Those hills breathe fire
And exhale into the stream
Billows of crackled frames
Mixed with the amassed sordid matter
Of a thousand million leaves
Pelf, from pandered promise
Settles into the hollows
Filling the rift with futile night
They will brush ash from their soles
For an eternity after having been told
Better to swallow holes than believe
What was struck, no longer stands
p.s. and so it went.
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«Oldest ‹Older 601 – 800 of 5145 Newer› Newest»Amy, it might help you to go on A/D's for a while (anti-depressants). You probably don't need them full time right now, but in order to relieve your stress, your dr could prescribe something for your anxiety. It sounds like you had an anxiety attack at the grocery store. Those are scary. You feel totally helpless, out of control.
And given your mom's history, you probably inherited some of her depression anyway. It shows up in different ways. I had the don't want to get out of bed thing for a while. Also not wanting to leave the apt, not wanting to talk to anyone, kept my head down, could've cared less about anything. That was NOT FUN.
I think we've been deserted, Amy.
I think we have.
And I do agree with you J, I plan to have a chat with my doc after this job is over. I'm taking some time off, so if he recommends it, I'll start the A-D'S then, instead of starting a new job and going Moonloony on the new place.
-A
Depending on the meds he gives you, you probably won't see any effects for at least a couple weeks. It took the Prozac about a month in my system to show any real benefit, b/c it has to build up the depleted chemical levels before it gives you extra.
Mayo
I’ve sat here for the last hour thinking ‘well what in the hell am I gonna say to Mayo tonight?’ Then a voice in my head reminded me not so subtly that I don’t have to say anything. (No smart-ass remarks about voices in my head) Then yet another voice said “Elena you know damn good and well that if you just start typing you’ll think of something. You always do.” Yep, that voice was the loudest and so I went along with it. Not sure if that’s a good idea but as long as it doesn’t start suggesting strange things I guess it’s okay. Of course if it got to that point would I realize things were strange? Probably not. Okay, I’m not gonna ponder that anymore. Insanity is truly a state of mind.
I think the whole problem stems from the fact that tonight my thoughts are fluid. Do you ever feel that no matter how hard you try to hold on to a thought it slips away just as you begin to embrace it? I have felt like that all day. It’s like there is something that I should understand but I’m missing it. The feeling that everyone else in the room knows something but you totally blinked and so you stand feeling slightly ignorant. Where the hell did that come from? Holy crap, did I miss something? I don’t mean here I mean today. Now, I’m going over the things that happened since this morning. Nope, I don’t think so. Think I’m going to have to chalk this up to just one of those strange feeling I get occasionally. It does bother me though. Did I pass a stranger that I should have spoken to? Did I turn right not knowing that if I’d turned left something totally unexpected would have happened? Crap, I can drive myself crazy thinking like this. So I should stop. What is meant to be will be. I firmly believe that. But still….I can’t shake this feeling.
Okay so about now you’re probably thinking to yourself ‘damn why did she listen to that voice that told her to just start typing’. Yeah, not gonna lie. I’m thinking that too. I should have just gone to sleep. Instead I sit and type meaningless words. But then that’s nothing new. Sorry Mayo. My words are empty. My thoughts are meaningless. It’s just that I wish so badly it could be different.
Night Mayo
Elena (well that was a total downer)
Thanks for the chat tonight.
Do take care of yourselves, and just be aware of the stress in your lives and how it is impacting on you. And get some advice if you feel it is too much.
Goodnight.
Well J and Elena, I think I'm gonna take off too. I have The Walking Dead trade in my lap and I wanna squeeze in another chapter of GUARDS! GUARDS! before I really kick off.
Goodnight Lovelies, Mayo, SS, and Conversational Anon.
-A
Goodnight Anon, it was a pleasure talking with you tonight. Please let me know how your friend is, and do come back and join us again. I'll do my best to cut down on stressors. ;)
Goodnight Amy, don't sweat it, I'm going to bed as well. See you tomorrow, enjoy your read!
Elena: please do not ever think that what you write, what you think, what you believe, is meaningless. Everything you offer to Mayo, to SS, to the Lovelies is insightful, reassuring, worthy of so many more adjectives that I can't even produce.
You are one of the brightest, shiniest beings on this blog. Hell, on the planet. And don't you forget that.
I love you, L loves you, and I'm so very sure there are many more you don't realize care about you.
I will call you tomorrow, so keep that phone turned ON.
*hugs and kisses*
Mayo,
After reading your post, my thoughts have been with some of my old satellite-installer friends in CA. Seemed like every day, when I would talk with any one of them, something odd was happening weather-wise. One end of the state would be covered in snow; the opposite end would be stripped by wildfires. And somewhere in between lay rain, mudslides, windstorms, drought, heat waves, and/or floods. I was amazed at the extremes of conditions there, but they were all like, What? We do this all the time.
