There are so many things missing, last night
Last week, and now quieted by irreverence
Two feet deep and thick with sickness
We are lost and no longer linger. Still
I can reason your denial in difference
Came upon you for thought, and mine
I must say thrust upon me in shame.
I shut my book to save your eyes.
Who is lost in plain sight can speak
As you have always claimed, in truth.
p.s. with an uncompromised view for any other is...well, it is compromised.
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Yes, I am aware.
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No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
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“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
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Hello Miranth and mayo
it's been so long since i've been here when you've posted. my heart is hammering in my throat like a fangirl. :)
meaning jumps out at me from your words, but i'll re-read to savor.
Wrote it last night, posted it this morning.
Hi martha!
I have to go back and catch up. I just happened to check before doing so and mayo must have just posted. I got first! *Woohoo! blushes*
I'll check back, as I can, but I'm really sick - one of the kids at school had fifths disease and that's prob. what I have. I feel like an elderly person... :( I've been sleeping as much as possible cause I don't want to miss holiday activities!
I hope you're feeling well? Did the heat wave pass?
*shakes head*
hello mayo
how are you?
Hello Mayo
Nice to see you again...
Still around?
anon2 I gave the 'company" the address of the new post, wouldn't want them getting
oops
...lost
mayo you going to say hi?
I don't quite know what your post really means, but it sounds like you are still troubled
Swell! We don't want them wandering around loose, they could fall into the wrong hands. Not good, not good at all!
Say, where'd this Mayo fella go? Are you one of the pretty boys, Mayo?
uncompromised? You kinda forgetting something, aren't you?
so, "reason", mayo? interested in the exercise of it, or looking for one...
Yes it did Miranth. And I am fucking happy about it. Now if it would only rain for the next three months I would be so happy.
And I hope you get better soon
anon2 -
I like you!
he's sulking
Damn Mayo, I just checked a few minutes ago and nothing, then you snuck this post in.. Sneaky..
For some reason this post touches me..Possibly because of what's going on with me!
anon2 could you hold this squirrel down? it's not as easy as it looks, he doesn't seem really keen
Hello Miss Gee Dynamite
Elena, I like you too!
Do you like...sparkalee bracelets AND boas? And tinkalee bells? And candee barrs?
alas mayo I won't get to see if you come to say hello, I must go off to real life, but I'll be back in an hour and a half so just know my best wishes go to you
anon2 please hang around or call back sometime, loved having you here
off to bus and titoring, farewell fellow blog lovelies!
Hi TJ! How are you? I missed you when you were gone! Did you ever get my email?
Wow! Mayo, this is the saddest post I recall! I hope you're not too dejected? Don't let meanies get you down! They want that power.
I do find this intriguing:
Who is lost in plain sight can speak
As you have always claimed, in truth.
I can't explain why, because I'll either be terribly wrong or anons will devour me or both, so... [And I'm slap happy from the medication] :) I know you speak the truth, and for our benefit, and in that sense for your own as well. And I did notice, but am never quite sure.
But, I don't understand, whose view is compromised?
*pondering on that note*
Ergoproxy, that squirrel looks really really really squinchy, like he wants to, like, bite me? So, uh. No. I personally would NEVER shave a squirrel. Who told you to do that?
Bye Bye Ergo
Why yes Anon2 I do like all those things...
Hello Miss Gee. You new around these parts?
Mayo, oh never mind...
Hi elena, miss G, anon2, and ergo.
I'll check back later...
See ya later Miranth...
hello miranth. the email about the detroit show? i got it -- i ran out of time to respond! sorry about that. it would've been cool to be able to see a show with you.
Hello Martha.
Thought you might, Elena, you just seem the sort! I like all those things too and lots of others. Like stars and gummi bears and little garden snakes that say "sssssss". Do you think that's weird?
Hi elena!
No not really new. I've changed my name a few times, I just read hardly ever post.
Hello Everyone,
I have been thinking of you (and finding meaning).
Thanks.
Nope Anon2. I don't think that's weird at all!
Of course I'm crazy so what do I know?
nite nite Ergoproxy and Miranth! I bet I will come back to see you, Ergoproxy. You ordered the pretty boys! I like you.
Mayo
So do we help you find meaning?
Well nice to talk to you Miss Gee.
You should hang with us more often.
Hi Mayo! You're a cool guy, did you know that? I like you. I like your friend SS too. When is he coming back to visit? I'd like to talk to him sometime too. Are you sad, Mayo? I'm very sorry if you are.
Goodnight Miranth and Ep isn't a little early for you to go to bed. Oh well goodnight
Yes.
I'll try, can't make any promises. If I have time, I really don't have the patience (work and a 3 year old nephew suck it all out of me). hah! I become bored very easily.
that's very good to hear, mayo.
and good to see you in blue. :)
That's good to hear Mayo.
