When I was young I was picked on quite a bit. The usual set of circumstances, I was an easy target (smart, quiet, odd, insecure) and once the kids found my buttons they didn’t relent. For a long time I tried to ignore them. I spent a lot of time reading because I thought that with a book in front of my face I would blend into the background. And, for a while I did. From behind those first books I developed my love of the written word. Beginning with the marvels I found in the library and then later the stories I found in my own head. My need to escape elementary school torment helped foster my imagination, I suppose. I need to thank those kids for that.
So anyway, a few times the kids pretended that they wanted to be my friend. A kid would ask if I wanted to hang out on the playground either at recess or after school. The first couple of times I bought it. It was a pathetic display of desperation that, looking back now, makes me laugh. You can see that kid, right?...very awkward, over-filled book bag, disheveled clothes, greasy hair, hopeful smile. I would wait for my friend to show up and of course they wouldn’t and I would eventually trudge home. Sometimes they would gather somewhere along my route and give me a hard time shouting “Who were you waiting for back there?” and “Did you really think we’d be friends with you.” It was worse when they would wait until the next day bringing my humiliation to school to share with the rest of the class.
Why am I telling you this? Well…insight I suppose and also to offer some context that you may draw from for those times when I seem a bit vague (yes, really). I have had to overcome and still battle with some pretty substantial trust issues. Always present in the back of my mind is the voice telling me to watch out for anyone who gets too close because they probably have an ulterior motive that will leave me in a rut. It has taken me a long time and years of therapy to be able to ignore that voice and share even my more simple weaknesses with friends (without the guise of fiction). And, so I share this piece of myself, my past with you.
p.s. I am not sure what you will glean from my palate but my gut holds plenty.
(Not at present: soon and I'll let you know when.)
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Haha, I tried
I'm sorry, PH.
I didnt know that's what you were going for.
Haha, its okay! I'm just bored to the limit! =]
I'm going to do hair and make-up before work. Maybe get a few minutes of guitar in there!
As I said earlier, have a nice day at work everyone! *hug*
Bye, 'Anon'. <33
Hello everyone! I was just catching up a bit and I have to say:
MYA: I adore that chip on your shoulder!!!! I hope it never falls off! I'll adore you either way though - with chip or without! ;)
Ergo: WOW!!!! That's for your dad. I forgot to do the "I am impressed" thing this morning. What a talented man your daddy is!
Elena: Secondary? Never!
Paperheart: Are you ready for that recital yet? I'm ready when you are!
L: Hello!!!!!!
Okay, that is all for now. Carry on, everyone! And, have a fun afternoon!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Anchovy, huh?
This tells me all I need to know.
Hey, just in for a minute to leave a few links for anyone who wants to check on them. The first one is for Amnesty International. Over the years, they have been responsible for many changes in human rights the world over. When I joined in my mid-teens, I sent many letters to leaders of countries who violated the basic human rights code, as well as sending letters to prisoners to let them know that they were not forgotten.
I have to admit, the first time I went out of the country after 9/11, I wondered if I was going to be allowed to leave. I know I have been on a list somewhere for years, but that pales in comparison to what can be accomplished.
Recently, the USA has landed higher on the list of human rights violaters than ever before. Please check them out if you would.
Amnesty International
Thanks!
Hey Wendy! Hey Bubbles! How are you guys today?
And Mya! Hi!
hello anon
In and out!
Mustard, have you seen August Rush? I know how intensely you feel music, and I think that you would enjoy it.
No, I haven't, Anonymous! I took a peek at the plot line, and I definitely want to watch it! It sounds like it would be a really good, touching story.
Thank you for the recommendation. :)
Someone want to tell me why "November Rain" is stuck in my head?
'Tis okay. I ♥ it.
Later!
This is the other link I wanted to share. Diabetes is an ever present part of my life, with J., my Mum, Dad, Sister, several aunts and uncles, cousins, etc. fighting it every day.
I try to join in the Walk-A-Thon each year to raise money for research and education. I have seen many changes over the years in the medicines, understanding of the disease, etc.
Some of the meds my friends and family are on did not even exist 4 or 5 years ago, or even 2 years ago.
I don't have an international link, but this will give you the info.
American Diabetes Association
Again, Thanks!
*sigh*
I am so bored. >_<
Ok. I'm just gonna go ahead and scream it for the billionth time:
I MISS SS!!!!!!!!
:(
Mayo,
I am so sorry you had to go through that in your childhood, and more than likely even now. Trust is a tricky thing. You want to think that people are sincere and like you for you, not for any other reason.
I used to trust more openly, and would up getting my fingers burned on that stove many times. I have found it harder to trust over the years, but I am always willing to give someone a chance. I completely understand that I have to earn that persons trust as well, and I try to not let them down.
Unfortunately, there are people out there who will take advantage of you, who will pretend to care about you and be your friend, just to get what they can out of you to further their agenda. And then when you don't expect it, they will just leave you high and dry, forgoing any promise or friendship they had insisted was there.
Not everyone is like that, and sometimes you do have to give them a chance.
Being bullied by other children is horrible, and some never grow out of it. They continue to bully all of their lives, still think they can force people to stand down from them and meekly walk away.
Don't allow yourself to be bullied, or told you're not good enough, or see yourself as the loser kid in school. That was their loss.
Don't let a lack of trust keep you from the people who DO have your best intrests at heart, that DO love you for who you are, for the person you are.
