Monday, October 27, 2008

The day after the day after tomorrow.

I arrived suddenly, and knew for certain that I was in the best place. It was warm and calm and I stood quietly in the moment, waiting for my turn. But, I quickly realized I was alone. Figuring my wait would be short; I let out a breath releasing the smoke from my lungs and viewed my new environment. All around me the black tar covered ground seemed endless, as if I stood in the parking lot for the world’s demise. Its emptiness ran undisturbed to the limits of my sight, and I thought, “When does it all get here?” Then, as I dropped my spent cigarette to the ground, intending to snub it out with the toe of my boot, something caught my eye.

At the hem of my faded, old black shirt was a white thread and without reflection I pulled it. As I pulled, it continued to reveal itself. So I continued to pull, believing that my shirt would soon unravel. But instead, my shirt remained intact while the string started to wind around itself, twining, until it became as thick as a hangman’s rope. With both my hands I began to work against gravity to slow it down, but it quickly stole my grip allowing the rope to spill out, coiling at my feet. When it stopped its fall, the weight of it almost pulled me over and I realized it must be connected to me. I pulled up my shirt and discovered it cleanly attached to the center of my chest.

Then I noticed smoke coming up from the center of the pile and realized the rope had coiled itself around my still lit cigarette. I frantically began to kick at the rope, fearing that it would fuse its way to my heart, igniting it. My success gave way to alarm as I heard from behind me the approaching sound of children’s laughter. When I turned, they were upon me. Several of them grabbed the rope and ran past me. As I watched the rope begin to take off I grabbed for it, but it slipped in my hand. When it disconnected from my chest I fell to the ground and grabbed for its end, but it trailed off behind them, leaving an inky trace.

I remained on my knees. A dull pain echoed in my chest as I watched the children huddle together holding hands to ears, whispering. Several of them looked over at me, but quickly returned to their attention to the group. I felt like an idiot. Oddly, they seemed unfazed by my presence and began to jump rope, their laughter in time with its swooshing rhythm. So, I asked them “Don’t you know you’re playing with the end of me?” My reply came in the most unexpected way, as the smallest of all the children approached me with the seeping end of the rope, smiled and said, “It’s your turn.”



p.s. I’m always fucking late.

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Anonymous said...

You know what's funny? Someone asked what the name of Kapu's server was. Then another anon answered and said that it was in OPJ's original post where she released Kapu's town and server. But guess what? It isn't. I checked.

Carrie said...

Um, did you not see us fight? She has said nasty things to me, I've said nasty things to her. There is no "right."

Anonymous said...

Just clicking on Sdock's email doesn't give you her name. You would have to receive an email from her or at least a forward. And an "anonymous" posted one of Sdock's emails to the OPs.

Anonymous said...

What did she say to you Carrie? How did she start shit with you?? You are much more forgiving than you should be.

Anonymous said...

I'm not the one picking on Sdock. I don't mind her as long as she doesn't spam up the blog with the stupid porchie stuff. She can be pretty nice and she still talks to Amy and J and the other hunted ones.

toujours said...

republic anon, you're right, that was an interesting article! i ahve to admit, civics class was a looong time ago, and i don't really give much thought to those things anymore. lazy, i suppose. interesting to think about. thanks you for the link. :)

Anonymous said...

Carrie, there is no point to reasoning with that anon. Their logic is skewered.

They are allowing their feeling to override sense. I don't know what could have caused this anger, or whether she just reminds them of someone who seriously hurt them in the past.

It's very unhealthy and I do wish for them to seek assistance for their own sake.

Anonymous said...

"We don't come out of Knoxville. Just letting you know."


So like when you get all those anonymous comments from Knoxville where we said a million times we live... .IT'S NOT US!!!

toujours said...

oh geez, stalker anon, would you please stop? and you guys call me crazy and obsessed. *eyeroll*

Carrie said...

She didn't say anything to me, to be honest, I was pissed about the poetry marathon. I said some things under anon, trying to compromise, and that didn't work. Then a family member died, I got drunk, and lost my shit one night. People rallied behind me, and that's when I started to realize this place might be kinda wonky.

Anonymous said...

No prob! Nice to have a sensible discussion for once. ;D

Anonymous said...

It's very unhealthy and I do wish for them to seek assistance for their own sake.


Hmmmmm, that phrasing sounds familiar.

Remember "anon" it's not what you say, it's HOW you say it.

Anonymous said...

You are wrong anonymous. Her email address shows up in your send to box. All you had to do was click the link. It was her full name. I don't know if she's changed it since. Anybody who clicked that link had that information.

Anonymous said...

People rallied behind me, and that's when I started to realize this place might be kinda wonky.

So true. So very, very true.

Anonymous said...

She didn't say anything to me, to be honest, I was pissed about the poetry marathon.


Then you understand how rude and obnoxious that is.

Anonymous said...

Lol, 1:27. Lol.

Anonymous said...

Maybe her real name did show up. But how it got onto THIS blog was from an email that was sent to the OPs.

Anonymous said...

And we seem to be forgetting. KAPU AND THE PORCH HAVE STAT COUNTERS TOO! So if you think you have privacy when you go to their sites, WRONG.

toujours said...

i do like sensible discussions. and silly ones. and lots of different kinds of discussions. and chit-chat, even. i'm good at chit-chat. :)

i don't particularly care for conspiracy discussions and blame games, though.

Carrie said...

I guess, I don't know, but in the scheme of things, kinda not?

Anonymous said...

