Honorable Mention.
I am the clown.
Because you asked me to
and I am colorful enough, so
I quickly make the change.
It’s an easy switch in contrast.
Then, you are off and running.
Up and down the row
I am chasing you and I am out of breath.
You are elusive, but you see
I am the clown.
And I will use a trick to catch you.
I must catch you, because I have to tell you
I am not a fool. But, I have failed.
The pulsing lights drawing on
Death and destruction flash above
And beyond you. The images are mostly grave
Punched in and out in perfect time.
They were too many and too long, but
I had to remain until the end.
I knew they would tell the story.
Then, the images stop.
I achieve execution in a flash of bright white
Then perception returns to me, the clown,
Looking at you down the row.
I can’t move but to say the end.
But, I forgot the most important part.
Then, you are gone.
For a moment, I am frantic to find you.
But, I also don’t want to lose my character.
It is of every color and
Can give me up a reckless fool.
While I pretend to know the rest,
I search for my friend.
His name is random, and
He was sitting next to me.
Before you came along…
And as I am just about to take my leave
You appear again, but now
You are the clown.
And you want to tell me that
I am just a fool.
p.s. strung out on pointless prevarication and cardboard collusion.
(...fucking nightmare)
Friday, May 16, 2008
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«Oldest ‹Older 3001 – 3200 of 4664 Newer› Newest»RW, immaturity causes that. And goofy ass t-shirts. Very 'tween', no?
sorry no i haven't carrie. and why in the hell did they make sex in the city into a movie.
RW, no. Mostly mechanical failure.
-A
Aw, who knows what causes that. A lot of "Seemed like a good idea at the time" combined with "I don't know exactly how to express myself, so let me use a Sharpie." Nothing wrong with that, even though some call it, well, odd.
BUT IT'S OK!
J
MJ, I haven't been hearing good things about SATC.
Makes me worry for Indy.
-A
Mechanical failure of the brain, A?
I used to write stuff on my wrist. Usually the name of the guy I liked, you know, in case I forgot who he was.
-A
Odd is good, J! ;) Well, in some cases anyway.
Can't be completely ruled out I suppose. The brain is considered to be a supercomputer in the human body.
-A
Some things just don't need to be a movie. Like "Speed Racer". Or most of the SNL-skit movies. Or "Dune".
J
Amy I heard IJ4 is a mess. A big mess
LOL, A!
Amy, is your cat gonna bite and scratch, or is it more laid back?
Does the new Indy movie suck? I had been looking forward to seeing it :(
What's the new IJ movie about? I know that Shia LeBoeuf (sp?) kid is in it, which frightens me enough anyway. But I don't even know the plot.
J
Or most of the SNL-skit movies.
Please God, don't let them make a movie out of "Dick in a Box."
MJ! I thought I already saw the Big Mess Indy last night! Damnit!
Entropy, my cat doesn't like ME on her good days, I just hope she's good for the groomer.
-A
Mercury retrograde causes mixed up communication and such.
Anyway, so tonight after Kung Fu I stopped and parked outside of a damn field to get pics of the rising, orange full moon.
I am a lunatic in the most ancient sense. Oh, that's pics of said full moon, so. ^_^
I only wrote on myself when I was bored. Or couldn't find any paper.
To be honest, I don't know the plot either, J. But as there's no Pirates movie to look forward to this summer I was hoping Indy could fill that gap.
Maybe not.
I know that Shia LeBoeuf (sp?) kid is in it
If Bumblebee makes a cameo, I will eat my hat.
-A
Cool pics, K!
Mercury retrograde causes mixed up communication and such.
*On Lynz's neck "PICK UP GROCERY"*
*Gerard brings home Grouse*
-A
Thanks so much, RW! ^_^
Shia LeBoeuf shouldn't have been in 'transformers. Or the hot girl either. I could have done with out the making out on top of a living car
Somebody else tell K that her pics are really awesome.
*On Lynz's neck "PICK UP GROCERY"*
*Gerard brings home Grouse*
HAHAHA!
Bumblebee will make a cameo as a hat. Watch.
