I would like to share with you one of my favorites.
SHOCK
C.K. Williams
Furiously a crane
in the scrapyard out of whose grasp
a car it meant to pick up slipped,
lifts and lets fall, lifts and lets fall
the steel ton of its clenched pincers
onto the shuddering carcass
which spurts fragments of anguished glass
until it's sufficiently crushed
to be hauled up and flung onto
the heap from which one imagines
it'll move on to the shredding
or melting down that awaits it.
Also somewhere a crow
with less evident emotion
punches its beak through the dead
breast of a dove or albino
sparrow until it arrives at
a coil of gut it can extract,
then undo with a dexterous twist
an oily stretch just the right length
to be devoured, the only
suggestion of violation
the carrion jerked to one side
in involuntary dismay.
Splayed on the soiled pavement
the dove or sparrow; dismembered
in the tangled remnants of itself
the wreck, the crane slamming once more
for good measure into the all
but dematerialized hulk,
then luxuriously swaying
away, as, gorged, glutted, the crow
with savage care unfurls the full,
luminous glitter of its wings,
so we can preen, too, for so much
so well accomplished, so well seen.
p.s. it was a plunger but nevertheless.
Monday, June 30, 2008
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«Oldest ‹Older 1001 – 1200 of 4973 Newer› Newest»I miss him, too. :(
Maybe that's his way of letting us know that he's still around though.
*waves to SS again*
101 and counting.
Smoke,
I am so hardcore! I am!
*growls and gives evil eye*
Anima's picture still kicks ass. Every fucking day it kicks more ass.
I was sorta close!
Gerard's actually really surprised me.
-A
Well...
maybe just one time.
Hey Everyone,
It's L. Only one comment tonight, it's been a rough couple of days, but I wanted to let you know that J. and I have seperate blogs now, she will be commenting under Original Punk-J, and I will be commenting as Emerald, so there is no confusion.
TJ, good luck tomorrow, I hope everything goes well. Love goes with you, too!
Carrie, if you come back on, tell Entropy I'm sorry she's having such a bad day. I hope she and her boyfriend are alright.
Mayo, SS, Family, goodnight.
Love. Hope. Faith.
(We got to have something to hold on to, don't we?)
Ooops.
Wrong window.
-A just got the Interoffice Memo about the masks.
Hiya L!
Can we still call you L? Or should we call you Em?
-A
Redrum,
She will ooze all over you. She is full of sugary sweet syrup.
Hardass, my ass!
Either is fine, Amy. :)
sdock, i know! you've been sending me special thoughts like every night! :D
*huuuuugs*
and you know what? i hopped on the blog at the end of the day at work, just to try to catch up a little, and it was so wonderful to see how people had been thinking of me all day. :)
you guys. ♥
Well, BlogBelieve...
It's that time again. Only 8 hours til get-up-and-do-it-all-over again time!
Nite, nite and sweet dreams!
FYI...I wouldn't advise headbanging before sleepy time. I fucked my neck up. Seriously!
WHOOP! WHOOP!
Catch you guys tomorrow!
Did someone say masks?
I GOT FRANK'S! YAY! :)
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Redrum! Yay! Nice to see you around. :)
*squeezes Redrum*
Umm, Solly didn't mention that my other name is actually Sugary Cyanide, did she? Huh. Now you know. ^_~
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Welp, it's about that time.
Sleep-sleep!
TJ,
You will be in my thoughts and as Jules says: PINK BUBBLE!
You're a tough lady, TJ. I hope you know that. :)
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Mayo,
DUDE! I'm gonna wave at you all day tomorrow. Will you watch for me? Hope you have a lovely night, Mayo. Sweet dreams and stuffs.
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SS!!!
Yep. I gots you a new snowglobe. Ain't you happy? You got all kinds of room now. And I promise to never leave it in the trunk of my car again. Ever. Seriously though, you know you're missed. And as we've said before, we will be right here when you're ready to come back. Okay? Sweet dreams!!!
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Nighty-night BlogBelieve! Hope you all have sweet dreams! :)
Aww.
Good night, ladies.
good night sisters, thanks for the thoughts and bubbles! :)
good night, redrum. please do remember to take the eyepatch off before going to bed, won't you?
/mother hen
Mayo,
Ummmm....yeah, we'll get back to work on the Viking Kitty mural tomorrow. It's going to be super badass! Just you wait and see. Yeah, I ate manic for supper followed by hyper for dessert and I drank some don't much give a fuck to wash it all down!
Sometimes that's all I can do. Choke it down and ride the coaster. Yeah, I know you're not supposed to eat before you get on those things, but mine never stops and now it's the whoosh before the dip!
I'll be back tomorrow with more nonsense. We now return to your regularly scheduled programming which is already in progress!
Well, isn't that fucked up? Now, you don't know what the hell is going on!
Fuckers.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. S'okay.
Yes'm. I will hang it on my bedpost.
And I'll be thinking happy little thoughts for you tomorrow, too.
See you later.
Remember Elena,
Text me when it's over.
thanks, redrum. (and, good boy.)
♥
Huh.
Apparently there's an easter egg on the website. I'm trying to load it now to see what you get.
-A
Oh WOW.
Guys, go to the website. Check out the page after the oder info for TBPID! and click in the small mask graphic.
-A
*blinks*
Did I kill the internet?