They just got up, got their assignments, and went on their merry way. Well, with a few exceptions. Massive rainstorms were pretty much a no-go when it came to getting up on a roof with a metal object and electrical wires in your hands. :/
So, your mention of ashes and the hills breathing fire sparked (oh man, what a bad choice of words, but I'm leaving it) my memories of my friends and sort-of coworkers. They deal with this phenomenon all the time, and it doesn't faze them.
Makes you think, doesn't it, what one can become used to under certain circumstances.
Take care of yourself, Mayo. Believe it or not, I do worry for you. Remember, we're all here if you need us. Don't shut us out, ok?
love to you, my friend
Dear SS,
When you feel discouraged, uncertain, despairing, look up. It's still there. It will always be there. Just for you, whenever you need it most.
You're strong enough to get through anything, because you're motivated by love. That's all you need. ;)
Goodnight, precious. I'm thinking of you. I love you.
My heart to yours, always.
Alot of you are endearing and caring. Why not all the time.
prehaps we all get in our moods.
I do care about you all. It may be unwise of me. I cannot help it. Do I belong here at all is the real question and I just dont know.
I am my own worst nightmare
I am my own worst critic
In my head I never seem to measure up
Although I've never been told that directly
I feel it,that creeping faineant feeling that gets under skin
Settling into bones
Paralyzing fear that stops me cold
When you analyze it you can tell it stems from somewhere far away
Something you thought you left far behind.. long ago
It's not gone, it never leaves you
How do you overcome the adversity?
How do you repress that child who screams insecurity
Rearing it's ugly head
Becoming stoic instead
I vow I will not listen to that insecure child
That isn't who I am anymore
Always striving to be perfect
You know it won't be ignored
As I slink down crouching in the corner
Waiting for the insecure feelings to leave...
I will never live up to the expectations of the world...but why should I?
So tired of feeling everything I do is never good enough
Doesn't that make for a perfectionist you say?
Possibly,but to me it is mediocrity
BI
♥♥♥
That was beautiful BI, and I believe, even if some of us are too prideful to admit it -we can relate to how you feel. I think that is the core of being human.
Thank you for sharing your words. I always love to read them.
Morning Mayo, BI, Anon,
Well, you don't have to be crazy to post here, but it helps! Seriously though, you've just expressed how everyone feels at various points in their lives - maybe they're better at hiding it, or ignoring it, but it's universal.
Except today, because it's both payday and a day before everyone has to give me stuff in celebration of how fabulous I truly am, mwuahahahahaha!!
Kass xx
Thursday, July 17, 2008
On Tour Aug 20th - Sept 14th!
Well were finally hitting the road for a little bit. We can't thank Reggie and the full effect for asking us to go on their farewell tour. It's truly an honor. So, check out the show dates and hopefully well see you all there.
Don't forget to join the Official Leathermouth Street Team for exclusive tour updates from the band, promo contest (with some really amazing prizes) and a whole lot more!
X's & O's
L.M.-
Aug 20: Orlando, FL @ The Social
Aug 22: Houston, TX @ Warehouse Studio
Aug 23: Austin, TX @ Emo's
Aug 25: Tempe, AZ @ Clubhouse
Aug 26: Hollywood, CA @ Avalon
Aug 27: San Luis Obispo, CA @ SLO Brew
Aug 28: San Francisco, CA @ Bottom of the Hill
Aug 29: Sparks, NV @ New Oasis
Aug 30: Salt Lake City, UT @ Avalon Theater
Aug 31: Denver, CO @ Marquis Theater
Sep 2: Minneapolis, MN @ Triple Rock
Sep 3: Chicago, IL @ House of Blues – Chicago
Sep 4: Detroit, MI @ The Magic Stick
Sep 5: Pittsburgh, PA @ Diesel
Sep 6: Buffalo, NY @ Club Infinity
Sep 7: New York, NY @ Highline Ballroom
Sep 9: Cambridge, MA @ The Middle East Club
Sep 10: Farmingdale, NY @ Crazy Donkey
Sep 11: Towson, MD @ Recher Theatre
Sep 12: Sayreville, NJ @ Starland Ballroom
Sep 13: Lancaster, PA - WE WILL NOT BE PLAYING THIS SHOW!
Sep 14: Philadelphia, PA @ The Fillmore at the TLA
Good morning/afternoon/evening Mayo, SS, Beloved Imortal, Elena, J, Amy, Kass, FASC, Possum; various anons, lurkers and watchers; all endearing and caring creatures (thanks BI) in the land of blogbelieve!
How are you all today? Good, I hope!
I received some very exciting news last night. OPETH is playing the HOB on October 17th!!!! HOORAY!!!!! Yes, I am excited. Nightwish in September and Opeth in October! That will almost make up for my not being able to make Crue Fest.*pout*
Almost.
