There are so many things missing, last night
Last week, and now quieted by irreverence
Two feet deep and thick with sickness
We are lost and no longer linger. Still
I can reason your denial in difference
Came upon you for thought, and mine
I must say thrust upon me in shame.
I shut my book to save your eyes.
Who is lost in plain sight can speak
As you have always claimed, in truth.
p.s. with an uncompromised view for any other is...well, it is compromised.
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Yes, I am aware.
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No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
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“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
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online shopping is always fun! I love getting parcels
And received Ergo!
For you guys.
That song has gotten me through alot of bullshit. It means alot to me. From me, to you.
xoxo
You are wise beyond your years, Paperheart. Stay strong.
That's lovely P<3, thank you.
You're so thoughtful. :)
Thanks, PH, that was cool.
Thank you Paperheart.
*sneaks in*
Hiya
*ducks*
thanks PH I really like that song too
Hi Amy :)
Hey Amy....
Why are you ducking?
I hope that you've managed to turn at least one person on this blog into a Saosin fan, Paperheart. They are amazing and so are you.
Elena, waiting for the bomb to drop.
Hiya Cuppy!
Mel, is that you?
Paper, if you're still around, I really hope you enjoy yourself. You're a wonderful person, and if you keep on keepin on, you'll be an awesome adult too. Best of luck, kiddo.
-A
Hi amy!
Hallo Ergo!
-A
Amy don't worry no bombs here.
but this does resemble a war zone sometimes.
Sometimes? Damn, this carpet has seen better days.
Also, I'm sorry to hear about your mother, I hope she's better soon, and you are as well!
=A
She is doing better, thanks for asking, Amy.
Hey Cryptic Man.... where are you?
I think, if Mayo's gonna post, he might wait longer, make sure all this has died down.
I don't think it's over.
-A
Please don't start poking him now.
have to go everyone tutoring calls
I'll be back later i think take care all!
Anonymous said...
Please don't start poking him now.
*is puzzled*
-A
it's not poking; we're starting to worry.
Don't you mean titoring?
Bye bye Ergo.
Well everyone, I must be off also.
Take care. :)
xoxo cupcake
I don't think I'm poking him.
I'm definitely NOT asking him to delete this place.
Hi Teej.
-A
*waves*
Are you Ecto Teej?
First time in a really long time.
-A
poke, poke, poke.......
Well, I should probably get to bed.
Goodnight Lovelies.
Goodnight Mayo.
I hope you post again soon.
-A
My prediction - Mayo will post sometime within the next 2 hours. And I also predict that it will be something that he wrote yesterday.
Goodnight Amy! :)
Hi elena, TJ and cuppy!
Going to catch up, but I thought I'd check in...
Has anyone seen Wendy yet? Sounded like we were supposed to meet here...
'Cause I see you everywhere
And you're always on my mind
And I see you everywhere
No more crying now
Baby, no more crying now
Night Amy take care
Hello Miranth
prediction anon
Do you predict lottery numbers?
Just askin'
to pass the time then:
Well there's something wrong
I am tired and I am dead
I can feel it in my heart and in my hands
Please, please help me I need help
Please, please call me I'm not well
I thought that I was ready
I thought I could be trusted by myself
Time's running out
I am selfish I am tired
And it's way too late to sit back
And make lists of mistakes
Just so I can make things right
Please cut me down
I've been swinging for so long
Please, please help me I need help
Please, please call me I'm not well
I thought that I was ready
I thought I could be trusted by myself
Please, please help me I need help
Please, please call me I'm not well
I thought that I was ready
I thought I could be trusted by myself
What is my name, what is it called
Is this the consequence of a life of a life that I've lived wrong
What is my name, and who did I hurt
If I could go back and say I'm sorry
You'd be first
Please, please help me I need help
Please, please call me I'm not well
I thought that I was ready
I thought I could be trusted by myself
Please, please help me I need help
Please, please call me I'm not well
I thought that I was ready
I thought I could be trusted by myself
I come off very cold
I am bored, I start in with all the questions
Where were you at, who you with
I need details and positions
What I am turning into, insecurity
I'm bad, it's really bad
Don't answer me, don't humor me
Where did I go, where's the trust?
I don't wanna be alone
I'm not part of the team
I don't wanna be alone
I can stare at the screens
And remember there's only so much you can do for me
Go to sleep
What are we turning into insecurity
He's cold, very cold
Don't answer, don't look at me
Where did I go, where's the trust?
I don't wanna be alone
I'm not part of the team
I don't wanna be alone
Where did I go, where's the trust?
I don't wanna be alone
I'm not part of the team
I don't wanna be alone
If I can't forget, then I won't begin
I can't let go, I need help
Help to forgive
Cause we do this
Over and over and over again
Where did I go, where's the trust?
I don't wanna be alone
I'm not part of the team
I don't wanna be alone
Where did I go, where's the trust?
I don't wanna be alone
Elena, I wish I could predict the lottery numbers, I'd be visiting this blog from a much better computer in a much better location.
I was going to post this in my goodnight, but as you are here :) ...
Elena - I am glad your mother is recovering, and I understand some of your worries. I didn’t answer the likes/dislikes/misses questions because I miss going places with my Mom when she was ambulatory – and seeing her this holiday reinforced that sadness. She now has Parkinson’s and is in her eighties, so I do feel lucky to still have her in my life. But the feelings of sadness are still valid, for all that. I hope things go well for you and your Mom. :)
TJ - YOu have a beautiful singing voice!
Bumfers
Quiet by John Mayer
Midnight
Lock all the doors
And turn out the lights
Feels like the end of the world
This sunday night
There’s not a sound
Outside the snow’s coming down
And somehow I can’t seem to find
The quiet inside my mind
3:02
The space in this room
Has turned on me
And all my fears have cornered me here
Me and my tv screen
The volume’s down
Blue lights are dancing around
And still, I can’t seem to find
The quiet inside my mind
Daylight is climbing the walls
Cars start and feet walk the halls
The world awakes and now I am safe
At least by the light of day
Oh well Anon, thanks anyway.
Miranth, sorry to hear about your mom. I totally understand how you feel.