Speaking of which, I asked you a long time ago about best friend. I asked you if you ever told him you were sorry. Remember that? He did tell you, but I never knew what you said.
Don't turn your back on the ones who truly care. You don't need the cool kids, nor someone to tell you constantly how wonderful you are no matter what you do.
Look for the ones who will be truthful with you, who will be there through good and bad times, who will want to smack the crap out of you when you need it, and hold you when you need it.
Just my opinion. You don't have to listen to it, read it or take it.
Have a good day, Mayo.
Emerald (A.K.A Original Punks L)
Hi Smoke. Aside from being bored and missing SS, how are you today? :)
hello
Hey, Martha.
hello l
What are you doing today, Martha?
Pretty much sums it up, L.
Hi MJ!
Well, I hope you guys are doing okay today. I gotta get my ass back to work.
See ya!
See ya, Smoke. I guess I could be doing a few things around here too. I just wanted to post a few links and throw my two cents in about the post.
Everyone, have a great day. I probably will be on later this evening. If not, J. more than likely will.
Love,
L.
hello smoke
l i am not doing anything
it's dead in here.
Fitting for then, maybe for now:
I just don't feel it in this place
Their thoughts cast me out of here
Their home has run out of space
My mind's already out of here
Won't you come along, dear?
Won't you come along?
Words that are spoke alone
Phrases you will never hear
Empty rooms and a telephone
That I will never use
Never fear
I am all alone, dear
I am all alone
My dogs come sit next to me
A pack of dogs and cigarettes
My only friends speak no words to me
But they look at me and they don't forget
That a boy's best friend
Is his mother or whatever has become his pet
-The White Stripes
this post has Gerard Way written all over it. you can go on forever with the similarities between Mayo and Gerard's childhood.
Mayo was picked on in school, so was Gerard.
Mayo found comfort in books, so did(and still does) Gerard.
Mayo read Marvels and made up stories in his head, so did Gerard. etc.............
^ Yes, thank you, Mayo, for that insight.
A little girl went to her bedroom and pulled a glass jelly jar from Its hiding place in the closet.
She poured the change out on the floor and counted it carefully.
Three times, even. The total had to be exactly perfect. No chance here for mistakes.
Carefully placing the coins back in the jar and twisting on the cap, she slipped out the back door and made her way 6 blocks to Rexall's Drug Store with the big red Indian Chief sign above the door.
She waited patiently for the pharmacist to give her some attention, But he was too busy at this moment. Tess twisted her feet to make a scuffing noise. Nothing. She cleared her throat with the most disgusting sound She could muster. No good. Finally she took a quarter from her jar and Banged it on the glass counter. That did it!
'And what do you want?' the pharmacist asked in an annoyed tone of voice.
I'm talking to my brother from Chicago whom I haven't seen in ages,' he said without waiting for a reply to his question.
'Well, I want to talk to you about my brother,' Tess answered back in The same annoyed tone. 'He's really, really sick..and I want to buy a miracle.'
'I beg your pardon?' said the pharmacist.
'His name is Andrew and he has something bad growing inside his head And my Daddy says only a miracle can save him now. So how much does a Miracle cost?'
'We don't sell miracles here, little girl. I'm sorry but I can't help you,' the pharmacist said, softening a little
'Listen, I have the money to pay for it. If it isn't enough, I will get the rest. Just tell me how much it costs.'
The pharmacist's brother was a well dressed man. He stooped down and Asked the little girl, 'What kind of a miracle does your brother need?'
' I don't know,' Tess replied with her eyes welling up. I just know he's really sick and Mommy says he needs an operation. But my Daddy can't Pay for it, so I want to use my money.'
'How much do you have?' asked the man from Chicago .
'One dollar and eleven cents,' Tess answered barely audibly.
'And it's all the money I have, but I can get some more if I need to.'
'Well, what a coincidence,' smiled the man. 'A dollar and eleven cents---the exact price of a miracle for little brothers. '
He took her money in one hand and with the other hand he grasped her mitten and said 'Take me to where you live. I want to see your Brother and meet your parents. Let's see if I have the miracle you need.'
That well dressed man was Dr. Carlton Armstrong, a surgeon, specializing in neuro-surgery. The operation was completed free of charge and it wasn't long until Andrew was home again and doing well.
Mom and Dad were happily talking about the chain of events that had led them to this place.
'That surgery,' her Mom whispered. 'was a real miracle. I wonder how Much it would have cost?'
Tess smiled. She knew exactly how much a miracle cost...one dollar and eleven cents....plus the faith of a little child.
In our lives, we never know how many miracles we will need.
A miracle is not the suspension of natural law, but the operation of a higher law.
hello mayo. We were on the beach again today with no mobile phone reception and as we drove back to the caravan my hand was twitching to grab mr bloke's phone from his charger in the car. So in the end i just had to feed my mayo addiction and i eventually got the page to load and *sharp intake of breath* mr bloke goes "what?" to which i reply "new post!" (he sighed) so i read you and can i just say thank you so much for sharing that with us. We have shared many hurtful events in our lives here with you and each other, its nice to know that you can trust us with your more painful memories. I got a tear in my eye whilst reading. I think so many of us here can relate to your story of your school years. Not necessarily the same exactly and to varying degrees but alot of us do understand. So really thanks so much for trusting that with us. And i have to just give you a *hug* also.