Umm seriously? Am I the only one who sees how ridiculous this is?


"We don't come out of Knoxville. Just letting you know."


So like when you get all those anonymous comments from Knoxville where we said a million times we live... .IT'S NOT US!!!

Anonymous said...

I think this place has more of those than your local KGB office. ;)

ergoproxy said...

TJ there seems a profusion of them

Anonymous said...

And yet, 1:31, other people's info has NOT been posted by them. Hmm.

Anonymous said...

I dont like blame games either Toujours. So when OPJ gets BLAMED for putting Kapu's info out there I hope you repeat that. Because you KNOW she is going to get blamed for that. You know it, J probably knows it.

Anonymous said...

And yet, 1:31, other people's info has NOT been posted by them. Hmm."


That's because they have NOTHING to post. They are the ones int he wrong.

Anonymous said...

Because she did, 1:33. Wtf you smoking?

Anonymous said...

looks like 1:27 is the all wise oracle

toujours said...

'fraid so, 1:32, ergo. and there's no swiffer invented for conspiracy theories yet. those things are sticky, unfortunately.

Anonymous said...

J didn't post anything here that the porchies don't already know, that Mayo doesn't know, that Amy doesn't know and that anyone who has a stat counter doesn't know! It's not a big deal. Nothing is private on the internet.

Anonymous said...

There are 4 1.27s.

Anonymous said...

then take a guess

Anonymous said...

Then you understand how rude and obnoxious that is.

November 3, 2008 1:27 AM


is my guess.

Anonymous said...

"Nothing is private on the internet."

And yet I don't see any of them posting anyone else's information.

toujours said...

this is what i really, really don't understand about this whole mess. all these anons who come on and are all outraged, such as we are seeing tonight, why are they outraged? why do they even care? because if they wanted to be a part of the blog wouldn't they come on and chat with us, and maybe eventually make accounts for themselves?

so it's like they just read here and make up their minds about what's going on like we're an episode of "dallas" or something, and then get all up in arms when the plot doesn't go to their liking?

or what? it's just so bizarre. why do they even care about the interpersonal relationships going on here in the first place?

Anonymous said...

Maybe we can come up with some kind of conspiracy theory RAID. Though I think its constant use here would eat up another hole in the ozone layer.

Anonymous said...

nope

Anonymous said...

"Amyranth said...

Anyway Ladies, I'll let Ergo have her top spot here and just let you know that I'm heading off to bed.

I should just have the cleaning crew move into the Mansion, don't you think?

Anyway, goodnight girls!

-A

11/3/08 1:27 AM"



You guys are the cleaning crew. And lots of us love you for it. ^_____^



yes I hang out there too because you can say what you feel over there.

Anonymous said...

TJ I just happen to think that J was right to do what she did. Nothing is private on the internet. It's not like she broke some law or something. I'm allowed to have an opinion.

Anonymous said...

Every time Amyranth or J or anyone puts the porchies on the spot, they go away for a while. I think it helps this blog alot. With this going on the pressure is on them to stay away. The blog will be cleaner.

ergoproxy said...

the OP's don't show as Knoxville btw

Anonymous said...

You guys always say the blog is 'cleaner' and yet it's always full of this bullshit no matter who is on.

Anonymous said...

YAY ERGO!

Anonymous said...

1.41 I don't want to play your guessing games. Keep pretending to be Mayo. Mayo "heard" Amyranth. Not Sdock. Not Kapu. Amyranth.

Anonymous said...

Then how did they know to say "KNOXVILLE ISN'T US"!!

toujours said...

of course you're allowed to have an opinion, 1:43, i just don't get why all of these opinions have to get shouted out all the time.

why don't you sit down and get to know us, become friends with us? why is it always just coming on to post accusations and yell at people and pick sides, like blogbelieve is your personal soap opera?

and please understand that these are general questions, because i don't know whether you've done these thing or not.

Anonymous said...

Hey 1:46 I never professed to be Mayo. My writing style is my own, and the way I express myself.

So I suggest you keep your misinterpretations to yourself.

Carrie said...

Oh good Lord they do not. Dang. Lookit, I love little elvin Amy, and the Ops, and the sisters, and K. Whyyyyy, oh whyyyyyyy (that's me whining, or whingeing, or whatever) does this have to be a big popularity contest? Why can't everyone just post whatever? Really? What is the reason? And oh, since I didn't mention her, Ergo for President!

Anonymous said...

"
why don't you sit down and get to know us, become friends with us? "

Thanks for the invitation Toujours. ^___^ I would love to be friends with some of you. You are a classy person. ^____^ It doesn't change how we feel about Kapu or that we think J was right to do what she did. I am standing by that. Thank you for your offer of friendship. You are truely classy.

Anonymous said...

As you have misinterpreted me, you probably misinterpret many others.

ergoproxy said...

because it would be the natural assumption

toujours said...

i would so vote for ergo!

damn, i already voted! D:

ergo, run for president next time, ok?

Anonymous said...

"Why can't everyone just post whatever? "

Because it is rude to other people, it takes up over 75% of the blog and it is hurtful. HELLO have you not even READ the Fix?

Anonymous said...

And YOU Carrie of all people understand that. YOU hated the poetry marathons too.

Anonymous said...

"Anonymous Anonymous said...

12:49 she uses optonline. That's in the original post from the first anon who quoted J.

November 3, 2008 12:51 AM"

You know, I checked. It wasn't in the original post. I find that very odd.

Anonymous said...

Omg, poetry hurted mai feelingz! Woe!