Thank you!
Uhhhhhhhhh. "Yes" what, Mayo? Sorry, I don't get you. You don't have to talk to me if you don't want to.
Well Miss Gee Dynamite i hope to see you around here again.
Oh, hey, a new post!
Hey, guys! Hey, Mayo!
There wasn't any lightning so I got nuttin.
*runs through blogger superfast and high fives Mayo*
Hiya Mayo!
Good to see you =)
Hey entophy and possum.
Hi Elena and everyone!
I am still up martha... just trying to catch up, but goddamn there is some sad shit on that last post! I have to skim quicker, so my eyes aren't hurt by the meanness!
Chin up guys!
Hi Entropy! Hi Pickled Possum!
Hello PP
Hello Entropy
Ha. Hi Elena.
Hey, PP! Where's my high five? I love high fives!
*sighs* one hears things, but sees something very different.
There is reason for uncompromising, and no, one does not compromise themselves for that.
Hey, Mayo Naze, you like storms and lightning and all that?
Hey, Martha and anon2. Things good?
Miranth I am glad you are still here.
mayo, if you're still there on the other side of the screen, are you...disappointed?
*waves hi to everyone while similtaneously destroying dinner*
*failing at multitasking*
Hey Mayo, if you are still around, I hope you realise that when you we prod and poke you about turning up more often, it's just more joshing rather than big huge digs?
*absolutely KILLING dinner*
*high fives Entropy while running past to get the fire extinguisher*
TJ - It would have been cool to do that! There's always next time :)
Also TJ I was gonna post this in my goodnight, but these are my thoughts to you. TJ, you are a very powerful person, doing what you did! I only at this stage of my life might undertake something like that, but I certainly wouldn't have had the courage at you age! And don't deny that you have skills - I can tell you have verbal ones just by reading your words. :) *hug* Everyone's journey in this life is subject to chance, and hopefully, serendipity, too. When I think of the friendships you've formed here, I smile! I wish the best for you, and I know you can do whatever you set your heart on, as you are a strong (and kind) person. *big hug*
I do that, too, Pickled. I get distracted on here and then think, oh, right, I was making food!
Things are good.
Hi PP!!! How are you?
Martha, I am glad your heatwave passed! It was uncomfortable just thinking about it... I hope you get many rains soon!
thank you miranth -- what kind words! :)
*hugs*
Wella wella well, gotta run and play somewhere else now. But I had a SPLENDIFEROUS time with all you you's, and I WILL come back, so be warned! YAY for us! YAY for Mayo! YAY for SS! YAY for...uh...everything!
Bye bye!
This is for you.
Hey Mayo
Holy crap, here goes the crazy woman again....
Thanks. Just know that you are special to us. At the end of the day I hope you realize that you are a good man and we appreciate what you've done here.
*sighs*
How do you burn chicken?
O_o
Sorry to drop by so quickly, just to run off again =(
There is something close to a mutiny forming behind me.
Have a great morning everyone!
Catch you all later =)
blogger = ass
Bye, anon2, see yas later.
See, Carrie, it just does.
that when *you we prod and poke you about...
*stomps all over nonsensical *you we, and changes them to a single I*
Later all =)
Bye Possum and Anon2
See ya both later I hope.
s-l-o-w-l-y loading the video, anon. it looks interesting.
Goodnight Anon 2 and carrie.
Miranth I think all of CA wants rain. We didn't get enough water this year so they have put in place water restrictions.
*tears rolling down cheeks*
I know this is not real
Mayo, yeah, I agree with Elena. I mean, speaking of, you helped me find a really awesome friend on here and it's crazy but I have you to thank. Crazy!
Yeah, I rarely talk to your ass.
Bye to you, too, Pickled! Hope dinner is good. And like, not too burned.
Who is still here?
Goodnight PP
Crying Anon
It's as real as you want it to be
Hi entropy - LOST finale next week! YAY!!
ANON- Thanks for the Brain Eno! It helps when catching up. My ears have prettiness!
Goodnight PP!
martha I wonder how serious the water restrictions are gonna be? I get the lawn restrictions, but are they going to go further?
Crying anon - its 'realler' than TV! Though I am not slamming LOST as I have love for it!
elena - sooooooo true!
Wendy said she'd be here tonight!
*Looks around, peers in corners*
I know, Miranth! I hope it's good and I don't want to hurt JJ a little more.
Miranth, why don't you create another fantasy
So far they want people to reduce water use by 19% and they called to tell us what we could and couldn't do and in about two months they will be adding fines
TJ - You're welcome and they're true!
:)
Anon - I am not all that imaginative! And could never equal LOST!
I stopped watching lost. And I haven't looked back.
anon2 you know full well the squirrel shaving was your idea!!