Actually, maybe when LynZ had "Donna" written on her arm recently it was just short-hand for "Honey, it's Mother's Day tomorrow, don't forget to call your mom."
Martha, you've made me laugh for one of the first times today! Bless your heart.
I had never heard of this kid until sometime last summer, I think. He was in some other movie then. Heard his name on TV and said, "Who the Hell is THAT?" What nationality is he? Is he French?
J
Beautiful moon shot, K!
Today was very bizarre. I felt like I was walking around in a dream. Now that I know there was a full moon, it makes sense.
Hi, Star :D
I like Shia. I think he is an alright actor.
I like him better when he's trashing Walgreen's. He's such a bad ass, not.
Oh Great.
I'll have to find a hat with Bumblebee on it.
-A
Well, I guess it's time to hit the sack. Must play with sharp things in the morning.
Have a good night :)
Who needs Hallmark. I am now going to sharpie my sentiments on various exposed body-parts. I will save a fortune and people will think I'm cool.
Hello, RW, carrie, MJ, entropy, J, anybody I missed.
Carrie: trashing Walgreens?
Entropy, really, I don't know enough about him to make a call. I don't even know why I'm still talking about him! :D Poor guy, his ears must be burning...
J
Goodnight RW!
He was just loitering!
Night, RW.
Goodnight RW, don't run with those scissors! (Or maybe you should, just to cause a stir.) BE CAREFUL!
Anon, you're probably already cool so it's ok.
J
J, I'm pretty sure they thought he was gonna be a girl, and had the name Shianne picked out.
"And here's your new baby Mrs Le Bouf! What's the name?"
"We've decided to call her-"
"Oh! I apologize! You have a healthy son, Mrs Le Bouf."
"Shia. I guess we'll use Shia."
-A
Hey Star, you're somewhat of a missing person around here...how's it going?
J
I thought there was this whole Shia moment and a Walgreen's. He was somewhat intoxicated and got a bit beliggerent. (and I think I spelled that wrong, but too lazy to look it up)
Thank you J. I am cool.
Anonymous said...
Who needs Hallmark. I am now going to sharpie my sentiments on various exposed body-parts. I will save a fortune and people will think I'm cool.
I tried that with my Bus Pass.
Don't let them punch it!!
-A
No, yeah, I know, I was just saying. Throwing my opinion out there, too!
Of course you are, Anon. You're hanging out with us.
Hmmm...belligerant Shia at a Walgreens, Carrie? Would they not fill his prescription? Or maybe not let him process his film?
Good theory, Amy, better than what probably really happened!
J
Hey Cupcake! Jump on in, honey.
Yeah, E, I can dig it. Isn't it scary that people "like us" have opinions? heeheehee
J
Entropy I couldn't tell if he was a good actor. He was to busy making out on a living car. I am sorry but the person who thought that should be in the movie needs their head examined.
Hello star
It's going good, J.
It's the usual end of the year craziness in school. I took a class and that just ended, so I'm looking forward to chilling out this weekend.
I've been around, but it's been pretty quiet around here.
Cuppie!! Hai!
Creepy!
Hello J, good to see you.
Anon I think I should go buy stock in sharpies. And you know what we should be getting kick backs from sharpies.
Well, I'm sure it's not his fault that people only centerd on him making out on a car instead of like, the movie in its whole.
Hello cupcake how are you?
anon it would be but he doesn't live there anymore.
Anon, that shit isn't cool. What the hell is wrong with people?
..
To be honest, I thought his house would look creepier than that.
Not that I've been picturing it or anything.
*whistles innocently*
CUPPY! HAII!!!
-A
Hey, Cup!
Ha, anon, fangirls are funny!
Micheal Bay needs his head examined. I don't know why he thought it would be cool to make Megatron look like a giant metal icicle.
-A
Hi Carrie :)
Well it is the last thing you see in the movie. It leaves an impression. That and the fact that the car was trying to whore out the girl.
Yeah, it IS creepy to post pics of folks' houses on the WWW. The pic, to me, looked like either a whole bunch of Matchbox cars sitting together, or a model of a neighborhood. Not too real, y'know?
J
Hello MJ, Amy, Entropy.