Cant do paragraphs on this phone and this is taking me for fucking ever. Thanks to everyone else who shared similar stories also. Oh shit really cant paragraph at all. Ss hello to you also. Fuck i have turned pre emptive text off by accident my holiday will be over before i get this comment done. Anyway gotta go. Miss you all. Wendy i am off over to my cousins caravan now. I will ask for a glass of red wine for you ok. Right sorry cant hang with you guys. If this phone posts multiple comments apologies. Love to you all.
Five miles outside of Vegas when we broke down
Threw my keys inside the window and we never looked back
Got all drunk and sloppy on a Greyhound bus
We passed out, all them losers they were laughing at us
I will never let them break your heart
No I will never let them break me
We got lost in Phoenix, seemed like such a long time
Seven months of livin' swimming on those thin white lines
Did some time for sellin' acid to the wrong guy
Life just keeps on gettin' smaller and we never ask why
Why there is no perfect place, yes I know this is true
I'm just learning how to smile
That's not easy to do
I know there will come a day
When we can leave and just go runnin' away
We was broke outside of Philly when the storms came
I was working in New Jersey, hitchin' rides in the rain
You was happy talkin' dirty at that phone sex place
Life just keeps on gettin' weirder for us every day
You say there is no perfect place, I say I know this is true
We are just learning how to smile
That's not easy to do
We both live for the day
When we can run away
Oh baby we can leave and run away
Yes we can leave this place and run away
We can leave it all behind like we do every time
Yes we both live for the day
When we can leave and just go runnin' away
No I will never let it break your heart
No I will never let it break me
Five miles outside of Vegas, five years down the line
We got married in the desert and the sunshine
I can't handle how the hell it happens every day
When you smile and touch my face
You make it all just go away
Yes I know there ain't no finish line, I know this never ends
But I'm just learning how to fall, climb back up again
I know there is nothing perfect, I know there is nothing new
We are just learning how to live together, me and you
You know I live for the day
When you say "Baby let's just run away"
Oh baby we can leave and run away
Yes we can leave this place and run away
Baby we can leave and run away
We can leave this place and run away
Do you ever think about running away
'cause i was thinkin' about leavin' today
We'll follow forever where our hearts wanna go
Maybe we'll live somewhere where nobody knows our names
Then things might change for the good
I wanna be somewhere so far away
To lie under the night at the end of another good day
I can't tell you how long we'll be gone
But as long as we're together then forever's never too long
Too long, oh no
Do you ever think about not comin' back
Hoppin' on a train and we'll burn up the tracks
We'll jump off somewhere that we don't know how to say
Maybe hitch a ride from someone who can tell us the way
To where these things might change for the good
I wanna be somewhere so far away
[ Runaway lyrics brought to you by LyricsYouLove ]
To lie under the night at the end of another good day
I can't tell you how long we'll be gone
But as long as we're together then forever's never too
Where forever is never too long
Not with you right here by me
Maybe, maybe we'll just see
Where this road will lead for us
I wanna be somewhere so far away
To lie under the night at the end of another good day
I can't tell you how long we'll be gone
But as long as we're together then forever's never too
I wanna be somewhere so far away
To lie under the night at the end of another good day
I can't tell you how long we'll be gone
But as long as we're together then forever's never too
Forever is never too long
One dollar and eleven cents. That's just a really good reminder. Thank you for posting.
Hey, MJ and FASC and BI!
FASC,
Have fun, be safe, and take good fucking care! Tell Mr. Bloke hello!
i think if you read Mayo's last post and this post, you can pretty much figure out who "Mayo" is. i think "Mayo" is hurt by some of the things that are being said about him.
4:30 anonymous,
Thank you.
♥
Anonymous said...
this post has Gerard Way written all over it. you can go on forever with the similarities between Mayo and Gerard's childhood.
really?
Mayo was picked on in school, so was Gerard.
so was I
Mayo found comfort in books, so did(and still does) Gerard.
so do I
Mayo read Marvels and made up stories in his head, so did
Gerard. etc.............
so did I
July 28, 2008 4:25 PM
anyone who knows about Gerard knows these things common knowledge
proves nothing much. to me it doesnt have Gerard written all over it. proves that many people experienced the same or similar circumstances thats all
Sometimes the truth hurts....
See, and I see the opposite. I don't think Gerard would say something like this these days. He's too busy being "The Cool Kids."
I just spent the day minding Boychild and now i have to get dinner real quick and hustle off to Kung Fu!
anon 4:48
people have similarities, but every bit of that is him.
I just don't see jimmy,being one of the cool kids in school.Maybe thats why he is so wacky,maybe that keep him from being beat up in school.He played the crazy card.
k,
i disagree, when you go through traumatic experiences in life, they always stay with.
For sure they do. I'm just not convinced that Gerard was ever that person in the first place. Since last summer it's been all about "LOOK AT ME GET LAID LOL, HEY GIRLS MOAN FOR ME, LISTEN TO THIS BAND SING ABOUT BITCHES AND N*GGERS!" and renting chimps and buying big fancy diamonds and living in LA and throwing Frank to the ground, and having hissy fits onstage and throwing equipment.
This "I'm So Sensitive, people picked on me" thing seems less and less likely. To me, anyway. Gerard is the BMOC.
See, and I see the opposite. I don't think Gerard would say something like this these days. He's too busy being "The Cool Kids."
He will regret that one day,he should of stuck with his real friends.
k,
Mayo posted the link to this blog at a Gerard Way bashing blog. Mayo's first post was a response to LM blog. so i don't get how you can say that you never thought it was him.
We will see if the cool crowd stands by him when he isn't so popular and famous.
Anonymous said...
