Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Conscience Convened Calamity.

Devour me.
Pass me through your lips,
divine.
Chew me up and spit me out,
or swallow me
in time.

Take me.
Pull me in or toss me
aside.
Rejoice in my undying faith
while insinuating
my rhyme.

Shame me.
Judge me with your kind eye,
wise.
Give reason to my rambling
while presuming
my crime.

Reach me
Touch me with your words,
sublime.
Teach me a lesson and rise
or bear witness
my unwind.







p.s. if you continue to hammer the nail the point may find its way clear through or the fucking pounding will cause its head to bury itself too far into the wood to ever be pulled out.

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ergoproxy said...

oh you know what's funny, if you don't listen closely to the WTTBP download from mexico when he yells "Mexico!" after "take a pistol by the hand" it sounds awfully like "Testicle!"

ergoproxy said...

oops did I kill the blog with a testicle?

ergoproxy said...

yes, it appears I did.


but honest that's what it sounded like......

elena said...

Hey everybody

Here I am at Anima's loving this so much. We are blogging together.

Hey Mayo, thanks once more for bring me together with wonderful people. You are a peach, Mayo my friend.

ergoproxy said...

hi elena!!!

I have had a cup of starbucks already, thank you *hug*

elena said...

Hey Ergo

So loving the Starbucks, are you?

How have you been?

I've missed you.

Anima is waving like crazy saying hello.

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ergoproxy said...

*waves crazily at anima!*

I missed you too, and TJ and OP's it's so quiet without you all!

when are you off back home?


hello elune how are you? I'm really good (apart from a sore throat)

elena said...

Hello Elune

How are you? Long time no talk.

elena said...

Ergo I'm heading back home in the morning. But I'm having a wonderful time getting to know Anima better. I love her dogs. They are so cute and have been giving me so many dog kisses.

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ergoproxy said...

I am thanks elune, I think it will end up the cold my daughter has.


haha elena I bet you get sniffed all over when you get back, nothing like new dog smell to drive your pets nuts!

anima said...

So many comments I want to respond to...I am behind.

Elena and I are having amazing conversation. She is typing on my desktop, me on my labtop. I think I may be talking her ear off...sharing stories is truly beautiful.

...

Mayo, all I have to say is thank you.

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anima said...

Sorry Elena, my dogs are all about the love.

Too much sometimes!

elena said...

Elune I have been to 3 concerts recently. The St Louis concert was by far the best. It was a "gift". Of course I've never been to a bad MCR concert.

Ergo - yeah my dogs will love the smell of Anima's dogs. Perhaps they should meet up too! LOL

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elena said...

Actually Elune of course it's the wonderful friends you share the music with but the fact remains...

The music of MCR brought so many of us together. And of course the love for this band.

ergoproxy said...

elune you are so right
I doubt Mayo ever imagined people would actually become friends through this!

Rasputins Revenge said...

Alright...wheres that wolf girl at?

6 Said:Ummmm....Triston: I think you wandered into the wrong castle (or maybe you just need your eyes checked). ;)
That WAS NOT me!!!! You know ONLY claws attached to PAWS are allowed to touch me (like that)! ;p

Uh....Uh...Ewwwwwwwwwwwwww!

I like to think I am as provocative and perverted as the next Vampire....but my poorly sighted Vampyre eyes could have went the rest of the year without reading that!! :D

No Mist for you!!.....One Year!! ;)

resurrected wreck said...

I made it to Saskatchewan.

My luggage did not.

ergoproxy said...

Oh no RW!!!

do they know where they are?


hello triston how are you today?

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resurrected wreck said...

Well, EP. I was told my luggage was "located", that it is "delayed" and that it "may arrive tomorrow".

I am NEVER flying Air Canada again.

resurrected wreck said...

Mayo's looks really weird on my dad's computer 0_0

Rasputins Revenge said...

I've been better Ergo!! ;P

resurrected wreck said...

How is everyone tonight?

ergoproxy said...

RW my brother was travelling across the country with his good trombone for a gig and it never arrived, they "located it" in Papua New Guinea!!

fortunately they got it on the next flight, he was rather pissed off

elena said...

Hey RW

Anima and I feel really bad about your luggage.

Rasputins Revenge said...

Unless your moving...only bring what you need as carry on...buy anything else you want to wear at your destination....cause thats what you are going to end up doing anyway!!

Rasputins Revenge said...

RW Your luggage is on world tour?...That does suck...pardon the pun!

resurrected wreck said...

they "located it" in Papua New Guinea!!

0_0

How did it end up there??

Hell, it got to see more of the world than he did!

Thing is, I should have known not to trust Air Canada, thjey're known for shit like that. But they offered a direct flight to Saskatoon while the other airlines did not, which cut my travel time in half.

