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Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Art by: Toujours
No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
4,234 comments:
«Oldest ‹Older 3001 – 3200 of 4234 Newer› Newest»Good evening (or morning/afternoon) everyone!
How are you all tonight?
Ergo: That dinner sounded quite...well.....
appetizing! I'm glad to hear you had such a wonderful night out!
BC: How's the tooth? Have the new fangs come in yet? ;)
Amy: Congratulations on the raise! I bet you're really thrilled your back at the pet store now!
J: *big ol' smooch*
*pounce tackle hugs and smooches for all*
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Yeah, sounds like a techno manufactured drum beat?
Really fast.
So cool
BC, I'm pretty good today. Haven't done one productive thing! Literally. :D
Hey Amy, good to see you! *hugs*
Ummm...maybe sloths just don't trip my trigger...thanks for posting the link, though, K.
J
my boyfriend says i eat like i have three assholes.
Evening all! *waves*
Everyone good?
Hi Katherine!!!! *waves back*
I'm good; How are you, love?
Hey Wendy! Hey Katherine! Hey Mustard!
Wendy, did you get my email? I sent it earlier today...
J
Well, I gotta go. Have a good evening or day, everyone.
Mayo, SS, I hope you are both well, but I've got to save the space for something else tonight. Be safe and loved and full of spirit as always. Goodnight.
In Loving Memory
He needs a quiet room
With a lock to keep him in
It's just a quiet room
And he's there
He plays an old guitar
With a coin found by the phone
It was his friends guitar
That he played
He's never been in love
But he knows just what love is
He said nevermind
And no one speaks
He thinks he drinks too much
'Cause when he tells his too best friends
'I think I drink too much'
No one speaks
No one speaks
No one speaks
He plays an old guitar
With a coin found by the phone
It was his friends guitar
That he played
When he plays
No one speaks
No one speaks
When he plays
No one speaks
Goodnight.
HI (again) J!!!!!
Goodnight Mustard!
J: I haven't checked my e-mail yet. I shall do that right now :)
Hi also to the anonymous who likes to eat. I wonder if you're related to Siobhan ???
Heya Wendy, J and KD! How are you ladies tonight?
-A
Goodnight mustard. Sweet dreams. Hi Katherine *waves and hugs* Hi Wendy, how are you guys? *smothers with big kisses and hugs*
The tooth is feeling better tonight sugarplum. I took some aspirin earlier on.
Night Mustard, sleep well.
J
Food is awesome anon :)
Nite Mustard!
J & Wendy *big hugs*
I am very well thanks :) Surely BC is not the one growing fangs! Wendy, I thought it was (love) at first bite for you ^_~
Katherine, I believe you've asked the Million Dollar Question. Wendy...let's see the new chompers!
J
hi everyon and bye everyone.
i am tired and going to bed now.
sweet dreams everyone and i will see you tomorrow.
nighty night
xxx
S is for spicy
and super
and sweet.
If you'd
turn on
the lights
that'd be neat.
Wendy and I are both growing fangs, although I'm denying it ^_^
Goodnight fimmy. Sweet dreams.
Mmm... Dinner was delish!
I love mango chicken.
-A
I like that, anon.
Night Fim, catch you later.
Anon, if you know where the switch is, you can turn them on yourself.
J
yeah sugarplum, let's see the new fangs ^_^
Oh and Wendy, not overly convinced that the store is the right move for me just yet. I'll have to feel it out over the next few weeks and see how it goes.
It can get awful depressing working at the petstore.
-A
What's your new position, Amy? I remember seeing your comment that you weren't crazy about the job. And BTW, I'd love to get your recipe for mango chicken, it just SOUNDS good.
J
is siobhan a vagetarian
it seems like she only eats girls.
Nite Fimble! Hey Amy!
Are you planning on visiting those countries, or living in one of them?
Hell no anon. She eats everything in her path. She eats tall construction buildings, innocent civilians, cars, houses, etc.
Picture her as Godzilla ^_^
Hi Sweetcheeks and Fimble and anyone else who said HELLO!
Sorry, I had to run to the mail room ;)
BC and Katherine: My fangs aren't NEW! I've had them for years.....
hehe
BC's the one with the new fangs!
Amy: You probably just need some time to 'settle in' again....
I hope that's all! We don't want you working somewhere that will get you depressed :/
Mayo: I hope you're doing well!