-A
no, we're all looking! lol
it's the game, isn't it? is it different from before?
*blinks again*
There was a GAME?
Great.
I can't get it to load past Fear/Regret and The Aviator guy.
-A
lol!
keep at it, it's very cool. :)
Which page are you guys at? The MCR homepage?
Just found it.
WILD!
Night, BlogBelieve! Talk to you guys tomorrow!
Mayo,
Just want to thank you one more time, for good measure and all of that. Thanks for what you did. See you around, dude. :)
SS,
I gotchoo sumthin'.
*drum roll*
Snowball, you know, for your brand-spankin' new snowglobe. Bwuahahah! Geddit?! It will make the perfect addition, I'm sure.
*tapes to snowglobe a warning stating: DO NOT SHAKE ME AND MY KITTEH.*
Yay for me being so full of shit! Night guys!
Isn't it RW?
Apparently, it's been around for awhile, I guess I just never noticed it.
-A
I can't get past the question of what was my strongest memory. even when I type in the right answer it won't let me go any further :/
Night, Mustard :)
Really?
First I put down an actual memory,and it says "I thought it was your father taking you to the Parade".
Do you get a screen that has a piece of paper blowing around on it?
-A
Yes, that's as far as I get though.
You have to click on the piece of paper.
Try to get it near the to of bottom of the screen, it blows in pretty much the same pattern.
-A
Got it!
Am now at a page with a newspaper article. Red letters spelling "remember".
What now?
"Remember what the nurse said to you"
Do you remember what the nurse said? Somehting like "Yes, there's something wrong with your heart", wasn't it?
I can't get it to load past Fear/Regret and The Aviator guy.
Same :/
Hmm.
Maybe the rest is on the DVD.
Turning in now. Have a good night :)
*saunters back in*
*feeling self-satisfied at finally posting a poem at her lj after having it drop twice*
*grabs a cup of non-barium-flavored coffee*
*makes herself comfortable on the couch*
s-i-i-i-i-i-i-p
RW, the nurse said something about "Her face will bring you back", and it's a quick picture of Fear/Regret.
Also, "Wipeout" isn't BAD, but it isn't great. And "I survived a japanese gameshow" is tripe. Utter tripe.
-A
TJ
Get your feet off the sofa.
*feet thump to the floor*
*kicks off shoes*
*tucks feet back up under self*
*sticks tongue out at elena*
s-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-p
Hiya Elena, want some tea?
Teej, you should be drinking coffee this late, you'll be up all night!
-A
TJ
Don't stick your tongue out at me...
My grandma would have said "stick that piece of meat back in your mouth."
*sighs*
Shouldn't
-A
elena. :P
amyranth, s'okay. coffee doesn't affect me like that. i have it as a night cap alla time.
s-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-p
Hi again everyone. Hi elena
plus, in a half-hour i have to stop eating everything until after the scan.
no morning coffee.
must get sufficiently caffeinated now.
s-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-p
hiya bc. :)
s-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-p
Hiya TJ. I wish you the best with the ct scan :)
Hi BC
Hi Amy
*totally ignores TJ*
s-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-p
thank you, bc. :)
*slides a cameo brooch over to elena*
s-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-p
Ah, well. In that case.
*shuffles over to the Bookcase behind the tea cart. Searching, she pulls Volume 1 of "The Complete Calvin and Hobbes" from the shelf. Pausing, she pours herself a cuppa Lemon Ginger Tea before settling back in her chair*
Hiya BC, want some tea?
-A
Hiya Amy. Tea sounds good, thank you :)
hey, amyranth, isn't there a volume of mutts over there, too?
could you toss me it?
if it's no trouble?
s-i-i-i-i-i-
*looks down into the cup*
damn.
empty.
So how've you been BC?
Same Elena, I haven't really been around much this week.
-A
Amy
I would love some tea
*takes cameo and tucks it in pocket*
*reaches behind her for the Mutts*
Here ya go.
Nothing like a good comic strip to relax you before bedtime.
-A
*grabs the volume out of the air*
thanks.
hey, have you guys ever read sluggy freelance?
it's a lot of fun.
*pours another cuppa Lemon Ginger and passes the cup towards Elena*
*deep, relaxed breath*
So, I've decided to give my notice at work. Ergo was right, the old manager coming back was my Divine Intervention. I'm getting my way out. So, I'm going to make my last day July 31st then take a whole week off. We've got a wedding in August, and then there's Warped, which would be hard to get time off for.
This is going to be quite a jump for me though. I don't really know what I want to DO anymore. My last two jobs have been about my passions, but it appears that I can't follow them within some one else's ideals.
-A
Pretty good Amy, just making plans for the 4th of July holiday. How are you?
oh, amyranth, good for you! and much good fortune to you as you start down this new path. :)
Thanks Amy
This is very good tea
I think there's some of us here that should really look into this.
*cough*everyone*cough*
-A
Thanks Teej, that means a lot from you.
Elena, it's one of my favorites. Stash Tea in Lemon Ginger. Really wakes you up in the morning!
BC, pretty much what I just posted. It was a lazy Canada Day. I spent most of it watching the First 48.
-A
Amy, good luck with everything. I hope you'll find a job that will suit you and make you happy
Me too BC. Contrary to popular belief, I hate bitching about my job all the time. Makes me feel like I never have anything positive to say, and everyone looks at me and thinks "Oh great, here comes the one with the shitty job, who never lets us hear the end of it."