However, if it means I actually get my luggage when I arrive I will go back to taking the scenic route.

resurrected wreck said...

Tristan, I just wish my luggage would have taken me along with it!

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resurrected wreck said...

Hi & thank you, Elena and Anima :)

Hi, Elune :)

Rasputins Revenge said...

RW It has never happened to me but I have heard so many horror stories...luckily most of my air travel has taken place in private planes...I don't trust the major airlines.

resurrected wreck said...

Indeed, Elune.

It should. *crosses fingers*

I need it to arrive before Wednesday morning though, as that's when I'm taking a 3 hour bus ride to visit my uncle. I have some things in my luggage for him.

Besides the fact that if it doesn't arrive soon I will be forced to borrow my mother's granny panties >.<

Rasputins Revenge said...

Nor would I ever bring any of my guitars on one...I love them too much.

resurrected wreck said...

I've never had a problem with any other airline, Tristan. Just Air Canada.

Rasputins Revenge said...

Ya see...reduced to granny panties....you should sue!

resurrected wreck said...

I used to have nightmares just before my Halloween trips to New Orleans that the airline would lose my luggage & my costume inside it.

Never happened though, thankfully.

ergoproxy said...

RW the airport in Perth does domestic nad internnational and as it was a special top loading piece it was seperated and it went into the wrong container, and they couldn't find it for hours though, until it had landed.

I had mine not leave the airport once and come a day later, fortunately it was on the home trip

Rasputins Revenge said...

I don't know about Air Canada...but I promise...they all do it...some more than others I would guess...but thanks for the warning.

resurrected wreck said...

Unless your moving...only bring what you need as carry on..

I thought about that, but I'm bringing stuff back with me so I needed the room of a bigger suitcase.

ergoproxy said...

OH my not the granny panties!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Rasputins Revenge said...

RW you have been here to NOLA...Thats Great!! So you know what it means to miss New Orleans ;)

resurrected wreck said...

Well, I hope my luggage arrives tomorrow, EP. All my comfort stuffs are in there :/

resurrected wreck said...

Indeed, Tristan :)

I've been there 5 times. I used to go to the Anne Rice Vampire Lestat fan club balls.

ergoproxy said...

Australia is pretty good, and they do work hard to get it back, we've travelled with fishing gear and rifles and my brother's trombone has only walked about once *touch wood*

resurrected wreck said...

What really annoyed me, EP, is that the woman at the baggage control office didn't seem to care, and didn't give me any real information.

Rasputins Revenge said...

Its Not the same since Anne moved...she had a great house!!! I hope she is enjoying the West Coast again...I do miss there also sometimes...The Beach...The bleached Blondes...The 7th Veil...The Whiskey A go go...Guizzarri's....ahhhhh memories.

ergoproxy said...

that's terrible RW, people who don't want to be helpful shouldn't be in those jobs!
I hope it gets there tomorrow, or get on the phone!

elena said...

Hey Ergo

I was telling Anima about the voice e-mail you sent me but it's gotten deleted. You need to send me another one cause she wants to hear you cute voice.

resurrected wreck said...

Will do, EP!

resurrected wreck said...

Well, I'm really tired so i should head to bed.

Cross your fingers for my luggage, pretty please!

Have a great night, all :)

Rasputins Revenge said...

Night RW...I guess I will be off to start trouble at a few more sights then back in the coffin!!

Everyone have a GREAT night!!

ergoproxy said...

Oh I can't send it until tomorrow morning my time, or get anima to email me and I can send it to her email

make sure you say it isn't spam if it goes in there again

ergoproxy said...

goodnight RW hope you enjoy your stay and that the luggage turns up without any hassles, sweet dreams

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Vivienne said...

Hello everyone. :)

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ergoproxy said...

hi cupcake! how are you?


I must go meet the bus then I have titoring so I'll be back a lot later

take care

Vivienne said...

Hello Elune, lovely to see you. :) How are you?

Hi Ergo hun, sorry I've missed you, hope you're well. XD

elena said...

We are still here Elune.

elena said...

Hey Cupcake

How are you?

Vivienne said...

Hello Elena, how are you doing hun?

sally said...

I'm very well cupcake. Thanks for asking.:)

Vivienne said...

I'm okay-ish Elena. I do hope you're better than me!

elena said...

MAYO


Hey, where are you? Got things to talk to you about.


Excuse me? Did you just roll you're eyes at me?

Watch it mister!!!!

Vivienne said...

Good to hear Elune :)

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Anonymous said...

WOW.

That's all I got right now. More tomorrow. ^_^

ergoproxy said...

elena you may need to climb up the tower again

I'm back for a little

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ergoproxy said...

hey K glad you had a good time!

Vivienne said...

