and sit with my legs crossed in my chair. How princessy! Hahaha!
I think I have arthritis. And carpal tunnel. Or maybe it's all in my head! Bwah!
You know what I've figured out lately. You get older you're gonna hurt a little bit more in places that you've probably never hurt before...neck, knees, shoulders, back.
Troofax, Solly. Troofax.
K
a "little" knowledge can be a very dangerous thing. People often assume they know a lot which they've gleaned from TV or friends or the internet, when in fact they are missing vital points. If a person has a full understanding they are able to make much better decisions, and that is where the difference lays. You can then make valuable decisions for yourself.
But the plethora of medical programs and chat shows which supply people with a partial idea can do any medicine a total disservice by giving people only a false sense of knowledge
I figure that I could probably help myself out by being a little bit more active, maybe strenghten my muscles a bit, but have I done it yet?
*hangs head*
Ouch! My neck!
Nope.
Yeah, I was sitting in the floor the other night playing Monopoly with LHM and his daddy and when I finally got up, OMG. O_O
I was like, "Damn! Somebody help me! I can't straighten my legs out!"
True Solly, but it doesn't have to go as quickly as it seems to. There definitely are ways to slow down that process.
Oddly enough, I'm younger now than I was ten years ago. I have less weight, less emotional baggage, less toxins, better skin, and exponentially less pain.
Hey Ergo I just got home and found your package waiting for me. Thanks so much. Please tell your little one that I am proudly displaying her artwork on my fridge.
ALL LUCKY SEVENS! :D
I thought I had carpal tunnel syndrome from my little knowledge.
Turns out it is probably Multiple Sclerosis.
That was one fucking shock!
I totally think what you do is so cool, Jules. The Kung Fu and the way you take care of yourself. You really inspire me to do better. I just haven't gotten around to doing it yet! I'm trying though! :)
Ergo, I see a huge difference between "knowledge" and "stuff you heard about on TV."
Oh, wow, Anon. That would be a shock.
8:12, I really hope you are kidding! That's awful!
Princess, thank you for that. But believe me, the changes I made were slooooow ones. ;)
8:12
Really? I hope not.
No, oddly enough I'm not kidding. Nerve in hand/arm self repaired and that rarely happens.
Luckily I have a really good doctor. I have declined scan at this moment in time. I have reassured him that if any other part of me goes numb I will do.
The way I look at it is there is still some hope which is better than no hope.
Hi Elena!!! Hi Ergo, Sdock, Smoke, Amy, Mayo, SS, everyone!
My niece and I are having costume troubles! Well, I helped put my niece on the right track today and she helped put me on the right track concerning my petticoat!
Ergo: You are so right about medications. For instance, blood thinners. You definitely don't want to take any supplement containing Vitamin K if you're on a blood thinner. If you're on something to thicken your blood, you don't want to take aspirin. I can't take any supplement or herbal remedies that contain grapefruit products.
It's always best to have a nice long discussing with your doctor. Also, only go to ONE pharamacy so they know what meds you are on and can "help" keep an eye on you!
I think it's also important to remember that some medications require you to be "weened" off them. If you just stop taking them completely, that often does more harm than good!
Elena: How's Jake and Sunshine? How are you?
Well, those are my thoughts on the subject(s) at hand. I'm now off to work on those petticoats!!!
Have a great night, everyone!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ!
Martha: I'll see you later!
The reason why I said what I did is because my mother suffers from high blood pressure as well.
She stopped taking her meds for a week, and let me tell you, it was fucking scary being in the car with her when she started to pass out because her BP went through the roof. It was even scarier peeling her off the couch a few days later and having my boyfriend drive us to the hospital, only to walk up to the desk and say "I think my mom is dying. Can you help her, please?"
The only thing fucking worse? Seeing her a few hours later, hooked up to heart monitors, blood pressure machines, and an IV drip with the medication she thought she was well enough to stop taking.
They sent her home the same day, but really, if you guys want the feeling of walking around with your heart beating in your stomach and your mouth simultaneously, you're fucking welcome to it.
Go ahead.
8:12,
Damn.
8:12 ~ *hugs*
8:12, I am very sorry to hear that.
YES there is always hope.
Amy,
I know how scary that must've been. HBP is runs so deep in our genes, it's scary. Our mother had strokes, and just last week her BP was terribly out of whack. She was up to taking a pill and a half a day.
You're right about it not being anything to play around with.
Gosh, Anon. I'm sorry. You are right though, there is always hope.
8:12
I will hope with you. That gives you even more hope.
Hey Wendy
Sunshine is okay and so is Jake...
But last night it was Flighty heading for the ER...
She's okay too
8:12, have you got second and third opinions on that? I hope you "shop around" and look at as many options as possible.
Amy: Yep. Like I said up there. Some medications you simply should not stop taking on your own. They do require being weened off.
Unless you really, really know what you're doing (as in you're a pharmacist or a MD), it's always best to talk to your doctor before stopping any medication.
At least, that has been my experience too!
*blows kisses*
Petticoats await!!
I hope she's okay, Elena.
Well heck, Elena. What happened to Flighty?
My petticoats can wait a little longer.
I'm glad to hear that Jake and Sunshine are doing better!!!
hello Wendy
wow AMy that must have been so scary
anon I really hope OT turns out to be something less serious thsn MS
a friend of mine from work was diagnosed with MS some years ago now after what she thought was just aches and pains. fortunately through really good care as well as diet and exercise it is under good control
I wish you the very best in your future
K you may, but a lot of the public unfortunately doesn't
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