Way down at the center of the Earth, the core as it is called, the pull is intense. The rest of it, what I see every day, endlessly revolves, but down there it is all held in tight. I want to be that close, leave the cycle, become random. I am a part of the pattern and I know that is why I feel this way. So much of it is polluted.
There is the challenge.
I tried to dig it up once. I wanted to know if it would pull my soul out and then would it also find a place in rotation? Follow me around batting at the back of my head? But, my palms blistered before I made it. I would like to say I did not give up, but I did.
Yesterday, I read in the news that someone had finally reached it. Once they arrived, they made legal claim of the core of the Earth. Stuck a flag in it and gave it a proper name, in a proper way...I hate proper. So, now I want it even more. The rest of it can float off for all I care.
Well, not all of it.
I will try again. This time, a bigger shovel and a pair of gloves might do the trick, save my hands. I will not quit; it is worthy work. When I get there, I will release it. I no longer wish to be a part of its rotation. Instead, I wish for the whole of it to become the rest of it.
p.s. each day the same way and then look at it again if its there, focus.
Saturday, June 7, 2008
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«Oldest ‹Older 2801 – 2893 of 2893hi there wendy! how are you?
well done amy! lol
put some good dandruff shampoo on it and it'll kill it
TJ if I do It'll be in about 1/2 hr
otherwise I'll let you know
have to go now, I am not titoring (yaya but have swimming class)
♥xx♥
Amyranth said...
Also, I have ringworm.
-A
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O_O YIKES! That is quite the page starter, Amy! ;)
*throws confetti -- from a nice, safe distance -- and blows celebratory blog horns*
Congratulations Amy! Ummm.....on being tops, that is!
damn Hi wendy
*running out door*
I'm good, TJ! Thanks for asking. How are you? How's the office job?
Ergo: *big smooooooooch*
*pounce tackle hugs and smooches for all*
:( Bye (for now) Ergo.
Have fun at that swimming class!
i finally decorated my desk space, wendy. it's neat to sit there (just like a grown-up, lol) and read mayo's poetry.
and i have a picture of elena smirking at me, too.
(elena, where are you?)
*laughs at Wendy*
I can't infect you, unless I rub my foot all over you. Which I won't.
Don't worry, the doctor says I should be fine in a week or two. I'm not really concerned because it's only one spot.
And I have to keep my feet super-dry (which it hasn't been here AT ALL) so I got to splurge on some pretty smelling talcum powder to put in my shoes and on my feet. It's Lavender!
-A
I'm proud of you TJ!!!!! Do you like the office work? Maybe you've found a part-time calling ;)
Speaking of Elena, where is she TJ?
Amy: Awwww......you can rub your little feet all over me anytime you wish, really! (Once the ringworm is gone, that is) ;)
Keep that foot dry, young lady!
Hot Dang! I'm an Empress too, Ergo! We can be co-virgoian Empresses. *big smile*
You are The Empress
Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.
The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.
The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.
Hiya Amy. You have ringworm?
My dear sugarplum, where have you been?!! I missed you tons. How are you? *smothers with sloppy kisses and hugs*
SWEETCHEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!
I've missed you too! How are you feeling these days?
*big hug and kisses*
Ooops, I forgot the SLOPPY part.
Sorry sweetcheeks! ;)
*giggles at Wendy again*
Hiya BC!
Yeah, I was pretty surprised. Apparently, we can usually fight off the infection, but as usual, when you stress out, you can catch anything.
-A
wendy, office work is fine, but i'm crossing the days off on my calendar! not my calling, i think. (though it seems i'm good at it...*preen*)
i don't know where elena is. if she's lurking *looks pointedly out into the ether* i hope she'll say hello at least.
or maybe even a little snarl?
I'm doing okay sugarplum, a bit tired, but I think my stress level is increasing a little bit nowadays. Not good :/
I never snarl
*kisses Amy little foot*
There, Amy! You'll be all better soon! ;)
Are you lonely tonight, Amy?
LOL, that sounds like some sort of blog pick up line!!!
