I arrived suddenly, and knew for certain that I was in the best place. It was warm and calm and I stood quietly in the moment, waiting for my turn. But, I quickly realized I was alone. Figuring my wait would be short; I let out a breath releasing the smoke from my lungs and viewed my new environment. All around me the black tar covered ground seemed endless, as if I stood in the parking lot for the world’s demise. Its emptiness ran undisturbed to the limits of my sight, and I thought, “When does it all get here?” Then, as I dropped my spent cigarette to the ground, intending to snub it out with the toe of my boot, something caught my eye.
At the hem of my faded, old black shirt was a white thread and without reflection I pulled it. As I pulled, it continued to reveal itself. So I continued to pull, believing that my shirt would soon unravel. But instead, my shirt remained intact while the string started to wind around itself, twining, until it became as thick as a hangman’s rope. With both my hands I began to work against gravity to slow it down, but it quickly stole my grip allowing the rope to spill out, coiling at my feet. When it stopped its fall, the weight of it almost pulled me over and I realized it must be connected to me. I pulled up my shirt and discovered it cleanly attached to the center of my chest.
Then I noticed smoke coming up from the center of the pile and realized the rope had coiled itself around my still lit cigarette. I frantically began to kick at the rope, fearing that it would fuse its way to my heart, igniting it. My success gave way to alarm as I heard from behind me the approaching sound of children’s laughter. When I turned, they were upon me. Several of them grabbed the rope and ran past me. As I watched the rope begin to take off I grabbed for it, but it slipped in my hand. When it disconnected from my chest I fell to the ground and grabbed for its end, but it trailed off behind them, leaving an inky trace.
I remained on my knees. A dull pain echoed in my chest as I watched the children huddle together holding hands to ears, whispering. Several of them looked over at me, but quickly returned to their attention to the group. I felt like an idiot. Oddly, they seemed unfazed by my presence and began to jump rope, their laughter in time with its swooshing rhythm. So, I asked them “Don’t you know you’re playing with the end of me?” My reply came in the most unexpected way, as the smallest of all the children approached me with the seeping end of the rope, smiled and said, “It’s your turn.”
p.s. I’m always fucking late.
Monday, October 27, 2008
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«Oldest ‹Older 3201 – 3400 of 4669 Newer› Newest»Surprise Kapu. You never called me an idiot. You have called others that. You've called others stupid, dense, bitch, dumbass, lazy, illiterate
to name a few.
Whenever you are losing an argument or can't come up with a mature defense of your opinion
you resort to namecalling.
The one I found the most offensive is when you told another anonymous to crawl back inside your mother's womb and have yourself aborted.
That was probably some poor teenager who had no idea how to respond to you. Who never imagined that a grown woman would say something so cruel and malicious to them.
She can talk to whoever she wants, what right do you have to tell her what to do. btw I thought you said you always skipped all of OPs posts huh. what a liar. you could have just ignored anything she said. but instead you had to write on her blog which you knew would get copied back here. you think that is putting a stop to the drama? More like starting.
Smoke said...
OMG. OMFG.
Okay, J:
I am going to say it here because you brought it here. So you are pointing fingers at the unicorn now, eh? Well, you and I both know it was not PPU. They have not been here and they haven't been around in a long time so leave my friend the fuck alone. Second, regarding the email thing. Am I the only one that understands the fact that you have to recieve an email from someone to get their info back? You can click on Sdock's email link all day long but it's only going to take you to compose a new message and populate the address field to show her email. Am I right? I think so.
That was a shitty thing for you to do last night, J. Not only did you post Jules' info but you posted somebody else's info. WITHOUT THEIR FUCKING PERMISSION. Jesus.
November 3, 2008 4:55 PM
NO ACTUALLY IT WAS FIMBLE STAR WHO POSTED IT HERE TO BEGIN WITH.
Nope, idiot: I said that to someone who called me a dog killer the day after my dog had died. As for the rest, wow, no idea what you're talking about.
Also, I would never release your information from my blog. Never. You rely on my good grace; it's a good thing your faith in it is well placed.
Grazie Principesa. ^_^ Your words do mean the world. :D
No Im not the one you called an idiot that time you just calledme it today. You automatically assume people only stand up and say its wrong when it happens t them themselves. Its this thing called compassion. You may be veyr selfish and be like that when it happens to you but Im not.
Wtf are you talking about Smoke? You are insane. No one said anything about your precious unicorn so why do you keep accusing J of bringing that up?? Still smarting about getting caught in a lie making up that fake post that OPJ never wrote?
did you hear Robert Downey Jr set his crotch on fire?
You've only called one person an idiot. Come on Kapu. We've all seen you do it time and again. Don't make some of the watchers go through all the old posts and find everytime you've insulted someone
without provocation.
That's right. You do no wrong. You never have. No blame can lay with you.
Smoke is a little child. She could have been smart and not made things worse by posting here, but apparently two wrongs make a right. Now she just looks like a tool. All of you are nuts.
Ergo, is it okay? Does he need me to blow it out for him?
And I believe the person who originally gave out SDock's personal info...was the Unicorn.
That's what the fuck I'm talking about. Read it again.
LOL! Okay, Anon.
TS youre a fucking dumbass because to you your friends can do no wrong. It is ok for your friends to call everyone bitches. I bet if they called a girl a cunt you would back them and come up with some excuse that does not make sense just because they are your friends but if anyone eelse does it ITS WRONG WOW
Wow, i wasn't even here and you called me a fucking dumbass.But i am not going to run away and cry seeing that i don't know you or care. I will stand up for my friends as i'm sure you will do the same. I have been signed in all day, so don't be saying that that anon was me.How do i know it wasn't you, seeing as you are not signed in yourself.You say kapunua calls people names , yet you do too.Whatever!
