Drill Bit
Tuesday I hear it’s going around;
I’m off...again, knuckled white.
Wednesday I will talk myself into
Round about routes to denial.
If I say it, then it won’t come true.
And, I find comfortable restraint; bound to
Repeating it over and over and over. And again,
It feels better that way, medicated meditation.
Then Thursday everything is white. I eat
From a bland full service spectrum buffet,
Plated and nothing touches.
I won’t even sip from her cup.
By Friday I am unable to tolerate human contact.
And, I count back to the last
In order to find spared time. I’ll be free-
On Saturday what is in the air will kill me.
So, I hold my breath between rooms. Suffocated,
Sunday I become completely restricted.
I will not accept from anyone, anything
That has been anywhere other than here.
Those days, they wear me hard
And to the end, so I have become
Exhausted from the fight. I finally sleep.
Then Monday brings me back, slightly.
With a negligent handshake,
So that again Tuesday I am found,
Wringing dry, anticeptic hands.
I will not allow myself to open a door
I stay; refusal and restraint, withholding.
p.s. its got quite a grip.
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The white snowfall
On every side
Has fallen, covering all, so
Even on the crags bloom
Flowers, or so it seems.
The white snow
Has fallen, drifted high around
The mountain home;
Might even he who lives there
Be buried in melancholy?
You can tame a dog with food and you can tame a man with money.
But no one can ever tame a Wolf of Mibu.
Buried in Winter,
How unexpected it is
Between the trees
To imagine flowers
In the fallen snow.
Near Shio mountain
At Sashide Rocks,
Dwell plovers,
When asked your span of years
They cry, ‘Eight thousand!’
It's over NINE THOUSAAAAAND!
7's OPJ
Don't waste your time here OPJ. At least not tonight if you know what I mean.
hello k
hello J
how are you?
No More Snow!!! Stinky stinky snow. And it was blowing like a mother all day today too. I want spring!!!
It's snowing over here. Bleh.
But my house smells like BANANA BREAD!
Doo-doo, doo-doo-doo!
Banana Bread!
Doo-doo, doo-doo!
Banana Bread!
(sung to the tune of Muhnuh-Muhnuh)
IF you know what I mean!
^_^
I love that link.
I'm not usually so impatient for the weather to change, but this year it's really getting to me for some reason. Probably because I haven't been walking across frozen tundra parking lots at night in earlier years.
So, Mayo, your post is interesting. L and I read over it, and she feels that you're writing about the last post. Well, moreso, perhaps, the reactions to it.
I'm not as good at explaining it as she is; suffice to say she found that the events on each of the days you mentioned reflected your reactions. Seemed as if she hit the nail on the head, but I don't know. I'll have to get her to explain it to me again.
"Those days, they wear me hard
And to the end, so I have become
Exhausted from the fight."
The emotional toll is more draining than any physical one could be. What is it you and SS have told us before, so many times? Ignore, ignore, ignore.
Words, sometimes, are just words. But other times, in the lyrics of INXS, "words are weapons, sharper than knives..."
And, sometimes, words that AREN'T said can hurt just as badly.
Hiya Carrie, Ergo!
We had a touch of snow for about thirty seconds too. I wouldn't mind one more snowfall I guess (because I never did get out to take my winter cemetery pics like I wanted to,) but honestly, aside from that, I'm so done with snow.
Hence the "OMG winter is so long" poems up there.
Carrie, you're gonna hate Canada.
The hammer is my penis. Sorry, your link made me think of that K. Did you ever watch Dr. Horrible?
I like your view OPJ, I think if more "certain" people here looked at the deep meanings like the rest of you do they might see that Mayo in frustrated and fed up with them and their "attention seeking" behavior.
hello Carrie
I imagine snow would be tiresome after a long time, it's cold, then it's all wet.
hope it eases
we at least have sun so the ground isn't oozing through your toes
Hello Mayo, SS, Ergo, Carrie, J, various anons, everyone!
We're over at Seven's talking about fish, crocs, sharks, hogs doggies and anime!
Here's a little something that might cheer up some people:
The Mystic Krewe Of Barkus: BatMUTT ~ The Bark Knight
Proceeds from that parade/krewe benefit Louisiana animal shelters!
Aren't all those doggies in costumes just too cute!
Anima: I'm so sorry, love.
*huge hug*
Goodnight everyone! Sweet dreams!
*runs back in to hug J again*
Hi Amy! Fancy meeting you here!
;)
Carrie, I've never seen that but it's easy to see how you got there from that.
You clicked that link! What a great website, right? I can spend hours there.
Ergo, that's the next season in MI, the mud season. We probably won't properly thaw for another month or so though. And I've seen it snow in May before.
Hello ladies, how are we all tonight?
;)
;D
^____^
Hello LADIES.... and I stress "LADIES".
Oh, K! It's even on there! The Dr. Horrible thing, I mean, I didn't scroll down the first time. :)
Carrie, your reference is actually at the bottom of the page!
Bwaha! As you've already seen!
HA!!
DOUBLE HA!
I'm good thanks J :]
Hey J, how are you? Hey Carrie, Ergo, anons, anyone else I missed.
Goodnight sugarplum, sweet dreams.
I loved Heero Yuy like mad.
For some reason I was thinking about Gundam Wing today while I was driving home from the store.
