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I am
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Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Art by: Toujours
No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
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You taste delicious ;)
A lovely evening to you all! Hello, Anon616, Cupcake, Bleeding Chaos, Katherine Dreier, Triston Anatole, Paperheartxx, and Toujours! I trust everyone is well?
Anon616, thank you, I am feeling quite improved tonight. I have had some sleep, some medication, and some quiet time. Sometimes the simple things are the best.
Triston Anatole said...
Of course I could...would not be much different then the marshmallow incident earlier......
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O_O
Is THAT what you plan to feed her???? I hope you at least brough some dotuns!
*wags finger at Triston*
You're drinking Mad Dog again, aren't you? ;)
Hello Angel...Lovely as usual!!
I love my neck nibbled BC Now you are in the zone....neck, ears to name but a couple....have to find the rest.
Rest well, Paperheartxx. Until next time.
angel said...
Sometimes the simple things are the best.
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The simple things are OFTEN the best, Angel!
I'm so happy to hear you're feeling better.
you don't need to do this all the time
I'm glad you're well angel. I'm okay, a bit tired with a toothache. Apparently I'm growing fangs, thanks to the resident vamp here. Flirting is such fun ;)
Ah triston, your comment made me blush :)
Goodnight grasshopper *hugs* sweet dreams hug fu master *hiyahh!!*
Well, the time has come for me to go.
I hate that I'm so damn busy... and not even busy doing things of any particular worth.
Well, take care darlings. :)
xoxo cupcake
Hmmm...how will donuts help...I am confused!!!
Anonymous said...
you don't need to do this all the time
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*insert the usual HMMM..... here*
Oh.... the page changed, no wonder it was so quiet. XP
Byeeee!
XX
BC...Blushing is the least of my problem ;)
Bleeding Chaos, you poor dear, I do believe that you have a new ailment every time I see you! You must take better care of yourself.
Anon616, Triston Anatole, thank you. I came across that particular piece of poetry and was touched by its beauty.
But Anon everybody's doin it...A Lot!!!...Grab your helmet and get in the game...unless you like to watch :)
Triston Anatole said...
Hmmm...how will donuts help...I am confused!!!
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Well..umm......NEVERMIND!
*wonders where Elena & the OPs are when she needs them*
Goodnight Cupcake!
Wendy, how do you cope with so little sleep?
Rest well, friend Cupcake. It was a pleasure seeing you again!
No matter what you are doing, it is always worthwhile, because it is you who are doing it.
*nibbles triston's ears gently*
Wendy, I love krispy kreme donuts :)
Goodnight/morning Cupcake!
I'll talk to you soon!!!
Oh, I get it...that's what you use when you're desperate...donuts.
Awwww Wendy that spoils all the fun for THAT!!!....Works well for other things...I dont want to die...um....again!!...Safety First!!
Anonymous said...
Oh, I get it...that's what you use when you're desperate...donuts.
WRONG!!!!!!
Bleeding Chaos said...
Wendy, I love krispy kreme donuts :)
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As do I, BC! GREAT, now I'm getting a donut (or dotun) craving!
:D
Greetings, Anonymous poster. I sense you are unhappy with someone here tonight?
Elena said...
Anonymous said...
Oh, I get it...that's what you use when you're desperate...donuts.
WRONG!!!!!!
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HAHA! Elena RIDES to the rescue!!!
*perhaps she should have said "Elena RISES to the rescue"*
;)
Elena, how are you? How is your daughter going?
Welcome, Elena, I trust you are well?
Goodnight cupcake, sweet dreams love. Triston, donuts are delicious! Angel, I know. I believe it has something to do with the enamel, but I'm trying to take care of it now. Right now its not hurting so much, but thank you for the concern.
Anon, I enjoy flirting with triston. Immensely ;)
Alright...now I am confused I was going to say I have my glove box full of donuts but now I don't know ;)
angel, does it matter?
Triston Anatole said...
Awwww Wendy that spoils all the fun for THAT!!!....Works well for other things...I dont want to die...um....again!!...Safety First!!
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As with ALL things, safety should always be a priority!
;)
Sorry but I do believe the anon thinks the donuts of which we speak are donuts with holes. Not true. They are the wonderful chocolate covered donuts with sweet, creamy, very creamy filling.
So Elena Tell Me How do these donuts FIT IN ??
Hi elena. How are you and your daughter doing? Wendy, arent donuts the best? :D
Anonymous, of course it matters! If you are in pain, or emotionally distraught, perhaps we can assist you. Oftentimes it is easier to discuss your troubles with strangers who can be objective.
