There are so many things missing, last night
Last week, and now quieted by irreverence
Two feet deep and thick with sickness
We are lost and no longer linger. Still
I can reason your denial in difference
Came upon you for thought, and mine
I must say thrust upon me in shame.
I shut my book to save your eyes.
Who is lost in plain sight can speak
As you have always claimed, in truth.
p.s. with an uncompromised view for any other is...well, it is compromised.
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Yes, I am aware.
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No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
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*RW luvs & is a little bit afraid of S&V*
It's okay, RW. Everyone does and is.
Bwhahaha!
pay it forward
Damn nice idea
I ♥ that idea, Elena.
Thank you, dude. You win. :)
Don't worry her bark is worse than her bite, RW but if you do happen do get bitten, she's had all her shots.
I know we've told you this before. I know I've told you several times. Mustard even said it today.
Read it, hear it, know it, okay?
You have made such a difference with so many people here. You have. I hope you realize that.
SS, thanks for reminding us.
You rock my socks.
SS,
As always, thank you.
SS, my friend, we hear you and I hope you can still hear us. You have and continue to change so many lives here. Thanks for everything you have done!
FIMBLE STAR SHOUTS THIS TO SS:
I miss you and thank you so much for dropping by. :)
*waves to Fimble*
click me
* struggles in with rolls of Ikea animal print paper, since everyone seems to have an issue with raiding Mayo's drawers *
Knock yourselves out.
Orpheus - perfect sentiment. But where's your head gone?
SS - for you. Refer to yesterday for the meaning :)
Goodnight.
TTFN.
COOLEST EFFIN' LINK EVER!
*passes out*
You know, it would have been really easy to walk away from this place today, but I've never done anything in my life the easy way and I'm not about to start now.
I'm in this until....
Yeah, it's a blog, but it's so much more than just a blog. It's full of life, laughter, hopes, dreams, fears, sorrow, anger, grit, and determination. Here we believe. Here we speak. Here we grow and learn from each other. Here we strive to do better and be better people.
Let's not quit now.
So, are you guys with me?
Thanks, BlogBelieve, for everything.
You guys rock!
Goodnight, GS :)
LHM said thank you, Anon. Cool link!
This is a brand new vid, yes?
Frank's a pretty decent frontman.
*makes sad face*
:(
I can't watch videos.
Night GS!
RW,
I would have died at that show. Like died. He is so funny. And just the energy. All the kids are so into it. It's just awesome.
*collapses*
I think I would have died of claustophobia!
*feels a tightening in her chest just from the vid*
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
GGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRR!
GGGGGGGRRRAAAAAAAAAAAARRRGHH!
How'd you guys like that?
It's my best LM Frank impression.
I'll be here all week.
hey guys!
Training ran real late and my friend will be here any m8inute and I'm not showered yet but I wanted to say I miss you guys, and will miss you later on if I"m not on and stuff.
Tonight was a beautiful night, just me and my group of absolute most favorite wonderful training brothers and sisters, one a young girl who reminds of of Teishi from the Pillow Book, and we were outside in the cool night watching lightning bugs while doing sword and staff training. I wish I could share that with you all.
I hope to catch you guys sometime later.
S(S)S, I try, stress on the word try. Thank you for the good luck wishes a few weeks ago, and I might be getting closer to what I want to do, which in a way is paying it forward, in working with outreach programs. Thank you for keeping your fingers crossed for me
To everyone, thank you for the support in that. I will let ya's know how it goes.
I hope to pop in sometime later. I also hope you're all having as lovely a night as I'm having.
Mayo, I miss your stupid ass.
Time for me to turn in.
Have a good night, everyone :)
Sweet dreams, RW! :)
Hey and bye, Jules!
I have to say that Bodysnatchers is my fave right now.
Someone remind me tomorrow to tell y'all about the crazy MCR dream I had last night. It actually woke me up. I wrote the details down, but I'm to tired to type them all out right now so I'll do that tomorrow.
Night :)
Night, RW.
*does CPR*
Night, RW!
Damn, that video just makes me want to go to a show.
GRRRR!
You doing CPR on me or Mayo?
Kapunua: I like you. I'm sorry people keep shitting on you. I'm sorry people keep getting away with shit that is ten times anything you ever said here. I'm glad that Mayo put your poem up but then I'm not because it seemed to cause more trouble for you. On the other hand it shows that Mayo knows you're a tough lady and you can handle the shit people throw at you.