When comments reach over 3000, I start to worry.
*bites claws, nervously*
Anonymous said...
is siobhan a vagetarian
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LOL anonymous! On behalf of Siobhan:
*smacks you upside the head*
You must have missed the she would
f**k Phillip conversation!
J,
I'm the Presentation Manager, which means that overall, I'm responsible for how the store looks. It's not a horrible position or anything, I think it may be job switch anxiety. But the other thing is I keep reminding myself WHY i really left in the first place.
Also, the mango chicken recipe is a jar of Patak's Mango Chicken, some peas and some rice. And that's it!
It IS delicious though.
-A
Wendy, I knew it! That's why that dead thing, hangs around you ^_^
I wouldn't be surprised if all that love poetry has been anonymously dropped for you ;)
BC's the one with the new fangs!
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Ha ha it's not my fault that they're growing ;)
You must have missed the she would
f**k Phillip conversation!
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What the hell?! When did this happen? I must know details!
KD, visit, perhaps to live. You never know, right? I know people who live most of their lives out in one place and move to another in older age.
It's not always a home. XD
-A
Wendy, I definitely don't want to end up depressed over that job again, that's for sure.
The money is good, but not worth stressing my mental health over it.
-A
katherine dreier said...
Wendy, I knew it! That's why that dead thing, hangs around you ^_^
I wouldn't be surprised if all that love poetry has been anonymously dropped for you ;)
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LOL! I try to hide my fangs, Katherine. Honestly! ;)
Awwww.......I love poetry!
If any poetry has been dropped for me,
I thank the anonymous dropper...
wholeheartedly!
^a little rhyme of my own there^
;)
Amy, maybe as you go along, the job will get better, or you'll have a psychotic episode, one. ;) (That's a line from "Men in Black", BTW.)
HAHAHA, even I can cook THAT recipe! Thanks!
Wendy, we saw that "that dead thing", as KD so charmingly calls him, came in earlier and said "Have a good weekend." Does, uh, that mean he'll be missing? Have you got him chained up in the dungeon, by chance? Hmm? *bats eyelashes innocently*
Guys, I gotta go reload my pump, back in about 10.
J
I feel like biting something.
*Stuffs marshmallows in mouth*
See you soon J
Bleeding Chaos said...
You must have missed the she would
f**k Phillip conversation!
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What the hell?! When did this happen? I must know details!
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That was quite awhile ago BC! It was when someone asked the 3 questions about who would you marry, f**k, give a pedicure to...
something like that. ;P
Amy: Yep, no job is worth losing mental/emotional stabilty over!
No matter what the pay is - it's not worth it!
J: tell Sparkle I understood, perfectly!!!! Baaaaaa Baa Ba abaa BAAAAAAAA!
(translation: I wish I had been there to see her HAPPY DANCE)
:D
J, sadly a psychotic episode might be a nice break. I really should have taken a few days off before I started this job.
-A
Oh yeah, I remember that :)
*nibbles marshmallows*
Original Punks said...
Wendy, we saw that "that dead thing", as KD so charmingly calls him, came in earlier and said "Have a good weekend." Does, uh, that mean he'll be missing? Have you got him chained up in the dungeon, by chance? Hmm? *bats eyelashes innocently*
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Who? Me? I think perhaps you should check BC's wardrobe ;)
BC: Did you lock him in there AGAIN?
Well, Mayo, long days and pleasant nights to you my friend. Sweet dreams, okay? A nice long sleep and dreams of ferry boats on liquid gold. Miss you.
S(S)S, miss you too my dear, and I hope that you are well, rested, and doing whatever it is you most love to do.
Hey and remember, if you want: How would you taste, and how would you be cooked? That's maybe the weirdest thing I've ever asked on here.
Goodnight everyone, I need to get to sleep.
Well J, he is of the "deceased" variety!
Amy, the three countries you mentioned are all beautiful, and have highly individual cultures. I must admit my fav would be Japan. Italy is very rich in art and style!
Goodnight K.
Wendy, what do you mean I locked him in there again? He came on his own free will, and he liked it ;)
OM NOM NOM
Sorry, I deleted that long stupid rant about the nonsense I have going on in my life. It's too long and completely irrelevant and is nothing more than pointless, impotent bitching. This ain't my diary. ;) Sorry Mayo. Let's just say I have a lot on my plate lately and leave it at that.