Elena: If you're lurking, can you give us a HOWL? I would like that very much!
TJ: How many days do you have left to scratch off? Are you still going to move to Kansas - eventually?
Hey, Peter Frampton will be playing at the House Of Blues in September! Remind me to tell my sister about that. She LOVED Frampton!
"you" is not "me"
Hi Elena
"He" is not "She"
Sorry Anon, maybe I do snarl. Carry on, I'll mind my manners.
elena!
*GLOMP!!!!*
"you" is not "me"
um, good to know...? thanks for the heads up...?
Hi Elena!
*big hug and kiss*
Even though you didn't howl! ;)
How are you, love?
Hello anon who is not you or me!
wendy, my last day on the job is the 11th july, and as soon as i can i'll be on a bus to kansas.
that is...if i'm still welcome there?
Hey BC, TJ and Wendy
I just got out of the shower. I spent the day in the barn (long story) and I was Warped Tour dirty.
Wendy, I'm definitely not accompanied, that's for sure.
Boyfriend is out of town, camping with his dad and brother. He won't be home until Saturday.
The house feels more empty than usual, and it doesn't help that the black cat just figured out that he's gone, and now won't leave the glass sliding door because... I dunno, he thinks he's trapped in the yard?
I don't get cats sometimes.
-A
warped tour dirty, eh? i think i know a little bit about that. *grin*
are you okay, though?
Speaking of "me",
IT'S ME: I'm glad you liked your pillow helmet! I did get more protective gear for you....
Protection Pack for Its Me
With the way I drive, you might need it! ;)
TJ when are you gonna stop asking if you are welcome in Kansas? Honestly woman, I'm gonna have to smack you again.
I am here. I am fine. (yeah, one of those answers)
you're very good at those answers...
and i don't know, elena, i know i'm a royal pest, and when i don't hear from you, i spend half my time worrying about you and half of it worrying that i finally pushed my luck too far. :/
*bows head for smackage*
I seem to be having technical diffulties (again) tonight. Sorry for the delay.
Elena: Warped tour dirty? I hope you spent at least a good hour in that shower!
Amy: The boyfriend is gone until Saturday and the cat won't come inside??? Ummm.....do you need me to fly over and check under the bed for you? Bert ghost might be hiding under it. Animals can sense these things! ;)
TJ: Hang in there! Just a few weeks to go!
BC: Are you still here, sweetcheeks?
and anyway, i'll be fine once i get out ther...er, well, i'll be better.
i promise?
boooo, Amy, so glad your dude is gone, Ima gonna haunt youuuuuu.
Aw man!
Apparently, as long as I have one patch of skin that has ringworm, I have to wash my sheets every day!
Damnit!
-A
YIKES!!!!! I knew it! Run Amy....RUN.....
and don't forget the cat!!!!
YAK!
A GHOST!
-A
Oh shut up Bert Ghost. You don't scare anyone ^_^
I'm still here sugarplum, just checking out Kerrang's website.
It's okay Amy, I have ringworm too, you don't gotta wash the sheets for me.
Amy be careful, he is pedantic about grammar
and impetigo, and scabies, and maybe herpes, maybe...but I'm still nice. :)
Maybe Bert ghost can scare the ringworm out of you!
;)
Does you doctor think you 'picked it up' at work, Amy?
TJ
I am good at those answers. Very good.
Stop worrying about me. There is no need.
Wendy Warped Tour dirty takes at least 45 minutes to shower off.
Hey Amy oh and Bert Ghost?
okay, so now that i know elena is safe, and everyone else happily running away from ghosts, and that "you" is most definitely not "me" (is the cryptic catching?), i can go hit the bed.
i'll be a sorry little office lady in the morning if i don't.
oh! but still no text from ergo...
*shrugs*
well, if she wakes me up, she wakes me up. :)
good night, fellow bloglodytes. may you all dream happy dreams of your favorite frappuccino!
