I will repeat it again and again.
For thirty-two, then thirty-three
time stopped. But, when does it end?
With empty rooms and unfilled beds,
and desperation; the last moments
and too many words left unsaid.
I am copying each name with bold black ink onto plain white card, filling the empty space with the only tangible evidence I have. One at a time I place a card face down before me while I consider each as if it were my own. Then, on the back of each card I write my name.
I can, but they cannot.
So, I will.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
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That's good J
And is it then
the child of Motosuke
who sits tonight choosing to hold herslef aloof
fromt he poetic gathering?
I...don't think I have, Anon. I know I've read the Jurassic Park novels, and Congo, and probably a few others. To be honest, I read so many books that I tend to blur the details later.
The trouble with this one is that there's about 18 billion subplots, and I'm only a little past page 200. I'm assuming he's gonna tie them all up together at some point...
J
Winter is best when it's fearfully cold, while summer is most summer-like when it's impossibly hot.
Things that give you pleasure:
You've read the first volume of a tale you hadn't come across before, and are longing to go on with it - then you find another volume. The rest of it can sometimes turn out to be disappointing, however.
Things that give you pleasure:
When a poem that you've composed for some event, or in an exchange of poems, is talked of by everyone and noted down when thy hear it. This hasn't yet happened to me personally, but I can imagine how it would feel.
Things that give you pleasure:
When someone you don't like meets with misfortune, you're pleased even though you know this is wicked of you.
Hi K, sticking with the Japanese poets tonight, hunh?
Wendy's been posting some by Charles Bukowski lately, and I'm developing a taste for his writing.
J
Kapunua, we know it's you
Damn, K, I actually do love you, which I know you are all rolling your eyes at now, but more poetry? I really wish we could meet in the real word so we could both put down our swords.
Infuriating things - Thinking of one or two changes in the wording after you've sent a message to someone, or written and sent off a reply to someone's message.
hey OP's !! It was an ok night I like dancing but the drunken whooping and general drunk sleaziness wasn't my thing!
I shall keep teh straw, never know when a small plastic purple penis straw my come in handy!
my friends blog of the MCR Chicago show
Things it's infuriating and embarrassing to witness - A guest has arrived and you're sitting talking when people inside begn a conversation of a confidential nature, and you have to sit there hearing it, powerless to stop them....
- A person of no learning, making ostentatious use of famous names in front of someone truly learned.
Also its painfully embarrassing to have to stand by and hear someone proudly reciting to others a poem of theirs that isn't really much good, or bragging about the praise they received for it.
oh anon I have read Prey! That was a great story, I love his books.
It's terribly depressing to discover some quite worthless person blithely reciting a poem that you yourself had particularly liked and carefully copied down in a notebook.
I particularly despise people who express themselves poorly in writing. How horrible it is to read language that rides roughshod over manners and social convention. It's also very poor to be over-polite with people who should rightly be treated less formally. It's bad enough to receive poorly written letters oneself, and just as disgraceful when they're sent to others.
sei, your point is?
No, seriously, could we talk? Like e-mail or something?
I particularly despise people who express themselves poorly in writing.
Excellent point. I wish more people would take it.
J
Ergo...eye sex???
J I didn't mind "next" but I didn't think it was as good as some of his others
Have you read State of Fear? he did so much research, I think that's why I admire him though, he tries to be very technically correct, though as you said for an uninformed reader some of his writing would be hard going
Well Mayo, today was half and half. The first part blew, I mean really, really hard. I don't mean in terms of overall life in general, like wailing and tearing of the hair kinds of events, but just real downers at work that are making me think, Jeez, how much longer can this go on?
The second half of the day was pretty meffing awesome.
Mayo, here's hoping that your entire day was like the second half of mine, and that you will dream of something cool, like Japanese court during the Heian period. ^_^
S(S)S, whatchyoo doon'? Laughing, I hope. Or maybe laughing in your sleep. Or making someone laugh?
Or maybe you're sick of that crap and you're in a rotten mood? Hey, you're entitled! :)
Night BlogBelieve, I will be lurking on and off tomorrow but probably not catching up, cousin is out for the weekend and we've got tons of stuff to catch up on. :)
As far as Monday goes, well I guess I have some phone calls to make about possible future events. Yanno?
So, Ergo, maybe you could make another picture book with your straw? That would be fun. Too bad it wasn't blue, that would be a story just waiting to be written! heeheehee
J
anon she has an interesting way of expressing herself
Oh, but look! Here's a cool looking piece of art on Sei Shonagon and the Pillow Book. It's beautiful!
goodnight kapunua sleep well
J there were blue ones but they were taken I honestly just didn't want a skin coloured one!
Night K. Anon, eye sex is basically just making constant eye contact with someone.
thanks, j.!
i'm currently steeping. lol
i was just looking over my schedule (such as it is, since so much of it is unknown) and was marvelling at how much of this trip has just fallen into place.
it just seems like i really am being lead on a path here -- and i was thinking that, depending on the outcome of it, depending on how much i feel transformed and how much this trip turns out to be a threshold event, i might get my first tattoo to commemorate it, and to seal the transformation.
we'll see.
Anonymous said...
Kapunua, we know it's you
No shit, I think she knows that anon, pay attention asshole.
Oh man, Ergo, I can't blame you there! Besides, skin comes in many different colors.
Tell me the "eye sex" story, I'm too sleepy to go read it.
J is whining due to lack of sleep
BC, i do know what it is :)
old green eyes and all these women chasing him. Hard life ^_^
Yes but a bunch of us told Kapu A THOUSAND TIMES to stop posting poetry on here and she CONTINUES TO DO IT. She is never going to learn!
Ha ha, it probably is anon ^_^
who is old green eyes?
what i want to know is why she insists on posting as the author?
cant she just do what normal people do and post their words signed in?
anon read Ergo friend's blog. The link is posted @ 12:46. Then you will know.