I have a tummy ache J; but, other than that, I'm good! How are you and L?
It's good to "see" you!!!!!
Unfortunately, I can not stay and chat with you ladies. Litter boxes await!
I'll talk to you soon!
*blows night night kisses*
I just found out I inspired someone to start a blog, that is weird.
oh cute dogs
No, Mr. Bond, I expect you to dine.
That's not weird Carrie, that is cool!
Hey Ergo, BC, I'm ok, good to see you!
Amy, I saw your comment at Seven's about your fish. What's the deal?
they are funny K and amazing how many I've seen
EEEEP! Wendy! I almost forgot to say hi to you!
HI! How're you doing? BTW, L has a new post up about wolves. I think you'd like it.
How's your mom?
Ugh. Aphids are poisoning my fish, J.
He'll be okay, he just had a massive water change, and something to eat, but it pisses me off. I can't get ahead of these little green bastards no matter what I try.
So, I'm going to give the yellow water dish, full of soap to drown them trick. Then, I'm going to try the sticky piece of paper to trap them trick.
Then I'm going to go hide in a corner and cry.
Ergo, isn't it amazing? Everything you can possibly think of and more us up there.
Oh, I didn't even realize it was the tvtropes thing you were on! I've seen you mention that site before but I've never sat and explored. So, there really is nothing new out there! I once heard that all characters can be traced back to the Wizard of Oz, but then what did that come from?
Aphids? Isn't that what ladybugs eat?
the road works people just have all their stuff parked in our driveway so I had to go down and tell them that I have to get out to meet the bus in about 10 mins
so they can move it
Oh Amy, I'm sorry. Can you put a filter in his bowl/tank and cover the top?
Sent you an email about what we did with our fish.
Hmm, well you can break most stories down to little botsized bits or you can just see the very few forests and none of the trees. The Hero's Journey which you see so often everywhere, it's so pervasive, and of course the usual "man vs. man, man vs. himself, man vs. machine, man vs. nature" which I suppose can all be seen as "tropes" although extreeeemely broad ones. You know?
It is Carrie, but it's kinda hard to find Ladybugs in Alberta in February. I looked.
J, I just put a bit of netting overtop his tank, and he's looking better by the minute, but he'll still get another water change tomorrow or the next day just get out more of the toxins he's currently excreting from his body. Poor little guy.
APHID SMASH.
True, K. I remember learning about that in English, and having it freaking ruin every book I read that year, because I was obsessively looking for themes! And anon from Seven's, you may have your wish, I'm going to bed now. :) Good night everyone!
J, MJ says Hallo!
J
MJ said to say hello
Carrie, I do that now, too, to this day! And even worse, I do it with my own writing which invariably stunts me and makes me want to rip my stupid hair out.
Carrie, it was fun, good night!
goodnight Carrie- pay no attention to them, I'm not
sweet dreams
brb bus
I'm heading to bed too, whether or not anyone wants me to.
Goodnight guys!
Goodnight carrie and amy
hello all, just skittering in to leave my good nights and then i'm off to bed.
anima, i sent you a text, but wanted to put a hug for you here, too (like a tripwire snare: gotcha!)
keeping you in my thoughts.
take care, everyone!
Goodnight Amy, goodnight Carrie. Sleep well.
Hello and goodnight TJ! What a surprise! Hope you're doing alright.
Ergo, tell MJ I said HI! back, and sorry I missed her birthday.
Hi TJ! Good to read you again. :)
I was just heading off for bed myself when I got sidetracked by that damn page (ends up The Usual Suspects is on there too.)
So, good night!
Hi and goodnight TJ *hugs*
BC, I hope you did ok on your exam. I saw that you said you thought you fucked it up. Sometimes I'd feel that way, and it turned out ok. Maybe that'll be the case this time. When do you get your results?
And how's your little bun-bun?
hi and goodnight TJ!
goodnight K
goodnight Amy
sweet dreams
Thanks J. I go back to class Tuesday, but I may be able to check my grades online, but I'll do that tomorrow, haha.
My little bun bun is doing pretty good, although it amazes me at how big it got. It's still energetic as ever too since my last bunny was really lazy, lol.
How's your fur babies?
J
MJ said that's cool and she hopes you're well
Fur babies are ok, BC. Raindrop's been a little slow and "creaky" b/c of the cold, and the occasional rain. His hips start hurting then.
Dumplin's been sleeping a lot, but he takes "spells", I call them. Sometimes he sleeps a lot, sometimes he runs like a madman around the apt.
Pinkle's also been sleeping a lot. Logan's his usual snotty self! Love them allergies.
Ergo, tell Martha we owe her an email, and one of us will be writing her in the next couple days. Thanks!
I think sleeping away a lot of winter is the best, the fur babies have the right idea
mayo,
so i've been writing this silly little story in the evenings -- i started it back in the last hotel i was staying at in seattle, the historic one in the international district. no tv in the room, so i mostly read, but one night i decided to start putting on paper a daydream from my last bus ride.
well, it was astonishing how fast the time went by, every time i looked up an hour had passed! i quickly became addicted to that nightly scribble in the notebook. the story grew, a true ramble that i let come without the slightest editing. it's like my own bedtime story, a fairy tale about nothing much but engaging all the same.
it'll never be publishable, though maybe one or two of the characters might find their way into cameos somewhere else someday. it's just pure writing, writing for no other reason but the flow of words.
i'm getting there. you're helping. (whether you know it or not.)
thanks. :)
good night to you mayo. wishing you sweet dreams and a happy morning, right from the minute you wake up to it.