I just don't see jimmy,being one of the cool kids in school.Maybe that's why he is so wacky,maybe that keep him from being beat up in school.He played the crazy card.
July 28, 2008 4:55 PM
I don't think JU was the cool kid either but I don't think he was an out cast either.
JU has said that his band wants no thing more than money from their fans.
I don't think an outcast would say that. An outcast would either want to help people who suffered like them or to show the people who treated them like shit just how much better they are then them now.
Ju seems to be more of an average person. He may have been bullied but not enough for it to have lasting damage.
He may have even been one of the people who bullied the outcast.
Gerard's wife talks shit about other people who are more talented than her. But she complains that she was fat and rejected too. They are both liars.
They will always stay with you. But you have to find a way to move on from those experiences and not let them be the impetus for current and future behavior.
He may have even been one of the people who bullied the outcast.
So true mj
5:04, please tell me where I said I never thought it was him.
Oh, you can't! because I never said that.
I said I don't think it's Gerard now. I stopped entertaining the idea that it was him back in December, around the time of the "moan for me" stuff.
LOL, yeah, I can see JU as the "B group." Now he' hanging onto the really Popular Kid, the BMOC, so that he can be popular, too. But you know he not-so-secretly hates that guy.
Obviously that's just a cliche scenario but I can see it fitting. JU is so full of crap.
k,
you just said you were NEVER convinced it was him.
Obviously that's just a cliche scenario but I can see it fitting. JU is so full of crap.
July 28, 2008 5:08 PM
When you stop and look at the things going on around you. life is noting more a group of cliched scenarios strung together.
Kapunua,
what would you do if Gerard ever revealed himself to be "Mayo"?
Woo! I found a totally gorgeous dress for the wedding!
And I only paid $15 for it!
-A
k,
you just said you were NEVER convinced it was him.
She is talking about Gerard and you are talking about Mayo. Keep up.
I was never convinced. And I never will be either way. It just seems highly unlikely.
I dunno what I would do if I found out for sure that Mayo was Gerard. Be really disappointed, probably. I haven't given it much thought since around that time.
I don't even know which anon I'm talking to anymore, tbh.
If GW were Mayo I think that might be a good thing. Because it would mean that part of him has been questioning his own behavior.
Amy I am glad you found a dress.
Thank you anon
You will never be disappointed, Kapunua. Mayo may be a lot of things, but he is not Gerard.
Kapunua, I think there are 3 anons, including myself. I posted at 5:06, (first one)
Anonymous said...
Sometimes the truth hurts....
July 28, 2008 4:49 PM
what truth? the truth that mayo may be GW? if thats what you mean and if it ever came down to the fact that it was GW. I wouldnt care. I may joke around as I have said in the past, it doesnt matter to me one way or another.
I wouldnt say anything different than if he was in the room with me. thats how I am though.
or do you mean the truth hurts in regards to mayo's words on the latest post?
either way, doesnt hurt me
there must be four of us then
♥♥
heart anon, you baffle me
I think it's cute
Hallo Heart Anon!
♥ ♥
-A
♥♥
Hi All!
How is everyone?
Hiya Solly!
♥ ♥
-A
I think you're right, 5:20.
And because MCR is off tour I want to throw something out there that I never really felt comfy throwing out before; on the exceedingly slim chance that I was right in my guess and would get Mayo in trouble.
For a while I'd entertained the idea that Mayo was MCR's either lighting or pyro dude. One night I was just wondering, and something Mayo said had set that idea off and all of a sudden I started thinking about all of Mayo's references to "light" and "the light" this and "the light" that and I was like, "OMG, he's a lighting or pyro person. Heh. You'd have to probably have been here from the beginning and be pretty sharp to have caught every reference that Mayo made, and I know that I missed probably most of them, but for a while I thought he traveled with them and had something to do with the lights.
See the other thing is, Mayo has also revealed one or two things regarding his opinion of Gerard. THese he revealed as someone on the outside looking in. Perhaps others missed them, but most of us knew it was him, and a lot of the time he time-stamped it. Like one time we were all talking about this totally out-of-bounds behavior of Gerard's, right? And this was, I think, before he had his hissy fit at the music awards and definitely before the chimp, and LA and all that junk. It was probably around the "Hey girls moan for me" thing.
Anyway, a bunch of us were discussing Gerard's new chest-beating, alpha male behavior, and Mayo came in and said something to the effect of, "Perhaps he is throwing his shadow against the wall," which was a reference to something he had written (only with more commas, I'm sure. ;D )
The point is that this is hardly something someone would say if they themselves were indulging in that kind of behavior. If you were that introspective that you could see both the effect and the cause, you'd stop; you'd say something; you'd change. Because you'd get it. But Gerard has done none of those things, and at this point likely never will.
Mayo is someone who strikes me as having sympathy for Gerard sometimes, though who also laughs at his antics (or at us making fun of his antics,) and who can probably relate very strongly, but also has the introspection to not let himself be that person.
Gerard is the Cool Kid, the successful LA dude who doesn't give a toss. You know, he's Happy, Fulfilled, he can shout his fans down and get cheered by thousands of people, he can puke on stage and throw it to the audience and get cheered, he can ask thousands of girls to moan for him and they do, and they cheer. His clique is made up of thousands, and they all cheer for him.
Mayo? Not so much.
Well, I really have got to get ready to go to Kung Fu. I'll pop in real quickly before rushing out and perhaps be on later.
Anyway, that's my thoughts on Mayo / Gerard.