J
"Frank already told us that Gerard wasn't around and won't be coming out, which was fine. I've met the man, drunk, high, sober, "engaged", I forced him into eye sex, I conversed with him...it's all good. "
she's met him a fair few times before
Thanks, Ergo, you're a love. "Eye sex" is an...interesting term. Kinda cool, actually. Does it substitute for regular sex, I wonder?
Nope, nope, not gonna go down that road tonight.
J
Hey TJ you and elena obviously still having fun and it does seem you're being led by circumstance, it's gotta be good!
J
no .......no it wouldn't.
Somehow, Ergo, I knew that was the answer.
TJ, how goes the hair extravaganza?
BC, you still around? Did you fall asleep?
J
Hello Mayo, SS, Ergo, J, BC, various anons and lurkers!
How are you all on this beautiful night? Good? I hope so!
Ergo: What's this I read of a 'penis straw'? Does sucking on it give you naughty thought?
*wiggles eyebrows*
Or, is it just HILARIOUS??? LOL!
J: How are you tonight? Is L having a nice visit with her parents? Send her my LOVE, please!
BC: What's new with you, sweetcheeks? Are you all recovered from the concert?
*pounce tackle hugs and smooches for all*
Ohhh.....I do believe I read where someone was becoming an admirer of
Buckowski! YAH for J !!!!!!
This is another of my favorites J:
Let It Enfold You
by Charles Bukowski
either peace or happiness,
let it enfold you
when i was a young man
I felt these things were
dumb,unsophisticated.
I had bad blood,a twisted
mind, a pecarious
upbringing.
I was hard as granite,I
leered at the
sun.
I trusted no man and
especially no
woman.
I was living a hell in
small rooms, I broke
things, smashed things,
walked through glass,
cursed.
I challenged everything,
was continually being
evicted,jailed,in and
out of fights,in and aout
of my mind.
women were something
to screw and rail
at,i had no male
freinds,
I changed jobs and
cities,I hated holidays,
babies,history,
newspapers, museums,
grandmothers,
marriage, movies,
spiders, garbagemen,
english accents,spain,
france,italy,walnuts and
the color
orange.
algebra angred me,
opera sickened me,
charlie chaplin was a
fake
and flowers were for
pansies.
peace an happiness to me
were signs of
inferiority,
tenants of the weak
an
addled
mind.
but as I went on with
my alley fights,
my suicidal years,
my passage through
any number of
women-it gradually
began to occur to
me
that I wasn't diffrent
from the
others, I was the same,
they were all fulsome
with hatred,
glossed over with petty
greivances,
the men I fought in
alleys had hearts of stone.
everybody was nudging,
inching, cheating for
some insignificant
advantage,
the lie was the
weapon and the
plot was
emptey,
darkness was the
dictator.
cautiously, I allowed
myself to feel good
at times.
I found moments of
peace in cheap
rooms
just staring at the
knobs of some
dresser
or listening to the
rain in the
dark.
the less i needed
the better i
felt.
maybe the other life had worn me
down.
I no longer found
glamour
in topping somebody
in conversation.
or in mounting the
body of some poor
drunken female
whose life had
slipped away into
sorrow.
I could never accept
life as it was,
i could never gobble
down all its
poisons
but there were parts,
tenous magic parts
open for the
asking.
I re formulated
I don't know when,
date,time,all
that
but the change
occured.
something in me
relaxed, smoothed
out.
i no longer had to
prove that i was a
man,
I did'nt have to prove
anything.
I began to see things:
coffe cups lined up
behind a counter in a
cafe.
or a dog walking along
a sidewalk.
or the way the mouse
on my dresser top
stopped there
with its body,
its ears,
its nose,
it was fixed,
a bit of life
caught within itself
and its eyes looked
at me
and they were
beautiful.
then- it was
gone.
I began to feel good,
I began to feel good
in the worst situations
and there were plenty
of those.
like say, the boss
behind his desk,
he is going to have
to fire me.
I've missed too many
days.
he is dressed in a
suit, necktie, glasses,
he says, "i am going
to have to let you go"
"it's all right" i tell
him.
He must do what he
must do, he has a
wife, a house, children.
expenses, most probably
a girlfreind.
I am sorry for him
he is caught.
I walk onto the blazing
sunshine.
the whole day is
mine
temporailiy,
anyhow.
(the whole world is at the
throat of the world,
everybody feels angry,
short-changed, cheated,
everybody is despondent,
dissillusioned)
I welcomed shots of
peace, tattered shards of
happiness.
I embraced that stuff
like the hottest number,
like high heels,breasts,
singing,the
works.
(dont get me wrong,
there is such a thing as cockeyed optimism
that overlooks all
basic problems justr for
the sake of
itself-
this is a sheild and a
sickness.)
The knife got near my
throat again,
I almost turned on the
gas
again
but when the good
moments arrived
again
I did'nt fight them off
like an alley
adversary.
I let them take me,
i luxuriated in them,
I bade them welcome
home.
I even looked into
the mirror
once having thought
myself to be
ugly,
I now liked what
I saw,almost
handsome,yes,
a bit ripped and
ragged,
scares,lumps,
odd turns,
but all in all,
not too bad,
almost handsome,
better at least than
some of those movie
star faces
like the cheeks of
a babys
butt.
and finally I discovered
real feelings fo
others,
unhearleded,
like latley,
like this morning,
as I was leaving,
for the track,
i saw my wif in bed,
just the
shape of
her head there
(not forgetting
centuries of the living
and the dead and
the dying,
the pyarimids,
Mozart dead
but his music still
there in the
room, weeds growing,
the earth turning,
the toteboard waiting for
me)
I saw the shape of my
wife's head,
she so still,
i ached for her life,
just being there
under the
covers.
i kissed her in the,
forehead,
got down the stairway,
got outside,
got into my marvelous
car,
fixed the seatbelt,
backed out the
drive.
feeling warm to
the fingertips,
down to my
foot on the gas
pedal,
I entered the world
once
more,
drove down the
hill
past the houses
full and emptey
of
people,
i saw the mailman,
honked,
he waved
back
at me.