Sweetest of dreams! ^_^
Goodnight Kapunua. It was good to read you here again!
Bleeding Chaos said...
Goodnight K.
Wendy, what do you mean I locked him in there again? He came on his own free will, and he liked it ;)
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I bet he did, BC!
The more important question (and answer) would be: Did YOU like it?
;)
I think he needs to do a little nibbling on Katherine tonight!
*wiggles eyebrows*
Where's Elena and Ergo?
Goodnight K
Amy: Is Lear with you? It's seems my Golden God is no where to be found...
Hmmm.....
Very good to read you as well, KD. ^_^
Hey anons, you know, if you've got anything to say, I jus want you to know: My blog is open to you. I welcome you to talk as much trash as you want there on MY blog. Everything you need to say rude things to me is all up there! Go crazy. I'm sure your voice will be heard. I won't delete them either, just go nuts. But it's got nothing to do with anything here, so can we just try that for a while?
Right.
KD, it's not only the art, it's the food.
I love sushi, and love italian anything.
Ergo's gonna have to educate me on Aussie foods though.
-A
I think Ergo said she'll be back in a bit, and not sure where Elena might be. Hmm.
To answer your question: That would be a YES! He was marvelous! ;)
I thought you looked radiant tonight BC!
Now I know, It's the afterglow!!!!
;)
Wendy, Lear's been tucked into bed for some time now..
I think.
-A
Sugarplum, if I had marshmallows in my mouth, I would have spat them all just reading your comment lol ^_^
But thank you :)
*hopes Lear is STILL safely tucked in bed*
Hey.....I think Amy needs a little nibbling as well!!!
Bleeding Chaos said...
Sugarplum, if I had marshmallows in my mouth, I would have spat them all just reading your comment lol ^_^
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That would have made a big, sticky mess BC! Ummm......I won't say what I'm thinking now.....
You are most welcome, Sweetcheeks!
hey everybody! how's it going?
hello mayo, how are you this fine friday evening?
here's how i am: tired, and worn out a bit, but currently pretty damn happy. last night about 7 pm me and my buddies took off out of seattle, and we arrived here in california almost 24 hrs later. no breaks, save for y'know, food and rest stops.
and coffee.
and ice cream at 1 am.
we've never all travelled together before, so things were up and down mood-wise. loud car karaoke usually managed to cheer us up!
but when we arrived at our crash-spot for the week-end (the old roommate of one of my concert buddies is putting us up at her teeny tiny apartment) i discovered that our hostess had an additional option to the futon and floor.
so i'm camping out in her grade school classroom, and she's even allowing me to use her office computer to catch up on everything! i have a camp pad on the floor at the back, and will be performing my nightly ablutions in the girls' bathroom two doors down.
isn't a hoot? what a great start to this month of adventure! :D
Lol. Hi squeak squeak, I hope you're well *hugs*
Amy, don't get me started an Italian food! I love it!
I love Japanese cuisine too, the sushi, the miso, tempura and the teas! Clean and healthy style of eating.
TJ!!!!!!!!!!!
*pounce tackle hug smooch*
Wendy, my neck is OFF LIMITS (only to some ^_~)
toujours said...
isn't a hoot? what a great start to this month of adventure! :D
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I'm so happy to hear you're having such an amazing adventure, TJ!
It sounds like so much fun. It was very nice of her to let you use her computer to catch up too!
How was Seattle??
HAY TEEJ!!
Glad to hear you're alright! Sounds like you're having the trip of a lifetime! I gotta give it a shot someday.
Lovelies, I'm gonna cut it short. I have an early day (again) tomorrow, but I'll be by in the evening, as usual!
Goodnight everyone! Goodnight Mayonaise and SS@!
-A
katherine dreier said...
Wendy, my neck is OFF LIMITS (only to some ^_~)
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Well, I hear he likes THIGHS too!
;)
hey again for a minute.
I have heaps on this weekend wendy so I won't be about as much , on and off when I can!
I read up when I get in.
Fangs...for the memories.....
hehe
Amy our food is very multicultural, it's heavily influenced by for example the british originally also italian and greek immigrants and of course the proximity to asia. It's probably our ingredients that differ a bit. We have access to a lot of bush foods which is great. A lot of stuff is very fresh and a lot of seafood is available, nearly everywhere being coastal. Simple cooking or BBQ outdoorsy. It is really hard to describe aussie food, quite adventurous and you'd find something you liked I'd say!