Lmao

Anonymous said...

Then why don't you speak CLEARLY 1.51. There were 4 people posting at this times so don't pretend like I am stupid because I didn't know which one was you. Maybe if you stopped playing porchie-like games.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Omg, poetry hurted mai feelingz! Woe!

Lmao

November 3, 2008 1:53 AM


We all know it's you. Sign in BIATCH.

Anonymous said...

yep

toujours said...

1:51, that's part of what i like about blogbelieve -- i've gotten to know so many people i would never had a chance to otherwise.

but you never needed my invitation to be a part of this blog. no one did. mayo has always left it open. what keeps people from being welcomed, however, is their behavior. you can see that, can't you?

come and play, get smiled at. come and yell all the time, well, who wants to be around that?

Anonymous said...

Amy and OPJ care very much about this blog. Mayo acknowledged Amy and all the while Amyranth never gloated about it. The porchies always have to "answer" him when they THINK he is talking to them. They obviously THOUGHT he was talking to Sdock that time. Tonight, Amy proved them wrong.

Think about it.

Anonymous said...

"but you never needed my invitation to be a part of this blog. no one did"


But you extended your hand in friendship to me which none of the porchies would bother doing. You are different. You stand out.

Carrie said...

Hate would be a way strong word, there are many more things, even around my own house, that my knickers get waaaay more twisted up about. At the time, I admit I was a bit flaily, but I think, in retrospect, that it was because I felt more out of control of other things going on in my life, like my family member slowly dying, and my husband trying to come to grips with that. It was misplaced aggression. I'm not trying to be all disagreeable with you anon, I am trying to truly be honest.

Anonymous said...

Excuse me 1:54

I was not playing games at all. Seems to be your mindset. Must be a "porchie" or whomever you want to blame for the way you feel.

Anonymous said...

1:54, lmao once again. Just because someone disagrees with you and finds you full of fail doesn't automatically make one kapuna.

Anonymous said...

You KNOW the porchies were gloating when they thought that Mayo was posting anonymously and saying he wanted Sdock back. but in reality Amy proved tonight that he hears HER.

ergoproxy said...

1:53 you can't believe anything at times


can i just be a mimi president? the big job looks pretty complex

Carrie said...

Ooh, Mayo typed my name out once, does that make me speshul? No, it does not. Gah. I am really honestly trying to talk to you guys, and fix things around here.

Anonymous said...

All I wanted to say was that OPJ was in the right to post Kapu's iSP and town name. She didn't tell anything that Mayo didn't already know and the porchies and anyone with a stat counter didn't know. She was within her RIGHTS to post Kapu's information because nothing is "private" once you log into a web page.

Thank you all for not jumping on me for stating my OPINION.

Anonymous said...

Amy already fixed things Carrie. But sometimes they come back and need to be put in their places once more time. Amy's usually good for it. ^___^

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Carrie I don't think anything can be done to fix this.

Anonymous said...

Keep on believing that 1:59. I get the impression he doesn't want to take sides.

Carrie, I think you're onto something. "Hate" is very extreme. It seems to reflect more what in going on internally, than externally.

Anonymous said...

We

are

in

hell.






Did anybody bring marshmallows? I already have a pitchfork.

Anonymous said...

mmm, flaming mallows. <3 I love setting them on fire.

Carrie said...

Martha, sadly I'm beginning to think you're right. I'm still not sure where it went wrong, and I still get some enjoyment out of here, but it's not like it used to be. I don't know, maybe we were all in the honeymoon phase or some such.

ergoproxy said...

she didn't post her ISP address
an anon tried to do make out that for some reason

opinions are fine as long as no one berates another for disagreeing, you can state a case without that

toujours said...

1:57, i haven't met anyone here in blogbelieve that isn't way nicer than me. i'm too lazy! this place is filled with great people. get to know them.

Carrie said...

OOh me too. Gotta flame those babies to get em toasted right.

Anonymous said...

Too right, Carrie. Slow roasting is a waste of time.

Anonymous said...

full of fail

That's such a nice thing to say. Did your parents teach you that 2nd 1:58?

toujours said...

man, i'm slow with the comments. :/

ergo, you can be any kind of president you want to be. mini, grande, vente... ;)

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Carrie i think because people wouldn't work their problems out with each other.

Anonymous said...

Carrie's right. They must be burnt to blackened crisp on the outside
to reach perfect creamy goodness on the inside.

ergoproxy said...

TJ you are selling yourself short, you have been a lovely person to know, interesting and funny to boot

Anonymous said...

You like fire 2:06? Or is it just flaming mallows you like.

toujours said...

aaww, ergo, thank you. ♥

but you're biased, you know. we're twins, remember? ;)

ergoproxy said...

lol TJ and I am never twins with just anybody!

I like marshmallows too, can I haz one?

Anonymous said...

You can haz a whole bag of marshmallow EP.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

I don't like marshmallows

Anonymous said...

Both, 2:12. :D

Anonymous said...

What do you like MJ? I'm sure we can find something for you to flame.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

I can't think of anything that I can flame

Carrie said...

I suppose I have to be semi responsible and toddle off to bed now. I have a parent teacher conference in the morning, I'm seriously considering making the hubby do it though, since it's his school of choice. At any rate, thanks for the convos, anons included, I hope we all make each other think a bit how we react to others. And I don't mean that in a disparaging way, I just think we should all take a breath and think before we type.

Anonymous said...

You want a whole bag 2:06? Is your fire hot enough to flame those babies?
;)

toujours said...