Ya know what sucks? nausea.

Can I get an Amen?

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ergoproxy said...

amen!!

Vivienne said...

Just my anxiety I think Elune. I'm nauseous 70% of the time.

Thanks for the enthusiastic Amen, Ergo! *hugs*

elena said...

Just something on Elena's mind...

Cause well there is always weird shit on my mind.


Yeah after the Ohio concert I sorta met Frank....

Except not really. They had all of us fans line up behind a fence and Frank came out.

Okay I've got to say this..Why?

Yeah I understand that it is important to Frank to met the fans. He understands how important it is to the kids so he comes out and says hello to as many as he can. He did this in St Louis too and I missed him. Before he got to where I was standing they had to run him back to the bus to leave so I didn't get to say "Hey" then. But in Ohio there I stood waiting to say Hello and yeah I did but I felt terrible. I wondered once again why this always falls to Frank. Yeah I get that Gerard can't come out. Let's face it the little girl fans would tear him into little Gerard pieces. But what about the rest of the memebers of the band? Can't they come out? Why is it always Frank? The poor guy can only do so much. He looked so tired and okay I'm gonna totally admit this...I shook his hand, said hello and then walked away and cried. I felt so fucking bad about the whole thing. Shaking his hand in between the bars of a fence was just too reminicent of looking at an animal in a zoo. Frank is such a wonderful person I felt so wrong standing there being one more person that made him feel like he needed to be there. So I'm totally gonna say even thought I shook his hand, I haven't met Frank.

Vivienne said...

Oh wow Elena.... now YOU get an Amen.

A- freakin- men!

ergoproxy said...

that is a shame elena, and it is wonderful of him to take the time, but I have no idea why the others don't
It's a shame

ergoproxy said...

gotta go my student is here I'll catch up in an hour or so

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Vivienne said...

Bye bye Ergo. :)

Anonymous said...

FROM TBS:



MEET MATT FAZZI!

And a great big welcome goes to Matthew Fazzi, the newest member of the Taking Back Sunday family. Matt comes to us from beautiful Northern California and the band Facing New York who toured with us a bit in 2006. He is talented and versed in many musical instruments including guitar and has a pretty sweet voice to boot. He's going to bring his unique talent and style to the mix to compliment and continue to build what we've worked so hard on for the past few years. Thank you so much to our friends who showed up at the Crazy Donkey tonight to welcome him into the band. It was great to start this new chapter in Long Island and the show was a blast. We also got to raise money for the Sean McGrath Fund so thank you for that.



As much as we love the interweb and the videos we are sure are already out there with precise visual and sound quality, we sure hope you come out and see Matt for yourself and enjoy the live show and new tunes soon.

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elena said...

I also want to add that while I stood there Anima stood beside me. She too shook Frank's hand and she had the exact reaction that I did. She too cried because she felt the same way I did. We looked at each other and understood how we felt. Frank is a wonderful person and we just hated to feel that we added to his burden.

Vivienne said...

Goodnight Elune hun, sleep well and errr prosper! O_-

Vivienne said...

Frank is a wonderful person and we just hated to feel that we added to his burden.

I really know what you mean Elena. That's why I can't go to signings, or do anything like that.

elena said...

elune said...
Elena, despite the flaws that we all have, some people just come from a place that's more humble.


Sorry I don't understand your comment.

elena said...

Cupcake

Thanks for understanding what Anima and I felt. It was such a weird feeling and at first I didn't truly understand it.

Anonymous said...

Elena, before I really go, "burdens" is such a harsh word.

He could be constantly amazed at the level of appreciation and love, that people have towards their music.

Maybe it's his way of just showing gratitude.

Vivienne said...

No problem Elena.

You are a truly thoughtful, sweet soul, do you know that?
I mean it, you amaze me.

elena said...

elune nsi said...
Elena, before I really go, "burdens" is such a harsh word.

He could be constantly amazed at the level of appreciation and love, that people have towards their music.

Maybe it's his way of just showing gratitude.



Of course it's his way of showing gratitude, Elune. I never questioned that. My problem is that I truly worry about him. He takes on too much. He tries so hard to do everything he can for everyone. I worry about him, I can't help it.

elena said...

Mayo

Message from my sister on the road.....

She wants you to know she is adventuring for both of us. She is "flying" for me since I can't. She hopes you are sending out "good" thoughts for her and oh yeah, she's in PA but still doesn't have a place to stay tomorrow night.

Vivienne said...

Well I think it's time for me to go.

Again Elena, I must say what a thoughtful woman you are.
We need more people like you.

Mayo, SS, darlings I hope you're well.

xoxo cupcake

elena said...

Cupcake

I have truly missed talking to you. You, my friend, are a very special woman. Please keep in touch.

elena said...