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
*blushes*
Sorry everyone! That IS a long one!
I'm off we are going to hubby's dad's to chaff some hay (chop it up small in a chaff cutter) and I will go now as he just got the snake -yes another one- out from under the tray of his ute, I refused to get in if it was still there!
I'll be back later
oh hey wendy!! *smooooooch* I will be back!
ergo, i'm really having so much fun. today we were talking about how amazingit is that we've only known each other about 5 days.
(i just told that to elena, showed her on the calendar and she was incredulous: "no, really? no way. holy crap. holy crap!" lol)
can't wait to get you over here and have the same conversation with you!
gotta rinse!
J, sorry about that. I was responding to a few messages and sending some comments.
Hi sugarplum, how are you? *smothers with super ultra sloppy kisses and hugs* I just responded to your message :)
How are you?
Take care Ergo
Ergo!!! *big smoooooooooch*
Hi Teeeeeeejaaaaaaaaaaay and
Elenaaaaaaaaaaaa!
I didn't see the two of you up there! How are the 'soul' sisters tonight? I hope ya'll weren't too shaken up by the earthquake!
Wendy, thanks, I liked that poem bunches.
TJ get her to send me a voice message to email! with both of you! I want to hear what you sound like :)
I'm a little tired tonight; but good, sweetcheeks!
*extra big hugs and extra sloppy kisses back*
J: Are we having 'eye sex' tonight? Well, that IS good; but NOT AS GOOD as the real thing ;)
Nah, eye sex is just foreplay :)
Carrie said...
Wendy, thanks, I liked that poem bunches.
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HI CARRIE!!!! (Sorry for shouting)
I missed you up there too. YIKES!
Sorry about that. I need to get my eyes checked --- SOON!
I'm glad you liked it!!! Thanks Carrie!
How are you tonight?
Is that who I think it is?
Anonymous said...
Nah, eye sex is just foreplay :)
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Ohhhh.......well, Eye sex AS foreplay IS very exciting. Let the anticipation build a little -- or a lot!
;)
I'm fine, just mega tired right now and oh so glad that tomorrow is Saturday so I can sleep in a bit!
*looks around for J*
Where did she go????
I think it's the Friday 'tireds', Carrie. I had a very busy day too!
Hopefully, I'll get to sleep before sunrise ;)
No shit, I think she knows that anon, pay attention asshole.
i have darling
I think she went "poof" sugarplum
Hey Wendy! *hugs and kisses* Sorry, I got lost in all the Bukowski-ness! He's a really great poet, I think you've got me hooked. ;)
And if you want to have eye sex, that's cool. But, it's only our first date...
Anon, foreplay is good. :)
NIGHT ERGO! Probably see you tomorrow. *hugs and kisses* Be careful near the hay chaffer machine-thingy!
Glad to see you're still around, BC.
Hey Carrie, back again!
J
I'm gonna take my tired ass to bed. Have fun, remaining blog denizens!
Hey all
Hey I've got the computer cause she's drying her hair!
Step one is completed.......
Yes the transformation has begun. Soon TJ will look like a true rock chick....
Wendy we didn't feel the earthquake. Might have been cause we were playing Rock Band at that time. Getting in touch with our Inner Bobs. Shit, just realized tomorrow is our last day together. Makes me sad. This is the most fun I've had in a long time. Hell, my vacation is almost over. But TJ will continue on livin' the dream.
Hi Elena. Goodnight and sweet dreams Carrie. If I'm not here to answer, know that I'll be looking at some pictures :)
Hey ELena! *hugs and kisses* How many more colors does TJ have to go?
J
J
She has two more colors to go.
Original Punks said...
Hey Wendy! *hugs and kisses* Sorry, I got lost in all the Bukowski-ness! He's a really great poet, I think you've got me hooked. ;)
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*does a happy dance for converting J*
He's great, isn't he J!!
Elena: In other words, ya'll were doing to much bangin' yourselves to feel the quake driven 'earth move', right? ;)
I'm glad everyone is okay!
OOH, cool! I feel so unadventurous; I only have one color in my hair. Well, it's all over (hides the gray!), but it's burgundy, kind of unconventional I guess.
J
She's alive!!!!!!!!!
:)
Hello everyone.
Goodnight Carrie and sweet dreams, love! Remember: Tomorrow is Saturday. DO NOT set the alarm!
:))
Elena: I can't wait to see TJ's rocker chick hair. She will post picture, right???
Oh, and that picture of Frank was adorable!! Thanks for posting that one!
*checks for pulse*
CUPCAKE??!!?
*grabs Cupcake and administers big ol' squeezy hugs and messy kisses*
Where have you been keeping yourself, young lady? Of course I haven't emailed you b/c I'm crap at corresponding, but HEY! Here you are! Are you ok?
J
CUPCAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Where have you been, sprinkles??
More importantly, HOW have you been?
*big hug and kiss*
J: My hair is 4 colors! Blond-ish, Red-ish, Brown-ish and more grey coming in by the day ;)
*runs to the mail room to answer BC's message*
Back in a bit!
Cupcake, is that you ol' delicious one? We missed you! *tackle hugs*
J!!!
Gosh I've missed you guys, you've all been in my thoughts! :)
I've just been away due to needing a time out, and having my Uncle down to stay for a week.
It's been good, I had some things that needed sorting out. I'm almost halfway there! lol
How has everyone been?
Wendy, BC!! *huggles*
I've missed you both very much.
I went through a very introspective phase as I do from time to time. Some days I just can't seem to communicate.
But I missed you too much!
*bear hugs for everyone!!!*
We missed you too cupcake *big squeezy hugs* :)
Been ok, Cupcake sweets, better than before but not as good as later, I hope! How's your Mum doing? Good to hear you had a nice visit with your uncle.
Wendy, yeah, you've converted me to the CB side! I really, really like his writing. It's what I always describe as "clean": not frilly, just straightforward and blunt--kind of like me! :D But, I like the imagery he creates, and his use of language. Where did you find him?