I don't know why Mayo has stayed away so long this time. Is it a new record? I hope he's not leaving all of you.
Breaks out crash cart!
CLEAR!
*shocks*
Maybe not, Anon. Who knows with Mayo?
I agree with you about Kapunua. She is tough.
Kapunua is also a sweet woman with a kind and caring heart.
I wanted to show some appreciation for her even if it is anonymous. It's hard to watch one person get shit upon for less things than what others get away with every day.
Mayo,
Want Mustard to dance for you? Would that make you happy? Make you feel some better?
She totally said she would dance for you.
I don't know if that made sense.
Should I give the blog a shot of ephadrin? (sp)
You are exactly right. I agree. I'm sure she will appreciate it, too.
Anon,
Thanks. I know she appreciates it and you're right. She has taken way more shit than anyone should have had to.
Wait, what? Mustard is going to dance?
O_o
Anon,
Yeah we need an ephedrine! Too bad, it's pretty much banned everywhere now.
Anon,
It made total sense, and I agree!
Yep, Smoke.
Mustard's got skillz!
Do you guys suppose Mayo is playing hide n seek in the castle and he forgot to tell us?
Wonder how long he has been hiding?
*dusts off Saturday Night Fever record*
*pulls out Mayo's awesome, diamond-studded record player (Oooo, Mayo! Fashionable choice, my friend*
*presses button that says "DO NOT PRESS: WILL RESULT IN MULTI-COLOR, LIGHTED FLOORING -- PARENTAL DISCRETION IS ADVISED"*
*strikes the best damn John Travolta pose of allllll fucccccking tiiiiiiime*
Your turn, dude.
I don't like hide and seek! I'm always afraid somebody is going to jump out and scare me!
Mayo, so help me God, I will slap the piss out of you.
Go Mustard! Go Mustard! Go Mustard!
Anonymous,
I'm sure your appreciation means a lot to her, as the others have said. Thank you for sharing.
*sneaks up behind Smoke*
*yells*
BOO!
*chants*
Mayo, Mayo, Mayo!
*starts pounding on Solly's head*
>_<
*dances*
*wiggles bum*
get your groove on mustardisbetter
*shuffle*
*sparkle*
GIRLS!
Does someone need a time out?
Behave!
Mustard,
You made me think of Soul Train.
And umm, Solid Gold!
God, I am soooo freakin' old.
Oooh, yes! The Solid Gold Dancers!
Or...'member American Bandstand????
Or...Dance Fever?
Oooh! And American Bandstand.
Niiiice. Dick Clark rules.
SOLLY! GET OUTTA MY HEAD!
BRB! Gotta go shower, peeps.
*does The Worm*
Denny Terio from Dance Fever!
Remember his hair?
I can totally read minds.
Just sayin...
I like it here, we're all insane together. Wait till it turns sane :(
Mustard,
You got the moves!
Do the moonwalk!
Star,
That dudes hair still lives on.
DUDES?!
Who wants to do "THRILLER?!"
*moonwalk*
EeeeeHeeee!
*moon walks*
*straps freaky MJ mask on Mayo*
You'll do it, won't you?
Eff yes, you will! ;)
Oh My Giggles Mayo. How dare you paint your blog black. That is showing favortism to the black bird. I am so effing dissapointed with you!!! Why can't paint it yellow. Big Bird Rules!!!
I want to do the zombie dance.
Hey guys! Thank you so much. It means a lot to me. My friend is here and we're probably going go chill for a bit. Again, thank you.
Phrase for tonight, courtesy of my friend Casse: "There's only one thing i like in my cooch."
Bye! Love you
Bye, Jules! Have fun!
*turns on disco ball*
Do a little dance, make a little love, get down tonight!
OMG. YOu people are dancing? Ummmm, I can do the Electric Slide.
Muwahahaha.
And the Soldier Boy. I know that's not how you spell it but I don't know how. O_O
Disco, disco duck!
Disco, disco fuck!
Isn't it spelled phonetically or something, like, Soleja Boy, or do I fail epically?
Yeah, Mustard. Something like that. I was gonna say Soulja Boy.
I don't think it's right though.
^_^
Disco, disco fuck!
O_O
*turns all house lights to the ON position*
SHOW ME YOUR HANDS!!!
Only if you show me yours, first!!!