Kapunua said...
Nope, idiot: I said that to someone who called me a dog killer the day after my dog had died. As for the rest, wow, no idea what you're talking about.
No idea. Are you serious? You can't be.
Sdock chose to have her real name in her email when she sent it to the OPS just like Kapu chose to not use an anonymous page when she went to J's page. They brought this on themselves.
Anonymous said...
Sdock chose to have her real name in her email when she sent it to the OPS just like Kapu chose to not use an anonymous page when she went to J's page. They brought this on themselves.
November 3, 2008 5:07 PM
I agree
Lol, Ergo!!!
Ergo, I wish you luck today! Hopefully the 10th graders won't out and out cannibalize you. :) And hi Smoke, K, anons, frothed and non. I got a Dyson vacuum today, so all is right with my world, I am floating about on a cloud of happy cyclonic cleaning.
Well I'm assuming J knows what she's talking about and I believe her over the Unicorn any day. Sdock's info was already out there and Kapu's IP and town were already open for anyone with a tracker to see.
Hiya Carrie!
Anonymous said...
Sdock chose to have her real name in her email when she sent it to the OPS just like Kapu chose to not use an anonymous page when she went to J's page. They brought this on themselves.
November 3, 2008 5:07 PM
I agree
November 3, 2008 5:08 PM
No, they are not the one's that posted that shit....someone else did that for them.
jesus guys!!
fuck that's it!
i hate this shit.
ergo you are funny though.
i could not NOT comment but now i dunno what to say other than what i said earlier.
i am just a bit sad and disappointed.
still poorly and still knackered.
and sad at all this.
night guys, mayo and SS.
I'm sad too FASC and I'm sorry you're still ill.
Hey Carrie and TS. :)
Hey Andrea, and TS, and hi and bye FASC, I share you snotty coughing up crud, fun, isn't it?
5:07
No. It's always the other person's fault. Can't you see that?
If you can't you must be a bully out to destroy my life.
If you don't see things the way I see them with me
you're an idiot. Too dense to talk to. Not worth my time.
Sdock chose to have her real name in her email when she sent it to the OPS just like Kapu chose to not use an anonymous page when she went to J's page. They brought this on themselves.
They are guilty only of misplacing their trust in J. J abused that trust. Your ignorant attitude disgusts me.
I'm sorry, FASC. I'm sorry you are still sick and I hate this shit, too. Why? Because it never had to be this way.
Ok, i gotta go to town...i don't want to be called a fucking dumbass while i'm gone. Wait until i get back to call me that. :)
Im not saying they posted it themselves Im saying that was a risk they were willing to take and now they have to pay the consequences
Kapu's IP and town were already open for anyone with a tracker to see.
and yet nobody but J was low enough to post that information on the internet.
thanks carrie and fasc I will hopefully return with all limbs firmly attached and no chew marks.
..you never know they may be lovely *holds onto hope*
and we have a Melbourne Cup Day lunch too, seeing as it's the day of the big horse race that "stops a nation"
playing Sherlock Holmes is a dangerous thing with a really lit pipe
bye xx
Gah, now I had Ruby Don't Take Your Love to Town suddenly jump into my head. It's scary up in my brainz.
Anonymous said...
Kapu's IP and town were already open for anyone with a tracker to see.
and yet nobody but J was low enough to post that information on the internet.
November 3, 2008 5:14 PM
She doesnt have a problem with it, she is only looking for excuses to hate on j
Anonymous said...
Im not saying they posted it themselves Im saying that was a risk they were willing to take and now they have to pay the consequences
I'm sure they did not perceive J to be a risk. How wrong they were.
5:08
No. 5:07 is wrong.
I am not responsible for my own choices, decisions or actions. Apparently nobody is.
End of the story.
"Im not saying they posted it themselves Im saying that was a risk they were willing to take and now they have to pay the consequences"
Is J paying the consequences for going to Kapu's blog?
ok well j never posted sdock10's info i dont know how that happened, she only did k.
Well, if he ever lights it on fire again I would gladly offer my services.
whoooooooooo
Anonymous said...
"Im not saying they posted it themselves Im saying that was a risk they were willing to take and now they have to pay the consequences"
Is J paying the consequences for going to Kapu's blog?
November 3, 2008 5:16 PM
No shes not but I guess she would not have a prob with kapu doing that bc she knew the risk when she went there
It was an email to the OPS that contained Sdock's real first and last name. How else would it get out?
Bwahaha. Poor RDJ!
RDJ having a hot crotch, poor thing! I think it's funny that former hotty Jude Law gets the second banana gig on this film.
She doesnt have a problem with it, she is only looking for excuses to hate on j
Whether or not she has a problem with it doesn't change my point of view. It was wrong. I would like to think J realizes this and regrets posting the information.
Anon, there is no "risk" in going to my blog, as I would never even think of releasing that information. That's not what trackers are for. They are to satisfy one's own curiosity or, in my case, track keyword searches which I've wanted to be able to do for years but never knew how. They are not, in my opinion, ever to be used to make someone's information public.
I ♥ Jude Law. But only if he's all scruffy with long hair like in Cold Mountain. :)
In fact many sites you go to actually specify that their trackers are never used for such a thing and that personal information will never be given out to a third party.
I guess I kinda took that for granted.
Yeah, his hair these days, it is lacking a bit. :)
Anonymous said...