-A
Amy
Any idea what kind of job you want?
Well Elena, the local Chocolate factory is hiring! I could do that.
I have to apply everywhere though, I can't afford to sit on one egg when there's too many other nests, you know?
-A
Anyway Lovelies, I have to head off. I gotta be up early in the am to *ugh* pay bills. Yuck.
Goodnight Elena and BC.
Teej, good luck with that scan in the AM. I'm sure everything will be fine.
Goodnight Mayo! Goodnight SS!
-A
hey amyranth, thanks for that link! that's a very admirable idea they've got going there.
i'm going to think about it for awhile, see if i'm inclined to participate. i don't know if i've got it in me to make something based on music...
but it's intriguing...
and for a very good cause, too.
very cool.
and good night, as well! thnaks for the good wishes. :)
goodnight amy, sweet dreams
Chocolate factory?
Oh wow, is there a guy who looks like Johnny Depp?
Elena, probably not, but it's C-H-O-C-O-L-A-T-E.
-A never leaves on time! Goodnight!
Night Amy....
Well I'm off to shower. Be back later.
TJ
If I don't talk to you again tonight....
Call me tomorrow! (oh and answer my damn question)
i will call you tomorrow, elena!
(and what question?)
Enjoy your shower elena
i should probably get to bed, myself. my alarm goes off pretty early tomorrow morning. :/
good night, bc, and elena when you get back.
and thank you again to everyone who has been keeping me in your thoughts. i'm squeezing you all in a ginormous hug!
good night. :)
Goodnight TJ, sweet dreams and good luck :)
mayo,
it makes me angry to have to walk back into a hospital, to sign in at radiology. i feel a low-level burn that makes me want to snarl, even though i wear my "pleasant" face.
i want to kick the universe in the seat of the pants for bringing me back to this spot, full circle.
except, it's not.
the last time, it was like walking along the very edge of a cliff, in the dark. the only thing i could do was grit my teeth and walk on, swallow the fear and do what was suddenly terribly necessary, and pray that the results, when they came, would allow me to resume my life. (of course, they didn't. cancer killed my life, but it didn't kill me.)
this time the scenery is similar, i'll admit. the mysterious lump, the sudden narrowing shift in priorities.
but it's not a cliff, and while my teeth are somewhat clenched, and i can sense the dark empty fear lurking behind me, all around me i have so many good wishes and spells and prayers and thoughts that i feel like i'm wearing a huge pink agora sweater.
i probably look ridiculous in it, but it's very, very warm.
and you know what? life isn't circular, not really. you may think you've come around again, trapped on a nightmare carousel, but when you really take a look at your surroundings it becomes clear that it's new ground.
life is a spiral. (dna, anyone?) we climb.
so here i am again, but it's not the me that was here before, and the playing field is completely different, too.
i have a bigger team, this time around.
*grin*
i don't know what the outcome of this is going to be, mayo. i'm not even looking at it. it's irrelevant.
tomorrow i'll be scared, i'll be pissed off, i'll be gritting my teeth. tomorrow i'll have my umpteenth ct scan. tomorrow i'll just do what is in front of me, and later, days later most likely, i'll find out.
it doesn't matter what i find out.
it really doesn't.
whatever weird loop my body has thrown me for now, i'll just deal with it.
i have other things to do.
good night and sweet dreams, my friend. i know you're sending me good wishes, too, aren't you?
for my love, who is always with me in my heart
When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love
When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love
I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong
I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
There's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love
The storms are raging on the rollin' sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet
I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love
given again to you, my love
Don't forget to call, whenever
I'll be here just waiting for you
I'll be under your stars forever
Neither here nor there just right beside you
Goodnight to anyone here. I'm off to bed.
P.S. Sugarplum, I miss you *smooches* I hope you're well.
oh well looks like I've missed everyone :(
but I had a cool day in town am up one new pair of black ballet shoes flats and saw Kung Fu Panda, which is ok, it had good bits but overall I wouldn't rush to see it. Not a patch on say Shrek or the Incredibles, but fun for kids
TJ take care I know you know we all are sending as much positive to you as we can
Mayo
I’m tried, damn tired. It was a very long day at the bookstore 10 to 10 and still I’m not done. I’ve heard a cowboy’s work is never done. Well, I don’t know about that but I’m pretty sure I could pen a song about a booksellers work is never done. Don’t think it would be a hit but that’s okay. The lyrics would speak to me!
Even though the book count was high and my eyes are blurry I’m still okay with it all. There were some interesting books in those 22 boxes. Truly, you have no idea how many books will fit into a box until you have to process the little buggers. And who da thunk it? A small old paper back on the life of Colonel Sanders (yeah Kentucky Fried dude) would sell for over $25.00? Of that I would find a 1924 signed copy of “The Three Mulla-Mulgars” It’s #236 out of the limited edition of which there are only 250. Oh, and it’s illustrated by J.A. Shepherd. Truly the illustrations are superb. Wait, is this shit only exciting to me? (I’m staring at the little blinking line thinking) Yeah, it probably is. Sorry, I’m a total book geek. But hey, all I did today was deal with books so that’s all I’ve got to talk about. Well books and I watered the garden but that’s really not a very exciting topic either. But I do have to admit something. Tonight when I was out in the darkness cursing the sprinkler because it decided not to work, I suddenly just wanted to throw it down and run through the water. Holy hell, you’d think I would have outgrown the desire to run through a sprinkler. Still, it was almost 90 degrees, the lightening bugs were showing off their glow and I was, in that brief instant, transported back to my summers as a child. It felt good, it felt familiar. I didn’t want to go back inside.