Angel: Everytime I 'see' you,
this song pops into my head:
In My Heaven by Negative
And now......I'm in the mood to dance!
I thought for a minute triston was talking about condoms ^_^
Anon, what's wrong?
Elena, you're just encouraging Texas to come and visit ^_~
And now they want to dance....damn I am going backwards here...I hate when this happens.
Thanks for the concern angel, but believe me, I'm just fine.
Elena said...
Sorry but I do believe the anon thinks the donuts of which we speak are donuts with holes. Not true. They are the wonderful chocolate covered donuts with sweet, creamy, very creamy filling.
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Indeed they are! A bit of heaven, one might say ;)
Sorry Angel! We're speaking of two different heavens now.....
maybe ;)
katherine dreier said...
Elena, you're just encouraging Texas to come and visit ^_~
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Elena ALWAYS encourages TEXAS to come
out!
I couldn't resist!!!! Sorry!
;)
Hi de ho!!!
hello angel and vampy one!
Ooops, and a *big hug* for the sad or troubled anonymous.
hey cupcake! :)
good to see you! *squeezy hug*
HI elena!! didn't see you there how are you all tonight?
This anon is NOT sad or troubled.
Oh triston, just forget whatever you were doing and come dance with us :)
Hi ergo
And what exactly is it you think I am doing....
Sure...of course...who doesn't like dancing!
...getting into the donuts
All this ear and neck nibbling...now I"m back to dancing :D I know your game Devil Woman!!
Anonymous said...
This anon is NOT sad or troubled.
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Well, that is very good to know!
And thank you for letting us know.
Thank you so very much for the song, Anon616! It was extremely good, I enjoyed it very much. I shall have to listen to more of Negative's music. Where do they come from?
Hello Ergoproxy! So good to see you!
As you wish, Anonymous. I did not mean to intrude.
dancing?
eh didn't you mention wine cheese and olives a day or so ago triston?
There is some serious Thunder going on here right now...The Lair Shook!!
ok...the blog suddenly picked up speed and i'm left in the dust like a turtle!
hello to you angel, and good night paperheart.
hey ergo, hey elena!
Will you and BC be dancing to "In My Heaven" or should I choose another song?
I'm taking request tonight!
:D
Hi Ergo and Welcome back!!!
OH Ergo..I have The wine and cheese!
Hey Ergo
KD and Wendy - Stop that! I am not always encouraging Texas to come out. Possibly to come in...to visit I mean.
Well Wendy That is a lovely song...We should dance to that!!
thunder?!
You know the AC/DC song thunderstruck? That is always played at bullriding here (sorry meant to say that the other day)
Silly triston, what game? I enjoy having you here is all. Maybe some more nibbling will help ;)
HA HA Elena, that just hit me!
Oh, that came out the wrong way
elena encouraging TEXAS?????
never....
hey TJ turtles are nice though :)
so good to see you back for a bit
I'm glad you enjoyed the song, Angel!
They are very good, aren't they?
They're from the beautiful country of Finland!
Here's another song, of theirs, for you:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=la-XiSQAiUY>Sinners Night/Misty Morning
:)
Bleeding Chaos, it seems that now you and I represent the opposite sides of the Hereafter! It should be emphasized, however, that you are not all Devil--nor am I all Angel! *winks*
BC All of this nibbling and its going to become harder and harder to dance with me ;)
Be careful triston. Wendy, that song will be lovely. You're welcome to join us :)
katherine! Texas is THAT big???
O_O
*cosys up for some wine and cheese*
good to see you too, ergo! i'm afraid i haven't been able to catch up on what's new, however. how are things on your side of the globe?
Triston Anatole said...
Well Wendy That is a lovely song...We should dance to that!!
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Okay then! "In My Heaven" it is!
I hope you're prepared to do some serious moving with Ergo. It appears she wishes to be "Thunderstruck"!
;)
Hey, that last blast made my windows rattle! YIKES!
katherine! Texas is THAT big???
um, I don't think so Ergo!
Hey, where are Wendy and the others...hmmm...should have known.
TJ: You must take a twirl around the dance floor with our vamp!
good thanks TJ all grooving along !
we have a weeks school holidays now, and I had dinner out last night. Apart from that heading into autumn and the days are hat but nights pretty cool, so lots of very misty mornings
Hey TJ
I just realized you're gonna be here in nine days. Crap, I gotta clean house. Wait you like cobwebs right?
Angel, lol! Triston, I can do nibbling instead if you like ;) I owe you one anyways ;)
misty mornings sound very pretty, ergo. i like the autumn of the year. of course, i also like the spring...and the winter...
summer, welllll. i'm getting acquainted with it. :)
TJ: You must take a twirl around the dance floor with our vamp!
oh gosh wendy, do you think so?