Also, U2 put a line from one of his poems in one of their songs, adapted a little. "The days run away like horses over the hill." I don't know if that's the original, but their version is "These days, days, days/Run away like horses over the hills." It's in a song called "Dirty Day" off of the CD "Zooropa", if you want to listen to it.
*pants for breath*
Or would that be...breathing...in my pants?
J
Hello everyone, sorry I didn't stop by like I promised last night, but like Wendy guessed I was way too tired. Bouncing Souls was the best show of the three I saw this week. They played at one of my favorite small venues here, the Gothic Theater. The one thing I did learn about myself though, is that I cannot do three pits in four days anymore :( It didn't stop me from trying though, lol.
My mums doing better thanks J, tests were inconclusive, but she feels better, so that's good.
And it was just great to see my uncle, though it's a shame his partner Roger couldn't make it, he is just the sweetest guy!
But I'm going on holiday for my 18th birthday and I'm being taken out to dinner! XD
*more hugs for Cupcake*
I missed you too, love!
I'm glad you're getting 'things' sorted out. You sound as though you're feeling better!
Concert anon, hi there!
I'm terribly jealous that you saw the Bouncing Souls!
I'm up and down Wendy, but I feel strong for taking control, it's wonderful.
Hi concert anon, glad you had a great time. Cupcake, you seem much better now :)
Hi cupcake!
Hi BC, I was glad to hear you enjoyed your concert as well.
Concert Anon!!! Welcome back and thank you for the review!
You're a better (rocker)woman than I. I can't 'do the pit' ONE day a week anymore, LOL!
It sounds as though you had yet another GREAT concert experience!
J: My brother introduced me to the works of CB. He first read Bukowski in college and knew I would like him. He waited a few years to introduce me to the works though. I don't think my brother thought Bukowski was appropriate for a 9 year old, LOL!
cupcake said...
I'm up and down Wendy, but I feel strong for taking control, it's wonderful.
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You ARE strong, Cupcake and I am very proud of you!
HI MARTHA!!!!! How are you? Headache free, I hope!
hello 6 I am now headache free because of the drugs. Lots of pain killers.
Hi MJ, how are you? Headaches getting any better? Thanks concert anon.
Wendy, well I have to say that I barely made it through Bret Michaels concert in the pit after seeing MCR the night before. In fact there was a few times I thought of moving out of there to find somewhere to lean, but then the crowd would shift and I'd wind up closer, so I would stay. I'm an idiot.
Martha: I'm glad you're headache free now; but, how's your stomach handling all the pain meds?
Sometimes, what 'cures' one thing ails another..... :/
Hi MJ!!!! :D
How are you?
Wendy, you are such a doll! *hugs* I'm glad your proud... makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. XD
For cupcake
Some Days Are Better Than Others
U2
Some days are dry - some days are leaky
Some days come clean - other days are sneaky
Some days take less, but most days take more
Some slip through your fingers and onto the floor
Some days you're quick, but most days you're speedy
Some days you use more force than is necessary
Some days just drop in on us
Some days are better than others
Some days - it all adds up
And what you got is enough
Some days are better than others
Some days are slippy - other days sloppy
Some days you can't stand the sight of a puppy
Your skin is white but you think you're a brother
Some days are better than others
Some days you wake up with her complaining
Some sunny days you wish it was raining
Some days are sulky - some days have a grin
Some days have bouncers and won't let you in
Some days you hear a voice
Taking you to another place
Some days are better than others
Some days are honest - some days are not
Some days you're thankful for what you've got
Some days you wake up in the army
And some days - it's the enemy
Some days you work, most days you're lazy
Some days you feel like a bit of a baby
Lookin' for Jesus and His mother
Some days are better than others
Some days - you feel ahead
You're making sense of what she said
Some days are better than others
Some days you hear a voice
Taking you to another place
Some days are better than others
Hey MJ, hey Concert Anon! So, Bouncing Souls were great, hunh? *oozing jealous goo* Did they do "I Like Your Mom"? That's one of my favorites.
Cupcake, I'm so glad to hear your life is finally moving along better. That's great, honey.
Kids, I'm falling asleep at the keyboard, which is a definite sign that it's time to GO TO BED. So, I'll say nighty-night and sweet dreams to you all. See you all tomorrow!
love and all the other stuff
J
Hello anon, J and CC.
6 my stomach takes the pain kills pretty well. It's the food that we had at work today that fucked up my stomach.
Goodnight and sweet dreams J
You're not an idiot, Concert Anon!
You were just enjoying yourself...
held up by other people ;)
Cupcake: Where are going on holiday?
J and Elena: I just read that anon's comment from this morning.
You two perverts!!! Ya'll just go sit in the corner RIGHT NOW! Scoot.....
LOL....where DO they come from and WHY do they seem to think that any SEX talk MUST be about the 5 members of MCR?
Hmmmm......I think that says something about their sexual thoughts more than ours!
;)
Mayo,
No big goodnight epistle from me tonight, just a simple Have a great day Saturday, and read a good book if you have one. :)
SS baby,
I don't normally combine y'all's goodnights, but I'm so tired I can barely see straight. Take care of yourself, and, uh, let's see...oh yeah! Watch the skies. :)
Goodnight, guys. I love you both.
love/hope/faith/peace/happiness/cake (because you can never have too much cake)
J
Goodnight J
Goodnight J! Sweetdreams and love to you (and L and Sparkle)!
Hmmmm......I think that says something about their sexual thoughts more than ours!
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Ha ha, probably ^_^
Holy crap, I'm an idiot!
I only just noticed the U2 song.
BIG CUDDLES for whoever did that.
Thank you.
Wendy, I'm heading to the lovely city of Melbourne. That's where it's at in Australia!
And goodnight J, It was lovely to talk to you again!
Sleep well hun.
hello bc. guys i will be lurking
Take care mj
cupcake said...