If Mayo were Gerard he wouldn't be talking about how he was bullied in school. He'd be telling you all about how he spent time doing something really cool with his new besties like, "smashing bottles in a parking lot," or about how he's a "fully functioning grown-up" (who just so happens to smash bottles, rent chimps and write on himself with permanent marker) and how amaaayzing his life is.
No, Gerard would never tell you something that personal (unless of course he was trying to sell you something).
Before I go, Hi Solly!
This whole argument, is Mayo GW or not, is nonsensical.
If he implies he is, he could be lying, if he doesn't, he could be lying, either way you would never really know.
Hi Amy!
Hi Jules, Bye Jules! Have fun!
Hi Anon(s)!
I don't think Mayo is Gerard because I kind of like Mayo.
Can't fucking stand Gerard Way.
Anonymous said...
This whole argument, is Mayo GW or not, is nonsensical.
If he implies he is, he could be lying, if he doesn't, he could be lying, either way you would never really know.
July 28, 2008 5:34 PM
No need to get upset about it. It is just talk and people throwing out ideas.
Sometimes you need to get something off your chest. No matter how silly it maybe.
Hi MJ!
I'll be right back. I need to make a spaghetti run!
-A
His clique is made up of thousands, and they all cheer for him.
Ouch.
'
You have a way of writing things that makes it very hard to argue.
And from last night I still want to see the Vampire Hunter, Hand picture!!
I'm gonna go feed my doggies before it storms.
Be back in a bit.
If GW were Mayo I think that might be a good thing. Because it would mean that part of him has been questioning his own behavior.
marth, martha, martha. i agree :)
good morning all
It's cold here today
Does anyone have the link to the video or picture of Lyndsey wearing her diamond ring?
Amy you must tell me about your dress 9and a bargain it was!)
hi MJ sdock anon and I think everyone else has left
Actually, I remember an interview where Gerard actually said that he wasn't bullied in school - that he was a loner who was pretty much ignored by everyone up until the last couple of years in high school when he was considered kind of cool (although, still not popular) because of some of the things he was into.
Surely someone else read that too?
Martha, I wasn't upset. Maybe my words conveyed that to you. My apologies.
And I agree, you can throw it out there. I just threw mine out too :)
anon I don't recall him saying so much on being bullied, like you it was more didn't fit and was ignored
My anime
You're An Intellectual!
You can always be found reading or on the computer. People always come to you when they need information. You don't really care about love at this point, your only goal is to improve your mind. After all, knowledge is power!
Hello ergo and Martha
all this silly talk of mayo being Gerard for shame. :)
Are you keeping warm ergo? I hope so. I am looking forward to the fall and cooler weather.
yup yup, he said he wasn't so much bullied as left alone. then later it was cool to be weird and so people began to pay attention to him with his long black hair, metal t-shirts and army jacket.
Hello peeps!
Hello sd.
Thank you anon. I wish it were true but it isn't lily with the new GW.
It took me forever to post that comment cause blogger is being an ass again
i wonder if lyn-z's diamond was conflict free
Martha, I have always held a deep distrust of rockstars. They are just playing to an image that is marketed to you. Somehow they have to find a way to protect their real "shelves".
knowledge is power!
I agree. I also believe that information is a form of currency. The more you know, the more you get places.
Anonymous said...
Martha, I wasn't upset. Maybe my words conveyed that to you. My apologies.
And I agree, you can throw it out there. I just threw mine out too :)
July 28, 2008 5:52 PM
I couldn't think of a word to use other than upset. No need to apologize.
Other anon I remember hearing that as well. But It is strange because I think Gw change his story when his high school pictures came out.
Also I haven't seen any early pictures of GW with long hear in school.
Hello everyone who is here.
I don't know anon but I'd like to see a pic of it
maybe it's a created diamond, they are cruelty free, they are nature free too
Anon @ 5:58. I love that army jacket! I want it. I have always wanted one since John Lennon.Just sayin :)
Hello Miss T, MJ and everyone
I dont care about Lindsey's ring!
yeah, I know the diamond mines etc.
I do know, I care, but I dont care what they do
That is their business.
WTF is Pistachio and Anchovy? Thats just plain nasty! Yuk. Unless ir represents a paradox or opposites of some kind
Or I am reading too much into it and Mayo like it. Eww
:)
Oh no you di'nt!
what year was that school pic of him and Mikey from?
I saw prom photos too, I don't recall him having really long hair in those either. But it was a while ago I saw it
Hiya Bl sweetie, how are you?
Hiya Ergo and MJ, how are you guys?
Hiya any nice anons here.
Kerrang - 1/13/2007 -- a reprint of an older article:
"Gerard says his schooldays were 'pretty solitary. I didn't have too many friends. I was really isolated and found solace at the comic book store. One of my first days in high school I sat all alone lunch time. It was the classic story - the weird kid in an army jacket, a horror movie T-shirt, long black hair. People were never really mean to me, they just left me alone. I think I wanted to be alone too.'"
ergoproxy said...
I don't know anon but I'd like to see a pic of it
maybe it's a created diamond, they are cruelty free, they are nature free too
July 28, 2008 6:05 PM
Maybe it is really cubic zirconia. Cause I don't think GW has that kind of money to be spending the way he does.
Love.
trying to remember the interview but he might have said it was art college that he was accepted as it was cool to be weird. anyone else remember?
I am good MissT. The question is How are you? I read you are ok. I was sending positive vibes your way, I was. Did you have a good weekend?