I'm ok, the past few days have been crazy though, and not in a good way.
How are you guys?
Martha said:
That and the fact that the car was trying to whore out the girl.
Gives a whole new meaning to the phrase "Pimp my ride!"
J
I don't find it creep but that might be because I looked up my own house on the internet and found it.
CC i am well.
How are things going with your partner, Cupcake?
J
LOL J tell L I said hi
Crazily, J.
The only reason I agreed to giving us another chance was because we had both apparently grown as people. I'm no longer sure that's the case.
I'm having a slight family emergency at the moment, and they're worried because I'm not paying enough attention to them!
Gah!
Sorry... had to have a little vent.
Cc that is what we are here for. Now come on and vent.
Martha, it only says that if you're looking for something. I totally respect your opinions, I do, but sometimes I think if you had a little more life experience, you wouldn't be so, I don't know, adamant? And I apologize in advance, cuz I know I just pissed you off.
Why is posing with firearms the new "in thing"?
-A
Martha, I surely shall tell her. She needs some happy thoughts right now, too. :)
CC, sorry to hear that! It's hard to be selfless sometimes, especially when the relationship is a long-distance one, or new, or kind of lop-sided in terms of ability to communicate. Just keep trying, give them some space, tell them what's going on, and ask for patience. If they love you, they'll understand.
J
no idea amy
Cuppie, this is so none my bidness, but girl or guy? I only ask because I am still trying to navigate the waters of my own daughter's sexuality.
Thanks MJ, J. :)
It's fine Carrie. This one's a girl, I'm bisexual.
cc you are welcome
Amy, because everyone knows posing with a firearm is so unbelievably manly and studly.
And it beats posing with big fluffy bunnies.
J
That's cool, just wondering. So far, I think girls are worse than guys!!! Judging as a mom from the outside, mind you.
No worries, CC. We love you, that's why we want to help. *hugs and kisses*
J
J what if they are attack bunnies. They would have fangs and blood on their mouths
And it beats posing with big fluffy bunnies.
Big fluffy bunnies aren't going to blow your brains across the ceiling if you hit the trigger with no safety.
-A
Carrie, so far..... you're absolutely right. I have to say I find guys much easier than girls.
*whispers*
Psst...Amy...I was being sarcastic. Sorry it didn't translate.
And Martha's right, what if they're attack bunnies? Like in Monty Python and the Holy Grail?
Nah, firearms totally ARE NOT COOL. But fluffy bunnies are.
J
So how's everyone?
Kinda crappy, Elena! And yourself? :D
J
Hello elena how are you
Why Crappy J?
Hey Martha....
Cup, I hope everything ends up okay.
Just cause. No biggie. Tic-Tac vs Prozac kind of thing. You know what I'm talking about?
J
J, LOL. I know.
I've learned way too much about firearm safety though, it just kind of irks me.
-A
*Sigh*
J, how about cake versus cake?
You can only pick one!
-A
Blogger Already Gone said...
*Sigh*
?
-A
Okay then....
I feel kinda confused. Did I miss something important?
already gone - I hear that sigh and raise you a shrug.
I have the Prozac in my medicine cabinet but I'm askairt to take it. And have any of you seen The Orphanage, or Pan's Labyrinth? The director is phenomenal, I would get a t-shit with his name on it if they sold them.
Hello already gone how are you?
elena i am well
Elena said...
Okay then....
I feel kinda confused. Did I miss something important?
You can join me in the Dark Corner, cause I must've missed it too.
-A
Amy, I think I'll take...cake. WAIT! Is it too late to change my mind? Can I have cake instead?
Elena, sometimes even the Prozac doesn't do its job. It's just part of it.
Carrie, it's not bad at all. I've been on it for 14 years now. My depression manifests in anger and self-pity (I guess it can do that). Prozac makes me mellow. My short-term memory is horrible, but
What was I talkiing about?
(joke--hahaha)
J
J, if you don't decide between Cake and Cake, we'll be here all night!
I should have bought some cake on the way home.
-A
hello everyone!
I'm home from town and have a bit of time before titoring
Okay Amy the dark corner sounds kinda good.