Wendy, you are such a doll! *hugs* I'm glad your proud... makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. XD
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I enjoy making you feel all 'warm and fuzzy', Cupcake!
*wiggles eyebrows*
;)
I was very worried about you a month or so ago. I really am proud of you for taking some time to get to know yourself a little better!
Anonymous: That was a very sweet thing to do for Cupcake!
*big hug for sweet anon*
BC: I really do think so!
Martha: Goodnight and happy dreams & lurkings!
Thanks Wendy! ;)
Of course, now with that sweet anon you have competition. haha
Just kidding!
I've probably scared them off now.
Enjoy your lurking MJ <3
Oh no! MORE competition for Cupcake? And, with MIRANTH without internet access to help me make you jealous again....
*pouts*
T'is just not fair!
*Hugs Wendy for comfort*
What can I say Wendy, apparently I have the attention span of a goldfish. XP
Just kidding, you know you're the only one for me!
Thank you, sweetcheeks!
*plants a big sloppy kiss right on your lips*
*looks to make sure Cupcake saw*
;)
cupcake said...
What can I say Wendy, apparently I have the attention span of a goldfish. XP
Just kidding, you know you're the only one for me!
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Umm hmmm
I've heard THAT line before...
and before that....
and one or two times before that....
:))
Thanks for the kiss sugarplum. You are an excellent kisser ^_^
As are you, sweetcheeks!
So, what do I do better? Dance or kiss?
;)
Wendy, trying to make me jealous with BC on my first day back? low blow!
Where's a handsome rock star with poor judgment when you need one?
*sighs*
Where's a handsome rock star with poor judgment when you need one?
-------------------------------------
Lol. Sugarplum, how about...both? :D
Sorry I disappeared for a bit there, I'm trying to get an account, I just can't think of a name, anybody have an idea? I suck at trying to think up screen names, I end up hypnotized by the blinking cursor, lol.
Sounds good BC!
Concert anon,
Why not go with the name The Concert Person? Lol
Wish I could help Concert Anon, but the best I could do was cupcake. lol
Kidding! I rather like being a cupcake :)
cupcake said...
Wendy, trying to make me jealous with BC on my first day back? low blow!
Where's a handsome rock star with poor judgment when you need one?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I'm sure one of those is NOT very difficult to find! LOL !!!!!
I was off on a youtube hunt.
Lookie what I found!
Wednesday 13 American Werewolves In London
I LOVE THAT SONG!!!
*sings*
"And now we're on the run
and you know we're having so much fun
Being American Werewolves in London"
here's a 'clean' audio ( by way of video) version
Wednesday 13 from Fang Bang
*feels like dancing again*
BC, that could work, maybe. Thanks.
Cupcake, I like cupcake, it's cute. :)
*thinks of good name for concert anon*
Hmmmm.......
Well dearies, I must go! :(
I hope I'll be back tomorrow, same time same place.... or something like that.
Love to each and every one of you. <3
xoxo cupcake
p.s, Mayo, still love ya!
and sheep's milk cheese is oddly pleasant. You should try it, goes well with wine. ;)
*psssst*
mayo.
you there? or are you snug back in your genie bottle?
the kansas contingent of your lovelies has become rather quiet. part of it is the waiting for the color to set, you know. but it's also the fact that tomorrow is my last day here.
we have fit together so neatly, without a seam almost. and this isn't the last we'll see of each other -- we're going to the st. louis show (hopefully elena won't have to be pulled by handsome and strong security men -- or rather, hopefully it will be my turn! *grin*), and if we're lucky, we'll be going to the nyc show too, if the fates smile on me and i win tickets in the drive by contest!
but...
mayo, it's been so much --- fun, yes, but more than that, too. i haven't connected with a girlfriend like this since high school.
seattle seems lonely now.
time to rinse.
laughter later.
(but i have to confess, another part of the quiet mood is the apprehension that the magic won't work once we're apart. it's been so delightful, conjuring you up.)
Where's a handsome rock star with poor judgment when you need one?
Aren't they pretty much everywhere, lol.
O_O
T'is so OBVIOUS concert anon!
How about FANG BANG? LOL!
Goodnight and sweet dreams Cupcake *hugs* Hiya TJ
Cupcake is a cute name, that's why we eat a lot of them ^_^
How about FANG BANG? LOL!
I LOVE it! Thanks, Wendy! LOL! BRB
Good night BC, and thank you.
<3
xoxo cupcake
Goodnight and sweet dreams to my Cupcake!!! Love and big hugs to you!
I hope we see you tomorrow night
:D
TJ: Tomorrow's your last day with Elena (for now, that is)
:(
I'm so going to miss the escapades of Laverne and Shirley - in the basement apartment - together.
Do you have to leave???? Can't you stay awhile longer? Did ya'll find Lenny and Squigy?
*hopes Elena is not shooting me the 'death glare'*
*big wink*
You're welcome FANG BANG (formerly concert anon)!!!
:D
For OP's J & L, who love The Cure
Pictures of you
I almost believe that the pictures are all I can
feel
remembering you standing quiet in the rain as
I ran to your heart to be near and we kissed as
the sky fell in holding you close how I always
held close in your fear remembering you
running soft through the night you were bigger
and brighter and wider than snow and
screamed at the make-believe screamed at the
sky and you finally found all your courage to
let it all go
remembering you fallen into my arms crying
for the death of your heart you were stone
white so delicate lost in the cold you were
always so lost in the dark remembering you
how you used to be slow drowned you were
angels so much more than everything oh hold
for the last time then slip away quietly open
my eyes but I never see anything
If only I had thought of the right words I could
have hold on to your heart if only I'd thought of
the right words I wouldn't be breaking apart all
my pictures of you
Looking So long at these pictures of you but I
never hold on to your heart looking so long for
the words to be true but always just breaking
apart my pictures of you
there was nothing in the world that I ever
wanted more than to feel you deep in my heart
there was nothing in the world that I ever
wanted more than to never feel the breaking
apart all my pictures of you
wendy...
i'm afraid i do have to leave if i'm going to get to the cleveland show. *sigh*
and we didn't find lenny or sguiggy (not that we were looking for them, mind.) but for sure we managed to scare up a carmine!