Goodnight Amy and sweet dreams to you and Lear!
I hope you have a better day at work tomorrow :)
Goodnight Amy, sweet dreams.
TJ!!!!!!!!!!!!
how fabulous!!!
great to hear your adventure is starting!!!!
Oh I hope you have a fab time, how long till the concert? hours?
Well, I hear he likes THIGHS too!
;)
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Oh no sugarplum. Did Siobhan told you about that? ^_^
Hi Ergo *waves*
ergoproxy said...
Fangs...for the memories.....
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Fangs, for the scothch!
;)
Try not to exhaust yourself too much, Ergo!
Hi TJ, I'm glad you're enjoying yourself!
Nite amy!
Wendy, I'm sure he has more than enough thighs to keep him engrossed!
Well, I'm back for a mo, getting kind of tired actually. Wendy, just read your email, will answer tomorrow probably. Interesting news, there...:D
J
Haha! I think you're correct (again) Katherine.
:))
I hope Angel is feeling better and makes an appearance tonight....
Hi J. If you're going to leave, goodnight and sweet dreams.
Welcome back J!!!!!!
I missed ya!
;)
Hey, guys. I hope you're all doing well.
Can't stay long.
I (also) wonder if Lewis and/or Martha will drop in tonight with a concert review.
I hope they found each other and had a great time!
Hi CTV!!!!!!
How are you? We don't much of you 'round these woods, lately.
Hi CTV. Long time no see. How are you?
Hello, Wendy! It's been a while, eh?
It's been TOO long CTV!
What's new with you?
BOB!!! *hugs and kisses* How are you, honey? I've missed you so much! I owe you an email, too.
Had to say "HI" before I went to bed. :)
J
Hello, BC. Good to see you.
I just woke up actually so every thing's all blurry and fucked up, y'know?
My throat's been killing me these days.
Goodnight J! Dream of handcuffs and dotuns....
I have a feeling that's what L dreamt of last night ;)
Goodnight and sweet dreams J. CTV, I'm alright, tired with a toothache, but I'm alright.
Are you feeling well? *hugs*
J!
*GLOMP*
I've missed you too, love. Both of you guys. I was just saying how good it was to see your name in blue again.
Let's hope we get a chance to talk properly one of these days, yeah? Tell L. I said hi.
Goodnight :)
CTV: I don't know if you've heard the news; BC has FANGS growing in!
;)
Katherine: Are you down in the basement getting your thighs nibbled by something?
Hmmm......
Well, Wendy, I have no idea really, but I suspect as much. :)
Night all, the bed be a-callin'. Take care, all you faboo ladies! Talk to you later!
Mayo, have a good one, brother. I'm thinking about you.
SS my precious, I'm thinking about you, too, as always. Sending you all my love and faith, to help you through the coming days and nights.
Goodnight BlogBelieve, remember its all about the love.
J
Nighty nite J!
TJJJJ!!!
I've missed you! Your roadtrip sounded awesome!! Just a little taste of the one we're going to take, right? :P
Wendy, you are going to drive him insane with passion for you with all this thigh talk!
BC, it's been pretty overwhelming these days.
Toothache? Ack. That's gotta be some painful stuff, yeah? :( I hope it feels better soon, love.
Hi and bye CTV night J
sweet dreams!
no angel or vampy one as yet?
It's weird being on this late.
Goodnight J. Sweet dreams.
Ha ha sugarplum!! Why don't you tell the world that I'm pregnant too lol ;p
oh ctv I thought you wrere off, poor you hope your throat is better soon
hey BC *waves*
PH *HUG*
katherine? wendy?....thighs?
Paperheart!!!!!!!
*big hug and smooch*
How are you tonight, love?
Ergo: Nope! No FANGS or WINGS yet....
except for mine, of course ;)
Alright, guys. It was nice talking to you again.
I'll see you all later. Goodnight!
Hey BC, Ergo, CTV!!, Six, KD! =]
*hug*
Six, I get my guitar back tomorrow!!! =] =] =] =] =] =]
No worries, Ergo :).
Goodnight!
Bleeding Chaos said...