TJ - quiet down or your mom is gonna ground you. HA HA
I don't want to be part of the team
Crazy song cats (too effin funny!)
lol, thanks, miranth.
i like this one:
White flags
In the skyline
I have laid my weapons down
You can take me out right now
My insides are open
Make a fist around my heart
Crush it anytime you want
Hunt me
I'm a refugee
I can never go back home
Burned it down and left me cold
Somehow that has made me safer
Made me easier to see
My insides are open
Make a fist around my heart
Crush it anytime you want
The fighting is over
Make a move and take me out
I surrender to you now
Run me down and tear me open
Cause you're already in
Drag it out and make me suffer
You win
Hunt me
I'm a refugee
I can never go back home
Burned it down and left me cold
The fighting is over
Make a move and take me out
I surrender to you now
My insides are open
Make a fist around my heart
Crush it anytime you want
My insides are open
Make a fist around my heart
Crush it anytime you want
You can be Individual Anon! :)
elena = thank you :) I think we'll all go through this, but it doesn't make it easier!
TJ - Uh oh! And here I was enjoying your singing!
Maybe we should sing in Mayo's music room? Great acoustics there!
prediction anon
you got about an hour and a half to be right.....
So why yesterday?
Oh crap.....Beatles song stuck in my head now....Yesterday all my troubles seemed so far away.......
and this one for good measure:
[howls]
Who's that I see walkin' in these woods?
Why it's Little Red Ridin' Hood
Hey there Little Red Riding Hood
You sure are lookin' good
You're everything a big bad wolf would want
Listen to me [howl]
Little Red Ridin' Hood
I don't think even big girls should
Go walkin' in these spooky old woods alone
[howls]
What big eyes you have
The kind of eyes that drive wolves mad
So, just to see that you don't get chased
I think I ought to walk with you for a way
What full lips you have
They're sure to lure someone bad
So, untill you get to grandma's place
I think you ought to walk, with me and be safe
I'm gonna keep my sheep suit on
Till I'm sure that you've been shown
That I can be trusted walkin' with you alone
[howls]
Little Red Ridin' Hood
I'd like to hold you if I could
But you might think I'm a big bad wolf, so I won't
[howls]
What a big heart I have
The better to love you with
Little Red Ridin' Hood
Even bad wolves can be good
I'll try to be satisfied
Just to walk close by your side
Maybe you'll see things my way
Before we get to grandma's place
Little Red Ridin' Hood
You sure are lookin' good
You're everything a big bad wolf could want
[howls]
(Baaa)
I hope this isn't the end... but I did think there was something Mayo wanted us to do...
I wish I could be sure what it is, if that's the case.
Elena, I don't know how to explain it, but since the blog began I have, without fail, been able to predict when Mayo would post. The only times I was wrong, Mayo ended up posting the next day but it had been written/dated the day before, and I had a strong feeling that he had written something yesterday. I have other reasons as well, but I'd rather not say on here with the vultures always looking and ready to swoop down.
Miranth, I'm pretty sure that this isn't the end yet. I do think Mayo would let us know if it was over and done with.
They say that life ain't easy
They'll say your life's a crime
Destroy up all good reason
How I'm alive
They'll say that nothing matters
Not even your will to survive
Of course I love you baby
'Cause I'm alive
Yes, I'm alive
Whenever I call you out
Whenever I draw you round
Whenever is here and now
That's the way my love is
That's the way I care
You should call on me baby
I'm always there for you
Yeah, I'm always there for you
They'll say you'll lose your nerve soon
To claim identity
Disgrace our sacred promise
With no belief
Oh, how I believe in you
That's the way my love is for you
That's the way my love is for you
I feel a coming age now
I feel a dawn in me
A certain sun keeps rising
On my belief in you
That's the way my love is
That's the way I care
You should call on me baby
'Cause I'm always there for you
That's the way my love is
That's the way I care
You should call on me baby
'Cause I'm always there for you
Yeah, I’m always there for you
last one (i promise)
Imagine me and you, I do
I think about you day and night
It's only right
To think about the girl you love
And hold her tight
So happy together
If I should call you up
Invest a dime
And you say you belong to me
And ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be
So very fine
So happy together
I can't see me loving nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me
Baby the skies will be blue
For all my life
Me and you
And you and me
No matter how they tossed the dice
It had to be
The only one for me is you
And you for me
So happy together
I can't see me loving nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me
Baby the skies will be blue
For all my life
Me and you
And you and me
No matter how they tossed the dice
It had to be
The only one for me is you
And you for me
So happy together
Me and you
And you and me
No matter how they tossed the dice
It had to be
The only one for me is you
And you for me
So happy together
So happy together
How is the weather
So happy together
We're happy together
So happy together
Thanks Anon,
That does make more sense!
The funny thing is I already wrote my nightly comment, so I'll have to rewrite it if he posts, but I'd much rather, actually! :)
Hello Amyranth,miranth,elena,tj and anyone else i may have missed. Seems like doomsday in here tonight. Waiting for Mayo huh?
Veggie Anon, Mel
TJ - I saw you with your fingers crossed! *wink*
That's pretty damn cool anon. You know when I was driving back home from seeing the MCR show in St Louis I suddenly thought that I should check to see if Mayo had posted. (should not do while driving but oh well) Anyway I pulled up the blog on my phone and he had just posted. Of course I had to leave a comment. (once again shouldn't do while driving) LOL
I hope you're right tonight.
Hi Mel Anon!
This does remind me of the book Waiting for Godot, which I never finished... Ooops!
But, instead, I am waiting for Wendy, ergo, triston, angel, anyone else who usu joins us now, and Mayo!
no never, miranth.
witches' honor!
oh, heck.
i'm not really ecto anymore am i?
*sigh*
i fail. too chatty.
putting on the blue.
hello there, veggie mel.
Hey Mel
Nope I don't think it's doomsday.
I don't believe for one minute Mayo would just go away without saying goodbye.
One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go
I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin' through
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Just let me go
Let me go
And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I know
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Just let me go
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know me
Not good to do while driving elena. Hope your Mom is ok. From trying to catch up on previous posts it seems like she is which is good news.
Yes, elena, I think he would say goodbye. And I know SS stresses the importance of keeping ties with people...
You have skills! I can barely talk on the phone while driving!
Elena, that's happened to me a couple of time's while I was driving. This is embarrassing, but once I even pulled into a parking lot so I could read it before I continued on my way.
oh, apologetic anon, that's a sad one.
i'm not a fan of self-sacrificing love songs. i prefer optimism and the belief that the gods have tricks up their sleeves.
TJ *grins* Are you really sorry?
Hmmm fingers crossed, indeed :)
Sorry, Teej, I thought you were apologetic anon! But it isn't really like the other songs, true...
Don't be sorry, Mayo. Most of us understand and can let you go. It would be alright.