*end pout*
FASC: You aren’t the only one, love. I, too, have made quite a few building and decorating errors through the years. We live and we learn. Thank goodness for remodeling options! ;)
Beloved: Thank you for my strawberries and chocolate whipped cream!!!! I am leaving some fresh picked blackberries for you. Or, would you prefer I bake a cobbler? :D
MissT: *huge hug*
Phoenix Riddler and Silence Dogood: Hello to you both!!!
NO/HOB Anon without the pen: Yes, it is a NOLA thing, isn’t it? We always seem to be ill prepared! I bet your son WAS so thrilled! What a sweet, kind, wonderful and basically amazing thing for Mr. Toro to do! I must add an AWWWW! (Sorry for the delayed reaction/response, I catch up in bits and pieces sometimes). Hey, do you like Nightwish or Opeth? *big smile* Don't forget Voodoo Fest, Oct. 24th - 26th!!!
To watch and ponder (or not) today:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Return to Innocence
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Have a tranquil day, everyone!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Ohhh....and, you did all hear that NIGHTWISH won the ECHO award, for best Rock/Alternative song, this year, right? Congratulations (way late) to Nightwish for beating:
The Foo Fighters
Marilyn Manson
Kaiser Chiefs
Within Temptation (maybe next year)
with this song:
Amaranth
^Amy's song! ;)
*pouts again*
Who nabbed my spooky omen spot this morning? I could have been comment 616.
I missed it by one! Darn!
Hi Kass and Spooky omen spot nabbing anon!!!
*blows kisses*
Gerard attempting the backbend
Why does he feel the need to copy everyone? Has he this whole time?
Maybe Marilyn Manson was right.
anon, who cares?
BlogBelieve,
'Morning! Have a great Thursday!
sorry everyone I was talking to, I forgot it was thursday and I had a student, then our power started going funny so I turned PC off, then my server was down!
hi kass fasc Pp wendy
BI sometimes belonging somewhere is a good start
mayo goodnight to you hope all is well wishing you love, laughter, life and longevity much love EP xx
SS lovely of you, really lovely
sending you good things, lotsa love EP xx
goodnight all ♥xx♥
Mayo,
Have a great Thursday! Get up and do something! Even if it's just to have breakfast and go back to bed.....
Uh huh.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Seriously.
And up through the ground came a bubblin crude.
Oil that is, black gold, Texas tea.
This was the song playing in my head this morning as I woke up Mayo. I think your post title inspired it. ☺
Well, it's Thursday people! :)
*sigh*
Yeah, I know.
Have a good one everyone!
Mayo,
So like, ummm, yeah. I hope you're feeling okay today. I read the Henry Rollins post last night and that was pretty meffin' awesome. If you haven't read it, go read it. Have a good one, Mayo.
SS!!!
Wassup, dude? You've reminded me once again that it's the little things. One word, one name or just a smile. Hope you're doing okay today. Have a good one!
Later peeps! ^_^
And Blogger look out, I'm sicking the Viking Kitties on you. >_<
You know, I wish I had the strength to ask you outright. I actually did for a while. But the courage faded, the fear seeped in and then the sickening loneliness started mocking me. So I backed down. I just want to know. Why. You have the worst taste.
good morning everyone.
i'm waiting for the coffee to brew. and i have "the sharpest lives" in my head.
that's the full morning report from toujours.
yay!
coffee!!
brb
That should have been: AND you have the worst taste.
I am probably insane.
Anon, you should know better than to write an open ended question here.
You may receive a number of responses.
As this is a personal matter, you should approach them directly.
Good morning SS. Your presence is like sunshine after a week of rain. Keep shining dude!
my mom is funny. she's going on about how much she likes the first sip of coffee in the morning, how the second cup of coffee is good, but not as good as the first, not as good as that first sip.
after i get my cup and start to head back down the hall, she grins at me and says she's sitting there watching the hummingbird on the feeder (she has a ton of hummingbird feeders), and she just knows it's sitting there saying (and then she uses this little voice) "oh, the first sip! it's just so good in the morning!"
lol. my mom.
always making up what animals and inanimate objects are saying.
:)
That is just the problem Toujours, I don't think I can. I may. But I am not sure if they are one and the same. If one is real, or one is fake. Or if they are both ---both. I apologize if I make you uncomfortable, I just wanted some answers. I don't know what to do.
annnnnnnd, here's one of those responses. :)
8:17, here's what i've learned (and am still acquiring the habit of) -- do what your heart tells yoou to, immediately and without caring if it comes off like you're an idiot. for the most part, no one is worried about you looking like a fool, because we're all only worrying about ourselves looking like a fool. and the one you have a question for? they might be wondering why you aren't asking. they might be asking themselves the same thing you're asking yourself.
and insane? lol. welcome to the club.
8:31, do you think someone is leaving messages for you here?