Ha ha sugarplum!! Why don't you tell the world that I'm pregnant too lol ;p
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O_O
WOW! He a fast vamp, ain't he?
;)
Hi grasshopper, how are you? Ergo, no sign of either of them yet. Thanks CTV, that's why wendy is teasing me about the fangs thing.
Goodnight CTV! I hope your throat gets better soon!
Paper: That's GREAT news!!!!
Will you have it back in time for your lesson?
Hello, PH! S'been a while, eh?
We'll chat soon, promise. Take care, now.
And now I'm off for real this time!
katherine dreier said...
Wendy, you are going to drive him insane with passion for you with all this thigh talk!
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Me ????? NEVER!
:D
*hug* PH my dear!
Ergo, the formula so far is this:
W + T = thighs
Goodnight CTV. Sweet dreams.
Wendy:
Bwahahaha! Lol wow I'm tired.
Grasshopper, that's awesome news!
CTV, we better, I've missed ya! =]
Six, I'll pick it up just before my lesson. Better than nothing right? =]
BC, KD, I'm good how are you guys? =]
*hug* for everyone?
katherine dreier said...
*hug* PH my dear!
Ergo, the formula so far is this:
W + T = thighs
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O_O
I assure you all, there are no puncture wounds on these thighs!
:p
Paper: I bet you missed that 'gee-tar'! Did you have to call them and threaten to go 'teenager' on their butts if you didn't have it back before your lesson? ;)
BC: WAKE UP!!!!!
*hugs ph* I'm good, just a bit tired.
Is anyone gonna let me nibble them? >:)
I'm hungry.
I'm sorry sugarplum. I've been feeling tired since this afternoon. Last night I felt likt I slept for 14 hours. Yikes.
I would volunteer to let you nibble a little on me, BC; but, we know how JEALOUS my cousin Siobhan gets!
;)
Six, I was close to it! Too bad i had to work 10 hours today, otherwise I would've freaked!!! My dad's going to come with me to get it tomorrow then I'll be off to my lesson, words can't even describe how happy I am to get it back!!!
BC, I'm tired as well. =[
Ha ha that's true wendy. She's already jealous enough that she has to share me, lol :D
man, i couldn't get back on the site! i don't like firefox. :/
anyway, hi everyone who said hi! ♥
ergo, tomorrow morning i'm going over to the concert grounds -- i'm going to spend all day at bamboozle left and all day sunday as well. it looks like sunday is the day with all the juicy acts (including mcr that night!) but i'm looking forward to a great day of exploration tomorrow! the thing is, my "concert buddies" wimped out -- they're just going to drop me off and hang out, and then catch up with me later in the day. they decided they would rather just focus on seeing mcr sunday, plus a handful of some other bands that day.
*psh*
lightweights.
anyway -- paperheart! i have some news for you! i think i'm definitely going to be able to get you an autograph -- when my buddies and i got together yesterday, they told me that they found out gerard is doing a comic book signing in portland tuesday -- and we'll be there of course, waiting for our shows that night and the next, so that's how they want to spend the day. is that okay? a signed comic book?
(tbh, i'm unsettled by the prospect. the very last way i ever wanted to come face-to-face with gerard was at an autograph table. i've never felt comfortable in that situation, it's so stilted and contrived. you each have a role: "fan" and "star". i always felt i'd rather never meet him than to do so in that fashion -- but i've given up control of this trip to the fates, and this is what is in my path. my concert buddies are very excted about this, and it's the best way to get an autograph for paperheart, which i very much want to do! so i'll probably just hold my breath, be as polite and invisible as possible and as non-awkward as possible, get paperheart's autograph, and then get the hell out of dodge and go truly enjoy myself at the show that night!)
Don't forget to learn those HIM songs for us, Paper!
We still need to set the date for your Blogbelieve recital (and the after-party)
:D
Dear ladies What are we talking about here!! I felt a disturbance in the force...I have to tell you..when I was young my mother told me if I ever had any unclean thoughts I would turn to stone...And I do believe I feel some things hardening up already!! I'm trying to watch the Beaver!!! Ward.....
Aww grasshopper. Despite the tiredness I'm staying up. I'm a night prowler :)
I love the way everyone scatters as I mist about.
Good evening triston. Oh my, wendy, look at what we did to him ;)
TJJJJJJ! =]
That makes me totally happy!! like AHHHHHH! =] =]
I'm giving up on ever seeing My Chem live, so basically an autograph is all I've got left.
