-Wicked Witch of the West, The Wizard of Oz
Once upon a fork in the road...
In the corner a ratty green sofa sits butted up against a water ring stained end table. There are at least four three inch burn holes in the snagged, stained fabric. Heavy, dark drapes cover the window. The time of day is a complete mystery to anyone who has spent any time here and time is all but spent.
The sofa, the room smells like piss and acid. Pizza boxes, broken plastic forks and unwanted, half-eaten food are surrounded by empty beer bottles and overfilled ash trays. A bent spoon sits on the coffee table.
Around the corner, the kitchen cupboards are bare, the fridge empty. It’s water and anti-acids for dinner; anything else would be a waste.
“Have you seen your family?”
“Well, you should. I know they miss you.”
The visit was brief and I was grateful to have had the opportunity, but for some reason I can’t help but be thankful for decisions I made long ago. I emerged almost unscathed, at least in that respect. I wish there was more I could do.
"Call me if you need anything."
In that dark room past, present and future all at once delivered upon us both, redemption.
"Yeah, I will."
p.s. it is round there aren't any sides.
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me!
FUCK YOU ERGO!!!!!!!!
haha sorry babe you know i don't mean it!
oh YES!!!!!!!
*Happy dance while singing "I am the champion my frieeeeeends..."*
all at 4.43!!!
you are the fuckin star at that though ergo!!
i only do it when i am alone and have a 7 comment lead up!!
I take it in the spirit it is given FASC
lol
XD
holy cow they were too!!
that is amazing!
that was funny ergo!!
haha i was giggling then reading back....
fuck me fuck me!!
there were 7 comments all at 4:43!
4:43 shall be dubbed "The Mad Minute"
lol
Oh fuck, me, fuck, me, fuck, me, fuck you ergo!
OK now that that's over and I'm not in fear of my life for getitng in your way.
Congrats winner, comiserations non winner. can't say loser as it is not politically correct anymore.
Fuck that!
Loser, loser loser. hee hee!
haha!
the mad minute indeed!
that was fun ergo!
what?? is my life that dull?
indeed it is!
have a good day at work ergo! glad your contract is coming to an end.
gotta go now lovelies!
have a great evening/day etc etc timezones and all.
mayo and SS *hugs*
love you too miss T!!!!!
Hi guyz!
Totally off-topic, but I figured out the capital letters. If you want the first letter of your BLUE name to be upper-case, then change it to upper-case in your 'About Me' section. If you want it to be lower case, change it lower-case.
If you're an anon, I don't think you can change anything... sorry!
Probably someone figured this out already, so I'll find some other people to annoy. ^_~ Laterz!
Nighty night FASC. Take care sweetie.
Hi and bye Sis M. see you later sweetie.
bye fasc sweet dreams and looking forward to a rematch sometime
Hi sisM
-ergo
oh hey it does!
that never worked before, it always went to lower case regardless
Goodnight faraway. Hi and bye sister M
Hiya Does It Work Here? Sweetie.
So BC, do thighs do it for you too?
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I don't know about the thighs Miss T. I tend to peek at the eyes and the butt ^_^
Ooooooo you're a butt girl BC? I should've known, you naughty thing hahaha!
Hello everyone
Haha, sometimes Miss T, but I like the eyes the most. The whole 'windows into the soul' sort of thing ^_^
Hi there elena.
Hey BC
Oh my name looks funny to me.
Hiya Elena sweetie, how are you?
You lie BC, you are all for the butt hahahahahaha ^_^
hello elena!
and you're welcome for last night
I must be off to work
bye all!
wish me an easy day!!
♥xx♥
Ah yes...that room can be appealing, can't it? So much self-destruction that it almost seems a comfort to ease into the complacency of not really giving a fuck. Apathy fit for a punctuated depressive.
Although, I have been known to talk to myself this was a two party conversation. But, that is still not limiting to the fact that occaissionally I speak and no one seems to hear, except myself.
The stick is redemption. How could I possibly find it anywhere but within myself?
Hi MissT. I'm at work right now and kinda bored. How are you?
Wishing you a good day, Ergo!!!!
hi Mayo
keep at it then,
it'll be worth it not to give up
and look to yourself
we are, in the end, the only ones we can truly rely on
take care
xx
Have a good day Ergo. See you later.
I'm good thank Elena. Not up to much. Just hanging here and looking forward to Friday.
