Upon arrival, there isn’t nearly enough air to fill my lungs, so in desperation, I scream. Pulling in all that I can because suddenly I feel empty. The comfortable heavy warmth in my chest has been displaced by vacuum. I have no control over where I am. My arms and legs, unbound, find freedom a challenge. And, although I feel hands pulling and fingers pressing, I have no idea why. It is cold. So, I reach for warmth and I find it in purity. I know where I came from; I did not want to leave and with grief comes depth and in the deep I find surrender. It was warm and I swam in it before I knew you. I would go back, but that was before I saw your eyes, before I was pulled into this world and onto your lap a sloppy mess. I need you and without you I am sure I would not thrive.
p.s. i can only imagine.
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even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
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something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
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“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
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Thank CHOO!!
Goodnight safe.
Anon @7:09, I really hope you get to meet Frank then. He just wanders around by himself without any security and he would be more than happy to stop and say hi to you.
"At this point in time I cannot people that he wouldn't know that fans would go crazy when they saw him."
They usually don't; look it up on Youtube. "Meeting Gerard Way," etc. Fans that act like that when the band is offstage are definitely the minority; they're BECOMING more common, that's all.
May 12, 2008 7:12 PM, that'd be great, but I'd like to thank the whole band, particularly Gerard (watch the shoes get thrown at my head now!). I could tell him to say thanks for me, though. ;P
Because, even if everybody's right in their accusations...he really did indirectly help me. *shrugs*
This is how I feel about it. If you are famous expect people to be waiting for you. And if you don't want to deal with them you can have your security and /or the security at the place you are at get rid of them.
Or take the back door.
Night Safe
I just have to say I still get the feeling that Gerard is sometimes overwhelmed by the attention he gets.
I agree with you RW, those girls were too young to read the situation properly. Anyone can see that it really wasn't a good idea to keep hounding him. Just because he is on the public eye does not mean he is public property.
Any band that is liked by teenages should expect that. The Beatles had to deal with it so it is nothing new.
But, MJ, he doesn't want to avoid the good fans.
He's in a horrible situation, really.
But Martha it's one thing to expect people to be waiting for you and quite another to expect young girls to chase after you.
Like I've said, I don't think you can ever be prepared for that kind of attention.
It's beyond crazy.
do you still think bert mccracken had the gerard's number all along?
mustardisbetter said...
Title wins, hands down.
It's a shame I, personally, didn't listen to Bert McCracken sooner than I did.
Hindsight.
And again, I need not say anything. You said it all perfectly.
I'm just tired. I want him to see.
Glad to have you back, Verita. It's been awhile. :)
February 23, 2008 1:11 PM
Kapunua said...
Well done, and very sad.
I agree with Splash (Mustard) up there. Bert had this guy's number all along.
February 23, 2008 1:14 PM
No he isn't public property but he is in the public eye now. I think he gets overwhelmed but I think he was in a bad mood at that time.
Fans are fans and age doesn't make a difference. I have seen older woman act like that.
What it comes down to is that those girls didn't think they would every met him again.
"But Martha it's one thing to expect people to be waiting for you and quite another to expect young girls to chase after you."
Right.
Remember, Gerard is still pretty self-conscious, thinks he's uncool, and apparently thinks he's ugly. I doubt he's used to this attention. Sure, maybe he should've been by now, but I get the feeling he isn't.
Possibly immature of him, but understand it's Gerard we're talking about. Gerard who locked himself in his mother's basement and barely had any friends and has some serious self-esteem problems.
Curious to Know, how do you know that? Have you spent a considerable amount of time with Gerard, or are you going by what you can see?
So Elena are you going to tell me they have never seen the footage of the Beatles getting chased. Hell what about Duran duran, NKOTB or Nynsc. They have all had that problem but with more people.
but I'd like to thank the whole band, particularly Gerard (watch the shoes get thrown at my head now!).
I wanted the very same thing, and got the opportunity to do that last summer during PR. I handed him a letter I had written for him, as I had a lot to say & knew that there wouldn't be enough time for me to say it all face-to-face.
I still mean every word I wrote, and my criticisms of Gerard lately are mainly due to the shock I feel over what I see as him settling. He's fought so hard for so long & I'd hate to see him give up on himself now.
Of course, that's just my observations. I don't know the guy, so I could be reading it totally wrong. Still, his recent associations with a band like MSI do make one wonder if his stance on equality, respect and basic human rights might be taking a back seat these days to fear (of living alone) and regret (of previous actions and "failed" relationships).
Gerard is completely different with the fans now. especially this past year.
he would always take pictures with the fans. now it's always no pics just autographs. he will barely put his arm around a fan when he's taken a pic with them.
he just seems a lot colder to the fans once the show is over.
