Way down at the center of the Earth, the core as it is called, the pull is intense. The rest of it, what I see every day, endlessly revolves, but down there it is all held in tight. I want to be that close, leave the cycle, become random. I am a part of the pattern and I know that is why I feel this way. So much of it is polluted.
There is the challenge.
I tried to dig it up once. I wanted to know if it would pull my soul out and then would it also find a place in rotation? Follow me around batting at the back of my head? But, my palms blistered before I made it. I would like to say I did not give up, but I did.
Yesterday, I read in the news that someone had finally reached it. Once they arrived, they made legal claim of the core of the Earth. Stuck a flag in it and gave it a proper name, in a proper way...I hate proper. So, now I want it even more. The rest of it can float off for all I care.
Well, not all of it.
I will try again. This time, a bigger shovel and a pair of gloves might do the trick, save my hands. I will not quit; it is worthy work. When I get there, I will release it. I no longer wish to be a part of its rotation. Instead, I wish for the whole of it to become the rest of it.
p.s. each day the same way and then look at it again if its there, focus.
Saturday, June 7, 2008
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I saw "inductor" and thought of Ringo Starr as Mr. Conductor, then my mind went crazy. Just thought you should know.
We were talking the other day about things that made us go "Hmmm..." Gotta say this is making me go "Hmmm..."
Hope you're doing well!
Hi and bye, BC, Mayo, SS, Anons, everybody!
Don't paint everyone with the same brush.
Anonymous said...
They are hoping it turns him on
Somehow I don't think it's the OPS he's thinking about when he 'pleasures himself'
June 9, 2008 1:27 PM
Who knows what or whom he is thinking about. None of my business,I don't care. Albeit amusing.
Anonymous said...
Anonymous said...
ME
June 9, 2008 1:23 PM
Biotch! >_<
June 9, 2008 1:27 PM
Jelluz! :P
June 9, 2008 1:28 PM
Not really, thought it was funny.
Everyone fights for the top spot, strikes me as funny. Just sayin
Hi mustard, Take care. Hello anons. Thanks 1:26. Don't worry about it, it happens a lot.
Hi everyone!!!!
OP's you know i love ya!
I can not stay long, I have some time off right now, boring!
But i can use the rest.
I will update my blog as soon as possible and answer the questions on it, feel free to ask anything you know how open i am so watch out or censor your eyes.
And anon
lighten up, sex is just sex and if they want to talk about it let them, or do not go and read what the op's have written if you have such a hang up about sex.
I know i am strange, but i have no hang ups about sex, and what you find kinky, i think is beautiful that they can use there imagination in that way.
If i had more time to debate the subject i would, but sadly my time is up.
Who knows what i will read when i pop back in, that's why i love this place, it makes this crazy time of my life seem so normal.
Mayo,
I liked the post, and understand it some what, if i where to write like that on my blog, people would see too much of me, i could never bare my soul the way you do.
But i love it.
Blows kiss!!!!
O' yea!!!
the guy i met, it was going pretty good till i was back on the move, i think I'm doomed when it comes to love, unless i look to the right or the left of me and see the guys in a different way.....nah...too freaky to even think about.....I'm doomed, and not that desperate!.....no offence guys if you read this....lol
Damn this is long...sorry!
Anon616 love ya!
Ergo,Amyranth, BC, TJ,Faraway,Pickled
Tell everyone to SAY" HI so i will kind of be here in thought!
my heart to yours!
PJ
Bleeding Chaos said...
Hi mustard, Take care. Hello anons. Thanks 1:26. Don't worry about it, it happens a lot.
June 9, 2008 1:32 PM
Doesn't make it right
Oh my! I didn't use a period at the end of some of my sentences.
I must be a bad person too. :P
Hey Pj. You are not doomed in love.
I hope not. You remind me of someone. AWBW? Then again, no.
Anyway, have a good day.
Anonymous said...
They are hoping it turns him on
Somehow I don't think it's the OPS he's thinking about when he 'pleasures himself'
Just say it. Wanking. He does it, all guys do it. I just think it's rediculous that women of their age fangirl over him. He wouldn't look twice.
Someone talk me into working out. It is 95 degrees (I know not inside) I really feel lazy today. I don't want to. I must. I must perservere! Bite the bullet, so to speak.
i think is beautiful that they can use there imagination in that way.
yeh cuz that's the closest they'll ever get!
Hello BC. I thought it uncessary what some did to you yesterday.
I can see why.
Hi PJ, I hope you're well? You're not doomed in love. There'll be other chances to find someone who is a great person. Keep your head up high and stay positive about it.
I hope that helps. Take care. Oh yes 1:35, one particular anon last night freaked over the lack of periods in my comments.
Oops, there's one now ^_^
Anonymous said...
Anonymous said...
They are hoping it turns him on
Somehow I don't think it's the OPS he's thinking about when he 'pleasures himself'
Just say it. Wanking. He does it, all guys do it. I just think it's rediculous that women of their age fangirl over him. He wouldn't look twice.
June 9, 2008 1:40 PM
Who does it? Guys. Yeah. I think it's fine. I do it, except I'm not a guy and I call it getting off.
So what? Who wants someone to look at them? Not me. I don't care, really I don't. I get plenty of sex and attention from my husband.
The only thing that younger guys know is that older women are at their sexual peak. No strings attatched. Alot of men like that, yes younger men.
Nothing wrong with it, if that is what you want to do.
I am very comfortable with my age, how I look and my sexuality. I may not be perfect but neither is anyone else for that matter.
Anonymous said...
Anonymous said...
They are hoping it turns him on
Somehow I don't think it's the OPS he's thinking about when he 'pleasures himself'
Just say it. Wanking. He does it, all guys do it. I just think it's rediculous that women of their age fangirl over him. He wouldn't look twice.