8:31, i undersand how confusing things can be. but look at it this way: if you can see even one paving stone in front of you, if there is in fact an option open to you, you should take the chance and take that option. too many times, confusion brings a person to a standstill, and there isn't a single pathway to be seen.
if there is someone to ask, ask. one way or the other, the information you will acquire will help you move further along, and further away from loneliness.
oh! lewis. :)
was that you? i hope i did help.
how are you?
Lewis,
I know
morning all!
hi there mayo man! you doing good? still waxing away!
have a good one!
hi SS!
you are pretty damn special.
but you know that right?!
have a good one also!
hi family!
we all doing ok?
hi kass, wendy, teej, solly and princess........and anyone else!
princess i only had a brief catch up but you had me a chuckling away with your name troubles!!
so i am unbelievably late today! its already 13.38 here!
my hangover wasn't bad at all actually!
feels very proud!
the state of my eye makeup this morning however was baaaaad! could not be arsed to remove it!!
right well thats me!
hope we all have fantabulous days/nights!
love to you all!
lewis you still here?
bye lewis, sending good wishes along after you. take care of yourself. :)
good morning faraway!
cool lewis!
bye blogbelieve!
sorry teej!
bye to you and have a good day!
Even when you hide, I can hear you.
bye you guys. :)
oooo, 8:50. you're spooky.
*hee*
click me
coffee + lortab + tbpid = happy toujours
*big toothy grin*
ok, i am.
no, not spooky - aware
aw, that was a cute pic, anon. thanks for sharing!
spooky isn't necessarily a bad thing, (2nd?) anon. anyway, aware of what?
Deletions do not change things
Aware of what 8:56? I'm pretty aware myself, but I thought I might be the only one.
How's that for cryptic?
not cryptic at all
has the sleeper awoken?
hmm, guess they don't.
well, whatever. you go on about your mysterious way, and i won't stop you. :)
more coffee now.
and man, the guitar bits from "house of wolves" is another one of those that just sound really new and exciting on the live cd. :)
what sleeper? i haven't awoken. i'm still sleeping.
Perhaps we are aware of different things. The "sleeper" has been up early almost everyday.
*returns and settles down on the couch to watch the mysterious anon conversation*
lewis, are you ok?
Lewis, zip it, and keep your conspiracy theories to yourself.
i'm sleeping, unaware and i cant hear a damn thing anymore.
Honestly, Lewis, My words have nothing to do with you. Why would you think they are for you? Sorry for the confusion.
Lewis is not ok, Toujours.
Talk to her.
Ya know, that's really o.k. TJ. I do appreciate what you said to me earlier though. But I think I am just going to turn off the computer and stay away from the cursed fucker now. I wish you the best, and thank you again.
i just got your comment over at my blog, too, lewis. i'm sorry you're having a hard time right now. please, if you need someone to talk to -- someone you can just lay it all out with -- i'm offering my "ear" ok?
i'm a good listener.
lewis, i hope this isn't an intrusion, but i'm worried about you, and i'm going to write you an email.
i apologize in advance if that's an invasion of your privacy.
♥♥
Morning all
Lewis- You'll hear from me soon. Take care. It's okay, really.
good morning elena, good morning kawaii eyes anon. :)
elena, i just wrote to lewis too. is she going to okay? i'm really worried about her.
TJ
Lewis is a wonderful person but like the rest of us she has bad days.
Lord knows I have my share but I know I can count on my friends to help me through them. It's great you e-mailed her.
i just hope it will be enough. i know what those days are like.
how are you this morning, laverne?
how's the sickie? *grin*
Well I'm off to work.
Hope everyone has a good day.
Keep your feet on the ground and keep reaching for the stars.
I can't believe I just remembered that line. Blast from the past.
Take care people.
Oh and Mayo - Go do something creative today. Something totally different and new.
No, I have no idea why I just told you that but it just seemed right.
Oh Hi TJ
Didn't see you there. Sickie is still sick.
Gotta give out medicine and take off. Talk to ya later, okay?
yep, talk to you later. try not to strangle sickie, ok? lol
i heard from lewis, so i feel a little better about her. i don't like it when someone here is upset and then stops posting -- it's frightening. its an awful reminder how fragile our connections to each other here truly are.
i can't storm someone's house if i haven't heard from them, if i'm worried about them. i can only email them, but that's so ephemeral.
i might have mentioned this before, but there for a while it really bothered me that if something happened to me, no one here would ever know. i would just be another mystery among all the mysteries of blogbelieve. i actually gave the link to a friend i trusted, with the instructions to come here if something happened.
and now, of course, i have made connections outside these electronic ones. now, i won't disappear because there are phone numbers and so forth. people will be contacted if i'm in an accident or something like that.
it's probably pretty dumb to worry about stuff like that, but i do, occasionally.
so! anyway. good to hear from lewis.
anon616 said....