*has rabies shot*
*bandages hands*
:)
entropy - you mean mad at JJ for leaving?
martha - That's cool that they told you what's expected, but its sad that they have to resort to fining people and that there has been little rain. Effects of global warming/ climate change...
ergo - what's the squirrel shaving incident?
Elena speaks from the heart.
We make our own reality. What we choose to be real is real. So, decide what you want to be your reality and embrace it. It's yours and you own it. No one can take it from you.
Sometimes, making your own reality is the only way to get through the day. If I didn't do this I wouldn't make it. I shun what was chosen for me. Crazy? Oh yes, definitely. Happy? Oh yes, definitely. I chose my reality and it’s mine forever.
Miranth there is an owl up here and he is looking at me funny...maybe you should keep me in your room we can shave......
Oh hello ladies I didnt see you down here. How is everyone tonight?
I hate when they keep us Vamps in the attic.
Miranth it is the first time in twenty years that they have had to do this.
hello triston
Well Hello Martha...I prey you are having a pleasant nite. ;)
Elena, someone's reality has already been created.
Fantasies can tear you apart.
elena - I agree with what you've said. Also, reality is subjective and a function of our perspective and experience, so it differs for each person. And our experiences of this place have validity.
Also, some people think this is crazy, yet many spend hours (upon hours) each day in front of the TV, which, to me, is way crazier than anything here!!!!!!!
Hi triston! Yeah, there's room with all of the birds that live up there now - at least I hope they're birds!!!
It is alright I am watching Jay leno. He just made a vampire joke
I was just talking about the finale and how they usually drive me nuts and then blame JJ for giving me the crazies.
Okay, guys, I gotta go sleepy sleep. I'll talk to yous tomorrow.
Have a nice night, everyone, Mayo! Nice seeing you around, dude.
One Owl, Thirty pigeons, a noisy poltergeist, two faeries , an elemental, and now one vampire! :/
Leno is making Vampire Jokes...I'd bite him if I thought I could get past his chin.
Good Nite Entropy
Lewis
I asked him if we help him find answers. I think he was answering that question.
I'm a Letterman Vamp myself ;D
Who had the deleted comment? That was quick.
Martha - that is sad - I think we're in trouble!
triston - a poltergeist!!!! That's the strangeness everyone's been hearing!
Anon - how do you know what anyone's thinking about this place or anything else, for that matter? I forgot to ask!
:)
Oh thanks Elena! (Sorry!) I caught that, that's why I deleted. :) I'm off, I hope you're all well. loves-l
A real noisy one too!! I'm thinking of reciting one of those psalms and banishing his butt....The lord is my shepherd.....
I am not a big fan of Leno. But it was that or night line and night line isn't really about news anymore.
And Lol triston.
I guess mayo has gone to bed.
Wow Two AM already and I havent eaten yet...I'd better mist myself out of here before all of the good ones get eaten!!
You very lovely lovelies have a wonderful night....Tell the wolfish one I said High!!
Hello Lewis and later.
Was my comment directed at you Miranth?...no...Don't you have any Lost episodes to watch?
I think you would enjoy them more than replying to me.
Anonymous said...
Elena, someone's reality has already been created.
Fantasies can tear you apart.
Anon I created my reality. Just as MY fantasy was created by me. They are one in the same. And it is mine. Created solely by me for me. This is how I move through my day; this is how I get through my night. I do not expect you to understand, I do not expect anyone to understand. I'm fine with that. I don't need anyone’s approval or understanding. Not now, not like before. Before I cared what others thought, I strived to be what they wanted. No, not anymore.
Goodnight Triston. Have fun hunting.
hey !
MJ I didn't go to bed, it's only 5pm but I had my yr 9 student
lol we had "words" today a and he found out how stubborn and teachery I can really be!
And anon don't pick on Miranth..I promise she knows bigger words than you she will have you googling stuff all night just trying to figure out what the hell she told you!
BE NICE!!!
Nite all!!
Sorry - still catching up!
Anon, I enjoy talking to you! I wish I had LOST episodes to watch!!! Very much!!!
Bye triston! It was great seeing you and hearing you in my attic :) Oh, and I smiled at your prey pun :D Can you take the poltergeist with you? Please???
Bye Lewis!!
I do wish Wendy had come, too, she wasn't sure if circumstances would allow tonight...
oh damn I missed triston again!
miranth anon2 suggested squirrel shaving adn then wouldn't help me and THEN tried to weasel out of admitting they told me
so nice to see Mayo about for a little while
Triston...go bite some necks...providing that's what you're biting at the moment.