I'm showing them!
*closes eyes*
It's getting all freaky-deaky in here. X_x
If you close your eyes, will you know what you are touching?
The Anon started it!
I was only singing some of my favorite disco tunes. Innocent, I swear.
What are we showing?
Innocent? You said strap on to mayo!!!
Oooh are we feeling are way around the dance floor?
ANON! My hands are in my pockets. I'm not touching nothing!
O_O
Be back in a bit!
Don't worry, Anon. Mustard is very (G)entle.
*dies*
*dies again*
You guys are so bad!
I got one hand in my pocket and the other is.....
Mayo,
I tried to warn you last night.
Idle hands.....
Will get you in trouble every fucking time!
Idle hands?
Mustardisbetter, where your hands?
Mustardz gotz the (g)entle skillz wit dem handz.
My thought for the day:
Handle every stressful situation like a dog.
Piss on it and walk away.
They're in a protective, illuminated bubble for all to see!
SEE?!
No, no.
You are mistaken.
Ray Toro, thus far, is the only one with special finger skillz, with a 'Z' and not an 'S.'
Well, there were others, obviously, but you know what I mean. :)
The talk of missing 'family members' has me thinking. Anyone tried to get them back?
Mustard,
I just said you had gentle hand skillz.
Anon,
I think people have to do what they think is best for themselves. I can't make anyone come back or stay if they don't want to.
So the intelligent conversation and mature debates are over now? That's sad.
Anonymous said...
The talk of missing 'family members' has me thinking. Anyone tried to get them back?
May 28, 2008 10:21 PM
NOPE
I will tell you something though. You know who I miss? Really miss? The angel of this blog and her name is Paperheart. She speaks with more wisdom, love, hope, and honesty than most of us supposedly grown ass women.
I miss you Paperheart!
Sending you hugs to infinity and back again!
Reverend Boudreaux was the part-time pastor of the local Cajun Baptist Church, and Pastor Thibodaux was the minister of the Covenant Church across the road.
They were both standing by the road, pounding a sign into the ground, that read:
"Da End is Near! Turn You self Around Now! Before It's Too Late!"
As a car sped past them, the driver leaned out his window and yelled, 'You religious nuts!'
From the curve they heard screeching tires and a big splash...
Bordeaux turns to Thibodaux and asks, 'Do ya tink maybe da sign should jus say 'Bridge Out'??
Anon, what would you like to debate and discuss?
Mayonaise
Why have you deleted days of comments in your previous posts? Is there anything that you would like to share with your 'friends'
Nothing particular but thank you for the offer.
I'm stuck in the past, I guess. I miss the times when this blog was a place to openly discuss anything at all. It's all random nonsense now.
I'll just stick to reading the blogs of people here who still think.
Two anons that linger in the past...weird.
Hmmmm...
Mayonaise said...
I always enjoy a good Freudian slip.
Remember that?
Good days in the past!!!
Anon,
Well, okay. If you change your mind, I'm here.
Once upon a time, there was a tavern
Where we used to raise a glass or two
Remember how we laughed away the hours,
Think of all the great things we would do
Those were the days, my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we'd choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way
La La La La La La
La La La La La La
La La La La La La La La La La
Then, the busy years went rushing by us
We lost our starry notions on the way
If, by chance, I'd see you in the tavern,
We'd smile at one another and we'd say
Those were the days, my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we'd choose
We'd fight and never lose
Those were the days, oh yes, those were the days
La La La La La La
La La La La La La
La La La La La La La La La La
Just tonight, I stood before the tavern
Nothing seemed the way it used to be
In the glass, I saw a strange reflection
Was that lonely woman really me?
Those were the days, my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we'd choose
We'd fight and never lose
Those were the days, oh yes, those were the days
La La La La La La
La La La La La La
La La La La La La La La La La
La La La La La La
La La La La La La
La La La La La La La La La La
Through the door, there came familiar laughter
I saw your face and heard you call my name
Oh, my friend, we're older but no wiser
For in our hearts, the dreams are still the same
Those were the days, my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we'd choose
We'd fight and never lose
Those were the days, oh yes, those were the days
La La La La La La
La La La La La La
La La La La La La La La La La
La La La La La La
La La La La La La
La La La La La La La La La La
La la la la la la
La la la la la la
La la la la la la
Exactly, Anon. Mayo doesn't even post entries much anymore, let alone comments.