Aww that's good to hear J
I think I'll head off for bed as well. Good to see you and talk to you, my friends.
Goodnight Ergo, BC, Amy, Wendy, TJ, sleep well.
Goodnight Mayo, see you around.
Goodnight J, sweet dreams.
I'm watching Sixteen Candles and Alien, so I'll be going on and off for a bit.
goodnight J sweet dreams
SS baby,
You've been on my mind tonight--well, you're on my mind a lot, but more so tonight. Feels like you're in doubt, or are sad, or troubled by something.
If you need me, I'm here. But you know that. Can you feel my arms around you, holding you close? I can hold you as long as you need. You can let it out, and I won't mind.
"Cry On My Shoulder"
I know it's hard sometimes
And things seem larger than they are
But if you need to tell someone
That's what I'm here for
Cry on my shoulder
I'll help you rise above
Cry on my shoulder, my love
Out in the world outside
It can be harsh and cold
But if you need someone
I will be here to hold you
Cry on my shoulder
I'll help you dry your eyes
Cry on my shoulder, my love
I know it's hard sometimes
And things seem larger than they are
But if you need to let it go
Then you can call on me
Cry on my shoulder
I'll help you dry your eyes
Cry on my shoulder, my love
Cry on my shoulder
I'll help you rise above
Cry on my shoulder, my love
My love...
*******
Goodnight, Precious. I love you.
My heart to yours, always.
Warped & Twisted
by Skittles
Harsh words & violent blows
Hidden secrets nobody knows
Eyes are open, hands are fisted
Deep inside I'm warped & twisted
So many tricks & so many lies
Too many whens & too many whys
Nobody's special, nobody's gifted
I'm just me, warped & twisted
Sleeping awake & choking on a dream
Listening loudly to a silent scream
Call my mind, the number's unlisted
Lost in someone so warped & twisted
On my knees, alive but dead
Look at the invisible blood I've bled
I'm not gone, my mind has drifted
Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted
Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow
Today's just yesterday's tomorrow
The sun died out, the ashes sifted
I'm still here, warped & twisted
This poem originally was published in Sad Poems - Depression and Suicide Poems
Mayo
Well I finally got here tonight but it seems everyone has gone. It’s probably for the best I wasn’t here. Not that I didn’t want to be but because I know that I really would have had nothing to offer anyone. It was one of “those” days. Show me something beautiful and I could find a flaw, yeah, a total dark cloud over my head day. I hate when this happens but I know when it does there is nothing I can do that will change it. Crap, that just sounds so negative but that’s just the reality of it. Tomorrow may be better. I hope it will I don’t like feeling this way. I just think that it makes me a whiny bitch who doesn’t deserve all the good things I have in my life. Oh yeah, lots of self-hating going on at the moment.
Okay moving on because I don’t want to dwell there…I watched Sober House tonight and you know that didn’t help my mood at all. That whole drama with Seth just made me so damn sad. I don’t think he’s gonna make it. But what was really hard for me to watch is the fact that I don’t think he believes he will either. At the end he was saying all the right things, like it had been a nightmare and he was ready to start over but the look in his eyes said something totally different. To me he looks like he’s given up on himself. He doesn’t believe he’ll ever be better and if he can’t believe it then it won’t happen. How terribly sad it that? And watching the people who care about him scramble around…my heart goes out to them. They want to help but I think they know deep down there isn’t a damn thing they can do to stop the inevitable.
Yeah, I probably shouldn’t have watched the show tonight.
So I think I’ll just try to stop thinking for tonight. Escape, if you will, into some comics. I bought another lot of about 600 and I keep finding so many issues that catch my attention. That’s a good thing. I need to get my mind anywhere but where it’s been dwelling.
Take care.
Night Mayo
Elena (I have to shake this but I don’t know how)
elena good to see you
missed catching you today
hope everything is brighter in the morning
♥
Depression is nourished by a lifetime of ungrieved and unforgiven hurts
Grieve and forgive
Elena, there's days where I felt exactly the same like you had tonight. You're not alone. Things will be better. Maybe not today, or tomorrow, but they will. Nothing is forever. Keep that spark of hope alive *hugs*
on that note, I am off for the night to enjoy my four-day weekend. Goodnight everyone, sweet dreams.
Anima: I'm so sorry about the news. We're here if you need anything ♥
Night!
oh mayo! you seem to have it pretty bad at the moment. way worse than i've ever been. that holding your breath thing is a killer though. i don't do any of that anymore, well minimal amounts, but i can relate.
look i have no bloody time! just wanted to pop in and offer you a *hug*, and hope you are doing alright?!
take care of yourself mayo, nice to read you again so soon. you are a funny one, well we are all funny ones!! you don't post for fucking ever and we worry, you post quickly and the content of your words worries us! can't win!
take is easy!
SS! hi to you wherever you are and hope you are happy in whatever you are doing?!
hi everyone.
anima so very sad to hear your news. my thoughts are with you and your family. so very sorry anima.