Hey Amima

So yeah you're sitting right beside me but hey, I need someone to talk to...so how's it going?

anima said...

So much fun.

*Bullets* Fuck yes!

Again so many thoughts. I cannot express it all. I'm scared. Yes.

Thank you for listening. You have no idea... so grateful. Beyond anything I could explain.

elena said...

Why the fuck wouldn't I listen? You are one of the most interesting people I've ever met. Once more it's so fucking weird that I have met someone else who totally understands me.

Oh yeah, Mayo...thank you. If not for you I would never met Anima.

Dude, I totally wanna hug you right now. Promise not to squeeze too tight.

anima said...

I am so behind. I apologize.

Random thought for the day.

Call your mom.

I left a message for my mom today - love her; Elena talked to hers and well, just call your mom. Just sayin'.

♥ to all of you. I'm so tired.



Mayo? Any thoughts?





Goodnight.

elena said...

Mayo

So you didn’t get a goodnight from me last night. Did you notice? Did you care? That wasn’t a question for you to answer. I truly don’t care to hear the answer. I’m gonna go ahead and tell you why I didn’t write it anyway. Last night in Ohio was my last chance to see MCR in concert. Well that is unless my sista TJ wins tickets to MSG. (really Pollyanna thinks she’s gonna) but that’s beside the point. The show was okay. Let me say that I’m sure most people thought it was wonderful. My take on it was different. I was in the back of the pit and couldn’t see anything. So yeah, that happens and I understand that. However, it was more than just a lack of visual. It was the whole feel of the show. St Louis was magic for me and TJ and Anima. Honestly it would have been impossible to top that show. So I guess it really hit me hard that my last MCR show wasn’t all that memorable. I wanted to see, I wanted to dance and mostly I just wanted to fucking fly one more time before my adventure was over. It was not to be.

The road had called me, I answered. The St Louis concert was fucking magic and then it ended. Such is life, right? Yeah, it is.

So now after one more wonderful night spent with another woman I have found to be a kindred soul I return to my “normal” life. No, I’m not implying my life is terrible. It’s not. However, I just realize that for the fist time in my life I did what I truly wanted to do. I spent time with friends, saw the band I love and yeah, I closed my eyes, let the music wash over me and I flew. I fucking liked the feeling. Why did I wait so long to do this? Why didn’t I spread my wings before now? I have no answers. No fucking answers at all. Yeah, tell me to move on. Tell me not to cry over spilled milk. Yeah, well I just hope you never wake up one day, realize half you life is over and think “what the fuck?’ Let me just say this it’s not nearly as bad to say “what the fuck” as it is to realize that you have no fucking answer to the question.

I just wanted one more time to fly. I just wanted one more time to close my eyes, feel the music in my soul and I just wanted one more time to fly. Is that is fucking wrong?

Night Mayo

Elena (end of the road comes so fucking sudden)

Anonymous said...

Elena, please stop being so dramatic about him. He is fine. Its not a burden and he loves meeting fans.

elena said...

Anon maybe I am too dramatic about all of this.

Maybe I'm just too old for all this shit.

No worries. Sorry to have posted my feelings.

Anonymous said...

Anon,

Ouija Boards ^_~

ergoproxy said...

Elena your feelings are yours to have, I am sure, like the anon said , he doesn't see it as a burden but it is still lovely that you worry and feel for him, it is a big thing he does for fans when it would be very easy for him to take a night off, or not bother.
I'm sure there are a lot of fans who see it as their right and don't ever give a thought to how he may feel, so to acknowledge that you see it from a different perspective isn't something to apologise for, but that Frank could be thankful for, that there are fans, like yourselves, who understand just how much effort it would be for him,and really appreciate it and worry for his well being, though I'm sure he really loves doing it and probably doesn't see it as a burden.

Anonymous said...

Ergo, I understand if some of you wish to articulate concern for his wellbeing, but worrying for him defeats any purpose.

Kassiopeia said...

Morning Mayo!

Morning E!

Morning Anon!

Does that mean that the others really don't liking meeting their fans?! I haven't met them and I can live quite happily never doing so, but that still sucks for the younger fans when even a handshake would make their day.

I hope everyone had a great weekend - long or otherwise - and props to whoever decided all UK Bank Holidays would land on a Monday!

Kass xx

Kassiopeia said...

don't like

*£@#&%!!

Anon616 said...

*is late - or early*

Good morning/afternoon/night Mayo, SS, Ergo, Elena, Anima, Kass, FASC, Possum, the night shift and the morning crew, watchers, lurkers and anons!

How are you all? Well, happy and feeling the love, I hope!

