I will repeat it again and again.
For thirty-two, then thirty-three
time stopped. But, when does it end?
With empty rooms and unfilled beds,
and desperation; the last moments
and too many words left unsaid.
I am copying each name with bold black ink onto plain white card, filling the empty space with the only tangible evidence I have. One at a time I place a card face down before me while I consider each as if it were my own. Then, on the back of each card I write my name.
I can, but they cannot.
So, I will.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
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«Oldest ‹Older 2201 – 2400 of 3839 Newer› Newest»And by the way, it's about seventy five degrees today. As Fim would say, WHOOP WHOOP! ^____^
well, not sure. i should be asking you if my duck wil show up, seing as the last time i saw him and the last place i left him was in your bed, next to your kitties and your pile of ....
;)
Wow, K! Maybe the shit hit the fan with that one guy who's been giving you all grief. Let us know when you know, eh! :)
next to your kitties and your pile of ....
Dirty socks?
seventy five degrees hey, bloody lucky bugger hehehehe. its about that or hotter down here.
have fun and i will catch you later when you can give us all the goss hehehehe.
Crisp wrappers?
its a 4 letter word.
can anybody guess what your sirty secret is hehehehehehe
its a 4 letter word.
Yarn?
I have a sirty secret??
0_0
What is a sirty secret?
nah hehehehe.
spam?
you love spam so much you sleep with it?
OMG, TYPOS.
sirty = dirty
*smacks head*
hey rw, what silliest, most embarassing thing you have done when yoyu have been drunk, tipsy, under the influence of happy juice.
*thinks*
Well, you could count the amount of times I've been drunk on one hand (I'm not much of a drinker). But there was this one time in New Orleans when my friends and I went out one night dressed in our Vampire Lestat fan club attire, complete with custom-made fangs, and some random guy came up to me and asked me to bite him on the neck. So I did.
How about you? What silliness have you gotten up to while under the influence??
In and out, not staying.
To the anon at 3.19 am who left The Cure lyrics: that was so sweet, thank you. I do so love The Cure, and "Pictures of You" is one of my very favorite songs. Now I have a big, happy (if still sleepy) smile all over my face!
FangBang, great to see you have a bluename now! How cool. (L used to have a fish named Fang, so I remember the name fondly.) Hope to catch you tonight, honey.
Hi and bye to Fim and RW, hope you have lovely days. We have some rain here, but it's nice.
Elena, TJ: enjoy your day today, sweeties. Do something wild and wicked, and don't feel guilty about it, ok? HAVE ALL THE FUN YOU CAN FIND. Love you both.
Gotta run, guys. Later!
J
oh and note for mad and high anon.
cheers for dropping by, and they will totally win this season. i am hoping they win today. hope to see you soon. :)
*comes in and turns stereo on*
O_O O_o @_@
*castle shakes*
GOOD GRIEF!!!!! WHO did that???
Hmmm....
*notices little possum prints around stereo*
Umm hmmm...I should have KNOWN! ;)
Good *insert time of day here* Mayo, SS, TJ, Elena, Possum, Ergo, RW, Fimble, TLA, MIB, Solly, Smoke, Oranges and other anons, saints and sinners of blogbelieve!
How are you all on this scumptuous Saturday? Happy, healthy and well fed, I HOPE!
My apologies for being late this morning (it is still (barely) morning here). I actually DID get to sleep before sunrise - and slept a little over 5 consecutive hours. T'is a wonderful thing to do once a month or so! ;)
RW: I think your BALLGOWN OF DOOM was the STAR of the show!
TJ: I'm waiting to see pictures of the hair masterpiece created by Elena. :D
Ergo: I think the spousal unit just MISSED YOU! :)
To ponder today:
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Who is blind? He who can see no other world. Who is dumb? He who can say nothing pleasant about his lot. Who is poor? He who is troubled with too many desires. Who is rich? He who is happy with his lot.
- Indian Proverb
You can never be happy at the expense of the happiness of others.
- Chinese Proverb
The foolish man seeks happiness in the distance, the wise grows it under his feet.