Ohhh....and, you did all hear that NIGHTWISH won the ECHO award, for best Rock/Alternative song, this year, right? Congratulations (way late) to Nightwish for beating:
The Foo Fighters.
DAMN IT!
The Foo Fighters are my boys.
lol hi triston. what are you doing out in the daytime?
Well, if it isn't the self appointed Don Juan of the blog.
Men who boast about their prowess, usually are duds in the sack.
Aww, TBPID dropped completely off the Billboard top 100 last week.
It only sold 23,000 copies the first week, even with all the pre-orders and boxsets. Sales the second week must have been really weak.
Pretty sad that If did even better than it did, isn't it?
ding!
time's up for me this morning.
glad i got to say good morning to a few people, including kawaii anon. *grin*
mayo, elena's right. today's a day to do something creative. i think i'm going to pull out that crappy poem i was writing yesterday and see if i can't somehow make it a little less clunky.
and i have a half-finished sketch in my new sketchbook. maybe i'll finish it today.
there's just this itty bitty little fizz, right at the back of my head. it's just a tiny little candle, but maybe if i cradle it today, cup my hands around it and carefully not breathe on it too hard, it'll become something bright.
feed your flame today, too, mayo.
no, no! not the one up there in your poem, not the devouring one, you pyro! feed the nurturing one. feed the one that warms and enlivens.
anyway, back tonight.
bye blogbelieve.
bye mayo. :)
TJ...I am not out...I am inside on the computer.
Was just looking at the Foo's Myspace.
I love their headline..." You may have heard some of our songs on the radio" wink
anon....lol
I am very sure thats true.
and words are cheap...I rarely boast about my actual prowess.....just my opportunities....but as you see I am still single...so.....my opportunities are truly not that impressive...at the moment.
am leaving now, but triston, glad you're safely inside the interweb. *grin*
i heard a radio interview with the foo fighters last january, and they really impressed me. what a smart and funny bunch of guys!
i wish i could have gone to that concert. *pout*
annnnnd! must go!
bye again, thou blogfolk.
bye again, o he who is named after sandwich spread.
:)
oh and the same goes for some of our feminine counter parts....
and they call me dead!
talk about have to do all the work....hmph!
have a nice day....off to sweet talk people out of their money....:D
and have great whatever TJ.
I mean have A great day,,,didint sound quite right the other way. ;)
'Pretty sad that If did even better than it did, isn't it?'
Well, Gerard did pour all his energies into promoting it!
i'll purchase 5 copies of tbpid tomorrow.
New blogger "Phoenix riddle" is posting the link to this blog in other places, whenever people ask her for it.
Be careful of Phoenix Riddle.
Thanks for the concern Anon, but that horse bolted about 10 months ago!
i like horses.
Yes be very careful i'm extremely dangerous mwahahaha
It was only one comment and I deleted it.
Sorry, I didnt know this was some sort of huge secret or something.
Hello Mayo,SS and Family!
My computer’s been a bitch this week,but hopefully I’ll be able to come here again from now on.
Mayo,great to see you.
Very evocative post.I really like it.
SS,you’re such a great friend!This means so much to MissT.
Thank you,we all appreciate what you’ve done.
PH,I’m sorry for what you’re going through.Remember we're here for you.
*BIG HUG*
Gnothi,HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY,MY FRIEND!
Lewis,I hope you’re okay.If you need somebody to talk too,you know where you can find me.
Toujours,I’m glad to know you’re okay!
MissT...
*BIG HUG FOR YOU*
Myranth,great to see you!
PP,THANK YOU! :D
Fimble,I owe you an email.Hope I’ll be able to send it later today.
Oh...LOVE YOU!
*grins*
Right,I think I’m done.
Tonight I’ll go to my friend’s band practice.I always have a lot of fun.Can’t wait!
I’ll see you all later,guys.
Love you!
*HUGS & KISSES*
Because of what happened here the last time this place was linked somewhere it is very rude to put the link whenever people ask for it. You said that you had lurked for a long time so you must know that.
I was getting kinda tired
Of her endless chatter
Nothing I could say
Ever seemed to matter
So I took a little drive
Just to clear my head
I saw a flashing neon, up ahead
It looked like a place
To find some satisfaction
With a little less talk
And a lot more action
I paid the man at the door
And pushed my way to the bar
Shouted for a drink
Over a screaming guitar
A drunk on a stool
Tried to mess with my head
But I didn't even listen
To a word he said
I knew somewhere
Amid all this distraction
Was a little less talk
And a lot more action
A little less talk
If you please
A lot more loving
Is what I need
Let's get on down
To the main attraction
With a little less talk
And a lot more action
Well she was fighting them off
At a corner table
She had a longneck bottle
She was peeling the label
The look on her face
It was perfectly clear
She said - somebody please
Get me - out of here
The look she shot me
Through the glass refraction
Said a little less talk
And a lot more action
A little less talk
If you please
A lot more loving
Is what I need
Let's get on down
To the main attraction
With a little less talk
And a lot more action
http://phoenixriddle.blogspot.com/
I'm sorry
hi phoenix riddle. it's ok. thank you for the apology.