BC, I have to work again tomorrow, so I'll be going to bed within the next half hour; I made it through the day by having a pot of coffee for breakfast. =]
Hello Triston! You DO have a way with the 'entrance' lines!
;)
TJ: That's wonderful about getting the autograph for Paper!
I think she may have fainted....
Paper: are you okay????
I know you'll have a great time exploring on Sunday! Yeah, lightweights. They just want to nap on the ground while do all that fun exploring!
See Wendy, * wags finger at you*
I told you so!
Well Bc Hello to you!..The weather has destroyed my plans...and its getting so bad here I may even loose the computer..
Good Evening Triston!
Six, don't worry, if I can find those HIM songs (blushes) again, then I'll totally learn them!
Bleeding Chaos said...
Good evening triston. Oh my, wendy, look at what we did to him ;)
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Yeah, and we weren't even TRYING!
LOL
*wonders what would happen if we did try*
;)
er...
rereading that last part in my comment, i just realized it sounds a bit rude, doesn't it? i don't mean to be disrespectful or anything -- it's the general situation itself that creeps me out, not the idea of meeting gerard.
when i met frank last year at the seattle show, he was incredibly friendly, and i really think, based on what i've read, that they're all like that, so my qualms are more with that damn autograph table and cattle line.
*sigh*
i'm not explaining myself well, and it's a weird stance to take, anyway, isn't it. i think i was warped in my youth by an overdose of classic english literature -- it's given me an excessively heightened sense of interpersonal boundaries.
and this is a weird topic to be talking about here, too, isn't it?
*facepalm*
shutting up about it now. :/
katherine dreier said...
See Wendy, * wags finger at you*
I told you so!
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I'm sowwy! *blushes*
I have been a bad, bad girl ;)
*wags her finger at Paper for losing the HIM chords*
;)
Hello Paper..Just for you http://www.tabpower.com/
All the tabs you want!!
TJ, LOL.
I'm totally different when I meet anyone remotely "famous". Just last week at the Faber Drive concert, when I met the dudes from that band, and from Hello Operator, it felt like I was just talking to like my best friend, you know?
I think it's from working at A&W and having to talk to random people all day and not really knowing or caring about who they are.
Toujours, I'm thrilled for you! But bear in mind those guys are normal people just like you and I.
They feel nervous and anxious as well! Try not to feel intimidated by them, and just be yourself! Have fun!
paperheart, don't give up on seeing mcr! it will happen -- just look at howmany times i'm seeing them this month -- and none of it was planned really, it just all fell into place.
you'll get to see them, i know you will! and in the meantime, i'll get that comic book autographed for you. :)
and hello triston, i don't believe we've met? nice to have someone of your...proclivities... around the place.
*toothy grin*
Hello
Just popping in to say hi. I had two library sales today and about 700 books later I'm buried in work.
Miss you all
THANKS TRISTON!! =]
Damn, if ANYONE who organizes the My Chemical Romance tour schedule or whatever reads this blog, please set up a show in Grand Forks or Fargo, or Minneapolis in early June!!! =]
I hope you stay safe triston. Grasshopper, you drinking coffee brings back a lot of great memories :)
Why Thank You TJ It is a pleasure meeting you also!!!
And Hello Katherine....Dont try to shake me...My shadow has an eye on you also!!
Hey Elena! *hug*
TJ, it's not that I plan on giving up, and not that I'm thinking negatively on purpose, but I can't really see that band going anywhere anymore. I mean, with the way I've seen some of the dudes behaviour lately, and all, I just don't see it happening.
(BAD PAPERHEART! Don't think that little one!)
Hi elena. Take care.
toujours said...
er...
rereading that last part in my comment, i just realized it sounds a bit rude, doesn't it? i don't mean to be disrespectful or anything -- it's the general situation itself that creeps me out,
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I don't think your comment came across as rude, TJ. I think we all understood what you meant.
I agree! Those types of situations - autograph signings, meet and greets - they kind of creep me out as well!
The way I see it, if I meant to meet someone, I WILL!
Although, I do think it's wonderful that musicians, authors, other artist do such things these days. Having an autograph from or picture with a person someone admires; well, that's a memory I'm sure the fans cherish!
BC. =] It does, doesn't it?