- James Oppenheim
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Have a great (and HAPPY) day/night everyone!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
PIXIE & SIOBHAN: I'm here in the middle of the day. Where are my two cousins? I know it's not that late in Finland and Germany. Ya'll can't be snoozing yet! ;)
morning everyone, morning mayo.
today's "get ready to go" day.
*sigh*
but i still get to do some work for elena at her shop -- today my mission is to organize the art & photography section. that will be good.
so time to get busy. talk to you all later.
mayo, still waiting for a hair color suggestion. if i don't get one by tonight, i guess i'll just default to purple.
no pressure or anything.
it's only the fate of the universe that hangs in the balance.
*grin*
hello J, bye J have a nice day.
rw, ohhh you bit someone, kinky right there hehehe.
i am very sensible when i am drunk lol. i just go giggly but i dont really do silly thing. one time i fell over in the street, it wasnt my fault, there was a big hole and i just fell in it. luckily it was 3 int he morning and no one saw except my friend.
i was drunk once and cut half my hair off. i dont know why i just felt like cutting it, i have an obsession with cutting hair and also fire, so i am glad i only cut hair rather then setting soemhting alight heheheh :)
Hullo J & Anon 616! :D
J!!!!!!!!!!!! You snuck in on me while I was typing....
You sneaky thing you! ;)
Have a fun, big happy smilie day!
I'll talk to you later. :D
This was just a hit and run comment from me too. Work to do!
Have fun everyone!
Hi, TJ!! :D Please say hello to Elena for me :)
*runs back in to plant a big smooch on RW*
Talk soon to you soon, love! I hope!
:)
one time i fell over in the street, it wasnt my fault, there was a big hole and i just fell in it.
HAHAHAHAHA!!! That is very funny! I hope you weren't hurt!
i have an obsession with cutting hair and also fire
Me too! :D
*runs back in to plant a big smooch on RW*
Heeheehee! :)
Have a good day, 616!
i wasnt hurt rw, i think i was just a wee bit embarassed. my friend was on the phoen to my toher friend. they were int he club and we were going to meet them. as i fell, she was giving a running commentry oh my fall. she didnt help me, just stood there laughing and saying 'ohhhh she has fallen over, ohhh now she is rolling around, ohhhh now she is laughing and she cant get up'
that sort of thing hehehehe
I once fell while trying to jump over a cement divider in a parking lot. It wasn't tall, but I caught my toe on it & went down like a felled tree. I didn't even have enough time to put my hands out, I fell face-first onto the asphalt. I still have the scar on my chin. And all i could do when I hit was just lay there and laugh (!).
I wasn't drunk that time, though. Just clumsy.
I ended up with the scar & rubble burn for a while. I was working at a restaurant at the time, and between the white uniform, hair net & scar "goatie" I looked like a mad French chef!
what is asphalt?
oh that is funny rw, those are the best. and how did i knwo your toe would make it in the story hehehehe.
i have a lot of little scars from falling over when i was little. i have 2 brothers and i was there punch bag so to speak. they liked wrestling so i was the one they threw or the one they knocked out.
i have a scar on my knee from when i ran after the football and i slide across the concret and, ohhh it was painful. but saying that, i remember each little scar and its like, wow i can remember gaining them like they were yesterday
what is asphalt?
It's wot roads are paved with.
was working at a restaurant at the time, and between the white uniform, hair net & scar "goatie" I looked like a mad French chef!
great vision rw, to funny. can you do the mad french chef accent as well?
rw, i have to run. need to make a few things happen and sort a few things out :)
i will be back later ready to eat and drink ok. see you later rw.
I have a scar on my knee too, from when I fell as a child. I also have one at the base of my thumb on my left hand, from when I was chopping veggies at a restaurant & the knife slipped. Strangly enough, I also lopped off the very tips of two fingers on a tomato slicer while working at the same place, but there are absolutely no scars from that. By looking at them, you can't tell anything had happened. Weird!
Bye, Fimmy! Have fun :)
*peeks in*
*sits cross-legged on the floor*
*plays Thank You For The Venom on a harmonica that she found in Mayo's top drawer, not that she was snooping!*
*gets up, dusts herself off, closes the door on her way out*
wrong top drawer......
*smirk*
0_0
Are we talking about scars? YES! I love scars!
I have some on my left knee from surgery. I have tons of them from work.
