I will repeat it again and again.
For thirty-two, then thirty-three
time stopped. But, when does it end?
With empty rooms and unfilled beds,
and desperation; the last moments
and too many words left unsaid.
I am copying each name with bold black ink onto plain white card, filling the empty space with the only tangible evidence I have. One at a time I place a card face down before me while I consider each as if it were my own. Then, on the back of each card I write my name.
I can, but they cannot.
So, I will.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
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I remember that. When I heard about it, I was laughing my ass off. They should have made those shirts and sold them. I wanted one.
RW, I tried my hardest! I was obviously not as stealthy as Smoke. :(
Smoke, you're forgetting one necessary fact.
None of Mayo's doors lock!
Bwuahahaha.
O_o
Shit.
hey mayo, what are you doing outside, dude? it's a nice day -- get your butt inside and post a new entry!
um, said with affection and respect, of course.
*cheeky grin*
Well, if you're gonna do that, I'll leave you to your bizznezz.
;)
What's up today? Why were you slinging brushes?
Awww, snap!
Mustard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just, ewwwww. ^_^
Oh, cuz I was not in a good mood. One of those days where nothing looked right, fit right or sounded right.
Just grrrrr.
It's all good now though.
Ooops, that didn't make much sense.
I read it as you running to the bathroom door, not bedroom.
:/
Oh, well you had the same beginning to your day as I had with mine!
Glad things are better though. :)
Hiiii!
Simon Says take a bite of your sandwich, Splash!
So Mayoooooo! I bought not one, but two cherry trees. I found ones that were really cheap! They're kind of little but already flowering. Are you happy for me? :D
Right now I'm making lunch for The Girl and then we're gonna go plant trees and flowers. It's a nice day, not too hot, a little chilly though maybe. Mayo, are you outside enjoying some nice weather? I hope so!
Hey, Jules!
Why am I biting a sandwich, huh?
Because Simon says, Splash.
Now cheeeeew!
SIMON DIDN'T SAY!
I feel verbally violated.
;)
Wassup?
Mayo,
What ya doin?
You always do.... ^_^
Hey Princess!
The Girl is playing Brawl. I gotta go plant some treeeeeees! :D
Hi Solly!
Yeah Mayo, what ya doin'? Hiding bodies? O_o ;D
Hey, Sdock! RW and I thought your brain 'sploded. O_O
Have fun, Jules! Thanks for posting the video! :)
I am eating a pomegranate posicle.
Not as good as it was yesterday.
WTF?
Here's the picture of TJ I promised!
Harley girl!
Aw, you got a popsockle dud.
No good.
I'm eating watermelon.
YUMMMMY!
Solly,
I got the raspberry ones with acai, too. They have little bits of raspberry in them and the seeds.
They taste kind of weird. O_o
Elena,
Great pic of TJ!
I don't know what happened. Those popsicles was good to me yesterday, but not today.
I want watermelon.
Well come and get some! I gots a whole big bowl full that I just cut up. It's good and seedless, too.
My sweet daddy brought it to me.
Well, maybe not to me exactly. More like to LHM but oh well. ^_^
I'm too lazy.
There I said it.
You suck.
I love the pic, Elena!!
No, no I don't.
I'm just lazy.
And just for that reason...you suck.
You don't love me enough to come eat watermelon with me. What kind of sister are you?
Now, I'm sad. :(
You can't guilt me.
Muahahahah!!!
LALALALALA
You do not love me therefore I do not hear you.
Awwwwh Gawwhd Bwess Yoooo!
My sister doesn't eat watermelon with me either.
'Course, she's in Australia, so it would be an awfully long way for her to come...
:(
You're making me cry.
Well, mine is only about ten minutes away and she still won't come eat watermelon with me.
:(
Um, watermelon has a nasty-ass texture.
I don't like it.
She should be ashamed of herself.
Making the princess cry.
Boo-hoo-hoo-hoo.
I can't even see the screen for all the tears.
The Princess doesn't cry.
Try again.
Mustard! Noooo!
It does have to be crunchy though. I don't like mushy watermelon. Ewwwwwwww.
There's nothing better than crunchy watermelon and salt.
Except maybe, ummmm, butter.
Butter rules.
Just sayin'.....