Sometimes it’s good to feel like we did when we were young. It’s good to recapture, if just for a moment, the freedom our hearts felt. I really miss that feeling.
Night Mayo
Elena (just needed a jar with holes poked in the lid and I would have had my nightlight)
Anonymous said...
I love how SS changed his blog header after Mayo changed his up. I wonder why he didn't stop by. I sure do miss him.
July 1, 2008 10:11 PM
Mayo, is that you?
Morning Mayo!
You appear quite smart - any suggestions for getting me out of work this afternoon for Nadal v. Murray?
I was thinking I could watch it at work on the BBC Website but the "Aaah! Oooh! Close! Gnnaarrgghh!!" might just give me away.
*hands Mayo a coffee and cigarette to help*
Nicotine actually has a positive effect on brain function, it's just a shame all the other 200+ nasty chemicals in tobacco smoke are bad for you!
Kass xx
morning mayo!
well it has been a breeze to catch up this morning. truly a pleasure!
it's great here isn't it?!
have a lovely day mayo!
SS! i see you are still in the land of the living! subtle little change but leaps out none the less. it's like.....hmmmm something's different??
hope you are good and well SS!
have a great day!
hello family!
L am liking the new name.
TJ good luck!
mustard your smaw poese deletion had me giggling!
RW you are too funny, your MCR cheat sheet had me giggling too.
wendy hope you are OK?
hi PJ
my god have i actually caught up on people's actual.........news!! fuck thats the first time in sooo long!
i am sure i have missed something important out in which case i do apologise!
hi kass!
it's going to rain today so you may get to see the tennis after working hours?!
hello to anyone arriving soon!
love to you all!
Hi FASC and Kass!
Hi guys! I hope all of the Americans enjoy the fourth of July holiday, even if you are not nationalistic, enjoy the opportunity to spend time with family and friends.
Ankle's paining me! I was on medication for something else and didn't realize I was continuously re-injuring it... hopefully it will heal sometime soon...
Thank you for all the kindness about my niece :)
TJ - I am glad you feel that way. Please continue to feel strong and draw on this energy, Again, my best wishes go with you :) ♥
mya - I hope your hand feels better! Take care of yourself :)
amy - *waves* to twin :)
Fimble - Thank you for that! :)
Wendy - I hope you are feeling well? ♥
Mayo - I know I got your message, but sometimes your words reflect those of others here so very well. Perhaps its a collective conscious thing... or your reading material is reflected in your writing. :)
*Hugs* all around! Have a great one everybody :)
hi/bye miranth!
oh i meant to say that on one of the buzznet forums (MCR related) ages ago the head of that forum said she had heard that one of the MCR crew (not band members) was going to be a dad. well we guessed at brian at the time. turns out it was worm! so he's not been around as he has been spending time with his new family!
how damn sweet is that.
Hi Miranth!
Sweet indeed! It's hard to picture Worm with a baby - it'd kinda get lost amongst the man mountain. Still, after babysitting Gerard a newborn should be a walk in the park!
kass i just spat at the screen!
anyway i have to go sadly!
good luck in trying to watch the tennis!
bye for now!
TJ,
You know it, but I will say it again anyways for good measure. We'll all be with you today in spirit.
Sending you lots of love and happy, positive thoughts.
*hugs*
Hi Solly!
U ♥ MC too, or is it Smoke that does, I forget.
Bloody Wikipedia! I thought it would be nice to make a page to celebrate the fabulousness of Matt and it says my communal IP address has been blocked so I can't register. Dammit!
Poor boy doesn't get props from his own band, and now he'll forever be a mere "redirection".
Love to TJ too - a colonic probing is never a pleasant experience, but they should give her lots of lovely mind-bending sedation, mmmm....
Kass xx
good morning, and thanks.
um, kassiopeia? i'm just getting a ct scan -- of my chest.
but thanks for the well wishes all the same. :)
totally groggy -- i've been sitting here in front of the computer for way too long, dozing.
no coffee. :(
Kass,
Smoke and I both totally ♥ MC! He is golden and should have been allowed to design his very own mask.
Frank Iero= cutest human being. Next to the second cutest.
MATT CORTEZ IS MY HERO. :)
Dude deserves all kinds of props for saving the day so many times. Plus, he's cute as a button.
Morning everyone!!!
*passes coffee over to TJ*
here you go tj, extra strong.
Good luck today, i will be thinking of you and hope that everything goes A-OK.
Morning everybody, well afternoon for the UKers.
James should have made his own mask too
Hi Fimble Starrrr!!!
Anon, that is so cute! :)
Yes! You are sooo correct! James should have made a mask. I agree with that. I mean damn, was he not a very important part of The Black Parade? Ummm, yes. Yes, he was.
hi smok, are you still waving to ss and shouting leathermouth?
that is cute anon, wasnt there a video of that? and was there a video of that little girl singing FLW's and them listening to it?
oh, thank you, fimble. :)
*grabs coffee like the lifeline it is*
i think blogbelieve coffee is okay for me to have.