*glances with maidenly modesty at triston*
lol elena! yes, spiders and cobwebs don't bother me one bit! i always have found better uses for my brooms. ;)
Elena said...
Hey Ergo
KD and Wendy - Stop that! I am not always encouraging Texas to come out. Possibly to come in...to visit I mean.
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LOL!!!!
Yes, when visiting Texas I would encourage all to come inside!
I mean, it get's so warm and sticky outside......
With all that heat and humidity!
;)
Watch it TJ...Maidenly Modesty...hmmmm...How I do like that new girl smell !!
toujours said...
oh gosh wendy, do you think so?
*glances with maidenly modesty at triston*
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*giggles*
Elena said...
Hey TJ
I just realized you're gonna be here in nine days. Crap, I gotta clean house. Wait you like cobwebs right?
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I have an idea! After you finish cleaning your house, you and TJ can visit me and help me clean my house! April 24th and 25th are my concert dates!!!
Dear friends, I fear I must take my leave now. It was wonderful to see you, Anon616, Bleeding Chaos, Elena, Katherine Dreier, Triston Anatole, Ergoproxy! Toujours, it was my pleasure to meet you! Until next time...rest well.
My sweet, I feel your love, your strength, your warmth every time I think of you. As long as I can see you with my mind's eye, we will never be apart.
do please keep in mind, triston, sir, that though i am a maiden in spirit, i am a witch in person.
so play nice with me.
*heh*
*giggles as well*
good night angel, be well. :)
wendy, where are your shows?
Goodnight Angel and the sweetest dreams of your sweet, to you!
It was lovely 'chatting' with you as well!
goodnight angel, lovely to hear form you again, take care and have sweet dreams of your love
Goodnight and sweet dreams Angel. I'm gonna go lay down.
Bleeding Chaos said...
Be careful triston. Wendy, that song will be lovely. You're welcome to join us :)
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Thank you, BC! We shall look like an Oreo cookie on the dance floor.
Triston being the creamy, white center, of course!
;)
OK I am very confused here...This sounds good....but it doesnt if ya know what I mean!
Ah wendy, are you being naughty? ;)
I'm off for awhile as well - before I get kicked off with the wicked weather!
Goodnight (for now) TJ, BC, Elena, Katherine, Ergo, Triston, Mayo, SS, lurkers....
Miranth (if she drops by)!
Have a blast this weekend TJ!!!!
Stay safe!
OK Ya'll are keeping me UP all night and I have to wake up by my usual 3 PM
Wendy, we're confusing him ^_^
I'm going too!
Goodnight all!
The weather is really bad here also...maybe I should shut the computer down...Vista...as if thats not bad enough right!!
Stay safe wendy. Goodnight sugarplum *hugs*
I've had a very pleasant time with you lovely ladies as usual
Your Humble Servant
as in whatever you want!!
toujours said...
good night angel, be well. :)
wendy, where are your shows?
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Sorry TJ, I just saw that question.
New Orleans and Baton Rouge!
Get down here girl!!!!
I shall leave Triston to ponder regarding the Oreo cookie.....
*wicked laugh*
Goodnight again ALL!!!
Hugs and Love,
Wendy
Goodnight katherine. Triston, what else is more pressing than bad weather?
I'm away too, going target shooting, take care all!
I had a great time with you as well triston. I hope I left a couple of nice looking hickeys on your neck ;)
,
Take care ergo
Mayo
Sorry but no time to write a goodnight. Boxes of books surround me and I’m overwhelmed by the amount of work I need to get done. Today I went to two library sales and bought approx 700 books.
Okay so why am I even here? Cause I just feel like I have to say goodnight to you. It is how I end my day. Can we say Elena has stripped gears in the windmill of her mind? Oh fuck yeah, I do.
Take care.
Night Mayo
Elena (all booked up)
Aww am I all alone now? :(
Goodnight elena. Sweet dreams.
thanks wendy, i will!
i think i'm running out of steam. a second all-nighter in as many weeks...
*phew*
good to talk with you all! i updated my lj with a short account of our drive...hopefully my next entry over there will be all about the festival! :D
good night!