May 12, 2008 7:24 PM Anon, maybe he's depressed and maybe he's getting scared of his fans. I'd be a bit scared, too, if I got chased like that. He was nicer when he wasn't as well-known.
The Beatles had to deal with it so it is nothing new.
The big mistake the Beatles made was in running away from their pursuing fans. They can't chase you if you don't run. Frank's got the right idea, deal with the situation head-on to the best of your ability. People respect that.
I think the problem lies in people's expectations. Like the way people expect the band to come out after a show. You've paid to see a show, they aren't obliged to do meet and greets afterwards. However, so many fans have come to expect this as the norm and get really pissed off of the band don't come out. People think it's ok to behave the way those fans did at the airport when, in my opinion, it isn't. Famous or not, the band are 'off duty' and if the fans respected that then there would be no need for them to jump through hoops and make alternative arrangements etc. The band really do want to be treated like regular guys. It's the fans with no respect for boundaries that will result in the band feeling as if they have no alternative but to duck out of back doors etc. and avoid all fans completely. I applaud them for remaining as grounded and accessible as they have for as long as they have. time.
They are not my comments
They are from mustardisbetter and kapunua at veritavenoms blog
I want to know if they still feel the hate and agree with veritavenom
It was also a lot easier when it was 20 or 30 fans or not 200 or even 2000. Sometimes, it's easier to not try than to risk disappointing everyone.
I don't envy those guys at all. Not that part of it.
Anon I don't think it is because he is scared of the fans. A lot of people are nicer when they first start out. But than they become famous and they aren't as nice.
There is actually a list on the internet somewhere that list people who are nice to their fans and the ones who aren't.
Fans are fans no matter what age is true. Still being rude to someone is wrong no matter what age. I understand the young girls were excited but if they don't realize now how to treat people they aren't gonna ever learn that lesson.
No one should be hounded. Being respectful of people is important.
For kicks, I'm going out as Gerard. I know how to get the effect across, and it's convincing. I want to see what happens. It'll be easier now that they're going on break.
And I'm gonna have the whole thing filmed.
Just want to see what happens.
Maybe I'll stick it on Youtube after.
I really don't have a life...
martha jones said...
What it comes down to is that those girls didn't think they would every met him again.
I'm sorry, Martha, but that doesn't excuse their behaviour.
"Anon I don't think it is because he is scared of the fans. A lot of people are nicer when they first start out. But than they become famous and they aren't as nice.
There is actually a list on the internet somewhere that list people who are nice to their fans and the ones who aren't."
You have to look at the reasons why. He's extremely stressed, and has proven time and time again to lack the ability to deal well with that amount of stress.
If they come back from their break (honestly, part of me hopes they don't, for their sakes), it could be different.
Anonymous said...
For kicks, I'm going out as Gerard. I know how to get the effect across, and it's convincing. I want to see what happens. It'll be easier now that they're going on break.
And I'm gonna have the whole thing filmed.
Just want to see what happens.
Maybe I'll stick it on Youtube after.
I really don't have a life...
Let us know how it turns out.
Want me to be your Worm?
I fear for your life, anon @ 7:30pm.
Well said, Elena!
Well, as fascinating as all this is, I can't keep my eyes open so I am off to bed.
Thank you everyone for the entertainment. Have fun.
Goodnight everyone.
luv ya.
sdock10 said...
Want me to be your Worm?
Oh Solly! You crack me up!
Star,
Just because of you, I am cooking Chef Boyardee Ravioli in a can!! I know it will pale in comparison, but oh well, oh well, oh well...a little hot sauce and some extra cheese and it's all good.
Night Night MissT! Sweet dreams!
Night, Miss T! :)
Goodnight, Miss T!
"I fear for your life, anon @ 7:30pm.
May 12, 2008 7:32 PM"
Why, thank you. I fear for it, too.
Oh, boy, do I.
MissT,
I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUU!
Mwah! Mwah!
LL than there should also be no excuses for him not just stopping to take the picture.
You can say all you want that the girls shouldn't have acted that way but than another person could come in s say the same about him.
I am in no way saying that those girls were in the right. But that situation could have been handle a whole lot better.
Anonymous said...
Why, thank you. I fear for it, too.
Oh, boy, do I.
So, you need a Worm then, yes?
I could totally do it!
Solly, my mom bought some Chef Boyardee ravioli for me in anticipation of my visit. I used to love it when I was a kid. I think it broke her heart a little when I told her that I can't stomach that stuff anymore.
S&V, if you're around, I gotchoo a grey newsboy cap.
Sweet! That is gonna be so badass, RW! You have no idea.
YAY!