Anon @ 4:06 - NOW you tell me! ;)

I must admit that I share many of Elena's feelings and concerns. I never want to bother anyone! Well, I'm CERTAIN I do BOTHER people; but, you all know what I mean. :P

I also agree with Ergo *big smooch*
I'm sure he wouldn't go out to chat with fans if he wasn't up to it/didn't want to do so.
A true testament to his (and all who do the same) character(s)!



*big hug for Elena*
Old? NOT even close, lady! ;)
Have a safe trip back to Kansas!!!

To ponder today (because the castle is looking a little lovelorn):
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Love Is
by Susan Polis Schutz

Love is
being happy for the other person
when they are happy
being sad for the other person when they are sad
being together in good times
and being together in bad times
Love is the source of strength

Love is
being honest with yourself at all times
being honest with the other person at all times
telling, listening, respecting the truth
and never pretending
Love is the source of reality

Love is
an understanding that is so complete that
you feel as if you are a part of the other person
accepting the other person just the way they are
and not trying to change them to be something else
Love is the source of unity

Love is
the freedom to pursue your own desires
while sharing your experiences with the other person
the growth of one individual alongside of
and together with the growth of another individual
Love is the source of success

Love is
the excitement of planning things together
the excitement of doing things together
Love is the source of the future

Love is
the fury of the storm
the calm of the rainbow
Love is the source of passion

Love is
giving and taking in a daily situation
being patient with each other's needs and desires
Love is the source of sharing

Love is
knowing that the other person
will always be with you regardless of what happens
missing the other person when they are away

but remaining near in heart at all times
Love is the source of security
Love is the
source of life

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I hope you all have a terrific Tuesday!

Sweet dreams to one and all!!!!

Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy


Before I go, I must share this with you all;
APOCALYPTICA's new video:

I DONt CARE featuring Adam Gontier

Isn't it wonderful?!!

4 days to go!!!!!!
*big smile*

Anon616 said...

Hi Kass! Have you started the new job yet? How was your weekend?

I shall look for your answers later.

Goodnight Kass!

farawaysoclose said...

morning mayo!!
oh well nothing new to read from you!! i was sure there would be?!! no worries!
have a lovely day!

morning SS! you OK? i hope so. take care and have a lovely day!

hey there family!!

hi kass, wendy and ergo if you are around.
hi to anyone arriving soon....PP, RW??

they "located it" in Papua New Guinea!!

hope your luggage arrives soon RW!! what a pain in the arse!

kass i watched the game yesterday!! well its going to be an exciting finish!!

right it is so summery today its lovely!! have great days everyone!!

love to you all!

PS
me on my labtop

labtop NEEDS to be added to the blogbelieve dictionary anima!!

Kassiopeia said...

Hi 616!

Kass' job fell through because of the new UK "credit crunch" - I was last in so I'm first out - so she will have to start looking again. It's very annoying & frustrating but the guys here will let me stay on for another month or so and I don't have to pay rent until I actually move to financially I'm OK.

Woah, it takes a while to speed read through 3 days worth of comments. All I will say is about last night's discussion is: Eliza looks bad, Mikey looks bad and Gerard looks worse - however justifiable his bad treatment of E-Cuts, his treatment of "practically a [wife]" makes me wanna take a 2x4 to his thick skull!!

Still, he's married to an intellectual vacuum so he's probably got his just desserts...

Kass xx

P.S. Oh, I already know I'm a bitch!!

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Kassiopeia said...

so

Hi FASC,

All we have to do now is win our last match by approx. 16 goals.

It'll happen!!

Kass xx

farawaysoclose said...

hi kass!

i've just done a mad rush catch up too!

P.S. Oh, I already know I'm a bitch!!

you make me smile!

sorry to hear about the job but i always think things happen for a reason!! well it makes me feel better anyway!

farawaysoclose said...

All we have to do now is win our last match by approx. 16 goals.

i am nervous! we could throw it away! i will be so damn angry if that happens!! but i do like an exciting end to the season!

ergoproxy said...

anon not quite sure what purpose it's defeating, but regardless I admire his desire to interact with the fans ,even though it would be easier not to, though worrying for people is just something some people do, so don't be too hard on Elena, being older (but not too much older ;])and having kids yourself you see things a bit differently, it's the mother hen effect. I'm sure Frank wouldn't mind, though he'd probably worry that he was worrying some one, he seems that type.

Kassiopeia said...

Me too. If only Abramovich had had Emile Heskey "dealt with" before the Wigan game we could have been 2 points ahead! And then there's the CL final in 15 days...

Still, at least we've got a more flattering kit.

*is clutching at straws to demonstrate Chelsea's superiority*

Kass xx

ergoproxy said...

hi fasc, wendy and kass.

Oh kass what a bugger about your job, here's wishing you all the good fortune in finding a new one! xxx

Kassiopeia said...