I also have a scar on the back of my head under my hair, from where I had seven stitches. I fell and bashed my head into a steel re-enforced corner, it was cool.
My favorite scar is from my iguana, Pendragon. I had him for almost fifteen years. Well once he took a wild hair (or scale?) and went mad and bit my finger. He ripped my fignernail off and went right down to the bone. It's a really cool scar, I still have nerve damage there. ^____^
Well, gotta go play with cousin and doggies. later!
Hey again, RW, Fim, Jules, Elena, anyone else hanging about. :)
I fell and bashed my head into a steel re-enforced corner, it was cool.
Impressive!
He ripped my fignernail off and went right down to the bone. It's a really cool scar, I still have nerve damage there. ^____^
0_0
A friend of mine was bitten by her python a few months ago. She was feeding her, and Isis (the python) mistook her hand for the rat & tried to swallow her finger. It took both her parents to pry the snake off her. You can still see the fang marks.
Hi, Mustard! :D
I promise not to jump on you this time ;)
What's up?
Mayo,
What ya doing?
Hey!
I've been pretty lucky. No visible scars to speak of! :)
I have indured broken limbs though. Those weren't any fun.
Whoa, hey Sdock!
Have fun at the tractor place?
Hey RW, Hey Mustard!
More fun than I had at Wal Mart.
What you guys doing?
Hi, Solly! :D
I am tarting myself up for the day. Just finished my make-up, am now fighting with my hair.
Whatchoo doing?
I've never had a broken limb, Mustard. Just a sprained arm when I was about 6. I tried to do a somersault off a footstool, & failed.
Nuffin. I just got home from Wal Mart and ate some left over hot wings. Now, I am just hanging out.
Uh, endured(wrong middle finger, you know?), and right now I'm not doing anything.
Glad you had fun!
Well, Mayo,
Folks was sooo jeealloouuss of my S//C t-shirt in town.
Totally.
^_^
Hi everyone!
Mayo,
I have to mention this.
A long, long time ago, I can still remember...
I can remember that you said we'd find the key to "Life..." if we counted every fourth word.
Your system is faulty. Just thought I'd let you know.
Hi Smoke!
Hello Blogbelieve Lovelies!
So we are talking about scars, and stupidity while being drunk.
I am more clumsy sober than I am drunk. ^_^ I'm not sure if I could recall all the times I did something silly while tipping the happy juice.
So how is everyone today? I have a busy day ahead of me - well nothing planned, just a lot to get done around the house. I had a crazy dream about MCR (well more about Gee) last night (GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!) Haha!
RW?
Whatcha gettin' all gussied up for? You painting the town pitchfork red tonight? ;)
Hey, Smoke!
Hi Mayo! Just in case you were wondering, you are included in the 'Blogbelieve Lovelies'....
You too SS!
Hi, Anima! It's been forever it feels like!
Hey Anima!
Anima! I've missed you! ♥
I had a crazy dream about Frank last night. Dude needs to stop crashing my dreams. It's always funny though. This time, he had a radio show like Howard Stern and I walked into the radio station and he was talking into the microphone and I knew he had one of those booming radio voices but I couldn't hear him. Then I woke up.
What does that even mean? O_o
Scars?
One across my finger where I almost cut it off in a car door. One on my right knee. That's about it!
Princess is very proper and not clumsy at all. (yeah right)
Hi Smoke, RW, Mustard, Solly, Kapunua, Fimblelina!
Hi Amina and S&V!! :D
S&V, I haven't gotten you anything today 'cause I haven't left the house yet.
Whatcha gettin' all gussied up for? You painting the town pitchfork red tonight? ;)
Perhaps just a delicate shade of pink...
I'm not going anywhere in particular, Mustard. I just like to take the time to look nice on the weekends. I like to think that, even with my lack of practice lately, I can still do that!
Well, what you waitin' on, RW? Go shopping!! I'd like some fancy new high-heels. Some pretty strappy ones. ^_^
Princess, you and Mustard make me very jealous with your lack of scars. I have too many to count. I hate it.
Frank said hi to me in my dream last night, even used my real name. :) Weird stuff. They really need to get the 'eff out of my head! Nah, who am I kidding, I like a little appearance here and there!