Hi everyone!!!
*goes off to find Fresh Prince Frank*
Maybe he didn't want to reward their terrible behavior. :/
Or maybe he did mess up and it was just that: a mess up.
Lucy I loved what you said. I totally agree. Sometimes fans forget these are just five regular guys who can't be expected to be "ON" all the time.
Fresh Prince Frank is like a tongue twister.
Just sayin...
Try and say it 5 times really fast!
Solly,
Hot sauce makes everything better!
Why, thank you. I fear for it, too.
Oh, boy, do I.
I'm not surprised! Waving a Gerard Way look-alike in front of a horde of teenage girls is like waving a red flag in front of a bull.
"So, you need a Worm then, yes?
I could totally do it!"
Hah! Sure, new Worm.
I can't wait. It's gonna be fun.
I just need the right clothes, and the right boots to make myself that one inch taller...my facial features aren't a problem; they're very similar, and I can make it perfect with the right make-up. I'll wear sunglasses. That'll help.
Ahh, this is going to make a heck of a video. Now, if I could find black hair dye, and get the hairdresser to cut my hair just right...
Yahhhh, ignore me. I'm blabbering.
Star,
For sure, especially Trappeys! Yum yum, yum!
Fresh finch Frank...
No, wait - French fish Frank...
Fresh frish Frunk...
Bugger it.
Elena I live in the real world where people are asshole and have no common sense. People don't think about others before themselves. So I come to expect that of fans. Even more when there is more than two of them.
Hi, S&V! :D
"I'm not surprised! Waving a Gerard Way look-alike in front of a horde of teenage girls is like waving a red flag in front of a bull."
Exactly, which is why this is going to make a fantastic video!
I can't wait to see what happens when they find out it's "OMG NOT HIM."
They'll probably stone me.
With rocks.
this is how MSI treats their young fans when they bring them onstage.
http://www.youtube.com/
watch?v=fONZ48rqPR4
Ahh, this is going to make a heck of a video. Now, if I could find black hair dye, and get the hairdresser to cut my hair just right...
I hear there's one up for grabs at Myspace. I think her name's Emma.
YAY! I get to be the new Worm! Sweeeeeeeeet!
Back up!
Give the guy some room!
No, you can't touch him! No pictures, no autographs!
Are you kidding me? Of course there is no hugging!!!
I'm afraid to look, anon @ 7:40pm.
But it wouldn't have been just one picture Martha, he would have had to stop for everyone.
I do agree, it probably could have been handled better. Hindsight is a wonderful thing.
I still feel if the girls hadn't been shoving cameras in his face and had been calmer they might have got further with him. I was cringing and felt all anxious and wanted the screaming to stop when I was watching it and I wasn't even sleep deprived, hungry, thirsty or desperate for a wee or a cigarette!
Try it like this, RW.
FWESH
PWINZ
FWANK
Is someone trying to steal my hairdresser?
Heehee!
That's cute, Solly! You sound like a 2 year old!
Yeah, Martha, you're a pretty good representative of the no common sense contingent.
She tried to text you about it Paul, but you changed your number.
At the moment, I'm afraid of anybody named "Emma"... o__O
Ahahaha. They'll probably post it on Youtube and VV will get more "evidence" of Gerard Way being cruel to his fans--"LOOK, NOW HE'S LAUGHING AT THEM!!!"
I'm not sure what you're getting at, Anonymous, but I do applaud Verita Venom for voicing her opinion just as we all are.
My comments since the beginning have been about the band and the music, and I make it a point to not get involved in discussions on the band member's personal decisions, because it is none of my business. If you expect me to defend my comment, I will.
Regarding Verita Venom's opinion on the airport comment, I've never expressed my own opinion on the blogs until today. And if you failed to see my comment on the previous page, I admit that I've been on either side of the fence regarding this situation. I don't deny that.
The comment about the "giant bags of cocaine" does worry me, I agree with Verita Venom on that.
The remainder of her post is about the two bands, Jimmy Urine, and I know my stance on each of them.
Regarding the title, hell yeah, it wins. It was a stab at Gerard, and I do think we could have been fooled into this "message." That's what I've interpreted the line "Three cheers, you fooled them all" to mean. I don't know what Bert McCracken was thinking when he wrote that line, but I can venture to guess it was something to do with Gerard, and I took it to mean the "message."
I hope that clears it up for you. :)
Anonymous Anonymous said...
Yeah, Martha, you're a pretty good representative of the no common sense contingent.
May 12, 2008 7:42 PM
Why thank you anon. I love you to. Maybe we should get together and have stupid babies with no common sense.
If you want to come at me anon you are going to have to do better than that.