Hi Ergo,

I'm sure Frank would love some mothering - he's almost perfectly formed for resting his weary head on a bountiful bosum!

Kass xx

farawaysoclose said...

*is clutching at straws to demonstrate Chelsea's superiority*

haha kass!

hello ergo!!
i missed your wedding pics. do you remember when you posted them??

I'm sure Frank would love some mothering - he's almost perfectly formed for resting his weary head on a bountiful bosum!

i don't know if i am quite tall enough for him to do that!! maybe if he bent his knees a little!! aaah bless....his weary head!!

Anonymous said...

The Lost Thrill


James Whitcomb Riley


I grow so weary, someway, of all things
That love and loving have vouchsafed to me,
Since now all dreamed-of sweets of ecstasy
Am I possessed of: The caress that clings—
The lips that mix with mine with murmurings
No language may interpret, and the free,
Unfettered brood of kisses, hungrily
Feasting in swarms on honeyed blossomings
Of passion's fullest flower—For yet I miss
The essence that alone makes love divine—
The subtle flavoring no tang of this
Weak wine of melody may here define:—
A something found and lost in the first kiss
A lover ever poured through lips of mine.

Anonymous said...

Clenched Soul


Pablo Neruda

We have lost even this twilight.
No one saw us this evening hand in hand
while the blue night dropped on the world.

I have seen from my window
the fiesta of sunset in the distant mountain tops.

Sometimes a piece of sun
burned like a coin in my hand.

I remembered you with my soul clenched
in that sadness of mine that you know.

Where were you then?
Who else was there?
Saying what?
Why will the whole of love come on me suddenly
when I am sad and feel you are far away?

The book fell that always closed at twilight
and my blue sweater rolled like a hurt dog at my feet.

Always, always you recede through the evenings
toward the twilight erasing statues.

Anonymous said...

Emma straight out stalked and manipulated Paul for years. Don't give me that "He had a girlfriend, and he should have told her. He led her on!" bullshit. I have a boyfriend. He's not a facet of my personality, he does not make me who I am!

I hope Amyraths boyfriend doesnt read this because she just gave hin license to cheat on her because she doesnt think "Pauls" at fault. At all!!

ergoproxy said...

the pics are at 9:11pm may 3 the p with 2601-2800

farawaysoclose said...

found a brand new gerard and mikey interview. they talk about playing MSG and mikey actually speaks!!

Anonymous said...

Confession

Frantisek Halas


Touched by all that love is
I draw closer toward you
Saddened by all that love is
I run from you

Surprised by all that love is
I remain alert in stillness
Hurt by all that love is
I yearn for tenderness

Defeated by all that love is
at the truthful mouth of the night
Forsaken by all that love is
I will grow toward you.

farawaysoclose said...

thanks ergo!!
i love the colour of your dress! the bride looked lovely! the guys looked like something out of another era!!
thanks for sharing!!


right and now i have to go out!!

catch you later!

Kassiopeia said...

You lie FASC - Mikey isn't allowed to speak!

But I like it when he does.

Anon @ 6.50am,
I think she was referring to them both being equally guilty parties, maybe? I don't think you can "manipulate" a man to leave his girlfriend if he doesn't want to be manipulated!

Kass xx

Anonymous said...

anon, you lost your bet...Mariah is still married

ergoproxy said...

hey mayo blogger ate my comment!!
so I was saying that it's lucky I am typing not talking to you as I'm a little croaky, though I have been told I get a sexy huskiness for about a day between whisper and strangled duck.
Hoping you're well and had a good Cinco de Mayo, I had it yesterday and was blah so I'll wait for next year.
Wishing you cuddles, companionship, comfort and calm
much love EP xx

SS hope you're well and not all scratchy throated. I see you're still onion but it just reminds me of Shrek. Why is SS like an onion? When he gets old he sprouts little white hairs?
sending you laughter, love and leisure
lotsa love EP xx

goodnight blogbelieve see you tomorrow
and thanks fasc :)

farawaysoclose said...

oh an after thought!!

you know TBPID package with the coffin and the masks. well i was thinking which band member designed which mask?? i can't wait to find that out, cos it's silly things like that which interest me!!
i reckon frankie did bottom right?? can't suss out which one gerard did though?? i would say top left. i reckon ray did top middle?

ergo i am loving the free live tracks too!

right i am really gone!

farawaysoclose said...

But I like it when he does.

i do too kass! he is very sweet!

toodles!

sdock10 said...

Hey BlogBelieve,

Let's try our hardest to have an outstanding Tuesday!!

'mmmkay?


Poetry anon(s)!! What a pleasant surprise this morning. Thanks for sharing.

sdock10 said...