Miranth...I seriously doubt that!
well, it's time for me to go to bed, too. it was good seeing you all. :)
and to the anon @ 3:13 and to it's me: thank you both for your supportive comments today. i hit the wall sometimes, it's like i dug a pit trap for myself and i occasionally stumble into it. it used to be, i would just have to curl up on the floor and wait until it passed, but now i have people reaching in and helping pull me out.
it's amazing, and i'm grateful.
thank you.
and thank you to everyone who has had encouraging words for me. i feel ridiculous coming across so weak all the time, but i appreciate the help, so much.
bedtime for me. good night. :)
Okay my internet went all odd.
Mayo
It was nice to see you tonight. Gotta admit seeing your name in blue is a thrill. Holy shit if seeing a guys name in blue thrills me there is something wrong. Oh wait, that’s right I’m crazy. I almost forgot. TJ and I are two peas in a retarded pod. You know those mean anon’s were really pretty damn funny. Shit, I laughed. When I called TJ to tell her she laughed too. Probably not the response they were hoping for but hey, when you deal with crazy women what do you expect?
I’m pretty fucking drained tonight. Not gonna lie about that. So I’ll just say goodnight like a sane person. See, I can pretend to be sane.
Night Mayo
Elena (emo pie…that’s funny shit, right there)
So did mine martha! I lost my comment!!!
It went something like this...
ergo - That anon2!!! Well, I'll help you with the shaving of the squirrel, if I get to hold the blade because you may have gotten into the scothch again! :) Shaving of the squirrel sounds naughty!
triston - Thanks for having my back! But, uh, not too close to the neck... hmmmmm... :)
Goodnight tj
Goodnight TJ! Goodnight elena!
Have sweet dreams and a great day tomorrow!
martha - is your internet still wonky?
Goodnight Elena.
Miranth that anon was odd. I wasn't exactly sure what it was trying to do.
mayo,
thank you, as always, for the new words. i don't know why i find so much in them, but i can read your posts for days without losing interest.
maybe it's because i'm always trying to work out each and every teeny tiny meaning you tuck away in them. *grin*
this one, though, it leaves me feeling a bit unsettled. it makes me feel...apprehensive, perhaps.
there are eddies in it, it seems.
and i wonder, has someone disappointed you, mayo?
are you stuck in your own version of a pit trap?
and why do i feel sad for the person you shut your book from? you hid from them, ostensibly to protect them, but to protect them from yourself? from who you are? that's stealing from them, though, isn't it? taking away their chance to know you?
i'm probably making a hash of this.
my context was muddled by the trip.
mayo, be well. if there are hands reaching to help you up and out, reach back, ok? i think we all need more help than we're willing to acknowledge. that's not a bad thing.
sweet dreams to you tonight, and may tomorrow be a very happy day for you and your loved ones, mayo-sama.
good night.
martha - I think it was trying to make us second guess being here or 'talking' to mayo. It looks like the same one was here yesterday during the day, I see, as I'm trying to catch up. Some anon posted a statement about how those that would treat people like that must have terrible issues in their own lives, the ignorance of which cause them to abuse others. I think that about sums it up.
I have my own reasons for encouraging mayo. I think its a nice thing he does here, despite some of the annoying consequences.
While this post was pretty sad, I think rallying the troops is in order. And its why I am here now.
I've made a decision...I'm not returning
We all have our reasons for being here. It is sad that their are people who want to destroy it.
Anon why are you leaving
I agree martha :(
But, its funny, I got a positive vibe from a negative message somewhere here today... and I can't find it. I think it may have been mayo's post? - something about no longer linger - made me think of letting them win. Which I refuse to do - being very, very stubborn!! Only when I said 'them' I am not always sure to whom I refer :) *wry smile*
Morning Mayo & (probably) MJ,
I hope I find you well. I would say
"Mother-f***ing PENALTIES!!"
...but then only FASC and Miss T will know what I'm talking about. If it hadn't been for John Terry missing, Ronaldo would have lost his team the Champions League and that would have been so sweet! I only wish Fimble were around to compound my misery...
On a Mayo-related note, I went to a cookery demonstration at my friend's house last night and learned that if you mix 2 tbsp of mayonnaise and 2 tbsp of parmesan cheese in with grated mozzarella your home-made pizza topping will be absolutely divine. It'll probably cut a couple of years of your life-expectancy though!
Indiana Jones is out. Harrison Ford is still hot dammit!
Kass xx
Where are my manners? "Hello Miranth!"
Hello, Kassiopiea! *bows courteously* :)
And now I must say "Au revoir" as my workmate is having her tonsils out so I have frickin' loads to do!
Kass xx
Wonderful post Mayo.
I'm sorry I haven't been around lately. I miss being here, and I really hope I can make it back soon.
Take care of yourself, ok?