*dashes out of the blog*











*dashes back in with a freshly pointed stick*

i'm ready for my marshmallow! and look, i found a branching stick, so i can char two at once!

:D

Anonymous said...

oh no, here it comes...

Anonymous said...

Nite Carrie.
We can give you a bowl and you can flame some chocolate bars MJ.

Anonymous said...

Hellz yeah! I could light up the Stay Puft marshmallow man!

toujours said...

good night carrie. "breathe before typing", i like that. :)

sweet dreams!

Martha Smith-Jones said...

goodnight carrie.


anon that sounds good

ergoproxy said...

thanks anon!

*sits with stick and bag of marshmallows*

goodnight Carrie sweet dreams

MJ would you like crepe suzette? they flambé in brandy?

Anonymous said...

Toujours
You could have used your pitchfork and flamed 3 at once.
;)

Anonymous said...

martha, what about those cakes you pour a spirit over and flame. That's fun.

Anonymous said...

:D

Tosses chocolate bars and bowl to MJ.

Anonymous said...

2:22 has great talent.

ergoproxy said...

Anonymous said...

Hellz yeah! I could light up the Stay Puft marshmallow man!



WHO YOU GONNA CALL????

Anonymous said...

It's all the hot gas that makes my fire burn so hot. ;)

Anonymous said...

I love the Ghost Busters! Why do they never show them on t.v. anymore?

D:

toujours said...

but 2:25, i don't have a pitchfork. :(

Anonymous said...

Dips creamy marshmallow in MJ's chocolate fondue. Yummmmm.

Anonymous said...

why don't you just start kissing it's so obvious. winking one, over to you.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Flaming cakes and crepes lone with flaming chocolate. Life is good

ergoproxy said...

I have the DVDs they are still tré cool

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Anonymous said...

I love the Ghost Busters! Why do they never show them on t.v. anymore?

D:

November 3, 2008 2:28 AM
So when they do the remake you won't notice how bad it sucks

ergoproxy said...

oops add an "s" in there

Anonymous said...

Lol, MJ, but so sadly true.

Anonymous said...

Here Toujours. You can use mine. I'm making a run to Hell's Kitchen. We need cheese, more marshmallows and brandy. I might be gone for a couple of hours. I could be drawn to the heat of other flames. I see a blue one burning brightly in the distance. It's so pretty.

O_O

Don't wait up.
;)

Anonymous said...

Will somebody shove a bag


I mean give a bag of marshmallows to 2:29. They look starved.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Ep

SNICKERDOODLE SALAD

7 c. apples
2 Snicker bars
Cool Whip

Cut apples into bite-size. Cut Snicker candy bars into tiny bits. Mix together. Add Cool Whip and mix to taste. Serves 16.

toujours said...

sah-weet! thanks!

*makes experimental jabs with the pitchfork*

oooh, nice.








heeeeeeerrrrrre little marshmallow, come to teeeeeejay.

;)

Anonymous said...

you are full of shit 2:38

Anonymous said...

here, you lost this ^_~

Martha Smith-Jones said...

For the pumpkin anon

Pumpink Pie Snickerdoodle Bars

Snickerdoodle Layer
3 cups all-purpose flour
2 teaspoons baking powder
1 teaspoon salt
2 cups packed brown sugar
1 cup butter, at room temperature
2 eggs, at room temperature
1 tablespoon vanilla extract

Pumpkin Pie Layer
1 cup all-purpose flour
1 cup white sugar
1 stick butter, at room temperature
1 teaspoons baking powder
1 teaspoons salt
1 teaspoon pumpkin pie spice
2 eggs, at room temperature
1 1/2 cups canned pumpkin

2 tablespoons white sugar
2 teaspoons cinnamon

1 oz white chocolate, chopped
1/4 teaspoon pumpkin pie spice

Preheat oven to 350F. Lightly grease a 9x13 inch pan and lay a piece of parchment paper across the pan, so that it extends the pan slightly. The parchment paper is an optional step, but it will make it easier to get the bars out later

To make snickerdoodle layer:
Sift together flour, baking powder and salt and set aside. In large bowl, beat together butter, sugar, egg and vanilla until smooth.

Stir in the flour mixture until well blended. Spread evenly in prepared pan (mixture will be thick and cookiebatter-ish.)

In a mixer bowl (you can use the same one you used to make the snickerdoodle batter) with a paddle attachment, mix together all ingredients until well combined. This layer will be less thick and more pourable. Pour over the snickerdoodle layer, smoothing out the top.

Combine white sugar and cinnamon in a little bowl. Evenly sprinkle cinnamon sugar mixture over the top of the batter.

Bake for 33-40 minutes (maybe more depending on your oven) or until a toothpick inserted into the *center* of the pan comes out clean. Let the bars cool completely (about an hour). They will deflate a bit and remain a bit pie-like on the top layer. The bars that are closer to the edges of the pan will be more firm, but are still equally as yummy.

After the bars are completely cool, place the chopped white chocolate into a bowl or zip-lock bag and melt on low power. When it's completely melted, add the pumpkin pie spice and mix (or knead if using a zip lock bag). Use a spoon or cut a small corner off the bag and drizzle the melted chocolate over the top of the bars and let it cool and harden.

Use the parchment paper to lift the bars out of the pan. Place on a cutting board and cut into bars. Store in a covered container.

ergoproxy said...

oh yum!

toujours said...

martha that snickerdoodle salad is just incredible! can you really call something a salad when it's made out of candy bars? lol

ergoproxy said...

oh my! snickerdoodles are the perfect food!!