I'm sorry anon, who is that song by?
Hi TJ Hi Miranth Hi Mel Anon!
Hi again elena!
and anon from before I did mean titoring!
mel anon I meant to tell you roma (egg) tomatoes are often hardier, fruit more and less pest prone than other varieties of tomato
This place gets stranger by the day
Hello ergoproxy and katherine dreier
My insides are open
Make a fist around my heart
Crush it anytime you want
letting go anon,
That was what my (already written) post was about... but that it had to be his decision, not anyone else's.
That's how it works.
(But I did mention that I enjoy this place and I would have difficulty contacting people without it).
:)
How does one 'favorite' blogs? I don't know how to use this interface properly...
hello katherine! how are you? Haven't seen you for ages, I hope you're well
ergo said...
mel anon I meant to tell you roma (egg) tomatoes are often hardier, fruit more and less pest prone than other varieties of tomato
May 29, 2008 3:10 AM
Thanks. I will have to remember that for next year.We planted today. I hope they grow. We shall see.
Hi ergo! Hi katherine dreier!
toujours said...
My insides are open
Make a fist around my heart
Crush it anytime you want
May 29, 2008 3:14 AM
I like that. ;)
Hi Ergo, and hello anon
I am very, very well thanks Ergo ^_^
Just thought I would pop in before heading off to sleep.
Things are always intriguing here, in make-believe land.
yes, it's a very powerful lyric, mel anon.
from the band drive by. check them out if you haven't heard of them, they are very good. :)
oh I hope they do mel, ours have fruit just coming on and we have beetroot sweetcorn strawberries and green onions so far, we'll add spinach, silverbeet cauliflower and broccoli soon
and beans.
katherine it certainly is, makes things like folding clothes far more entertaining
toujours said...
yes, it's a very powerful lyric, mel anon.
from the band drive by. check them out if you haven't heard of them, they are very good. :)
May 29, 2008 3:22 AM
I have seen them. I don't remember that song or lyrics. Probably didn't catch all the words with everyone screaming at the concert. I thought they were pretty good.
I suppose that's a way of putting it Ergo!
Things sure have changed. I enjoyed it when the blog was invaded by space aliens ^_~
oh, they didn't do that song during the recent tour. it's off the cd.
ergoproxy said...
oh I hope they do mel, ours have fruit just coming on and we have beetroot sweetcorn strawberries and green onions so far, we'll add spinach, silverbeet cauliflower and broccoli soon
May 29, 2008 3:28 AM
Sounds yummy. How do you grow broccoli? Anything special you need to do with it and can you plant it from a seed or a seedling?
ergo-
yes, this is one of the few things that could make folding clothes entertaining.
Goodnight
Goodnight Katherine
goodnight katherine! sweet dreams
mel we buy seedlings and apart from water them, nothing special, you do have to watch for grubs but we tend to pick them off rather than spray if we can.
We grow corn from seed,and beans but most of the rest is seedlings, it costs a bit more but it's easier and a bit quicker
*sips a frappuccino*
ergoproxy said...
goodnight katherine! sweet dreams
mel we buy seedlings and apart from water them, nothing special, you do have to watch for grubs but we tend to pick them off rather than spray if we can.
We grow corn from seed,and beans but most of the rest is seedlings, it costs a bit more but it's easier and a bit quicker
May 29, 2008 3:52 AM
Thanks. I might try it. I hate feckin grubs. We have a ton of them too. I'm sure we'll have to treat it again this year tp control the bastards.
TJ!!!!! you have a frappacino and you aren't sharing???
*withdrawal symptoms*
*shake*
*twitch*
blink blink*
*twitch*
what flavour is it ?
mel it's a never ending battle, we are just going to treat our grosse lisse tomatoes, there is a moth lays an egg in the flower and the grub hatches inside the fruit. You need to dust for them in the flower stage, romas and cherry don't seem as bothered. If it's really bad sometimes you have no choice, we generally plant in winter to avoid the worst
ergo - I second that!
*sips gently, as steam rises*
Oh, just one more thing...this was playing in my mind
3:03 anon, that person maybe relating to the authentic "you", the best type :)
Now, really goodnight. Pleasant dreams to all
it's one of those little bottled ones, ergo. not as satisfying, but ok in a pinch.
coffee flavor, natch.
Thanks for the coffee, TJ!
ergo - we keep having frosts here at night, so I hope nothing dies :( But we only put in a few veggies so far. By 'we' I mean my sister. She has the green thumb!
Gotta go. Hubby is sick and can't get himself a glass of water or a cough drop! I'm beat anyway. Thanks for the gardening tips ergo.
Goodnight to you all. Have a great tomorrow.
IF, I dont talk to you again here. I am sure we will meet up at other sites as that seems to occur from time to time. Some of you have been great over the past few months I have been here. Some have not been so kind.I won't go there.
You know me by a few names. I am "older family" if you will.
Although some have been nasty at times,(even with each other) I would just lurk in the shadows as usual.
I have come to know quite a few of you and have become fond of some. Sharing ups and downs with you, although not expressing that concern in writing here.
I guess I just wanted you to know that. If some were more accepting, I would have gone blue. Almost did.
I am glad I didnt.
To see you fight amongst yourselves was sad to see. I couldn't take part in it because it would be a waste of time and energy.
I hope you all take care.
Goodnight Mel Anon,
Take care and take care of hubby, too!
:)
I guess no one's here? I'll check back later, as I have things to do...
Morning/Goodnight Mayo, Katherine, Miranth, Ergo, TJ & Mel Anon!
So have we been flung into the wind like so much chaff then? I suppose having to come up with a new piece of creative writing ever few days was eventually going to grate, but props for keeping it going for nearly 9 months.
On which subject - we can pretty much assume it wasn't a shotgun wedding!
Have a good one,
Kass xx
goodnight mel hope your hubby is better soon, I hope to meet you again here too, I don't really want to have to regroup elsewhere, but I have my blog if you ever want to call by.
goodnight too all, I have to go make dinner (elena I have a pork roast fro the weekend, couldn't resist)
take care all and see you tomorrow
mayo hope you're well and happy and enjoying your life. I think finding things to laugh and enjoy is so important. Wishing you laughter, love, success and health
much love EP xx
SS goodnight to you to, hope you're well and recovered, enjoyig your life and making a difference in the lives of others.I'm sure you are a valuable friend and family member. Sending you lots of hugs and good things lotsa love EP xx
'night all see you tomorrow
elena, miranth , TJ (bottled would still be nice but at least I have starbucks! thanks elena)
have a good thursday :)
funny bunny
Mayo
I was totally gonna yell at you tonight for worrying me but I’ve decided against it. I’ve come to the conclusion that it wouldn’t do any good, anyway. I hope that you are just too busy which is cool. I mean we know you’ve been here, you posted Kapunua’s poem.