"The comment about the "giant bags of cocaine" does worry me, I agree with Verita Venom on that."
It certainly worries me, too.
But I don't think VV is honestly concerned about Gerard.
I think it means he fooled everyone into believing he is straight
Ll people do stupid things when they getting into groups of five or more people. And if it is teenages girls it is best to avoid them.
"I think it means he fooled everyone into believing he is straight"
You have no proof that he fooled ANYBODY into thinking he's straight. Why? Because you have no proof he isn't except what you've read here and there about people seeing him with bloodshot eyes, etc.
I firmly believe he's straight. I do.
There is no need to be catty Anon. People here have different opinions sometimes and it is good that we can debate and hear other people's points of view in a civilised manner. We don't always agree with each other, but we sure as hell try our best to respect each other. That's how we roll.
Anonymous, I don't know Verita Venom's motives. She has her blog just like a lot of the rest of us, and she's entitled to her opinion just like we are.
I don't know if she's concerned for Gerard or if she couldn't care less. That's her decision to make and hers alone.
Me on the other hand, I will continue to worry for Gerard and each member of that band. I am worried for his well-being, and I probably always will be.
I get catty when people make accusations based on jokes, yes.
I suppose everyone who's made a "dead baby" joke has killed dead babies...?
That's a sore spot for me. It is.
I meant no harm, and I apologize if I came across rude.
"I suppose everyone who's made a "dead baby" joke has killed dead babies...?"
Woops. Of course you can't kill dead babies. My bad. Hahaa.
Thanks for clearing that up, Mustard.
I'm also sorry Anon if I misunderstood your remark and your intent was not meant the way I interpreted it. I don't exactly understand what you meant by your comment but thank you for apologising, not many anons do that! It might even be a first!
Kapunua said...
Who are you at Mayo's, Reason? I like to think of Verita's blog as a place where "reason" is welcome and never shouted down. Well, it's shouted down, but by teenies and "UR JELLUS" fans, and those you can just laugh at, you know?
February 24, 2008 1:52 PM
Kapunua said...
Man, I don't give a toss what Gerard does with his personal life. But he's the one dragging his nonsense on stage. If he's going to make his stage show degrading to women, fine, let him. But he shouldn't do it under the flag of "feminism" when what he's doing is the exact opposite.
Hey, rock stars are rock stars. They've been degrading women and talking down to us for years. Gerard used to seem different though. he admits himself that he just wants it to be an ordinary rock show now, and well, it is.
And believe me, I'd love to say it to his face. A bunch of people out there are trying to get this blog more public so that it might be known to him. This way at least he will know that thinking people are onto him.
February 25, 2008 6:04 PM
Martha Jones said...
Kapu i think you scared 6:03 away.
Damn. Let me get you're just jealous because he didn't pick you. Or why don't you get out of his personal life.
February 25, 2008 6:15 PM
mustardisbetter said...
Still kicking myself for not listening to Bert o'matic.
For shits and giggles, well, not really.
Because it was Bert's birthday, I was watching lots and lots of interviews with The Used and Bert today.
I watched this one that 97X did with Bert.
1:30
I should have listened.
February 25, 2008 6:19 PM
Kapunua said...
BERT, OH SNAP.
February 25, 2008 7:44 PM
mustardisbetter said...
Would it not have been hilarious if Bertie Boy did the finger snap with that?
I would laugh harder.
February 25, 2008 8:03 PM
kapunua said...
I love that man. ^_^
February 25, 2008 8:32 PM
KastonMartinDB9 said...
Wow VV, if you put half as much effort into something constructive as you do to this you could change the World.
Waiting for the answer to curious to knows question
It's fine, Lucy Lu. :) I was rude. You weren't wrong.
I had no idea that Frank could be any damn cooler than what he already is but eeeeeeeeeek!
That was freakin' hilarious. ^_^
Go Frank!
Go Frank!
Go Frank!
He's actually got a pretty decent rap voice. I iz impressed.
Now he just needs to bust out with some Eazy.
^_^
I know I am totally off topic here so overlook me.
(Not directed at a particular poster!)
About Gerard degrading women...the "fuck yourselves" thing only happened once, as far as I know. I don't think it's fair to jump on that and make big accusations with it.
I don't like that he did that. I don't like it at all. But he hasn't done it every show, and I'm sure he knows he screwed up. Screwing up is something people do.
I don't think he has the best judgment, either. He doesn't strike me as the /most/ mature person on the block.
*hugs anon*
Aww. This Anon likes Lucy Lu. :D
Anon one time is all it takes. And given the fact that the fans hang on is every word, I think he should be called out when he says something like that. Most of the girls think it was okay and there was nothing wrong with it.