Design his own mask, have his own tourbus, etc... I liked Mikey's mask the best, beauty in simplicity and all that. What's with the flowers though? Daisies are unlikely to strike fear into the hearts of your enemies!
Hi TJ,
See, that's what happens when you skim read back through a day's worth of comments before you've had your latte - but then, if anyone understands decaffeinated brain (non-)function I know it's you!
I'll get back to work...
thats good TJ, i will throw you some cookies as well if you want:) just dont tell anyone that you had blogbelieve coffee and tea, they will think you are mental living in a box :)
oh, yes. i understand the brain's need for coffee all too well...
i had to type this three times just to get it right.
*sigh*
have a good day at work, kassieopeia.
oooh, fimble -- i think most people already think i'm mental....
everyone is mental, tj.
I am really hot. Nice weather up here.
OOOOHHH!!! Somebody said masks didn't they?
*ahem*
I GOT FRANK'S!!! YAY!!! I IZ SO HAPPY!
Okay, I'll stop doing that now. Maybe.
Yep, Fim, I'm still waving to SS and I'm always shouting LEATHERMOUTHHHHHH!!!!!! And today I am going to wave at Mayo.
*waves to SS for like the 500th time*
*does the Miss America wave to Mayo*
TJ,
I know everything will be fine and I know you will be fine. Even so, I'm gonna say it again: PINK BUBBLE!
You're extended BlogBelieve family will be with you today. :)
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Mayo,
I kinda wanted to pinch myself. Do you feel the same? Are you as happy as we are about how nice it's been the past couple of days? Well, I hope so. This is the way it should be. I know there are still alot of people missing and I hope they find their way back. Just wanted to say thank you again. I hope you still find happiness and peace here. And a laugh or two. I mean, come on, a viking kitties mural? ^_~
Thanks again to Anon for finding us real viking kitties. Hee-hee.
Have a good one, Mayo. OMG! I typed that as 'have a goon one' to start with! Niiiice. GOONIES NEVER SAY DIE!
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SS!!!!!!!!!
Dude. Wassup? I hope you find your way back as well. You know we miss you. You know we worry about you. You know we're here. Sending you lots of happy thoughts and hugs. Hope you're doing okay. Have a great Wednesday, dude. :)
Did you love The Goonies? I did. Ha.
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Alright, gotta go get ready for work. Grrrr. Mayo, I really wish you'd find a way to get me out of this. Like, maybe pay my bills for me? Yes. That should do it. ^_^
BYE!
Have a good one everyone!
oh man. i fell asleep again.
e_e
i need to start getting ready to go.
must. try. to. move.
Mayo,
Hi, how are you? Hope you are happy and doing well. Me? I have tons of stuff to think about today. And I don't mean pondering all the questions of life and happiness. I mean my own shit. Can't keep pushing it to the side. I have a pretty damn huge pile right now. I've done a really good job so far at catching it as it crumbles downhill and throwing it back on top, but now, I am in danger of the whole thing just collapsing and burying me alive.
Weird. I just pictured myself covered in shit with one hand busting through. Making a fist. Guess what I'm holding?
Dude, I'm not going to tell you. Only I know what it is that I keep holding on to.
Mayo, may you be able to get your piles of shit under control today. Just keep them below 5 feet tall and I think you'll be okay.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Nope, not that.
*runs in and gently shakes TJ*
*whispers "wake up"*
*pours more coffee*
*gives her a hug*
Byeeeeeeeeee!
goodnight all
Tj hope it goes well, I'm thinking of you, pink bubbling and praying and all
Mayo hope you're well and all is happy for you and yours. Take the tie to still your spirit and feel teh world around you. wishing you hopes dreams, wishes and prayers much love EP xx
SS Hope you're having a good period in your life, That it's because you have lots of great stuff to keep you occupied and that's why you've not been by. Sending you soft puppies, cuddly bunnies and fluffy kitties (not in battle dress)
lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve see you in my morning
have a great wednesday
♥xx♥
wha...?
oh, sdock.
bye. :)
Mayo
*take the time..
.. of course if you have a tie, you may look pretty shmick a bit gussied up, so feel free to go formal.
though not just a tie..
..don't think anyone needs to see that
good night to you ergo.
and i'd best get off the computer.
*sigh*
it's easier to be positive when you can have your coffee, you know? despite the lovely blogbelieve brew, i'm groggy and tired and all blah and pretty much moving on automatic.
anyway, time to go have my picture taken. *heh*
bye, blogbelieve.
bye, mayo.
(oh, but i almost forgot to tell you this: last night i tied some soft grey sewing thread around my wrist. looking down and seeing it there? maybe silly, maybe juvenile, but it helps. have a good day today, yes?)
4:19 anon, that was not Mayo. It was me.
Morning All
Well it's getting ready to storm. No doubt cause I watered the garden last night. Seriously there was only a 10% chance of rain. It's pouring!
Two of my girls are going to Warped today. Won't they have fun!