Martha Smith-Jones said...

The Snickerdoodle Cupcake Recipe

I made the snickerdoodle cupcake recipe by slightly modifying How Stuff Works' caramelized sugar cake. I have reprinted it with my modifications below.

Makes 24 cupcakes

* 1 1/2 C granulated sugar, divided
* 1/2 C boiling water
* 2 eggs, separated
* 2 1/4 C all-purpose flour
* 1 T baking powder
* 1 t salt
* 1/2 C (1 stick) butter, softened
* 1 t vanilla
* 1 C milk

1. Heat 1/2 C sugar in heavy 8-inch skillet over medium heat, stirring constantly, until sugar is melted and golden brown.
2. Reduce heat to low.
3. Gradually add boiling water into sugar mixture; continue cooking until sugar is dissolved, stirring constantly. You need to stir really quickly here to keep the sugar from glomming up.
4. Beat egg whites in medium bowl at medium speed with electric mixer until soft peaks form.
5. Gradually add 1/2 C granulated sugar, beating at high speed until stiff peaks form; set aside.
6. Combine flour, baking powder and salt in medium bowl; set aside.
7. Beat butter and remaining 1/2 C sugar in large bowl until light and fluffy.
8. Beat in egg yolks and vanilla extract.
9. Gradually add sugar syrup, mixing until well blended.
10. Add dry ingredients to butter mixture alternately with milk, beating well after each addition.
11. Fold in egg white mixture.
12. Fill cupcake liners halfway full.
13. You could pop these into the oven at 375 F for 20 minutes right now, but if you want the cookie baked into them, read on.

The Snickerdoodle Cookie Baked in the Middle of the Snickerdoodle Cupcake
To bake a snickerdoodle cookie into the cupcake, make a tablespoon-sized ball of a your favorite snickerdoodle cookie dough recipe and roll it in a cinnamon / sugar mixture. Then, press the ball into the half full cupcake liners.

Bake at 375 F for 25 minutes or until the top bounces back when touched lightly. As you can see above, they look kind of ugly before they are frosted. However, it's also sort of fun to see the cookie popping out. I almost didn't want to frost them.

The Cinnamon Penuche Frosting

I fell in love with penuche frosting when I made my quinoa cupcakes. I used the same recipe that I used on those cupcakes, only I added cinnamon to make it more snickerdoodly.

I got the original penuche frosting recipe from Southern Food on About.com.

* 1/2 C butter
* 1 C brown sugar, packed
* 1/4 C milk
* 1 T ground cinnamon
* 1 1/2 C sifted confectioners' sugar

1. In a saucepan, melt 1/2 C butter.
2. Add the brown sugar.
3. Bring to a boil and lower heat to medium low and continue to boil for 2 minutes, stirring constantly.
4. Add the milk and cinnamon and bring to a boil, stirring constantly.
5. Cool to lukewarm.
6. Gradually add sifted confectioners' sugar. (I would highly recommend sifting this confectioners' sugar. It's such a pain to sift, but it ensures that the frosting will be extra smooth.)
7. Beat until thick enough to spread. If too thick, add a little hot water.

The Snickerdoodle Cookie on the Top

I topped my snickerdoodle cupcakes with a snickerdoodle cookie from Wholly Wholesome bakery. I could have topped them with my own cookies, but I had lots of extra Wholly Wholesome cookies and they did look pretty cute!

Martha Smith-Jones said...

But tj it has apples in it

elena said...

Hello

Martha Smith-Jones said...

hello elena

toujours said...

lol!

ooooh, well, then, clearly, it's health food, martha!
*heehee*

toujours said...

hi laverne! how are you tonight?

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Ep I hope you are taking these to your blog.

Maple Snickerdoodles

2 cups flour

1 1/2 teaspoons bakingpowder

1/4 teaspoon baking soda

1 1/2 teaspoons korinje cinnamon

1/4 cup unsalted butter

1/4 cup shortening

1 cup sugar

3 tablespoons real maple syrup

1 egg

1/2 cup brown sugar

1 tablespoon maple syrup

2 tablespoonfuls of Korinje cinnamon

Preheat the oven to 350 degrees. Stir together the dry ingredients and set aside. Sitr together the 2 tablespoons cinnamon, 1 tablespoon syrup and 1/2 cup brown sugar and set aside.

Cream the butter and shortening. Add the sugar and the remaining syrup and beat until light and fluffy. Add the egg and beat well. Stir in the dry ingredients.

Roll into balls the size of a walnut and roll the balls in the brown sugar, maple, cinnaon mixture. Place on a silpat lined baking sheet. Bake for 8 to 10 minutes. Cookies hsould be slightly underdone when you take them out. You can flatten the dough with a glass bottom dipped in the sugar mixture if you like, or just let them flatten out on their own.

ergoproxy said...

HI elena!

elena said...

Hey Martha

Good to see you. How's things?

Hey Shirl

What's new with you?

elena said...

Hey Ergo

Wait until you see what Fred found for your daughter today. It's so great!

toujours said...

not much new -- but i found a couple of articles during my research today that totally got my own article to click together in my head, so i'm excited to start writing it. :)

ergoproxy said...

I'm trying MJ

I made a whole snickerdoodle area

Martha Smith-Jones said...

elena i quit my job and I want snickerdoodles

ergoproxy said...

oh tell her thanks elena!

hope the wombat is travelling ok

elena said...

Martha are you happy you quit your job?