June 9, 2008 1:40 PM
Wanking, that is hysterical. British verbage.
Poor 1:41
If you must work out, bring lots of water and wear comfortable white clothing. I read it's supposed to help keep your body cool.
Anonymous said...
They are hoping it turns him on
Somehow I don't think it's the OPS he's thinking about when he 'pleasures himself'
Just say it. Wanking. He does it, all guys do it. I just think it's rediculous that women of their age fangirl over him. He wouldn't look twice.
IAWTC
rediculous that women of their age fangirl over him. He wouldn't look twice.
Oh, and it is spelled "ridiculous"
not rediculous BC
Anonymous said...
i think is beautiful that they can use there imagination in that way.
yeh cuz that's the closest they'll ever get!
June 9, 2008 1:42 PM
Heres the thing. I don't want to get close. I don't even want to meet him.
Some older guys are hot too.
Example: Tim Robbins. Robert Downey Jr. John Cusack, just to name a few. They are older than I am. Not by much, but they are. They are hot and smart. That is the real turn on. I think smart is very sexy and a turn on.
I think I smell someone with one hand down their pants.
Anonymous said...
Hello BC. I thought it uncessary what some did to you yesterday.
I can see why.
June 9, 2008 1:43 PM
C'mon play nice. ;)
sniff my fingers
Bleeding Chaos said...
Hi PJ, I hope you're well? You're not doomed in love. There'll be other chances to find someone who is a great person. Keep your head up high and stay positive about it.
I hope that helps. Take care. Oh yes 1:35, one particular anon last night freaked over the lack of periods in my comments.
Oops, there's one now ^_^
June 9, 2008 1:45 PM
Tell them to go screw themselves. Oh, wait, they already are. Let them be.
Anonymous said...
sniff my fingers
June 9, 2008 1:54 PM
Only of it's been worked, hard
Anonymous said...
sniff my fingers
June 9, 2008 1:54 PM
Only of it's been worked, hard
June 9, 2008 1:58 PM
You know it, baby.
Anonymous said...
Anonymous said...
sniff my fingers
June 9, 2008 1:54 PM
Only of it's been worked, hard
June 9, 2008 1:58 PM
You know it, baby.
June 9, 2008 1:59 PM
Well, in that case. Only if it's sweet and succulant.
Bitter ones are a waste of time and lay on the ground never to be used or touched again.
Since when you call people baby?
Bc, I still haven't worked out. Agh! I will, I swear it.
Even with the images of smelly fingers swirling round my head. Wondering if the juices are sweet or bittersweet.
1:52
I find some older guys to be not that bad looking as well.
I always say baby.
Oh how sweet the juices are!
I think I smell someone with one hand down their pants.
That's the blog owner Mayo.
Ears ringing
Palms sweaty
You want it, I can smell it
You are ready
The real question is,am I?
As long as you keep it in rythmic time
If you take me, be prepared for a love like you've never known
Like no other love you've ever known
Slave to master, I'll have ultimate control
Offering yourself freely is an unforgivable sacrifice
It isn't what you think while I watch you cut yourself
Waiting for me to drink
As you put the blood to my lips
I love you, but urges and animal instinct take over
I grab you crying, you're begging now
Teeth sink way down
You gasp in delight
As I drink and drain, almost to the point of no return
Paying no attention to your pleasure and pain
I need it. I feel it. I hear it
When it flows through your body
Blood flowing freely from freshly punctured veins that eventually bleed out
Sticky sweet on the floor
I look down to see what I have done.
Even though I want more
I kiss your mouth filled with sweetness
We become one as you take your first taste
2:03
What you can probably do is have a small workout area set up in your home, such as the garage or empty room, etc. That's what I have.
2:07
I'm betting the juices smell like ass, in this case, they probably smell like someone who just cut the cheese.
the blog is getting hawt
You know what? This blog is so gross and stupid sometimes, I should've stayed at the beach instead, even though the beach was kinda beat and there was no attendant there to give me my resident pass so I made one of my own, which was a sticky pot-it in the shape of a flower on the window of my car that said "LOCAL GIRL, NO ATTENDANT TO GIVE OUT '08 STICKER, PLEASE DON'T GIVE ME A TICKET!"
And the water was ice cold still but I found a really cool bone that I took home and then dragonflies came by and I took a bunch of pictures, don't know if they came out yet because my battery is dead.
Swear to god with all the stuff going on here I read "contraption" as "contraception."
Infernal I tell you.
Anonymous said...
I think I smell someone with one hand down their pants.
That's the blog owner Mayo.
June 9, 2008 2:10 PM
Good. If it is, Hello Mayo.Enjoy a snippet of my writing. I am sure it will linger in your head for most of the day. Too bad I didn't write it all here, we wouldn't waste one drop as we lick our fingers clean.
If it doesnt stay in your head, it will in mine.
Thank you for finally speaking to an Anon. An Anon I am sure you know a little bit.
I'm betting the juices smell like ass
0_0
you could have a point
Anonymous said...
the blog is getting hawt
June 9, 2008 2:16 PM
Now, that is no way to spell "hot", is it?
2:16
No, I think it's getting perverted and really weird. I'm still thinking whether or not some of these anons had too much to drink or if they're bored as hell.
Not to mention the weird anons who were here last night, talking randomly about pillows or TV horror or some shit like that, and the previous nights as well
Anonymous said...
Anonymous said...
I think I smell someone with one hand down their pants.
That's the blog owner Mayo.
June 9, 2008 2:10 PM
Good. If it is, Hello Mayo.Enjoy a snippet of my writing. I am sure it will linger in your head for most of the day. Too bad I didn't write it all here, we wouldn't waste one drop as we lick our fingers clean.
If it doesnt stay in your head, it will in mine.