Have a great day everyone!
well, hello.
i'm back -- didn't take long at all. ct scans are pretty easy, actually. now i just get to wait to hear back from the doctor. probably tomorrow.
but here's two cool things that happened: when it started up, during that first moment where i breathing deeply because i know in a moment i'm going to have to hold my breath, i closed my eyes and all of a sudden thoughts of all you guys here came rushing into my head. it felt like i was just sitting on mayo's couch, and we were all together -- and whatever apprehensions i had just vanished, like the last of winter snow in the face of spring.
i really did feel all your thoughts and warm wishes! :)
the other cool thing is that for the very first time, the techs had the monitor out in the main room.
i was able to watch the scan.
i saw the travelling cross-section of my own body. i know what my spine actually looks like, and the angle of my shoulder blades, and the massed forms of the muscles of my thighs, and the shape of my heart, and the immense depth of my lungs filled with held breath...
leg bones and ribs, and all the soft organs packed so tightly, the gall bladder looking a bit like an orange cut in half. the stomach filed almost to the brim with the barium...
astonishing.
amazing.
i expressed my wonder while still on the table, and after the scan was complete, the techs were happy to walk me through the whole thing, taking me on a tour on myself.
and now i have coffee (insert heavenly choir here) and i'm trying to remind myself that there's no reason i shouldn't work the rest of the day. but maybe i'll have one more cup of coffee before i go in...
(and yes, the thread worked. you were there, too. of course you were.)
My heart is with you TJ. ♥
SS, it's so nice to see that you are still around. We miss you like crazy!!! Hope all is wonderful with you.
Miranth, I keep forgetting...I'm so happy to hear the wonderful news about your neice.
Redrum, nice to see you about. You know us, we love to make people smile. :)
Amyranth, I totally rocked the MCR game. I can't remember all the stuff, but I finished it. There is a plane fight scene, but you have to know a trick on your keyboard in order to get enough shots. It's like the 'tab' for shooting and using your arrow keys. Damn, I can't remember. Maybe I will try sometime and share the secret.
Oh and I got Ray's mask!!! I still have yet to watch the DVD. Can you believe it?! It's ridiculous.
Mayo, this place is so lovely. Just sayin. It feels normal again. So refreshing. Sending you lots of hugs and smiles today.
Friends, wishing you a lovely Hump Day! How awesome is it that we have only one more day of work?! I love long holiday weekends.
Okay, gotta lots of work to do. Bye everyone.
*collapses*
*has been to the NZ Warner Bros Records theatre screening of TBPID*
*with extra loud surround sound*
*5 days before it is released here*
^__________^
Morning all!
TJ,
You know, that waiting room would be full if we all lived in your town =)
*power boosting positive thoughts for you*
Anima,
OMG, Sh*t, I'm an ass! >_<
I just read back what I wrote yesterday. I'm so sorry. That was a very poorly worded compliment, I wrote. It was supposed to imply I couldn't find enough words to do credit to your amazing photo. I'm so sorry, sweetie.
616,
Hope you're getting some rest and feel better soon, wolfie girl. I really hope you have someone to help out while you're so ill.
And, whoah! at Eric! How can such a little cutie have such a big, knockout, grrrr voice like that?
Princess,
I hear you got yourself a mask?
^_~
Emerald, formerly known as OP L,
*waves to you and your new name*
=)
Mayo,
Still =)ing!
SS,
I think I may have been seeing your shadow amongst the comments. I hope you're keeping okay? O_o
You're kind of into stuff like this, so here's just a little nice thing that happened tonight. You might have seen above that I saw the TBPID, super sized? Well, just the Mexico part. The DVD doesn't get released here until the 7th, so it was pretty cool seeing one part of it before then =)
As we were leaving, my gremlin was motioned over and secretly given the only advance copy of the DVD there, and told to hide it. Incredible!
Outside the theatre doors, one of her friends was waiting, upset. Because of a late finishing school production she had arrived in time to see only the end credits.
The friend (dressed as her favourite band member in black trousers and vest, white shirt, red tie, and x's), and her Mum, had raced all the way from the downtown ferry building, to try and catch at least any small part of the screening.
But not that part.
She was completely dejected.
I was so proud of what happened next. My gremlin just discretely passed the DVD straight over to her friend, and said she'll wait until the 7th. Her friend started shaking.
I know how my gremlin was busting to see the Maxwell's show. It was the part she had been looking forward to the most. But she didn't even have to think about it. She put her friend's happiness first.
I know I'm making a big thing about a little thing, but sometimes the little things mean the most to others.
The kids are alright =)
So with that,
goodnight to you all!
TJ!
You're back!
*hugs*
I bet that coffee has never tasted so good!
You're good enough to go to work, even though bariumed up?
Take it slow, okay, if you do go.
TJ, that is actually so amazing. I'm glad we all hit you, too. O_o ;) Did you feel pink?
I will tell you something tomorrow, 'kay? ^_^
S(S)S, miss you very much. And you're in a pink bubble of happiness too, just for the hell of it. Or maybe it's a snowglobe after all. Okay, a pink snowglobe. Your pink snowglobe has an orange jack o lantern house in it and the sparkles are skulls and bats. That's actually kinda cool.
I miss you guys, but I have to run! Jo-chan, Boychild, swimming, summer, all of that.
Miss you guys!
nd I also had the CRAZIEST dream about Edward Norton in a movie too,: instead of turning into the Hulk, he turned into this ridiculously huge shark and he fought with other sharks until he was almost dead, and then Angela Lansbury was an angel and she told him all of this advice about what to do as a shark. There were so many more details that I want to remember but it'll have to be later.