Goodnight squeak squeak, sweet dreams.
mayo,
thanks for making a space where i can forget myself and rattle out whatever is currently gnawing at me. i do feel a bit more confident about this upcoming week in portland...a bit
the drive down to california was good overall -- long and tiresome and filled with grumpiness, but also with many beautiful new sights, and brief encounters with friendly strangers (well, i guess we were the friendly strangers, but still...)
i didn't always fit in with these women. once again, i found myself not quite matching up with them in mood or motivation. but by the end of the day today, i had had a gentle realization: i don't have to fit with them. they're lovely people, but i belong to me, and my gods, and...other places.
and even though that left me quietly watching a lot of scenery out the window, and feeling left out at times, i didn't feel alone.
back before the blog started, i used to go to bed and wake up feeling so lonely, a bone-deep greyness. not anymore.
it's gone. i'm not lonely.
and tomorrow, i will be all by myself at bamboozle left, but i don't mind. i know what i'm here for. maybe these women aren't the ones i will be forging a deeper friendship with, but that's okay.
i'm beginning to get a hint that the main friendship i will be deepening this month is the one with myself.
be well, mayo. sleep well, and dream well, and rise refreshed. look in your morning mirror and say hello to your own best friend. share a grin with him, and start the day off right.
until next time,
-tj
Goodnight mayonaise, love to you. Goodnight SS, bloggers, lurkers.
Until tomorrow.
morning all from sunny england!!
i've not caught up i am sorry so i have no idea if anything went down last night in blogbelieve!!
hello mayo! hope you have a nice relaxing saturday!
hello SS! you too! you need to turn those lights on ok!! take care.
right family hope you all have lovely fun saturdays!!
Martha and lewis - hope the gig was fantastic!!!
Am I the only one up this early on a Saturday?
Sucks to be me :/
when i met frank last year at the seattle show, he was incredibly friendly, and i really think, based on what i've read, that they're all like that, so my qualms are more with that damn autograph table and cattle line.
*sigh*
i'm not explaining myself well, and it's a weird stance to take, anyway, isn't it.
Not at all, TJ. I understand completely, I feel exactly the same way. And cattle line is an apt description. When I met Gerard and Frank at PR last year, I was waiting outside the buses with a small group of younger fans. Not an autograph table experience exactly, but it still felt a little unnatural as we were all lined up in a row by the security guards before they came out. Meeting Gerard that way, especially, felt a little like meeting the Queen. You know, how everyone is lined up, the Queen comes along and says a few polite words, then moves on to the next person. He was very nice, but you could totally feel the invisible star/fan boundary. I've never met anybody that way before, so it weirded me out a little. It was less like that with Frank.
hey passing through on my way to bed,
had a nice afternoon yummy dinner, and I was proud of mayself, brave enough to shoot our largest rifle, boy it kicks but I did it AND hit the target! Yeah well, another of my rural skills, I'm a good shot lol. Things I never imagined I'd be doing 20 years ago.
So mayo you doing anything you never dreamed? It's good fun trying it out, you just never know
Wishing fun love faaith and hope to you and yours
much love
EP xx
SS how about you? Done anything you never thought? Enjoying life? I hope so
Sending you love butterflies ad cuddles
lotsa love
EP xx
Goodnight blogbelieve
take care
And Just For Laughs...a little more from the Phantom of the ParadiseBeef SingsHave a GREAT Weekend!
Good *insert time of day here* Mayo, SS, Ergo, RW, FASC, maybe: Possum & Kass, watchers, lurkers, all boys and girls (who just wanna have fun) of blogbelieve!
How are you all today? I hope you all had a wonderful, restful sleep last night and woke up feeling as though your batteries had been recharged!
To ponder (or just read & enjoy) today:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Love is the only bow on life's dark cloud.
It is the Morning and the Evening Star.
It shines upon the cradle of the babe,
and sheds its radiance upon the quiet tomb.
It is the mother of Art,
inspirer of poet, patriot, and philosopher.
It is the air and light of every heart, builder of every home,
kindler of every fire on every hearth.
It was the first to dream of immortality.
It fills the world with melody,
for Music is the voice of Love.
Love is the magician, the enchanter,
that changes worthless things to joy,
and makes right royal kings and queens of common clay.
It is the perfume of the wondrous flower -- the heart
and without that sacred passion, that divine swoon,
we are less than beasts;
but with it, earth is heaven
and we are gods.
Robert G. Ingersoll
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I hope you all take a little time today to stop and smell the perfume of those wondrous flowers!
Just breath the peace and tranquility in....
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Triston: We MUST stop meeting like this! People will start to talk ;)
Have a good Saturday!
Mayo,
How are you today? I hope you wake up feeling happy, well, loved, and rested. Me? I'm good today. Got too many reasons to be anything other than that.
It's a dreary, rainy day here. Dare me to run outside and play in it? Wouldn't it be fun? I mean...as a kid you could never just stand in it and splash and play until you got soaked to the bone, but I can now. Come back in, dripping from head to toe...possibly shivering, but smiling. And feeling more alive than I have felt in a long time.