"I think it means he fooled everyone into believing he is straight"
That's an interesting take on it. I hadn't thought of it that way before.
You have no proof that he fooled ANYBODY into thinking he's straight. Why? Because you have no proof he isn't except what you've read here and there about people seeing him with bloodshot eyes, etc.
I firmly believe he's straight. I do.
I don't. But that's his business, not mine.
"Anon one time is all it takes. And given the fact that the fans hang on is every word, I think he should be called out when he says something like that. Most of the girls think it was okay and there was nothing wrong with it."
Go find him and tell him; I would except for the fact that my brain would probably fizzle out if I met him.
I am, unfortunately, a fangirl at heart. :(
Smoke,
Did you wike fwesh pwinz fwank?
I just have one question about the Fresh Prince Frank Rap.
Did you die?
sdock10 said...
Smoke,
Did you wike fwesh pwinz fwank?
I did wike fwesh pwinz fwank. I wiked it awot. :)
Guys,
I'm heading out to the porch if anyone wants to come swing with me.
I don't want to met him. I think i would become even more disappointed than I already am.
""Anon one time is all it takes. And given the fact that the fans hang on is every word, I think he should be called out when he says something like that. Most of the girls think it was okay and there was nothing wrong with it."
Go find him and tell him; I would except for the fact that my brain would probably fizzle out if I met him.
I am, unfortunately, a fangirl at heart. :("
Ah, and...if I did meet him, I'd be too busy thanking him to call him out on something like that. .___.
Sounds bad, maybe, but it's true.
"I don't want to met him. I think i would become even more disappointed than I already am."
Then he might never hear it. :/
Unless you wrote a letter and gave it to him.
Did you guys see the news on the earthquake in China?
How unfortunate is that?
That is terrible, Mustard. I saw that this afternoon. What is the count at now, 9000?
I can't even wrap my brain around it.
I feel so bad for those people.
I wrote a letter and gave it to him. No idea if he actually read it.
"Did you guys see the news on the earthquake in China?
How unfortunate is that?"
That totally stunk.
"I wrote a letter and gave it to him. No idea if he actually read it."
About the "fuck yourselves" thing?
Earthquake in China?
My mind's still reeling from that cyclone in Burma!
Whoa, it's at 9000? D;
i just watched the "Fuck Yourselves" videos on youtube.
i don't agree with Gerard making the crowd do that, but he never said in any one of those videos "Just The Girls" like someone on this blog keeps saying he said.
The last count I heard was 10,000. Then all of those affected by the Myanmar surge. It's just sad, you know?
Eh, maybe I'll ask Mikey if I can talk to him (Gerard) through e-mail or something for a minute. I know how to contact Mikey, at least.
I'm willing to do it over the Internet, but I don't think I could be intelligent if I met him face-to-face.
No, not about the "fuck yourselves" thing. That hapened after I gave him the letter.
My letter was a thank you. I was just pointing out that just because you give him a letter does not guarantee he'll actually look at it. I'd like to think he would at least like to, but he probably doesn't have that much spare time.
10,000?!?!
Hallo Lovelies!
-A
He supposedly reads all his fanmail.
Maybe I'll have better luck now that he's gonna be on break.
Smoke,
I fink fwank wud be so happy that you is happy about fwesh pwinz fwank.
"i don't agree with Gerard making the crowd do that, but he never said in any one of those videos "Just The Girls" like someone on this blog keeps saying he said."
Oh, that's good to know. I saw the video a while ago and I don't remember it.
Yeah, 10,000 was what I heard, Anonymous. It was a 7.9 earthquake. It was really bad.
resurrected wreck said...
Earthquake in China?
My mind's still reeling from that cyclone in Burma!
I hate it when stuff like this happens. It seems so rare, it's almost like you're waiting for the other shoe to drop.
-A
Happy Birthday AMY!
Ugh...I need to go read up on this awful quake.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY!
You're like old and stuff.
See you, guys, thanks for the discussions. I have to go clean my ferret's stinky cage. ;P
I'll update when I have a video of "Fake Gerard Goes to the Mall."
Anon I think he knows but either he doesn't care or listen.
Anyway if yoou had a 1000 people telling you that you are great and 100 telling you you are not. Who are you going to listen toA
Happy YouTubing, anon!
With all the cyclones, tsunamis, tornadoes, earthquakes, droughts, etc....
I think our beautiful planet is trying to tell us something.
Happy Birthday, A!!!!!!!!! :D
Thank you Sdock!
And I saw a lot of the Birthday Wishes from earlier too guys, Thanks so much!
What's hoppin' and boppin around here tonight?
-A
I haven't seen the news. but that is sad.
So you're like totally older than me now, right?
smoke&venom20 said...