Love to you all.
xoxo cupcake
BYE *waves* going to get a little more sleep still, though I do feel a bit better :)
OP-J - I hope you feel better! Sometimes it helps just to let it all out, when you feel safe :) *hugs*
That's interesting - what mayo said... about finding meaning... I said above that our experiences are subjective, so when we read what is written, we put different interpretations on it, which says a lot about us as individuals... and our set of experiences. It's like word association or something O_O
Given that, its possible that this post doesn't have anything to do with the blog, as I assumed above, though it is extremely apt, if that is the case.
mayoRemember that you have the power to speak in truth, also. I am never too sure what to say, myself. Though it hardly looks like it, does it?
We all have our foibles.
I won't even speculate as to the compromised view, as I could put several different interpretations upon it. All of which would be very near the truth and probably none of what you mean.
=============================
Have a good day, EVERYBODY!
Bye Kass! Hi and bye cupcake!!!
goodnight
goodnight martha :)
woah mayo!
this is sad. is it sad? it feels really sad to me. are you down in the dumps? hope you are OK? take care. thanks for having a little chat with the lovelies, but even then you seemed down.
i do like the title and PS. i like how you do that. that's pretty clever.
take care of yourself mayo.
SS hello you! where are you? seems its been a while since the popsicle test!! did you do the sex/lover test SS??!! that was a bit in depth that one!! i was a little embarrassed answering the questions on that one!! quickly checking no one was looking at my answers from over my shoulder!!
anyway have a good one SS and hope to see you soon!
morning blogbelieve! welcome to my hangover! please feel free to share! i have a desire for fried eggs, bacon, plum tomatoes and brown sauce!! yep that'll be the hangover hunger kicking in!! all worth it though!!
*whispers* ....man utd won!! oh yes we fucking did! and it was good! damn fucking good!
Mother-f***ing PENALTIES!!"
...but then only FASC and Miss T will know what I'm talking about. If it hadn't been for John Terry missing, Ronaldo would have lost his team the Champions League and that would have been so sweet! I only wish Fimble were around to compound my misery...
kass i really do feel for you! i do! the fact that you played damn well, looked set to win at the end there! i so thought you were going to!! and then.... erm .......john terry happened!!!! did you hear me screaming?? i think perhaps you did! screaming, cheering, jumping around and pummelling the floor with my fists!! i am very ladylike you know!!so i am sorry and i won't go on about it anymore!!
right peeps lets make it good!! who am i kidding i want to vegetate!(is that spelt right??) i have my 8 yr olds sports day today! she has been picked for the sprint race!! come on my girl!!
ok later lovelies!
oh hi miranth if you are still around. hi to wendy, PP and ergo if they pop in and hell hi to anyone else of course!
Hi FASC!
*sobs*
Anyway, I'll get over it like I got over the Premiership.
Probably.
In the meantime you can all find out which particular level of Hell you'll be going to. I'm going to be all warm and toasty on Level 6, but I would love to know where Mayo's going!!
And back to work.
Kass xx
I know. I'm way early. Blame that on my stupid brain.
Mayo,
I don't know about this one yet. I'll have to think more about it, but I get the overall feeling of disappointment, sadness, and maybe some disbelief.
And I have to say, I got the image of quicksand, not really sure why.
"Who is lost in plain sight can speak...in truth."
Again, I guess that's why we're important. I guess that's why this place means what it does to you and, well, most of us too.
Not to mention, that's how it is in real life, too.
Okay, well, I'm going to go let it sink in.
Have a lovely Thursday, Mayo. I hope you're doing better than you "sound."
hey kass level 6 for me!!
Have you ever engaged in oral or anal sex?
WTF??!!
i too wonder which level mayo is!! mayo do the test and put it up on your profile! pretty please!!
SS you should too. maybe there is a bit of the devil in you?!
gotta go!
hi/bye mustard!
hello again
fasc I would join you in that breakfast just because it's my favourite! Followed closely by h'ouevos rancheros - or however it's spelt, egg bacon tortilla salsa cheese and sour cream. Oh now I want that, though I have just had spaghetti and meatballs
Mayo
sorry I can't stay long, I kind of got caught up on the phone, so I am still unsure about your post, it could very well relate to the blog, if so I can only say it's just natural. Most, if not all leave only when it's not possible to stay. Real life often gets in the way.But if it's not about the blog then whatever the situation I really hope it can be resolved for you, because either way it feels full of sadness and regret for things lost. Don't shut your book Mayo, the person who needs to read it may be where you least expect.
So wishing you love, understanding, truth and the wisdom to see them clearly
much love EP xx
SS I can't talk, though I probably never really say much of consequence. Hope you're well and still cherry cherry good. If you are that is awesome, don't let anyone tell you you need to be anything else.Sending you love, calm, peace and hope lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve see you in my morning!