♥
TJ nice to see you!!
elena i'm sorry you are having such a tough time at the moment. hope things improve soon.
shit guys i've just skimmed. things are busy with family at the moment. i feel bad that i can't do my comment justice cos i'm not up to scratch.
hope you can forgive me.
miranth hope you feel better soon.
see it comes back in dribs and drabs once i start typing.
gotta go now!
hello to BC above!!
PP thinking of you today!
*waves* to PJ!
sorry, night BC!
night ergo when you do go to bed!
hey fasc!!! nice to see you :}
hope you have had a tolerable week and will have an enjoyable weekend soon
mayo
tonight from the Split Enz album Corroboree (which was it's Aussie release) Waiata in NZ- meaning song and dance
the song One Step Ahead. I feel you may identify with it, with the mood of your last post. Feeling that all you are is just one step ahead and that takes all your energy just to stay there
One step ahead of you
stay in motion, keep an open mind
Love is a race won by two
Your emotion, my solitude
If I stop I could lose my head
So I'm losing you instead
Either way I'm confused
You slow me down, what can I do?
There's one particular way I have to choose
One step ahead of you
Always someone makes it hard to move
She says, Boy I want you to stay
But I save it all for another day
If I stop I could lose my head
But I'm ready for romance
Either way I'm confused
I don't know what I'm s'posed to do
I can only stay
One step ahead of you
Da,da,da,da,da
Da,da,da,da
Da,da,da,da
Da,da,da,dum
Stop, I confess sometimes
I don't know where I'm going
Part of me stays with you,
I'm slowing down, what can I do
It's hard to stay one step ahead of you
(Uh huh)
One step ahead of you
Time is running out
Catching up with you
One step ahead of you
When I hold you close
Can I really lose?
One step ahead
Only one step ahead
She's one step ahead of you
sing along
much love EP xx
SS
*gasp* I put up teh wrong song last night! the one I did post is the one from this album Corroboree, but the one from true Colours I meant to give you is a song, still by Neil Finn called
I Got You
I got you - that's all I want
I won't forget - that's a whole lot
I don't go out - now that you're in
Sometimes we shout - but that's no problem
I don't know why sometimes I get frightened
You can see my eyes, you can tell that I'm not lyin'
Look at you - you're a pageant
You're everything - that I've imagined
Something's wrong - I feel uneasy
You show me - tell me you're not teasin'
I don't know why sometimes I get frightened
You can see my eyes, you can tell that I'm not lyin'
There's no doubt - not when I'm with you
When I'm without - I stay in my room
Where do you go - I get no answer
You're always out - it gets on my nerves
I don't know why sometimes I get frightened
You can see my eyes you can tell that I'm not lying
I don't know why sometimes I get frightened
You can see my eyes, you can tell that I'm not lyin'
I don't know why sometimes I get frightened
You can see my eyes, you can tell that I'm not lying
sing along
lotsa love EP xx
goodnigth blogbelieve see you in my morning
♥xx♥
sdock have a great friday, made it through another week!! YAY!
have a great day too all those who pass through before I wake
Anonymous said...
OPJ? I hope you're joining us here tonight because it looks like the Bullshit Crew (or at least one of them) is on tonight at Mayo's. SO not worth if.
February 19, 2009 11:54 PM
Anonymous said...
If we all sign on there, we can probably drive them (her) off for a while.....
February 19, 2009 11:56 PM
Can i just say how very junior high this sounds? I know alot of people blame certain people for "running people off this blog" but really who has that much power to do that? If certain people want to come back they would. No one is stopping anyone from coming here. Just because some people don't like certain people here, does not mean that you can't post here. I know there are people in my everyday life that i don't like. Does that make me quit my job because i don't like everyone that i work with? Does that mean i don't do things i enjoy because i want to avoid people i don't like? Think about it.
Goddamn, I've been having some insane dreams lately. I mean they are usually insane but this past week they have been way out of control. O_o
Here we go again. Our high school just got evacuated because of a bomb threat. Obviously they didn't punish the kids enough that did this last time.
Elena, I hope everything is ok.
Kapunua, I'm glad you let your freak flag fly. Sometimes it's just good to let loose. :)
Oh, and K, I had a dream that scared the crap out of me this week. I haven't been rattled like that in years and I couldn't shake the images for the longest time.
Must be the wind blowing strange.
E, that is so awful. That's always happening in my cousin's high school. Why don't those people ever learn?
Jennicula, one has to! Keeping it all inside is never a good idea. ;)
What was your dream? The one that got to me most this week was one where my dog killed my crow, and then turned into a spider, and then turned into a clock whose gears would no longer run, and then died in my hands. I woke myself up from that one because it was so awful.
I had a doozy of a dream last night, too.
I dreamed that I was robbed and the bad guys took my credit card and my drivers license. They told me to not call for the police.
So when they drove away, I called 911. The bad guys showed up right as I was hanging up the phone and they knew I called the police.
So they told me that they were going to kill me and my family. If that wasn't scary enough, then they started to chase me through the abandoned store I was in. I just knew when they caught me, I was a goner and then they were going to torture the fam.
When I woke up I was shaking so badly that I started to freak myself out.