Shit, man. Would it really be all that hard to pop in and say, “Hey, I’m busy but I’m okay”? Well? We need to work on your people skills. Sorry, I just totally just fell into mom mode there. Watch out or I’ll make you stand in the corner. Look, I’m just worried about you. Can’t help it. Oh and I swear to God if one more anon comes in and does the whole “it’s over” thing I’m gonna scream.
I don’t believe you would do that to your Lovelies. I don’t believe you’d wander off into the sunset without saying goodbye in a non-cryptic way. Think of all we’ve been through together. You have to realize we care about you. And I know you care about us.
Damn it, you better be okay.
Night Mayo
Elena (waiting as promised)
Night Elena!
Aww, the bunny! And because it's been drilled into my brain by endless radio plays - something for Lyn-Z.
It's nice, honest!
Kass xx
Mayo,
I really do hope that if you are seriously considering putting an end to this that you will at least do it the right way. The majority of your loyal lovlies* deserve more than just you walking away without a word. They deserve a proper goodbye. Please keep that in mind.
That said, I hope that everything is okay (you have me worried) and you will drop by soon and let us* know. Take care of yourself Mayo. Goodnight
*Disclaimer - By "loyal lovlies" and "us", I meant those of us here on the blog who do care and are worried about Mayo. I didn't mean to include anyone here who does not wish to be included (Hi, Siobhan ^_^).
good morning mr mayo man! you don't want to come down from your tower??
its ok i know you like to make us wait and its all cool. we will wait, no worries there.
hope you are good and well though. have a lovely day.
SS you good? i see you popped in again briefly. have a fantastic day SS!!
hey family!
great song choice for lynz kass!!
hope you are having a great day at work?! not possible.... but bearable will do!
right i haven't really caught up as such so i just hope everyone is ok and have a great thursday peeps!
love to you all!
oh and PP lovely pics you posted yesterday. so beautiful!
Hi FASC!
Did you watch the program on 5 last night about the guy who's had sex with 1000 cars (and Airwolf!)? Barring the hat with the bear ears he seemed rather sweet and quite normal. Just goes to show you can't judge a book by it's cover...
Kass xx
P.S. Thank you Anon, beautifully said.
Bye guys!
I hope this isn't the end... but perhaps there was something Mayo wanted us to do?
I had noticed rude behaviors taking place before I went blue, but I thought that had been rectified, but it turns out that it was taking place elsewhere…
For the record, I am a big believer in forgiving others.
This comment brought to you by: the golden rule. :)
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PH - Good luck with everything you pursue and please don't let others' expectations get you down! Your enthusiasm reminds me of being your age and how empowering that feeling was. Thank you for that!
BC - I understand your beliefs and while I agree with a lot of them, I do think that this place can be beneficial to people, as it was meant to be. But I did want to talk to you about something else... please call :)
Anon – I did try to encourage people to come back, but I have to respect their desire not to do so and the knowledge that they know what’s best for their own lives. And I believe many are still among us…
Wendy – I hope you are feeling better? I miss your positive attitude when you aren’t here to brighten up the place! I thought we were meeting here tonight? It seems whenever I’m here, you’re not, and vice versa… just chance, or are you trying to tell me something? :)
ergo – thanks for the bunny!!! I should post our bunny pics on my blog - we have new baby ones :)
Hi PP - *waves* I hope you are well? Pictures were lovely!!!
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Mayo everyone seems to have an opinion, especially anonymous persons… I think you should do what you feel is best. I enjoy this place myself, under normal circumstances and I have few means of contacting people outside this blog, so my opinion is prejudiced, surely. Nevertheless, I think you should always do what makes you feel most comfortable. You may need to be more specific, if there was a particular stand you wanted someone to make… that wasn’t already addressed in this post. I hope you are well, in any case! And I would miss this very much if you chose to end it, but I would understand. :)
PS – LOST finale tonight for anyone interested!
Have a great day!
♥ BBers!
mayo,
the last couple of nights i haven't had much will to talk. i've just been sitting here, gazing at the screen as if at a scrying mirror, trying to read you.
don't worry, i'm not that strong a witch. *grin*
but the truth of it is, i've been having about as much success understanding myself these days. i never know what the day will hold for me -- will it be a day of purposeful action, or one like today.
you see, today was a lost day, a day spent walking through dreams. i slept very late, did very little, and then in the afternoon sleep claimed me again, to my surprise when i woke up.
i don't understand the lethargy, nor do i understand what happened to the energy that carried me across the country. everything's different, but maybe it's a necessary disorientation.
i cast everything away, threw away the better portion of my adult life. i did so deliberately and gladly, even gleefully. now i'm on ground that is solid but without a single clue to follow. maybe it's just natural that it's going to take me a little bit to get the hang of this new world, one in which everything is waiting to be built.
maybe i'm just a tiny bit embryonic at the moment, and i should just cut myself some slack, let the current carry me and keep a clear eye for the opportunities the gods will send my way.
maybe forward movement isn't always at a rush and with the excitement of an adventure. maybe stumbling around in fits and starts is still going forward, too.
gods, i hope so! *grin*
so, how about it, mayo? what's going on in your world? are you finding yourself grounded and centered, or are you like me, just clumsily trying to find your way?
you know, i took that "rate-your-life" quiz, and i rated very high on the spirit portion. i had to laugh at the result, because outwardly i don't seem to be a very religious person, not even by the relaxed standards of wicca. but the solid core of my life is the relationship i have with my gods -- it's not faith, it's not belief, it's experiential.
so when i say that, despite my darknesses and fears, i know everything will work out for the best, that the times when we are feeling our weakest are the times that make us our strongest, that everything we experience truly is for a purpose and that purpose is a positive one, i'm speaking not from my hopes but from my sure and certain knowledge of these things.
i'm stymied and confused right now, but it won't be forever, and there's a reason for this temporary life-in-molasses.
and no, i don't understand how a person who falls into her own pit traps as often as i do can still be essentially optimistic, but hey, there you go!
and since i seem to have optimism to spare, you can borrow some, if you need it, mayo.
i'm always willing to share.
do what you need to, mayo-sama. i trust you.
be bright and blessed, my friend.