Anybody want to discuss or debate with me?
I shut my book to save your eyes.
Does this mean he's done here?
I'm hearing Twilight Zone music....
Maybe Mayo is just busy. Or maybe he gets like I get from time to time and feels he doesn't have anything useful to say. Those times suck.
I want to give that song to somebody.
Anon,
Only Mayo can answer that. I hope he's not done here, but maybe he's ready to move on.
Here's part of another song:
It's so funny
How we don't talk anymore
But I ain't losing sleep
And I ain't counting sheep
Hey Elena!
How was supper?
Hey sdock
Dinner was good.
What's up?
GAY FLIGHT ATTENDANT
My flight was being served by an obviously gay flight attendant, who seemed to put everyone in a good mood as he served us food and drinks.
As the plane prepared to descend, he came swishing down the aisle and told us
that "Captain Marvey has asked me to announce that he'll be landing the big scary plane shortly, so lovely people, if you could just put your trays up, that
would be super."
On his trip back up the aisle, he noticed this well-dressed and rather Arabic looking woman hadn't moved a muscle. "Perhaps you didn't hear me over those big
brute engines but I asked you to raise your trazy-poo, so the main man can pitty-pat us on the ground."
She calmly turned her head and said, "In my country, I am called a Princess and I take orders from no one."
To which the flight attendant replied, without missing a beat,
"Well, sweet-cheeks, in my country I'm called a Queen, so I outrank you.
Tray-up, Bitch."
Not much, Elena.
Just hanging around for a few more minutes and then, I'm off to bed.
Very rude and offensive. Disgraceful!!
Mayo,
I hope you're okay, seriously. Whatever's going on, it's cool. Just want you to know.
Have a good night.
SS,
Thank you. That's all. :)
Night guys.
ELENA!
I got the comics today! Thank you soo much, I'm so happy, and I plan on finishing them ASAP.
Anonymous said...
Very rude and offensive. Disgraceful!!
May 28, 2008 11:00 PM
Sounds like you need to lighten up a bit!
Oops, that was me! (just so you know)
Yah huh, sure, got any good n word jokes too? Geez.
Mya you sure are rude today.
I would know that rawr anywhere Paperheart. Glad they arrived.
Enjoy. They are really great!
FYI, a queen wouldn't stoop so low. She would have gotten a smile and polite explanation.
Fuck my spelling
I definately will. I was super happy when my sister told me that I had mail!
Just thought I would come here to thank you! Byee<3
Gosh! You guys are uptight!
I was trying to bring a little humor in here, but seeing that I got a "disgraceful" comment, it seems that there are only old biddies in here. Older than ME, even!
Geez, go on back to your usual...
Whatever you call it!
Oh, and I really did shoot the sheriff.
Night Mustard.
Sweet disco dreams!
Mya, maybe if the jokes were less controversial, they would have gone over better.
Old? Try mature, there is a big difference.
People like you are probably the reason why everyone stopped talking about serious topics to begin with.
Bye Paperheart.
Hope to talk to you later!
Anonymous; I don't really think that any one person is to blame for the lack of serious conversation.
I did enjoy those though.
And who said it had to be serious 24/7?
=]
I'm late enough already but my point was proven so I guess I would have just been stating the obvious.
24/7 is far from what I meant though. ;)
Anonymous said...
Mya, maybe if the jokes were less controversial, they would have gone over better.
May 28, 2008 11:13 PM
Which "jokes" are you referring to? Or is it just the one? I don't find it anymore controversial than what would have been played out on a TV sitcom, like Will and Grace.
And:
People like you are probably the reason why everyone stopped talking about serious topics to begin with.
May 28, 2008 11:14 PM
I haven't even been here in forever! And that is because of people like you!
I hope he deletes this blog.
Mayo,
How are you? I hope you're well. Are you having one of those empty weeks? Dude, I can relate. I felt like that all last week. I couldn't say the right fucking thing. I couldn't write anything worth a fuck either. Nothing seemed to make me feel better, make me feel happy. I was in a serious funkity funk.
I think I'm mostly over it. But you know me, I'm an up and down kind of manic swinger like that. I wake up good but go to bed down. I wake up down but go to bed good. Up and down all the time, but that's not the part that is the scariest. Hanging out in the fucking middle is the worst. Not caring, not feeling, not singing, not writing, not crying, not laughing...just in some sort of lost limbo. And right then is when I need a good shaking. Luckily, I have enough people around that give 2 shits about me to recognize, grab me by my shoulders and shake the living daylights out of me. I wake up, the fog lifts, and I'm back...until the next time.