With all the cyclones, tsunamis, tornadoes, earthquakes, droughts, etc....
I think our beautiful planet is trying to tell us something.
Quoted for emphasis!!
Thank you Smoke and RW~!
-A
With all the cyclones, tsunamis, tornadoes, earthquakes, droughts, etc....
I think our beautiful planet is trying to tell us something.
I think it's trying to save itself. The human race is becoming more and more parasitical.
hello again and HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMYRANTH!
I'm still catching up on what's been said, brb
Hello and happy b-day amy.
Goodnight anon.
Blogger smoke&venom20 said...
With all the cyclones, tsunamis, tornadoes, earthquakes, droughts, etc....
I think our beautiful planet is trying to tell us something.
May 12, 2008 8:18 PM
Yes, it is. It is saying " GTFO of here you mother fucking freeloaders."
Hi EP! :)
Yes, it is. It is saying " GTFO of here you mother fucking freeloaders."
Lol!
Like a dog trying to scratch off the fleas, eh?
Hello Ep and goodnight miss t. sorry it's late
Smoke, I, like, totally don't know.
Like, how old ARE you?
-A
She's old, A! Like, 30!!
But I hear that's young for trees.
Smoke, I, like, totally don't know.
Like, how old ARE you?
*passes out because Amy doesn't know how hold I am*
Ummm, yeah, I'm dramatic right?
*ahem*
I'm 21. Remember SS's story? It was totally like about my 21st birthday.
Like totally.
Fo'real.
*not
Too late S&V, I totally squealed your age!
*passes out again cuz RW said 30*
2 *cough* 1 *cough*
sorry think I got something stuck in my throat then! ;)
isn't the situation in China awful, but at least aid can get in there, i just cannot believe the Burmese regime isn't allowing help into the country!
But it's okay, S&V, 'cause that's, like, totally young for trees.
yep smoke just let your leaves toss in the breeze, scratch your bark and have a nice quiet stand out in a field
Are they still not letting aid get into Burma?? The death toll is going to spike because of infections & lack of food and drinking water if something isn't done soon.
All I can think is that the Burmese government wants its people to die. Why else would they be doing that to them?
I haven't donated anything yet to aid Burma because I don't want it to just sit at the border and rot :/
I always donate something in situations like these, even if I'm strapped for cash and can only donate a little. But I haven't this time because, at the moment anyway, it seems futile.
RW that is the problem , the govt is even confiscating aid that does get in! There is a trickle getting to areas to help but I heard this morning the problem is there is no international law or policy about being able to get aid into a country.
The people of burma are in a horrendous situation and it feels like all the world can do is sit and watch. Their govt holds all the cards. I cannot understand why they are allowing their citizens to suffer and die
Hallo Ergo and MJ, thank you!
I think you're probably right RW.
There will probably continue to be a bunch of crazy storms that will keep killing people off.
The worst part is, I think it's all bound to happen in some of the poorest parts of the world, where they can't easily reach aid.
-A
I'm 21. Remember SS's story? It was totally like about my 21st birthday.
Duuuuude. You're like, such a baby.
I'm OLDER yo. 25 today. Botox, here I come!
-A
Hey, RW, if at some point they allow things to go in, where do we go to donate? Is there some sort of website or something?
The worst part is, I think it's all bound to happen in some of the poorest parts of the world, where they can't easily reach aid.
And that's really sad, because the parts of the world where the disaters happen the most are not the parts of the world that are the most parasitical. They're the parts of the world that have been traditionally exploited by the wealthier nations. That is so wrong on so many levels.
They are, however, some of the most densely populated parts of the world.
Hiya everyone!
Happy Birthday Amyranth!!!
I have a comment about the recent conversations...lemme see if I can gather my thoughts. Hope you guys don't mind...I don't want to prolong a conversation when unnecessary.
I usually donate through the Canadian Red Cross, Mustard. I imagine the American Red Cross would be accepting donations too.
Hi, Anima! :D
They don't want to look weak in the eyes of their people. If they can't help them than the people might over throw them. Anyway when all the people die they can blame the rest of the world for not giving aid. And because the people won't know any better they will get away with it.
Awesome, thanks, RW. I didn't know if there was a specific agency accepting donations specifically for them or not. I'll definitely look into it. Thank you. :)
RW according to our news just now a US plane has gone in and there are 2 heading from Europe and a ship nearing the waters so the regime has allowed aid in finally, no word on a website but I'm sure Red Cross and the other usual agencies would have info
*sticks tongue out at RW and Ergo*
It really is terrible that they won't let aid in. I can't even imagine what those people are going through.