Whether or not she has a problem with it doesn't change my point of view. It was wrong. I would like to think J realizes this and regrets posting the information.
November 3, 2008 5:19 PM
even if she did do you think that will make you stop? no!
I am sad and disappointed that Emotional Intelligence is practically non existant on this blog. You would be hard pushed to find much evidence, with the exception of a minute minority, over the past few months.
It's very interesting to observe how some people choose what to be outraged by and totally ignore obvious shockers.
This has been real fun guys, but I have to get ready to go. It's our first night in the new school. ^_^
Later!
I think it says a lot about Kapunua's character that she has not responded in kind.
Have fun, Jules!
Today's specials
Naiveity, falsehoods, half truths, casting blame, denials, assumptions, accusations and more name calling
No dessert. We are out of humble pie.
I read a book a few months ago about Emotional Intelligence. It was a good read.
Bye K, hope your session is fun and sweaty.
And what do you consider the "Shocker" anon??
Anonymous said...
I think it says a lot about Kapunua's character that she has not responded in kind.
November 3, 2008 5:24 PM
No, not really
I think you've missed alot 5:24.
funny how it all stops when she leaves. I hope she understands that.
I think it says a lot about Kapunua's character that she has not responded in kind.
November 3, 2008 5:24 PM
No, not really
How so? She maintained the moral high ground by not stooping to J's level and posting her information. Why? Because posting someone's information without their permission is wrong.
If she goes, we will mostly leave her and the blog alone.
What stopped? The blog? I'm more than willing to chat y'all up until I have to go put some rice on for dinner.
funny how it all stops when she leaves. I hope she understands that.
You're kidding, right?
When the porchies left for a while the anons just copied and pasted everything they said here.
Really.
Why did J post Kapunua's information? What was her intention?
I have no idea, Anon.
Second of all, Fimble Star, yes, you guessed correctly. The info you have about emails is faulty, though. The receiver and the sender both see whatever name is registered for the email address associated with their blog. Check it out if you like. And I believe the person who originally gave out SDock's personal info...was the Unicorn. At DM. Full name, home address, work address, possibly phone numbers, I don't remember. That was last year, I believe.
If you have something to say to me, Fimble, say it to my face, on my blog, or in an email.
First of all, thank you for sayi my name, it is a good change from, her, it, them.
so, i guessed correctly, well thats shocking because i have never seen your isp, nor do i want to. If i did have it though, i wouldnt be posting it on a blog, now thats just wrong in my book. Maybe my book is last season though?
Solly's name? First time i ever saw it was under anon name and the anon was copying and pasting an email that was sent between both you and solly. That comment also told us, the readers of the blog, that they were in fact a blue but felt tat the email should be read by all so they placed it in mayos. Oh and mayo then deleted it because even he felt that it was wrong.
so question for all? if jules is wrong for putting her details out on the internet according to the fix, then is J wrong because she placed 2 other peoples information out in the blog?
anyway, whatever. I had this to say to you but i will not go to your blog or your email. first of all your blog for obvious reasons. oh and your email? well i emailed that address around a month ago, it was in fact for your friend but it was the only one i had. i was thanking your friend for the support she gave to my friend, you know, being nice, and holding out a branch buti wasnt shocked because i got fuck all back.
so J, thats writing it out on a keyboard and letting it show up on a screen so that you can see it, sorry i couldnt say it to your face, i dont know you in real life and all.
whatevers, i will catch up in the morning, see what shit happenes and if anything else gets posted, maybe we can find out if jules had a poo today, now wouldnt that be an interesting find.
it is 10.45 here, i am going to bed.
good night
Goodnight Fim. I bet K did have a poo, because she was eating quinoa and seaweed last night, just sayin.'
But I got singled out. And then Amy got singled out. (Just in case you forgot, Fimble, L and I, Amy, LoveMan, Alie, Andrea, Mya, possibly the Pope, and yes, even MAYO by you yourself, were all accused of getting her fired.)
if i am getting this right, when have i ever accused anyone by name of getting jules fired? seriously, please let me know what i have supposed to have done now, cos this is freaking hilarious it could all be in a bloody book.
to quote some anons,
EXAMPLES?
NO ACTUALLY IT WAS FIMBLE STAR WHO POSTED IT HERE TO BEGIN WITH.
November 3, 2008 4:58 PM
What did i post here to begin with?
hey carrie, sorry cant stay just had to write my comments. anyhoot, i think she did too :)
I will shoot you an email ok, need a good catch up been a long time
xxx
Fimmy how in the hell are you? I lol at the poo remark!
Carrie said...
Goodnight Fim. I bet K did have a poo, because she was eating quinoa and seaweed last night, just sayin
Bwahahaha! ^_^
Fimmy --> ♥
I gotta go, blog peeps, and put the rice on. White, non fibery rice, because I tried to make quinoa once and my hubby thought I was trying to poison him. I like the more grainy grains like quinoa which tastes kinda nutty, but it does need a lot of seasoning. Night all, go vote tomorrow Americans!
Bwahaha! Have fun with the rice, Carrie! Night! :)
Hello Mayo, SS, Ergo, Sweetcheeks .... anyone else around!
I am going to STOOP to someone else's level right now.
I rarely do that. I'm so high above everyone else. It hurts my knees when I stoop so low.
;)
But, this is a special occasion. I will endure the pain of stooping to, my friend, Mya's level to encourage my fellow Americans to VOTE tomorrow!!!