Mayo, do something today that makes you feel alive. That makes your heart race, you palms sweat, you eyes get all wide, you blood flow, and your stomach do flips.
Feel me?
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Not completely crazy or unsafe.
talk...talk...Wendy...talk...Triston...meeting up!!?...
*raised wiggling eyebrows*
talk...texas ...dotuns...mist...talk...windows open a crack...chains...talk...
^_^
Triston & Wendy = true love
He's at it again
http://www.buzznet.com/tags/mychemicalromance/video/2899561/gerard-talking-sexwith-himself/
Morning all!
Question:
Is it wrong to have your car stereo up so loud your external side view mirrors vibrate in time with the bass O_O
*not admitting nuffing*
Anyway, just breezing through this morning to wish everyone a relaxing weekend.
Except for Kass, who will no doubt be pounding pavements in her half marathon today. Run Kass,run!
Hope your concert was superb (and loud), MJ and Lewis ^_^
Toujours,
Wow, have a great two days at Bamboozle. You are a lovely, kindhearted, sweetheart. PH is going to be so excited if you get into the Portland comic signing ^_^
Mayo,
Cogito ergo sum.
or probably more truthfully,
I am the walrus, goo goo g'joob.
SS,
*flicks a lighter*
*holds it aloft in SS's dark blog*
*sways to a slow song*
Argh!
Cooked thumb >_<
Dude, you do know that the Lights Out Earth Watch hour ended a few days ago? ^_~
Jappy Saturday one and all!
good morning everyone, good morning mayo! couldn't resist hopping back on the computer before going and getting ready for the day.
thanks for the encouragement, pickled possum! i have to admit, i am glad that it's going to work out as far as getting paperheart's autograph. i wasn't sure we were going to be hanging out after the shows, but this way it's a much better chance. :)
Not an autograph table experience exactly, but it still felt a little unnatural as we were all lined up in a row by the security guards before they came out. Meeting Gerard that way, especially, felt a little like meeting the Queen.
lol resurrected wreck, i love that comparison! i've seen footage of those events, and you are so right. maybe , when i get up tot he table, i should say "hello, your majesty"! ;D
"to the table"
typo fairy followed me to california, apparently.
oh, but you know what? i realized this morning that even though we spent all that time driving down here, i don't really feel like i'm in california. when my grandparents were alive, we always flew down, except for one summer trip when i was 13. maybe when we see los angeles proper it will feel like california.
He's at it again
*has a look-see*
*yawn*
That's just getting boring and tired.
Even Gerard sounded unenthusiastic about it.
It's about time he put that old spiel to bed and showed us what his intellect is actually comprised of.
I don't even want to watch the link, Anon. I can guess, and you know, just when you think it's safe to quit thinking about him being an ass to the audience, he's got to start up again, right? Does he single out girls again like a hateful drunken retarded ass slapping frat boy? Damn, don't tell me, I don't wanna know.
Not for me, thanks. I'm already not in the mood to be disgusted.
Hey Mayo auhea 'oe e ku'u hoaloha?
Hey guys, don't forget, there were two boys who fell through the cracks on today's date.
It's about time he put that old spiel to bed and showed us what his intellect is actually comprised of.
I think he is.
oh fer chrissakes.
good morning, kapunua. i didn't watch tje video either -- well, i tried, but this computer is on mute, and i couldn't find the sound control. hmph.
so i can't really say anything about whatever it is that he's done now, but i will say that the gerard we see on stage is one tiny sliver of a complex individual, so i never ake anything he says on stage to be representative of anything other than his sate of being at that moment.
but, you already know that my opinion differs from yours, and i have to go and get ready to head off to bamboozle, so.
have a great day everyone! maybe i'll get to talk to you all again tonight!
bye, mayo. have a good day. be nice to a friendly stranger at some point. :)
Hi TJ!
lol That's a cunning little typo fairy hitching a ride to California.
When I first started reading Mayo's I saw 'teh' so many times I thought it was legitimate blogspeak.
Is the classroom comfy at night O_O
Hi Kapunua,
Same day? A very sad coincidence.
Anon,
oh fer chrissakes.
Honestly, he sounded bored and just a tad disgusted. If he isn't getting anything out of it, why do it?
oh cripes. typo fairy!!!
the, not tje
take, not ake
and state of being. i don't known what the hell sate of being is.
running away from typo fairy now. bye!
it is, pickled possum! air mattress, yum.
lol
hugs & bye!
See you TJ!
Look forward to reading you again.
Morning Everyone who is here.
Last night was great. I didn't get to meet up with Lewis. I was really sad about that.