But Amy, I like cake AND cake! Ok, I know what'll help me decide. Whad kinds of cake are the cake and cake?
J
Hi Elena! .... and everyone else I've missed.
:)
hee! Maybe I should try it then, I don't know, I just hate having to take a pill, ya know, I just think there should be some other thing that makes me be all happy and stuff. And it's not even like I'm miserable all the time, there are things that DO make me happy, but it's kinda isolated instances. I don't know, I don't like feeling this way, like there's something kinda whacky going on, ya know?
Hi Ergo!
Hello AG, I can't remember if we've met? You were here a while back, weren't you?
J
titoring, Ergo?
Really?
I love Pan's Labyrinth. It was so good. I heard that the devil's back bone and Cronos are good
Hello Carrie and Cupcake.
How are you guys?
J, they are Cake, and Double Cakey Cake.
Did that help?
Elena, Welcome to the Dark Corner. We have Cake.
-A
Hey, Ergo!
Carrie, it gives me the ability to look at things rationally instead of flying off the handle like I used to do. I'm not "happy" all the time, but I'm rational, calm, able to look at both sides of things, willing to give the benefit of the doubt. I DO NOT like myself without it. I used to be a real horror, at least I thought I was. Nowadays my anger is reserved for situations that really call for it, instead of every waking moment!
J
Ok, Amy, I'll have the Double Cakey Cake. As long as it's chocolate.
J
ok caught up, Carrie sometimes stuff happens that alters your brain chemistry and there is nothing wrong about taking a medication that makes it right again, I had to for PND then developed insomnia. I just think it's the same as having a problem whith any other part of your body, noone would worry if it was for low iron or a vitamin or a chronic condition of any other body part
I think we watch to much Eddie Izzard. Cake or death anyone
*wiggles her eyebrows*
You'll have to tell me J! I've never had Double Cakey Cake before.
-A
hi eklena J amy carrie MJ entropy cupcake already gone
AG you haven't been about for ages, how are you?
What kind of cake Amy and it there milk?
No, I hate milk so I don't care about that. Now the cake, that sounds prety good.
Thank you for the insight, J. I know the red rage of which you speak, so yeah, maybe time to embrace the pharmaceuticals? I don't know, it's a really hard decision for me.
oops a k attacked my typing!
elena
Elena, pick your cake!
You can have Cake, or Double Cakey Cake.
You might want milk with the Cakey Cake.
-A
Already Gone, you haven't been on here in a while. What's up? What's with the sighing, or nothing you want to say?
But I think you left already, so.
Ergo, you are the cool. You have such a way about you.
carrie if you had a broken leg would you be humming and haaing?
to me it's the same thing
I was really hesitant about it at first too, Carrie. But I went through some other drugs first and they did nothing but put me to sleep. Prozac is like manna from Heaven for me. I don't care what people say about "harmful side effects"--what's worse, memory loss or smacking someone b/c they cut in front of you in line? :D
It takes a little while to get into your system, but after that it's all good. What mg is it? You should consider it.
Double Cakey Cake, Amy, can be any flavor you like, I think. So I'll go for chocolate.
"Cake or death?" Classic, Martha! Eddie Izzard is the King.
J
thanks carrie :)
I just think there are so many stigmas attached to things that don't deserve them
J I was trying to come up with something to say to carrie. you took the words right out of my mouth.
Happy Anniversary, Carrie!!
Go you and your hot husband!
I'm sorry, Martha, would you like them back?
J
So, who remembers Blink 182?
-A
I do, Amy, did you like them?
J
and do make sure you get something that works for you.
I take amitriptyline and it was wonderful,and a very low dose controls my insomnia, there are a great many options apart from prozac so be sure to speak up if you feel it isn't suitable for you
I've been better Elena, I do hope you're well.
I'm going to have to go, duty calls.
I hope I can be back on here and up to my old tricks soon.
Take care everyone.
xoxo cupcake
Tom and the gang rocked, Amy.
Sorry ep that was your comment.
The people who look down on it either abused it or think running a mile and taking vitamin e will help. Also remember the biggest ass who doesn't like the treatment changes wives every ten years and likes to jump on furniture.