I am so sleepy. I think I am going to take a nap.
Don't I deserve to be lazy? Fuck yes, I do.
Be back in a bit.
RW, that's as good a reason as any!
But wait, Anima, did he think he was talking to you or to me?
Cuz if you said your name, well, then he said my name, too!
Bwahahaha!
Well, what you waitin' on, RW? Go shopping!! I'd like some fancy new high-heels. Some pretty strappy ones. ^_^
So would I!
I'll have a look :)
Have a nice catnap, Sdock! :)
Have a pleasant snooze, Solly :)
Solly, you totally deserve to be lazy. Fuck yes you do!
I need to run out for a bit too. Mayo, could you wait to post until later - like let's say 6-7pm your time. I will be around then. You know I'm just playin'...you can do whatever the fuck you want, right! But a girl can ask. ^_^
Talk you guys later. Lots of ♥ to all of you.
Bye, Anima! Have fun! :)
Princess, you may be right! DAMN!
He totally thought he was talking to you. *shakes fist at Frank* I knew it was too good to be true. Haha!
See you around, Anima!
Crap, I missed Elena and TJ. *waves* I miss you two!
♥
Okay, I'm off for real. My hubby is all up in my business. :)
Byeeee, Anima!
What colour should I paint my toenails tonight? I hasn't painted me toenails in AGES!
RED!
I was just going to sat how about bright scarlet! :D
I've got lots of different shades of red.
Now, to pick the right one...
Yes, red is the best. I love red.
^_^
I like bright coral/reds.
Gonna go have a look in my medicine cabinet...
*returns with two bottles*
My faves at the moment are a M.A.C. colour called Rocker, and an Elizabeth Arden one called Greenwich Grapevine. The M.A.C. one is more of a burgundy, while the EA one has a violet tint. Both are sparkly, of course!
Sparkly is niiice. ^_^
It's the only way to go :)
Mayo,
Since you are still a hoover, will you come to my house and clean up?
I just don't want to.
Thank you very much. ^_^
Hoover.
Do you reckon Mayo was bowling with an 8 pound bowling ball?
Bwahahaha.
Sparkly toenail polish FTW!
Good evening Mayo.
Hello lovely blog peeps.
Scars - both knees, all over, from playing British Bulldog. And one on my right hand from picking up glass.
Pendragon - spooky seeing that in the blog, can't tell you why.
Hi to Fang Bang and a welcome return to Bikey.
Hey there, GS!
Hullo, GS! :D
How are you today?
Hey, GS!
Hi Mustard, RW and Smoke.
Sorry about the delay, I'm doing the washing up.
What have you all been up to today?
Helping RW decide what color to paint her toenails. ^_^
That's about it for me.
I've been making stuffed pasta shells for our staff potluck on Monday, GS.
Boo?
Damn! 100 comments too early.
I'm just meandering around the interwebz looking for everything and nothing all at once.
Taking advantage of the do-nothing day. :)
RW,
You got 98 more BOOS to make!
That's a lot of bOOS, S&V!
Kind of looks like I BOOBS, doesn't it?
O_O
Okay, not I BOOBS, just BOOBS.
Damn.
I BOOBS = Internet BOOBS
I-BOOBS
Yeah, I should probably stop. ;)
Meandering and nail polish deliberating are good, solid occupations.
The pasta shells sound delish, RW.
My day - fine until I went into town with my daughter, she was driving, and some ( excuse my language ) motherfucking, tossing wanker of a shit decided to jump out of his car when we were pulled up at the lights and call my daughter on her driving skills and proceeded to run his ring down the side of her car ( which we didn't know at the time ).
* deep breath *
* inhale, exhale *
My goodness, GS! These past two days have not been good for you at all.
Did you get his description and license plate number?
That's terrible, GS :( Road rage, I tell you. Some people think the priviledge to drive is theirs alone.
Oh, see, that calls for an ass-whoopin'. I'd have run his stupid ass down and beat the shit out of him.
>_<
*Princess needs anger management.
No, it all happened really quickly. We were really non-plussed about it all. I mean, even people on the pavement where we were waiting were kind of looking at him as if to say " WTF ". He just came out of nowhere. But the stupid thing was, he wasn't even driving, it was some woman!