Thank you for finally speaking to an Anon. An Anon I am sure you know a little bit.
sorry that's not what I meant. i meant the person with their hands down their pants was probably mayo, the blog owner.
Don't paint everyone with the same brush.
Splash, if what you're saying is for the anons to not insist that we're all having sexual fantasies about these guys, then I agree with you so hard on that one. Is that what you're saying?
Anonymous said...
I'm betting the juices smell like ass
0_0
you could have a point
June 9, 2008 2:19 PM
Do you know what I smell? Yes, you do. You can smell it too.
Smells like
Smells like
Jelluzy.
and
Teen Spirit
The weird thing is all the anons and even some 'blue' people who drop hints that they know someone in the band.
Acting all evasive while dropping hints doesn't make you seem mysterious, it makes you seem like a fucking loser.
I like Teen Spirit too, but I prefer deodorants that smell like lavender. Those are nice. Sometimes I hate the smell of powdered deodorants.
Some ass is so sweet . You would die for one moment, one taste like nothing you have ever experienced before.
Why do some people here have to get nasty right away here. Jealousy, attention seekers and I could go on. I won't waste my energy on it.
I will point point out one thing, as soon as the "Mayo" supposedly started talking (if it was him) all hell broke loose. Gee, wonder why.
I used to give certain people the benefit of the doubt. Now I understand what they were saying all along.
Yeh, if mayo or ss won't tell them in real life that they keep these blogs then they sure as hell aren't gonna tell them just cause they are stalking them on a blog.
WTF are you talking about? When do you think Mayo commented here?
He hasn't commented here today.
(Remember he has balls and signs in under his blue name)
Actually, all hell broke loose when J started creaming her panties about SS and his pelvic thrusts.
I think it drove her insaaaane.
If only she had kept her mouth shut.
As soon as it heats up and gets interesting with Mayo, Kapu comes along and has to say it's disgusting and talk about dragonflies. GO AWAY!!
You know what? This blog is so gross and stupid sometimes, I should've stayed at the beach instead,
K, it is not gross. Stop it. Do not be childish. Let us have our fun once in a while.
Party pooper.
Anonymous said...
The weird thing is all the anons and even some 'blue' people who drop hints that they know someone in the band.
Acting all evasive while dropping hints doesn't make you seem mysterious, it makes you seem like a fucking loser.
June 9, 2008 2:26 PM
Can't handle the truth. Not my problem, is it.
Anonymous said...
As soon as it heats up and gets interesting with Mayo, Kapu comes along and has to say it's disgusting and talk about dragonflies. GO AWAY!!
June 9, 2008 2:33 PM
THANK YOU!
I'm not sure 2:29, but I will say that whenever Mayo does come to speak to us, I don't bother asking him questions or talk to him. There's almost always people trying to converse with him simultaneously.
But that's okay.
I was having fun too. It didn't matter to me if it was Mayo.(I had to be told) Didn't even know. That shows you who has hang ups on things.
Mayo, Enjoyed the moment we had.
Thank you. I hope you are in love. That would make me happy for you.
Always nice to see someone in love.
Kpau if you don't like Mayo sexing with anons then you can leave. Go ahead and stay at the beach!!!
Anonymous said...
The weird thing is all the anons and even some 'blue' people who drop hints that they know someone in the band.
Acting all evasive while dropping hints doesn't make you seem mysterious, it makes you seem like a fucking loser.
June 9, 2008 2:26 PM
Can't handle the truth. Not my problem, is it.
Why don't you say what your connection to the band is then? Don't you want them to know you are here, watching them?
2:31
Sometimes Mayo posts as an anon as well.
2:33
Sometimes it is gross, but when those subjects arise, it's best to ignore them or go check out some websites in the meantime.
I was having fun too. It didn't matter to me if it was Mayo.(I had to be told) Didn't even know. That shows you who has hang ups on things.
Mayo, Enjoyed the moment we had.
Thank you. I hope you are in love. That would make me happy for you.
Always nice to see someone in love.
You're not listening to me. When I sait it was Mayo, I didn't mean it was Mayo that posted. That was me.
Anonymous said...
WTF are you talking about? When do you think Mayo commented here?
He hasn't commented here today.
(Remember he has balls and signs in under his blue name)
June 9, 2008 2:31 PM
Thats what I said. The reason I kept saying "if"
Maybe he didnt want to talk to an anon in blue. Who knows. I don't really care all that much.
Kapu, you and your people had your time on this blog when Mayo talked to you. Now it's OUR time. Things change and if you don't like it you can leave.
Most of us have been trying to get her and her friends to leave here anyway.
Let those who pretend they know Gerard, Frank or any other member of the band carry on. They are only deluding themselves.
It's not like they are best buddies with them or they wouldn't need to come here and drop hints. Mayo and SS ignore them and I'm happy to follow that lead.
things done changed
Now it's OUR time. Things change and if you don't like it you can leave.
-------------------------------------
Is this why there's been so many anons bombarding the blog here lately?
Things really did change. It's time for some people to accept that and move on. Though I think it's funny how people think they know who Mayo talks to or ignores just because they have 'been here from the beginning". Then we come along and Mayo talks to us instead of them and that's when they get insulted and either have a bitchy fit or they leave and stop posting. Notice who ISN'T here since Mayo came on and DIDN'T talk to them. The usual people around this time of day? That's right!!
Thats what I said. The reason I kept saying "if"
Maybe he didnt want to talk to an anon in blue
why not? cause he is such a pussy that he won't talk to an anon in blue because the blue people will get upset that he talked to an anon? like he can't talk to kapu without upsetting people?
Anonymous said...
Most of us have been trying to get her and her friends to leave here anyway.
And how's that been working out for ya?
Mayo can talk to Krapu all he wants. i don't give a fuck.
Anonymous said...
Anonymous said...