Last night I dreamed I was at college, and some maniac came running down the halls with a gun. He shot some guy in the chest. No one was doing much aside from standing around at first. Then Dr. Mao (from Yahoo "Ask Dr. Mao" fame) came in and said he knew how to do Chinese surgery. He said he could temporarily stop the bleeding but the bullet had gone through the guy's aorta and he would need medical help soon or he would die.
So I ran down the hall and lunged for a pay phone where I dialed 911. Instead of getting an emergency operator, there was a commercial playing on the phone. I started screaming at the commercial that I hated their stupid consumerism, because it was letting a man die! I hung up and tried again.
This time I ended up calling a hospital and they said that they refused to send an ambulance to the college I was going to, because it had lost its accreditation. The operator very coldly told me to get a "sunchair" which she described as a reclining lawnchair, load the man up into that and drive him to the hospital myself.
Well I got a chair and Dr. Mao and I tried to put the guy in the chair, but the chair broke and he fell, and his stitches came out. He started crying like a baby and I felt so bad for him I figured I would just pick him up and carry him to the hospital myself.
This I tried to do, but once I got there (I ran instead of driving,) I looked down to find that all I was carrying was a plastic case. I opened it up and a bunch of yo-yos fell out of it. Some of the doctors scrambled to pick them up and play with them. I was standing there with this open case wondering where the dying man had gotten to. And then I woke up.
Why were we both dialing 911 in our dreams, Jenn? O_O
A dream like the one you had, I would have woken up crying for sure. being chased in my dreams is a sure way to make it a nightmare, and anything to do with persecution of family is the worst.
How weird is it that both of those dreams we had were similar in the elements of persecution, dialing 911, and yet no one willing or able to help?
O_O
I'm not even sure what triggered the dream either. I don't usually have scary dreams. I'm usually flying or breathing under water or rambling around in old houses.
The worst part was that when I fell back asleep, I went right back into the dream to finish it.
When I woke up the second time, I got up and walked around.
I've had that happen, too. Just when you thought it was safe to sleep. ;) That sucks.
I like the part about the yo-yos.
I should find my dream book and see what it says.
My poor husband woke up with me grabbing his nose. I needed an anchor to this reality and he was it.
He was pretty startled.
Yeah, that part was so random!
LOL, your poor husband!
K, it was so nice talking to you. I've missed our convos, but I like reading your progress at school.
Gotta go, but have a great afternoon.
You too, Jenn. :) Wish there was more time in the day. Speaking of, I have a mid term to study for as well.
You have a great day also! ^_^
My browser is fixed on my BlackBerry! Yay!!! Hope you are all having a lovely day! It is beautiful in Georgia today! :)
I gotta have this!
Hahahahaha! You can't stop the vortex, SS!!! ^_~
Elena,
I hope everything is okay at the school! Let us know, okay?
good morning all
hi K
jen
what scary dreams!
elena hope they get them and really punish them this time. Our poor primary school used to have that happen. Of course back then it was pretty much guaranteed it was kids pranking (though they never took risks) now you just can't tell how serious it might actually be!
it's really warm and humid here today, we are doing the creek party tomorrow, but might just walk down to the bit closer our house this afternoon for a dip.
Best thing about the rain is the creeks are all flowing again
Things are okay at the school. They evacuated the school, checked it with dogs then let the kids go back. That took three hours! This is just crazy.
I swear there are no consequences anymore.
elena that is the big problem
and too much instant publicity too, they know they'll be "on the news" etc
you hear how that 13 yo dad is apparently the victim of a scam cooked up by the girl's parents? The story is getting more and more sordid
they did it to get money from the media
smoke, very cool shirt!
"What is it you and SS have told us before, so many times? Ignore, ignore, ignore.
Words, sometimes, are just words. But other times, in the lyrics of INXS, "words are weapons, sharper than knives..."
And, sometimes, words that AREN'T said can hurt just as badly.
February 19, 2009 11:56 PM"
When OPJ is one of the biggest culprits on this blog of saying and doing disgusting things to certain people... From accusing others of her mistakes to lying and exposing people's private information.....
This just comes across as funny.
Who is the "Bullshit Crew"?
Who said that?
All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you
I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
And baby I broke them all for you
Oh because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do and I was made for you
You see the smile that's on my mouth
It's hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what I've been through like you do
And I was made for you...
All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
Oh but these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you
Oh yeah and its true, that I was made for you
Just a great song. have a good night blogbelieve
The sores that OPJ in particular made (her first post calling eveyrone hypocrites which she meant to do anonymously), blaming Fimble Star for it, accusing "that group" of setting her up, (when MANY of us got that email), giving out Sdock's real name from one of HER emails and giving out Kapu's personal information.....
Those sores she made just keep festering and have grown into a cancer on this blog.
For OPJ to feel sorry for Mayo because of how she THINKS he feels about the nastiness on this blog is insane. She's the cause of so much of it.
Hello Mayo, SS, everyone! I came to deliver some sad music news; but first,
I have a question:
What are you trying to cause 7:07? Your opinion of J is just that. Your opinion. Mine is completely different. J and L have both been wonderful, supportive friends. I happen to cherish their friendship as I do the friendship of many others around here. Some still here, some long gone.
Elena: I'm glad everything turned out okay at the school!!!!
6:57 ~ Thank you! I hope you have a good night too!
And I'm allowed to express my opinion. As you have expressed your's MANY times.