Oh, Snap!
You did say last week you didn't cry!
Don't like watermelon??
Does not compute!
STFU, Solly. I do, too.
Like once I did. I think.
STFU, just STFU!
The only fruit you will ever get me to eat:
1. Strawberries
2. Bananas
3. Strawberry Banana SMOOOOOOTHIE
4. Green grapes
5. Fresh peaches (*sings* Gonna eat me lotsa peaches.)
6. Pineapple
NOT watermelon. >_<
I can remember being little and watching a movie with you and mama and you two would just be all boo-hooing and stuff and I'd be like, wtf?
Ummm, I don't get it!
^_^
Peaches come in a can
They were put there by a man!
Yeah, over a bad hairdo or something.
Mustard,
Did you think of a topic?
No blueberries or raspberries, Mustard?
The only fruit that I won't eat is mango. I don't like mango.
Bleh.
Other than that, I eat any fruit.
I could live off of fruit.
^_^
And butter.
Yes, ma'am, but you were 'posed to be putting it in question form.
I told you I'm not good at topic picking. You're the best ever, not me.
Oh, are we doing Food for Thought?
Too seedy, RW.
I don't like having to pick them out of my teefs.
Plums are my favorite, but peaches run a close second.
My ex boyfriend worked in a peach canning factory in Georgia one summer. He said he could never eat peaches after that. The smell killed him.
Hello, Star!
I have to ask. What did the peach canning factory smell like?
And don't say peaches. >.<
Oooh, I bet that was rank. Stanky fruit is terrible.
Oh, btw, hello, Mustard, Smoke, Sdock, RW. I got all excited talking about plums and peaches that I forgot to say hi!
Hi Star! ^_^
Grrrr...I can't think of how to put it in question form either.
Food For Thought
LOSS
What have you lost that you wish you could find or have back again?
How did you get over losing it? Have you completely gotten over it?
How is that?
Stanky ass froots.
Bah!
Now we know why they chose Froot of the Loom.
Froot. I'm gonna spell it this way 4 Ever And Ever.
Mustard,
No, nothing icky.
He said it smelled like peaches and this overwhelmingly cloying sweet scent of sugar.
Hey Star!!
Hey Smoke!
Hey RW!
Hey Mustard!
Hey Mayo!
Man, I don't think my topic was such a good topic. :/
mayo: *typey typey typey*
*pauses*
*searching for a word*
*lightbulb moment*
*typeytypeytypeytypeytypeytypeytypeytypey*
Canned peaches don't even taste like peaches. They just taste like syrup.
But they is yummy with some cottage cheese on top!!!
Mustard = Froot Loop.
Bah!
Eff you, Smoke.
;)
Mustard,
Yes, it was a good topic.
You can take it several different ways.
Loss of time, loss of a relationship, loss of self, loss of dreams, loss of love, loss of a loved one, loss of a possession....see, it was good.
Hi, Star! :D
Hey, Solly! :D
I am tarting myself up again. But this time I actually have someplace to go!
You ♥ me, Mustard. You do.
The only big thing I've ever lost is perspective.
I get it back, but then I lose it, then I get it back, and then I lose, it and then...
Getting tarted up is fun!
Where ya going, RW?
I've lost my mind a couple of times but I got it back! ^_^
I think. O_o
You ♥ me, Mustard. You do.
I do.
I do, I do, I do, I do, I DO!
Froot Loop ♥ Poke Smoke
What? I couldn't think of anything that rhymed.
Hee-hee. ^_^
Mustard,
Lyrics for you. I have posted them before, but I think today you might need to hear them again.
Gravity
Caught in the shadows
My head is spinning
Everything's moving around and around
And the people were betting
And the loser that's winning
Is the one who has dibs on my face in the ground
And I know, "Hey, Suck it up girl"
And I know, "It's perspective you lack"
But my list is red starfish and blue lizards' tails
And I mark one thing off and five more come right back
Well I like the concept of tight vacuum packed
Let's shove fifty pounds of shit into a ten pound bag
So that keeps me chasing my tail all around
And most of the time it's just me being wagged
And I know I'm at the brow of my being
And I know it's hard to look down
And I'm probably as free as I ever will be
Still I choose to live like I'm gagging and bound
Well I wonder what it's like to walk around weightless
To jump for your heart and never come down
To know the potential of true human will
Without all of this gravity just dragging us down
And I know, one day we will wake up
And I know, and start to live as ourselves
And not let the cowards of history claim us
And stop pointing our fingers at everyone else
Sums it up, right? Fuck yes.