The weird thing is all the anons and even some 'blue' people who drop hints that they know someone in the band.
Acting all evasive while dropping hints doesn't make you seem mysterious, it makes you seem like a fucking loser.
June 9, 2008 2:26 PM
Can't handle the truth. Not my problem, is it.
Why don't you say what your connection to the band is then? Don't you want them to know you are here, watching them?
June 9, 2008 2:37 PM
Why don't you? Why doesn't anyone else? I don't have to answer to you. I wouldn't tell you anyway. I don't even know you.
Shows you how much of a fangirl I am. I never told anyone about the private things. The engagement party, the wedding invitations, the shower, the wedding day of certain people.I could tell personal things about those and other private things. I will not.
I do not believe invading someone's privacy like that. Nor would I ever betray the person I do know.
I know other people have said things they shouldn't.
Besides, I have my own life. Which is none of your business anyway. I let you see what I want you to see.
Please don't get all bent out of shape.
Hi smokie
Hello, BC.
She's another pretentious artiste. When it really gets interesting and Mayo comes out to play, all she has to offer is poems about trees and shitty pictures.
2:49
Well, except with the name calling, I agree. He should be able to talk to anyone he wants. This is not some competition.
You're not listening to me. When I sait it was Mayo, I didn't mean it was Mayo that posted. That was me.
June 9, 2008 2:39 PM
I do not know what "sait" means.
Don't worry. I do know that.
Anonymous said...
She's another pretentious artiste. When it really gets interesting and Mayo comes out to play, all she has to offer is poems about trees and shitty pictures.
And he obviously liked them very much so what's your point?
"sait"
At first, when that anon used that word, I thought they said salt.
Splash, if what you're saying is for the anons to not insist that we're all having sexual fantasies about these guys, then I agree with you so hard on that one. Is that what you're saying?
That's exactly what I'm saying.
Hello there, my friend, Mustard! I agree with you as well. Of course, you already knew that. :)
Anonymous said...
Anonymous said...
The weird thing is all the anons and even some 'blue' people who drop hints that they know someone in the band.
Acting all evasive while dropping hints doesn't make you seem mysterious, it makes you seem like a fucking loser.
June 9, 2008 2:26 PM
Can't handle the truth. Not my problem, is it.
Why don't you say what your connection to the band is then? Don't you want them to know you are here, watching them?
June 9, 2008 2:37 PM
People are thick.
I do not believe that they are hre. the band members. I have stated that many times.
I have said I visit from time to time for "some" of the people that are on this blog.
2:54
Sounds like jealousy to me.
That's exactly what it is, BC.
Plain and simple.
Hiya mustard
Bleeding Chaos said...
2:49
Well, except with the name calling, I agree. He should be able to talk to anyone he wants. This is not some competition.
June 9, 2008 2:55 PM
About time you made some sense. You flip flop back and forth, not knowing who to be nice to ro mean to. Afraid of who you may insult.
Please, I think you by nature are a nice person, but get a backbone.
I can deal with many different kinds of people. You are starting to drive me nuts.
Anonymous said...
Then we come along and Mayo talks to us instead of them and that's when they get insulted and either have a bitchy fit or they leave and stop posting.
And you are...who?
Bleeding Chaos said...
2:54
Sounds like jealousy to me.
June 9, 2008 3:01 PM
Is such a lonely word. It always reminds me of a kid in high school that doesn't know what to say and yells out" loser". That is funny
3:07
I'm mean to anons who treat me like shit and who treat others like shit. Other than that, I *try* to be nice to everyone else, but I'm not perfect.
And I meant what I said with my previous comment. This is not a competition. And I don't have a problem with Mayo talking to anyone here. It's his decision and his alone.
And I'm glad I drive you nuts. If you leave me alone, maybe I won't drive you crazy.
If you believe Mayo is here talking to you anonymously, why don't you sign in and let him know who you are? He might appreciate that.
Mayo, however, barely talks to the regulars here, why would he talk to new, anonymous, strange, rude teenagers?
not a teenager said...
Anonymous said...
Then we come along and Mayo talks to us instead of them and that's when they get insulted and either have a bitchy fit or they leave and stop posting.
And you are...who?
June 9, 2008 3:07 PM
Who is who? I didn't write that.
Don't know.
BC,
why are you defending K. she ignores you whenever you're on here. she never says hi to you. she's holding a grudge against you because you agreed with an anon about how she is rude to new people on the blog. she acts like a fucking child.
Mayo may speak to whomever he pleases. But I seriously doubt he has any interest in speaking to young children on a daily basis.
He is an adult man, and the regulars here are adult (primarily) women. There is a basis of interest there: life experience, wisdom, advice, etc.
What could you teenies possibly have to offer him?
BC sucks up to both sides. When Kapu isn't around and people who hate her are around, she insults her. When she is around and people who don't h ate Kapu are around, she defends her. BC has no backbone and she just says whatever everyone else says at the time.
Bleeding Chaos said...
3:07
I'm mean to anons who treat me like shit and who treat others like shit. Other than that, I *try* to be nice to everyone else, but I'm not perfect.
And I meant what I said with my previous comment. This is not a competition. And I don't have a problem with Mayo talking to anyone here. It's his decision and his alone.
And I'm glad I drive you nuts. If you leave me alone, maybe I won't drive you crazy.
June 9, 2008 3:12 PM
Is there something wrong with you?
I was not mean. I was the one sticking up for you earlier on the post and last night! Go all the up and read.
I think you are confused. I never said anything "nasty" You don't know what nasty is.
Who the hell are you to tell me to leave. You can leave. I do not have to talk to you and vice versa.
I think you are getting confused.
There aren't that many anons here.
3:14
Because I said a long time ago that I don't hate anyone here. And I mean that. Someone has to be the bigger person.
Anonymous said...