☺
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
RAWR!
we have come to pillage and plunder
meow
You've got to be kidding me.
Mayonaise
Why do you have all the people.
Please, people, come to my blog. I will talk with you all and actually listen to you when you are in need.
RAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWR!
Puhhh-leeezze.
*rolls eyes*
We are the protoctors of Mayo's Blog!
RAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWR!
Hear us roar!
Damn it! I was trying to take a nap!
Creepy
Lucky
Adventurous
Unforgettable
Desperate
Important
Neat
Exhausting
RAWR?
Claudine?
I don't know any Claudine.
Sorry.
*scratches viking kitty behind the ear*
Lord Mayo, we are at your service.
Today is the greatest
Day I ’ve ever kown
Can’t live for tomorrow
Tomorrow’s much too long
I burn my eyes out
Before I get out
I wanted more
Than life could ever grant
Bored by the chore
Of saving face
Today is the greatest
Day I have ever known
Can’t wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
I’ll tear my heart out
Before I get out
Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
I’ve tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained
My belly stings
Today is
Today is
Today is
The greatest day
That I have ever known
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you round
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you
Today is the greatest
Today is the greatest day
Today is the greatest day
That I have ever known
hi!
anyone around?
hey far, how are you?
I am just doing my work. what have you been up to?
Smashing Pumpkins makes me very happy.
hi there fimmy! lovely to speak to you in person. i am just watching telly and chilling. its 21.03 here in england.
Hi Fimmy, Hi FASC,
'Sup? It's so meffin' hot here. I'm sweating!
very nice to speak to you as well far, it seems that i always miss you so a big hello to you :)
What are you watching, do you watch big brother?
hey solly, it is storming here, bloody pain cos its dark and i have jobs to do.
It always rains in Florida in the afternoon in the summertime. It's going to suck when we are in Orlando waiting in line and we are all wet.
hey solly!
its evening so its getting dark but its been quite humid today. nothing compared to anything you go thru where you live solly!
i haven't watched the last 2 Big Brothers fim. watched all the others before that though. the first was the best in 2000 with nasty nick!! i was addicted to that! now i can't be arsed!
It always rains in Florida in the afternoon in the summertime. It's going to suck when we are in Orlando waiting in line and we are all wet.
princess's hair will be all frizzy!! haha!
kidding princess!
i'm just jealous!
ohhh, i was addicted to the one with kate lawler and johnny, but i didnt really watch any others. i watch a bit of this one when i was over. the guy in there is from round the corner from where i used to live. it was quite funny in places lol.
solly, we are gonna get wet but you have to bring a brolly. to sheild you from the water,
Fim,
Can we stand outside and sing Umbrella....ella...ella..ella?
I guess I should get back to packing my shit.
I'll be back later.
johnny the fireman?? fim?
yeh well i did watch all those....they blend into each other don't they.
fimmy who is going to the gig with you other than solly and princess?
moi :)
I am going on my own hahaha, my friends are not really into that musicm they are into the 'low low low' songs and ones like that.
yes, i was talking about johnny the fireman and spencer and pj and jade.
i am going to pop off, i need to go to the bank. i will see you later and it was nice to talk to you far, sorry i have to bail. have a nice night ok :)
no worries fimmy!
see you around!
seeya also solly!
oh i wandered off just doing shit!
no one around.
no worries i am off for the night lovely people.
mayo and SS hope you are both doing good.
*hugs* to all!
you know those really meaningful ones where you don't mind pressing your breasts right against the other person.....cos they mean so damn much to you!
Don't know what I'm gonna do
About this feeling inside
always the romantic! you are the lucky one. to be surrounded by so many. (mine must have melted many moons ago)
Where did Phoenix Riddle decide to spread this around?
INO? We have another Self Destruction on our hands?
good morning
blog seems a bit deserted
hi anon
the only reason there is a problem with this blog being linked is that it seems to encourage a flurry of anons ranging from annoying to abusive.
not all of them are abusive
now it seems there are a few "mystery" loves coming out of the woodwork
i will kiss your sadness goodbye
anon the love anons don't bother me, and I don't think anyone else. Neither do anons who are nice.
If they were the only type who came there wouldn't be a problem, but unfortunately we usually get the other kinds,from annoying, the using capitals and a lot of z's in words type to abusive,the worst type
are you well?
no, i will love you in French
vous êtes coeur et mon âme soit la mienne pour toujours
I'm well, thanks for asking Ergo :)
It's the way of the world. Good and bad everywhere, even on the blog. Can't escape it, unfortunately.
very true anon
you have to take the sweet with the sour, or the sweet wouldn't seem so nice
:)
anyway I must be off for a time. I'm going to buy some bread mix to make bread for the first time in my
NEW STOVE!!!!
which for anyone interested perfectly cooked my brownies and the lasagne :)
see you anon, and other anon
back later
Sounds very yummy Ergo.