I'ma going to a Badass Backyard BBQ of Doom!
Yes, fuck yes.
And why the hell do we, in general, feel like there's no one else out there that gets it, hmm? WTF?
BABBQ o'DOOM
Sharpie that on yourself, RW! ;)
Loss. Thats an interesting topic. Let me give it some thought...
Where shall I Sharpie it, Mustard??
RW,
Do it. I dare you. And take a pic. Oh and go buy me sumfin'. ^_^
Hey there Anon!
I'm not going to the shops today, S&V, so I can't getcha anything :(
But I can bring you back some yummies from the BBQ!
Loss.
Well, of course there have been people that I've lost that I wish I could have back. Even though I know they are probably alot happier where they are now.
Time.
You wake up one day and realize that you're not getting any younger and it's scary. I haven't dealt with that one yet.
Princess likes to procrastinate. One of my many faults. ^_^
Loss is interesting, but how about the shit that we hold on so tightly to that we never let go of?????
How about that?
Okay, so maybe it wasn't such a bad topic idea.
RW:
I'm not even gonna say. ;)
And then there are some things that you think you lost but you realize you never really had them to begin with....people, confidence, love.
Like what the most important thing to you and why?
Oh jeez...
Independence.
I do not like depending on anyone else. Not my husband (which causes conflict) or anyone.
Only Solly for buying my concert tickets. ^_^
I have no answer, Sdock.
Mostly, the only thing I don't let go of are memories. But, what sucks is that I tend to hold on to the bad ones more often than the good ones.
I guess it allows me to see where I came from or how far away I've gotten from it or something. I'm not really sure.
Or do we hold on to the bad ones because we always want to be reminded? It's a way of keeping ourselves in check. A way to let the fear stay in control.
Smoke,
You know I will buy you concert tickets as long as there is breath in my body and I have a credit card.
Who do we want to go see next?
Hello, Anonymous. Almost lost you there. :)
And then there are some things that you think you lost but you realize you never really had them to begin with....people, confidence, love.
Yep, and then it's a slap in the face when you finally realize it.
Loss:
This seems so trivial, I don't even know if I should say it, but here goes.
Recently, I've lost some friends who got married before I did, and then had children. I've been married for 3 years, with no children. They hardly ever call me or invite me anywhere anymore. When I asked about it, they said that I am in a totally different place than they all are, and it's hard for them to relate.
I know that's true to a certain extent, but it still bothered me.
RW:
I'm not even gonna say. ;)
0_0
Or do we hold on to the bad ones because we always want to be reminded? It's a way of keeping ourselves in check. A way to let the fear stay in control.
Yeah, that too.
And I don't understand that if it's a bad memory, why you don't suppress it. I thought that's what was supposed to happen.
I guess we make a concious effort to keep it around because we need it. I don't know.
No, Star. That is not trivial at all. I've been there because I was the married one.
Nobody called me anymore when they were going out and doing stuff and I was married.
So. >_<
LOSS
Time.
You wake up one day and realize that you're not getting any younger and it's scary. I haven't dealt with that one yet.
I have and it's fucking scary. So many things you realize you wish you'd done. So many missed opportunities. Moments gone that you wish you could have back. Maybe just for one day. Just to have the chance to see what things would have been like if you'd traveled down another path. TIME - it moves so quickly, I try to grasp it but it slips through my fingers.
I've been married for 3 years, with no children. They hardly ever call me or invite me anywhere anymore. When I asked about it, they said that I am in a totally different place than they all are, and it's hard for them to relate.
I know that's true to a certain extent, but it still bothered me.
Oh man, Star. That's really hard. I've dealt with the same thing recently myself, not being in the same frame of mind, the same area of life as some of my friends. And the outcome wasn't so great for me, but I understand where you're coming from.
It does hurt. But, just because you're taking your time, so to speak, doesn't mean you aren't the same friend they knew and loved, you know?