Kass - Sex With Cars? What?
HI FASC!
hi TJ and miranth!
Did you watch the program on 5 last night about the guy who's had sex with 1000 cars (and Airwolf!)?
no kass! but it sounds vaguely familiar so maybe it was a repeat? that isn't something i would have dreamt about!!
Yep.
Although apparently not every vehicle has an appropriate orifice so it's more of a mental stimulation & frottage kind of thing!
The mind boggles...
not every vehicle has an appropriate orifice
surely some dick injuries occurred though??!! i mean...they are cars made of metal and stuff! hardly compares to a vagina??!!!
anyway kass i have to go! have a good day!
bye to everyone around and hello to anyone arriving.
oh and mayo whenever i read your stand post i get a very fucking annoying song in my head!! you need to pay for that you know!!
click me mayo!!
“While many have speculated about this, we wanted to wait until after the first trimester to officially confirm that we are expecting our first child. This is truly the most joyous time in our lives and we are excited to share the happy news and start our family.”
- Pete and Ashlee Wentz
Ashlee Simpsons more famous than her husband and has no problem taking his name but She was famous before she started fucking him.
anon, the difference is Ashlee appears to love him
*sighs* I miss boner city
.
going down
It's time to set...
Thank you all!!!
Take care, everyone! Follow your heart, follow your dreams, be kind, be happy, have fun and live well.
Hugs and Love
~Namaste~
:)
*reserves the right to RISE again*
Bye FASC!
The male dancer in blue and white stripes and the woman painted red in that video are my best friend's uncle and aunt. Fact!
Personally, I've been humming REM's "Stand" - from back when they had a sense of humour.
Random, but thank you fobfan - I thought their pregnancy denials were a little too ambiguous to be true denials! I remember when Posh was a Spice Girl - and the more successful Beckham - she said that one of the reasons she was looking forward to her wedding to Becks was that she would have the same surname as her husband and son and was proud to do so.
Anyway, I've procrastinated too long and must get on with it!
Kass xx
Bye FASC!
Bye Kass - Thanks for the explanation!
O_O
Kassiopeia said...
Bye FASC!
The male dancer in blue and white stripes and the woman painted red in that video are my best friend's uncle and aunt. Fact!
wow! how cool!
and thanks sun :)
I saw Elton lave last year and he was so good, a real entertainer
I'm off to bed (well watching Bones, then Trinny and Susanna, but IN bed! lol)
night!!
*live
lave would kinda be washing wouldn't it? *shudder*
What Not to Wear! I ♥ them. That's one of my favorite shows. Except we have Stacy and Clinton. I ♥ them. ^_^
Mayo?
*sighs*
I felt so icky this morning. Something told me that you still hadn't been here. We miss you, dude.
SS!!!!!!
Pay it forward. I always loved that movie. The whole idea of that just seems so simple and just think, if everyone lived their life, everyday, keeping that whole idea in mind, imagine what we could do. Awesome, right? I'm trying. Thank you for lighting that fire in us. You are truly amazing.
PH!
I ♥ you more than you know and don't you ever forget that. You know where to find me. Don't you ever let me hear you say that nobody here needs you. I understand why you can't stay but can't even being to comprehend how much you've helped people here. You are an angel.
Alright, gotta go take people's money! Muwahahaha. (Sorry SS! ^_^)
Have a good one, BlogBelieve!
XOXO
Oh, and I think I need to hear some Bodysnatchers.......
Mayo,
I dunno what's going on in your life or in your head right now about all this. Maybe you're looking for a reason to stay. Maybe you're looking for another reason to walk away from it all. I can understand both. You need to do what's best for you. I mean that's what this whole thing is really about, right?
Well, let me say this...Mayo, you have helped me in more ways than I can list in this note. Mayo, I still look forward to reading your words. Hell, I even go back and read old posts just because I can still take something from them. I catch myself using Mayoisms in my day to day life. Do you realize how special that is? Dude, you have made an impact on all of our lives and for that I thank you.
So, I hope this isn't the end. I hope you're just having a dry spell. Maybe you're waiting to see if you will be missed. Well, look around. You are missed.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. You have made a difference.
Paperheart,
Here is something I wrote for you last night.
I will tell you something though. You know who I miss? Really miss? The angel of this blog and her name is Paperheart. She speaks with more wisdom, love, hope, and honesty than most of us supposedly grown ass women.
I miss you Paperheart!
Sending you hugs to infinity and back again!
Why do you need Mayo? You have other blogs you can talk on.
That's like saying 'why do you listen to MyChem, there's lots of other bands out there?'. We like it here!
Crap, you can meet up on another blog and talk about the same things.
You still subconsciously believe it could be him.
Mayo,
There are so many things going through my head right now. I'm a little scared how this one might turn out, as I've spent the majority of my nights digging through old thoughts attempting to find new meaning.
It scares me to think that the one thing I valued, the one thing that got me through the worst dip in my life, might change or not even exist anymore.
I kinda feel a bit lost to tell you the truth.
Now, on to you. I understand what it's like not to have shit to say, and it's okay. It's felt that way for a while now, I feel like I'm on repeat.
But, you should know that if and when you do come back and give us more words, I'm going to kick you in the shins, then the ass, then I'll probably give in and give you an e-hug. Muwhahaha. Totally just kiddin' dude. And though it's against the law, I am worried about you.
I hope you're okay and that everyone in your life is okay and that everyone is happy and healthy.
SS,
I think we're good. I don't really feel like there's anything for me to say this morning, and that can't be a bad thing. :)
Well, aside from Thank You.
Have a nice day today, and hopefully we'll see you around.
It would be nice if SS opened his blog to comments since he has invested so much time and effort into keeping Mayo's blog a place where faith, hope and love can be shared amongst us. In some ways he is the "spiritual" leader of the blog and even though that puts him on a pedestal, he seems to enjoy that role. I would totally understand though if he didn't want to open up his blog as it would be a huge responsability. If and when Mayo does end this place, I hope SS will consider what I have said and do whatever he thinks is best for himself.
Signs of Internet addiction include the following:
Preoccupation with the Internet. (Thoughts about previous on-line activity or anticipation of the next on-line session.)
Use of the Internet in increasing amounts of time in order to achieve satisfaction.
Repeated, unsuccessful efforts to control, cut back, or stop Internet use.
Feelings of restlessness, moodiness, depression or irritability when attempting to cut down use of the Internet.