BC,
why are you defending K. she ignores you whenever you're on here. she never says hi to you. she's holding a grudge against you because you agreed with an anon about how she is rude to new people on the blog. she acts like a fucking child.
June 9, 2008 3:14 PM
Lordy be. Thank You.
You make me happy
You make me feel so good
With the things you do for me
Oh baby can't you see that
You make me happy
Make me feel so good
With the things you do for me
Oh baby,baby,baby
No one can make me feel this way
YOU always seem to brighten up my day
Anonymous(es) who are insulting Bleeding Chaos for not standing up to Kapunua, what would you all say to Kapunua if she were here?
Would you have the courage to say it in blue? So that she would know who you are? Have you ever been the object of her *wrath*? I have seen it, over and over and over. She attacks people not only under her own name, but also anonymously. She is relentless and cruel.
Would you like to be the next whipping boy she singles out? Then go ahead, tell her what you think of her. Sign in first.
Second 3:17 anon,
I was talking to the anon who said that I drove them nuts. Read the first anon comment at 3:07
3:17 sucking up to both sides anon,
Not even remotely close. I'm not on anyone's side. I consider myself neutral.
"Someone has to be the bigger person."
And there come the insults!
One thing i always think about Kapunua is that she might be a bitch, but at least you know where you stand with her.
I think Bleeding Chaos is doing the right thing. She does not hold grudges. Her actions are a testament to her good character.
Not even remotely close. I'm not on anyone's side. I consider myself neutral.
You're not neutral. You just go with the most popular thoughts at the time.
You're not neutral. You just go with the most popular thoughts at the time.
The same could be said of others here. Why not confront them about it as well? Bleeding Chaos does have a forgiving nature. Kapunua does not.
Anonymous people anonymously bitching about regulars being anonymous. That's priceless!
not a teenager said...
If you believe Mayo is here talking to you anonymously, why don't you sign in and let him know who you are? He might appreciate that.
If you are referring to me. I do not have a blog here. I do not think I want one either. As I said before. Didn't know if Mayo was talking to me or not. I really didn't care one way or the other,no disrespect. That is not meant to be a mean comment, in fact just the opposite.
I was having fun just talking with whomever it was.
Someone said it was Mayo. I don't if it was or wasn't.
You are one of the few here who have a brain.
As for new. I am not that new at all. I think you know that. Not here from the inception, but for about 5 months now. Have used different Anon user names you would recognize I am sure.
Lately, I have been talking more.
good lord!
hello BC, mustard, princess,nice anons, anyone else.
SS you make me smile!
Mayo....you confuse me? i have had to just ask mr bloke to give me a science lesson (he teaches science)...so anyway he says you are either inside an electric toothbrush or you are a transformer.
and re your actual post he said is it about your heart?
then he shrugged, scowled and walked off!
so there ya go!!
seas of black with the odd blue name.
what a pile of shit!
Bleeding Chaos does have a forgiving nature.
No she doesn't, she still talks shit, she just pretends like she is "the bigger person."
Bleeding Chaos does have a forgiving nature. Kapunua does not.
A) No one ever asked for forgiveness. The most I got was, "We were mean to you, get over it."
B) I don't want anyone to.
C) It's not a matter of "forgiving." Forgiving is for big things. This is a blog. No, this is just a matter of me not wanting to talk to certain people who clearly don't like me, and asking to be left alone after they've specified the many ways in which they don't like me.
Which is apparently too much to ask, as it continues anonymously anyway.
And I'm not into the whole "social niceties demand I say a word of greeting to you when I clearly hate you anyway." I like people who are sincere with me. I don't like people who talk to me because they think it makes them look "bigger," or nicer or whatever. Most people only do it because they want to impress certain people with their sweetsweet eternally kind and loving hearts. Yet it's as fake as can be because it's obvious how they really feel anyway.
I'd rather they just not bother. You know?
Hi Faraway, how are you?
You're not neutral. You just go with the most popular thoughts at the time.
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Well anon, my sympathies goes out to you because I know that you are never going to understand where I come from. I don't pick sides or favor one person over another.
I try my best to say hello to everyone when I possibly can. If trying to do the right thing results in receiving trash talking from various anons, then so be it, because they're obviously lacking morality or good values in their pathetic little lives.
Let me know when you actually grow up and talk to me like an adult with at least some decency.
hi BC! i am good thanks.
you?
hi K!
this anon frenzy is not pleasant!
anon 3:22
are you out of your mind? i don't give a fuck about what she might say to me. that's why she gets away with the shit she does, because people are scared that they might catch her "wrath". please don't let that bitch intimidate you, because that's what she wants.
BTW, i don't have a blue name. i post as an anon.
No she doesn't, she still talks shit, she just pretends like she is "the bigger person."
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Funniest comment I read all day. You forgot two words: real life.
Hey FASC! How's tricks?*
*Not in a hooker kind of way.
Anonymous people anonymously bitching about regulars being anonymous. That's priceless!
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I know, that's really funny isn't it? ^_^
K and her friends are anonymous all the time fucking with the blog!! Who else do you think started all the trouble with the OPS in the first place!! You don't think it was one of them? Yeh guess which one!
BC,
read K at 3:32, please stand up for yourself and say something back.
Kapunua said...
And I'm not into the whole "social niceties demand I say a word of greeting to you when I clearly hate you anyway." I like people who are sincere with me. I don't like people who talk to me because they think it makes them look "bigger," or nicer or whatever. Most people only do it because they want to impress certain people with their sweetsweet eternally kind and loving hearts. Yet it's as fake as can be because it's obvious how they really feel anyway.
She is priceless. Knowing whats in the minds of everybody and knowing their motives is a rare talent. She should work for the FBI.