TJ I'm excited for you to start your aricle.

toujours said...

thanks, elena. :)

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Yes, it was causing a lot of problems for me.

ergoproxy said...

I added a credit to you in that blog MJ

Anonymous said...

I know that the rush of endorphins from being righteous is addictive.

Seriously. I was Queen of the Pretentious Snobs when I was little. I was awful. Uppity and looking down on anyone. Always Right. Eagerly looking for any excuse to call on others' faults.

But by the time I was 13, I became terribly bored with it. It turned out realistic optimism, seeing that people's faults came from the same place as their good points and respect are lots more fun and entertaining than cynicism and name calling. I learned that you change no one's behavior by calling them terrible, so I've went about trying to focus on my own fucked up, rotten ways instead.

Even now, though, I fail for I am judging those who judge, being intolerant of the intolerant.

I can't wait to see what Hell will look like for me.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Thank you ego.


anon I don't know what to say

toujours said...

i like the phrase "realistic optimism", anon. i think, however, the one you're judging most harshly is yourself. is you were always able to be tolerant, you would be a saint, and we already ahve one of those. :)

Anonymous said...

Oh. Jeez.

I'm sorry, guys.

I realized I didn't specify that I'm not talking about anyone who is here at the moment.

Was scrolling through, seeing what's happened here over the past week and the shenanigans sadden me, felt compelled to be a jerk and comment.

toujours said...

if you were always able, i meant to type.

toujours said...

no need to apologize. i understood you were speaking in a more general frame. it's okay. :)

ergoproxy said...

anon you can only do the best you can.
If you see your behaviour has been less than you would like to experience yourself from another, you can only try to improve.
That is what is important

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Anon don't worry about it

elena said...

Hey guys I'd love to stay and chat but I've got so much to still get done. Take care, all of you.

TJ just for the record I'm about as far from saintly as you can get.

Anonymous said...

Ergo,
Yes, but it sort of defeats the effort to attempt to improve when you are aware you are saying something hypocritical but allow yourself to state it, anyhow.

Toujours,
My judgment of myself is something I've developed to sort of exorcise my inclination to judge others.

Anonymous said...

But anyhow. Excuse the intrusion.

Hopefully, the other anons will get their needs fulfilled so that the way their wants and desires are manifesting due to that lack shall take more gentle forms.

Good evening/morning.

toujours said...

good night elena. we all know what you're a saint of remember, so no false modesty! talk to yu later. :)

anon, harming yourself in order to not harm others isn't really a good practice though. there's a balance in between the two extremes, isn't there?

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Goodnight elena and anon

toujours said...

...shall take more gentle forms.

that is always to be hoped for. :)

good night, anon. please be gentle with yourself, as well.

toujours said...

well, i probably should be asleep by now, so i'm going to chuck myself in bed and see what happens. :)

good night ergo and martha, and anons. sweet dreams everyone.

elena said...

Mayo

So did you have an eventful day? My project for the day was to clean the basement aka “the dungeon”. Believe me it lives up to its name. This farmhouse is over 100 years old and the basement is a stone hellhole. There are two furnaces; one propane the other the fire-breathing dragon also known was the wood burning stove. No, it’s not one of those nice little “oh I think I’ll throw another log on the fire” things. This is a huge monstrosity that heats the whole house. Anyway, the dungeon hasn’t been cleaned for about a year mostly because no one wants to venture down there. I swear I wouldn’t if I didn’t have to. Of course winter is coming and yep, when the snow flies I’ll be heading down there at 2 am every night (well actually morning) to throw more logs into its massive belly. Oh and yeah, you have to go outside to get there. Okay I just totally lost my train of thought. Oh yeah, I was talking about cleaning. Not sure how this task became mine but I guess it’s cause I have so much free time on my hands. Wait, bitterness setting in, let me move on.

Anyway I also had to venture into the depths of hell to put the Halloween stuff away. All of my holiday decorations are nicely labeled in big plastic tubs and stored on shelves against the stone walls. So as I was putting Halloween away I spotted the Thanksgiving Box. Mayo, you have no idea how stupid I looked staring at that box and breaking into tears. No, it’s not that I hate Thanksgiving or anything. I don’t have bad memories of killer turkeys or poisoned pumpkin pies. It was that I couldn’t make myself take the box off the shelf. I can’t make myself decorate for the holiday. I mean I tried this year with Halloween. I stung up lights, made the Halloween Tree, bought pumpkins but no one cared. No one said one damn thing. I tried to convince myself that it didn’t matter, that I was just doing it for myself but that was a load of horseshit. I wanted someone else to care. Now Thanksgiving is looming on the horizon and while I know the box holds beautiful ceramic pilgrims, colorful silk leaves and turkey lights, I just can’t make myself care and it made me so sad. It used to mean so much. Yeah, I know. I’m starting to sound like a broken record about this shit. Poor Elena used to decorate like mad for holidays because her kids loved it but now they don’t. It’s more than that, I don’t care and I hate that fact. So there I stood in the dungeon crying over an unopened box when I suddenly got mad at myself. I told myself to stop being stupid and just get back to cleaning. Well then I realized I must look and sound crazy because I was standing there talking to myself. Seriously, I was yelling at myself and the sound echoed off the walls. As I write this I’m shaking my head and rolling my eyes at myself. I really need to get my act together. You know it’s funny but for some reason in my head I can hear my dads voice explaining to me what’s wrong. He always said, “You have a tender heart.” I never gave his words on the subject much thought. But if crying over holiday decorations is a sign of a tender heart then I don’t want one. I’m tired of crying, I’m tired of feeling sad. I wish I could just turn off all my emotions. That sounds bad but damn it, I’m just so tired of the sadness, you know? Actually I hope you don’t know. I hope you’re fucking giddy about the upcoming holidays. I hope for you all the things I don’t have.