Mayo,
I am in Purgatory. Niiiice. I told Mustard that I was proper and innocent but she didn't believe me.
Nice to see you stop by. I am keeping my mouth shut about the post right now because it's too meffin' early and I haven't had any coffee!!!
Reason.
We're always looking for one or trying to make one up. Why? That's the biggest question, right?
Why is this happening?
Why are you doing this?
Why am I doing this?
Why keep this up?
Why do I even try?
Well, why not?
Hell if I know, Mayo.
Well, anyhoo...
Have a good one, Mayo. It will all work out in the end. Won't it? Yes, it will.
But what is it? You. I gots faith in ya. ^_~
SS!!!!!!
Don't make me come smack you, too! Hahaha. Hope you are okay, dude. Have a great Thursday!
Be good BlogBelieve!
XOXO
Martha Jones said...
S&V I know you are not here but I found a spider crawling on me again
May 22, 2008 1:03 AM
*dies*
Mayo,
Hi, hope you are doing well on this Thursday morning. Thanks for the new words. You know how much I love reading them.
I will have so many things to talk about with you tonight. I know you can hardly wait.
Reason, truth, and compromise. Do they even exist?
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Or are we just fooling ourselves.
Hello Mayo(and lovelies),
This is the first time in ages that I've been here and this is what I find...
Mayo... You're saying goodbye, aren't you? So, this is it? From you anyway?
Even though I haven't been here in the last several months, I'm so sorry and sad to imagine that could be the case.
You have made such a huge impact on people here. What you have given them, what they have given you and each other, has been something really very special.
I don't know what else to say right now... Well, except... Don't do it, Mayo.
Don't do it to the lovelies, but more importantly, don't do it to yourself. Because I think you need this just as much, if not more, than anyone else.
Dand, where is SS and his cheerleading when you need him, huh? I'm sure he could put what I'm trying to say in better words.
Love to you all.
Goodmorning Mayo,SS and Family.
Hey Mayo,glad to see you.
It's a bad day,and probably that's why I can relate to your words this morning.
I still have to think about it and analyze few different interpretations that occured to me while reading it,but thanks.
Take care and have a good day.
Hey Family,wish you all a great day!
See you later.
Love you all!
*HUGS & KISSES*
PS:SS,we miss you,dude!
And that meant to read, "Damn, where is SS..."
Who is lost in plain sight can speak
As you have always claimed, in truth.
Why does this bother me so much? Ummm, and forget what all I said earlier. I'm full of bull at 6:30 in the morning. I take it that you are saying that you, me, whoever can say exactly what we want to say or need to say as 'anonymous'. Am I right? Don't make me feel stupid, Mayo. Jeez. I could be totally off with this. I get it, I really do. If that's what you mean. But (there's always a but), not everyone does speak the truth even as anonymous. Why is it okay for hurtful, hateful things to be said? I dunno. Whatever. Not like you are going to sit down and have a conversation with me anyway. Or hell, maybe you have and I just don't know it.
I'll stop taking up space now.
Toodles.
Audrey Hepburn-
People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone.
Unless they tell you they respect you then ask you to moan for them.
Goodmorning/afternoon/evening everybody!
Congrats FASC!!
(and Fimmy, if lurking =))
Commiserations Kass!
That was a very close result.
Guess who is going to be first on the transfer list next season!
Carrie, that is just shocking about your Mum's acquaintance and the snake O_O So sorry to hear that.
Someone said,
I've made a decision...I'm not returning
May 22, 2008 3:55 AM
If you are someone blue, or a named black name, please, at least let your friends here know so they can acknowledge your decision. There's been a lot of leaving lately and people like to say farewell, and make arrangements to keep in touch. All the best =(
Kaaaassss!!!
Your Level of Hell test...I'm level two!
O_O
OMG! Is that good or bad? I'm with Cleopatra and Helen of Troy.
I'm thinking BAD!
You might be onto something there Princess.
Hi Mayo,
Heheh! Sorry for the gatecrashing earlier! That was crazy timing by me at a time I'm normally not around.
It must be kind of awkward to have to answer, and be accountable for what you post on your own blog. Hope you have another blog somewhere just for you.
P.S.Chicken a la blog tastes like firestarters =)
P.P.S. Oh, and if it were all to end tomorrow here, thank you for letting something special continue for so long.
Hey SS!
Go to Hell!
^_^
That would be Kass's Level of Hell test, actually =)
Or you could go to Hell, which is one street away from me.
Lust and Envy taste extra good =)
Maybe I do deserve to be on Level Two O_o
Wherever you are, whatever you are doing, I hope it is going well =)
Good morning/afternoon/night Mayo, SS, Kass, FASC, Ergo, Miranth, CUPCAKE, Possum, Carrie, Entropy, Martha, Triston, Elena, TJ,
*takes a few deep breaths*
*thinks I must quit smoking*
*continues with greeting*
Anon2, MissGD, Solly, MIB, S&V, watchers, lurkers, all those seeking truth and reason in the land o'blogbelieve AND LIFE!