On-line longer than originally intended.
Jeopardized or risked loss of significant relationships, job, educational or career opportunities because of Internet use.
Lies to family members, therapist, or others to conceal the extent of involvement with the Internet.
Use of the Internet as a way to escape from problems or to relieve a dysphoric mood. (e.g., feelings of hopelessness, guilt, anxiety, depression.)
Problems caused by Internet Addiction
Internet addiction results in personal, family, academic, financial and occupational problems that are characteristic of other addictions.
Impairment of real life relationships are disrupted as a result of excessive use of the internet. Internet addicts spend more time in solitary seclusion and spend less time with real people in their lives. Arguments may result due to the volume of time spent on-line. Internet addicts may attempt to conceal the amount of time spent on-line, which results in distrust and the disturbance of quality in once stable relationships.
What makes the Internet addictive?
Some internet users may develop an emotional attachment to on-line friends and activities they create on their computer screens. Internet users may enjoy aspects of the internet that allow them to meet, socialize and exchange ideas through the use of chat rooms or "virtual communities". These communities allow the person the means to escape from reality and seek out means to fulfill unmet emotional and psychological needs, which are more intimate and less threatening than real life relationships.
show me a person who hasn't any unmet emotional or psychological needs. they don't exist. and don't be fooled by appearances.
Mayo's blog isn't exactly internet porn or gambling and it has only replaced my TV watching, but I understand that people with addictive personalities could caught up in it.
Goodmorning everyone!
Kass@5:03am
O_o
*may possibly no longer be surprised by anything*
616 = Sun@ 5:43am?
You were the Sun?!
You're leaving too!!?!?
*sighs deeply*
*will double check first to make sure*
PH,
You have life smarts and emotional smarts. You have wit. You keep up with school while keeping down a job.You have determination and achieve the goals you set. You give love, and are loved.
*hugs*
You're the full package, missy! It has always been a pleasure to read you, and I shall miss you and your hug-fu ness *hugs again*
Thank you everyone for all your photo comments. On a day like that, everything just bursts with colour, and fills your senses up. Kapunua, I hope your fan palm reaches similar heady heights =)
Mayo,
I shut my book to save your eyes.
*sneaks up and tips it off Mayo's knees*
Oops! Clumsy me.
Oh! Look it has opened up again!
I'm sure you feel more connected to some around here than others. It won't compromise you if you blue up and talk to them.
Or not =)
'Night all!!
I think the point is that there's a possibility that some people are using this blog as a crutch to fulfill unmet needs in their lives. It's a fantasy world where they can come to feel like they're needed and are somehow special.
The problem with this is that people have the tendency to lose themselves in such activities at the expense of real life relationships. Also, the amount of time they spend online interferes with the pursuit of their real life dreams and goals.
"You still subconsciously believe it could be him.
I'm afraid you're going to have to state who 'him' is, because I don't have any idea!
Hi everyone. Hi Mayo.
Elena, I read what you wrote about your mom. I know how special she is to you...and she is so lucky to have a daughter like you. Hang in there sweetie. I wish you both all the best and many more years of morning coffee and lots of love.
BC, it was nice to read you a while back. *hugs* I hope you are doing well, it sounds like it, so keep on with that okay.
...
Mayo, I don't think I can say much more than has already been said by my friends here. Just always know how much we have appreciated you, your words, this place, and all that we have found in ourselves and each other. It is truly a magical place. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
....
Friends, I have some bad news to report and I don't know how else to say it, but I must tell you because things with me are going to be a bit different. I found out that my father has lung cancer and the prognosis is not looking good. He has several more tests to do. What we do know is that is not operable and there is a chance it has spread into his bones.
Fuck, this is hard to write. I think I need to go...
....
Thank you truly to all of you for your friendship. You are the first friends I've told about this, so again thank you.
♥ to all of you.
Yo PP & various anons,
I'm not addicted, I just like it here!
"The problem with this is that people have the tendency to lose themselves in such activities at the expense of real life relationships. Also, the amount of time they spend online interferes with the pursuit of their real life dreams and goals."
Have you actually been reading the comments? We all have families, partners, jobs, hobbies, outside friends, etc... otherwise we'd have nothing to talk about! Mayo adds to those things, it doesn't take their place.
And I'm also confused about who you assume we all think Mayo is; round these parts Gerard Way is considered everything from saviour to complete f**kwit - everything except 'Mayo'!
Kass xx
Anima,
I am so sorry. I don't know what to say. I can't even imagine what you are going through. I've seen the terrible things that cancer can do but not to one of my parents. I am truly sorry.
I'm here if you need me.
Gosh, okay. Mayo?
Anima,
I dropped by your blog. I am so sorry.
Anima:
Hang on, okay? I'm going to send you something and it's a little weird, but hear me out.
Thanks you guys. All of you being here means more to me than I could express. When I found out, all I wanted to do was come here and be with all of you. I couldn't even think of a single friend in real life that I could lean on in the way I knew I could with all of you.
Instead of coming by last night, (even though I wanted to so bad!) I decided is was best to get the initial shock out of the way first...so my husband and I drank ourselves silly. :)
Kapunua, it's not weird at all. Thank you so much.
...
Sorry to bring downer news to everyone. Everything is going to be okay. I think we all knew something like this would happen, but it still doesn't prepare you for when it actually becomes reality. Just going to take it day by day.
Being at work seems so pointless right now...
Just in case I killed the blog, here is something you are sure to enjoy...
a new Leathermouth video!
Sorry if this was already posted...
Body Snatchers Forever
Anima, that's perfectly fine.
Hey, my aunt had lung cancer and the doctors told her that if she quit smoking she would eventually do all right. (Unfortunately she didn't quit smoking.)
So just try everything, and keep on hanging on. I really hope that helps you.
Family,
I know this is going to be a novel, so be warned now.
Anima,
Oh, honey, I am so sorry! My heart goes out to you and your family. I know it's one thing to tell someone to be strong, when you are not in their shoes, but I hope and pray I can send you some strength, and love. We will be here for you to talk to, either by phone, e-mail or here. We love you.
Paperheart, Bubbles,
I want you to know that you have helped me in ways you may never now. Don't ever think you havn't made a difference. You are going to be one that changes this world for the better, I can feel it. That video was beautiful, and was the song. I have a feeling it will be an important song in my life too.
I love you, Bubbles. Please don't forget that, and please, e-mail, come to our blog, anytime, and we will you as well. Never compromise.