I feel sorry for her, having to share a car ride with an ass like him.
RW - I hear ya. I think he thought he owned the road.
Smoke - you would have sorted him out Princess.
Mustard - I know, my live has taken a turn for the interesting!
How's your daughter coping with that happened, GS?
Things I've concluded:
1. Some people are way too fucking impatient.
2. Moreover, some people have no decency or common courtesy for their fellow man.
3. Some situations call for lots of finger flipping and eff bombs.
Was it really necessary to hold up traffic, endanger your life and the lives of others, and ruin someone's day and vehicle just because you're an asshole?
No, I think not.
I don't know what it is about getting behind the wheel of a car that turns some people into raging maniacs.
RW - I've talked to her and she says she's okay but I know I keep re-playing the situation in my head to see what could have started him off, so she must be as well. The thing is she's only been driving for 4 weeks, I hope it hasn't freaked her out too much.
Mustard - your conclusions are correct, number 2 more so than any other I think.
You just have to accept that some people in this world are utter shites.
And by "you" and "you're," I mean that dude.
Probably should have said that. :/
The thing is she's only been driving for 4 weeks, I hope it hasn't freaked her out too much.
Oh, she just really began driving then. I hope it didn't either. I know had that happened to me, it would take a lot of coaxing to get be back behind the wheel.
Sounds like someone with a chip on his shoulder. I wonder how many other people he's gone off at today.
Well, see, he didn't think it through really. I mean, do actually have the nerve to walk up to someone's car, act like a fool and then damage it? In this day and time?
He's lucky he didn't get beat down. You tap on the wrong window around here and you'll get pistol-whipped.
^_^
Mustard - s'okay, I got that you meant it that way :)
Anyway, let's change the subject. What shall we discuss?
Mayo's hoover.
We can discuss how I got up at 9:54am, got myself all baffed and tarted up, and haven't even left the house yet! 0_0
He's lucky he didn't get beat down. You tap on the wrong window around here and you'll get pistol-whipped.
Ah, but this is provincial England. You'll not get any of that going on around here. Maybe that's what frees him up to be the tosser that he is. Who knows.
He'd best be careful when traveling, then.
Let it be known that I have added the word "tosser" to my vocabulary.
It has the right amount of punch to make me feel better, but not so much that I'll provoke anyone. :)
We can discuss how I got up at 9:54am, got myself all baffed and tarted up, and haven't even left the house yet! 0_0
Well, obviously the order of the day was to simply get tarted up! Who needs a destination or audience.
Maybe he'll make his way to Georgia.
He'll change his tune.
I want my husband to clean up and he won't, Mayo. Make him. >_<
Mustard.
Tosser:
Slightly less offensive term than wanker. Still belongs to the ' wanking ' family though.
Orly?
Even better I do believe! ;)
Smoke - clean up himself or the house?
Do you think we should order a pair of these for GW?
Both!
Nah, the house. I want him to clean. I shouldn't have to, should I?
Noooo!!!!!!!
Mayo,
MAKE HIM! You're powerful like that, right? Put a spell on him or something.
Well, obviously the order of the day was to simply get tarted up! Who needs a destination or audience.
Too right! :)
Mustard - you can not possibly know how much my heart warms to the knowledge that English expletives are traversing the seas, only to welcomed into the homes and bosoms of our cousins, safe, cosseted and free to be unleashed upon an unknowing continent.
* bissful sigh *
RW!
Too bad the dude's b-day has come and gone!
That be the perfect gag gift.
Or not. >.<
Blissful sigh, BLISSFUL, goddam you!
RW - they are hot. Who could resist a man wearing those?
Smoke - you could try only doing your stuff, he might come around to your way of thinking when he has no clean underwear.
They're by a Toronto designer who also does women's undies, Mustard. Their motto is "They'll love your bum for years to come".
Mustard - you can not possibly know how much my heart warms to the knowledge that English expletives are traversing the seas, only to welcomed into the homes and bosoms of our cousins, safe, cosseted and free to be unleashed upon an unknowing continent.
* bissful sigh *
'Tis a shame your rule came to an untimely end. For had it not, your expletives would be our expletives and ours, yours.