;D
time to dry my hair, prepatory to engaging in ROCKER CHICK HAIR: STAGE THREE.
(that should have been read with a mighty basso profundo vocal fx, btw)
hie me away to the hairdryer!!!!!!!!
Ta da! Now I have a blue name too! :)
Nice to meet you Fang Bang :D
I didn't know you were 1,932 years old lol
Anonymous! That was very sweet of you. We seem to be surrounded by nice/sweet anons tonight. I love it!
I'm sure OP J and L will love the gesture!
I must be off for awhile. Yes, there is some tumbling to do...
delicate tonight!
Goodnight (for now) Mayo, SS, BC, FangBang, TJ, Elena, anons, lurkers, werewolves and wererabbits of blogbelieve.
Sweet dreams to one and all!!!!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
PS: HAVE FUN!!!
Nice to meet you too, BC ;) I didn't know I was that old either, lol. I fixed that now, of course. So that's what happens when you put a two digit year instead a four digit year. :D
Goodnight and sweet dreams Sugarplum *hugs*
I'm off too. Unfortunate that the piece of shit movie of Jason X has not run in its entirety yet. Oh well.
goodnight everyone.
Goodnight, Wendy.
Lol. Goodnight and sweet dreams Fang Bang :)
Goodnight, BC. I have to go too. I have to get up early to watch my niece play a soccer game. Goodnight to anyone still around.
*runs back in to blow trumphets in honor of FANGBANG (formerly concert anon) becoming an OFFICIAL blogger*
WOOOO-HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
*throws confetti and does a happy dance*
See you tomorrow (I hope) FangBang!
TJ: Well, I would take Carmine over Squiggy anyday. I DID have a soft spot for that Lenny, though!
:D
Goodnight again all!
Confetti? For me? Thanks, Wendy. See you tomorrow. :)
*psssst*
Mayo I got the computer for a moment. She's drying her hair again. I was getting a bit jittery, missing my keyboard, you know.
Oh the stories I have to tell but not now. She'll be back soon. Let's just say it's never a dull moment with TJ around. ---- That's a very good thing.
Oh okay I will tell you one thing. All day we’ve been threatening each other with "I'm gonna tell Mayo."
Wow, think about that for a minute...
(Done thinking?)
Yeah, it's pretty fucking funny! We're gonna tattle on each other to you. Yep, it's official, we're crazy - and that's a very good thing too!
Time for the last color in her hair. Back later.
hey I'm back but about to have dinner so can't saty for now
FANG BANG!! lovely to see you in blue!
*pulls party poppers*
it's a shame though when your body refuses to keep up anymore! (though you were asking a fair bit)
goodnight wendy J (and L)
I have some alone time tonight, might make up a sheep tale (tail?)
Hubby has the buck's night, at least it's at their house just up the road!
TJ and Elena if you're going to be on for a while I'll be back in an hour or so
mayo, are you asleep?
i mean, i know i told you you need sleep last night, but duuuude, i'm not even done with my hair color. and we're awake.
come out and play?
*winsome grin*
don't you want to play?
we'll let you win...
Oh holy crap....
Please Mayo help me......
I think the hair dye is getting to her.....
She keeps refreshing the page thinking magically someone is gonna show up to talk to.....
i hate you elena.
Oh TJ you know you don't mean that...
I'm not mean to you.....
Didn't I buy you a candy bar today?
Didn't I dye your hair?
Didn't I call you a moron at the gas station? (I said it with love)
Didn't I laugh when you couldn't lock the door at the bookstore?
(with love again)
Didn't I feed you and clothe you and give you a place to live?
Mayo....
Bored Lovelies here!!!!!
W H A T?
*ignores crazy lady*
*sits cross-legged in middle of mayo's living room*
*puts on headphones*
*starts drawing a picture of a suspiciously familiar looking monster woman with flames shooting from her mouth*
*sighs*
*looks at genie bottle in the corner*
*turns page in sketchbook and begins a new drawing*
*still ignoring crazy lady*
*crazy lady looks at former sister*
It's the barn for you. Out, out of my house.
Oh hell she's looking sad now. She says she pouts really cute. Nope, she's wrong.
Mayo leaving bored lovelies alone in the castle is a mistake. You just don't know all the trouble we can get into. Remember that off limits drawer? Yeah, well so do I.
mayo, mayo, mayo, mayo, mayo, mayo...
i'm not going to stoop to her level. treasured friend though she may be, my ethics are always of a higher priority to me.
well...
i mean...
until she starts mixing my drinks.
mayo, you're not coming out to play, are you? shoot.
i had twister all set up,too.
if you're half as twisty as your brain...
'nuff said.
well, anyway, i guess you do need your sleep. i suppose i do too.
but mayo, before i do! we got distracted and didn't addthe third color, so, i ask you, o magic 8-ball blogmaster, what color should i use?
my options:
purple,
green,
red,
blue,
or leave it all streaky blocky blond.
i have to leave sunday, so don't take too long to consider the global implications of this matter!
btw, mr. mayo-man. do you get fed up with these long, drawly, run-on, never-ending pointless comments of mine?
i have a difficult time hanging up the phone, too.
fair warning.
cannot leave you 2 alone for a minute!
Mayo
My brain is tired. I could write you a goodnight but it would be more random than normal. How could I tell the difference, you ask. Trust me, you'd know. So I shall wave at you as I head towards the stairs and smile. Good friend that I am I'm gonna let TJ continue on. See you tomorrow Mayo.
*whispers* She's standing behind me so I can't talk right now. Finally she leaves the room.
Okay kidding aside, we're acting so silly to try to cover the sadness that is lurking. Knowing that tomorrow is our last day together is so bittersweet for me. I'll miss the fuck out of her but I do want her to contine on her journey. She's living my dream, you know. I can't break free but she can, she has. I hope with all my heart she makes it to MSG. I hope with all my heart she stays safe.