In the words of a wise and wonderful artist (whom I have even more respect for now):
"I'm not going to tell you WHO to vote for, that's your decision. I am going to ask you to vote. No matter who you support or why you support them. Just get out there and vote. Let your voice be heard."
Well, he said something like that. The first line IS completely accurate. I didn't write it down so I ad~libbed a little!
That is all. My knees cannot take the stooping any longer.
;P
Enjoy the evening, everyone!
Ergo: Good luck, good luck, good luck and *smoooooooooch*
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ, J, L, Amy, Entropy, CTV, MissT, DW, Martha, SIM and DG!
Umm....Carrie, can you help me up?
;)
*blows kisses to blog believe*
OPJ would you give out SS's personal details if he visited your blog too?
Hey, I'm still down here! Anyone?
Awww shucks. I done killed Mayo's blog (sorry Mayo) and I'm stuck!
Thank goodness Mayo has such comfy carpet. I think I'll just take a nice nap. I could use one!
6:28 ~ Would you help me up? I would much prefer napping in bed.
Rise
So much pain we
Dont know how to be but angry
Feel infected like weve got gangrene
Please dont let anybody try to change me
Me
Just me
In the middle of a sea full of faces
Full of faces
Some laugh some salivate
Whats in your alleyway
Recycling bins or bullet cases
Its not equal
Its not fair
Were different people
But were not scared
We aint never scared
To pave a new path
Make a new street
Build a new bridge
Say can you see by the dawns early light
Free slaves running
Songs words werent right
Now a new days coming
The few stay stunning while the many are handsome
Your soul is alive but they want it for ransom
The base drumming is the anthem
We step to the heartbeats of our granddaughters and grandsons
And
Rise together we
Lost hope and found need
Grounded by our surroundings
Did the walls scream universities
Or you and i verse the tees
React automatic and we burst when squeezed
And make 9-11 each emergency
Urgency amber to red like the turning leaves
Oh please let the hurting cease
Don't let apathy police the populace
We will march across
Those stereotypes that were marked for us
The answers obvious
We switch the consonants
Change the sword to words and lift continents
If you believe in redemption
I'm calling to you from another dimension
BAA nudge BAAAAA push BAAA
Nevermind, 6:28. Party Sheep got the job done beautifully! I didn't even have to ask him.
Thank you, Party Sheep!!!!!
*blows final round of kisses for now*
*an extra special nuzzle and kiss for Party Sheep*
Anonymous said...
OPJ would you give out SS's personal details if he visited your blog too?
He would have to have no expectation of privacy if he goes to her blog. Apparently, anyone who goes to her blog is 'asking for' their details to be made public and 'bringing it on themselves'.
Hi, Wendy!
Nice of you to join me...
on your knees and all...
Mayo,
Do you ever get tired of all the shit that goes on around here? It's incredibble!
*yawns, stretches, rubs eyes*
Mya!!!!!! You know I'll get down on my knees for you ~ anytime!
;)
How are you? How's your hand? How's that beautiful daughter of yours? I'm so happy to see you posting (here) again.
If you're going to require me to get down on my knees (again), perhaps we should take this to a more private place. I'll meet you there in 15 minutes!
Wendy! LOL! You're a nut!
Things sound as if they have, once again, gotten out of hand here at Mayo's. It is really ridiculous. I don't see why you all bother, really. I don't see why I do either... Oh, that's right - I don't!
Wendy, just sent you an email.
Hi, RW! How are you?
Hi, Mya! ^_^
I'm well, thanks. How have you been?
RW, I've been OK. Thanks for asking!
I hope your finger's getting better!
Mya: One good nut deserves another. I may be a nut; but, you love me! Admit it! ;)
I received your aforementioned e~mail and replied.
Hello RW! How are you? Did you start that trim painting yet? What would you do if you didn't have me to remind you of these things? Probably be happy no one was there to remind you, right?
*wink for you too*
Okay, I'm going cook some grits!
I'll see some of you later.
Hi, Wendy! :)
I totally forgot about the trim painting!
Oh, my finger...
Yes, I hurt my finger at work about 1 and a half ago - opening a damned door, if you can believe that! The picture was taken a few days after that.
Anyway, I developed "trigger finger" from the injury to the tendon and sheath, so I had "trigger finger release" surgery in July. I no longer have trigger finger, but the finger is going to stay a tad stiff, sore, and not exactly straight. I have trouble with my gripping abilities... Like, vacuuming after 10 minutes can make my finger feel all locked up and stiff.
Just something else I'm gonna have to live with I guess...
That sucks :(
Wendy, I want some grits too! Please put cheese and garlic in mine! YUM!
And scallions and diced tomatoes!
And I'll have it with some Chardonay!
Hey, Mayo!
Wanna see my bad finger?
Just go to my blog!
It is a baaaaaddddd finger!
It's quite the finger to damage!
Gonna go watch a movie now.
See you guys later, maybe.
Everybody, try to just chill a bit more, OK?
Have a good night, Mya! Lovely to see you again :)
Thanks, RW!
You too!
I'm gonna go watch a movie too.
G'night, all! ^_^
Hi guys! WOW! That was a terrific workout and so much more space than the old place. It's just going to take some getting used to. We also seem to have an audience now, since we are in a shopping center with a Chinese restaurant and people go by after dinner and stand outside the door watching. In a way this is good; it makes us all try really hard.
Fimble Star, you have done nothing wrong; that is not even in question in my book. You are just my bright light in a pink bubble. :D
Also Carrie and Fim, how about if I took a crap and then flushed it, then people could track where it went. That's a new feature of BlogBelieve. Craptracking.