Unto the sad news (he was only 35):
*sighs*
Source: Metal From Finland
Former SENTENCED Guitarist MIIKA TENKULA Dead At 35
Category: Music
Miika Tenkula, former lead guitarist and main songwriter of the acclaimed Finnish band SENTENCED, was found dead at his home earlier today (Thursday, February 19). He was 35 years old.
Nalle Österman (GANDALF, LULLACRY, CHAOSBREED) tells BLABBERMOUTH.NET, "It's true, confirmed personally by [former SENTENCED] drummer Vesa Ranta.
"The fact remains that Miika had a serious drinking problem for many years which escalated after SENTENCED was buried. They don't call it King Alcohol for nothing...
"The metal scene in Finland mourns now for one of the most talented metal guitarists to ever emerge from [the country]."
The official cause of Miika's death has not yet been released.
SENTENCED's posthumous DVD, "Buried Alive", was certified
platinum last year in the band's native Finland. The disc topped the
official Finnish chart upon its release in late 2006.
You can read the more at Metal From Finland
^if anyone is interested^
Sentenced Ever Frost
:(
My grandma was a wise woman..
She said..
"If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all."
yep, I like that thought. (oh that's my opinion by the way)
7:16 ~ I didn't say you weren't allowed to express your opinion. You expressed yours, I expressed mine.
*goes back and reads previous comment*
Yep, just as I thought. No where in that comment did I say you couldn't express your opinion...
I simply said that I, wholeheartedly, disagree with your opinion!
Blogger elena said...
My grandma was a wise woman..
She said..
"If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all."
yep, I like that thought. (oh that's my opinion by the way)
February 20, 200
Does that go for your friends to Elena? What about all the disgusting words they have thrown at people?
Anonymous said...
If we all sign on there, we can probably drive them (her) off for a while.....
February 19, 2009 11:56 PM
Read back and see who arrives around 11:56. It's not very surprising.
11:56. It's not very surprising.(not Erg or Carrie)
Hi Elena! How are you? How's Jake feeling? Better, I hope!
I have to run now. I'll talk to you later, hopefully!
Take care, Elena!
*huge hug*
Anon that goes for everyone.
I'm just wondering why you felt it necessary to come in out of the blue and share your opinion.
Oh and by the way, I've seen the comments from seven's blog that have been posted here.
Yeah, a nasty anon came in over there and tried to start shit. Did you notice that anon was ignored? No one agreed with what they were saying. See if you don't let yourself be dragged in....
Have a nice night everyone.
WEll anon, it says "anon" at 11:56. Was it you? It is the same name.
Unless you want to sign in or take a name, I wouldn't accuse anyone of anything. But, that's just me!
Now, I'm going.
*blows kisses*
Unless you want to sign in or take a name, I wouldn't accuse anyone of anything.
Did i say anyone's name? Yes we all know that you say things signed in even when it calling someone names. It doesn't make you better for it. But that's just me.
Oh and by the way, I've seen the comments from seven's blog that have been posted here.
Yeah, a nasty anon came in over there and tried to start shit over here.
Sounds like the anon that posted that over there was the nasty one.
hello elena, wendy
7:42 that was the point
and why anons like that are ignored
gosh it's a hot day, I just did some tidying then had an iceblock
now I'm ready to go hang sheets on the line
*phew* seems to never end!
Toothy grin, anyone?
http://marcodipasquale.files.
wordpress.com/2008/02/
black_hole_sun.jpg
There's your toothy grin.
That's exactly how I picture it when Amyranth or her friends say something ugly and pat each other on the back with "toothy grin" when they do.
wendy that is really sad about the metal guy.
It's a shame so many get into that destructive lifestyle.
lmao Toothy Grin!
I always pictured this when they say that.
That just scared the hell out of me!!!!
What was the Toothy Grin? I don't remember? Was it after Amaranth said the 'eat a bag of assholes' thing to someone?
iirc it was after she said she liked to "call a c---t a c---t".... Sorry I refuse to be like so many other's and actually say that word. Not even to people I hate. It was after she said that when she said "toothy grin" and it just stuck.
lol Yes and I pay too much attention to this blog. It's like a soap opera.
It's hard to pronounce a four letter word when you can't spell it. Isn't it 8:15. It's spelled *c--t*
You have one too many dashes up there.
Hallooooo everyone!!
How's the day going?
*shakes her box of Crispix at the living room people*
LOL yeh I do.... sorry!
Oooh boy toothy grin...
sigh.
Hallo Amy. What's shakin?
I don't know about what you anons are talking about but "fried assholes' was the funniest. ha!
I love Amy, OPJ and Wendy!
They would be hard to digest wouldn't they?
They are spunky!
I imagine they would be.No one likes assholes anyway, especially fried ones!
Haha..Vampires will never hurt you came on the music channel on TV. ironic much?
later. gotta enjoy the song
yeh its "spunky" when they do it but if anyone else even says slightly the wrong thing, awkward or forgets to say hi to someone, its the end of the world.
I love them too 8:37 :)
http://www.ieatpaint.com/images/clowns/pennywise.jpg
Toothy grin!
The difference is whey Amy OPJ or Wendy does it, it is because they have to put someone in their places.
Hallo BC!
Just waiting for supper to defrost so I can cook. What's shakin with you today?