Alright on to the show. Drive by was the first act to come on stage and from what i remember they were really good. I don't remember to much about them because at some point during their set i noticed this guy. He was over in the sound area. He was wearing a knit cap that covered most of his blond hair. And from what I could make out he had facial hair. He didn't really touch anything in the sound area but he was talking to the people working there.
Billy Talent wasn't a bad band they were good they just didn't impress me.
So if you have been to A mcr show you basically know what to expect with the performance. It was great.
GW did make a joke about being in the tenderest part of the loin. Well that is what happens when you are in The Tenderloin area.
At some point GW noticed that there was an older lady in the pit. He said you can't be more than 38 42 at the most. And than blower her a kiss.
Later he noticed some one with a Mikey Fucking Way shirt. he told the person they should be wearing it. Than told them maybe you can take off your other shirt and put the Mikey one on. Moments later a shirt came flying up on stage.
Frank was the one who grabbed it. It said something about meet the fockers. GW made a joke about FI really needing the shirt. i couldn't make out what he said. This was followed by someone giving GW some drawing. He placed them all round the stage which i thought was nice.
GW talked about it being the last tour for a couple of years and how they wanted to say good bye properly. He talked about somethings that happen at the show the day before. Something about a puppet. He drank a few rudbull smoothie.
As far as songs go they didn't sing the new song. They sang part of Smash Mouth's All Stars. Than talked about songs that made it on their these songs suck list. James sang some Rick Ashly at this point.
James also sang Sweet Caroline later on.
Elena they did that Dylan song and dedicated FLW to a kid who survived cancer.
I really loved how they did the beginning of VWNHY. GW was all in shadow and it was only him and James, it led into another song.
By the way the vest doesn't look as bad on him as I had thought. It may have been a bad picture angle that I had seen.
The crowed was cool. I saw once person with the word sold sharpie on their neck.
So it was a great show. It didn't kill what love i have left for the band but it also didn't bring back the feelings I have lost for the band.
Ep there was a shirt of Ray playing . i thought of you when i saw it.
Sorry if this review sucks. i have never done this before.
*hugs TJ back*
I really should go too!
Hey anon, watch the link and see what you think =)
'night all.
the gerard "fucking himself" video is from Sydney, not the current tour.
Yes, both of them on the same day.
Layne was always really too messed up to be quotable but he was very, very funny.
But anyway, today Gerard has inspired me.
I've always had a problem with the average macho man - they've always been a threat to me.
Kurt Cobain
The duty of youth is to challenge corruption.
Kurt Cobain
Later guys i am of to go shopping
kapunua, have you ever met Layne, if so what was he like.
I'm trying to be a better feminist.
Kurt Cobain after the birth of his daughter
"If you're a racist, a sexist, or a homophobe, we don't want you to buy our records."
And again:
"If you're a racist, a sexist, or a homophobe, we don't want you to buy our records."
Kurt Cobain
I'm sorry anon, I don't want to talk about Layne. ^_^
I'm disgusted with my own apathy too, for being spineless and not always standing up against racism, sexism and all those other -isms the counterculture has been whining about for years.
- Kurt Cobain
I think this quote of his is so important because that's how I feel every single time I don't stand up against those same -isms, like if I'm too tired, or if I feel like I don't have the time, or if I feel like there are just too damn many contrary opinions on this behavior being acceptable in any way and I can't bother myself to fight against them.
Ever since the beginning of rock and roll, there's been an Axl Rose. And it's just boring. It's totally boring to me.
Kurt Cobain
It upset me that we were attracting the people that a lot of my music has a reaction against.
Kurt Cobain
At this point I have a request for our fans. If any of you in any way hate homosexuals, people of different color, or women, please do this one favour for us - leave us the fuck alone! Don't come to our shows and don't buy our records!
Yes, Kurt Cobain.
ALthough I know that Gerard copied this almost word for word a few years ago. Kurt meant it though.
If your a sexist, racist, homophobe or basically an asshole don't buy this CD, I don't care if you like me, I hate you!
Kurt Cobain
*has another look*
Thank you Anon, you are indeed correct. It doesn't match the other Warfield footage posted.
Oh well, can I still say he sounded bored in Sydney, cause he did you know ^_~
Martha,
Super review! What a shame you and Lewis weren't able to meet up.
I must admit I started reading your review and I was thinking GW sounded so much more better with the crowd than the video I had been watching O_o Go figure!
Lol at Bob hanging with the soundtechs still talking trade. How long did they play for?
Oh, I missed Martha =(
I'll have aread through those interesting quotes later Kapunua, when it is more reasonable o'clock here ^_^
Okay night all, for real this time. Promise.