Sorry for venturing into scatalogical territory there but after all, I am twelve. :D
Gosh, Obama's Grandma died. :(
Things that give you pleasure -
You've read the first volume of a tale you hadn't come across before, and are longing to go on with it - then you find another volume. The rest of it can sometimes turn out to be disappointing, however.
When a poem that you've composed for some event, or in an exchange of poems, is talked of by everyone and noted down when thy hear it. This hasn't yet happened to me personally, but I can imagine how it would feel.
Hello?
Hi! Just me/Sei-chan, fretting about tomorrow and listening to my two dogs be bastards.
It's very pleasing when someone you don't know well mentions an old poem or story that you haven't heard of, and then it comes up again in conversation with someone else. If you come across it later in something you're reading, there's the delightful moment when you cry, 'Oh, is that where it comes from!' and you enjoy recalling the person's mention of it.
I'll confess something really weird. When McCain loses (I'm holding onto this idea,) if I have to see a picture of him or a video of him looking disappointed, I know I'm going to feel sympathy for him. It's so disconcerting to me. I've waited for tomorrow for so many years; I've been for Obama since the day he announced that he was running. Any other outcome will be devastating.
But the image of the loser always makes me feel this ridiculous pathos; especially when it is an older person.
You feel very pleased with yourself when a person who rather overawes you asks you to supply the beginning of end of some bit of poem they quote, and you suddenly recall it. It so often happens that as soon as anyone asks you, even something you know perfectly well goes clean out of your head.
you're so delicious
♥♥
(what's for dessert?)
:)
Hey K
We're the only ones here?
3333 at 10:23! Nice.
I guess so, E!
you obviously like numbers Kapunua
I like them; I just wish that I could read them correctly.
What I mean is that I sometimes--well, often--unfortunately read and write numbers out of order. It prevents me from writing checks correctly, because I get nervous about it when I have to write them and that makes me mess up more. It also sucks when you're trying to do math, which is pretty much out of the question for me.
I think math is wonderful and I wish I had any kind of grasp on it at all, but with the number problem it just never clicked.
I do love 3,6 and 9 though.
in what context do you mean Kapunua?
I sing the body electric,
The armies of those I love engirth me and I engirth them,
They will not let me off till I go with them, respond to them,
And discorrupt them, and charge them full with the charge of the soul.
Was it doubted that those who corrupt their own bodies conceal themselves?
And if those who defile the living are as bad as they who defile the dead?
And if the body does not do fully as much as the soul? And if the body
were not the soul, what is the soul?
2
The love of the body of man or woman balks account, the body itself
balks account,
That of the male is perfect, and that of the female is perfect.
The expression of the face balks account,
But the expression of a well-made man appears not only in his face,
It is in his limbs and joints also, it is curiously in the joints of
his hips and wrists,
It is in his walk, the carriage of his neck, the flex of his waist
and knees, dress does not hide him,
The strong sweet quality he has strikes through the cotton and broadcloth,
To see him pass conveys as much as the best poem, perhaps more,
You linger to see his back, and the back of his neck and shoulder-side.
The sprawl and fulness of babes, the bosoms and heads of women, the
folds of their dress, their style as we pass in the street, the
contour of their shape downwards,
The swimmer naked in the swimming-bath, seen as he swims through
the transparent green-shine, or lies with his face up and rolls
silently to and from the heave of the water,
The bending forward and backward of rowers in row-boats, the
horse-man in his saddle,
Girls, mothers, house-keepers, in all their performances,
The group of laborers seated at noon-time with their open
dinner-kettles, and their wives waiting,
The female soothing a child, the farmer's daughter in the garden or
cow-yard,
The young fellow hosing corn, the sleigh-driver driving his six
horses through the crowd,
The wrestle of wrestlers, two apprentice-boys, quite grown, lusty,
good-natured, native-born, out on the vacant lot at sundown
after work,
The coats and caps thrown down, the embrace of love and resistance,
The upper-hold and under-hold, the hair rumpled over and blinding the eyes;
The march of firemen in their own costumes, the play of masculine
muscle through clean-setting trowsers and waist-straps,
The slow return from the fire, the pause when the bell strikes
suddenly again, and the listening on the alert,
The natural, perfect, varied attitudes, the bent head, the curv'd
neck and the counting;
Such-like I love--I loosen myself, pass freely, am at the mother's
breast with the little child,
Swim with the swimmers, wrestle with wrestlers, march in line with
the firemen, and pause, listen, count.
3
I knew a man, a common farmer, the father of five sons,
And in them the fathers of sons, and in them the fathers of sons.
This man was a wonderful vigor, calmness, beauty of person,
The shape of his head, the pale yellow and white of his hair and
beard, the immeasurable meaning of his black eyes, the richness
and breadth of his manners,
These I used to go and visit him to see, he was wise also,
He was six feet tall, he was over eighty years old, his sons were
massive, clean, bearded, tan-faced, handsome,
They and his daughters loved him, all who saw him loved him,
They did not love him by allowance, they loved him with personal
love,
He drank water only, the blood show'd like scarlet through the
clear-brown skin of his face,
He was a frequent gunner and fisher, he sail'd his boat himself, he
had a fine one presented to him by a ship-joiner, he had
fowling-pieces presented to him by men that loved him,
When he went with his five sons and many grand-sons to hunt or fish,
you would pick him out as the most beautiful and vigorous of
the gang,
You would wish long and long to be with him, you would wish to sit
by him in the boat that you and he might touch each other.
hmmm. interesting.
10:30, LOL! Do I need to tell your mother of you? ;) I'm just kidding.