Bring some back!
i'll purchase 5 copies of tbpid tomorrow.
Lol. Smart move. That will make the band members maybe an extra dollar or so while you'll be at least a hundred dollars poorer.
i'll purchase 5 copies of tbpid tomorrow.
ok elena
i'm kind of glad that TBPID only sold 23,000 copies. maybe Gerard will wake up and realize what's ruining the band for the fans.
nope, he doesn't care. always more suckers out there.
no, I am your true love
Heavenly
Eudaemonic
Lubricious
Luscious
Mixedinsalads
Appetizing,
Nice
Nutritious
Scrumptious
i think if MCR added interviews and backstage shit to TBPID, they would have sold more copies.
backstage shit? Nah, then it would be all about the wife.
what's her name?
Yumm Ergo.Sounds like good cooking to me. I will be there. Wait for me. It will only take 24 hours to get there. No, wait it will take longer. Our wonderful airline system that we have in place now.
I have to find a flight quickly. that will never happen.Unforseen charges I will have to dispute, and there will be delays on flights.
Then the check points will take about three hours while they check my shoes for mold spores or whatever else they are looking for.
If they suspect me of anything, the wrong look,a crooked smile I'll be hauled off and tortured for all the info I know. (even about the land of make believe)
Can't do it.
Eh, forget it! Not worth it. Would take me three days and I think dinner will be cold and eaten by that time. I am never flying again! lmao
*As ergo looks at me strangely and shakes her head*
Hey, I was bored, raining here. Think I will go play a game. Either that or listen to the hubby play guitar. I don't mind him playing,its the singing that makes me cringe. hahaha. Dont tell him I said that! >_<
Where is everyone!? >_>
<_<
Hellooooooo. Echooooo,echoooo
scary
very dark in here isnt it
sorry, better leave you two love birds alone
Kapunua come back
I miss your snark!
I liked the passionate political stuff last night. Exausting but inspiring.
yeah, me too
Tomorrow will be another part of yesterday
And yesterday will be another part of the day before
Wait, I hear another song insomnia
About the days I wasn't tired
And doing that "fun retro look"
I stay awake for days
I stay awake for days
But I'd sit awake in daze anyway
I'm a maze of chains
Hey don't use the term accommodation
I won't be there for that and that will never be there for me
And I need to get some sleep slash resolution
About the days I wasn't tired
And doing that "fun retro thing"
I stay awake for days
I stay awake for days
But I'd sit awake in daze anyway
I'm a maze of chains
Over in the corner of a circle
I sleep behind this bedroom
I see "fun retro look"
Dine behind a suitcase in an empty room
It's time to leave millions behind
Hey that's what I took from retro look
I stay awake for days
I stay awake for days
But I'd sit awake in daze anyway
I'm a maze of chains
It's you that I adore
You'll always be my whore
You'll be the mother to my child
And a child to my heart
We must never be apart
We must never be apart
Lovely girl you're the beauty in my world
Without you there aren't reasons left to find
And I'll pull your crooked teeth
You'll be perfect just like me
You'll be a lover in my bed
And a gun to my head
We must never be apart
We must never be apart
In you I see dirty
In you I count stars
In you I feel so pretty
In you I taste god
In you I feel so hungry
In you I crash cars
We must never be apart
Drinking mercury
To the mystery of all that you should ever seek to find
Lovely girl you're the murder in my world
Dressing coffins for the souls I've left behind
In time
We must never be apart
And you'll always be my whore
Cause you're the one that i adore
And I'll pull your crooked teeth
You'll be perfect just like me
In you I feel so dirty in you I crash cars
In you I feel so pretty in you I taste god
We must never be apart
You'll never see - the courage I know
Its colors' richness won't appear within your view
I'll never glow - the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgements made on you
But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch; I see from greater heights
I understand what I am still too proud to mention - to you
You'll say you understand, but you don't understand
You'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye
But never is a promise, and you can't afford to lie
You'll never touch - these things that I hold
The skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
You'll never feel the heat of this soul
My fever burns me deeper than I've ever shown - to you
You'll say, Don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems
You'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a promise and you can't afford to lie
You'll never live the life that I live
I'll never live the life that wakes me in the night
You'll never hear the message I give
You'll say it looks as though I might give up this fight
But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch, I see from greater heights
I realize what I am now too smart to mention - to you
You'll say you understand, you'll never understand
I'll say I'll never wake up knowing how or why
I don't know what to believe in, you don't know who I am
You'll say I need appeasing when I start to cry
But never is a promise and I'll never need a lie
BI, why are you posting love songs to Mayo?