You know what's bad, Mustard? To see someone who should remember things but doesn't. Mainly because he can't. Partly by his own doing and partly by accident.
It's heartbreaking sometimes.
So hold on to all of those memories. The good and the bad.
You know what's bad, Mustard? To see someone who should remember things but doesn't. Mainly because he can't. Partly by his own doing and partly by accident.
It is bad. Especially when that little one is involved, or his family in general.
To want something so badly, but not be able to have it (or recall, in this case), it's a terrible feeling.
Star, its not trivial, and I can understand why their attitude would make you feel that way.
Its a shame your 'friends' seem to define the value of friendship based on demographics.
Hey there again, Anon. :)
Yeah, it sucks. You can make time for who you want, ya know? Just because you're married doesn't mean all your single friends are like the plague or something and vice versa.
Well, time for me to head out & go eat things wot has been grilled.
Have a good day, everyone! :)
Bye, RW. :) Have fun and eat messy!
Byeeee, RW! Have fun!!
Bring me back sumfin' good to eat!
^_^
Have fun, RW!
Smoke, ever since your dinner last night, you made you crave ribs and potato salad.
I'm having pasta tonight, though.
Mustard,
You haven't even brought up your "lost" copy of LOTMS in today's discussion.*
*is shocked
It's a memory I'm attempting to suppress.
>_<
Haha!
Potato salad is yumminess.
It's a memory I'm attempting to suppress.
Good luck with that around here. ^_~
NOM NOM NOM!
Potatoes are one food that taste delicious almost any way you cook them.
Yhus, I know. Always talking 'bout it, making references, and here I sit, mourning the loss of my beloved DVD.
But, I still have the second disc, so...I guess I'll just watch it over and over and over and over again.
I'm pretty sure potatoes will rule the world one day.
Mashed potatoes
Baked potatoes
Fried potatoes (I had never heard of this in my entire life.)
Julienned potatoes
Grilled potatoes
Potato salad
French Fries
The potato is like priceless.
Just sayin'....
Or would you like Smoke and I to act out the first disc for you???
Potatoes rock my world, Star.
Well, they didn't make a Mr. Tomato Head now, did they?
I rest my case.
Stewed potatoes
potato chips
raw potatoes
Totally!
OMG, I've got all of Gerard little tics down. I swear to God. And Mikey's 'what-nots'. ^_^
******************************
It's all about the potatoes.
Totally.
Scene 1:
Backstage
Warm-ups
Mikey thumping away (LOL?!)
"TWO MINUTES!"
"Two minutes? Two minutes!"
ARRRRGH! I need it back for serious.
potatoes au gratin
potato stuff inside of pierogies
potato wedges
roasted yukon gold potatoes
potato leek soup
Star,
I ♥ you.
Smoke said:
It's all about the potatoes.
Totally.
Seriously, Smoke, truer words have never been spoken!
You guys all went off to watch LOTMS, didn't you?
*mumbles*
Stupid rub-it-inners.
I love you too, Mustard!
OH MY GAWWWHD!!
How could I forget????
My lost unicorn!!!!
*is sad*
*sighs*
*knows unicorn is not really "lost"*
But still....
^_^
OMG, a loaded baked potato or mashed potatoes with lots of butter can cure just about anything.
For sure.
You have my respect for listening to your heart and following your own path, Star. I hope you encounter much love, laughter and enlightenment along the way. Never compromise. You will never regret staying true to yourself. I promise.
Mustard,
I thought about popping it in the dvd player, but that would just be wrong. I can't do that to you.
Plus, the dvd player is like waaaaaay over there.
Mustard,
I can't watch LOTMS right now because my husband is alternating between playing Guitar Hero and watching the Pope on the tv in the living room.
Good times!
getting ready to go sucks.
we'll be heading out soon -- about an hour, i think. tonight, i'll be back on greyhound, heading north, heading to the band i'm practically stalking (sorry, guys!), but now it's zipping up my belongings in a suitcase, removing my belongings from this house where i wasn't a guest but family.
i was hoping to have new words to take with me on the road, mayo-sama, but i know you post when you can, and it isn't like i don't already carry a pocketful of your words with me. *grin*
we'll be hanging around online until it's time to go, i'm sure. i don't think i'll have an internet connection for a few days, so play nice in my absence!
now, i think i need to polish up my inner bob.
brb ;)
Thank you very much, Anon.