Have you got much longer at work?
well you just have to keep on speaking...
I hate people. :)
Hi everyone.
Anon, sometimes you have to yell to be heard. I don't know, I guess on a blog that means allcaps or exclamation points. ;D Commas are good too, though.
But you are right: redemption, as with everything else, is in yourself.
You're making me think of Vincent Valentine with the whole redemption thing. ;D
SIS MIDNITE! FO' REALZ!
Hi anon, I hope you do find the peace and answers you are searching within.
I myself find that my life is such a fuck up, I'm in no real position to offer advice to anyone. How can I when I can't even seem to help myself.
Well, right now I am yelling but it's not working. WTF do I do then?
Huh.
For "anon" heheh... Redemption.
I guess that song and Gackt himself is kind of annoying to some people. I'm not a huge fan of him actually, but I found the song fitting and I am such a geek, sorry.
Hiya smoke,
Hiya K,
How are you girls today?
"I speak and no one seems to hear, except myself"
Yeah well, really how often is the true. For me, it's pretty much the norm. It's okay though. I hear myself, and yeah, I do have to make myself listen sometimes but it's my hope that what's deep inside comes forth and I hear it.
Hiya Smokles! And Hey Misty. I as trolling around on your facebook before. ^_^ You definitely need more pictures of yourself up in there.
Have a good day Ergo. Hey smokie. Miss T, okay, some of that is true, but I'd only look if it's nice and firm ^_~
Hi everyone.
Well, it's like this. Someone made the comment this morning that you'd better be prepared to make good on your offer of helping someone. Okay, well, when is enough really enough? When do you say, "Ya know? I can't really help you. I've tried and it's just not working."
How do you do that? Can you do that?
LMFAO BC. I knew it all along hahaha!
Oh man K, my facebook is crap. It should be my new years resolution to put more pics on facebook and myspazz.
Alright then, well I'll see you guys later!
Smoke, that is too right. Sometimes you just run out of steam and you can't give anymore. I'll never forget what Layne's Mom said before he died; she said that she'd seen an eagle trying to hold onto a fish in a fast-moving stream (she lived where there was all this crazy wildlife) and the eagle had to let go otherwise it would have drowned. She saw that as a metaphor for her and her son and so she said she knew she had to let him drown because it was a matter of self preservation.
I can't imagine having to do that.
"Anon," I wonder what it is you did, or think you did, that you feel you need to redeem yourself. I know it's a personal question and so I won't ask, but I do wonder.
Later, Princess!
Elena, I know what you mean; I felt like that at The Bad Place for so long. ;D I wonder if that's why many of us come here, right? To be heard.
Later tater princess.
You all right, Mayo?
Okay, I'm gonna go take a nice warm shower, because it's just as cold as a witch's tit here.
*checks*
Yup, it is.
I'll be back in a bit.
Well sometimes I come here to be heard but it's so much more than that. I come here because when I'm here I don't feel alone. Sometimes I can just sit and read without speaking and still feel a part of it all.
Yes I do like to be heard but more than that I like to be understood. Here I've found people that for the most part "get" me. That's something really lacking in my "real" life.
It's strange but I've found that when I speak here it's from the heart. I'm not afraid to say what I am feeling. For years I just simply talked to myself (and yeah I got some strange looks). But this place lets me talk and while I might still get strange looks at least I can't see them. LOL
Anon, if you feel that no one hears you when you speak, have you tried writing a letter to the person you speak of?
It's harder for them to ignore the words if they are right in front of them.
See you later K.
Here I've found people that for the most part "get" me. That's something really lacking in my "real" life.
That's great Elena.
Let me offer you this in response to your non-question:
Without being specific, I may not have been completely honest. And, without much forethought, I may have compromised the values of those who are close to me.
You know, the usual...deceit mixed with the occaisional malicious intent followed by a spiteful array of ignorance.
That'll do it.
The stick is redemption. How could I possibly find it anywhere but within myself?
Well yeah, that's true. If you don't embrace it then it's worth nothing. It means nothing.
But anon, once you acknowledge your short comings, you can work on being better next time.
Wow anon, you sound human. You seem to be saying you've made mistakes but the thing is you realize it. You sound as if you feel bad about it. So if that's true then fix it. Make right what you've messed up. In just admitting your mistakes you're half way there. You can do it.
It seams that the job is never done.
But, at least it's steady.
The work, that is.
Ignorance or arrogance?