Mayo, just let us know if you need a little push. A little shake. A little jolt. A little provocation. A little reminder.
My hands are pretty idle at the moment, ya know?
Just saying...
Love to YOU Always
S
p.s. And watch this get taken to a whole other level.
Anonymous said...
I hope he deletes this blog.
May 28, 2008 11:26 PM
Well, now if he deleted, then what would you be miserable about?
I'm not the other anon, but I'm sure I could find something. I just want the big reveal, or I'm gonna be disappointed.
"those were the days, my friend" has recently become a special song for me. thank you to whoever posted it.
Prepare to be dissapointed.
You're welcome, teej.
I hope you anons don't ruin the possibility of him deleting by repeating wishing he did.
Night sdock.
*whispers*
Mayo might just need a little jolt and that wasn't the first word I was gonna use but well you know...
Yeah, I know, I'll get over it though. Just would have been interesting.
I think you'd be disappointed anyway, Anon.
I don't think it's Gerard, Mya, if that's what you're suggesting.
teej?
Interesting!
nah, that was a mistake on my part, the whole teej thing. A bit misleading.
Anonymous said...
I don't think it's Gerard, Mya, if that's what you're suggesting.
May 28, 2008 11:38 PM
All I'm suggesting is that I feel any kind of reveal would be disappointing, don't you think? There would no long be a mystery.
well, regardless, it was a very pleasant thing to see the lyrics to that song.
Oh, I almost forgot!
I wanted to thank Wendy for helping me cross off something on my Bucket List!
Thanks, Wendy!
Nope, I don't think I will be disappointed, I think it would be cool because I don't have preconceived expectations.
Forgive me for being controversial and disgraceful again, but it is time for me to handle this like a dog.
Piss on it and walk away.
Alrighty then. Have a nice night.
hello everyone :)
All I'm suggesting is that I feel any kind of reveal would be disappointing, don't you think? There would no long be a mystery.
LOLZ COMING FROM YOU!
Hi cupcake.
Hey Cupcake
How's it going?
TJ I can see you!!!!
Bye Mya.
Hello Anon, how are you?
Hello Elena, lovely to see you! how are you?
I think I need to explain my reasoning-- why I decided to stay away from the blogs. I shouldn't have to, but I read back on the last page and there was talk about how Mayo should delete the blogs and such.
Last week, I was thinking about the blogs. To me, it seemed as if this place has invaded my brain at any point of the day. I have grown to love and care and EVERYONE here (and I mean everyone, I'm not just saying that). The people I have met are all fantastic people, and I have grown to be really close to most, if not all, of the citizens of Blogbelieve.
But, I realized that this place won't always be around. There was speculation that the blog may end soon. I am not stupid. I can't depend on this blog and everyone here forever. I figured, that one day I'm going to have to do this all alone without your help. You guys won't always be the ones around to tell me that life doesn't get easier and that I can get through it. That fucking scared me! I don't want to depend on you guys all my life, I do need you, but it hurt me to be so dependent. One day I could wake up, and come here to see "blog url does not exist".. if that were to happen, I would honestly not know what to do. For me, it was in my best interest to back away from the blogs.
Also, as I said in my (not-so) goodbye blog, I don't feel any connection to Mayonaise. Not the blog, but the person behind the blog. At one point, I thought that I had. But I realized it was just a fantasy in my head that somehow him/her and I had a connection. How am I supposed to know that I have helped the dude? It kind of hurt me to think that my words may not even have reached him... That I hadn't helped him even when I thought I had.
Same with SS. I care about Mayo and SS, but lets be realistic, I have never really said two words to these people. I have, but how can I be sure that they heard me? Yeah, when the whole MWM shit went down, and BC was getting shit on, I asked Mayo what he thought, and he gave me some cryptic-bullshit answer that I still don't understand. I'll be honest; I know that I'm not very smart. You all give me way more credit than I deserve, I never know what the fuck I am talking about.
It is 100% true, this place was the only place that I felt comfortable to be myself. But in real life, I felt like another, fake person.