Night Mayo
Elena (the road calls but I can't answer)
oh elena you are so lucky to have connected with Tj I'm sure this will be something you'll treasure forever, even when you meet up again this first experience will still be the most special.
sweet dreams Elena
(the road will wait)
'Morning Mayo, SS and Family!
Thank God it’s Saturday,which means I’m going to spend a loooot of time here during the week-end!
Before I forgot, welcome back to Bikey, Myranth and Magic Pie! It’s good to see you, guys.
And welcome to Fang!
Right guys, I’ll see you all later.
Have a great day!
Love you!
*HUGS & KISSES*
PS:MIIIIIISSSSSSTTTTTT,I MISS YOUUUUUUU!
hi bella!
hope your weekend is great
mayo, my friend,
do you understand how generous a person elena is? for this entire week i have lived as one of her family -- and she has decked me out like a big sister getting her sibling ready for an adventure.
just today i asked to borrow a book from her store -- i came across my favorite book of poetry from high school, the lives & times of archy and mehitabel. reading it sitting there on the floor of the poetry section, i was astonished to realize i was in some respects playing the role of the bohemian mehitabel.
she told me to take it. she gave it to me without a thought.
i can never repay her, and not just for this book (though it is a treasure). we've been joking that when i get an apartment again, i'll bake her a bundt cake (even though she doesn't like them), but really, what else can i do?
so many people have come forward to help me on this trip, mayo. tangible help, as well as emotional support. it's a bit overwhelming, it's left me awestruck when i look at it directly.
i'm just a silly woman acting out a fangirl daydream, and inflating it to a mythological status. i'm a little fearful to go forward. going to cleveland instead of kentucky is taking the wilderness path.
and it's been so fun getting silly with elena at night and playing with you, hoping we're making you grin. when we go out during the day -- even though i am just accompanying her on her regular tasks -- it's filled with music and talk (serious and silly) and absolute acceptance.
i want to stay here forever, i want to become a regular employee at her shop and spend the days joking with her and her manager, going on bookhunts, and capering for you...
but i have to go on. this trip is about casting off everything that has stopped me from being my true self, and also about putting in place the beginnings of my new life. i am utterly re-writing myself on this trip. i can't stop.
i have to follow the fear, and trust that i've left an anchoring point behind here for my heart. i have to do what it takes to see this band as many times as i can before they go on their fearsomely long break, because somehow, that is how the magic of this transformation is going to work.
this is my path, i have to walk it with as much strength as i can muster, but suddenly i'm not walking it alone.
oh gosh. it's 5 am here. i need to sleep.
mayo, i've told you so much over these months, haven't i? more than is strictly advisable on a public blog, probably. but, you were the first, you see. i'm filling in the blanks in this jigsaw puzzle i'm building for myself, and you're the corner piece.
and now i have elena...and more.
always forward,mayo. i must keep going, no matter who understands or doesn't.
i'm seeing the band again this tuesday, and that will burn away a little more of the old,and awaken me to a little bit more of the new.
i won't be alone at that concert, even if i'ms tanding by myself at the barrier. my heart is filling up.
mayo-sama, perhaps you're just waking up,and checking the blog first thing (like i think we all do). maybe i've left this comment so long, so rambing) only a few minutes before you are reading it, and am crawling into my impromptu bed on the couch.
that's how close we all are.
i hope you slept well (and weren't psychically disturbed by our shenanigans!), mayo-sama. drink somegood coffee and think about all of us,yes?
you know i'll be thinking ofyou.
goodnight TJ have a great saturday!
goodnight Mayo hope your day was fine, wishing love hope delight and goodness to you and yours
much love EP xx
SS
hey hope you're well, feeling froody, laughing lots and smiling always
sending sweet thoughts and butterfly kisses to you and those you love
lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve
(oh hubby came home after an hour, apparently not really his idea of fun :/)
im a mess without you L
My love, my heart, my tomorrows, my always
Looks like everyone is sleeping in today O_O
*tiptoes quietly around Mayo's*
*leaves the morning paper and some fair trade dark chocolate on the benchtop*
*leans on the bench and doodles invisible circles on it*
*hunches over up and starts playing the bench like the phantom of the opera*
*bored*
*blows hair out of eyes*
*sets the volume control on the stereo to maximum while it is off*
*giggles quietly*
*tiptoes out again*
Mayo,
Morning! How are ya? I hope you wake up feeling well rested, recharged, refreshed, and ready to take on Saturday. Not that Saturdays are particulary intimidating or anything, but it's best to always be prepared.
Me? I'm the same. Same ol sdock10. But that's a good thing, right? Fuck yes, it is.
Well..I'm off to our new Tractor Supply store. Can you guess what it sells? If you guessed tractor supplies, you'd be partially right. They apparently sell all sorts of stuff that I must go check out. Seriously, I couldn't make this shit up if I tried.
Hope you have a SINsational Saturday!! Nothing wrong with being a little bad every now and then.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Just a little...you can make up for it tomorrow.
I really, really like oranges
I also enjoy clementines
^Why does this suddenly sound like a fruity booty call to me?
Hello Mayo.
Have a great Saturday, okay?
Hey there, SS!
If you stop by today, I hope you are having a great weekend. Hope you are well and taking care of yourself. You're gonna need all your energy for the big 'TT2008' coming up. I have a feeling that Mustard is a relentless tour manager. ^_^
Okay, BlogBelieve, see you guys later! Hope everyone is having a great day so far.
I'm off to town and I'm rockin' my new S//C shirt so people are gonna be soooooo jealous of me. ^_~
You know it!
XOXO,
S&V20
My love, my heart, my tomorrows, my always
I fall asleep tonight to our song, shared breath and shared heartbeat in this darkened room.
And in my dreams, we will dance tonight underneath the light of the full moon.