LOL.
Mayo, SS, family...
I just wanted to drop by and say have a good weekend!
xoxo cupcake
Hi Elena; Bye Elena!
Perhaps we shouldn't mention BURIED in present company!
;)
You know what I hate though when people meet musicians and such?
The way the girls always drool over the band or whatever and say "OMG YOUR SOOO HOT!"
At the concert I was at on Tuesday, there were 12 year olds telling the dudes on stage to take of their shirts!! TWELVE FUCKING YEARS OLD PEOPLE!! Like honestly, WOW,
Where are you sugarplum? We're supposed to make triston think more unclean thoughts ;)
Well excuse me, dead things and I are not a good match!
And I am sure your shadow has more than enough potential mates to chase.
CUPCAKE;
Little missy, get your arse back here sometime soon, mmkay? I miss youu!
<3
CUPCAKE!!! It's my CUPCAKE!!!
Hi and bye, love!
*big hug and smooch*
thanks for the advice, paperheart and katherine. :)
it's not so much being intimidated exactly -- like i said, when i met frank, i honestly couldn't be nervous, he was just so friendly and warm. it's that whole autograph table thing, it's so creepy. it actually makes the person there into an object, i think.
the only good autograph table experiences i've had have been at comic cons, just getting to stand there and talk art with the artist. that was real, and memorable.
*sits up straight*
it will be okay. there's a reason for it, maybe. and i'll get paperheart her autograph. i can do it.
er...
i wan't going to talk about it anymore.
*embarrassed*
Why Katherine...You think me a tramp...I am appauled ;)
Well....sigh...harder than some easier than others I suppose...depends on my mood...right now its storming.....can you guess my mood....should we allow an angel to pass ;)
Awwh TJ. Don't get embarressed. I know what you mean.
The whole autograph table thing, it just seems like a whole trophy thing. Like that person is just up there for all to see, admire, you know what I mean?
A trampy vampyre? I've never heard such blasphemy!
;)
Ph, that's ridiculous. When I met mcr, I remember I was standing outside the record store and some girl was screaming so loud that my expression was like, "what the fuck?"
And I wasn't nervous at all when I met them. They're just dudes. Gerard was different though. He was standing too close to my liking and I immediately got shy.
Toujours don't be embarrassed *hug*
It's probably an uncomfortable situation for all. I would guess signings can be awkward for them as well. Their dealing with people they don't know, and some reactions are extreme!
If you just try to focus on enjoying the moment, it might relax you :)
I hate it when girls say stuff like "GERARDDD HAVE MY BABIES!"
The answer is no!
paperheartxx said...
The whole autograph table thing, it just seems like a whole trophy thing. Like that person is just up there for all to see, admire, you know what I mean?
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I thinks that's the way a lot of feel, Paper. Like the person/people behind that table are put on display - forced to be there - gawked and glared at!
It is creepy!
But, I suppose it says a lot about them to be willing to do that for the fans!
TJ: You'll do fine!
I can stay a few minutes, it's a weekend miracle!
Wendy it is a known fact that vampyres only want to suck ^_~
If I were EVER famous enough for people to even TRY to put me at a table to sign autographs, I'd tell those people to fuck themselves! I'd want to walk around and interact with people and sign stuff, not just sit there as people wait in a line to say hi, then walk away. I mean, I see the point, so it's kind of orderly, but it just seems so fake!
CUPPY CAKE!!
*flying bear hug*
;)
Triston: It is a bit stormy out tonight! Not good flying weather at all! ;)
The way I see it, if I meant to meet someone, I WILL!
that's my policy on it exactly. all the best things in my life have been from situations that were serendipitious.
Although, I do think it's wonderful that musicians, authors, other artist do such things these days. Having an autograph from or picture with a person someone admires; well, that's a memory I'm sure the fans cherish!
and i do have to agree with you, wendy. i've read some fan accounts of the earlier comic book signings, and they all described such lovely experiences.
and this one will be fine, i'm sure. and i'll be one of many people there -- i'll just stand in line and take my turn and that will be that and i'm just worrying over nothing, as usual.
gosh! am i super-chatty tonight or what? have i made a single small comment????
it's just so nice to be here without being on a library computer! :)
Ph, what makes it weird is that when you're an adult and you're going to a concert where there's a lot of young teens and kids, it makes you feel weird. It always does for me.