K i am great thanks!
hey we even have summer here in the UK!
i am not used to it. but they say it will only last til thursday!
right i can't read anymore of this anon shit so i am outa here!
seeya K, BC and anyone else!
mayo and SS take care.
love to you all!
not a teenager said...
Anonymous(es) who are insulting Bleeding Chaos for not standing up to Kapunua, what would you all say to Kapunua if she were here?
Would you have the courage to say it in blue? So that she would know who you are? Have you ever been the object of her *wrath*? I have seen it, over and over and over. She attacks people not only under her own name, but also anonymously. She is relentless and cruel.
Would you like to be the next whipping boy she singles out? Then go ahead, tell her what you think of her. Sign in first.
June 9, 2008 3:22 PM
I would say anything I wanted to.
I do not have a blog.
I have tried to talk to her numerous times. Have never been nasty, not once. She has been to me on a few occasions. I wouldn't respond. One of the reasons I left in the first place!
Now, I ignore her. She doesn't care about makinmg new friends here anyway. Never did.
I have talked to her in agreement on a few things. No response. She doesn't like change. She doesn't like someone new, especially if others start to like them.
She writes as an anon. Why does "she" have to do that? As you put it, put it in blue. Same goes for her.
I thought about what the mean people did to her was not right.(if that was true) I have said that as well. To no avail.
I have seen her as an anon try to be nasty to me in the past (not lately).Why does she have to do that?! Not everyone is or was out to attack her.
I think people started seeing how she is and got annoyed with her.
That is what I would and just did say to her. Period. No more, no less.
I hear ya, FASC, catch you later. Me too. :) Stay chill!
3:41
Let me put it this way: I'm not pretending to be nice to people just to be socially polite. Like I said, I don't hate anyone here. In fact, in real life, I don't hate that many people, except for murderers, rapists, etc etc, and I don't stoop to the level of pathetic ness to hold grudges against other people because of some stupid shit that went on like five billion years ago.
Second anonymous at 3:27 pm,
There are many people here who have a brain. They tend to be overshadowed by those who talk the loudest.
You seem like a rational person, and if I have offended you in any way, I do apologize. It would be helpful though if you could adopt yet another user name, at least for the moment.
Not a teenager anon, thanks for defending me earlier on.
She is priceless. Knowing whats in the minds of everybody and knowing their motives is a rare talent. She should work for the FBI.
June 9, 2008 3:42 PM
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That's kinda funny anon, because I don't have any motives or intentions being here. I like everyone here and I like talking to them.
And no, "anon," I say what I want to say signed in. If I'm ever an anon, it's as a joke or one of the stupid games we used to play but don't anymore.
I love these anonymous people who come in here all indignant because after all that has happened--all the accusations, all the bitching, all the whining and fighting, and the fact that after all of this we never know who the hell you are--boo hoo, someone doesn't talk to you. "Oh waah, I have never been rude to her!" Yeah, well you just were, and that's why I don't bother. And hey, if you're going to accuse me of doing things anonymously (that's a laugh coming from you,) then how about this: You were really rotten to me on quite a few occasions.
So don't act surprised and victimized and all butthurt when I want nothing to do with you.
Kapunua,
i'm going to be sincere with you
YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE
Hi everyone *waves*
What's with all the shit slinging today?
Take care Faraway
Hi lucy, how are you?
Hello Bean. It's just anons as usual trying to get everything topsy turvy. You know, same old. Are you going to be on tonight say after 9ish or is that too late?
SINCERITY......
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Hi BC and K!
That's 2am my time and I will be hitting the scratchy hay hard by then :(
Bugger. *shakes fist to the heavens*
Damn time zones!
3:54
I think you need a cup of tea.
And you people attack her when she doesn't talk to you. That's incredible.
Kapunua, I am actually quite pleased that you do not speak to me. I frequently thank God that you do not.
Many people have tried to apologize to you regarding incidents where they had been unkind to you first. You have never apologized for *anything* you have said to them in return. The things you have said to them in return have been extremely rude, insulting, and uncalled for. No one has ever told you to get over them being *mean* to you. Many of them have said, *I'm sorry for what I said.* Is that not a true apology?
Why do you alienate so many people who otherwise might enjoy your company?
Many people have tried to apologize to you regarding incidents where they had been unkind to you first. You have never apologized for *anything* you have said to them in return. The things you have said to them in return have been extremely rude, insulting, and uncalled for. No one has ever told you to get over them being *mean* to you. Many of them have said, *I'm sorry for what I said.* Is that not a true apology?
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If that's true, I wouldn't want that to take over my life, but everyone has issues I guess.
BC, if you are so "kind" why do you continue to poke, prod and insult Kapunua?
Kapunua, I am actually quite pleased that you do not speak to me. I frequently thank God that you do not.
But yet you keep trying to talk to her. It amazes me how much fucking bullshit she takes on here and hardly ever say anything in return. But the moment she opens her mouth to defend herself you all, including you BC, throw her over the table and fuck her all over again. It makes me sick.
~~~Not a mean anon, just a watcher, lurker
Not a teenager, be fair. I think the key thing here is as you pointed out the people in question were unkind to K first.
The things she said in retaliation probably did hurt because they were true and K would never have said them had she not been attacked in the first place.
People are quick to dish it out but they can't take it. That's not K's problem and why should she apologise for speaking the truth?
If the people in question really valued their friendship with K, they would not have thrown it away by 'being mean' to her in the first place. It's a tough lesson but hopefully they will learn from this experience and prevent friendships from being ruined in the future.
Anon, if you think I'm the anons who are attacking her, you're wrong.
I'm not attacking anyone, but I feel a bit pity, that's all.
But whatever, I'm gonna go lurk at some sites.
But the moment she opens her mouth to defend herself you all, including you BC, throw her over the table and fuck her all over again. It makes me sick.