Ooh, I like that Walt Whitman one; actually I was reading another one of his earlier that I thought about posting.
Did you know that Whitman is a homeboy? That's true, he was out here on the Beautiful Island of Long. We've got a strip mall named after him, of all things.
4
I have perceiv'd that to be with those I like is enough,
To stop in company with the rest at evening is enough,
To be surrounded by beautiful, curious, breathing, laughing flesh is enough,
To pass among them or touch any one, or rest my arm ever so lightly round
his or her neck for a moment, what is this then?
I do not ask any more delight, I
swim in it as in a sea.
There is something in staying close to men and women and looking on them,
and in the contact and odor of them, that pleases the soul well,
All things please the soul, but these please the soul well.
5
This is the female form,
A divine nimbus exhales from it from head to foot,
It attracts with fierce undeniable attraction,
I am drawn by its breath as if I were no more than a helpless vapor,
all falls aside but myself and it,
Books, art, religion, time, the visible and solid earth, and what
was expected of heaven or fear'd of hell, are now consumed,
Mad filaments, ungovernable shoots play out of it, the response
likewise ungovernable,
Hair, bosom, hips, bend of legs, negligent falling hands all
diffused, mine too diffused,
Ebb stung by the flow and flow stung by the ebb, love-flesh swelling
and deliciously aching,
Limitless limpid jets of love hot and enormous, quivering jelly of
love, white-blow and delirious nice,
Bridegroom night of love working surely and softly into the
prostrate dawn,
Undulating into the willing and yielding day,
Lost in the cleave of the clasping and sweet-flesh'd day.
This the nucleus--after the child is born of woman, man is born
of woman,
This the bath of birth, this the merge of small and large, and the
outlet again.
Be not ashamed women, your privilege encloses the rest, and is the
exit of the rest,
You are the gates of the body, and you are the gates of the soul.
The female contains all qualities and tempers them,
She is in her place and moves with perfect balance,
She is all things duly veil'd, she is both passive and active,
She is to conceive daughters as well as sons, and sons as well as
daughters.
As I see my soul reflected in Nature,
As I see through a mist, One with inexpressible completeness,
sanity, beauty,
See the bent head and arms folded over the breast, the Female I see.
this may sound rather ludicrous, but do they vibrate a certain frequency to you which is of significance?
6
The male is not less the soul nor more, he too is in his place,
He too is all qualities, he is action and power,
The flush of the known universe is in him,
Scorn becomes him well, and appetite and defiance become him well,
The wildest largest passions, bliss that is utmost, sorrow that is
utmost become him well, pride is for him,
The full-spread pride of man is calming and excellent to the soul,
Knowledge becomes him, he likes it always, he brings every thing to
the test of himself,
Whatever the survey, whatever the sea and the sail he strikes
soundings at last only here,
(Where else does he strike soundings except here?)
The man's body is sacred and the woman's body is sacred,
No matter who it is, it is sacred--is it the meanest one in the
laborers' gang?
Is it one of the dull-faced immigrants just landed on the wharf?
Each belongs here or anywhere just as much as the well-off, just as
much as you,
Each has his or her place in the procession.
(All is a procession,
The universe is a procession with measured and perfect motion.)
Do you know so much yourself that you call the meanest ignorant?
Do you suppose you have a right to a good sight, and he or she has
no right to a sight?
Do you think matter has cohered together from its diffuse float, and
the soil is on the surface, and water runs and vegetation sprouts,
For you only, and not for him and her?
7
A man's body at auction,
(For before the war I often go to the slave-mart and watch the sale,)
I help the auctioneer, the sloven does not half know his business.
Gentlemen look on this wonder,
Whatever the bids of the bidders they cannot be high enough for it,
For it the globe lay preparing quintillions of years without one animal or plant,
For it the revolving cycles truly and steadily roll'd.
In this head the all-baffling brain,
In it and below it the makings of heroes.
Examine these limbs, red, black, or white, they are cunning in tendon and nerve,
They shall be stript that you may see them.
Exquisite senses, life-lit eyes, pluck, volition,
Flakes of breast-muscle, pliant backbone and neck, flesh not flabby, good-sized
arms and legs,
And wonders within there yet.
Within there runs blood,
The same old blood! the same red-running blood!
There swells and jets a heart, there all passions, desires, reachings,
aspirations,
(Do you think they are not there because they are not express'd in
parlors and lecture-rooms?)
This is not only one man, this the father of those who shall be fathers
in their turns,
In him the start of populous states and rich republics,
Of him countless immortal lives with countless embodiments and enjoyments.
How do you know who shall come from the offspring of his offspring
through the centuries?
(Who might you find you have come from yourself, if you could trace
back through the centuries?)
8
A woman's body at auction,
She too is not only herself, she is the teeming mother of mothers,
She is the bearer of them that shall grow and be mates to the mothers.
Have you ever loved the body of a woman?
Have you ever loved the body of a man?
Do you not see that these are exactly the same to all in all nations and
times all over the earth?
If any thing is sacred the human body is sacred,
And the glory and sweet of a man is the token of manhood untainted,
And in man or woman a clean, strong, firm-fibred body, is more beautiful
than the most beautiful face.
Have you seen the fool that corrupted his own live body? or the fool
that corrupted her own live body?
For they do not conceal themselves, and cannot conceal themselves.
The whole thing is so wonderful, but this is my favorite part:
I have perceiv'd that to be with those I like is enough,
To stop in company with the rest at evening is enough,
To be surrounded by beautiful, curious, breathing, laughing flesh is enough,
To pass among them or touch any one, or rest my arm ever so lightly round
his or her neck for a moment, what is this then?