*trudges off to dreamland*
I'm no one important but I agree with you Kapunua. And I wonder all the time how Gerard's GRANDMOTHER who he says taught him to respect woman, would feel about that little act of his.
I know this isn't Kurt Cobain but I thought you might like it anyway.
Woman is the nigger of
the world
Yes she is...think about it
Woman is the nigger of
the world
Think about it...do
something about it
We make her paint her
face and dance
If she won't be slave ,we
say that she don't love us
If she's real, we say she's
trying to be a man
While putting her down we
pretend that she is above us
Woman is the nigger of
the world...yes she is
If you don't believe me take a
look to the one you're with
Woman is the slaves of
the slaves
Ah yeah...better scream
about it
We make her bear and raise
our children
And then we leave her flat for
being a fat old mother hen
We tell her home is the only
place she would be
Then we complain that she's
too unworldly to be our friend
Woman is the nigger of
the world...yes she is
If you don't believe me take a
look to the one you're with
Woman is the slaves of
the slaves
Yeah (think about it)
We insult her everyday on TV
And wonder why she has no
guts or confidence
When she's young we kill her
will to be free
While telling her not to be so
smart we put her down for being so dumb
Woman is the nigger of
the world...yes she is
If you don't believe me take a
look to the one you're with
Woman is the slaves of
the slaves
Yes she is...if you believe me,
you better scream about it.
We make her paint her
face and dance
We make her paint her
face and dance We make her paint her
face and dance
Morning errbody!
Morning Mayo!
Morning SS! (Lights? Ummm...yes, please! Too many things go bump in the night and well, the frogs kind of make me go all EEEEEEEEKKKK!) ^_~
MJ,
I'm glad you had a good time!
Mayo,
New words today perhaps? Yes? No? Maybe so? Be nice to see ya!
SS!
Miss you lots and lots and lots. Hope you are doing well!
Have a great Saturday errbody!
Okay, gotta go eat some lunch.
Be back later!
XOXO,
S&V20
Thank you for the John Lennon, anon. God, he made people think.
Hi La Principesa!
Well, on this beautiful misty day I'm going out with my Mom, my cousin and the Boychild. See you all later.
For Kapunua..... this was my favorite song by them, Brother.
Frozen in the place I hide
Not afraid to paint my sky with
Some who say I've lost my mind
Brother try and hope to find
You were always so far away
I know that pain so don't you run away
Like you used to do
Roses in a vase of white
Bloodied by the thorns beside the leaves
That fall because my hand is pulling them hard as I can
You were always so far away
I know that pain and I won't run away
Like I used to do
Pictures in a box at home
Yellowing and green with mold
So I can barely see your face
Wonder how that color taste
You were always so far away
I know the way so don't you run away
Like you used to do
Like you used to do
Just stopping by for a quick hello. Listing books but just can't keep myself from being here.
Martha thank you for the review. It sounded like a great concert. I can't wait until April 15th. Oh that's usually a suck day because of taxes! LOL. This year I'm sure it will be great. Did he say they wouldn't tour again for a few years? Oh that's not good. Not good at all. Okay I’m being selfish but can't help it.
Hope everyone has a good day.
hi guys!
thanks so much for the gig review martha!! such a shame you didn't catch up with lewis. glad you enjoyed it though it sounded excellent!
god it's a 2 yr break now!!! eeeek! not that i blame them wanting/needing a break but hells that's a long time for little ole me!!!
i couldn't get that gerard fucking himself clip to play. but if it's the one from end of last year then i think i've seen it. i'm so glad it isn't recent. not that it lets him off the hook for his onstage shit last year but i'm just glad it's stopped.
really great kurt cobain quotes K!! it's so sad he is no longer here.
right i'm off to my brother's now to hang out and have food and stay the night so i will catch you all at some point tomorrow!!
love to you all!
you too mayo and SS!
Thank you, Jules, for posting Kurt's words.
I didn't know what else to do last night but post something for him, in memory of him, or whatever. No one else around here (real life) would have cared, but I did. So, I shared it here.
May they both be remembered on this day and for always.
What would you think if I sang out of tune,
Would you stand up and walk out on me.
Lend me your ears and I’ll sing you a song,
And I’ll try not to sing out of key.
I get by with a little help from my friends,
I get high with a little help from my friends,
Going to try with a little help from my friends.
What do I do when my love is away.
(does it worry you to be alone)
How do I feel by the end of the day
(are you sad because you're on your own)
No I get by with a little help from my friends,
Do you need anybody,
I need somebody to love.
Could it be anybody
I want somebody to love.