May we bridge the the pond between our homelands with our multitudinous (totally made it up) four letter, perhaps six letter, vocabulary in hopes that one day, we will gather 'round the Mother Earth's table to share our vast knowledge.
*hasn't been drinking*
Their motto is "They'll love your bum for years to come".
* will resist the urge to make tasteless comment, will resist, will resist *
*snickers behind her hand*
*hasn't been drinking*
*is sceptical*
Mustard - ah, 'twould be a grand day, that it would.
And multitudinous is a real word :)
IT IS?!?!
Now I'm not sure if I feel smarter or dumber. Smarter for knowing such a word, or dumber for not knowing it was actually a word. >.<
The blogs are making me illiterate.
And I seem to have adopted a slight Irish accent.
*is sceptical*
You shouldn't be, RW! I just like to sound like I wrote a history book sometimes.
Look. I take pleasure out of the small things in life, mmmkay?
;)
Now I'm not sure if I feel smarter or dumber. Smarter for knowing such a word, or dumber for not knowing it was actually a word. >.<
It was neither. I see what you are up to, you were trying to see if I knew it was a real word. Ah ha, the jig is up, wise one.
He's going to cut the grass! ^_^
Mayo,
Thank you. Thank you so much!
I realize that later, Mayo is gonna read this and go wtf did I do? What does that even mean?
*is looking too pretty to stay indoors*
Time for me to take my tarted-up self for a walk. See you all later & have a grand weekend! :)
mustardisbetter said...
Things I've concluded:
1. Some people are way too fucking impatient.
2. Moreover, some people have no decency or common courtesy for their fellow man.
3. Some situations call for lots of finger flipping and eff bombs.
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Ain't that the TRUTH, Mustard!
Indeed it is! Well, what can you do (other than keep preaching COMMON COURTESY & hope they eventually get it)!
Just dropped in to see how everyone's Sat/Sun was going.
GS: I admire your self control. Some people might have gotten out of their car and whacked him over the head with their purse ;)
I hope the rest of you day goes MUCH better!!
Hi again RW!!!!
This one is for GS (throw all the F bombs you want) and let those metal (middle) fingers fly!
*still in a Wednesday mood*
I Love Say F**K LIVE Rock AM
T'is a great anger release song, LOL!
Off to plant some wildflowers...
It's so beautiful here today!
Leaves you all with Frank!
Take good care of him, he's one of a kind!
Hi & bye, Anon 616! :) I am just heading off!
RW - I'm always slightly sceptical of people who are cheerful when they wake up. I mean, I'm a happy little poppet most of the time, but I need 2 cups of tea and 30 minutes of alone time before I can crack a smile, yanno?
For no reason but to bring back the 90s. :)
Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer
Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.
Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me
Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map
Goodbye, RW! Have fun!
RW - bye, knock 'em out with your sparkley bits!
Six - aww, thanks sugar :) I've never heard that song before, it's one to remember in times of need! Have a joyful time in the fresh air.
Mustard - haven't heard that in a long while, thank you.
Smoke - Mayo is all seing, all knowing.
GS is NOT all spelling! Sheesh!!
Smoke,
I have a meffer of a headache and it's all your fault. You passed it to me when we were eating that pomegranate popsicle, right?
Grrr..........
Hey Everyone!
I'm in lurk mode. Just chillin in the corner.
*whispers*
Welcome back, Sdock. :)
GS:
No problem!
have a meffer of a headache and it's all your fault.
* strikes match *
* lights blog *
* passes to Sdock *
Best cure for a headache Socky old pal.
Hiya by the way.
SDOCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
^_^
GS,
Niiiiiiiiice, thank you!
What happens when this ends?
When what ends, Mustard?
What, this? Mayo's?
When Mayonaise ends.
Do you guys ever wonder what will happen?
I do.
I've gotten so attached to this place. It's a part of my everyday life now. You guys are a part of my everyday life.
But what defines the ending of Mayonaise? Because so many other new things have begun because of Mayonaise.
*listening to The Killers*
I never get tired of Tranquilize. Just sayin...
Yeah, I know.
I just sometimes think about what I would feel if I were to wake up and read "This blog no longer exists."