*grin*
Bert ghost said...
and impetigo, and scabies, and maybe herpes, maybe...but I'm still nice. :)
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O_O
If you were such a nice ghost, you wouldn't have herpes! ;)
BC: Anything interesting at Kerrang's site this week?
Goodnight TJ and sweet office lady dreams to you!
We will try our best to keep the ghost busy so he doesn't haunt your dreams. :)
Have a good day at work tomorrow!
Bert Ghost can have my ringworm, gladly!
And, uh. Keep all his other stuff. I don't ask to share. Thanks.
Wendy, it's more than possible. There are two chinchillas that have it, but it's odd, I last touched them about a week ago wearing a mask, gloves and a gown. My theory is that some infected fur ended up on my workshoes, which I wore home because I'm not brilliant all the time.
Hm. You can use Head And Shoulders as a bodywash to help get rid of an all over ringworm infection, maybe I should buy some and treat everything..
I should go to bed though, I gotta be at work for 6.
I'll be home, much later tomorrow.
Goodnight Lovelies!
Goodnight Mayo and SS!
Goodnight Anons and Bert Ghost.
-A
Not really sugarplum. What's irritating about going there is that there is almost always an article about Pete Wentz.
I find that to be quite annoying. If he's not on the site, he's on almost every issue.
Goodnight TJ, Amy, sweet dreams!
it worked! i can text australia!
so cool. :)
and elena, sorry, but i kinda like to worry about my friends, whether they think they need it or not. it was in the contract...remember that bit at the very bottom, that i said was decorative calligraphy?
*heh*
Night Amy
Night TJ (I read the small print)
Amyranth said...
Wendy, it's more than possible. There are two chinchillas that have it, but it's odd, I last touched them about a week ago wearing a mask, gloves and a gown. My theory is that some infected fur ended up on my workshoes, which I wore home because I'm not brilliant all the time.
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O_o
I scare myself sometimes!
Of course you're brilliant all the time! You can not be held responsible if infected fur chooses to follow you home! ;)
Just be extra careful around those infected critters in the future!
Feel better, Amy! Goodnight and sweet dreams to you!!!
you do? *oops*
night, laverne. sleep well, dream better. :)
good night all, really going now, just need to make my good nights to mayo.
*waves, blows a kiss*
Get better soon Amy. Goodnight TJ
i'm typing one handed again.
congratulations on texting aussie land!!!
Aw man, is everyone going to bed?
Hi anon, no, some of us are still here.
bc, i like pete LOL! he broke his foot jumping off mile high speakers at voodoo fest last year and didn't miss a beat. he even managed to show up for their surprise appearance at the house of shock. couldn't play; but, they did sign autographs!
hats off to fob!!!
mayo,
i have to admit i'm feeling better than i was earlier. i guess, sometimes the cryptic hurts, and sometimes the cryptic helps. *grin*
and i'm tired, and not sure what to write because of it. i'm blinking sleepily at the screen, and tbp is in my ears, distracting me from what little wits i have about me at this hour.
sometimes, i don't know what to think about you.
and more so, i don't know what i ought to be thinking about you, or if i ought to be thinking about you at all.
*sigh*
but this place, and you, and my friends here -- all tangled around and through what i do now. i toyed with the idea of getting a silver thread and a little spider tattooed around my left wrist, you know.
but that would be redundant.
good night to you, mayo. and whatever you might be doing tomorrow, may it fill you with happiness.
To each their own sugarplum ^_^
The bloodthirsty and evil part of myself wants to smack him in the face.
i'm slow because i have only one hand to type with again.
That's okay Wendy. Well guys, I'm off for the night. Goodnight Wendy, Elena, anon, TJ.
Sweet dreams.
oh....i won't stop you from smacking anyone, sweetcheeks! smack away!
Evening everybody (morning where I am)
Dropping by the say hello, and a special one to Lewis :)
I hope to catch up with you soon!
Anon616, if I could be so bold to ask, why are you typing with one hand?
night BC.
goodnight sweetcheeks! sweet dreams!!!!