Interesting point, MJ. I wonder of the people trapped & injured in Burma even know if aid is desperately trying to get through? Or do they think that the world has abandoned them?
ok US cargo plane with water treatment and supplies, 3 planes from Europe with medical aid and a French ship with 15000 tonnes of rice (I think it was 15000, or 1500 something, lots anyway)
Hallo Anima, thank you!
MJ is right. When this is all said and done, the government will just convince the country that the rest of the world didn't want to help, or something stupid like that.
-A
Hi anima!
There are probably other agencies that are accepting donations, Mustard. But the Red Cross usually gives you the option of either picking which charity you want to donate the money too (ie. the Burmese relief fund) or just donating it generally & they can distribute it where they think it is most needed.
Well, it's good they're managing to get some food, water, supplies, and medical treatment in. Although it won't be enough right now, I suppose some is better than none at all.
So does that mean that aid is getting through now, EP?
Imagine all the people who could have been spared the continued suffering if aid had been allowed to get in immediately, and how many more lives could have been saved?
There's nothing more inhuman than a government that is more concerned with sustaining itself than in helping its own people.
15000 tonnes of rice (I think it was 15000, or 1500 something, lots anyway)
Ooh, there's another angle. The world's rice supplies are running out, and rice is getting harder to find on store shelves.
That's definitely going to be hard on a lot of the countries that exclusively eat rice.
-A
Going to watch House now.
You know, that's what old people do. ^_~
I'll be back in a bit! If you're gone before I get back, I hope you've had a great birthday, Amy!
There's nothing more inhuman than a government that is more concerned with sustaining itself than in helping its own people.
I completely agree. It's really scary.
You can go here to donate to Burmese aid through the American Red Cross, Mustard.
Haha, S&V!
By the way, are you all squeaky clean? I didn't get to join you in the shower :( Solly distracted me.
That's definitely going to be hard on a lot of the countries that exclusively eat rice.
I heard the same thing about lentils, as Burma was a leading producer.
How do you run out of rice?
Are they having problems growing it or something. I heard about this already but they never said why
RW it does seem that there has been an agreement reached, I believe with the assistance of the Thai govt.So it looks like aid is getting through, shame it will now be under pressure with the China earthquake, but the chinese govt, by comparison has sent everyone they can to help and rescue.
Burma's problem is it's a military regime, not an elected one, it is really only interested in keeping power.
It's Me
Toujours
On the road again, just can’t wait to get on the road again…..sorry flashback to another time in life.
I see you standing in a meadow…throwing your blinders off…twirling around, arms out to embrace life and breaking into song…
The hills are alive with the sound of music
With songs they have sung for a thousand years.
The hills fill my heart with the sound of music
My heart wants to sing every song it hears.
My heart wants to beat like the wings
Of the birds that rise from the lake to the trees,
My heart wants to sigh like a chime that flies from a church on a breeze,
To laugh like a brook when it trips and falls
Over stones on its way
To sing through the night like a lark who is learning to pray.
I go to the hills when my heart is lonely,
I know I will hear what I've heard before.
My heart will be blessed with the sound of music
And I'll sing once more.
Hey, I am entitled to regress a bit:)
It is never too late…two steps forward and one step back, just look down the path and all around you. Think for now, tomorrow and the future.
Safe travels Toujours.
Here's where I am coming from right at this moment.
The bottomline, all of us care about this band in one way or another. I feel that the opinions are important and necessary. I believe the guys pick up on this stuff and appreciate it (good and bad).
Each person has their own way in which to express their feelings...
I don't know why I care so much about these guys. It kinda freaks me out. It's bizarre to care about people who you don't know and who will never know you. In a weird sort of way, I look at these guys the same as I look at my friends, my family. They have given me so much, I would consider them friends, possibly even brothers. I fought for my oldest brother until the day he died. Never gave up. I only wish he could have realized his life was worth living. That was were all of fell short...but only because we were fighting a battle that could not be won. His was a living hell.
Do I like everything my brothers, my friends have done in their life? No way, (I'm sure they have few critisms of my own life) but at the end of the day I always know they are someone special, someone who has something to offer. I know it with all my heart. I have given up on a couple of my friends, but that doesn't mean I will continue to hammer the issue which severed our tie. Our friendship is just over, but I will always give them a hug when I see them...and hope that with the months and years that have passed that things have changed in someway.
What I am trying to say is that, well I will keep on fighting for their worth as a band and as individuals. I don't want any of them to die because of habits that may be hard to break, or because for whatever reason they do not feel a need to live.
Damn, now I'm rambling. Totally off what I really wanted to say...I guess it's close enough.
Thanks Smoke!
Hmm.. Maybe I should start watching House too...
-A
RW, thank you so much for the link. I really appreciate it.