That was wonderful of you to say.
Anon, that was nice. :)
So, do you like potatoes, too?
Cuz we ♥ them hardcore.
Just sayin'........
^_^
smoke&venom20 said...
OMG, a loaded baked potato or mashed potatoes with lots of butter can cure just about anything.
This is proven fact.
No regrets, right? That was a pleasant thing to say, Anonymous. :)
Haha! I take it you do then. :)
Butter, sour cream, bacon bits, salt, pepper, and chives.
Awwwh snap!!
Um, a baked potato with Heinz 57 wins all of that.
Just statin' facts.
Serious question:
Potato Salad with Mayo
OR
German Potato Salad?
I don't really like mayo (the condiment), so It's German for me.
I don't think you can mess up a tater.
I mean, can you?
Is it possible?
I ♥ TATER-TOTS!
Mustard,
You are the 2nd person who has said that to me this week. I know someone who likes to put bbq sauce on their mashed potatoes.
What is German potato salad?
O_O
Potato Salad with Mayo
OR
German Potato Salad?
You must be thinking crazy thoughts, Star.
Potato Salad with Mustard.
I'm not biased. At all. ;)
Seriously though, I'm not big on mayonnaise either.
Star,
I don't like mayonnaise the condiment either, so if I eat potato salad, it can't be all gushing mayo and be all runny and shit.
You have to have Mustard and Mayo.
Mixed together.
^___^
Tater-Tots!!
Smoke,
Tell them that tater tots are the breakfast of real rock stars!!
You are the 2nd person who has said that to me this week.
No way!
I don't know what it is. It adds a bit of *ZING* to it. I'm not so sure I could do BBQ sauce though.
German Potato salad is mixed with oil, white vinegar and little bits of onion.
Oh, no. No, no, no.
Actually, it's prolly good but I just have never tried it.
You have to have Mustard and Mayo.
Mixed together.
^___^
What gets said on the the blog, stays on the blog, do you hear?
Bwuahaha.
But, yeah, and you have to have pickle relish. And hard-boiled eggs. And some S&P.
Tater-Tots are the bestest thing. Fo'Real.
No joke.
Especially with lots of garlic salt.
Do you realize we've spent the last half hour discussing taters?
O_O
German Potato salad is mixed with oil, white vinegar and little bits of onion.
Nuh uh. I don't like vinegar, no offense Smoke, but it hurts my mouth.
The inner Bob is strong with this one.....
TJ got 86% on Rock Band. It's only her fourth time playing....
Perhaps she has a new career in the making.....
Better watch out BOB
Ok, all this spud talk is making me hungry, so I am going to go outside for a bit and play with my dogs.
Maybe it will take my mind off of taters.
If not, I will kill some time and it will be that much closer to supper and I can cook me a loaded baked tater!!!
I got all the toppins!
Jealous much? Yep, I know you are.
And if you were a sweet sister, you'd bring me one. >_<
I'm off to take a nap.
All this potato chat has made me very relaxed and sleeepy!
See you all later!
Bye, Sdock! Bye, Star!
So is it just you and me, Mustard?
And the taters?
...And then silence washed over.
what about Home Fries
O_O
Looks as though!
Or not!
But Tater Talk is still poppin'!
So what exactly is Home Fries?
Aren't those like steak fries?
You know, the rectangular ones that look like a potato version of Gumby?
Steak fries are awesome.
Honestly, I do not think it's possible to mess up a tater.
End of story.
Home Fries, are cut up potatoes fried in butter or oil.
*runs in to get doggies some treats*
Yeah, aint those like thick sliced taters all fried up?
I don't believe I've ever had a Home Fry then!
In butter? Really?
But aren't they like really thick cut with the skins still on?
Or have I lost my mind?
How bout taters sliced and cooked in oil with onions??
OH MY GAWWHD! Pure yumminess!
I just got back from my concert in Detroit and let me just say that Frank is the definition of a righteous dude. He let me and my friend hang out with him for about an hour so he could pet and love on her dog while he signed autographs. Believe me he only asked the dogs name though. It was all about Otis. He also signed a pic for my daughter which was truly lovely. I will write more later after I catch up with the comments.