Bye guys!
♥
yep, i'm really okay to go -- i'm just going to take it easy here for an hour or so, make sure i'm steady. :)
and yes, kapunua, i did feel pink! lol
and what a neat thing for your "gremlin" to do, pickled possum. i don't know if i would have....
i'm still waiting to find out if my copy has arrived....
*glances in elena's direction*
but your story is another point in what i truly believe -- there's more good and kind-hearted people in the world than bad. the latter just make so much noise while they're being nasty, and the former usually do what they do in the quietest of ways.
:)
TJ!!! I told you we'd be there! :)
PP,
That was the sweetest thing for her to do! I'm afraid I'd be like TJ, I don't know that I'd be able to give it up like that! Hahaha! It will come back to her though. Believe it. And I know SS would be proud. I bet you just made him smile bigtime. ^_~
Oh, and did I say I had a mask? Did I? Buwahahaha!
Anima!
So far, Solly and Carrie have Bob's. We all know whose I got!!! You've got Ray's. (Mustard will be sooo jelluzzzz!) And RW is going to get Mikey's because Solly and I are going to make it happen by thinking it. O_o
Now, who is gonna get Geeeraarrdd's?????
Alright, back to work for me. Grrrrr!
Later peeps!
*waves to Mayo*
*waves to SS*
*waves to Jo-Chan, Boychild and Jules*
NO FAIR! I WANNA GO SWIMMING, TOO!
>_<
hi there!
just popping in to say glad all went well TJ! glad we were all with you.....see it worked! and how cool to see your insides!! now we are keeping those positive thoughts up for you for tomorrow!!
PP i just damn well had a little tear up reading what your daughter did! seriously! i was not like this before i became a mother!! but that was so sweet and lovely. you must be really proud! it's nice when they turn out good uns! fingers crossed for mine!
Now, who is gonna get Geeeraarrdd's?????
me princess!
i think cos the delay to overseas then gerard's will be mine!
"me princess!
i think cos the delay to overseas then gerard's will be mine!"
The weight of his ego sunk the first container ship you mean?
Hello...
I haven't been on here for almost 9 months. Are we still believing that Mayonnaise is Gerard?
erm..
nope anon.
right i have to go cook tea!
laters!
Hi Anon!
No, or all the posts would be about how the occasionally plucked E-string of the bass is the song of spiritual harmony and the backbend is the portal to a blissful utopia.
*reprovingly taps 11:20 on the back of the head*
be nice.
okay, i'm going to get ready to go to work. i can't really pretend to be debilitated from something that is practically routine for me.
i'll see you all tonight, yes? sortof? in a wierd blogbelieve-bending-time-and-space kind of way?
:)
bye everyone.
bye mayo.
Bye FASC!
Bye TJ!
You're right to tell off the anon - Gerard's ego would have an excessive volume not mass!
Elementary physics...
whatever
*Runs in the castle,brushing cobwebs out of my face. Announces I got Ray's, I got Ray's, I mean I got Ray's mask that is!! Does a little happy dance and makes a fool in front of everyone but doesnt care and runs back out!*
Hello and goodbye to whomever is here. TJ, will check later to see whats going on.
Backs up,eyes open wide 0_0
what is this about Gerardos ass?
n/m he doesnt have one anyway.
Well, well, I uh, I got a Ray Toro mask that plays the Venom solo*. Beat that, meffers!
I hope everything turns out okay for you, TJ! I'll be thinking about you. :)
The weight of his ego sunk the first container ship you mean?
I laughed. That was funny. :) People are so swift and witty here, I swear!
PP,
High five your gremlin for me. What a kind gesture. :)
Bye, Mayo! Bye, SS! Bye, BlogBelieve! Talk to you guys later!
*worst lie ever.
Hey Mayo. How are you today?
I find that I'm behind the 8 Ball and it's freaking me out. You know when you're told, "it's going to get busy in a few weeks" and you prepare for it. But when the big day comes, you are just so not prepared?
Yeah, that's where I am. I found that the race had started and I'm still at the starting line.
So, I'm trying to regroup and get ready for a long, long day.
Regroup = eat chocolate. :)
With that being said, have a good one.
Entropy wanted me to thank everyone for the kind thoughts and words. Her boyfriend is still in the ICU, so yeah, still having a bad day.
O-kay... where have Mayo's borders gone?
Mehhh! No swimming today, sudden storms, wtf. Huge thunder and lightning.
Oh, are we doing this?
No no no no, thank YOU!
No, stop that. Thank you.
No, you.
No, you!
^_^
What's up homeslices? I'm eating lunch and waiting for the storm to pass.
Awwwweeeee!!! Mayo.
Can you guys feel the love in here today? Huh?
*squeezes everybody*
*Miss America wave to Mayo*
*Miss America wave to SS*
^_____^
Carrie,
Tell Entropy that I hope everything is okay and I will be sending more happy thoughts her way. ^_^
Hi, K and S&V :)
Hi RW! Whatchoo doing?
Remember the other day I was geeking out over the article about hearing the cry of the planet (and I got all FF7 on you all?)
Well, you can hear the actual sounds here.
O_o
That's creepy. Chirps and whistles.
I iz getting ready to head out, S&V. I iz getting my hair colour refreshed today.
Whatchoo up to?