How are you this a.m/p.m.? Well, happy and as close to terrific as possible, I hope!
Mayo: As always, thank you for the new painting! You are using many dark colors and muted shades these days, aren't you? *sigh*
I suppose we all use muted shades from time to time......
For an uncompromised view, I would recommend invisible paint -- or x-ray glasses; but both are very difficult to find! ;)
*big hug for Mayo*
SS: How are you? I know you know we worry about you too! I hope all is good in your life!
FASC: YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOORAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THEY WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*has no idea who THEY are; but, as long as you're happy/excited, I am happy/excited for you*
How's the post celebration hangover? :D
Miranth: I'm so sorry I couldn't be here last night. I tried! Yes, once again, circumstance did not allow.
(circumstance = internet service going POOF for over 6 hours)
It's a CONSPIRACY!!!!!! ;)
Entropy: Stunning lightning picture! That sky was haunting, wasn't it?! Thanks for sharing!
Ergo: *big smooooooch*
MissT: He's sending you nude pictures, eh? Bring an EXTRA LARGE can of that previously mentioned foaming wasp spray! Please BE CAREFUL, MissT!!
To read/enjoy/think about (or not) today:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The 4 principles of truth:
1. Feel Your True Emotions
2. Find Your True Self
3. Forgive with a True Heart
4. Forge Your True Future
"For many people, the truth of their lives is a complete mystery. Unraveling most mysteries-especially those at the very heart of our life stories-creates confusion, at first. Confusion always precedes clarity."
Dr. Keith Ablow
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Wishing you all a day filled with clarity!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
*trots to mail room*
*finds nail file and band-aide*
Oh darn!
*thought I could finally get a proper manicure*
*kisses post it note and sticks to Possum's box*
oh dear..
This post is quite unsettling..
*virtual hug for mayo*
Xoxo
Ramona L. Anderson-
People spend a lifetime searching for happiness; looking for peace. They chase idle dreams, addictions, religions, even other people, hoping to fill the emptiness that plagues them. The irony is the only place they ever needed to search was within.
Something astounding happened today.
I ate fresh vegetation and wholegrain bread for lunch, instead of garbage.
I may possibly die, if the dates from yesterday, are anything to go by O_O
And, goodnight everybody!
Have a great day =)
*checks mail box on way out*
*finds a kissed post-it*
*softens*
*sends a voucher for a manicure by a strapping, chiseled lad, to 616*
I think I would like to visit hell (again) with Possum this time!
Lust sounds good, Possum! As does Ambrosia and Nectar!!!! ;)
Happy lunchtime to S&V20, Sdock10, Mya, Bella, PP, 616, RISD & Anon!
PP the Eatcraposaurus
Awww, I thought I was the only one! Well, it is lunchtime and I've got a multipack of mini-Crunchies (chocolate with a honeycomb centre like a 'Violet-something' bar in the Antipodes) just begging to be put out of their misery...
Kass xx
I am in purgatory.
*trots back out to mail room*
*finds voucher for manicure by stapping, chiseled lad*
*smiles*
*calls airport to purchase another ticket to HELL for strapping, chiseled lad*
*LUST, ENVY, Ambrosia and Nectar will be his treat for Possum*
:D
Beautiful quote. 8:51 !
Hi Kass!!! Enjoy your lunch! I'm off to take your hell quiz. I was distracted by LUST! *blushes*
;)
Hi again everyone! I can't seem to leave. GRRRRR!
Purgatory Anon,
Nice to see you! You can keep me company! Looks like we're the only two here. ^_^
*slaps face*
I didn't scroll down from the test result!
Level 2 = my favourite Hell pizza choice!
Spooky!!
But not as spooky as Kass and FASC on level 6!!
Kass, Mini Crunchie bars > Violet Crumble =)
*waves goodnight to everyone, again*
Kass: I am in LIMBO! Well, at least I have excellent company to chat with while strolling those fresh meadows:
Charon ushers you across the river Acheron, and you find yourself upon the brink of grief's abysmal valley. You are in Limbo, a place of sorrow without torment. You encounter a seven-walled castle, and within those walls you find rolling fresh meadows illuminated by the light of reason, whereabout many shades dwell. These are the virtuous pagans, the great philosophers and authors, unbaptised children, and others unfit to enter the kingdom of heaven. You share company with Caesar, Homer, Virgil, Socrates, and Aristotle. There is no punishment here, and the atmosphere is peaceful, yet sad.
Did someone mention a SEX test?
Where might I find that one?