Triston, so how is your mood tonight? Good, bad, or naughty?
P<3, I wuuuuv you! *huggles*
BC, I can imagine the feeling!
BC, I can imagine the feeling!
katherine dreier said...
Wendy it is a known fact that vampyres only want to suck ^_~
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LOL!!!!
And bite! But only after the area has been tenderized, properly!
;)
I'm rarely in a bad mood...either of the other too would be sufficient...I can turn on a dime!!...say the secret word type thing...
aw, thanks for all the kind and understanding words, guys!
i actually can't believe i was talking about this here, of all places. but here's where my friends are, right? :)
Well, triston is good at sucking ;)
Hi cupcake, how are you ol' delicious one? *tackle hugs*
TJ: we're glad you're super chatty! And glad you have access to a computer to allow you to be chatty tonight!!!!
CUPCAKE: Since I haven't told you lately, I love you!!!! :)
Why is blogger posting my comments twice?
Have I Ever Told You...
by Gianella Ramirez
Have I ever told you
When I stand still
I can hear the beating of your heart,
Beating along with mine?
Have I ever told you
When the soft wind caresses my face
I think it is you, blowing me sweet kisses
From where you stand?
Have I ever told you
When my arms feel empty
I hug myself and, somehow, I feel the warmth
Of your body embracing mine?
Have I ever told you
when I'm missing you
I close my eyes and in my mind
I'm safe in your arms?
Have I ever told you
No matter how this world separates us
We are still one person
Until the end of time?
--My darling,
I read this poem and knew immediately I must share it with you. It speaks of everything I feel for you.
Cupcake, I didn't see you sneak in, Hi!
BC said...
Triston, so how is your mood tonight? Good, bad, or naughty?
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I guessing it's a bit of all three!
;)
Hi BC, Wendy, TJ, Triston... am I missing anyone?
Anyway, *HUGS* for all!
I hope you're all well.
BC...Honestly I go to concerts...my favorite concerts though are when I am looking down at everyone from the stage...If I don't have to stand in that mess I dont. People pushing , fights breaking out....
Angel!!! Hello! How are you tonight? Are you feeling better?
I saw you said you were a little
"blue" last night.
Beautiful lyrics, by the way!
*big hug for Angel*
KD, hello there sweetie :)
And hello Angel.
Hello Cupcake and how are you tonight?
Can I nibble on you now Wendy? I'm hungry :) or how about you triston? ;)
Ph, if there was magical powers, you can trade places with me and go to my mcr shows. I seen them so many times I want to go check out other bands now. I think the shows coming up are gonna be my last ones.
*edit*
Sorry Angel, I meant a beautiful poem.
*blushes*
Sweety you can nibble on me anytime!
BC requires feeding, Triston.
Perhaps you could do a little something about that!
;)
I'm alright Triston, energized, because I slep5t for 14 hours straight. How are you?
Well I am not slept for 14 hours good...But I will survive! Stuck home on a Friday is a rarity!
Hello angel. Lucky you triston. My last concert, I felt like I was being molested 0_o
Mayonaise;
I guess this is goodnight again? This week flew by quicker than expected. Sadly, I wish that I accomplished more than eat, sleep, and work. Oh well.
I'm listening to My Chemical Romance; duh. For some reason, listening to them brings back old emotions. Feelings that I haven't felt in a long time. I can't describe it as much as I'd like, but it just makes me feel like everything will be okay. I feel peaceful and happy. Optimistic? There really is just something about this band that makes me feel unique. Have you ever listened to a band or song and felt and overwhelming sense of security? Fuck. I can't explain it! lol. I tried, believe me. Really, there is just something about that band. No matter how many times I want to leave them in the past, I can't.
Anyways, I guess that this is goodbye for now Mayonaise.
xoxo;
- 007
<3
How are all of you people getting so much sleep? I want to know the secret. PLEASE tell me!
Well, I could drink another bottle of GlenLivet again, I suppose....
but, that only gets me 4 hours and I would feel like crud tomorrow...
Nevermind.......
Of course I could...would not be much different then the marshmallow incident earlier......Molested you say....hmmmm....could very well be one of my favorite hobbies! :D
Goodnight Paperheart,
Sleep well, sweetheart :)
Goodnight Paperheart and sweet dreams to you, love!
Good night guys.
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