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I'm not attacking her. I wasn't the one calling her names. I was only being honest, just as she was.
And no, "anon," I say what I want to say signed in. If I'm ever an anon, it's as a joke or one of the stupid games we used to play but don't anymore.
I love these anonymous people who come in here all indignant because after all that has happened--all the accusations, all the bitching, all the whining and fighting, and the fact that after all of this we never know who the hell you are--boo hoo, someone doesn't talk to you. "Oh waah, I have never been rude to her!" Yeah, well you just were, and that's why I don't bother. And hey, if you're going to accuse me of doing things anonymously (that's a laugh coming from you,) then how about this: You were really rotten to me on quite a few occasions.
So don't act surprised and victimized and all butthurt when I want nothing to do with you.
June 9, 2008 3:48 PM
I would say anything I wanted to.
I do not have a blog.
I have tried to talk to her numerous times. Have never been nasty, not once. She has been to me on a few occasions. I wouldn't respond. One of the reasons I left in the first place!
Now, I ignore her. She doesn't care about makinmg new friends here anyway. Never did.
I have talked to her in agreement on a few things. No response. She doesn't like change. She doesn't like someone new, especially if others start to like them.
She writes as an anon. Why does "she" have to do that? As you put it, put it in blue. Same goes for her.
I thought about what the mean people did to her was not right.(if that was true) I have said that as well. To no avail.
I have seen her as an anon try to be nasty to me in the past (not lately).Why does she have to do that?! Not everyone is or was out to attack her.
I think people started seeing how she is and got annoyed with her.
That is what I would and just did say to her. Period. No more, no less.
June 9, 2008 3:43 PM
You better go back and read what I wrote. I never said those things you are trying to imply I said.
I said my piece and I do not care if you like it or not. I am not whining, nor am I afraid of anyone.
I admit to what I write and say.
Funny thing, couldn't post this twice. I will eventually.
I am certainly not a victim.
Do you always have to have a vendetta going against someone at all times? Are you really that fucked up?
You can go back to ignoring me and I will go back to ignoring you.
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I'm not attacking anyone, but I feel a bit pity, that's all. "
THAT is an attack. You are actually worse than the anons because you are a poser.
LucyLu it is so nice of you to defend her like that. Most people don't even bother and I think that's why she takes so much shit!
I'm sorry I get annoyed when I see one person, ANY ONE get that much abuse. It's so fucking ridiculous it makes me think people are blind, just seeing what they want to see.
~~~Lurker anon from before
"I never said those things you are trying to imply I said."
But you are accusing her of saying things too, what so YOU are right and she is wrong. What a fucking loser you are, if you hate her then fuck the fuck off!
My computer went all Blue Screen of Death and shut down, wtf is going on here? *cries*
Thank you Bean, and thank you too, nice anon. ^_^
I'm having some freaking computer issues over here! The hell? I gotta feed my dogs anyway. Later guys.
You fuckers made fun of her when her dog died, lets not forget that!!
You're welcome K, it really makes me fucking sick to my stomach, I'm sorry.
Hope your computer gets fixed!
Kapunua has, more often than not, instigated the unkind words.
There was an incident where she called Mya an idiot for not boycotting furs and diamonds. When confronted with it, she attacked.
Kapunua is not the only person who is attacked for what they say. Original Punks are decapitated almost every time they show up. From what I can tell, they do not abuse the people who they call friends.
Capture This Void was *reamed out* on her own blog by Kapunua for being upset over SS reputedly not knowing he was quoting her. I believe one of her comments was "I didn't know we needed a support group for not being cited on a quote!"
Was she retaliating then, Lucy Lu? Anonymous?
Lurker anon,
Hiding behind an anon name in order to try to have to address things that bother you is something that I don't do, but this is what I hate about this blog.
When something bothers someone, they can't normally address it with their friends here without having stupid anons warped and twist their words around and claim that it's an "attack".
I am not trying to attack anyone, but if there's something about them that bothers me, you can bet your ass that I will address them about it.
I admire honesty more than anything else, and you can't handle that, you don't have to talk to me, plain and simple. Why is it that hard some anons to accept?
I'm gonna say things that some people may not like. That's how I am.
Anonymous said...
"I never said those things you are trying to imply I said."
But you are accusing her of saying things too, what so YOU are right and she is wrong. What a fucking loser you are, if you hate her then fuck the fuck off!
June 9, 2008 4:21 PM
Go and read! I said about what "I" posted.
I never said hate! Are you that fucking stupid?! I think you are.
I was not ocncerned about what anyone else was saying.
"I" never felt like a victim.
"I" never said I was whining.
BC, get a life, please.
Don't you fucking curse at me! I will never defend you again.
Crawl back under the rock you came out of fuckbag!
Again with power trips, telling people what to do and how to do it.
Pretty fucked up.
You fuck off! Oh, go fuck yourself fisrt.
Thank you Lurker Anon!
I was actually bracing myself for a barrage of shit!
I know K doesn't need me to defend her, she is more than capable of standing up for herself, heaven knows she's had enough practice. But K is my friend and I value her friendship.
Honest question, LucyLu.
What qualities does Kapunua have that you like and admire?
Honest answer, please.
"Fuck the fuck off"??
What is this, an INO dumping ground?
Anonymous said...
You fuckers made fun of her when her dog died, lets not forget that!!
June 9, 2008 4:23 PM
Watch who you are including in that statement. I didnt make fun of anyone. That is cruel. I guess some people are like that. Asses.
LucyLu, also do not forget my earlier question.
4:34
I second that. I never made fun of her dog either.
4:25, you're clearly a regular if you've been to CTV's blog! That is "reaming someone out? Please, read it, yes I said "do you need a support group for this" because the whole thing was so ridiculous.