Nothing much Amy. Got done eating pizza, downloading songs, taking it easy, nothing exciting.
Same. Thank fuck it's Friday. I don't think I could have stood another day at work.
How're the classes coming?
Hi Amy Hi BC
I'm taking a break for lunch, there is a really interesting doco with forensic investigators analysing the death of King Tut
"The difference is whey Amy OPJ or Wendy does it, it is because they have to put someone in their places."
Its just no use talking to you.
Hey Ergo!
Didn't they say that the cause of Tut's death was multiple problems? Lack of proper nutrition, lack of clean water, and lack of people who didn't want him dead?
LOL Amy you always make me laugh no matter what other's say.
these guys are looking at the "wanted him dead angle" but their evidence is pointing to for some reason it was a very hasty burial.
There are actually paint drips on the wall and stuff that weren't cleaned up. If it was done by workmen with pride for a pharaoh you'd expect it'd be as perfect as possible, so they are saying it was def. hasty for some reason. it's still an hour to go
Anon, I try my damndest.
Classes are okay Amy, but a bit boring.
Hey ergo
Mayo
I’ll just warn you ahead of time I’m pretty cranky, oh seriously, screw cranky, I’m pissed off. Today there was another bomb threat at the high school my girls attend. Yep, once again some kid thought it would be oh so funny to leave a note saying that there was a bomb in the school. Of course when it was found the school was evacuated and the kids bussed to a huge church. Then the dogs were brought in and the school searched. Nothing was found, thank God. However the amount of time, money and worry this little prank cost is fairly huge. So do you think anything was learned by this? Shit, I don’t think so. Last year they had three separate incidents like this. They did find out who did it and they were reprimanded. Reprimanded? What? Did they send them an “I message”? (Don’t even get me started on that whole “I message” thing) Seriously, whatever happened to if someone was upsetting you you told them calmly so there was no misunderstanding?) No the kids are taught to send someone an “I” message…. (I am sad because of what you did). My “I message” is that I’m rolling my eyes.
Anyway the thing is this. I’ve come to the conclusion that we’ve raised a generation of kids who take no responsibility for their actions. They know they don’t have it. As soon as one does something wrong in come a flock of people to explain to them that they did what they did because of someone’s actions. It’s never their fault oh no, it’s someone else’s fault. I’m sure the people responsible for today’s incident did it because someone else either told them to do it or because they we’re feeling the need for attention because someone else wasn’t giving them any. So I just wonder why the real reason can’t be… “I did it cause I felt like it”. Oh but if you say that then you’re taking responsibility. That ain’t gonna happen.
Shit, I do sound pissed off, don’t I? Well I am. Each time something like this happens my heart stops for just a second. I still have two girls in that school and countless other kids I care about. This wasn’t funny, it wasn’t a joke. But until whoever did this is truly worried that there will be serious consequences they aren’t going to stop.
Okay I promise I’m done ranting now. But damn I feel better getting that out. I’m going back to watching “The Fifth Element”. I love that movie!
Hope you’re okay.
Night Mayo
Elena
elena, as a teacher of high schoolers I totally agree with what you said, and I personally, have never allowed a kid to try and shirk the blame.
It doesn't matter what anyone did or didn't do to them, they still made the final decision, and it is still their responsibility and they still have to face the consequences. Even extenuating circumstances, which may result in the disciplining of others involved, never totally absolves blame, it may only modify it.
if kids (and all people) were taught to take responsibility, rather than harp on about their "rights" it's be a big improvement
Amy
the researchers came to the conclusion it was murder by Ay (his Grand Vizir) but at the end it said how the 2005 CAT scan concluded it was gangrene ater a broken leg
no one will ever know but it's always interesting to hear theories
Hello (again) Elena, Amy, Sweetcheeks, Martha (I'll be at Seven's later!!!) and anons!!!
Elena: A huh message? An "I message"? Are you serious? What ever happened to dragging their little butts down to the police station and sending them to a juvenile detention center? I mean, we're not talking about a little food fight here! We're not talking about setting off a few firecrackers at a pep rally. They/he/she threated to blow up the school and everyone in it! An "I message"? SHEESH!
Amy: "lack of people who didn't want him dead" LOL!!!!
Ergo: Who did it? Who killed Tut? *smooooooch*
Sweetcheeks: Did you get your test score back yet? Ohhhh.... I hope you passed!!!!
For everyone's entertainment tonight:
Bourbon Street be rockin
So, why am I not there? Hmmm....
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
PS: I'm going to be Little Bo Peep Tuesday!!! I even have a little lost sheep!
*big smile*
Ergo!!!! Mardi Gras mambo with me to the door? Please!
Down in New Orleans where the blues was born,
It takes a cool cat to blow a horn, On LaSalle and Rampart Street
The combo's playin' with a mambo beat
The Mardi Gras mambo, mambo, mambo....
Down in New Orleans!!!
*throws beads*
*gives best parade wave*
*blows kisses*
Hiya sugarplum!
Test scores not back...yet. must wait til Tuesday I guess.
*cha cha cha*
I'm sorry, sweetcheeks! I know you wanted to how you did. Well, maybe the delay is a good omen for you!
How was your day?
*huge hug and kiss*
"This time I'm walking to New Orleans
I'm walking to New Orleans....
I've got my suitcase in my hand
Now, ain't that a shame..."