Well shit I’ve gone and written another ‘downer’ goodnight. I’m really sorry Mayo. I’ll try tomorrow for it not to sound this way. You know I come here and I talk to my friends and I’m okay. It’s not until I start to talk to you all the shit inside boils over and spills out. That’s not right, or fair. I’ll try to change that.

Night Mayo

Elena (it is after all just silly cutouts and lights)

Anonymous said...

there's a balance in between the two extremes, isn't there?

sure is. we all get angry at times and say stupid things. some more than others. being reflective on your behavior and it's impact is more productive. we're not perfect, so it's more an evolving thing.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Goodnight tj

ergoproxy said...

3:38 being aware is half the battle, as long as you wish to try and improve there is always opportunity

sleep well

ergoproxy said...

MJ you are truly the Queen of the Snickerdoodle!

and thank you so much for sharing the recipe, my family loves them, anyone else who has tried them too, and I always say - they are from my friend Martha in America
:]


elena even though it can cause you those emotions please don't ever lose your tender heart.
It is that heart that your girls will remember, they may not think of it now, teenage years are so full of many other things, but they won't forget.
Maybe just take out some special pieces, decorate just a table, or maybe around your computer. I would love to see some of your decorations, we don't have thanksgiving. You are never a downer, you are a woman trying to cope with the times around her changing, and that is never easy, you always have us to listen when it feels too hard




Goodnight TJ
I meant to ask a bit more about what your article is, and do we get a seek peak?


I have my first day with my new yr 10 class tomorrow, I am pretty nervous. :/
I should have said earlier, but wish me luck everyone

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Have you seen the recipes i put on your blog

toujours said...

mayo,

this is one of the things i have figured out: bad things are always going to happen. life is always a mixture of bad and good, welcome and unwelcome. that goes for events and people and movies and dinners...all of it. sour and sweet, through and through.

so why go out in search of the negative experience? it'll come to you. why go out of your way to be argumentative? you'll be short-tempered or meet someone who is soon enough.

i know that i don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. for all my hopes and plans, tomorrow anything might happen. i've experienced this myself, on a number of occasions now. and i know that i might be at my best, or i might be at my worst. all i can do is go foward, and try to do my best, even when that best is not snarling back at the dog. or the lady behind the counter, for that matter.

i just don't understand why some people seem to go out of their way to create discord and destruction. there's already so much of that out there. i prefer to create, if i can.

i don't succeed at that, of course, but it's always my underlying goal.



good night, mayo-sama. make something tomorrow, something bright, something beautiful.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Ep did you go to bed

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...
You anons are creepy. I see that OPJ went to K's blog too. Why isn't her information being posted all over the place?

November 3, 2008 12:59 AM

because j is smart enough not to put her personal info all over the 'net

Anon616 said...

Good morning/afternoon/night Mayo, SS, Ergo, Martha, TJ, Elena, Carrie, Amy, J (and L via J); various anons, lurkers and watchers; everyone!

How are you all this morning? Well (and good), I hope!

This new time has really screwed up my internal clock. Like it wasn't screwed up, enough, already. It is NOT 3:40 a.m. I don't care what the clock says. My body still says it's 4:40 a.m!

Ergo: *smooooooooch* When do you start this new work schedule of yours? Does that start tomorrow? I'm (still) lost. Thank you for all my smooches, honeybuch!

Sweetcheeks: I'm going to try your other e~mail today. I hope you get these! How was your weekend? Did you get a out a bit?

Elena: You and your daughters looked great in those costumes! Sorry to hear about that spider bite. That sounds painful. In fact, it brings back horrible, painful, memories from my childhood.

*shudders at the recollection of a pained and swollen hand*

I don't like spiders much. Not much at all!

RW: Sorry your Halloween didn't turn out as you had hoped. I'll post pictures of my nephew in his costume. You can relive the Halloween experience vicariously!
;)

Amy: Can I borrow your "whore" costume? Please?
*bats eyelashes*

Martha: Hello again!

I know this is late; but, WHAT? Bob shot up his garage with a pistol? When did this happen? What did that poor garage do to Bob? Hmmm.....
I know it had to be justified!

Submitted for your pondering consideration today:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"We dance for laughter, we dance for tears, we dance for madness, we dance for fears, we dance for hopes, we dance for screams, we are the dancers, we create the dreams."

"When in doubt..... DANCE!"

and

"You can dance anywhere, even if only in your heart."

all unknown/anonymous
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Do a little dance today, everyone. Even if it's only in your heart!

Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy

Hi PJ, Andrea, Fang Bang, Elune, CTV, Pixie, Siobhan and Miranth!

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Hello 6

Anon616 said...

PS: I like your recipes Martha. I think I'll make some snickerdoodles today ~ while dancing around the kitchen! ;)

Did I read correctly? Did you say you quit your job? I know you've been thinking of leaving that place for awhile.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Yes I did. It was getting to be to much for me. I wasn't sleeping and it was only on nights I had to go in. And I was on so many medications

Now I sleep fine and I am not taking anything to make me sleep

Anon616 said...

PPS: LEWIS ~ Anytime, love!