I do not ask any more delight, I
swim in it as in a sea.
10:37. That doesn't sound ludicrous at all. (It still takes everything I have to not spell that "Ludacris." O_O ) When I was a kid, the only times tables I could really do without effort was nines. That's because of the trick my Ma taught me about the ascending and descending numbers. That seemed like magic.
Then all the 3s in mythology, the 6s, and how those three numbers all stack together and fit so perfectly with each other like legos, you don't get that with any other numbers. It's like magic. There's such magic in math that I wish I understood more.
9
O my body! I dare not desert the likes of you in other men and women,
nor the likes of the parts of you,
I believe the likes of you are to stand or fall with the likes of the
soul, (and that they are the soul,)
I believe the likes of you shall stand or fall with my poems, and
that they are my poems,
Man's, woman's, child, youth's, wife's, husband's, mother's,
father's, young man's, young woman's poems,
Head, neck, hair, ears, drop and tympan of the ears,
Eyes, eye-fringes, iris of the eye, eyebrows, and the waking or
sleeping of the lids,
Mouth, tongue, lips, teeth, roof of the mouth, jaws, and the
jaw-hinges,
Nose, nostrils of the nose, and the partition,
Cheeks, temples, forehead, chin, throat, back of the neck, neck-slue,
Strong shoulders, manly beard, scapula, hind-shoulders, and the
ample side-round of the chest,
Upper-arm, armpit, elbow-socket, lower-arm, arm-sinews, arm-bones,
Wrist and wrist-joints, hand, palm, knuckles, thumb, forefinger,
finger-joints, finger-nails,
Broad breast-front, curling hair of the breast, breast-bone, breast-side,
Ribs, belly, backbone, joints of the backbone,
Hips, hip-sockets, hip-strength, inward and outward round, man-balls, man-root,
Strong set of thighs, well carrying the trunk above,
Leg-fibres, knee, knee-pan, upper-leg, under-leg,
Ankles, instep, foot-ball, toes, toe-joints, the heel;
All attitudes, all the shapeliness, all the belongings of my or your body
or of any one's body, male or female,
The lung-sponges, the stomach-sac, the bowels sweet and clean,
The brain in its folds inside the skull-frame,
Sympathies, heart-valves, palate-valves, sexuality, maternity,
Womanhood, and all that is a woman, and the man that comes from woman,
The womb, the teats, nipples, breast-milk, tears, laughter, weeping,
love-looks, love-perturbations and risings,
The voice, articulation, language, whispering, shouting aloud,
Food, drink, pulse, digestion, sweat, sleep, walking, swimming,
Poise on the hips, leaping, reclining, embracing, arm-curving and
tightening,
The continual changes of the flex of the mouth, and around the eyes,
The skin, the sunburnt shade, freckles, hair,
The curious sympathy one feels when feeling with the hand the naked
meat of the body,
The circling rivers the breath, and breathing it in and out,
The beauty of the waist, and thence of the hips, and thence downward
toward the knees,
The thin red jellies within you or within me, the bones and the
marrow in the bones,
The exquisite realization of health;
O I say these are not the parts and poems of the body only, but of
the soul,
O I say now these are the soul!
i am fading...
fading fast.....
thank you and goodnite.
thank you so much, walt whitman's ghost!
i love this poet. well, to put it bluntly, walt whitman turns me on.
hi elena, hi kapunua, hi numbers anon. how's it going tonight?
That was great! Thanks for posting it.
It's goin'.
...
care to elaborate? lol
i'm listening to queen's greatest hits...checked it out the library today. oh man, i had forgotten how good they were. :)
Just painting, reading, the usual.
Kapunua is into numbers, i like colors
sounds fun.
you ok?
My damn computer keeps hanging.
sorry about that anon! are you the one who sees us in color? :)
i still haven't started on my map of mayo's yet.
i hate that when that happens, kapunua. ugh. i wish computers had necks. then we could throttle them.
Oh yes, I am fine.
I like colors too. Actually I am using red hugely right now. My favorites are red, jewel tone greens, and purple.
no need to apologize :) yep, the one and only. i don't "see" colors, more like a sense.
i like red too, but just as an accent, or for spiritual things. i love it as a symbol for sacred matters.
i'm always attracted to greens -- in fact my sca device is green and white.
funny you should say that k cause i always sensed you as a deep purple with vermilion undertones :)
Oh cool! Lucy said the same thing once. ^_^
well, then "see" in a poetic way. :)
are you guys going to be here for a little while longer?
i have some pictures i want to share, but i have to upload them to my photobucket still, and that's always a little slow.
Sure, I'll probably be on for a bit.
God damn this bitchass computer.
i'll be here too. just doing three things at once.
Sorry I wandered off. Someone bought a book from me on-line and I can't find the damn thing.
That's gotta be frustrating.
I'm uploading pics to photobucket too; the ones I was just painting over.
great! these pictures are really cool -- not bragging, they surprised me. :)
be back soon
hi elena -- look on the top shelf!
back in a bit. not refreshing this time!
Yeah, you can tell TJ has seen the huge floor to ceiling bookshelves I have in the study. I'm not climbing to the top shelf. Stupid lost book.
"walt" above inspired some nice words.
i like this:
Of All the Souls That Stand Create
Of all the souls that stand create
I have elected one.
When sense from spirit files away,
And subterfuge is done;
When that which is and that which was
Apart, intrinsic, stand,
And this brief tragedy of flesh
Is shifted like a sand;
When figures show their royal front
And mists are carved away,--
Behold the atom I preferred
To all the lists of clay!