Hi guys! I do, I feel love. It's a little squooshy and I wish it would quit. ;)
Mayo,
It was the viking kitty mural, wasn't it?
And Mayo, quit it or you'll turn blue.
Wild, K!
I'm just working, RW. >_<
Me, too, K! I'm like, wth is this? Stop it! Stop it! Get it off! @_@
Oh hell, I forgot all about the viking kitty mural!
Workin'?? You should be out Princessin'!
Can I geek out and get really weird again for a second?
When I was in college I was convinced that I totally grasped the Music of the Spheres, and that one day science would pick up the music of the spheres and that it would be in D flat minor. I'd done a final project in one class about the music of the spheres being in D Flat minor and how some jazz musician (whose name I unfortunately forget) had proven this.
I've actually gotten a little less weird since then. Not much, though.
I know, all the icky feelings. EWWW! Stop it.
Hello everybody
Kassiopeia said...
Design his own mask, have his own tourbus, etc... I liked Mikey's mask the best, beauty in simplicity and all that. What's with the flowers though? Daisies are unlikely to strike fear into the hearts of your enemies!
But Kass if the daisies are carved into the skin on your face you might find that scary.
i couldn't help it -- i got into work and slipped over here just a peek! just a peek i swear!
mayo, breathe, please.
it'll be okay. really.
and now (in my best star trek computer voice):
"working"
I can't hear it, K! It won't play for me. Booooo!!!
Hi, MJ & TJ :)
Glad things went well for you today, TJ ^_^
Aww Princess, I'm sorry. It really is, like RW said, wild.
TJ, take a listen of you get a sec!
Gotta dash! Hair appointment awaits...
Have a lovely afternoon! :)
later rw. I will be catching up
thanks resurrected wreck. :)
i will tonight, kapunua, promise! gots lots to do to make up for all the time i've been missing!
bye!
*skedaddles*
Okay TJ! Err, I just bugged you with another email, too. O_o
Err, I just bugged you with another email, too. O_o
*giggles from offblog*
good!
tj has left the building.
Oops, gotta run, but this one thing real quick:
Mayo, we are all holding our breath. But you gotta trust TJ because on this, she knows best. It's better to breathe while you're waiting it out. And, you know, pink bubble. ;) And I so think it'll be okay, too. 'Kay? So quit it, you're turning blue.
Yes to what Kapunua said, Mayo. :)
Okay, gotta get back to work. Talk to you all later!
Hello anyone home?
is entrophy okay?
Anon I am not sure. I don't know the whole story but I think I saw something about the Icu.
I do hope things get better for her
This is what carrie said earlier
Carrie said...
Entropy wanted me to thank everyone for the kind thoughts and words. Her boyfriend is still in the ICU, so yeah, still having a bad day.
July 2, 2008 12:55 PM
Hi Martha!
K, I love the sounds of Earth. So amazing.
Sending love to Entropy.
Sending hugs to Mayo...
oops did I squeeze you too hard?!
Stop holding your breath mister or I will squeeze you tighter.
Okay, I'm off again. Gotta go take some pictures. Well not cool ones just head shots of some scientists. Fun fun! At least I get to leave my cube for a bit!
See you guys later. ♥
Hello and goodbye anima
So are there any anons out there?
All the pretty colors make me go "Weeeee!," Mayo. I guess you found the arts and crafts room, eh? ;)
Hey, guys! Gotta catch up really quick.
no no no....thank YOU mayo!
hee hee!
cheers mayo.
are you feeling the love cos i sure am!
the castle is looking splendiferous!
hi martha, mustard, anima, princess, K and anyone else!
god entropy, obviously i didn't catch up as thoroughly as i thought! hope your boyfriend is Ok? poor you. am thinking of you, take care!
ok also i missed the convo re the viking kitty mural?? WTF?!
Hi everyone *waves*
FASC, the viking kitty mural is going to be splendiferous.
Mayo is gonna love it.
Hello Fasc, ll and mib.
Ohhh...I see Mayo has decorated the castle!I like it! :D
Hey SS!
*waves*
Toujours,your comment was beautiful.Thank you.
Entropy,I’m thinking of you.
Hello Lovelies!
hello Bella
Hi martha!
How are you?
hello bella and lucy!
bella thanks for the email.
you guys OK?
and what exactly is the viking kitty mural???? i mean what is it?
Bella I am alright. I have been having a lot of problems with my asthma recently. But right now I am okay. How are you
Fasc I am not sure what the kitty thing is either. I now someone posted a video of kitty vikings
Hi Faraway!
You're welcome. ;)
and what exactly is the viking kitty mural????
I honestly don't know...
It's not finished yet, it's a work in progress, but we have some crayons and felt tip pens if you want to lend a hand.
I have been having a lot of problems with my asthma recently
I'm sorry Martha.Glad to know you're alright now,though.
I'm okay,thanks.I spent the whole day doing absolutely nothing,just relaxing.So yeah,I'm pretty well this evening.
hey lucy i'll help!
i am very bad at drawing though!
Oh,hello Lucy!
martha....sorry missed that. have you been to your doctor and sorted out maybe a new inhaler?
first???
first?
Hi Bella, how's tricks?
See what I did there? muahahhaa
Oooh congrats FASC!
*throws confetti*
oh yes!
she shoots.....she scores!
sorry it was just there and i went for it like the child i am!
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