Mayo,

What's new? Anything? Nothing? Everything? Something? Well, even if nothing is new with you maybe you can look at it with fresh eyes this morning. That's what I am going to try my best and do. I'm fighting my way through the sleepiness, bitchiness, and grogginess and trying to find that motivation that I have misplaced. I know it's here somewhere. I just can't remember when or where I last saw it. Surely, it wasn't that long ago or far away.

Oh here it is...

NOPE, that's not it. Damnit.

Well, while I look for that fucker, I am leaving you with a song. I've posted this before, but for the past 2 days I have found myself singing it again. There must be a reason for it. Right? I mean there's a logical reason for everything in my twisted mind.

So, here it is. You don't have to pretend I am singing it to you. How about Bruce Springsteen or maybe Johnny Cash? Nice.

Futher on (up the Road)

Where the road is dark and the seed is sowed
Where the gun is cocked and the bullet's cold
Where the miles are marked in the blood and gold
I'll meet you further on up the road

Got on my dead man's suit and my smilin' skull ring
My lucky graveyard boots and song to sing
I got a song to sing, keep me out of the cold
And I'll meet you further on up the road.

Further on up the road
Further on up the road
Where the way dark and the night is cold
One sunny mornin' we'll rise I know
And I'll meet you further on up the road.

Now I been out in the desert, just doin' my time
Searchin' through the dust, lookin' for a sign
If there's a light up ahead well brother I don't know
But I got this fever burnin' in my soul
So let's take the good times as they go
And I'll meet you further on up the road

Further on up the road
Further on up the road
Further on up the road
Further on up the road

One sunny mornin' we'll rise I know
And I'll meet you further on up the road
One sunny mornin' we'll rise I know
And I'll meet you further on up the road.




It's good, right? Yeah, I know. If that song doesn't make you want to whip Tuesday's ass, then I don't know what will.

Remember, Mayo, it's all about feeling it.


Love to YOU Always,
S

p.s. Wonder where I can get a smilin' skull ring? Hmmm, I better just settle for trying to find that motivation I need.

Anonymous said...

What did Gerard do to his hair?

Anonymous said...

I don't know. Just as long as he stops doing it!

Anonymous said...

this "gem" was found on BN

I want to know if Emma thought that Paul ran into his current wife while he was in Europe last year playing at the same Festival, that might have spurred on the sudden breakup and having them play the same tour in the states last year..
The $10k he sent her home with to house hunt was actually hush money for her to keep after the split.
And, that's the reason she went into detail about the prerelationship and mulled over the actual relationship part to the aftermath.
Thankfully, Emma had alot of love and support around her. Volunteering like that to save her soul, just blew me away, that was so smart. She's going to do just fine in life. Especially realizing that there's a difference between obsession and love. Alot of times you have to live it to understand it. That relationship never should have happened, but that's what happens when you push. I'm sure Paul's future wife said, no way baby, you're freaking engaged. Call me when you're single and we'll talk. Commands respect.

Anonymous said...

BullShit.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...
"BullShit."


QFT!!

Anonymous said...

I'm sure Paul's future wife said, no way baby, you're freaking engaged. Call me when you're single and we'll talk. Commands respect.

major LOL's

Anonymous said...

Just because when interviewed on the BBC by Zane Lowe at T in the Park (the penultimate festival they did last Summer, just after the split with Elizuh) when he talked about PR he made it sound like it was going to be a frickin' chore, not like he was about to spend 7 weeks with the love of his life.

I could be, and often am, wrong though!

Pickled Possum said...

Goodmorning everybody!

I'm just in the door from the Foo Fighters concert!

They were so excellently loud I thought my internal organs were going to rupture!!!

Nice =)

It was the final show of their present tour. Two and a half hours playing; a six song encore; crowd surfers; a male stripper on stage (disguised as a stage crasher) for birthday boy Chris (who the whole arena then sing Happy Birthday for) and Corona for their onstage refreshments =)

NZ fell in love with the Foos when they first came here as an itty bitty new band.
Foos love us too ^_^

Enough jabbering from me =)

RW,
Glad you have arrived safely. Grrr at your luggage holidaying on it's own.

Ergo,
I must go meet the bus then I have titoring...
Does this involve the use of tassles ^_~

Cupcake,
Sorry to hear about the nausea, hun. Dry crackers may work. (Although admittedly they did stuff all for me after my head/minigolf club experiment >_<)

Kapunua,
Liking your WOW! Looking forward to reading more about the show later =)


Hi Mayo *waves*
Hi SS *waves*

Sorry all. I'm a bit too hyper and all abuzz to sit down for much longer.

Have a great day everyone!!

Smoke said...

Hi all! Morning Mayo! Morning SS!