Emily Dickinson
Another great one. :)
Kapunua Amyranth is accusing you of being an anon again. Thought you might like to know.
hi, i'm back!
that's a beautiful poem, 11:35. thank you for posting it. :)
i hope no one will mind the mini picspam i'm about to indulge in!
this evening, just before sunset, i was outside throwing ice cubes to the dog -- it's like candy to her, weird creature -- and i suddenly decided to start my exploration of my folks' woods. i was going to wait until after i've finished writing this article, but the air was so fresh, and the light so inticing, i couldn't resist.
i was only going to just take a nibble, poke around a little, and come back out, but i ended up walking straight through (well, as straight as you can in woods like these!), and not getting back until just after dark. it was fantastic. they have six acres of woods, and i can't wait to go back in there and explore in some different directions!
anyway, i took my camera (kapunua, that's your fault. i wasn't addicted to taking photos before, and now when we go anywhere i grab my cell phone and my camera! lol) and shot a bunch of pics. most of them didn't really come out -- i wasn't focussing too well in the dusk, and also i was having caffeine shakes. maybe i overdosed today. hmm.
but here's the cool thing -- the caffeine shakes made some of the pictures come out in these amazing abstract ways! they are very cool. here they are:
1
2
3
4
5
aren't those neat? i like them. they're like paintings of hair and smoke and ecto or something, not photos. :)
and when i came out the other side of the woods this is what i saw. isn't that beautiful? it was such a good exploration.
thanks for your patience, everyone. :)
That's all right, anon. Anyone who matters knows I didn't, and wouldn't, and anyone who doesn't know, doesn't matter. :) S'coo bro, s'coo.
Cool, the second to last and the last are my favorites.
I'm mad tired (I think I have voter's fatigue or something!) and I'm going to get to bed and make an attempt at sleeping instead of thinking about tomorrow and the next day.
Vote with all your might! I'm going to press the buttons so hard. :)
Good night!
thanks kapunua, and wishing you a great night's sleep. :)
very nice toujours. the i like the second one. the fifth one almost gave me the impression of a ghostly cobra riding the waves.
goodnight Kapunua.
thanks, anon! i can see the cobra in #5, there's a heart-shape that could be the hood, right?
i'm going to see if maybe i can reproduce the effect without the caffeine overdose next time.
Love the pics TJ
I see an evil face at the top of pic 5
thank you, elena! an evil face? eep!
i think i'll stay with seeing a heart. i'm a wimp. :)
did you find the book yet? did you look on the bookcase to the left of the porch door?
Mou sukoshi soba ni ite yo nee
itsuka wa kiete shimau keredo
You must bite me through the night,
and surrender your hopeness.
hello I arrive - bite-markless!
^hopelessness
*is freezing*
-A
Still no book, TJ. I've looked on all the shelves.
Hey Ergo. What's up?
hi amy hi elena hi TJ hi Anon
elena I had my first day back teaching at the school
my new yr 10 science class, who were quite good and a yr 9 maths as a relief - eh I survived and they did some work, all you can expect at times!
Hey Amy
good to read ergo. hope it all works out for you.
Good job, Ergo.
Glad it went well for you.
hi ergo, hi amyranth! i'm very glad you survived ergo. :)
the fragment of japanese poetry is lovely, anon, did you post it for kapunua? it's nice to read. thank you. :)
thanks anon, they were actually really happy that I was a proper science teacher, and I would have them all of their lessons each week
we even did a simple prac without them killing anyone, swallowing anything or breaking anything...always good
(and I am exaggerating a bit, in my experience tteaching no one has died in a prac, but we have had blood!)
did the book slip onto the floor somewhere, elena?
dammit. :/
no toujours it's actually part of a song i'm listening to. it's not meant for anyone in particular, more like "singing out loud".
not that i can really sing :)
well, i'm glad you sang it "out loud" here. it's cool. is it j-pop, or...?
hey everyone
hi BC!
well done TJ!! always good when you aren't trying lol
*happy dance with you*
hi there bc. how's it going?
Nope TJ, it's not on the floor.
It's not in a box.
It's not with a fox.
It's not in the house.
It's not with a mouse.
It's not here or there.
It's not anywhere.
Oh my, I've really gone round the bend
*dragged into a happy dance*
but...
but...
ergo, i hate being surprised with the page change. it's so disconcerting.
:/
i will give it over to you every time, and gladly!
Hello BC
elena, if you're able to slip into dr. seuss mode, you're perfectly fine, according to my standards, anyway.
hey, have you tried asking your house ghost for help?
Hi elena, amy, ergo.
Hi Tj. Nothing much, I just got back home, but right now I'm applying some Bengay to my knee. I got a bout of arthritis.
what are you up to?
Hallo Elena, Teej, Ergo, and BC!
What's up? Are we reading Dr Seuss out loud tonight?
-A
TJ
Think I should ask John if he knows where it is?
Oh by the way he freaked Fred out the other night. She was sitting at my computer and the bathroom light suddenly turned on. Yep, no one was in there.
one fish
two fish
red fish
blue fish
ouch, bc. have you tried to see if there are any new medications to help your arthritis? wish i knew of something better than bengay for you. *hugs*
i'm just hanging out tonight. i checked out some new music from the library today, white stripes right now! my sister brought over some books that i need for my article, and as that's what i'll be doing tomorrow, i'm kicking back tonight.
um. was that too much imformation? i'm a real chatterbox tonight. :/
Hallo Amy! How's it going?
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