I know nothing could ever replace what we've created here, or what friendships we've made, but it would almost be the end of an era so to speak.
LHM is singing THANK YOU FOR THE VENOM.
Niiiice.
That's true, Mustard.
I just hope that it doesn't end like that, ya know? That would be so harsh. Not that I think Mayo owes us anything at all but still, I think he's attached to us, too. Maybe just a little bit. ^_^
And I mean, it's not like we'd die or anything, and we would take what we've learned about ourselves, about Mayo, about each other, things we've learned from SS, we'd take all of that and continue to apply it, but there won't ever be another Mayo's.
So, basically, we're one in a fucking million pretty much. :)
I dunno. It just kind of came into my thoughts.
Do you guys think that Mayo knows how much he as helped us? Do you guys think he ever feels bad for us? Do you think he ever ponders pulling the plug? Do you think he thinks the longer he keeps this going he helps us more or he holds us back? Do you guys think we help him?
I hope we help him. I at least hope he laughs his ass off at me.
Tell LHM that he has the best taste in music ever. :)
So, basically, we're one in a fucking million pretty much. :)
You got it! I don't think anybody could even make this shit up. What's taken place here. The things that have happened.
It's just so weird. (Frank voice)
^_^
Mustard,
There's no doubt in my mind that forces beyond our understanding brought us here. This place is completely magical. I know it's BlogBelieve and all but come on...is there a more amazing place in the whole world. Look at the transformations that have taken place here.
You're right...one in a million. When you sit there and think of how if one thing had been done differently we wouldn't be here at all. That makes me realize that I'm pretty lucky, blessed, destined...however you want to look at it. To think that I could have never known about this place makes me shake to the core. I have found myself and the best people here.
I can never repay Mayo for that. Never.
So do you think Mayo knows how much he means to BlogBelieve and the Lovelies?
Because Mayo, all we can give you are our words and I can only hope that somehow underneath it all, you just know, that you can feel it.
Do you guys think that Mayo knows how much he as helped us?
I really hope so. I'd like to think that he does, but it never hurts to say it one more time.
Do you guys think he ever feels bad for us?
Bad for us, like sorry for us? I don't know. I feel bad for Mayo a lot. Only because there are some things I wish we could do for him that I know we can't. He may feel that way about us, too. I don't really know.
Do you think he ever ponders pulling the plug?
Probably sometimes. I'd hate to think of feeling obligated to keep this going. That's the last thing I want. But, yeah. I feel that there were probably some times Mayo could have walked away from this. But, he didn't. :)
Do you think he thinks the longer he keeps this going he helps us more or he holds us back?
I think helps us more. I don't know why either.
Do you guys think we help him?
That's kind of what I wanted from the beginning for him. I just wanted him okay. I hope that somehow we've helped in getting him there. Kind of the same way he's helped us start to feel okay.
The biggest thing is I don't want him to feel obligated, ya know? I hope that he has kept this up this long because it has helped him as much as everyone else here.
My wish for you, Mayo:
That this place brings you as much joy, comfort, laughter and insight as it has to all of us. I hope it makes you think, makes you cry and makes you roll on the floor laughing. I hope it challenges you every single day to feel anything and everything and to never lose sight of what's important. ^_^
Do you think he ever ponders pulling the plug?
In a way I hope he does. No-one should feel obligated to do anything. I hope, though, that he will turn around and say " I'm closing the blog at such and such a time on the something of something, we'll all have a big party to see it off, yeah ? "
I can never repay Mayo for that. Never.
There's not one thing I can think of except for a "Thank you."
And that will never be good enough.
So do you think Mayo knows how much he means to BlogBelieve and the Lovelies?
Fingers crossed he does. Maybe we should ask the next time he pops in, huh?
Hiya guys! Mayo has to kno whow much he means to us. All the gifts, the words, the good nights and good mornings. And me, well apparently I jump on him everytime he's around like an eager puppy. ;)
So today after the vet's we went out shopping and got fake crappy brownies; I don't think they'll be any good though. So likely we'll go out later in pajamas and buy real brownies at the store. Then watch Sweeney Todd, because I want her to get as much of the blood and guts as violence as possible while she's still young, you know. :D
smoke&venom20 said...