Ignorance or arrogance?
It's only arrogance if you hurt them purposely and didn't care.
I'm sure you didn't do it knowing up front it would hurt them.
Apparently Mayo doesn't know how to spell "occasional". Twice.
or 'seems'
Hi Guys,
How are you all doing?
Occasionally ocassionaly will fuck me up too. Who cares?
Anonymous said...
It seams that the job is never done.
But, at least it's steady.
The work, that is.
LOL, a punctuated depressive indeed. (who can't spell for shit)
Hiya solly, how are you sweetie?
I was comment 666 hahahaha (evil laugh).
Are you sure you aren't 15 years old?
'seams' and 'occaisional'? You people really believe this is an adult?
Hey sdock
Good to see you.
Hi Elena,
How are ya?
I'm beginning to think this is just a tween that has a writer for a dad or something LOL
iawtc
I'm okay but glaring at evil customers right now. Wonder if I could throw them out? I bet I could. I must ponder this.
MissT,
I'm good, how are you?
Elena,
I'm betting you could.
I'm back and toasty warm.
Elena, I used to feel very much the same way about this place, but not so much anymore. That's certainly no one's fault but the people who have gone out of their way to make it unsafe.
I have some things going on currently that I want so badly to say, "Okay you guys, here's the deal" and get some opinions and such, but I no longer can. It's pretty sad.
Mayo, I'm sorry that you feel bad, but then I'm not sorry, if you get me. If you did something that you feel is wrong, but you feel bad about it, that just makes you human, like Elena said.
I don't pitpat with you or with anyone, you know that, right? But since I--we, really--have no real context and all to figure out just what's going on (and that's cool; see: privacy,) then all I can offer you is this:
Is it as bad as you think it is? We all do things we regret, and I know that I have a tendency to blow things out of proportion out of guilt. I'll hang onto something for months and finally when it all comes out, the person in question will say, "Oh, that? That was no big deal."
I hope it's the same case for you. But if not, then you're a big boy and you'll do the right thing, which is to make amends and learn, and be a better man for it.
Which I'm sure you already know.
I'm good thanks solly.
Elena, throw them out hahahahah (more evil laughing).
Nope, just drunk.
Seriously, that is why I pay those people who check my shit (more than occasionally).
mayo fucked up. just wait for him/her to pretend it was an 'imposter' so he/she can try and save face.
Mayo is to commas as Jules is to colons.
The punctuation, of course. Not the lower intestine. The day I start throwing viscera all over the blog is the day anons can rightly tell me to GTFO.
O_o
Nope, I'm pretty sure you're just a kid. It took you 10 minutes to think of that excuse?
Mayo,
I just really don't know what to say tonight.
It seems I don't have the answers or the questions.
Drunk? Oh dear oh dear oh dear...
Hi there solly and various anons.
Seriously, are you guys bugging over spelling? Shoots, even I spell things wrong sometimes, and you all know that I'm pretty much perfect.
I kid, I kid.
Mayo is to commas as Jules is to colons as Solly is to "fucks"!
Bwahahahah!
Okay, not the same, but still...
spellcheck is free
Oh my Solly, none of us has the answers. We just bibble and babble to Mayo and hope he at least smiles and nods. ;D
There are no answers outside of oneself, I suppose.
Sorry, I think someone who is intelligent enough to get paid to write would know the difference between 'seams' and 'seems'.
Okay anon put down the bottle and back away...just messin' with ya.
Please spell some more things wrong. It makes me feel better cause I'm such a poor speller myself.
I'm not capitalizing my name either. It just looks weird. I don't think I deserve a capital S.
Spelling schmelling. Who cares? I am 'slaw' after all. O_o
God, I wanna punch something tonight. Any volunteers?
but spelling something wrong twice indicates you don't know how to spell the word, not that you are drunk.
Mayo,
How can we help? Can we help?
It's hard for me to type fast with my hand in my pants.
That, and maybe I am making out my Christmas list.
Hi, drunk Anon! Yes, I agree, just put down the bottle...
So's I can pick it up!
Smoke,
Punch Da Rake in the back of da head.
once is a typo, twice you are borderline illiterate
"but spelling something wrong twice indicates you don't know how to spell the word, not that you are drunk."
Exactly. This isn't the first time too. This is just a kid.
Dude,
Am I on the list? I better be. You meffer.