I'll be back in a bit. :)
anima very nicely said
and "it's me" that is lovely, TJ has interesting times ahead, decisions to make but I'm sure she can embrace her new life and greet it with open arms, she's a beautiful person
RW, thank you so much for the link. I still need to donate to the S//C for the AIDS walk. Hope it's not too late. :/
I just donated through the Canadian Red Cross. I've been waiting for aid to be allowed to start getting through.
Hello anima and Tj.
Anima i think you said what all of us feel but in different ways.
Martha, thank you. Or different feelings is what makes the blog so special. Each of us comes from a different background, a different set of circumstances, and a different view on the band (prior and/or currently). For whatever reason or another, I believe we all care about them. Whether some of that care has dimished or changed, it's okay.
*our* different...
:( Sorry did I kill the blog?
gosh, why am i never here when mayo posts?
and did i miss his goodbye post? or did he forget..
i forget a lot..
stated well anima
I'm certain you aren't one to laugh at those that don't share your views
as this one said
and those you can just laugh at, you know?
or think that "thinking people" would all agree with you and your opinions
hi romance, what goodbye post? there never has been one, why would there be?
Anon, thanks.
I welcome all thoughts...you never know, I could change my mind. I'm always open to that possibility. Man, if I stayed in one state of mind growing up...I would have been screwed. But you can only convince another so far...some will never change and will stand strong. It can be an awesome thing many times, other times it could be detrimental.
It all depends.
It's Me
anima
It sounds like you are not one to shut a door on someone. Shutting doors is a very hard thing to do. Family and friends fall into two different places...some straddle and we are not sure where they belong.
No one said life was easy.
From what I have been able to "see" all of you are very good people.
oh sorry ergo, i should have specified..
when he came in here after he posted and started talking a bit..
sorry for the scare! (if there was one)
Hi Romance, I don't think there was a goodbye post.
Goodbye post?
-A
thanks anima.
"It's Me"
Did I miss something?
Come to think of it, he hasn't written a "goodnight post" in a really long time.
-A
Romance, oh yeah, I understand. He said something about the anons, and then about 'fighting' for all of us...and that was it.
Oh I see, no he didn't "check the time and goodnight" this time
It's me you are a very astute person
Then he took off. Frankly, I think we scared him.
Or he continued to talk to us as an anon.
I don't think we really scare him, so much as he gets overwhelmed.
Heck, it's not hard to get overwhelmed on this blog. You're gone for an hour and there's a +300 jump in comments!
-A
From what I have been able to "see" all of you are very good people.
I have to say, that never gets old to hear. Thank you (not for me, but in general) Sometimes it's hard to believe...I'm not perfect and I can be an ass sometimes. I feel the same way too....everyone here has so much heart; good people.
Amy, take the win!
Mayo,
How are ya tonight? Did you have a positively fantabuliriffic Monday? Yeah? Well, I didn't. Not that the day was like rank with shittiness or anything. It was just one of those days where I worked my ass off and got nothing done. Just moved shit around on my desk from this pile to that pile and well, some piles got neglected completely. I always thought I worked well under pressure. Maybe tomorrow which is bound to be deeper than today will be better. Maybe I will really start to show my super skills. Yeah....
So can you tell that I am kind of manic? Just a little? Yeah, I get like this when I don't know what else to do. My mind just goes too fast for my fingers to keep up and since it all has to come out I figure I might as well write about it to you. It mind end up being a little funny. Like that anon said, not in the crack a joke kind of funny but in that pathetic sort of funny. Either way, I win!! I got a smile out of you!
Mayo, I came in here today and I joined a conversation talking about a guy that I don't know. Nope, never met him. I do my best not to judge people but heaven knows we are all guilty of that at some point in our lives, hell in our daily routines. Oh my point being though, that I found it easier to jump in and talk, talk, talk about someone that I don't know than to slow down, stop, breathe, take a look in the mirror and focus on myself. It's always crystal clear when it's someone else. Not so much when it comes to me. Not that it wouldn't be crystal clear, it's just that I refuse to take the time and look at myself. Even now, I shake my head "NO!" when I am thinking about it. Do not want. I would rather sit back and listen to what others have to say about me. I often wonder if this guy we were talking about does the same thing. Does he take to heart all the things that get said about him? You know even when people say bad things about me, it's okay. That gives me more ammunition, right? Yeah. Like well, they think I am pathetic and fucked up so that gives me some kind of cause or reason to be.
And some days, Mayo, all you need is a poor ass excuse to do something stupid. I'm living proof of that one.
Mayo, I'm wishing you a night filled with introspection, reflection, and clarity, but more than that, I am wishing you the time it takes to actually stop and look.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Don't make me.
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