My wish for you, Mayo:
That this place brings you as much joy, comfort, laughter and insight as it has to all of us. I hope it makes you think, makes you cry and makes you roll on the floor laughing. I hope it challenges you every single day to feel anything and everything and to never lose sight of what's important. ^_^
Yes, yes, yes, yes! And because you said it so well that it needs repeating over and over. That really is the whole point behind this.
I hope it makes you think, makes you cry and makes you roll on the floor laughing.
I sincerely hope so, especially the last part. I'd hate to think that Mayo had read us all these months and not gotten some laughs. ^_^
Smoke, you just said it all.
Jules,
I got more pomegranate ice cream today. I feel like a brand new woman!!! And pomegranate popsicles too!
sdock10 said...
Do you guys think that Mayo knows how much he as helped us? Do you guys think he ever feels bad for us? Do you think he ever ponders pulling the plug? Do you think he thinks the longer he keeps this going he helps us more or he holds us back? Do you guys think we help him?
I really can't believe at this point you still ask questions like this.....
Can't answer for each of you but as for us helping Mayo...How many times does the guy have to answer that question before it doesn't get asked again? We've helped him.
As for me...Yeah he's helped me and still does.
Well, jeez, we still worry about the guy though.
Okay.
Sorry for even bringing it up.
Umm, Okay, Elena.
We were just having a discussion.
Oh and hi there, K!
Elena,
It's not a bad thing to keep asking though. The way I see it, when you go to ASSuming you know how someone feels all the time and quit asking, that's when you fuck it up. And honestly, he's not the most open person I've ever talked to.
That's just me though.
On any given day.
You are all seen.
I am here. Not always present, but I am here. I feel each of you even as I move about my world. I presume we have this in common.
This space is mine in confidence, without interruption, without interception, and without edit.
I carry a bit of debt to you that I have not shared. You have reached me in ways you will never know.
You have helped.
p.s. thank you.
Posted by Mayonaise at Thursday, February 14, 2008
i think it's safe to say we don't have to assume anything about this particular topic. he's answered it -- gracefully, eloquently, and beautifully -- more than once.
every time he shows us how much this place has come to mean to him, it is a gift.
i haven't forgotten a single word.
i never will.
Well there all that shit is.
Hello Elena.
Belated hello and goodbye to Kapunua.
Hello?
Well that's good, TJ. I'm glad. Tell me what's wrong with discussing it though?
Seriously?
Was it hurting, bothering or upsetting anyone?
No.
So, what's the deal?
That post was made two months ago, by the way. Alot can change. It never hurts to worry about someone that you have come to care about. Am I right?
Look, here's the deal.
I'm speaking for no one but myself here. There's no one to tell me how much I mean to them if I mean anything at all.
So, in my mind, if I can let someone, any of you guys, Mayo, SS, it doesn't matter, know that they are appreciated, I will do it, and I will not feel bad about it.
No matter if Mayo knows, it never hurts to say it one more time.
Mayo,
Sorry, dude. We were just talking aobut how much this place means to us. I hope it doesn't offend you to know that we still worry about you. Even after 8 months of doing this, I will still ask you how you are. I will still wonder if you are getting as much out of this as we do. Only because I know how much I have received and I can only hope that continue to get that in return.
So thank you.
That's all we were trying to say.
...that you continue to get that in return.
I fucked up that last part!!!
Niiiiiiiice!
Mustard, I ♥ you!
there's nothing wrong with discussing it, but repeatedly questioning his actual statements, forgetting them -- doesn't that devalue them to some extent? when do you go forward from where we all are right now? why does the discussion have to start over from square one every time?
don't you trust mayo, at all? if he's your friend, then can't you accept what he has stated -- even if it was two months ago?
when do you start giving him the courtesy of being believed at face value?
i really shouldn't be on the blog right now. elena's been very good to me, and the least i can do is help her out in her shop, and this isn't getting the books back on the shelves.
it's just...
it's so utterly surprising to me that after almost seven months you can all still be questioning his motives like this.
he's told us so much about himself. he's shared so much of his heart.
haven't you been reading?
Oh my God, TJ. Please.
Nobody is questioning his motives.
Just neverfuckingmind...
Damn.
Mayo,
Sorry dude.
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