I actually feel a little bit disappointed
God, I wanna punch something tonight. Any volunteers?
*hides behind spelling anon*
Making a list and checking it twice....
Uh, you trying to figure out who's naughty or nice?
Solly,
He already has a brain injury. That might not be such a good idea. In the stomach perhaps? Hmmm....
Um, no, not in the stomach...
A little lower.
Going to eat dinner now...
Bye, drunk anon!
Hi again smoke, K and Mya.
How are you guys?
honestly you people. even people with college degrees fuck their spelling up
Seriously though, are you okay? Don't make me punch you, too.
Solly,
That might just do the trick.
Hiya MissT!
Mayo has SMAWE POESE.
Yeah anon. You guys have seen all my spelling mistakes.
I type too fast and can't be arsed to check it through. Just lazy I suppose haha!
Smaw Poese, it's a silent killer of language.
maybe they need a punch...make it a good one smoke
OMG!!! He does! Bwahahaha!
You iz part of the Smaw Poese Club, Mayo. You shoulda been there that night. Priceless, I tell you.
Mayo's not putting us on his list, he's just making a list of the prezzies he wants.
Stop being drunk; that's not cool. stop it or you won't get My Little Pony.
*peeks over Mayo's shoulder*
You should defintely get 2 of those. Yeahhhhhhh! Oh and strike number 15 off you list. Those suck.
Last year you were giddy with the holiday season. WTF, this year you are giddy with beer or whatever?
Who needs alcohol when you have us? We are just as much of a mind-screw as any chemical compound.
Jules,
Really? I'm not on the list?
Well, that's just shitty. Shitty, Mayo! >.<
*scratches Mayo's name off of Christmas list*
*sticks tongue out at Mayo*
There!
Kapunua said...
Who needs alcohol when you have us? We are just as much of a mind-screw as any chemical compound.
Ain't we though?
Solly is right about 15. It does suck.
Oh, and if you are really going to ask for 6, then make sure you get the added attachments.
Then, once you're done, figure out what you're going to buy us.
I found an actual Alex Krycek action figure on Amazon last night, Mayo. It was about $900. That's my subtle little hint.
Seriously, be okay. Or you'll make me mad.
Can I have a new body for crimbo? I'm bored of this one.
Hi and bye mya
Ha, MissT!
Wake up, Mayo! Wake up!
seriously? there's an Alex doll?
Misty, you know you only want David Beckham's one.
Mayo, come back in here.
I want Killers tickets and an ipod.
Don't laugh, I still own a walkman.
I kick it old school.
Mayo,
Are you still here?
Oh, 6:37, there honestly is! And it's a pretty good one, too.
all i want for Christmas is my two front teeth.
ANon, look! And he's possessed, too.
AND he has a prosthetic arm. Which seems kind of redundant since he himself is made of plastics, but whatever.
I just want an end to world hunger and peace. That's it.
*smiles*
*does Miss America wave*
*blows kiss to Mayo*
*adjusts tiara*
Okay, seriously? I want some BLACK BOOTS! Size 5. :)
Misty, you know you only want David Beckham's one.
Rumbled.
Okay wait. I want peace. Not an end to it. Eff it.
You know what I mean. Maybe.
SHUT UP! >.<
Do come back here Mayo. You know we get like biddies when you come in upset and whatnot and we know we're kind of useless to help or whatever. I know we can't get you whatever it is you need but, still. If you've got an ass I'll kick it.
AIM, anyone?
Mayo? Feel free to join.
What the fuck is my name again?
sollydock
Ditto to what Jules said.
I want the worlds biggest pizza lowered down to my house by hellicopter.
Bwahhaah, Smoke wants to end peace.
I love it!
very cute Kapunua!
Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs. That's what your request reminded me of, Misty. That was my favorite childhood book.
AIM: Kapunua
Perhaps it is presumptuous of us to try to help you Mayo, or offer you words or ass-kickings or any of that stuff. Surely that is the job of your real friends and family in meatspace, though I do understand the need to come here and vent, too.
6:43, don't I know it! ^_^
Anon
Hope you're okay. We're here for you if you need us. Take Care.
AIM: DenialTwist20
STFU, Solly!
Some random person just went into our AIM chat. O_O
TF.
I want the worlds biggest pizza lowered down to my house by hellicopter.
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Me too Miss T! Maybe we can share that dream together ^_^
sighs
It's a good dream isn't it BC. I'm happy to share it with you.
meatspace...very apt!!!