Just a quickie! ^_~

Mayo,

Dude? WTF? Ummm, give me something to laugh at today. I dare you. I was reading back to some of your earlier stuff yesterday while I was *ahem* working and I laughed so hard. Not only were we funny back then but OMG you were freakin' funny as hell. In a smartass kind of way. Which is good cuz I totally get that. So.....make me laugh. Or at least give me something so I can make up some snappy comeback. Okie-dokie? ^_^

SS!!!!

WTF? Oh, I don't know. I just feel like saying that today. WTF? What the F? You are hi-lar-i-ous. Just so you know. Yes, I am still laughing at shit you said three months ago. Hope you have a good one! And I hope somebody or something makes you laugh your ass off today. ^_^

Okay, the Emma and Paul story....WTF? 'Nuff said there.

As far as worrying about Frank, well, all I can say is the dude is doing exactly what he wants to do for a living. Why would that burden him? I know he gets tired. I know that. He also knows how much people appreciate him and he remembers what it's like to be on the other side of that fence. Now, that's not to say that the rest couldn't do more. Bob did actually walk over to the fence at Sloss Furnace. For a second! He's so sweet. He looked at us like, "WTF are you crazy people doing? It's just me, BOB!" Hahaha. Anyhoo, I just think the guy is happy to do that for people whether he's tired or not. SO GO FRANK! You're like the Energizer Bunny! ^_^

Okay, I said a quickie and this is not a quickie is it? Oh well....

Elena, TJ, Anima, OP's,

I'm glad you all have had such a great time together! YAY!

Kapunua!

DETAILS GIRL! DETAILS? Did you get the Essence of Adam? I'm so glad you had an awesome time. ^_~

MUSTARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I yelled first at you today because I meffin' can. Now. Whatchoo gonna do 'bout it?

Love you all to pieces!

XOXO,
S&V20

P.S. - I just said too many WTF's didn't I? O_O

Anonymous said...

Just because when interviewed on the BBC by Zane Lowe at T in the Park (the penultimate festival they did last Summer, just after the split with Elizuh) when he talked about PR he made it sound like it was going to be a frickin' chore, not like he was about to spend 7 weeks with the love of his life.

I could be, and often am, wrong though!


i saw that interview kass! yes i thought the same actually!! sounded like he wanted more than the fourteen days off that they had. i remember the 14 days as he said it with such i strong accent i smiled and rewound it 10 times!!

hey PP glad the gig was fantastic!!

hi princess!

Anonymous said...

EDIT

i means a

obviously!

Anonymous said...

more BN brilliance

I love how he stayed faithful for as long as he could. And she really did kind of attack him. He wanted her though. But it just adds to the old, what goes around, comes around. When you take someone that doesn't belong to you, you're going to have it taken away from you. Laws of nature. They may have had a chance if she had just waited to see if he and Kat ever broke up on their own. Without her trying to change it by keeping him on an emotional leash for two years. She was cool, didn't talk about their sex life at all. I still think she can't, legally, or we'd be getting all the goodies. I liked reading it. The baby. I ate it up. I was never a big fan, but the way he dumped her was mean. Like hitting her with a left hook. But, I'm sure Kat was hurt also. I still think he ran into Lyn-Z in Europe and sparks flew and he wanted to be free again. Crazy stuff.

Kassiopeia said...

"I love how he stayed faithful for as long as he could."

Honestly I despair for the new generation of teenagers!! Yes, the man is a saint for slightly postponing the moment when he consumated his duplicity.

When will girls realise that just because a man is cute and/or famous doesn't mean they should sell their self-respect down the river?

*sighs*

Kass xx

Anonymous said...

Huge review is coming, guys! I have to write it up and put up my stupid retarded videos. ^_^

Anonymous said...

Oh, here's something hilarious, though. Mayo, you'll get a kick out of this. Last night Adam said "Everything is bigger in Texas," (he lives there from what I understand, and that is a well-known phrase so it wasn't totally out of the blue,) but Mummy K and I looked at each other with identical looks of, "OMGWTF" before breaking down laughing hysterically. Even in the middle of a concert something reminds us of you.

You once mentioned Adam in one of your posts so I assume you like the band, too. Well Mayo, I'm here to tell you that they are as nice as could be. Okay, I'm going to get moving and then I'll write up a huge review which I will probably paste here on your blog for the low-bandwidth people who won't be able to see it on my journal. I hope you don't mind!

Carrie said...

ENTROPY IS ALIVE

Carrie said...

Just had to say that, I was about to freak out. She was supposed to be home late last night, and I told her to email me so I would see it this morning and know she was okay. And there was no email, and no email, and no email. So I finally gave up and called her ass to see if she was lying in a ditch, and they had *just* gotten home a few minutes ago. There were shredded tires, and other fun things that I'm sure she can tell you about later! I think she's done touring for awhile!!

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