My Internet is sooo slowwwwwww
tonight. It's as slow as molasses
in January.
I want red velvet cake!
See ya later, Cup!
Blogger ergoproxy said...
and do make sure you get something that works for you.
I take amitriptyline and it was wonderful,and a very low dose controls my insomnia, there are a great many options apart from prozac so be sure to speak up if you feel it isn't suitable for you
May 20, 2008 12:39 AM
Ep amitriptyline is what my Dr put me on for my headaches.
*would like some cake, with a side order of cake, please*
Take care Cupcake
I'm gonna throw the computer out the window in a minute. I can't even get my mail.
This bites!
I didn't mind Blink 182
Goodnight Cupcake, hope you and your friend can straighten some things out. Let us know if we can help, ok? *hugs and kisses* Love you, honey!
J
That is alright j you can have them. Amy I remember blink 182.
MJ my hubby too! for headaches, it does a lot of different things
I just think there are so many stigmas attached to things that don't deserve them
so true
Elena, maybe Jake's been on the 'net today. Like, right after he was in your water garden. I'll bet that's what happened. I did see Dumplin looking through the email earlier; wonder, did he get a message from Jake?
Red velvet cake is also yummy-nummy.
Well, I've never met a cake I didn't like.
J
Cake?
I could have sworn I heard cake.
Goodnight CC and house was good tonight.
"Short Skirt / Long Jacket"
I want a girl with a mind like a diamond
I want a girl who knows what's best
I want a girl with shoes that cut
And eyes that burn like cigarettes
I want a girl with the right allocations
Who's fast and thorough
And sharp as a tack
She's playing with her jewelry
She's putting up her hair
She's touring the facility
And picking up slack
I want a girl with a short skirt and a lonnnng jacket......
I want a girl who gets up early
I want a girl who stays up late
I want a girl with uninterrupted prosperity
Who used a machette to cut through red tape
With fingernails that shine like justice
And a voice that is dark like tinted glass
She is fast and thorough
And sharp as a tack
She's touring the facility
And picking up slack
I want a girl with a short skirt and a lonnnnng.... lonnng jacket
I want a girl with a smooth liquidation
I want a girl with good dividends
And at the city bank we will meet accidentally
We'll start to talk when she borrows my pen
She wants a car with a cupholder arm rest
She wants a car that will get her there
She's changing her name from Kitty to Karen
She's trading her MG for a white Chrysler La Baron
I want a girl with a short skirt and a lonnnnggggggggg jacket
for RW
bye cupcake take care and be good :)
Hi RW again, you DID hear cake! Amy has it. There's Cake and Double Cakey Cake. Whatever flavor you want. It's magical BlogBelieve Cake.
Anon, you want some Cake?
Carrie, for sure, get what works for you. If it's Prozac, great, but if it's something else, make sure your dr prescribes that. Paxil, for me, was disastrous. I would fall asleep walking down the halls at work. :P
J
hi RW!
yes now...about this cake.....
(what's red velvet cake? It sounds furry)
Anon--Cake! I love it. Very clever, that.
J
Sure, but I like the coconut rum variety :)
Blink was one of the best bands, I'm kinda pissed I never got to see them live actually...
*passes by RW's chair with a Triple order of Cake*
Elena, Mercury is almost in retrograde. That MAY be it.
-A
Mmm, coconut rum sounds good. Too bad I can't eat coconut.
I'll stick with chocolate, myself. ;)
J
ha, anon, I have coconut run cake in my kitchen right now. :) Thanks you guys, for the understanding and the advice. I'm still not sure what's best for me, but at least I know I'm not alone, and that is quite comforting! I must bid you all good night now, have fun!
My personal favorite is Pecan Pumpkin Butter Cheesecake.
I'm trying to clog all my arteries at once.
-A
coconut rum sounds nice, oooh you got any of those rum babas? I love them
Duh, I meant rum, obviously. dang typos!
I have shiny fingernails!
Thanks, anon :)
goodnight carrie sweet dreams
and Black Forest Cake mmmmmmmmmmm
I'm not big on a lot of cake though, I like those vanilla baked cheescakes, I have never had a pumpkin cheescake though
I so need to get that cake Cd. I have the one with the song Daria on it.