Would you believe in a love at first sight,
Yes I’m certain that it happens all the time.
What do you see when you turn out the light,
I can't tell you, but I know it's mine.
Oh i get by with a little help from my friends,
Do you need anybody,
I just need someone to love,
Could it be anybody,
I want somebody to love.
I get by with a little help from my friends;
Yes I get by with a little help from my friends,
With a little help from my friends.
(Just cause I love this song)
Hey SS
Just wanted to say I've missed you. You still stumbling around in the dark? I know I am!
Hope you're doing fine and that you're smiling.
Sometimes a smile is all it takes to light the darkness.
Yeah I realize I'm talking to myself here but hey, I do that all the time. I just decided to say "fuck it" and take tomorrow off. I'm going to Planet Comicon.
Yeah for me. Gonna see Kenny Baker (R2-D2) and Walter Koenig from Star Trek. Also gonna see Bruce Jones and David Finch. Only sad part is Bernie Wrightson won't be there tomorrow.
I can't wait!!!!
I had to, Splash; I want his message to still mean something. Kurt was more than a musician.
Elena, good for you! That sounds awesome. ^_^
Anon, thanks for those lyrics. My favorite AIC song, oddly enough, was always "Sunshine." I couldn't even say why. :)
i couldn't get that gerard fucking himself clip to play. but if it's the one from end of last year then i think i've seen it. i'm so glad it isn't recent. not that it lets him off the hook for his onstage shit last year but i'm just glad it's stopped.
Yes to that.
Incidentally you guys, The Layne Staley fund was started by Layne's Mom Nancy back in '02; might be nice to go take a look at that today too, huh? ^_^
Okay, I just got the shit scared out of me.
THERE WAS A FREAKIN' SPIDER ON MY BED. O_O
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!
I hate spiders!!!!!!!!
Hello guys!
I miss you! I only have five minutes though...!
How are you all?
Oh...HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BLOGBELIEVE!
Also do watch this video if you get a second.
More than anything out there, this shows what a loss Layne Staley was to music, and most of all to his friends and family. Everyone thought he was so morose and whatnot, the truth was he was hilariously funny. Dude definitely had his own sense of style, too. ^_^
Right, it seems nobody is around... :(
Well,take care Mayo,SS and Family!
See you in a couple of days.
Love you all!
*HUGS & KISSES FROM BERLIN*
Hey guys, I'm the idiot who posted the Gerard Sex-talk video this morning. I ASSumed it was new, and I am so relieved to find it is older. I hope that crap stays in the past.
Thanks for clearing that up, anon. Are you the same anon who always posts links of videos and stuff like that?
Hey Mayo, are you lurking anywhere around? If so, will you come out and chat?
Ah, Anon don't call yourself an idiot. We all make mistakes!
SS, I wish for world peace and maybe for some nice weather. Cheers for coming back and turning on the lights.
Hello friends, the lights are back on. Sorry for leaving you all in the dark!
Hey guys!
What's shakin'? Just finished checking some emails, and now I gotta go trudging. O_o
Bella:
Sorry I missed you. Have a good evening!
Hey Kapunua, Elena, various Anonymouses.
How nice! ^_^
How is everything going these days?
And then there was light.....
How you doing? ^_^
Well thank you so much. It was getting a little hard to see in there. I stumbled around quite a bit.
'Bout friggin' time!
Though trying to catch lightening bugs was fun! :)
I'll be back in two.
Hi there Elena and Splash. Splash, are you leaving?
Elena said...
Well thank you so much. It was getting a little hard to see in there. I stumbled around quite a bit.
Pretty sure I felt someone's hand on my ass, Elena. Was that you?
SS, are you having a relaxing Saturday?
I don't know what was worse...
Being in the dark or finding a spider on my bed. He was big and just ewwww.
I'm still creeped out. O_o
No problem Anonymous.
Things are great. I hope you guys are all enjoying your Saturday.
Hey K, Smoke and Mustard. It's a beautiful day and I'm stuck inside at work.
I wanna go out in the sunshine!
No, I'm here. Just trying to find something.
Hope you're well, Anon! Glad we didn't burn the place down lighting luminaries!
It's all good here! Hey errbody!
S(S)S, take the top spot on the next page!!
That wasn't me K - Honest! But I have heard all about your ass! LOL
How's your day going, friend?
Beat it!
Just beat it!
Beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it.
Snap! I'm slow as hell!
The Ballgown of Doom has been conquered - huzzah!
So... what have I missed?
SS, what wish did you make?
Damn, and I was getting M. Jackson on.
Again. O_O
Bwah!
Smoke spiders aren't all that bad. I'm getting a tattoo of one!
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