That Kerrang article does say he wasn't bullied in school, but it isn't the one I was thinking about. *still looking*
Maybe MSI are in the money too. I did notice she was sporting an YSL downtown shopper tote as her purse in the recent comic con pics.
I do believe they retail for around $1500.
HI missT :)
hey!!
I just thought, you could put pistachios and anchovies together in a pesto
perhaps with basil or rocket
perhaps he's cooking
trying to remember the interview but he might have said it was art college that he was accepted as it was cool to be weird. anyone else remember? He said his senior year he was kinda popular because he could draw and he drew something on a guys arm and that guy was going to get a tattoo.
Martha, you are funny. :)
If someone bought me(without my knowledge) a CZ ring i would smack em. I swear I would! Thats all I have to say about the subject.
=)
Maybe it is really cubic zirconia. Cause I don't think GW has that kind of money to be spending the way he does.
are you kidding me? he would have to outdo or at least keep up with mikey.
yeah but you can get rip offs in asia for a lot less
I think it was a wolve?
wolf..sorry
BI said...
WTF is Pistachio and Anchovy? That's just plain nasty! Yuk. Unless ir represents a paradox or opposites of some kind
Or I am reading too much into it and Mayo like it. Eww
:)
July 28, 2008 6:07 PM
Mayo is either pregnant or an alien. Because those are combinations of food that only those two groups of people would eat.
With GW he is always changing his story. Look at how he is now saying that msi helped them out so much in the early days.
I don't think he ever had long hair because in every old picture of him it is short. Even in the footage of him on that talk show short. Someone he went to art school with put up a picture on their blog short hair.
I think the whole long hair thing was just him giving a description of a type of person.
it doesn't have to be a CZ to be synthetic, they have all the lines of created stones now, and they are cheaper as they don't involve any mining
and they are diamond (or emerald/sapphire/ruby etc) just not made by nature
in fact you'd be hard pressed to find a natural emerald these days, they are mainly synthetic stones now
BI said...
I am good MissT. The question is How are you? I read you are ok. I was sending positive vibes your way, I was. Did you have a good weekend?
I felt them sweetie. We had a nice time. We talked about dad a lot and laughed. That felt good. We fed the seagulls doughnuts which is a tradition as my mum is convinced one of them is dad come back for his doughnuts cos he loved em.
I ate far too much but it was lovely to have some family memory time.
Did you have a nice weekend?
Yo Ergo, we finally have a summer. It is scorching here. I hope it is tomorrow cos I am gonna get my inflatable pool out and sit in some lovely cool water.
Anonymous said...
Maybe MSI are in the money too. I did notice she was sporting an YSL downtown shopper tote as her purse in the recent comic con pics.
I do believe they retail for around $1500.
that red piece of shit is worth $1500??? OMG. YSL isn't very punk is it?
Ergo thats some nasty stuff you are talking about cooking up.
Anchovies are boney little disgusting things right?
Yes they are.
Well, imo that Kerrang! article is proof that Mayo isn't GWay. He specifically said that people weren't mean to him.
What would be wrong with a Cubic Zirconia?
I never understood why having a ring sealed the deal so to speak, much less a real diamond.
And hello, all!
How are you MJ. Is your inhaler any better?
Maybe the bag lynz had is a fake as well.
Mikey might have some money because I don't think he is out spending it on flashy items.
it doesn't have to be a CZ to be synthetic, they have all the lines of created stones now, and they are cheaper as they don't involve any mining
and they are diamond (or emerald/sapphire/ruby etc) just not made by nature
in fact you'd be hard pressed to find a natural emerald these days, they are mainly synthetic stones now
Did not know that, Ergo. Thanks for the info. :)
yes, a "chic" punk ^_^
Hiya Mustard!!!!! How's you's sweetie?
OMG YOU PEOPLE ARE IDIOTS.
Pistachio and anchovy is Mayo answering the relentless questioning of the day crew/porchies 'what's your favorite flavor ice cream, Mayo?' 'what's your favorite pizza topping, Mayo?'
Jeez.
Lol @ people refusing to acknowledge any evidence that Mayo is not Gerard.
Denial, much?
Mikey might have some money because I don't think he is out spending it on flashy items.
have you seen the size of the rock on alicia's finger?
Anonymous said...
Anonymous said...
Maybe MSI are in the money too. I did notice she was sporting an YSL downtown shopper tote as her purse in the recent comic con pics.
I do believe they retail for around $1500.
that red piece of shit is worth $1500??? OMG. YSL isn't very punk is it?
July 28, 2008 6:18 PM
I was thinking the same thing. A punk would never have anything like that.
Miss t I am well. the inhaler is working better.
how are you
Oh MissT. That is so sweet.
My dad wanted his ashes spread in the ocean. I can relate.
Yes, My weekend was busy but good.
I am still trying to recoup.
Ep, moisonite(sp) is as expensive as real diamonds. I dont know of many other synthetics out there.
Scratches head..hmm
I do know my jewelry sad to say.
Does anyone have the link to the video or picture of Lyndsey wearing her diamond ring?
Blood Diamonds are blown a litte out of proportion nowadays. Most large retailers refuse to buy diamonds that haven't been certified by the GIA, and in order for them to BE certified they have to pass inspection and grading.
Not only that, but Diamonds are generally only purchased from reputable dealers. I know the company I worked for only sold diamonds from Canada, Australia and New Zealand.
-A
Um, pretty sure if the title and the P.S. go together, like they normally do, pistachio is to palate as anchovy is to gut.