Wendy,
You are so important and special to us, and to so many people. Do you realize how many times those thoughts for the day, or the happy videos or sun posts have made me and so many others look twice at the life? I don't want you to go. I don't want any of you to go.
Dammit, I'm crying again.
BC, DG, Jade, SIM, Magic Pie, Lolita, Andibomb...and all the others.
I once said that leaving Mayo's was almost impossible, because you might make it as far as the bus station, but so many Family members would be there to grab you and pull you back to the Castle.
I want to grab each of you, and still I feel you slipping through my fingers.
We are strong, another thing the vultures got wrong. The Lovelies are some of the strongest people I have ever talked to, even if we have our doubts and weaknesses, we are all at the core stronger than any of us even realize.
Mayo,
You are partially responisble for that, you know. I will say partially, because it has been a joint effort, between you, SS, the Lovelies, and sometimes even the anons. Some of the vultures have made us stronger people.
I don't think you are leaving, Mayo, that's not why I am writing this. I just felt like letting people know how much they mean to me.
So Mayo, I am giving you some of your own words back to you. Remember this?
"ON ANY GIVEN DAY"
"You are all seen.
I am here. Not always present, but I am here. I feel each of you even as I move about my world. I presume we have this in common.
I carry a bit of debt to you that I have not shared. You have reached me in ways you will never know.
You have helped.
p.s. thank you."
I will be here, Family, I am staying on this ride. I think there are several more twists and turns left on these rails before the ticket is run out.
I presume I have this in common with you, Mayo. You are stronger than you think.
Its all about the love,
L.
P.S. I will be back on later this afternoon, several errands to run, and coffee awaits!
This blog is the biggest proof of this being Gerard. It shows how he falls in love, how he falls out of love and how he ditches you at the end. It's similar to how he treats everyone.
Sorry to hear about your father, Anima. My thoughts and prayers are with you
Anonymous said...
"I just want the big reveal, or I'm gonna be disappointed."
Mya, you used those exact words many times. Why are you saying it as anonymous now?
May 29, 2008 12:41 AM
Anonymous said...
That wasn't Mya.
May 29, 2008 12:42 AM
I assumed that the anon at 12:41 was probably the one that actually made the original comment, trying to make it look like me, because I HAVE said that. But then Anon at 12:42 came along.
Fuck, who knows... or cares...
FOR THOSE OF WHO WITH A SENSE OF HUMOR
Ever wondered what happens when Hallmark writers are having a bad day...
///////////////////////////////////
My tire was thumping.
I thought it was flat
When I looked at the tire...
I noticed your cat.
Sorry!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Heard your wife left you,
How upset you must be.
But don't fret about it.. .
She moved in with me.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Looking back over the years
that we've been together,
I can't help but wonder...
"What the hell was I thinking?"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Congratulations on your wedding day!
Too bad no one likes your husband.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
How could two people as beautiful as you
Have such an ugly baby?
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I've always wanted to have
someone to hold,
someone to love.
After having met you ..
I've changed my mind.
-----------------------------------
I must admit, you brought Religion into my life.
I never believed in Hell until I met you.
///////////////////////////////////
As the days go by, I think of how lucky I am...
That you're not here to ruin it for me.
###################################
Congratulations on your promotion.
Before you go...
Would you like to take this knife out of my back?
You'll probably need it again.
***********************************
Happy Birthday, Uncle Dad!
(Available only in Tennessee , Kentucky & West Virginia )
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Happy birthday! You look great for your age.
Almost Lifelike!
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When we were together,
you always said you'd die for me.
Now that we've broken up,
I think it's time you kept your promise .
///////////////////////////////////
We have been friends for a very long time ..
let's say we stop?
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
I 'm so miserable without you
it's almost like you're here.
===================================
Congratulations on your new bundle of joy.
Did you ever find out who the father was?
%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%
Your friends and I wanted to do
something special for your birthday.
So we're having you put to sleep.
)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
So your daughter's a hooker,
and it spoiled your day.
Look at the bright side,
it's really good pay
Anima
I and a lot of other people love and care for you. You know you have friends here that will be here for you to cry, laugh, vent or just to sit with. No words are needed; just know we are here for you. I am truly sorry for your news. As Jules would say, I will send you a big huge arse pink bubble for you, your father and your entire family.
xx
who do you think is prettier
Eliza or Lyn-Z
♥ FImble. Your pink bubble >>>>> my pink bubble. ;)
Careful where you put that thing though. ^_^
Anonymous said...
who do you think is prettier
Eliza or Lyn-Z
Why? What difference does it make?
I really don't understand the obsession some people have over GW and his relationships.
Anima
I am so sorry. Shit, that doesn't even begin to say how I feel. We will talk later. Just know I am thinking about you.
I mean, WHY does it affect you? HOW does it affect you?
Unless you're his mother or something, it shouldn't.
Hi Fimble, Mya, Anima, OPL, Kapunua & Anon!
Anima, I'm so sorry to hear about your father, and I'm sure we're all humbled that you feel we should be your first port of call. My thoughts are with you family.
Fimbly! Even if you're only back temporarily it's nice to 'see' you. I appreciate that you restrained your gloating re: CL on my blog.
Anon, Mayo's first post (subsequently deleted) was dated the 3rd of September and the initial few posts were pretty darn grumpy - do you really think a man just embarking on an "amaayyzing" marriage with "the person [he wants] to spend his life with" would choose that particular moment to start bitching and moaning?!
And Mya, thanks for making me laugh.
Kass xx
what's your obsession with posting shit that's not funny
Mayo
Worried here. Are you okay?
You're welcome, Kass
Anonymous said...
what's your obsession with posting shit that's not funny
Shut the fuck up!
I posted it ONLY for those with a SENSE OF HUMOR!
Obviously, not for YOU!
I really don't understand the obsession some people have over GW and his relationships.
Except they seem to directly influence his behaviour and therefore what the band does
Eliza
Hiya, Kass, and Elena too! Elena, I hope Mom's feeling even better today.
Mayo, say. I know this is treading on dangerous ground here, but I feel like you're leaving, so I don't care. I'm sure that a few people might agree with me even if they feel the need to say that they don't but, well, here it goes, huh?
Have you ever considered making another blog, since this one is compromised in so many ways? You could post the link once somewhere, delete it. One of us will get the link. Then, eventually the rest of us would get it. It might take a few days but I'll bet we'd all meet up with you.