April 18, 2008 11:48 PM
i had only three simple words
for you this morning
I love you
but
things do change
some may interfere
some may try to confuse
how sad it must be
not to know love
i know your voice
i know your thoughts
i know your dreams
i know your heart
i hear you
i see you
i dream with you
i know you
always
for you my love
Starlight
by William Meredith
Going abruptly into a starry night
It is ignorance we blink from, dark, unhoused;
There is a gaze of animal delight
Before the human vision. Then, aroused
To nebulous danger, we may look for easy stars,
Orion and the Dipper; but they are not ours,
These learned fields. Dark and ignorant,
Unable to see here what our forebears saw,
We keep some fear of random firmament
Vestigial in us. And we think, Ah,
If I had lived then, when these stories were made up, I
Could have found more likely pictures in haphazard sky.
But this is not so. Indeed, we have proved fools
When it comes to myths and images. A few
Old bestiaries, pantheons and tools
Translated to the heavens years ago—
Scales and hunter, goat and horologe—are all
That save us when, time and again, our systems fall.
And what would we do, given a fresh sky
And our dearth of image? Our fears, our few beliefs
Do not have shapes. They are like that astral way
We have called milky, vague stars and star-reefs
That were shapeless even to the fecund eye of myth—
Surely these are no forms to start a zodiac with.
To keep the sky free of luxurious shapes
Is an occupation for most of us, the mind
Free of luxurious thoughts. If we choose to escape,
What venial constellations will unwind
Around a point of light, and then cannot be found
Another night or by another man or from other ground.
As for me, I would find faces there,
Or perhaps one face I have long taken for guide;
Far-fetched, maybe, like Cygnus, but as fair,
And a constellation anyone could read
Once it was pointed out; an enlightenment of night,
The way the pronoun you will turn dark verses bright.
what a beautiful morning so a big hello to everyone who wishes to have a hello.
i hope you are all well and rested, it is saturday so go and do something exciting.
i awoke with a hangover but heck, at least i had fun making my hangover :) all fun and games hehehehe.
my wire still hasnt arrived so i think i may have to frown again :(
but manchester united are playign so COME ON YOU REDS and
fasc, you best be cheering like a true red that you are. go paint your face missy.
mayo, have a lovely day.
SS - have a fimtastic day, you have to because it is sunny and warm down here. :) i hope you are well and happy.
Good morning and happy almost afternoon! O_O
Can't believe I slept in this late. That should be against the law or something.
Mayo,
It's Saturday, dude. A time to do jackshit, to think about jackshit, and go romp and play and skip rope, and to make water balloons, and to watch television, maybe catch a movie, grab a fast food hamburger knowing good and well that's the last thing you should be eating then drive around 20 miles under the speed limit while sightseeing.
The day is full of opportunities. Today is the day you can do anything you damn well please. So, you best make it a good one. :)
SS,
Don't listen to Smoke. She makes it sound like child labor or something. I think we can work in a few breaks, maybe one or two bathroom breaks, you'll have to eat on the go because there will be no time for fancy, shmancy sit-down diddlies, showers are probably out of the question.
So, I mean, I don't really know what she's getting at. You'll have SO MUCH FUN! ;)
Just pickin' at you, dude. I hope your Saturday is the most awesomest Saturday ever. Have fun, play safe, and let us know you're still alive and kicking when you can!
Smell ya later!
*launches herself at Fimmy*
*misses*
*also misses the duck*
*lands on Mustard*
Bugger :( Sorry, Mustard!
OW!
What do I do to deserve this treatment?!?!
;)
Hey RW! Hey Fim! Can't stay, but I just wanted to say hello.
Hiya, Mustard! :D
Have a great day!
*laughs out loud*
*[picks duck up*
*jumps on rw*
*blog pile on*
*looks around to see if anyone is around*
can a pile on work with 2 people and a duck?
AAARRRGGGHHHH!!!!
*flails at Fimmy & duck*
What are you up to today, missus?
nothing really. i am on S//C at the moment. i swear, i love that site now, i am addicted. i keep playing the games on there but i fail everytime.
i am playing frogger at the moment and i keep dying.
how about you apart from being squashed?
for real? they have a game called frogger on s//c?
when was that added? you couldn't make this stuff up. someone on there obviously has a sense of humor.
ROFL
*fimbles a bit slow today*
yeh they have a game called frogger. i gave up though and i am now playing the game 'wendy's cops and froggers'
lol
I'm still having trouble navigating that site, Fim. I can never seem to find my way to the forum :/
I am well. Not sure what I'm going to do with my day. It's sunny & warm, so I really should head out at some point. This evening I shall be cooking. We are having an end-of-season potluck at work on Monday, and I am making ricotta cheese & spinach stuffed pasta shells.
ohh that sounds nice rw, can you make us all some here at mayos? we can have a shin dig :)
i found it hard until i realised that i was quite thick at times lol. i sign in with my log on and then it takes me to the main forum page. i know the games is under the heading 'arcade games' so i go to it. seriously, it gets addicting.
but on some pages, it wont work. i get an error page up and i cant play them. boo hoo
ohh that sounds nice rw, can you make us all some here at mayos? we can have a shin dig :)
I will make a double batch :)
And some pina coladas!
ohhh are we gonna get tipsy. are yur kitties gonna join us after you have had your group shower?
i had wine last night, and i fell over a chair. seriously, it wasnt there one minute, i tunred around and BAM it was there. not best pleased seeing as it was infront of everyone.
blurb
i had wine last night, and i fell over a chair.
0_0
My kitties are happy with their toy mouse & bowl of milk.
Is your duck gonna show up??
me?
bugger you, i was trying too. shame on you.
Me, meffers!! ;P
Sorry, Fimmy. Couldn't let blurb anon get it ;)
Hi guys just popping in! Went out galavanting a bit this morning, took Boychild and family to whre I work (their new puppy needed a checkup) and we played with chickens and snakes and baby possums.
Even still, the atmosphere with all my co-workers was really thick--something happened that I missed. And everyone was whispering to me, "Call me later."
Whole place is going to hell.
Catch you guys later!
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