Aw, Detroit Anon, that's awesome!
Can't wait to hear how it went! It's been like pulling teeth trying to find reviews of the shows!
hi mayo, SS and the lovely blogbelieve family!!
quick in and out from me!!
had a fab time away at the wedding this weekend. don't need to tell you how bad my hangover was today!!! gotta be done in my opinion!! so much free booze!!
i find it really amusing that no matter how gleaming, polished and gorgeous we all looked on the actual day..........the following morning, coming down for breakfast in the hotel we all looked ropey as fuck!!!
really funny!! hard to recognise some people!!
anyway guys hope you've all had a fab weekend. i am now unpacking and getting organised for tomorrow morning!! so much to do!!
glad you didn't post yet mayo, i hate missing it by a day or whatever!! hopefully read spomething new from you tomorrow morning UK time!
gotta disappear guys, sorry i can't stop. thought of you this weekend. there was a condiment mention of american pop idol as well where simon cowell said this girl's performance gave the bun but the meat in the hamburger was missing!! and then one of them said but there were condiments there.....there was mustard and mayo!!
i almost said "how dare you talk about them out in the real world!!!!"
oh and Kapunua.......last thurs in the UK was the House with the mayonnaise scandal or whatever!! i grinned like a fuckin fool!!!
right i am outa here!!
love to you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hello Home Fries Anon.
I'd better be going guys.
Thank you for the 'tater' talk!
thanks detroit anon!!!!
wow!
Home Fries, are cut up potatoes fried in butter or oil.
OMG. Pure heaven right there.
Detroit Anon,
Sounds like you had an awesome time. :)
Gah! Hi and Bye FASC!
Bye, Anonymous! Thank you as well!
Bye, Anon!
Hello Detroit Anon!
Home Fries Anon!
See ya, Anon! Hope you have a good one!
^_^
in New York City we have a place called Pom Frites, where all they sell are french fries and dipping sauces. its awesome!
God, I would die. ^_^
A whole shoppe dedicated to French Fries?!
Oh my god, I would steer clear.
Sorry I just barged in in the middle of your conversation, but I did have home fries this morning and they were really good.
I will try to give a full account of my experience later when I have more time, but I need to go pick up my daughter at my sis's house.
I think I will be smiling for at least a month after last night. Truly a memorable time.
That should read detroit anon.
Detroit Anon,
Please do! We'd love to hear all about it. :)
Detroit Anon, I know the feeling.
I couldn't wipe the grin off of my face after my concert. And the first words out of my mouth after leaving the venue were, "If I died tonight, I would die happy."
I'm ready to go to New York to the french fry place.
...just sayin
It's all about the taters! ^_^
That it is!
Thanks dude!
sweet potato fries are awesome too.
Taters!!!
Toenails, Bunnies, Frogs, and Geese! Oh MY!
I couldn't help it.
Sweet Potato Fries Anon,
You are most definitely correct.
I like them as well.
pommesfrites.ws
that's the website for pomme frites
Not bothering with the usual "people and pets I loved" etc. and lost through death or just how things change--because those things are the obvious answers--I'm gonna have to say my ability to walk into the ocean without fear. I got my first real bad injury actually in the ocean. And since then I've been terrified of it even though it had nothing to do with the ocean itself. I love the ocean and I used to just go right into it and swim and body surf and a few times regular surf. But I'm deeply afraid of it now and I wish I wasn't. It's so weird.
Also I wish I had my writing mojo back, which is a joke because there's no such thing as "writing mojo;" it's just making yourself sit the hell down and write. So I guess I mean 'ambition." ^_^
And my love and joy for my job.
Niiiiiice!
I am having taters tonight for supper.
...just sayin
Recently, I've lost some friends who got married before I did, and then had children. I've been married for 3 years, with no children. They hardly ever call me or invite me anywhere anymore. When I asked about it, they said that I am in a totally different place than they all are, and it's hard for them to relate.
I know that's true to a certain extent, but it still bothered me.
I kno how you're feeling, Star. The girl who was my best friend for years started feeling differently about me when she had her first child. She felt that we didn't have much in common anymore.
I'm sorry that you're going through that too. It sucks.
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