MYA and Bella!!!! Hello! I'm sorry I missed you two the first time around.
*waves frantically*
Who is lost in plain sight can speak
As you have always claimed, in truth.
I took it to mean that we don't know who Mayo is. He's just Mayo to us. We only know a little bit about him, what he's willing to share, that sort of thing.
Mayo doesn't know who we are except the things we're willing to share, the experiences we have, the ones we bounce off of each other and off of his posts.
There is an anonymity between us, even those "in blue." We're able to speak freely, because we're unable to judge in this type of setting. We're able to be ourselves and not really hold anything back.
In that, I think we can all find the truth, because with this place, what you get is what you see. There really isn't a lot of room for error.
So, even though we're "lost in plain sight" -- viewable, but not entirely there, we still have the ability to share, and from that, we gain truth.
And that's just looking at it from a blog point of view. The same can be said for real life, but that shit's harder. In real life, there is no anonymity. We match faces, and it's hard to tell when someone's lying. Truth is hard to find.
Anyway, that's how I took it.
Cool, Mustard. That makes me look at it a little differently. ^_^
By the way, what level of hell are you? Cuz you ain't in purgatory with me and Anon.
I don't see you. ^_~
Oh, I'm there. You just gotta look a bit harder. ;)
Just kiddin'. I haven't taken it yet. I'll do it this afternoon for sure though!
This should be interesting.
I'll gladly hang with you in purgatory S&V20. I think the pimp question was the deciding factor in my escaping eternal damnation. :)
Yay! Cool, Anon. Now, help me do some work, will ya? ^_~
Oh and for the rest of you, Purgatory will be run just like the show Survivor.
Anon and I get to vote out anyone we want. Hee-hee!
See you lovely people later!
.
BEHIND ME
:)
All I'm going to say is that this post is the most straightforward one yet.
Anyways, is it ever going to stop raining? Jesus, I need to get out there and plant all my stuff.
I'm going to play lottery today, how 'bout that? How funny would that be, if I won? I'd build so many aviaries. Imagine?
Later guys!
Happiness grows at our own firesides, and is not to be picked in strangers' gardens.
Douglas Jerrold
The first step in the acquisition of wisdom is silence, the second listening, the third memory, the fourth practice, the fifth teaching others.
Solomon I. Gabriol
The post is finally done!
Afternoon MIB, Kapunua, S&V, The Sun and Anon,
OK, so FASC and me are, so far, the most evil people on this blog?! I'm not sure if this surprises me or not.
"Violet Crumble". Of course, thank you PP. I occasionally indulge my sweet tooth at a shop in Covent Garden called Cybercandy which sells loads of imported snacks from far-flung nations. They have a website too but it's a darn expensive way to get fat!
Kass xx
Hi Kass. Would it bother you if I fangirled you a little?
Not at all, but I would love to know which of my myriad personality flaws enchanted you the most!
You having a reasonable day?
Kass xx
You have an evil tongue. I like that in a person.
My day is halfway decent; like i said, I'm going to play lottery today so maybe it will end up being entirely unreasonable in a "oh my god, I just won megamillions" kind of way. Then, I'd make so many people miserable. :D Wish me luck!
Solly's and my favorite song by The Used; I can't get it out of my head today.
you almost always pick the best times
to drop the worst lines
you almost made me cry again this time
another false alarm
red flashing lights
well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
so I could shut you out
and let you go away for a long time
I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
I think the chain broke away
and I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
but it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home
I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
nicer than that
with my foot on your neck
I finally have you
right where I want you
right where I want you
right where I want you
right where I want you
I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
nicer than that
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
nicer
nicer
Okay, time for grocery shopping, yay. Catch you guys later.
Kapunua said to Kassiopeia
You have an evil tongue. I like that in a person.
0_0
Rain rain go the fuck away
Come again another day....
My mom used to sing this to me on days like this. Oh wait she didn't use the "F" word. That's my own version.
Oh well, it's dark, dreary, and just plain yuck. When I drove through town all the police cars were headed to the High School. Not surprised it's the last day of school. Haven't heard what's going on yet.
Jules, I hope you win the lottery!
Elena said...
Mayo
So do we help you find meaning?
May 22, 2008 1:45 AM
ARE YOU TRIPPIN?
Dude, Y can U ask but its wrong when other people ask?
Hypocrite!!!
Anonymous said...
"Kapunua said to Kassiopeia
You have an evil tongue. I like that in a person.
0_0"
Well you never know - it may one day see even my crappy guitar playing 'earning' a tasty support slot for a popular rock band.
Afternoon Elena & Bree!
Kass xx
Bree
Bit confused here. Are you saying I said people can't ask Mayo questions?
Boogers!
Boogers!
Boogers!
Boogers!
Boogers!
Boogers!
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