Night Shirl, sweet cryptic dreams
Night BC, take care.
Well suppose I should go do the laundry. It's not gonna do itself. But wouldn't it be nice if it did?
Wendy, hope to talk to you later.
I want to make a clicky link now but I AM LAME.
hi persephone! how are you?
yes, you may ask.
my other hand is holding the phone!!!
This is where I grew up. It's no wonder I can't figure out how to make a clicky link.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=oufSE3n3_z8&feature=related
goodnight elena and sweet dreams to you soon!
ohhhh.....persephone, lewis said to tell you she is deleting her blog but she will still be around other places!
Thanks anon616.
Must go. Bye!
goodnight persephone! sweet dreams!
Mayo
Well I wasn’t much in the mood to talk last night but moping never does any good so I’ll give a shot at one of my ridiculous rambles. Maybe that will pep me up some.
I spent a good amount of time today getting ready for a garage sale. No, this sale was not my idea because I have enough crap to do but my youngest daughter thought it would be a great idea. She promised to do all the work. Yeah right, I knew how this would go. So I’m emptying out one of my barns. (I used to be an antique dealer so I’ve got so much crap it’s unbelievable). Then the stuff has to be transported to my mom’s cause she lives in town, and then it has to be priced. Strangely enough my daughter was busy today. So, then she promised that she would actually run the garage sale. Oh guess what? She has to take the SAT test on Saturday, the day of the garage sale. Yeah, I’ll be running it too.
So anyway as I’m going through boxes and boxes of stuff I run across all the things I used to use to decorate the house for holidays. Lets just say I have enough crap I could easily decorate The White House. I stopped counting plastic Jack-o’-lanterns at 46. Yes you read that correctly. I have over 46 Jack-o’-lanterns. Okay it’s not really quiet as weird as it sounds. You need to keep in mind that Halloween is my favorite holiday and I did love to decorate for it. I mean, come on. I live in a very old two-story farmhouse. It does have ghosts but that’s just another story. Now imagine Fall. Huge trees in the front yard that are dropping leaves, the crisp smell of autumn in the air and bright orange Jack-o’lanterns hanging by thin monofilament line so that it looks like they are floating in the breeze. It was pretty damn cool. I would spend literally hours decorating the whole place, not just the outside but the inside as well. It takes a lot of decorations to do that. Not even gonna discuss Christmas. Holy crap, I have 12 vintage aluminum trees. Not just the silver ones but I have blue, green, gold, aqua and pink. Nope, not parting with those. I don’t decorate with them anymore but I can’t make myself sell them.
Well this just went into quite a ramble. I was talking about a garage sale and ended up here. Now I’m sad. I don’t decorate because no one cares anymore. When the girls were little they loved all the decorations. Now they couldn’t care less. You would think I’d be happy that I don’t have to waste all the time anymore. But I’m not. Crap, don’t want to go down this path again. So anyway I’m selling all the decorations. I’m pretty sure the pile of plastic pumpkins will get some weird looks. Oh well, I’m used to that. Tomorrow it’s back out to the barn to dig out more stuff. Did I mention I hate having garage sales?
Night Mayo
Elena (Oh and the pumpkins really looked cool floating on the pond with a candle inside)
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
Why you dress like me is it honesty or you just a fool
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
Why the school kids laugh cause the papers got it wrong again
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
Take a piece of me serve me up on a plate in your restaurant
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
Is it 'cos I'm fly
'Cos I said what I said when I said what I said but I didn't say
Is it 'cos I'm hip
Why you dig my shit and you say I am a fan now I understand
Is it 'cos I'm hot
Why you mention me in your V.I.P memories
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
I ain't buying or selling today
I'm just looking around
For some decent conversation
No hidden agenda
No phony pretender
No holding on out for my sweet sixteen
Or peppermint dream
I'll call you please don't call me
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
Is it 'cos I'm Smart
Why you break my heart with the lies you tell baby kiss and tell
Is it 'cos I'm wrong
That you jump right in with no discipline baby sink or swim
Is it 'cos we're friends
Why you use my name just to entertain eh-yeah
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
Time keeps ticking and running away
And It's taking us fast to a brand new free dimension
Too cool to mention well that's the intention
But some of us too damn blind to see
It's setting us free
Say goodbye to jealousy
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
No one really cooler
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
Take a piece of me
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
Why you mention me
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
In your VIP
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
Is it 'cos I'm cool?