Also; the fighting in here was getting on my nerves. Another reason to back away. C'mon. This is the exact same shit that goes on in my High School, and that's where it belongs. I came here to get away from my life, this was my vacation house. Do you really think I wanted to come here to name-calling, finger pointing, and the same immature bullshit that I see everyday? The nasty-anons had helped contribute to this blog's spiral down the drain.
I will always be grateful for meeting the wonderful people that I have. I am at a point in my life where every little thing has an impact. I would like to think that this past 8 months here has been a positive footprint in my life. You, have helped shape who I am today. I am leaving this blog a much stronger and caring person than I was before.
It was a hard decision to make, but it has been made. No one here really needs me. I know you don't.
I'm sorry guys, and I hope no one took this the wrong way.
Always remember;
FAITH; LOVE; HOPE
Pactum Serva guys, keep the faith, always.
I hope to speak to you all again one day. Who knows, maybe I'll end up back here?
xoxo;
- 007
P.S. I'm scared shitless to hit the orange "Publish Your Comment" button. Here goes;
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P<3, I miss you.
Aw, PH, you don't know who I am, but I will be emailing you tomorrow.
Anonymous said...
All I'm suggesting is that I feel any kind of reveal would be disappointing, don't you think? There would no long be a mystery.
LOLZ COMING FROM YOU!
May 28, 2008 11:56 PM
The LOLZ on you, Anon
It was a hard decision to make, but it has been made. No one here really needs me. I know you don't.
You are so wrong. You have no idea how often your words have touched my heart. I needed those words then I still do. I'm sorry you feel this way. I wish there was something I could say to change that but I know there isn't. Take care Paperheart.
Cupcake -
Please tell me you have something happy to say...
Shit, anything at all will be good.
Cupcake I miss you too;
Anon, looking forward to it.
Elena, shh.. I'm telling that to myself to make it easier. Eight months was a long time, and it isn't easy for me to just pick up and leave. It hurts, it really fucking does. Don't ever change for anyone, sweetie. Don't let anyone bring you down. You are an amazing fucking woman who deserves the best. Don't forget that.
Well Elena... my 18th birthday is next month, I'm rather exited about it.
I wish I had more to say P<3... better words to describe how I feel, but for some reason, whenever I come to this place... I forget what I wanted to say, or I don't know how to put it.
I don't come here much anymore, but you've all been in my thoughts.
Paperheart you are a fucking amazing young woman who has the world at your feet.
I just know so many wonderful things are going to come your way.
Never change who you are. Never!
Okay Cupcake - Birthday is a good topic (well for you it is)
So any special plans?
Actually, yes Elena. A big night on the town with some family and friends. It'll be a good excuse to dress up, and ever since I was little I've been looking forward to my 18th.
sounds fun, Cupcake! Have you already got your outfit picked out?
Not yet Anon, I'm buying myself something when I get to the city.
:)
That does sound like fun Cupcake.
Ah, 18
Crap I can't remember my 18th birthday.
Oh yeah, legal drinking age was 18 back then. That probably explains it.
hello!
I got a leather dress jacket for .....wait for it........$20!!!!!!!!
I am the thrift shop queen!!
and speaking of queens Mya I thought the joke was funny, and have a gay mate who will love it!
What is the city, when you're from Tasmania? Just curious and in need of a geography lesson.
hi elena!
hi PH *hug* I'll miss seeing you about
HI CC! (can you send me your address so I can actually send you a card?)
Elena, teehee!!! it's the legal drinking age here, but I don't plan on getting trashed.
Ergo, I'm very jealous!
Ergooooooooo
Hello. How are you?
Well anon, I'm not from Tasmania... I just live here currently. lol
And I'm going to Melbourne for my birthday.
And Ergo, I really should! then we could be pen pals too. :P
"I just want the big reveal, or I'm gonna be disappointed."
Mya, you used those exact words many times. Why are you saying it as anonymous now?
That wasn't Mya.
It really seems like this is it. But I hope not.
I'm good elena had a big day in town with appointments and stuff but snuck in a little shop for me :)
how are you?
Mayo
I'm totally warning you....I'm gonna yell at you tonight.
Just thought I'd give you a heads up on that.
cupcake that would be really nice !
email me and I shall email you
I'm okay Ergo.
Could be better, could be worse...
Maybe I'd be better if I was out shopping.
Oh wait, I could shop on-line right now....
Tempting!!!
Ok then Ergo, I shall do that.
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