I thought you were married?
Ooo, "Ava Adore," such a good one...and I forgot to say anything the other night to the anon who posted "Should I Stay or Should I Go?" MAN, I love that song! But it depends: do you want to stay where you are, or go somewhere else?
Phoenix Riddle, hi, I'm J, or OPJ, how're you doing? Don't sweat it about the URL. It's gotten out so many times before; you didn't know not to post it other places. But now you do, and have no plans to do it again, so it's all good. Biggest problem that happens with that is, persistent, sometimes rude people decide to come bother us, and then it takes forever to get rid of them, and it's pandemonium in here for days, sometimes weeks.
It's no fun. :P
So, we just keep quietly to ourselves, and things usually go pretty well. If you want to visit my blog, like Emerald said, please feel free. (She's the other half of what used to be "Original Punks"; she's L.)
Anyway, we have company coming in a few minutes; J2's birthday was Monday, and she's coming for dinner. I'll probably be back on later. See y'all then!
I got one fer ya Mayo!
This shit is bananas!
B-A-N-A-N-A-S!
This shit is bananas!
B-A-N-A-N-A-S!
Yeah, that's all I got.
Bwah!
Thanks, Smoke. You just reminded me that I own that CD.
Did you know that sometimes I forget I own certain CD's? Like last night I was trying to find a certain one and I was looking and looking, up and down, and then I was like "Fallout Boy, WTF? How did that get in here?" And then I remembered, I bought it.
I do that a lot.
You bought Fallout Boy? O_o
Gwen Stefani, I can understand but Fallout Boy?
Bwahahaha!
smoke, what happened to your name yesterday?
Oh, Hell to the nawwhhh!
I bought Fallout Boy on your recommendation, I am quite sure. Yes, I am positive.
Uh huh!
Mayo messed her name up because he was tired of Smoke picking on him.
Mayo=Blogger
STFU SOLLY! >_< I have never liked Fallout Boy. I'll never admit to that.
Nah, one or two songs is somewhat decent.
Anon,
Mayo was hatin' on me yesterday. So he effed up my name. He iz just jelluz of my awesomeness.
Smoke lost her name just like Tubby Stewart lost his ride. hahahaha
jr rules
Is he still hatin on you? Is that why your name is still fucked up?
Dude knows how to hold a grudge is all I'm sayin!
Uh.
Uh.
Uh.
I am just speechless.
O_O
Tubby Stewart for the win!
Bwahahah!
Wha-wha-wha-whaddup?
Hey, everybody!
Bad boy!
I thought for a moment, you turned all rock chick on us :)
And for the record, Juuuuun-yerrr, Tony bought his own ride. :)
That's what big time champions do.
They buy their own race team. ^_^
Niiiice. Tony = BIG MONEY GRIP!
MUUUUUSSSSTTTTAAARRRDDD!!!
Mustard,
Whatchoo doin? I am listening to "Cop Stop"!
Cop Stop?
What the hell is that?
Learn, Smoke. Learn.
Become educated and enlightened.
I'm gonna smack you. >_<
Where the hell did Mustard go? She like said 'whaddup' and 'poof' she's gone.
She's like the wind.....
the only thing Tubby Stewart is gripping is a bucket of chicken.
jr rules
"She Holds The Key" is my favorite, I think, off of that album.
Off of Chariot? The whole damn album blows my effing mind, especially the all acoustic disc.
*is happy we are discussing Gavin and/or music in both places*
I am liking real rock 101.1 on my radio.
Just to throw that out for you all to know :)
hello again
I'm gonna bake bread!
well mix it and let it rise, then knead it and let it rise, than bake bread!
so while I wait I'm gonna have nachos
Solly,
We should listen to Gavin tomorrow. Oh wait, we won't be able to listen to anything! @_@
WHAT ARE WE GONNA DO?!?!?!
Jr,
One of these days, I'm gonna getchoooo!!!!
Hey FIMBLE!!!!!!!
Hey ERGO!!!!!!!
hi fim smoke mustard sdock how are you all?
nachos with cheese and salsa on? and wowee on your new stove or should that be NEW STOVE. how does it cook, is it absolutely made of win?
I guess we can fucking sing, Smoke. You, me, Jackass, and LHM.
how rude,
HELLO SMOK,
HELLO ERGO,
HELLO SLASH,
HELLO SOLLY,
HELLO ANYONE ELSE OUT THERE.
Smokie, looks like someone has a crush on you!
Ergo, how long do you knead the dough?
Hiya Ergo and Fimmy!
I'm off for a bath.
God, Solly.
You make it sound so exciting.
O_O
We're gonna be like National Lampoon's.
ME
Nice! How you like that, Mayo?!?!?
Huh?
Huh?
BAM!
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