Is it 'cos I'm cool
Is it 'cos I'm cool
plle ase
Elena, I hear you. And I listen, and I'm trying to appreciate more what I have now because of what you say. Just wanted you to know that you make a difference, okay?
Just my goodnight song, even though I wasn't here tonight. Forgot to shut the pc down.Whoops.
When I went to shut it down,decided to check here, say hi,bye and leave cool song lyrics.
This song reminds me of GW.
shhh. It does. ^_^
Did not mean to interrupt. Goodnight lovlies. Have a good Weds. ok?
Anon,
Thank you for telling me that.
GW = confused
you're welcome Elena. Now, off to bed, and listening to almost jailbait (otherwise knows as Panic!at the Disco) yet I am never sure how to write their name out, so does that mean I'm not really a fan? Goodnight, Blogbelieve.
Elena said...
Anon,
Thank you for telling me that.
June 11, 2008 2:52 AM
G'nite Elena. Be well, be safe. ;)
SS, when did you jump to the left?
Anonymous said...
GW = confused
June 11, 2008 2:55 AM
He may well be.;)
G.
G'nite Anon
like, two days ago.
Elena, I just wanted to let you know that you are a wonderful person, with a big heart.
Anonymous said...
you're welcome Elena. Now, off to bed, and listening to almost jailbait (otherwise knows as Panic!at the Disco) yet I am never sure how to write their name out, so does that mean I'm not really a fan? Goodnight, Blogbelieve.
June 11, 2008 2:56 AM
Nooooooooooo. You di'int just say PATD!
Sad. ^_^
G'nite.
Goodnight everyone...
I've decided to keep a few of the pumpkins.
I can't let go of all of the past..
See you all tomorrow.
Oh and Anima, big tight hug for you!
My thoughts are still with you, your father and family.
HA! I have both hands back!
*waves to my fellow member of the black hat society*
Who says the good guys always wear white? They lie! ;)
Okay, I must be off for now.
Goodnight to any anons and lurkers who remain.
Goodnight Mayo and SS!
Sweet dreams to one and all!!!!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
PS: Catch you in a couple of hours Miranth and Ergo!
Hi Elune! How've you been? Are you still keeping close tabs on the moon and stars?
Goodnight Elune and heavenly dreams to you!
Goodnight (again) Elena! Thanks, as always, for your beautiful goodnight to Mayo!
Oh damn I mucked up my comment
ok from memory
Elune lovely to see you
Elena it's so hard sorting through things but the memories are priceless
anon @ 2:26 clickeyd for you
anon @ 2:48 she's a smart lady isn't she!
Wendy shame I missed you
*smoooooooooch*
TJ ! great to get your message, sorry for the brevity of the replies but I didn't trust my at-deaths-door mobile to stay working for too long
Mayo hoping you are well, I had a message writen out about how I tend to always stress over the small things while big stuff is let fate take it's course. I tend to live too much in my head which tends to be unfortunately quite pessimistic. I am hoping that you aren't sweating the small stuff.
Though thankfully for me a few things I'd been stresssed over have actually worked out it seems. Wishing you and yours resolution, delights, strength and forgiveness- to give and receive
(not sure why I write that but it seemed right for some reason) Hoping the cosmos is treating you kindly much love
EP xx
SS hoping you are well and keeping bizzy. But you may want to stop jumping to the left, Either you'll end up i the ocean or at least up against some wall getting lots of funny looks.
Sending you The Sword of Damocles, A science fiction double feature and Dammit SS...I Love You!
Lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve see you in my tomorrow
Hi PP kass miranth and FASC
♥xx♥
sd
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