Maybe I'm just saying this because I had a dream this morning that we did this. The other option that I dreamed about (no, seriously, I dreamed about this blog this morning,) was that you used words that we would know and we googled you. "Jappy" "cezy" all that nonsense.
I dunno, I guess I just miss reading you. Jerk.
You are over analyzing something that really doesn't affect you.
You should put that energy to better use.
Have you ever considered making another blog, since this one is compromised in so many ways? You could post the link once somewhere, delete it. One of us will get the link. Then, eventually the rest of us would get it. It might take a few days but I'll bet we'd all meet up with you.
Um, I believe he already tried that once. Or have you forgotten the disaster that was MWM? Of course, so long as you were included this time, I suppose you wouldn't have so much righteous indignation to throw around, would you Kapunua?
Hi Elena!
Aww, play nice Anon.
I'm not sure I should dignify your question with an answer but I've never been forced to pay to look at Eliza's crotch for 45 minutes.
Kass xx
i have no sense of humor, wow i'm devastated. i don't think i can make it through the rest of my day. i'm so hurt
hahahhahaha NOT
Wowza I guess Eliza's not the only one with an obsession.
Go do something with your sad life.
Anon, you do have a sense of humor!
Just not a very good one.
Well, I must get back to work and earn my salary.
See ya!
"Anon", my ass...
"Wowza I guess Eliza's not the only one with an obsession.
Go do something with your sad life."
If you're going to insult someone anonymously, please let us know who you're aiming your bile at. If it's me, then me and my sad life are off to the gym then making thai fish stew for dinner. Sweaty & Yummy!
Toodles,
Kass xx
since you're so funny, can you please help me, so i can have a good sense of humor like you.
i know what i'll do, i'll post a whole page of unfunny shit to clog the blog up. that should work.
R.I.P.
Anima, I'm so sorry to hear your bad news. I know, I'm late like always, but I wanted to let you know I read it and my heart broke for you and your family.
I'm here if you need a friend.
Kapunua said...
Have you ever considered making another blog, since this one is compromised in so many ways? You could post the link once somewhere, delete it. One of us will get the link. Then, eventually the rest of us would get it. It might take a few days but I'll bet we'd all meet up with you.
Maybe I'm just saying this because I had a dream this morning that we did this. The other option that I dreamed about (no, seriously, I dreamed about this blog this morning,) was that you used words that we would know and we googled you. "Jappy" "cezy" all that nonsense.
GET HELP KAPUNUA
All of you are so amazing. Thank you so much for your words and for your friendship.
Mya, nice to see you. I thought I saw you pop in a while back. It's been a while. Hope you are well. :)
And what?! Wendy is leaving? How did I miss that. Please don't go, who am I going to take the Night Train with? :(
Wendy thank you for being 'the sun'... I loved getting those every morning.
...
Mayo, I think it's time you came in and told us what's up. If everything is fine, well then I couldn't be happier, but if there are some changes or you are thinking about changes, I think you owe it to us. We have been here for you for a long ass time. You should know by now that we get pretty damn worried about you and this place. Sometimes too much, but hey it's like the best spot on the Internet. No other place I'd rather be. And it just wouldn't be the same without you.
...
Off to do some more pointless work...
Mayo,
How are you, Sweetheart?
"You miss too much these days if you stop to think...'
Love,
L.
Perhaps he simply has nothing to say. It happens sometimes.
Mayo, I've been looking at this from my own "doomsday" point of view and my own "I hate it when my friends go away" point of view and stuff, and it never occurred to me that maybe something has happened to you. I just very much hope not. Like most everyone else, I would love to hear if you're okay, but if you've got something going on, then take care of that. Then, once it's taken care of, I hope you will come back and say you're okay.
Hey Redrum! Hey K!
Maybe he doesn't have anything to say. I get like that, too. And the dude has kept this up for a long time now.
I hope nothing is wrong, Mayo. We just want to know that you're okay. That's it.
Anonymous said...
since you're so funny, can you please help me, so i can have a good sense of humor like you.
i know what i'll do, i'll post a whole page of unfunny shit to clog the blog up. that should work.
You already do such a lovely job of clogging this toilet up with your own brand of humor already, Anon.
Anonymous said...
R.I.P.
May 29, 2008 12:20 PM
Hmmmm...
Like I said before...
"Anon", my ass!
Oops, I used "already" twice in that sentence. I'm sure the grammatical error anons will have a field day with that! But, that's good. It'll give them something to do.
Kapunua said...
Have you ever considered making another blog, since this one is compromised in so many ways? You could post the link once somewhere, delete it. One of us will get the link. Then, eventually the rest of us would get it. It might take a few days but I'll bet we'd all meet up with you.
Compomised how? You really are what they have been trying to tell us, arent you?
Yes, anon. Really.
Yes, anon. Really.
Yes, anon. Really.
Just wanted to pop in and let you know I was thinking about you guys. All of you.
Is this the end, Michael?
Thinking of you too Splash, and the rest of you, and Mayo, and SS, and Calaf, and the nice anons.
I just picked up a baby bird, his wing is all chewed up. As soon as I had him set up, then, yeah, I checked the main page again.
Michael MYERS?
Just kidding.
Anonymous said...
I look at you all see the love there thats sleeping
While my guitar gently weeps
I look at the floor and I see it needs sweeping
Still my guitar gently weeps
I dont know why nobody told you how to unfold your love
I dont know how someone controlled you
They bought and sold you.
I look at the world and I notice its turning
While my guitar gently weeps
With every mistake we must surely be learning
Still my guitar gently weeps
I dont know how you were diverted
You were perverted too
I dont know how you were inverted
No one alerted you.
I look at you all see the love there thats sleeping
While my guitar gently weeps
Look at you all...
Still my guitar gently weeps.
May 28, 2008 8:04 PM
This speaks volumes.
How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean’s shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head
If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I could see you
This darkness would turn to light
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be all right
And everything will be all right
I know you didn’t bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I’m so used to living underneath the surface
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be all right
And everything will be all right
hi guys!
anyone around?
firstly... anima i am so sorry about your awful news. that must be so hard to deal with . i hope you are OK?
secondly... has PH left?? i didn't catch up and i'm not sure. sorry PH!!
thirdly... wendy (anon616) has left and that is shit!
forthly... (is that right??)
MAYO!!!!!!! WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?????!!!!!
you know we worry about you so if you don't mind a phone call or text would be lovely!!
Give him a break, guys.
You really can't assemble these people up, then knock them down and not even speak to them.
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