Or not. Fuck if I know.
Question is Martha, is she really the punk she claims she is?
brb
didn't lyn-z bitch about girls like paris hilton and their, like, YSL or Louis V bags in that, like, interview with tasteittv?
Besides the ring what has mikey spent money on. A ring will cost you but if that is the only thing you are spending a lot of money on I don't think it will break you.
I still say if Mayo likes anchovy he is an alien.
I'm good thanks MJ. Glad to hear that things are better on the breathing front.
Beloved, did you scatter the ashes at the ocean? Where did you do it? Have you ever been back there?
that red piece of shit is worth $1500??? OMG. YSL isn't very punk is it?
July 28, 2008 6:18 PM
Oh man! I felt guilty about my $100coach bags. I dont do that anymore.
I dont really
thank you anon at 6:25. martha does tend to miss the point quite frequently.
Hiya Amy, how are you sweetie?
Anonymous said...
didn't Lyn-z bitch about girls like Paris Hilton and their, like, YSL or Louis V bags in that, like, interview with tasteittv?
July 28, 2008 6:26 PM
No she said you can be a feminist and be like Paris Hilton.
There must be a big punk community in Cali *smirks*
Hello everyone, How are you all tonight?
That's when she could't afford her own!
Hiya fimbles, how are you sweetie?
Anonymous said...
thank you anon at 6:25. martha does tend to miss the point quite frequently.
July 28, 2008 6:27 PM
Why do you feel the need to come on here and try to run things by calling people dumb.
Anyway it seems you were the one who missed my point.
Just peachy, misst. how are you?
I am so very very sorry to hear your loss misst (smirks) I really hope that nothing changes, do you think it will?
Oh and when does the season start :)
http://www.metalhammer.co.uk/metal_hammer_tv/
The video was on this website, anon. Don't know whether it's still up or not.
Anonymous said...
Question is Martha, is she really the punk she claims she is?
July 28, 2008 6:25 PM
Never thought she was one to begin with.
every time i have seen a pic of jamia she has been carrying a s//c tote bag. promoting her company and being economical, it probably cost no more than $20.
Frequent misconception is that the larger a diamond is, the more expensive it is. Not true.
Diamonds that are near a carat can be more expensive than a full carat, or a carat and a half.
You have to take into consideration cut, color and clarity when sizing up your diamond.
And another thing to keep in mind is that a .50 carat diamond can be twice as beautiful as a full carat.
-A
No she said you can be a feminist and be like Paris Hilton.
kind of insinuating that being like paris hilton was not a good thing
Anonymous said...
There must be a big punk community in Cali *smirks*
July 28, 2008 6:27 PM
It consist of Avril, Ashely and Hannah Montana.
MissT. I am embarassed to say.
I was very young. I didnt scatter his ashes in the ocean like he wanted.(I know he will forgive me)
Gulps. Hangs head. I put them in the bay where it leads out into the ocean.
I didnt get to go to the ocean like he wanted. I feel bad till this day. It makes me sad but I was a kid and I believe he knows that. We loved the ocean and the seagulls together. We were very close.
My husband and I put them in the bay and I cried and said I'm sorry.
I think he knows how traumatic it all was for me.
This is the thing. I was married a week. He passed, we(me and the hubby) found him. Annyeurism(sp) He always said the last thing he wanted to do before he died was to make sure I was ok.
I was and it was his time.
Thanks MissT
Martha, Not sure what 6:27 was trying to do, but my question was not meant to be condescending.
I get the impression this woman just says things for attention.
*sob sob sob* thanks for reminding me fim.
And your lot can keep their grubby mitts off Berbatov.
6:25 said...
Martha, Not sure what 6:27 was trying to do, but my question was not meant to be condescending.
I get the impression this woman just says things for attention.
July 28, 2008 6:35 PM
I didn't think you were.
Amy is correct. Hi Amy
You got a dress for 15 bucks! You go girl! Good for you. Thats the way to shop.
I havent heard much about it to be honest, i just put up yahoo home page and it is the headline news. i was like 0_0 misst will be gutted.
well, good luck to you, may the best red team win :) hahahahahaha.
anyhoot, how are you?
I dont think MissT misses the point of anything.
Hallo BI!
Yes, I am quite proud of my dress. Looks like a million bucks on me too, once I have the straps shortened a little.
How've you been?
-A
Oh wow Beloved, it sounds as though your dad just hung on to see that you were OK. That was amazing.
Chokes you up the little extra parts of the story like that.
I'm sure that your dad forgives you, after all, the bay was the next best thing. I'm sure that he enjoyed reaching the ocean all the more with having to float there himself.
Just the other day, me and mum were talking about her friend. She is in her 80's and her husband died the day after dad.
They had no children and this guy and my dad had worked together years ago and he saw my dad as the son he never had. We were all close until they moved and we drifted apart.
When he died, she had to move into sheltered accomodation and the only suitable place was up the road from where we live. So we were reunited with her.
She doesn't really have anyone to look after her but she has us now.
It's as though her husband waited to go until the time was right when he knew she would be looked after.
He sent her to us and we took over her friendship. It's as though he timed his death too.
Spooky but really comforting.
hello
Anonymous said...
every time i have seen a pic of jamia she has been carrying a s//c tote bag. promoting her company and being economical, it probably cost no more than $20.
July 28, 2008 6:31 PM
That is because Jamia is a smart cookie. :)
BI said...
MissT. I am embarassed to say.