Hello anon
Goodnight Carrie, sleep well! And know that you're in good company, we're all dysfunctional and crazy. ;)
J
You can't eat coconut? Man, I'd not be okay with life if I couldn't.
MJ, I have that song, if you want me to send it to you.
-A
Hi J & EP :D
I thought so! I can hear cake a mile away!
Blogger Entropy said...
You can't eat coconut? Man, I'd not be okay with life if I couldn't.
I hate coconut. Come by and have ALLLLL of mine.
Yuck.
-A
Goodnight CArrie. hello again RW
Hi MJ!
I also love dark chocolate cake soaked in bourbon.
*passes by RW's chair with a Triple order of Cake*
*drools*
You know, the really sad thing is that there's a piece of cake waiting for me at work but I can't eat it. It's too sweet :/
Entropy, I have yet another freaking medical condition that prevents me from eating nuts, fibrous things (like coconut), seeds, kernels (there goes popcorn), cabbage, stuff like that. It sucks, but there ya go. Coconut is one of my very favorite foods, too. :P
J
Hi, MJ :D
So, what's everybody's fave cake? Mine is strawberry shortcake.
does Cake have the album with a pig on the cover?
anon are you sure the cakes not just an excuse for the alcohol? lol
That's why I love trifle :)
thank you Amy but i can get it off the net. I need to learn how to do it . I spent a big part of today screaming at my computer and my ipod because some songs did show up that I download. And i would most likely still have the problem if you sent it to me. That is how bad I am at these things.
Ha! Funny Ergo...you know...could be ^_~
But I prefer wine.
One of them, Ergo. I love Cake.
And cake. My favorite? Wow, hard to say. Chocolate, probably; German chocolate, but again, no coconut. My mom used to make a white cake with coconut in the cake and the frosting both. Oh Heaven.
Let's put it this way: it'd be easier to name my least favorite cake. I think that would be strawberry.
J
That's funny, J, because my least fave is German chocolate!
Or Black Forest cake. I'm not fond of that either.
elena I sent you an email
Amy, you cezy, but thanks for all the coconut!
Aw, J, that really sucks, I'm sorry :(
It has to have chocolate in it for me. I love German chocolate cake.
Do any of you know what the name of the cake you flame is called?
One of my friends thought she would be culinary and make one, nearly flamed herself as well!
ooh anon I'm with you there
how about a nice warmed rich chocolate mudcake with rasberry coulis and a lovely glass of sweet but crisp wine
Aw, thanks Entropy. I appreciate it.
Anon, I think that's Baked Alaska...?
RW, you don't like German Chocolate cake? Good grief woman! Well, that's ok. We can give martha our share.
Anybody ever had apple stack cake?
J
Sorry no I don't anon
I don't know the name of that cake anon, but I'm a bit of a pyro so it sounds great to me!
Ergo do you mean a chianti?
Flaming desserts: cherries jubilee, banana foster, Christmas/plum pudding
I'm not actually a big chocolate fan, J. I prefer custardy, fruity desserts.
*is getting hungry thinking about it*
I think I'm going to have to bake sometime this week.
Well she also has one of those mini blow torches you burn sugar with.
They're cute, they have a small flame and the sugar gets all wet and sticky, before it forms a crust.
anon you can do it to a few types of cake, but usually very heavy cakes like christmas pudding, or alcohol flavoured cakes, they have to be pretty dense and moist
but big lols at your friend
A chianti is a wine, actually.
Are you thinking of a Crepes Suzette?
There's also Flambe, but I think that is the noun for flaming cake.
-A
Sounds like creme brulee, anon.
I thought it was Baked Alaska. Course I don't know that much about cooking.
RW, do you like cobblers?
J
I need to make Lavender cookies this day off.
Odd menu. Lavender Cookies for dessert, with Mango Chicken and Naan for supper!
-A
My favorite might be Tres Leches. Which is three milk cake.
I don't know, I'm not a big cake eater.
I should head to bed, talk to you guys tomorrow.
Have a good night eveyone!
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