A~N~Y~T~I~M~E! Dave too! Ya'll already know I love ya'll. And, the three of us do enjoy those "licks" so much. ;)

Martha: Did you get any sleep last night? I'm off to try to get some (sleep, that is) now. I'll see you later, okay.

*blows vanilla death flavored kisses in honor of Martha*

Anon616 said...

*runs back in*

That is great news Martha! I'm so happy to hear you're sleeping better ~ and, without the meds!

I bet the headaches are gone now too. Stress is a horrible thing. I'm glad you got out of that situation.

I'll see you later!

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Goodnight 6

Fimble Star said...

Good morning everyone.
Wow, two whole days of catching up and i wish i didnt, oh well.

i hear there is a guessing game, well i guess JACKSONVILLE. but if i guessed correctly, this is the telling sign we are nothing a like, guess what i would of done ;)

another thing, just to clear soemthign up, you would need to recieve an email from solly to get her full name, plus, the person who posted the email was in fact a regular under the anon name because they said it themselves. the only reason you cant find it is because mayo deleted it for her. Its not a nice thing to do to something, and oh look, its happened again, not very nice, tells alot about the person but i already knew that.


well whatever, have a great day if anyone is reading, i hope it is sunny for you.

ergoproxy said...

sorry MJ it was making dinner time

hiya wendy - yep tomorrow my time, so in 12 hrs
*smoooch*


hi fim, have a lovely tuesday

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Hello fs.


It's cool ep I am allover the blogs right now

Martha Smith-Jones said...

blogger is a bitch

ergoproxy said...

blogger certainly has it's moments

I have had dinner and am getting ready to wind down for the night, watching "Bones" then off to bed, I am going to have odd dreams for sure, I just hope tomorrow goes ok

Martha Smith-Jones said...

I hope things go well for you Ep. Good luck

Anonymous said...

another thing, just to clear soemthign up, you would need to recieve an email from solly to get her full name,

bullshit fimble.
anybody who clicked her email link had her full name. she's already said that herself. she said she would change her email address but the info was already out there so why bother.

farawaysoclose said...

Good morning everyone.
Wow, two whole days of catching up and i wish i didnt, oh well.


shit fimmy me fucking too!

gotta say i am just kind of embarrassed and disturbed by some things that have happened here.

it is plain wrong!

i'm shaking my head i just don't get it. i don't understand! i don't work that way. i don't feel comfortable even having my name associated with this place knowing how some folk have been treated.

and you shit stirring anons are just fucking mental!

farawaysoclose said...

hey mayo!!

hey SS!!

i'm still ill and so is my little girl! joy of joys!

hope you are both doing well!

farawaysoclose said...

erm?!

farawaysoclose said...

Good morning everyone!

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Goodmorning FASC

farawaysoclose said...

hey how about for the rest of the page everyone tries to be nice to one another?!

it's not that fucking hard!

seeya.

farawaysoclose said...

hi martha jones!!

you are up late!

Martha Smith-Jones said...

When I worked this is what time I had to get up to be at work.

farawaysoclose said...

that's nasty martha!

make the most of being a night owl while you can and good luck with the job hunting!

gotta fly!

hope everyone has good days!

Martha Smith-Jones said...

What is going on with BBC radio 2 i keep hearing about something happening.

farawaysoclose said...

absolutely no idea martha??

i've not had the radio on today.

really gotta go.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

I am off to bed. I will be around some of the other blogs


Goodnight

ergoproxy said...

hello fasc hope you and your girl get better soon

MJ is that the big scandal with Russel Brand and Johnathon Ross?

they made a prank call in very poor taste to Andrew Sachs (who was Manuel in Fawlty Towers) they are both in deep shit over it

Martha Smith-Jones said...

yes it is ep

resurrected wreck said...

We heard about that in the newspaper last week. The Russell Brand/Jonathan Ross thing. Hasn't Russell Brand been in trouble with the BBC before?

ergoproxy said...

hi RW he is known for being pretty controversial (and funny) but what they said must have been really bad taste, both of them and the producer/ programmer (I think) have all left.
And J Ross contract was worth about 17 mill and is up in the air and he was to host the BAFTAs (again I think, something anyway) and that is in doubt

sdock10 said...

Mayo,

More randomness for today:

I Would I Might Forget That I am I

I WOULD I might forget that I am I,
And break the heavy chain that binds me fast,
Whose links about myself my deeds have cast.
What in the body's tomb doth buried lie
Is boundless; 'tis the spirit of the sky,
Lord of the future, guardian of the past,
And soon must forth, to know his own at last.
In his large life to live, I fain would die.
Happy the dumb beast, hungering for food,
But calling not his suffering his own;
Blessed the angel, gazing on all good,
But knowing not he sits upon a throne;
Wretched the mortal, pondering his mood,
And doomed to know his aching heart alone.


George Santayana


Sorry that your blog keeps getting dumped on. It seems there is nothing that can stop the insanity>

STOP THE INSANITY....I sound like that Susan Powder chick, right? Remember her? The chick with the buzzcut white hair trying to get people to exercise. Yes? No? Maybe?

Anyways....

Mayo, go out and make this Monday a Monday above all others. When you look back on today, say to yourself, "Damn, now that's the way all Mondays should be!"

Can we both do that?

Fuck yeah, we can at least try.

Love to YOU Always,
S

p.s. Exercise your rights.

sdock10 said...

BlogBelieve,

Have a nice day! Don't let the absurdity of the moment get you down.

Ergo,

Sleep tight and sweet dreams! Bake some bread in your dreams. It's nice.

Later, guys!

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