FATS!!!
:D
ooops have a missed a mabo???
*mambo mambo mambo*
*with wendy*
*mamba mamba mamba*
EEEEEK SNAAAAAAAAAAAAAKE!!!
Snaaaaaaaaaaaaaake?????????
Nooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Save me, Popeye! Save me! From the big bad gator...
I mean SNAKE!
;)
Jambalaya, Crawfish pie, fillet gumbo
Son of gun we're gonna have big on the bayou!
Thanks sugarplum. My day's been okay, just taking it easy and downloading some more songs. right now I'm watching Behind The Music: Pantera.
*insert happy face here*
MAMBO!
*chika-chaka, chika-chaka, chika-chaka*
HEY!
Ohhh... Harry Connick, Jr. would, of course be, the son of former New Orleans District Attorney, Harry Connick, Sr.!
:)
I'm feeling the NOLA pride again!
Hallo again Amy!
And, for my Sweetcheeks
*drum roll*
The ONE, The Only, The Legendary
*drum roll gets lower*
from PANTERA ~~ on vocals PHILIP ANSELMO!!!!!!
*the crowd goes wild*
Hollow
:) and :( Dime
Amy!!!!!
*pounce tackle hug smooch*
I think I got lost tonight. I'm supposed to be elsewhere. Oooops!
What did you cook for me, Amy? I'm hungry!
;)
Thank you sugarplum! I love Hollow :D
And I heard about what happened with the Sentenced guitarist. Very sad :(
Goulash for everyone!
"He as hollow as I converse
I wish he'd waken from this curse
Hear my words before it's through
I want to come in after you..."
*sighs*
You're welcome, Sweetcheeks! Long live the legend of PANTERA!!!!
HORNS UP!
*steals whatever banana cake is left from Amy's kitchen*
Hehe
*waits for everyone to finish googling Goulash*
Is that veggie goulash, Amy? Or perhaps chicken? I do eat poultry!
Poor chickens. I know!
Sweetcheeks: It is so sad. God, he was only 35 and so damn talented. What a waste.
*sighs again*
Here here sugarplum, and that's why I love you ^__^
Which reminds me, I have to go look for my Pantera shirt. I wear it to sleep sometimes(I don't exactly wear normal PJ's lol)
oooh yum!!
Is it hungarian, Amy? I like hungarians!!!
;)
*hugs her sweetcheeks*
I love you too, Sweetcheeks!!!!
Amy: Exactly what am I eating?
*eyes plate (and Amy) warily*
Oh No! Not LEAR!!!!!!
*gives leftover goulash to the rabbit*
>_>
<_<
^_^
Ah phooey. They're showing the video footage of the shooting. That shit just sends shivers down my spine when I see it.
to the anon at 6:57 PM tonight:
that was a beautiful song. i listened to it on YouTube, and it made me cry.
here is a song that i like a lot. i hope it lends some comfort to you as it has to me.
Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
So if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'cause even if you're wrong
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
goodnight 6:57, goodnight blogbelieve
That goulash was delicious. Ahem.
^_^
Goodnight anon sweet dreams.
Goulash is not Lear, Wendy.
It's tomatoes and paste, crushed up with italian seasoning, mushrooms and green peppers. Then you simmer it with cooked ground beef, before tossing it with rigatoni noodles.
Nothing close to a lion in it.
That sounds delicious Amy.
So what's this about this lightsober battle going on?
Jerry Lee Lewis!!!
Goodness gracious great balls of fire!
Do ya'll think the Leto brothers will ever be in Louisiana's Music Hall of Fame? Hmmm....
Damn, I meant lightsaber, lol.
Well BC, they're only partially sober.
And the boys have two ForceFX Lightsabers, and they are busy beating the fuck right out of each other.
$150 a piece, and they're all mottled through with white patches.
O boi! OPJ I hope you know what you're doing.
Oh, good grief! I just compared Jared Leto with Jerry Lee Lewis, Fats Domino and Philip Anselmo!
Ohhh... the shame! I'm so sorry people. That's like comparing apples, oranges and lemons, ain't it?
Ooops!
*blushes*
hello, everyone.
J? Where????
Please allow me to clarify my last comment. I do like 30STM; but, let's face it, J Leto is no Jerry Lee Lewis, Fats Domino or Philip Anselmo.
But, WHO IS????!!!!
Come to think of it, J. Leto is no Steve Blaze.
I heart Steve Blaze and Lillian Axe. I do. I really do!
Hi TJ! Welcome back! I have missed you.
*huge hug*
I'm now going on a Lillian Axe hunt. I know, Elena. I KNOW!
Hallo Teej!!!
*SQUEEZE!*
hey there, wendy! :)
good luck on your hunt!
Amy, shame on them ^_^
You should be ashamed too sugarplum :p
Hey TJ
*chokes*
hi, amyran--
*gasp*
amyranth!
Haha!!!!
"Stevie's back there f*cking drinking some Crown"
Oh boy! Lillian Axe right after signing their record deal. Weren't they "heavenly"?
An eye for an eye, a heart for heart, that's the way that we play
Up in the clouds, where angels fly
You take my breath away
Your the "Dream Of A Lifetime"
Oh yeah!
hey bc. thanks for the comment on my blog. :)
On Heavenly Sword..
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