As for what happened with Mya, there was a hell of a lot more that got said before that. Am I going to sit here and tell my side of it? Hell no, because hi, it's history, or at least it should be, and doing so will only bring more wank. But you seem to want to keep bringing these things up. I wonder, anon, why is that? It's because you like to see the fighting and the drama, huh?
Tell you what, this is why I don't bother to defend myself most of the time, because it's anons like your brave self, trying to stir the blog into a nice froth of more arguments over things that were, oh, say back in November.
Idiot.
Bean, again, thank you. YOu didn't have to wade into the crap-froth for me, but you did anyway, and I thank you.
Kapu attacks every new person that comes on this blog to the point where some don't even come back. she relentlessly attacks them for not saying hello to her. so how can people say she only attacks people who attack her first. that's bullshit!
Hi RW
resurrected wreck said...
"Fuck the fuck off"??
What is this, an INO dumping ground?
June 9, 2008 4:34 PM
That is what I was thinking.
I can't stand it. I may come back later and post some nice lyrics to calm everyone down, or not. I know no one gives a shit these days.
Goodbye.
The same shit, around and around we go, where we stop nobody knows.
Stop! Hammer time!
Hi, BC :)
*squeeze*
Don't want to get smothered under the pile of shit that is Mayo's today, so I'm off...
Furthermore, bean, I know why we're friends. I know why all of my friends are my friends. Please do not feel obliged to answer or engage this one anymore. They are just trying to get you going, and anything you say, they are just going to shoot it down.
*squeezes RW back*
Take care RW. Sorry about all of this :/
I am going to work out now. Finally.Gonna hit that bag so hard, it will hurt so good. Gotta get it out somehow.Bye everyone. Later. Maybe or not.
See you later workout anon
In no particular order:
Honesty
Sense of humour
Intelligence
Wit
Kindness
Compassion
Selflessness
Generosity
Thoughtfulness
Ability to laugh at herself
Love of nature
Eagerness to learn new things
Cultured
Optimism
Fearless
Direct
Enthusiastic
Self-motivated
Self-respect
Eccentric
Principled
Moral
Trustworthy
Loyal
That's just off the top of my head. My time here is precious and I don't want to spend it arguing with anybody. You don't like K and I do, so perhaps we should just agree to disagree.
Anonymous Anonymous said...
Kapu attacks every new person that comes on this blog to the point where some don't even come back. she relentlessly attacks them for not saying hello to her. so how can people say she only attacks people who attack her first. that's bullshit!
No anon, that is bullshit. She doesn't attack new people, she just ignores them. She ignored me too. I think she is smart not to chat with anons and I don't blame her after the shit that happened. You never know who's who.
I think Bleeding Chaos is doing the right thing. She does not hold grudges. Her actions are a testament to her good character.
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*sighs* I tried, but look at what just happened.
lucy lu,
that's the funniest thing i've read all day.
I know that K.
I've already indulged the anon by answering one of their questions but as they say...'It's not a command thing!' :D
And I admire her too. I know you said we didn't have to but I feel bad. I think Kapu is witty, intelligent, funny as hell, loyal and she is an activist. I think that's why her friends like her. I admire her too. SS likes her. Mayo likes her, I don't care what any other bullshit anons say, he likes her. If other's don't, too bad.
I think Mayonaise and SS like everybody here. That is what they've said. I believe them.
anon 4:46
she attacks people first for not saying hello to her, and then she ignores them.
SS is a very good judge of character.
SS also said he is a firm believer in the golden rule, lucylu.
goodmorning everyone
I also happen to think she's so pretty. I'm an adult female with a crush on an adult female. Sorry!!!
Okay,errr...hello Lovelies!
Inductor?Are you playing with electrical circuits,Mayo?
Just kidding,dude. ^_^
SS,simply great!
How have you guys been?
Thank you, LucyLu. I do disagree with you. Anger her, see how she treats you.
May you all have a nice day.
I'm an Ergoproxy ran as well as a Kapunua fan too. Hi Ergoproxy and hi anyone else who is lurking.
I don't care what any other bullshit anons say, he likes her. If other's don't, too bad.
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That's why I kinda said earlier that this blog was not some kind of competition, or about favoritism.
My apologies might not be accepted, but I apologize anyways for whatever I may have said.
Hi Bella, good morning Ergo. How are you guys?
Take care, not a teenager anon, and thank you for earlier.
Hi Ergo/K fan anon
this whole SS thing is ridiculous. i can pretend to be him. he posts as an Anon. until he has a "Blue" name, you don't know for sure that it's him your reading.
SS and Mayo like the OP's, too, that's why Kapu doesn't like the OP's!
SS also said he is a firm believer in the golden rule, lucylu.
What's your point?
What do his beliefs have to do with Kapunua?
Hello BC!
I'm okay,thanks.Just a bit tired.
And you?
this whole SS thing is ridiculous. i can pretend to be him. he posts as an Anon. until he has a "Blue" name, you don't know for sure that it's him your reading.
and would you be able to change his profile after you pretend to be him?
hi lucy,bella K BC not teenager, anon
another nice day in the office I see
SS you ever been to a floorshow performance? If not, try and do so, most excellent fun!
4:59
When the real SS does appear, he adds words on his profile that may be related to whatever discussion he has with us bloggers.
That's good Bella. I'm okay, just have a slight headache. Another typical anon attack, yada yada yada.
Ergo! Welcome aboard the cezy train!
SS has been on the receiving end of Kapu's nastiness, LL. She told him she knew he played everybody. He told her her words hurt him. 'Do unto others as you would have them do unto you'? Means, you got to play nice to get nice.
did Mayo just change his profile?
I wasn't even trying! whoop whoop
blah
Damn you anon! :p
woah that was so weird, my comment just showed at the top of the page! *twilight zone*
Sorry BC, trying to make a point here. Next one is yours.
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