I was very young. I didnt scatter his ashes in the ocean like he wanted.(I know he will forgive me)
Gulps. Hangs head. I put them in the bay where it leads out into the ocean.
I didnt get to go to the ocean like he wanted. I feel bad till this day. It makes me sad but I was a kid and I believe he knows that. We loved the ocean and the seagulls together. We were very close.
My husband and I put them in the bay and I cried and said I'm sorry.
I think he knows how traumatic it all was for me.
This is the thing. I was married a week. He passed, we(me and the hubby) found him. Annyeurism(sp) He always said the last thing he wanted to do before he died was to make sure I was ok.
I was and it was his time.
Thanks MissT
July 28, 2008 6:34 PM
Think of it this way Bi he gets to do a little more sight seeing that way.
hmmm...so it makes you think, if she likes french designer purses, expensive diamond rings and luxurious living spaces, is this the lifestyle of a punk?
Or it could be just an imagine she a playing in line with her band?
And she has found the husband who cherishes her, and is willing to provide these things for her.
Maybe the next album is already in the works for an early release.
Hiya BC!
-A
*image she is* what happens when you type too fast :)
she's spending it faster than he can earn it
new release in less than 12 months
BI said...
Anonymous said...
every time i have seen a pic of jamia she has been carrying a s//c tote bag. promoting her company and being economical, it probably cost no more than $20.
July 28, 2008 6:31 PM
That is because Jamia is a smart cookie. :)
July 28, 2008 6:45 PM
I don't think Frank and Jamia need to show the world that they love each other. So there is no need to be big and flashy.
Who's new release?
6:49, he loves her so much, I'm sure he enjoys "providing" for her ^_^
Thanks beloved sweetie.
Hiya BC *hugs* how are you sweetie?
Thanks for the condolences fimmy.
Apart from that, I am grand thanks for asking.
After we had the recording box in, it picked up his noise and the council went round the other day to issue our neighbour with a caution.
They must have said something about his trampy house cos the next day, a truck pulled up outside and he was loading loads of black bags into the back. it was like a mountain. All that crap had been inside his house.
His back garden is still like a jungle.
Our other neighbour phoned the council to complain about him today cos she had just put her washing on the line when he started a bonfire. The tickturd puts petrol and oil on the fire so the smoke is like nothing you'e ever seen.
Well, she shouted obscenities at him then phoned to complain.
On a plus note. That teaching course feel through because the institutions wouldn't sign up to the job centre contracts and the job centre wouldn't pay £1,500 without having a contract with the place.
I thought everything was lost but I went back online and found a three day intensive course that gives you the same qualification.
I thought, it can't be as good but it is run my the London Metropolitan University and the lesson plans looks really good.
And with it just being £215, it was authorised straight away and the money should be in my account by the end of the week.
Now I just have to see when is a good time to stay with my uncle (cos he has custody of his son in the holidays) and book a place.
Phew, waffle over.
Thats sad and sweet MissT.
Hello BC
Hiya amykins. Congrats on the dress :)
mustardisbetter said...
Who's new release?
July 28, 2008 6:50 PM
Mcr. So GW can pay for the stuff he is getting lynz
what would you do if Gerard ever revealed himself to be "Mayo"?
I don't know about you, but I'd tell him to pull his pants back up.
I'm back
Bi I don't mean moissanite , it is possible to create precious stones using artificial heat and pressure.
they are the real stone, chemically and molecularly but are artificial
used to be mainly industrial but as gem mines became less able to keep up with demand they started creating gem quality. They can do any stone.
They are a lot cheaper as they are synthetic but usually are tagged to fluoresce so they are not mistaken as real by valuers etc.
Just by looking they are indistinguishable from a natural diamond
In catalogues they are listed as "created stones"
Aw, MissT! I'm so sorry it fell through, but hopefully this new door will provide great opportunities for you! *is still very excited*
Hi Miss T, how are you my English chum? I'm okay, but hot :/
Hiya RW sweetie, how are you?
MissT!
I'm glad to see things are really working out for you.
-A
At least there was some good news in there miss t.
Thanks Mustard sweetie, I hope so.
Hiya BC my American chum. I too am incredibly hot but I am loving it cos we don't get it often.
I am enjoying just sitting here with you guys in nothing but my knickers.
That sounded wrong.
Thanks Amy sweetie. And I hope you know that we are gonna need pics of your gorgeous bargain dress.
If Mayo ever revealed himself to be GW? This may be a bit harsh, but I would honestly say this:
Thanks a lot for rubbing MSI all over our faces you idiot.
Hi B, how are you? Hi Ergo, mustard, Mj, RW *big squeeze*
Some many more people have join us. Hello to everyone again.
Cause I am to lazy to name you all.
Your love is always proved by the material things you provide *sarcasm*
I wonder who the insecure one is? The one so willing to provide these things, or the willing recipient, because that would prove how much you are worth to each other?
Anon @ 6:47. IMO she is getting a taste of the "good life" so to speak and she is running amuck with it all. If what has been said is true.
That doesnt last forever believe me. I know very wealthy people and "things" as in material posessions do NOT make you happy.
They will see. A matter of time. If you are smart you put your money away.Not "throw" it away.
Amy, you are right about the diamond thing and I am good!
Gotta go for now, make dinner. Will check back later. Take care all.
blogger is an ass
hi BC
hey MissT great news about the new possible course, sounds better too, less time and cheaper
oh yay for me!!!!!!!
*happy dance*
I didn't even try!
:)
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