"Meatspace" cracks me up. ;)
Seriously, there is a stranger in the room with us! We can't possibly talk about our black ops with this person hanging around!
THE OWLS FLY AT MIDNIGHT!
Some random person just walked into my book store. Damn it I close in 8 minutes they better shop fast. I'm so ready to lock the door.
Lay where you're laying
Don't make a sound
I know they're watching
They're watching
All the commotion
The killing of pain
Has people talking
Talking
You
Your sex is on fire
Dark of the alley
The breaking of day
Head while I'm driving
I'm driving
Soft lips are open
Them knuckles is pale
Feels like you're dying
Your dying
You
Your sex is on fire
And so
With what could transpire
Hot as a fever
Rattling bones
I could just taste it
Taste it
But it's not forever
But it's just tonight
Oh we're still the greatest
The greatest
The greatest
You
Your sex is on fire
You
Your sex is on fire
And so
With what could transpire
And you
Your sex is on fire
And so
With what could transpire
That's some freaky ass shit. He won't say anything. I think he's dead.
O_O
MissT,
Come baaaaaaaaaaaack!
The more things change
The more they stay the same
Ummm, okay. He's not dead.
got this feeling like a train's running through my head
Turned on my radio to the same old song
Some big mouth talking trying to tell us where the world went wrong
But all this talk of peace and love
It's only for the news
Cause everytime you trust someone
You end up getting screwed
The more things change
The more they stay the same
Everyone's your brother till you turn the other way
The more things change
The more they stay the same
All we need's a miracle to take us all away from the pain
Came to this morning I was feeling mighty used
Picked up the telephone but all I got's a major attitude
Turned on the TV to the same old news
Everybody thinks they got the answer to the same old blues
and?
Your sex is on fire
O_O
Is it a burning sensation when you pee? There's medicine for that.
STRANGERS ARE COMING INTO OUR ROOM!
so...what do ya need anon? huh?
monkeypuff2n4evr
facethejam
irishfightingboy
mrcontrarious
Misty, I hear your sleigh bells. Where the beef are you?
We're back in hell tonight aren't we?
clamsl
clams?
On saison en enfer?
LOL, no 7:02, someone with the name clamsl just came into our room.
I'm kinda liking the name MonkeyPuff for some reason. Has a nice ring to it.
Sdock, Smoke, Kapu
if you announce your screennames on a public site
you have to expect random people to show up.
Just sayin'.
Une saison en enfer for godsakes.
I spelled something wrong. I must be 15.
must be Kapunua ^_^
what do you need 6:59?
We announced our names but not the name of the chat room.
Besides which, even if it was possible for them to find our room name, that would mean that all these people were lurking here. Do you think that's the case?
careful...they might hear you
Yeah, this dude didn't know he was even in there.
Princess, did one of them actually say something? If they did, I missed it!
my screenname is
talk2meworld911emergency4tru
look for me
i'll enter the chatroom with the rest of the randoms
I IM'd the irish boy dude and he was like, "Ummm, hi. Who are you?"
O_O
I told him he was in our room and he was like, "What? How?"
He was nice. :)
Besides which, even if it was possible for them to find our room name, that would mean that all these people were lurking here. Do you think that's the case?
probably is
Weird.
yep, hell
there are lots and lots of prying eyes here
Will you really 7:07? That'd be neat! Give it a whirl.
careful...they might hear you
November 20, 2008 7:05 PM
or see you.
you forgot to take the invisible pill didn't you.
someone sounds like they need some tlc
sure are 7:10.
What are the eyes and ears trying to see and hear?
I'm back. Major page freezing.
talk2meworld911emergency4tru we are waiting for ya. Are you still about?
Anonymous said...
someone sounds like they need some tlc
November 20, 2008 7:11 PM
everybody needs some tlc sometime.
"fuck it" @ 6:53, have you calmed down?
"Fuck it!"
I threaten it at least once a day.
Thin Layer Chromatography?
Like at ANALTECH?
forget the pill, drink the potion.
elena sounds like the blue pill option was taken
talk2meworld911emergency4 hooked up with truirishfightingboy.
they're not doing much talking.
Can we watch?
O_O
forget the pill, drink the potion.
the potion. that's where i went wrong. damn pills never work as good as the potion.
THiS HAPPENS BECAUSE I CHOOSE IT TO HAPPEN
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